Wyoming Kittens Find Home!

Orphaned Wyoming Cougar Kittens Bound for New Home

The Cougar Fund Press Release

Jackson, Wyoming, February 27, 2006 - Four orphaned cougar kittens will go to a new home on Wednesday at the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo in Colorado Springs, CO. Discovered in late January after a hunter shot their mother in Jackson, WY, the fourteen week-old siblings likely would not have survived on their own in the wild.

In cooperative negotiations between The Cougar Fund, a national nonprofit organization dedicated to cougar conservation, and the Wyoming Game and Fish Department, Wildlife Division Chief under Director Terry Cleveland, Jay Lawson confirmed Monday that permits to release the kittens to representative Michelle Schireman of the American Zoo and Aquarium Association are under way.

First sighted near the Game Creek trail in Jackson Hole in January, the kittens were trapped and removed on January 28 by local Wyoming Game and Fish officials. They have been held for the last four weeks between the Sybille research facility near Wheatland, WY and later at a similar facility in Colorado. "We were concerned about the future of these kittens. It is tragic enough that they were orphaned, but the fear from our constituents that they would be used as research animals was overwhelming," says Zeenie Scholz, Director of Operations and Development for The Cougar Fund. Rehabilitation and re-release of cougars into the wild, while considered an option for the four cubs, have not been shown to have high success rates.

In the fourteen states where cougars (also called mountain lions and pumas) may be legally hunted, there are few regulations in place that protect female cougars, referred to by ecologists as 'the biological savings accounts of the population.' And statistics from these states' hunting data reports show that nearly half of the cougars bagged by hunters are, in fact, females.

"The best available science confirms that female cougars are either pregnant or raising dependent cubs for more than 70% of their lives. And the cubs stay with their mothers for anywhere from 14 to 18 months," says Rick Hopkins, PhD, cougar biologist and President of Live Oak Associates, an ecological consulting firm located in Silicon Valley, CA. "For pretty much their entire adult lives, female cougars are either being, or becoming, moms."

With upwards of 3000 cougars legally shot for sport each year, this means "many more kittens are being orphaned than game officials - and even hunters - realize," says Hopkins. And backtracking for potential orphans is not common protocol. "These kittens were tracked because their mother was shot in a winter closure area, which is illegal" says Scholz. "Otherwise Wyoming, along with the other western states' policies, does not require that potential orphans be searched for when females are killed.

"Even cougar hunters seem to agree. "Its an easy fix. Change the regulations and treat cougars just like you treat other big and small game, deer and elk, ducks and geese," says Jason Reinhardt, a sportsman and cougar hunter in Jackson, WY. "Female cougars should be protected, just like antlered and antlerless game.

"Which is why The Cougar Fund is focusing its attention on building bridges between the public, hunters, and the officials charged with amending hunting regulations. "This is one issue where hunters and non-hunters agree, females with dependent young should be protected," says Scholz. "Its what we called a 'common-ground' issue because it moves the debate away from the emotionally-charged arguments of hunting, good or bad, and shows that we can work together.

"So why are female cougars still being shot? "Its a disconnect. Some hunters don't know how to tell the sex of the cat, or they guess," says Hopkins. "And some know but shoot anyway, because they or their client paid to take home a trophy, male or female, and they will, at any cost."

Larry, The Echo And The Unknown!

I am immediately taken into a large room. There are no buffers, so it echoes. It reminds me of a huge concrete,white dome. There are many, many seats that start in a circle and spiral down. I'm walking around, really looking at nothing when Larry appears. He smiles at me and says it's about time. It is? I say. Yes he says, I've been waiting a very long time for you to find me -- so yes, it's about time. I stare at him and ask -- so you know I'm real. Yes he says with a smile. Do you consciously know that I am real? He thinks about this one -- I believe that I really know, I'm drawn to you - have been since that first time you made contact. But I didn't know why until you let down your wall.

I had a wall? I look around as when we talk it echoes - very annoying. Larry realizes how annoyed I am and he takes me to a part of the wall. He raps his knuckles on it and it gives way like a door. We walk into a lavish room - straight out of an English Manor or castle. It's a library. He has me sit on a greenish, plush couch. He takes my hand - you've had a wall up for so long that you don't even realize that it is there. When you concentrated on you and not everyone else, you allowed the wall down far enough to let me enter.

So what does this mean - what or who are we to each other in this life? He shrugs - I don't know that part yet. But what I do know is that we are to support and care for one another, no matter what life throws at us. Neither of us have had an easy time of it -- but that's what makes us strong.

There's a light off in the distance. That's my cue - love - the show must go on. He kisses me and leaves me with -- make sure you stop by for another visit. With that -- he's gone.

So I'm sitting there thinking - what visits? I can't remember any dream visits, although I must admit I've had a sense that we have been visiting all along.

I'm still in this room when Robert comes over. Thank you for trusting me - he says. I smile - you're welcome. That's not an easy thing for me to do -- trust. He nods, I know. So what happens now? I want to know.

You keep moving up to the next level where you will meet new people who will be of help to you. Does this mean you're leaving? No he says - earth bound people will help you. One thing leads to another and new doors will open. Keep cutting the ties that no longer suit you to make way for the new.

With that he leaves and I'm done!

I've noticed that when Larry is brought up or if I see or hear something that reminds me of him I start with that annoying energy trembling. So I know that this is important - this connection.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Ask Allie, A Double Me and Larry!

I emailed the regressionist today about hopefully connecting me with a regressionist who would want to collaborate on two books - one about Cleopatra VII and the other about Joan of Arc. I think it would be fascinating to many people to understand what made these strong women tick. I know I'm sure interested!! Maybe then I'll figure out what makes me tick:) I hope he at least considers it and doesn't hit the delete button ASAP - ya know?

This past weekend was the 5th anniversary for my "Ask Allie" column! Yeah! I started it with only one web site (my own) and now it is on over 70 sites and more are added all the time. Born out of the column is the podcast of the same name. I had another "ah-ha" moment as I was listening to VERTIGO (yes -- again) today before the podcast was recorded. Why not make a listener appreciation function where listeners can rack up points redeemable for free items on my site? Each podcast I will mention a code word or a phrase - something from either my column, a book, web site, etc...and people can collect those clues or codes to redeem them for free readings - books - spells - sachets - flower essence or healing. So this is something that I hope to get running next week. But on today's broadcast I am giving away a free e-book of "Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul" if you email me the code I mention in the podcast.

I keep forgetting to mention that I gave my 1st workshop via teleconference on "Connecting with your Guides and Angels". It went pretty well. I had the 25 max that I could get on the phone call. It lasted about 2 hours and I've had several emails from people with follow-up questions. Which is good since I the questions are free to them and I know that I got them thinking! I'm not sue when I'll have time to do another one. But I'm looking at April right now.

