Crystal Skulls, Atlantis And A Live Show!

My day started off good this morning -- and then I ran across my ex husband's NEW Myspace page. I cannot believe the things he said about me. He has trashed me up one side and down the next. I have not trashed him at all - in public or private - regardless of all the things he has done to me. Yes, I know -- I have more class and I'm a better person than he is. But it still hurts to read the things that he wrote. He makes me sound like I'm a lazy - no good psycho. Yes, I know that I'm not one - but it still stings. I have been very nice, civil and courteous to the man - I have cut him a lot of slack. I will continue to be civil for our son - but everything else if off the table. Of course maybe this will give me thicker skin where my personal life is concerned. Professionally I'm good. But maybe the Universe is trying to get my personal fortitude up? I'm going to bet that the universe is going to put me in a position where I have to have thick skin personally.

Why do lessons have to hurt? I would really like a fun lesson now:)

I am so tempted to post his Myspace page URL for you guys. But that would make me as low as him - wouldn't it? SIGH. Start climbing to the higher ground Allie - you can do it!

GRRRRRR......

Okay -- to something good and I think - interesting. Last night I was opening my gate more and in the midst of surrounding myself with white light, a crystal skull appeared - I couldn't see it, only feel it. It told me to place my hands on it - and I did. The skull was very warm to touch and very smooth. He said that he is my skull. I asked what's his name? Where can I find him? Why can't I see him? He told me that I'm not ready yet - to know who he is and how to find him. When that time has arrived, I will see him more clearly (heck, I just wanted to see him at all).

I looked down for some reason and realized that the skull was sitting on a raised triangle base and around me was a circle on the ground. The triangle inside the circle again! The white light around me was traveling at a high speed and I could feel the energy surging through my body. Mentally I could see a triangle in the center of my forehead open up. The white light exploded as it always does -- but instead of a doorway in front of me where I could see the guys and call out to them - they were all 4 already standing there. Bill approached me first, then Ted, Will and Matt. Bill and Ted each gave me a kiss, Will said, "I knew you could do it" and Matt commented, "This is an interesting ride."

It then flashed in front of me about the legend of the 13 skulls (Native American legend tells of 13 life-size crystal skulls said to contain crucial information about humankind's true purpose and destiny. The legend prophesied that at a time of great crisis for humanity, all of the crystal skulls would be rediscovered and brought together to reveal information vital to the very survival of the human race.) and where the skulls are located -- at various ancient observatories around the globe. When the 12 are brought together, the 13th will make itself known. Atlantis figures into this somehow. Either all 13 skulls bring Atlantis back or the 12 bring Atlantis back and the 13th is on Atlantis.

The skull did tell me that he is the 13th. I asked him is that why Bill, Ted and I were incarnated at the same time? He said yes -- he contains power that is too great for one human to handle -- that's why us 3 are here and why we will work together as a team -- he belongs to all three of us. He makes appearances to Bill and Ted in their dreams - buy they haven't caught on yet.

I'm doing my regular recorded podcast today. But on Thursday I'm going to try something new - a live broadcast where you can either call in or chat in a chat room. I have no idea how this will go -- and until I get it down I will probably screw it up:) You can either listen/join here: http://www.nowlive.com/member.asp?id=100223729 or go to the podcast blog here: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/askalliepodcast.htm or http://www.gypsyadvice.com/askalliepodcast/index.html.

For this live one I may go on the search for a co-host. And maybe even interview people. But let's see if I can get the technology down first - LOL!

Don't forget to join me tonight at The L Word on Second Life for the sex chat - Pillow Talk! It starts at 10:00 pm EST!

Time to head to the grocery store -- then I'll come back and do the podcast!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Muse, A Magnet And Sex!

Since I've been on these meds, it's been hard to connect to my guides and the guys as I have over the last several years. Now doing readings - I have no problem at all. But when it's for me, there has been that block there that I've had to fight through. Since papers are signed, the x is out and he was the reason I was on them - I am on a plan to wean myself off of the meds. I can tell a difference already and it's only been since Monday that I've been cutting back. Many more spontaneous connections and visions. Plus, it's easier for me to be creative and work. It's difficult to write when you keep searching for that light switch to turn on your muse. So all is getting much - MUCH better in Allie world.

