Sex, Dreams And Soul Mates!

My sleep wasn't too bad last night. I woke up a couple of times, but not near the amount as the past two weeks. So that was a piece of good news. I had a dream visit with Bill too last night that I can remember. We are at a party (seems to be a running theme with him and I) and I sit down and start talking to him about sex. At first he's shy, rather boyish and coy -- face turns a nice shade of red. I'm asking him that if one doesn't have sex for a prolonged period of time, do things still work like they should when you do have sex again? Or is the whole process rusty and unsatisfied the first time in a long time? He chuckles and shrugs -- I guess you're right. Do you know this from experience? Now his face is beat red -- well, he stammers, and motions with his hands -- then puts his face in his hands. Another man walks up and asks what I'm doing to poor Bill that he is beyond embarrassed. Then I'm asked how long has it been for me. I reply 3 years -- but that's soon to change.

I get up and tell someone where the bathroom is (amazing I didn't have to go) and find my friend Linda in the kitchen. We're talking about Bill and Ted. I tell her that I'm taking Bill. She says well that leaves Ted and he's not my type. I go on to tell her about two dreams that I've had with her and Ted being a couple (which I have had). She crinkles her nose. I'm like - you're right he's not your type. I can't give you Bill I say -- and I can't give you Ted either. She leans on the counter and asks me -- so what are you going to do? I guess not get much sleep:) We both laugh.

Then I wake up.

SO! I went to sleep wondering why I can't sleep and asked for some insight. This is what I remember. The problem with my sleeping, besides a shift/world event is that I'm visiting both men every night. I must be waking up briefly after every visit. Well damn. I should of known that these two had to be behind it somehow. But I must admit -- I would rather have this then to be without one or both of them. But at least now I know part of the why of not sleeping and I can take some flower essences to help with the edginess. I love it when I figure something out -- even if it is just a small piece of the puzzle.

Ahhh--I just remembered the part that came before me talking to Bill about sex. I'm in a dinning room/kitchen area with Bill, Ted, Clive and a few others when I hear this song on the radio that was God-awful. I recognize Clive's voice as the singer. We are all cringing, but trying to tell him that it's a great song. It was a remake of a song form the 70's -- but the name escapes me.

The last several weeks I have kept having the same vision, a few times a day -- I dismissed it (you think I would learn) but it will not leave my 3rd eye. Here it is:

I'm in London with my business partner. We are celebrating at a pub with a group of people - either it's a company launch party or maybe a campaign launch - I don't know. But spirits are high and we are all having a good time. There's a guy with a camera there that we keep hamming up to. I get a chill through my body and it's an intense one. I stop what I'm doing and look around. And there I spot them - Bill and Ted, each with a pint of ale, staring at me. Not quite believing what they see and by the look on my face, I'm mirroring that look.

Then the vision stops. No matter how hard I try to push it to go further it won't. I guess time will tell - either something like this will happen, or I'll get another piece of the puzzle. I also keep getting a vision with Ted surrounded by balloons. I might have an idea on that one - but I'm not 100% on that.

On that note - back to work I go. Oh -- I have on the site the ability to purchase an email reading to be done next week. Just go to the main site for more info:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

No Sleep, Raw Nerves And My Dreams!

I've had a hell of a day. It wasn't just one thing, but an accumulation of many items. The fact that I haven't had a decent night sleep in about 2 weeks hasn't helped at all. So tonight I finally broke down had the last Guinness in the house, and then switched to a few gin and tonics. I'm hoping that the alcohol will tone down my psychic receptor (as it normally does when I'm awake) enough so that I can sleep through the night. I'm not drunk - unfortunately - but my nerves are not on edge either. I think that it was last year, maybe about this same time, where I was so nerve wracked it was insane. Same case here - my nerves feel very raw and exposed. SIGH Plus -- to make life more interesting, I'm starting to get sick. Fun - as you guys know who have followed this blog for a while all of this stuff happens when there is a shift and/or a major world event.

My dreams last night were insane. I can remember a lot of black and brown, with time moving very rapid. Like when you are watching a movie and they speed up the film to show a quick passage of time. I can't feel that the dreams were negative or bad in nature as I didn't wake up with a feeling of dread. I can feel Bill in the background for part of the dreams, but I don't know what happened, just that fleeting feel that he was there. You know the type of feel I mean -- those of you who drink -- it's when you wake up one morning, roll over and say "Holy Crap" to yourself as you have no idea who that person next to you is. All you can grasp are fleeting memories of the prior evening.

The dreams memories I can grasp of last night deal with Ted. We're sitting down in a hotel room - reminded me of the Ritz or Four Seasons - and I had just started to talk to him. He was overwhelmed. In the room was Bill, Clive, Peter, Larry and a couple of others. Ted kept saying that maybe he's not worth it. I tell him to look over at all of his friends that love him to death -- they would walk through fire for you, I say. I would walk through fire for you. None of us would do this for a person who wasn't worth it. Some other things were discussed - no idea what. Then I remember saying that he and I have a lot of karma to clear up in this lifetime. I went on to say that one of us has died too early or suddenly in previous lives leaving the other person alone and broken. He asks - is that why you told Bill. I nodded. I couldn't lose you again, not yet, not this soon. Besides, if we don't take care of things, we keep having to come back until we do. He's like - yeah.

That's all I can grasp.

It's been so long since I've had a gin/tonic that I had forgotten how much I liked them!

BTW...I almost moved my son's hot wheel last night, just by thinking about it. The tires started to move -- but I think that I was so excited to see it that I broke the concentration and I haven't been able to do it again. I'll try when I'm in a better mood:) Or maybe I should try to channel my nerves into my gifts? I'll try to sleep on it -- maybe I'll get an answer that I can remember:)

Before I forget to mention, I'm taking appointments for phone & chat readings that start next week. Check out the main site for more information.

You know what I don't get? How people could back a war that run by a bunch of guys who had refused to go to war themselves? SIGH. Ignorance is not bliss.

On that - I'd better head to snooze-ville. Wish me luck.

Sweet Dreams!

CS - Allie ;)

Dunshire,Ted, Tuscany And Bill!

I needed a beer before noon today - not a good sign -- not a good one at all. But no, I didn't have one -- more coffee please! So what happened? A whole lot of places I had to be in a very short amount of time today. I keep trying to tell everyone that I'm just one little dudette. I told my son that this morning and what does he say? "But mom, you said you have hands coming out of your brain and eyes all over the place!" HA! What a kid. I tried to explain to him the other day that I need more than two hands (as he was getting into something behind me) and when I busted him on being bad -- he asked how did I know. I told him that I have eyes in the back of my head -- all moms do:) He called me weird.

I haven't been sleeping well at all. Every night - tossing and turning, waking up every 40 minutes. I'm traveling all over the place, absorbing much information...but it is insisting on staying in my subconscious. I tried to write things down as soon as I would wake. By the time I rolled over to get my pen and paper -- the memories were on the tip of my tongue but I couldn't access them. Very frustrating.

