New Orleans, A Glimpse of the Future and What Scares Me!

I'm still sick - dog gone it all. Heading to the doctor's later today. On to today's session. I sat with only my healing wand and a request to go where I was most needed. I arrive, I know it is in New Orleans because of the water and the stench of raw sewage and death. The odor is out of this world. I hear a male voice tell me to close my eyes and place my hands above the water. I am to direct light into the water and the water will take it where it needs to go. The water is up to my waist, so my hands do not have to go far to reach the water. I'm having a hard time closing my eyes as I watch the dead float by. What I want to do is to throw up. The voice again says - very calm - to shut my eyes. So I did.

I can feel the energy hit the top of my head, travel through my body and out my hands. I stand there for what seems like forever, when I slowly open one eye. I can see a lighter color water from around me - merging with the darker color water as the light travels. There comes a point when I have to put my arms down - I'm too tired to continue. Brigit arrives and tells me its time to go. I start to say - but I can't. She interrupts by saying there is only so much one person can do. I give her my hand.

We emerge in my meadow. I ask what are we doing here. She says that there are a few things that we need to go over. She walks towards what looks like a large birdbath. The closer I get - the more I realize it is the same round structure that I saw in Atlantis - made from moonstone. The same markings are on it. I ask her why is this here? She replies that there are some things that I must see and since I used this in my past - I am permitted to use it now. I thought to myself - wow - not only was I a high priestess, healer, but also a seer (as I am typing this - the loudest ringing went off in my right ear. A sign or communications from my angels that I am on the right path). All that is in it is water.

Brigit asks - what do you see? I could see me at a book signing, another book signing with Bill and Ted being goofballs, me at the computer and Bill putting me down a mug of hot tea with a kiss on my head, me in a hospital - visiting people and placing my hands on them and lastly - Bill and I in a room with more people than I could count standing outside. My heart started to race and I pulled back.

Brigit says - see? I said see what? The people - that is what is holding you back. The fear of so many people coming to you. I reply that yes - that does unnerve me greatly. So many people with hope and prayers in their hearts coming to me and Bill for help. I can't help them all. Brigit says - no you can't - but you can help many. You cannot help everyone - no one can. Your fear stemming from this is what you must work on. This is the blockage.

Bill is at my side - he kisses me on my cheek. He chimes in - this is my blockage as well. Brigit says her good-byes and leaves.

Bill grabs my hand and we walk. I can hear the birds chirping - its all so nice. He asks so how is my wife doing? I reply, not so good today. I don't feel so good. He stops walking and turns me to face him. He says: I know that I have been lacking or putting off many things lately. I've neglected my family, my friends, you, my animals and my writing. I've been too busy doing other things that I thought were important. I nod - as I understand. My writing. I've got to get back to my writing - and so do you. This is our foundation - our stronghold that we will have to fall back on when things get to overwhelming. When too many want or need our help - we are going to need an outlet other than one another. And our writing is it.

He tells me to stand still. He places his hands on my chest and sends white light into me. I can feel the heat - reminds me of Vicks - penetrating my chest and moving throughout my body. Once he was done I did feel better - although my throat is still kicking my butt.

He kisses me all so gently - very nice. We need to get back to our roots he says. I nod in agreement. I kiss his hand. We both look at each other and smile. He says one final note - it'll all work out, I promise. With that - he disappears and I wake up.

Hope you all have a great day!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Katrina, I'm Sick and Bill and the Blog!

I'm pretty sick today. Horrible sore throat, congestion and some sinus issues with a body that is feeling pretty hollow. I tried to go to bed last night at an early time. It didn't do me a damn bit of good. I woke up every 30 - 40 min. All night long until 6:00 am. I then tried to nap - HA! Same thing happened. My mind is racing - but I don't know what over. There wasn't anything pressing or upsetting to me as I fell asleep. I suppose that either Bill or Ted had their mind racing last night and I tapped into them. I remember none of the dream visits - except one that had to do with hotel keys. Not sure what or why - just the keys.

I wasn't sure if I was going to do a session today - because of me feeling under the weather and poor Cindy is in the path of Katrina. If you could send some light to her and her family - they are about 60 miles from New Orleans - east. I could have tapped into her last night and all of her worry. Extra light her way would be really great if you could do it - thanks!

I sat with my healing wand today along with my stone from Malibu. I love this stone. It hummed so sweet in my left hand. It'll be difficult to give her back to Bill when the time comes - as I'm only the caretaker. But at least I know she won't be far from me:)

In my meditative sate - I found myself smack dap in the eye of Katrina. Thankfully the eye is calm:) But I could see all the wind, water and debris whipping around me. I'm high up - I place my hands out and light comes out of my hands to hit the gulf coast. I don't think I've ever taken in such a wide space before to send light. I can see the beams concentrate on the Superdome in New Orleans - there is a panic inside and I'm trying to protect the outside from the winds. I send light for what feel like a few minutes when Brigit arrives and tells me its time to go. I ask her how can I go now? She says because I'm only one there are limits to what I can do and if I try to succeed my limits - I will only get weak. Made sense to me. I grabbed her hand and away we went.

I am now looking at Bill. He doesn't feel to be at home - but still at a place where he is comfortable and relaxed. He's at a table - I see a pen and a journal, and a few papers. If I look outside it appears that the sun is setting. It's really quite beautiful where he is. I keep being shown a lot of ice - not entirely sure what that means unless he's in Iceland. He goes to the bed and papers are scattered all over it. I look at Brigit and ask if I can go over to look and she says yes I can. I move over to where Bill is on the bed and sit next to him. He tilts his head (like you do when you are looking out of the corner of your eye) and rubs his neck. Then I hear him say - sure wish you were a little more solid. I look at the papers and they are fresh print outs of my blog. I can tell because I see one with yesterday's date.

In a blink of an eye I am watching Bill and Ted hug - they are very happy to see one another. Clive comes up from behind and jumps on the two, and then Frank shows up and it is one happy reunion. By what they are wearing - looks to be the event they all attend in Sept.

Things fast forward and I can see the guys go through their day until the end where they are all relaxing together with a few beers. They are catching up on old times when Ted rubs his chin a few times - like he's debating something. He then says to everyone - have you ever had dreams about someone and you know who they are, but you don't KNOW who they are? Bill says - oh sure. Clive - from the couch (looks to be almost passed out) says me too and Frank agrees. Then Ted says - but what if you see that same person during the day - I mean you think you see her. The men all agree - Bill is looking at him with suspicion. Then Bill says - this happens to me daily. Ted is relieved and asks what does she look like? Bill says - I never told you that it was a she.

Frank chimes in that it's a she and so does Clive. Bill and Ted decide to do a sketch of this woman. I'm just beside myself because I know it's me. Brigit grabs my arm and tells me its time to go. I take my arm back and say that I want to see this. She says - no - I'm not supposed to. Just then Bill and Ted are done and they hold up the pictures - of me. They are stunned - Frank and Clive included. Ted asks if they know her. You can tell Bill is wrestling with this question - he finally says no. Frank looks at him with a raised eyebrow and so does Clive. But Ted doesn't notice - he just stares at the picture.

I turn to Brigit - why did he lie? He knows who I am. Brigit is pulling me away saying I am not to interfere. I keep trying to go back saying - he lied! Brigit replies that Bill does not want to share me with Ted yet - he needs to meet me first and then see what happens. She pulls me out of there and into a blank space.

In the blank space she sends me healing light and tells me not to worry. For me to go back and to take care of myself.

Then I wake up...

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Ted's Flannel Shirt & Something Feels Familiar!

I just realized one thing - that the flannel shirt Ted was wearing in my dream wasn't a shirt - but a red flannel jacket. My husband's jacket. Hit me when I saw the jacket hanging up earlier. What in the world does that mean?

Just watched the evening news. Usually I watch ABC - but tonight I watched the NBC nightly news and the whole broadcast (hurricane, Iraq, gas prices) was all dejavu. My feeling about the 28th, me getting sick - I remember all of it as if I already lived it all. The only problem is that I cannot remember the significance of this date...

I've also come to realize that I am getting sick when there is stress someplace in the world - a major stress. I've been sick on and off since the Iraq war - actually since Sept 11th. Now with the hurricane Katrina - it's coming on again.

I'm going to see if I can join the local chapter of the Red Cross as a Disaster Action Team members - responding to crisis locally and possibly nationally, 24 hours a day, 365 days a year...it just feels right.

Off to gargle some salt water and off to bed. This is going to be an early night!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine,
Allie;)

No Contact, A Sad Ted and Today's the 28th!

No phone calls - no emails - nadda. However, there was a great deal of activity with people going back to the beginning of the blog and looking through yesterday. Quite a bit of activity - it surprised me.

Here it is the 28th, the day that has been centermost in my mind for the last month. I wonder if what I've been sensing has been the hurricane? I'm very ancy today. I still can't pinpoint what's going to happen. But I know when I go to bed tonight that something would have changed - I will have changed - and I will not be the same person. I just wish I knew what was going to shift.

I had some interesting dreams last night. Had my son not jumped on me this morning I would have remembered more (as I would have written them down) but as it is it's been a few hours since I got up!

The places I visited I've been to before - they were familar to me. Everything is now in fragments - but it flowed like a story in the dream visit.

I can remember showing up in a crowded area - outside - reminds me of a courtyard in Rome or Atlantis (but this is in the present). I'm with both Bill and Ted. We each arrived separately - and we are happy to see one another. I don't know how it happens, or why - but Bill and I split from Ted.

I am then by myself wondering a crowed street and I run into an old childhood friend who I've been in contact with over the last several years (he's in WY now as a fire chief) he's a good friend, love the man, but we are only friends. Anyways - a few people I graduated with pass me by and I see my friend. We hug. I'm am sooo happy to see him. It's been too long. I take him to see my mom in her house or maybe it's an outdoor gathering place - but it's not her house in the real world. At first she doesn't recognize him - but then she remembers. They chat.

Off I see Ted, by himself. He is getting ready to do some work. He is dressed in a red flannel checkered shirt - looks really good. But when he sees me his eyes are so sad. He acts like he really doesn't know me at all. He gives me a half smile and walks away.

I'm then with the women from the series "Charmed". But they are not their characters - but themselves. A reporter is talking to Alyssa Milano and Shannen Doherty. The other two "sisters" are there as well. I approach them and ask what's going on. Shannen wearily says something about the interview. I'm like - are you crazy? I look at Holly Marie Combs and tell her to freeze the reporter (this is her power in the show). She's like - I can't do that! I reply - the hell you can't. Now do it!