The online dating -- interesting. It's like - BOOM - they are coming out of the woodwork. Flattered - certainly. Taking it seriously - not really. I suppose that once I go out on an actual date I'll be more serious about it.

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And speaking of sex -- by OBE experiences are back with a BANG:) The OBE blog will be written in more often --in fact I already have been there today! The experiences here are really flooding back - major.

Ted and Will -- both are so right there in my thoughts - in my energy field right now. I honestly think that I can tell if either one takes a piss. Really - it's a strange, yet invigorating feeling (not the piss - LOL - but the connection). Last night, Bill's energy was so intertwined with mine that I could taste him. Now get your minds out of the gutter - it's hard to describe, but I could taste his energy. I have ants in my pants -- very ancy to sit down and actually talk with these guys. I can feel the heightened energy as my nerves reposition themselves outside my skin. One phone call - that's all I need to hop on a plane to go chat. I have so much information and experiences that I want to share with them. So much I want to hear about. It's getting close -- so close now.

Poor Bill. He knows what he knows and he has seen some visions that knock his socks off. But he is so befuddled on what to do with me - with the knowledge. With my energy heightened, so are the guys. Bill and Ted will know what it is - Will and Matt will be on the confused side. But this is nothing that Will and Matt cannot figure out. In fact, Will is working now with someone to figure it all out. Matt's a good ole republican Texan, so he'll probability be confused a bit longer -- but the guy has the drive to figure this all out. He's just asking the wrong people - a priest won't be able to give him the answer -- he needs someone like me to figure it all out.

I'm waiting very patiently for my notice from the Nicholl Fellowship. I entered The Black Triangle in it - and they should be announcing the Quarter-Finalists soon. Fingers crossed.

My son and I are going to Columbus all day on Friday. Taking the Mini Cooper S in for it's maintenance. Lucky for me that the maintenance is built into the price of the car - provided you take it to a Mini dealer (which is the same as a BMW dealer) and there is only 3 in Ohio that deal with Mini's:) So Columbus it is:)

Wow - I feel like a flirty little tramp today. I'm sure it will pass - well, maybe it will:) But because of my energy - I feel like a magnet on overdrive. Not sure if that's good or bad. But damn - I need to draw those 4 in...

....so - being the good girl I am, I have been listening to Ethan and being a magnet for the 4 guys (yes, I know that's why I feel like a magnet overall). Every day I have been opening the gateway and drawing them in. This is how my session goes:

I sit with my healing wand. Eyes closed, I see a white light ahead of me. Taking that white light, I have it spread out vertically like a board - then I move it close to my skin. Taking this board of light, I move it around my body slowly, moving further out from my body with each full turn - increasing speed as the white light extends out of my body until it is everywhere -- and it's almost as if it explodes, and there's nothing there but a huge open triangle, with a circle around it -- and coming from the midst of the triangle is a very brilliant white light.

Through this white light I can see the guys - only one at a time. If I look at me - I am one big white light - by body is encased in white light. I see Bill and I call out to him. His astral body separates and comes to me with a grin on his face. He usually (like today) leans in and gives me a kiss. When that happens I wrap my arms around him and draw him to me to become one. Next comes Ted. I call to him and he smiles wide and always gives me a very deep kiss. I bring him too into me. Next is Will - I never have to summon him, he is already there - through the gate. I always hear him say - you'll never have to call me, I know when you're around. He kisses me tenderly and I bring him into me. Then there's Matt. I call to him and he arrives in a jiff. He too smiles and tells me he doesn't know what's happening -- but it sure does interest him. He does a running jump and just walks into me 1/2 the time.

I call out their names one by one -- raising the energy with each name. At the end it is as if the white light explodes and we're done - all back where we are supposed to be. I find that I cannot do this at night as I'm so energized from it. So I'm doing it mid-day when I get sleepy. Wakes me right up.

And I'm done for now:) Back to work -- and then the kid and I have T-Ball!

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie ;)

Howard Shore, Stepping Up To The Plate And Will!

I just got back from my self-date to the Howard Shore/Cleveland Orchestra concert. In a word - magical. It was fabulous! Howard Shore is an intense conductor to watch and he's commanding without being domineering. I only wish that they would have shown more conceptual art of the characters - or matched the conceptual art (shown on 3 screens) with the part of the movie they were playing from. But gosh -- it was good. My left eye kept tearing up - it was very strange to have one eye cry and not the other. Well worth the price of admission and the long drive to get there!

