Maria Shaw, Dream Visits And Other Musings!

I think that my son was one of the first to school this morning - lol! He didn't complain that much about going - so I think he was excited to see his friends. I get to have a meeting with his teacher, school counselor and principal tomorrow afternoon. Oh joy. Wish me luck:)

The national radio show I mentioned last week is Psychic On Air: http://www.psychiconair.com a CBS show out of Detroit MI and staring Maria Shaw (3 other psychic/intuitives have their own shows too). Maria's show will go form 9 am - 12 noon Mon - Fri with the official start date tomorrow - April 1st. But today (Monday march 31) she is on from 2 - 6 pm. I will be on with her somewhere between 2 - 4 pm. Not sure the exact time - her producer is simply going to ring me. It'll be great national exposure not only for myself, but for the other readers who do Maria's fairs. I'm not sure how often I'll be on every month with her - maybe a couple to start and see how I do. But no matter how often I'm on - I'm excited to be on the show and grateful she asked me to do so. After the official launch tomorrow - you should be able to listen to the show right from the Psychic On Air web site. In May, the show joins forces with AOL:)

I spent the weekend working on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. It's still not where I want it to be - but it's getting close. I freed up some more time today to work on it. But I too have to really get my butt in gear with the OBE book. I've worked on it a little here and there -- but haven't really buckled down. That too is on my "to-do" list this week.

I was investigating spy wear yesterday -- specifically hidden camera and audio equipment. I want to start busting psychic scam artists and showing their tricks on You Tube. I have absolutely no idea when I can do something like this -- but it's in the Allie "think" tank - as well as putting together a book.

I had yet another dream with Dave Dietry (from high school) over the weekend. We were in a bar (which seems to be the norm with his dream visits) and he was telling me that he noticed me in high school. Me on the other hand is like - right - you were Mr. Football, Baseball and dating the head cheerleader. I must of been in your rear view mirror. He got a kick out of that. But replied - no really, I did notice you. It's a shame we didn't run with the same people. I laughed. Then he asked - did you really have a crush on me in high school? I'm like - yep. Then that was it for the dream.

I moved on to a dream visit with an old high school friend - Shelly. She and I were in a one bedroom apt in NYC and I was commenting how I can't believe that we finally moved here. The front door had three locks: dead bolt to the side, a chain, and a dead bolt that went into the floor. The coat closet was on your left - around the corner and you were in the living room, with the kitchen off that to the left. To the right in the living room was a sliding glass door & balcony. I commented that it is hard to believe that only 10 years ago you could have see the twin towers from here. The opposite side of the living room was the bedroom and next to the bedroom - a bathroom. There was a TV screen by the front door so that we could see who was in the hallway. For some reason I was out in the hall with floor 11 having just a few lights on by the first 4 doors (it was like each apt door had their own porch light - with no porch of course) and the rest was dark. Floor 12 was completely black/dark and there was no way I was going on that floor. In fact, floor 12 really freaked me out -- had that icky feeling about it like death was just beyond the elevator.

I cannot remember any dream visits with Will or with anyone else in the soul cluster over the weekend. It felt like my dream visits were either for visiting forgotten friendships or for helping out strangers. In fact, Will has not been very strong at all over the weekend - and he still isn't. Usually when one of the guys is not very strong on my energy is when I get surprised by something. So we'll see.

Remember when my guides told me to start doing healing for others again? Well now their telling me to hold off on that. Since when can't guides make up their minds? Jezell tells me that there are some things going on behind the scenes that they were not even privy too until now. And no - they're not going to tell me. Iris says it's to not send me into freak out mode. I guess that I can appreciate that. Now all they keep saying to me - in unison - is write, write, write. SIGH. Okay bosses - will do:)

You guys have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Being A Dork And Busyness!

Sometimes I am such a dork. I know -- hard to believe isn't it? (Ha) But yet, that's what I am. Raisin (the outdoor cat) hasn't wanted to spend much time in this house because Darin keeps beating the snot out of him when I'm not around. I've tried all the keeping away - territorial stuff, but Darin just hates Raisin - it's just that simple. So I found my sons water guns and filled them up. Then (and here's the dorky part) I put on my son's play gun holster and put the water guns in. Yeah I know -- where's my fake sheriffs badge and hat:) So anyways - Darin went after him and I pulled out the guns and doubled gunned him with water. I felt sorry for him -- for an instant. He ran and hid. 10 min later he tried it again - so I got him again. He ran. From that point on every time he saw one of the water guns - he hid. Samantha also was bugging Raisin - but when I squirt her -- she just looks at me as if to say -- is this all you've got? This is the same cat who loves to jump in the shower with me every once in a while - so I should of known it wouldn't phase her - but every other feline - you betcha. So now I have one gun up and one gun downstairs in case I need them.

Is it May 1st yet? I'm hankering to get back to NYC:)

My son this week did as I feared - sucked out my brain power. I love spending time with him - but I'm amazed on how brain-dumped I feel once he goes to bed.

When I have too much to do I get overwhelmed and shut down. That is how it's been this week (plus the kid of course). I have my readings, coaching, classes, blogs, screenplay and OBE book to do next week - on top of the normal household things with animals, a kid and well - a house. I tell myself not to panic - I can do all of this as long as I plan ahead -- I'm a Taurus - I like plans. So I took my calendar, wrote everything down - spread it out -- took a look and laughed at myself. Heck - I figure that I don't sleep anyways....plus I would rather be busy than bored.

As I was doing my schedule for next week - Iris pops up and tells me to get used to it - the busyness of it all. I asked if anything eventually fades away into the background. She says - nope, not supposed to. In fact - she continues - there will be more on a daily basis. you feel crappy when you're not writing and crappy when you're not doing all of your metaphysical help -- so honey face it - you're to do both. You're not given anything you cannot handle as long as you focus. You want to play - you want to have a good time - that's fine by me and everyone else -- but when you sit at that computer - honey you have to focus. You want to drift off to Wills-ville -- do so on your own time, before you go to sleep.

Now I have to say something -- what about fun? Can I have some fun? Sure you can - she says - but there is a time and a place for everything. This is your year to move career wise - you've worked hard to get here - don't back off now. Remember this? She pulls out form behind her back the ruby sphere from my Cleopatra visions. Yes - what about it. Grab your ruby sphere you have in this life and carry it with you. The star ruby that the sphere was made from will help you. And with that she was gone.

I went and found my ruby sphere and I'll keep it with me until she tells me something different.

My son and I keep playing a telepathic guessing game (his idea) where we keep guessing what each other is thinking. It's fun and it helps build the telepathy muscle!

The song "Unforgettable" by Nat Cole keeps going though my head. If I'm so unforgettable to someone I wish they'd do something about it:)

I don't know why this dawned on me - but last year when my ex moved out, it was June 30th, one day before my son's birthday and the anniversary of my grams P death (died in 2001). Two very pivotal endings that opened new doors in my life. I wonder if anything pivotal will happen this June 30th?

I need an agent or manager for my metaphysical dealings. Know of anyone? Or maybe a marketer who specializes (or is knowledgeable about) metaphysical stuff? The person who I had before would just concentrate on Keen - and frankly - I'm not too hip on Keen. I equate cold call readings (meaning someone who gets a reading without an appointment) to a cold sales call. It just doesn't sit right with me no matter how many times I do it. If you know of anyone that could help - let me know!

And on that note - I've got to run and get back to the screenplay!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychic Scams, Dreams And Progress!

