Bill Has My Letter!

I wasn't sure whether or not I wanted to blog about this. I tossed around the idea all day finally deciding to do it.

This weekend my sister and a friend of ours, ran into Bill and gave him a letter from me. It was a very direct letter where I gave him an overview of what has been going on with me over the last several years. I ended it with I hope he takes the time to explore this on his own - not to write it off as a crazy notion. When me sister called me to say "the eagle has landed" she was surprised, I think, by my lack of enthusiasm. I basically just sat there. It wasn't that I did not feel happy - because I did. What had happened is that a flood of relief poured through me. My part was done. I did what I could - I shared what I know. Now it is all up to him to move forward or to simply let the connection die until the next lifetime. I did mention Ted - I had to. He had to know (if he already didn't consciously know) that there was a 3rd person involved and that his feelings count too. To ignore the connection to me means to ignore this Divine connection to him.

I really cannot begin to explain the relief I feel. My mind is no longer clogged. My thoughts are sharp. I know that I did the right thing. If something were to happen to me or to him - I can die knowing that he knows. That he consciously knows no matter if he is willing to accept it or not.

I'm pretty damn proud of myself for having the balls to do this. I'm not one to step out of my comfort zone very much - I'm a Taurus after all! I poured everything out, even when I know that the odds of rejection are extremely high. It really didn't matter. I'm thankful that my sister is the type of person who can walk up to anyone at anytime and strike up a conversation. I'm thankful that the Divine allowed me to consciously experience the past, present and future - even when it hurts too bad to think about it. But most of all - I am grateful for two beautiful souls - Bill and Ted - no matter if we have a friendship in this life or the next. There's nobody else I'd rather be linked to for eternity.

That said -- back to work I go.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)