Update On My Son

An update on my son. Sometime this afternoon, a switch seemed to go off in him and he feels fine now. He was burning up and then all of a sudden - bingo. He still has his cough that we can't figure out why he has yet and his eyes look like he smoked too much hooch today:) But other than that - he's a normal almost 6 year old boy. Running around, giving me hell. I'm very-very thankful. The doctors still do not know what caused his temperature to go to 104.3 - no clue. On the flip side of this - I feel like my bones are hallowed out and I'm so tired it's pathetic. I'm chalking it up to two nights with hardly any sleep. I better be okay by my b-day. Fingers crossed.

No real words of wisdom tonight or any spiritual updates. I've got a few readings to do and then I'm heading to bed! I have some dream travel I want to concentrate on tonight!

Talk to you later.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

BTE, My Shower and My Son

Just when I thought it was safe to go back in the water.......

(SIGH)

This week is not going as planned - not at all. So if you have sent me an email at all within the last 7 days -- more than likely it is still sitting in my "inbox". Patience is appreciated - I'm trying to get caught up, and it is not going well. So what's going on? Well on the countdown to my 39th birthday on May 2nd - my son is sick again -- and this time, despite the numerous tests run today, cannot figure out what is wrong. We have blood tests, EKG's , lung x-rays...and that poor kid is still burning up, tired and full of congestion (sinus, not lungs - although in lungs and coughing). So after a killer of a headache woke him up at 2:30 am, I was up too and I never went back to sleep. Tonight - it will probably go the same way - although I sure hope not. That headache that hit him last night was a whopper - AND he had a 104.3 temp to boot. Some nice healing wishes for my little dude would be appreciated. Round 2 of tests are tomorrow.....

On Friday I'm supposed to go see Better Than Ezra at the Palace Theater in Canton. I'm really looking forward to this - my friend Linda and I are close up front and my two sisters are practically on stage they're so close. I'm spending the night with my girlfriend and coming home on Sat. The last time I saw BTE was back in 1999, in Cleveland - when I was introduced to Guinness (as in the beer). It was a wondrous time. By the end of the night, I had everyone in our group (plus the bartender) convinced to head to New Orleans to continue drinking. I remember the bartender saying that I was trouble. I had to laugh at that one...out of the three sisters, I get in trouble the least amount of times:) Only a week after this concert did I find out that I was pregnant with my son --oops. Good thing we didn't go to New Orleans.

This time around we will all go out again - I haven't had a girl's night out in years. So if you're at the concert - don't forget to say "hi". Of course - there is a chance that I won't go if my son is still too sick. If he's still bad I'd rather be home - ya know?

The erotica company is moving full-steam ahead. Speaking of which, if there are any females who read this blog who would like to be part of a focus group to read and comment on the various stories before they go to audio - drop me an email at askallie@gypsyadvice.net Now remember - this is erotica - if sex offends you, please do not ask to read.

Tonight LOST is on...come on Josh Holloway (Sawyer)! Now he is a stress reliever:)

Strangely enough, I had my session last night while I as in the shower. I honestly forget a good chunk of it as it has been 24 hours - but this is what I remember. I'm showering away, not a care in the world when I hear Ted's voice in my ear saying - be quick about it. You know me -- I ask -- what? Be quick about what? Then I hear Bill in the left hear - has it ever occurred to you that we're waiting on you? Well, no - it hasn't I said. Ted - then consider it.

From this point on:
A = Allie
B = Bill
T = Ted

A - well, what am I supposed to do?
B - you know.
A - no I don't.
T - oh get off with yourself, what needs to be done, a bop in your head?

Something - something - something happened...can't remember.......

Peter and Larry arrive and go on that they agree with Bill and Ted. I tell them that they are of no help and to go -- they do.

B - do you know that we pay attention - we know.
A - pay attention to......current events? gas prices -- what?
T - why must you always be a smart arse?
A - because I'm tired of not getting a straight answer. What more could I possible have to do that I haven't done yet?
B - obviously something or we wouldn't be here.

Now Bill's friend, we'll call him DC arrives. And Bill takes a step back.

DC - you worry him much more than he lets on. He worries about the overlap.
A - the what?
DC - the overlap -- he worries.
A - you are the second person to bring up this overlap (Ted stopped by a friends house the other day/astral plane/ and was chatting about that I would need someone to talk to about the overlap). what are you talking about?
T - you're going to marry me.
A - not this again.

Then everyone starts to talk at once. I basically yell that since none of them could wash my back - to get. Ted gave me a rough time about that - but they all left and my shower was at peace once again. And that was it.

I did get to have a few dreams last night - one that I remember is someone buying me a Guinness and a shot of whiskey. I'm at a pub with my British biz partner, and the server comes over and just places them both down. I got it immediately as I've said in reality that if either Bill or Ted (or both since they are friends) ever saw me out at a pub, this is the combo I would need -- kind of like their letting me know that they are there. A calling card perhaps?

I just took my shower and checked on my son. I think I may have to take him to the ER tonight. I hope not......but he's worse now than before.

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Running Behind - Gypsy Magic For The Prosperity's Soul Now in Soft cover!

But why I'm behind has nothing to do with the book:) My sister from CA is here and she is helping me get organized -- this is a HUGE task, let me tell you! So I will have a session, it will just be later today - after I finish my readings and my edits for the erotica story line.

In the mean time, I'm just damn excited to have the book in soft cover - details below!!

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Allie:)

Only Love Is Real

You know, drinking coffee, eating a chocolate bunny, dipping it into a small bowl of peanut butter before each bite is a bad way to start the morning. Tasted great -- but seeing that I'll be 39 in little over a week, I should know better. Now -- I don't feel so well. However -- I am awake;)

Last night I gave more thought about that days session, something still wasn't right. So as I went to sleep I asked for an answer. The parts of the dream that I can remember is Bill, Ted and I in an office. I'm being regressed and the two of them are watching. In the regression I go back to this scene - this time of death. What I gather is that Bill became our enemy when members of Atlantis wanted to use the crystals for power and control instead of healing and peace. Bill was seduced by that power and wanted me to join him. But I wouldn't. I stayed with Ted and in the light. Bill looked at this as betrayal. The leader of this group is my husband (in today's world) - who is the one of the ones who discovered how to use the crystals for power. He and I were friends. Love was given very freely between people then, and he wanted me for only himself. When I said no - I'm not excluding Bill or Ted for anyone - this is when his anger got dangerous and his obsession with power began.

My husband and Bill became good friends. When it came to this part - the death of us three, my husband considered it a betrayal that Bill switched sides - that his love for us was stronger than his loyalty to my husband and the cause. So with my husband watching and not doing anything at this time - he believed that the punishment I was receiving fit the crime. He was also deeply hurt and since power to him was the only way he knew to gain respect -- well -- there you have it.

In this life, my husband is a lot like this - a leader, very head strong, demands loyalty but also talks a talk but not the walk. He is also not a violent man -- as far as I know. Funny enough, and this just dawned on me -- he invented a new way to create energy without using disposable natural resources - a way to make power. However, he refuses to pursue it which I find disappointing. But seeing how this is how the fall of Atlantis came about -- guilt transcends time until we let it go.

I'm not sure we married just so Bill couldn't get to me - although I'm not 100% positive on that one. I do think though, that it is because of him that I put two and two together for Bill and then Ted...etc... I never would have set foot in Wooster had I not been married to him. Had we not moved to Wooster, I would not have had the conversation I did with my neighbor, which led me to discover the connection. Had I not moved to Wooster I may have just stuck with being a CPA and ignored my intuition longer. Of course too - had he and I not married, my son wouldn't be here and I am convinced that he has a very distant purpose with his life. So he and I being married had its reasons.

