Will, A Past Life And A Murder - Mine!

I had a flash vision of Will today that was very disturbing and I need to confront him in a session so that I can remember the most of the exchange between us. I grabbed my wand and within moments I was in the south, reminded me of Georgia. I see Will leaning against a Willow Tree next to a creek. I smile at him, he smiles back and I ask him what is he doing? He says waiting for me - been waiting all day yesterday and today.....seems he can't get a plum thing done seeing that all he is thinking about is me. He asks - what were you doing. I smile and said working. He cups my face in his hands and replies - so what's new?

I grab a twig off the ground and fidget with it in my hands as I walk around.

What's on your mind Sunshine? Will asks.

That brought yet another smile to my face So you call me Sunshine too?

I've called you Sunshine for well...eternity. Who else calls you that? Bill?

I nod.

Figures...Will retorts.

I had a vision today that really bothered me. I or we I should say were in I guess a villa. It was warm, I could hear water. We had just put our clothes on after making love and you were in a hurry for me to do so - to get my clothes on. I'm standing, you walk up to me and I could tell by your eyes that something horrible was about to happen - you had so much pain, yet love in your eyes. You grab the back of my head and pull me to you, kissing me with such force. I pull back and you're crying. You say -- I'm so sorry -- I hope you can forgive me. Before I could say what?? You shot me in the stomach, right below the rib cage. And watched me as I died, you never took your eyes off of me - not for a second. The last thing I can see is you sobbing.

I have no clue when, where or what time period this was. But I can't get at is why you killed me?

Was I wearing a white suit? He asks....

I don't remember -- but you were tan.

Will sighs. Hold my hands...he says. Will sits and sticks his hands out - palms up, I sit in front of him and grab his hands. In unison we close our eyes. I can feel my hands growing very hot. And I see it -- Will after he shoots me.

He lays me down, and there is a noise behind him. A deep voice says something I can't tell and two men come and grab Will. The deep voice shouts that he did a stupid thing - killing me. But he'll have fun torturing Will.

Cut to -- I don't know where....but Will has tons of slices in his body and he refuses to speak about the location of something. They give him another chance - he doesn't say anything. They toss him into something -- I can't see what or where -- all I can hear are his screams of pain. I break the connection with Will.

You killed me to save me? Will nods, tears pouring down his cheeks. I knew what they would do to you - the rape, the torture, the horrible death. You didn't know they were coming but I did. Who were they? I ask. Will shakes his head -- I don't know, I can't see past that scene and past the pain. It's too much -the pain. But what I do know is that we knew a secret -- something wonderful and healing in the right hands, but dark and deadly in the wrong hands. We were sworn to secrecy. He manages a weak smile - I loved you to the end.

A loud sound jolts me out of the session. Dang that six year old and his role-playing of Star Wars. For a kid who doesn't like loud noises, he is the loudest kid I know.

You know, looking back at what he said when I first connected with Will last year -- no wonder he and I both think that he has done all of these horrible things to me -- especially if he's only been carrying around part of that memory.

Off to watch Armageddon!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, The Dream Visit And The Soul Circle!

First off - I want to tell everyone who gets a notification from Yahoo Groups when this blog is updated is that it wasn't me or my blog who sent you 12 emails about yesterday's post -- it was Yahoo Groups. All of my Yahoo Groups that I subscribe to had a problem...I got a lot of duplicate email!! So sorry about that! Now on to the more fun stuff....

Wow - what a dream visit with Will last night. It was so emotional! We are on a train - I don't know how we got on there or why, but it didn't seem to matter. All I know is that our eyes locked and the rest as they say...was history. I cradled him in my arms, he was crying. He couldn't believe that after all this time he had found me. I keep wiping his tears away with my hands and kissing his face. I'd kiss his eyes, his cheeks, his lips, his forehead...it didn't matter where on his face I kissed -- I just knew that I had to keep showing him how much I loved him and that I was so grateful to have found each other again.

He kept snuggling into me, my arms would wrap tight around him. He couldn't get close enough and I couldn't hold him tight enough.

He was worried -- how would we find each other again? He said maybe we can give each other contact information - I told him that remembering the details would be hard to do - I've tried that route before. So I said - if we are meant to be together in this life, we do not need details as the universe will put us both at the same place at the same time -- if we are meant to be then our lives will work it so that we are -- together.

He took comfort in that -- and I woke up.

I woke up with a smile on my face. I'm in a good mood:)

The connection with us has shifted. It has become tighter, more reliable, more --well - tangible. I am so grateful for this gift -- so very grateful.

My guides keep saying that I have to share with you the emotions that are running through my body. I'm happy. It's just that simple. Happiness with a knowledge of being complete. Not that I wasn't a complete person before, don't get me wrong - I was. But this last connection with Will, this last block that has finally fallen into place...it's a state of elation. A moment of serenity, of knowing that no matter what happens in life, that there is an overwhelming, yet loving force that has your back. I felt this will Bill and Ted too - but Will was the last piece. Now that it is all in place -- God -- it's freedom.

I know without a doubt that no matter what life has in store for me from this second on -- no matter what it is, no matter the pain, the obstacles or the pure joy, I know that someone has my back. Granted, it has always been known and felt by me that my guides and angels are with me 24/7 -- and I am not discounting them at all - their help, participation, support, unyielding love -- none of it. I have always needed them and I will continue to call for their aid. SIGH. I'm a writer and I still cannot properly convey my feelings into words -- I'm not worried about anything. Love follows through me, around me and from me with ease. A weight is off of my shoulders.

The wait will not be as bad now - or as painful -- the wait that is to when I am physically talking to these three. I have complete faith that I will meet Will by years end, and then the ball rolls from there for Bill and Ted. Our tight knit soul circle is now complete.

I don't know what else to say except that it is happiness, love and freedom all rolled into one.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Color And Your Environment!

Colors and our homes/work environment/clothes..you never know how important color is until you make a conscious decision to check it out. This is exactly what I did today...wanted to check out if the color of my bedroom could have any reflection on why I cannot sleep well. I know part of my problem is stress, the other is my night-time travels...but that inner voice of mine is nagging at me that it's more. So I did some research and this is what I found:

RED - this color stimulates the physical body: strength, courage, health vigor and sexuality. Not a good color for a child’s room. Not a decent color for an adults bedroom UNLESS you desire an increase in sexual stimulation - then go for it! In the dinning room it will encourage people to eat - so if you are on a diet this is a no go. In a living room its good for stimulating movement and activity. I know in my sisters red living room it is hard to sit still for any length of time!

ORANGE - warm and simulating, but a higher vibration than red. This is a happy, social color as it promotes optimism, emotional balance, confidence, and a sense of community. This is good in any room where people will gather to socialize and have fun. My dinning room is a warm pumpkin and it is very inviting!