Wow I'm tired. I usually don't have a hard time keeping my peepers open (coffee to the rescue), but today it's a stretch. My mind is going 100 mph - my body just can't keep up. Could be a crash or two after the chocolate I ate:) I'm worse than my son with this because I SHOULD know better. Good thing Easter only comes once a year!

Speaking of Easter - Will had his ah-ha moment. I could tell -- it hit him out of the blue just as it hit me. Since Sunday morning my body has been reacting the same way as it did a few days before I met Will. No sleep, small tremors, mind ping ponging all over the place. It takes a lot for me to focus right now - but since I recognized the symptoms right off the bat - I took measures immediately so that I stay grounded.

THE BLACK TRIANGLE is moving along. My goal is to be done with this draft this weekend so that I can do my taxes:) Besides, I'm ready and open to moving forward with the writing career.

Since I've been repeating my 'open to receive" speech on a daily basis - I have noticed doors opening all around me. I've been invited to talk on a national radio show on an on going basis (a few times a month) starting in April - when I know more details I'll give you the scoop.

I emailed Oprah's show today to suggest doing a show on psychic scams. Scammers are everywhere milking hundreds of thousands of $$$ from people. I hope at least her producers consider it. I've had so many sad stories of people being roped into a scam when they were at there most vulnerable. Scammers know no boundaries - doesn't matter your age, gender, social status or education -- they go after anyone. So fingers crossed that they at least address the subject.

My dreams last night were funky. They started and stopped with Will - he wasn't the funky part. One dream in particular I was at a psychic fair - I was working that fair. We each had rectangle shaped cubicles where we could sleep (had a bed, dresser, TV and a computer) and have some quiet time - but in these cubicles we also did readings. I was next to a woman named Vicki. She was moving into the cubical that I was previously in -- seems that I got some spiritual advancement so I could move up one cubicle. Another dream had me in the midst of a crystal cave, that housed 6 crystal skulls. The skulls were talking to me. I've been trying to recall what they said since I opened my eyes this morning -- but I have no clue. Another dream had my son and I flying to NYC -- we seemed to travel to there every Tuesday and back here on Fridays.

Off to work on the screenplay!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

It's been 3 years already since I wrote my 1st blurb in Allie's Two Cents - and boy does time fly. What amazes me the most is all of the changes and growth that has occurred within me and because of it - around me - during this period of time.

In March 2005 I knew very little about me and my soul. I knew about Bill, some about Ted and that I was psychic. That's it. The world that has opened up to me since then has included Will, Matt, Peter, Larry, John, Elliot, Dan, Clive and more. I have met/worked with many of my guides: Robert, Jezell, Hanna, Ethan, Edward and Iris as well as ascended masters: Jesus & Merlin, Archangels Angels: Michael, Haniel, Gabriel, Jeremiel, Goddess: Brigit, Isis, Hathor and an elemental: Galadriel.

I've discovered many past lives: Atlantis, 1920's, Titanic, Joan of Arc, Cleopatra, Wild West, Witch Trials, Medieval England - with much more to follow - I'm sure. I also found my voice and my self confidence -- plus a bunch of new friends:)

Lastly - and equally if not more important - I've grown to a point where I like me and I like my life. I'm not exactly where I'd like to be - yet. But I'm grateful for what I have -- and I like it all.

Thank you all for joining me on this journey. I hope by sharing my experiences that I've been able to help you discover you and grow as a soul.

I look forward to finding out what the next 3 years bring!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Powerful Stone Trio, Destiny Markers And Telepathic Connection!

Ahh..the start of Spring Break..my son is in heaven - me, while I love having him around, I swear he's a brain sucker. Are all kids like this? I know at some point in time I had some intelligence, but I swear I can't seem to find it when he's around - or any focus. Okay - I think the focus is just me -- but the brain power sucking out of...yadda...that's him:) So for the next 10 days if I don't make a whole lot of sense (and we're talking worse than normal here) you'll know why.

The guides are after me to change my 3 stone pendant again -- this time to opal, moldavite and faden quartz. I asked what are they trying to do to me - keep me connected to the everything but where I'm at? Iris said - no. It's to give that last boost of power to telepathiclly communicate with Will. I reminded her that the stones I have are too big for a pendant and do I have time to find smaller stones? She said no. So...I proposed that I put my faden, moldavite and opal together and when I telepathic connect with Will I will simple put my left hand on all 3 stones and get that extra boost that way. Her reply - get busy. I grabbed my faden & moldavite from my bedroom and held both in my left hand as I was looking through my stones for the opal. The power with just these two stones gave me an instant headache. Wow - what a combo to hold together! I found the opal and placed all 3 on my desk. My faden is quite large - so the other two fit on it with ease. I put the moldavite directly on the faden and the opal on the moldavite - like it would be had I had these 3 in a pendant.

I placed my left hand over the combo (lightly touching the opal). within 10 seconds I could feel this massive vibration going through my left hand - massive vibe. I concentrated on Will, and it was as if I flipped on the TV and he was right there -- that's how quick it was -- and it was crystal clear. No fuzziness or working to establish a stronger connection. I could see myself go into his mind and work on any blockages that he may still harbor (and there were quite a few). I "blasted" the blockages away, the took a floor broom and swept up the leftovers. I felt his body twitch like a zing of energy went through it -- then that energy went through mine. I took my hand off the stones and closed this intense connection. I didn't have a headache while the connection was there - but afterwards it came back. He's going to have that breakthrough tonight -- I just know it. Something will trigger one present memory, which will trigger another present memory, then another, then another (4 in all) when BAM it all floods to him. As someone who this has happened to 5 times now -- it's overwhelming and takes some time to adjust to.

Speaking of Will - because of our dream sex last night - pineapple will never look (or taste) the same again!

Tonight is a Friday with a full moon so it is perfect for anyone who wants to do a love spell:) Plus it's Good Friday and the day after the Spring Equinox (and the Rosicrucian New Year) - added power just doesn't get any better than this.....

The other night I was talking with one of my clients and I brought up Destiny Markers. We all have certain destinies to reach at specific times of our lives - this is what I call the Destiny Markers. No matter what - we have to end up at certain places in certain time frames. But we have the free will to determine if we take the easy path, hard path or the damn difficult path (otherwise knows as the scenic route). In my life for the most part -- it's all been scenic. That's because I did not pay attention to the signs and listen to my inner voice. I have always known several things about my current life: 1) I'm a writer - to make movies/TV, 2) I'm psychic 3) A healer 4) An advisor 5) To have one great love (and many minor loves) 6) Success wouldn't hit until after 40.

Because I am listening to my self and paying attention to the signs - what I knew about my life is now coming to pass. Could I have had an easier time getting to my Destiny Markers if I had listened earlier - definitely. But what happened has happened -- and all I can do is be more aware from this point forward. There are more Destiny Markers that I'm not privy to yet -- but I can feel that they are right around the corner.

How can you become more in tune and reach your Destiny Markers with less hassle than most? I found the below message several weeks ago and it was relevant and timely.

Adapted from How to Know God, by Deepak Chopra (Three Rivers Press, 2000).

When you assume authorship of your own life, outcomes are never in doubt -- you know your Destiny Markers and trust that you will get there. No matter what happens to you, each event has a place and a meaning. You also begin to master the art of manifestation. You just intend a thing and it happens. You co-create with the universe.

