Will, My Son And MI!

Wow -- what a couple of days. My son and I had such a good time in NYC. No time for pizza though - but I'm hopeful that I will have a reason to return and stay a few days. Then I'll get my pizza and maybe take in some sights. Right now though, I'm bone tired. But my mind will not stop whirling. I made it to MI a few hours ago for Maria Shaw's convention.

I'll be here in Lansing MI at the Hampton Inn (on Canal) until someday Sunday afternoon. Then it's a 4 1/2 hour drive back home. So say a certain male someone was free after wrapping things up Sat night and flew into Lansing Sunday morning - then it would give us 4 1/2 of uninterrupted time to chat if this person were to drive back to Ohio with me. It's a thought - I plan to leave by 2:00 unless I get a call first. Hey - you never know unless you put the idea out there - right? Besides, my son would be ecstatic.

Speaking of my son - he had the best time meeting Will. I have never seen him so excited - and man was he happy. After the rough year he's had - it made my heart feel good to see him so happy. Will talked to him - not at him. And even though the time was short - he made my son feel important - that what my son said and did mattered. And my kid really needed that. So even if Will and I never spoke again, that sliver in time will always be with me.

A part of me is panicking about Will -- just a small part - but just the same it's there. I have done the no-no and am thinking "What if". As in "What if he's never been to this site before?" or "What if once he reads this blog that he has no idea what in the hell I'm talking about?" or worse yet "What if he reads this blog and thinks I'm @ucking nuts and never speaks to me again?"

And then my $.02 tells me -- if it's supposed to happen it will happen. Period.

I'm okay for a short time, then it kicks in again.

For whatever reason - email isn't working right. So more than likely I will not be able to do email again until Monday morning.

I need to go to sleep. When I tried to snooze last night I spent the whole time talking to Will (in dreams). I remember telling him that I felt very comfortable around him (and he me) and that is why I was able to be as upfront and as bold as I was.

Good night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Perfect

I grew balls I didn't know I had. All went well. He is exactly how I knew he would be. Beautiful eyes.

It was like talking to an old friend.

We'll talk again soon.

Now I'm too wired to sleep.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)
Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile

Heading Out To NYC!

I'm amazingly calm. My son is very excited:) We're about to head over to my mom's house and my sister is going to take us to the airport. We should be in NYC by 4:30 pm EST.

Ever since my decision to go see Will, my dreams have been crazy, my energy field has gone bonkers and my headaches are enough to make a grown woman cry. But today -- nothing. No energy trembling, no headaches, dreams were still busy - but I only woke up once instead of six times. All is good.

Things with Will still haven't been ironed out all the way. That's okay -- if it's to happen, it'll happen. All I know is my son and I will be eating some good NY pizza later:)

Bill's been in my face the last several days. NOW he shows up -- men!

BTW...had my hair colored last night -- it's jammin`. Even my ex had something nice to say about it last night. Which, trust me, getting a kind word from him is like pulling teeth from a lion.

I'm outta here. Any white light you have extra today - please send it our way.

Talk to you later!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Ted And More Change!

I'm exhausted. What a week last week was. After I got all of the Will details fleshed out for the 27th - and energy shift occurred. This happens when there has been a change and my physical body tries to adapt to the shift in my energy body's higher frequency. So for over a week - sleep has been more pathetic than usual, headaches, body tremors, brain on hold -- the fun stuff. Luckily when I do readings it's something that just flows through me and doesn't really require any brain work. So to help with this shift I have stayed away from all extra spiritual work - no mediations, no on purpose dream visits, no anything. This is why I haven't written all last week - when I stay away from things - I stay away.

I don't feel too bad today which is why I thought it was fine to write. I have been doing a lot of shifting and putting things behind me over the last week. I resigned from Whispers Media. No - nothing happened, it was just time to move forward. I have nothing but love for that company. So no more sex toy testing for me - damnit:) But I do have over 60 toys as it is and frankly -- do I really need any more? Maybe a good glass dildo or two -- but that's it. I'm also going to be done with the L Word and I'm not going to do the sex talk show. Maybe some day I'll do the talk show - just not right now. I've decided to focus all of my extra time and energy to my screenwriting. I'm good at it. And with my manager's talent and fine-tuning ability -- there's no reason why I can't make it -- or at least make it to a point where something else opens up. No worries - I am still writing the OBE sex blog and book.

