Leap Of Faith, Dream Visits And The Meadow!

I wanted to get to my session today as I've had that little birdie tell me to get a move on. I am immediately taken to the meadow. Archangel Michael is waiting for me. We greet one another and he asks me to walk with him. All around us are hints of a blossoming spring. He asks me if I remember my dreams from last night. I nod. He asks what stands out the most from my travels?

First I bring up Ted. I am walking through a house and he is sitting with his back to a window, head down, hands clasped together with his arms on his knees. He looks up and one of those heart-stopping smiles cross his face. He has on a black sweater with a high neck, blue jeans and his hair is longer. But what I remember even more than his smile, was the vivid green of his eyes. It was as if all of his energy was concentrated there - his soul trying to get me to notice -- and I did. He gives me a great big hug. I tell him how happy I am to see him and that it is has been far too long. He agrees that it has been too long, but he had to settle a part of his life that was out of control. We stand there and just stare at one another for awhile, drinking in the appearance of the other, we convey how much we've missed one another. He asks me if I'll walk with him. I thread my arm through his and we start to leave this home -- and that is all I remember.

Next there is this house made of huge black tiles that had fallen into a crevice during a storm and mudslide. It was a deep crevice with trees, a stream, plenty of plants. Another man was there, one who I know I know, but I cannot remember who it was right now -- he was stepping on the house tiles and making them move. I kept telling him to stop or he was going to get caught and banished. He told me not to worry so much. That sometimes you need to just take a chance.

I'm staying with a woman who is just graduating college. And it is time for me to move on. I go out to my Mini Cooper and there is a small child in it -- when I get closer there is a man in the back, in my son's booster seat. I start to yell for him to get out, but then I see that he has an infant sleeping on his chest. For some reason I knew that these 3 and a woman were homeless and they were using my car for shelter. As soon as I realized it was them, I let them stay. But the man was smoking in the Mini and that is a no-no. Not only because it's my car but there are children there. So I make him give me the cig and I throw it out. I still remember the sting on my left palm from the hot ash. I get in the drivers side and now the mother is leaning into the passenger window. I tell them that they can stay in this cabin in a bit as the woman who owns it just graduated college and she will be drinking too much. She won't even know that they are there - just make sure that they are gone in the morning.

I remember Bill being in a visit - but cannot remember what.

Next my son and I are in the Cooper and driving in Wooster. We are approaching the north end where Wal-Mart is located ( I don't see the store, but I instinctively know that is where we're at). A swift rain kicks in, windshield wipers go on, lights on. As we near a gas station on the right, I can see up ahead a horrible storm. The electricity is out past this station. I think about my computer being on at home with no electricity and that I hope the battery was holding in. Then I remembered that my husband was at home and we need to get there. As we approached the traffic light that was out, the storm picked up, everyone pulled over to the side of the road but us. Past that light was pure blackness. I cranked up the speed on my wipers, made sure my glasses were on, put on the high-beams. I creep up to the disabled traffic light, knowing full well if another vehicle is coming the other way we will not be able to see one another. So this was faith. I asked my son if he was ready - he said yes. I floored it -- and woke up.

Archangel Michael asks me if I understand why I had those dream visits - in particular the last one. I think I understand them all. The last one is alerting me that my son and I are going to be thrown into the darkness, rather swiftly because of my husband, but if we keep our faith and move full steam ahead we will be fine. We will have to jump into the void of the unknown. Archangel smiles and says - that is correct.

Can I ask when this is going to happen? He shakes his head - no. But you are prepared for when it does. Hold to your faith, and to your son and always remember that you are never alone.

Bill and Ted are on the other side of the void, aren't they? Archangel Michael simply smiles and fades away.

It would be nice to get a straight answer form someone:) Seems like angels and guides talk in code. I know that I have to figure things out, and I will --- but it would be nice to have a straightforward hint. As I typed that I hear -- you had the dream, that IS your hint.

Back to work I go! Today is parent's lunch at school, so I get to go join my dude for food time!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Best Dream Visit To Date!

It was incredible - absolutely the best dream visit that I can remember to date - I can only pray that Bill remembers too.

As you know, my deceased friend Dave is always around me. At night I ask him to take me places as I fall asleep and after ribbing me on where I want to go he takes me. Last night I asked to visit Bill. I asked God for me and Bill to remember our interactions as I felt it was important for me to do so.