YELLOW - stimulates the intellect as well as communication. It is associated with organization, attention to detail, discipline, praise, harmony and good luck. This is a great color to use in a home office (especially if you are a counselor), a kitchen and even in a bedroom as it promotes positive feelings and contributes to the development of thought process.

GREEN - this wonderful color stimulates feelings of balance, harmony, peace, growth and hope. You can use green in any room as it is restful but energizing! If you decide to use it in the bathroom (which I did), use a bright spring or clean and clear leaf green rather than a darker or khaki green.

BLUE - it stimulates inspiration, creativity, contentment and patience. A light blue bedroom is good for an energetic child’s room (this is what I used in my son’s room as my guides told me to). This also works for a mediation or relaxation room.

PURPLE - this energizers our spiritual perspective and intuition. It is a powerful color and you shouldn’t paint a whole room this color - unless it is a nice light violet. This color is good in any room where healing is done - especially spiritual healing. This also works in a mediation room. My goal, eventually, is to paint my home office violet (purple and blue) and yellow.

WHITE - can be purifying and has the energy to transform our imaginations. This color works well in any room. But make sure you use colored accessories and don’t make the home a predominance of white as that tends to make the home feel unfriendly.

BLACK - this color focus attention to our inner world. It is a silent and still color. To paint any room all black can be overwhelming. But to have black accessories can accent and define a room.


My bedroom is a light Red (almost a Pink - it was there when we moved in 6 years ago)...so it has the red that is great for passion, but hard to calm the mind down. So I think that I am in need of a change -- maybe a nice yellow or blue with purple accessories? I don't know....but what I do know is that I have to do something. I'm tired of being tired:)

I think that I'll check out some paint chips at the local Lowe's!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Bill, Ted, A Dream Visit And The Dang Bathroom!

Wow - I had the most amazing dream visit with Bill and Ted. It was so vivid -- man! I don't know how the visit started....the 1st thing I remember is sitting down in a movie theater with Ted next to me. We are watching an alternative ending to a movie we like. Bill is there in the dream visit too - but now instead of the theater, it's a cafeteria. The scene keeps changing between the cafeteria and the movie theater. Anyways - Ted has his arms around me so tight -- it was so cute. Switch back to the move theater and a guy (an Italian man, older -- reminded me of someone in the mob with that NYC way of talking) sits in the aisle seat ( Ted and I were seats 2 & 3) next to me and asked what he missed. I tell him that we are at the end. His wife is stilling behind him (packed theater) and says - we just wasted $7 at a matinees price (they got 1/2 price as it was almost over) to see the ending only? What a rip off!

We switch back to the cafeteria where Bill - as a 6 year old sits across from Ted and I at a table. Ted strengthens his grip around my shoulders - he pulls me in very close. Bill sits and I introduce myself. He says I know, nice to see you again (and he smiles). I thought to myself -- again?? He's remembering the dream visits (I was sooooo happy). Ted tightened his arms around me again...now I really couldn't move he was holding on so tight.

Okay, movie over. Bill is now no where to be found and Ted and I leave the theater like we are boyfriend and girlfriend - arm - in - arm. I can still feel the pressure of him holding on so very tight to me. I had heard in the theater that Bill was going to give a news conference on the alternative ending to the movie (Ted tells me there are two other alternate too). Ted and I split ways and now I'm with my husband (I know that his part in all of this was actually a dream since he was up and gone to work). I tell him that I want to see Bill talk (I can hear people chatting that in this news conference they bet Bill will only say a few words and that's it -- he will be very elusive), he is not thrilled at all by this. He tells me that there is a problem with the Cooper -- that someone will have to come out and fix the skirts on it as it looked like someone took a hammer and just beat the crap out of both sides. He went to take care of that while I went into the room where Bill was going to speak.

The room was jammed packed full of people. I could not get to where he would speak so I just shuffled through to where -- but the cafeteria. I saw Ted coming up behind me. He handed me a paper and said - I was told to give this to you. I opened it up and it was an announcement of sorts about this conference. Started at 8:00 pm sharp. I can't remember what else was on that white sheet of paper. Ted was flirting with some chick and she was giving him her number - all while he was laughing it up with the woman's father who sat next to him. I leaned over the table and tapped him on the left knee. Everyone frowned at me (but Ted) and I said that I needed to ask him a quick question. He pocketed the woman's phone number said bye and got up.

We were walking and I told him that he didn't need to leave - I just wanted to ask him something. Arm around me tight again I unfold the paper and ask him what am I supposed to do? Am I supposed to meet him? Should I wait? Ted said he didn't know (we are now outside of what looks to be a college campus) all he was told was to give it to me. He says he'll ask. So we stop walking where Bill is staying (and I recognize this apartment complex from a previous dream visit). He tells me to stay put and he goes off to find Bill. I think to myself - I'd better call my husband and tell him to go home without me. But what should I say? I'll tell him that I met up with some people who saw the alternative ending and wants to discuss it. So I rummage through my purse (the one I actually do have in reality) and pull out a cell phone that I have never seen. I put it back and find not my Blackberry - but one of those black smartphones with a keyboard that slides out. I think that this won't work - he won't answer his phone as I doesn't recognize this number. As I'm looking again - I think to myself than I have too many cell phones - and then I find mine and make the call.

I pull out the smartphone and start typing something on it when I decide to peek around the corner to see where Ted is. I move through a family eating on a blanket. I glance and I do not see Ted. As I move to leave (I see Ted coming towards me - doesn't see me - but here he comes) the girl on the blanket wraps her arms around my one leg and will not let me go. I finally get free and am working on the smartphone when Ted comes up behind and puts his arm around me - with the other hand he hands me a plastic yellow bucket with a yellow shovel and it has some candy in it (like you would see a kid get at Easter or his birthday), he tells me he went to Rite Aid to get it and it was tricky driving as he didn't know the area. No word on Bill, but I know that we are heading to the beach now (it's dark) and my hope is that there I'll see Bill.

We are now inside a building, I am carrying the bucket, and Ted tells me that he has a meeting in the morning to take care of the issues that are bothering me. I see a bathroom and I tell him that I'd better go as I know me - as soon as there is no bathroom around (like on the beach) I will have to go. He chuckles and asks if I need any help -- my 1st thought was that I didn't want him to see me naked at any point yet as my legs needed a quick shave. So I told him no - not yet do I need the help. He started to follow me into the bathroom, but didn't. When I got on there it is what it looks like in all of my typical bathroom dreams. People in there - toilets overflowing - generally disgusting and I'm saying how gross this is and why can't anyone flush their toilets. I hear someone at the end flush theirs and I go in. Only to look down and find out that there is poop turds all around my bare feet. And the toilet itself is slippery and the handle where I could hold on is also slippery. So I'm trying like hell not to slip and put a foot in the poop -- I am pulling up the pant legs of this yellow sliky pants outfit I am wearing. I am beyond grossed out.

