ASPCA DISAPPOINTED IN RECENT HORSE SLAUGHTER RULING

The district court’s March 14 ruling allows for the continued slaughter of American horses—despite last year’s Congressional mandate that effectively banned it for fiscal year 2006.

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The Cliffs And A Secret Room!

Spent a good time at the doc today and then the drug store. This and a meeting is why I'm running behind with my session!

I'm taken, rather quickly, outside. There is a motorcycle, looks like a Harley, running and there is a man on it with a black leather coat. I have a helmet in my hands so I am assuming that I am to jump on. I put the helmet on and do just that. I wrap my arms around the man in front and hold on as we take off. Nothing is said for miles. He points to a few items of interest along the road - old churches, ruins of castle and manors....I can see the water and some great looking cliffs. He pulls off the road and over to a cliff. We get off and take the helmets off. It's Larry. We walk over to the edge and I'm not really sure what he is saying. Something about a woman who through herself off because a man jilted her. He jokes with me and kind of nudges me at the edge - but holds onto me so I'm not going anywhere. I hit him for that nudge. He laughs and tells me that he'd never let anything happen to me - ever. He tells me to stay put, climbs back on the motorcycle and leaves down the road. So now here I am by myself.

I sit on the edge of the cliff and watch the waves crash against the coast. It's a wondrous sight. I hear the motorcycle pull up, stop, and the drive off again. I look back and Bill is coming towards me. He sits next to me. I ask him - why did Larry drop us both out here? He replies - we needed a remote place to talk, where no one will bother us. I thought to myself - a house would have worked. So I look at him and say - well talk. He said, we're not there yet. Where I ask? He tells me to stand up - I do. He grabs my hand and moves to the edge. I'm like - are you nuts? This will kill us. He smiles and replies - you trust me don't you? Of course I say. Then keep trusting -- on the count of three. One, Two, Three! And we jump. My tummy tickles on the way down, although I think I'm going to be sick.

We hit the cold water, but it only stings of a second. I motions for me to follow him and I do to an underground cavern. We pull ourselves out of the water and rest on the dirt. Is this secluded enough for you - I ask? He says - we're not done yet, come on. So I follow him through a stone passage to a large, very heavy, wooden door. He does something to the lock and it opens. Inside is a home or cottage really --one massive room with a bed, fireplace, looks like magical items as in herbs, oils, stones. Bill comments - now we're safe. Where are we? I'm not sure by now if I'm in total amazement, wonder or worry. He says - at a friends.

He jumps on the bed and wants me to come here. I thought you wanted to talk - I ask. I do -- he pats the bed. Just come here. So I do. He lies down and I snuggle into his arms. He tells me to close my eyes - I do. He is whispering something about being safe and that he doesn't want to be this cautious, but he has to for now. I felt myself drop - so I had to have fallen asleep because the next thing I know I was done.

Hummmmm...interesting that it was Larry and not Ted that brought us to the cliffs -- and why not Bill and I show up at the same time? Why go underground to be safe? More questions than answers in this one - that's for sure!

I'm finally caught up on what was due for today - so that I can get to my emails! If you are expecting to hear back from me - I hope to be caught up by the time I go to bed.

I still find it hard to believe about the whole Peter/Ted thing from yesterday. The odds of the two of the working together are at a staggering high - yet here they are. I wonder what will fall into place next?

Have a wonderful day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

I'm Speechless -- Totally!

OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD.......

I simply cannot believe it. I'm shocked - excited - shocked.

Remember my past visions with Ted and Peter? Peter being Ted's helper, his good friend the two were/are very close (in past lives, astral plane, etc...). But I mentioned that they did not know each other in real life. Well guess what? They just got a job together. Yep - that's what I said. They are working together.

The soul circle reunion is almost complete.

I am so floored that yet another piece has dropped into place that I'm --------speechless.

I need to breathe.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

A Funeral, A Scam Artist And Now What?

Did you know that I'm a scam artist? Apparently I am since someone listed me as one on my own board: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=8 SIGH some people have nothing else better to do.

Just when I thought that this session would turn out good - it took a detour and now I'm worried. I sat with my Diaspore and Moldavite today, both grew very hot in my left hand almost immediately after I picked them up.

I was taken as an observer to see Bill. He was sitting Indian style on floor cushion. He had on his beige/brown plaid shirt, tan pants, bare feet. His hands, palms up, with his thumb and middle finger touching on both hands - eyes closed. I can smell some sort of incense - but I'm not sure what it is. All of a sudden I watch his astral self pull away from his body and he is standing next to me - morphing like. Not really there, but not really not there. He's shocked to see me. He looks down at his hands and they are fluid and changing shape. This freaks him somewhat. His face now reminds me of a school boy who just learned to do something really cool. He turns to look back at himself when I tell him not to look back and don't think about him. He's like why can't I ---- and he's gone. I see his body shake and he opens his eyes and looks around. I think to myself -- because you go back to your body, that's why.

I see Jezel off to my right, she takes my hand and we go through a door and into a bright sunny landscape. In the blink of an eye the sky is black, a thunderstorm rages and fierce winds whip through. I look at her and comment - this doesn't look so good. With that, a wind picks us up and drops us off at a funeral home. I'm dressed in black. I have a real sinking feeling. I ask her whose funeral are we at. She just looks at me. So I say - mine? She smiles - slightly - and says no. Then who? I turn to walk in and she grabs my arm telling me that I am not to go in there. That it could be too traumatic right now and cause me sleepless nights over something in which I have no control. I grab her arms and ask - don't tell me its my son. Don't even go there. We're a team him and I and I know he's well protected. She says yes, he is very well protected. The reason I sense him so much is because he is hurting profusely right now. I need to get in there - I add. She says - you ARE already in there. From here there's nothing you can do. Just remember to keep the faith - all will be right.

She whisks me off to the crystal cave - my part, our part- with the lake. She says that I have to come here when I need my batteries recharged. Here I will find comfort and solace. I ask why haven't they found this part yet? She replies because it is very well guarded and will be known when the time is right. I see Ted approach me with really short hair, a mustache and a goatee - he's in a long sleeve blue shirt and jeans, tennis shoes. He wraps his arms around me and says that he will always be here for me. I'm looking at him and ask - what do you know that I do not? He says nothing. Him and Jezel share a knowing glance about something. Ted hugs me so tight and I feel safe and secure like a caterpillar in its cocoon. Jezel says - remember, Ted will always be there for you, all you have to do is call.

With that everything is gone and I'm done.

All I can do is think to myself -- not something else bad. I'm tired of bad. How about something nice and positive? That would be such a welcomed change!

I'm still WAY behind in email and with comments on various blogs, pages, items -- I'll catch up, I pray, by the end of the week. I'm on a deadline right now and I'm working my butt off to make it. Oh - still sick and now my voice is disappearing. Great for the kid - bad for me:) Good thing I did the podcast yesterday and not today!

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Crystal Cave, Hawks And Confirmations!

How was your weekend? Mine started with the flu and ended with nasty congestion. So if you have emailed me within the last several days - hang in there - I'll get to the email. It's amazing what piles up after several days of being away from the computer!

Over the weekend, my family moved everything out of my deceased uncle's house - a good chunk came to rest here in my home. Among the trinkets of treasure are several paintings. One in particular a mill, on a river with the surrounding trees in fall leaves. The mill looks almost to a "T" of what I see in my visions with Ted and the mill. The painting I saw him do of the mill - very close to this. A wonderful confirmation of those visions. The painting now hangs in my office so that I can look at it daily and smile;)

Speaking of Ted, he is making his presences well- known in my energy field. He is here and he wants me to know about it but without being in my face. Dream visits last night were with him - from what I can remember we were sitting down, holding hands, eyes closed and I believe we were trying to astral project at the same time.