She freezes him. Alyssa runs over to his notepad and there is stuff in there that they do not want the public to know. So they take it. It's placed on the ground. I look at it and it goes up in flames. I then tell Shannen to move him to the side of the road. She uses her TV powers and moves him. Now - not sure why - but just before he unfreezes - I look at him and I turn him into a mighty oak tree. This tree is huge and it's next to the road. He unfreezes as a tree and we can hear the tree moan. It sounds like when the wind whips through the leaves. I know that we won't leave him like that forever.

I'm back to seeing Ted. I can see Bill in the distance with a group of people. Ted is sitting with a group of people. I talk to him. The conversation is guarded. It's like we do not know one another - but we do. We are each watching what we say to the other. His eyes still have that wounded look - but he won't tell me what's wrong.

I see the ladies from "Charmed" again. Seems they all have new acting gigs and from what I gather - so do I. We mention what we're doing - but I don't remember what it is. Everywhere I look is the same white Rome/Atlantis feel to it. Ted passes me in that same flannel shirt. I reach out and touch him. He ignores the touch and keeps moving.

Next thing I cam remember is that he is with my best friend. I can remember the pain in my heart as I watched the two of them together. Ted looks at me and his eyes just rip right into my soul. There is so much pain that I can feel from him.

I'm at my home with my husband. There are many people at the dinner table - Bill included. Ted and my best friend show up - we are all surprised. Her family is there as well. I clear off two places. Hubby places Ted next to me. I'm confused - I ask - are you sure. He says - yes. Ted sits down and I say that it is good to see him. His hand covers mine and he replies that it is good to see me too.

Then I wake up.

I'm thinking that the pain I felt with him and my friend being together (and BTW - this isn't the 1st dream visit were they have been an item) is the pain he feels with Bill and I being together - or will feel once we are all reunited in the physical sense. As far as using magic goes or why Bill stayed away or even why my husband let Ted sit next to me is a baffle.

I have a heavy heart today. I actually went to bed with it and I had hoped it would go away come morning. I really wish someone could do something to help and to remove the last obstacles. I guess its my turn to feel low. I'll snap out of it - I don't have a choice:)

Until tommorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

The Almighty P**** and a Heavenly Marriage!

Oh my good God! That is all I can say about this session.

He has been center most in my thoughts since the time I woke up this morning. During my morning walk - Archangels Michael and Gabriel were both by my side. I asked them how Bill was going and such a chill went through my body - the hair stood up on my arms! I said - he's healed? And they smiled. They showed me him in bed, with a smile on his face. He was mumbling my name.

Then all morning I have had chills up my back and on my neck. He has been around touching me - caressing me. It's been maddening! But - I haven't complained - not a once. I did say "you're back" and I felt a kiss on my lips.

Right before today's session I kept hearing him call my name. I told him to be patient. I'm working on it.

I enter into what seems to be an all white room. He's there - pacing. He sees me and runs to me, scoops me up in his arms and gives me the most amazing kiss. He's keeps saying I'm sorry - I'm so sorry. He is guiding me backwards and I feel my legs hit a bed. I ask him - where are we? He replies - does it matter? Of course it doesn't! I ask him what has gotten into him - he says that he just feels terrific. That the doubt and blackness is gone - he doesn't know how or why, but he's grateful.

He pushes me back on the bed and I stop him. He's like what? I say - hold on a second. I flip him over so he's on his back and I'm straddling him (we are both still clothed - BTW) and he's like - now this is more like it! I shook my head. Told him to close his eyes. He smirks and follows my orders. I place my hands on his chest and send white light in - the current is so strong going through my body to his that I have a difficult time holding my ground. The energy and love that poured into him was simply Divine (pun intended). I can see only a few puffs of black smoke come out of him. I then lean down and kiss him all so soft. He grabs me and WOW - can I say passionate! The rest is XXX so I'll leave it out - use your imagination.

Nothing - and I mean nothing has been so intense as that love making session. If this is anything close to how it will be in the physical world...I may just have to worship the almighty penis and then I think about his mouth......whew...cold shower time!

We get off the bed. He looks at me - all so serious and asks - marry me? I told him that he needs to contact me first! He replies - no, right here right now. On the spiritual plane? He says yes. That this may for once and for all push away all the doubt and uncertainty that clouds both of our minds. That makes sense to me. So I ask him - are we going to repeat this on the physical plane? He smiles and says you bet your sweet ass we will.

In the blink of an eye we are standing in front of Jesus and he is marrying us. Archangels Michael and Gabriel were the witnesses as well as all of the angelica realm could be seen as far as one could look in any direction. After he pronounces us eternal husband and wife - Jesus kisses us both and tells us that we have the love and the support of the Divine. With that everyone is gone.

I ask him where is every one? He's says he placed a barrier around us so that Cindy, Ted and Clive could not get through. He wanted no interruptions!

We go back to bed - more XXX and deleted scenes.

After we are finished we are wrestling around and I ask again - when is he going to call me? He tells me tonight. I tell him not to tease - it's not very nice. He gets pulled away from me. He's cussing to himself - we both know that someone is waking him up. I yell at him if he read the blog and he smiles. With that he's gone and I wake up.

I'm guessing here that the white light from y'all last night helped! Thank you!! Let's hope he stays on the up and doesn't sink back down again. My energy field can't take that kind of anger and despair again for awhile.

Now fingers crossed that he actually does call or fax - or write. Heck - I don't care how just as long as he does!

Whew - I'm going to have a difficult time focusing on anything today but that session!

Until tomorrow (or maybe later today)...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

FYI - Friend of Bill's :)

Just an FYI. Found a good friend of Bill's at Myspace.com (me: http://www.myspace.com/askallie ). Dropped him a note as I know he'll be at the same place as Bill will be at in Sept. This particular person is also part of our/my soul circle - so I hope he at least responds with a "Hi" back.

He may write back - may see my picture and wonder why I look vaguely familar. After Bill, Ted and Clive - he is next in line for the amount of visions/dreams that he's been in with either just me - or us.

I need to give him a name when I talk about him. How about Frank? Yeah - that sounds good -Frank:)

One dream I had with him - I was in an old convertable car, light blue. Me and my Grams P (who was deceased at the time) were riding in the back. Up to our left was another convertable car - with Bill at the wheel. I look over at Grams and say that he is the one who will take care of me for the rest of my life. Grams said are you sure? Frank turns around (he was driving) and says - you betcha:)

Anyways - we'll see if he writes. You never know until you try :)

Have a great night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Bill's Anger, Ted's Love and a Plea for Help!

Bill's anger bothers me. It bothers me so much because I don't know where it's coming from or why he is directing it at me. I haven't done anything to deserve the anger - at least as far as I know. So I asked Cindy how her session went yesterday and she sent me this:

"Again I am arguing with Bill and this time I am telling him to stop being a victim. He gets mad and throws these three crystals at me. He says they do not work. I tell him they do work but he needs to bless them. He says for me to do it. I tell him he needs to have his energy on them. I do not touch his crystals and he is mad.

Then Ted walks in and he says pick up your crystals. Mine are working. I talked to her in my dreams.

Bill picks up the crystals and his face lights up and light is all around him and the crystals.

Then you appear above us in a bubble like light form and you have your wand and you bless Bill and then he steps into the bubble with you and the two of you disappear.

Ted and I laugh and say we know what you two will be doing.

We decide to make a potion to bring the two of you together. We make something using a formula in a book that I have with me. Ted has something of yours and I have something of Bill's and we say a chant like spell using this recipe. Then we see the bubble again and you are inside of Bill's body as we see your eyes through his. He says, cool, huh?

That was it."

Pretty darn interesting seeing that I've been having dreams of Bill's anger as well. What is also amazing about her session is that she does not do magic (in this lifetime) so her performing magic at all is really quiet cool.

I ask Cindy to do a reading for me on the guys. I want to try to gauge where Ted is in regards to me and his spiritual development as well as figure out what in the hell is wrong with Bill.

Here's the reading:

As you delve into the immense Universe, seeking spiritual insight, thus, your requests for spiritual guidance are received in Spirit and answered unto ye soul without delay. We see that Bill is on his great journey, and as he travels the soul is thus becoming somewhat weary and tired, and enduring opposition emotionally, and as he endures inner turmoil and feelings of hopelessness he somewhat shuts down and closes himself mentally. There is somewhat of a division and need for emotional and spiritual upliftment, healing and light, as his energy field, is quite low and in need of protection. There are feelings of despair, lowness of spirit. His thoughts are constantly racing, and he tries to reach out and is unable to reach out and then thoughts, feelings of despairing come and he misinterprets the problems feeling as though no one is reaching back and it is his blockage, and we see that he is in need of removing such emotional blocks. It is important that he remove doubts in all forms, and he is the supreme healer in this turmoil.

His memories and visions are clear, though he is questioning much and he is longing, yearning for physical connection and fulfillment of promise of happiness, and his soul is feeling torn apart, incomplete, and his gentle, yet complex nature desires what he desires which you is and which is now. There is a feeling of despair, hopelessness, as he feels that you are disconnecting. He feels that he has tried to reach out to you but you do not reply. It is a misconception on his part; his thoughts are grounded in the basement of the lower self. This doubt, despair, insecurity about the future, needs to be left in the basement, with padlocks on the doors, and he is in needing of rising to the freedom and certainty of the Higher Self, his vibrations need to rise to meet you. He feels that he contacts you in codes, those from the past, and you do not decipher them or you do not answer fast enough.

Ted is risen above earth bound concerns, and problems, and his energy and spirit are alive and well, renewed, connected completely and he is taking in and absorbing your energy and light. He sees your beauty and truth and takes it into his being. He holds his visions of you, thinks of you passionately, with warmth and openness, tenderly and beckons to you. He knows that you are a goddess of beauty and he calls out to you, summons you in his thoughts and consciously connects to you. A portal has opened for his connection to you and he is happy for this connection and mindful, grateful for the capacity to see into your soul and to connect to you and be with you if only in visions, dreams, and through meditation. He is relaxed, open and ready to continue to blend with the very essence of your soul and he sees you as a sage, a guide, a beautiful spirit of his past and one that he feels quite hopeful is part of his current reality and soon.

We see that Bill is reading the blog and he is consciously reading and absorbing what he is reading. We see that he prints the information and reads it repeatedly. He feels he has tried contacting you, that he has reached out to you, but that you are not responding on the physical plane, but this is not truth, this is clouded by his negative state and emotional and mental blocks of energy. He is low of energy. He is operating on a lower frequency of light. The soul needs desperately to rise to a higher consciousness and to have clear thinking to release doubt and all lower natures and fears of intimacy and fears of closeness, and to come forward without fear, to be persistent, to rise above this place, to keep his head in this situation and to contact you again. He is in need of connecting to truth that you have proven yourself faithful in many instances in this lifetime and others, and that you will be there for him no matter what. We see that he is afraid of losing you of being lost of being without you and he needs to know that you will not leave him as long as you live, and that you will not hurt him. He wants to explore you physically, mentally, and spiritually and to be with you to know that this is true, not something that he is imagining.