It's odd to have Larry - so "right there" in my mind's eye -- so much so that there is no room for Bill and Ted. It's like -- you had your chance suckers now I'm going to connect with her. Larry is very determined - bordering obsessive when he wants something and right now I can feel him want to understand this connection. I too would like to understand it as it still all hasn't made sense. I mean - I know that I'm right about him, no doubts there, but he's so "just there" that there has to be a reason - you know?

My "alone time" away from my support network has been lifted! At least NOW I know why it had to be done. Had I not been pulled away I would have never discovered Larry. My mind was so involved with Bill and Ted that it didn't leave room for anyone else to step up to the mat. So I took - what a month or so - away from the push of Bill and Ted -- and Larry finally came through. Plus - I got a lot of work done. Robert jumps into remind me that I'm far from done - and I agree. But it's nice to be in contact again. I also discovered Cleopatra during this time and that I was splitting or doubling myself and showing up at people's houses. Unconsciously - my astral self has been talking off, while I'm fully awake and functional like now, and going to talk to people. I don't know all who I've shown up at -- but this was a gift that again - wouldn't have been brought out had I been focused on the guys. Now to get control of this gift so I can consciously split and direct my astral self. Now that'll be cool :)

Off to get my shower and then it's back to rewriting, "The Black Triangle" while trying to balance a cat on my lap (the outdoor cat, Raisin, that's not mine - it's nasty out so I brought him in).

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

FYI for Newbies To The Blog!

Hi Everyone,

I've noticed a lot of new people who show arrive at this blog and if you don't know who is who - then it can get a bit confusing. Especially since I do not use real names (except my own and guides).

So here is a cheat sheet:

ROBERT and HANNA - Spirit Guides
BRIGIT - Goddess

BILL and TED - Soul mates - in soul cluster (real people)

LARRY - New member soul circle BUT in the inner soul cluster as well (a real person)

CLIVE, PETER, FRANK and just about anyone else male I've mentioned - Members of soul circle (real people)

CINDY - my intutive friend and earth-bound guide (yes, a real person)

If I've forgotten anyone - post a note and I'll explain.

Take care!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Cleopatra, U2 and a New Soul Circle Member!

What a weekend! I've been a good girl - ignoring email and getting a move on all of the things that must get done the weekend. So if you've email me in the last several days, hold tight, I'll get back with ya! Friday night I had to contend with the "poor little me I feel so alone" crap from myself. Thank God that only lasted a few hours. The reason it didn't last long, I believe, is because Robert kept after me all day to make myself a new flower essence blend. I still put it off. Then Friday night I heard from two of my flower essence friends - I finally said - FINE ROBERT! And made the blend. I felt better immediately. (sigh) I know, I know - I should of listened to him sooner -- but my focus and stubbornness for what I wanted to complete kept getting in my way. I mean - who had the time? Anywho, normally it takes a day or two for Robert to finally get through to me - this only took 1/2 a day. An improvement.

So what essences did I use? They were all from Green Hope Farms. I got all of my essence out - but the angels and elements said no -- just the red box. So I pulled out bottlebrush, re-union, watchman, green envy, bachelors buttons, coffee, honeysuckle, jade, shadowblow and sansevieria. Placed them in my dosage bottle along with a double terminated Herkimer and there you have it!

Robert has also been giving me some advice on a few other things. He strongly suggested that I email the archeologist whose team has been excavating Alexandria now for many years and ask about Cleopatra and a ruby sphere. So I did. I'll let you know if I hear back. Secondly he wants me to get a hold of a gentleman that runs a past life list I am on and ask him who is doing research on past lives and if there is anyone who would be interested in doing research with me and with my past lives. I haven't done this yet - although I probably will. He may think that I'm insane - but he's not the 1st and certainly won't be the last. I would love to collaborate with someone who is a past life regressionist and is interested in learning more about Joan of Arc and/or Cleopatra - with my regressions we could write a couple of books together. Can you imagine the information I have stored in my soul just waiting for someone to open up those portals and take me through? Wow - it's mind boggling.

I made yet another amazing discovery this weekend. I was jamming to VERTIGO by U2 and another door opened up - I discovered who another member of my soul circle is. He'll be 46 this year and as far a I know -- is not friends with either Bill or Ted -- although they are in the same type of business - just different avenues of employment. I was actually quite stunned with this knowledge - but knew I was correct by the number of chills I had at that moment of realization. Hummm...what's a good name for him? Larry it is. Larry, I believe, has been to this blog on several occasions. I wonder if he's thinking -- why am I here? And why do I keep coming back? I know that I get puzzled when I'm drawn to a particular person or place without any tangible evidence on a why. I have direct access to Larry, although we live in different parts of the world. Not sure what I'm going to do here - if anything. Just as I typed that - I heard Robert say that I will do something -- HA -- he wants me to email him. Why do guides have to make everything sound so easy?

I issued a press relase about my podcast - ASK ALLIE and got a good chunk of new listeners!

My book, "Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul" is now on Amazon.com:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0977183505/qid=1140981583/sr=2-1/ref=pd_bbs_b_2_1/102-1665598-7888141?s=books&v=glance&n=283155

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Cleopatra, The Crystal Cavern and Caesar!

I am quickly being taken into a large cave. It's dark, yet around the perimeter it gives off a soft white glow. Very odd. I can move through the cave with no problems - it is chilly, but not unbearable. I follow the cave until it exits into a very lush, green landscape. It is warm inviting - I see woodland animals and birds all around. A robin perches itself on a tree limb and sings a small tune - flies off. Everything is in bloom, the flowers, the trees -- I can hear water not too far off.

I follow the sound of the water and I'm now in the crystal cavern. Not sure how I got here. I turn around and try to find an opening, but there isn't any. I hear a soft voice - the way out is hidden. I turn and see a captivating woman in a long dress of what appears to be made of silk. I ask - why is it hidden? She says because if it was not - too many when try to enter the portal and it would ruin the power within. I ask if this is the same crystal cavern that I've been to on many occasions. She says yes. I ask who are you? She calls herself Alexandria. Her skin looks olive or tan, with dark shoulder length hair and deep brown eyes. Reminds me a lot of me - only much thinner and taller and well -- more pure I suppose. She holds out her hands and I take them. She asks me if I'm ready? For what I ask. She pulls her towards a wall telling me that there are hidden portals all over this place, it depends where I want to go and what I want to see where. I am permitted to use all the doors here. As we get closer to the wall, a light image of a door way appears - we go through it.