I'm in a house and I find Bill's bedroom. I open it carefully and no one is there. I lay down on his bed and fall asleep. I hear him come in, I don't move. I can feel him staring down at me. He stands there and I can feel his eyes study every part of my clothed body (I'm lying on top of his covers, on my side, in the fetal position). Then ever so carefully he leans down and kisses my cheek. But he doesn't pull back, he hovers taking in the scent of my hair, the softness of my skin. I stir like I was sleeping and waking up - still he doesn't move. I turn towards him and open my eyes. He doesn't say a thing -- instead he gives me a woowie of a kiss!

I can remember running around with him, as a couple, having fun and being very close - holding hands, arms around one another, kissing a lot. He tells me - I'm sorry that it took me so long. I reply - all that matters is that you are here.

We're standing and I'm hugging him saying over and over -- I love you, I love you, I love you Bill. I tell him too that it is very important the remembers that. He cups my face in his hands and says, I love you too Allie, never forget that.

Then I woke up.

I tried to go right back to the dream visit - but he must have awoken because he wasn't there any longer (he's 5 hours ahead of me in London). I can feel his astral presence here - next to me - it is incredible. It is like he is fused to me, it is a feeling that I have never had before and it is invigorating! I cannot WAIT to go back to sleep tonight.

This was the 1st time I can remember he and I having any sort of physical intimacy, besides a fleeting kiss. The walls were down, no guarded words. There was a closeness and a bonding -- I know of no other way to describe it. The emotions were so intense - so vivid and raw.

Right now it feels like every nerve ending I have is on top of my skin. It's such an alive feeling, as if one is on top of the world and there is nothing that can stand in the way.

What a Monday morning start!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Perceiving Connections -- Compliments Of Bill!

Bill has always been good at making me think. He leads me to ponder things when before I wouldn't have given it a second thought. Tonight is all about perceiving and the connection. Do we have a relationship with those things that we do not perceive? Did Bill, Ted and I have a relationship in this life time before we perceived one another? Until I acknowledged and accepted the two of them, did an actual relationship exist on any level? How can you have a relationship with someone if you do not perceive their existence?

Once that perception and acceptance has been made - who are you then? Are you the connection or are you still you but part of the connection? And once the connection is complete, how do you not become fused with another part of that connection, thereby losing who "you" are at your core? Once us 3 are together, and the connection has been consciously accepted and acted upon -- how do we not collapse into one another? How do we not become someone else? Or is all parts of our connection a piece of the one soul and once together we fuse as one yet remain separate?

Will I speak and write more eloquently as Bill? Or will I be able to draw like either Ted or Bill. Could I design jewelry like Ted? Will either of them write more like me? Will they pick up my psychic gifts? How will their gifts change me and visa versa?

Is the why, where or when of things irrelevant with only the what being important? How does one drop the wall of protection and forget the differences and desires that separate or repel us?

We need to love.And to believe. Faith is knowledge with the help of love. -Andrey Tarkovsky

I cannot see us though, losing ourselves. What I see is us enhancing one another. I think that it is possible to be part of something so close, yet be able to remain who you are as long as there is a conscious effort on your part not to collapse into the union. Once that conscious effort is gone, then it is difficult and pain-staking to discover who you are once again.

Also after much thought, I have come to the conclusion that you can have a relationship with someone who you have not perceived yet. As perception is a human condition and the relationship is at a soul level. The soul knows no boundaries. The human mind conjures too many.

This is what occupies my mind this evening.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Merlin, Power And Allie's Core!

For those of you in the states - how did your Turkey Day go? Mine as usual was an interesting time with good food, good company and stimulating conversation. I found out yesterday that I will be an Aunty again!! My little sis is pregnant with child #2! She told everyone (well, her hubby did) at the table and I'm like - I know. They're --how did you know? I gave them a look - come on guys. The new addition should arrive come mid June! I'll keep you updated!

What a strange few days I've had - today included. I'm doing a lot of after Turkey Day stuff with a lot of running around - plus I've been doing a ton of writing as I'm desperately trying to claw my way back to a sane level. Email is still - well -- @ucked beyond my belief. I still plan on answering the 500 + that are now sitting in my inbox:) What has been strange is the sense that I'm being shadowed. I don't mean by an actual person though - a guide, a master actually. I keep getting glimpses of him out of the corner of my eye. I know it's not Bill or Ted as I get a certain energy zap when it's them. No this one is a high level master. He's right here next to me as I type. I can feel my fingers moving to type and it is weird because it is taking control, by me, to type what I want to type. Okay - I'll play - let's see if anything is typed if I just let go:

theh answers you swela are right in 4ont o youe wyw hat yo are foing is interdteing with the natureal order of thisns yo must eey wityh me to sicuss this.