Just as the guy I lived with before I started to date my husband - the man who killed all my animals and almost me in the process. He reintroduced me to my love of crystals - something that I put on the back burner after I graduated high school.

The bank I worked for years ago, also had a purpose: I met my husband (he was a customer) and the daughter of the woman I rented a room from (after I ran from the guy who killed all my cats) - this woman I lived with introduced Runes to me and charged up my interest in tarot and crystals.

Had I not been married to husband #1 - then I would have never divorced - and went to work for the bank to begin with.

So everything thus far has had its reasons -- all to get me where I'm at right now. I'm positive that this blog and my podcast is meant to get me someplace else. Everything has been a step and at first it seems like there is no rhyme or reason, but there is always a reason for everything.

I'm reading a wonderful book called "Only Love Is Real" by Brian Weiss. I HIGHLY recommend it. Here's an except that I snagged off of Amazon.com:

Excerpted from Only Love Is Real : A Story of Soulmates Reunited by Brian L. M.D. Weiss. Copyright © 1997. Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved

Chapter 1

Know, therefore, that from the greater silence I shall return.... Forget not that I shall come back to you.... A little while, a moment of rest upon the wind, and another woman shall bear me. KAHLIL GIBRAN

There is someone special for everyone. Often there are two or three or even four. They come from different generations. They travel across oceans of time and the depths of heavenly dimensions to be with you again. They come from the other side, from heaven. They look different, but your heart knows them. Your heart has held them in arms like yours in the moon-filled deserts of Egypt and the ancient plains of Mongolia. You have ridden together in the armies of forgotten warrior-generals, and you have lived together in the sand-covered caves of the Ancient Ones. You are bonded together throughout eternity, and you will never be alone.

Your head may interfere: "I do not know you." Your heart knows.

He takes your hand for the first time, and the memory of his touch transcends time and sends a jolt through every atom of your being. She looks into your eyes, and you see a soul companion across centuries. Your stomach turns upside down. Your arms are gooseflesh. Everything outside this moment loses its importance.

He may not recognize you, even though you have finally met again, even though you know him. You can feel the bond. You can see the potential, the future. But he does not. His fears, his intellect, his problems keep a veil over his heart's eyes. He does not let you help him sweep the veil aside. You mourn and grieve, and he moves on. Destiny can be so delicate.

When both recognize each other, no volcano could erupt with more passion. The energy released is tremendous.

Soul recognition may be immediate. A sudden feeling of familiarity, of knowing this new person at depths far beyond what the conscious mind could know. At depths usually reserved for the most intimate family members. Or even deeper than that. Intuitively knowing what to say, how they will react. A feeling of safety and a trust far greater than could be earned in only one day or one week or one month.

Soul recognition may be subtle and slow. A dawning of awareness as the veil is gently lifted. Not everyone is ready to see right away. There is a timing at work, and patience may be necessary for the one who sees first.

You may be awakened to the presence of your soul companion by a look, a dream, a memory, a feeling. You may be awakened by the touch of his hands or the kiss of her lips, and your soul is jolted back to life.

The touch that awakens may be that of your child, of a parent, of a sibling, or of a true friend. Or it may be your beloved, reaching across the centuries, to kiss you of her lips, and your soul is jolted back to life.

The touch that awakens may be that of your child, of a parent, of a sibling, or of a true friend. Or it may be your beloved, reaching across the centuries, to kiss you once again and to remind you that you are together always, to the end of time.

(END)

Remember the white book (if you don't, go back through this month)? Enough said....

I wish I could find someone to regress me - to help me explore it all. But no matter who I've talked to thus far, they say no. Maybe I'm too upfront with the two soul mates, Joan of Arc and Cleopatra? Most regression therapists who have even had the courtesy to talk with me say - many people "think" they were someone important, but more times than not.....and then they never return my messages. I don't get it. Even if someone has serious doubts, you would think someone - somewhere in this big ole world would be curious enough to find out.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

A Painful Session = A Release And A Understanding

I am very hesitant to start today's session. I have been told to, by my guide Robert (surprisingly he's back) to put on the song "Amon Hen" and hold onto my healing wand. Now this song brings forth a very strong emotional reaction from me - always has since the 1st time I heard it. There's a connection to a past life with both Bill and Ted and this song brings forth the visions of their death - as well as my own. Not something that I wish to revisit. So I drew three Runes, asking why do I have to listen to this? Why now?

What I drew:

Overall - Jera (harvest)
Attitude to take: Dagaz (breakthrough)
Result of attitude: Hagalz (disruption)

So what I get from this is that the combination of the song and the wand will spur me closer to a trinity reunion as it brings forth a revelation resulting in a disruption in what I have understood thus far.

DEEP BREATH

Here goes:

I grab onto the wand as the song begins. An electric current races through my body and centers in on - my third eye. It hurts, it burns. My right hand keep getting electrical shocks from the wand, my left hand vibrates with intense energy. I'm taken almost into a whirlwind - through a haze I emerge at the scene of our deaths. But what I hadn't known before is that Bill is on the opposing side - or the murderers. Ted is screaming - not the children, but we are told that they cannot live and let the Atlantis live on. I have a crystal in my hand and it is knocked away. Ted has a crystal necklace that is ripped from his body and tossed. There is death all around us.

I - now - am crying so hard that I can't believe that I still have a grip on the wand - which is so charged of energy that I might as well of had my hand in an electrical outlet.

Bill is now in the midst of this all and sees Ted and I. His face is that of shock and he immediately jumps in front to try to save us. But it's too late for Ted, who has had a sword through him. Bill battles the best he can to save me - he's not about to give up, not at all. His friends keep telling him to stop - one in particular who battles it out with Bill. I discover that this is my husband (as in today's world). I'm shocked - very shocked - in this reality, at home and I cry harder. My husband kills Bill. He now stares at me while other men rape me repeatedly - he does nothing but watch.

My soul is out of my body and is next to Bill and Ted like I've witnessed before. But what I haven't seen is Larry coming up to my body and shoving a sword through me so that I die. I can tell by his eyes that we were friends before Atlantis split and killed me to release me from this pain. The other men move on - leaving the dead where we lay. My husband is gone and around the corner when Larry finds the crystal I had, as well as Ted's necklace and pockets them. He says a short prayer over us and moves to catch up with his men.

DEEP BREATH

The song ended and thankfully, so did the visions. I do know more now than before - never knew Bill became the enemy at a point, never knew about my husband and he being friends and then my husband killing him - nor did I realize that Larry was involved.

I must say, as painful as it was and as much as I cried - it was releasing. I could feel the blackness of that time escape me. It also explains why my husband has always had a problem with Bill going YEARS back before I put two and two together. Unfinished soul business. Explains more though, about my husband who I know has a healing touch and refuses to use it. I've always known at some point in time he was a great healer - one in demand and in high ranking. This must of been at the time of Atlantis, but he had chosen to travel the dark side after the fall of the great continent. Now he struggles with his life and his demons, just as Bill does. But then again - don't we all have something we struggle with?

Whew - I'm glad that's over.

I did make a discovery earlier in the day. Once I piece two and two together more - I'll let you in on it. Right now I'm just trying to make sense of it all.

Have a wonderful day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Ted Is -- Pissed!

This session was very strange. I was instructed to listen to the song "Savin' Me" by Nickelback while I held my healing wand with both hands. As soon as the music started and I took the wand, electric current rippled through my body making me tremble all over.

