Bill, Ted And OBE Sex!

Today's session has left me feeling very light-headed and dizzy. I sat with my healing wand and without the 3 crystals around me. I was taken to a soft, fluffy mattress. I was lying on my side when I heard someone approach me. I looked over and it was Bill. He had a crazed look in his eyes - it was very odd. He kneeled down on the mattress and said - I don't know what to do? I replied - do about what? You - he said. Me? Why is there a problem with me? Because you are so dark - there is a black nugget deep within you and I cannot reach it. You will not let it go. Everytime I try to help you put a wall up and it is frustrating. He jumped up and paced -- I don't know how to get to you.

You're going to choose him - aren't you? He's really pacing now - back and forth - running his fingers through his hair. What are you talking about? Choose who? Ted - he has you. Ted stepped out from somewhere and said - yes, she's mine. You had your chance and you blew it. She was right there mate - right there next to you and you blew it.

I can't get to her - Bill said. I can't get rid of the darkness -- it has to go - all the darkness. Ted replied - I'm helping her with that - my love for her will help set the darkness free, it will free the ties that binds her.

But why can't I find her? Bill cried.

I can sense Tracey off to the side - just out of our realm of sight.

I'm right here! I yelled. Quit talking like I'm not here.

I can feel Will try to make his way to me. But Bill and Ted's combined energies push him back. Will doesn't give up though - he kept trying.

Let Will in - I said.

Both men - no!

I'm not choosing, no one is getting me and no one is losing me -- we've covered this ground before.

But you'd said you'd marry me - Ted said.

What! Bill yelled.

He asked me first Bill. He doesn't sit around over thinking this whole damn thing and trying to come up with a logical solution. This isn't logical - us 3 - we're eternal and spiritual -- not logical. And besides - Ted is always there. He is always wiling to comfort me. He's not scared, he's not put of by the unknown. He's there - his energy is around me all the time. And where have you been? Holding back trying to figure things out as usual. I cannot believe after all this time we're covering this again!

Bill and Ted start into one another - and that is when my guide - Ethan - grabs me and pulls me to the beach. I told him thanks for getting me out of there. He said that they will cool down and realize that they are being children. But Bill is really worried that he cannot find you - this haunts him. Well it's not like I haven't given him enough to go on.

I pulled you away from them because you and I need to talk about your plans on OBE sex. What about them? I asked. You need to get that web page up and start collecting stories to post and to put in the book. What about another blog - should I have one about OBE sex only? Yes you should. What should I call it? It doesn't matter as long as you have sex in the title somewhere. You need to be graphic in your experiences - this is not the place to hold back because you are worried about what someone will think. You have to have faith that this is what you are supposed to do and go for it full force.

Okay -- I will. And one more thing - Ethan added - put your astral class on that page too somewhere. Okay -- I'll try. This isn't a dress rehearsal and this isn't a time for trying. Just do what you need to do.

And he was gone....and I was done.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Art Of Divination!

The Art Of Divination

DATES: June 8 - 16, 2007

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The days of the class are:

Lesson 1: Overview of Tarot and Major Arcana.

Lesson 2: Minor Arcana and basic reading spreads.

Lesson 3: Do a mini-reading.

Lesson 4: Overview of Runes and meanings of first ten runes.

Lesson 5: Last ten runes and basic reading spreads.

Lesson 6: Do a mini-reading.

Lesson 7: Overview of Numerology and your date of birth.

Lesson 8: What is in a name and other uses for Numerology.

Lesson 9: Do a mini-reading.

Lesson 10: One full reading - your choice of method - for Allie to review.

DATES: June 8 - 16, 2007

LOCATION: Online

PRICE: $60


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Write and Cast Your Own Magic!

Write and Cast Your Own Magic

DATES: June 4 - 11, 2007

For many spellcasters, writing and casting your spell can be a confusing process. You're entering a world that has secret tricks and tips. If everyone knew these tactics, spellcasters would be out of business!. Why waste money and hope on a spellcaster when you can do it yourself? Did you know that magic has more power behind it if the person who the magic is intended for is involved in the process?

