Doctors, Healing and Wands...

So I got to see my actual doctor today (as opposed to another one in the practice) as a follow-up to the blood and plumbing tests they took last week. She's funny. Doc mentions that the tests show that I had an extremely high rate of infection - but none of the tests could tell you where that infection was located. She mentioned that there had to be much more going on then simply my throat being sore and infected. How could I tell her that my body chemistry changed and that's what happened? I couldn't. She did mention though that for being as sick as I was, being as healthy as I am now is very odd. In fact - she found the whole thing as odd. She asked how my shoulder was doing. I showed her that it's just fine. Again she's like - wow. All I did was simile:)

My dog (Indiana Jones AKA Indy), is being a healing hound. Everywhere I go in the house - there he is - tongue handing out the side of his mouth (he has no teeth to hold the tongue in), looking at me with those big brown eyes. So I've started sending healing energy into him once a day. This seems to be ongoing support for the so many health problems my snoop dog has going for him. He must of talked to my cat, Samantha (she had surgery few months back) as she is now also trying to get me to put my hands on her all the time. The darn cat actually jumped into the shower with me last night! Soaking wet - she just stares up at me. I was afraid that once I picked her up - the chain saw massacre would occur - so I sent her some light later on last night.

There isn't much to tell right now about the healing. A white light enters through the top of my head, spirals through my body and out my hands. My hands get very, very hot. When they cool down is when I know that the healing light is done. Thus far, within a 24 hour period things have either cleared up or have at least started to mend. The more I read about healing, the more I realize that there are many things and/or people that should not be healed, therefore they won't be. This seems to be based on a karmic lesson that we have chosen to experience during this life. No amount of healing light can help something that we are destined to have and to learn from.

This newly accessed gift has also given my interest in healing crystals and herbs a boast. Years ago when I found my wonderful healing wand, I had no idea that I would actually be using it in healing. I adopted it because it "called" to me and since I've collected stones/crystals all my life - that's why I thought I was drawn to this particular spirit. Somehow, my healing techniques will involve the use of crystals/stones/herbs - but I'm not sure how - yet. I mean there are the traditional ways of laying on the stones and herbal medicine, but my feeling is that this involves so much more. Bill and Ted will be involved with me on this healing path. Bill has received the knowledge and the gifts that I have thus far - while Ted is still about 6 months behind.

My healing wand also allows me to travel to the past and the future along the astral plane - if I either sleep with it or have it on my nightstand. Nightly I've been placing the wand on my nightstand along side a large faden quartz, a nice since piece of angelite, a Herkimer diamond and Mexican dream fluorite. Soon it'll be time to change some things around - not sure what combination will be next, but it will help to take me to the next level in my spiritual training.

Off to read a chapter of a book "Astral Voyages" and then to get my son at preschool.

Until tomorrow...
Allie:)

I had a revelation or two!

Moving right along on the gypsy magic love book. Making good headway:) I've also decided to rewrite my screenplay about two people who find the love of their lives while they are both in a coma. I'm feeling mighty creative lately- and that's a good thing! The more things I can write during this creative sprits, the better. My main problem seems to be focus. I have a habit of putting too many irons in the fire and then never having the time to finish what I start. Someday I'll have to get myself a personal assistant to help out. But for now it's just me, myself and I - something that I need to remember.

Yesterday I had the most amazing revelation. Actually - it was during my dreams the night before (Monday night). My dreams were intense and powerful this night. I don't remember much of what happened. What I do remember is that Ted was ecstatic that he has finally found me. He kept me in a bear hug and showered me with kisses. Since Ted's voice can melt me in a New York minute - I can remember him reciting a poem in my ear as he held me. A line was, "A bitter sweet moment such as this, take ones soul a minute to forget but the heart remembers for eternity." I don't have a clue if it is part of an actual poem, or something he made up. All I do know is that I was puddy in his hands:) But this dream wasn't the most exciting part of my night. I FINALLY have an actual month and year for when Bill and I will physically meet. An actual DATE! Bill was given this information as well. We have both gotten to a point where our impatience is well known in the spirit world, that the Divine finally agreed that it is the time to meet. I'm not going to give out the date to everyone as there are people whose lives will be greatly affected by this meeting and I don't want anyone to have a countdown. But I will say it's within the next year!

I've been trying to grasp my new gift of healing. I've managed to heal my bad shoulder, my son's hives and many of my dog's ailments. I'm still trying to get a handle on this. I'm not sure what to do. I've seen the way healers are treated by people - either scorned or will do anything to get near them. But since I know that I'm a channel for healing for a reason - I have to decide what to do. This is what I've been thinking about over the last several weeks and why my body has gone through such an upheaval. My body literally had to change it's chemistry in order for me to be able to effective receive and transmit this higher vibration. I can feel another gift about to unlock - but I'm not sure if I'm ready for something else so soon. I've been given glimpses of this gift - which is actually a much stronger version of a gift I already have - the one of prophecy. In my heart, I know that I'm not given more than I can handle. The spirit world has more confidence in me than I do!

With these emerging gifts, my emotional side has been going up and down faster than a Cedar Point roller coaster. It's no wonder that I've needed so much sleep this month of April. My want of food has decreased - which is a good thing since I love to eat. Now if I could only get back into my walking/swimming/working out routine. I'll be 38 here on Monday (May 2) and I've known since I was a little kid that 38 was going to be a big year for me. I'm excited - but at the same time I'm only human and change can be a very scary thing. One day at a time - what can I say?

Time to go get the little lamb chop from preschool!

Until tomorrow...
Allie:)

BTW...you guys are allowed to leave comments on this blog if you feel inclined to do so.

Tired, Dreams and Misc:)

I started a entry last night for my blog - but by 9:30 pm I was so darn tired that I went to bed. I hate being this tired - this is so not me. But I suppose if I think back - that this was a long time coming. I haven't had a really good nights sleep since the end of 1997. In 1998 is when the step daughter moved in, end of 1999 I got pregnant and the step daughter left, 2000 had Kyle - lost my business - lost my house - etc...2001 + Kyle will be 5. Need I say more:) Add to this a husband who snores so loud he could wake the dead and a cat who loves to sleep on my head.... I guess its no wonder I'm tired!

Last night my dreams were full of Bill and Ted. Bill occupied most of the 1st half and Ted in the 2nd half - with both in quite a few sequences. It's frustrating because I cannot remember much. I know there was a train - in many scenes. Bill, Ted and I took an extensive train ride - it was very comfortable and soothing. It didn't take place in the states, but in Germany I believe. I was talking to someone and they asked who I loved more. I remember looking at them shocked that they would ask and answered - the same, I love them both the same and would step in front of a bullet for either of them. In one of the 1st dreams I had, I was in CA with Bill - he was off tending to business and I was visiting my sister. We were looking out of her apt window at the ocean (my sister currently lives in Burbank - no where near the ocean). The ocean was not far away - the land 100 ft or so beyond the beach was bog like - as if the ocean originally came up and covered the bog - but now the ocean was receding. I don't know - the scene was calm - but it was like an episode of the Twilight Zone. Go figure. More dreams with me getting that added gift. All I know is that when I woke up - I felt very calm and relaxed as I knew I spent the night with both men.

