What Else Can I Do?

In today's session I am pulled into a large, all white room with two windows and no furniture. If I go to a window and look out - I can see the ocean - the beach is a few hundred feet ahead of me. Archangel Raphael arrives- I greet him, it's been awhile. He smiles and says yes it has - but you haven't needed me until now. I know that he sensed my growing concern over Ted. Something isn't right and my 1st feel is a lung tumor. I ask the Archangel if this is correct and he says yes it is. What do I do - I ask? It's not like we are on physical speaking terms where I can call him and say - hey - you know that deep cough you think is just the annoying bronchitis you picked up from your daughter? Well it's not - please go see your doctor. He says, no - you cannot do such, not yet anyway. But I know that every day that goes by that he does not have a scan of his lungs done is another day that the cancer grows worse. There's only so much I can do remotely.

I know you have been healing him at night - every evening when you lie your head down, you and Bill go to him and send him healing light. But I don't remember that - why? He says - think of your conscious mind, your worry, if you knew all what happens all the time on the astral plane. Do you really think that you could consciously work knowing about Ted and that you two have been healing him every night for months?

I know he's right. If anything were wrong with either man, and I knew about it, I would go crazy not being able to physically help. I wouldn't get any work done.

Archangel Raphael goes on -- you need to get to him, in the physical sense. This is turn makes me burst out into a gut wrenching sob - so much so that I'm having a hard time typing. What am I supposed to do-- I cry? I've tried what I could. I can't do anything else from my end to get to Ted. It's all in Bill's court and he's not doing anything. If something were to happen to Ted before I could get to him because of Bill -- I'd never forgive him, Bill that is. By now I am sobbing so hard that I know I've broken a blood vessel in my eye just because I can feel it. The outpour of raw emotion just keeps coming.

I turn to the Archangel -- I'm done with this session. He starts to say -- but..... However, I'm done and that's it. As I come out of it I can hear him say - Do not give up hope.

I really am done talking about this. The raw emotion has now turned into an intense anger. I have to go pick up my son from preschool in 15 min and it won't do me any good to drive this pissed off. So I'm going to go beat the crap out of my bed to relieve the build up.

I'm sure I'll be fine soon -- the only problem is Ted won't.

Done venting....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: I get back from picking up my son and this waiting for me in my email:

ATTITUDE

A positive attitude
causes a chain reaction
of positive thoughts,
events, and outcomes.
It is a catalyst,
a spark that creates
extraordinary results.

- Anonymous

(SIGH) Yep - I get it.....