Larry made a reappearance today:) I asked him where has he been? He said he had something to attend to. When he's around, I feel a goose bump type of energy all through me. So I know when it's him and not one of the others. He also said that he's not going away again.

Bill - I can feel him pacing. I can hear a clock ticking in the background and his frustration level building.

My son went back to preschool today (yeah) and I walk him as it's only a couple of blocks. On my way back home I saw 9 hawks circling my house - like they were waiting for me. When I reached my house - they all left, one by one. I took this to be a whopper of a sign. 9 is the ending of things, also on the threshold of new. According to the angels, a 9 also signifies that my Divine purpose involves giving through my natural talents, passions and interests. I went looking to see what messages a hawk would bring and this is what I found:

*Primal life force
*Fulfillment
*Spring and fall equinoxes
*Awareness
*Clear-sightedness
*Being observant
*Far-memory
*Messages from spirit
*Guardianship
*Recalling past lives
*Courage
*Wisdom
*Illumination
*Seeing the larger picture
*Creativity
*Truth
*Experience
*Wise use of opportunities
*Overcoming problems

I think this is a really good sign - don't you?

Now - after the hawks and before my podcast - guess what else was confirmed to me??? My Crystal Cave!!!!! Yep - just like I've seen in my visions with the exception that they have not found the room with the lake in it yet. But all else is dead on, including that it's in Mexico! I almost fell over in my chair when I read about this. It is called the Cave of Swords and the Cave of Dreams

Here are the links:
http://www.canyonsworldwide.org/crystals/mainframe3.html
http://www.minsocam.org/msa/collectors_corner/arc/naicagyp.htm

Simply AMAZING!!! I cannot begin to describe how comforting and invigorating it is to get confirmation of a vision. Now I know that the meadow and the crystal cave are real places. God that's exciting!!

Back to work I go! What a GREAT DAY!! Sickness and all:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dunshire, Ted And Memories?

I want to thank all who put the happy anniversary messages into the post that is no longer listed:) I read them - honest! My session is all messed up today due to my cat nap...well, I wouldn't call it a nap. I didn't sleep, just laid ether with my eyes closed while my cats circled me wondering why I was in their spot!

At any rate - the wonderful Ruby Crystal jumped up and wanted to be part of this session as well as my new Zagi Mountain Quartz Crystal with inclusions of Astrophyllite and Reibeckite. There may be some Yttrium (which are rare) inclusions but I can't really tell right now. I'm thinking yes - but not 100%. Okay - so I just went to pick up the stone spirits and a silvery sparkle shown within the Zagi -- so yes...there is Yttrium in there.

Well, this was a speedy session. I am immediately in a light-filled room. I'm naked, in bed, lying on my stomach. The bed is large, with great sheets, very comfortable. The top of my body is on the right side (left looking from the foot) of the bed. Next to the bed is either a wall of windows, or doors that open to a balcony. I don't know as beige curtains cover them. A very nice room. I hear someone behind me so I turn over and it's Ted. He's in his briefs with two mugs of hot tea. He asks me how I'm doing, leans over and gives me a kiss. I put the mug on the bed table and lie back in bed. I know I'd rather be sleeping. He mentions something about my day - I tell him I have work to do. He asks if I can put it off he wants to show me something. I tell him that I can't - deadlines. He says, he'll have me back in plenty of time - please.

We are driving and we must be outside the US as he's driving on the right. I'm looking out on green and rocky landscape. I want to say Scotland or Ireland - but since I've never been to either thus far - its a guess. Maybe Wales? Anyway, on this road I can see on our right a large castle. I ask him if it's haunted. He laughs and says probably, but that's not why we're here.

We pull up and this place is just I don't know -- massive. But then again it's a castle - so how small could it possible be? It looks pretty old. So I ask - any idea on the age? He shrugs and says the 1300's with a new edition put on in the 1500's is all he knows right now. What's it called? Dunshire. He replies. We walk in and it looks like it hadn't been lived in for awhile. I ask him why are we here? As I notice some rodents running about. He says that he came upon this a few months ago and he just felt good about it. What do I think - he asks? It's not creeping me out. In fact, it feels strangely comfortable. Exactly! He says.

Do you want to live here? he asks. What? I ---no. I don't want to live here. Touch the wall he says. Go ahead - touch it. Okay....so I walk over and do just that, place my hand on the cold wall. I could hear something click and a rapid session of pictures that I can't grasp fly in front of me. Ted is right in my face now -- did you feel that? What did you see? He asks. This was ours? I inquire. His face lights up like the Las Vegas strip. He scoops me up and spins me around. Yes -- yes that's it! I'm standing there looking around, very very dizzy and out of sorts. It feels like a Mack truck did the happy dance on my body. I start to spout off about a ball here - something about a Stanford, in a red dress, falling down the stairs and breaking her neck. She was drunk and her feet got tangled in her dress as she walked. I tell him I can hear lots of children run around. There's something about a fire I can't grasp.

Ted says - I'm buying this, buying it today. This way you will have your home back.

And I'm done.

I wonder if this vision has to tie into the one where he and I were married, my son was our son, he was away on business and there was a fire, where me and my son both died - he never remarried. I don't know - something new to find out. I can't believe its been a whole year since my past life regression took place. I am in need of a few sessions.

Off to take more Vit C and then get the kid:) Where did the day go????

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I Must Have A Penis -- Or Do I?

I had every intention of writing this last night during LOST - but alas what happened? The evil sick bug that has had a hold on my house finally zapped me. Dammit all! But, a fighter till the end, I refuse to succumb to this nasty whatever bug. I'm popping Vit C and Airbourne like they are going out of style. I'll have that all-over Florida ray of sunshine come tomorrow morning:)

Have you taken advantage of my e-book give-a-way in celebration of the one-year anniversary? If the post for the e-book is no longer below this one, than that means its over and you missed it. Better luck next year!

Speaking of years, what a year it has been! I've discovered some amazing tid bits over the last 12 months! Especially that I have a penis. I mean, I must have based on the number of emails I've gotten from the penis enlargement people telling me how bad I need their services! All those people telling me about my all important male appendage must be right -- after all, they keep banging me over the head with their insight and wisdom. They are so convinced that their way is the correct way - that they are 100% correct. I mean, they act so certain - so matter a fact -- right?

WRONG! I do not have a penis, nor will I ever have one grow from my body - ever.

Now why did I bring the above up, besides the fact that those guys are annoying? Because no matter how hard they try to get me to believe their spiel I don't and won't buy it - because I know without a doubt that they are 100% wrong. Just like I know that they people who tell me that Bill and Ted are not my soul mates, but a delusion or fantasy to escape reality are 100% wrong. Because the people who tell me that there is a greater chance doctors finding an independent working brain cell in George W. Bush then me finally physically meeting Bill and Ted. To those people I say you are 100% wrong (but not about GW Bush).

To the countless others who cannot fathom that I could have been Joan of Arc or Cleopatra or even experienced past lives from the wild west, roaring twenties, Atlantis, Lemuria, WWII or Vietnam -- you know what I say??? Get a life!

To the perplexed ones who think that my soul circle/cluster is a vital part of my imagination conjured up so Bill and Ted wouldn't get lonely - I think Larry, Clive, Fred, Peter and crew would argue that Bill and Ted are there to amuse them -- not they other way around!

To the faithless who think that my visits from Robert, Jezel, Hanna, Brigit, the archangels and Jesus are the result from a really good smoke. When was the last time you reached out? When was the last time you asked for help? Ask and you will find that you are not as alone as you once thought.

Point is, no matter how many times you hear something or read something, if in your heart you know the truth -- then that's all that counts. Stick to your beliefs, your convictions for they are who you are and who you will become.