Then I wake up -- and yes, I did have to pee:) I tried so hard to get back to that dream...I wanted to be back with Ted and see Bill and go to the beach!! What still stands out so vividly is the amount of hugging Ted did. I know he did not want to separate from me at all. He was also very reluctant to get me and Bill together.

Last night I took to bed not only my healing wand, but this time a large faden quartz and my Bill stone that I found in the pacific ocean. I had a hell of a time going to sleep all night and I wish I could remember the rest of my dreams -- I know I traveled a lot - and maybe I shouldn't use that combo very often:) I do know that the last time I tried to sleep with Bill's rock that I couldn't rest either -- to much traveling.

Very cool though:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dream Visits: Dreams, Past Live Memories Or The Future?

Will no longer feels like a tidal wave, he's a constant contact now. One that is so life affirming. I wish I could explain what this feels like to those who have not found this type of connection. It's a powerful energy - a life force that is no way shape or form can be denied, no matter if I wanted to deny it I couldn't. Granted, this same connection is with both Bill and Ted - but with Will, it's just different. It's like Bill and Ted are two apples and Will is an orange. Will can and will open me up to possibilities that I had never thought were achievable. My path with him is different than my path with Bill and Ted yet they are all connected or flow into one another. I won't say that I'm not confused here - because I am. It's like go here - do this....no..instead run over here and try this -- no, no, no...you forgot to do this over here first....yadda...yadda.....it can drive a person mad.

I had an interesting telepathic connection with Will today. I could hear the rummaging of papers, and him humming a song. I asked what is he doing...and all stopped for a second. I hear -- hello? So I asked again.....what are you doing? He asks - is this Alison? I said yes Will, it is. He says - I'm trying to figure out who you are. I told him - you found me, you should already know who I am. He says - one would think that, wouldn't they. I can't remember more than a flash at a time. I told him to keep working on it - it'll all come to him. He said that he was getting a headache and needed to break off for a bit. We said our good-byes and went our separate ways.

My dreams last night were really odd and disturbing. At one point I was in a stone fortress with a bunch of other people - we were protecting ourselves from some outside power or mob of people. It was important that none of us go outside the safety of the stone walls. The walls were holding back whomever or whatever was out there -- it was a very strong wall. But our fortress was supposed to be a secret - we were a secret society. I remember asking a man if I could go to the tower and frighten the power away with some magic. I was immediately chastised by saying that and thrown into a dungeon. I escaped the dungeon by saying a spell (wish I could remember what words I used) and left the fortress by means of a secret passage.

I was in a neighborhood and on a side walk looking up at a blue house. The front lawn had a slight hill to it from the sidewalk to the lawn. Up on the left there was a person in a wheelchair who waved hi to me. I knew who they were and I started to wave back. From the right of the lawn came this woman in a gray dress telling the wheelchair person not to talk to me. I said to her -- why are you doing this? I'm still the same person? She came over to me and told me to go away and never come back, I'm no longer wanted here. The person in the wheelchair though wanted to talk to me. I was with a person (not sure male or female) who tugged at my arm and told me that we needed to get out of here before we were spotted.

Then I am at a farm house and I see a bunch of stuff (suitcases, coats, a lap top) on a table & chair next to the back door. I see someone -a woman - picking a bunch of stuff up and I ask -- where are you going? She says that they're getting out of here while they can. She races out with a bunch of stuff in her hands. I yell -- wait for me -- and I grab what is left and race out of the house. Only problem here is when I left the house...the earth started to rumble and split apart, a fierce wind picked arrived and threatened to blow me into the cracks in the earth -- which were molten lava. The scene reminded me of Superman -- the 1st one with Christopher Reeve, when his planet was coming apart. The ground shook, shifted - lava spit up. The property was determined to keep me there. I couldn't see the people who I was leaving with -- but I remember hoping that they got away. I threw down the stuff and yelled -- if you want me to stay you're going to have to do better than that. I said some words in a language I do not consciously know and was surrounding the place in a while light. Angels by the thousands arrived - it felt like a good ole show down between good and evil. Then I woke up.

Dang it.

It was all so strange and so vivid. I could feel the heat -- feel that wind on me....feel the pain in my heart when I was ejected by that woman in the gray dress. Everything was right there when I awoke.

BTW....hubby passed his doctor appointment with flying colors. Seems that they took a few dozen polyps out of his sinuses at the surgery and he doesn't have cancer! What he has is a rare form of bacterial sinus infection that I guess doc's in this area never see. So he's on some high dosage meds and he'll be fine. Thank you for al who had sent all of the white light, well wishes and kind words.

I hear the movie "Ghost" on downstairs -- I think I'll go watch!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Happy Anniversary, Telepathic Sex and Apophyllite!

Will and I driving with the top down on a white 1957 T-Bird with a red interior. The road is curvy and takes my tummy by surprise. One side of the road hugs the tall cliffs while the other side gives us a great view of the ocean. No idea what coast we are on. The sun is shinning, traffic is light and an immerse feeling of happiness flows trough my veins. That is how I woke up last night after one of my dream visits with Will - such happiness. I went back to sleep and wound up in a Jeep Wrangler (soft top - top down) with Bill at the wheel. Two people were in the back seat - I think one was my son and the other was a younger girl. We turned a corner and I felt the Jeep's frame shift. Bill and I looked at each other like - oh no. We stopped the Jeep at the end of this road - where what was in front of us was a bridge without a floor. There was nothing to drive on. The bridge's structure though, was this massive stone and cement thing. It was so massive! I knew that somewhere, a person had to flip a switch so that the floor of the bridge would come out from the side of the mountain we were on -- and once that happened we could cross. We were up high - really high - and I could see a fast moving river below. Bill asked me if he should gun it? The floor started to come out from the mountain side. One of the kids yelled - they're coming. Bill floored it and we were airborne. I woke myself up before I found out if we landed on the bridge or continued down into the river. When I woke up it still felt like my tummy was going down the 1st hill of a roller coaster! Bill and I weren't frightened in this dream - but there was a sense of urgency.