I'm now in Egypt. I look down at myself and I am me - but not me. I am much thinner, younger - but still female. I have on a very rich looking dress with jewelry on me. I look over and I'll be dammed - there is that ruby sphere. I look at Alexandria to ask her what it is. And a servant girl asks me what I need. So I am to assume that no one can see Alexandria but me - as this Egyptian person. A man enters my tent and says that I will be seen now. I follow him into another tent. Standing over a table looking at scrolls is no other than Julius Caesar. He looks at me and asks what's wrong. Now in my mind I'm thinking - this is fricken insane. No way is he Caesar and no way am I here. He stares at me some more I see Bill's eyes in Caesar's eyes (if that makes any sense). Caesar wants to discuss land - either acquiring or splitting and is disturbed because I am not there looking at these maps with him. I glance over at Alexandria and say - no.

With that we are back at the crystal cavern. I look at her -- I am not Cleopatra. No way. That for me is too far fetched. Joan of Arc - okay. Some sort of saint (who I haven't figured out yet) when Jesus was alive - maybe...but Cleopatra?? Come on! Bill as Caesar? That would make Ted - Antony. Even I can't wrap my mind around this. I'm a stay at home mom in Wooster -- how do you expect me to live up to this??

She says -- that's just it -- you are much more than you see. With that she fades and I'm done.

Okay - you know how I can relate to things, absorb them, mull it around and then agree to them? Well- THIS is a big problem for me. I can't even begin to believe this one. Why? What's so far fetched about this that the rest aren't? I don't know?? What I do know is the chills I feel, the body shakes --all those signs that tell me I'm right has me freaking right now.

BTW...the book (Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul) is up on Amazon.com right now...how FUN is that???

You have noticed - or not - that my site keeps going up and down. The psychic scam board is not working again and neither is juicecaster. Well - some hackers got into the servers and have been playing around. I've been moved to a secure server now - but things are still not working right. The last psychic scam board got damaged and had to be deleted - so trying to start it again.

If it isn't one thing it's another.

Food for thought today -- food for thought...

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Save The Redrock Wilderness!

http://www.savebiogems.org/redrock/

It took millions of years to create the delicate sandstone arches and swirling crimson towers that rise over southern Utah's Redrock Wilderness. First, an ancient sea left behind salt deposits; then, the wind began wearing the deposits away until fantastical redrock shapes emerged. Even the fragile soils that ring the towers took thousands of years to adapt to the extreme desert environment. Now, these soils sustain antelope, bighorn sheep and bursts of spring wildflowers.

But it takes only a matter of days to destroy this delicate balance. When the Bush administration allowed 50,000-pound "thumper trucks" to crash through the desert in search of oil and gas in 2002, scientists said up to 300 years might be needed for the soils to recover from the damage. Permanent energy development -- which would deface the desert with a network of roads and pipelines, towering wells and pumps and massive waste pits -- would be even more devastating. And the rapid growth of essentially unmanaged off-road vehicle use also presents an enormous threat to the spectacular national treasures of this region.

Right now the Bush administration wants to escalate oil exploration and other destructive activities in the Redrock Wilderness and other western wildlands by cutting the public out of the review process. Silencing the public's voice would clear the way for more massive thumper trucks (and ultimately oil and gas rigs) to further damage and destroy this region's fragile desert ecosystem and wildlife habitat.

Tell the Bush administration not to weaken protections for the Redrock Wilderness.

TAKE ACTION:
http://www.savebiogems.org/redrock/takeaction.asp?step=2&item=53340

Have Faith They Say....

I running a bit behind schedule today because of a reading I was doing. But Robert is rushing me to jump into this session - so here I go.

I am immediately back in that all white room with Archangel Raphael. I can feel me clench my jaw. He tells me not to stress so much, that Ted has Divine watch over him. Why then -- I ask -- did you tell me that I have to physically get to him? His voice is so calm, so soothing -- because you must. Your energy is vital to his long-term survival. But doesn't he already have my energy? I can hear what he thinks, I can sense what he does -- I know Bill the same way and I'm sure that the two of them are also this connected. Very true he says. But what Ted needs is my love. My physical love and energy. He needs to see my physical presence. I laugh -- I'm over the age of 25 and I've had a kid -- I doubt greatly that he will look twice at me in the physical sense. Especially since he is right in the middle of a mid-life crisis.

The Archangel smiles. Never underestimate the power of eternal love, he says. All he has to do is look into your eyes and that will be that. Can you give me a hint on how I'm supposed to do this? Bill isn't doing anything about anything. Or so you think - he replies. What's he doing? Archangel Raphael moves to the window - do you remember your dream last night? If you mean the one with Bill and I talking - bits and parts. What do you remember the most - he asks? Bill is sitting down, indian style. I lower myself so that I can look into his eyes - but I'm not sitting. I ask him if he is scared of me. He looks at me - almost amused - and says no I'm not. I say - you're just being cautious? He says - yes. I ask - how is the investigation going? His eyes grow wide and he shrugs. Almost done he says. Would you like either my social security or driver's license numbers? Would that speed things up he asks? I stand up and walk past him to a table, grab a paper and pen. It could I say...and I jot down my SS number and hand it to him.

Archangel Raphael fades from view as he says - there are things going on that are not apparent -- have faith. That sent a chill through my body!

I'm now in my meadow with Robert. He tells me that I have to let go, that I cannot control what happens with Bill and Ted. Things will work out. Let the universe do it's job. I ask him -- if you want me to let go, then why do you want me to astral projection, to work on my dreaming, why did you have be repair my necklace and why the grid? He laughs. Stop trying to figure it all out. Do them for the simple act of taking pleasure in the task.

Do you feel the push? Robert asks. I feel lots of pushes and pulls in all sorts of directions - which one are you talking about? The script - your "Black Triangle". Yes - that would be the strongest right now - to finish the rewrite and then turn it into a book. He nods - you need to get it done. Of course I do - I reply. What about my gypsy magic books? Should have been done - he says. Get them done. When am I not going to feel so alone? You had to have this time -- to be alone with no support system, at least one you could physical relate to. You needed this time to concentrate on your own skills to trust yourself. All will be back when the time is right. Will it be soon - I ask. Yes he says.

I'm curious about that past life in Egypt. What can you tell me about it? He looks at me -- what fascinates you about that time? Cleopatra and the Goddess Isis. Good - concentrate on them and see what you get. That's all the help you are going to give me? How many great lover's did Cleopatra have? Caesar and Antony I replied. That's right Robert says -- two. With that he leaves and I'm done.

You gotta love a guide with a sense of humor.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Why Such Disregard For Cougars?

Jackson Hole News&Guide (Download PDF-24MB HERE)

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Opinion by Cara Blessley Lowe

In the days following the capture and removal of three cougars kittens near Game Creek, I have attempted to speak to and obtain information from the Jackson division of the Wyoming Game and Fish Department as to why these cubs were removed from their natural habitat in the first place. I would believe the publicly stated goodwill intention to prevent the suffering of the orphaned cubs (JH News & Guide 1/28/06), were the Jackson WGFD actively working to amend a hunting policy which creates the problem they now step in to solve.