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Day 2: The key components of start of a spell.

Day 3: The key components of end of a spell.

Day 4: The all important middle of a spell.

Day 5: Tackle a spell to bring something specific to you.

Day 6: Tackle a spell to force something away from you.

Day 7: Formulate a spell and submit for Allie's advice.

Class Comments:

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Frauds, Fakes and Scammers......

This pisses me off to no end. I don't know WHICH spellcaster/spiritual guru is pulling this crap - but I think it's dirty. I subscribe to many writer's newsletters for freelance jobs. One ad landed in my email that caught my eye:

Title: 100 Testimonials (50-200 words each)
Project ID: 301334

Category: Writing / Editing / Translation

Description:100 Testimonials (50-200 words each) For magic & spirits paranormal website. Success with Love Spells, Money Spells, and authentic spiritual help.

My Client will provide information about products and service.

Will also provide examples to give the writer an idea of what we are looking for.

That is SOOOOOOOO wrong! Providing 100 fake testimonials of spells and spiritual help. Bull crap - do it the honest way and get REAL testimonials -- not the made up @hit.

People like this give people like me a bad name and I am so tired of this fight. This is why it is so important for you guys to do your own spells. This is why I teach the magic class, write the magic books - this is why I write PERSONALIZED spells for you to cast.

When using a spellcaster or a reader/psychic - go to someone that you are recommend to. How can you believe web site testimonials if you don't know if they are real or made up just to get your hard earned money?


GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.............................

Love you all......(except for these people - I just feel sorry for them -- karma baby!)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Dunshine Castle And Telepathic Sex!

Ted, Ted, Ted -- God bless this man. I have been so closed off to energies these last few weeks that I failed to notice that I really missed Ted. I mean I miss all three guys - Ted, Bill and Will - but Ted -- it's so hard to explain with him -- so I won't. But because of my energy opening experience with Tom the other night, Ted was able to finally reach me, and it felt good. Felt great actually -- like a tall cool glass of sweet tea on a hot august day. Refreshing, invigorating - satisfying.

The dream visit last night had us at Dunshire Castle. I remember candles, a fire and a bottle of red wine. Ted told me how much I needed to relax and that I have to open myself up more, that being so closed off is not only dimming my light - but his as well. He asked if I had spoken to Tracey lately and I said briefly last week. He said - I took control of the airplane and I know where I'm headed now. It's a non-stop flight. Then he smiled at me and those green eyes twinkled. I knew what was he talking about as Tracey had told me a few months earlier that she kept having a dream with Ted in it where they were on a plane - she was flying it - and Ted said there was no need for him to do anything as she and I were doing all the work. So the fact that he has taken control of the "plane" is a big step for him.

I knew he was gunning straight for me and for the first time in years I genuinely smiled a big smile.

Then I heard an alarm go off and I woke up. But I didn't have to get out of bed for another 2 hours so I laid there and tried to get back to sleep to finish seeing Ted. No such luck. That's when the telepathic connection kicked in and I heard him say that he wasn't done with me yet. I couldn't help but smile at that. Telepathic sex can be like an intense day dream or should I say an intense day dream intermingles with telepathic sex. I could feel his breath on my neck, feel his hands grab my body and hold me tight. His lips brush gently against my cheek causing the hair to stand up on my arms and my body to go weak. His touch was like heaven on earth. But it wasn't going where I thought it would - instead he said he had to show me something.

We are standing off to the side watching us. It looks to be that I'm in London, trying to figure out how to ride the Tube when I see Ted standing there. I know who he is and I try to casually ask him directions on what I'm supposed to do - what to take where in order to get to my biz partner's house. I told my partner that I didn't need his help to do this - but I find that I'm lost. Ted gives good instructions and then adds - I'm going that way, why don't I just drop you off? I told him only if he would let me buy him a pint at the pub later. He agreed. We discuss what I do for a living and he seems intrigued. He drops me off at my destination and asks me if I would like to see a football game tonight. I say sure.

