Bill, A Breakthrough And My Chart!

I'm amazed on how tiring it is to make cookies and wrap presents. Lord I'd never make it if I had more than one kid - lol! He - BTW - has finally went to bed. It's 10:11 Christmas Eve and I just wish he'd fall asleep so that I can eat the cookies we put out for Santa and get the presents under the tree so I can snooze. But nooooo...he's too excited to sleep:) SIGH. I just hope I can out last him in staying awake! Good thing I only drank one Guinness today!

Bill and I have been having dream visits for as long back as I can remember. Before I discovered who he was, the dreams sometimes turned sexual, but most times not - just two people hanging out having a good conversation or maybe him trying to teach me how to paint. Then after I figured out who he was and he knew I knew - most of the visits he had been guarded. There are a few over the years that are in the fringe of my conscious where he allowed me to get close to him - but just about all - we had been in a crowd, he was distant and really didn't want people to know that we knew each other. Then last SAT (Dec 22) - the Winter Solstice came, and this dream visit was completely different. It's as if that last thing finally "clicked". And he had an "ah-ha" moment!

(took a time out and put out the presents and did the stockings as he fell asleep!)

Bill and I were in a crowd as usual - but he wouldn't let me out of his sight. If I would try to go somewhere else - he'd tell me to come back - and I'd always ask "are you sure" and he'd always say "yes". Once I was dialing someone's number on my cell and he's behind me, nibbling on my neck. I asked him if he felt ok and he said yes - for the 1st time in a long time. There was one scene where we were right smack dab in the middle of a Tim Burton movie (or so it felt) and I asked him what in the world has he gotten me into this time? He had me sit down next to him in he dark. When I did, he took my hand and placed it on his crotch. The next thing I know is my hand is in his pants working it (if you know what I mean). He was to my left - so it was my left hand in his pants. Thing were getting too uncomfortable for him in his pants so he took them part way off and his cock sprung free. He laid on his right side and I had to use two hands on it (I thought - good Lord if it's really this size - lol) and he told me to put my thumbs on the large veins - so I did and continued what I was doing. I heard people walking towards us and I asked - there are people coming do you want me to stop? And well -- it was really too late to stop and I saw him well - cum. And then I had to go distract the people who were on their way so that he could get cleaned up. But one of the guys put his hand in a drop of Bill's love juice (lol) and I thought - okay, that's gross - but I distracted him and said it must of been honey. Then my darn cat woke me up.

Bill was very outspoken during my hand motions and very possessive but loving, during the dream. A complete departure from the norm. The actual dream sex was a bit more graphic and involved than I wrote above - and I hope to add that entry to the OBE sex blog soon - just not tonight.

Below is a URL for an astrology program that a client sent me. You save the actual information on your hard drive, but you can use the website to make charts and all that for you. Here's the link:

http://astro.clairvision.org/astro/switchboard

I did it for myself and found the chart very eerie as it pretty much pegged me. I have people in my life that accept me for who I am, but I don't have anyone in my life, physically, thus far who gets me and all of me, not just bits and pieces. And I wondered why, I didn't think that I was that complex of a person to get - but after reading this report, I guess I am. I've included the report in this blog posting - feel free to read if you want to ( http://www.gypsyadvice.com/alliestwocents/atheisschart.pdf). And when you read the report - yes, it says Alison and not Allie as Alison is my birth name although I hardly ever use it any more. I also did a chart for my son and it nailed him really good as well.

And now I'm heading to bed. Santa will be here soon and my son will be up soon after that:)

Merry Christmas!
Allie :)

Empowerment, Timelessness And Belief Systems!

I thought that this was well -- timely -- with the holiday's upon us. Because of this article I am trying to look at time in a different fashion. Just like the positive/negative thought process this won't happen overnight -- but I'm going to do it:

Adapted from The Book of Secrets, by Deepak Chopra (Harmony Books, 2004).

The best use of time is to reconnect to your being. The misuse of time comes down to the opposite: Moving away from your being. There is always enough time to evolve because you and the universe are unfolding together.

SIMPLE SOLUTION:

• If timelessness is part of your being, the wish will come true spontaneously without delay. You have the power to play with time as you would any other part of your world.
  