When highly successful people are interviewed (because they keep reaching their Destiny Markers), many times they repeat the same formula: "I had a dream and I stuck with it, because I was certain that it would come true." This attitude is a symptom—one might say the symptom—of co-creation.

The following qualities can be seen in people who have mastered the art of intention:

1. They are not attached to the past of how things should turn out.
2. They adapt quickly to errors and mistakes.
3. They have good antennae and are alert to tiny signals.
4. They have a good connection between mind and body.
5. They have no trouble embracing uncertainty and ambiguity.
6. They remain patient about the outcome to their desires, trusting the universe to bring results.
7. They make karmic connections and are able to see the meaning in chance events.

Of course I do not believe anything is a "chance event" - everything happens for a reason.

Off to see what my son is up to and to do another reading. For those of you who celebrate Easter - Hoppy Easter!

Looking forward to making my Easter ham with the pineapple .

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Elliot And I'm Baffled!

My son was home from school yesterday with a broken toe. The silly boy karate kicked the couch thinking he had his shoes on. Had he listened to me - his shoes would of been on. But when he did it - myself and his dad didn't think it was broken. It looked hurt - but not broken. My son tends to be dramatic (no comments from the peanut gallery please), so both of us wonderful parents thought he was just playing it up. We rushed him to get his shoes on (this was about 20 min after he hit his toe) as he was going to be late for his Boy Scout meeting where they were going to race Derby Cars (he won 1st place). The next morning it was still killing him so I took him to the doc's and yep -- broken. I felt horrible - so did my ex. We apologized to the kid last night. SIGH...my little voice kept saying "Al, his toe is broken - listen to me" and well.....

Lesson learned. And the kid hobbled to school this morning.

Today has been difficult in regards to Will. I have no idea why it is so upsetting to be apart from him today. But waves of sadness hit me out of left field - hang around for 15 min or so -- then it's gone. I'm clueless on why today is deemed important. Could it be that he had a breakthrough? Maybe a puzzle piece fell into place and that "ah-ha" moment arrived? No clue. What I do know though is that my emotions are on my sleeve and my neck is ultra sensitive. When I get hit my visions - or when my third eye is all the way open, my neck is very sensitive and I have a habit of rubbing my neck when that happens.

This morning during shower time my neck was just driving me crazy -- then a vision hit me of getting a phone call out of the blue. It was from a man named David who called to tell me that Will had collapsed and was in a coma. Before he went under, he kept calling for me - he's woken up briefly twice and both times saying the same thing. I asked David if he was sure it was me Will was referring to -- and he was positive. But I had to hurry. So the next thing I see if me getting out of a cab and running into a hospital.

I'm at Will's room and there are a few people there - one of them is David. He has Will's family allow me in -- I grab Will's hand and beg him to come back. That after having a break through - knowing who I am, remembering our past loves he can't leave now. I need you, I love you - I kept telling him and I was crying. I laid my had on his side and I felt his hand touch my hair. Those big blue eyes were smiling at me. Doctor's came rushing in - I promised him that I would be right outside. I head the doctor's mention something about cancer -- then they whisked him away for some tests.

I'm sitting next to Will on his bed, just enjoying being there - when a doctor comes in -- seems Will's cancer is no where to be found - no where. He's baffled - Will's shocked - and since I had no clue about what was going on - I was taken a back as well. And that's when the vision ended.

SIGH.

Now last night during dream time ---- I was in the midst of a dream visit with Will when my cats fought and yanked me right out of it. I was ticked. Will and I were under a Willow tree, having a picnic and laughing over a book he was reading out loud.

The other dream visit I remember was with Elliot. Remember him from last week? I had thought that he was just the messenger for getting Dan and I together. But I think that I was wrong. Last night he just showed up for a dream visit and it was all about sex. I was shocked to see him - he wasn't so shocked to see me. Now today he is around - his energy is strong - but I don't think it's a conscious effort on his part to be here this strong. What I can't figure out is the why. Every time I push his energy away - it drives back to me stronger than when I pushed it. Very odd. And I'm baffled. When he's "here" I keep hearing him say - don't I know you? Why do I know you? And I don't have any answers for him. I've meditated, did the tarot - runes and nothing is coming back that is clear. It's a bunch of mixed messages and I find when that happens I'm not supposed to know something yet. He found me like Will did -- but Will I guess was a different find. I don't know how to explain it. I'm curious to see where this connection with Elliot will end up - if anywhere. We'll see if he shows up tonight.

Can you believe I've never heard from "America's Psychic Challenge"? What -- I'm not psychic enough for ya? Sheesh.

My guides want me to offer energy healing again to people. They keep telling me it is the next gift that I have to keep utilizing and refining. I'm not sure when I'll add that back into the web site - but since they won't stop bothering me about it, it'll probably be soon. I've also decided that I'm going to incorporate my investigation service (Cheat Peeps) into the site. Having too many separate things is draining on my energy and that's the last thing I need. So I'll be adding that in there soon --as well as a store. So many things - so little time...

But my 1st priory is to finish up with the BLACK TRIANGLE:) Which - I'm going to go work on now...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE (Out Of Body) Sex!

Just an FYI as this class is filling up fast. I only take 25 people per class and it's almost full. This class is conducted all via email so it doesn't matter where you live.

I'll be posting this notice to my Numerscope newsletter later today (this group is over 6000+). If need be I'll add another class - but I'm not going beyond two classes at once.

Discover how to have a healthy physical sex life by experiencing the volcanic eruptions of Out Of Body Ecstasy!

**You'll notice that I teach you how to connect and then we get into the OBE sex part**

Start: April 2

Cost: $60.00

Syllabus (subject to be altered without notice):

Lesson 1: Overview of OBE
Lesson 2: Telepathic Connection
Lesson 3: Telepathic Sex
Lesson 4: Creating Your Dreamgate
Lesson 5: Lucid Dreaming
Lesson 6: Dream Sex
Lesson 7: Basics of Astral Travel One
Lesson 8: Basics of Astral Travel Two
Lesson 9: Astral Sex
Lesson 10: Protection From Unwanted Energies
Lesson 11: OBE Sex Magic


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Will, Dreams And A Painful Past Life Memory!

Writer's block taken care of. It shook loose on Sat night and was gone on Sunday. I didn't get as far as I would of liked with the BLACK TRIANGLE - but getting anywhere was better than nowhere:) Progress - that's the theme of my week:)

My dreams this weekend were al over the board. Man - they were busy. Each morning I woke up more tired than when I went to bed -- and this morning -- hell, I have no idea what the purpose was for me to even go to bed. There was so much action that it was hard to grasp all of it. Saturday night, as I was going to bed - I heard Iris tell me that I needed to go to Will. That whatever would happen in this dream visit would shift his awareness another notch and get him one step closer to the "ah-ha" moment. So that's what I did -- as I fell asleep I felt myself walk down my path to my Dream Gate - thinking about Will as I walked. Next to me was Jezell - we chatted about the next step with Will and I. The next thing I know is I'm going through the Dream Gate and into a courtyard -- reminded me of a Southern Plantation courtyard. Will looked up at me and smiled. From that moment on everything moved in super speed - flashes of light, flying -- with he and I having sex in the air. After sex, I felt myself falling and I woke up with a start - stil in the midst of finshing sex. You know - the kind of start where you sit up in bed and gasp. I laid there for awhile. Jezell told me to go back to sleep and find Will again - things weren't complete yet. I can barely remember this visit with a beach and drinks inside coconut shells. Will was gone and I rounded the corner and Bill was there. But he didn't speak - just passed one another and did that "hello" nod.

