Jessie Davis, Psychic Interpretation And An Easy Night!

They found Jessie and her baby - both dead. In Cuyahoga Valley Parks, a place I used to go to all the time. I'm relieved that I wasn't right about the quarry - but I'm very upset that they found her and the baby dead. In case you didn't hear, they arrested the boyfriend - that Cutts guy - today. I still do not think he was the one inside of the house. Who ever it was - I hope they get them too and string them both up to die a slow and painful death. I'm not sure why I kept seeing water and rocks when I saw her -- they found her in the woods. Being psychic isn't an exact science - but I sure wish it was. It isn't like you see on TV in Medium or in the Ghost Whisper. Most times it's just fragments of things, pieces or flashes of an image that you have to interpret and piece together. When I do a reading for someone, I tell them what I see and leave part of the interpretation up to them. If I see a red ball of yarn, I would have no clue what that would mean - but my client might.

I heard Jessie last night wanting to know why her mother couldn't hear her -- she was trying to tell her what happened. I told her to go to her 2 year old son and talk to him -- kids are not programmed to NOT hear the deceased or guides/angels. They talk to them just like two adults talk in the physical world. I hope she listened and is there with her son.

What a day, I'm drained. My son is on his 1st sleep over tonight at his friend's house. I hope it goes well:) I think that my big action tonight will be getting an outline down for the OBE book and maybe I'll actually read a book for a change. I used to read all the time - every night before I went to sleep - but I stopped do to how busy I am. By the time I go to bed I'm too tired to read. I need to change that!

I'm looking forward to having some sweet dreams tonight.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Jessie Davis, My Divorce And Manifestation!

Tracey and I will not be doing sessions for a while. Her mother is building a healing center in CA (which is fabo) and she'll be helping her mother get set up. So maybe in 2008 we can start up again.

I keep hearing my guide Ethan telling me not to stop writing. Write-write-write he says -- but when I try nothing comes out. I'm not used to writer's block, so this is yet something new for me to work through. But I have to as I think when I write more my mind will not drift to things that piss me off:)

For some reason I keep seeing me with a police officer. Not getting in trouble or anything, but it seems like flirtation and a date. I do not know any police officers, so I'm not sure where this is coming from. But it'll be interesting to see if anything comes of it. I'm all for a date:) Heck, I haven't dated in 15 years. LOL! I hope I remember how.

I haven't been sleeping well lately. And no - it has nothing to do with the divorce as I'm fine with that. There's a girl here in Ohio that is nine months pregnant and missing. Maybe you've heard of her -- her name is Jessie Davis. The main suspect, or so it seems, is the father of her baby - a married police officer named Bobby Cutts Jr. But I don't think he had anything to do with the woman's disappearance for her 2 year old (who he is also the father of) was left at the home and was found two days later by Jessie's mother - fine - but in very soiled diapers. Although the man does have a host of problems and I can certainly see why he is a suspect. But - the toddler hasn't said a thing about daddy being there when his mom disappeard - nothing. I think that he can be involved indirectly - by saying something to the wrong person - but as much as I want to think that he did it, I can't.

Then there was a newborn baby girl (Jessie is due to have a baby girl) that showed up here outside of Wooster on the doorstep of someone in a wicker basket. They are doing DNA tests on the baby to see if she is Jessie's. The baby is white - Jessie's other child is mixed as she is white and the father is black.

I can see Jessie on a bed, crying - begging for them to leave her alone. Then I can see her wrapped up in the comforter at the bottom of a lake. It's very disturbing and it has been keeping me up every night. So last night I did send a tip in to the Stark County Sheriff office saying that I think she is in the quarry off of Fromes Ave NE - and who I think is more involved than the baby's father. But I know how law enforcement views psychics and I swear -- I really pray with everything in me that I'm wrong. I really - really want to be wrong. I'm very good at what I do - but now I want to be piss poor and have it all wrong. My mother's house is right in between the boyfriend's house and Jessie's.

Any ways - I hope that they find the Jessie and it would be nice if all of you could send light and energy to Jessie, her family, to the thousands of people who are looking for her and her 2 year old son.

Back to my divorce. Things are moving along. My husband was served his papers yesterday and he will be out of my house right after our son's birthday (which is July 1st). I'm doing much-much better with this as I know that I will be just fine and in fact improve in every shape way and form after he is out of the house and I can cleanse the house of its negativity. I really am looking forward to being single. It's been a long time and I will like not having to share my nice king size water bed:) Or not having to worry about anyone but me and my son (and animals).