Okay - that is what I typed when I just let it go. Well - I must admit, I don't like anything having control over my body functions so my interfereence is probably the cause of the mis-spells and we all know that I cannot spell at all.

Now he's speaking to me - he wants me to spell that line right:

the answers you seek are right in front of you. what you are doing is interfering with the natural order of things. you must meet with me to discuss this.

Okay - I'm game. Let's see who and what is going on -- shall we?

I am immediately taken to the drawbridge of a castle. I cross it and as I approach the massive door it swings open. There is a man waiting for me and simply says that the master is waiting for me over there -- and he points to a wall. I look at the wall and look at him. He stands there and does not say a word. I go to the wall and touch it -- cold stone is what I feel. I hear that voice in my head say -- it's not a wall and you are not a person -- think of it as energy meets energy. Close your eyes, bring up your energy level and pass through. I do what I am told, bring my energy level up from what I learned from Robert Bruce and I walk to the wall. As I go through, I feel a striking cold and then a blazing heat - then nothing. This is when I open my eyes and I see --

Merlin.

I should of known I say. Yes you should of is his reply. I look around and I'm in a massive cave where there are crystals, stones, oils, herbs that cover everywhere. It's amazing this place. He asks me if I remember this place? I tell him that I know I've been here a few times in the last year, but I don't remember what he wants me to remember. He wants me to sit down in a chair - I do and he hands me an Amethyst. He tells me to hold it and concentrate on it - I do. I can see myself as a young girl, working with him and I must be doing something extraordinary by the smile on his face. I can hear his voice as I'm watching the scene unfold - yes - you were my prize student - gifted in ways that no one else has come close to possessing - you are a unique and potent person. There are people running about and Merlin says something for us to disappear. But my favorite Amethyst, my good luck charm, is still on the table and I break the shield to go get it. As soon as I do that the door opens and I am killed.

I open my eyes and look at Merlin - and then down at my hand with the amethyst. Is this it? He nods. It is the same one that sits next to you in the real world, the one you are always holding. You have had it with you since the dawn of time, and in every life it finds you. I sit there in silence for a spell. He takes this silence to talk to me more:

You are the greatest power that has ever been created. In every life you are given a chance to use that power to help -- some times you do, as when you were Joan of Arc and Cleopatra, but many times you have filed that power away, too afraid to let it shine. Yes, you have been killed in every life when you have exhibited this power, but in every life afterwards, you are stronger, more powerful.

I can honestly say that I don't know what to say. So all I do is look at him.

Merlin goes on -- you cast a spell today, correct? I nod. You cast that spell for clarity on a story you wish to write, correct? I nod. But what you fail to realize is that your clarity spell gave you not only clarity with the story, it opened up clarity to all else. Your power does that -- it is so much more than you realize. This is why you are I a place for us to speak.

But we've spoken before Merlin, dozens of times.

Yes we have -- but I've never revealed who you are.

Do I have a name? A name that has traveled with me?

Fyre. He says.

I've never heard of a person called that.

It is your soul's name - not a human's name. What you are doing is interfering with what you need to be doing. You are throwing a rock into the natural order of things. You have found answers within you, true, you have done well with that -- but you are seeking other answers from people who cannot tell you what you want to know as they are not permitted to know in order to tell you.

Magic is who you are - you are magic and magic is you. There is no separation of the two. This is why I am here with you, this is why I am always with you as your teacher, your mentor. But you have to trust in yourself that this is your purpose- this is why you are alive today.

But I thought it was to heal? It is to heal - you can heal, you will heal - through magic. But that is not your purpose in this life - that is not the core. Healing is Bill's core, not yours.

What about the always present want to do battle, like I'm some knight or something. Am I supposed to fight? Yes Merlin says - you will fight, but with magic. You are an expert swordswoman and do well in battle. But that is not the core of who you are. That is who Ted is - he is the protector, the warrior, that is his core.

Do I feel all of this all the time because of our "oneship" our close intertwinement of souls?

Yes -- yes that is why. But you have to advance yourself on what is you and what is them. They are both in a position to weld their cores. You are not -- not yet.

But how do I then?

Merlin is so close now that I swear we will become one if he closes in......

You have to remember that magical power is your core - you are power and power is you. What you put your power behind will manifest. This is why with your core of your existence, magical power has always taken a front seat. You can manipulate energy, you can manifest anything you desire. You also have the gifts of prophecy and healing -- put your magical power into that too.

But what am I supposed to be doing? You have given me so much that again I'm at a lose at where to begin.

You have to accept your magical power. That's it. Accept who you are and your birthright. All else is in the natural order of things - you do not have to begin anywhere.