Yesterday I could tell there was a shift in Will's awareness - but there's still room for more.

Then last night the dreams were again very busy. Will and I were on a train, in a plane - driving along a countryside. I have no idea where we were - but we come up on this mountain range and I tell him that I want to build there. Were at the foot of a mountain and we find land we want. The next thing I know our house is built and it is Will, myself, my son and a daughter dogs, cats, horses. But our house and the stable is built into the side of the mountain. It's really quite cool (look and feel wise) and goes very far back into the mountain with an indoor pool & spa. Back behind the home (the home has a back door inside of the cave) you can walk a about 1/4 mile and come across an indoor lake. The home is self-contained - we are off all grids.

He and I were next in rehearsals for our play. I'm petrified, he's as cool as a cucumber:) He's giving me tips on how not to die of stage fright - lol. We're also discussing that kids could be in the audience so some of the sex that is in this play will be alluded to. This play is ad lib -- although we have an outline to follow. It's just he and I with minimal props.

Cut to opening night - once I'm on stage it was if I was always there. Right before we went on I looked over at him and thought to myself - how can I be scared of anything as long as he's at my side? He'll never let me fall.

As I'm sitting here - it just felt like I stepped on something with my right foot - ouch!! I have shoes on and didn't step on a thing.

At the end of my dreams, I was at a restaurant (by myself) as I was going up to get seated - I saw Bill. He was there, behind me reading a newspaper. I made sure I said loud enough that it was just one for dinner:) The lady took me to a table that had people in it already. I'm like - I can't sit here. So I went over to the bar. This extremely good looking man shows up and sits next to me. I ordered a Guinness and I think he got a whiskey. I have no idea what we talked about - but we were both very flirty. I remember telling him that it felt good to flirt - and that I'm happy I remembered how. He told me anytime - just give him a call. The only problem is I have no idea what his name is. Ahh - still no name, but he's a baseball player. Dave Dietry -- it just came to me. It was my old classmate Dave from high school - the one I wrote about sometime ago about having a crush on him back then -- yadda, yadda. Ha! After all these years, I wonder why he is showing up now? It's not like he really knew I even existed back in school (he star athlete dating the head cheerleader - me -- in band). So I am really clueless here.

I have noticed that in March Bill shows up every night in my dreams. He just pops up - sometimes we speak, most times we don't. Could be because he's about 1 1/2 hours away from me. And no -- I'm going to drive out to see him. Wouldn't change a thing.

Now the reason I'm writing all of this before I go swimming this morning or before I even do the podcast is for this next little bit that Iris told me HAD TO be written down this morning and posted for Will to see. So here we go....

In the shower this morning I was mulling over the BLACK TRIANGLE. This shifted to Will and his upcoming breakthrough and how I felt when I had my breakthroughs -- especially with Bill, Ted and Will. Nothing took me for a loop as much as Bill as he was the 1st breakthrough -- but each one took some time to get adjusted to and actually believe that I wasn't crazy. Which got me back to Will and how was he going to feel when he finally had that breakthrough? Will he freak, will he be accepting, will he be curious to find out more?? As I pondered these points I was then shifted to thinking - what will be the catalyst for him? He should get a past life regression! That shifted me to the last PLR I had last Oct. The first image that popped into my head was he and I in jail cells - he getting tortured and me having to listen to it. I heard Iris tell me to go to the next one.

So what flashed was the last life Will and I were together - when he was getting burned at the stake. Iris goes -- push backwards. Jezell grabs me by my shoulder and yanks me backwards in time a few days. Will's agitated -- really mean and off sorts. I can tell by watching me that this was not the norm. He wouldn't talk to me - kept being so mean. I come in from gathering fruit it looked like when he flies off the handle at me., He's screaming that it's over that he hates me and that I have to go - NOW. He was very matter of fact - get out, get out, get out. He had a bunch of my stuff bundled up. We had always had an agreement that if one of us was done with the relationship - that we would honor that choice and leave. So completely broken hearted - and I mean completely - I left and went to a neighboring town.

I'm just sitting at this stone slab for a table when a woman comes in and asks if I had heard about Jeremy (this was Will's name in this life) and I said no. He's in the town and they are going to burn him at the stake for witchcraft. It hit me why he wanted me gone - I grab a cloak and run as if my life depended on it. As I just finished that part - I burst out in tears (here and now) I can't stop the tears.

I see myself running and crying and running - not stopping for anything until I get to a stream - I'm thirsty. I bend down to drink and I have a vision of what happened after I left. They came to get him, and on the floor was a woman dressed to be me, but with her face gone. He said that he killed me in a violent rage. An enormous amount of pain went through me and I ran and ran.

I'm in the center of town - it's night and he's in the middle of the pile of wood - tied to a pole. I ease my way through the crowd - hood up, eyes down so that no one will notice me. I stand in front - he knows I'm there and he finds me. Telepathically he's telling me over and over again that he's sorry -- and that he loves me. Over and over he says it -- don't you ever forget - ever how much I love you. I will find you again - I promise. I too echo his love and keep telling him how much I love him and that no matter when it is that we find one another - I will do whatever it takes.

He screaming - the fire is consuming him and I know not to cry because they will find out about me and all this will before nothing. Our eyes stay on one another until there is no more life in his eyes. I can see a white light float from his body and go up to the sky. His eyes -- I never forgot the eyes. Nor did he ever forget mine -- I just know it.

As I was going through this in the shower - I couldn't stop crying -- as I'm writing this - I can't stop crying.

On a separate note - I just got an email that Sylvia Browne is retiring from the lecture circuit. I was right. Thank's T for the email.

Now I have to go swimming or I'll never get there...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Iris And Today's Plans!

Today has not been going as planned - not at all. I had the day all scheduled - swimming in the morning, a few errands afterwards, work from early afternoon to around one and then the BLACK TRIANGLE for the rest of the day. So -- last weekend my washer finally blew up with no amount of band-aids being able to fix it. I ordered a new washer (grateful for the room on my cc). It arrived today (yay), they brought it over to be installed today (yay) -- but they can't seem to get it hooked up without leaking (boo). The 1st two guys came and left 3x trying to find a solution. Now team 2 is here trying to figure out what to do. Of course with all the comings and goings - Allie can't go swim, or do her errands and everytime I start on something - I get pulled away. Not really bitching - per say - for I'm thankful that Lowes is trying to figure out what to do and they haven't left me high and dry. Just frustrated.

But I do get to go to a murder mystery party tomorrow night:) That'll be fun for my son and I! But I found out that right after I got a call from my dad saying that I have to cancel my trip to see him (due to his new boss not letting him the time off - when you're 64, the last thing you want to do is to piss off your new boss and get fired) so that was a bummer.

I have smooth legs and nothing to do with them - ha ha! I'll try again on Monday to swim:) I decided yesterday to incorporate that into my weekly schedule. Tues & Thurs I have karate - so I figure Mon-Wed-Fri swim would do me good. I used to love to swim and did it alllllll the time until I met my ex. Then it just stopped. And the weight came on. Now I want my outside to feel as good as my inside does. It won't be as easy to lose weight swimming as it did 20 years ago - but the water always makes me feel at home. I take comfort in that.

Okay - time out while the Lowes men finish up. Have to run to the store and do some more readings.....

Did the errands and what day wouldn't be complete without a call from the school. SIGH.