I immediately became a fly on the wall - I'm watching Ted, with his hands on a dresser. This is the same room where I saw him upset before, in a previous vision. His face is red, deep red in anger - not embarrassment. The veins stick out on his neck. He is screaming - we had a deal. You're taking too long. I can hear a male voice, but I don't know what was said. But Ted's reaction is an angry outburst. He throws everything that was on the dresser to the ground. His clenched fists pound a wall. I don't think I've ever seen him or felt him this angry before. He's so angry that tears come fall from his eyes and this only spurs him deeper into anger. I hear the male voice again say something. Ted whips around and screams at the top of his lungs - quit being a selfish bastard. This isn't all about you.

In two steps he is at Bill's throat. He picks Bill up off a couch and slams him into the wall. His forearm is against Bill's throat, choking him. Why did you do that - Ted screams. Can't you feel it? Can't you feel her pain, her longing? Can't you feel mine? You selfish fucking prick. This isn't about you - but all of us. I need her -- don't you GET IT? I NEED HER! If only to pick up the phone and talk, I need her.

Ted lets Bill down on the ground. He moves over to a fireplace - in it is a burnt piece of paper. I get it -- it's my letter to Bill, he burned it. Watching this unfold, I just felt my soul being ripped apart, almost as if coyotes were trying to tear me limb from limb. I have a pit in the middle of my stomach.

Bill yells back at Ted - she'll never last. She isn't one of us. Ted turns - how in the hell do you know? Have you given her a chance? Have you asked?

What about your girlfriend, what will she say once she's in our lives? Ted messes with what's left of his hair (it's buzzed), he chokes up. He is trying so hard to fight the emotions, but he can't. Quit fucking with my life - Ted says. Don't you get it -- I need her. It's not a want -- it's a need. All you had to do was to make that call. One call and you could have stepped back.

Bill shakes his head, no I couldn't -- step back. Bill sighs. He turns his back to Ted.

Why not - Ted asks. You don't want her.

Bill says nothing. Ted grabs his coat and slams out the door.

Bill says -- yes I do.

I can see Ted driving like a man bent on either dying or being severely hurt in a crash. I whisper to him to slow down, and he does. The car is a small sports car, but a 4 seater (I think). A light metallic blue, it's not warm enough to have the top down, but he does. This has to be in the US as his steering wheel is on the left. I can see the car winding up and down the coast - looks to be the Pacific Hwy.

Next the car is parked and he is down by the water - on rocks -- just watching the ocean. With no one around, he openly sobs. It's heart-breaking.

I'm told I'm done.

I can honestly say that I am really hurting - not only emotionally here, but physically. I could feel the anger, the sadness the hurt. From both men - not just Ted. Both guys have fierce tempers when pushed - so their reactions to one another do not surprise me. The notion that Bill burned my letter so that I can not enter their lives, at any point, for any reason is very hurtful. I do have what feel like an emptiness right in the middle for my chest. Here's to hoping that what I witnessed was acted out only on the astral plane and not in real life -- for the sake of all three of us.

What neither of them get is that I AM "one of them" already. I think that they need to come to a realization that I am so much stronger than they give me credit for.

Some day -- some day......

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted's Birthday, January 25th And A Dream Date!

Ahhhhh...the day after Easter. I think that I'm still full. My ham - it kicked some serious taste-buds..I have to pat myself on the back for this one. However, it was another no sleep holiday as I got up at 4:00 am, and I never really went to sleep for fear I'd sleep past my alarm and forget abut that ham! Besides being with family and eating good food - this is also the one day of the year that I get my Philadelphia Candies, Chocolate/Peanut better egg -- which is my favorite candy, period: http://www.phillyc.com/store/ you need to really like peanut butter in order to enjoy these creamy eggs -- and I tell ya -- I appreciate it!! My 1 lb egg is usually gone within 24 hours:)

My son also lost his 1st tooth on Easter!! It was a momentous occasion. So of course - he had a visit from the Tooth Fairy last night:)

Today is Ted's birthday - Happy Birthday Ted!! For the next 6 months and 3 days he and Bill will be the same age!

Last night I decided to take a tour of the amount of notes I have in conjunction with Bill, Ted and our paths to reunification. Thus far it's almost at 1000 pages -- and this is only from a couple of years of record keeping! Can you imagine the amount of pages I would have if I started back in Nov 2002 when I discovered who Bill is to me or back in the mid-80's when all of this was starting to take shape - when I started to see and remember the visions/dreams of both Bill and Ted. I looked back through some of the pages, reading - remembering the milestones I've hit. I whole-heartedly pray that both men have started to record these visions/dreams. I'm really looking forward to putting all of my notes into book form and comparing the notes I have with the other two.

In my dreams last night I can't remember much. But what I can recall is that I was on a date - it was the 1st date in a long time and I was very nervous. The man I was with, understood this and in turn was extremely kind and generous. I don't remember who it was, but his birthday is on Jan 25th as it was the date of our date and I discovered it was also his birthday after he dropped me off. So this date must be an important one for me to note. I can sense glimpse of an office building - a very tall building in a big city such as NYC, LA or Chicago. I see lots of glass, a round or oval conference table, lots of cushy chairs and people in suits.

I'm finishing up my workshop book for the upcoming "Soul Mate Quest" this Saturday. There's still some room if anyone has been thinking about it. Hopefully things will go without a hitch - but one never knows -- do they?

Better run for now - I have a few more items to get off my plate before dinner time!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Bill, A Dream Visit and Seth!

You know, I had just come to the realization that I spelled Jezel's name different two times. Once as Jazell and the other as Jezel. I asked her - why did she allow me to spell both ways and which way does she prefer? She tells me in a very soothing voice that in our first meeting it was not shown to me on purpose how to spell her name as it is upper level and not written. It is a sound, one that when I achieved that level of ascension would I be permitted to interpret the sound into the proper spelling. So Jezell is the written this way J-e-z-e-l-l? Yes she says.

We're in a crowded apartment - or so it seems to be so. An apartment that is. The space reminds me of what you see in the movies on how an apartment with a Central Park view would look. There are built in shelves and shelves of books. The books shelves go half way down the wall and there are two drawers under each built-in. The woodwork is light -like a maple (if maple wood is beige or tan like, I can't remember). The couches are an off white - overstuffed and very comfortable. The end tables and coffee tables are glass, with a light wood around the edges. Floor is a dark, hardwood - original and there are floor rugs all around. The windows are open and there is a breeze. There is an intimate dinner party going on - about 13 people (the host/ess was solo, yet I can feel that the rest of us was paired with someone at her choosing) and I can feel him staring at me from across the room. I look up and Bill smiles - ever so shyly. Somehow with small talk we find ourselves chatting and I am looking through one of his books. It has a red or pink cover to it, but this copy isn't mine, it belongs to whomever's apartment we're in.

Bill and I are now on one of the over stuffed couches. He has one a very nice, white or beige button down shirt, nice tan slacks, white socks and no shoes. In fact, we're all running around in our socks:) He asks me something about a book. I tell him about the last one I received from his company. He goes on about was it this book - about the problems in the Middle East and a new take on what the war has done to inside America with short stories, poems, a pictorial about how most of Americans are hurt by this - job lose, benefits lost, education, poverty rises - etc.... I tell him no - it was the book about your exhibit in New Zealand. He gives me that cocky - sly grin and says - oh yeah. I add - remember, you hand wrote my address label? His grin is now wide, makes a goofy face and shrugs his shoulders -- sometimes the computers don't work, so I hand write. I give him one of those - you are bull shitting me looks - and he knows it. I reply - you wrote my label so that I knew you knew it was me. He raises his eyebrows and inquires - anything wrong with that?