I think that I have enough to think about right now. I'm going to go.

Do not think -- accept. This path isn't for your human body or mind to decide, it is your soul's path, therefore it is your soul's choice. I will be waiting for you.

And with that I am done.

This was much more than I expected -- so much more that it is overwhelming. There is a HUGE chunk of me that wants to chalk this up to a vivid imagination and leave it at that. But I know that it's not right to do. To accept is to acknowledge. I'll try not to be a Bill and over-think this -- or think this at all.

But Merlin is correct - magic is at my core being, it has captured my awe and attention from when I was just a small child. It's the powerful part that I'm wrestling with.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Meadow, The Fellowship And A New Era!

I wasn't going to write anything tonight - yet here I am. Bill has been pulling me, in fact, he just showed up here to my right -- real close to my body. He startled me and when I looked he was gone. I know what this means -he wants me to meet him in the meadow. SIGH. Only for him (or Ted) would I set foot back in there. Let's see what he wants. But before I go, Jezell tells me to put on my soundtrack from "Fellowship of the Ring" - I'm not sure why. But I figure - why not?

I immediately arrive in the meadow. There are the briefest signs of spring here. Bill is there waiting, he smiles and says that he knew I'd come. I ask where's Ted? He says Ted is busy at the moment. I ask him- shouldn't you be working? He laughs and says that he should be sleeping! Of course - it's the middle of the night in London! LOL!

I tell him that this isn't right, the actual meadow should be barren because of the season. He chuckles and reminds me that things are different here on the astral side. I ask about her - the owner of the land - won't she come and try to remove us. Let her he says. If the Divine wants us here - no human can stop us, regardless of who they think they are.

He wants me to walk with him, so we hold hands and walk through the grass. I can hear the swish-swish as we move through it. He stops by a bunch of trees, turns and takes my face in his hands. Remember when you discovered who I am to you? How could I forget - I reply. You said that you'd never give up on me, you swore you wouldn't, please keep that promise. I've never given up on you Bill - you or Ted. What gave you that idea? Silence. You mean because you couldn't feel that constant connection? He shrugs. Bill, I have to work too you know -- I can't think about you all the time. He smiles. What about if I did this -- he leans in and gives me such a passionate and rememberable kiss. As we are kissing, I can feel heat around me. I open my eyes and we are both bathed in a white light -- now our clothes are white. The white light disappears and there are the elementals, all moving about - saying how happy they are that we're together. I heard something about the start of a new era.

I can see the tree open in the end - the one tree that he and I have traveled up in so many times. We arrive at the top, get out and waiting there is Clive, Peter and Larry. I'm ecstatic to see all of them. From behind me I hear someone clear their throat. Within 1/2 sec I am in Ted's arms hugging the guy like crazy. There are hugs and greetings going on all over!

Archangel Michael calls us over - flanking him on both sides are the rest of the Archangels. We are all asked to get on our knees. Bill, Me and Ted in front with Clive, Larry and Peter behind us. There are words said that I do not recall - another bright light and the sounds of angels singing.

Then I felt my stomach drop like I'm in a roller coaster and I'm back.

Now I understand why the cd soundtrack was put on. Us 6 have not been together in a very long time - too long.

Now off to bed to see if I can visit these guys longer.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Jezell, Last Night And The Meadow!

Jezell was bugging me last night during my night out of drinking and let loose time. She keep bugging me to go up to certain women in our group (and one man at the bar) and convey some information. Now I didn't know these women - this was my 1st time at the Femibeast Bash - they only 2 people I knew was the women who hosts it and my best buddy Linda. Now - what I was supposed to go up and tell the ladies had to do with their love lives and I knew that they didn't want to hear it. But -- I do what I'm told and I think that I really pissed them off as they believe that they are going down the right paths when they really are not. One woman, when I was looking for Linda towards the end of the night -- looks at me and says - what? have some more good news about my future? In the most sarcastic tone that I've heard in a while. When I said no - looking for Linda. She softened up. Then the poor guy - who, was pretty handsome - was there looking for love -- but I kept trying to tell him that he's looking for it in the wrong place. He wasn't pleased at all. I think that he thought I was a @ucking loon -- but when I'm told that it is important for someone to hear something - there's a damn good reason why. We'll see if they talk to me next year.