My finger is doing just fine today. In fact - it's doing better than fine. It's healing very nicely - there shouldn't be much of a scar. More important though - no infection:) It's still sore - so I'm going crazy with it - but by this time next week I won't give it a second thought. I'll fill you in more tomorrow:)

I revamped the sachet and oil sectors of the gypsy love book:) Today I'm tackling the incense and I'll start again on the spells. Once I figured out what the problem was - everything seems to be going very smooth:)

That's about all I've got for now. If anything interesting happens later today - I'll make sure to update!

Until tomorrow...
Allie:)

I know - I should of went to the ER!

Okay, so today I'm minding my own business, cleaning out old candle wax from one of my glass candle holders I use for spells. Earlier in the day - Bill was demanding my time and energy - and it was getting annoying. So I decided to send him some love and light and remind him not to be so clingy and impatient. Well, 30 min later is when I have a pair of scissors in my hand and I'm digging at the wax.

I feel a hand on my right shoulder and the brush of lips on my neck (my hair was up in a ponytail). It startled me so much that I jammed the scissors too hard - broke the candle holder and shoved the scissors into my right ring finger, hitting the bone. Needless to say - it hurt like hell. I dropped everything and had a river of blood flowing out of my finger onto everywhere - the desk, the floor, the chair.. I grabbed some tissues and applied pressure. I did this for about 10 minutes. The blood won't stop and I was starting to feel sick. The hubby and child were at the store - should I call him, I wonder? I decided - no. I lie down on the couch with more tissues. I take a glance at my finger - I can see the bone through the brief moment of no blood flow. Not good. 15 minutes later I got the blood to stop altogether.

Hubby came back - told him my tale. He took a look - mentioned that it needed stitches (mom said the same thing along with the need for a Tetanus shot). It stopped bleeding - I wasn't going to have anyone touch it.

I jump in the shower. You could have sworn I stepped into the shower scene from 'Psycho". I finally got it to stop bleeding - again. But man - now it really hurt. Went from a dull ache to a constant sharp throbbing. Not good.

I'll see what happens in the morning before I make another call to my doctors. Sheesh - who ever thought the last few days before I turned 38 would be so exciting?

That darn rock kept me awake last night. No more going to bed with it in my room, I don't care what it has to tell me. When I did sleep - it was more of the unlocking a gift - getting permission to understand more of the wisdom I have stored from previous lives. There is also a man who keeps showing up - I've been discounting him as I chalked it up to watching a TV show he's on (or was - he's been killed off). But the bugger is being very persistent and even arriving during my meditations with Bill. I guess I'll have to see what he wants or discover what part he is to play in my life.

Below this blog entry is another entry from today about the wildhorses and canned hunts. Please read and pass on to everyone you know.

Have a great night!

Until tomorrow...
Allie;)

Wildhorses and Canned Hunts

Hi All!

Below are the articles I tried to post yesterday. Please pass on the information to everyone you know so that this inhumane treatment to animals can be stopped!

Take care,
Allie;)

http://www.hsus.org/wildlife/wildlife_news/pay_per_view_slaughter.html

The Latest Fad in Internet Animal Cruelty: Pay-Per-View Hunting

In late January, entrepreneur John Lockwood let a friend become the first "hunter" to kill a confined animal via computer. The friend, Howard Giles, sitting in his home office 45 miles from Lockwood's canned hunting ranch in the Texas Hill Country, squarely lined up the animal in his computer sights and clicked the mouse. A rifle mounted in a blind back on Lockwood's ranch then fired a bullet at a wild hog hunched over a feeding station.At that point a page should have popped up on Giles' computer screen: Fatality Not Found. According to news reports, Giles' remote-control shot hit the hog in the neck, wounding the animal. Lockwood, on site at the ranch, shot the animal two more times to kill him.Welcome to the whacked-out world of Live-Shot.com, where you can kill a captive exotic animal from the comfort of your living room. By turning a computer into a deadly weapon, Live-Shot.com has created trophy hunting without the fuss and muss of having to hunt at all. A March report by the Fort Worth Star-Telegram noted that more than 350 people are already members of Live-Shot.com, each paying $14.95 a month (plus $5.95 per ten rounds of ammunition) to fire at inanimate targets. Joystick hunting costs considerably more-$300 per two hours, which doesn't include the price of the animal killed, the meat processing, taxidermy, and shipping. Live-Shot.com expects the second computer-assisted "hunt" to take place on April 9, by an Indiana man paralyzed from the neck down.

Just the possibility of desktop killing has united two groups that usually eyeball each other warily-humane advocates and hunters. State legislators are also setting their sights on Internet hunting. Virginia has just banned it, Tennessee has a bill awaiting the governor's signature, and 13 other states are considering prohibitions.

The Live-Shot Heard 'Round the World

Live-Shot works like this: The prospective armchair sportsman signs up on the web site and pays a deposit and fees of more than $1,500 to schedule a session. (The final cost depends on the species and size of the animal killed and the cost of having the trophy mounted.) The hunter logs on again at the scheduled time and watches the feeding station on his computer screen. The animal ordered is present in the area, and when the creature approaches the food, the 'Net "hunter" uses his mouse to line the victim up in the on-screen crosshairs. A click of the mouse fires the rifle.

As with canned hunting in general, Live-Shot does not require the so-called hunter to possess any shooting skills, so the animal's death may be a drawn-out, agonizing one. Furthermore, there is no indication on the web site that the client must have a hunting license either in his or her own state or in Texas.

Animal advocates and hunters alike are outraged by this hi-tech atrocity. The National Rifle Association has come out strongly against Internet hunting. "The NRA believes the element of a fair chase is a vital part of the American hunting heritage," said spokesperson Kelly Hobbs. "Shooting an animal from three states away would not be considered a fair chase."According to Kirby Brown, executive director of the pro-hunting Texas Wildlife Association, "The idea of sitting at a computer screen playing a video game and activating a remote-controlled firearm to shoot an animal is not hunting. It's off the ethical charts."
Wayne Pacelle, president and CEO of The Humane Society of the United States, was speaking for everyone who cares about animals when he said, "This is a snuff film scenario in which animals will be senselessly killed for the voyeuristic pleasure of someone sitting at a keyboard. It is pay-per-view slaughter. This remotely delivered cruelty should be shut down and outlawed immediately."