We go to the game and have a wonderful time. We go and have a few pints - still having fun. No matter what I do or what I'm saying he doesn't take his eyes off of me. It's exhilarating and unsettling all at once. I ask him to take me someplace haunted. He doesn't want to. So I call him a chicken. He agrees to take me. Not sure where we're at - but it's the UK - there's bound to be a lot of haunted places. We looking around in the dark and I could feel a coldness that had my hair stand on ends. I ran and left him in the dust - he ran after me. We got a kick out of it and he took me back to my partner's house which is where I was staying. He told me he wanted to see me again and I agreed.

The next thing I know we are out again, not sure where - but outside. He finally kisses me and I had a hard time standing with my legs wanting to buckle. He gave me a look - one that I've never seen in this lifetime -- all I can say is that it was full of love and devotion -- and he asked me if I believed in love at first sight. I told him yes. He asked how many times has it happened to me. I said - once. And him? Yes - once he said. I asked how it turned out. He replied - I don't know I'm still working on it:)

We're at Dunshine Castle again. We are both excited to be here - we're discussing past lives - etc....and we go up to the top. We are looking at the sunset and it was fabo. I turned to say something to him and he's down on one knee. He asked me if he could devote his life to loving me and if I would do the honor of being his wife? He opened up a box and inside was a marvelous diamond and emerald ring that he designed. I of course said - yes.

Then Ted looked at me (the Ted and I that were watching "us") and said - see what we have to look forward to? Then he kissed me with such passion and there was such energy from all of our chakra's merging that it was a climatic explosion - and I mean that literally. I fell back to sleep relaxed and with a grin on my face.

I love mornings like this!

BTW....I have a favor to ask of you guys. I need for you to be my psychic pimp:) With this serious life change I'm going though I'm going to need some serious cash and I'm not too proud to ask for it. So if you could pass my name and web site out to your family and friends I would appreciate it. Pimp me out -- I don't mind working for a living:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Great Astral Sex With Tom!

The astral sex last night was PHENOMENAL! And -- I don't even know who the energy was except that his name is Tom and he reads this blog. I kinda feel like an astral whore - LOL - since I haven't tripped the light fantastic with anyone but my guys in such a long time. But it was worth every once of energy spent!

I was exhausted yesterday. So damn tired that I had to keep lying down after each spell I wrote. I finally crawled into bed around 10:00 pm and started to drift off to sleep. That's when I heard someone call my name -- Allie. I knew that I could fall asleep and whomever it was I would see in my dreams. But I heard my guide Ethan tell me to astral. So after a few attempts of separating from my body, I finally rolled out and was standing next to my bed. I yelled my - clarity now - and everything snapped into focus. I thought about the voice and in the blink of an eye I ended up on a large white fluffy cloud.

In front of me was this huge orb of energy - it was massive and so vibrant. I tried to look down at me and couldn't - that's when I realized that I too was a big energy orb. The orb in front of me materialized into a 6'1", dark hair, dark brown eyes man with a tan and muscle tone to his body. He was completely naked in front of me and he was just perfect in my mind on what great male body would look like, all the way down to his penis. He smiled and said his name was Tom. He asked me if I was going to shift too. So I thought of me - only thinner with the "before having a baby" breasts - and wa-la. That's the great thing about the astral plane - you can shift into anything that is inherent (past, present or future lives)into your energy field. So since I did look like I was at some point in my current life - I was able to shift to look like that. Which meant - Tom looked like this at some point in time too.

He told me that he felt I needed a release from someone who was not energetically connected in my life. I needed a moment of fun with no strings. I agreed.