• If timelessness has a tentative relationship to your being, some wishes will come true spontaneously, and others won’t. There will be delays and an uneasy sense that you might not get what you want. Your ability to play with time is shaky by developing.
  
• If timelessness has no relationship to your being, it will take work and determination to get what you want. You have no power over time. Instead of playing with it, you are subject to its inexorable march.

From these three broad categories one can project three different belief systems.

Consider which one best applies to you:

1. I am pressed for time. There aren’t enough hours in the day to accomplish everything I want.

2. I consider myself pretty lucky. I’ve gotten to do a lot of the things I’ve always wanted to do.

3. I believe that the universe brings you whatever you need. If I don’t get what I want, I realize that something inside me is blocking it. I spend my time working on my inner awareness far more than struggling with outside forces.

Once you gain even a hint that wishes can come true without so much struggle, you can resolve to move to a new stage of growth. You can resolve today to change your relationship to time:

I will let time unfold for me.
I will keep in mind that there’s always enough time.
I will follow my own rhythm.
I will not misuse time by procrastination and delay.
I will not fear what time brings in the future.
I will not regret what time brought in the past.
I will stop racing against the clock.

Try to adopt just one of these resolves today and see how it changes your reality.

Now with the above - if I take into account that Ethan said how busy I will be and how things have shifted here in Dec so that I can work on DREAMERS. I can see that by shifting the outlook on time that it will free up more time for me. Make sense? And because of that (the time factor) I added Empowerment Classes as well as an Empowerment Workshop for Jan 2008!

I've also been giving some serious thought to me being sick. If I'm sick - I do less readings which gives me more time to write. Maybe this was the spirits way of making sure I focused in on the writing. No matter what - if something is supposed to happen it will.

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie :)

Ted's Marriage, Dream Visits And Dreamers!

Ted's getting married to the vamp by year's end. Had I been invited to the wedding, I would have been stumped at what to wear. Either an all black dress or pants suit with a nice skull & crossbones brooch. This man sure does love the life of hard knocks. But as you all know, if we don't learn our lessons, we're doomed to keep repeating them. Tracey and I discussed what would come 1st - rehab, divorce or a body bag. We both agreed rehab and then divorce. There will be a point where he's so drugged up on something that he will not be able to do his job effectively. I wonder if Bill made the guest list? If so - I wonder if he'll actually go. Maybe he can slip back to see the groom and try to knock some sense into him before marriage #4 is a done deal.

I'll tell you what - I learned my lesson about being dependant on others for survival. I will not be doomed to repeat it! Now part of both Bill and Will's lessons are to allow other people in. So I wonder how that will work with them and me? Like everything else, time will tell.

My goal this last weekend was to work on DREAMERS again. I got my notes back from my manager and I'm heading in the right direction. But my son got the flu - so that dashed that. He's home from school - but he is doing much better. Me - I still have my cough and congestion although I don't think it's as bad as last week.

Bill's energy is around pretty strong lately - but he and Will can co-mingle in the same energy space without any drama. Every night they are both in my dreams, but their dream visits are separate from one another. Bill and I spend a lot of time chatting about things while Will shows up to help me do something - whether it be pack for a trip, go shopping, cook, etc.... Humm...if I think about that it seems that Bill is a talker and Will is a doer -- I personally prefer a doer -- I've had enough talkers in my life. Discovering bits about the guys I always find interesting.

I keep forgetting that I have my Star Ruby ball. When I do remember having it - I place it in my bra so that it sits in the middle of my chest. It helps chill out my coughing.

I feel this pull to get into a session, I'm not sure why the pull -- nothing of a major sorts is coming up -- or at least I thought so. Let's see what's up! I grab my healing wand and enter into a mist. When I emerge, Ethan is standing there - nothing else. No scenery, no people - nadda. So I ask - what did I do now? He places his right and on my left shoulder and says: 2008 is going to be a very busy year for you - from Jan 1st forward. Some would call it stupid busy. Because of this it is imperative that you get "Dreamers" done now. That is your ticket to the next step and it has to be almost complete by year's end. So you need to get that draft to her this week. I look at him -- you pulled me into a session to tell me that? He says - you weren't listening. I'm like - oh yes I was. He says - you remember what got your so interested in screenwriting again? I nod and says yes - Lord of the Rings. He says - exactly -- and it is no coincidence that all 3 Lord of the Rings came on yesterday back to back and you just happened to stumble across them when you never have the TV on - especially on weekends. It's to spur you forward - for no other reason than you to get moving on the screenwriting. It's imperative that you finish this now. Make it at the top of your list - everything else comes second, except for the care of your son & animals. Doing readings, other writing, Christmas decorating, personal life, sleeping, eating -- all go to the way side for the next 2 weeks. Do you understand? Yes I do.