And I am trying really hard on forgiveness. I know that this is something that I have to do in order to be able to move on and be happy. Not an easy task. But If I can handle sleeping in the same bed with my husband for almost 2 months with knowing what I knew and not blowing a gasket - I think that I can do just about anything:)

I do plan on heading back out to CA in Sept -- hopefully to run into Bill once again. I don't have any dates yet for it -- but once things are settled I'll let you know.

I've also been trying to work out a outline for my OBE book - but writer's block is getting in my way. In case you haven't checked out the OBE (dream sex, astral sex and telepathic sex) blog you should: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/outofbodyecstasy/index.html and if you would like to contribute to the blog - either on a reg basis or if you want to just email me a story and I'll submit it -- please -- let me know.

My dreams have been really funky lately -- but I've been a bad girl and am just rolling over and going back to sleep instead of writing them down and by the time I'm awake in the morning I only remember fleeting moments.

I wanted to give myself a Rune reading to see what cycle I'm in. I drew:

Present Situation: Laguz (Flow): Flow, water, sea, a fertility source, the healing power of renewal. Life energy and organic growth. Imagination and psychic matters. Dreams, fantasies, mysteries, the unknown, the hidden, the deep, the underworld. Success in travel or acquisition, but with the possibility of loss.

Attitude to take: Perth (Initiation): Uncertain meaning, a secret matter, a mystery, hidden things and occult abilities. Initiation, knowledge of one's destiny, knowledge of future matters, determining the future or your path. Pertaining to things feminine, feminine mysteries including female fertility, and vagina. Good lot, fellowship and joy. Evolutionary change.

Consequence of attitude taken: Algiz (Protection): Protection, a shield. The protective urge to shelter oneself or others. Defense, warding off of evil, shield, guardian. Connection with the gods, awakening, higher life. It can be used to channel energies appropriately. Follow your instincts. Keep hold of success or maintain a position won or earned.

The above all makes complete sense with what I am currently going through and what I think will happen in the upcoming year.

I had a chat with my intuitive friend Sky today and she was really driving home that my powers of manifestation are incredibly strong right now and will grow as soon as my husband moves out. So I have to be very careful what I am thinking about. All I know is that between what Sky said today and the above rune reading - I'm pretty damn pleased with the path my life is taking. I wonder if Bill, Ted and Will will be able to feel my manifestation powers at work:)

Off to find my son some birthday presents - hard to believe he'll be 7 in just over a week!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Update On Allie's Big Life Change!

This past weekend was rather surreal. What's been going on with me is that I found out upon my return from ARK, that my husband was cheating on me and now we're getting divorced. I'm thinking it's his guilt talking, but he's not fighting me on a thing. So with this uncontested divorce I will be single by the time my son starts school! YEAH! The guy is still lying to me and is thinking he is getting away with it -- SIGH -- if I hadn't foiled his plans he was going to walk out of the house in Aug to go to "work" and instead hop a plane to Sweden, leaving my son and I high, dry and screwed. What kind of father leaves his son without any support, ins. and basically says - oh well? My son does not deserve that treatment. Leaving me is one thing -- I say don't let the door hit you in the ass - but our son? Who worships his father? It's unforgivable. Oh, and yeah, his Swedish ^%$# Katarina J (yes I know her last name, email and phone number -- boy they are tempting to post), reads this blog -- but I don't care. She has 2 kids too that she's dumping with her ex (she is in the process of a divorce too - big surprise) to run away and get married to my ex! She and my soon-to-be ex deserve one another. And I deserve to be happy -- and I will! The reason this all hit me for a loop is that I'm a Taurus through and through -- change in my routine, my life, upsets the hell out of me -- even if it is something I want. Plus, I couldn't get over the sheer fact that he was this stupid and had the nerve to think I was.

So we discussed things this past weekend, told him everything I knew and that I filed for a divorce. I'd been living with him for 1 1/2 months knowing what I know and not saying anything. Why? Because I had a series of dreams the week before I found all this out and in the dreams he is on the computer typing to the bimbo and I had enough -- I told him as much and kicked him out. But -- as soon as I did that - a feeling of dread came over me -- how was I going to support my son and I - not to manage all the animals? So when things were discovered I kept my cool as well as I could. And it is paying off. He'll be out of the house in a couple of weeks and I even told him that I'd help him pack in order to speed up the process.

