I'm Emotional Today and it's not PMS!
I entered into a real-time astral plane - meaning I'm one step removed from the real world, but I can see reality and if the people I'm around is in tune just right - they can see me. This is how I think I can see Bill and sometimes Ted visit me :)
Anyway - I walk into an office and see Bill. He is staring at the computer and reading a bunch of papers in his hands. I move towards him - he cocks his head to the side as if he feels I'm there. I can see that he is looking at my web site - the blog has been printed off and is in his hands. His ex enters. He asks her how long has she known? She answers not long.
He sighs. She asks what is he going to do. He shrugs. He wants to pick up the phone and call. But he's worried about interrupting my life. She comments that she feels I want him to interrupt my life or I wouldn't have printed the blog. He smiles and says that she's probably right. She tells him not to be a chicken shit.
While this is going on I'm yelling at him to call me. He keeps rubbing his ear lobe. The louder I shout the more he rubs his ear. I see some movement off to my left. It's the angel Brigit. She wants me to come with her. I don't want to leave - I want Bill to call me. She smiles and says it will all work. The Divine is in motion. I'm trying to talk her out of it - but then she says that Ted needs me.
I walk through the light and there is Ted. He's in a hotel room - looking like hell. He is on the edge of his bed, fiddling with his fingernails. His eyes are withdrawn and haggard looking. He wants to smoke - but it is in a non smoking room. I can see drawings of me on his bed. I look at them and say to Brigit "Oh God, he's at that stage." She nods yes. She goes on to say that he needs reassurance that he is not crazy. I laugh and say I'm the last person who can give reassurance. She hugs me and says for me not to sell myself short. I'm the glue keeping these two together. If I leave - they will exist only as a shell. I take a deep breath and move beside Ted. He glances around like he can feel I'm there. I tell him that what he sees is truth - that I exist and that we will meet soon. That once I meet Bill - I will meet him. He gets tears in his eyes. I hear him sigh and say that he is tired of waiting. Tired of suffering. I reach out my hand and touch the top of his - he looks down as if he really felt my touch. He smiles. There is a knock on his door - a voice calls that it is time to go.
Brigit says we have to go too. I start to move towards the light we just left - back to Bill. She grasps my arm and says no. Another light opens up and we enter.
I'm now in Atlantis in front of a bathing pool - outdoors. Brigit smiles and me and disappears. Two young women remove my gown. Naked - I step into a wonderful warm pool of greenish/blue water. Same water that is in my cave. I look up and the sky is full of beautiful stars - the night is so clear I can see it all. The two women start to bathe me. It feels really relaxing. But I then think to myself - why can't I have two young men bathing me? Next thing I know - Bill and Ted are there and say they heard my call.
Next thing I know I'm dressed and sitting in the center of 9 crystals - their points are all turned into me. I close my eyes for meditation and the crystals "activate" and I can feel intense beams of light from all 9 crystals streaming into me. I can sense that the stones/crystals that I am looking for in today's world, materialize around me. So I open my eyes and everything disappears and the crystal deactivate. Clive walks up to me and says that Athena wishes to see me:) He kisses me on the forehead and says that I will get the hang of things:) I start to get up and I can hear a deep voice say "Not now". A strong force pulls me backwards and I wake up.
Every time I discover a new fragment - get a new memory and see Bill and Ted - life gets just a bit harder. How many days do we all have to suffer being apart? Our souls may be eternal - but our bodies, our hearts and our minds are not. I'm tired of hurting - they're tired of hurting. When will that break happen? When will that next step finally be set into motion? None of us know - we can only hope and pray that today is the day. What I wouldn't give to receive that call.
Before you ask - yes - I did sense that he saw my blog. I had the same over emotional, knee buckling reaction as I did when I first discovered who he is to me. Thank God this time I was sitting down:)
Until tomorrow...
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)
Anyway - I walk into an office and see Bill. He is staring at the computer and reading a bunch of papers in his hands. I move towards him - he cocks his head to the side as if he feels I'm there. I can see that he is looking at my web site - the blog has been printed off and is in his hands. His ex enters. He asks her how long has she known? She answers not long.
He sighs. She asks what is he going to do. He shrugs. He wants to pick up the phone and call. But he's worried about interrupting my life. She comments that she feels I want him to interrupt my life or I wouldn't have printed the blog. He smiles and says that she's probably right. She tells him not to be a chicken shit.
While this is going on I'm yelling at him to call me. He keeps rubbing his ear lobe. The louder I shout the more he rubs his ear. I see some movement off to my left. It's the angel Brigit. She wants me to come with her. I don't want to leave - I want Bill to call me. She smiles and says it will all work. The Divine is in motion. I'm trying to talk her out of it - but then she says that Ted needs me.