I've gotten that a lot as of late - an urgency to physically meet. This feel comes from all 3 men. But Will has really been pushing it today. Our telepathic connection is really strong right now - has been for the last 48 hours. When I am working or doing something that doesn't involve those three - Will pushes back into my mind. He keeps telling me not to forget. I assure him like I always do - that I haven't forgotten. With this telepathic connection - telepathic sex has been intertwined to my day today. As your mind is your largest sex organ, telepathic sex is such a unique way to have an orgasm. Granted - it's not as volcanic as astral sex or as surreal as dream sex -- but it is as equally as pleasing. It's very easy to be in the midst of telepathic sex and it merges into a day dream as it is difficult if not impossible to see the images of sexual intimacy in your mind's eye as those same images translate to an ethereal feel all over your body. So if during telepathic sex your nipples are being teased into a harden temple - it is almost a sure given that in your physical body your nipple is going to get hard. You know how with the law of attraction your thoughts & emotions (AKA your mind) creates your reality -- well it is the exact same thing with telepathic sex. This is also why that if you climax during telepathic sex, your body is going to respond in the physical sense. Unlike astral or dream sex - telepathic sex your conscious mind is still housed in your physical body -- so this sexual act can feel so much more real than astral or dream sex. And besides - all of your bodies (physical, emotional, astral, mental etc..) are all together so it is much easier to recall telepathic sex than astral or dream sex.

And man, Will keeps telepathically kissing my neck. I have to force myself not to think about sex. Because if I do - I can grab onto that telepathic connection and not get a damn thing done today except having telepathic sex:) Of course - it would be a fine way to spend the day if I didn't have a poop load of work to do:)

But -- one more thing about sex -- the astral/dream/telepathic sex idea I have for the book and web page are coming along very nice:) I have a name for the book and an outline is almost done:)

Before I go any further -- I want to say - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ALLIE'S TWO CENTS! Whoo Hoo! It's been 2 years now and it's been such a trip in the last 24 months - hasn't it? I've learned so much and I'm learning more and more every day. I hope that by me bring my experiences to light that I am helping some of you realize that if you too experience what I do that you are not alone and certainly not crazy! If you do not experience any of what have -- maybe, just maybe what I write about can help you think outside the box. Thank you for being a part of my life -- I appreciate YOU!

Now -- back to business -- I have a piece of Apophyllite (one of the naturally shaped pyramids) taped to my third eye. I decided to give it a try since I have heard so many wonderful things about this stone spirit that I've had in my care for over a year. It is supposed to help with astral travel to consciously remember what has happened with little or no effort - it creates a bond between the physical and spiritual worlds, enhances clairvoyance, energy and dream recall. It feels very strange in the middle of my forehead. I can feel a tingling, but that sense is from deep within my skull. I can't feel anything on the surface, it's all inside. Since I have placed it there - I keep getting flash visions of my past life as Cleopatra. I can see myself in the Library at Alexandria writing that dang scroll. I still cannot tell what I am writing - but this time I can sense it has to do with some sort of art. But it's not art as in painting -- it's more of a sexual art - something like Tantra? I'm not sure this makes sense. It is an act that has only been taught to the elders or royalty of Egypt -- it is a form of sexual magic, a form of merging oneself with the higher conscious of the Divine. I can't type the symbols I see and we know how sucky my drawing is.....

I'm not sure why it is being written down and why is she/I doing this? It's all very sketchy..but it definitely has to do with sexual magic. I just don't understand why I keep seeing art. I wonder if it is written anywhere in the history books that Cleopatra would ask her male and female servants to sexual please her when no other royalty or a partner was around? She would school her servants into the art of the sexual magic by having them take part in rituals. I can see jugs of water, flowers, oils....incenses/herbs burning. Jasmine maybe? The ruby sphere is present everywhere. Wow -- it's intense.

Okay - that was enough - I took the Apophyllite off of my third eye.

So - when I was Joan of Arc - sex and clairvoyance -- major stuff....as Cleopatra - sex and clairvoyance and magic -- major stuff....as Allie - sex and clairvoyance and magic -- major stuff. Interesting....very interesting.....

Again - thank you so much for being with me over the last 2 years -- here's to the next 2 years!!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Good News -- But Not Out Of The Woods Yet!

The surgery went well. They cleaned out his sinuses and took biopsies on the gunk that was compacted in all of his sinus cavities -- plus took out maybe 10 or so polyps - all which are being tested too. The good thing is that there are no tumors in there. But we have to wait to get the results on Friday when I take him to the doc to get the gauze that stuffed up his nose - out and for his check-up. So he's in bed, at home, where he's been for the last several weeks.

Doc says from what he can see (without tests results) is that this was a sinus infection that he has had for waaaayyyyyy too long and it has festered.....he is a very lucky man. All signs had pointed to stage IV cancer.

So he's not out of the woods yet -- but it is looking good so far!

Thank you for the healing light and all of the well wishes!

Man -- I am soooooo darn tired!

Off to bed I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will Wants To Meet And A Book On Sex!

I went to my session immediately and encountered Will. He was sitting by that tree by the lake, carving something out of wood. He looked tired, rather drained, but his eyes still held that spark. I sat down next to him and asked what was the matter. He shrugged and said that he was tired. I asked if he had been working hard? He said no. I asked if he had been sleeping? He said yes. Is your personal life okay? He shook his head no. What's going on - I asked.

He doesn't stop carving away at the stick....and replies -- you. What's going on is you. Well why would I cause you to be tired? I'm not rightly sure - he said - but I know it is connected with you. I'm sorry - I replied - although I'm not sure what I'm apologizing for.

He stopped carving -- tossed the stick aside and closed his pocket knife.

We're supposed to be together now - we should have met by now - but you're not doing anything to further things along.

I've been a bit busy - I replied - and I have a lot on my plate right now. Maybe you could help out and take a step forward?

How can I help, he said, when I don't know where on the physical plane to find you? You know how to find me.

As I just said, I've been busy. I'll move forward once life chills a bit.

Don't you get it??? Your life isn't going to chill. I want to be there to help you. Everyone assumes you are this Rock of Gibraltar...but you have weak spots and I know where those weak spots are. I want to make sure no one takes advantage of you during the craziness in your life.

I'll be careful.

He shook his head -- no you won't -- not because you can't, but because you'll be overwhelmed and therefore, not firing on all cylinders.

I'll try something -- but you have to take a step towards me. Search out what you are feeling - just don't only be curious about it. If you found me on the astral plane - you can find me on the physical plane too.

You have to try before April - he said.

Okay - I'll try something before then.

Promise?

Promise.

He smiled - alright then -- that's what I like to hear. I'll see you tonight. He gets up and kissed me on top of the head -- sweet dreams darlin`. And he was gone...and I was done.

SIGH - men:) His heart is in the right place.

My husband's surgery is scheduled for tomorrow - March 20th at 9:30 am. I will leave a note tomorrow night to let you know how everything went and what they found. Thanks for all those who have sent my husband and I well wishes, positive thoughts and healing light. My son could use a really good dose of the white light - he has scores of angels around him, but he's still really scared. And since he's intuitive like me, who knows what he has seen.