Now you know what the donation button is for and why this is such a huge life change. Since I have to support my son, me and the animals from this moment on - I would appreciate it if you guys kept being my psychic pimp and referred me out to your friends and family - thanks!

I've been told many times that the hold up with Bill and Ted was with me still being married. Well - this is no longer a problem, now is it? I'm ready for the next phase in my life -- bring it on!

I don't know who has been spending more time with me energy wise - Bill or Ted. They are around a lot these last few days. It's been nice to feel their presence. In fact, I can feel Bill right now, behind me, tickling my neck. The rascal:)

I'm being very precise in my magical journal what I want in life. If you remember (and maybe you don't cause it's been a while) - Merlin wanted me to keep a manifestation journal since I have the gift of manifestation or projecting -- however you want to see it. I haven't really done one all the way because of prying eyes in the household. Well, it isn't something I have to worry about anylonger so I'm writing in it. I'm writing everything positive I want - not one negative comment. Last week I could feel another shift in my life - before the hubby and I talked about the divorce - I can feel a bigger shift coming - one that is huge and will take me further down the path I am meant to travel.

It's all very exciting -- isn't it??

I did do the podcast today - hours ago - but for some reason I can't get it post. Will work more on it later.

And on that note I have to run.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will's Birthday And OBE Sex!

Before I do anything else, I want to wish Will a happy birthday wherever he is! Happy Birthday Will!!!

I finally have the OBE sex web page done and the blog! Of course the blog is empty right now until myself and others contribute to the content. But heck - it's still there and you can sign up for the RSS notification on when it's updated!

OBE page: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/out_of_body_ecstasy.htm

OBE blog: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/outofbodyecstasy/index.html

If any of you want to be an author on the new blog - let me know!

Now it's time to get a move on the book:) I already traded services with a kick butt editor and my sis will lay it out again and do the cover design.

So write-write-write Allie!

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Magic Room, Will And Sex Magic!

Why is it when I don't post to the blog is when I get the most visitors? Can anyone tell me that? It isn't a fluke - it happens every time when I don't post for 3 days or more. Very very odd.

So after being busy, sick and having my niece be born -- now the heat is kicking my ass. The humidity is something horrible and it has been putting me to sleep every afternoon. I just can't stay awake. Today I had a couple of morning appointments, a couple of readings early afternoon and then I laid down. 3 hours later I woke up. I went and got my son, made dinner, did things around the house and here I am. Dang if it isn't still too fricken hot.

Okay - what's been going on here? You may remember last week when I wanted to auction off my bod on The L Word for a good cause. No really - I did - for breast cancer research. But what I wanted and what actually happened were 2 separate things. Thursday at the date auction on the L word - my avatar kept freezing. Then it started dancing and no one could get it to stop! Then Friday - even though I was in the right group and I knew how to get in that booth - Second Life (the virtual world where the L word is located) wouldn't allow me in the kissing booth :( And then I froze again. So -- like Thursday I said forget it. SIGH. Oh well, I'll try again next year!

My dream visit with Ted Sunday night/Monday morning was located at the same spot of another dream visit with him last month (or maybe a few months ago) where we were in what reminds me of a lunch room with long tables - lots of people - and Bill was there too at the opposite end of the room were Ted and I were sitting. I wanted to go and talk to Bill, but every time I tried, Ted talked me out of it. Ted was very loving, very smooth and knew exactly what to say to get me to stay. But I had this nagging feeling that I had to talk to Bill and I felt Bill's gaze on me. When I looked to see if he was looking, he of course was not.

Somehow I ended up at the same spot as Bill and asked him what was going on. He told me to get back to Ted. I asked why? And why wasn't he sitting with us? Bill replied that the two of them didn't see eye to eye. On what - I ask? On you, he said. What in the hell is there to fight about?

Bill said that Ted wants to break their deal and talk to me now instead of waiting for Bill to contact me first. And -- Ted refuses to step back and let me be with Bill.

I shook my head. I thought you two have grown up by now. You'd think since you've been around since the start of time you would have found some common sense. No one is going to "let" me do anything. I will do what I want. Neither of you control me - I control me.