He tells me he got the book I sent. I'm - what book? He laughs and replies - how did you not think I'd know it was you. Did you read it I ask? Completely was his answer.

He asks me what books do I have of his. I comment that I wasn't ever going to buy any - I didn't feel the need. He's like - why? I'm stumbling over my words trying to figure out - do I tell him the truth or lie? Damn - I know he'll know if I lie......so I take a deep breath and say - I figured why bother? After all, why have two copies of the same book in the same house? He is now lying beside of the couch, on the floor - his feet are up on the arm, he is lying on his back. He shoots me a look and I, of course, can read his thoughts -- aren't we being a bit presumptuous? I lean over the couch and tell him - if you don't want to know the answer, do not ask me the question. I "hear" him say - quit talking. At first I'm - huh? He "says" it again - quit talking. Ahhhhhhhh....I get it.

The next thing I remember is he and I - still at this party - talking about Ted. I told Bill a story where I asked Ted a question and his reply actually shocked both Bill and I. But Bill was more shocked that I already talked to Ted. You're taking too long to connect us - I comment -so we went around you. He says - I know.

I'm telling him that if he wants to be left alone in public, for him to go into a bathroom and sneak out the other side. In a flash I can hear myself telling him this story as I'm living it: I am now going into this building, that all it has on the 1st floor is a bathroom. A very clean and tidy bathroom. The floors are silver, like stainless steel - as well as the sinks. The doors and toilets are a shiny black. There are two women in there, by the sinks, (a large mirror over the sinks) with very short (very very short) and revealing black outfits on. One woman hikes her leg up on the sink to fix her hosiery. I go into a stall and am doing my thing - and all is fine when an older woman (who is with the two sluty dressed women) who is also all in black digs into her small purse and pulls out a hair pin.

The bathroom stall doors are kept shut with magnets. There not visible - they are on the sides of the door & on the door jam. But my magnets won't keep my door all the way shut and I'm trying to close it. The woman comes into my stall with this hair pin and asks if I would like it. I'm like sure -- but a bit busy now. She reaches over my toilet sitting body and places the hair pin in my hair. She smiles and with that - all 3 women leave.

Next I am in a house I think the same house from the party. I'm reading a book and Bill sits down next to me on the arm of an overstuffed chair. He asks who's Seth? He's very irritated (I can tell) by this name. I look at him and say - he's one of my guides and since we share so many of the same things, he's probably your guide too. He's like - oh. Bill slides down the arm and somehow positions himself so that he is snuggled on my right side, with his head on my chest and his right arm over my middle. I put the book down and wrap my arms around him, kiss him on the top of his head.

I'm walking with a male friend in front of a large yet old apartment complex - at night. In the dream I knew that I know this man in real life, but now I can't remember who he is -- but he wore a black T-shirt. I'm telling him about Bill - without telling him who he is. Four men pass us, they wave at me and I wave back. My friend now thinks he knows who I'm talking about - but he's wrong. We take a turn and head away from the apartment building. Somehow I'm now at this friends house and he is trying to hard to figure out who Bill is. I finally decide to cut the guy some slack - but he has to PROMISE not to tell a soul, and he agrees. He mentions a movie and I say no = "another movie" Bill. He's like - no shit. I'm like - no shit. I tell him that I'm on my way over there, would he like to walk me?

So now it's day light and we're walking back to that apartment building - but now we also have a woman with us - someone else who I know in reality (I think) - both these two felt very familiar - too bad I can't remember. Anyway - we're walking and I hear Bill call my name. I tell the two of them to be cool. I can hear "Chances Are" playing from an open apartment window. Bill hears it too and we smile at the sound of that song. He walks over and I introduce him to my friends. He grabs my hand and holds it. This takes me off guard and I glance at him, not wanting him to think I didn't like it - just surprised. He smiles at me and nods. My friends leave. He comments to me how the sun brings out my red and blond natural highlights - he likes it. So with one hand he is holding on of my hands and with the other he is playing with my hair. I try to keep my cool. But then he drops my hand and my hair to cup my face in his hands. I tell him - people will see this. He says - I know. Are you sure - I ask? He smiles - this is long over-due, he says. With that he kisses me and an electric current shoots through our bodies like a huge WOW factor. We pull apart and I look at him -- did you feel that. He sheepishly smiles and glances down at himself - says we'd better get inside. I giggle like a school girl as I just got what he meant. Then I comment - that's the nice thing I like about being a girl.

I wake up.

Before I fell asleep I asked Brigit and Jezell to take me to him and for us to remember. They did as I asked and obviously I remember as this is 2 hours after I woke up and this is all still this clear. I just hope he remembered some of it..... This was a very nice dream visit - very nice and positive.

Now I have to do some searching for who Seth is. Maybe he is Bill's guide who is telling me his name - so that I can mention him to Bill. Some sort of jolt for Bill to open another door.

My son asked me a question today about Easter and that over-zealous bunny that got me thinking about a children's book. Now the last couple of readings I've had with Gabreael (http://members.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewUserPage&userid=gabreael) she has asked me -- what children's book are you working on? Well none - of course. But she was insistent -- I see a children's book -- yep.......

I'm gearing up for my traditional night with no sleep as I'm in charge of that massive Easter ham:)

Have a wonderful weekend and if you celebrate Easter -- enjoy.

Crystal Sunshine,
Allie ;)

Runes, Atlantis And A White Book!

I keep having that nagging feeling, you know the one. That something is around the corner and I have blinders on. So I decided to do something that I haven't done in a while - give myself a Rune reading. Runes are great for finding out what you are going through - what cycle - and what you need to do to make it through this experience. They can also give you a glimpse into past lives or help you make a decisions. The answer of the Runes is always very timely. What they cannot do is foretell the future - this isn't why they were created.

So my question was: What cycle will am I traveling through from now until April 30th?

I drew:

Isa (standstill) - Present
Ansuz (signals) - Attitude to take
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

Right now my plans appear to be frozen. To me nothing is happening and will stay this way until I realize what keeps me attached to the situation and cut myself away from the old. The attitude to be had is to expect the unexpected - there are changes on the horizon. I am to explore my inner self - my soul as well as be sensible and use my power of observation. The result from taking on the attitude is victory and success - to finally have admitted to myself what has long been denied and then achieve that desire. Can also involve successful life changes to achieve balance.

This message to myself is of course - timely. I certainly do need to find balance as I've concentrated so much on the spiritual side that I completely neglected my physical side. I am sorely out of shape. I was just thinking this over last night, I have to get up and start walking again - it's a need, not a want.The hard part is deciding what keeps me attached to the current situation I find myself in. It can be a multitude of things - fear of success (hard to believe, but yes true...I LIKE staying in the background) which I am working on, an attachment to what I'm used to which has brought more unhappiness than anything else - cutting that attachment has proven to be harder than I thought. I'm a Taurus after all -- although I like change and I know it is unavoidable, there's that big chunk of me that likes the same old routine - predictability.

