Where to begin?

It seems that I've got a lot to say - or so I think I do. I mulled over today what I should include in this post and concluded that I'll first mention my past life regression. As a Catholic, I was taught it was a sin to think about PLR - that once I die it's either heaven or hell. But staying true to form - I didn't listen and investigated anyway:)

An FYI - I know who my primary soul mate is - in fact I have two. Many PL practitioners may argue about this - but I know what I know. Names below of people in this life time have been changed to protect the innocent and the ignorant.

I had a past life regression last week in CA. It was fantastic! I have been on this past life therapy email list for 4 years now - never said a word. Well I finally decided to tell a bit about myself and my circumstances (without revealing any names or initials) and asked if anyone here was in the LA area as I'll be there and would like a regression. A woman, Rebecca, stumbles by the list and the 1st message she reads is mine. She emailed me and we set up a session:) She wanted a topic for us to concentrate on - so I picked what past life would help me in the present to get back with Bill physically.

She wanted me to go back to happy times when I was 15 (I picked when I met my 1st husband and his best friend at "The Barn" in Canton, Ohio) and then 4/5 (I choose the arrival of my sister and moving into our new home in Hartville) and then through a blue mist. Once through the mist I was to see a long tunnel. Along the tunnel I was supposed to see a variety of lights or doors - how many lights/doors I would see would depend on how many lives I've had. I saw a very very long tunnel of doors on both sides. Around one door on the right, was light. I grabbed the knob and entered.

I had bare feet, female, about 16/17. I stood in green grass in the middle of a forest with mighty oak and maple trees ( I think). Wore a tunic/dress made of silk and it was the color of lavender and white - nothing on underneath. It flowed very nice and reminds me of the dress of Jesus. Around my head was a crown made from twigs and purple (I think Lilac) flowers. They were weaved together - the crown did not hurt my head. I was very giddy and excited. Next to me stood my father - by looking into his eyes I knew it was someone I recognized from this lifetime, but was not in my immediate circle of friends or family. He told me to calm down and be patient. He knows I'm excited but being impatient will not hurry things along.

In front of me are two rows of trees - with a walkway of green grass between. On the trunks of the two rows of trees, purple (again I think Lilac) flowers spiraled up the trunks for decoration. On the grass lie red flower petals. It's my wedding day.

Next I am standing in a field/meadow across from my husband to be. He's 22, very handsome and in the same outfit I have on, but more tailored to a male. His color though is light blue and white. The color of our outfits are our family colors. His name is Phillip and when I look into his eyes, I melt and I know it's Bill (primary soul mate). We are both overly excited to be getting married to one another as we are both privy to our past lives and know that we have not had an opportunity to actually be husband and wife until now. His vows are long and very loving. I cry, he cries - everyone cries. There are 25 people in attendance. Presiding is a woman - all in white with a red sash, with a crown of white and red flowers. She is not a minister or priest, but we call her a Goddess and her name is Athena. Around the perimeter of the meadow, there are so many woodland animals - deer, squirrel, chipmunk, raccoon, etc...watching the ceremony. It is as if we have their blessing.

When she pronounces us eternal partners - we turn to face the guests. They are seated on stone benches. In between both sides of guests, there are three arches of white flowers that we must walk through. A man jumps up and hugs me very tight - kisses me on both checks and does the same to Bill/Phillip. He is about 22 and by looking at him I know that he is my brother and that it is Clive -- Bill's friend from this current life.

As we walk through the arches - birds and butterflies follow us - the sounds of the birds are beautiful and are our wedding music.

We get to the celebration and there are hundreds of people there - the whole town has come to celebrate.

Bill/Phillip would call me Sunshine. I couldn't remember what, if any, nickname I called him. Nor could I remember my own name.

I was asked by Rebecca, what from this life that I am supposed to learn. I said "patience". Anything else she asked? I said no. So I went to the ending of this life.

I was 62 and doing dishes inside. No indoor plumbing and we had servants - but I gave them the day off. I preferred to do hands on stuff at the house - I hated being looked after by servants. I experienced a pain in my chest. It hurt, but not enough to alarm anyone. I then had another pain that sent me to the floor - I knew I was having a heart attack and that this was it. I telepathically called out to Phillip. Before I knew it he was there. I was staring into his eyes and he is begging me not to go. He is crying - I'm trying not to. I tell him it's okay - that we will be together again - we both know that we will get another chance at this. I feel the tugging that it is time - and while staring into his eyes, I die.

I am now an observer watching him sob - it's so painful to watch him hug my lifeless body and his body heaves so with sobs. I see a light that I am supposed to travel to - but I know that I cannot go - not until someone else arrives to help him. Before I know it - Clive arrives - he had a feeling he was needed. Their cries calm down enough that I am able to send a beam of love into both of them. When I know that they both felt my presence - I go into the light.

It was such a surreal experience. I felt each emotion as I relived it in the past life.

I'm looking forward to having another PLR here in Ohio within the next several weeks. But this time I want to concentrate on Ted - my other primary soul mate. For some reason in this life he is not as advanced as Bill and I. What I want to know is what past life can show me how to help him in the current life.

Time to sign off and head to dream time. I'm sure I'll have an interesting post about a dream tonight - I usually do since I visit other people in their dreams - with their permission and I'm very respectful of their space.

Take care and have a great night!

Allie;)