With that I was back with Ted. He asked where I've been and I told him I was talking to Bill. He clenched his jaw. I gave him a kiss and told him I'd talk to him later. Before he could say anything - I woke up.

Now for some reason Tracy was MIA today for our session. As soon as the session started I was taken into my magic room in the castle. Sitting there waiting for me was Will. I looked around and asked where's Merlin? Will replied that Merlin was here but he wanted the two of us to become more familiar with the room on our own.

Will went to a very large bookcase and picked up some reading material. I wandered over to a large cylinder container that was in the floor. It was made of stone with many crystals, lapis, amethyst. emerald, ruby, sapphire and diamonds (all rough stones) embedded throughout the structure. I looked inside and it was full of water. I took my finger and swirled the water around several times to get a small whirlpool going. What I saw in the center of it was me, Bill and Ted sitting in an outdoor cafe or pub with pints of beer - laughing about something. The images took my breath away from a second and upset my stomach like I just went down the 1st hill of a rollercoaster.

Will asked me what was wrong and I told him what happened. He asked me if I cast a spell in it yet and I told him no. He told me to give it a try. I found rose petals, patchouly and orris root. I said a few words about Bill, Ted and I as I sprinkled the rose petals into the water. Next I placed the patchouly in while commenting on careers and money - lastly the orris root to draw all three of us together as well as the items I asked for. I then took my finger and swirled the water around to make a strong whirlpool. As the herbs went around and around - there was a great amount of energy that cam out of this cylinder. The water turned pure white and then back to normal. All the herbs were gone and the water was calm.

Will called to me with excitement in his voice. I hurried over and he showed me this book with two drawing of almost a perfect images of he and I. With something like the founders or something similar - I can't remember - under our pictures. But I asked what book he was reading and he said a book on sex magic. I'm like - WHAT? We're the pioneers of sex magic? He shrugged and said looked that way. Want to find out what we can remember of that time (he asked with a naughty grin on his face)? I told him I can't stay that long - too much to do.

And with that I ended it.

LOL - no wonder I like sex:) Hahaha -- too funny. Really does fit with me writing the OBE book, web page and blog (web page is almost done).

Speaking of the OBE sex blog -- it is going to be written by more people than just me. If you are interested in being a contributing writer, email me at:
allie @ gypsyadvice . com (without the spaces of course). I'm only going to picked a limited number of people to do this with me so if you want to - let me know now:)

Off to sleep I go.

Sweet dreams!
Allie ;)

Small Update!

Hi Everyone!

Friday - Sunday I had the flu - compliments of my son:) Today - my niece was born! She's a beautiful 7lb 11 oz born at 11:51 on June 11th. Her big sis was born on May 11th (2004) so at least I'll never forget the birthday!

Mom and the baby are doing great. I was so proud of my little sis -- she did this all natural - no drugs at all. More power to her:)

I just got back home. I'm tired:) But happy.

Tomorrow I will post in the blog and also do the podcast!

I had a wonderous visit with Ted last night and I'll tell you about it tomorrow.

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Information Overload, A Magic Room And Alison Ashby!

I'm running way behind today. I had an important meeting that lasted a few hours and before that I needed to make sure I was set for it before I did my session. I sat with my healing wand and was taken to a very bright light. In that light I saw Bill and Will. I asked where have they been? They both answer - working! I asked why are they here. They don't know - they were summoned to be here for support. Where's Ted - I ask. No one seems to know as he was summoned too.

A blinding light comes before us. It is swirling horizontally. From it stepped Merlin, Brigit, Ethan and Jesus. I was immediately put on guard. I asked what did I do? Ethan comes forth and said that I had done nothing wrong. That it was time for me to see something for me to believe in me. I asked about the people coming into and out of my life recently. What is the purpose of it? Ethan replied that everyone comes and goes when they are supposed to and that I should not try to intellectualize their purpose. I need to roll with the changes and accept them for they are all in my higher good. The people that I am meeting are helping me take that next step - as I am helping them take theirs. It is all that I need to know.

Ethan, Merlin, Jesus, Brigit step through the light and ask me to come with them. I turn to Bill and Will and they just wave -- see ya! Gee thanks guys.....

So I enter and I exit in a magical room that I have been in before - the one that is in a castle. It has books everywhere - a big wooden table. Candles, jars of herbs, vials of oils and flower essences -- crystal and stones are everywhere.