But during the concert - I kept getting the message that I'm the magnet. You're the magnet Allie - pull them together. Also - stop pretending not to be who you are. Step up to the plate. Now towards the end during the "Return of the King" soundtrack - the call for me to get us 5 (me, Will, Matt, Ted and Bill) together was so strong that my body trembled and I couldn't stop it. The trembles happen when I have an energy shift. I could see my guide Ethan in front of me telling me it's time. I assured him that I know.

I have a bunch of fire trucks and ambulances flying past my house -- reminds me of last night! SIGH -- I always have excitement on my road -- not sure why, but what the hell. Last night about 2:30 am there was a high speed chase down my street. I heard the car that they were chasing zoom past at what had to be over 100 mph. Then police car after police are zipped past at incredible speed -- until -- a party was letting out a couple of doors down. One party go-er pulled out of the driveway - BAM - a sheriff's car ran right into her SUV! Damn - it was so LOUD! Response time was under 20 seconds for the cops to arrive. The sheriff's car was screwed up. The SUV had damage - but not near what the car had. The impact was so great that the SUV spun around a few times before it stopped. Overall - everyone was fine - thank God! But it could have been so much worse. So for the next 1 1/2 hours I had a light show going on outside my house. I fell back to sleep around 4 - 4:15 am only to be awoken at 8:00 am by super snoop - Indiana Jones -- he was hungry and had to pee:) So I took a nap before I went to the concert, and had a very interesting dream visit with Will. I actually wrote it down so I would remember it all to tell you:)

I was dreaming about the concert tonight - yet it was a very formal occasion in my dream. Men in tuxes, ladies in gowns and even had a master of ceremony. I went to get ready for the concert and passed the master of ceremony - it was Richard Thomas (John Boy - Waltons). He was staring at me so oddly - like willing me to stare at him. So I did and smiled - told him Hi and Good Luck with the concert. He nodded at me -- but he didn't take his eyes off of me until I was in the door of the building. It was a bit unnerving. On the way out as I was going in was Will, in a tux, with a large group of men - we didn't talk and I don't think he saw me.

I am walking in with some woman into the concert. It's a long carpeted hallway - red carpet - very plush (nothing like the actual concert which was outdoors). On the way into the theater, my cell phone rang. I answered it and the guy just starts to talk to me like we are old friends. I heard him say - so you really are stepping out on your husband. I entered a room and shut the door so I could hear him (the concert had started). I told him no - we're divorced. He laughs and says he knows, he's just kidding with me. I'm thinking that this guy is my friend Dan. But I ask him who he is - I apologize than I can't place a name with the voice. He said his name was Lawrence Taylor (I know no such man right now in real life) and that he was friends with my father.

Next thing I know, I am trying to find a bathroom - and of course none of them are clean. So I give up and leave. I see Will hiding under a table -- no idea why. I crawl under there and ask if he has a 19 yr old niece? He nods and I tell him that she is in trouble. He said he knows.

Now we are in my mother's kitchen - but it's not my mother's kitchen in real life. I'm talking to my mom about my dad and ask her if he lives in Louisiana or Alabama now (he actually lives in FL in real life). Will looks at me and smiles -- says my, my -- isn't that a coincidence. Will tells me that he has to write a letter to Charlotte (no idea who this is - but I felt it was a girlfriend or maybe an ex) - I asked him if I could borrow him first. Mom said something smart ass that had us laughing and I had Will in my old blue bedroom (I had this room from ages 6 - 12). He was filthy dirty like he had been working on a car. He was wiping his hands off. I pushed him against the wall and he called me frisky:) I told him that I've missed him and he replied - I've missed you too baby.

I kissed him - he kissed me back. Then our tongues met and he let out a groan/sigh. We were really getting into the kissing when for some reason my head jerked forward twice real fast and I had no control over the jerk motions. I stood there thinking - WTF?! I couldn't feel Will any longer, I opened my eyes (they were closed as we were kissing) and when I did that I woke up.

So very odd.

I'm off to finish my glass of wine and head to bed -- it's after 2:00 am already!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

No Kid, My Self-Date And Quick Visions!