I have an urge to start a session now. My Smokey Quartz wants to tag along. I am immediately taken to a grassy field. In front of me is Ted, he is smiling. I ask him, what are we doing here? I look to my right and I see a castle - I know this castle...it's Dunshire. Ted grabs my hands and says, trust me. We enter the castle and it looks as I've seen it before, like it has not been lived in for a very long time. I asked Ted what is this place -- and he says that the name used to be Dunshire. I comment - but no one's lived here for a very long time because it's been haunted. He nods his head. Ay, but it's a grand place, isn't it? He asks. I stay silent -- glancing about. I stare at Ted and ask, when did you know who I was? Or should I say, who I am? He smiles, the first second I laid eyes on you I knew you were the one from my dreams, me visions.

I grin back. And when did you buy this place? Last night -- this morning. He reaches into his pocket and produces a large set of keys. But -- how did you know? I just give him a look - you know the kind...a "come on -- you know" look. Ah thats right, we can read each other, can't we? I nod. He goes on to say - I had been going back and forth now for months about this place. I had seen it last year driving past and I couldn't stop thinking about it. Finally, I asked the Lord to give me a sign on what to do. And that night, last night, - you arrived.

This place is haunted? I ask. He nods -- yeah, by us if you can believe it. He chuckles. Well, I don't feel anything eerie now - do you? He says, nope. Legend says though, that the man walks to and fro all night long, wandering about -- while a woman and her child do the same, always looking for one another but their paths never cross. Until now -- I say. We can't haunt us - he comments. Or can we? I ask. Looking about at all of the sheets covering things and the dust bunnies, bugs and spiders crawling about. There's a lot of work to do before you can live here. Not a problem - he answers back.

I have to show you something, but don't go freaky on me -- ok? Curious - I answer -- ok-- not sure if I could keep that promise. He takes me into what I guess is a great hall. On the floor there is a rather large painting. They say that this painting will not stay hung - the ghosts keep knocking it down. Ted pulls back the sheet and it is a picture of he, I and my/our son. The reason I know it is us -- our eyes, our smiles..haven't changed.

Off to my right I see Brigit. My astral body leaves the body in this vision and I move over to her. I ask if I can stay as I'm liking where this is going. She says no, I have to see something else. So I go with her and wind up on a cobblestone street, a small street with building all around. She asks if I know where we are -- I say Italy. She agrees and then I say - Tuscany. She smiles. Next thing I know we are standing in front of a nice size villa. She tells me to go in and she disappears. All I can remember next is standing over a stove trying some sauce -- which -- I must say is very good. I take a spoon full and move through the villa to a back patio. On that patio is Bill. He is surrounded by magazines and newspapers -- he is writing things down. He takes a bite of the sauce and nods his head - gives me the "this is good" look. You're going to make me fat -- he says. I laugh and look at his lean body -- hardly. I ask him is he has made up his mind yet. He tells me that he does not know what to do. I guess it's difficult being associated with me if you're running for Senate. He grabs me so that I fall on him -- bull shit -- he says. Washington needs a change.

You'd make a great politician. He nods in agreement. But do I want to put up with all the shit? That I don't know. And what about you, your son...Ted? My son...my family -- I can't be in all places at once! I look at him firmly -- but with tenderness in my eyes -- your gift to the world are your words and your voice. Where else can you make a bigger contribution to society than by being in politics? It'll all work Bill - it'll all work. All you have to do is make up your mind and the pieces will fall into place.

With that I was immediately done and whisked back to my office.

After this session, something came to light -- part of the dreams I had last night did deal with Dunshine and with Bill running for office. My Smoky Quartz enabled me to bring some key moments forward so that I would remember. And....something else I also remember is going down a very dark and dirty passage - me, Ted and Bill -- we were going down and I can remember butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous and excited.

BTW..pretty good podcast today..give it a listen to!

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Empower Yourself!

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Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

HELLO

"Hello" can be one of the most single important words one can say to another person. It acknowledges someone, lets them know that if even for a brief second, they are important. For some, on a given day, it can literally save their life. Some people wait their whole lives to hear "Hello" from that one special person. Whether it be a broken friendship, lost love, estranged family member or that someone you have a longing to get to know. It seems like such an easy word to say - doesn't it. Hello. But for many people it is just as difficult to say as "I Love You" or "I'm Sorry". Life is short. Too damn short to be sitting around thinking - should I, shouldn't I? In the blink of an eye the ONE person who you wanted to say "Hello" to could be gone from the earth. Just like that. Then the rest of your life is spent regretting that you didn't take that chance.

I spend a lot of time talking to people who are near death - young and old alike. I always ask them, what do you regret the most -- that you tried things and failed? Or that you didn't try at all? Hands down -- and I mean hands down -- that they didn't try at all. There's regret that they didn't take that chance when they had it. That they didn't pick up the phone and say -- Hello. Some say that they wish that they would have said "I Love You" or "I'm Sorry" to someone one last time -- but it was the missed "Hello's", the missed opportunities to make things right or to start down a new path that wounded the soul the most. Fear is healthy, we all need it to survive. But when fear stops you from living -- from loving -- from happiness....then that is when life stops. Your physical body may go on to fulfill obligations, to do the daily chores of life -- but your soul is darken, lost, forgotten. The soul is meant to live and love --- it is eternal.

On the same token, one cannot sit around waiting for that "Hello", "I Love You" or "I'm Sorry". To do so means that you miss out on life, that you miss out on opportunities and your soul too is lost, forgotten, asleep. Life is meant for living - not for waiting.

Life is too damn short. Too short -- and too many people are missing it.

So what are you waiting for? Pick up the phone, send that email or card via post and tell someone "Hello" before it's too late. Or spend the rest of your life "What if'ing". The choice is up to you.

Chances Are your hello is most welcomed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychic Readings, Magic/Spell Class, Soul Mates And Bill!

Psychic readings - good news -- the time is getting closer to when I do readings! I have put more reading information on the Psychic Reading Live and Psychic Reading Email pages! New information about the No Appointment Days which I know will go over really well! I also added information to the home page.

Magic/Spell class is filling up fast as well as the Soul Mate workshop!

I wish I had more time to write - but I want to get more things done. Time is a ticking!

But a note to Bill - you're not crazy, I understand and I told you so. Now stop messing around.

My son loved kindergarten yesterday and did really well on all of the tests! I'll find out tomorrow if he is in straight kindergarten or kindergarten/1st grade.

Until then...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic Book, A Dream And Gypsy Advice Musings!

Today's a busy day. My son is off to Kindergarten, with me in tow. In my school district, they do testing the 1st week of school and a parent has to attend. So here I go. Finger's crossed that he behaves himself and that he answers the questions that the teachers give him. He has a habit when asked a question by someone (ABC's, numbers. colors, etc...) he just smiles and says "I don't know". SIGH.

