Tonight's Radio Show, My Lackluster Love Life And My Son!

You guys are a great bunch of readers. Thanks for all of the uplifting and comforting emails about my son, all of the stuff we're dealing with and Will. I'm too swamped to reply to everyone who has emailed me - but I've read all of the emails and they meant the world to me - so thank you.

Speaking of email - the back log is frightening.

His teacher called this morning - I was doing a reading and couldn't answer. She didn't leave a message, so whatever it was it's not earth shattering. A week 1/2 till NYC -- my son is so excited - I think more than me, although I'm dreaming about pizza and cheesecake, so I doubt it:) For my b-day I want to go to FAO Swartz. That's someplace I've wanted to visit since I was a kid. We'll show up either for storytime or for the piano players - whichever they have on a Friday. Then I think the Central Park Zoo would be fun since our hotel is along side the park. Sat is a good day to catch a museum and maybe the Empire State building. I'm not over planning anything - no buying tickets a head of time so we have to be somewhere. I'm going to see how the days unfold and take it from there.

I've thought more about the home school. And if the kid is still okay with it come July - I'll sign him up. My thought is that this will force me to be more organized and to learn more patience. Plus - I think that it will make me a more effective teacher for workshops. And for travel - I don't have to worry about taking him out of school since we'll take it with us.

I met an interesting fireman last night online. I met him 1st and then found out what he did for a living. My #1 fantasy turn on -- firemen. So -- needless to say I was pretty darn happy about that. Any ways - we were chatting and he asked what I did for a living. I hesitated for a split second and then said I was a writer. In the past when I've come right out and said I was a psychic & a writer - either the guy ran -- or he was intrigued. When they were intrigued, eventually they would find my web site -- and then my blogs. Then they would run...

So I'm hesitant to say much to this guy as of now. But this got me to thinking -- if I'm to have a meaningful relationship with anyone - it either has to be someone from the blogs or a man who doesn't freak because of what I write. And when I do find someone - and if he is not Will (remember, the man has free will here) - then what happens to what I write - even if he's okay by it? I don't know. Seems to me that to keep a guy longer than a few days, I have to keep this part hidden. But to keep any part of my authentic self hidden is against what I believe. So what do I do? I know - it'll all play out the way it's supposed to. But the whole scenario got me thinking -- if someone from this blog doesn't step up, then how long will I be single? A year? 5 years? 10 years? I remember several intuitive friends (Tracey, Sky and Gabriele) all saying that once I got divorced (they all said this back in 2006 & 2007) that I would be alone for a spell and then get married (not necessarily in the traditional sense) for the final time. But no one could say how long that alone time would be.

Humm... this just all got me to thinking. I'm not bothered by any of it - it was just food for thought last night as I was drifting off to sleep. I'm pretty comfortable in knowing that what is supposed to happen will happen -- so I just go about my daily routine.

Speaking of which - I will be on Blog Talk Radio tonight with Phil Harris: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/pharris from 8:00 pm - 9:00 pm EST. I pray that my son lets me get through this with as little guff as possible.

Writing is going slow - but is is moving on this next draft of DREAMERS.

Off to get the kid!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)