At times it is a necessary to go outside our comfort zone in order so that we can stick to our convictions. I am a very private person. I don't like talking about myself, I'm the type who has always liked to sit back and listen to others speak about themselves and their lives. When I meet people, or when at a family gathering or with friends, I always hear - you're so quiet (my two sisters may disagree about this, but I am the quiet one out of us 3), what's wrong? That's just me - I tend to keep my business to myself or with a few friends. So the fact that I am putting out there my innermost hope and progress to many people - mostly strangers who I will never talk with or meet - is a very uncomfortable step for me. Makes me nervous. I wish you could see how long it takes me to actually post something. I look over it repeatedly to make sure that I didn't include too much - reveal too much of myself. But then I can hear my guide Robert say - come on. So I add stuff back in and I cringe when I hit the post button. But I do it, because I know I'm supposed to. I know that this helps me with my convictions and helps other people find theirs. I KNOW this and this is why I do it.

Are the guys upset with me because I post here? No. If I used their real names without their permission - then yes. But since I've kept their identities for the most part a secret - it's a no, they don't mind. I had someone ask if Bill or Ted was worth being connected to as they appear to not want to be bothered with (Bill more than Ted) most times. What can I say? It's like if someone were to ask you - do you want to live without your heart or your lungs? What would you say? You need both. And so do I -- so do I.

This last year I am amazed and astounded at what I've encountered. I know that I'm on the tip of the iceberg with so much more to uncover, explore and marvel. I am eternally grateful for those who stop by and for those who pass the blog onto interested parties.

Step our of your comfort zone and "Chances Are" you will find the life, and the people, you've been searching for -- your soul's fuel.

Here's to another amazing year of discovery!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill - Bill -- More Bill And Diaspore!

Today I decided to sit with a newly adopted stone spirit called Diaspore. It is a 7th chakra stone, it is easier to 'read' people and to understand what they are communicating to you - also to connect to the spiritual and astral planes with ease and clarity. This is an intense spirit that took me into today's session with a fiery, hell-bent energy.

I'm immediately taken to Bill. He and I are at a patio door - I can see a pool. It's daytime. We're in the middle of an argument. The details are clear:

M = Me
H = Him

M = What do you want from me?
H = I want you to stay here. You can't go back.
M = I have to go back - my son's there.
H = I don't want you .......being with him.
M = Him? For God sakes, we've already covered this ground. You know our relationship.
H = You're still married.
M = I told you -- I'm going to take care of it once I get back. I can't do it from here. Get off my back.

I push past him and I hear him slam his hand into the glass door. I go into a guest bedroom (which is my room, has my stuff in it, my suitcase) and slam the door. I get on the bed, put my headphones on and turn up the music. He slowly opens the door. Very carefully, he sits on the corner of the bed - moves towards me and takes my headphones off.

H = I don't want to fight.

I turn off the computer and stare at him.

M = Then just drop it. I told you what I'm going to do and how I'm going to do it.
H = Bring him out here - we have good schools.
M = He'll start a new school this fall, Kindergarten in Wooster. The school is a block or two from my house, it's safe. I like my neighborhood. This isn't about me -- or you. It's about my son and what is best for him. You didn't move your son elsewhere even though you wanted to move. He needed to be near his mother, in a secure environment, and he was. You move to Ohio.

He smiles - sort off. Traces his fingers down my face.

H = I only want to show you how much I love you. And I can't -- we can't -- until you put the wheels in motion.

I grab his hands.

M = I know, I'm as equally as frustrated as you. But we both know this is the right way.

He leans in and gives me the sweetest kiss. As he pulls away I grab him to kiss again - but the kiss quickly turns into a very intense, passionate kiss and before we know it - we're naked. We discuss other ways of taking care of this -- frustration that does not include intercourse. So we proceed with other ways - however - instead of helping they are only making things worse - for both of us. Until I throw him onto his back and tell him enough is enough - I can't do this -- this way. He rolls me on my back. We are about to finish what we've started when he says - no. He can't do it. I have so much frustration and anger in me that this point - everything has just hit the boiling point on every level - that I take my legs and push him off the bed. It's a strong push that sends him off the bed and into the dresser.

I look at the clock and I realize that my sister will be here soon to pick me up for the airport. He leaves the room, tears are pouring down his face. I scream as loud as I can and start beating the crap out of everything. He lets me do this. I pack. My sister arrives.

H = I love you sunshine. Hurry back.

I kiss him and tell him that I love him too.

Then I'm done.

As I was there - experiencing all this -- I knew that I was with Bill for several days in which we talked about everything - no sexual contact. We discussed past lives, visions, plans, you name it - we talked about it - even Ted -- although he didn't really want to talk about him. We laughed, had so much fun. Showed each other stones/crystals, had a great time cooking. He read "The Black Triangle" and loved it. Wanted to see the book. The all-over time we were together was very positive and uplifting - comforting. It's only here at the end where things got out of control. As I'm writing this, I can sense that both he and I were very scared at this time - what was going to happen? Were we going to see each other again? When? How? For how long next time? He worried - what will he do to my life?

Staying in Ohio -- hummm.....I don't know.

I'd have to say that it is a "wow" of a stone spirit - wouldn't you?

I started to put into motion the changes that were strongly suggested by Jezel. I have it all set for April 1st (no April fool joke here) to stop the serves mentioned and introduce others. I've already add a couple more workshops. Embarking on this line is outside my comfort zone - but I'm being pushed for a reason - so be it!

Off to work I go -- hope everyone has a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Jezel Invades My Shower - No Film At 11:00!

I'm minding my own business in the shower this morning - scrubbing away at my hair - when Jezel "pops" into my head. I can't see her - only hear her. It's a good thing it is just me and my son here cause I was talking back to her out loud;) Normally I don't - but today I felt compelled to.

She said that I am too scattered - too diverse in what I offer to people. I of course, tell her that I don't get it. She asks me at the core - what do I do? I respond, I offer advice and I write. She says - exactly. What do you offer people? So I think about it and rattle off: readings, spells, sachets, flower essences, energy healing, advice column & podcast, horoscopes, numerology, workshops and books.

She says -- exactly. Grrrrr......so what I have to ask -- I'm supposed to cut some of the things I do now? She says yes and then she says plus add. I'm like -- &^%$##$%%^^...SIGH. Okay, so what needs to go? Whatever does not include the core of advice - so that would be spells, sachets, healing and flower essence. Yes she says. But I don't want to - in fact - wasn't it the guides and Archangels that showed me that I am meant to heal? Of course Jezel replies -- but not now -- your advice paves the way for the healing and the healing center. The healing is a group effort - you four are much stronger as a connect core group than separate. You mean Larry too is a healer? I hear - yes.

But I have people who depend on the flower essences - heck - I depend on them and I talk about them all the time. Plus - they will be part of the healing center -- so why can't I offer the blends to other people. Isn't that advice? Yes and no is the reply. I offer the advice on what flower essence can work to help them with their situation. But the actual preparation of the flower essence is not advice. I can advise them on what flower essence to take - but they have to become aware of flower essence and learn more about them on their own. This is how the word gets out about flower essences - people need to experience, understand -- not just to be told and handed a bottle. They need to be part of their own process in a way that gets them out there to read more about the essences - to explore all the different kinds - not to be pigeon holed into a select few. Understand? Yes I do -- but I'm still not sure about it. She says in time I will understand.

So then I ask about the spells -- do you know how many people I help with this? She says - of course I do. Then how can I stop? She says don't stop offering the advice, just stop performing the spells. Do you know how many unethical people there are out there praying on people who are too scared to cast their own spells? She says - yes. This is why it is important for you to teach them how to do this on their own -- so that they do not have to rely on another. In turn, they can teach another -- and so forth. Are spells more likely to succeed if the person who needs it casts it? I say -- yes. Then fine she says. Okay - so I have to take down that I write and cast spells and can I leave a message on how to cast/write their own. No she says. What??????