There is one who interferes, a female energy, one that is quite wounded, and causes wounds to those whom she touches, this one is negative, and is not one that helps the wounded like you, and this person is not acting on his behalf but on their own agenda. This female is of no concern but does bring negative energy around him. He needs to separate from her energy as it is causing interference.

End of Reading

Okay Bill - you need to try to contact me again. Not in code or telepathically - on the phone. Pick it up and call 330.264.9977 and I'll answer. If I don't answer than voice mail will pick up and I'm the only one who can listen to the messages. Leave me something - anything. I'm as desperate - as hungry - as you to have a physical meeting. So pick up the phone, call, and let's meet so that we can get on with the work the Divine has entrusted to us. I know that in Sept you will be one hour - yes one stinkin hour away from me by plane. You call - and I'm there. It's just that simple.

Lady who is causing negative energy. Please-please-please back off. If not for yourself - then do it because of your love for Bill. Do it because you know he wants to be happy - that he deserves to be happy. Do it for the people he can help - will help - once we are together. Just do it.

Everyone else who reads this blog - I need a big favor from you and from any healing circles you belong to. Can you please send Bill energy, light and love tonight and tomorrow? He needs to be lifted out of the darkness and into the light so that we can unite and do our work. I know that if you saw Bill on the street that you would not recognize him (as my Bill) but think of his name - reach out for his energy. Center in on his steel blue eyes. Center in on his wonderful, kind soul. Won't you and your friends please help? I'm not good at asking for help and I'm even worse at begging. But I implore you to please help.

Bill - please call.

Thank you!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

A FREE Book, the Teepee and a Fight with Bill!

Today I sat with my healing wand and a wonderful piece of raw Alexandrite. I actually expected to head to Atlantis today - but that wasn't the case.

I entered into a void - a big open space of nothing but white. In it, Bill is pacing back and forth. I touch his shoulder and say Hi. He turns to me - his face is red and he has a vein popping out on his neck - all from anger. I asked him what was wrong. He explodes and says I'm what's wrong.

Confused..I ask what did I do? He screams at me, "Nothing. That's the whole point!"

I stand there with my mouth open (very uncharacteristic of me) and he paces again - using his hands to accent points.

"You know where to find me. You have my phone number. You know where I work. But are you here? NO! This is bull shit - BULL SHIT!"

As calm as I can me - I concentrate on keeping my voice steady as I reply, "You're Bill. One doesn't simply pick up the phone, place a call and get you."

"Why not?" He yells back.

"You have people. People in place so that you are not bothered. I can't get through!"

He takes a deep breath. "Have you tried?"

I shake my head - "No".

"Then how do you know?" He asks.

I sigh. "I don't. But you know where to find me - you have my phone number and I answer my own phone. I have no "people" it's just me. How do you think it makes me feel that you've done nothing? Do you think that I feel rejected? You betcha. Do you think I'm hurt -- angry? You bet your sweet ass I am."

From the right - here walks Ted. All smiles. He chimes in "One simple way to avoid this is to come to me."

Both Bill and I turn to Ted and yell "No!"

Ted shrugs and takes a step back.

I turn back to Bill "Look - I don't like this any more than you do. So pick up the damn phone - ok?"

He manages a weak smile and pulls me into his arms - almost cutting off my air supply with the tightness of his embrace.

Off behind Bill I can see a white light. We all turn to look at it - all comment what is it? When it completely surrounds us and sucks us in. Next thing I know we are in my meadow. Off to the right I can see the lake/river we were in before. We walk over to it and in the distance I see that teepee and the woman is standing in front - waving us over. I'm not in the mood to go. Bill starts to take off his clothes to jump in and so does Ted. I ask them both that we're in a meditation - why do we have to take our clothes off to get in?

Bill tells Ted "She's tired of seeing us naked already." I chime in "Hardly". So I follow suit and jump in naked into the water. The water feels really cool and refreshing against my skin.

The next thing I remember is that we three are getting white and red lines and pictures painted on us. I really don't remember what - except of two white arrow points - each pointing in opposite directions with the bottom end of one touching the top end of the other. I can see some wavy lines and streaks of red coming from the corners of our eyes.

Someone is smudging us with sage. We are being told that we have too much negativity in our environments and this is what is keeping us separate. The Shaman (or Medicine Man - depending on what you want to call him) begins a chant. I can feel (and see) all three of us levitate, merge into one person and then separate and return to the ground.

We were then told to go back and resume our mission.

Then I woke up - with bolts of energy running through my body. Too cool!

I think that it is so interesting that Native Americans are entering into the meditations. I know that Bill has a huge interest in Native American culture and its people. Not too sure about Ted.

I had something really interesting happen to me yesterday:

Yesterday morning as I was going through one of my mental - I can't stand being away from Bill any longer - cries...I asked my angels for a sign. Any sign to show me that I'm on the right path and that he and I will meet soon. I'm asked what do I want for sign? I joked and said "well him".

A few hours pass and I get an envelope in the mail from my sister. I open it up - and it's an article about Bill.

I got my sign :)

I decided to offer a free book along with my "Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul" book. It's a 3400+ pg Book of Shadows. This thing is huge and covers a lot of magic material. I know that gas prices are high and that causes everything else to go high - so I thought I'd offer people something more for their money. Thus far it's been well- received.

What hasn't been well- received is the mailing list that I use for GGP updates. It's amazing - you tell people NOT to hit the reply button if they have a problem (instead giving another email address to use) and what do people do? Hit reply. So I've got people who want to unsub hitting reply and then people hitting reply wondering why they are getting the unsuib messages? So you tell everyone not to do it AGAIN and what happens? Yep - again they hit the reply button. I've got the setting on the mailing list correct - but it takes a bit for an update.

Back to work I go! It's such a nice day out that I'd love to go play hooky! I just may later:)

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

A Future Phone Call, A Trip and a Press Release!

I took my flowers essence right before I began the session - instead of either afterwards or just the once in the morning. I sat with my healing wand and my astrophyllite sphere with garnet. The vibrations that traveled through my left hand was awesome! made my hand very tingly!

I entered as an observer to Bill and his son fishing on a lake. They are having a good time. Joking around and very much at ease. I can sense Bill's relief with this. Then hsi son turns a bit somber and says "I think you should contact her dad." Bill takes a drag off his cigarette, flicks it out, exhales and then turns to look at his son. Bill asks, "are you sure?" He says "Yes. You deserve to be happy." Bill grasps his son's face and replies, "you know that nothing will be the same again after I make that call - nothing." He nods, some tears trickle from his eyes "I love you" he says. Bill hugs him tight.

Still in observer mode - I see me sitting at the computer. I try to see what I'm wearing - it looks to be sweat pants and a sweat shirt, my hair is down and it's dark outside, the windows are open. This tells me that it must be fall, it's at night before I get my shower. The phone rings - I look at my caller id and the look on my face is one of puzzlement. I watch myself pick up the phone and push a button (which tells me that the call must of come through the privacy manager) and I say softly "holey shit". I try to remain calm and I say "good evening, this is Allie." Then I watch myself sit there and all of a sudden tears are streaming down my face. I already know what is happening before "I" can say anything. But me on the phone comments "I'm not dreaming? -pause- No one's astral projecting?" Then I laugh.

Brigit arrives to my right and I look at her. She nods. I smile. There is a light behind her and she takes my hand.

I am now still an observer but I'm watching me on a plane. I have my headphones on, listening to my iPod and staring out the window. So I tell me - to grab my journal and write this down. I have to repeat several times - but me finally listens to "me":)

Now I'm in an airport bathroom, changing into a new sweatshirt. I'm on my cell phone - talking to Nicole I think - and I'm going down the escalator - I can tell I'm in LAX. The observer "me" can see Bill standing off in the distance. So I'm yelling at me to put the phone down and look! I glance over and watch "me" see him. I can hear me say - "I'll call you back" into the phone and I close it. Then I double time it down the escalator and over to him. He is wearing an Underdog sweat shirt and from behind his back he shows me a Polly sweat shirt - he flashes me a heart stopping smile. I stop short of reaching him. So observer me is telling me to get my butt in gear - what am I waiting for? Him and I then hug tight and I'm feeling his face like I cannot believe I'm there.

There's movement by me (the observer) and I see Ted. He is looking fine with tousled hair, his fab-o green eyes. Then he gives me that kick @ss smile:) I ask him what's he doing here? He replies that he could sense that I was hear - so he came to see me. He gives me a kiss and comments that I should be in his arms, not Bill's. I roll my eyes and tell him that he is going to have to get over it.

We chat some and I ask him if he and Bill talked about me yet. He says briefly. I tell him to get on a plane and go to LA. He's like what? I say to get his tush in gear and go see him. He comments - maybe. I tell him that I just released a book on love spells an that he should buy it for his oldest daughter. He smiles and says that her love life is exactly where he likes it - low key. But - I say - that by buying it you may trigger a memory about our chat now into your consciousness.

I tell him to shoo and to get busy! He laughs, gives me a kiss and tells me that he'll see me later.

I turn to Brigit and say that I should be going when I see another light and out steps Jesus. He embraces me and tells me that I'm not using my healing gift like I should and that I need not ignore it, but use it to strengthen it. He wants me to send healing light daily to someone. I agree. He tells me that he is proud of me for working on my books. That the books are a needed step. He then kisses the top of my head and tells me to go home to start my work.

With that - I wake up.

I sold a few "Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul" books over the weekend - it was nice:) I have a press release about the book that seems to be doing well. As of right now it has had 31,714 reads with an estimated pickup of 237 (by media outlets). So we'll see if this helps at all:)

Took super snoop to the vet today. His mouth is healing fine - but now there is a chance he could have Cushing's disease. So I have to drop him off on Thursday for some tests. Poor little guy:(

I revamp "The Black Triangle" for I hope the last time and sent it off to the IFP/LA Producer's Lab for hopeful inclusion into the workshop. Fingers crossed! I'm also resubmitting to the Roy W. Dean writing grant that would take me to NZ for a month if I won. Fingers and toes crossed on this one:)

I have that feeling that something is going to happen today. What? Not sure.

Best get back to work! Much to do.

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Book Release, Weird Session and Flower Essences!

Wow - today was weird! Starting Wed afternoon, I started to my combo of flower essences (wild oat, lotus, forget-me-not and mugwart) to help with dream/mediation travel and recall. And boy has it helped. I could feel my soul being tugged on the entire time today. In fact - at one point it exited my physical body, I turned and looked and popped right back in.