A number of state lawmakers agree. According to a story in the Holland, Michigan, Sentinel, Texas state Rep. Todd Smith (R-Euless), calls Internet hunting, "unnatural, unfair, and immoral." Even better, Smith has introduced a bill to ban Internet hunting in Texas.
Legislators in other states are following suit. Lawmakers in Alabama, California, Delaware, Hawaii, Maine, Michigan, Minnesota, New York, North Carolina, Oregon, South Carolina, West Virginia, and Wisconsin have also introduced bills to stop Internet hunting before it takes hold. A Virginia bill was recently signed into law by the governor, and lawmakers in Tennessee recently passed their own ban.

The federal government hasn't lagged too far behind in moving to block Internet hunts. Tom Davis (R-VA) recently introduced H.R. 1558, "because gun owners, hunters, animal rights organizations and more than a dozen state legislatures oppose online, computer-assisted hunting." H.R. 1558 would make participation in Internet hunting a felony. Pacelle sees federal legislation as essential: "The HSUS backs the bills at the state level, but the Congress must speak on this issue, since remote hunting involves the Internet and is therefore a matter of interstate commerce."

Launched last year, Live-Shot.com is the brainchild of Lockwood, a San Antonio body-shop estimator who claims he just wants to provide people with disabilities a chance to hunt. His altruistic talk conveniently sidesteps the ethical and moral issues of Internet hunting: Lockwood's real-life video game has real-life consequences for animals-and perhaps for people, if the remote-control rifle software lands in the wrong hands. But Live-Shot.com also lacks any sense of fair chase, and it does not impose any hardship on the hunter who can fire shot after shot with all the burden of booking airline tickets. This is disembodied killing in which the hunter experiences no consequences: He sees no blood, hears no cries, feels nothing but the joy of the kill, like a kid with a violent video game.

Remote-control hunting, after all, is not hunting at all. Like the video game Grand Theft Auto, Live-Shot.com turns the joystick into a deadly weapon. Unfortunately, the web site's victims are not cartoons.

https://community.hsus.org/campaign/FED_2005_horse_slaughter?source=gac4cc

Beloved Companion and American Icon-or Dinner on the Table?

Throughout history, horses have brought grace, beauty, strength, and companionship to humans, and have loyally served us in countless ways. No betrayal of that loyalty can match the shameful killing of these magnificent animals in U.S. slaughterhouses to satisfy the palates of diners in Italy, France, Belgium, and Japan.

The horrors these horses suffer at the slaughterhouse is compounded by the misery they are forced to endure on the way to this brutal end. Only three facilities in the entire country serve the foreign horsemeat markets. Thus horses destined for the killing floors-approximately 78,000 went to slaughter in the U.S., Mexico, and Canada last year-are often crammed together and transported across thousands of miles to slaughter in double-deck trucks designed for cattle and pigs. Even wild horses removed from public lands can legally be sold to slaughter for the first time since 1971, thanks to a Senate rider attached last year to an omnibus spending bill with no public hearing or discussion.

Representatives John Sweeney (R-NY) , John Spratt (D-SC) and Ed Whitfield (R-KY) have introduced H.R. 503, the American Horse Slaughter Prevention Act, to ban horse slaughter and the international transport of live horses or horseflesh for human consumption. Senators John Ensign (R-NV) and Mary Landrieu (D-LA) are expected to introduce a companion bill in the Senate soon.And Representatives Nick Rahall (D-WV) and Ed Whitfield (R-KY) have introduced H.R. 297 to restore the federal protections to wild horses and burros, with a Senate companion bill, S. 576, introduced by Senator Robert Byrd (D-WV)."This inhumane and disgusting practice, which only serves to promote animal cruelty, needs to be brought to an end," said Representative Sweeney when commenting on the American Horse Slaughter Prevention Act. "Support for this legislation is stronger than ever, and I look forward to the day when the American horse no longer ends up on a dinner plate overseas."

To date, 77 House members have signed on as cosponsors of H.R. 503.» Please ask your federal legislators to end the slaughter of horses for human consumption and to restore the federal protections for wild horses.

FIRST BLOOD HAS BEEN SHED
6 WILD HORSES SLAUGHTERED UNDER NEW BURNS LEGISLATION

Multiple sources have confirmed that on Monday, April 18th, 2005, 6 wild horses were slaughtered at the Cavel International facility in DeKalb, Il. The horses, adopted from the Bureau of Land Management's (BLM) Wild Horse Adoption program on Friday, April 15th, were purchased for $50 each from Dustin Herbert of Oklahoma. Mr. Herbert claimed that the horses would be used for a church youth program, and would not be sold for slaughter. But by Monday, less than 3 days after he purchased the animals, all 6 were slaughtered so that their meat could be shipped overseas to end up on foreign dinner tables where horsemeat is served as a delicacy.

Despite that massive public outcry that resulted in the passage of the 1971 Wild Free Roaming Horse and Burro Act, in November of 2004 Senator Conrad Burns attached a rider to the 3300 page budget bill that eviscerated the federal protections that prohibited the slaughter of America's wild horses. The Burns rider, introduced on the eve of Thanksgiving weekend, amended the line in the 1971 act that prohibited the commercial processing of our wild horses, and required the BLM to sell "excess" wild horses "without limitation".

This rider not only completely undermined the spirit of the 1971 act and the will of the American people, but it was literally slipped in at the 11th hour with absolutely no opportunity for public debate.Neda DeMayo, founder of Return to Freedom, American Wild Horse Sanctuary, states that "Burns Sale Authority was not only unethical in the way it was slipped through, but in the ongoing and devastating repercussions it will have on the American Wild Horse. The Burns sale authority opens the floodgates of slaughter for potentially thousands of America's wild horses.

As Burns and his allies grasp to put a positive face on this atrocious situation, we are distracted from the truth which is that these horses were unnecessarily removed from the public lands in the first place. Overpopulation is a myth." An anonymous acquaintance of Mr. Herbert's was not surprised. "It's horrible that he did this to those horses, it's a sad reflection on legitimate western horsemen. But I know he'll do it again". And the Burns amendment makes that possible.

Congressmen Nick Rahall and Ed Whitfield are trying to stop this before thousands of wild horses end up on the butcher block. H.R. 297, introduced by Rahall and Whitfield, and S. 576 introduced by Senator Robert Byrd, reinstate the federal protections that prohibit the slaughter of America's wild horses. This legislation, which is only the first step on a long road to finding permanent solutions, is urgently needed as evidenced by the recent bloodshed.