His energy burst out from his throat chakra in a brilliant white and met my throat chakra energy. The energy immediately engulfed us both. It felt as if all of my nerves were on top of my body and on fire. All I could see around me was a rainbow of colors - it looked like I was on a psychedelic drug trip from the 1970's. The build up to energy climax was slow and steady and I let him have control of the whole process. The feelings that were jamming through my body felt like it does when you know you are about to get a surprise and it is behind a curtain that they are opening very slowly. When he felt that neither of us to take this energetic foreplay any longer, our energy went through the roof- like someone set off 4th of July fireworks (I know that's cliché, but it fits). Next thing I know I slam back into my body and open my eyes.

I was so sexually turned on when I opened my eyes that I just laid there for a few minutes wondering what I was going to do. I mean I knew what I HAD to do in order to go to sleep. But I just wanted to commit what I had just experienced to memory. I finished what Tom started and drifted off to a very peaceful sleep. The first one I've had in months.....

Thanks Tom -- whoever you are!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A River, Faith And A White Light!

Today starts my weekly mediation session with Tracey -- and what a great session I just had! I placed myself on the floor with three crystals around me and my healing wand in my hands. As soon as I sat with that healing wand my hands got zapped with the energy that was going through my body and then the wand.

As soon as I started the session I had a sensation of flying. I was flying up- up -up through the clouds. When I landed, I did so in the woods, by a rushing river. It was overcast and rather dismal looking. I glanced over and there was Will. I asked him what was he doing here? He told me that he laid down for a nap and here he was. Will had on all white. When I looked down at myself so did I.

Across the raging river I saw Bill and Ted. They too were dressed in all white. Behind them was a light. Over to my right and up in the sky I could see Tracey in a ball of white light - hovering and watching what was going on. Her hands were outstretched and she had an amazing white light coming from her and around her. I also saw three peace doves around Tracey's white light - flying with her.

Bill and Ted wave Will and I to come over. We look down at the rushing water and we both know that there is no way we can get across. We then hear a voice that says -- have faith. We make sure that the other one heard that voice - and we did. Will says this must mean that we can get across if we have faith that we can. He grabs my hand and I tell him that I'm scared. He replies that he will never let anything happen to me. That he will be there to make sure I am safe. I glance across the river and Bill and Ted are walking away - towards the light.

Will and I take a deep breath and step onto the water - we don't sink! Hand and hand we walk over the water to the other side. Once on land - we glance back at the dark shore where we just came from. I ask Will if he noticed what way Bill and Ted went? He didn't see. But I can see a light in the distance. coming from a cave and we move towards it. We enter the cave and it is so very dark and cold. I call out their names and I can hear Bill replies that they are on the other side of the cave. How do we find you? I hear Ted reply - follow the light. And that's where I see it - a light in the distance.

Will and I make our way towards the light. It's a tough go, many boulders to climb over, some rough stones to maneuver over, some water - I slip, Will catches me. We get to a section and I can see the light, but it looks like it is straight down. Both Will and I slip and go falling down this very bumpy and rocky passage way - when we got to the bottom - Will broke my fall. I asked if he was okay - and we both hurt - but were fine. Now we saw the light up above us and we knew we had to climb. With Will behind me - we move up the rocky wall. Sometimes slipping, sometimes getting a decent grip. A few times when I slipped - Will was there to stop me from falling any more.

We kept following the light and the more we followed it - the bigger it got. We finally hit a straight surface and went walking through - hand and hand towards the light. When we reached the light we reached the end of the cave. The other side was wonderful - light - joyous. I could see angels everywhere - birds, animals, plants, trees -- it had such a good feeling to it.

Ted and Bill both hug us. Ted said - I told you we'd be here when you made it through to the other side. Bill went on to say - make through the pain and this is what you have to look forward to. Will jumped in -- and I will be with you every step of the way.

Jesus came over to me and told me that he has missed me. That he has watched me struggle in the darkness. There has always been a light for me to see - but sometimes I had blinders on and could not see help when it was offered. Everything that is happening to you is a gift he said. Everything is a test - a lesson and is making you into the person you are meant to become. Do not struggle so much against the darkness - rather work through it and you will see the light. Follow the light as it will lead you down your path. That I have a light, love and a new path to look forward to. In the distance I can see the castle that I had many visions on in the past - it is the castle with my healing center.