Trying to work on the BLACK TRIANGLE but having a serious case of writer's block. I can normally push through it and I'm trying. Of course if I got laid I think the block would be gone - lol. But since getting laid would actually involve me meeting someone - I can't see that happening in the foreseeable future. But since I really DO like my life - I'm sure sex will come when it's supposed to. I just wish I could fast forward it a bit.....

I had an interesting meeting with Jezell, Brigit and Isis today. They were all going on how important it is for me to finish BT (yeah, duh -- how about some unblocking help) for the next step to move forward. Right as they were yammering about that, a bright light appeared. I stared at it and this very robust woman stepped form it. My initial reaction was no fucking way. The woman smiled at me. I'm like again -- get out of town -- you cannot be Iris. She smiled -- so you've heard of me.

For Christ's sake -- of COURSE I heard about you -- I put you in DREAMERS as a GUIDE! She laughs again -- she knows dang well I know who she is. Iris then tells me to get used to it because it is her and I for the long haul - long after everyone else has moved back. I thought to myself - just frickin great - she's a no nonsense smart ass. Just what I need - a female Ethan. She said - I heard that -- and he's a male Iris. Get it right honey.

Now - Iris tells me - it's time to whip your heine into shape and get a move on with that script. You're wasted time. Well Iris, if you could do something to help out with this writer's block, it would be great. Isis steps forward (I forgot she was there) - consider it done. Pay attention to your dreams. And she shimmered from sight.

Jezell grabs my hand and takes me through a wall. We're by a river. The river is wide and there are plenty of boats going down her. Against a willow tree sits Will. Jezell tells me to go. I hurry over to Will and stare down at him. He looks up at me, smiles and says - hey beautiful. He opens up his arms and I snuggle right in. Neither of us says a word - we don't have to. Then before I'm ready for it to end, he fades from my sight and I'm back in my office. Damn it , damn it, damn it.

All day I could feel his energy around me. I'm always amazed, yet not surprised, how comforting his energy is to me.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guides, Three Goddesses And TMI!

TMI = Too Much Information for those of you who aren't up on the lingo. So much going on in the last 12 hours - I hope I can remember everything. Plus - every time I go to write - something else comes up.

As I was eating my bowl of ice cream (yeah, I know - good lunch), it dawned on me my dream visits last night. I forgot everything as soon as I opened my eyes - not even a fragment. But then as I was watching Las Vegas (TV series), a character reminded me of Montel Williams. Then it went from him to Sylvia Browne -- this is when a dream visit started to come back. I am in a large room with lots of tables - I know that I'm there to do readings. In walks Sylvia Browne - she had on a yellow dress - I called it a moo moo dress, which sounds really condescending - but I think that's what it's called. Anyways she says - you're Allie. I nod. She said - I need to talk to you. My 1st thought was - oh God, is something going to happen and she has to tell me about it? But no -- she sits down, I sit across from her and she puts out her hands. I hold her hands -- and just look at her. No one says anything -- then she says - well? I take it you're not here to tell me anything? She said - hell no. Come on, your psychic - why am I here? I take my hands away from hers and tell her that I don't have to hold her hands to get a vision. Then I tell her that I'm not going to tell her when she's going to die. Go look at her own records if she wants to know. She gives me that "look" - then says, quit being a smart ass. If they would show me then I wouldn't be here - would I? Now tell me because I'm not coming back again and I want to have time to tie up lose ends before I go. I tell her the date June 2011 pops into my head, but something will happen around June 2010 as well. She tells me - the June 2010 is you dear, and that is when you enter my physical life.

The next thing I know Montel Williams comes strolling in and I'm excited because I've always liked MW. Sylvia introduces us and tells Montel that this is the woman (meaning me) that will replace me. I looked at her and said - WHAT? She goes - you're not deaf are you? What about your son? I askd. He'll have his hands full running my church and the foundation. What about your daughter-in-law? She can write. A moment of uneasy silence. Okay -- and I start to walk away -- this is too much information for me right now. I see two teenage girls come in -- as I walked towards them I turn to Sylvia and said - the next time I see you, how about a little insight my way? She replied -- you and Will will be fine. I looked at her for a spilt second and smiled. I went to the girls who have sat down at an empty table for a reading. I ask them what I can help them with -- and the one teen girl with long dark hair reaches into her pocket and pulled out a handful of gold coins. I stared at them -- not really getting why she is paying me in gold. She puts her hands back in her pocket and keep bring out gold coins.

Then I woke up.

I may call these three - Jezell, Brigit, Galadriel - the trio of annoyances. Although they are not in my face as Edward and Ethan - they are still always "there" - saying stuff and giving me flash visions so that I know what's coming up. I don't know if I want to know all that is on the horizon -- it's getting pretty overwhelming. I can't even go to the bathroom without someone saying something. Do you know how irritating it is for someone to be whispering in your ear while you're trying to poo? I told them if they want me constipated, they're on the right track. They found that funny -- I wasn't being funny.

As I finished writing the above - all three arrived and said that they had to take me someplace. For some reason it felt like they were going to take me to someplace vitally important -- and I was right. We were in the meadow. My meadow - where I've only been there once (maybe twice) in the last 18 months. I asked why am I here? Jezell said that I have to be here - Brigit chimes in that this is my portal. My soul clusters portal. I reminded them that the woman who actually owned this land - and myself - do not speak to one another nor do I want to. I want another place as my portal -- not here. Again I am told that I have to be here -- that Will and I have to visit here - the physical here. I told them no @ucking way am I coming here with Will or with anyone else. The woman who owned this would not let me on the land and I'm not about to sneak on. Why - oh why do Will and I have to be here? Because this is where you lived in your last life together - said Jezell. What? I thought it was outside of Salem? This is outside of Salem, Brigit replied. But isn't it TOO far outside of Salem? No - Galadriel said, people came far and wide for your services. There wasn't a place in the New England states that didn't know about the two of you. Why do you think that the plants and flowers grown here now for flower essences work so well? Why do you think there are guardians? Why do you think that the right caretaker is here to service the light?

My head's spinning and I sit down against a tree. I do not make nice to anyone who tries to hurt one of my guys - it just isn't who I am. Jezell sits down next to me -- and she is not about to make nice to anyone who would harm the light she has been entrusted to watch over. But you are both wrong and eventually - you two will realize that. Do you not like her friend? The other one who does flower essence - I asked? Yes - her. Yes, I like her very much - she warm, loving and full of light. This one is condescending, full of herself and a know it all. There's a difference. Jezell smiles - you will both see the light, there is no other path to take. Great -- I murmured to myself. But she will not let us be here.

She will - in time - and you will not have to deal with her one on one - Will will be here and she will let you two roam long the meadow and respect your distance and privacy. Trust us - there is no other path to travel for this lesson. At this point there is no part of me that is happy with this realization. I start to object yet again when the earth opens up and rising from it is -- well, for lack of a better way to describe her - Mother Nature. She's tall, yet robust. She's clothed in white, long dark hair & eyes -- with a crown made of grass, twigs and flowers. A Robin sits on her shoulder (no idea where it came from). Her voice is low & soft, but commanding. She said - all of this earth which is mine and mine alone do I share with the earth dwellers who are determined to see it destroyed. There are many who have been called into service to protect the earth and all of it's inhabitants. She, the one on this meadow, is one of those light workers. But she does not own the land - I own the land and it is up to I who steps on a parcel and who does not. If someone steps on a portion of land where I do not want them, I unleash the weather and the bugs to show my wrath. No wrath will befall you or Will as you make haste to this parcel of my soul. You are welcomed here as it is part of your being - part of your light. She will allow this - the light keeper of this land - when the time is right.