I felt very light and airy this entire session.

For today's session I sat with my healing wand and the Astrophyllite sphere with garnet.

I entered in Ted's flat. He was smoking a cigarette and reading a newspaper. He sighs, puts down the newspaper and picks up the phone. He calls Bill. I'm in Bill's office and his assistant is taking a message.

I next see Bill sitting in the woods, his back against a tree, writing poems in his journal. Next to him is a small hole that he is using for an ashtray. Grass around the "ashtray" has been removed and the area is safe with his smoking. A few words that I can remember in the journal are "shards of glass - tumble - from my heart to cut my soul."

I now see him sitting Indian style on a small cliff - just a few steps from where he was sitting before. I start to walk over - but a hand grabs my arm and it's Brigit. She shakes her head no and pulls me to the light.

We emerge in my meadow and I ask why couldn't I talk to him? She replies that it's good for me to summon them - make them come to the meadow. So we sit down and I start to mentally call out their names. I can "see" Bill lie back and close his eyes. Ted fights the call for a bit - but then he too lies down on his couch.

Before I know it they are both there. I get a couple of great kisses and we all comment on how cool it was that they could hear me. Bill grabs my hand and us three are now in a Spanish style house. The one I have seen from past visions. I am walking across the wooden floor towards the kitchen. Out the sliding glass doors is a pool and my son has on the float devices you put on your arms. He, Bill and Ted are splashing around in the pool. I go to the door and call them in for lunch.

Us three are back in the meadow and they are each giving me a kiss bye with a promise to visit again tonight.

Then I wake up.

The past few nights after taking my flower essences - the dream visit have been wild and very vivid. But strangely enough I wake up refreshed. As soon as my head hits the pillow I can feel my soul wanting to jump out and travel.

My son, I started his essence and today when I dropped him off - not one bit of a problem. Nothing - nadda! I LOVED IT!

Well - it's official - I released my book:) I'm tickled! So far it's doing well. Check it out at:
http://www.gypsygirlpress.net/gypsy_magic_for_the_lovers_soul.htm

Back to work I go - so much to do!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Roma Children, Flower Essences and Interesting Activity!

I've had some interesting activity on the blog in the last 24 hours. There are a couple of people real interested in what I have to say - I'm flattered. If you have any questions about what I've written or if you're lost at to what is going on (very easy to do if you are not a regular reader) - you can either post it here (you can stay anonymous) or email me at alllie@gypsyadvice.com .

If you get a chance (especially those who live in Oregon) please read the entry below this on to find out how you can save 45% of the female cougars from being hunted down and slaughtered.

In my search to find a Roma charity to donate to - my friend Lubo over in Ireland (he's a Roma activist) sent me this link:
http://www.kosovoroma.com/un-leaded%20blood/author.html I clicked on it - and the information broke my heart. Here's a quote:

"At three camps built by the UN High Commission for Refugees, some 60 Gypsy children under the age of six have been exposed to such high levels of lead that they are highly likely to die soon or to suffer irreversible brain damage. This number represents every child born in the camps since they were built five and a half years ago."

I'm going to do what I can to help these children. But what they need - heck, what all the Roma needs - is someone who is already in the public eye to give a damn. It's a shame that I cannot get a hold of Angelina Jolie as she is the Goodwill Ambassador for the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees. She is a high profile person who does give a damn.

My flower essence arrived yesterday! Yeah! I'm already trying out the Chicory on my son. It is supposed to help for a child's: emotional neediness, creating temper tantrums, demanding excessive attention (usually by negative behavior) and the clinging tendency. He's excited to drink his "flower water". So far he's only had three dosages - and I've noticed a change. Big test will be tomorrow when he goes to preschool and if I can get out in under 20 min!

For my problem cat Trouble (yes - that is his name and he's aggressive and a sprayer. But also very loving) I have 3 essence I'm going to mix together and try: Tiger Lily (for hostile and aggression), Holly (Jealously of other pets) and Vine (domination of younger or weaker animals). In his dosage bottle I am also going to place a small amethyst to help with being calm and peaceful. I'll let you know how it goes. I'll start him this afternoon.

For myself I have quite a few combinations I'm going to try. But over the next month:

Forget-Me-Not: Awareness of karmic connections in one's personal relationships and with those in the spiritual world, deep mindfulness of subtle realms, soul-based relationships.

Lotus: For open and expansive spirituality, meditative insight and synthesis.

Mugwort: Integrating psychic & dream experiences with daily life, multi-dimensional consciousness. To also help with any inability to harmonize psychic forces.

Wild Oats: Work as an expression of inner calling, outward life which expresses one's true goals and values, work experiences motivated by an inner sense of life purpose.

I think that I'm going to combine the 4 and add to it a small moonstone and lapis.

I started mine last night and I had some funky dream visits. I know that both Bill and Ted were there and we were discussing the essences and how I needed to write stuff down upon awaking. I forgot to write it down as soon as I woke up. Darn it all!

Well - I've got my book right here in front of me for a final look through before it's released tomorrow! Better get to work!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Oregon Cougars at Risk!

Oregon Cougar Management Plan Means Slaughter for Thousands of Cougars

YOUR HELP NEEDED IMMEDIATELY!

Constant attention must be paid to the actions of Oregon’s government when it comes to protecting cougars. Thanks in part to your diligent calls and letters, Oregonians managed to protect cougars during the previous legislative session from a well-funded assault to reinstate hound hunting.

Unfortunately, OREGON COUGARS ARE NOW IN EVEN GREATER DANGER AS A RESULT OF THE STATE’S NEW AND REVISED COUGAR MANAGEMENT PLAN.

A MASSIVE STATEWIDE SLAUGHTER IS PLANNED UNLIKE ANYTHING WE'VE EVER SEEN OR HEARD OF IN OREGON OR THE NATION.

Public hearing are scheduled statewide during AUGUST ONLY
Please try to attend a meeting in your area and speak out for the big cats!
Please refer to the “What you can do” section below.

What the plan does:

The Cougar Management Plan (CMP) has 4 objectives, all of which should
be opposed:

1. REDUCE the entire statewide population of cougars to 1994 levels by a minimum of over 40%, from a pre-Measure 18 population of over 5,000 cats down to 3,000.

2. REDUCE the number of safety and pet-related complaints to 1994 levels; in 2003, there were approximately 900 in 2003 down to 500 in 1993.

3. Bring livestock complaint numbers down to 1994 complaint levels

4. Bring prey (elk and deer) populations back up to 1994 management levels --'managing' cougars to keep prey at high levels so hunters have more to kill

An estimated 780 COUGARS WILL BE KILLED ANNUALLY FOR THE NEXT 5 YEARS.

They will TARGET FEMALE COUGARS to ensure the killing will have the MOST LONG TERM EFFECTF ON THE COUGAR POPULATION. GOVERNMENT HUNTERS will use TRAPS, SNARES, POISON and PACKS OF DOGS until 45% OF THE DEAD CATS ARE FEMALES.

What you can do:

1. Make your voice heard. Attend your local meeting about the Plan and speak out, write comments, and spread the word that the Oregon Department of Fish and Wildlife intends to slaughter cougars.

Public Hearings will be held at the following locations,

MARK YOUR CALENDAR NOW:

Corvallis: Thursday, August 18, 7 – 9 p.m., OSU LaSells Center, Construction & Engineering Hall, (541)737-8947

Portland: Monday, August 22, World Forestry Center, Miller Hall 4033 SW Canyon Rd, (503)488-2102

La Grande: Tuesday, August 23, Blue Mountain Conference Center , 404 Twelfth St, (541)963-2949

Burns: Wednesday, August 24, Burns Senior Center, 17 S. Alder Ave, (541)573-6024

Bend: Thursday, August 25, National Guard Armory 875 SW Simpson, (541)312-4309

Roseburg: Monday, August 29, Umpqua Community College, Jacoby Auditorium - College Rd,
(541)440-4600

Medford: Tuesday, August 30, Jackson Co. Courthouse Auditorium, 10 S. Oakdale Ave, (541)774-6116

Klamath Falls: Wednesday, August 31,OSU Extension Auditorium, 3328 Vandenberg Rd, (541)883-7137

2. Immediately contact the governor's office. Be sure to thank Governor Kulongoski for his opposition to reinstating hounding during the previous legislative session, and ask him to stop the slaughter of cougars in the Oregon Department of Fish and Wildlife’s Cougar Management Plan. The Governor can be reached at (503)378-5482 or online at

THIS IS THE BIGGEST THREAT THAT HAS EVER BEEN AIMED AT COUGARS IN THE STATE.

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO CAN DO ANYTHING ABOUT THIS! PLEASE PASS
THIS ALERT ALONG TO EVERYONE AND ANYONE YOU KNOW!

http://www.cougarfund.org/


Information provided by: Sally Mackler, Sierra Club

An Interruption, Joan of Arc and my Passport!

I've been trying to publish this entry all afternoon and it won't take. Will try until successful!

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Well I didn't get too far thanks to people who do not know the meaning of a closed door. This would include both guys - but at least my son didn't open the door. He just stood outside and yelled in. Simple instructions - I don't ask for much.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I got yanked out so fast that I have a whopper of a headache now.

Anywho. The first image I see is Clive. He has a kickball in his hands and he is teasing me to go and play with him and a group of kids. This is in the present (but in the future - not so far) and it appears to be in NZ, with the same cobblestone town square, circle fountain and outdoor cafe that I see in my visions all the time. We are getting clobbered by these kids in a game of kickball - but we are having a great time - teasing each other like we were siblings.

I then end up in a circle with all these doors around me. I see one light up and I enter.

I exit into a garden - it is a wonderful, peaceful garden with many flowers, butterflies and dragonflies. I have on a light purple, satiny soft gown - with a silver clip of a moon on each shoulder. I wear nothing underneath.

Bill comes up behind me and kisses me on the neck - he startles me as I never heard him approach. He flips up both moon clips and the gown falls to my feet. I've enter worn anything so easy to remove before:) I asked him what is he doing here and he responds by kissing my neck. Next thing I remember is Bill, Ted and I all on the ground - exhausted. I see Brigit.

She extends her hand and helps me up. She is walking me towards a door and I asked her what did I get caught up in back there - not that I minded.....she says that I was involved in their fantasies. I didn't guide that part of the meditation - they did.

Nice to know that I'm wanted:)

We exit and I know I'm Joan of Arc. I'm given a sword and am asked to practice with this very large man. I'm not very good - but we keep practicing. Then the past morphs into the present (future I think) with me back in the cobblestone towns square in NZ. I have a sword in my hand and am standing in front of a person I do not know. He wants me to practice - I tell him that I do not know how - he replies "you were Joan of Arc weren't you?"