My guides told me to go out and by yellow for Will. I have to wear a yellow shirt when I talk to him. I have no idea why -- but they comment and I just follow their lead. 3 days till I see him. He's been in my mind a lot -- not intrusive like - but it's almost as if he's here to see what I'm doing and how I'm doing. Looking forward to Wed and I find myself nervous. Not nervous to see him - that'll be a piece of cake. It's NYC with my 7 year old - that's what makes me nervous. I have no idea what I'm doing, yet I have to act like I do. I have no idea how to hail a cab and the subway? I get hives just thinking about it. We'll be okay - it's just the big city and I'm a country girl:)

I won't be doing any readings this week - I'm scheduling for the next week and beyond. And it's filling up rather fast.

Watching the Oscars. I'm such a geek I never miss it. I've been watching since I was 10 years old. It's cool as right now they are showing the Kodak theater - and I've been in there. My sister and I went in once for a tour. Tommy Lee Jones and Jack Nicolson sitting by one another -- that would be a trip to be in that area and just listen to those two. I - of course - am going to cry when they show the stars that have passed this last year. I always do. This is the 80th awards and I remember having a dream once where this award show was significant for me. Not sure why. I guess maybe I'll find out afterwards.

My dreams have been jamming lately -- well, should I say -- still. They are just so darn busy. Will and Bill are always in them -- but I can't remember exactly what happens, I just know that they are there.

BTW...Ted finally did marry the vamp last week. Good luck to them both -- they are sure going to need it. I give it 3 years tops.

Back to Will -- as he's obviously on my mind. When we're telepathically connected - I can sense fear, excitement, uneasiness, love, impatience and longing. I think that we are bouncing it off of each other. I can tell that he is not 100% about having his life tipped upside down - even if it is for a good reason. Change is scary no matter if it's wanted or not. Add to this the unknown -- and it can make the most optimistic person a pessimist. This is where I lie - I sway between optimism and pessimism. I think that I put the pessimism in my thoughts so that if things do not go as I would like - then it won't be such a let down. Of course I am honestly not expecting much at all - more like this is a seed expedition. Planting a seed of curiosity. Will's a thinker - once that seed is planted, he'll work on it till he gets it worked out. A lot like Bill -- but Will doesn't overthink. We'll see what happens. But one thing is for sure - the following Monday will usher in a new time for me, regardless if NYC goes well or not. I'm ready for something new in my life. I'm ready for something good.

I will not have my computer in NYC - but I will have the Crackberry (AKA Blackberry) with me in case there is a need and/or time to shoot off a quick post.

Don't forget that Fri - Sun I'll be in Lansing MI for Maria Shaw's Cosmic Connection Covention. Stop out and say "Hi".

Off to keep on watching the Oscars and working on "The Black Triangle".

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Why Do I Post?

I've noticed that I've had an rush of new onlookers to Allie's Two Cents and I have a feel that most people who are new to this blog - just don't get it. Why did I start writing Allie's Two Cents? Do I enjoy hanging out my personal life to the public? Not really -- in fact, I'm a very private person by nature and don't talk about myself unless asked -- then it's like pulling teeth to get me to talk. I don't like talking about myself and sticking it all out there for people to see and talk about - or criticize about. So why do I do it? So that people who have the experiences that I do know that they are not alone. That in this crazy mixed up world there are people out there having the same experiences -- but feel that they are alone in those experiences. If people who have the experiences like I do tell others what happens - and those people do not share in similar experiences - all of a sudden the person who is telling of their experiences are labeled as delusional, odd, crazy, disturbed or simply not "all there". That is why I tell what happens in my life - it's not to help me. What would help me is to keep my thoughts and experiences to myself -- I could just journal this stuff and be just fine. I do this to help other people who have similar experiences such as: psychic episodes, soul mates, soul circle, angels, guides, OBE, OBE sex, telepathic connections, spirits, Atlantis, past lives and magic.

Have I ever seen a shrink? Twice in my life after my 2 divorces. This last divorce (2007) I was at the shrink not even a month -I filled him in on life and my metaphysical experiences - and he said I was perfectly sane (something I already knew but it's nice to hear a pro say that). I don't do drugs - recreational or prescription -- I don't drink very often.

The people I blog about -- that are included in my experiences are all very private people, just as I am. My goal has never been to piss off, upset or alienanate the people I love - ever. Hence why not EVERYTHING is posted. Bill and Ted (for example) are fake names - to protect the identify of the true people. Will and Matt are real names for real people - and I have gotten their permission (mind you not in person, this would have been spiritual permission) to use their names. Everyone else is either a guide or a friend (real names are use) and all other in my soul circle - I use fake names as well. Oh - and Sawyer -- let's not forget Josh. His name is real (the Josh part) but he's my fantasy guy and I'm not shy about that -- I don't think the man objects to being a part of a woman's fantasy life:)

I would only come out and say someone's real full name only if I had permission - verbal permission - to do so - when it pertains to my soul circle.