Now she is also really bothering me about returning to the meadow. If you remember, Bill, Ted and I were kicked out when my friendship with the actual land owner crashed and burned. Now , Bill - Ted and I don't actually set foot on the physical property, it's in the astral plane. But Jezell keeps saying that we have to go back. There's something there that needs our attention. I ask - why can't she just do it. But of course that is a big no. I ask for a hint - I get a no. I really do not want to go back - at all. The land owner will sense us on the astral plane as she always had in the past, and I really don't want to communicate with her on any level. So I'm at a loss. There's a reason that we have to go back and it must be a big one or we wouldn't have been asked. But on the other hand I know how not welcomed we are in the land owners space.

I'm going to sleep on it and see if I get any answers.

Sweet dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Gypsy (Rom), Wildlife, Animal, Environment Issues

Hi Guys,

In case you haven't been to my Gypsy Girl Press site in a while - stop by. I don't know why I didn't think of this sooner - but I'm now placing news on the Rom/Roma/Gypsies on the site - front page - along with all the other issues.

There is an interesting article about the Holocaust and the HUGE archive of information that is about to be available to the public. There is information in this archive, somewhere, about the millions of Gypsies that were slaughtered. One just needs to find it.

http://www.gypsygirlpress.net/

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: THE COMMENTS FOR THIS THREAD HAVE BEEN DELETED. DO NOT USE MY BLOG AS YOUR PERSONAL MUD-SLINGING ZONE.

A Reading, Ted's Plea And Bill's Non-Action!

I can't get a darn thing done today and I'm about to throw a hissy fit. Why can't I work? Bill and Ted -- more Ted than Bill. His pull today is so strong today that I can't seem to shut the door between us. I can hear him saying over and over -- I'm not giving you up -- I'm not giving you up to anyone. Over and over -- and he keeps getting louder. One of the times I heard him today I had a flash vision of he and I out in the middle of a fricken downpour. It's night - we're out of the car and in the path of our headlights. He's desperately trying to get me to understand that he loves me. That despite what people say about him, he is not a superficial moron. I scream at him -- what do you want from me? He grabs my shoulders and replies - Let me love you! And that's it. I can see his green eyes as plain as day, with tears running from them.

GOD! Why doesn't Bill just get the trio together? That's one of his jobs in this trio -- he's the one who brings us together. I wish I could pick up the phone and just yell at him to get off his ass and make this happen. I could care less what part of the world he's in and what he's doing. SIGH. Frustration -- such hair-pulling frustration from my end. Good thing I'm going out with the girls on Sat night to drink and be a bit crazy. I need some let-loose time.

I think what promoted this door wide-open thing is the reading I got last night from my friend Tracey (who I've called Cindy all this time but she gave the okay to use her real name). I asked about the guys and this is what she said:

We see that indeed Bill is making progress, with regard to you, is recognizing what blocks him and hinders him from clear seeing and knowing. He is seeing what needs to be healed within him so that he can move towards you.

Bill is learning much about himself, his spiritual strengths, is accepting his psychic abilities, his spiritual gifts on a deeper level realizing that he can trust the information he sees, feels, senses, visions and dreams about with great expectancy that it is real and not an illusion. He is open to the lessons at hand and is learning them so that he can move to the next lesson and he is making choices in his life that bring forward his greatest progress, growth, emotionally as well as vocationally.

He is inspired and feels that he owes the inspiration to you. He is remembering more and more each day, and is amazed at how clearly he is seeing now, and understanding, what he is remembering is truly special to him, is beyond his own comprehension of amazing. He is in awe now.

Bill sees the part he is to play in this situation and knows of what he is to do but he wants to look to you, to connect to you, is trying to communicate to you to understand more of your role, to affirm your role in his life path. His answers are coming in more quickly now and he feels more comfortable with the insights he is gaining rather than automatically rejecting them. He is looking backward to all the signs that are pointing him in your direction and is on the cusp of leaping towards you. There is a deep longing and yearning for you right now, and this is so great it is causing him physical pain.

Ted has been through a lot in the past six months. We see that his lack of energy is a byproduct of the past events and relationship. In this situation, he has felt hurt, afraid, angry, rejected, belittled, ashamed, and all of these strong emotions have negatively affected him and have dimmed his light quite a bit, leaving him ever so sensitive.

As his sensitivity has sharpened, he has experienced remembering more and connecting to you, to the past, and the present, and desperately wants to know what lies ahead. He is recognizing some inner pain from past lifetimes when he lost you and this is upsetting to find that the external reason most often was Bill.

Because he blamed Bill in the past, he did not attend to his inner hurts. Ted is feeling these tremendous pains at this time, is feeling angry and frustrated with Bill, and trying to avoid him. In his heart, and mind, he is trying to accept all of these truths, and they are overwhelming emotionally.