Then I was yanked out before I could find out more.

I'm feeling better today - not 100% - but better. The medication I have helps - plus I'm using some stones on parts of my body. Mostly clear crystal quartz and true turquoise on my chest and throat. I need my voice back! My poor client yesterday - I'm trying to give her a phone reading and I kept getting that annoying tickle in my throat and my voice went in and out.

I've ordered a whole new shipment of flower essence. I'll let you know what and what for when they get here.

The new book "Gypsy Magic for Prosperity's Soul" is trucking right along. Have finished the oils, incense and sachets formulas. Now to do the spells.

Everything is still on course for the release of "Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul" on Friday, August 19th:)

A few months back I think I reported about a dream I had where I was stuck in an airport (leaving the white resort I seem to visit a lot during my dreams) but they wouldn't let me on because they confiscated my passport. They said I was a terrorist. I was appalled by that comment. I remember telling this little old lady that I couldn't get on the plane and why - but we were both confident that things would get straightened out.

Okay - so I had a dream the other night where I was getting off the plane. I was with a group of people and I realized that I had no money, no luggage, no driver's license and no passport. I kept asking - if I had no passport, how was I allowed on the plane? People were a bit freaked about that and so was I. I kept asking for someone to let me use their cell phone so that I could have some money wired to me. But no one would give me their cell phone. Then I see the old lady from the airport and she says that everything will work out.

What do I get from all of this? That no matter what happens, no matter how many obstacles in my path, things will work out the way they are supposed to. So stop worrying:)

Last year I became a sponsor for a woman in Nigeria through Women to Women International. Now I'm looking to help out a Romany (Roma) charity to help out gypsy woman and children. If anyone knows of such a charity - please let me know. This includes orphanages.

Well - I'd better get back to work:)

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

A London Flat, Healing and Atlantis!

Okay - so I'm feeling ambitious this weekend and decide to get my podcast started. Only problem was - I got sick and lost my voice! Man - I've never seen two guys so happy that I didn't have a voice - my 5 year old really got a kick out of it. So instead of working on my podcast - I spent the weekend finishing my rewrite of "The Black Triangle", finished up the oil formulas for the new book and wrote down all of what I want in the new book.

So far everything seems to be on schedule to release my love magic book on Friday! Yeah!

I did go to the doctor today - I managed to make it back from the doc only a few minutes behind schedule! I went to the doc who listens to me - got my meds and I should be good to go again by tomorrow!

I talked to my mom about helping my cousin. She was more open minded than I thought - a nice surprise. She tried to mention it to my great uncle to see if his sister (my cousin's mom) might be okay with it. It was a big fat no. And I mean no-no-no. She has always been a hard one to talk to - it's always her way is the only way and she has controlled my cousin all his life. So if she says no - than so does he. They discovered more tumors on his liver. He really doesn't have much time left - I wish that they would let me help. I'll try to do what I can remotely.

Now on to today's session - I notice that when I have a session with just my healing wand and the moldivate, that I go to Atlantis. Anything else - I either don't go or it is just a glimpse.

I entered into what I believe to be Ted's flat in London. Not 100% positive but pretty sure. I see that he is running around the kitchen like a mad man. I throw down I think suitcases and my laptop backpack onto the floor. I walk in and I must of really surprised him for he jumps back and then is "what are you doing here?" I reply that I have a key. He says he knows that, gives me a kiss and goes on to say that I'm early. I tell him I caught an earlier flight. He won't let me in the kitchen. He reaches in his pocket and hands me a credit card. Tells me to go shopping. I tell him that I just got here and I have my own money - I don't want his.

He gives me a sigh (like why must you give me a hard time about money) and says to please go buy something on him. I know he really wants me out - so I go.

I get in a two seater - like a roadster. I have to be out of the US cause I get in on the right. As I'm driving away I try to look behind me and it's strange because the scenery kept changing. First it was a castle, then a house on the beach and finally me waving a taxi down outside a building in London. Very odd.

When I get back. I go back into what I perceive to be the flat (I know this has to be it as I recognize it from previous visions). He gives me a kiss and tells me to go put my stuff in my room (I did not share a room with him - but I don't think we slept apart either). I open the door and Bill is lying there on the bed. I jump on him and shower him with kisses. We roll around laughing. I am very surprised to see him. He asks where is my son and I mention that he is with his dad back in the states for a couple of weeks. Then Ted appears at the door and comments "what - he gets all the kisses when I pulled off the surprise?" I jump up, grab him by his shirt and pull him on the bed - kissing both guys cause I'm so damn happy to have them both in the same place.

Ted and I are sitting down eating the dinner that he made. Bill is no where. I don't think that this and Bill on the bed happened at the same time - feels like a split vision like last week. Ted tried to make dinner - and it's not bad - kind of crunchy. But I eat it and make him feel good by at least trying to cook something. We decide to go out to a pub.

Next thing I know I am lying on my beach. I feel someone lie down to my left and it's Bill. He kisses me and tells me how much he has missed me. I ask him if he talked to Ted on Friday like he was supposed to. He says yes. I ask if they talked about me at all and he says he doesn't remember. I'm like - what do you mean you don't remember? And we wrestle around a bit.

He grabs my hand and tells me that we need to go swimming. I say that I'm hardly dressed for it. Next thing I know we are both naked. I asked him how did he do that? He just smiles, grabs my hand and we dive under the water.

We surface in Atlantis. The white marble feels so cool under my feet. I notice that we both have on our NZ necklaces. I asked if he did that? He just smiles.

I run my fingers over what reminds me of the roman numeral 3 - it's on a white column. On the next column there is a new moon and on the next - the sun. Bill comes up behind me to tell me how much he has missed me and starts to kiss my shoulders and then....my neck. Well - I'm a goner and we have a very energetic and fiery love making session.

Where we are at there is a round, raised pool. Like a large round sink - I can rest my hands on it and gaze down into the pool. The water is silvery - this reminds me of what a seer would use. Around the outside are symbols, but I don't remember of what. This appears to be of the same material as the building - but if I look closer I can tell that this is made from Moonstone. I cannot see anything in the pool and I ask Bill and neither does he. I ask what is supposed to happen next. He doesn't know either - but he is sure we will get a sign. Everything is unfolding he says - as it should be. I ask if he is going to call. He says he will. I ask when. But before he can answer - I wake up.

Darn it all.

About the NZ necklaces. It's no secret that I want to travel to NZ in the worst way. A client of mine offered to send me travel brochures - I was delighted. When I received them, in the package was a small wrapped gift. I open it up and it is a pendant (triangle shaped) of greenstone (nephrite jade). I almost fell over. This is the same pendant (only smaller) that I've seen Bill wear, but I didn't know what it was or where he got it. Now I know. Odd that we both now have the same pendant.....:)

Better get cracking - I've got work to do:)

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine,
Allie:)

A Farmhouse, The Future and Healing!

I sat with my healing wand, moldvite (a powerful catalysts to awakening what's available to us in these days) and a piece of blue brucite (evokes greater peace within us, drawing us deeply into tranquility and serenity).

The deeper I got into this meditation - the more light and airy my soul felt. There was a gentle, but persistent pull, as if someone wanted me to go to them..

I asked the Divine to take me where I was needed - but that I also needed to speak with Bill and Ted.

The first place I visit appears to be in the future. I am with Ted and am giving him a present. He is very surprised and I'm excited to watch him open it. Feels like an anniversary present of sorts. He opens it and inside is a gold book stand and with it - a rare book of poetry. I'm not positive who the poet is, but my gut tells me Yeats. The book looks to be 5x7 with a grainy or fabric dark green cover.

I exit there and enter into an airplane. Bill is there looking at papers on the pull down tray. I move in front of him - in between his knees and the back of the next seat (how I do this I don't know). I stare at him and he looks right at me. So I ask "can you see me". He scrunches up his face and through telepathy says "of course I know you are there" I smile. With a wave of my hand I knock the top piece of paper into the aisle. He reaches to get it, but a flight attendant beats him to it and hands it to him. This time he mumbles under his breath "will you stop that".

He lies his head back on the head rest and closes his eyes. Next thing I know he is standing right beside me. I look at him and then down to his physical body. He smiles and comments that he loves doing that.

Ted shows up and says "what about me?" Those two tease each other for a bit. I comment to Ted that he needs to get on the ball and call Bill. I nudge Bill that he has to call Ted - today. That they need to start their dialogue about me - and today. They both agree. At the end of the plane I see the Angel Brigit waiting for us. Bill grabs my hand and leads, I grab Ted's and we go single file down the aisle and into a...

...Front yard. In front of me is a large blue farmhouse with a wrap around porch - there is a large barn to the right of the house. We walk about back and there is a nice in-ground pool - nice patio. A four car garage.

I enter the house from the front door and there is a nice vestibule with a coat rack and bench. In the large front hallway - there is a large staircase that goes up to the 2nd floor. If I look up - I can see that the staircase goes up to a third floor and then the attic.

Somehow I end up on this large 4 poster bed. It has a nice homemade quilt on it. I bounce a little and the bed squeaks. There is a nice fireplace and a 1/2 circle of windows w/ a window seat. Bill shows up and plops down on the bed. He tickles me and we wrestle around. Next thing I know Ted is in on it and we are all on this poor bed rolling around and tickling each other.

Brigit shows up and I ask her whose house is this. All she does is smile. Us three make a smart comment about her smiling and not answering. Brigit tells Bill and Ted to call one another and discuss me. It's time to do this. They agree. She tells them to do it today. They agree. Then she looks at me and says that I must get my work done. I tell her I'm working on it. She shakes her head and says that I must go faster - I have less time than I thought I did. I ask for what? She says she cannot tell.

With that I wake up.

On a separate note. My 42 year old cousin and his cancer. 1st they found it in his throat, now they found a tumor in each lung and one in his chest (that they cannot remove due to it being connected to a blood vessel). My mom send us 3 girls an email about him. Now I've been thinking for weeks that I should go and see if I can heal him. But I'm really scared to try. Then I got mom's email and I emailed her back telling her about my healing gift and would mom mind if I lay my hands on him? So far I haven't heard back.

I'm scared if I go and I'm scared if I don't. A voice inside of me is telling me just to go - be who I am supposed to be - the voice says. But what if I suck at it? Then again - what if I don't?

One week until I launch my book. It's coming together all so well! If you'd like to take a look at the cover my sister designed - you can go here:

http://www.gypsygirlpress.net/Current_Books.htm

click on the book title and it'll take you to its page:)

Well - back to work I go! I guess it's imperative that I bust a move!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

A Discussion, A Teepee and We're Naked Again!