I can see Tracey still in a big ball of white energy with the doves. She smiles and me and fades from view. The guys tell me how much they love me and one by one they fade away.

And I'm done:)

I defiantly get what this session means - about what is coming up from me and that I will make it. I understand it all and I have really been working on seeing all of this as a gift. I know why it is all happening - but it's that Taurus part of me that hates change:)

BTW...I have noticed a large group of new people are reading this blog - welcome! Just an FYI that I do not use real names in this blog EXCEPT for me, Tracey and Will. It is also noted that all of my interactions with these real people have taken place on the astral plane, in dreams and by telepathic connection. The only person that I have physically ever met is Bill and that was many years ago.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Updates, Sex, Ethan And Ted!

My little sister is due to give birth at any time now -- her and her wonderful British husband are awaiting the birth of a baby girl. My son just rolls his eyes at the thought of another girl cousin that he has to watch over. Not that he doesn't love my niece as it is -- but she's 3 and he'll be 7 so he's getting too old for her (his words) - LOL! My sister is the one who lays out my books and since I was sidetracked in March/April (very busy months) and May my head has been up my ass - I'm behind in the last gypsy magic book. I'll have my part done within a day or two -- but my sister won't be able to get it laid out until she's on maternity leave and has had some proper sleep (well - some sleep anyways, how much sleep can you get with a newborn?). So knock on wood it'll be done this summer.

But as soon as my writing part is done, I'm jumping into the astral/dream/telepathic sex web page as well as getting the outline done for the book. Lord knows I have enough stories of my own to fill this book with examples for each section - but I will also be asking for people to submit stories -- real names would not be used in the book - in order to give the book more of a variety. As soon as I get that up and going, I'll let you know.

Last Monday I tried to do my sex chat on the L word but couldn't since I blew up my DSL modem and GASP - was on dial-up! But DSL is back and working, so I'll be there tonight, 10:00 pm EST at the L word in Second Life if you'd like to join us. It's a lively bunch and nothing is taboo. The chat is for male and females alike - straight, gay or bi - doesn't matter. Info on how to join us in the sidebar of this blog.

Remember last year when Cindy and I would do our sessions and then I would tell you guys about it? Well we're gearing up again to start on Wednesday. Her guides and my guides told us both to start it up again - so here we go. Her real name is Tracey and she has given me permission to use her real name in this blog so I will from now on. Whenever we start to do these sessions, some sort of spiritual breakthrough happens for both of us! I can't wait to see what happens this time!

I hope my reading/computer glasses come in soon so that I can stop my headaches -- that's what I get for being on the computer 60 + hours a week!

I want to do a quick session. As soon as I grab my healing wand and close my eyes I am taken to the pine trees in a wooded area near my home. Ethan is there waiting for me. We say our greetings. He asks me how I'm doing. Today not so bad - I reply. He tells me that the next several months will not be easy at all - in fact they could be down right horrible. But I have to stick in there and see things through. I assure him that I will and there really is no other course of action but to proceed forward. Ethan tells me that I must keep writing -write, write, write he says. I nod my head -- then he shoots me one of those "looks". I say - I know, Robert told me that I this book should have been done last year - I know. It's almost done. Ethan says - good -- because the sex book is what is really going to make a difference. Then from that point writing the erotica book as well as Kyra will also make their marks. But I can't slow down, I have to put fingers to the keyboard and get it all out.

In a couple of months my career is going to take an interesting twist. What kind of twist - I ask. Ethan says a good twist and one that builds on the foundation I already have laid for myself. And -he says - it will take the ease considerably off of my money woes. I like that idea greatly! But he says he can't tell me what and he can't tell me when as I may stop doing what I have to do in order to bring it about. He stresses again -- keep writing! So I will - I will! He says that when I make it through the next several months that Ted will be waiting for me - that he will be on the other side of these tough times just like he said he would. And if things get so stressful that I find it hard to breath - just remember that simple fact -- Ted will be there when it's over.