Here it is a Friday night and it is my 1st full weekend without my son :( I miss the kid already. But I'm betting that my glass (or should I say glasses) of White Zin will help to get me to sleep. My TV blew up the other night in my living room - so I had to move my digital cable box to my bedroom TV. So here I am on my bed, watching TV with my laptop drinking a bottle of wine. My animals keep looking at me like I'm off my rocker - LOL! I have all 4 cats on my bed.

Tomorrow I'm going out by myself for the 1st time. I'm heading up to Blossom to watch Howard Shore and the Cleveland Orchestra play the Lord of the Rings soundtracks. But before that I'm heading out for a solo dinner. I'm looking forward to my self-date:)

Speaking of dating -- I joined Match.com & Chemistry.com for the hell of things. I seem to scare guys off - LOL. It appears thus far that no one wants a partner who can tell when their lying. SIGH. Eventually at some time - some place a guy won't be scared off - he'll be intrigued. I'm in no hurry. I do like the practice flirting through.

So what I have been up to this last week? Writing - a lot of it - and many readings. And I've had many visions this last week. They have been very spontaneous, quick and they show up from no where. Many of them have shown up when I'm about to fall asleep or when I'm driving -- when my mind is relaxed and I'm not working. Here's a quick run-down of several of the visions:

1. Seeing Ted in a large open area, many people milling around. I can feel his eyes on me - I look up at him and I freeze. He smiles. As he walks towards me it fades from view.
2. Will and Ted sitting on a picnic table, looking over a book or something together.
3. Matt grabbing my hand and telling me to trust. I tell him that I can't. He begs me to trust him.
4. Ted playing with my hair.
5. Me bringing Ted to my mother's house for Turkey Day.

That's what I can remember off the top of my wine induced brain right now.

I woke up from a great dream visit with Ted the other morning. Bill was in it too - but it was mostly all about Ted. We were at my mom's house for some gathering (could have been Turkey Day I suppose) - and there was a huge table set up in the living room as the dining room was full of people. Ted and I were talking about how lucky we were to find one another. I introduced him to my mother and she kind of gave him the 3rd degree - but in a nice way. After that was done I mentioned to him that if I ever met his mother, that she would probably do the same thing. He smiles and says probably. Then he says -- this just feels too right -- and it scares me. I sat down across from him and told him that yes, this does feel right and at this moment I am so happy that I'm afraid if I pinch myself I'll discover I had been dreaming.

He said that he was tired and wanted to lie down. I showed him where a spare room was that he could nap - jet lag. I remember feeling in the pit of my stomach that I was afraid that this was all a dream and that if I looked back in the room - he'd be gone. So I kept checking back and he kept saying - I'm not going anywhere.

We sat down for dinner and I was at the corner of the long table. There was a blank seat to my left and then sat Bill. I was discussing Ted with a guy I went to high school with - David - and he said that he had no idea who I was talking about. Then Ted sat down in between Bill and I and said - don't feel bad, not too many people know who I am. I told him -- I do. And he was happy with that. I tried twice to talk to Bill and Ted interrupted. Bill and I did take notice that Ted was not letting us talk. Ted was very polite and loving. I woke up with a very nice energy around me.

And yes - I have had several OBE sex experiences this last week - most with Ted but one was with Will. I just need to find the time to write them down!

I think it's almost time for me to snooze. I have 2 dogs staring at me like they have to go pee:)

BTW...email is a fricken nightmare. It's a bit overwhelming to say the least.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Nickelback, Allie's Writing And Bad Dreams!

I am one tired puppy! I went to the Nickelback concert last night (it was a b-day present) and had a fantastic time! I finally got home about 2:00 am. My son was at his dad's house - he was dropped off at home at 6:30 am and away my day went. Of course I pittered pattered out and took a 3 hour nap. I just can't survive on 4 hours of sleep like I used to!

"The Black Triangle" has had some interest shown in it! Keep your fingers crossed as this could be the break the story has been waiting for! Also fingers crossed as this company is thinking about managing my screenwriting career! Haven't signed anything yet -- so keep those good thoughts a coming!

I have also landed a writing job writing Q & A for a FL based dating show. More on that as it progresses!

With Whispers Media we are close to closing a major - kick-butt deal. One that will keep me very-very busy.

If things move in the order I that I think that they are -- then I'll have to do some serious cut backs on readings, workshops and classes. Not sure what I will do. Or how I will do everything. I guess one step at time - right? But if all 3 things above kick in -- I'm going to have to do some serious rearranging.