(By now I am out of the shower and doing all of the after shower stuff)

Now I see a glimpse of Jezel in my bathroom mirror - she's over my left shoulder (looks like right in mirror). She says - workshops. Offer more workshops. And she says -- no psychic workshops - empowerment workshops. So you want me to change the name of the workshops and offer more on writing/casting their own spells,make their own sachets - do their own magic? Yes. Offer a workshop on flower essence? Yes. Help people EMPOWER their lives.

Anything else - I ask? Yes - you need to be guide to others - to offer your guidance to help them get control of their destiny. I have to think about this for a minute or so -- and then I say -- you mean like a coach? A life coach? Yes and no is her reply. Okay - so yes to the coach part. Yes. Then not a life coach more of a ---- empowerment coach? YES!

Jezel smiles and as she fades from view says -- better get busy, time is of the essence.

HA! Guides and their sense of humor -- but I know what she means - I have to move now.

So I thought about it all and it makes sense - for me to have an advice platform. I'm not really happy though about not offering the flower essence blends, healing or spells. But I get it. Now as far as the coach part goes -- thought a lot about this too. What can my coaching involve? Monthly - 4 - 30 min phone calls (one a week), unlimited email support, a plan of action based on the clients needs, along with support materials. I think that sounds good? What do you think? Now what to charge -- that's a stickler -- and something that I would have to think about. Maybe I'll post a poll to see what people would be willing to pay. I have seen Life Coaches charge anywhere from 300 - 700/month.

And I thought the only thing I had on my agenda for today was to keep working my script.

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Ted, Larry and Erotica!

I hadn't planned on writing today - got a boat load of stuff to do in a very small window of time. But as you know my guides -- they're giving me the nudge to write anyways.

So what to write about? Bill. Yes Bill. Surprisingly enough, he's around but on the outskirts. Like when a 4 year old is to shy to approach someone so they peak out every once and again from around the corner to see what you're up to. He's like that. Here - but not here. I'm not positive if it is annoying or comforting. Quite possibly a combination of the two. For a brief time during the afternoon, I could feel the intensity of his emotions - the soul's longing to connect. I keep having to remind myself - I'm the beacon of light - don't let myself get dragged down to the emotional mess he is in -- I need to be the strong one so that he can see his way clear.

Ted's emotions are starting to gather strength and speed. They are getting hotly intense in the way that he is tired of screwing around with this - he feels that Bill has been wasting time and in turn he, Ted, is being short-changed. I can't feel that Ted is going to hang back much longer and let Bill take his good ole time.

Now Larry on the other hand is sitting back, arms folded, foot up on the other knee, dark sun glasses on and just shaking his head back and forth. I can hear him say "Get a grip guys, it's about time you were toilet trained".

I'm thinking that he's getting impatient too - which I find funny in the way that he doesn't personally know Bill or Ted. So this attitude is based on a intuitive feel or hunch. Then again - I am assuming that they do not know one another. I can't ever feel a personal meet in this life. But one doesn't really know unless one asks -- right?

Late this afternoon, I received an email from Cindy about the meditation session the other day - she gave me her perspective. I was only going to put part of it -- but then I'll be dammed if Robert didn't come by and tell me -- all of it! Dang that guide. He says he isn't here but then he pulls a whammy on me. So much for trying to go back to my comfort zone. So here's Cindy's $02 in its entirety:

"I am getting that you will have prominence and wealth in the near future and you are ready to utilize your full potential and success is right within your reach. You have a passionate desire to transform your work, spiritual work as well as otherwise and something old is passing and something new is entering into your life as a result, bringing transformation, illumination and enlightenment. Your internal fire is creating inner transformation giving you drive and motivation to accomplish anything you desire.

Bill is becoming more calm, advancing towards you at a slow and steady pace. He is gaining knowledge, information and wisdom right now. He is recognizing that he has had one-sided thinking and looking at things, has been denouncing any responsibility in his actions and putting forth as little effort as possible.

He feels he needs to acquire some more information or knowledge before he contacts you. The two of you will have a favorable connection in the near future experiencing much happiness and find faithfulness in love, having domestic and physical comfort, in a grounded relationship. There is much success between you, material gains and wealth. He feels that time is running out for him and that he is approaching or exceeding the deadline for his decision to contact you. He knows that he, not Ted, should make the contact.

He wants to make a fresh start in life. He has desire to express himself through art and writing right now. He feels overwhelmed by stress and responsibilities.

He feels he needs to take time out to contemplate the situation before proceeding, though he also recognizes that he needs to be open to taking and accepting Ted’s advice.

Ted is overflowing with excitement and ideas, his mind is constantly thinking about you. He wants to move from the awareness level of you to the physical level if you will. He wants you to be more accessible to him, he wants to explore and learn more about you, to discover more about you.

He is receptive and open to you, and he wants to move towards your light. He is not happy that opportunities to connect to you have been denied and are not available to him and he feels he is missing valuable time. He feels that Bill is deviating too far from the original plan and goal.

Whatever the conversation Larry was having, experiencing, it came as unusual or bizarre and evoked strong feelings and reactions. I am getting that he is somewhat accused or something, perhaps of not minding his own business and butting into other’s affairs. I want to say this is something to do with Bill."

So there you have it -- I guess that I was right on with what I was sensing. Could it be that something good and positive is heading my way?? Ohhhh....it's been so long since I could say something really good happened (my son and meeting Dirk Benedict when I was 11 are the only really two items I would stick into good - although seeing Bill last year was super sweet if not emotionally draining) that it may throw me a curve ball when it does happen. I'll probably pinch myself to make sure I'm awake - LOL!

EROTICA - noun: Creative activity (writing or pictures or films etc.) of no literary or artistic value other than to stimulate sexual desire.

Not to be confused with porn or smut (although I did say smut in a previous post - which I was wrong) - there's a fine line. It's to tease without being vulgar. I do have to argue too that there is literary value - it's all in the presentation.

Oh, and did I mention that the business focus is on women? This will be an adventure - that's for sure! I love that my creativity allows me to work in so many different venues.

God - I want to go to New Zealand so bad I can taste it. I can't describe the intense urgency for me to hop on a plane and just go. Now if I only had the money - and a reason -- I've got the passport:)

For not having a lot to say - I sure did write enough!

Okay off to write a bit more and then heading to dream-land!

Hope the luck of the Irish smiled down upon you today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Ruby Sphere, The Guys And Writing!

I am guided to work with the ruby sphere today. When I hold it I can sense fire - a propulsion, even forced, into the next level of life. It is energetic, alive, vital, sexual, prophecy, boundary-less. I can sense its a Phoenix one that arises from the ashes, but also shapeshifts into a lion. This spirit honestly reminds me a lot of Ted - very fiery, intense. I can feel its courage its quest for its caretaker to have inner growth. There is also astral travel, healing and foresight. I ask where did it come from? It shares with me some images: Cleopatra mulling over a large ruby sphere. I am then shown her death, a raid on her palace, the sphere stolen and in Rome (I believe with the architecture, the pillars, bathing houses), a fire and that sphere disappearing. So I ask - is this part of the larger sphere? No, that sphere is still intact. He says he is from the same earth, the same ground where this sphere was from. So that he has all the same properties as she does. He can lead me to her. Then he says that this is all that I am permitted to see about him right now. But that I might like to take a look at this:

I can see Bill going through a used or rare book store - one outside of the states, like in Spain, France or Italy. May even be the UK, I'm not sure. Picking up old books, looking though them. He is drawn to one in particular. It is a large book - about 8 x11, leather bound light brown, but very faded due to age. There are what reminds me of the top on thumb tacks along both sides of the spine. I can hear the paper "talk" as he turns pages. He sits in a chair and cannot put it down, not even to pay for it. He comes to a page about 1/4 of the way in and he freezes. A door unlocks - I can see it - that same door that opened for me all those years ago -- something struck a familiar cord. He rushes to the counter to pay.