We round a corner and there is the blue farmhouse from past visions. He tells me to go inside and follow my nose. Ethan smiles and disappears.

I enter the house and I can smell brownies! I move past the large front staircase down the hall and to the kitchen. There in the kitchen is Ted in an apron. It's a sight - let me tell you! The kitchen looks like WW3 hit it and the man is covered with flour and I think powdered sugar. He tells me to come in -- and then says stop laughing! I never imagined you a cook I say. He replies - I'm not really, but I'm working on it. He wants me to try a chocolate brownie. I sit at the wooden kitchen table and he gives me a cup of tea. I say - tea? No beer, no coffee? Who are you and what have you done with my Ted? He laughs and says he doesn't know why there is only tea here - but that's all he's got. Will and Bill and both busy he says, so I hope you don't mind being my guinea pig. No - I'm good with that. I take a sip of the hot tea - it's pretty good - but then if an Englishman made bad tea with would be a travesty! Anyway - the brownie is moist and pretty good. I'm not sure he cooked it all the way though cause it was rather gooey in the center - but it was good. He's wiping powdered sugar off my face as I am putting more on his -- when the session abruptly ends.

Ted in the kitchen -- what a sight! My guess is that he was jolted out of his session which ended the connection.

Off to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ethan, Ted And Being Strong!

Ask and you shall receive -- it's very true and I'm not sure why I have to remind myself of that little tid bit. I wanted more work, I put it out there and now I'm getting it. I still need this work for the long-haul -- so keep it coming!! Thank you - thank you - thank you:)

A friend of mind dropped by the blog yesterday and left a comment about what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. True - very true. I think the Divine wants me to be on strong person in this life. That means that I have some major work ahead of me that requires that I'm stronger than I was a few weeks ago. I guess you really never do know your own strength until things are put to the test. That said -- I would love just a small break in the getting stronger bit:)

I desperately need to do a session, I can't believe I've gone this long without one! I am immediately taken into the woods. Not sure where the woods are located in the real world or if they even are -- correction -- now I know where they are at. The Ohio State Agriculture has a division here and back in there they have a wonderful tree grove. That's where I was at:) Anyways - Ethan is standing there. His chiseled features stand out against his blondish/brown hair and white skin. I still cannot tell what color his eyes are -- I'm not sure why thing bugs me, but it does. He greets me - I great him. He asks how am I doing? I'm not bad is my reply. We're walking down a path of fallen pine needles when I see Ted sitting against a tree. Ethan tells me -- he's been waiting here for a long time for you. He wouldn't go very far for very long - he knew you would be here. Ted looks up at me and smiles. My knees -- went weak. I'm such a push over for him, sometimes I think it's pathetic -- but it is what it is.

Ted gets up and wraps me in a bear hug. He kisses me on the forehead and tells me to come on. I look at Ethan -- don't we have something to discuss? He nods and replies -- it can wait -- this time together is more important.

I hook my arm into Ted's and we walk off. I've missed you - he whispers to me. I smile - I've missed you too. We round a corner and we are on the beach -- the beach with the light house as I've seen in so many past visions. Next thing I know we are sitting down in the sand, our backs rest on a boulder. He grabs my hand and we just sit there, staring out at the ocean. Ted finally speaks - Your light's been so dim lately. I don't know what to do when that happens.

Send me some of yours? I replied. Ted shrugs. I'm not sure how. I give him one of those sideways looks like - oh come on. He gets the look and replies -- no really, you and Bill make it look so easy but I don't know how. I turn to him, grab his hands and show him how to bring the light out from the crown, around my body and then project it into him. He gives it a try and it works:)

By the way -- good job with the computer, he chuckles.

I chuckle back -- thanks.

You know, the time is drawing near for us to meet?

I nod -- yes.