I've still been giving some serious consideration about the astral/dream/telepathic sex non-fiction book and the astral erotic novel. I think that I will do the non-fiction 1st and in the erotica novel - use the title of my non-fiction book on how the character achieve her astral/dream/telepathic sex. After I post the page on astral sex, I'm going to set up a form for people to email their experiences. Those that I include in the book - they will get a copy of the book as payment. After the book is out - I will have a blog that will be an add on to the book.

So for astral sex I will have:

1. a phone workshop
2. a email class
3. a web page
4. a non-fiction book
5. erotic novel
6. companion blog

I think that'll work - don't you?

Ahhhh..I'm excited to get started:)

Off to get my son!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sex, The 1920's And Astral Travel!

My husband's surgery is set for Tuesday. Fingers crossed he's not at stage 4 cancer which is what his doctor's fear. Finger's crossed........

Now, on to something that puts a smile on my face.....astral travel. I had the coolest experience today. No matter how many times I astral travel , I can never get used to my stomach dropping right before my astral body separates from my physical body. Today when it happened, I got a flash of a headache during the separation, but once apart- the headache stayed in my physical body. So here I am standing on my office, looking around and I'm thinking to myself - where do I want to go? I decided that I wanted to go back to the 1920's and watch me. Bill and Ted. In a flash I was there.

Robert McCormick....that name was the 1st that popped into my head as soon as my astral self landed on a street in NYC. I saw a newspaper and it was August 15, 1928. I see me (Sheila) in the backseat of a car with Nick (Bill). Since I know in this life I am married to Ted (Frank), I have no clue as to why I am in a car with Nick (besides me having an affair with him). I look relatively happy - Nick looks stressed. But he keeps looking in my astral direction - almost as if he could see me. The car pulls over and he and I get out. We go into an alley and into a back door that was guarded. Down stairs and into a basement. Nick moves a can and a door opens. We go into a back gaming room - there are a handful of men and women in here. We sit at a table -- Will is at the table but Nick calls him Bob. So now I know who is Robert McCormick.....Will. Bob checks out me/Sheila from head to toe and she/I seem very put off by the attention.

It's a game of poker over a stash of booze that was stolen from a bunch of run runners. The game is going on and me/Sheila gets up and moves to a mirror. I (astral me) decides to try something.....I put myself into the mirror. She/I look in the mirror and she much she me -- but the look of "holy shit" was on her/my face. As soon as this happened I was yanked back to my body where my headache was waiting for me. And that headache is still with me.

I want to try to go back another day into this time and learn more -- especially about Bob/Will.

For those of you with pets and in case you did not know -- there is a MAJOR pet food recall (49 different brands)...including Iams products. Check out the list of foods here: http://www.menufoods.com/recall there are pets dying from this -- so make sure you check and pass it on to other pet owners.

I've decided that my next two projects after the dreamer's book is finally at press is a non-fiction book on astral sex and an erotic astral sex novel. I think that I may do the novel 1st. Not sure yet.....

And I'm going to add a page to the web site about astral/dream/telepathic sex.

Plus I have also decided to get certified to be a Past Life Regressionist.

I know -- I know...have I come up with a way to stretch time? No. This won't be all this year.....:)

And on that note -- I want to go to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Short And Quick Update!

Just a quick update. Hubby is home and his heart, while damaged, is fine for surgery which is now rescheduled for Tuesday the 20th. I'm a tired pup...heading to bed and turning on LOST:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

A Small Update

I'm tired - bone tired. But my mind is moving -- always thinking -- always doing SOMETHING. SIGH. They postponed my husband's surgery due to a heart attack he had last night. He's in the local hospital, hooked up to a bunch of stuff while they try to determine what to do. What everyone is in agreement with is that he needs his nasal cavity surgery ASAP and they only way to do this is for him to pass a stress test. So that is scheduled for the morning. They have to determine how many tumors he has, where they have spread to, if they can operate, etc.....

I'm kinda of sitting here like a lump, not really sure what to do. I know what I should do -- and that is go to sleep. But then I see the work piled up on my desk....and now that hubby has been put on medical leave at work....and today in the ER (for 7 hours) was not cheap. Nor is his current care. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful that we have a branch of the Cleveland Clinic in Wooster (of all places) and that he is getting top notch care. But I know insurance -- and I know what lies ahead for me with my husband off of work. I'm just venting I suppose as keeping this inside isn't doing me any good. And since it is imperative to my husband and my son that I hold it together -- hold it together I will. I'll worry in the shower...or vent in my blog:)

Thanks for listening.

I think that I'm heading to bed. If I'm lucky I may have a sweet dream or two:)

Good night.....
Allie :)

Riding The Rapids And It Was A Test!

Bill has been reaching out all morning. I've been putting him off seeing that my energy is supposed to be elsewhere - but he is very insistent.

As soon as I start my session I am taken to a fallen log by a river. The water in the river is moving pretty rapidly and there are a series of rapids - starting small and getting larger - down the way a few yards. I can see the rapids end into calm water.

I sit down on the log and listen to the rushing water. It really does sound calming, yet invigorating all at once. Bill arrives and sits next to me. We both sit in silence for a few, just listening to the music of the water. Finally he speaks - how are you? I manage a weak smile - shitty. How are you? He chucks a bit and replies - the same.

I turn to face Bill. Why are you here? Why were you around all weekend? He reaches out to have his fingers lightly caress my left cheek. Because you need me -- and no matter what is said, if you need me than I'm here.

What I need is for you to pick up the phone and call me. What I need is to hear your voice - your physical voice.

What about me - will I do? - says a very familiar British voice.

I turn and there is Ted, smiling -- he sits down on the other side of me and gives me a hug. I tell him that his voice will always work:)

All three of us sit and stare at the water. I comment - the words 'Remember The Titans' are coming to mind. You don't think that ---

Ted says - what can they do?

Bill replies - keep us apart longer.

I bury my head in my hands -- I'm thinking to myself that this is all I need, more stress. I'm a pressure cooker as it is. Both guys rub my back.

Jesus appears in front of us, bathed in the most splendid of white lights -- he's almost blinding. We get to our feet immediately. He motions for us to sit back down and we do.

I ask - are we in trouble?

Jesus smiles - no child, he says, there is only love where you three are concerned.

Bill gets that "I get it" look in his eyes and says - this was a test, wasn't it?

Ted mummers something like a British slang or two under his breath......

Jesus nods. Yes, and you passed. We knew that your love for one another was stronger than anything. But you had to know it too.

I chime in -- and now we do.