Today I decided to mediate with my healing wand and a nice chunk of Ohio Celestite (it connects us to our "higher self" but of facilitating the fully conscious embodiment of that part of who we are).

I began with a split screen. On one side I can see Bill, in an office, looking through a stack of papers. On the other side, Ted is reading a book of poetry by Yeats. There was a certain line I saw during the session, but now it escapes me. Something like "hath man who loves is forever present, never mourn - he has but a wish to be whole".

I tell the Divine that I must speak to both men. Bill stops what he is doing, closes the office door and lies down on a couch. Ted rests the book on his chest and rests his head back onto the chair.

Within moments, both men are beside me. Bill gives me a kiss on the lips and then so does Ted. Both are happy to see me and one another. I grab their hands and tell them we have to talk. Ted chuckles and then says "when a woman says that I know we're in trouble." Bill laughs. I assure both that no one is on my naughty list - yet. They both like the idea of that list :)

We arrive in lush surroundings - tropical in setting. There is a wonderful natural pool, with a waterfall. Off the pool is a short connecting stream to a larger lake. I take off my clothes and the guys to do the same. I jump in the water - it feels so cool against my skin. It's like a slice of heaven. We swim around and act like kids - splashing, dunking each other - having fun. I swim over to a rock and rest my arms on it. The guys follow.

I talk about what is holding us back from reaching the next level? Ted comments - to know we are not crazy. I say true - that does help. I've passed that stage - but you two are still in it. What will help you both is if you get together and start talking about this - call each other up and discuss the dreams, visions - you will both discover that you have the same dreams. Once your rational mind realizes this - the fear of being crazy will be let go.

Off on a near by shore - I notice a teepee with smoke rising out of the middle. I ignore it and go on.

They agree with what I am saying. I mention that right now all 3 of us are naked. We are vulnerable to one another. We can each get to that hidden kernel that is buried within all of us - that untouchable part that no one else has been able to see - to know. That's scary. They agree.

Then Ted chimes in - "what if you come into our lives and don't like it? I know that I couldn't take having you in my life and then you leave. It would kill me."

In a soft voice Bill says "I wouldn't survive it."

So I reply: "Don't you two get how strong I am? Everything that has happened in my life so far was to get me to this point. To make me strong. I didn't survive drug addicts, accidents, death threats, murdered animals, ridicule and insane step children for nothing. I can take what is handed to me."

Bill says, "But we live in a fish bowl" I reply "I can swim"

Ted says "People are cruel" I reply "Tell me something I don't already know. I can handle it. I'm not going anywhere"

I then say how the Divine did not give us these memories for us to sit on them. We are not remembering now in order just to push them away and continue on with life as we know it. Our lives as we know it has come to an end. It is time to embrace who we are. We need to stop running. We can do this. We have each other. We have always had each other and we always will. We are not alone. There are people who believe in us - who support us - they have our backs.

Both men are in agreement. Bill wishful sighs and says "I need something to happen." Ted fiercely agrees and so do I.

Now in front of the teepee I see an Indian woman. She is waving for us to come over. I ask the guys if they see her - and they do. I ask about our clothes - not sure if I want to go their naked. Bill says we are meant to and swims off. Ted and I follow.

Next thing I remember is young Indian women painting the same design on our faces and bodies. On our face there is a streak of red over each cheekbone. A line of black goes slightly diagonal from the corner of each eye. Across our foreheads is a white line. On our chests there is a white circle with there black dots inside (two on top, one middle bottom, like an inverted triangle). Under the circle is a blue wavy line.

We are instructed to sit, and hold hands - we do. Off to the side is a tribal shaman. He chants - I don't know what he is saying. The women leave the area. We close our eyes.

For this next part it is like I'm an observer - but I can also feel me taking part - so odd. I can smell sweetgrass, sage and I think a combination of tobacco and something else (it's white, but that is all I can remember). Our three souls stretch from our bodies - still in, but also out. The souls merge in the center and in a clockwise fashion, each soul enters and exits each of our bodies. The souls then go into the center and spiral towards the sky. They go out of the teepee to the heavens. There is a very intense energy shooting into our bodies. Then without warning the souls slam back into the correct bodies. We each take a huge intake of breath.

We open our eyes and the shaman says in very broken English "You are ready".

I wake up.

Man - did I have the energy running through my body. Very intense!

On my mother's side of the family there is American Indian. There is a disagreement on which tribe. One says Blackfeet another says Cherokee. I don't know - the only way to know is to start to dig on that side of the family. With gypsies on my dad's side and Indians on my mother's side - it's no wonder I am what I am. I've spent so much time exploring the gypsy side of my life that I have neglected learning about the American Indian side. This will go on my to-do list!

Must get back to work!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Something Just Happened...

...and I'm not too sure how to explain this.

I'm in the middle of rewriting "The Black Triangle" and damn - I didn't think it could get any better nor that I would still get emotional when I read it. But both are happening.

But that's not what I wanted to tell you. I'm writing and I get the pull to come back and look at the blog. So I did. As soon as I landed on this page, a surge of energy went through the top of my head and into my body. At the same time I became so light headed - that I wasn't sure I was still in my body. The hairs stood up on my arms - goosebumps covered my body.

I know instinctively that this has to do with Bill. Either he was on this blog the same time as I - or someone close to him was browsing. It was 2:31 pm EDT.

I've NEVER had that feeling before. It was such an rush - that all I have to say is "Oh Shit!"

Bill - do you need an engraved invitation on a silver platter?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Hot Hands, Healing and an Urgency!

The blog was not on my "To Do" list today - far too much other stuff to do. Yet here I am. Why? That darn voice from somewhere is telling me to write anyways. A word or two that I write could help another. Since this voice hasn't let up - I decided to cave.

My walk this morning was pretty uneventful. That is until I started to think about my cousin with cancer. At 42 he has throat cancer (never smoked, never chewed) and it was discovered yesterday that he now has it in his lungs. As soon as my thoughts turned to him, I could sense the presence of Archangel Michael and Gabriel with me. I said "Hi" they said hi back. My thoughts returned to the cancer and I could feel my hands getting very hot. In fact, as I'm typing this, they are hot once more. Anytime I think about a sickness or healing - my hands burn with such an intense heat, it's rather scary. But - my hands do not turn red at all - like they would if my blood pressure was up.

As I walked I could feel the energy coming out of my hands, traveling through the universe, and entering him. I couldn't do this for long because I kept tripping over my own feet:) When I send the healing - my full concentrating is not on where I'm walking! I can hear his father (he died 20 years ago) begging me to help his son. I'm going to send more energy today to him in hope that I can help from here.

I know that I will have to physically go to him at some point in time and try to convince him to let me help. But since he is dying and has a 13 year old son (he's a single parent) I may be able to talk him into it. Part of me - actually a good chunk - is scared to do this. Too many "What If's". What if I fail? What if I succeed? Yadda Yadda. I need to buck up and quit worrying about the things I can't control. After all - it's not my healing energy at work - but the Divine's . I'm just the messenger.

Bill is back front and center. In fact, I caught a glimpse of him about 6:30 am this morning, standing in the doorway of my office. It's a quick glance and then he's gone. I sure wish he'd stay longer. Ted is front and center as well. There is an urgency with both Ted and Bill right now, like a really strong urgency, longing, and each are pursuing filling, finding, searching, and I want to say that there is conscious connection between the two of them where I am concerned.....or it is coming....

Either way - the tides are changing...

Until Tomorrow!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Persistence, A Sign and More Children?

My God - is Ted persistent. I mean "Holey Toledo!" Bill has never been this head strong. I wonder why?

I have such a headache right now - cause of the session. But here's what happened....

I entered into a split vision. On one hand I have Bill saying "Send more" - he is in the midst of shredded papers. He's desperate - screaming into the heavens. Tears - keeps saying - Send more....so if anyone knows what he is talking about - help him out - would you?

On the other hand, Ted is in bed - by himself. He is sprawled out in the middle, on his stomach, the cover barely over his lower half. He rolls over and he's well....at attention (so to speak). He rolls over to one side and rubs his hand over the bed. He calls out "where are you? why won't you find me?" in such a wishful and soft voice. He rolls onto his back, stares at the ceiling and says "you are my light". He then realizes that he needs to take care of something...err...himself.

In the shower - his back to the cascading water. He is calling to me as he "takes care" of himself. I personally can't believe that I'm standing there watching it. I must admit - it sure revved my motor this morning. I may have to take an extra ice cold shower! Anyways - when he is finished, he turns around to wash down and tears just flow down his face. He comments how tired he is of all this - that he needs something to happen.

He is clothed and sketching a design for a pendant. It looks to be an "S" shape, put vertical - diamonds in the "S" and an round emerald in each curve. It's very nice. He is commenting to himself "splendid". One of his daughters comes in - kisses him on the cheek. Glances through the drawing on the table - sees one of me. Comments that her dad is a loon. The drawing of me is dead on - very spooky.

I then see Bill again. He is still saying "send more".

Next thing I remember is that I'm on the beach. Just sitting in the white sand, staring at the wonderful blue/green water. I sense a presence to my left and it is Ted. He grins. I ask him what is he doing here? He comments that he sensed me earlier. And he wanted more contact - so here he is . We talk about something - not sure what. But he's pointing out over the water. He is very relaxed, happy - and so am I.

Archangel Gabriel arrives and tells us that we are needed. We follow her to the large tree that I've entered in the past. In front of the tree is Bill - he looks happy - a smile on his face. He takes my face in his hands and gives me a very nice kiss on the lips. We enter the tree.

When we go up (like in an elevator) we exit into a blinding light. I cannot see anyone - but I know that there are angels/guides all around us. In the blink of an eye - we three are naked. This takes us by surprise. We are told to hold hands. Then by telepathy, a deep voice tells us that I am to have one child by each. A girl with Bill and a boy with Ted. I'm confused here and I remind the Divine that I'm 38. It doesn't matter my age. I ask how is this to be? No answer is given. We are told to have faith and to continue to love one another.

I wake up.

I'm having a very hard time concentrating today. Ted is right there - invading my thoughts at every turn. He is purposely there - trying to take center stage. Bill feels to be hanging back today.....

Speaking of Ted - I saw a recent picture. Damn he looks really good - just like in my vision from a few days ago. Scruffy, but handsome with tired eyes.

On Sunday (this may have something to do with Bill in today's vision), had a dream visit with Bill before I woke up. I must of been in his dream - as he was with some of his work friends. We were in a large hall - wooden, with wood beams and big wooden tables. The room was packed - tables full. He was at the table in front of me with a woman friend and another man. He was talking to the woman - stood up - his back to me. And was complaining "I can't believe he torn them up" "TORN THEM UP" he was very- very angry. I know that it was his son that he was talking about. A person at my table asked if I was going to talk to him. I replied that right now he is too angry.

