A New Past Life, The Airport And Personal Power!

I had a really nice walk this morning. For the last 5 years I have always passed by a house I love with a tree that I just adore. Every day I've passed the house/tree, I could hear the tree begging me to come over. I never did - until today. I placed my hands on the tree and got the jolt of my life. In that instant I saw me, as a little girl in a previous lifetime, plant that tree. It was awesome. No wonder that tree/house had caught my attention as soon as I moved to Wooster back in 2001. I had lived there before. The tree asked me to be its caretaker again, that it has much to share with me and wishes until I am the caretaker - that I visit often. I promised that I would. The house was once a grand house - complete with an apartment over it's detached garage. However, now the house has been sliced up into apartments - I would assume that the owner gets a better rate of return on her investment. It had to, at one time, have at least 4 bedrooms with a master bedroom and a place for the servants - plus a dining room, parlor, living room, kitchen, ballroom, breakfast room and laundry area.

I want to change that house back into a house. But that is going to take some cash -- some cold hard cash. I'd better get cracking!

Now that the house is relatively quiet, I though that I would try to do a session today (as soon as I typed that - the doorbell rang - LOL).

I'm taken into an airport. I'm sitting down, text messengering someone on the phone. I'm impressed by the speed of my fingers, looks like I finally have it down! My sister walks over to me and hands me a slip of paper. She says that it is a woman who wants a reading - she recognized me, but didn't want to be rude and approach. So she handed my sister her phone number. She said anytime at any price. I asked my sister if she told the woman to make an appointment with my office. She nodded yes she did - but that the woman thought it would be better if I was handed the phone number. My sis asked if I want her to take care of it (meaning throw the number away) and I told her no - give it to me. I placed it in a folder. I asked her where is my son? She said over there watching outside. I motion for him to come over and he does. Just then another person approaches us and says - so this is your son -- he is exactly how you describe him! I pull my son a bit closer and tell the person thank you. I am asked for an autograph (although I don't know what I am signing) and I happily oblige this person.

My sister opens this appointment book and her and I run down what I am to do once we land - it appears to be in NYC. It feels to me, that right now we are in Chicago. After NYC we get to go back home until it is time to go to London for something. I ask my sister to book a vacation to NZ for us after the London trip and then asked her to call home and speak to Bess about the status of the house and animals -- and that I will talk to her later.

I glance over and Josh (Sawyer from LOST) sits down next to me. I asked him - what's up? He smiles and says - don't you know darlin`? I comment - enlighten me. He flashes this look, it's hard to describe, but it is sexy and mischievous all at once. He replies - oh I plan to, don't you worry. With that he gets up and walks away.

And with that - I am done.

I thought that this was too short of a session, but when I tried to go back in all I saw was a woman falling down a flight of wooden stairs - a large set of stairs as one would find in an old, big house. But I wasn't permitted to see anything else.

So I guess that is that.

I've been working really hard on the next gypsy magic book. Adding things, deleting others. I hope to be close to being done with the spells later today. That would leave the part on the holocaust that I want to write about for the Gypsy Lore section.

I had a thought today about asking the input or advice from others to back up what I think about myself or my visions. A friend of mine once told me - when in doubt, go back to the truth. And she couldn't have been more correct. Most of us, myself included, get so wrapped up in looking for the support from others instead of putting forth the same effort to get that same support from ourselves. We look for answers about our life externally, instead of going to where all the answers are stored - internally. No matter who you ask for help, no one can get it right - in the terms of advice - all the time. Except that is, if you ask yourself. Our souls have it all mapped out already - the past, present and the future that is still yet to be written (which is not to be confused with destiny as it is mapped out already - the future is only the road map to get you to destiny). All we have to do is to develop the ability to listen, and then TRUST our own Divine wisdom.

This is what I've been working on too - to trust me about me. I have no doubt about what I tell other people about them. But I doubt me about me a good chunk of the time. That's silly and I aim to stop it. So now everytime I want to run out and ask an opinion of another, I still myself and then ask my question. The answer I get, no matter what it is, I'm learning to trust it and go in that direction. I haven't been disappointed in myself yet. The big shift came when I finally stopped trying to figure out the "how" of things. I have complete confidence in myself (which is new) and in the Divine (status quo) that things will work out how they are supposed to. I got to thank Merlin again for being so pushy about that Manifestation Journal - it really changed my outlook on me.

I have also come to the conclusion that when you ask another for their advice, you give away a touch of your own personal power. The more you put the trust in others instead of yourself, the more power you give away. This is why so many people feel drained and hopeless - they willing gave their power away. They relied on the opinions of others more than they relied on their own opinion. Thankfully, one can stop it ASAP and begin immediately to regain their strength & power. Try it, you'll be glad you did.

My new cell phone should be here any minute! I am soooooo excited. Although I like my current phone - the battery power bites and the signal strength is even worse. Now no matter who calls and no matter where I am at -- I should be able to answer:) Ya-hoo!

BTW...I know that I have a TON of email to get caught up on. I will - but email isn't a big priority of mine while I'm trying to get the writing done. So please be patient. If it is an emergency and you really need a reply soon - indicate that in the subject line. Thanks!

Have a wonderful day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)