From Mother Nature's right the goddess Hathor shimmers into view, on her left the goddess Isis. Brigit goes and stands among them - Mother Nature tells me that it is with these three goddesses am I to ascend to the next level. I'm to work with 3 goddesses? At once? Hathor told me not to panic. Who's panicking? I replied.

Jezell grabbed my hand -- come with me. We walk through a tree and now we're behind a stage. I could hear a lot of people. She points and I can see Will and I. Jezell said that this is the play that I envisioned for Will and I. People far and wide come to see this play based on eternal love. I watch Will and I go out of stage - Jezell whisked me through a wall and we end up behind another stage. She pointed towards the curtain and I peek through -- it's me - and the place is HUGE and packed. I glanced over at her as if to say -- no way am I doing this. She smiled and said - oh yes you will. What am I talking about - I ask? This particular one is about OBE sex - the one last night was dreams and tomorrows talk is about soul mates. It's a three-day sold out event. You talk 3 days in a row for 4 hours each time. You will combine all of this into one 6 hour show that will always sell out -- and at a high price I might add. You do have another show about telepathic connections, psychic gifts and astral travel. But it's way too much to cram it all into one weekend.

I have a headache just thinking about it all......

Jezell grabbed my hand and through a wall we go. Now we're at a set. This is DREAMERS Jezell said - this is what starts it all. You'll never stop making TV and movies - never. You always find a way to do this intertwined with your books and workshops. Rest now - because it's all about to go crazy.

Now we're back at the meadow.

Brigit approached me -- we've given you a lot to think about - and there is so much more to know - rest now and we'll talk later. They all disappear from view.

I sit down against the tree and let the sun shine down on me. Then I hear -- hello Sunshine. I open my eyes and it's Bill. I smile - hi Bear. He sits down down to me - never thought we'd be here again - did you? Part of me knew - I just hoped.....

I know, Bill said, but you want Ted to be okay, don't you? I look over at him - that's a stupid thing to say, of course I want Ted to be alright. Have you had any visits from him lately? Bill asked.

No - I don't think any on purpose -- but I was drawn to him late last evening. I could see him sitting on top of a castle ruin (like in a run-down tower) just staring off into space. Then he kicked the stone wall a few times and screamed at the top of his lungs - why do I keep fucking everything up? Huh? Why can't I choose correctly? And he was sobbing. Then the vision faded and I haven't heard anything. You?

Bill nodded -- this morning -- I saw him at my feet begging me for help before he goes too far and this kills him. What kills him? I asked. Bill shrugs - I don't know. But I tried to call him and he hasn't answered. Bill looks off to his right. He glances over at me and kisses me on the forehead. He gets up and said - Will's a good guy. He won't let you fall. I know - I replied. Bill gave me a nod and disappeared.

I know there's more that has happened - but nothing else is coming to mind right now. I wonder what the next 12 hours will bring?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with someone who I'll call Dan. I was surprised to see him. I know "of him" but don't actually "know him" in any sense of the word. He's not part of my soul cluster, circle or family. But I did recognize him immediately. Maybe a past life connection?

I entered into a very dark room. I could tell someone else was there. I said - hello? Then I heard his voice - I thought you'd never get here. Then a light from above (?) shown down and Dan stepped from the shadows. He had on a crisp white long sleeve shirt, red tied, brown dress pants w/suspenders. No jacket. His hands were in his pant pockets. A definite frown on his face. I'm supposed to be here - I ask? You were waiting? He nods. I've been waiting for months.

I didn't know I was being called - or I would have been here sooner. He cracks a small smile -- why do you think "Elliot" (I made up the name) has been showing up all over the place? And when you didn't see him - you were drawn to seek him out (very true I might add)? I didn't realize it until now -- was my response. Well, I'm just glad you're here - Dan replied.

How did you hear about me? I wondered. We all know about you - he replied. Who's we? I asked.

He waves his hands around -- we -- us -- everyone -- souls. We know that you help people. Word gets out. You're very well liked and thought of on this side.

Oh, okay. That's good to know. So what can I help you with?

My wife. I don't know what to do with my wife. She hasn't let me touch her in years and I know about her string of affairs. Yet I can't let her go.

Have you talked to her about it?

He nods yes. But she won't let me divorce her.

What's more important -- your money or your life?

He thinks about it for a few seconds. My life - he answered.

Then give her your money and move on with your life. That's the only way you'll find the happiness you crave.

Now I have no idea what happened next...but somehow we got to this next part....

He was lying down on his side, fully clothed, and I knew he was dreaming. I slide into his arms and he wraps them around me. He mummers about how long it's been since he has touched anyone. I tell him that he's dreaming, my name is Alison (not sure why I said Alison when I usually go by Allie) and I'm not his wife.

Then I woke up. So it was like we were in a shared dream visit, then the visit ended and I astral traveled to where he was sleeping.

Ethan just showed up and now Edward. Get used to it - Ethan says. Souls from all over will be asking you for aid - Edward chimes in. Is this a good thing? I had to ask. Yes, Ethan replies, it's part of your soul path. Be prepared for things to start moving at a very rapid pace - Edward says. It'll be as if a strong wind sweeps you off your feet -- you will not be manhandled, but things will move very fast, and when this cycle is over you will be set down gently.

The hard parts behind you - Edward says - and because of this, our time with you is now over. I felt my heart sink. Ethan kisses me on the top of the head (I can feel a tingle in my crown chakra and some pressure) and says -- we're never far away. But who will be here then? I could feel them just go -- with a good bye.

Two show up -- Jezell and Brigit:) Behind them Galadriel. I hear Jezell say - welcome to some serious female power. Those three laugh. And I feel and energy surge through my body.

Jezell wants me to follow her -- not astral wise - but with my sight. I do and I can see myself and my son on a plane - sitting first class. He's playing with his iPod and I'm working on my laptop. Get used to this - Jezell says. Embrace who have you become - Brigit chimes in -- and let us glide (yes, glide and not guide) you -- Galadriel says. I keep hearing the word "healing".

Jezell says - we'll be back in a bit. When you're working on the BLACK TRIANGLE. And they were gone.

So - I headed BACK to my Runes because obviously something has changed since yesterday. Asked now what cycle am I in?

Perth - reversed (initiation) - Present
Gebo (partnership) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

The old way has come to an end. Time to call in scattered energies and concentrate on myself at the moment. I need to keep my sense of humor during obstacles and rerouting opportunities. Also - keep positive while keeping my faith firm. A partnership is coming to me - love and/or business - and I have to be prepared not to lose myself in it. I have to remember that with this gift, that I have to remain separate and whole - no matter how easy it is to become one with the partner. This partnership will also lead me to the solidification with my higher self and with the Divine. There is no more doubt lingering. This union is where all my other gifts will flow though. With this I will continue to move down my soul's path. I have to remember to let the right action flow through me and it is brought to me for a reason. Don't fight it - just flow with it and all will work out as its supposed to.

Boy oh boy:)

I wanted to add - before I forget again -- that I got a couple of emails from people who are worried that I have placed Will, Bill, Ted and Matt on some sort of pedestal. Ahhh -- there isn't any worry here. They're men -- enough said:) Besides, we all have faults and limitations -- Lord knows I have my share of them:) At the core I am a very simple person who enjoys simple things (although I do like complex people) and I'm sure because of this -- my soul cluster is the same way. I wonder if we all sat around a camp fire - who would have the best ghost story? LOL.