No one could possible come in and read a page or so of the posting or concentrate on only one label (ex: Ted, Bill, Will, Soul Mates, Writing, Matt, etc..) and get my blog. If you really want to get this blog - and why I write what I do and the people who are in the blog - then you have to do some more reading.

And that's really all I have to say on the matter....

Hope you're having a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Sawyer And Writing!

Now don't get your britches in an uproar because I haven't been posting. No - there's not a thing wrong here in Allieville. It's just been a very draining - yet exciting - week and I haven't felt like posting. Draining because my son has been home for most of the week (as noted in Tuesday's post) and he really does drain me out. Love the kid to pieces - but he is a high maintenance kid. I had the pleasure of going to his parent-teacher conference and sitting down with his teacher and the principal of the school. Seems he is high maintenance all the way around. Highly intelligent child - but also very intrusive to other children. The kid is constantly in "on" mode. So we had to sit around and figure out how he can still do well academically in school without tramping on his spirit or the well being of other kids. Once we got that tentative plan into place - I went to pick him up at the after school program where his teacher handed me --SIGH -- a write up. Seems the kid didn't feel like listening to her either. That all happened on Wed. On Thur he did great and continued to do good once we got home and then went out to eat for our Valentines' Date:) Friday hit (he's off school both Fri and Mon) and chaos once again.

In other news - DREAMERS is done and accepted:) YAY! My manager's boss likes it. A few things have to happen and then it's off to the networks - fingers crossed! Now my attention is on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. If I have actual writing time -- I hope to have this done by the end of March.

I have to remember to keep breathing for the next 10 days. Why? Because on Feb 27th - my son and I are flying to NYC to see Will. He and I will actually be face to face. Things are falling into place as they should. There are a few hiccups - but since this is a Mercury Retro right now, it's to be expected. However since I know this is supposed to be as it is to be -- I have no qualms that everything will work out. Will my son in I be in a large location like it was when I saw Bill? No. Will the energy be as toxic? No. Am I nervous? Yes -- but excited nervous - not scared nervous like it was will Bill. It's like finally seeing an old friend face to face after a long separation. In fact - that's exactly what it is. This is my son's 1st plane ride - 1st hotel -- 1st trip. He's very excited. He's ecstatic about seeing Will. I am reminding him daily not to say anything that he "knows" about Will and I to Will. No romance, no marriage, no soul thing -- unless the tone warrants it. And only then if I say something. He says he understands -- I just hope he remembers it. However - if something blurts out - I'll think of something.

Now on the 28th we're flying back, he's going to my mom's and I'm heading to MI for the Maria Shaw Convention. I will have my Blackberry with me so I could post something to the blog the night of the 27th. But I'm not promising:)

At first I honestly wasn't going to go to NYC - in fact when I found out about this on VD, I dismissed it. I talked to the Divine that night and said that I'm not asking for a reunion date - nor am I trying to rush things because things will happen when they are supposed to and not a moment before. But I miss him God - I miss Will. I don't miss his essence - so to speak - as it's with me 24/7 and for that I am eternally grateful. But I miss his touch, the way he loves me, the way he angers me and just pisses me off - I miss the way that he sooths my nerves and holds me to let me know that everything will be okay. I miss calming his fears, physically loving him, being his friend in every sense of the word and he being mine. I miss the way we push each other to be our best - the way we challenge one another around every turn. I miss seeing him around children and how his face lights up -- and I miss working with him, using our creative energies. Just having one another in our lives so that we can pick up the phone and say hi. I'm not pushing here - really I'm not. But since you know me and you know him and what truly goes on in our hearts and in our souls - you know it's time. I know it's time and Will knows it's time. And that's all I have to say - thank you. I went to bed.

Then I went to sleep and had a dream visit with Will. We were in a crowded place - but not too crowded. I can remember a stage and he and I chatting. The convo was something about "yellow boxes" but it was just subtext (because my son was there) - we weren't actually talking about the boxes. He and I are walking and I mentioned to him about coming over and helping me rearrange the yellow boxes. He gets this grin on his face - his cheeks flush - and he says: so that's what they're calling it now? I blushed too - as we both knew we were talking about sex. I woke up and I knew immediately that I had to get to NYC. That what I had said to the Divine the night before - this was my sign. So I became proactive -- and here we are. So any good positive vibes you could send our way between now - and especially on the 27th would be greatly appreciated. Especially since the 27th is a moon void of course when people usually feel things - but are too lazy to act up on them. Do I think he will do anything about the energy between us? I honestly do not know. But I do know that I have to be there to give him that jolt. Funny enough, back to the few hiccups -- Will can actually make them go away and a guy is talking to him about my son and I to make them go away. Another reason why I know things will work the way they are supposed to.