Merlin speaks up and asks if I remember this room? I tell him yes - I remember it from visiting him here once. He asked if I remember anything else about it - does anything feel familiar to me? I say yes most of it does feel familiar. Brigit asks if I know why that is? I replied from when I was here before and I'm assuming that some of this is familiar from reading about it in books or maybe seeing them in movies.

I am told no - this room is familiar to me because it is my room - my magic room. This where I have come for thousands of years to perform my magic. I do not need the physical objects that human's use on the physical plane. I have always done my best work from the higher planes. I had visited this place before because the powers that be wanted the seed of this place to awaken my gifts. And the gurus that are here all agreed that it has indeed happened.

Brigit grabs my hand and took me to a room off this magic room. It is very long, wooden floor and has many swords, axes and knifes on the walls. She tells me this is where I practiced fighting. Then she took me to another room off of the magic room and this one has a calm glow to it with many crystals -- feel peaceful. She tells me that this is where I go to heal people.

She takes me out to the magic room again - and I must look like a deer caught in the headlights. Jesus steps in and tells me that as a Goddess, I worked magic here with Will - practiced battle with Ted and healed with Bill. As I had 3 sides to me - this is why I had/have three mates. I still rather stood there like a deer in the headlights.

Ethan stepped up and told me again about the OBE sex -- and how it needs done NOW. I just nod my head in agreement.

Merlin pulled me over to the long wooden table and told me to cast a spell. Any spell. So I did do one - on things moving the way I want them to. When I cast the spell, I could feel the electricity move through my physical body -- it was so strange. Then he told me to do one more. And I did about money -- again with the same electric zing through my physical body.

I told them that I've learned too much on this trip and that I wanted to go back home. Information overload. So they bid their farewells and told me to go back through the light. I did and Bill and Will were there. They each told me good bye and I was done.

I really do think that I am getting too much information. Too much for my human mind to grasp. No wonder I'm tired:) But it is food for thought.

The last couple of days Bill has been showing up more. Not all the time - but more often. It's nice to see him. He's a source of comfort. Of course some times he's a source of aggravation -- but it's been a while for that.

If any of you follow me as Alison Ashby in The L Word in Second Life - I'm being auctioned off for a good cause tomorrow (Thursday ) night. Stop by and bid on me and help support the gay and lesbian community:) Info on how to find me is in the side bar:)

I'd better run for now -- too much to do and not much time to get it all done!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE Sex, Bill, Ted, Will And A Goddess!

What a weekend. I got a lot of work done - thank goodness. Although not as much as I needed to get done. But one step at a time:) My sister is still pregnant. We had a false alarm over the weekend -- but that kid is still hanging in there.

I had an intense chat with my guide Ethan and the Goddess Brigit. This chat came about after a friend connected with me - telepathically - to remind me how much strength I have in my soul. How powerful my energy really is and what I can accomplish. When Ethan and Brigit showed up, he disconnected. The chat with these two was very - mind opening and intense. So mind blowing to me that I'm not really sure what to make of the information. It appears that I am a major Goddess that comes back into human form because of love and because mankind does not have the right view of "me". I guess I'm not the type of Goddess/person you would want to piss off:) Now they said which Goddess and all, but I'm not real comfortable talking about which one. As I said - this is hard even for me to swallow. But it makes sense - especially with Ted, Bill and Will and the connections there. And it makes sense with all of the warrior images I have had - and the past lives as Joan of Arc and Cleopatra. I don't know - I don't know - I don't know. I'm supposed to change the view of mankind towards this Goddess/me and finally have the love connections that have been denied. SHRUG. We'll see. I'm sure at some point I'll tell you more -- when I know more.

Now someone asked a question in another blog entry about astral sex and telepathic sex. Isn't there some sort of astral connection during telepathic sex? In short - no. I tried to explain the 3 types of OBE sex below:

Astral/dream sex: To become sexually aroused and engage in energetic sex with another person's energy. In the astral/dream state, energy can be manipulated to a point where it feels and looks like physical body parts are merging -- but they are only energy and not actual physical parts. This can lead to an orgasm in the physical body, although this is rare. In most cases a person would return from their astral travel or wake up from a dream and be so sexual turned on that they would have to take care of it upon waking and it would be a MUST to take care of, this isn't something that you can walk off. If they are involved with a flesh and blood partner - the partner benefits from this astral turn on by engaging in physical sex with their partner.