And that was that. Personal life? What personal life - lol. Gee - I wonder where my focus will be for the next 14 days? The last time I was pulled aside and told to finish something was the Gypsy Magic books - and I ignored that and paid a price. I'm not about to make that mistake again...

Talk to you later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Sickness, Ted's In Trouble, Bill And Will!

I finally coughed up that lung yesterday. Yep - it hurt. Went to the doc's and got some meds - and then came home and slept. I also got a really cool tea package from a client (thanks David) that is a 'cooling tea', called XiaSangju: "The symptoms it relieves include sore throats, coughing, headaches, body aches and pains. The basic purpose of the product is to "cleanse" your body, bringing it to a healthier state. " So I am drinking my tea too like a good girl -- and I do feel much better today!

Ted's in some serious trouble. I can just feel it. Ever since I worked hard to push away the darkness and let the light back in - I can see that he is in a heap of trouble. That vamp of a girlfriend has wormed her way back into his life - more like guilted and stabbed her way back in. God - it's almost as if he's trying to kill himself. His self-esteem is at -100, his health - 200 and falling. How many drugs and booze can a person consume before they wind up in the hospital or a body bag? I'm exasperated because I can't do anything. I can send as much light as I want to - but breaking through that thick sludge is tough. I'm hoping Bill will pull through and help. Better yet - Bill hop on a plane and go see Ted - a face to face. A soul brother to soul brother meeting. It's long overdue. Of course if Bill understood the use of a phone - I would go over with him. Ted has to make some serious changes or end up 6 feet under.

I had a dream last night where Will introduced Bill and I. Will and I were together for several weeks when he decided to introduce me to Bill. He, I gathered, had talked to Bill about everything and Bill agreed to meet. We arrive at Bill's house and I'm not sure whether just to say "hi" or hug Bill. He makes it easy by just grabbing me and hugging me. Bill and I go to sit down and talk and Will is waking towards the door. I ask him where he's going and he says that Bill and I need time to talk. I ask him to please stay - he says no - and for me to call him if I need him for anything but he's pretty confident that Bill will take good care of me. Bill and Will shake hands and Bill tells Will - thank you -- Will leans into Bill and says something - not sure what it is, but obviously it's about me. Will leaves. Bill and I go to sit down and he pulls out a journal and wants to compare notes. All I can do is stare at him -- simply not believing that I was there. And then I said that it was a dream -- and woke up. When I woke up I reminded myself not to do that again..fine if I know it's dream, but stay sleeping you dang goof!

For whatever reason, my email doesn't want to work today. I have 15 messages waiting to go out in my inbox. So if you are waiting to hear from me....and I haven't gotten any email today at all. So hopefully when the glitches are fixed everything will flow.

Keen is going well again -- if any of you want to chat wit me on Keen, let me know and I'll send you some free minutes to do so...and Keen connects people worldwide - so it doesn't matter where you are from.

I had an interesting chat with Tracey the other day about things -- I may post the chat or most of the chat tomorrow. She hit on the above areas of Bill, Ted and Will without me saying what I already knew was in the pike. Ted really is in big trouble....

I've be giving some serious thought to the books I want to put out in 2008 - for both the OBE sex and the soul mate quest. I'm not sure which one to concentrate on 1st? Or should I try both at the same time?

Back to work I go -- have a poop load of stuff to get caught up on:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: I wrote this early Wednesday - but Blogger will not let me post. Sheesh!

Will, Constant Cravings And A Stage Show!