I am going to be soooo tired driving from OH to MI on the 28th. And sheesh - how am I going to stay awake and watch LOST? Speaking of LOST - Sawyer showed up in a dream visit last night. We were walking in the rain, firing up into the air these red pellets that were supposed to burst open and protect us from the rain - which had an acid quality to it. This is what I remember from our conversation:

Sawyer = S, Allie = A

A = What are you talking about?
S = My real name - what's my real name? That's a simple question.
A = Josh -- something or other.
S = It's Holloway. Josh Holloway. I'm not Sawyer.
A = In my fantasy you are - and that's the way you are going to stay.
S = Why do I keep showing up in your dreams?
A = Who says I'm not in yours?
S = Because you keep calling me Sawyer.
A = Good point.
S = So call me Josh.
A = You're Sawyer -- you're hot baddie with a soft side. That - to me - is a fantasy and that is how you are going to say.
S = Have we had sex?
A = Sex?
S = If I'm your "fantasy" guy, why haven't we had sex? Isn't that the point of a fantasy guy?
A = Maybe I don't remember having sex with you.
S = Oh, you'd remember.
A = (damn he had a point) True.
S = Okay, so why am I here?
A = More important - why did you just show back up?
S = I've been here the whole time -- you're just too busy with Will to take notice.
A = Sounds like your jealous.
S = I'm the fantasy guy - I don't GET jealous.
A = Fine - the next time you show up, we'll have sex and get it over with. That way you can go away and we don't have to deal with one another.
S = That's comforting.
A = Besides -- if you were really a fantasy man, you'd be naked and you just wouldn't speak.
S = Now you're thinking like a man.

And I woke up. I remember this convo in such detail because it was just before I woke up. His appearance looked like Sawyer. But he kept trying to morph it to not be in character and I guess I kept morphing him back -- it was funny.

Back to Will. Remember when I posted something here about Will - left it up overnight - and took it down (if you didn't see it you weren't supposed to) because who ever was supposed to see it - saw it? Well on Wednesday I got a message from my guides saying that whoever saw the post - did something with the information about the post and things are unfolding as they should. And there you have it.

Okay - I'm going to try to get something else done today.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Writing, Will And Fast Moving Dreams!

My son -- I love him more than anything. But man -- he sucks out my brain power! Day two of him being home because of the weather. They're talking about keeping the school closed on Wednesday as well. Friday and Monday they already have off school -- so Thursday looks to be my only day to get things done. LOL. Soon I have to go out and shovel. I may not have karate tonight - but I will still get my workout!

I cannot get my speakers or mic to work on my computer. Now the mic & speakers that are ON my computer will work. But if I plug in anything external - it will not. The computer installed some updates and that's when things went wacky. I uninstalled the updates - still won't work. I tried to do a system restore to go back on before the day the updates were done - and it tells me it can't be done. Some unknown error occurs. So I'm at a lose. Stupid Window's Vista -- have a I mentioned how much I DISLIKE this platform? SIGH.

DREAMERS - is at a state where it can go back to the big guy for his input. Fingers crossed guys -- fingers crossed. It looks really good. I'm impressed with myself.

Speaking of dreams - my dreams have really been kicking it lately. Since last Friday night my dream time has been very active. So active that I keep waking up and then falling back asleep. Everything is very fast moving. When I get up in the morning, I am as tired as I was when I went to sleep. I've asked my guides what could possibility going on and Jezell steps up to tell me that I'm working on the astral level during dream time in order to get ready for the physical and spiritual changes that are coming up. She went on to say that I should be sleeping as much as I can - although it is understood why I'm not getting "restful" sleep. No overdoing anything. She says that even though I'm tired, I should notice that my energy level is good (which I have noticed). Plus, my creativity has kicked into high gear.

Well as those who have been around this blog knows -- that when this happens (the busy dream time) some major change is coming up.

The OBE sex book is starting to take shape as well as the Sex With Allie radio show. Who ever thought with my stifling Catholic up bring that I'd ever be talking about sex? See - you can be de-programmed -- you just have to want it! Ha!