I have finished with the Gypsy Magic For The Family's Soul book! Well, at least all of the spells, oils, sachets and incense. They are all handwritten, so I have to put them in the computer - plus write my chapter on the gypsies and the holocaust. But at least this book will be done before I resume doing readings on the 5th.

Right now on Gypsy Advice, I have up the 1st class and workshop that I'll be offering in Sept. I decided to do one workshop and one class per month so that I don't get myself stressed from having too much to do:)

Maybe at the start of 2007 I'll do 2 workshops and 2 classes a month - we'll see:) I also decided to hold my "no appointment" days for Monday and Thursday 9 am - 3 pm. Depending on how this goes - I may also add in 8:00 pm - 11:00 pm for the same days. And MAYBE a Saturday once a month - not sure yet. People will be able to make an appointment for a certain time during "no appointment days" as well as a Tues, Wed or Fri.

I'm debating on whether to not to have available for people my workshop workbooks & classes as downloadable PDF files on their own if a person would rather just have the info and not have the personalized support of the workshop or class - due to time or money concerns.

Oh - the Easter bunny book is in great shape. I have finished what I wanted to write and am now waiting to send it off to get it critiqued in Sept. Then I'll make changes, if needed, and send it to my sister to illustrate. It MAY be released in time for Easter 2007 - but realistically I'm looking at Fall 2007 in time for Easter 2008. The few people I have told about the book just love the concept - fingers crossed.

Kyra has gone really well. The outline looks good - not done - but I've made more progress the last month than I have in 10 years. A good sign indeed! This series of books are going to have a twist in them that I haven't found in books since I was a kid. More about that later -- don't want to let it all out of the bag, yet! I'm going to put a blook on the Kyra story at GypsyGirlPress.net - when I start writing the actual story. I'll let you know.

I've had some interest in "The Black Triangle" it's been nice. But I decided not to sell it outright - not now. I've put too much blood, sweat, tears and love into this project to hand it off to someone to do what they want. I still want to write the book as well. I have also been offered a position to help in a movie project about gypsies - so that's really exciting!

The erotica audio is coming along really well. It'll be launched before you know it! My mother asked me how am I going to handle everything? I asked her when can she retire? She laughed -- but I'm serious. We'll see:)

The past couple of nights my dreams have been really intense, causing me to have restless sleep. I can't tell you anything what they were about - except for one blurb where I was at a horse ranch, that sat at a intersection - at the top of a "T" intersection. If I'm looking at the property, to my right there were two small buildings, one was a general store, that were abandoned. I remember thinking that I couldn't live here as there were not enough trees. The main house sat way far back from the road. I remember a man walking out from it towards me and my son running around thinking that this was cool.

As far as anything else - I cannot grasp onto a single thing. Very frustrating. I hate restless nights as that normally means something is coming up - usually something bad. The last time this happened it was Katrina. I haven't watched the news in a few days, so I'm not sure what is going on where. One thing though that has me bugged, John Mark Karr, the suspect in the Ramsey murder -- I don't think he did it. Or if he did - he wasn't alone. He may have wanted to and he may of really loved that girl like he says -- but it doesn't sit well. I don't get any of the signs I should if it were true. I hope that I'm wrong and that he is the one and that this case is closed so that poor girl can rest in peace and move to the heavens. As she hasn't - rested in peace - her soul still remains on the earth plane, waiting for people to get to the bottom of it.

And on that note -- back to work I go!

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Crystal Cave And Symbols!

I hope you guys had a good week, last week. Me? I spent time with my son and went to a family gathering. I also got stung by a bee - ouch! Last time that happened I was 9 - I just rediscovered that I'm not allergic:)

I worked a lot on the Gypsy Magic books over the weekend, as well as making good head way with Kyra - the gypsy teen. All is moving along. I finally was able to go over that block with Kyra - about how to direct book one - what gifts 1st, how does she go on her path, etc.....

My niece is back in the hospital again, can't keep anything down, not even liquids. Poor thing - she's just a touch over 2 and this is her 4th stay at a hospital. She almost made it home yesterday - but threw up right as she was getting discharged.

Did I mention that my sister (the one who just moved home from CA) got a job with United as a flight attendant. She's pretty excited. There's still the 7 weeks of training, but it's in Chicago and she just loves that city!

I have a boat load of items to get done today so I'd better jump into a session if I am going to do one.

This session was out of the ordinary for me - never had this before. I sat with one of my ajoite included messina quartz......

I entered immediately into the crystal cave. Bill and Ted were waiting for me. We brought out our diary's and began to discuss our dreams - I was mentioning my school and herbal class when we heard a woman's voice tell us to get into the water. It hit me then that there was a door underneath that all 3 of us had to be present for in order to use. We dive in and go to the door, which is on the right side of the lake. Each of placed a palm on the door and it went in with ease.

We emerged into what looked like a private bathhouse. A person high on the social class scale lived here, with various stones all around. The bathhouse itself appeared to be made out of crystal and moonstone.

This is where it gets funky We all get out and I'm drawn to a wall. I go to it and see a bunch of symbols. I can hear in my head to write these down, and I do. I copied what what I wrote down into Paint: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/symbolsfromvision082106.bmp

The 1st set to the left remind me of Egyptian. The item in the 4th picture is a man holding out what appeared to me to be of a box with 3 balls - but I can't draw:). I saw four pyramids deep in the heart of a jungle. The third one from the back appears to be a map room of sorts. It is a map of the city that was here -but put in a part of that map is this item which reminds me of an item Indian Jones used in the 1st movie. The middle portion is crystal with the vertical piece being amber. When placed in the correct spot on the equinox - another map of Atlantis will over lay, showing where the connection lies between the two places.

Then I could see all three of us, one at a time, staring into a crystal plate - this plate was taking a print of our soul and matching it with the soul's who are allowed to enter. And then all disappeared and I was back.

Now I have never gone into a vision, been somewhere and was told to write down symbols. So this must be important. It is good to know that only the ones who are supposed to find Atlantis, will find Atlantis and that there were safeguards in place.

I understand what the runic like symbols were telling me - they read right to left: Confusion - failed communications, a journey for connections, standstill - a rest, total disruption, standstill again, a wait as things fall into place, partnership, giving up the old ways of life. If I apply this to our lives now -- we are at a point where we are waiting as things fall into place.

And on that note -- I must get back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Tepee, A Crystal Key And Atlantis!

I actually had this session Wed morning. Unforuately, Blogger wouldn't let me post!

This session left me covered in goosebumps! Why? Well read on!

I sat with my crow's feather in my left or receptive hand. I'm immediately taken to the clear lake with the waterfall. Off to the left, I see the teepee and an American Indian girl waving us over. I say us because Bill and Ted are both with me. I comment, that it would be nice if we would materialize on the other side of the lake. Ted chimes in with a devilish grin - but that's half the fun, getting naked. I really couldn't argue that point - and they both knew it.