Jesus smiles (he has the most healing smile that I have ever seen).

I continue -- but what about Will?

Jesus gets serious and responds - you need to meet him, that was no test but a must. Too many souls depend on your physical connection. And these two (he nods to Bill and Ted) are to help you by sending connecting energy to the two of you -- this will help to facilitate a meeting by the end of the calendar year.

And this water -- I ask -- who is it supposed to represent?

Jesus says - you. See how the water moves into the rapids and into the calm waters? I nod. This is you now (points to the part before the rapids) over the next several weeks your life will move through the rapids and arrive into the calm. A test for you in the show of strength is among you. You will persevere.

And with that Jesus leaves.

Bill looks at me and asks - did you feel a shift in my energy lately? I reply - yes, as soon as you said that you had to break contact -- it was almost as if you had an "ah-ha" moment. He nods - that's because I did. I had a vision of making a higher connection with you - I saw the energies intertwine around one another.

Ted says - and I had a vision of the three of us in some sort of ancient attire, at an altar and it looked like one person was marrying us to one another.

In the distance I can hear my husband calling me -- he needs my help. I tell the men that I will see them later.

And I was done.

I'm drained today -- I could really use a nap. Too bad I have no time for one. Off to help the hubby.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Bill, Bill!

Okay, so you read yesterday's entry right? The one where Bill said that we had to break our connection until Will and I physically met? Well guess who showed up last night astrally? And today? Yep -- Bill. Right out of the corner of my eye -- there he is. He did it twice last night and at last count about four times today. But wait -- that isn't the kicker -- he was in all my dreams last night. Yep - every last one of them. Always at the outskirts of the dream - but I could see him.

Then the last dream visit of the night, there he is - front and center. I ask him - I thought we weren't supposed to have contact? He tells me that he can't help it. My reply - some people are not going to happy. What was his reply -- we're human right? They have to take that into account.

So there we are, in felt like we were in my grandparent's old house - but where ever we were was supposed to be my house. Because he showed up on my front door step. We got along without a glitch. It was wonderful. Laughing - carrying on. There was one part where I'm on the couch speaking to an elderly lady (about what I don't know) and he is lying on something behind the couch. Without him telling me, I know his left foot hurts. So I grab it and massage it while I am talking to this woman. I have to gently squeeze his foot as the first time I squeezed too hard and I heard him wince. So I'm rubbing his socked foot (which I found odd he had socks on as the guy in real life is always running around barefoot) and after a spell his calf and then his knee. No further than that. But I kept rubbing up and down his calf and lower foot. The older woman has to go somewhere (I could hear a name called) and says good luck. I lean over the couch and ask if he's feeling better and he says yes.

We are then on a different couch talking about who knows what - when my neighbors go strolling through my house. I stop them and introduce them both to Bill. Melissa chats it up a bit with Bill and then leaves. Before I know it - my whole family is there and I'm introducing him to everyone. I know that soon my husband will be home and I ask him if he wants to stay or leave. He decides to stay. Next thing I remember is my husband sitting beside Bill on the couch. I say - Hi Honey. And he says nothing. My husband looks at me and asks if I'm talking to him or Bill (and man was his tone sarcastic) - I said - I'm talking to you -- husband. There was some sarcastic crap flying about -- Bill got a few words in.

Next thing I know Bill is lying on a bed (fully clothed mind you) and I am I the bathroom next to it with the hubby as he's bitching that he will not have Bill in his house. I asked him if he knows how to be anything but an ass hole? No response. Then he jumped in again and I said -- quit being an ass.

Now Bill is still up at the edge of his bed -- and I sit down on something across from him. He looks at me and grabs his head and asks -- what do you hear? Do you hear them call Sara? Do you see something? What happens?

I asked why would I hear the name Sara? He says -- because when I was Phillip - you were Sara (look back at the beginning of this blog for more about Phillip). I was shocked about that and just said --oh. Then I smile at him and say -- I have so much to tell you about - we have so much ground that we need to cover. He shakes his head and says - I know. I have over 400 pages of notes in my computer. He takes out a pen and paper. I can email them all to you if you give me your address. Silence. Then I jump back in - of course you probably don't want to give me your email address. He scrunches up his face -- and I can tell that he really doesn't. So I go on -- I won't give it to anyone else - I promise I won't. I'll never email you except to forward you my notes. Please -- I promise.

Then I woke up. And guess whose astral body was right next to my bed? Yep - Bill.

I just kept thinking that I had so much to tell him. This was the 1st time he has wanted to talk about our past connection - to discuss and explore. To share notes. When I was fully awake I was aggravated that I couldn't tell him something -- anything for him to know that what he is experiencing is real and he's not crazy.

Quite frankly I don't know what to think about any of this. Bill is right there in my energy field -- not really strong -- but his presence is certainly felt. I keep telling him that if I'm not supposed to think about him that he shouldn't be there. No response and he doesn't move. SIGH. Oh - but I did get him to say that he will channel energy into the hook up of Will and I since it is important that it happen.

Back to work I go.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Telepathic Sex, Will And A New Directive!

Sweet Home Alabama! That's the song anyways that has been tickling my brain today. Let me tell ya something - remember when I said Monday that hooking up energetically wise with Will was like riding a tidal wave? Well damn - let me tell you that we must be riding this wave for all it's worth because he has been reaching out for telepathic sex for the last two days straight. I know that I test sex toys for my other job -- but come on -- I have more to do than that! But he is not making it easy to think about anything but sex. Bill and Ted can get really bad about this too - especially when our energies have a firm connection for a long period of time. Will here though is relentless. So I'm working on channeling his enormous sexual energy into working on creative projects. I'm not allowing him access to my libido, at least not now.

So what kind of things have been going on with him? Hummm...what can I write that won't stick this blog into an adult category? Well, not much then.

Okay - last night for instance -- dream time. have you ever watched a movie or TV show where a couple is really fighting -- yelling -- with the woman stopping out the door and the man running after her? Well, that was this dream visit. We were fighting over me moving. I didn't want to - said it would screw things up. He was insistent and it went from there. Next thing I know is that I'm running out of the door, he grabs me and wants me to stay. I start beating the living crap out of him and somehow this turns into us both crying and kissing. I don't know how it went from one extreme to the other, but it did. We weren't in the house, but in the garage. His mouth on my neck felt like a trail of fire -- man was it a turn on. Before I know what's happening we're almost butt naked on the hood of his 1969 yellow Camaro SS! Good God. I woke up and just laid there - my heart beating a million miles an hour. But without taking care of the situation I found myself in -- I knew that I'd never fall back to sleep. So that was that.