I've had several imagine come into my mind's eye over the last several days. It involves my son and I moving - but keeping my house here in Wooster as a home base. I know that I won't be selling my home here at least for the next 5 years. I feel more NYC than LA - but I keep seeing Canada as well. NYC just keeps coming up - I push it to the side and it pops up again. That would kind of make sense -- seeing that NYC is an hours plane ride from here with a morning flight to NYC and an evening flight back. Eventually it'll all come together - until then I will just keep getting images.

Ted has been hovering in and out of my energy field as well as Bill. They are both there - but not there - meaning they are not being intrusive. Will isn't intrusive either - in fact I can feel him being very busy at this moment. Of course his energy is stronger with me than Ted or Bill - but he's not here so much that it is interfering (I have my son to do that). When he is around, I am getting many visions of life together: working, writing, cooking -- going out -- him and my son getting along. One flash vision had my son slamming the door in Will's face - Will got that "look" like he was really pissed, his hands were on his hips - he looked down and moved his foot - takes a deep breath and knocks on the door.

The kid's here staring at me :) Better run....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Join Allie At Create Abundance Now!

Just a reminder that tomorrow Feb 11th:

Create Abundance Now! with Roxanne Brown!

Join Allie at 1:00 pm PST (4:00 pm EST) on: http://www.bbsradio.com/ (on BBS 1) for a no-holds bare all show where Allie will chat about OBE sex, magic, her psychic abilities and more! It'll be an open call show meaning that Allie will be doing FREE readings for the entire show!!

CALL-IN NUMBERS:
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It'll be fun guys - call in and join us!!

A Dark Dream, Will And Making Choices!

I really need to hire someone to come into my office and reorganize me. It's really very shameful. How can I Feng Shui my office if I have clutter? You can't have clutter with Feng Shui - the energy gets stuck. So somehow I have to put some time aside just to put things away. Yes, I realize that if I would just put things away after I use it (after all, that's what I tell the kid) then there wouldn't be a problem. SIGH. At least my super powered Feng Shui fountain is pumping and doing its job!

Of course the sex books that just arrived for my sex talk radio show (which I'm calling Sex With Allie) - needs to be put away. My son's birds and the bees talk will have to wait until anther day - preferably another year or two, three, five:) I think that I've fund a place to produce the live call in show - and of course I'll release it as a podcast too. I need to have a 1st guest for the show. Any suggestions? I'm also going to have a give a way each show - maybe a sex toy, or some erotic audio, a novelty. I'll have a fantasy contest where people send me their fantasy, and which ever one is the best -- will win the prize:) What else am I going to have? Sex toy reviews and either a sex position of the week - or maybe a sex game of the week. Maybe I'll alternate them? Plus sex in the news: sex health, sex topics -- etc... It's be a good hour show.

As I was taking my son to school this morning, we were discussing his behavior and how he is always on "blue" (behavior is color coded: green = good, yellow = warning, blue = big trouble, red = kiss your butt goodbye, you're going to the Principals office). He tells me that it's the other kids fault that he gets in trouble. I reply with that's not true - you and only you are in charge of your choices. Every minute of every day you are able to make a good choice or a bad choice -- but either way the choice is up to you. He really didn't have much to say about that. But as I was walking back home - I told myself - Allie, why not listen to your own good sense? You bitch every day because you don't have time to fit it all in -- and we've been down this road before. When all you have to do is make good choices. Thus far on any given day - your choices lean more towards the good choice - but the bad choices eat up for too much of your time. So what are you going to do - good choices or bad choices? I'm all for the good choices and that's where I'm concentrating now.

After all, I do believe I have finally conquered the thought process. When something bad comes into my line of though - I quickly scoot it away and bring in something else. I've gotten so good at it that I don't have to think about doing it - it just happens. So now I have to do the good choice, bad choice thing. Wow - shaping your life to live it in a positive manner sure is difficult. What made it this difficult? The media? Family? Society? or maybe a combination? But no matter what shifted us to that point of living more in the greed of darkness instead of the happiness of light - it's up to each of us to change our lives around.

I noticed that yesterday I kept seeing the number 99. So I decided to look it up in Angel Numbers: Get to work Lightworker! Your Divine life mission is needed now more than ever, and any contribution you can make toward bringing more light and love into your world is imperative. The preparation for your life's work is complete now. I found that to be very interesting as I had felt the same over the last several days. I felt a shift - a good shift.