At least now I know what I am meant to focus on for the next 17 days:)

My hands have been burning up today - and I always know what that means..someone needs my help. I have a feeling it's Ted. I sat with my wand - the power or energy that ran through it was strong -- very strong. My hands vibrated or tingled as they held on - it felt as if small sparks were zapping my hand. I'm immediately taken to Atlantis. I am in a long violet robes, simple yet elegant - nothing on underneath. I look and there is Bill - dressed the same in a violet robe. We each have something atop our heads - I didn't pay much attention to it. Bare feet. Our conversations are all telepathic. I ask him, why are we both here? He says Ted. We both spot Clive who is a distance away. He says - Ted needs you both. We follow Clive (who - BTW is in a white tunic and trousers) to Ted, who is on his back on a slab of crystal - he is dressed in today's clothes, which I find very odd now, but during the vision did not. Bill moves around behind Ted and we get him turned on his right side so that he is facing me. He is trembling - I place my hands on his face and he is burning up. He has fresh blood on the corner of his mouth - like he spit it up. I instruct Clive to run and get some cool water.

Bill places his hands on Ted's back - over each lung. I place mine over his chest. Bill and I direct very powerful rays of light into Ted's lungs. Ted's coughs as we are doing this and Clive arrives with a crystal bowl, full of water. He cools off Ted's face with a wet cloth. When all of the energy available to travel through us - did. Ted sits up and drinks from the bowl. His green eyes look so tired and blood shot. With the only words actually spoken in Atlantis - at this time - Ted grabs hold of me and lays his head on my chest. I hear him say -- Don't let me die without you. I wrap my arms around him and kiss him on the crown of his head. The next thing I know he is lying back down and Clive tells us that we have to hurry.

Bill and I are walking down a path towards a cave - I can feel it's immense power. I stop and tell him that I cannot do this -- I cannot go in there with Ted lying back there. Bill assures me that Ted will be fine. I tell Bill - I can't leave him, not like this -- and neither can you. But he's not like us - Bill goes on to say -- he's not your eternal partner, I am. I touch Bill's cheeks and reply - then we have more time -- don't we? He gives me that look - you know the one that screams I can't believe you said that followed by damn you're right. I know that we were to enter the cave to get married.

We move back to Ted who is slumped over on the slab. Bill on one side - me on the other - we wrap our arms around him and all fades from view.

For a brief second, I'm in nothingness -- but I see a man in all white robes. He reminds me -in a way - of Moses - but it is not him. I see the silver/gold container that is at the bottom of the lake in the crystal cavern. I hear his voice say - I'm waiting. I ask - who are you? He smilles and replies - Erzal. All fades and now I am in the present (so it seems) at a park.

There is a lake and a white slab of marble that I take as a park bench and I sit down. I can see ducks on the water and people feeding birds. A very tranquil setting - must be late spring, early summer by the blooms of the tress/plants. Bill sits down next to me. He has on a dark t-shirt with some sort of flag or flags on it, jeans and tennis shoes. I look at him and say -- you know I'll send it in a few weeks. He says - what? I reply -- I don't know...but whatever it is I'll know when I know and then I will send it to you. So if you get a package with nothing but the object inside - it's from me. Any idea what it is - he asks. No, no idea -- except I keep seeing a white rectangle - maybe a book. So it may be a white book - although I don't know what as I don't have a white book right now. I guess I know when I see it and you'll know when you get it.

How will you get it to me Bill inquires. Your publishing company is my reply as I do not know of any other way. He nods his head in approval. You won't throw it out -- will you? He shakes his head and gives me a chuckle --- no, I won't though it out. I find it interesting though, that you know you'll send something but you don't know what it is and I know that you will send something but I don't know what it is. But it's an object that we'll both know - WHY - when we see it.

I nod my head and that's all there was to it. Not permitted to see another item.

My take is this object is what Archangel Gabriel was talking about - at least know I know who I'm sending something to, but I still don't have a what. Time will tell - won't it?

I best bust a move!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Vultures And My To-Do List!

I should be in bed - sleeping. I know I should -- my headache tells me that it's an excellent idea -- yet here I am. I had that nudge to post, that insistence by a higher power that whatever I had to say was of importance to someone - somewhere.

Have you ever had so many things to do that if anyone placed one more thing in your to-do basket you would swear that your brain would fall out and flop around like a fish out of water? That's about where I am. I'm not complaining too much. I love to be busy. It's my own fault that things are the way they are. Had I listened to Robert.......my gypsy books would be done. But alas, I'm hauling butt trying to get book 3 done when I get a call from Borders - a few people have inquired about the Love book - can they order some? Well, I am in the process of updating it - laying it out better....so I say it's going through the reprint process - can you call back in two weeks? Sure would be glad to they say. So now on the agenda is the update I want to put in - my sister and I will work on the lay out after Easter lunch..which - BTW - I am in charge of the ham again. The ham is 16 lbs and I have to be at mom's house by noon - she's an hour a way. I figure - why sleep? My new oven has one of those fancy timers to preset the oven to come on at a certain time. But I have this thing about a major appliance popping on in the middle of the night while I'm sleeping. The stove is new - the house wiring is not. Makes me nervous.

So -- in all of the Gypsy Magic books (softcover) I'm going to be giving away a free item with each purchase. In each book is a chance to get a free booklet of one of the workshops I do. It's a mini-workshop is what I like to say. In the Prosperity book it's about unlocking your psychic gifts. The Lover's book - soul mates. Family book - contacting guides and angels and the Dream book - haven't settled on it yet. What can I say - I like to give away items in appreciation. That's just the type of person I am.

What else is going on? Writing the erotica stories and playing editor to others. Horoscope deadline, "Black Triangle" deadline for the New Zealand grant and of course - taxes:)

My husband pointed out to me that what was circling over our house last week were not hawks - but vultures. I wear glasses for distance and I didn't have them on. The vultures haven't gathered over my house (as far as I know) since then - but I see them every night in the neighborhood. So I looked up vultures and what it they stand for:

Vulture/Buzzard/Condor's Wisdom Includes:

*Death and rebirth
*Prophecy
*Love of the Mother goddess
*Knowledge concerning the death of a loved one
*New vision
*Purification

Hummmm...is pretty much in line with what my sessions have been telling me. But I do not have the knowledge of a death of a loved one and if I do have it - buried - I think that I do wish to keep it there. When you're meant to go -- you're meant to go. There's nothing I could do. So - as my guides have pointed out - why get myself all stressed about it. If I knew who and when - I would probably go crazy trying to change things I can't control.

On that note - my head is simply killing me -- I'm going to bed:) Sweet dreams!!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Imagination, Wine Or The Truth?

I wanted to put off today's session till this afternoon as I have deadlines breathing down my neck. No such luck. I keep hearing myself being called to enter - so here I go.....

I'm immediately taken to an outside courtyard in a private manor. I can see the stone manor off to my right - three levels tall with a turret on each end. Massive gardens cascade down the back until they reach where I am standing - on a stone patio, next to me is a three-tiered, round, stone fountain. Up top water is spouting from a cherub, holding a harp. I feel a prick to my left shoulder. I turn and it's Bill. He's in a long-sleeved white shirt, brown trousers that appear to gather at his ankles - bare feet. In his hand he holds a fencing sword. His shirt is unbuttoned, three down, around his neck his wears something silver, but for some reason it's blurred so that I cannot see what it is.

He tosses me my own fencing sword and motions for me to take a few steps backwards - I do. We cross blades and dual, each of us taking the upper hand at one point or another. He's quick - but so am I and with every twist and turn I am right there with him. I can see frustration pour across his face - I get the sense that he thought I'd be easy. Poor man - not a chance have I ever been easy nor is it part of my nature to let another win. But this time -- I could tell that he really wanted this match, so I screw up, on purpose and he disengages the sword from my hand - it flies into the fountain. His face lights up like a kid in a candy store. I try to act pissed off, but he sees right through me. He turns angry at his fake win. I tell him - don't be angry, you got what you wanted. I wanted to win - but not this way he says back. Then next time -- be more specific in your thoughts so that I can read them correctly.