Now I see Ted, he looks to be in LA, but he is watching a show on TV. Well, not really watching it - but the TV is on. He is busy pouring over his work for later that day. The announcer says something - I believe its my name - Allie - and my involvement as the US spokesperson for the erotic company (which, BTW guys I am). But whatever it is, that door opens in him. It's a zinger too because he moves right up on the TV - I don't know to hear better? He just falls to the floor and lies there. I can hear him say - bloody hell.

Larry is talking to someone - a male - I can't see his face, only the back of him, and he has short hair, dark with gray in it. But Larry sits there in disbelief until this man says something that triggers a --oh God - out of him. He sits back and is in complete amazement - something about it all making sense now.

I saw a glimpse of my novel, The Black Triangle, on book shelves - that is a nice feeling.

Then the door closed and I'm done....

I got the message last night in my dreams that it is all important to get my gypsy magic books done and get a move on this novel. I either have to 1) go on a writing sabbatical (which means no readings, spells, etc....) 2) or get a grip and work out some sort of schedule. So I'm going with 2 right now and I'm making progress on book 3 as well as the script so that can be done in order to get a move on the novel. I can feel what I would equate to a mighty force just pushing on my back to get me to hurry.

I'm amazed how many podcast listeners I've picked up over the last week. I guess the Listener Appreciation idea is working - no?

I'm also shocked at the number of people who have signed up for the Soul mate workshop and it's still a month away! Looks like I will sell out well before the start date!

Heard back from the cable company - its a no go. Not with me - but they scrapped the whole project. Do you remember a few sessions back when I think it was Robert who told me not to bother hunting for any more freelance jobs as what I have will give me enough work? Well - thus far what he holds is true - not about the work part - but about that things I am completely qualified for I'm not getting. Which means -- I'm not supposed to. Because - come summer, I will be the US/Canada spokesperson for the erotica company. It has taken a whole shift from when I first talked with this company back in what - January? So now I'm on board as a co-founder with a big set of responsibly. So you guys may see me - just not where you think you would of:) When the company is ready to go public -I'll let you know more.

I have also found 3 books I wouldn't mind publishing under my Gypsy Girl Press name. All of course have to do with gypsies - two non-fiction and one suspense novel.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Jezel And A Chill In The Meadow!

I'm doing this early today as I have a funeral to attend.

I'm immediately taken to the meadow - it is stark, barren and covered in snow. There's a nice snowfall happening - big flakes. I'm cold. Jezel arrives from my right carrying a heavy cape. Reminds me of what Borimir from Lord of the Rings wore in the movie. It is very warm and I instantly thaw out. I tell her - thank you. She smiles - those green eyes a twinkling. She puts her arm in mine and we walk.

I ask her why this place is so cold right now, I don't remember it ever being like this. She says that this is what happens when I put my walls up. I tell her that I don't remember putting up any walls. So I can't imagine why they are there. She tells me that it is an automatic reflex - I've been doing it for so long that I do not realize it when it happens.

Have you felt them? She asks. No - probably not for a few days. I figured that they were off doing there thing and I've been working so much that I hadn't put much thought into it. She smiles. I look at her. Ahhhhhh....I put the walls up so that I could work. She says - yes. But I'm getting a lot done - if I take them down then they'll interfere with my process.

Jezel looks at me and asks - you can read each other thoughts - correct? I say yes. You can communicate telepathically if you desire - correct? Yes. Then why can you not tap into each others creativity to propel your work forward. Use their fire to fuel your work - not put your work to bed. I hadn't thought of it that way - it is a very good idea. Would it work for them too - will Bill be able to create more, and Ted and Larry? She says yes.

I want to show you something - she says - and we enter a tree trunk. It's odd, but I can feel myself traveling through the network of roots - even though it is in a flash and I didn't "see" anything. We emerge from a tree and I see a building. We look inside a first floor window and Ted is there, a pad of paper in front of him and he is trying to draw. But he keeps messing up, taking the paper and throwing it away. He's very agitated. We go back into the tree and come upon a house - I look in and I see Bill just staying at his journal. If I stand on my tip toes I can tell it is blank. Back into the tree we go and I'm now by another house - rather large. I peer in and Larry is just lying there - I can't sense any real energy from him at all. We go back into the tree.

And emerge back at the meadow. Jezel says - see what happens when you wall them off. I nod. She tells me to close my eyes and visualize the wall coming down - melting. So I do. It is difficult to do as the wall (which looks like a large ice structure) will not come down. I visualize the sun melting it away - but it is being stubborn. So I get a jack hammer and chip away at it until it comes down. I tell her that it is gone. She says open your eyes. I do and the meadow is in the midst of a thaw. Signs of spring arrive.

Now tap into the collective creative force - you all work better as a whole instead of individuals.

Jezel then moves on to tell me to reply to a moon water email post that I read. That the reply will set off a chain of events that I may not see, but will feel. I am reminded to finish book 3 and to complete the rewrite of the script. This has to be a novel she says and it will not until you are satisfies with the script.

She leans in and says - don't worry about your son, he'll be fine. Keep following my path. With that she leaves and I'm done.

I heard back from the Franck Goddio Society and they have not found a ruby sphere -- yet. So one never knows......

Have a good day. It was 65 here yesterday -- today its 32.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Where To Begin?

I seem to have a lot of stuff going on. So much so that I'm not sure where to begin or even what to include in blog entry. Maybe not WHAT to include - but that I'll FORGET to include something. Sigh. My son is home from preschool for the next two weeks as his school is in sync with the college (as its part of the college) and it's spring break time. Right now he's sitting in front of me telling me all about jazz. He's clicking his fingers, his eyes are closed and he's humming a jazz tune while his head bops to the music. Too damn cute.

Thunderstorms are kicking our butts around here - we're on alert until tomorrow morning. There's a mention of tornado force winds (if not an actual tornado) in the evening. Just great. Being in a tornado is something I never wish to do again. Granted, it was only a category 2 that went over my house -- but let me tell ya -- it was scary enough. Since my house is smaller than the two on either side of me, I was safe. But the neighborhood looked like a war zone. Trees down, power lines down, debris all over the place - and over turned cars, parts of houses.....and no electric. Very-very eerie.

I'm not entirely sure I'll be able to do my session tomorrow. My uncle died over the weekend. If you remember the picture of the orbs - the group photo - he was the one who had that huge orb right by his head. He was also my Godfather so this will be strange. He was only a couple years older than my parents. Just like my cousin a few months prior - cancer got him. I heard him before he went to the other side - it was a comfort. He told me that he was fine and not to worry.

Although the kid is home - I did manage to record my podcast:) He did make an appearance with one of his yells - but other than that he did good:) It's the start of my Listener Appreciation program. To learn more about that - take a look here: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/podcastlistenerappreciation.htm

I have a new workshop I'm offering for April:

Soul Mate Quest

Date: April 22, 2006 (Saturday)
Time: 7:00 pm EST

Syllabus:
*The difference of a soul mate, soul cluster and soul group
*How to spiritually call your soul mate to you
*How to have astral sex with your soul mate
*How to psychically connect with your soul mate - daily
*And more...

It's limited to 25 people only as it is via phone. You can participate from the comfort of your home! To learn more: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/psychic_healing_workshops.htm

I've gutted my script - "The Black Triangle" and it broke my heart. The core is still the same, along with much of story, but I've had to shorten and rearrange things. I have to remember that this is a movie - not a novel. In the book, I can put it all in - but in the script I have to be very selective so that the story flows.