The biggest difference between astral sex and dream sex is that with astral sex you purposely have your astral body separate from your physical body and you are awake during the act. If you have shifted your consciousness to your astral body and then shift it back when your astral body merges with your physical body - then you will remember a good chunk if not all of the encounter. With dream sex, your astral self parts during your sleeping state and your conscious mind is in a state of rest - that is unless you practice lucid dreaming or as I say dream visits where you are in control of your dream -- then your conscious mind plays a bigger part in the whole experience and you remember more upon awaking.

Telepathic sex: There is no astral body merging in this one. Your brain is your #1 sexual organ. With telepathic sex, you are using your brain power only. Your brain waves connect with another's brain wave in your minds eye you can see and feel the sexual act taking place. Think of this as real-time sex without the physical merging. With telepathic sex, the odds of having an orgasm are very high as none of your energy bodies (astral, mental, emotional - etc...) are separate from your physical body. Can you tell if you make the connection with another person or if it is just a fantasy? Yes you can. How? Just as you can tell with a telepathic communication - you have that zing of energy and a warm flow over your body (other people have been known to get a headache or tremble) when you have that telepathic connection. If this factor is missing in the telepathic sex, then you are simply having a fantasy and not the telepathic sex.

I like to think of telepathic sex as an intense day dream. Out of the 3 - I like telepathic sex the best - only because you can have a real-time orgasm:) And - you can remember the most if not all of the encounter.

I asked Tracey a couple of weeks ago if Bill, Ted and Will could feel what's going on with me. If they are conscious of the changes in my life? This was her reply:

Bill is very sensitive to your emotions and he is feeling the depth of sadness within you and it is affecting him physically and manifesting in chest pains, and troubling sleeping, some depression, and cold like symptoms, tiredness. These are not conscious thought. He is journaling his experiences on the astral, and dreams, vivid visions and meditation experiences. He is writing his experiences formulating them into something that will be of importance or interest later as in he will share these with you. He seems to be trying hard to reach out to you but he feels that you are responding to him. He seems to be able to meet you consciously on the astral plane now, is able to communicate with you and is handling this well, is intrigued by it and trying it perhaps more than you have energy to expend right now. He seems sad when he feels he cannot make a connection to you. His sorrow for you is great. He does not like that your light seems so dim right now. I see that if this continues he may be very angry, almost as if he thinks you are ignoring him or will not let him comfort you.

Ted is totally connected, aware, consciously of your sadness, and the feelings of overwhelm, struggle, anxiety, panic, worry, and feels compelled to help you though feels that he is to stand back at this time. He will only be able to hold out on contacting you until the end of the summer, but he may contact you sooner if you continue to feel this deep fear and worry. Ted does not know how to deal with you being down and out and he wants to relieve your problems, worries, he has a strong urge to fix it, to help you and he does not know how to support you so much in terms of emotionally as he feels a basket case in this area himself, but he knows he can help you on a financial level and I sense that he may try to do this, though is uncertain if you would accept his help. I sense that he knows of a way to get money to you in a way that you will accept the money, and I sense this has to do with a wire transfer or internet transaction directly to you. I hope this makes sense to you in some way.

He believes he can send it in such a way that you may not know paper trail wise that he sent it even though intuitively you may know that he sent it, but either way his desire is that you accept it and continue to work on your writing so that you are in a better position. There is a place inside him that feels you are so strong and independent but are feeling so frail right now and though you are low in spirit he is not sure you would accept his financial help direct so he wants to be sure you get it and this is something he is mapping out in his mind, if you will. Perhaps this is some of the unexpected financial help.

Will and Ted will come into your life in the physical on or around the same time, perhaps together, or within a short time, and this is for a purpose, one that is not being revealed, but perhaps you already know the answer. Part of the purpose is to help you through this situation, not just in way of friendship, emotional support, but also financial support and providing contacts that you need to help you to excel in your aspirations for the future.

There are many feelings stirring within Will and though he is not consciously connecting them to you he is feeling grief, outrage, the sting of betrayal, relating it to a past experience in his own life, and he is wondering why he is thinking about the past, as he has certainly felt over this situation. So, he is in tune with you and your emotions, soulfully, but is not aware of where the feelings are coming from, rather feeling they relate to self.

