I'm My Own Narc!
My book on Kyra keeps dancing through my mind today. With all of the other things I have going on - I'm surprised this is as persistent as it is. But all day, ever since I woke up it has been right there in my mind. Maybe there is a huge chunk of me saying - alright already -- it's been 13 years -- write the damn book! I must admit -- that is pretty sad. Maybe once I'm done with this screenwriting class I might take a class that forces me to write a novel. Oh wait -- I have been in such a class -- for 10 years. Yeah - just like college I am a forever senior. See how bad I am -- and I tell my clients not to procrastinate so much!
Let me think about this -- what is standing in my way time wise to writing the darn novel? My gypsy magic dream book -- yes I know -- I know--it should of been done last year -- and it's almost there! And what else? The screenwriting class - which should of been done this week looks like it is going on till my b-day in May. What else fuels my level of procrastination? Sleep, LOST, The L Word, 4 blogs, a column, a podcast, a daily horoscope and very soon -- a serial story and a couple of monthly erotica commitments. And oh yes -- readings, classes and workshops -- a husband, a son five cats and two dogs. I wonder if I can suck my whole family in to really beef it up?
I suck.
And I've been doing enough readings over the years that I know the excuses.
Pathetic -- simply pathetic. Maybe by narc-ing on myself it will fuel my drive....humm...yes, I think narc-ing is a wonderful idea.
I've tried all day to do a session. But when I start to get into one, all I see is white - for as long as the eye can see. It's everywhere and that is all I can see - the white. No sounds, no color, no people, no words, no nothing. It's very odd because something normally comes up. What it reminds me of is a clean slate, That things have been written yet so that they are within my control. It all depends if I zig or zag. It could have something to do wit the Kyra saga. If I start to outline now - things will go a certain way - if I don't - then I take a different path. I'm at one of those junctures. I can hear a bell going off inside my head. Guides - why do the smart asses always find me:) So that's it -- I need to outline now -- before LOST comes on. One look at Sawyer and I could lose my train of thought!
Okay - I have an hour -- let's see what I can get done!
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)
Let me think about this -- what is standing in my way time wise to writing the darn novel? My gypsy magic dream book -- yes I know -- I know--it should of been done last year -- and it's almost there! And what else? The screenwriting class - which should of been done this week looks like it is going on till my b-day in May. What else fuels my level of procrastination? Sleep, LOST, The L Word, 4 blogs, a column, a podcast, a daily horoscope and very soon -- a serial story and a couple of monthly erotica commitments. And oh yes -- readings, classes and workshops -- a husband, a son five cats and two dogs. I wonder if I can suck my whole family in to really beef it up?
I suck.
And I've been doing enough readings over the years that I know the excuses.
Pathetic -- simply pathetic. Maybe by narc-ing on myself it will fuel my drive....humm...yes, I think narc-ing is a wonderful idea.
I've tried all day to do a session. But when I start to get into one, all I see is white - for as long as the eye can see. It's everywhere and that is all I can see - the white. No sounds, no color, no people, no words, no nothing. It's very odd because something normally comes up. What it reminds me of is a clean slate, That things have been written yet so that they are within my control. It all depends if I zig or zag. It could have something to do wit the Kyra saga. If I start to outline now - things will go a certain way - if I don't - then I take a different path. I'm at one of those junctures. I can hear a bell going off inside my head. Guides - why do the smart asses always find me:) So that's it -- I need to outline now -- before LOST comes on. One look at Sawyer and I could lose my train of thought!
Okay - I have an hour -- let's see what I can get done!
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)
Labels: Kyra, Spirit Guides
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