We undressed and jumped in the lake. Half way across a flash of light, underwater, caught my eye. They noticed I stopped, so they did to. I comment on what I saw and point to where I can still see the sparkles of light. Bill dives down to take a closer look.

When he surfaces, (about an inch from my face- with one of those naughty grins) he tells us that it appears to be a crystal of sorts. Maybe we should go get it? It'll take all three of us as it appears to be wedged pretty good into the lake's floor. I look over to the shore to signal the girl, and what I see is no girl, and the teepee is alternating between translucent and solid. We discuss it and figure that the crystal below holds some sort of key to what is going on. So we all dive.

We dig around the crystal until Bill and Ted need to take a breath of air. I stay a few moments longer and keep digging until my lungs burn. I surface and the intake of breath hurts. Once we catch our breaths, we go back down. Ted and I work fast to remove the dirt, as Bill pulls on it. Finally it pops free. We are still underwater, looking at it. No mistake about it, it is a key -- a crystal key.

We resurface and look over at the tepee. In the midst of the translucent tepee, we can see a fire - and in the middle of that, a large crystal door - rounded on top, straight, squared off bottom.

Upon getting out of the lake, we are greeted by 3 American Indian girls who wrap us in nice, warm blankets. We go into the tepee, which is solid once again, and see the crystal door in the center of the fire. The flames are too high and of course, too hot to get to the door. In the back right corner, the Medicine Man chants - the girls leave.

There is a discussion of what to do now - I suggest that we out the fire out. Ted runs and grabs water - I tell him no, it isn't going to work - he tries anyway. Bill tries to stomp it out with dirt and the blankets. No good. I tell them that we have to put it out with our combined energy. I get them to sit and we join hands -- our goal is to put that fire out. Full concentration, full energy on that fire. In a few moments we can no longer feel the heat. The fire is out -- the door remains.

Bill uses the key, the door swings open. We enter.

And exit into the Crystal Cave. At first we're all freezing (remember, we're still naked), but use our energy to surround us with heat -- and it works. I comment that all three of us are here and that 3 ball container is still at the bottom of the crystal lake. We dive.

Bill moves the 1st ball to the left, I move the 2nd straight forward and Ted moves the 3rd to the right. There's a click -- and we are able to get the container out of the water. On shore we take a good look at it. The container looks like a challis with a lid, the whole things made from gold, silver and copper. The lid opens and inside - at first we see nothing. Then I can make out a diary and a quill pen. I take both out and in it's place Bill sees the same - he takes them -- and then Ted follows suit. The lid closes on it's own.

We're perplexed at what this could mean. The pages are empty -- but it looks as if there is faded ink on it. You can see the words, but not really -- if this makes any sense. The diary's remind me a lot of the diary from Indian Jones and the Last Crusade -- where the guys were in search of the Holy Grail.

I can sense what this means - I tell the guys that our path to Atlantis is not written anywhere - yet. The maps, the clues are in our dreams, in our visions. We have to write EVERYTHING down. Places we are drawn to, numbers, objects - write down every flash vision, every snippet of every dream. The key to finding the lost continent is inside of us. Now that we have worked together to open the container, we now need to work together to find Atlantis. All three of us hold different keys - put them together and you have the map - AND then the way to unlock the passage to the parallel universe - and bring it into the now.

We were all in agreement. With that - we were done and I was back in my office - with goosebumps.

Very - very good! Make no mistake about it, we work well together. I found it interesting that upon arriving at the lake with the guys, none of us was surprised to see the other. No - it's been awhile -- I've missed you -- nothing like that. I have sensed that we are together nightly - even if I cannot remember most of it --- and I find myself getting quick thoughts, or being in a conversation that not mine.

I also noticed that the Divine is getting us to work together - if only on the spiritual realm for now. We are not islands. Ted cannot move forward alone, Bill cannot and neither can I. It is by our combined effort that forward progress is made.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Reading On The Triad As The Worry Subsides

I'm still emotionally drained from the worry over the weekend. It was so intense, so forcing me to do something. It was stifling, and very unnerving. But I did sleep better last night, waking up only once due to the dogs barking at an outside cat fight. Today I'm not frozen, I can work -- although food is still not at the top of my list. Of course, that maybe a good thing:) I'm confident that Bill will do the right thing and that the person who needed to see the blog entry -- did. So besides sending Ted daily doses of light and telepathically telling him to go to the doctor, there's not much else I can do.

Since I am drained, and I still have a headache - I don't want to do a session today. Instead I'm going to do a three card reading (past, present and future) on the triad. I'll use my Shapeshifter deck. My question is: What happens now?

PAST: 21 The Double (major arcana card)
PRESENT: 5 Struggle (air element - wands)
FUTURE: 4 Merging (fire element - swords)

In the past we were trying to uncover wisdom, to seek out answers of what, why and who. In doing so we would travel the astral plane, visiting one another and the ascended masters, angels and God to absorb into our unconscious what we needed to know. From that, our conscious struggled to pull what was hanging just on the outskirts of our memory into the conscious realm, so that we could make sense of it. This was also a time to start to let go of unhealthy relationships and to gain the upper hand on the inner tricksters - that part of us who wants us to believe all this is made up -- and the outer trickster, those who would deceive us to keep us where we are and not let us be who we were born to be.

Currently, this is a time of separation, strife, anxiety, worry and frustration towards one another and the issues of our connection. This is a period where we have to let go of useless self-destructive and self-sabotaging patterns -- this way we can unleash our creative natures. A cycle of renewal - a fresh start at life is at hand. Standing on the verge of a change in personal consciousness, a change that will alter our lives and how we view our goals and desires. It will be a shock both to Bill and Ted that I'm right about the tumor and this in turn will push them, and us, down the path of change. One or more of us will awaken suddenly from a time of non-spiritual thinking and/or an unhealthy way of living. Our path to be reborn is laid out in front of us, but we must make the decision to make positive changes.

The next six months is about gaining multi-dimensional awareness. Merging with the Divine and with one another so that we consciously know we are ONE. A time of renewal and regeneration, empowering us as we conceive, create and experience in a conscious way (unlike it mostly taking place on the dream, astral and unconscious planes). During this time we will each have a need to be alone, to mediate on the issues -- but we must keep an open mind and be flexible. During this same time frame, each of us will disengage ourselves from someone close who we have allowed their powerful, negative emotions and responses to affect our lives. But we must watch our tongues and not blurt out an angry response that could cause us to burn a bridge we will need - and can being defeat to our hopes and dreams. There is also a dangerous person in our midst (each of us may have one or just one of us -- two of us) with whom we are involved with and it is a must that ties are broken for our mental, physical, emotional and spiritual safety.

Looks like tome that the next six months will not be easy, however, the triad physically reuniting is good and most anything that we have to go through in order to accomplish that goal is worth it. Not only for us, but for all those to which we are going to help.