Then the telepathic connection and telepathic sex started as soon as I woke up. It is very hard to go about you day when in your mind you can feel someone hands and mouth caress your body. It's difficult not to slip into an orgasmic bliss when the most erotic situations are playing out in your mind with your body responding to the telepathic touch. I found Will and I in a lake, a stairwell and in an alley way between two buildings. Now -- Will in real life is a very shy man who is not one to express themselves in such a sexual manner in public (and by that token so am I) but when we're in the telepathic connection or dream visit and even astral sex -- it is a no holds bar erotic tryst.

I know - you want me to be more revealing. Not here. In the book - it's a strong possibly - but not here, not now. Doesn't feel right to be that revealing. But use your imagination and I'm sure what images you can conjure up has been a part of my day.

Will's being very insistent on pulling me into a session. I go and I see him sitting under that tree, by the lake with a notebook in his hands. I ask him what he's doing and he tells me writing down some poetry to show me some day. I ask - why not now? He shakes his head -- he wants it to be in person, not on the astral plane. He gives me that very sexual and sensual grin. I tell him that he's been a bit horny today. He chuckles and says - well -- it is your fault. I smile - don't go blaming me - is my reply. He grasps my chin, his thumb lightly glides over my bottom lip. If you weren't so good with your mouth my mind may be elsewhere. I hit his hand away - blushing -- stop it. He laughs a bit longer and then gets serious. There's someone here who wants to talk to you. There is - I ask? Will nods over towards another tree and Bill steps out from behind it. My heart goes into my throat. I have an instant feel that this isn't going to be good.

Hi stranger - I say as I smile and make my way over to him. He hugs me with such force that I can tell he is in pain - emotional pain. What's the matter? He lets me loose, tears pool in his eyes. I have to ask you to break off the contact - with me and with Ted. I could feel the blood drain from my face. Why I ask? Because - connecting to us is making you too scattered. And you can't be --not now. You and Will must have a strong connection. I turn around and look at Will - but he has his back to us - sitting under the tree, writing again.

I turn back to Bill. Did Will put you up to this? Bill shakes his head - no. Where's Ted, why isn't he here? A tear trickles down Bill cheek - because he couldn't bear the pain of telling you to let go. I think that he is drunk somewhere right now. It feels like someone kicked me in the gut. For how long - how long does the connection have to be severed? Bill shrugs - until you and Will physically meet. The sooner it happens, the sooner the connection can be strong again. I stare at Bill, trying to fight back the tears -- how can I break off a connection with two souls that are for all intent purposes, part of me? I don't know how we're supposed to do it -- I don't know at all. Maybe by busying ourselves with other things. You have your plate full and it's about to become so much that you won't have much free time to make connections. This is why it is vital that you point that energy towards Will.

I sit there, head down - not saying a word. I can feel the tears just pour down my face. So this isn't for this whole lifetime? I choke out. I look up at Bill and he's crying as much as I am -- no he says. Only for a short period. But it'll feel like an eternity. I've gotten used to your presence - I cherish it -- and I know Ted does too. This is something that came from higher up. Then why didn't someone from there tell me this? Bill wipes my ever flowing tears with his thumbs -- because I wanted to be the one.

I see Bill look past me and nod. I can feel Will walking up behind me. Will stands next to me. Bill embraces Will and they hug. Tears flow down Will's face too. Take good care of her, Bill says. Will replies - I will...that's a promise. Bill gives me a kiss - we hug and then like -that-he's gone.

I can't help but sob - Will holds me tight and tells me not to cry. I look at Will with my swollen eyes and my heavy heart and ask -- but with what all is going on with me, how can they just leave? Just when I need them the most? Will pulls me back into the embrace -- they didn't leave because they wanted to - they did because they had to. And I promise - I'll be there for you, I'm your safe harbor.

I stand there in his arms for a spell, until the crying calms down to a trickle. I pull back from Will and comment - looks like we have to meet. He nods. Then I suggest we get busy. He smiles -- that's my girl.

And I was done.

I think - no I know - that I liked being distracted with sex much better than being distracted because I cannot feel Bill or Ted at all. Not even really a glimmer -- but I do know that they are still there...the door is just shut. God this sucks.

I now know where I must turn my extra energy - Will. I don't know why it is so important that we physically meet - but then again the Divine knows much more than I do. I just wish I had hints every now and again.

When I meet Will - and I will by year's end - I'll let you know.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Riding The Wave With Will!

Being connected to Will is like riding a tidal wave. It's a gradual build, then it's so strong that you are holding on for life -- until it crashes into the beach and scatters, leaving nothing behind. Then the wave starts again....I'm on the upswing of another wave. It feels so strange. I can feel his apprehensions, his curiosity and his fortitude to see it through. I don't think on a conscious level he has totally gotten it -- but it's right there at the tip. It's almost as if he stops by this blog by accident - reads his name - and is like - no shit, that sounds like me. Because, as you know, in this case of my blog -- Will is his actual name. A nice man with the charm and the wit one would expect from a gentleman born in Charleston, with a sexy southern drawl that I find irresistible. A Gemini 13 years my senior. A Taurus and a Gemini -- interesting astrological mix. His date of birth was my mom's actual due date with me (I was early), my son's due date (he was late) and now my new niece's due date. Life is interesting.

I want to get into a session real fast before I have to pick up my son, I am transported directly to the lake, by that tree. Will is waiting for me. He smiles and says that he hasn't seen much of me since we did that past life regression trip together. I said, no - haven't been around, but that information was pretty intense. His hand caress my face, he smiles -- those blue eyes twinkle - and he tells me that I never have to pull away from him again. No matter what the pain or the confusion, no matter what I might hear from someone else, that I am always to go to him. He will always be my safe harbor. He is committed to that - to seeing me safe - and happy. I told him thank you - I appreciate it. He goes on to say especially with what you have on your plate now. I ask - like what? He says, you know -- your husband. Ah yes - he's ill. Will nods and looks out to the lake. Nothing is said for a spell. Then he turns and looks at me - don't turn your heart off. Don't put up your wall and shut out the world when you need support the most. No matter how strong you think you are, no one can survive alone. You have a support team, to lean when you need to. I won't let you fall. I love you Allie Cat. He kisses me. Be safe he says -- and stay close. With that he leaves.

And I'm done.

Okay - have to go get my son....will be back in a few to write some more.