Have a good day...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Runes And The Stone Pendant!

Where do I begin? I seem to have a lot to tell and I hope I remember everything there is:)

Saturday night I had a dream visit with Bill. He and I were back in that library. I wanted him to sign a couple more of his books that I owned as I wanted to sell all of them on eBay and give the money to a children's charity. I felt sad at the prospect of putting his work on eBay to sell -- but I knew that it was something that I had to do. He was okay with it all. Then he said - someday you'll be living with it all anyways. I woke up. Probably some day I will be living with it all in the same house - but it's not for several decades to come. So I wonder why I had this dream visit now? Maybe this was his way of telling me it's okay. I don't know .

My guides wanted me to change my 3 stone pendant. Ethan kept nit picking until I finally agreed. I had no idea what stones they wanted me to put in there -- so I went around my office and picked up the stones that called to me. There was about 9 in all. When I have several stones - I have to mix and match until the combo goes into the pendant effortlessly and stays put. The combo that was required was: aventurine, amethyst, Herkimer diamond. This combo is to help heal and open my heart chakra, heighten my psychic abilities, and have a stronger telepathic connection. And yes - I do think that this has to do with Will. Not only because of type of stones - but each stone vibrates to a certain number. All 3 of these stones vibrate to a 3. My Life Path via Numerology = 3, & Will's - a 3. So there you have it.

Speaking of Will (and since when lately aren't I?) -- I had a hell of a time sleeping last night. It could of been my back because of the @hit load of snow I shoveled (with my neighbors help -- very thankful I am) or my constant worry that Darin was going to blind side Raisin again. But I spent more time awake than asleep. And I couldn't remember any dream visits with Will all weekend -- until 6:00 am this morning. And it wasn't Will -- but about Will and me. Let me explain.

My son was taking a bath. We were in some sort of communal house -- it was rather dark inside. My ex came in and was looking really lost. I told him Hi - how are you? And he still looked lost - like he had no clue who I was or our son. He disappeared and here comes Will's on again, off again girlfriend (in real life). I was shocked to see her. Her hair was done 1940's style - she had really red lipstick on and a flowered dress. She looked at me and says -- looks like we're in love with the same person. Then she leaned in and tried to kiss me. I leaned backwards and looked at her like - girl -- are you crazy? Then I said - maybe we do. She gave me a really odd look and walked away. Then this other woman shows up (no idea who she is) as my son and I are walking out the door into the blinding sunshine and she says to me -- he told me he loved you. I look at her and I say who - Will? And she says yes. I ask - how can that be if we only met once? She says - it took only one look - one look and he knew in his heart that you were the one. So be patient with him - he'll come around. She turned around without another word and walked away. My son and I walked out into the light -- and I woke up. I laid there for a bit going over and over that scene. I still get goose bumps when I think about it.

Snow. We had so much dang snow here that I'm sick of looking at the stuff. The refused to call it a blizzard (even though most of Ohio was shut down) because the winds didn't meet 35 mph. I am very thankful that my neighbors helped me shovel the heavy snow from my driveway. Then the washer blew up for its final time. Very grateful that I had enough room left on a credit card to buy a new one. Should be here by week's end - since it was a special order. I've noticed that Wooster doesn't carry a lot of energy star appliances.

I did a Rune cast for myself to find out what inner cycle I am currently experiencing. This is what I drew:

Laguz (flow) - Present
Sowelu (wholeness) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Uruz (strength) - Consequences derived from the attitude


Presently there are unseen forces at work. I am in the flow of my intuitive nature and am cleaning out areas of my life that are no longer needed. I am attuning to my own rhythms and bringing to me people, places and situations that are part of my self-transformation. The door to the past is shut completely and life is taking on a whole new dimension. I have to follow the path that my soul calls me to -- my reason to be here. I have to go with the flow and remember that what I am striving to become, I already am - I just need to realize it. I have to bring forth my essence and shape it creatively as the life force of the universe is here and available for my use. The result of this attitude will be a new beginning - a fresh start as my old life has outgrown its usefulness. There is positive growth and change - although since I have let go of people, places and situations - there will be lose. I will have a new perspective and new strength that will allow me to adapt to the demands of a very creative time. My soul and the universe supports my new growth.

Well I'll be dammed -- it's about time. If you look back on my blog entries - you're going to see that I have been letting go of many things in my life -- and I have been shifting things to embrace this creative time. Yay! I so deserve it:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Bill And Another Energy Shift!

Oh my good God -- the snow is coming down sooooo hard. In less than an hour I went from driving the speed limit (45) to barely hitting 15. The plows are having a heck of a time trying to catch up. Our city is almost out of salt -- so instead of any preventative - they are just trying to maintain. I'm really looking forward to Spring! Not that I really mind Winter -- I just hate how OTHER people drive in the white stuff. And I'm not too keen on shoveling my long driveway - maybe someday I'll either buy a snow blower or pay someone to plow the drive.

Finished the latest on DREAMERS. It really looks good. I'm proud myself. Now let's see which network picks it up. Notice there're no "if" in there. I'm as confident about DREAMERS as I am with Will. Speaking of which, I need to talk to him about a short list.

Not last night - the night before I had an interesting dream visit with Will. We were among a very large group of people in this huge performing arts building. Half the room in this place had a stage in it. People were going in and out of these rooms trying out for parts. Will and a I tried out for several parts. We held hands as we walked from try-out to try-out - always giving each other a kiss for good luck. When we were done (or there was some break) - he was leaning up against a wall with me in his arms and my head on his chest. He had on a brown ribbed sweater. His hand was playing with my hair on the side of my face. There was a call for him and he went off. I took refuge in a room that had a huge green form padding on the floor. A couple was in there on one side. I told them that I wanted to nap over here while I waited for Will. The woman gave me a blanket and a pillow. I snuggled in and fell asleep without a care in the world.

Now I wish I would sleep in this physical reality. The last couple of days have been really been hard on the sleep front. My dreams are jammed pack and I wake up every hour or so. This happened before I met Will -- so my guess is that something else important is coming up. Not necessarily Will - but something important to me and my path.

This feel of something important was validated yesterday by an energy shift. Just there - minding my own business when WHAM! The trembles began -- must of been around 2 pm or so. They lasted maybe 10 min and that was that.

I know that everything will work out for me the way it is supposed to and that the universe won't let me drop. So with that faith, I booked a trip for my son and I to go to FL Mar 24 - 27 to see my dad & step-mom. We haven't seen either of them since they moved to FL in 2005. My son has never seen the ocean (well in this case it's really the Gulf of Mexico) and he's really excited. I figured that if he and I were to go to Disney world this year - we had better go to FL 1st to see dad and then Mickey Mouse.

I already booked a trip to NYC too for my b-day. In NYC from May 1st - May 4th. Booked the flight - now I just need to find a hotel for my son and I that is near Times Square. I want to be able to walk to most places - take a cab to some. If I try the subway - I'll need a NYC buddy to help me with this -- it makes me nervous. My birthday is going to be fun this year - dog-gone-it! Now this trip - I am going to get that pizza! There's a place I saw on the travel channel that's by Coney Island that is the longest family run pizza joint (only one location) since it started back in the 40's ( I think). The pizza looked really good on TV:) And of course I need some b-day cheesecake.