And on that note, I'm going to get back to work.

BTW...the newest podcast is up! http://www.gypsyadvice.com/askalliepodcast/index.html

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Leap Of Faith....

God, did I take a leap of faith today. I don't know what has me wanting to throw up more -- my worry about Ted, or my worry about the email I sent Bill. I had to have faith, so I did. I wrote and I begged for him to listen to me. Will it do any good? I'm holding it in my mind that it will - that the correct steps will be taken. They have to be. Ted is running out of time to stop the spreading. This is cutting it too close.

Good thoughts please -- good thoughts that I did the right thing and in turn, that Bill does the right thing.

I had to do something. I woke up 9 times last night, each time in the midst of a panic attack. Each time the attack was about Ted, or I absorbed it from Ted. Somewhere in him, he knows about the tumor, he just doesn't want to believe it.

I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't work.

I asked God to show me what to do....and here you go.

Leap of faith -- leap of faith.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I'm Sick With Worry...

I'm tired, I didn't sleep well last night and now I'm being pulled into a session. There's a panic in the air I can feel it. My 1st thought was to simply go to bed and work this out in my dreams. But I'm told that I have to work it out now and post this -- the right person will come along and see it -- and know what to do. So headache and all - here I go......

I'm pulled in immediately to a bright white light, then nothingness. Off to my right I can see Ted pacing...back and forth. His right hand rubs his chin, his left messes with his short hair. I quickly go to him and call out his name. He stops, looks at me -- tears are in his eyes. I ask what's wrong? He replies - I received your message last night. I don't know what to do. I place my hand on his back, down on the right, at the bottom of his lung. It's right here - I say. The energy is different. You must get to a doctor straight away. It's important.

I can't - Ted cries. Why not? I'm too bloody busy. I have no time to stop now. I force him to look me in the eyes -- listen to me, you have to get that new scan, not an x-ray, but the new scans that detect even the smallest of tumors.

Is it still small - he inquires. I shake my head -- it's not the size of a pin head any longer, but getting bigger. It'll spread. You have to get to a doctor. Your shortness of breath, the pain in your lower back, the headaches, the tiredness -- it's not because of the drinking or even your age. Your body is screaming out to you -- now promise me that you will go.

His green eyes look so sad, so heart broken. He whispers -- what if I die before we meet? You won't, I tell him, you're not supposed to. That's why I'm here - that's why I'm making such a stink about this. He wraps his arms around me and squeezes so tight -- I can't go through another life time without you. I put a touch of space between us and promise -- you won't have to.

Call Bill, I tell him. He knows, he sense this but he thinks it's all in his head. If this was something that was just a passing whim, it wouldn't keep coming up. And Archangel Raphael wouldn't be standing behind you.

Ted turns and the Archangel opens up his arms. Ted goes to him and Raphael engulfs him in the safety of his arms. Go in peace, Raphael says, do what she says for with her it's eternal love, unconditional love, and she tells you the truth. You know this in your heart. Ted nods and adds - and in my soul. Archangel Raphael smiles and sends light into Ted. Go and seek help on the Earth plane, we will stand by you, all around you, day and night until your health returns. And with that hundreds, if not thousands of angels appear all around us.

Ted turns to me and smiles, gives me one of his winks -- and all fades from view.

This whole situation is making me sick. I can't sleep, food doesn't taste right. I'm worrying myself. My blood pressure is up, my patience is low. It's so frustrating not to be able to pick up the phone and tell him -- or to tell someone close to him. I mean, why would someone from inside his circle believe me - unless they ask him how he is feeling and he gives them the answers I listed. I can see him, his face as plain as day and he looks like hell. All one has to do is notice that the spark is gone from his eyes and it's not because of his idiot girlfriend -- but because he is hiding his health.

Now I'm going to bed. I hope that the person who is supposed to see this does see it.....and does the right thing.

BTW...if the person who is supposed to see this is new to the blog, Bill and Ted are NOT their real names. But I know that you'll know who Ted is.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Letters, Ted's Health And Outside My Comfort Zone!

Well, my letters to God and the Divine have been working. I feel better and I feel -- lighter. Last night I wrote that I wish to give up my fears in all areas, including my career. I asked to have things brought to me, even if it is outside my comfort zone. So what happened? I get a call today from the College of Wooster to talk to a class about psychic readings & predictions in Sept. Now you know how camera shy I am and how much I hate to be the center of any attention -- well -- you can imagine how much talking to a group of people is outside my comfort zone. But I'm going to do it. I'm supposed to or this nice professor would have never have called me. Once I get going I'll be fine -- it's the first 10 minutes that I'm worried about:)

I have also been asked to provide details to a web site who goals are to become the most popular self-improvement site on the net. They are going to list me in the experts right along with Anthony Robbins, Wayne Dyer, etc....boy -- talk about keeping good company!

The "Help Allie Win" campaign appears to be going well. Keep watching that clip and keep telling your friends! Me in front of a camera, in front of a group of people?? Slamming two - outside my comfort zones - in one swoop! That's exactly what I need!

The erotica audio stuff is moving right along. It's all going good and I'm excited for the launch! If you think about it -- this too will put me outside my comfort zone! I'm in charge of all the interviews for the states and Canada! Yep, by this time next year (heck, by the end of 2006), my comfort zone will be widened and I can move on to other things that scare the crap out of me!

My iodine mole project is still going well. I've started to put the iodine on a mole that has been on the left side of my head for as long as I can remember. Every time I apply the iodine, it feels as if someone is driving a stake right through my head. On fact, since I started this a few days ago, I have been getting more headaches, as the mole shrinks. This definitely tells me that this was a negative attachment. I have a feeling that the smaller the mole gets, the greater my gifts will become. Stay tuned!

I've been thinking a lot lately on the similarity of twins and their thoughts, connections etc...and me, Bill and Ted. Twins can access their twins thoughts, memories, dreams -- when one twin gets hurt, the other one can feel it. They have the same likes, dislikes a lot - at least the identical twins. Bill, Ted and I have many of the same quirks, dislikes, likes, etc... They get hurt, I feel it. They are in pain - of any kind - I know it. The get sexually turned on -- I know it. I'm sure that the same happens to them from me or from the other guy. But I know what's going on and I've learned how to alter my energy field.

I don't smoke. I never did really but some experimenting back in high school. But I love to kiss a man who is drinking a beer and smoking a cigarette. I don't know why - there's a taste about it that I just love. It's the combo - not one or the other. Bill and Ted, yep -- smoke and drink beer. Of course, LOTS of men do -- but if given a choice between a man with minty fresh breath and the beer/smoke combo - the combo wins every time. This is more of an observation than anything else.

