Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)