Ted is exhausted, mentally overwhelmed, physically tired and feeling blue and sad. There is a great desire to be with you and he is having vivid dreams of you. He is feeling the love for you and feels he can be with you in the now without judging himself, being true to him this lifetime, rather than worrying that Bill is in love with you. There is some frustration about Bill not taking any steps towards you and he is on the verge of taking matters into his own hands, to charting the course. He does not intend to hand you over to Bill in this lifetime, as he is not sure that he can do it, thus he is strongly considering taking the step toward you without Bill’s knowledge.

So -- where's that beer? Sometimes I feel I'm right in the middle of some stupid soap opera and I want to run like hell the other way. I won't though - run. No matter how frustrated I get, how pissed I get that things are taking too long -- I am always just a phone call away.

Back to work I go.......

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Death, Dave, Dunshire And Change!

I know, I know....my posts are too few -- too far in-between. Sorry guys, it's not like anything metaphysical has been going on, it's just that I've been too busy to post. My daily to-do list is insane and it will stay that way until I can get caught up.

I received my piece of Heliodor yesterday. It's a fine piece of golden beryl, but unfortunately for me, too small to be put into the 3 stone pendant. So I decided to place it next to my bedside along with my other stone spirits. I tell you what - my nights have been just as busy as my days. I am astral traveling all over the place. I woke up with a start last night as my astral body slammed back into my physical body. That feeling of falling and then that "thud" I just hate. But when I opened my eyes, I could have sworn, just for a second that Bill was standing next to my bed looking down at me -- and then he was gone. What I wouldn't have done just to keep him there a bit longer.

My deceased friend Dave has been doing a lot of visiting as of late. He's always around, so much so that you would have thought we were lovers at one time. But sadly no -- always in the friends department. But I would have rather been there then no where at all. Any way - Dave has been looking over my shoulder as I work. Scaring the crap out of my cats -- and at night he always extends his hand to help me out of my body. I keep telling him he needs to go visit his wife and children. He tells me his wife has moved on and the kids are at an age where they don't see him any more. Out of the thousands of people this man knew when he was a fireman and a police officer - he says that I'm the only one who is listening.

I think that's a shame. I mean this guy knew scores of people -- his funeral was jammed packed full of people, fire engines and police officers from all over Ohio. You would think that the people who face death on a daily basis would believe more in life after death - would have more of an open mind. But he says no -- and he didn't have that open mind either when he was alive. Dave also tells me that he is around for my radical life shift. I ask if this is going to hurt -- he says yes it will - but I'll come through stronger than I am now. I feel like I'm on my way to being Xena - the Warrior Princess :)

And speaking of the above...I belong to several book clubs. Normally I'm on it about declining my main selection if I don't want it. Well for one the of the clubs I forgot and the books arrived yesterday: "Keep Going, The Art of Perseverance" and "Life After Death". A coincidence? I don't believe that things just happen - there are reasons behind everything. The books are here to help me also with this change I'm going to go through. If this change involves a death of someone - and although I KNOW that there is life after death - I still do not do death well at all. I mean - I'm really not good with it. On the outside it looks like I've got it all handled, but as soon as I'm alone, I fall apart. SIGH. Heck - I never did look at Dave's obituary until yesterday - 3 years after the fact and I cried as if it just happened. Reading it, I realized he died right where my husband and I went for our anniversary. I probably drove right past the spot.

My guide Jezell has been visiting me a lot. She is helping me with my muse. Working on book 4 of the Gypsy Magic series as well as starting a new screenwriting class this weekend and I THINK that I've finally found the story I like with my gypsy teen Kyra. Sometimes things appear to take forever to fall into place -- but they eventually do.

Ahhh..I knew that there was something else I wanted to add before I went to bed. Dunshire Castle -- I had another flash vision which told me how the fire was set. I guess the trip that Ted was to take to England was just a diversion to get him out of the castle. Once he was out of sight, the tower that my son and I were in was blocked and then set on fire. The family who set it wanted the castle and the land --- and Ted wasn't giving it to him. This family figured that with the wife and son gone, that he'd be so broken hearted that he would just leave the castle -- and then they would step in. This is what happened - Ted left and never looked back.

Well heck -- there is one more item before I sign off. Two nights ago my son went to sit on my lap in my office chair like we do all the time. But this time -- the chair broke and down we went. My chair is in a corner, the wall is right behind me and next to me is a dresser that I have a lot of stuff in and on. Well when we went down my head snapped forward and my right shoulder took the corner of the dresser. My neck is killing me, my headache won't go away and I have a huge bruise beneath my right shoulder blade. Yep, whiplash from a chair. Only me -- only me. I wonder if Bill and Ted's necks hurt - or they got this headache without knowing why? Hummm.....I'm always wondering stuff like this.