Bill storms out of the hall. The woman looks at me and smiles. I go out the door and see Bill at the beach. He is sitting with his head in his hands. He looks up at me - his eyes red from crying - and takes a sharp in take of breath. Like he is in total shock. I slowly approach him and I can hear a cat in the distance. I know that my cat Darin is waking me up.

I can feel myself being pulled away. He jumps up and is just in a panic scream saying "no".

Then I woke up.....

I felt his pain all day - it's so suffocating.

But....then yesterday morning I'm thinking to myself as I'm feeding the animals - about the pain, suffering, the intense longing Bill and I share. I question the darkness I feel - the heaviness in my chest. I ask the Divine, if I could have a sign, some light to let me know that things are on track - that it'll all be okay and Bill and I will be physically together to start on our path.

I'm done with the animals and I turn to enter my dining room and then the living room and my son has a movie on - I see a scene in which I realize that the hall from my dream was the king's hall in this movie. I turn back to the dining room, and there is a large light circle, that is moving in a circle on the carpet - it alternated between fast and slow.

I smile. I got my sign.

I managed to get Gypsy Girl Press up and running - with a so-so but functional web site: http://www.gypsygirlpress.net

The edits for the book are arriving today - sending them off and now waiting for the artwork:)

I had my son's birthday party on Saturday (the one we tried to have in June was canceled due to his illness) - it was a smashing success. Went to my best friends house on Sunday for her twin son's b-day party (same ages as my son) and then off to mom's house to celebrate my husband's birthday.

Today I've had to deal with my computer screwing up. 5 hours later and more coffee than I thought possible - it's fixed.

The bourbon is still safe on the cupboard - but it's only mid day:)

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

I Could Have Really Used That Bottle Of Bourbon!

I wasn't really sure what I was going to get for today's session. My day started off rather like crap - still in that funky - heart hurting mood. Last night was horrible - so horrible in fact that I want to drink a bottle of bourbon.....I HATE bourbon. But, I did nothing but cry and then go to bed.

There really isn't anything that should have set me off - just a very heavy heart and emptiness. I can feel my own (which is a burden as is) - plus I can feel Bill and Ted. I sobbed a good portion of last night. What triggered it was catching a bit of "Dead Like Me". It's a show on Showtime about a group of people who are Grim Reapers. One guy had to go and get an 80 something year old nudist and take him to the other side. The old man was commenting on how his beloved Betty passed away 7 years earlier. He missed her something fierce. The thought flashed through my mind as what would happen if one of them passed away before I could say anything to them? I'd be so upset. So - I'm in the process of planning something. Not telling what or when - until I get details ironed out. But this has been an especially hard week dealing with the physical separation. Not sure why. But I can't wait until it passes.

Me sad and crying? Very-very un-Allie like!

Everything was jumbled in today's session - it was odd - and I don't remember most of it.

There was Bill at some work function. I was standing off in the distance, watching. When he walked over, grabbed my hand and pulled me in front of the cameras.

Then I cut to him picking me up in the airport - very tearful - very loving.

That fades from view and I am kissing him back in our past lives of him being a cowboy & I his wife. We are at the same fence - he has again had to repair it. He's very thin, worn out. I kiss him, he's very happy to see me, but I'm a bit stand offish on him. It cuts to me being at a baby's grave. Our baby girl, who died after birth. I'm heartbroken and crying. He is off in the distance, watching me cry - not knowing what to do to help.

I then flash to when I was driving a car, drunk, pregnant and just found out that Bill died at the start of the Vietnam war. The pit in my stomach as the car is falling off the road and into the water below. I am drowning - I can feel the burning in my chest, the God awful pain. I ask not to be here.

I wind up in my meadow - naked. I ask for some clothing and I have a white robe on, very soft, very silky. I see a bright light - I don't know who it is. But I ask for me to see something positive. I'm tired of the pain and sadness. I request that the pain that came over me last night be gone and not allowed to come back. Since it was a combination of my pain, Bill's and Ted's it was very overwhelming. Something is said to me - I don't know what.

Next thing I know Ted has my hands and he is gently pushing me back onto a pile wildflowers. Every so tender - he kisses me. Unfortunately, I remember nothing else until I wake up in a huge four-poster bed, in Ted's arms. Me as Joan of Arc and he as the priest. He was tailing his index finger up and over my bare shoulder. I remember feeling the chills go up my spine. Then he smiles. Damn him and that smile. No matter what life we're in - his smile is drop dead gorgeous.

I move to me - I think Mexican, in clothes - not of the poor, but not of the rich either. I have a basket full of bread. I'm barefoot and walking through a square. It's a sunny day - I'm happy. Bill and Ted just appear in from of me and offer to carry the basket.

Flash to present time - we are in the same square, but as we are today. We are looking at a map. Bill is talking to someone in fluent Spanish. His voice is very excited.

Still in the present - like today - I can see Bill sitting in a chair - eyes closed saying "come to me". The day fast forwards and he is in a meeting - lost in thought. Someone asks him a question and he whispers "come to me" - the other people are confused - he's embarrassed and apologizes.

I'm being pulled out of meditation - but as I am, I can hear his voice saying again "come to me".

It's a week like this that I long to be "normal" and not have any memories, no gifts - nothing. Just go through life as a mom. But that would never work as I would always feel something missing.

Had some major lightning this morning. Knocked out my power and screwed with the computer! I'm way behind schedule today!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Ted, Bill and I Thought I Had Nothing To Say - HA!

I'm not getting too far in what needs to get done today. Why? because I keep hearing someone telling to write in the blog today - although it was not on my list of to-do. So here I am. Not sure what I will say today that has an importance to someone - but I'll give it a shot.

Ted is "right there" in my face today. Ever since his gifts have expanded and he can now show up on will - he has been arriving more often. He can sense when I am near him and as soon as I leave - he pops up. He is getting more aggressive - not in a mean-spirited way - but so that I don't put him on the back burner or forget about him. His energy in regards to me is very high - he feels very jittery and nervous - like a person who loves to shop standing outside of a store waiting for it to open so they can shop this once in a lifetime sale. I try to push this energy aside - and there he is again. He is one determined man.

Now Bill on the other hand is very laid back and low energy. He feels to have a lot on his plate right now and can't entertain me as a distraction. When he focuses on me - all else gets pushed aside and he cannot afford that right now. But I can also sense from him an energy like he is about to burst if something does not shake loose and soon. He knows that I am real and heck I have had the feeling for weeks that he knows and has read this blog. But - he is overanalyzing things to a point where frustration is eating away at his inner self. Instead of just jumping in - or one of his friends helping out - he is closing himself off from others until he can figure things out. But there is nothing to figure out. He needs not to think with his head - but with his heart and soul. I'm real - his visions - my visions - our dreams - all real. All I need is that one call or fax - or email - that one communication and I'm on the next plane. It can be from him - or from a friend who wants to talk to me first. It really doesn't matter - but there needs to be something done.

I've been trying to figure out what has happened to me. I know that I entered Aug as a different person from when I entered July. Things have shifted. My healing gift has expanded and the other day I had that ceremony during my meditation. Cindy and I were discussing this (she is much knowledgeable than I in these things) and what has been told to her is that Bill and I have joined and moved forward to the 5th position of light. I'm like "huh"? She didn't know what it meant- but I had a feeling it had to deal with the astral plane. I did some digging on Google and this is what I found:
Mental plane: The fifth plane of creation. Its medium is abstract intellectual energy, emphasizing truth. The infinite soul who incarnated as Lao-tzu taught from this plane.
Seeing that I keep arriving to places of creation and the word creation keeps popping up in my mediations - this makes sense. Not sure what to do now - and I'm pretty positive Bill doesn't know either. I guess I wait for more signs.

I had some more poetic inspiration today. I notice that I write mostly about a man's POV. I still think that I've tapped into Bill's poetic mind or even Ted's.

In the heart of one so young,
Lies the will of a man.
Strong.
Determined.
Willful.

To find what he has unconsciously left behind,
In the past.
Through actions, not of his own,
But at the hands of another.

In the heart of a man,
Lies the will of the young.
Forever hopeful.
Blissful.
Optimistic.

To reunite with his past -- his future.
With the one he had forgotten, but longed to find.
For she is now more than a distance pain,
But a memory that must be fulfilled.
If he is to find peace within his soul,
To have his love,
The key to his very existence.

This entry is longer than I thought it would be. Not bad for having nothing I thought needed said;)

BTW...my left eye keep twitching and it is driving me nuts! I don't know why - this isn't a habit of mine.

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

A Plea From Ted, An Unbreakable Bond and Call Me!

I hear that the baby girl born to the brain dead woman in VA is doing just fine:) Miracles do happen!

Had a meditation session with Cindy today - we're back on track now for Monday, Wednesday and Friday.

(SIGH)

What part of "when the door is closed don't bug me" is so hard for an adult to understand? My kid gets it. Good thing I was almost done with my session before the door opened.

The pull was great and I knew I had to go to Bill first. I enter and can see him at a desk, staring at a computer. I think he is looking at the blog or my picture - I can't really tell. Next thing I know - Ted is standing next to me. He says that had someone contacted him - there would be no hesitation. I asked who contacted Bill? Ted shakes his had - he doesn't know. He wraps his arms around me and asks why don't I come to him? Why do I keep concentrating on Bill? I tell him that I must meet Bill first and then him. He asks why? I say that there is no way for me to get to him - that it is easier to get to Bill. There's a back door. There is no back door for him.

Ted goes on to say that he will take care of me forever if I would just let him. He caresses my face so soft - so gentle - it makes me weak in the knees. He stares deep into my eyes and whispers "you know how I feel for you.". Then he flashes that smile. I tell him if he wants to get the ball rolling to call Bill and have a chat. Eventually I'll come up - they can discuss me - and someone can make the call.

A person enters the room and Bill hurries up and hides what he was looking at. Ted is staring at me and then in a split second he's gone. Through a portal I can see him wake up - he was asleep in a chair. He grabs the phone and goes to dial Bill's number - but he can't quite remember why he is calling him. So he hangs up.

To my right Archangel Michael shows up and grasps my hand.

Next thing I know I am in my meadow. Ted and Clive are standing there - looking very handsome. Archangel Michael is there along with Archangel Metatron ( I believe it is him ). I turn and Bill arrives - bathed in a white light. He looks refreshed - although still a bit weary around the edges. A knife is produced and Michael slices the palms of me, Bill and Ted. Us three are to hold hands. Cindy arrives - bathed in white light. I turn to her and ask what is going on. She nods her head for me to pay attention to Metatron.