My dreams the last several days have been all over the map. In a few of the dreams, my son wanted to live with my ex and not me -- I was very hurt in the dreams. I understand those - an unconscious fear that will really never come to pass. Then I've had several dreams about meeting new men and dating. All the men I met through job connections -- all were good looking without being overly GQ -- all had either blue or green eyes (not surprising) but it seemed that all had black hair that almost came down to their shoulders with a natural wave in it. Great smiles - dimples. All very full of life and mentally engaging. I can live with that:) Then a couple of dreams with my ex dying in a car accident. And no - it wasn't wishful thinking. In both dreams he had been drinking too much (which in reality he is when our son is not around) and then drove (which he doesn't do -- drink and drive after his DUI several years ago).

Now the one I had this morning really bugged me. It was about a terrorist attacking the US. BUT -- what the FBI thought was the attack, was only a fake attack to take them off guard for the real attack. So while the US is having a sigh of relief - the real attack begins. I woke up very disturbed. And then when I saw the news tonight about the thought of an attack in the US is very high - I almost got sick to my stomach. Right before 9/11 I had dreams of huge explosions and fires. I had no idea why I had the dreams at the time or what they pertained to. But as soon as 9/11 happened, they stopped. In the dream this morning - we were all paying attention to a group of tornado's that were ripping though the country. At the heart of the tornados were the bad guys with "tornado" machines. As we were capturing the bad guys and stopping the tornados, we were blind-sided by a massive wall of fire that consumed everything in its path. So disturbing. I hope that I do not dream more about it tonight.

And it's time for bed -- I'm exhausted and I'm hoping to have some more good dreams tonight...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Allie Continues On From Last Night...

I want to add something to last night entry. I may be dateless and broke right now (like I was many years ago and it was a dark period for me) but this time I am much more mature and spiritually advanced. This is why when this tough streak has hit me now, I am much more open to it and can see the light. Granted - being a Taurus - I had a huge problem at the start of the big life change -- but once I got over the hump (which was telling my husband I knew about his Swedish tart) everything was a hell of a lot easier - which you could tell not only by my podcasts but by what blog entries I wrote as well.

So being more spiritually advanced now then when I was 23 (thankfully), I am fully embracing the rebirth of myself. I like starting over - to let me come out and be who I am. My ex never liked what I did for a living (except the erotica - go figure) so I was always told to hush up and if anyone asked what I did for a living -- just tell them that I'm a writer. Well since he moved out - I tell people what I do (if they ask) besides writing and it feels great. If they give me the sign of the cross and run the other way -- fine by me.

So I just wanted to add that bit in here - that even though I am as I was back when I was 23 (but I now have much more responsibilities) - broke and dateless -- I feel alive, free and happy.

Strangely though, speaking of the ex's Swedish tart -- she keeps coming to this blog and reading -- even though she knows my ex moved out and we're pushing through with the divorce. So why would she still want to read about me? Hummm.......maybe to see if I would get back with the ex -- trust me , there's not a chance in hell of that. Once an ex is an ex in my book - they stay that way. Could she be looking to see if I'm miserable and therefore a way to make her feel better? Sorry dear -- I'm happier now than I've ever been. Could I block the tart from my site? Sure I could -- but then she and the ex couldn't see how much better I'm doing without him:) Doing better after someone leaves is always the sweetest revenge -- don't you think?

I did put myself on a dating site for a couple of weeks just to see if anyone would bite -- and crap yeah they did. These guys were great for my ego -- but it got to be too much work and quite frankly - I really am not that interested in dating right now. Well, there is one guy I wouldn't mind getting to know better - but right now our timing is off. If it's supposed to happen it will - right?

Okay - well today is the last of my son's birthday parties -- it's the kid party. I hope the kids show up who said they were going to show.

Time to go write the horoscope and a few other items.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Matt, An Allie Update And Becoming A Psychic PI!

I betcha thought that I was either dead, sick -- or too damn depressed to write in the blog. Well, if you did - you were wrong:) I've been too darn busy! My son turned 7 on July 1st and has been off all week from day care as they were closed. Add to that the soon to be ex is out and now I'm pulling single mom duties (although not too far of a stretch from what I did every day anyways) and that I landed a few more writing gigs. My days have been chalked full of work and more work. As soon as I can get a routine down I'll be A-Ok. But in the mean time I'm losing sleep and probably drinking too much coffee!