When she learned of the incident, actress and avid horsewoman Nicollette Sheridan responded passionately, "I am disheartened with Senator Burns for undermining the will of the American people when he amended the Wild Free Roaming Horse and Burro Act. That was as good as giving these wild horses a death sentence. This recent bloodshed may only be a preview of what's to come as a result of this irresponsible legislation if we don't reverse it now".

Just prior to the Burns legislation, in the fall of 2004, Return to Freedom spearheaded the American Wild Horse Preservation Campaign (AWHPC). This coalition, which includes such national organizations as U.S. PIRG, Gene Autry Museum, HSUS, and others, represents over 9 million Americans nationwide. Put in place to address the management problems that persist in the BLM, and to address policy initiatives that threaten the wild horse, the AWHPC is supporting this legislation. For updates on the legislation visit the campaign website at www.wildhorsepreservation.org. For more information on the American Wild Horse Sanctuary and background on the American Wild Horse visit www.returntofreedom.org.

Carrie Kitley
Return to Freedom Wild Horse Sanctuary
P.O. Box 926Lompoc, CA 93436
(805) 737-9246
programs@returntofreedom.org
www.returntofreedom.org

Magic books, wildhorses and my health...

I got to work today on the gypsy love spell book. I had to force myself to work on it and I kept thinking - why is that? There has to be something that does not work here or I wouldn't be so sluggish in completing this first book. I looked through the spells - they were looking okay. Then I went through the sachets, oils and incenses - pretty good - or so I thought. I went through them again and I realized what I had been doing wrong. I was making everything harder than it had to be. Duh! So I ripped it all apart and am now piecing it back together. Granted - now sounds like more work. However - I don't mind it - now it clicks. Keep your fingers crossed I get it done soon so I can move onto book #2!

I'm feeling better today. Didn't have a great night's sleep - had the dream again where a gift of mine is unlocked and something about I can handle the responsibility. I still don't know what the dream is talking about as no new gifts have come along in the last couple of weeks except the one I haven't decided what to do with yet. No - I'm not being secretive about this new gift. Well, I suppose in a way I am as I'm not telling - yet. No, I can't throw fireballs or disappear or anything cool like that:) As soon as I get a handle - I'll tell - honest. What I need to do is to mediate more. Since I got sick I've been a slacker. Not good. I think tomorrow, Sunday, I'm going to get back into my routine of meditating before bed time. But I think now I'll start to meditate on my charkas - I think that they can use a good cleansing and opening.

Have you ever looked at something repeatedly, but not sure why? I keep looking at this stone spirit of Bill's. I pick it up, run my fingers over it, hold it, put it down and ten minutes later it's the same thing again. It has something to tell me that I'm not picking up on. I'll try sleeping with it tonight. Of course the last time I tried that there was so much energy in the room that I didn't sleep at all. So I'll probably leave it on my nightstand instead of actually under my pillow. It may help - may not. There's only one way to find out - huh?

I tried to post - three times - in this blog tonight about my outrage at the sale of America's wildhorses for slaughter for human consumption overseas. Plus my outrage at the canned hunts conducted over the internet. Yeah - I know. I'd like to cage the hunters in myself and let them try to escape while I shoot them from the comfort of my home. Anyways - I keep trying and the blog keeps crashing. So I'll try again in the morning. In case you would like to read about this on your own - please go to: http://www.hsus.org/wildlife/wildlife_news/pay_per_view_slaughter.html for the canned hunt and https://community.hsus.org/campaign/FED_2005_horse_slaughter?source=gac4cc for the wildhorses. Plus:
http://www.wildhorsepreservation.org/ and http://www.returntofreedom.org/

Off to bed I go. Sweet dreams everyone!

Until tomorrow...
Allie;)

Another day - another doctor visit...

Back to the doctor I went again today. This time I had a woman doctor who actually listened to me! I've been able to clear up most of my ailments on my own. I used a vibrational essence (elixir) with distilled water and Rhodochrosite for my sinus infection and canker sores in my throat. I made another essence using distilled water again but this time with green fluorite to help with my intestinal happenings. But the intestinal problem was outside of my comprehension - so that is why I went back to the doctor - besides the fact that I am soooooooooo tired. I can usually survive on 6 hrs of sleep - now 12 isn't enough. Last night (Thursday) was real bad - so much so that I had a hard time keeping my head up. The doc ordered a battery of tests and I should hear the results by the time I go back for a follow up next Friday. Plus now I have some antibiotics - which I'm thankful for.

Last night I had the oddest dream. I only remember fragments, but I was in an all white area and I was being "given" something. Some sort of new wisdom or gift was being unlocked. There was an intense burst of energy soaring through my body - so intense that it woke me up. I remember feeling very pleased with myself - that I accomplished something that few people do.

The night before I dreamt that I was in a place of worship - like a temple as opposed to a church. It was all very calm and peaceful. Water was running - like a small stream ran through the temple. Birds were singing and the air felt so positive. Something again was happening to me because I "passed" a test.

I had a spontaneous OBE the other day and scared the poop out of poor Bill. I didn't mean to - and I was surprised he saw me as I was OBE, but he wasn't. I heard him yelling "come back" when I slammed back into my body. I looked for the reason I had to come back with such a bang - and there was my cat Darin. He was sitting on my chest licking my face. Darn cat.

Off to take care of my lamb chop :)

Until tomorrow...
Allie:)

What? I'm not sick? Are you joking or just on drugs?

So I decided to go to the doctor yesterday. A complete waste of time. Over the weekend, in addition to the other stuff I had, I also lost my voice, got pink eye and managed to get canker sores in my throat. Now when I went to see the doc - he basically brushed off everything I told him, including the pink eye. It's pretty obvious that I either have pink eye or I've been smokin` some strong weed. He's so lucky that my voice was gone! The things I wanted to say to him. He finally agreed to give me some meds for the eyes and one to help suppress the cough. Well - the cough pills are worthless, I'm still going to cough up a lung. The eye stuff? I haven't determined the worthiness of it yet. I've taken all else into my own hands - and what I have done thus far has worked like a charm. At least I can tell my mother that I went to the doc:) I do feel better today - so that is a bonus ( I would think that it is more me than the MD)!

I've had quite a few clients worry that I'm under some psychic attack. I can assure you that I'm not. I honestly have a fortress of love and light around me. Two Archangels along with two other angels stand angelic guard - plus I have a slew of protective guides. My secret weapon (so to speak) - my grandma. There is no way that she would let anyone on any plane harm me (or any other family member). That's one of the last things she said to me before she died - that she would always be around for protection. I pity the fool who tries to break through!

I find that when I'm low on energy, coming in contact with a crystal/stone or a tree always helps. Tress are wonderful for getting extra energy. They're mighty roots bury deep into the Earth and are tapped into a tremendous power supply. I either stand and place my hands on the tree or when my neighbors are out - I usually sit at the base of the trunk, lean my back against the bark and place my hands on the tree. I sit for as long as needed. When I am finished, I always like to leave a thank you gift - usually a crystal/stone or some corn meal.