The mark of a well-functioning democracy is a general faith in our elected leaders, a constitutionally-conceived program of checks and balances, and a transparency on the part of public officials to their constituents, the public. The Great State of Wyoming and its wildlife--perhaps an even more iconic symbol to this place in these early days of the twenty-first century than the cowboy--appears to be at a crossroads at this point in time.

The cougar is Wyoming's most widespread large carnivore, which is not to say the most numerous. The state's mountains in the west feed new generations, as well as varied genetic strains, of cougars to other parts of Wyoming, and other western states as well. (A cougar collared in Wyoming once was discovered as far south as central Colorado.) In scientific language, these kinds of habitats, once identified, are called source zones, and are crucial to maintaining a genetically varied population of this keystone species.

Now, not only do we have a statewide hunting policy that does little to protect female cougars (the biological ‘savings accounts' of the species), we have a WGF division who steps in to the wild to “rescue” orphaned cubs who may or may not make it on their own out there, exchanging the likely suffering, if not extreme duress and hardship in the wild for a more prolonged, and far from natural existence in a captive research facility somewhere outside of Cheyenne.

Meanwhile, lay people and NGOs who are most concerned about this issue fumble around in a veritable minefield of rumors, unreturned telephone messages, reports from those close to the Jackson division of the WGFD but unwilling and/or afraid to come forward about what really happened and is happening to these animals--and even more importantly, why.

Why the disregard for this species? Why the repeat maligning of these animals as potential safety hazards for the public--bees, even bison, are statistically far more dangerous. Why the lack of transparency?

It would appear a subversive revolution is taking place within the ranks of the Jackson division of the WGFD. He whose job it is to communicate the actions, or provide justification for the actions, has been forbidden by superiors to speak to certain individuals. A single outfitter has killed three collared cougars, all of them subjects of Beringia South's Teton cougar study, all males, all killed in the Gros Ventre drainage: one sub-adult cub, one 3-year old, and one resident, eight year-old territory-holding male.

The three cubs “rescued” by the WGFD on 1/28/06 may be the orphans of the female cougar illegally shot in a winter closure area. The hunter was allowed to keep his illegal trophy, and the professional guide, whose job is to know where and where not to go, continues guiding.

First the trail is closed, and their natural food is taken away, because the cubs may be a threat to humans recreating in a popular area. Next, they are “rescued” because they may have no mother. Days later, with still no press release on behalf of WGFD, the JH News & Guide reports WGFD dragged another, fresher kill to the site to help the little ones out. Or bait them, which makes more sense since they ended up being captured in bear trap culverts.

It should not take an education group, a team of pre-eminent cougar biologists, conservation groups, animal rights groups, hunters, lawyers--ore even Governor Freudenthal or WGFD Director Terry Cleveland--to step in and wade through these kinds of misguided moves and set things right. But it might.

3 Cougars Trapped and Removed in Jackson Hole

The USDA Forest Service issued the following news release on Friday, January 27, 2006 regarding the removal of three cougars from prime cougar habitat along Game Creek in Jackson Hole, Wyoming.

The Cougar Fund is extremely concerned about the circumstances surrounding the removal of these three majestic cats from their home range and their fate in the event no facility elects to adopt them.

Furthermore, all evidence indicates that these were not independent, adult cats. According to Dr. Rick Hopkins, a member of our Board of Directors and a renowned cougar expert, “These were three cubs or a mother and two kittens.” Unless small children were wandering alone on Game Creek, these three young cougars were unlikely to be a threat to human health and safety.

Please visit this site again in the near future, when we will provide you with information and tools to appeal to the Wyoming Game & Fish Department and to the Governor of Wyoming to encourage more transparency in reporting to us, the public.

Thank you,
Zeenie Scholz
Director of Development and Operations
The Cougar Fund

News Release

USDA Forest Service
Bridger-Teton National Forest
P.O. Box 1888
Jackson, WY 83001
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE CONTACTS: Mary Cernicek (307) 739-5564

DATE: January 27, 2006

Bridger-Teton National Forest Reopens Game Creek Trail

Jackson, Wyo : This morning, the Bridger-Teton National Forest Jackson Ranger District lifted the temporary closure at the Game Creek trail, just south of the town of Jackson. Wyoming Game and Fish officials reported that the three mountain lions that were in the vicinity of the Game Creek trailhead were taken from the area to be perhaps adopted by an educational facility.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006, Jackson Ranger District Winter Patrollers spotted the mountain lions feeding on an elk carcass in close proximity to the Game Creek trailhead. After moving the elk carcass from the area, the District temporarily closed the trail in the interest of human health and safety. Regular grooming schedules and patrols will resume today.

A Grid, A Dream And A Past Life!

I'm heading off to bed, but before I do....

Remember what I told you about my 3 stone pendant last week? I had over a week where my thoughts were not centered around Bill and Ted..Today I kept hearing the urging of Robert to fix the necklace - so I did - and I wore it all day. Then I had an urging from the angels to make a grid with 3 jade stones in the center (one for each of us), two pearls, and 4 twin crystals around the perimeter - points looking in. I was then told to put a pinch of rose hips in the center and sprinkle orris root over the jade. Next came for me to place the flower essence of Reunion (made specifically for the reunion of soul mates/soul circle from the wonderful elements, angels and guides of Green Hope Farms) and place a drop on each jade with a finish of the flower essence of Shadblow (also from GHF - this is used to propel you forward towards your destiny) - a drop on each crystal. Normally I like to clean up around the office before I use a grid. But there was an urgent NOW to the whole thing. So I followed instructions. Now they won't leave my mind - especially Ted.

Speaking of Ted - he got a new job and will be spending much more time in LA. Now both men will be in the same city.

Cindy told me about a dream she had last night:

"I dreamed that I was in England. I was going to England to meet Ted. I was on a train. The next thing I know the train is being stopped because an important person needs to board. I remember being in my own compartment. A few moments after the train began going again a knock came at my door. I answered the door and it was Bill
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He was dressed in clothing from what would look like a medieval time. He seemed to be unaware that he was in another time period. He did not know his name to be Bill. He told me that I knew of his relationship to the dark haired woman. I said yes. He told me he was angered with you because you burned his letter. I asked him what letter. He said that he sent you a letter telling you about his undying love for you and you never answered it. In a vision he said he saw you burning the letter. I told him that I cannot imagine you burning his letter unless it was for a good reason. He replied, the reason is that she must hide it from her husband or he will kill us both, but why, then, has she not replied? You must ask her and meet me at me brethren's house on the 15th."