Constant Cravings. That's what I'm going to name the book about my soul circle experiences. Because that is what it is exactly - a constant craving to be reunited. It never goes away, never fades. In fact, every day it grows stronger - yet not all consuming. You can hide the cravings, try to ignore them, but they never go away. So every day you hold on - stay strong and pray that the reunion is just around the corner.

I notice an immediate shift in my attitude, mannerisms, creativity - when I allow the soul circle to flow through me instead of fighting that flow. After last week and the pit of hopelessness I found myself in - I made a promise. A promise not only to myself but to the guys as well - no matter what happens, I won't cut off the light. I will not shut them out. It's a horrible empty feeling - one which I do not want ever again. I'm not sure how Bill and Ted go through the day when they cut themselves off. They go through much longer periods than I ever do, when they throw up that wall and no one can get through. I don't know who is worse - Bill or Ted. But I am going to make sure that they never feel like they are alone. I won't give up when they put up that wall - I will not back down. I am more determined than ever to have us connect. I like it when I feel determined. I never fail when I feel this way - never.

What helps me feel this way is Will. He empowers me. His energy pushes me to strive -- to attain a higher power of being. It's hard to describe - but I can sense the shift in my energy. And if you go back through my writing in this blog, you should be able to pick up on it as well. I write the same (I think) it just has a different energy behind it. He has never cut off the light - he has not pulled back, not once. In fact, his energy and connection grows stronger every day.

I did finish my draft of DREAMERS last night. It is now in the hands of my manager so that she can work her magic and tell me what I need to change. My guide Ethan has told me on more than one occasion that with me being more "famous" and all - that I have to strive to be more known - it is to be in the realm of my writing, not of my psychic abilities. There will be a day when I will not do readings much any more and instead will be educating mass through my writing. But he doesn't come out and say if my writing will be in the form of books. When I press for an answer, I am alluded to me making movies and stage plays.

My cat just ran off with my pop tart. Seriously - she just did. I looked over and she was dragging it out of my office. SIGH.

Anyways - not me "in" movies (God forbid) but writing them. However, I get a very vivid picture of Will and I doing a stage play based on our reunion journey. It's too vivid to be passed up. The stage has very few props on it - not much in set design. Every show is different - there is no script. Each performance is organic. He'll start with something and I'll flow into it and visa versa. We act out our emotional roller coaster. It's a goal to show people that reincarnation is a part of life, that soul mates/circles do exist but it is not an easy relationship to maintain. Eternity may bring with it a lot of love, but it also brings a lot of baggage -- and the soul forgets nothing. Plus - it's important to get across that if a person experiences what we have (and still do) that they are not crazy. Every day brings a new realm of possibilities to the table. Every day they are there -if you ignore them, they will still be there. But after time they feel more like baggage, wearing you down until you finally act on it and lighten the load.

And on that note - I'm taking my son to the Polar Express today. Things to do.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Disconnection, Water Ripples And Energy!

Not hearing from me for any length of time can never be good. It means that I'm stressed - period. If I'm stressed, I can't write anything except for readings. For readings, they're easy for me to do regardless on what kind of mood I'm in as they're not about me:) But anything creative or about yours truly - I get blocked. Which is where I've been all week - with the exception of Monday. My stress can be caused by a lot of things -- too busy, family, kid, money, commitments, things moving too slow, too fast, etc...

And of course when I do get blocked, a whole lot of things happen that are never in my best interest. But when I'm blocked, I'm blocked from everything - the Divine, my soul group, friends, family - anything. It's like my energy field throws up a huge wall that even I have a hard time removing. This week I tried doing my energy exercise every day and it didn't make a beans of difference in the long term. I could feel the energy surge as I was doing the routine, but then it dropped as soon as I was done instead of standing fast. Plus, concentrating on doing it was very difficult. My concentration would only hold for a few minutes at a time. What would interfere? Anger.

