Happy Non-Anniversary To Me!
Had I still been in my marriage (and technically I am until Sept 19th - next Wed), today would have been our 11th anniversary. I treated myself today - went and got a massage, cut and perm -- and tonight I'm going to take myself to see a movie. I have decided to celebrate this day from now on for the sheer fact that I don't have to celebrate it. Make sense? Well, in my brain it does - so it's my story and I'm sticking to it.
Of course I woke up pissed off. Not because he's not here any more - but because he dropped our son like a hot potato. With his gf and her group of kids - he has simply stopped seeing our son. He doesn't call during the week or stop by to visit. If he gets him on a weekend, it's because I've set it up - not because he wanted it. The visitation I left very open so that he could see our son whenever he wanted to -- I thought that it was important for him to keep an ongoing relationship with his son. Too bad he doesn't feel the same. He's missing out on a great kid.
It was nice to feel Will today. He's been here quite a bit today - I think that he finally said "screw it" in regards to Bill and just pushed right through. Will's acting like a kid who is about to be let lose in a candy store. He's so excited for me to make contact. Me -- I'm trying to make things sound okay and that I don't sound like an idiot. I get butterflies in my tummy with just the thought that it's very possible in just over a month's time - Will and I can be in physical contact with one another. Edward and Merlin say it's a done deal - all I have to do is send the piece of paper. Heck - Edward tells me that I could put "Call Me" on the paper and my phone number - the odds of him calling are a certainty no matter what I write. But since Will is an intelligent individual - I am very picky on what I write.
Ted said a very heart-felt "thank you" for yesterday's energy burst.
Bill is well - sitting back and simply smiling.
All is good in Allie's world. I'm busy - behind in everything - my email has taken on a life of its own -- but I'm good.
Off to go get my son:)
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)
Of course I woke up pissed off. Not because he's not here any more - but because he dropped our son like a hot potato. With his gf and her group of kids - he has simply stopped seeing our son. He doesn't call during the week or stop by to visit. If he gets him on a weekend, it's because I've set it up - not because he wanted it. The visitation I left very open so that he could see our son whenever he wanted to -- I thought that it was important for him to keep an ongoing relationship with his son. Too bad he doesn't feel the same. He's missing out on a great kid.
It was nice to feel Will today. He's been here quite a bit today - I think that he finally said "screw it" in regards to Bill and just pushed right through. Will's acting like a kid who is about to be let lose in a candy store. He's so excited for me to make contact. Me -- I'm trying to make things sound okay and that I don't sound like an idiot. I get butterflies in my tummy with just the thought that it's very possible in just over a month's time - Will and I can be in physical contact with one another. Edward and Merlin say it's a done deal - all I have to do is send the piece of paper. Heck - Edward tells me that I could put "Call Me" on the paper and my phone number - the odds of him calling are a certainty no matter what I write. But since Will is an intelligent individual - I am very picky on what I write.
Ted said a very heart-felt "thank you" for yesterday's energy burst.
Bill is well - sitting back and simply smiling.
All is good in Allie's world. I'm busy - behind in everything - my email has taken on a life of its own -- but I'm good.
Off to go get my son:)
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)
Labels: Allie, Bill, Ted, Will
posted by Allie @ 3:42 PM
1 Comments:
At 7:41 PM,
Pearl Chin said…
You ex is an idiot and immature and missing out. Your son is going to feel bad that somehow he's done something wrong to warrant this abandonment but he hasn't. Good riddance on the ex but all you can do is tell your son that everyone makes mistakes, even fathers, and tell your son to forgive your ex and carry on without him because one day he's going to regret not having had a relationship with your son in the future and it could be many years from now. Good for you for treating yourself. You deserve it. You have to love yourself first before you can love someone else! Happy ex-anniversary and Happy Divorce! It is a time for celebration, because now you are free to be with Bill! Pearl
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