Now I had to smile when I saw her note about the dream. My 1st thought was a past life that I've mentioned in the blog before where he and I were lovers, but I got married to a wealthy man as it was an arranged marriage between families. There was a note - but never a reply from me so Bill left the town, broken hearted never to marry. This has to be what he's talking about. I'm not positive about the brethren house unless he means a minister or pastor who favored us both and wanted us to be together. In my current life - my 1st marriage was on the 15th and the day I flipped my car in Texas - also the 15th. Hummmm?

I really wish I could remember my dreams from Friday night. Sat I remembered them and I kept telling myself to blog it and tell you about them. Sadly all I can remember is being with both men. Now last night I remember a good chunk - and it is about Ted. My 1st thought when I entered into the dream visit with him is that it was a continuation from the previous night.

Ted was sitting down - he was in a black shirt and a pair of jeans. Right above his right knee there was an ink stain - large. We commented that he has to stop getting hurt. I rubbed the spot, he placed his hand over mine. I mentioned something about a year and his new job. He said that he's glad I have more confidence then he does - and he laughs. I can remember opening a glass door for him and he says for me to quit worrying that he's going to hurt himself, he's fine. I laughed and said I'm no mamby pamby and it's called being polite. I saw him (and a couple of friends) walking towards the door and I opened it.

I asked if Bill ever told him about me - he said no. And then got pissed. He said he wanted to call me Alison - not Allie. Bill can call me Allie if he wants but he will call me Alison (I've had a sense of this for years - that Ted would call me Alison - which is what my family and friends from childhood call me).

We were in a large house - a party was going on and I spoke to my sister - the one that lives in LA. I then went over to Ted and told him that his assistant had broken into his email. I said - you know that email is in there (alluding that I forwarded him the letter I sent to Bill) he's like - oh no! He'll have to take care of that. He's being very sweet when he says he's going to marry me. I mention that we need to talk about me - then I told him about my husband. He looked very hurt. He was getting upset for he had to share me with Bill -he didn't want to share with anyone else. So I asked a woman beside me who I assume I was friends with about my marriage. She replies that my marriage is very sacred and that my husband and I love each other very much. I asked her why she is lying. I told Ted that she was lying. He looked like someone just shot him. I kept yelling at the woman to take it back and tell the truth. She had a paperweight in her hands and I broke it I was so angry. I then stormed off with Ted running behind me - I was yelling I've had it -- this isn't worth it. And then I woke up.

Off to bed I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

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Fingers crossed!
Allie :)

What Else Can I Do?

In today's session I am pulled into a large, all white room with two windows and no furniture. If I go to a window and look out - I can see the ocean - the beach is a few hundred feet ahead of me. Archangel Raphael arrives- I greet him, it's been awhile. He smiles and says yes it has - but you haven't needed me until now. I know that he sensed my growing concern over Ted. Something isn't right and my 1st feel is a lung tumor. I ask the Archangel if this is correct and he says yes it is. What do I do - I ask? It's not like we are on physical speaking terms where I can call him and say - hey - you know that deep cough you think is just the annoying bronchitis you picked up from your daughter? Well it's not - please go see your doctor. He says, no - you cannot do such, not yet anyway. But I know that every day that goes by that he does not have a scan of his lungs done is another day that the cancer grows worse. There's only so much I can do remotely.

I know you have been healing him at night - every evening when you lie your head down, you and Bill go to him and send him healing light. But I don't remember that - why? He says - think of your conscious mind, your worry, if you knew all what happens all the time on the astral plane. Do you really think that you could consciously work knowing about Ted and that you two have been healing him every night for months?

I know he's right. If anything were wrong with either man, and I knew about it, I would go crazy not being able to physically help. I wouldn't get any work done.

Archangel Raphael goes on -- you need to get to him, in the physical sense. This is turn makes me burst out into a gut wrenching sob - so much so that I'm having a hard time typing. What am I supposed to do-- I cry? I've tried what I could. I can't do anything else from my end to get to Ted. It's all in Bill's court and he's not doing anything. If something were to happen to Ted before I could get to him because of Bill -- I'd never forgive him, Bill that is. By now I am sobbing so hard that I know I've broken a blood vessel in my eye just because I can feel it. The outpour of raw emotion just keeps coming.

I turn to the Archangel -- I'm done with this session. He starts to say -- but..... However, I'm done and that's it. As I come out of it I can hear him say - Do not give up hope.

I really am done talking about this. The raw emotion has now turned into an intense anger. I have to go pick up my son from preschool in 15 min and it won't do me any good to drive this pissed off. So I'm going to go beat the crap out of my bed to relieve the build up.

I'm sure I'll be fine soon -- the only problem is Ted won't.

Done venting....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: I get back from picking up my son and this waiting for me in my email:

ATTITUDE

A positive attitude
causes a chain reaction
of positive thoughts,
events, and outcomes.
It is a catalyst,
a spark that creates
extraordinary results.

- Anonymous

(SIGH) Yep - I get it.....

the "L" word, Lost, 111-111-1111 and Allie's $.02!

God, I never thought this was going to be fixed - the posting snafu. It drove me nuts not being able to post. I'm sitting here watching LOST and although I love this show, all I can think about is the metaphysical/gift stuff that Robert keeps talking about in my ear. He and Merlin have been around a lot today - even not going into a mediation session I can feel and hear both. I was trying to put off writing until at least the "L" word was over. I can hear you now -- Allie, you watch the "L" Word. Yep - have since day one. In fact, I'd love to write for them. I love the characters, their stores, their interactions - it is a show about much more than being a lesbian or being friends with one. It's a show about being who you are supposed to be, about being true to yourself no matter what the odds, no matter what people say or think of you. It's about being true to yourself. A lesson we all should take and work on. Yep Wednesday is my "L" night - two "L' shows that I love because I care about the characters and what happens to them - a rarity when it comes to the shows on TV today. Although, I must admit, the LOST men are hot - LOL!

Over the last couple of weeks, I have noticed that the amount of visitors to this blog are searching for the meaning of 111-111-1111. I have also found, that in the readings I do that guides are wanting their charges to have more fun in their lives. I think both go together. That people need to find a balance in their life in order for them to make it to the next level and the 111-111-1111 is their guides way of getting their attention. I'm real guilty of this - I have no balance. It's no wonder I got this message. I can't remember when the last time I had fun. I mean actual pure fun without work or business involved somehow. Now I love to work and I love to write - but I have forgotten what it is like to do have fun for the pleasure of simply having fun. I have to remember how and sooner rather than later.

What Robert and Merlin keep talking about has to do with my ability to walk into dreams that are not my own and my gift for astral projection. That I haven't given proper attention to these gifts. I know I haven't. And I don't know why. I've been able to do both naturally since childhood and I know that I could do so much more if I put the effort into it. I have books - many books on the astral projection. And they're good - but so far none grab me as the way to progress. I've always had to blaze my own path. Makes me wonder why I have so many books - LOL! I guess because I like to research and then form my own way based on what I found. I feel more comfortable with the dream travel, maybe because there aren't so many "experts" to a point where I feel my gift is inferior to theirs. I think that I need to stop worrying and just do:) I need to take my own advice!