I still haven't had the time I need to spend with my new ruby crystal sphere. Today another stone spirit arrived - a Ajotite Included Messia Quartz that is also a manifestation and record-keeper spirit with a nice pinkish haze to go with the turquoise color of the ajotite. It immediately asked to be placed with another Ajotite Included Messia Quartz -- so I did. Then something odd happened. The older crystal developed a pinkish tint in parts that wasn't there before......so fricken cool! I thought to myself before I saw that transformation that the two remind me of a husband and wife team (the wife being the newer and smaller crystal). There is a definite God/ess energy to the spirits. I'm looking forward to working more with them.

Speaking of spirits - my meadow that I always see in the visions? It really exists. In Mass. of all places -- but it's there - plain as day. No - I haven't physcially been there - but the person who owns the property recognized my telling of the meadow and also sent pictures - its the same place! Last week she was walking through it and arrived at a special place - here she "heard" three stone sprits call out - one for Larry, one for Ted and one for Bill. So she wrapped them up and sent them.

Upon opening the package on Saturday and I knew ASAP which one was Larry. No doubt at all. As I unwrapped him, I cried, I couldn't help it. I had a feel that he was right in front of me - his face by mine - and giving me the message that he will get to me. The stone spirit also gave me an all-over warmness....like a security blanket.

Ted I knew right away too - he had a calming, yet stern energy. Bill felt lost. It was like he was the red-headed step child. The energy feel "blah" only because it doesn't seem direct - like it is trying to get to me through a filter instead of directly through the stone spirit.

All three asked to be put on the mantel with the grid I have. Not to be placed inside to disturb what is already there - but outside of it so that I can pick them up when I want.

On the same day the package arrived, I got another one from something I purchased off of eBay. An autographed copy of the movie WITNESS from the cast (Harrison Ford, Danny Glover, Kelly McGillis, Lukas Haas. Viggo Mortensen, Patti LuPone and Alexander Godunov) and the director - Peter Weir. I was thrilled when I found this gem. I loved the movie,the script is wonderful and Harrison Ford SHOULD HAVE been nominated for an Oscar. It's a very special movie to me for many reasons. Now all I have to do is find an autograph copy of PATRIOT GAMES and I'm good to go!

The last two nights before I fell asleep, I asked my guide Jezel and Goddess Brigit to take me where I needed to go AND for me to remember what is important. Here's a recap of what I remember:

March 12 - Last night in my dreams I made a cell phone call. My cell phone was one of new SLVR that I want. The other end answers and its Ted. He's outside and in a good mood. He's like "Hey". I can hear the happiness in his voice. I tell him that I'm not who he thinks I am. He's like - you're not. I said no. He wondered who I was then and I told him an old friend. How did I get this number? Well before I got to tell him, I see my sister sitting next to my husband in an auditorium. His back is to her like he is taking care of son in the next seat. I show my sister the phone and it says "Ted" on it. We giggle and I hit the phone - I guess I had him on hold and he stayed on. I could tell he was getting in his car. He asked again how I knew his number. I told him that I found a yellow piece of paper (from a yellow legal pad, had blue lines and the slip was definitely torn from a full sheet of paper ) with the name Larry (Ted) Last Name on it and a phone number. So being the curious person I am - I wanted to see who this is. Ted is silent. I'm trying to get him to talk to him - I'm telling him that I don't really know him. What's his favorite color - favorite food? There is dead silence on the other end - but I know he didn't hang up - it was like he was in shock.

That was it...

I wish I remembered the number. This dream came about after I woke at 3:30 am for a thunderstorm. I asked Brigit and Jezel to take me to what I need to know and for me to remember. So this "call" has some sort of significance.


March 13 - I wish I would have had time this morning when I woke up to get this all down. This was the last dream of the evening/morning and it was about Ted. He was sitting down, blue jeans, white t-shirt. I was bending over picking up something and there was a comment about my hair. My hair is mid-back in length, curly and the red highlights are really sticking out. How it can get the way when I bed over. He says - maybe a for minute. I raise an eyebrow and say - maybe 2 or 3 if your lucky. I know that I'm referring to a blow job. He's like - what? I say that I'm a smart ass and its something he'll get used to.

I'm outside and Bill and Ted show up, we are all on a grassy hill. They are each wearing what I would think of as the old cigarette carries that the cigarette girls carried back in the day to see from. Out of a door come women, good-looking women, in their bras, undies and carrying tennis rackets. Bill and Ted foam at the mouth. I'm like - good God - you guys could get any of those women with the wave of your hand. What are you waiting for? Bill disappears. Ted likes hell no. I ask why? He says he has a good set up now and he doesn't want to ruin it. I'm - what are you talking about? He's standing there by himself and all of a sudden he is surrounded by women. I comment - that's fine, Ted - but when was the last time you felt anything but numbness? He looks at me and goes - what? I'm like - fuck it and walk off.

I'm going up a staircase in an old house - the wood is a very deep brown, almost black. I get to the top - reminds me of a balcony at the landing. I get to the end and want to make a right (which felt "normal" to me) to go down, but there is a cleaning sign up so I am forced to go left on the balcony - past books, many people. I'm thinking to myself - I've had it with the guys - they're on their own. I go to go downstairs - there is a man at the bottom that looks like a butler - he is instinctively familiar even if I can't see his face.

I wake up with a start and have a killer headache - just like the night before.

My take on dream number two is that Bill and Ted are taking a back seat while the Divine sends me on a rerouting opportunity. Not sure what - but it's really never a dull moment around here.

With that - I've got to go. The 5-year-old is growing restless and I haven't heard a peep in about 15 minutes. ALWAYS makes me nervous:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ruby Crystal, Larry and Myspace

I adopted a wonderful ruby crystal sphere the other day - it is also a record keeper and a rainbow. The sphere, from India, is a deep red like in my visions - but much smaller. However, it still packs a punch to be reckoned with.

I sat with the sphere - no other stones - for today's session. What I received was a jumble of scenes and times. So bear with me.

I'm immediately taken into a very long hallway - doors on each side for as far as the eye can see. The hallway is black with white doors. From behind me I can feel an intense energy. As the energy passes around and threw me down the hall, the black changed to a deep crimson.

I go to open a door on the right. But a door on the left - a few back - keeps grabbing my attention. So I enter it.

I'm in a lush meadow - not MY meadow - but one that is full of green - trees, bushes, hedges, grass. In the distance I can see the back end of a castle. I'm in a gown - nothing too formal - but very nice. I left my gown and discover that I am in bare feet. I take a few steps when I hear - where do you think you're going? I turn around and it's Larry. He is also dressed nice - but not formal. He too has bare feet. Hi beautiful - he says. Hi handsome - I answer.

He grabs me and showers me with passionate kisses. I pull back and tell him - what if someone sees us? He smiles -- isn't this my land? Aren't you my queen? I smile. Don't worry about everyone else!

I find myself exiting that door - out of breath! I enter the door I was originally going to go into and I'm in another hallway. But this one is part of a bigger manor. Larry is there - looks just like does now - and grabs my hand. Pushes me up against the wall and kisses on me. He says - there's someone here to see you. I'm like - who? He says - Bill. I'm shocked to say the least - then I'm pissed. Larry says that while I'm in there with Bill that he wants me to remember him. I give him my assurances that this will not be a problem! WOW!

Strange - but I can feel Ted's energy just hovering off in the distance - watching - waiting.

It's like then I go back in time a bit - as Larry and I are in Ireland, overlooking the water. We are at some castle ruins. I'm shy and nervous. So is he - but also charming. A lot of small talk.