This helps to explain to me why Ted is always around and why Will and Bill seemed to have just vanished.

Everything will work because it's supposed to - right?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Telepathic Sex And Anger Management!

I have good days and bad days. Yesterday - not so good. Today - bad in the morning and it's getting better as the day goes on. I woke up at 2:15 am last night and I could not go back to sleep. When I finally had a chance to doze off - my son came bouncing in on me. Now the kid is out of school. Yesterday was his last day of Kindergarten and I had to drag him out of bed at 8:00. Today - a day where he could sleep in as he doesn't start day care until Monday - he's up at 6:00 am - shakes head - sometimes I just can't win:) On top of no sleep I am breaking in a new pair of reading/computer glasses - so this is a lot of fun:) It feel like a constant headache right behind my eyes. But at least my brain and my intuition are still working just fine.

Now what woke me up at 2:15 am? Ted. I awoke out of a dream visit with him. We were checking out of a swanky hotel and moving back home -- so it felt like this hotel was our home for a period of time. Then I heard a boom or something and the dream visit was over. So I'm guessing something woke him up -- of course it could have been something on my end too, but he wasn't ready to break that connection yet. Oh no - he wanted to telepathically link - and boy did he.

I'm guessing that he and psycho girlfriend must of split up for good as he has had some major sex on his mind. No big complaints from me - although I would have liked to go back to sleep. He was very much into kissing. And the kissing did not stay at my lips either. He was very hungry, very expressive during this session. He kept saying how tired he was of being apart. Every place he kissed me I could feel an intense heat on my physical body. He was driving me crazy and I kept telling him - abet weakly - that I needed to sleep. When you can feel someone down on your lower half - so to speak - but you "know" that there is no one physically there -- it's maddening. Something clicked then and I turned into the aggressor, which doesn't happen so very often. And by the exclamation in his voice/thoughts - I could tell he was pretty happy with the switch. Now I don't know how exactly I could bring sex toys into the telepathic mix, but I did - a vibrating cock ring to be exact. And BTW -- from personal physical experience - these things really are a gem:) Anyways - it surprised him as much as it did me when all of a sudden it was there. It worked just as well on the OBE plane as it did on the physical plane. Next thing I can remember I was dozing off to sleep - with him saying 'I Love You" in my ear.

Now when I do physically meet Ted later on this year - and this is something that I just "know" will happen, I wonder how I'll act? Will I be cool about it? Will me knees go weak? Will I be able to form complete sentences? What will he do? His reaction? I know that all of these things are in the future and I need to concentrate on the present -- but I like to give it a think every now and again.

It's too damn hot here -- it's supposed to be in the 70's, not 90's. I have a poop load of email I need to get to. So if you've emailed me and you are waiting for a return email - hang in there! As long as my sister does not have that baby this weekend - I should be able to get caught up -- knock on wood:)

Also this weekend I hope to write the Shamanism part of the gypsy magic book and have my part of the book done so that I can move forward with the OBE sex area. It dawned on me either last night or early today that this is what I'll be known for - mostly - my experience with OBE sex - at least in the immediate future. Also how past lives tie into the picture, soul mates/soul circles - etc....eventually I won't be doing readings -- at least as many as I do now or am doing to make ends meet. If you can think of any names I can call the OBE sex part of my site/book/blog let me know. The OBE sex will deal with telepathic, dream and astral sex.

I started to see a shrink today for my anger/anxiety management when it pertains to my life change. I'm not used to being in such a down place more times than not - so I thought it would help along with the low dose of drugs they stuck me on. The guy is great. He's a psychologist who is spiritually advanced and doesn't look down on what I do for a living ( a rarity in Amish hell - trust me). We discussed things today and concluded that strength wise - self-esteem wise I'm tops. What I need to do is to remember how to relax. So we're going to work on a guided mediation once a week for the next 4 weeks. My 1st thought when he introduced himself was - one of his purposes in this life is to have me stay on my path. I know that sounds a bit selfish (or maybe I just think it does) - but that's/I'm one of his main reason's he got into the field he did and how we both ended up in Wooster Ohio. It was cool to realize that from the get go:) The Divine is placing all the tools/people I need in my path for me to continue forward. And for that I am very grateful.

Another thunderstorm is on the way -- maybe this time it will cool things down!

Talk to you later.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)