Speaking of advice, I got an email today from an unhappy client. I knew that there was going to be some difficulties along the way with this one as no matter what I said in any of the readings there was that defiant tone like I never knew what I was talking about. It's amazing how this one comment has squeezed out all the good comments I heard today. Being a psychic or intuitive is not 100% accurate- I wish it was. But I'd have to say that my record is pretty good at about 85%. It's the timing where I have a problem. But I don't know a psychic yet who is wonderful at timing. I guess what surprises me the most is how one bad comment can take on more energy than all the good comments. Why is that? Why do we lean on the bad in a situation and neglect the good? Is it because we don't feel we are worthy of the good? Food for thought.

BTW Netta - I don't plan on stopping with the flower essences:) I'm so happy to hear that they work for you. I personally love flower essences and I cannot fathom stopping them for myself - so I wouldn't do that to anyone else either.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Three Out of Four Wolves Could Die!

As Defenders of Wildlife's representative in Idaho, I'm writing today with a crucial request: The Idaho Department of Fish and Game has proposed a disastrous new wolf management plan, and we need your help to stop it.
Tell the Fish and Game to protect our wolves -- Send your message now.

Under the Department’s proposal, three out of every four wolves in Idaho’s Clearwater National Forest’s Lolo district would be killed over the next five years. Entire wolf packs -- including pups -- could be eradicated using aerial gunning and trapping.

That’s not wolf management -- That’s a wolf massacre!
Urge the Department of Fish and Game to reject this wolf “mismanagement plan” -- send your comments now.

This awful proposal surfaced less than a week after the Bush administration turned over responsibility for the management of more than 500 wolves to the State of Idaho, where the state legislature has called for the elimination of wolves “by any means necessary."

Relying on a deficient study, state officials claim that reducing wolf numbers would increase the elk population. But scientists have long identified poor habitat conditions as the cause of low elk numbers.

Rather than addressing the real problem, the Department of Fish and Game chose to use wolves as a scapegoat to appease anti-wolf factions by killing these animals.

Don’t let Fish and Game get away with it. Send a message now to stand up for our wolves.

Eleven years ago, Defenders of Wildlife helped achieve a remarkable victory -- the reintroduction of wolves to Idaho, where they had almost vanished. Now anti-wolf zealots are trying to turn back the clock. They have even launched a new ballot initiative again calling for removal of wolves from Idaho "by any means possible."

We're not about to turn our backs on the progress that has been made or see the gray wolf once again disappear from its historic range.

We need your help to save Idaho's wolves. Please hurry -- the public comment period ends February 17th. Send your comments now.

Thank you for standing up for Idaho’s wolves. With your help, we can save them.

For the Wild Ones,

Suzanne Asha Stone

Northern Rockies Representative

Defenders of Wildlife

P.S. This is a crucial time for America's wolves. Earlier this month, the Bush Administration made public its plans to remove the Rocky Mountain gray wolf from the endangered species list, raising the specter of increased wolf control efforts across the American West. You can help support our efforts to protect wolves in Idaho and elsewhere with your tax-deductible contribution. Please make an emergency donation right now.

State Funded Spay/Neuter Programs: How New Hampshire Became the Model!

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New Hampshire's state-funded spay/neuter program was launched on July 1,1994. This statewide program is funded by a $2 surcharge on dog licenses and provides for s/n of two populations: (1) cats and dogs of low-income pet owners can be altered and vaccinated for $15; and (2) cats and dogs adopted from a NH shelter can be altered for $25.

Stats
*From 1994-2002, the program altered 34,265 animals.
*New Hampshire's euthanasia rate declined 77%
*At 2.2 euthanasias per thousand people, they have the lowest euthanasia rate in the nation.

How Cool is that?
At Imagine Humane, we are impressed with a spay/neuter program that is self-sustaining and is a successful veterinary/animal protection partnership.

Adopt or Adapt
This program is funded through a dog license surcharge as New Hampshire has state mandated licensing for dogs. Once you determine a reliable source of on-going funding for your state, the rest of the model can be applied to your situation.

Peter Marsh is happy to assist non-profit organizations interested in implementing or adapting this strategy.

You may contact Peter directly

If you are looking for grant support in your planning, consider applying for a PETsMART Charities Curious Cat Grant.

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Have a Heart for Horses: End the Slaughter Now!

Last week I wrote you to relay some shocking news: The U.S. Department of Agriculture (USDA) is moving forward with its plan to allow the slaughter industry to continue to butcher our horses for human consumption overseas. I'm writing today to update you on an important development in the fight to stop the slaughter of our horses.

Since the USDA has ignored the will of Congress and the American people, The HSUS is taking the agency to court. Just this morning, we filed a lawsuit with a coalition of animal protection groups in federal court to block the USDA from carrying out its illegal plan. Concerned horse advocates like you helped us win a temporary ban on horse slaughter, which was set to go into effect on March 10, and we are not about to sit by and watch this victory slip away.

It is clear that we can not rely on the USDA alone. We must urge Congress today to pass a permanent ban on horse slaughter. It is the only way we can put our horses out of the reach of agency bureaucrats who will apparently do anything to keep American horsemeat flowing to French and Belgian chefs. Their actions are shameless, and they must be stopped!

1. Take action. We have no time to waste -- Congress must act now and pass the American Horse Slaughter Prevention Act this year. Click here to contact your members of Congress.

2. Spread the word. Most people are shocked to learn that our horses are being slaughtered and shipped overseas for human consumption. Click here to tell your friends and family how they can help end horse slaughter.

Thank you for continuing to stand with us and the horses. With your help, I know we can prevail and save tens of thousands of American horses from the butcher block. We all must take action now to save these horses from a grim and painful end.

Sincerely,
Wayne Pacelle
President & CEO
The Humane Society of the United States

Another Life? Do Tell!

I'm getting pulled in rather late today for this session. I spent the day beating my head against my desk because I STILL couldn't post to this blog or to my podcast -- very frustrating!! Robert kept reminding me to be patient....take a breath...there's a reason. Guides, sometimes you just want them to lose their temper to show that at one time they were human:)

This is teaching me more patience, not like the whole waiting for Bill to do something, isn't enough already. Oh well, what can one do besides go crazy? LOL!

Robert keeps whispering in my ear to come on -- so I guess I had better go.