My family's funny -- they keep checking up on me to see how I'm doing now that the ex has moved out. I laugh at them --- they're well meaning but good Lord, I'm doing great. In fact, I haven't done this good in what -- 23 years (7 years of husband 1, 15 years of husband 2 and 2 years of being without a date and very broke). So I tell them -- no worries!

But since I don't have a rhythm down yet, many things have slipped in the last several weeks -- this blog, the OBE blog, my email, the Ask Allie column....but with the graces of the Divine I'll get into the swing sooner rather than later.

I'm calm, cool and collective:) I must admit though, I had been worried about making ends meet. But I'm not worried any more. I'm pushing forward to make it and I will not think anything different -- as you know what I always say about thoughts! That thoughts create your reality! I know that everything has a reason and a place -- so in my heart I know that situations will be brought to me where I can make a living and still have time with my son. Now if I would only have enough faith that I could get everything done that I want to in a day - LOL!

On top of all of this, I am seriously considering taking classes on how to be a PI (Private Investigator). I discovered that I liked uncovering all of the dirt on my ex and I'm good at investigating. Combine that with my psychic skills and I can be a psychic PI:) I already thought of a name -- Gypsy Fire Investigations -- Lighting a flame to expose the truth! I mentioned something about this to my mother -- and while she thinks I'd be stellar in this -- she asks me when am I going to first have the time to study -- and then have the time to work? My reply -- I don't know but somehow everything will fall into place. My thought was after I got my PI license was to go back to college and finish my degree (I am a forever senior) but instead of Business Admin (yuck) it would be in Criminal Justice. So I would have a lot of other classes to take. But I'm getting way ahead of myself here -- let's just see if I can find the time to be a PI.

Spiritually -- I'm sure that I've grown somehow in the last 14 days -- but I haven't done any sessions. I know -- shame on me. Once the kid goes back to day care on Monday I should be able to include that back into my daily life. I have had some interesting OBE sex experiences -- which I will write about in the OBE sex blog later on tonight.

I need to also restart in my manifestation journal since Merlin is on my back about it.

Oh -- I knew I forgot to tell you guys something -- if you listened to my podcast for June 30th, you would have heard me talk about Matt. Who's Matt you ask? Another member of my soul circle -- he just blew me away out of left field. The dream visit I had with him was amazing with us running around without any underwear or pants on -- but we had shirts. I told him about the erotica I write and the sex toys I test -- and he told me to stop because I was having an affect on him (Allie clears her throat) -- which I noticed since he had no pants on! Then we went in to watch a movie. I can still feel his skin -- him holding my hand. It was as if the Divine zapped a whole lighting force through the both of us. He asked me -- did you feel that? I said yeah -- we stopped holding hands and then held hands once more - same outcome. We got into the movie at 5:50 pm and I had to be at work by 6:30 pm and at 6:20 I left. When I woke up I just laid there -- I could still feel his skin, smell his scent -- see those blue eyes. And - BTW - Matt is his real name in real life. My guides tell me that I do not have to make up a name like I did for Bill and Ted -- rather I can use his real name like I do Will. Have I ever met Matt in real life? No -- not yet. But I have every confidence that I will.

I asked Tracey about Matt. I always still like to get a 2nd opinion -- especially when someone new pops up. She said straight up that he is part of my soul circle, he knows my name and what I look like. Only problem is that he doesn't know I'm alive in this lifetime. So I asked for a short reading on Matt and this is what she had to say:

Matthew is thinking that his experiences with regard to you are somewhat confusing and he is having a hard time understanding what is happening and most importantly if you are his soul mate. He continues to focus on a visage of your eyes and is feeling familiarity and a deeper desire to continue to discover more insight and information.

He sees himself sitting with you in a restaurant in Los Angeles, one that he really enjoys. In this vision, he reaches for your hands across the table and you offer your hands to him and he experiences electric feelings, surges throughout his entire body. As this happens all pains are healed and he feels warm sensations all over. He is looking deeply into your eyes and experiencing such warmth and love, belonging, finding his place in the universe as being connected to you.

