Allie Continues On From Last Night...

I want to add something to last night entry. I may be dateless and broke right now (like I was many years ago and it was a dark period for me) but this time I am much more mature and spiritually advanced. This is why when this tough streak has hit me now, I am much more open to it and can see the light. Granted - being a Taurus - I had a huge problem at the start of the big life change -- but once I got over the hump (which was telling my husband I knew about his Swedish tart) everything was a hell of a lot easier - which you could tell not only by my podcasts but by what blog entries I wrote as well.

So being more spiritually advanced now then when I was 23 (thankfully), I am fully embracing the rebirth of myself. I like starting over - to let me come out and be who I am. My ex never liked what I did for a living (except the erotica - go figure) so I was always told to hush up and if anyone asked what I did for a living -- just tell them that I'm a writer. Well since he moved out - I tell people what I do (if they ask) besides writing and it feels great. If they give me the sign of the cross and run the other way -- fine by me.

So I just wanted to add that bit in here - that even though I am as I was back when I was 23 (but I now have much more responsibilities) - broke and dateless -- I feel alive, free and happy.

Strangely though, speaking of the ex's Swedish tart -- she keeps coming to this blog and reading -- even though she knows my ex moved out and we're pushing through with the divorce. So why would she still want to read about me? Hummm.......maybe to see if I would get back with the ex -- trust me , there's not a chance in hell of that. Once an ex is an ex in my book - they stay that way. Could she be looking to see if I'm miserable and therefore a way to make her feel better? Sorry dear -- I'm happier now than I've ever been. Could I block the tart from my site? Sure I could -- but then she and the ex couldn't see how much better I'm doing without him:) Doing better after someone leaves is always the sweetest revenge -- don't you think?

I did put myself on a dating site for a couple of weeks just to see if anyone would bite -- and crap yeah they did. These guys were great for my ego -- but it got to be too much work and quite frankly - I really am not that interested in dating right now. Well, there is one guy I wouldn't mind getting to know better - but right now our timing is off. If it's supposed to happen it will - right?

Okay - well today is the last of my son's birthday parties -- it's the kid party. I hope the kids show up who said they were going to show.

Time to go write the horoscope and a few other items.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)