I'm in a bookstore. An old bookstore, one that has to be at least a few hundred years old. I'm scanning the titles behind the glass and can read that they have the full original Nancy Drew collection - 1st print all in good condition with their dust jackets. This is a collection that I would LOVE to own someday. Off in the corner is something that is giving off light. So I go to investigate. It is a globe, made out of precious gems. But this globe isn't modern, it looks to be a few thousand years old - at least. I look around to see if anyone sees it but me - but the few other people I can see don't pay any attention. On the other side of the globe is a soft glow. I turn it and glowing is Egypt - inlaid in ruby. Off to the upper left there is a group of three islands - make from crystal and they are called Atlantis. To the left of Atlantis lies a large island, inlaid with lapis - this is Lemuira. The whole globe is glowing and I place my hand on it. I'm surrounded by a white light and it feels like I get sucked into a vacuum.

I'm in a white gown with gold, my hair is swept up on top of my head. I have something gold in my hair - like a pin. There's no one around - there's nothing, just all white. I see a chair off in the distance so I go to it - it looks like a throne seat, but rather cushy. I glance around, no one here. I sit in it. This is when the white disappears and suddenly I'm in a room that is an outside room - like a outside throne room. The temperature is perfect. I young boy brings me a plate of some kind of fruit and bows so far over that his nose had to be in the sand. I glance around - suspicious like - as I know I've never been some queen. I get out of this seat and in my bare feet walk out of this outside throne room. As I pass people they drop to their knees. I look out on a large river - there are barges on it. I look and the same man who was in another vision of mine (the one with the ruby sphere and me writing on a scroll) comes over and tells me that I'm needed in the map room. Before I can take a step the whole scene disappears and I'm myself, back in the bookstore.

Robert is leaning up against the cabinet that houses the Nancy Drew books. He asks if I enjoyed myself. I ask - enjoyed what? You showed me something that I can't possible have any part of and then whisk me back here. AND I really don't know anything. I know you are intrigued Robert says. Well of course I am...I always am. He smiles and tells me this is one I'll have to figure out for myself - just as I did Joan because I wouldn't believe it otherwise. I ask him if he could send someone to me to start regressing me into these lives. I need a 2nd party to do all this, ask the right questions and take it all done. He says that the right one will show up in time - and that it is sooner than I think.

He tells me that I have to get the other 3 books done. So I ask him - I thought you wanted me to concentrate on the guys. he says - yes I do. How can I do both? His reply - you are not given anything you cannot handle. He just tells me - to write and be prepared. With that he leaves and I'm back in Ohio trying to figure out if and when I can post this.

I received two more books today on Astral Projection: "The Secret Soul" by Buhlman, and "Mastering Astral Projection" by Bruce and Mercer. Since I keep being nudged at to get very good at this - I'm trying to practice. It tough to find the time - but I'm trying.

I wonder if Bill or Ted had any intense feelings today? I know I did - intense and powerful. Came out of no where.....sound familiar guys?

I really am finally caught up with my screenwriting classes - yeah Allie! Now to get caught up on book #3!

Let's pray that this posting snafu gets fixed....and soon!

BTW...if you don't see me for a few days on the blog or don't see a new posting of the podcast on a Monday (Tuesday at the latest) then you know it's the software as if I go anywhere - I let you guys know. You can always catch my podcast from iTunes - do a search for "Ask Allie".

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Posting

I've been trying to post all weekend and it won't let me. Sat night I gave up and deleted it all - Sun I kept plugging away -- but still no luck. So here it is Monday, and I'm giving it another try. Below this post should be one dated on Sunday.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: Someone just shoot me -- it's Monday night and I still can't post!!!

Barry Manilow, Bill, Ted and My 3 Stone Pendant!

Just an FYI - I've been trying, unsuccessfully to post this since early Sunday afternoon. (SIGH) I hope soon win out against the evil internet!

I wish that I could remember what is happening during dream time. I can feel that what is transpiring is important - but for some reason I am not being permitted to remember. For the last several months, the last thought in my mind as I drift off to sleep are one of the guys. If I do this, then I know I will be able to visit with them, if only briefly. The last few days my last thought has been on Bill. I've tried Ted and even the people I write for in the UK. But thinking about them felt like an upstream battle - Bill...well, there was no blockage there. When I awaken this morning I know instinctively that the visits were with both men, with Bill trying to figure things out and Ted standing back being sympatric, but aggravated. There feels to be an urgency to Bill now - like he is pushing himself to understand it all before some deadline. I've been waking up with headaches and still very tired -- no matter how much "sleep" I got.

I had a flash vision this morning of Bill and I arguing about him leaving Ted and I and just disappearing for God knows how long. I was trying to explain how much it will hurt him to be physically disconnected from two of the triad as this a feeling I knew all too well. He wouldn't listen. All of a sudden I hear "Daybreak" by Barry Manilow and Ted is lip syncing the words. I don't know what was funnier - Ted boogieing like Barry or the look on Bill's and I faces. But that vision made me go break out my Barry Manilow collection -- yes, I admit, I HAVE a collection - and listen to the songs. I had forgotten how much I love "Weekend In New England". So now for the last several hours I've been jamming to Barry. This in turn, has interfered with what I've got to get done today.

Now all I need is my cheeseburger (with everything), fries (with plenty of salt and vinegar), Guinness and a "Weekend in New England"! Sounds perfect! However, BEING in NE I'd have to say no to since there is so much snow right now! I used to ski - ALONG time ago. If I tried it now, I'd break something. That is unless I had a cute ski instructor and then I'd reconsider!

Speaking of interference -- a couple of days ago, as I was taking off my 3 stone pendant necklace, it got caught and the wire stretched, making the rose quartz fall out. Not wanting to deal with it right away, I placed the necklace in my jewelry box along with the pendant from New Zealand. I haven't worn either in days. Since then - the guys have not been intruding on my thoughts as much - only when thought about 1st by me. This is weird as they have been popping up daily into my thoughts for years - possibility the same time I started to wear the pendant...if I think about it. Humm.....I wonder what kind of connection could be made if they both had their own pendants?

"Gypsy Magic for the Lover's Soul" is at press! It'll be ready for orders in about 10 days! You'll be able to find it on Amazon.com

Did I ever mention that the blook people turned me down? Oh well. It's still something I want to do. Since I'm rewriting the script again -- I hope after this rewrite I can concentrate on the book.

So far no word from the cable network about that TV job. Maybe no news is good news? I submitted an idea to have an "Ask Allie" radio show to both XM and SIRIUS. You never know unless you try -- right?

If I keep pushing myself I should be caught up with both of my screenwriting classes by the end of the day! 1st time this year!

I think another rework on my site is in order. Possible eliminating doing the sachets, spells and a good portion of the email readings. I'm not sure yet. I have to streamline my services - somehow.

More food for thought I suppose!

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

A Good Cheeseburger, Fries and a Guinness!