You know what I don't get? Why I get more visits to this blog when I DON'T post then when I DO? Odd...very odd!

And on that note - I'm going to bed. Yes - I am still way behind in emails and I'll never get caught up at this rate.

Sweet dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dream Visits, Bill, Change And An Interview!

Sometimes I just don't know and other times - I don't want to know. Why would I even bring that up? Because my son in all of his 6 year old wisdom said mommy - I know too much and my brain is gonna pop out my ears. You too? I said - yep -- but think how much it would hurt if we knew everything. Sometimes we don't know something -- to which he replied -- I just don't wanna know. I told him I understood.

I have clients who come to me repeatedly in a short span of time or I have new clients to come to me after talking to another 4 intuitives first. I always tell people, sometimes knowing too much makes things worse not better. Your brain can only absorb so much information and after that - it just sits there muddling up what is already there. Sometimes people listen to me - other times the schedule another reading right away or tell me they are going to try another psychic (eventually, someone will back up what another said and tell them what they want to hear).

My Mini Cooper S is just jamming along. It's nice to be in a dependable care with airbags. The car payment is worth the comfort of knowing my son is safer -- plus since I am directionally challenged (when I say left I usually mean right) the navigation system is helping me stay on track with that all-so female British voice.

Bill's over there in London-- at least that is where he's supposed to be. Part of me feels though that he either keeps hoping over to France or he's in France hoping over to London. I hope that he and Ted are able to spend some time together. Speaking of Ted - did I tell you that he's dating the She-Devil again? I think I did - but it still makes my blood boil.

Whispers Media is launching on Tues, Nov 14th - the same day I'm going to be on LA's 2nd largest radio station - 1500 am KKZZ (http://www.1590kkzz.com/showdj.asp?DJID=32743) with Maria Sanchez at 8:05 PST - 11:05 EST. I get to talk about WM --really looking forward to this!

I've had a couple of interesting dreams. Let me start with last night. I am in a room, waiting to get a consultation from Bill. He is going to go over my books and tell me what I need to fix in order for them to sell more. Now since he is a publisher in real life -this isn't too far fetched. I remember him joking it up with a blond-haired woman about her book - he runs off some copies for her. She leaves and I go back. He sees me and doesn't know quite what to make of me. I know that he knows "who" I am -- I can see it in his eyes. I look down at his very messy desk and I see the cover of my healers book - the one I'm not going to write in real life. I remember thinking - now how did he get that - it hasn't been released yet? Hell, I'm not even going to write it! We sat next to one another, very close, tension just oozed between us. Not a tension where you want to beat the crap out of someone - but the kind of tension where you're just dying to have the other person say or do something. He sat there - so damn serious like.

Finally I couldn't take it any longer. I say - you know who I am, don't you? He bites his lower lip, raises his eyebrows slightly and gives me that slight turn of the head with a nod. Are you okay with it - I ask? He nods. We go over the book - he mentions that the love book is missing numbers and text - told him that I'm on up and have already had it taken care of. He says if I was one up I would have caught it sooner. (Smart ass - but he's right). I look down at this piece of paper he has on this mess of a desk (in a mess of an office - with the copier right out side his office in the small hallway and the waiting room w/assistant just beyond that. I keep thinking that it is all painted in a light green like my bathroom) and he has contact information - one for books and the other for music if there are any more questions. No - I have no clue what it said. Then I woke up.

The night before - I can remember being in a hotel with a bunch of people. I was pushing a cart towards room number 455 - where my husband and I were told that we were to stay, by the man in charge. But when I look down at my key it says 355. He tells me that we have to hurry up and go to the other floor and put our stuff away (a good chunk of it was in the cart I pushed) as we had to be downstairs at 5:55 for a meeting. The rest of the group all stayed on the 4th floor while my husband and I had to go to the 3rd.

I decided to look up the numbers to see what messages I was getting:

355 - the ascended masters are helping, guiding, and supporting you during this time of significant change, which improves your life in new and miraculous ways.

455 - the angels guide and support you through a significant and much-needed life change. Trust and follow their guidance.

555 - major changes and significant transformations are here for you. You have an opportunity to break out of the chrysalis and uncover the amazing life you truly deserve.

I knew something was coming down the pike. And boy -- am I READY!

Sweet Dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic For The Family's Soul Is Released!