I get a glimpse of me on a private plane. Another glimpse of my book, "The Black Triangle" landing on the NY bestsellers list.

I know that I'm back at home now - sitting in my office. I can hear my guide, Jezel, say - get ready.

I can feel Larry's astral energy in front of my body. I can sense his lips touch mine. Then it is as if his energy merges with me - it's like he goes right into my body.

Then I'm done.

This whole session was very intense.

I'm going to have to spend more tiem with this ruby sphere. I placed it next to my bed last night and I know that I did A LOT of astral travel. I found in a book I have by Melody:

Metaphysical Properties Attributed to Ruby Crystal:

• Access to the spiritual realms
• Access information from the akashic records relative to the development of the intuitive, psychic, and astral abilities.
• Stimulates the heart chakra and assists you in the selection and attainment of your ultimate values. Further stimulates the loving emotional side toward nurturing, bringing spiritual wisdom, health, knowledge, and wealth.
• The ruby crystals from India are said to be pieces form the spear of Lord Krishna, used during the Vedic ages to vanquish the Lord of Destruction from the Earth. They are now being used to assist in the intense focusing necessary for healing the Earth.
• Known as the "star of purity" and the "star fire", initiating action and assisting the Earth in receiving the full spectrum of light required for the progression of humanity toward the access of the spiral leading to enlightenment.
• Helps in the resolution of opposites, promoting the refinement of the will as a love-based force.
• It further acts to align the bodies - auric and physical - to the full light spectrum, encouraging the optimum state of health and being.
• It is an excellent stone for re-birthing and for releasing blockages which restrain one from the spiritual path.
• Acts to arrest leakages of energy from the chakras and to transmute negative energy to the "golden realm of reasoning".
• Assists in maintaining a connection with another person, with another area of the world, or with the Earth - allowing for the transmission of loving and gentle energy to the defined location/person.
• Assists you in the conscious access of ethereal consciousness, providing a medium through which an understanding and an actualization of the healing process can be manifested.
• They are said to have been used in Lemurian ceremonial activities and to maintain the psychic energies of that time period. It has also been used to facilitate access to the teachings of the ancient teachers of India.
• Ruby crystals promote dreaming and stimulate the connection with, and transmission of information from ones spiritual guides and higher Self.
• Some of these crystals are recognized as record-keepers, containing knowledge from the ancient realms of civilization and awaiting the opportunity to share the knowledge.
• Astral travel with these crystals has been quite successful.

No wonder this is a whopper!

I'm up to 95 friends now in Myspace - stop by....be my friend:) http://www.myspace.com/askallie

The script rewrite is going really well I hope to have that completed today. Then I'll put it away for a spell and do a polish.

Before I forget to mention - I have what's called a "Lens" which is a portal of ideas and experts try to put forth helpful info. I'd appreciate if you took a look at mine: http://www.squidoo.com/askallie/ and then rated it. If you can think of info I should add - please tell me. This is my advice page. I eventually want to add a gypsy lore page and maybe a divination page.

No word yet from the cable TV show - or from the regressionist. Why wouldn't some want to partner up with me on this? I'm a GOLD MINE full of information that is just waiting for someone to help me!

Back to writing I go -- if you've sent me an email - please be patient and I will return it:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Jezel, The Men And A Vortex!

I did something today that I haven't done in many months -- I sat with my wand, a Ajoite included Quartz crystal - surrounded by my 3 crystals.


I shifted immediately into my meadow. At first it was stark - bland - in the midst of winter. From one end I saw a flower bloom and that transformation spread throughout the meadow until everything was in full bloom. I stood there in wonder. From my right I sensed Larry. I turned and boy did he smile. One big step later he was hugging me. He caresses my face - mentioning that he has been searching for me for so long. Waiting for so long that he thought he couldn't stand the pain another second. Then I just appeared to him - he calls it a miracle. I call it destiny. He smiles. He is so grateful that I'm here - he is thankful. He stares to the heavens - outstretches his arms and screams "Thank You". Then those blue eyes twinkle at me and he simply stares.


Someone clears their throat and it's Ted. He flashes me that smile of his and says - you didn't forget about me did you? I leap into his arms - whisper how much I've missed him. He says I look good and I laugh and say - you've looked better. He shrugs and mentions that he hasn't been the best to himself. Larry and Ted shake hands and then hug. Not in the manly way of the pat on the back. But a - God I've missed you brother - hug. It was very touching. I ask Ted - where's Bill? He looks over my shoulder and nods his head.


I turn and off in the distance is Bill. He is just standing there - arms down to his side. He looks horrible - beat up - drained. Where he stands the area is back to be barren. It is also in black and white. It hurts all three of us to see him like that. I call out to him. In what appears to be like a movie on fast forward - he reaches us. As he glides to us - the place he passes through turns back to being in bloom. By the time he gets to us - all is in bloom again.


His eyes are red. I say - hi. He gives an odd, wishful smile. I ask him what's wrong? He replies - I didn't think you'd want me around. I force him to stare into my eyes when I reply - I always want you around. There isn't one single moment that I don't want you near me - us. But for you to make that step is up to you.


Larry and Ted join me - one on each side. Larry says - welcome home. Ted adds in - brother. There is a bright light from within me that starts in the center of my soul and expands out to encompass all of us. I can hear a voice telling me - you are the beacon of light. Have faith. The heavens open up with a powerful white light and my light reaches up so they combine into one source of brilliance.


Next thing I remember is that we are all holding hands. In the center of us is a vortex. The earth swirls clockwise - faster and faster until the dirt is replaced by a brilliant light with all the colors of the spectrum. From white to black and all in between - swirling - spiraling up into the heavens. The vortex grows faster - the light strengthen until there is a flash and we are all in violet outfits - they are in tunics and pants - but regal ware and I am in a gown that is simply breathtaking. The violet transforms into pure white. The vortex closes - the heavens close. We are all just standing there looking at one another. Then the guys one by one tell me that they love me and shimmer (for lack of a better term) off. Now I'm alone.


I see a woman with flaming red hair - down to her butt, pale skin and the greenest of eyes approaches me. She is barefoot and clothed in a burgundy gown with a sweeping neckline. The dress has a Celtic border to it - in gold. The symbols are the triad that are in her border.


She tells me that she is Jezel - my guide. She tells me that I am the light of hope and to keep the faith. I must be prepared to experience a shatter of what I thought was in order for what is true to come forth. I guess the look I gave her (like a huh?) prompts her to continue on by saying - things that are revealed to you in the manner that they are -and were- are all for a good reason. It will all be okay. I am to expect that things are about to move at lightening speed. Have faith that I am being taken where I need to be.


She starts to fade off when I ask her if she is the one I call upon now. She smiles and says - yes.


Then I'm done.


I'm late to pick up my son - will try to write more later!


Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

What Does U2 and Vertical Horizon Have In Common?

ME (and Larry)!

BTW....remember that I do NOT use real names here (use cheat sheet in past post).

You just KNEW I had to find the lyrics to both songs since I can't get them out of my head and they both revolve around Larry.

CS,
Allie;)

VERTIGO - U2

Unos, dos, tres, catorce [1,2,3,14]

Turn it up loud, captain!

Lights go down
It's dark
The jungle is your head
Can't rule your heart
I'm feeling so much stronger
Than I thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul it can't be bought your mind can wander

Hello, Hello
Hola! [Spanish for Hello]
I'm at a place called vertigo (¿Dónde está?) [Where is it?]
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something I can feel
Feel

The night is full of holes
Those bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle as the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know

I can sell the beat
I'm askin' for the cheque
Girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus 'round the neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music
Woooao

Hello, Hello
Hola!
I'm at a place called
Vertigo (¿Dónde está?) [Where is it?]
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
Feel

Check mated
Oh yeah
Hours of fun...

