iVillage, My Radio Show and the Future!

I sat today with my wand and 3 crystals. No other stones - but - I did change the stones in my 3 stone pendant. I took out the Lapis and added Moonstone. So now I have Emerald, Moonstone and Herkimer Diamond.

I entered directly into the castle/healing center and waiting for me was Brigit. I was very happy to see her as she me. I ask her what are we doing here and she tells me to look into the mirror (we are in my office). I do and I am certainly older, with my hair up in a bun, a few wrinkles and lines (not many) and a few strands of gray hair. I ask Brigit my age - she tells me to tell her. I guessed late 50's, she agreed. Brigit says she wants to show me something.

We are walking down a hall, out of the healing area, and I see the red carpet, stone floor, red drapes, tapestries, nice pictures line the hallway and even a suit of armor! We emerge into what looks like a grand entrance with a huge staircase, chandelier - very open area. In the center I see a young man. I ask who is that? Brigit tells me to look closer. I see that it is my son! Man, is he handsome. He is in the center messing with something - not sure what.

But I have an "ah-ha" moment. I turn to Brigit and say - now I know why when I ask about where is my son - is he okay - etc...you've always looked at me and smiled. He's older! She agrees.

I then see a teen girl - guessing to be 15 - 16 go up to him. She's got reddish/brown hair and striking blue eyes. I ask who is that? Brigit smiles. I look and look - the it dawns on me - she's my daughter. The one that Ted delivers. I say - that's my daughter. Brigit agrees. With Bill. She says - of course. I ask what's her name? I hear nothing back. Again - a "ah-ha" moments - her name is Sean. Brigit laughs and agrees.

I ask where is my husband or actually by now, ex-husband? Does our son have a good relationship with his father? She says nothing for a spell and then only says - he's around all the time. Of course I know what this means - if I'm say 57 - that would make him 62, and there is no way he'll live that long. So I ask her when did it happen? She tells me that I can't concern myself with that information. No mater when the time comes - it will happen no matter what any of us is doing. I need to concentrate on today - not what tomorrow might bring.

I see Clive go up to my son. Clive is my son's best friend. The two of them are always hanging out together. Kind of like Clive is my son's big brother. I ask about Bill and Ted - how does my son get along with them? Great she says - no worries. She tells me that he is one heck of a healer - helps out here and is more gifted than anyone could have imagined. That made me smile.

She then proceeds to tell me that this is all down the road - way into the future and I need not be so concerned how I will do this all as it will evolve over time. It looks to be that the healing center is around when I'm 50. I ask her about the road to get to here.

We arrive in a back room - like a green room on talk shows. I see that Cindy is trying to calm me down - to release my tension and fears. I ask what is going on. Brigit asks - how old do I look? I comment like I do now. She says - exactly. What am I doing? She tells me to go look. I glance out into a room full of maybe 100 people. I'm like - eeek! She smiles and says that I do great. This is the stepping stone. I ask to what? And I'm shown a variety of images:

Me in front of a VERY large audience - talking about empowering your life.
Me at a radio station, with my own show.
Me at a computer - writing my column.
Me at a meeting - not sure what - but it looked to be of producers. Not sure.
Me at a book-signing.

I know - a lot of "me" isn't there? That is what I told Brigit. She replies back that it may be a lot of "me" but that "me" helps other people with my words. So in retrospect - it's not all about me - but about me helping them. This is good because I was starting to feel self-centered and selfish. Like I did all this to advance me and not them. She assured me that this wasn't the case.

She pulls me aside and tells me to stop worrying about doing and just do it. Don't worry about what tomorrow brings - just what I can do today. I tell her that I will work on it. Now that I know my son is fine - that is a big weight off my shoulders. She kisses my cheeks and reminds me that I am loved.

I wake up.

Funny that she would show me a radio station. I decided just this morning to host my own radio show again. Once a week - live - so that people can call in to ask their questions (or they can IM me). Then I'll turn the radio show into a Podcast. There will be a number for people to call from within the US and then another number for International callers. It will be an internet show - meaning you cannot jump into your car and turn on the station. But fingers crossed that someday you will be able to!

I did submit my information to www.ivillage.com with hopes that they agree to bring on my Ask Allie column under their site. It's been a few weeks and I haven't heard back from them. Maybe if you guys have a chance - you can send ONE email (please do not spam this nice lady) and suggest that iVillage add my column to their wonderful content:

Michelle Band
Editorial Group Administrator
212.600.6028
editors@mail.ivillage.com

Quite possibility, if they can be shown that there is an current interest in the column (besides me saying that there is) that they might just take a chance. If you do this - a very big "Thank You" from me!

My bathroom is still in a state of disarray. Good thing I have another half bath:) It would be all done and put back together - but we keep deciding on getting more things done. Finally today - just a few minutes ago - this guy came out to give me an estimate on getting a tree trimmed back. I called over 10 places and he's the only guy who said he'd show - and did. I need to use my fireplace this winter and can't do it wit this HUGE branch over my chimney.

Better get back to work. I have a meeting tonight on the series I am writing for along with a homework assignment about a new script I'm writing about soul mates (but as more of a thriller/love story).

Until Later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)