In a tongue I do not understand - Metatron chants the same 5 words repeatedly while Cindy, Michael and Clive send a blinding light into us three. When it is all done - I look at my hands, no more cuts, they are healed. Do I feel different? I'm not so sure. I know something feels changed, but I don't know what.

There is a blinding light and I end up back watching Bill - his head back on a chair - eyes closed. The phone rings, he opens his eyes and answers. I hear him say "Hey Ted" and then I wake up.

Some more poetic inspiration...

In the center of my heart
There is a kernel of love.

Warm,
Inviting,
Waiting for you.

It has a circle of fear to protect it,
From the World,
A wall to protect the fear,
A wall to protect it from myself,
And so forth,
--until all that the world sees,
Is a fortress made of stone.

BTW....someone asked me if they could repost one of my poems on their web site. I don't mind as long as you give me the credit - and it would be nice to be notified that you are using my work.

Looking forward to having some happy inspiration sometime real soon:)

Until Tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Korea Animal Protection Society (KAPS)

Another cause very near and dear to my heart:

In spite of the fact that the human consumption of dogs and cats is illegal, a flourishing industry exists within the markets in Korea today. Illegal and unsanitary dog farms are hidden away in the countryside where breeders raise their dogs for the butchers. Many people mistakenly believe dogs and cats are livestock animals in Korea; consumed purely for their meat like cows or chickens. However, dogs and cats are not listed legally as livestock and have not until recently been consumed for any other reason than for their believed medicinal health properties. They still have much more in common with bears, tigers, and other animals in the illegal exotic animal-parts trade, which only strong animal protection laws and education can bring an end to.

Won't you take a moment and help?

Please sign a petition at www.koreananimals.orgThe Korean Society wants to stop the brutal slaughter of cats and dogs for consumption. They need international help. Thank you >^..^

Pass this notice on to every animal lover you know!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Pain, Crying, Some More Pain and My Better Thirds.

No more phone calls. I don't think that the person is in MT any more. But I sure hope that they call when they get home.

I meditated today with my new Russian Astrophyllite w/ Garnet sphere and my healing wand - surrounded by the 3 crystals.

My heart is so heavy today that I wasn't sure how this session would go. My husband was being a dick too, right before the session and it didn't help my mood any. I keep crying - just keep crying.

So - with that said - let me tell you what happened.

I knew that my first stop had to be Bill - the pull was too strong for it not to be. I find him in his car, in the midst of traffic. He is hot, bothered - but the windows are open, he is not using his air. His hair morphed through different styles until it ended on his hair being almost shoulder length - with it tied back in a pony tail. He was unshaven and appeared as if he has not gotten a shower in the last 24 hrs.

His eyes are red, his face pale. I sit down in the passenger seat - he tilts his head to the side and give me a glance like he feels my presence. Then he shakes his head - calls himself nuts. I start telling him how much I miss him. That he needs to believe that what he sees in his visions and dreams to be truth. That he is not crazy - that I am very real, what he feels is real - what he can sense of me is also real. He needs to stop being afraid and to take action. He knows how to find me just as well as I know how to find him. But I am accessible and easy to get to - unlike him. "Breathe (2am)" comes on his radio (at least now I know why I kept hearing the song in my mind) and he screams. I mean a big ole "I can't take it any more" scream. There is so much pain. Tears are flowing down his face and I discover that the same is happening to me. I'm calling for help - from anyone who can hear my voice to help Bill with his pain.

Jesus arrives - but I'm not real sure where he sat - or if he did. I was instructed to remove Bill's pain. So we both put our hands out and I could see this black substance pouring out from his body - from his chest - it would hit our hands and shoot straight up through the sky. We then sent light and love into his chest. The traffic still not moving - he lays his head back on the head rest - closes his eyes. He smiles slightly as I can see him filling up with light and the last of the black goop disappears.

Jesus holds out his hand, I take it. Next thing I know I am in my meadow. But I'm still crying. I fall to my knees, the tears are pouring out I can feel them running down my face. I have so much pain in me - it's suffocating. Jesus stands over me. I am then surrounded by more angels then the eyes can see. I tell him that I cannot take the pain any longer. That the hurt, anger and frustration of being physically separated from Bill has taken its toll. I cannot understand why two people who want to be together so bad are kept separate. Why has the Divine created such a bond - had us remember this bond - but continues to see us in so much pain. Jesus tells me to release my pain - to give him my pain. I am crying pretty hard by now. I hold out my hands and I can see the black goop pour from my body. Jesus absorbs it and then releases it to the heavens. I am told to lie on my back. I do.

The next thing I know I am levitating with all of the angels and Jesus pouring love and light into my body. I open my eyes and through the light I can see Atlantis. It is beautiful. From Atlantis - there is a healing light being absorbed by my soul. When I am back on the ground - it is just Jesus and I again.

He tells me that all is falling into place. That I have much work to do and it is not a time for despair, but for preparation. I ask when - he smiles. I tell him that Bill needs more help - he says that he is receiving it right now. I ask about August 28th. He smiles and says that it is a turning point - that I must be prepared when that date arrives. I ask what am I to do about my husband. He says that I already have the answer for that. I ask about my healing gift - what should I do? He replies that I need to keep sending light to those who need it (my hands are burning up as soon as I started to talk about healing) and for me not to be afraid. My calling will be revealed to both Bill and I once we are physically together.

I look over and see Brigit. It has been awhile since her and I have spoken - so it was nice to see her. I turn to say something to Jesus - but he fades from view. Brigit grabs my hand - she wants to show me something. On the way to the bright light - she tells me how important it is for me to finish my gypsy books - if only to get them as is (I think she was talking about ebooks) for that is how I will move to the next level. It is how I will have my income so that I can take the next step. Without the income - there can be no next step.

We exit the light and we are in Ted's flat. His hair is kind of longish, scruffy beard - looks pretty good, although tired. His eyes are red. Brigit points to what he is doing. I look over his shoulder and I can see him sketching my 3 stone pendant! It's darn good too - almost an exact match to what I have on right now. I see drawings of Atlantis - and of us three. I look at myself and I don't look too similar to how I am now - but he has drawn my brown eyes - with a blue/green tint to them. The same blue/green as the water is in all my Atlantis visions. It's really very cool to look at. I also see that he has drawn many different pictures of himself through out his past lives - with an emphasis on when he was a priest (Joan of Arc days) and when he was a priest after Atlantis (when we all died - the one that reminds me of the movie scene I cannot sit through).

His girlfriend enters and she is just bitching up a storm. Something about a connection he made for her not working out. She keeps droning on. He gets up to try to hug her and she basically pushes him away. She sees his drawings and calls him pathetic. She puts her hand out - says she's going to go shopping. He hands her his credit card. She storms out.

I kiss him on the cheek - he puts his hand to the spot I kissed. I tell that he is better than that and she needs to go. He sighs. I look at Brigit - she says that he'll be fine. She comments on his artistic ability and that he is improving so much in his ability to connect to us. I ask her if he will feel the same pain of separation that Bill and I do - she comments that he already does. Only not to the same extent. She kisses me and tells me to go. I have much work to do.

Then I wake up. I still have that pit in my chest - but at least there are no more tears. A definite improvement. If I didn't know any better I'd say I had PMS - but it's not possible right now. This has been all raw emotion - no hormonal imbalance present.

Not positive if I want to mediate with that sphere again tomorrow. I know that whatever emotions I have bottled up in me must come out. But quite frankly I am sick of the pain. I suppose the longer I hold onto it - the longer I'll feel it - huh? Best thing to do is to let it go.

Sudden poetic muse...

In the emptiness where love should stand,
Is a void - a deep, hurtful vast waste of space.
Are you done feeling the pain?
The hurt?
The sorrow?

Then kneel and request,
That your love shall be found,
And it will be returned to you.

Have the faith that your request is heard,
-- Answered.
That you are worthy,
Of such a love,
And you shall receive your request,
-- Threefold.

Every morning I draw 3 Runes to see how my day will go. I also draw one when I am in the need to an answer to a question. I was asking about Bill the other day and I kept getting conflicting answers. I looked at the Runes and said, "You're @ucking with me - aren't you?" My phone rings once - no one there. I stare at the Runes for a minute and reply "You want me to stop relying on you and simply trust myself." the phone rings once - no one there. Okay - fine - I get it. I don't like it - but I get it.

My Runes are a daily habit that I've had for years. It'll be a hard habit to break - but I'm going to give it a shot.

BTW...my hands are so hot that they are sweating. I think I'll go lay them on my toothless snoop dog - Indiana Jones.

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Strange Calls, Ted and Aug 28, 2005!

What a weekend! "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" was wonderful - Depp plays a great whacked out Wonka! Sunday I spent the whole day in PA at a family get-together. It was nice to see people that I haven't been in touch with - at the same time it was heart breaking to see my once active and vibrant 2nd cousin - who is only a few years older than me - trying to beat cancer. He nor his mother believe in anything "supernatural" - so I didn't approach them with an idea that I could possible help. I am though - going to send him healing light to at least try to help him get through the trials of day-to-day living.

Four times Saturday night and twice Sunday night I received some calls from Billings, MT - no message was ever left - it was as if they called to hear my voice mail. I hope they try again - I've never had anyone so persistent try to talk to me, but not leave a message. I have a feeling on who it may be - but I won't know for sure until I hear their voice.

I spent the time today that I should have been meditating - in a dentist chair. So the usual session I have with Cindy on Monday - will be pushed to tomorrow.

I had a wonderful dream visit with Ted last night. I can't remember much except that he and I were in a house with many people - one was his girlfriend. Yet he and I were going out of our way to talk to one another and to touch - a brush of a hand or a rub against a leg...you get the picture. Each touch produced an electrical current that made us each feel alive, loved and very happy. I can remember his wonderful smile very vividly after our hands touched. Ted honestly has the best smile of anyone I've ever had the pleasure to look at. I look forward to seeing that dazzle in person someday!

The book is trucking along - waiting for all to finish their respective jobs and I'll be able to send it off to be put together! Seeing that Mercury is in retro until the 15th - I probably will not release it until after that. Possible the 19th on a full moon:)

Starting book 2 today - at least making a list of what I want to include!

My sis heads back to CA today. It was nice having her here! I wish she could stuff me in the suitcase and take me with her:) I miss the ocean! She also quit the Polo Lounge - she has 2 weeks left when she gets home. She is going to try to get more personal assistant jobs (she already has one) since that is the reason she moved out there!

The date August 28, 2005 keeps popping up in my mind's eye. I don't know why or what it has to do with. I guess we'll see in 27 days!

Until tomorrow...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)