Ohio Celestite, Jesus and A Test!

For some reason my chunk of Ohio Celestite insists on sitting on my lap during this session. It is also insisting that I place it between my hands, hold it up to my mouth and gently blow my breath into it. Very Shaman like. I have also been instructed to hold it between my hands and rock, placing it on my right cheek from time to time. As I do this I can feel an illumination surround me, with the light entering and I guess tunneling through my cells until it reaches my soul essence. Then I can sense the light coming now from my soul outward. So I have two dances of light - one from within and the other from the Divine. This connection makes me shake as the energy pours through me. I feel, if only for the 5 minutes I did this, like I have that preverbal caffeine IV in my arm. The Ohio Celestite helps one to connect to their higher self. To open up any blockages that one has from listening and hearing their soul. It was very important that I do this before the session. Let's go find out why.

I'm in a very lush area, green, all around. I can hear birds chirping, animals running about beneath the bushes/trees. The trees themselves are massive - nothing like I've seen in Ohio. Off in the distance I can hear a waterfall. If I look at my feet, I see rose pedals. I follow the roses pedals as they lead me to the waterfall.

When I get to the waterfall I see a wonderful horse drinking from the small lake. The horse is a deep chocolate color with a black mane. It has a white spot mid forehead and on it's calves. It's a beauty of a being. It glances over at me, nods it's head and snorts. That is when I see a man, I guess in a long tunic. It's a light brown. His hair is dark and his eyes are very blue. I don't know why it just dawns on me, but it is Jesus. He smiles and comes over to me. Kiss me on the cheeks and tells me that he's been waiting for this time. I ask him - time for what? For me to be ready he says. But I have been ready - for whatever it is, I'm anxious to move forward. He replies that it is one thing to be ready, but it's another thing to be ready to the core of your being and that is where I am at right now. I needed a few other things to fall into place. I needed to have crutches removed. To stand on my own two feet with confidence.

I tell him that I thought I had been. He says only partial - I've had the crutches and I used them from time to time. But I've overcome that shift and now the crutches are gone. I'm sure of myself. I no longer need reassurance from others. He leads me to the horse. He says that his name is Baraucus and that he is my animal guide. I ask - I though that the cats were and the dragonfly? He replies - yes they were - but now I need a different guide and he is here to take me the rest of the way home.

We have parting words and I get on the horse - bareback. It's been years since I've rode, something that in my reality I miss. But I appear to do well here - although he really is doing al the work. I'm just enjoying the lush surroundings. Very calm, peaceful - I don't know - very spiritual. He takes me to a cave and stops. I dismount and he gives me a nudge with his nose to enter the cave. I'm a bit hesitant since I don't even have a flashlight, but I enter.

It's pitch black in here - I am going on pure faith that each step will take me to where I need to be. It is very chilly here - gives me goosebumps in and out of this session. I see a pair of red eyes. I'm not liking this much. A deep voice asks me - who wants to enter? I tell him I do. He asks, why do you think you can pass? I tell him because it's my time to. He has such a menacing energy about him. It is very disturbing. But I know that I need to get past him. I take a deep breath and walk, not run, right past him. I can feel his hot breath on my neck. I'm still in the dark and I can feel his red eyes on me. My hands are out feeling against the cold, and slimy walls - I'm in a narrow passage of sorts. I keep pushing myself to move as my heart appears to be beating in my throat. I emerge into a place of pure light, love and well - whiteness all over the place. I actually have to blink a few times to see.

The Archangel Gabriel is waiting for me. She smiles and says - welcome home. I ask where is this? She smiles and says - within you.

Then I'm done.

Chills all over my body on this one. Seems to me that I just passed a test of sorts. Rather poetic seeing that this is the last session of 2005.

With this my friends, I'm done for 2005:) I want to express my gratitude for your interest in this blog. When I first decided to do this - to write about what is so personal and challenging - to leave my soul open in parts to the public -- THAT I thought was totally insane. But I kept hearing that voice that this was something that I had to do. That there are people who needed to read what I experience, that it was timely to their soul's growth. People would arrive at this blog because they were supposed to - that no matter what the reason was - my experiences were needed at that time and place.

I have met many wonderful people because of this blog and for that alone was well worth the price of admission:)

I hope that all of you have a wonderful and safe New Year's Eve and that 2006 showers upon you all that is good and timely for your soul.

Until next year....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)