Last night I can remember a dream visit with Bill. My son and I were in this HUGE library. We had a table full of books and we were just writing things down like crazy -- almost as if we couldn't fit enough in our minds. Bill was there as well -- and he was in charge of the library. He told me --it's about time you got here. I was beginning to worry. Then he asked - where's Will? I said that he's off in the mystic section. Bill laughs and says -- that sounds like him.

They're closing my son's school early. Better get ready to go get him.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dense People, Dreams And Will!

I have tons of email to still wade through -- so if you sent something - I hope to get it before I turn 41 in May:)

People baffle me. No really - they do. Especially the way the judge another person without really knowing that person -- and especially one they read about on the Internet and has never had a face to face with. In my experience, people tend to bash, ridicule or negatively label someone or a group of someone's who they are frightened and/or ignorant of. I encounter this a lot where I live - being that it is Amish Hell and I do not fit the "mold" of people who live here. Those who have come to my house or I have met in person and who do not wish to be associated with me (for whatever reason) do not talk to me, change what side of the street they are walking on when they see me and stay away from my home. But those people who find me so bizarre, unstable, crazy or evil-like on the Internet have the nerve to say things against me (on other sites) and then have the nerve TO KEEP COMING BACK to my site - and in particular this blog. What gives?

I don't get it. Is the person or people that dense? Or could it be that they are afraid I'll do some "wacky" and they want to keep tabs on me so that they can warn the person (that I'm talking about in the blog at the time) that I may be on my way to find them? What in the hell do they think I'll do once I find them? Kidnap - murder and eat the evidence? The narrow-mindedness of people just baffles me.

SIGH. But anyways....

After meeting Will last week, my son and I were back in the hotel room and he watched me write in my journal. He asked what I was writing about. I told him - about meeting Will. He asked if I'd read it to him -- and I did. Afterwards he said - mom, those are beautiful words. I replied - well when you write from the soul the words naturally come out as beautiful. And no - I'm going to put in the blog what I wrote. It's for Will only and when the time arrives - I'll read it to him.

Speaking still of Will - he's "here" as he always is -- but now he is not so much there as before. It's like I set that path in motion, so now I can focus in on something else. Which, let me tell you, there's a lot for me to concentrate on. Even though I'm not part of Whispers Media any longer - that time is filled up with writing. I have a lot I want to accomplish in March. Plus, I want to work more on energy healing - learning more - trying to study. It's difficult to find the time in the day - but some how when you want something bad enough it shows up.

Speaking of which -- I have all those books on sex (positions, games, etc...) that I had for Pillow Talk and then the radio show that I was going to do. All of these wonderful books and ideas and no one to try them out with. Hummm....... Of course by doing the show I still had no one to sample with -- but at least the darn things were getting used for something:)

I had two odd dreams last night that I "went with" to see how they'd pan out. The 1st my ex husband and my son was in. My ex was again dating someone else - and I guess this was getting old to my son and I -- so I whispered to him and called him a male whore - lol. My son told him that more isn't always better:) Then my son, myself and our animals were in a hillside home (like in the Hollywood Hills) and there was a fire going on down below. We kept staying there as we were told we'd be okay. I remember sitting back on the deck and I could see red lapping up the side of the ledge. My natural response was this was it -- time to run. But a woman was there (no idea who) and she said that we're protected.

Now before we went to bed - we had a nice ice storm going on and the pine tree by our electrical wires was really-really heavy. Of course this made the wire keep bending. We spent the night with flickering power. My son was scared that the lights would go off -- so I told him to ask his Guardian Angels and Spirit Guides for help and I'll ask mine. Well we never lost power - and in fact when I got up, the pine tree was not sagging at all over the wires. Pretty cool:)

My son had a dream last night where he went back to the 1940's. There he says he met a small boy who was weird. I asked what he meant? He told me that he was really dirty and smelled bad. So I asked - was he poor? He said - yes, and that the boy didn't have anything to eat. I explained to him that the boy wasn't weird, just dirty and hungry. My son then went on to say that he asked his Oddparents (it's a show on Nick where a boy has 2 fairy godparents) to grant his wish of giving the boy lots of food and making him clean. I asked him how it felt to help someone - he said it was great. In fact, now him and the boy are friends and he can go back and visit him at any time.

This launched up into a discussion about dreaming. He asked how his energy body could go so far away, so fast and his real body (aka physical body) could still be alive? I tried to explain to him how limiting the physical body really is and that the energy body has the ability to expand to any size and go anywhere in the blink of an eye. He seemed okay with that.

I foolishly asked my son where he wanted to go for my birthday - NYC or Disneyworld. Now I KNEW better than to ask that loaded question. Of course he picked Disney - what kid wouldn't? But I want NYC. I've never done any sightseeing while I was there -- and I'm determined to have this birthday be a good birthday. I haven't had a good birthday since I was 15 when hosted my last slumber party. They've all been a disaster after that - one after one of being ignored by whomever I was with up until my 40th last year and my discovery of my ex's @ucking activities. So this year I'm determined to have a good time and not be at home. I was telling my friend Betty at the MI convention that I even bought both of my engagement rings - lol. I promised her (and of course myself) that I have a different lease on life -- I'm ready to receive:) So maybe my b-day (May 2nd) in NYC and his b-day (July 1st) in Disneyworld. I think that's fair:)

Off to do several reading, work on writing and maybe put a dent in the emails:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Lansing, Will And Energy!

Today has just been a whirl of me trying to get caught up with work and attempting to put my house in order. Email -- good Lord, I have at least 500 to wade through so who knows if and when I'll get caught up there.

Lansing was just great. It was nice to see the other readers again and the many convention participants from the one in Midland last Sept. I had people come up to me all weekend and tell me that one of the reason they went to Lansing was to see me again. It was a really nice feeling. Thankfully Ben, Lindsey and Terra showed up so that I could eat. It was so crazy doing readings -- non stop all day every day for me -- that I didn't have time to eat. So Terra gave me crackers to munch on and Ben & Lindsey gave me a chicken sandwich and fries on Sat & Sun. The readings went really well. There were only a few people that thought I was crazy with what I told them. I could tell by the glaze over their eyes when I spoke. I guess we'll have to see what happens:)

My gypsy magic talk went fine and the OBE dream talk really went well. I had nothing prepared for the dream talk -- I took in a couple of books and a page of notes - just in case - but going in I had no idea what direction to take the talk. I asked my guides and angels to just let it flow in the right direction and it did. I had many people come up to me and tell me how much they loved that talk -- and many told Maria about it as well. That made me feel good:)

Every evening - and many times during the day my eyes were bloodshot red. Even with using some eye drops - they still turned a nice shade of red. You would have thought that I was on something - but I wasn't. It was just a very draining weekend -- but a good one.

Speaking of my eyes - more than one person said I had an extra spark in my eyes that was missing before. And I was told that my energy was really strong and healthy. I felt good. I think it had to do in part with meeting Will and in part that I'm just happy & grateful with what I have in my life. I'm really trying to adopt the mind set that no matter what happens to me - I'm grateful. I actually feel less stress this way.

I asked a couple of the psychics about Will while I was there. Neither of the women know of Will and they never read my blogs. They almost said the exact thing -- so close to word for word. Rather scary really. But it was all good. Both laid out the trials, tribulations and good stuff that lies ahead. Which, of course, is all I've already seen -- but it was comforting to get two validations.

I'm worn out. I have the last L Word chat to do here in a few minutes and then afterwards -- off to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)