Over the last couple of days, I've seen new pictures of Bill. He looks horrible. His eyes show such a sadness and longing. He has the aura of a very worn out and tired person who can feel the weight of the world on his shoulders. I decided today to send him healing love and light so that he has the strength to finish the task laid before him. I position myself and we connect. I can see him working - getting his job done - but his body is very heavy. I send my energy and love to him. I can see him stop what he was doing and stagger. A friend grabs his arm and lowers him to the ground. He then smiles. By now my vibrational rate is very high and my soul feels ready for take off - but my body is as heavy as lead. His energy is pulling me in - wanting me to stay. I know that I'm going to have to cut the energy off soon before I'm too drained. I can tell that this will not be an easy separation. His work mates are calling him back to work - but he wants to stay with me. I tell him that I will be back later and that he must go. His energy tries to get frisky! I tell him - later - he's got work to do. He grumbles a bit - smiles again - and gets back up. I notice that his eyes are not as tired and sad as they were before this connection. I will try again later to send more energy to him.

I did find out that my screenplay,"The Black Triangle" (about the gypsies and the holocaust) is a finalist in the Roy W. Dean Writing grant! If I win - I get 4 wonderful weeks in New Zealand to write and put together a film proposal to find funding.

If anyone has been trying to get into the Psychic Scam section - it's finally back among the living!

Must go for now. Time to pick up the little dude for preschool.

Until tomorrow...
Allie;)

My Nightmare Hasn't Ended :(

This week has been so strange. Ever since I had my discovery of my new gift I've been sick. It's not been just any sickness either. Think of flu/sinus infection/bronchitis/something funky going on with the colon + the dreaded monthly visitor. I know - TMI (too much information). But how else can I let you in on what's been going on? The headaches are outrageous and I'm tired ALL the time. This is not me - not me at all. Normally, I'm not a napper - but this week you betcha. I've been going to bed between 7:30 - 8:30 pm. I haven't been to bed this early since I was in grade school.

I keep asking "Why"? Not a "Why Me" - just a simple "Why"?

The major answer I keep getting is that I am going through a rebirthing process - one that, once it is over, my vibrational rate will have expanded and my gifts will have too. Poor Bill and Ted have the same thing going on (minus the monthly thing of course).

The minor answer is that I have taken on too much and my life is thrown out of balance (the guys have the same thing). What's missing? My guess would be plain old fun. So what am I to do? What part do I phase out? I don't know - at least not yet.

My dreams continue to be very funky. Last night, I started by going to my all white (not as in the people, but building, chairs, etc..) school. I don't remember much except for a table with healing supplies on it that included a few crystals, a healing wand and herbs. I know that I was to lie down on the table. I do feel better today (at least I did in the morning)- but nothing to write home about. All I want to do is sleep.

Then I went off to a grassy meadow. I met an older American Indian woman and a girl. They had a couple of animals with them - a bear and I think a wolf - but I didn't get a good look at the wolf. Could have been a coyote.

You know the show "Charmed"? Well I was "in" the show, but it was real life. It was modern day - but I was in a Speakeasy with the character Darrell (black cop on show), but my name was still Allie. He told me to pay the bill and gave me a small stack of square playing cards and some money. The very round and robust owner gave me a hard time - but he finally let me pay. As Darrell and I walked home - he was having a fit about the problems with a white woman with a black man. Then I kept trying to tell him that he belonged with "her" (this being his TV wife) and that I was to be with Bill - that no matter how we manipulate time, fate and destiny will win out. He couldn't grasp it and I kept trying to explain. Seems we changed the present - but only he and I knew it was changed.

From 3 am on - I kept waking up every few minutes because I would stop breathing. I told myself to figure out why. Next thing I know is that I am in a mine that is collapsing. Every time a miner was crushed - I would wake up not being able to breathe. I ran to a woman to tell her that the mine was collapsing and men were dying. Things got thrown into action to save the men. I stopped waking up because of no breathing.

A lot of flashes of Bill and of us hanging out. I had a sense that we had overcome another hurdle - not sure what - but I felt a blockage disappear.

Now the previous night has something odd happen:

I fell asleep at 7:30 pm and I could tell that I was again with Bill and Ted but also being sent through separate higher powers for healing. At one time - I saw a clogged toilet (I've had plenty of dreams where the toilets were all dirty, plugged and simply nasty - but I had to go to the bathroom). Instead of using the toilet, this time I reached my hand in to unclog it. The water was clear - and all I could see was toilet paper. When I removed the toilet paper, more "stuff" started to come to the surface and the water changed from clear, to yellow to violet. I realized that the toilet was about to explode and as I was running to the bathroom door, it did explode and I could feel the pieces of "stuff" hitting me as I ran. In the next sequence - my friend was there. She was sitting there with a big smile on your face and she said 'I knew you could remove the barrier on your own" and with that she was gone and I woke up.

So I wrote her about the dream and this was her response:

Speaking of strange...........I am really freaking out now because of your dream........I woke up this morning and for some reason went into the guest bathroom to use the restroom?? No one uses this bathroom unless we have company and we don't have any company right now. So, I looked more closely and it was just a bunch of toilet paper clogging the toilet. I got the plunger and it was resolved rather easily and quickly. I thought that I saw purple and gold water. Then I thought okay, you are getting carried away you Tiger fan. The team colors are purple and gold...lol. After reading your dream I called my husband to ask him if he had used the guest bathroom. He said no.I know - odd. What do I make of it? That I had a major-major-major blockage disappear and my friend saw the colored water (and she was in my dream) because she was my validation that what I thought happened really did. The Divine knew that if I saw her in my dream - that I would email her, and I did exactly that.

I'm wayyyyyyy behind in returning email. If you've written and I haven't written back - nothing personal!

Okay - I'm off to bed. Any extra healing light you could send my way I would appreciate it. If I'm supposed to go through all this sickness - fine. I just wish it wouldn't hurt so much, or make me so sleepy!

Until tomorrow (hopefully)...
Allie ;)

No shows and no breathing - how annoying!

I'll never understand when someone does not show up for a phone or chat reading - especially those who you can tell, really want to speak to you. This has happened more times than I care to count - I mean - I know that life has a way of messing with you and can switch things around so that you do forget. But I've had new clients do this to me 2 or 3 times in a row. I'm going to have to state that if you are a no show, I will reschedule once or refund your money. If you miss the appointment a second time you lose your money. I really hate doing this - but it's not fair to the people I have to turn down or push back.