I walk through the light and there is Ted. He's in a hotel room - looking like hell. He is on the edge of his bed, fiddling with his fingernails. His eyes are withdrawn and haggard looking. He wants to smoke - but it is in a non smoking room. I can see drawings of me on his bed. I look at them and say to Brigit "Oh God, he's at that stage." She nods yes. She goes on to say that he needs reassurance that he is not crazy. I laugh and say I'm the last person who can give reassurance. She hugs me and says for me not to sell myself short. I'm the glue keeping these two together. If I leave - they will exist only as a shell. I take a deep breath and move beside Ted. He glances around like he can feel I'm there. I tell him that what he sees is truth - that I exist and that we will meet soon. That once I meet Bill - I will meet him. He gets tears in his eyes. I hear him sigh and say that he is tired of waiting. Tired of suffering. I reach out my hand and touch the top of his - he looks down as if he really felt my touch. He smiles. There is a knock on his door - a voice calls that it is time to go.
Brigit says we have to go too. I start to move towards the light we just left - back to Bill. She grasps my arm and says no. Another light opens up and we enter.
I'm now in Atlantis in front of a bathing pool - outdoors. Brigit smiles and me and disappears. Two young women remove my gown. Naked - I step into a wonderful warm pool of greenish/blue water. Same water that is in my cave. I look up and the sky is full of beautiful stars - the night is so clear I can see it all. The two women start to bathe me. It feels really relaxing. But I then think to myself - why can't I have two young men bathing me? Next thing I know - Bill and Ted are there and say they heard my call.
Next thing I know I'm dressed and sitting in the center of 9 crystals - their points are all turned into me. I close my eyes for meditation and the crystals "activate" and I can feel intense beams of light from all 9 crystals streaming into me. I can sense that the stones/crystals that I am looking for in today's world, materialize around me. So I open my eyes and everything disappears and the crystal deactivate. Clive walks up to me and says that Athena wishes to see me:) He kisses me on the forehead and says that I will get the hang of things:) I start to get up and I can hear a deep voice say "Not now". A strong force pulls me backwards and I wake up.
Every time I discover a new fragment - get a new memory and see Bill and Ted - life gets just a bit harder. How many days do we all have to suffer being apart? Our souls may be eternal - but our bodies, our hearts and our minds are not. I'm tired of hurting - they're tired of hurting. When will that break happen? When will that next step finally be set into motion? None of us know - we can only hope and pray that today is the day. What I wouldn't give to receive that call.
Before you ask - yes - I did sense that he saw my blog. I had the same over emotional, knee buckling reaction as I did when I first discovered who he is to me. Thank God this time I was sitting down:)
Until tomorrow...
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)
Labels: Bill
posted by Allie @ 12:33 PM
3 Comments:
At 4:02 PM,
Anonymous said…
hi allie - as far as the astral plane - how is it that people i have been talking to for years - they can see me clearly but i can't see them clearly? how can i go about - adjusting my spectacles so that I can see them?
At 6:56 AM,
Allie said…
I posted this last night - but it never took. Here it is again....
Last year as I was getting pretty good at astral travel - I would have people "show up" just to see if I could see them. After a while it got very annoying. So I consciously put a barrier around my space and instructed it only to let Bill, Ted and family members in - everyone else - see ya. You could have done the same thing - only unconsciously. Next time you are in meditation-concentrate on taking the barrier down. It may take several sessions for it to work - but it will. Another thing to do during mediation is to ask the Divine to raise your vibration rate. After I ask - I visualize that the white light that surrounds me grows outward and upward so that it touches the heavens. I hold the expanded white light this way for as long as I can. The longer you can visualize it - the higher your rate has become. Once you rate is the same as your friends - it will be easier to view them.
Hope this helps!
CS,
Allie;)
At 5:35 PM,
Anonymous said…
thanks allie - i will try it. i can see the surroundings, i can hear the voices, but i can't see the people so i will try your suggestion and see what comes from that even though I think there is a reason for the "blindness" - I just find it weird that I can't see people's faces unless i'm dreaming and even then i don't really remember unless i write it down but astralling is a different story. it might have something to do with the fact that when i "see" and go off on a solo journey and when i don't see - there are a lot of people there and if i saw - i may run from them, like i haven't tried that already.
btw, been having really strange dreams this past week also - mostly pertaining to "old" neighborhoods in futuristic and sometimes gory view. in one, there was a white horse with wings and he had red eyes - i was on a swing and he jumped and gnawed at the seat but he couldn't hold on and he let go - the funniest thing is, this all happened in a store from my old neighborhood with the woman who actually sold the business before i moved from that town, the new owner / a guy, was there running this "freak show" - the "old" owner was working at the front desk with a plexi glass surrounding her, she was reading a book, and she had glasses on and never looked up - it was like i was buying a movie ticket or something before i went in and i think i saw a dog or maybe two who were grossly huge like something out of the incredible hulk movie.
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