Can you read what I'm thinking now? I ask. He frown turns into a smile and in two quick steps, I'm in his arms. He stares into my eyes for a second as I think -- you're right. With that, he sweeps me into his arms and gives me a deep - passionate - kiss. You know the kind that makes your toes curl:)

I hear a man clear his throat. We stop our kiss and I look over - it's Ted. He shakes his head and calls us filthy mongers. We're like - what? He laughs and says -- I can read both of your thoughts remember! Bill and I turn a deep crimson red -- some things are better left unsaid.

Before my eyes the entire scene - including Bill and Ted - fade form view and I'm in now -- what I would consider a cloud. From my right Archangel Gabriel arrives. He walks up to me and kisses me on each cheek. He asks me to walk with him.

We move through the clouds as he tells me that I'm on the right path - that what I have figured out to what I believe to be truth - is in fact - truth. I ask if he is talking about the last couple of days with a certain ISP and then concerning the talk of a wealthy man about to enter my life with brown hair? He says - yes to both. Am I correct with the color of eyes and other distinguishing marks that I feel? He smiles and says - that I cannot tell you as if I say yes - you will not do something within the next week - and if I say no - you still will not do this one thing over the next week and it needs to be done. Can I ask what this one thing is? He says no. You will know when you know. Trust yourself.

He stops walking and stares into my eyes. Remember, he says, no matter what happens in your life you are never along, never without support. Nothing too great is given to you that you cannot handle. Now this makes me worry. I say to him - for a couple of weeks now I keep getting warnings that something major is about to happen in my life - something that is not in my control, but obviously makes a major impact in my life. Can I not have a hint? Anything to prepare for? He puts his hand on my shoulder - there is not way to prepare for this - but your life must be prepared, you must have a foundation to build upon. You have to make sure that your basic needs can be met.

Please tell me that this has nothing to do with my son. It is a great big fear of mine that something will happen to him -- and for that -- I know that I could never be prepared. Don't worry my child- he says - it is not your son....but it will not be easy for you two for many months. There are hurdles that you will overcome, but it will not be easy. You will find strength that you did not know you possess.

With that he fades from view and I'm done.

Boy or boy -- nothing like more for me to think about:) I hope that whatever it is I am to do in the next week - that my intuition tells me what it is and then I act on it instead over overanalyzing it to death. It's very easy for me to use my intuition to help others - but to help myself I always seem to be my own worst enemy. I suppose we are all like that - doubtful of ourselves - our thoughts - even our convictions. It too is a chore for me to believe myself at times, just as it is for all of you to believe yourself. Human nature - sometimes a blessing -- other times a curse.

I have though, been making conscious effort to work on and strengthen my telepathic connection to both Bill and Ted. Bill is much easier for me to connect and hold on to. I wonder if he has figured out that my voice in his head is not his imagination or the wine talking?

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Golden Crocus, Dreams and Progress!

The past couple of days I've had my nose to the grindstone. I'm on some deadlines and I'm trying to get my 1st two erotic stories done. Not easy to do when you have an almost 6 year old constantly interrupting you -- takes you out of the mood if you know what I mean. As soon as I'm done here it's back to what I hope is the finishing of story #1.

I made a new flower essence blend at the start of the week. In it I added Golden Crocus and Bougainville - both from Sparking Lotus. Since adding them, I have noticed that my dream time is much more profound and heartfelt with many issues coming to the surface - as a progression. I remember more too which is an added bonus. I went back through my notes/emails to remind me why I ordered the Golden Crocus to begin with and this is what I found from SL:

(a) it is harmonically and tonally linked as a "progression" to the boungainvillea I prepared a few weeks back.

(b) golden chalice/trumpet shapes are nearly always associated with Avalon and/or the Archangel Gabriel.. I'm thinking of the latter for you but I mentioned the former since it applies to a couple others who are reading along. This is in the same highly protective golden-orange color ray as california poppy and Velvetleaf aka wild abutilon. It contains a kind of blending of those other two flower properties by maintaining a golden auric countenance and also good reflexes for the psychic/Divine messgages that are yours, specifically, to hear.

(c). Young children respond really well to this remedy, especially if their life involves rapid changes and expansion. It is great to put in any kind of "new" environmentment even if it's just something as simple as rearranging the furniture, or moving from one classroom to another, etc.

(d). This particular remedy was co-created with the specific intention of aiding ALL sentient beings in matters related to traditional crocus remedy application - release and dissolution of sorry and grief - the golden color ray enhances the joy-magnet factor. Most crocus remedies just make the extra space by releasing the ick-stuff but I'm now receiving strong guidance to hold ongoing consideration of joy magnetization.

(e) My favorite general crocus application implies to safe, sane and sacred gestational time-outs. So it could also be helpful with some of your larger writing projects that have gone through some evolution in terms of what you plan to actively create.. Not sure if you are tunnelled-into them yet but it could be really nice for keeping inspired and energized.

(g) Dreamtime protection especially is new forms of "work" are being done while asleep. Think of the way a crocus flower refolds itself at night. Imagine sleeping inside of there. Yum, right?

Okay - good jog of my memory. She doesn't know or maybe hasn't remembered my interactions with Merlin so to me both Avalon and the Archangel Gabriel resonate with me. It's no wonder when it was recommended I jumped on it:)

My dreams have had a lot to do with change. I'm always going somewhere in a rush - whether it be by car or plane - I'm on the go and disorganized as hell. This message that the Divine keeps pounding at me is - I feel - that I'm about to be in for a shit load of change. Not a little change - but turn my world upside down change. It'll come at me with a swiftness and force that my life is going to take a turn-a-bout. Not sure if this change is for the good or bad -- but it hits me when I am not prepared for it. I'm thrown into a state of upheaval with a stress level that would choke a horse. So I keep telling myself to be ready - but I'm not positive about what I'm not prepared about -- unless -- it is the gypsy magic books. I'm part way through the family book with the prosperity book going through the printing process. I did decide the other day that there will only be 4 not 5 books in this series. The healer book will wait and stand on it's own as it won't have spells, incense or sachets... in it but flower essence blends, ointments, oils, and brews.

I am basically done now with "The Black Triangle". It's at a place that I'm finally at peace with. I want to spruce up some of the dialogue - but not much. Everyone has their own voice and there is plenty of subtext throughout. This could be the other item I am behind with as well as the Kyra books. Not sure what all - but I will keep working away until I longer have those dreams of being disorganized but instead things will go smooth - I will catch my plane or my car that I am driving will not be a Mini Cooper that is trying to be an off-road vehicle!

Before I forget to mention - along side me at night I also have my faden crystal and diaspor which I know is helping me travel the night.

It was really strange casting my last spell the other night. I know I'm doing the right thing by teaching instead of doing -- but it still felt odd:)

Speaking of odd - the last several nights I have had flash visions of Ted being very angry at someone. He's in someone's office or maybe his own hotel suite, not sure. But I hear him scream : "You're taking to long dammit -- we had a deal!" He then uses his hands to knocks piles of books onto the floor. He runs his fingers through his hair and God - he is just sooooooo frustrated and pissed. His temper has reached a boiling point. Whomever he is yelling at is not answering back - nor can I see who they are. I'm hoping that this would be a present day vision and not a future. If it's now - that means it's not me he's pissed at:) He finishes with grabbing a jacket and barreling from the room - slamming a door behind him.