I'm still sick - last night was a nightmare. I went to bed about 8:00 pm (a rarity) and tossed and turned all night. I was hot - then cold - then hot- etc...it was maddening! Then when I was able to fall asleep, I kept going to a healing area where both Bill and Ted where there taking care of me. But I kept waking up every 15 minutes because I wasn't breathing. I'd fall back to sleep and go right back. I took a nap this afternoon as I knew that both guys would not be asleep and trying to doctor me. I do feel better than I did yesterday. So the guys earn bonus points! What I don't get is the not breathing thing. Very annoying.

I've been so busy, that I forgot to acknowledge my 4th anniversary of my column "Ask Allie" back in Feb! I know - it's been a while since I wrote a new column. I feel bad because of that - but there is only so much time in the day.

Okay guys, another short entry. I've got to head out and get my son at preschool. If anyone can give me a suggestion about the no breathing thing - I'd love to hear it. I'm not more anxious than usual - nothing out of the ordinary is going on.

Until tomorrow...
Allie :)

I'm sick and a few other items...

I'm sick. Yeah, I know - wah wah! Here it is a gorgeous day in Ohio and I'm indoors with an achy body, sore throat and a killer headache. I believe this illness is yet another fine gift from my son. He's so kind in sharing - I've taught him well. Maybe too well. But on an up note - I finally got the patio furniture and grill I've been wanting for the last 8 years. So not all is lost! With luck - I'll get to bed at a decent time and actually get some quality shut-eye.

The last few days certainly have not been good in the sleeping department. My nightly visits to school and to see Bill increased ten fold. I think it's because I've made or had another breakthrough and I'm not sure what to make of it. I mean, it's a good thing - I simply do not know what the next step should be in my new gift. Once I figure something out - or at least become more comfortable at talking about it, I'll post it here - give you guys the scoop!

A friend/client of mine was kind enough to provide some information on the Banyan tree (read April 6 - Finally got a spell done! for more on why this tree):

"It's a lucky tree and it's rare. I've seen some banyan trees in Thailand, mostly in the temple, but not big ones, just small young ones. People worship these trees because they protect them from the evil or make their wishes come true. The banyan trees also have religious history and the most popular one has been said that the prince from Nepal (some said from India) became a Buddha under a banyan tree after many obstacles during his monkhood."

Thanks Sabrina for this information!

I want to share more with you today - but my headache is simply making it impossible to keep my eyes open!

Until tomorrow...
Allie :)

Con't Meditation Tips + Dreams

This morning after I got up and had a couple of mugs of coffee - I realized that I left off two important items for my meditation tips:

1. Refrain from any stimulants (like coffee), alcohol or drugs at least a few hours before you meditate.

2. As you practice your breathing, visualize a white light of protection around you. This will help to safe guard you against any entities that wish to cause you harm while you are in your altered state. You also may place some pieces of black tourmaline, onyx, obsidian or tiger's eye around you for a protective aura.

Dreams were very odd last night. In one I was with a little girl - age 6 or 7. She was dressed very proper in a white dress, white shoes, a green and white checkered dress wool coat and white gloves. She had a light green suitcase with her - it was very square and looked to be right out of the 1920's or 30's. We were in a hotel - beige walls, light green wood trim and a light green carpet in the hallway. It looked to be a well to do place. A man - no idea who or what he even looked like, appeared out of nowhere. We walked through the walls(?) and ended up on another floor - but this floor looked like the one previous - but it had been deserted - carpet, walls all torn up and disgusting - rats running around the place. We walked through the walls again - the place looked fine. He took her hand and opened a room door. She looked back at me and smiled and waved bye. The door closed and I woke up. It felt like when we were walking through the walls that we were traveling either through time or through dimensions. It's hard to tell.

I then went into a different dream where I was in a mansion - on the 3rd floor. The woodwork was very dark and ornate. I go to enter the ballroom and discover that the owners have transformed it into 6 private viewing rooms. They are main movie theaters - can only fit 20 people - and each theater is complete with its own old fashion looking ticket booth. The rooms are situated around the other rim of a circle with a compass inlaid in gold (?) on the floor, in the middle.

The last thing I remember is someone else driving my poor beat up car out of the parking lot form where we worked - a auto repair center. She (the driver) mentioned that the car is titling. We get out and sure enough, the front drivers tire is shredded. I look back at work and notice that they are closing up shop. It's dark out and I know I need a tire. I sprint towards the shop as the gate comes down. Back behind the counter is Peter Jackson (Lord of the Rings director). I yell back to Pete that my tire blew and I need a new one. He looks at his watch and says "Now?" I wake up.

I sent the gypsy script into a couple of filmmaker labs and some contests. Fingers crossed please:)

I finally started to use my Moon Garden tarot deck. I've had this for almost 12 years and it's brand new. The deck I always use has seen better days. I shuffle and the cards want to rip in half. It's time to retire them.

Time for me to get my shower and head off to bed! I get to sleep in past five! Yeah!

Until tomorrow...
Allie :)

Tips for Meditation

I have found that once I made a commitment to meditating every day, even if only for 10 minutes, that my connection to the Divine has progressed at a rapid pace. This has sharpened my intuition, increased my visions and awareness plus solidified my connection to Bill and Ted. Everything started to click into place.

There are many books and tapes on how to meditate. Here is an example of what I do:

1. Make sure you are not disturbed – turn off TV, radio and phone.

2. Find a comfortable place to sit. I sit on a pillow and have a pillow between my lower back and wall. Have on loose fitting clothes.

3. I surround myself with 3 crystals and hold an amethyst (or another crystal or stone - listen close and you will know which one to choose) in my receiving hand (left hand if right handed).

4. Center your breathing – in through the nose and out through the mouth.

5. Wipe all of the busy body thoughts from your mind.

6. Visualize yourself surrounded in white light as you visit a place that gives you comfort. This place can be real or imaginary. I visualize myself walking barefoot in the woods, down a path to a crossroads - one way leads me to a beautiful meadow with wildflowers (where I usually meet Bill and my angels) and the other path leads me to the ocean (where my guides meet me).

7. When you get to your place (in my case the ocean) – visualize a crystal structure (house, castle, building).

8. Enter the structure. Look around - investigate. Get to know your surroundings.

9. Ask your spirit guides and angels for help. Remember to say "Thank you".

10. When you are finished – walk back the same way you came and open your eyes.

At times, when I reach #6 - I visualize the white light - but I also leave my inner screen blank except for a door. I open the door and allow myself to be led to wherever I need to go. When I'm done, I exit through the same door.

Some people like to use music - I do at times. But I mostly want to keep my outer self aware of what is going on in case my son needs me.

Don’t be discouraged if you can’t get it on the 1st try. It takes practice. After you get to know your guides and angles, you’ll know who to ask for what. They’ll always show up – all you need to do is ask for the help.