Over the weekend I had some interesting dream visits with Will. I can still remember the texture of the hair on his arms. Isn't that a strange thing to remember? His mouth tasted real sweet too - like he just enjoyed a serving of peach cobbler before my arrival. We went down into a cave, I'm not sure where we were at exactly, but as we were descending, we discussed how my great grandparents and his grandparents were rum runners. My great grandmother actually was one -- and a damn good one at that (from the stories told). I was telling Will how to make my grandfather's blueberry brandy. He said that he'll have to give it a go. We ended in a back room where there were old barrels - Will tells me that these were forgotten from the 20's and 30's and every once in a while he comes down here and enjoys some fine aged booze. He takes out two paper cups and pours some out of a barrel. It smells like cleaning fluid - fruity cleaning fluid. I ask if he thinks I'm going to drink this. He smiles and says - of course -- very quickly I suspect. We down this lighting fluid and it burned -- even after I awoke I remember that burn in my throat. As I'm trying not to gag from the taste - he comments that the booze is strong, but there is something that he can do in order to take my mind off of the taste. I wanted to catch my breath and ask him what -- but before I could say anything his tongue was exploring my mouth. I can distinctly remember the energy zap through my body and my knees wanting to buckle. But I held my ground -- and wanted more.

The air was so cool down in this cave, and his hands were so hot. It was such a contrast on our bodies as our hands explored one another. Things were getting really intense as his mouth devoured my body. But just as things fevered to that all-consuming pitch......the alarm went off. I could hear him scream - damn it - as I was whisked away back into reality. After considering sending the alarm out the window - I laid there for awhile. Trying to remember everything that I could. It was all so vivid. I could still taste not only the booze in my mouth, but the sweet taste of him. Wow - it was intense.

The other dream visit was just as intense, but a different subject matter all together. I was helping Will read his lines for a play he was either in or trying out for - can't remember. He loved the way I delivered lines - he just sat back and smiled as I read down the script - just tickled on how I was getting into the parts. I remember the room - it was like a den, with a leather recliner, love seat, red or burgundy drapes/shades, drawn to keep out the hot sun. Books all about. A computer. A pipe and for some reason one hockey stick. He tells me that I should try out for one of the parts that haven't been cast yet. I tell him - no way - I do not get up in front of people. Nope -- nadda. He keeps trying to convince me otherwise. He is adamant about getting me to go to this place and audition. I finally give in - just so he'll shut up. I'm standing outside of the playhouse when I think I force myself awake. I woke up with butterflies in my stomach. It was so surreal.

And now I have to go get some more work done. Don't forget to stop by The L Word tonight at 10:00 pm EST and join me for a sex chat - info in sidebar here! Had a blast last week!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Stuff, Ted And A New One Named Jo!

I've never been able to understand it. The days that I do not post anything are the days when the most people visit. Does that make sense to you? Me neither.

The last week has been difficult. I still have this cold that insists that I cough up a lung and my husband has the mother of all sinus infections. They did a CAT scan on his sinus area a little over a week ago and the ER doctor said he's never seen so many notes come back from the radiologist. He had 3 pages of notes on his sinus instead of the normal few lines. He's so infected that they can't tell what's going on inside of there until they can get some of the infection gone. And let me tell ya - that gunk isn't leaving without a fight. Yesterday he went to the ear, nose , throat specialist and it isn't good. Not good at all. He is having surgery done on the 13th so that they can determine what is growing inside of his sinus. Until then the man can move from point A to point B and that's about it. So between the two of us - I haven't gotten much sleep at all - and my lungs are really starting to hurt from all the coughing. I have no fever - nothing else is wrong (except for the drainage) so the doc says there isn't much to be done for me except to wait it out. Same for the kid. So I have extra home duty. This is where I've been for the last 10 days.

Monday night's chat at The L Word on Second Life went really well. I have such a good time at the events and meet such interesting people. If you haven't stopped by yet, it's all free, all you have to do is sign up and download the software. There is a catch though - you have to have DSL or Broadband to log on. Look me up on there - I'm Alison Ashby!

I answered two ads this past week on people looking for female erotica writers. I thought - right up my alley -- perfect! Boy was I wrong -- they didn't want a writer, what they wanted is a woman who could have sex with someone while they watched and took notes. So I turned down both of their well-paying, but not for me, jobs.

On the way to taking my son to school last Monday there was a really nice snowfall happening. It was the perfect snowfall,the kind you see in the movies. Well I wasn't paying attention and I wiped out in front of his school. Nothing broken, but my right arm killed me for days.

Monday, Feb 26th, was the 6th anniversary of the "Ask Allie" column! The podcast turned a year old last December! This blog will head into year 3 this month! I tried to look back to see how many pages I have to this blog -and it's around 600 right now. I decided to check after I got an email the other day about when I was going to come out with my soul mate book. I hope soon - after the one I want to write on astral sex. So many ideas -- so little time.

Ted has been around so much lately. Not the annoying in your face - but right there so that I can feel his energy without him being intruding. When I ask what he's doing - he only replies - just observing. There have been a ton of flash visions with him that I can't really grasp. Just tiny glimpses of scenes like wallpaper with roses on them, a Victorian high-back chair, a large hedge maze, goblets, laughter, fun, love, happiness, pain, anger, separation. I haven't had a flash vision that has anything to do with forgiveness, which I for some reason find very odd. Maybe that's what this current life is for. He's always so determined he is going to make me happy - that he loves me more than anyone could ever love. Maybe he's supposed to take care of me so that I forgive him for the past. SHRUG. I don't have a clue. When I ask my guides about it I never hear anything back -- which means I'm not supposed to know.

I had an interesting dream last night about this woman, I'll call her Jo, who I have found out is in my soul circle. She's a gorgeous woman in real life - simply gorgeous, and in this dream I'm in her house just staring at her. She jokes about is there something on her face and I laugh and tell her that I can't believe I'm sitting here. I hand her a piece of paper and on it is all about Bill, Ted and Will. She looks at me and says am I one? I tell her yes you are -- it's you, me and a whole bunch of testosterone. She gave me a great big smile and couldn't believe her luck. She was so happy to be part of our circle. Her partner is her soul mate - so I we talked about how he fits into our soul circle because I've never felt he was part of it, but he must be if they are soul mates. And she said that she has felt that he and Will were part of her soul circle, but never felt Bill and Ted (or me) so there you go.

Jo then showed me around her huge place - I asked where her better half was with the kids and she said they were out. But in this house there were so many people in there - some with their hair up in curlers, others were getting make up on, while others where trying on clothes. I felt almost if I were on a movie set. I asked Jo if she took care of all these people and she said yes. I asked why. She replied that someone had to. As she opened this huge vertical case of make-up & beauty supplies - I noticed how dusty everything was. I told her that these people were talking advantage of her generosity. She giggled and called me a worry wart. Then I woke up.

One big thing I remember about the dream is that she was sp pleased to be part of our soul circle. So happy - that she glowed. You know, the kind of glow a pregnant woman would have - that kind of glow.

I think that I'm going to head to bed. It's early I know. But I am is dang tired that I don't think I care.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)