Will has written one book. Well that book arrived yesterday - it's musing from his notebook over the years. It's a light read, but gave me a much stronger prospective of his conscious side as well as his ego. I like getting to know the whole person, not just the spiritual side and/or his soul, which I already know. Even in this books - he writes short blurbs about seeing spirits and about knowing that there is someone out there for him. Tired of a meaningless life - success hasn't brought him happiness. Tired of being alone and feeling old. His notes were from 76 - until 98, this being published in 99. I wonder if he published again - if his notebook musing would have taken on a different tone? Oh -- and he did mention that he wants sex -- lots and lots of sex. I had to smile at that one.

Speaking of Will, he and I had one wild dream visit last night. It was very dark. Not only in the tone, but it was dark in the dream. He and I are using magic to battle these odd looking creatures that appear to be half lizard and half cat.

It's wearing us out. No matter how many we take out, they seem to multiply. This feels like the continuation of a dream I had many months ago about he and I going off to battle (date: Nov 20th 2007). Our energy is low, the sky is dark, the air is dense and the earth is stained red. There's a part of each of us that just wishes to let them kill us so that we can just rest. All of a sudden, we hear a swishing sound behind us. The creatures scatter. What is coming towards us is the largest snake I have ever seen. It can take out buildings. In fact, it takes out a grocery store with people in it. We can hear the panic cries of them being devoured. Will and I both know that our energy is depleted - how can we take this thing on?

Will grabs my hand and we run into a near by cave. Sex he says - sex will bring our energy up to the highest level and reconnect us to the source. I assure him that I'm in no mood for sex and well - he assured me neither is he. You can go to the OBE sex blog to read what happened - and then come back here to read the rest.

We exit the cave and head towards the snake - which by now has gobbled up half of the town. People are running around in complete panic. I stand on one side of the snake - Will on the other. We utter words in a tongue I do not consciously recognize. Fire, water, strong winds, swords, bugs, -- we try everything we can on this snake and it only stuns him - doesn't kill it. Then I read Will's mind, we have to be inside of it. Not that I want to - but I know we have to. So we run into a house that is in his path of destruction and sure enough - up goes the house.

All around us the house breaks into toothpicks - as the pieces go down into the snake- so do we. The smell in the stomach was horrible - everything in there was being digested very slow. People, animals and things were all in different stages of decay -- almost as if we went directly to hell. Will and I gasped hands and yelled an incantation that would blow up the snake. It worked - and we were thrown through the air like rag dolls.

As I landed with a thud in the dream - I did so on my bed I woke up. And it's amazing - my body hurt as if I had just slammed into something. Cats were staring at me. I got up, drank a glass of wine - and went back to bed. It was something like 3:05 am.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, Will And Psychic Parties!

I went outside my comfort zone last night - and I'm glad I did. Over the last couple of years I have done parties where I go to the party and do readings for the guests. But it's always been for friends - and obviously I knew people there before I showed up. Well last night I did a party for a woman that I had never met. I had a great time. Some were skeptical of having a "psychic" there - while others were cool or intrigued by it. I did meet a couple of people who listen to my podcast, which was cool. Oddly enough - after the party was over and there were just a few people left - Ethan wanted me to show them who Will is. I have no idea why - but I did anyways. I think that I may add to my web site a page on hiring me to do parties. Although I think it would be smart to bring someone with me if I feel it warrants it.

The Art Of Divination e-class starts today. There's still time to sign up if you're interested!

The Darin/Raisin saga seems to be working itself out -- ever so slowly. No one is trying to kill anyone and Darin is no longer hiding under the bed. BTW -- Darin here is the aggressor -- Raisin is just tickled to sleep on my bed.

The writing on DREAMERS is coming along. As well as the OBE sex book. I had been thinking about spending more time on Keen (or really I should say just time period) but my guides keep telling me to write. I keep reminding them that I have to pay the bills. They remind me that there will be enough money to do what I have to do -- just write and trust in what I am doing is what I'm supposed to be doing! SIGH.

I was thinking last night - I like my life. I mean I really like it. I think that it's the 1st time I've ever said that. Sure things can get tough - but that's a part of life. I'm at peace with myself and grateful for what I have - not always wishing to have what is out of my reach. Besides - the only drama in my life now is when I turn on LOST or CSI:) Plus - my son is really the only other drama I want:)

BTW - in case you didn't hear, Heath Ledger's death was ruled an accidental overdose - just as I thought. His state when he came to me after his death was a "oh shit" type of thing -- not that I'm sad and I wanted to die thing. I hope that his family can heal now.