I had a real shortness of breath the other day, a panic attack just about. I knew it wasn't me - I wasn't the one triggering this. So I threw up my white light, adjusted my own energy field and went to look at Ted. Sure enough, he was having a hard time breathing. I gave him a good dose of white light and went to look at that spot on his right lung, at the bottom. The tumor is getting bigger and he's not doing a damn thing about it. I sent him more light and shrunk the tumor a bit - I will keep working on it. But I thought -- if we can read each other's thoughts -- I'm just going to start screaming for him to see the doctor. I know that he has a butt load of work on his plate for the next six months, easy. But he's got to get to a doctor. I'll keep doing what I can. I just wish that Bill would pick up the phone and call Ted. I know that Bill knows or senses the tumor. I know he knows.

That's what I'll do -- that's what I will write about to my letter to God this evening. This isn't something that I can control, so I will ask for help. Say a prayer for Ted, will you? I've got to get him to the doctor.

Time to go get my son at preschool/day care. Where did the day go?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Help Allie Win!

Okay folks, here's the deal. See the link below? Follow that link to a video clip.
http://www.gypsyadvice.com/help_allie_win.htm

Watch it. Pass it on. Tell your friends about it.

Why you ask? Because there is a contest to see who can get the most people to watch this and whoever wins gets to have a short written just for them. I know, I'm a writer, why not write my own short? I could, but this is more fun.

Remember what I've said about one of my major lessons, getting myself out there, promoting me, myself and I? You know how camera shy I can be. Help me learn my lesson and FORCE me to win and go on camera.

So help me out - won't you?

Thanks!!
Allie :)

Allie's Spiritual Portrait, Reading And Dream Travels!

I had a very interesting dream trip last night. I visited the Sacred Circle again on Calais (I'm unsure about this spelling, I'm sure it will evolve over time). I asked where is this place. I'm told that I need to stop my human mind from trying to figure it out and instead let me soul remember. All I can grasp from that point is a very rapid succession of images of myself with 11 other souls, discussing, arguing, making huge decisions -- about what I don't know.

Next thing I remember is being in a hotel room, and telling someone that I he owes me 1/2 for the room. It was time to check out and I wasn't about to foot the whole bill. Don't know.

The night before I can remember two things: I was in school and looking for my name on the class lists - first under "Allie" and then I thought, duh, last name -- so then "Theiss". I was late for class and I couldn't find the room I belonged in. This recurring dream about me in school but not being able to find my classroom has to be connected to something. Maybe I'm worried that I'm missing out on something? Then I was in the hospital, the apparent victim of a heart attack. The hospital wanted to give me some sort of stress test, so they hooked something up to me to increase my heart rate -- but it didn't take long for my heart to "attack" as soon as I screamed out that I was having an attack - this person came out of no where with this huge butt needle and slammed it into my right side, right below the shoulder and above the breast. It has iodine in it - and dang if that needle didn't hurt. I'm thinking how is this needle way over there supposed to help? I was a bit pissed. The two of them (the two nurses, one male - the needle plunger - and the other female) were arguing over what they were doing with me.

As you can see, my portrait is here and done. Pretty cool:) The spiral is my name in the spiritual world, the eye is self-explanatory - psychic/visionary abilities, the moon/stars is my magical abilities. Violet is my favorite color, so it is no surprise that it is all over my aura.

Below is the reading. The day I got it, a group of crows visited me (the same group I see when I walk in the morning) and one left me a feather (the feather I used in Monday's session). You will also notice how Monday's session fits in with this information.

I experienced your energy as a very intense bright light, you have the ability to help many through your power of intuition.

When I drew your eyes I felt that you had the ability to be a strong visionary, and that your soul is very ancient, you hold wisdom that many walking the earth plane do not, and should share this wisdom through writing, another gift which has been bestowed upon you.

When I drew your mouth I saw that you have the ability to heal others with words that are coded for their needs.

You are the keeper of the Sacred Circle and you have had the gift of ancient wisdom bestowed upon you.

My attention is directed to another place and I am instructed to “look.” I see a Crow, Crow is the keeper of the sacred law. All sacred texts are under the protection of Crow. Crow is also the protector of the “ogalah” or ancient records.

Human law is not the same as Sacred Law. More so than any other medicine, Crow sees that the physical world and even the spiritual world, as humanity interprets them, are an illusion. There are billions of worlds and an infinitude of creatures. God is within all. If an individual obeys Crow's perfect law as given by God, then at death he or she dies a Good Medicine death- going on to the next incarnation with a clear memory of his or her past.

Crow is the omen of change. Crow is indicating that you must pause and reflect on how you see the laws of God in relation to the laws of humanity. Crow medicine signifies a firsthand knowledge of higher order of right and wrong than that indicated by the Laws created in human culture.

With Crow medicine , you speak with a powerful voice when addressing issues that for you seem out of harmony, out of balance, out of whack, or unjust.

As you learn to allow your personal integrity to be your guide, your sense of feeling alone will vanish. Your personal will can then emerge so that you will stand in your truth. Be willing to walk your talk, speak your truth, know your life's mission, and balance past, present, and future in the now.

I am next approached by Rabbit. Rabbit is indicating that you may be feeling “frozen in motion” concerning a certain unresolved situation in your life. Rabbit is saying that you need to stop and take a rest. You need to re-evaluate the process you are undergoing, and rid yourself of any negative feelings, barriers, or duress. Simply put, you can not have your way felt until you rearrange your way of seeing the present set of circumstances.

There is always a way out of any situation, because the Universal Force does move on. It is the way in which you handle problems that allows you to succeed. Burrow into a safe space to nurture yourself and release your fears until it is time to move into the pasture, clear of prowlers who want a piece of your energy.

Next I am greeted by Sister Butterfly.

The power that Butterfly brings to us is akin to the air. It is the mind, and the ability to know the mind or to change it. It is the art of transformation. To use Butterfly medicine, you must astutely observe your position in the cycle of self transformation. Like Butterfly you are always at a certain station in your life activities.

If you look closely, Butterfly is trying to teach you that life is a never ending cycle of self transformation. When you understand where you are, you know instinctively where to go next to continue this cycle. .Butterfly brings clarity to your mental process and helps you to organize the project you are undertaking in the moment and she will assist you in finding the next step for your personal life or career.

Meditate of Butterfly to discern what your next move is.

I am next approached by a Deer. Deer teaches us to use the power of gentleness to touch the hearts and minds of wounded beings who are trying to keep us from our higher good. You are being asked to find the gentleness of spirit that heals all wounds. Stop pushing so hard to get others to change, and love them as they are. Apply gentleness to your present situation and become like the summer breeze: warm and caring. This is your tool for solving the present dilemma you are facing. If you use it , you will connect with your Higher self, and find your centering place of serenity, and God will guide you .

The Arch Angel Raguel is present in your life at this time and is helping in the Area of “Relationship Harmony.”