So stay strong and remember when you get to the other side I'll be there.

I give him a quick kiss and end the session.

That was nice of Ted to show up. I know that the dimness of my light has affected the guys - just like when something happens to them it affects me.

Time to get my son up for school.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I'm Still Alive And I Have A New Guide!

I need to put myself back into the land of the living instead of drowning in the - going through the motions. At least I have my wits about me and I can think with a clear head. Last week was horrible but not as bad as the week before and I'm going to bank on this week being better than last week. Just so you know -- I'm not in trouble with the law, I'm not being sued - I'm not in any deep water at all. My self-esteem and self-confidence is just fine -- I am just incredibly pissed off. But that's all I can tell you as someone who has had a hand in my life course diversion has been checking out this blog to see what I write. So until I know that my ducks are in a row and accounted for -- I am keeping my mouth shut. I had someone ask me if I was going to place a curse on whoever or whatever has done me wrong. No need to -- karma will take care of it -- this I know.

That said - I want to thank all of you who have sent me emails full of light, love and support. They have been greatly appreciated and I know that I would not be doing as well as I am right now if it wasn't for the love and the light that you guys have sent my way. I am eternally grateful.

I'm not one to ask for help unless I really need it so you know what I am about to ask I really need. I need money. It's not a want or a desire - but a very big need. I have a donation button here and on the main site. Or - please just spread my name around - what I do and my services - my URL. Anything for me to have work and to make money. I really wish I could tell you why I need the money so bad -- someday I will be able to spill all.

BTW...I have more emails that I have to return than I know what to do with. Please be patient and do not email or call me to find out why I haven't gotten back to you. I'll get there - eventually.

I've had a new guide show up through all of this. His name is Ethan. He is a very strong energy - a very wise energy. I haven't been able to get a good look at him yet. I ask why he has come forth at this point in time - he replied - I'm here to see you the rest of the way. I am your strength, your bedrock of fortitude. I am your wisdom when common sense eludes you. I am the light in your darkest hour. We are not two, but one - of one energy, of one holiness. Draw on me when you cannot take that next step. I will never be away from your side - you will never walk alone.

He shows me a very large and old book. But I haven't been able to read what it says inside. He says that it will come when the time is right. He also has told me that he is a connection between me and Will. He is a guide for both of us and that is no accident.

I'm tired -- today has been a long day. I have meds from the doctor to help lower my stress/anxiety so that my blood pressure goes back to the norm (114/65) instead of 220/110 - and so I'm not so pissed all the time (or should I say when I'm not working I'm pissed. Having work has helped me keep my sanity). But I'm trying to calm myself down. One way for me to do that is to go to sleep -- and I think that'll I'll do that right now.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Psychic Sucks!

Sometimes it really does just suck. My birthday was one of most horrible days of my life. SIGH. How anyone could think that they could do things and think that a psychic wouldn't figure it all out is just beyond me. I found out some things on May 1st and I haven't stopped crying since. And trust me - crying is out of the Allie norm. I am so very angry - so very pissed off at the complete stupidity of it all. I have known for months that I was coming to the end with a very important connection. I had no clue it was going to hurt so much. No wonder my angels and guides keep telling me that they are here. I wonder of Bill, Ted and Will can feel this pain?

I'm not going to air all of the dirty laundry in this blog, but for those of you who have read this blog and know me -- I'm pretty sure you can read between the lines and figure this out.

I'm going to drop out of sight for a spell, just so I can pull myself together. I haven't been this out of it since 1991. I hated it then and Lord knows I hate it now.

If you have any extra healing light that you could send my way I would appreciate it. I need a self-supporting income now rather than later. I know all about the thought process and I'm working on it - honest. I've asked for the work and the income.

I have a ton of emails that I promise I will get to -- just please be patient.

I'll be back to myself in a little bit. I knew my 40's were going to come in like a lion, but damn.......

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: Doing readings and workshops -- etc...is the only thing keeping me sane. So I am very grateful for the work I have:)