You will be amazed at the effect meditation has on your stress level!

I'm sitting here trying to think of my meditation last night and I'm coming up blank. Grrrrrr..... I know that something happened, but I can't remember. That's really odd as I never not remembered - I guess the meditation was for my subconscious only.

Off now to write another spell for the gypsy magic book and maybe get in a scene for my Dead Zone script before dodging off to get the little dude at preschool.

Until tomorrow...
Allie ;)

Finally got a spell done!

I actually got a spell done today for my gypsy love book! Only 19 more to go:) The oils, sachets and incense are already done. My problem is that I keep making the spells harder than they have to be. Simplicity has never been one of my strong suits:)

I discovered what tree was on the front of my family's book from my PLR (see "So whatever happened to last week?" from April 2)! It is a Banyan tree!! I've been learning to trust my intuition about what projects to work on - when I decided to give the gypsy magic book a go (it's been 7 months since I touched it last). I picked up my book of herbs to check something when the first page I turned to was the Banyan and it had a picture! Well as soon as I saw it I knew it was it - the hair standing up on my arms and the energy rush validated my hunch. From what I can find out - it is a fig tree, native to Asia and worshipped in India. It is a tree of luck and fertility. If anyone knows any folklore on the Banyan - please post it or email me!

My dreams last night were a bit odd. I was traveling with 2 other women and we were in an underground city - all white of course. There didn't appear to be any men and we were using secret passages to get around from one area to another. From the way people were acting - we were some sort of police or protectors of the city. I ran into our commander - an African American woman I do not know in real life - who instructed us to go to a certain sector. We arrive and a thin, blond hair woman wraps her pinky finger around mine (2 other woman do the same thing to my travel companions) - I go along with it thinking that this woman is in love with me or something and trying to figure out how to get away from her so that I can go do my job.

I get away from her (not sure how) and I end up in the large lunch room (all white) that I've had in several other dreams. There are men and women here. For some reason I am in a flannel shirt, blue jeans and work boots - walking with a slight limp (left leg messed up) past a series of shops located along the far wall in this lunch room. Everyone is watching me and I'm trying hard not to be noticeable. I enter into a shop and that is when I wake up. I couldn't tell you what all this means - at least not yet.

I did get to visit Bill - don't remember much except for him telling me that it's about time. I must of been late for our visit. I do remember waking up briefly after our encounter -- infused with love and peace. This is when I fell back to sleep and had the previously mentioned dream.

I was up and alive at 5:00 am for my walk and then I went and worked out. My body is pretty ticked at me - but it'll get over it. Today is booked pretty tight with readings - so I'm not sure I will have a chance to post more later tonight after my meditation. I have to fit in "Lost" tonight at 8:00 pm EDT - never miss that show:)

Until tomorrow...
Allie ;)

Boy could I use some sleep!

Every night for the last few years, Bill and I have had daily dream visits and OBE's. The last month, however, as our awareness expands, the visits last longer and take more energy leaving me drained during the day. Most of the visits I cannot remember exactly what takes place - but I know we're together. I know that we meet on the astral plane to comfort and love one another since it is impossible to currently do on the physical plane. But our nights are also comprised of school. I know that every single night for the last couple of months, I have traveled to a spiritual school of all white. There are elders, guides and angels teaching me. What drives me crazy is that I cannot conscious remember what happens - only that I was there.

I thought that it might help my sleep if I started to get up early in the morning and walk. I used to do this all the time until last Sept and my 1st trip to CA took place - then winter and then CA again. I was determined to get my old schedule back - so I got up this morning at 5:00 am. Good God I'm tired! But I did get some work done - which is a bonus:) I finally made some head way with my Dead Zone script. The sooner I get the DZ script done - the sooner I can finish gypsy magic book #1.

I wanted to meditate with my manifestation crystal this evening, It was an odd but powerful session. My body felt like it did when I had my PLR and my mind was just as aware of my surroundings. But what I visualized this time is Bill and I first physical meeting. I emptied my mind so that I would go where the Divine wanted me to go - and this is what they showed me. After the flash of our meeting played out - I could sense him standing in front of me - tugging at my soul for an OBE. I tried to let go - I almost did - but my awareness heard my two cats Samantha and Darin running around like a bunch of kids (they are 9 and 8 years old respectively and act as if they were 1 or 2). I finally told him to give up, that I'd see him tonight in dreamland. So what does he say? To get my butt in gear and write this blog so I'll go to sleep. Talk about someone being impatient!

After taking a month off, I started back to my 3 x week weight training (with machines) on Monday - needless to say, my body is pretty pissed at me right now!

I think it's time I got some shut eye this evening. If you think of anything specifically that you want me to chat about in my daily blog - drop me an email or leave a comment here on the blog.

Until tomorrow...
Allie ;)

Another day - another breakthrough...

The breakthroughs keep coming - this is really great! Here's what I've learned about the past life I discovered during my regression in CA (check out "Where to Begin" - March 23 - for more information): We had a magical existence between the two of us, with much harmony, happiness, bliss, like that of a fairy tale existence. We had very little to work through, rather spending time enjoying one another, as our life was simple, it flowed effortlessly. Bill was very strong, and one that was devoted to me (as I to him) with his whole heart, and he served me, was by my side, and supported me. He was never very far from me, neither of us were able to take long journeys without the other, and the two of us shared a romantic life that was very beautiful, and harmonious. One of my births were rather difficult, there was a period of concern that I might not make it, but he never left my side, and he spoke to me though I was in a coma type state for several days. Bill cared for me always, and was very gentle and kind. There were many people around us always, sitting at our table, as the two of us entertained much and were entertaining. We had many servants in our life though we loved them as family, and were very good to the servants about our household. There was a time when Bill was injured, some type of injury to the leg, and I healed him through my love, and it was miraculous and a spiritually bonding experience.

The more I learn about our past lives the more I want to connect to him in this life. I have to remember to be patient and not push as if I push I will lose. The universe has it's own plan or destiny for us and what will come will come whether I sit back and do nothing or push myself into exhaustion. It is a real test of faith to let go and have trust in the Divine. Old habits die hard and I'm a doer and a planner so this is a new and hard path for me to travel. My daily goal is to connect to Bill, talk to him, let him know that I am here and will be for eternity. His aggravation and impatience at our separation grows daily and I have to reel it in before it interferes too much into his life (and my own).

I'm not sure what's more aggravating or mind bending - that I know who he is and where he is and I can't get to him - or - that he knows what I look like, but does not know my name or how to find me. No matter how many times I try to communicate the facts to the guy - he doesn't retain it. So I'm going to back off of the facts to see what happens.

My notes for the gypsy spell book on love keep falling onto my desk. I get the hint!