This is the message that is being carried to you at this time: “ We Angels are opening the hearts of everyone involved. Arguments and conflicts are being resolved now. “

“ Your prayers for personal peace have been answered, and you are to be commended for your role in ushering peace into this situation. Visualize everyone involved ( including yourself) being cooperative and open- minded, even if particular persons aren't usually this way.

Trust the inner guidance you receive, and know that changes are sometimes uncomfortable but often necessary. Ask me to help with any aspects of relationships that need healing. Know that all relationships ultimately have blessings, growth lessons, and love at their core, even if appearances seem otherwise. Stay focused upon this truth as much as possible.”

The Arch Angel Uriel is with you at this time and bringing you the gift of “Claircognizance.”

Uriel speaks: “ Pay attention to thoughts and ideas that come to you, as they are answered prayers.”

“You've prayed for answers and they have come to you in the form of repetitive thoughts telling you to take steps and make healthy changes. Don't discount your thoughts, or think they are just dreams or common knowledge. Your thoughts are tuned to high frequencies right now, and are trustworthy inspirations. All great wisdom stems from this same universal source. You are tapped in to that Divine wisdom right now, and it's important to notice and record your thoughts. Then act upon the answers to your prayers."

Arch Angel Jeremiel is assisting you at this time with “Overcoming Difficulties.”

“ The worst is now behind you, and you are surmounting any previous challenges.”

“ The challenges you have faced have made you stronger and have taught you new lessons.
Instead of becoming bitter, you have opened your heart with compassion toward others in similar situations. You have let go of any blame or feeling of victim hood. This is why you are now overcoming your previous challenges. Your positive outlook is attracting a loving situation and new situations at a higher level of spiritual understanding. Stay positive!”

The Angels are asking you to let go and allow God and the Angels to help you. Everything that you release will either be replaced by something better or will be returned to you healed. When you hold tightly to a part of your life that is not working, it has no room to heal. Whether you're unhappy with your love life, finances career , health or home, you are being gently asked to let go. If you hang on to these aspects of your life because of fears, the situation will only worsen.

However if you are willing to open your hands and allow the situation to be freed, one of two situations will occur: Either it will be washed away from you and replaced by a better situation or the situation will be healed in a miraculous way.

Please don not try to control the outcome of your troubling situation. Let go, and let God help you!

The Angels also want you to know that you are a perfect child of God, and every part of you is wonderful. Your Angels guide you to let go of negative self-judgments and to enjoy being you!

You are much too hard on yourself, your Angels are saying to you. Berating yourself only makes your spirit sink. Self improvement comes from a positive mind-set.

See yourself through your Angel's eyes , and you will see someone who is a perfect and holy child of God. Although you have made mistakes in the past, there is nothing that you could have ever said , thought or done that would change God's love for you. Your Angels and God love you unconditionally and ask you to love yourself in the same way!

I am receiving a message for you from an Angel named Indriel.

“ You are a lightworker. God needs you to shine your Divine light and love-like and Angel -upon the earth and all its inhabitants.”

You have always had a burning desire to make the world a better place. It is a deep calling that is beyond time and space. Right now your life's mission is expanding so that you can reach even more people. This will require you to make some life changes that you will learn about through your inner guidance.

“You are deeply sensitive to the emotions of others, and it is important that you clear yourself regularly-especially after helping someone. You can call upon Arch Angel Michael, your other guardian angels, and myself to help clear you of energetic toxins or cords that may have resulted from your helpful efforts. You are an Earth angel, and we are happy to assist you in all ways. Just ask!”

The woman who did this for me is very gifted and a wonderful soul. Her name is Sky and you can find examples of portraits she has done here: http://www.psysky.com/heartwork/

I have a busy day ahead of me. Comments or questions about the above reading are welcomed. My letters to God have been working and I love the new feeling of freedom:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

The Sacred Circle, Royalty And Being Known!

All morning I have put off doing a session. I'm not sure why, but I just have. Maybe I'm lazy, busy or worried about what I could see. Could be a combo, but now I'm just stalling, aren't I? Let's jump in.

WOW - this was amazing! I had to have the session 1st and then write about it as I had a crow's feather in my left hand. The more intense the vision got, the more the energy pulsed in my left hand making it quake at one point. I had to let go of the feather as my hand was moving too much for me to concentrate. When I picked it up again, the crow's feather, thankfully, tuned it's energy down a notch and I could handle the intense heat and the slight twitch of my left hand.

Upon entering into the session, I was taken into a vortex, it was spiral and full of the full spectrum of colors. Up and down I went twisting and turning -- more like on a roller coaster ride than anything else. I could feel the air getting thinner as I was deposited onto a hillside. I could hear a voice tell me to breathe deep and not to panic. I looked down from the hill and I saw thousands of people walking about in blue robes. They were all over the place below me, walking to and from a large city, built of crystal and precious stones. I looked down and I too was in a blue robe, but more elaborate than what I could see below me. I ask out loud, where am I? I hear a voice say - a place where you can receive the answers you seek. I look about and all I can see is a faint pair of eyes and a transparent "thing" of sort - no real shape to it. I ask out loud - where is this?

I hear in my mind - you are an advanced soul, do not use your mouth to speak, but your inner voice and you will be heard. When I think - okay - I hear another voice tell me I'm on "Calis", the origin of all my answers. In a blink, we are inside this massive crystal structure. When I look around, it reminds me of a crystal Stonehenge on steroids. I asked how we got here - I am told that we have the ability of mental transportation. Then it is added - so do I. You think about a place, and you go there. You want something - someone - you think about them and they arrive. It's a gift that I have always had, but have forgotten about.

We are now in the center of this massive structure. I am told it is the Sacred Circle. Look around I am told. I do, looking at all of the large stone chairs, all made a bit different with their own personal vibe to it. In the 3rd row back, hidden almost from all else, I see a violet and gold chair. As I move back to it - I can hear chattering in the back about - she found it. I place my hand on it, and where my hand is, it changes colors. Some blue, red, gold, silver, etc....the chair is very smooth to touch. One of the forms comes to me and comments - back in the back, where you have always wanted to be. I turn to it and ask - this is my chair? I am told - yes. I am then asked to sit, I do. The chair surprisingly is not cold or too hard to sit on. It is comfortable and contours to my body to have a perfect, and comfy fit. I'm told to imagine myself up on the top rung, in the royalty place. And I do. I open my eyes and the chair and me are now high above the stone chair floor.

A voice tells me that I have always shied away from being royal. No matter what royalty I have become in any life, I have always tried to hide away, to be unknown. This is one of my soul's lessons - a big lesson - is to step into the limelight and to take responsibility for who I am and what I am to do. I may be more comfortable being the one behind the wisdom, but until I step up and accept that I am wisdom, I will keep being placed in a physical body. I then hear Ted say, as I catch a glimpse of him, that we all have had this problem and he has overcome, Bill almost has.

