Where Do I Begin?

This week has been well -- a learning experience to put it mildly. My son's pediatrician called me and asked me if I knew about the letter that he got from the school. I said that yes, I knew that they were sending one out. But have you read it? The Dr. asked (mind you this man has never called my house). I said no - I had not. He said - well I'll have my nurse make a copy - you really should read it. Okay - I'll stop down after I take my son to the eye doctor. Fine.

Now at the eye doctor I thought this was going to be a routine examine and he would need glasses. He had complained that he couldn't see the board. But oh no - nothing routine about it. Come to find to that they think he has: Convergence Insufficiency. Which means (doc definition): a sensorimotor anomaly that affects the binocular visual system and is characterized by an inability to adequately coverage or sustain coverage for visual tasks at near. So -- my son has to work 10x as hard to read what is in front of him than the normal child. When I told the doc that he is at a 3rd grade reading level she couldn't believe it. Usually children with this do not like to read and fall way behind. I always knew he was smart:) So -- I have to take him in for a series of tests and then start him on visual therapy.

Moving on...

Stopped at the pediatricians' office and got a copy of the letter. It is two pages of what kind of monster my son is. And I mean monster. Two pages of rotten, horrible things that have been taken grossly out of context and not one kind word about the boy. Labels were stuck all over him without actually putting a label on. I'm not exaggerating at all - I showed this to a few people and they couldn't believe it. The doctor said this was the 1st of its kind in his office in over 40 years of practice. My kid's an empath with a heightened sense of awareness. But no one here gets that. So......just to rule out that his brain isn't @ucked up - now he has to go see a neurologist for a consult. If it warrants it - then testing. But I am really going to have to be convinced before any tests are run.

SIGH. Which brings me to...

School. I don't want him to go back there. If that is how they view my boy - the hell with them. I talked to my son about home school. He jumped all over it. In fact - he's been wanting me to do that since Kindergarten. I told him that he wouldn't see his friends at school. He said mom, you're my only friend. That broke my heart. Then he launched in to how the kids make fun of him and call him weird. We all know how cruel children can be -- and my son is ultra sensitive - doesn't help him being a Cancer. So I looked into home schooling and discovered that Ohio has a public school online. It's a virtual public charter school. It costs me nothing - and they send the school books, supplies and a computer if we needed it. Plus he has teachers online and I would be a teacher assistant. This follows the K12 program which is supposed to be top notch.

Last year Tracey did a reading for me which in it said that once Will was in our lives that my son would not be learning in a conventional manner. It doesn't matter where in the world we are located - we just have to log into the computer on a school day before 11:59 pm to complete the assignments. So for traveling - this is great.

But how do I take care of my home, animals, child, myself - everything that is involved there - plus work and home school? I'm going to lose my mind. I'm strong, I can do a lot -- but I'm not sure if this is over the top or not. But what I do know for my son's sake is that I have to try to make it work. My ex about had a cow when I told him about everything including the home school. I'm like - it really doesn't matter what you think because you don't do anything anyways!

Like little league starts on Saturday. My son is sooooooo excited. My ex is supposed to take him. Well, wouldn't you know him and his GF are going away for the weekend. So I'm taking him and the kid is heartbroken -- again.

If there was ever a time for Will to pick up that phone - this would be it. I could really use a pair of shoulders right now. Mine are too heavy and tense to move. Really - really could use that shoulder.

So that's that for now.

On May 11th I'm going to now be in Detroit at the hoedown:) Maria Shaw is having a booth there and several of us readers are showing up to do well -- readings. I wonder if I'll remember to eat between 11 am - 7 pm? LOL. I need to find a place to crash Sat night - any suggestions for a safe and economical place in Detroit?

I have been experimenting the last couple of weeks with vitamins and specifically with calcium. Calcium "600" (from oyster shell; Vit D3 - 600 IU, Calcium - 1200 mg & Sodium - 15 mg) made by Solgar. I have found that if I take the correct dosage (2 pills) right before I go to bed - my dreams are much more lucid AND I remember them better. Much...MUCH better.

Now yesterday (April 17) was Ted's 49th birthday. In 20 years I haven't forgotten his birthday until yesterday. It dawned on me before I went to bed. Luckily for me, I had a chance to make it up in the Dreamscape: Ted and his wife were sitting at a round table with a white table cloth enjoying a birthday dinner. He kept looking at me and vice versa. Finally he came over and introduced himself and asked if we knew one another - I said of course we do. He said how? I told him to think about it for a bit - that door has closed on him and he needs to think about it in order for it to reopen. He went back to his table and talked to his wife - she glared at me (oh please). I could tell he was really thinking about it and it dawned on him -- a "oh shit" moment. I took that moment to go introduce myself to his wife and to assure her that I was no threat to her marriage. I'm not meant for Ted - at least not now.

She bitched about something and was getting really drunk. He told me to wait at my table and he would be back. I assume that he put her in bed at a hotel - because it didn't take long and he was back. He really looked good. His hair was really light - he was tan, the hair came down to his shoulders - almost. He was scruffy and he just looked soooooo good. Anyways - so I told him happy birthday and that I was sorry I forgot. He smiled and said that was alright - he had forgotten everything about me - about us - until now. He wanted me to walk with him...so we go outside.

Walking through what reminded me of a royal garden - he looked at me and asked - who's left? I replied - Bill, we need Bill. He kind of frowns and I say - Ted -- you're the only one he'll take a call from. He nods and goes on with -- tell me more about our soul cluster. So I fill him in on me, him, Bill and Will. He asked where Will was -- I told him that I'm working on it. He smiled and said - lucky bastard. I asked - if you can help out from this side of the dimensions - I'd appreciate it. He said - I'll see what I can do.

The visit was very light hearted and friendly. We talked and we talked about past lives, soul clusters - he and I - he and Bill, me and Will and so forth. Finally I told him that I had to go to the bathroom. He said - you'd better wake up and go then. I said - but I don't want this to end. He said - no worries, we'll do this again and now I won't let anyone make me forget about this. He kissed me on the forehead and said - I love you Allie - now go pee. He chuckled at that last part and I woke up. And sure enough - I had to go - in a hurry too.

He was so tense around his wife - and so much at ease around me. It was sure nice to be with him again. I hope he's right and that we'll have another dream visit soon.

Back to work I go! I hope next week is more of a move forward week - with little stress instead of one with learning experiences! Because of the week I've had -- I am wayyyyy behind in email- just to let you know.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)