Have you ever drank CoffeeMate without the coffee? You would have had to watch "10 Items of Less" to get that:)

Do any of you belong to Bebo? I just joined: http://www.bebo.com/AllieT28

A little bit ago, Edward stopped by to talk to me. He wanted to expand on the Atlantis reveal that came about with Will the other day. He showed me that despite what has been written about Atlantis, it was overseen by a counsel of 13 women - with one of those women being "in charge". Men wanted a bigger say in the dealings of Atlantis - one of the biggest voices was Will. He pushed to have 14 members with more men on the board - half female and half male. It would not happen. So a civil war erupted. Before things got out of hand - two things happened: the secrets were placed into the crystal skulls and the record of Atlantis was placed in the time capsule. Then - of course - things went out of hand. Ted sided with me and the women (as did many men) but Bill went with Will. Will was in charge of the "other side" and his magical abilities enabled him to have a firm control. When Atlantis faded from view - Will realized the severity of his errors. But by then it was too late. It was either push forward with the status quo or disappear. So he disappeared. The next person in charge put the hit out on me, Ted and the children. That next person in charge was my ex husband (as in the second, not the first). When Will learned what had happened, he vowed to spend eternity making it up to me and children as a whole. Then he killed himself.

This is why in the past life where he was burned at the stake (instead of me) he was keeping with his soul's promise -- and he still is in this lifetime. Although when I am to be by his side as he dies, I am to tell his soul that the debt has been repaid -- this way his soul can be at peace. It also explains the way my ex and I interacted with one another - and why his purpose with me was to give me a child. Heck- I could have been divorced 7 years ago!

Now it makes sense - to a point. But better than it was before.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Atlantis And A Telepathic Connection!

Miss me? What a crazy day. So busy that I am just now - at 11:30 pm - getting a chance to write this after my L Word chat! I changed the layout on the OBE blog and soon I'm going to do it here too. I may change the layout one more time in the OBE blog as I want to be able to have tabs up top for pages. This way I can have the sex blog, sex radio show and the OBE info in one central location. All I know is that I am sooo tired of seeing the original Blogger templates that it makes me ill:)

I had an amazing telepathic connection with Will in the shower last Thursday. And no - it didn't lead to sex. I know - shocker - huh? He brought me into a very mystical place. It looked like in the backdrop the Aurora Borealis. Off in the distance I saw a crystal castle. We were in the midst of a section of cliffs. I asked Will why he brought me here. With a sheepish grin he tells me that this is where he goes to think - and that I'm the first person he's ever shared this place with. I was touched. I asked how long he'd been coming here - and he said , well - since I've been around since the start of time, I reckon since then. Have you brought me here before? I ask him. He smiles and nods yes. Does any of this jog your memory? The crystal castle - I've been there before. He nods again and said - we both have. What else about this place? Will asked. I looked around and at first I didn't see anything - but I heard the sounds of water. So I rounded the cliffs - and there was the ocean. I turned to him -- Merlin - I said. He's cave is right below us, isn't it? Will grabbed my hands - looks me in the eyes and replied - it's more our cave than his. That's right - it's our magical astral cave:)

I used to find you here all the time when we'd had a disagreement or you just wanted to think. Yes - yes he exclaimed - now you have it!

Something dawned on me and I stare at him. Atlantis I said - what are you hiding from me? His mood went sour and he turned away from me. I run in front of him and make him look at me - but he refused to look at me in the eyes. It hit me -- it was you who ordered the death of Ted and I - wasn't it? He doesn't say anything. What Will - why were you so upset that you sent a hit team after Ted and I -- and the children of all people. He clenched his jaw so tight that I knew it had to hurt. I'm not talking about it any longer - this isn't why I brought you here. Is this why you sacrificed your life for mine in the witch trail? As a karmic pay back? Tears well in his eyes - that and I loved you - love you. So I don't owe you a karmic debt in this life time. He shook his head - no. And you don't owe me one? He shook his head again. Then why is part of my life lesson in this life is to watch you die? What is that for? Because you love me and you wouldn't let anyone else take care of me - that's why. He had me on that one. Plus - he went on - once I die we can prove to people that love survives the physical death of the body. How do we do that? He shrugged - I have no idea.

And the connection was broken. More questions need to be answered. I need to go exploring.

On that note I'm going to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Soul Mates, Love And Creating Meaning!

I am suffering from one hell of a headache this afternoon. Could be because my son is of school - lol:) They canceled it due to the ice storm. Or it could be because he's getting sick and he is passing it to me and I'm unable to buy any more of that wondrous cooling tea (to starve off colds) as the store in AZ isn't carrying it any more :(

I had my Sawyer fix last night -- all is good:)

DREAMERS has to be just about gutted and revamped. I have a creative weekend ahead of me - providing I can get past the constant "Mom, mom, M-O-M...I NEED you." Little stinker.