My son still has those horrible hives. The doctors are no help at all. This is something that I will have to take care of on my own.

Until tomorrow...
Allie;)

A regression and another hospital trip!

Last night was awesome! I became privy to more information on the past life where Bill was washing me down for my showing/funeral (see entry for March 27 for more information).

Here's the scoop:In this particular lifetime, the two of us were married partners, and our union was blessed by the monks in the temple and blessed by our families. Bill was a loving, gentle man, very respectful, kind, considerate, compassionate. He was a loyal and faithful husband, one with much honor and integrity. Bill became the head of his household, the head of the family at a very early age; he was quite wealthy, powerful, yet humble and kind, and very generous and merciful, understanding, and wise. He had many responsibilities in this lifetime. I was kind to all, known to love people, and the people loved me, as I was one with many divine qualities and merits. The two of us had four children, the oldest a son, and the other three beautiful daughters. The place where I was resting was a special building at the temple, as I was very wealthy, and this was a common practice at that time. Bill was washing and dressing me, and having time for private prayer, and he was chanting. He gave me much care and compassion in life, as well, at my death; he gave you much compassion and care. He knew that he would see me again as he knew that I would go into the light and return to be with him again. Rather than good-bye he was merely saying: "See you soon my dearest love".The qualities that describe Bill in this past life also describe him to a "T" in this current lifetime.

It's a good thing I woke up in a good mood as we had to head back to the ER today. Kyle developed hives on Friday that quickly spread to every orifice of his body. The itching was unreal - poor little dude. To the doctor we went on Friday - but on some medicine and said if you don't see an improvement by Monday - give us a call. Well, when Kyle woke up this morning - it was mind numbing how bad the hives looked. Tried to call the Pediatrician - got sent to the Cleveland Clinic's "Nurse on Call" where I kid you not - I was on hold for 30 min before I talked to a real person. The nurse said get him to the ER.. We get to the ER and the doctor there says hives - yes, life threatening - no. So....he gives some more meds and we are supposed to go back to Kyle's doctor in the morning who will send us to a Dermatologist. I can't think of what could have cause the hives (and swelling). Nothing out of the ordinary happened - no change in diet or anything. Doc's say he's allergic to something. I guess we'll have to see.

Until tomorrow...
Allie:)

So whatever happened to last week?

Beats the hell out of me! Last week was a blur of activity - I had many spiritual breakthroughs! The highlights I'll share with you below! Because of so much spiritual growth - last week was a very difficult time for me to concentrate. I was exhausted from my nightly OBE's.

Without further ado.....

1) I had a dream about a book. This book looked like a family history with family secrets. It was the same lavender color that was in my PLR - the color of my robe. I know that it deals with that lifetime. It opened in 3 parts. Emblazed on the front - there was a symbol in gold (or bronze), not sure what the symbol is as I only remember 1/3 from the right side of the cover. It reminds me of a large tree - but not sure what kind.

2) Wed night's meditation was interesting. Bill wasn't there when I arrived, so I decided to lie down in a beautiful field of wildflowers. Next thing I know - there he is - bending down and kissing me. We have a little chat - he's very tender, caressing my face and staring into my eyes. What we briefly discuss my sister giving him a note (more about the note later). A bright light rapidly approaches us from my right. It's Gabriel and she tells me to follow her.

We both think we've down something wrong - but we follow. We worry that the Divine has changed its mind. We enter into the massive tree we traveled in during our "merging" ceremony. We are alone in the elevator - it speeds rapidly upwards. By the time we stop, both of us are in tears - still very frightened that we've done something wrong.

The doors open and the light (as before) is blinding. Everyone is there that was at the ceremony - all of our guides and angels. God tells us to kneel, face one another and grasp hands. Bill tries to communicate an apology - God says that is not needed. He encloses Bill and I into a white bubble of protection light. He then proceeds to give his blessing of our physical reunion. He is full of love and confidence (which he transmit to us) when he says that we are now ready for our earthly tasks. With that - I can feel a kiss on the top of my head and then everyone is gone.

Bill says he has to go - gives me a big kiss and leaves. I end my mediation.

The dreams I had Wed night are very confusing and I really don't remember much. I know that at one point I swallowed a small mirror that I had a hard time getting down my throat. In the previous dream I had a male admirer with short red hair that would not leave me a lone - he was stalking me and no one would help me - including my husband. I couldn't locate Bill (probably because this dream occurred later in the night/morning and he was awake).

The feeling I had in my chest for teh day was one that transmited fear and excitability. I could tell it's not my feelings - but Bill's - and the feelings stem from the meditation Wed night. He's not sure what to believe - but he wants to believe what he saw with all his heart. My nerves feel like they are located on the outside of my body (they still do today - Sat) - it is a very weird feeling.

3) About the note - The next gig that Bill has in Calif (which should be towards the end of the year - maybe end of summer), my sister has agreed to go to it and hand Bill a short note from me - with my phone number. He'll recognize the number as I'm sending it to him daily until this time. I'll also have items in it that only I could know.

I had a flash of a time shift after this realization - she hands him the letter, he opens it and scans it. In the note - I offer to have my sister call my number, this way I don't need to know what number he is calling from. Next thing I know, he's asking me when will I get out there. He has his assistant book me the next flight. I arrive at Burbank CA at 3:30 - 4:30 am. A limo is there to pick me up and he is in the limo. Things move very fast from the moment he gets the note until we meet.

I already talked to my sister and she has eagerly agreed to be the messenger.

This is in sync with the things I've been sensing but not knowing why: some one else is who makes the initial connection and everything moves at a rapid pace. The Divine is opening the door for me and I'm walking through.

All of this before I did my nightly meditation.

4) Tues medatation: During meditation, Bill apologized for being such a crazy, emotional person. A very loving and physical apology :) But then he launched into him wanting me to find him. He was screaming his requests for our physical meeting. After I calmed him down - I told him about not relying on others and I'm trying to get him to memorize my phone number. I had him repeat it several times and "write" it on his hand. He left and my angel Gabriel appeared and told me that now we're on track. Our requests have been received and approved - it is time to move forward.

5) Monday night: In the kitchen, I felt lips brush against mine. The energy charge that went through me was amazing - same charge as when I discovered Bill and then the stone. Per par - I felt very ill, right away. But this time - when the sickness passed (only lasted a few seconds as opposed to many minutes) my energy was very high strung and nervous. Kind of like excitably energy with my nerve ending on top of my skin. Plus I have headaches and it feels as if I'm light and floating. I was very tired - but after this jolt, I am wide awake.

I asked for clarity and received that it was Ted first and then Bill. Since Ted couldn't have found me on his own - Bill must of led.

Whew - and these are just the highlights! I wonder what'll happen this week!

Take care!
Allie :)