There's never one ting that throws me into this block. But once the ball starts to roll, it rolls. Thursday night I was actually cursing everything (exception my son who was in bed) and was telling the higher powers that I had enough. I'm tired of all of this. I'm tired of what I see, what I feel on a spiritual level - yet it alludes me in my physical life. I'm tired of hope. I went on to say, what if I just quit all of this - Gypsy Advice, the books, the blog - helping people spiritually -- and went back to college? Got a job in a bank, went back to school to get my degree in Criminal Justice and just tried to be as normal as I could -- with a "normal" life of a house, a job, a partner, dogs, cats, kids -- etc.... What would happen then? Would my visions go away - my soul circle detach? Could I live a normal life with a boyfriend and be happy? My guides said no. 1st time I heard them all week and they were very clear about it. No matter if I tried to alter course, it would make things more difficult for me, but things would still progress - period. And if they had to - they would do something drastic to get me on the path and moving forward like they did with my cheating ex. So me being me said -- well damn it give me a sign because I'm tired. One of the guys -- anything, let me see it. So I turn around and what do I see - something about Matt. For a spilt second I felt better.

Last night I just couldn't take it any more, being blocked like that isolates me and I hate the disconnect. I don't function well and I do take notice that things around me get worse, not better the longer I disconnect. So after indulging with few things that always make me feel better (an episode of Psych, my animals, and a bowl of peanut butter ice cream w/magic shell) I asked for whatever is blocking me to be removed overnight so that I can get back to business.

Now I don't remember my dreams in any huge context -but I do remember Bill, Ted and Will showing up at different times. I should also note while I'm thinking about it that Will came through every day as I was trying to do my energy exercises and pushed me like he was my energy coach. Not even him could get through this week except for those moments.

But I woke up and I feel better. Now physically I have that stupid chest connection thing I get every year - but it is not as bad as the norm. Although my voice keeps coming and going and I sound like a smoker when I cough.

So that's where I've been this week: aggravated, frustrated, angry, hopeless and disconnected.

Many times I could feel Bill trying to break through. He was there - and I remember asking him - what in the hell do you want? Why now? I told him to go away. At first he wouldn't - but that wall around me was pretty thick, so he stepped way back. Now he's a bit closer.

Okay - now that was a first. Off to my right, the scenery changed to a ripple water effect. Have you ever seen the original Stargate - the movies? When they walk through the Stargate the 1st time, the way the stargate moved, looked like they were going through water. That's exactly what it looked like. I couldn't see it straight - it was off to the right. Glass on, glasses off - same thing. I tried to look through to see if I could "see" anything through the water ripples and I couldn't see anything but a white looking blob of light. It was very odd. Only lasted like 5 minutes. I have no idea about this one -- very baffled. It was almost as if I could see the doorway between dimensions. And you know, there has to be a doorway to another dimension. But what triggers the door to open? How long does it stay open? Does it ever close?

Off to work on DREAMERS. I may hop onto Keen today - so if you want, stop by and get a reading.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Matt, Dreams And My Headaches!

Where to start? My headaches - that's a good place to begin. As you guys know fro last week I was having some very busy dreams as well as waking up with horrible headaches that would last throughout the day. When this stuff usually happens, a change is coming up, usually something that will blindside me and usually slanted to the worst (at least at first). Sat. it dawned on me what it was -- my ex was up to something that would have really screwed me over (and his son - BTW). As soon as it hit me - my headache went away. And so did the crazy dreams with fire and stuff. It going to take some leg work on my part to shift things so that he cannot do what he was hoping to do (and now can't do) -- but I stayed one step ahead of him thanks to my dreams and intuitive feel. HA! Why do people have to be so rotten? I just don't get it.

Which moves me to Keen. I have met many nice people thus far - but as well some rotten apples. People who want to be spiteful or refuse to hear what I'm saying and still write the bad feedback. SIGH. Onward and upward!

I made some really good headway with DREAMERS last weekend - despite my son yanking me out of creative mood many times over:)

Matt made a breakthrough last week. Not sure exactly what it was or how it affected him. But the tremors that wouldn't stop hit me hard, along with the energy surges. I had a hard time trying to figure out who it was that had the breakthrough - so I went down the names to see whose name would call in another energy surge. I saved Matt for last and that is who it was. It's about time the guy had some sort of breakthrough, It's been a long time coming. When I asked my guides if it had anything to do with me - they said it dealt with his spiritual growth and since I'm a part of that - so yes, I am involved. I'll be interested to see where this goes from this point forward.

Had a very nice - long - afternoon coffee break today. Very nice. Looking forward to the next one.

Off to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)