The other night I held the Soul Mate Quest workshop - and despite Skype acting up - it was a good workshop. A question was brought up on how can you tell the difference between an obsession and a soul mate? Too many times people blur the lines. This was my response:

Signs of a obsession:

-Cannot think of anything but that person. Other things in their life suffer because of the lack of attention.
-The object of the obsession does not return the feelings in the same manner to which they are given out.
-A person who is obsessed cannot take no for an answer
-A person who is obsessed cannot breathe without the other person
-Feels that the object of the obsession completes them (and visa versa).

Signs of a soul mate:

-Has a full life. Other activities are enriched by the connection.
-Feelings are returned - almost immediate after physical contact. The soul knows what the human brain does not.
-Soul mates can hear no and they are okay by it.
-Soul mates can function without the other person being attached at the hip (as soul mates are also energetically connected)
-Soul mates are complete person in themselves. They know that the other half compliments them not completes them.

An obsession and a soul mate cannot be one. It's soulfully impossible.

Obsession are bad no matter if it is a person, place, object, TV show - etc... When you're obsessed - it removes you completely from the present, disconnects your energy from the Divine and isolates you. Being obsessed also makes you an easy prey for an scams that are out there. I know of a person once who spent over $20,000 on spells, charms - etc...to win a person over. $20,000! A $2.00 card would have worked for soul mate.

Raisin kind of moved in. He's been a lost cat since GFK died. He spent yesterday and last night in my house, but this morning he and Darin got into it and he was too spooked to stay in. I'm hoping the crappy weather will make him want to come back in - but so far he is no where to be seen.

Now that Feb is here - let me show you what Tracey said would happen in Allie's romance and career departments:

ROMANCE

In January, you will be having many astral sexual experiences. Your sexuality and vital energy is very intense and must be released and you may choose to do so in a creative way by writing about these experiences.

You will be fully awake, aware and receptive to the effects of these experiences as there are instantaneously feelings of sexual intimacy and joy. These are moments that cannot be repeated and are great opportunities to develop and improve your ability to connect to those in your soul group on another level of existence.

These experiences may take you by surprise, perhaps some are in dream state but most are when you are fully, awake, aware and in need of concentrating on perhaps other aspects of your daily life.

These are joy-filled and passionate experiences and will give you more understanding of self and those in your inner circle of Light. These are events that are unique and are important to the success of your overall path not just your romantic life.

Tracey treats all OBE as astral:) And let me say, she was dead on.

CAREER
You are doing all the right things to attract the income to you that you need to earn at this time. There are some additional ideas that will come to you by month’s end and these can be very lucrative.

You are struggling in some of your work with the public in some way. Know that your recognition for your work is heavenly even if there is some criticism at times. Do not gauge your success by difficult and negative persons.

You have unique and special spiritual abilities and have been given talents that help you to be able to do a spiritual vocation and your true rewards return in way of additional spiritual gifts and divine inspirations, ideas to support you on this path as well as the goodness that you send out into the Universe that returns to you many times over.

It is your responsibility to express the gift you have been given. This is where your responsibility ends. It is up to those on the receiving end to accept the truth that is given or reject it.

Your true vocation is a combination of many of your spiritual gifts. Hang in there as some of this is just temporary for a season.

And may I say she was bang on again. The sex talk radio show and another story idea. The negative person - amen on that - been very difficult indeed. Struggling with my work - yep - trying to get my Allie's Two Cents, OBE Sex blog and Pillow Talk blogs out there. Hasn't been easy.

Looking forward to see if what she predicted comes to pass in Feb!

One last thing - about creating meaning in your life.

Adapted from The Book of Secrets by Deepak Chopra (Three Rivers Press, 2004).

The universe runs on a switch with only two positions, on and off. "On" is the material world. "Off" is pure possibility, your source.

SIMPLE SOLUTION: Exploring the following 10 conditions is the way you create the meaning of your own life.

1. The deeper you go, the more power is available to change things.

2. Reality flows from more subtle regions to more gross ones.

3. The easiest way to change anything is to first go to the subtlest level of it, which is awareness.

4. Still silence is the beginning of creativity. Once an event starts to vibrate, it has already begun to enter the visible world.

5. Creation proceeds by quantum leaps.

6. The beginning of an event is simultaneously its ending. The two co-arise in the domain of silent awareness.

7. Events unfold in time but are born outside of time.

8. The easiest way to create is in the evolutionary direction.

9. Since possibilities are infinite, evolution never ends.

10. The universe corresponds to the nervous system that is looking at it.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)