The two of you are friends from many lifetimes, having shared many incarnations together, and having touched one another’s souls deeply, leaving positive imprints on one another’s souls, so profoundly that each are able to view the other remotely, are so closely linked that you can communicate telepathically, soul to soul, as each are able to just know what the other is thinking, feeling, and each are sensitive to the hurts of the other. Each is aware of one another’s needs, wants, desires, and in separation each are experiencing a certain amount of agony. There is a feeling of security within this connection.

In your past lives, you have loved one another passionately and had very intense romantic relationships. You have spent many moments enjoying one another sexually, intimately, physically as well as connecting on deep emotional levels. You have had the ability to be open and express feelings sincerely, honestly, from the depths of the soul, and the need for love, intimacy and understanding have been fulfilled in past associations. In past lives you have been one to be more influential than he and have aided him in making good social contacts allowing him to enter higher circles and this influence allowed him to rise to the prestige of his life and he is to return this favor in this life due to his great appreciation for the good contacts.

And you know me -- I had to ask about Will:

Will is seeking answers to the many questions he has with regard to you and why your smile appears to him so often. He continues hear your name in his dreams, and he sees himself running towards you and before he reaches you the dream ends. There is a knowing that he will reach you and that he will be in touch with you in the near future.

There is a knowing that there is love between you that fills his wants and needs for true love. He wants to remove what keeps you separate but is unsure how to go about this. His dreams are more vivid than ever before and he wants results in terms of being closer to you and spending time enjoying the way your mind works.

There is a knowing that you are meant to be together, to come together and when your spouse is out of the way completely it is as if he appears in your life once more. Will is going through a stage of intense spiritual growth, having visions, dreams and considering the meaning of existence and his place in the Universe. This is leading him to seeking higher knowledge and wisdom and there is contact with a Buddhist type monk, or sage, prophet and this is helping Will to become more aware, awake spiritually.

And honestly -- do you really think I could go without asking about Bill and Ted:

Bill’s ability to tune into your vibrations and energy is greatly enhanced and he is able to control this more and more, and he is seeing that the ability to connect to you on other dimensions is not an ordinary thing to do but rather extraordinary. Rather than puzzling him there is an awareness of supernatural abilities.

He is able to see the past together and is experiencing precognitive dreams and visions that allow him to see the future possibilities between you. He is learning how to tune out the world and its issues and problems so that he can meditate and connect to you consciously.

His intuition tells him that he must find your location and make attempts to connect, to look for you and to try to reestablish a connection in the physical world. Many of his questions about you are being answered as he looks onward to find answers and information.

There is a certain amount of fear as he looks to the past connections as he has lost you in the past and does not want to repeat past patterns that brought confusion. He wants to experience true harmony and connection so that many want, needs, desires are fulfilled. Bill is breaking free of the limitations of the physical existence, is rising above earth bound issues and is moving to a higher state of consciousness.

Ted’s desires and yearnings for connection are great as he feels almost broken hearted in separation. He wants to draw you to him, to establish some form of contact that leads you to a way of contacting him so that it is you that makes the connection and therefore he does not seemingly cause any issues between him and Bill.

He finds you to be the object of his desire in his dreams and fantasies, and is having vivid dreams about seducing you. There is a desire to be with you romantically, physically, and he is worried about the future that he sees in his dreams as he is fearful that things between he and Bill will not go well if he is able to obtain your love, and feels almost as if it would be like having an affair where he has to hide and avoid being exposed. There is a fear that Bill’s jealousy will get in the way of what Ted wants with you.

He feels more competent to express mental and emotional states in an open way. He has self-confidence, and expresses his feelings in direct ways. He is surer of himself. Personal self-esteem is increased and allows for expression of feelings. Communication flows freely. He feels open about expressing his ideas and is willing to hear others as well. He wants to call or visit you.

He visions himself being a faithful lover to you and this is an area where he feels he has lacked in the past in relationships, as he has either wanted to have affairs or partaken in such. Ted is suffering in his personal life and relationships having a difficult time relating and connecting with others and he does not want the connections around him, is not feeling a sense of connection with those that would be in his life. He is thinking of you and often and is in agony without you in the physical.

What else did I ask about -- my love life and career/finances. And I was assured that both will be fabo as long as I held faith that what will be brought to me is what I need at that time:)

Do you have information overload yet? See what happens when I don't post for awhile....

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie :)