Maria Shaw, Vincent And Discoveries!
What a day! The Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com went great. I think that I was on for an hour - from 9:30 - 10:30. As always - I love chatting with those guys and tag teaming with Maria on callers. I felt though, like I was being tested today for some reason. I can't quite put my finger on it -- but it felt like a test. After my time was done I thought to myself that I should of pushed harder to finish my thoughts on some of the callers. I hate talking over Maria (it's rude) and interrupting her (still rude) so when she moved forward - I just moved with her without saying everything I wanted to say. Oh well - if it was a test I hope I didn't flunk:)
Even though Mercury is in Retrograde - I still managed to get my wireless fixed. I had to pat myself of the back for that one. I made the mistake of calling support. HA! A new bra would have given me more support than the support staff could - sheesh! I finally said - screw it - and fixed it myself. Dog-gone-it-all!
I have to talk about Vincent tonight - and I mean actually TALK about him. What I wanted to do initially was just call someone up (who knows about Vincent) and just chat about him. I need to talk - talk - talk.....it's like I'm going to burst if I don't get a chance to get out all of the discoveries I've been making. Sure - writing down helps - but things fly at me with such speed that my fingers can't keep up and I keep forgetting things. So then Andrew said for me to talk and record it - make it into one of those podcast things - he said. Okay - although I'm not sure who would want to listen to me go on about Vincent - but I know that Will will show up as well as George, Bill and Ted. Seems like I have a lot of things to say - I just hope I remember what they all are once I start talking. LOL.
Today Vincent's energy has been VERY intense - and I mean heart-pounding intense. It was like he was in my body - if that makes any sense. Will did this several times to me over the last couple of years - step in - so to speak. But with Vincent - the feeling is different. There's the high energy aspect that is the same - along with insatiable sexual urges. But the real difference comes in with Will there was also fear - with Vincent, there's no fear, but loneliness. Like a soul in search of that missing piece. As I'm thinking back - Bill's difference was a judgment energy while Ted had sadness. When any of the guys do this - I have a hell of a time thinking about anything else besides them. Today I tried to keep breaking that lock by watching - you guessed it - 30 Rock.
One of the things I discovered today - was that back in the 1600's - Vincent, me and Andrew were the best of friends. Feels like Andrew was my brother - and Vincent was his best friend - who I married. I keep seeing us, sitting around laughing. It makes perfect sense then why Andrew felt so bad about Vincent and I dying as kids in that 1930's life and the in the 40's.
For the last several days I've been getting chest pains. But every time one comes on - I hear a voice tell me they're not my pains (hell- they feel real enough) but they're Vincent's. Today with his intense energy - my heart would pound so hard it felt like it was coming out of my chest. And I kept hearing Vincent's vice tell me to calm down - take a deep breath, work through the energy. It's his energy that ramps up my heart and he tells me to take a deep breath! But no worries - if it were to feel really bad on my part, I would call 911.
Now that his energy has taken a step back (wow - just felt a warm calm go from head to toe) I'm tired:) So if I don't get to the vocal part tonight - I will tomorrow. I still need to go get my shower.
Speaking of shower - reminds me of wedding - which is where I will be this weekend. I'll be at the 20th Century Club in Pittsburgh for my cousin's wedding. My son is so excited to stay in a hotel overnight - lol. This is the 1st get together my family has done - that wasn't funeral related - in 7 years. So good times this Sat!
I need to bust some sort of move - providing I don't hurt myself!
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)
Even though Mercury is in Retrograde - I still managed to get my wireless fixed. I had to pat myself of the back for that one. I made the mistake of calling support. HA! A new bra would have given me more support than the support staff could - sheesh! I finally said - screw it - and fixed it myself. Dog-gone-it-all!
I have to talk about Vincent tonight - and I mean actually TALK about him. What I wanted to do initially was just call someone up (who knows about Vincent) and just chat about him. I need to talk - talk - talk.....it's like I'm going to burst if I don't get a chance to get out all of the discoveries I've been making. Sure - writing down helps - but things fly at me with such speed that my fingers can't keep up and I keep forgetting things. So then Andrew said for me to talk and record it - make it into one of those podcast things - he said. Okay - although I'm not sure who would want to listen to me go on about Vincent - but I know that Will will show up as well as George, Bill and Ted. Seems like I have a lot of things to say - I just hope I remember what they all are once I start talking. LOL.
Today Vincent's energy has been VERY intense - and I mean heart-pounding intense. It was like he was in my body - if that makes any sense. Will did this several times to me over the last couple of years - step in - so to speak. But with Vincent - the feeling is different. There's the high energy aspect that is the same - along with insatiable sexual urges. But the real difference comes in with Will there was also fear - with Vincent, there's no fear, but loneliness. Like a soul in search of that missing piece. As I'm thinking back - Bill's difference was a judgment energy while Ted had sadness. When any of the guys do this - I have a hell of a time thinking about anything else besides them. Today I tried to keep breaking that lock by watching - you guessed it - 30 Rock.
One of the things I discovered today - was that back in the 1600's - Vincent, me and Andrew were the best of friends. Feels like Andrew was my brother - and Vincent was his best friend - who I married. I keep seeing us, sitting around laughing. It makes perfect sense then why Andrew felt so bad about Vincent and I dying as kids in that 1930's life and the in the 40's.
For the last several days I've been getting chest pains. But every time one comes on - I hear a voice tell me they're not my pains (hell- they feel real enough) but they're Vincent's. Today with his intense energy - my heart would pound so hard it felt like it was coming out of my chest. And I kept hearing Vincent's vice tell me to calm down - take a deep breath, work through the energy. It's his energy that ramps up my heart and he tells me to take a deep breath! But no worries - if it were to feel really bad on my part, I would call 911.
Now that his energy has taken a step back (wow - just felt a warm calm go from head to toe) I'm tired:) So if I don't get to the vocal part tonight - I will tomorrow. I still need to go get my shower.
Speaking of shower - reminds me of wedding - which is where I will be this weekend. I'll be at the 20th Century Club in Pittsburgh for my cousin's wedding. My son is so excited to stay in a hotel overnight - lol. This is the 1st get together my family has done - that wasn't funeral related - in 7 years. So good times this Sat!
I need to bust some sort of move - providing I don't hurt myself!
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)
Labels: Andrew, Bill, Maria Shaw, Psychiconair, Ted, Vincent, Will
posted by Allie @ 9:26 PM
2 Comments:
At 11:38 AM,
Aunt Jackie said…
That's quite intense! So it seems that things are really brewing with Vincent. "Come on Vinnie call!" lol
Anyways, have fun at the wedding this weekend, it might be a bit like a mini-vaca, or at least the chance to spend with loved ones.
It might not totally help to write all of your feelings out, I understand the need to actually talk to someone and get it out too. That's kind of how I feel about my "B.F.F". She is the only one I feel I can actually just 'tell it all' to, and it always makes me feel the load is lifted.
Still, of course we (your readers) will enjoy reading or listening to any podcast you like to share.
At 11:55 AM,
Samantha Vandefeller said…
I definitely know what you mean about talking to someone. Last night I talked to one of my good psychic friends last night about the whole situation with Z and I feel so much better. The whole situation with Z has had me blocked and today I feel unblocked.
And Aunt Jackie is right, we'll listen :)
Have a great time at the wedding on Saturday! :)
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