Bill - Bill -- More Bill And Diaspore!

Today I decided to sit with a newly adopted stone spirit called Diaspore. It is a 7th chakra stone, it is easier to 'read' people and to understand what they are communicating to you - also to connect to the spiritual and astral planes with ease and clarity. This is an intense spirit that took me into today's session with a fiery, hell-bent energy.

I'm immediately taken to Bill. He and I are at a patio door - I can see a pool. It's daytime. We're in the middle of an argument. The details are clear:

M = Me
H = Him

M = What do you want from me?
H = I want you to stay here. You can't go back.
M = I have to go back - my son's there.
H = I don't want you .......being with him.
M = Him? For God sakes, we've already covered this ground. You know our relationship.
H = You're still married.
M = I told you -- I'm going to take care of it once I get back. I can't do it from here. Get off my back.

I push past him and I hear him slam his hand into the glass door. I go into a guest bedroom (which is my room, has my stuff in it, my suitcase) and slam the door. I get on the bed, put my headphones on and turn up the music. He slowly opens the door. Very carefully, he sits on the corner of the bed - moves towards me and takes my headphones off.

H = I don't want to fight.

I turn off the computer and stare at him.

M = Then just drop it. I told you what I'm going to do and how I'm going to do it.
H = Bring him out here - we have good schools.
M = He'll start a new school this fall, Kindergarten in Wooster. The school is a block or two from my house, it's safe. I like my neighborhood. This isn't about me -- or you. It's about my son and what is best for him. You didn't move your son elsewhere even though you wanted to move. He needed to be near his mother, in a secure environment, and he was. You move to Ohio.

He smiles - sort off. Traces his fingers down my face.

H = I only want to show you how much I love you. And I can't -- we can't -- until you put the wheels in motion.

I grab his hands.

M = I know, I'm as equally as frustrated as you. But we both know this is the right way.

He leans in and gives me the sweetest kiss. As he pulls away I grab him to kiss again - but the kiss quickly turns into a very intense, passionate kiss and before we know it - we're naked. We discuss other ways of taking care of this -- frustration that does not include intercourse. So we proceed with other ways - however - instead of helping they are only making things worse - for both of us. Until I throw him onto his back and tell him enough is enough - I can't do this -- this way. He rolls me on my back. We are about to finish what we've started when he says - no. He can't do it. I have so much frustration and anger in me that this point - everything has just hit the boiling point on every level - that I take my legs and push him off the bed. It's a strong push that sends him off the bed and into the dresser.

I look at the clock and I realize that my sister will be here soon to pick me up for the airport. He leaves the room, tears are pouring down his face. I scream as loud as I can and start beating the crap out of everything. He lets me do this. I pack. My sister arrives.

H = I love you sunshine. Hurry back.

I kiss him and tell him that I love him too.

Then I'm done.

As I was there - experiencing all this -- I knew that I was with Bill for several days in which we talked about everything - no sexual contact. We discussed past lives, visions, plans, you name it - we talked about it - even Ted -- although he didn't really want to talk about him. We laughed, had so much fun. Showed each other stones/crystals, had a great time cooking. He read "The Black Triangle" and loved it. Wanted to see the book. The all-over time we were together was very positive and uplifting - comforting. It's only here at the end where things got out of control. As I'm writing this, I can sense that both he and I were very scared at this time - what was going to happen? Were we going to see each other again? When? How? For how long next time? He worried - what will he do to my life?

Staying in Ohio -- hummm.....I don't know.

I'd have to say that it is a "wow" of a stone spirit - wouldn't you?

I started to put into motion the changes that were strongly suggested by Jezel. I have it all set for April 1st (no April fool joke here) to stop the serves mentioned and introduce others. I've already add a couple more workshops. Embarking on this line is outside my comfort zone - but I'm being pushed for a reason - so be it!

Off to work I go -- hope everyone has a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)