I did feel a shift on Friday that had to do with Bill. It's hard to describe but I was sitting there and a wave of calm came over me - and I heard a bell -- a ding. And I knew it was him and that he either discovered something new or something that would back up what he felt or thought -- a confirmation. All good.

Look at the time - I gotta boogie and finish at least one story tonight.

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie ;)

Disoriginaztion, The Telepathic Connection And Robert!

I'm being called in early to this session, not sure why. But I'm taken to a bare room, only thing there is a box and a window, If I look out the window I see the ocean with a sunrise. The walls are gray, the floor a white tile. I sit on the box and wait. Robert comes in an sits next to me. I'm stunned to see him and ask - why is he back? He says that he likes to check up from time to time - yet he knows that I know he is always around. I nod.

Have you noticed - I inquire - that everyone has gone? That there are no more sessions with Cindy? The woman who owns the meadow has dropped out and the other two who knows about it all is no where in sight. Why did everyone leave? Robert shrugs - because you do not need their input any longer. You are no longer unsure of yourself or of your visions - so their help is no longer needed. The Divine has given them other work to concentrate on. But when something happens I have no one to tell. Are you still putting all down like I've instructed? Yes I say. Then there you have it - you have many people to tell. But it's not the same -- I can't call them by name and chat it up with a give and take -- I liked that. Talk to "them" he says. Them? As in the group - them? Yes, correct. Telepathically? Yes - this is what you all need to be working on - the telepathic connection - one that any of you can bring up at will to communicate with one or more at once.

I SIGH big time......

Can't we use a phone like everyone else? What's wrong with using the phone???

Robert shakes his head. This is not where I nor their guides are guiding them. None of us can MAKE any of you work on this connection. But until you do, the next step will stay just out of your reach. How do I know it is one of them that I'm talking to? How do you know you're talking to me - he inquires. I shrug - I just know. Exactly! Robert has more enthusiasm in his voice than I think I have ever heard. You just "know", he goes on - but now he paces - you know when you speak to them, just as you know who they are and what they are to you.

Will being in contact with my Faden crystal help during the connection. Yes! That's it -- think about what will enhance the connection. For too long you have been scared to strengthen it but there's nothing to be frightened of. No harm, no pain will come to you or to anyone else by strengthening this bond. This is one of the many gifts that will help you all in the paths you are to travel in this life and beyond.

So is using the phone completely out of the question? Robert gives me that -- I can't believe you said it look - yes he replies for now it is. But don't worry - the phone will be used when it is time to do so. And stop asking when that time will be as no one will tell you. This timing is beyond any of our scopes and you are simply not to know so you do not alter what you are doing to change a thing as it could alter the outcome in a way that no one wants.

I did hear you last night - he chimes. Heard me with what -- my despair on what to do with the centuries of memories and feelings that I've unlocked -- that I feel daily and can do nothing about. That's just it - he says - you CAN do something about it. The doors have been unlocked for a reason. It is not to torture you - but to have you tap into that eternal power of love and devotion. The power of love between you is strong - it's unlimited power. There is no unconditional bond like this -not even with your own child. It's eternal -- it is a source of strength and energy that is vital to your existence. To your happiness - to your creative muse. It all ties into this connection. Feed into it - connect to it -- feel it's power and use it. Stop turning the other way because you do not understand. This is not something that your logical mind can wrap itself around - this isn't something that you can over-think into your physical grave, this is not something that you can fit the pieces in nicely and understand the rhyme and reason. It is what it is. The sooner you and Bill get that - the sooner you both stop torturing yourselves needlessly. And all of this suffering - is unneeded. Ted suffers extensively through all this - bring him in and the three of you tap into this powerhouse. But since you - Allie - know more, understand more than the other two -- it is up to YOU and YOU only to be that beacon of light. Shine bright and the others will follow. Call them home.

Boy - did this send a zap of energy through me - all the way to my bones. I look at Robert and ask if there's anything else required of me -- just want to know in case I grow bored with what I've already got. You need to finish the books - you need to get them done in April. I of course - LAUGH at that. He real serious like - stares at me and says - you have taken too long. Soon you will not be able to return to this point as your energy will be required elsewhere. This is a needed step in your development - move on it. You need to get a move on your Black Triangle novel and your novel about Kyra. But - of course - you need to get your book done on this - on the reunification of the triad.

I have to sleep - I add in.

Of course you do - as this is when you three meet every evening. The progress you have all made in astral travel and dream visits is very well received in the heavens. You each remember more and more of the night every day.

I didn't like the last part of last night. No he says - and you shouldn't of. Do you know why that travel was so unorganized - why you were stressed and nothing was where it was supposed to be? No - I add. Because -- you were not prepared. This is what will happen to you if you do not follow the steps provided to you - things will get out of your control, you will have too much going on and the stress will land you in the hospital. Listen to Robert - I do not say what I do in jest nor are they wasted words. There are reasons you need to be prepared that you are not privy to.

Anything else?

No -- except that you have a very interesting person listening to your podcast who will be of vital importance to you and to your career over the next several months. Keep up the good work.

With that all dissolves away and I"m done.

SHEESH!

Part of me just wants to run away and hide. But as I always say -- you can't ignore fate.

The last dream segment was so unorganized that it raises my blood pressure just thinking about it. It was 10:00 pm and I had to be at the Akron/Canton airport by 10:40 for my flight. At 10:20 I'm yelling at my sisters to get all of my toiletries, I'm rummaging around through the drier to get some clothes to wear. I'm trying to shove it all in this black bag -- but I'm missing my gray sweatpants and it's important to have them - so I run back to the dryer to look - find them and run back to the bag. I can feel the clock ticking down....My driver's license is in the car. So I tuck my passport into the bag , along with a savings bond for 339 dollars (which I thought was odd - why wasn't it even?). We are running through the airport (my sisters and I) - I can see my mom pas the check-in to stop a man getting into a limo who I know to be the actor Matthew McConaughey (he had a wife and child with him) - my feel is that she was asking him to wait to give us a ride, but I wasn't sure why if we were already at the airport. Then on check-in I cannot find my passport ticket or savings bond. I woke up disgusted and stressed.

I hate being disorganized.

I started my visit with Robert at 10:30 am today - didn't finish until about 11:30 am -- a long chat for sure!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Busyness, Another Book And Full Steam Ahead!

I'm immediately taken into a room that is full of papers, 8 x 11 paper, stacked high, everywhere I look, this is what I see. In the midst of it al is a desk with -- my lap top. So I sit. I see my screensavers kicking it in with some really nice photos I have of different people. I hit the space bar to stop the screensaver and I'm now looking at a calendar. It is a day planer, sort of thing, with that date April 14 2008 on top. Below it are many appointments - meetings, an interview, a flight at 2:00 to NYC. I look down on the desk and I notice a manuscript. I thumb through it and it is a sequel to my book, 'The Black Triangle". Jeta, Stefan and baby Christian and their lives post WWII. The discrimination that Jeta goes through, the mental torment of Stefan as he cannot decide if he's German or a Rom - either or he is blasted by whomever he comes across. Christian - now a boy age 5 or 6 - disappears or is taken by members of the Nazi party. I can see a trade of Jeta for her son.

I feel a hand on my right shoulder - it's Jezel. She asks if I'm surprised about this book. I tell her sort of, but I had a feeling..... She says that this too does very well. I ask - when do I find the time to write? She smiles and tells me no worries - I find the time. When I am done with this book - I will have several others already to my credit. I write a lot in the mornings before my son gets up for school. Then while he is in school I attend to other tasks and then rewrite in the early afternoon, so that I am done when he comes home. After he is in bed is my quiet. alone time. I travel on weekends to workshops and get-a-ways, he is always at my side.

Where are my animals when I'm gone? She says that I only have the cats to worry about. Where are my dogs? She says - don't trouble yourself with this right now - all will work out.

How early do I get up in the morning? 4:00 am is her reply. Yuck I say....that is too early. I get used to it she says. This is all that you need to know right now, it's time for you to get back to work -- you have a full plate.

With that -- all is gone and I am indeed - back at my desk.

Hummm......Jezel is right - my plate is full and then some. If you have sent me an email within the last day or so -- I've got it and I'll try to get back to you later tonight or tomorrow.

Time to go -- I'm sure that I'll have more later!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Environmental And Animal Alerts Reminder

Hi Guys!

Just a friendly reminder that I post animal and enviroment alerts on my home page at Gypsy Girl Press: http://www.gypsygirlpress.net/ .

There are some items there that could use your attention to act upon...won't you stop by and help out today?

Thanks!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Ps: Don't forget to pass the alerts on to your personal armies - together we CAN make a difference!

Buhlman. Bruce, Bill Plus I And OBE!

An observation I made this morning. For the last couple of nights I have had dream visits with Bill. One was him in a crowded mall, with a young boy. The two were walking through the mall, laughing and having a great time. I walked past them - neither saw me. I thought to myself - where are they going? So I turned around and followed them - walking right beside the pair and staring at Bill. He had on a red, long-sleeve shirt and blue jeans. I never did see the boys face, but the couldn't have been more then 6 or 7 (hummm...wonder if it was my son). I kept wondering - why doesn't he acknowledge me - why doesn't he see me? He appears to looks around me, but never at me. I wake up.

Then last night I can see him at some sort of function - not sure what. But he is center stage. I can remember being on top of water - like there was a pool on the inside of this place. It was large like a natatorium. He was being escorted across the water by a jet ski and surrounded by men in suits. he waves to everyone - I can hear people yelling his name. He gets off the jet ski and goes out a door. I'm immediately in a hall way. I see a bunch of people run one way - and then I see a door closing the opposite. I know it's him. Now I'm outside on the sidewalk. He has on a white t-shirt, blue jeans, a black cap (like a ski cap with no ball on top), dark sunglasses, scruffy facial hair and he is on a cell phone - oh - and with a cig in his mouth. I thought to myself - I knew he'd come out that door. I hear a voice say - why did you know? I answer - because I know him better than he knows himself. I'm now next to him, I can smell his cig smoke - but again - he looks around me when he looks up - not at me.

I thought today - that both visits were very odd as he has never come out and ignored me before. I could sense both times that he knew I was around, but didn't recognize that it was me or...really didn't see me. So I was an observer in both visits - watching him in my astral/real-time body and he couldn't see me. I don't think that this was at the present. The 1st visit was in the future - he looked rested, happy, his hair was long - shoulder length. The one from last night may be slightly in the future by maybe a day or two - but combined with what I could say a fantasy/dream of his with the water. So instead of us having a shared visit - I visited him in HIS dreams/reality and he had no idea I was there.

I've been learning more about astral projection in real-time, the astral plane and being intertwined with day time - or night time fantasies - this is called astral reflection. This could be why some visions or visits I do seem so out there as they are combined with whomever I'm visiting day dream/fantasy. I'm learning all about this in a book called "Astral Dynamics" by Robert Bruce. Now mind you - this book has been in my face for the last 5 years. No matter what book store I went to, or online store - I always came across this book. I finally bought it and it's pretty good. Although all of the different energy bodies and merging - etc...can get very confusing.

Robert Bruce has a good exercise on his web site for new energy ways: http://astraldynamics.com/tutorials/?BoardID=18

Here is an excerpt from that page:

"Following is a brief explanation and hands-on demonstration practices for running energy with the New Energy Ways System - called 'NEW' for short. NEW Energy Ways is cornerstone of the superior practices developed by Robert Bruce. No prior skills or experience is required and most people get results immediately.

Practicing NEW methods significantly increases energy body activity, thereby greatly accelerating all aspects of spiritual development, including healing ability, astral projection, aura sight, remote viewing, and all other psychic abilities.NEW is a simple yet powerful method of directly simulating your energy body with your tactile senses - a true armchair system. It is easy to learn and to use. The majority of students move energy well and experience noticeable energy movement sensations during their first practice session.

Energy movements are felt with a variety of predictable sensations, including warmth, tingling, heaviness, tightness, bone deep tickling and buzzing.The human energy body can be likened to a subtle reflection of its physical counterpart, including central nervous and circulatory systems and major organs. The energy body contains several interdependent energy systems.

The primary circuit (containing major charkas) is the higher energy circuit responsible for all psychic and spiritual abilities. But this cannot be properly used (barring natural ability) until its subtle underlying circuitry (secondary chakra system) has been developed. NEW is an easy-to-learn method for developing and strengthening the secondary and primary systems.

The underlying principles of NEW can be found in all Eastern energy systems, like Qi-Gong, Tai-Chi, Yoga, and Tantra, albeit in obtuse and difficult to comprehend forms. But NEW Foundations has been designed completely for Westerners, using easily understandable Western terminology.Essentially, NEW is a tactile system (based on the sense of touch and 'feel') that utilizes focused body awareness actions to move energy through your body.

In practice, when one's attention is focused in a specific part of one's body, that part becomes energetically stimulated. When this focus of body awareness is given motion-meaning, when one focuses on a specific body part and then moves that focus through the body-the underlying energy body structures of that area are directly stimulated. This body awareness movement causes energy body stimulation and development.In this way, energy can be moved at will throughout the body, and specific energy centers (chakras) can be targeted and directly stimulated. This stimulates higher levels of energy body functioning, opening the way to psychic and spiritual abilities."

To read more visit his web site: http://astraldynamics.com/tutorials/?BoardID=18

Robert Bruce also has another book: "Mastering Astral Projection" which I also have and have not had a chance to look at. Plus I discovered he has a great BB on astral projection here: http://forums.astraldynamics.com/

Robert Bruce is going to have a workshop here in Cleveland in June 2006. I'm considering going. Any one else in the area going?

I've also read books by William Buhlman - "Adventures Beyond The Body" and "The Secret Of The Soul" . I haven't gotten to Secrets yet - but it's sitting just waiting for me. He has some tips on his site as well: http://www.out-of-body.com/techniques/index.html

Both men are very good and give great explanations and tips. However - for me I keep feeling that neither is the key to what I need. My doorway into remembering and controlling my OBE lies within me and I will come across the "click" that will unlock that door. Just like everything else that I've experienced - I do not fall into a nice neat category or routine - I'm wired differently. This can at times be frustrating at best. But it's also a challenge, a mystery to find out what I can do to unlock that next door. My next secret lies with the astral projecting and in my dreams. I just need to find that pathway to remembrance and I know that what I find will help so many other people. All I can do is to keep trying things until I hit the right cord.

The podcast has gone through the roof - I'm really amazed on how well it has caught on. I've exceeded my bandwidth - which is good - but bites because now I have to pay extra:) I'm going to upgrade that account and pronto!

Re-did the web site. Not the whole thing, just some pages. Added the coaching, classes and more workshops to the schedule. I'm really excited about the changes I made and I can't wait to be in more of a mentor role than in a doer role:)

Ahhhhh the kid bellows for my presence -- I'd better scoot!

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)