All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want and no-one gets hurt

Hello, Hello
Hola!
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Lights go down and all I know
Is that you give me something I can feel
You're teaching me ...aaahhh
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel
Kneel

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!


FOREVER - VERTICAL HORIZON

Take these roses all from me
Let me live, let me be
For a little while
Let my eyes,
See everything and nothing in their time
I do not mind

Who've guess I'd learn
To let the walls around me burn

Light up the hillside
My words, I ate them for so long and nothing changed
It was just the same

And I don't know if you see me
But I can tell you your face is clear
I will see you...

Forever
Forever
I will see you
Forever
Forever

Call me close once again
Call me teacher, call me friend
Just like the first time

Call my name, it echos around me in this room
Its all you

I don't know if you hear me there
But it's dark so no one cares
I will hear you...

Forever
Forever
I will hear you
Forever
Forever

I wanted you to be everything to me
Now I've got to learn to carry on
I know I cannot hide this emptiness inside
But nothing is the same since you've gone

Send me letters from above
Send me strength, send me love
Such sweet love
Sing me songs that echo in my head and in my heart
That's where you are

And I don't know if you feel me here
I can tell you one thing that's clear
I will feel you...

Forever
Forever
I will feel you
Forever
Forever
I will hear you
Forever
Forever
I will see you
Forever
Forever

Take these roses all from me
Let me live, let me be

Bill, Ted, Larry and My Poetic Muse!

So I tell myself - seal them off. It's a good idea -- who needs the drain anyways...right? Well I'll be damned if Bill isn't trying to make his presence known all of a sudden. I mean, what the @uck? Ted - no where to be found. That's fine. I wish Bill would just either join him in the retreat or get on with it all ready and make that %$#@ call.

If feels strange not having Robert around. I keep trying to "jingle" him - but I keep getting the "you're onto the next level" message. (SIGH). You know what I'm thinking? That his job was not only to get me to keep writing the books - but to also bring Larry into my consciousness. As soon as book 1 went into print, Larry arrived. When Larry arrived - Robert said that his job is done. Have you heard the song "Forever" by Vertical Horizon? It brings Larry to mind and an immediate smile to my face. This man just makes me smile. I'm really looking forward to the day where he and I can chat. I can't bring forth any past lives but for a glimpse of one.

In this life I can see a castle (what is it with me and castles?) I have a sense that it is in Ireland. We were a king/queen and I was pregnant. There is a storming of the castle - by his brother or uncle? He wants me to go but I refuse to leave his side. Then I can see us going through a very dark, cold and spooky underground passage to try to get to safety - him, I and his advisor. The last thing I can grasp (not sure if it is this life or another) is he is sick - in my arms. We both die at the same time. Our spirits are standing by the bed when our son and daughter burst in.

I don't know -- I really don't. I hear ya -- I need another regression. Boy, do I!

I'm working my tush off on this rewrite of "The Black Triangle". It's really good. That sounds rather egotistic, doesn't it? But it is pretty good. I have to keep pushing me to get the script done so that I can write the novel. Working on book 3 in the Gypsy Magic series - ironing out the bumps in the previous two books. Publishing certainly has been a learning experience. I'm considering taking on two books that I didn't write: one is from a doctor who forcefully served the Nazi's in WWII in a concentration camp, the other is about the gypsy race in Europe today and how they are discriminated against.

Where am I to find the time? I'll figure something out -- I always do.

Yesterday I kept seeing the numbers 888 and 222. To a point it was driving me nuts! So I thought about what could they be telling me and came to these conclusions:

222 - Keep my faith. All will be fine and things are resolving themselves behind the scenes. Breathe.
888 - The universe is a constant flow of prosperity and abundance. I have stepped into the path and financial rewards will be mine now and in the future.

Both explanations work for me.

The poetic muse caught me:

Beneath the frame
Is a soul that beats
With the eternal rhythm
Of our soulful connection.

*******************

One heart beat
Is what it took to find you.

One heart beat
Is all it took to recognize you.

One heart beat
Is the time it took to love you.

One heart beat
Is all it took to lose you.

Eternal heart beats,
Is what I will use to win you back.

********************

I feel a nudge to get back to work. So I'm going to do just that......

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

FYI - Animal/Environment Updates

Hi Guys,

I'm going to start posting most of the animal/enviroment updates to the Gypsy Girl Press site:
http://www.gypsygirlpress.net/

If something really has me in an uproar -- I'll post in both places.

Take care!!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

No More Disrespect -- Period!

I didn't much want to do a session today. Not sure WHY exactly - except that there is a part of me who is tired of thinking about everything. I don't want to think about everyone else but me, yet that is what I keep doing. What do I tell my clients ALL the time??? Don't worry/dwell over those things you cannot change - only over what you CAN change. And yes, the only thing I know I can change is me and the bad habits I've accumulated over the years only to be strengthened by the realization of my soul mates/cluster/circle.

I've come to the painful conclusion the last two days that I let others disrespect me. I'm strong in so many areas, but when it comes to respecting me -- I fall short. I've allowed people, many of those closest to me, over the years to just rip down my self-respect so much so that the face I look at in the mirror every morning I hardly recognize. Yet anyways - I stepped into the arena with Bill - pouring it out to him in words he could and I know DO understand. Yet what? No reply. Nothing. Did I expect something? I must have on some level or I wouldn't be so disappointed that I've heard nothing. My conscious self knew that I stood a better chance having sex with Harrison Ford than to have Bill return my message. But my soul, for it's connective-ness to eternity, knows that a no reply is not what was called for. I've never been disillusioned about the outcome - just hopeful. That's me, the eternal optimist.

I made a vow to myself this morning to cut the ties of disrespect that I find. It doesn't matter who it is or why the ties are in place - but they have to go - or at least be sealed off to the point where they no longer have any power over me at all - not even in my dreams. This is where I'm sticking Bill and Ted - sealed off. If things change in the future - fine, I'll reconsider. I mean, come on, I WILL answer the phone! But for now -- sealed. No more extra energy. There are a couple of people that need to be let go of - simply cut from my life all together and this involves timing. My goal here is by my birthday of May 2nd.

Another part of my hesitation to doing a session is that Robert has stepped back. He said his good-byes yesterday and that he will be around if I need him - but won't be "right there". Appears his work with me is finished. I'm moving to the next level. This is in a way is exciting, but a bit overwhelming. I keep hearing the name Jazell - not spelled with a Ga but a Ja and yes.. a "z". I can feel Robert's energy in the background - way in the back - but it is some comfort to realize he is there -- just in case.

So what does all this mean for Larry? I don't know. I haven't yet felt that tortured soul energy as I always have with Bill and Ted. There is no desperation - no "me" involved - just a genuine commitment for support - no matter what level I need it at. There is that longing I can feel, but one that is mixed with patience -- he is confident of the road we will travel even if neither of us knows what road that is. I'm trying to think how I can explain the energy I feel with him -- it is like a security blanket - big, warm, inviting, safe, comfortable. He's like the guy you've dated all through high school - graduation comes and it is time for you two to go off to different colleges. You are tearful, afraid, desperate about the separation, yet he wipes your tears away with such tenderness and tells you that everything will be alright -- that you both are about to have totally separate life experiences, but in the end, he will be waiting for you. With the added call as you are getting into the car -- you're going to marry me some day! And he doesn't get married until that day arrives when you two meet again -- older, wiser and more in love than you ever could of been as young people. Does it make sense?

There's nothing toxic with Larry - and I like that. Don't get me wrong - he's no saint -- he's had his demons in this lifetime - but he's dealt with them. Bill and Ted are still trying to figure out how to tame or conquer their demons. My demon? Myself. It's time that chang