Big Disappointment :(
My sister never found the venue for the event. She went to the place listed in the announcement - wasn't there. She drove to the place the benefit as for (took an hour) - it was closed. So I don't know what happened. Something changed later in the day yesterday - had to of. That's the thing about readings and life - the reading pans out as long as everything is going as it should. But being life what it is - all it takes is one item to make things shift course. Think of the "Butterfly Effect".
Am I disappointed? Sure I am. At the same level that one would be craving for a particular ice cream that only 1 shop sells - arriving and finding that they are out of it. I'll get over it - I know there is a reason. Now I just need to figure out what.
Besides - this is much better than him getting the letter and thinking "What the hell?". Now THAT would be very upsetting.
There has to be a really good reason as my son came down with a nasty fever last night. Today was to be his birthday party - I'm going to have to cancel and reschedule later in the summer. After my son's party - my husband and I were to take him to my mom's for the night - then head to two parties (one at his brothers house as a reception for his current Las Vegas marriage - I had a feeling that my step kids would be there - so I made arrangements with mom) and then off to my friends for a party. Well - my husband can still go to his brother's - but otherwise I am home all day in 90 + heat, no air, with a sick and very upset boy :(
I'm thinking that for some reason my son and I were not to be on the road today. Because had I gotten a call - I can bet I'd be on my way to the airport today.
My sister still has the note and I'll have to keep my eyes alert for when I know he'll be somewhere....
Off to try to be cool...
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)
Am I disappointed? Sure I am. At the same level that one would be craving for a particular ice cream that only 1 shop sells - arriving and finding that they are out of it. I'll get over it - I know there is a reason. Now I just need to figure out what.
Besides - this is much better than him getting the letter and thinking "What the hell?". Now THAT would be very upsetting.
There has to be a really good reason as my son came down with a nasty fever last night. Today was to be his birthday party - I'm going to have to cancel and reschedule later in the summer. After my son's party - my husband and I were to take him to my mom's for the night - then head to two parties (one at his brothers house as a reception for his current Las Vegas marriage - I had a feeling that my step kids would be there - so I made arrangements with mom) and then off to my friends for a party. Well - my husband can still go to his brother's - but otherwise I am home all day in 90 + heat, no air, with a sick and very upset boy :(
I'm thinking that for some reason my son and I were not to be on the road today. Because had I gotten a call - I can bet I'd be on my way to the airport today.
My sister still has the note and I'll have to keep my eyes alert for when I know he'll be somewhere....
Off to try to be cool...
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)
Labels: Bill
posted by Allie @ 7:57 AM
7 Comments:
At 1:13 PM,
connie said…
Allie,
Awww...so sorry it didn't work out yesterday. Maybe last minute it wasn't meant to work out yet? No worries though because you have such a strong connection with him you will have further opportunities. But I know you are disappointed, I would be as well.
I am sending positive energy so that your son will recover quickly.
All the best!
At 6:39 PM,
Leann said…
How disappointing Allie. I know you must be crushed. As you said, for some reason it just was not time. Something changed.
My prayers will be with you and your son as you both get through his sickness
Always
Leann
At 8:18 PM,
Allie said…
Hi Guys,
Disappointed - yep. But I'll get over it:) After a day of working through my emotions to figure out what went screwy - I finally figured it out. Our sons needed us - simple as that. However, that need also led to the doubt, despair and seclusion of Bill as one of the arguments he had with his teenage son was his son yelling at bill about his obsession over some woman who only exists in his mind - AKA me. This placed a wall up around him as he gave what his son said considerable thought - what if "I" was only in his mind? Since I know what this is like - I've had considerable people - some who I thought were my friends - tell me I was @ucked in the head. So having his son call him a loon was a blow - especially since he has always considered his son his best friend.
Later on today I "heard" Bill say that he was sorry for his doubt and fear. I reassured him that I understood and that there will be another time when hopefully both of our sons will not need us at the same time.
Boy - am I glad I figured this out:) Now I have to somehow find the patience to keep waiting....
CS,
Allie:)
PS: My son feels much better - thank you!
At 9:16 PM,
Connie said…
Allie,
Thanks for updating us on the situation. So that's what happened! Boy, must've been tough for Bill to have his son say something like that to him, but not everyone is going to understand. I hope Bill is able to get over this blow and not allow it to affect his relationship with his son.
Patience is not one of my strong characteristics so I can understand how frustrating it is, but in due time, Allie. You've waited a long time already, I'm sure a bit more time won't hurt. ;) Plus when the time is right, it'll happen.
Glad you're son is feeling better!
At 11:35 AM,
Leann said…
Allie,
Thanks for the update on what happened. It just wasn't time yet.
When I first started reading your blog the thought did cross my mind of "what if it's all in her head and she's looney toons?" But then after reading more and more I realize you're the real deal. I'm sure it can make you feel looney at times!
I'm glad to hear your son is feeling better :-)
Two more days and I'm off to Alaska for a vist....I'm SO excited!
At 12:27 PM,
Allie said…
I'm so used to people thinking "I'm nuts" that it really doesn't bother me any more. I'm not responsible for what other people think of me - just how I react to it. I developed my thick skin from getting into screenwriting. Agents and producers are usually not kind souls when they reject your script. So you have to learn not to take comments to heart.
Bill and his son have a strong relationship - in time they will get through the son being a teenager/young adult. I hope they can both give me some good tips when my son is a teen in another 10 years!
Leann - have a blast in Alaska!
CS,
Allie;)
At 4:35 PM,
Leann said…
Thanks Allie, I intend to..LOL
The teen years are tough ones. The biggest challenge for both my kids was the 15 to 16 year. Something just goes haywire in their brains during that time..LOL
I think it was the longest year I've ever spent! Well two technically since I have two children..LOL, but at least I had a years break.
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