YEAH! Finally after much hard work it is complete - both in soft cover (from Amazon) and e-book!

Without further ado - here's what's inside!

Gypsy Magic for the Family’s Soul is a powerful collection of magic to heal and protect you and your family. Based on ancient Gypsy rites, the formulas and spells within allow you to tap into your own innate gifts and transform your life. They are a mix of Allie's personal secrets along with the successful combinations she uses to help her clients -- and now you -- succeed.

Gypsy Magic for the Family’s Soul provides easy-to-understand steps that incorporate ordinary household objects to help you:

• Lose weight
• Heal and renew
• Request spiritual visits from family friends
• Rid your home of ghosts
• Communicate with your pet
• Get step-parents and step-children to co-exist

...and so much more!

Use your own personal power to harness the energy of the Universe and create the family life you desire!

To find out more and/or to purchase go to:
http://www.gypsygirlpress.net/gypsy_magic_for_the_familys_soul.htm

Thanks everyone!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Pain Of Death And Changing Negative Thoughts!

I know, I know...where have I been? Working my tush off - that's where. And the party isn't close to being over yet. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger - right? A lot of typing for Whispers Media, along with readings and classes I'm giving. In fact there has been so much typing going on that my right hand keeps cramping up. Okay, I'll stop complaining:)

Since my brain just hurts, I'm not in the mood to do a session. Of course, this is probably a time for me to DO one in order to de-stress a bit. I guess if I get a sign to do one, I will.

In the mean time I was thinking today about my close connection to Bill and Ted. I can feel what they feel (pain, happiness, love, anger, sexual tension, etc...), hear what they hear and read what they think -- all is reciprocal if they want to listen to my thoughts, feelings - etc...as I'm an open book to both of them. This got me to thinking though, what will any of us feel when one of us dies? The initial pain of dying - will the two remaining be able to feel it? Do we experience that pain of death yet keep living? If one of us get ill - say cancer or maybe heart disease - do the other two feel the deterioration of the human body?

I think of us as triplets because of our connection. If you read about twins/triplets, they can feel the pain when the other one dies - and they also experience an emptiness that nothing - not even time - can fill. So would that mean if I'm the last one standing (and since they smoke too damn much that could very well be the case), I have to live with the emptiness of two souls? Man - just the thought of all this gives me an anxiety pang.

I Forget You For Ever -- and if this is the case, if they choose never to acknowledge my physical existence or our soulful connection in this lifetime - will we still feel the pain of death? I am guessing that if we do feel that pain/feelings now regardless if we actually physically speak, that yes - we still will. Only I'll understand why I have this pain and this emptiness and they won't. I can't decide if this is good or bad.

I received the Hessonite that I purchased and I redid my 3 stone pendant. It now has the Hessonite, Herkimer and the Amethyst until my Heliodor arrives. But at night I'm taking one of my Hessonite's and the other 1/2 of the Herkimer pair and putting it on my bed table. My dreams have been heavily traveled. Unfortunately, I am still not taking my own advice and writing things down as soon as I wake up. I can't help it - I always have to pee 1st and by the time I get back -- I would have forgotten. SIGH.

So - this got me to thinking about our inner monologue. That nagging doubt that creeps behind us, even when we say or do something positive. I remember once I told someone that I really liked their car (and I did) but right after that in my mind I remember grumbling about someone my same age having a great car while I was driving my Grams-mobile. I learned how to change that inner crap and last week - I bought a 2005 Mini Cooper S -- and boy is she sweet. Everything fell into place like melted butter - and wouldn't of - had I not changed my thought process.

Once you replace negative thoughts with positive ones, you’ll start having positive results. - Willie Nelson

How does one change it? This is something important to do as once your outlook is better - so will your life.

1) Sit quietly and discover and nasty, lurking thoughts or ideals -- no matter if it is fear, anger, or jealously.

2) Acknowledge it/them - take responsibility for it/them (that's the hard part).

3) Then let it/them go. Some like to write the negative thoughts down and then burn them. As the paper/thoughts burn, it is a way to release them (this is how I do it).

4) Sit in silence and meditate for a few moments and come up three positive thoughts and/or goals for today, and three totally out-there wild hopes for the future. Give yourself permission to smile freely.

5) Pick the one thing you dread doing today- for example washing the dog - and instead if thinking how hard and messy it will be to clean Rover, think of how great it will be to hug him when he smells nice and clean. Smile again.

And it really is as simple as that. Give it a test run for two weeks. If your life hasn't improved, then go back to your grumbling ways:)

BTW -- I am sooo behind in emails that it's stupid. Please be patient.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)