I'm immediately taken into a garden. It's in full bloom, with butterflies, birds, bees --the sun is shinning. The flower beds are all in a circle - in the center of the circles/garden, there is a circular water fountain with three tiers. Out of a cupid - water flows. Sitting on the base of the fountain are both Ted and Bill - playing a game of chess. Ted sees me 1st and gives me an amazing smile. Then Bill looks and - whoa - he radiates warmth - that's the only way I can put it. I walk up to them, cross my arms and ask if they are playing nice? They laugh and assure me that they are. Bill stands, grabs my arms and uncrosses them, commenting that there is no more reason for me to be pissed.

I want to cross them again - not really believing the boys - but I don't. Instead I sit on the ground by them - so I have to look up at the chess board. Ted makes a move and I ask why did he do that? He tells me. Then Bill moves and I ask the same question. They tell me to stand up and get off the ground. Stop asking them how they are playing as it messes with the flow and just watch them if I want.

So I get up and go into the fountain. The water is very warm, feels great. Not meaning to - or the reason I got into the water was not to break their concentration - but the way my clothes hung to my body after they were wet - did distract them to a point where they threw the chess board and both jumped in! We are splashing around, playing like we are all kids. It's fun and a stress reliever. Bill spits some water at me and asks if I'm ready. Ready for what - I reply? Ted wraps his arms around me from behind and says - for your break. I move away from both men so that I can look at them both - and ask -- what are you two talking about?

Before they can answer, Brigit arrives. She tells me to go with her. I assure her that I'm happy in the water with these two. She knows that - but I need to see something. So I get out and am - strangely enough - dry.

We are in a house now and she tells me to sit at a table. What would you like to eat she asks? I could go for a good cheeseburger, fries and a Guinness. She says - okay...get it. I go to get up and she places a hand on my shoulder. She says -- no, from where you're sitting. Confused - I ask - huh? She says -- just close your eyes and think about what you want to eat. Focus. So I do. When I open my eyes - there it is. Cheeseburger, fries and my beer. I look at her and say - what kind of test is this?? It's not a test Brigit replies, but an eye opener. You have a gift that you basically ignore because you feel that you are not worthy of what you want. I don't think that - I add. She says - yes you do...deep down...that is what you think and why things allude you when they should not.

Merlin steps from the wall. He asks me if I have been keeping my manifestation journal like he requested. I say -- no. With all I'm doing, it just slipped from the "to-do" list. The two share a knowing glance. Merlin says - I would advise you to start this habit today -- right now. He waves his hand and on my lap sits a journal and a pen. I remind him that I cannot write things down on paper - in a journal because of prying eyes. He tells me to do it anyways -- linger over your words. I have to stop making excuses. linger and learn.

With that they both leave and I'm done!

Back to work I go.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

HA! I Knew I'd Get It -- Bill!

HA! I got it -- I understand what Robert was getting to me in today's session. I thought about it and over- thunk about it. The whole thing didn't make sense - there was more and I could feel it. Bill needs his space -- there are times when he has to be a hermit. He could disappear for a few hours - a day or even a week. Could I handle that? Can I let him be on his own - will my feelings be altered at all when he wants to be alone. In a nutshell - HELL NO! Cause guess what? I like alone time too. I won't take off for days at a time, heck I have a young son. But I do like being left alone. How can one write or find their muse if you don't have some "ME" time? Sheesh -- our energies are intertwined kiddo -- this means we're alike in many, many ways.

So Bill -- this is COOL, EXPECTED and LIVABLE! Just let me know that you're not lying in a ditch somewhere. The worrying there - that would piss me off.

HA! I knew I'd get it.....

After I had this "ah-ha moment", the top of my head tingled. That's a GOOD thing!

Back to work I go....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Tower of London and Bill Wants Space!

Robert is bugging me to go into my session early. He reminds me that I have to type it all for all to know. I tell him that I have readings to do -- he understands, but says it is important. So here I go.....

I'm in a tower room - for some reason it feels like the Tower Of London. I can feel many unseen presences, much pain and sorrow. I look around and open a door. The hallway is of stone, a red carpet of sorts is down the center - the walls are of stone. There are tapestries and paintings on the walls. I can actually see a faint outline of a maid or female servant in Victorian days moving towards me and with a zing of flash energy, right through me. I hear a male clear his throat. I turn and it is Robert in the tower room.

I ask him- why am I here of all places? He chuckles and says with my strong desire to get to London and my love for anything haunted - this seemed appreciate. So this has no hidden meaning - I ask? No, not really. Unless you want to discuss you going to London? I get to go to London (I have a wide eyed grin and even in this astral state - very excited)? He says yes and in fact -- you will be spending more time here than you thought. I will - why?

Your new job and...Ted. There's no doubt in the Divine's eye or in your heart about Ted. What about Ted I ask? What doubt? That it's Bill's job to bring you two together. Yes I say - the triad, all three of us. Yes, Robert replies - but also you and Ted. I shake my head - that's not right I say. Oh, but it is - Robert places his hand on my shoulder. Why? How? - I go to a window and just stare out. I honestly don't see anything but I don't care. God - right now I have a pit, the size of Texas, right in the center of my chest.

Robert talks on: It's not that Bill doesn't care as you do or as Ted does. You each feel towards one another with the same strength, the same love and devotion. But in this lifetime, Bill wants more time alone than to be with other people. He likes being a loner. This is what is keeping him distant right now, the fear that once he brings you in that he will no longer be a loner. You two have been so closely connected since the birth of time - in this life he only wants some space for his soul. Ted, on the other hand, wants nothing more than to be with you.

What if I refuse to believe this? I ask.

Than Bill will stay away and the triad will not be complete. He needs to know that he can continue to be a loner - he needs you assurance.

Any chance he could change his mind? Robert smiles. It's possible, only not probable.

If this is the way it is supposed to be, I say, then why does it hurt so much? Because, Robert replies, Bill is not only the love of your existence, he is your existence. Being connected to him is tattooed into your soul's being - it's light. But haven't I been with Ted since the beginning as well? Yes Robert says -- but things are slightly different there, with reasons, and now is not the time to explore them. Instead, you must make yourself strong - be able to support you and your son. Give Bill permission to be free and he will return to you.

I think for a second. Wait a minute I say....if Bill is to get Ted and I together, than why is he so determined to keep Ted away from me? That doesn't make a bit of sense.

Being human is never easy - Robert replies.

With that - Robert leaves and I am left standing there with a bunch of ghosts. So I end this session on my own.

I don't know what to say. I don't know what to feel. I want to forget this conversation ever took place. In fact - you don't know how close I was to deleting the whole thing. Maybe there is a whole psychological thing here that I'm just not grasping or being permitted to know. It makes me think back to the "Crawling Back To You" song and what Robert said about that. Hummmm....some food for thought.

Well - I am working on getting my ducks in a row so I'd better get back at it.

Have a good one!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)