I ask - is this the Sacred Circle? I am told - yes, and that I am the keeper of this circle. All wisdom from all of creation is stored here - discussed here - and I am the keeper of the circle. As this is trying to sink in, I am told to rest my head back. I do. Two sides come up, reminds me of Star Trek, and clasps around my skull, securing it into place. I am told not to be scared, that this will help. Asked if I am ready, I say yes.

I can see a very large door - it's black - with a creepy light coming out from the cracks. I can hear something prying the door open. When it does fly open, these horrible looking creatures fly out. It feels almost as if they are flying out of me. I can hear myself ask - what is this? The answer surprised me - my soul's demons. Throughout the ages, I have picked up negativity and demon attachments that have kept me from fulfilling my higher purpose. They are releasing them from my soul's interior - freeing me. As these things leave my personal space, energy zooms through me and tears pour down my face. When they are all gone. The door closes, the two sides retreat and I open my eyes.

Go in peace, I hear, and continue upon your path. Retreat here whenever you need answers.

Then I'm done.

It was an intense experience. I've never liked being in the limelight - never. I guess that is one of my lessons in this life. The sooner I put myself out there - the better - right? Just as I finished this and was proof reading, I got an email about promotion and promoting one self in a contest. Yes, I took that as a sign that I need to enter it. You guys are going to help me win. Stay tuned for more.

I survived my yard sale this weekend. I don't know how - but I did. And boy - did I hear the comments about my tomato plants. My sister joked that we are known as the "Tomato House". 8/10 people who stopped said something really nice about my plants.

I also got my spiritual portrait:) It's really cool, uplifting and healing. As soon as Sky sends me the pic and reading via email. I will post it to the blog. None of it surprised me, but drove some points home that I really needed to hear. One point in particular is my need to control. No matter what I tell other people to do, I do the opposite and try to hold onto things and control the outcome. I KNOW in my heart that I cannot control anything but me, myself and I. But I'll be dammed if I don't keep on trying. I have made myself a promise to let go. In order to do that, I'm going to write a letter to God and ask him to take this all from me. Then I will ask the Goddess Brigit for help letting go. Everytime I find myself clinging onto something, I'm going to write a letter.

My son goes to Safety School tonight. He starts Kindergarten in three weeks - hard to believe.

On that note, I'd better run for now:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Forgiveness And Inside His Body!

"Go to him" is what I kept hearing -- "Go to him." My thought was - who him? But my gut knew better -- Ted. I could feel him drowning, lost in an abyss with no idea how to find his way out. And so I went last night to visit him. With my faden quartz in one hand and my Ohio celestite in the other, I closed my eyes to embark on my mission to find Ted. It didn't take me long, with my astral self coming out of a wall, behind a bar, Ted on a stool with a beer and a shot of bourbon. The wall behind me had a great big mirror on it, with trim that at one time was gold. There was gold lettering on the mirror itself, the bar name. The bar is crowded, but no one is near him - there is a general knowledge that he wants to be left alone and his friends/work mates are honoring it.

His beautiful green eyes are glazed over and blood shot. I am looking straight at him and he me. He says, "What the fuck do you want?" The bartender is like - what? Ted scowls and says - I'm not talking to you. The bartender goes to the other end of the bar and Ted returns his attention to me. I ask - you can see me? He says, "Of course I can bloody hell see you."

I make sure that my eyes are parallel to his and that my "look" bores in and makes contact with his soul. "I forgive you", I tell him. "I forgive you for all of the anger, the pain and the separation." Tears form in his eyes, but his gaze does not waver from mine. "It's time to let go. I'm right here, alive, well and waiting for you to contact me. Stop punishing yourself"

Tears fall down his face. He takes a good long drink from his glass, emptying the beer. He shouts that he wants another one as he lights up another cigarette.

He whispers, "I can't lose you again. I'm not strong enough. The pain, I don't want.....I can't"

I place my face inches away from his, if I was solid - I would certainly have been in the "kiss zone". "Pick up the phone and call me."

I heard a noise back at home and was instantly taken back to my office. I thought for sure my heart was going to leap out for as hard as it was pounding.

When I slept last night I immediately was taken to his side, he was passed out in bed, calling for me. The only other thing that I can remember is a balloon contest that I won, but my script, THE BLACK TRIANGLE was the reason I won the balloon contest - and it al had to do with Ted. I can remember thinking -- how did the script help me win? The women who graded the script absolutely loved it. All the section got a 4/5 star except for spelling, which got a 3/5 and the story itself got a 5/5. I woke thinking -- what???

So, I can feel his pull today. It's strong. After I had my portrait and reading done (they haven't arrived yet via post) the woman who did them, Sky (http://www.psysky.com/heartwork/) said, and I quote, "I should tell you that your gifts will be increasing like never before since I have completed the portrait it works kind of like a key that unlocks a door it is working with Quantum energy." She told me this yesterday. With as much as my heart is skipping around the last couple of days, this is a doozy of a life change at hand. My heart hasn't fluttered this bad ever. But it was close up to when I discovered Bill and Ted - then it disappeared -- until now. Oh sure I've had some heart flutters over the last couple of years -- but this stint takes the cake.

I'm going to go grab my stone spirits and see what I can do for Ted today. I'll be right back.

Okay - now this is one for the books! I see Ted lying back in the grass, a paper is covering his face so that he can sleep. Up above him is his astral self - very happy to see me. I ask him how he's feeling and he grabs his head - hung over - is his reply. Then he says -- come on in. I ask, where, inside your body? He says - yes! I tell him that I am way not too sure of this, he says it'll be fine. Hesitantly, I grab his hand and we fall right in.

It's stuffy in there - like being wedged in a broom closet. Ted, his physical body, bolts right up and grabs his head. I can feel me/him grab his head and I have his hands feel his face - so I could feel me/him rubbing his face. I could also feel his headache and body aches from the night before. I think to myself - I wonder if I can make him feel better from in here? I "hear" him say, please try.

Now remember, I'm inside of him, seeing out his eyes, using his hands -- etc....in tandem with him. I imagine a white energy tornado starting at our feet and working it's way up until it engulfs us. I can hear & feel him take a sharp intake of breath. I let this going on for about 30 seconds and the tingling sensation is amazing. I switch to having the energy board (from Robert Bruce's NEW energy ways) start around us and work its way out, gathering speed and more white light. I hear him say that this is amazing. I ask his soul if he can take this over and he says yes. I step from his body and am now standing in front of him.

He looks me dead on and says to himself that he must be imagining things. I kiss him on the nose (kind of since I am in astral form) and tell him no he's not and I fade from view.

That was totally wicked! I was in his physical body the same time he was. I could feel his emotions, his pain, his everything -- it was amazing. Something that I will have to try again.

And on that note -- I have to get back to work AND get rid if this new headache that I just acquired!

BTW.....3rd day of HOT. Our electric went out for 4 hours yesterday and I melted into a pile of HOT. Quite disgusting.....

Have a great day and keep cool!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)