A Little of This and A Bunch of That!

No -- you're not imagining things. This is really a post by yours truly. You guys are so sweet to have missed me. I can't tell you how many emails I have received asking me when I was going to post again. It really is nice to be missed.

I have to switch this from Blogger to Wordpress by my birthday (May 2nd). Someone don't let me forget:) Email me by April 15th and remind me. I'd greatly appreciate it.

As you all  can imagine - A LOT has happened since my last post. So go grab a cup of java, tea or a glass of wine and come back to read.

Brodie died Jan 7th. It broke my heart. His nose had started to bleed more the day before and I couldn't stop it. I knew something was coming. He needed to go outside to the bathroom. He went and then immediately had a stroke. It was horrible - just heart breaking. The tumor had pushed through to his brain. Oh the pain he must of felt. Thank God my neighbor Bob was home (who Brodie adored more than anyone). Thank God through my sobbing he knew what I needed. He helped me carry Brodie to the car - not easy seeing it was 100 lbs of dead weight. Bob had a hard time saying good bye so I could drive off. By the time I finally got him into the vet - his passing was quick and painless. Everyone at the vet loved Brodie and all stopped what they were doing to be there when he passed. I miss that dog so much. But seeing how protective he was in life (he chased away two bible thumpers 15 min before his stroke) I'm sure he's still close by. Gimli had a very difficult time with Brodie's passing. Countless hours were spent outside looking for his friend.

Gimli is doing fine now - he's turning into a good dog. He still eats things he shouldn't - but he's left my couch, carpet and table alone.

School is kicking my butt. Social Psych and Sign Lang 2 are going great. Stats hurts my brain (but I think I have a B in  there) and Ethics is killing me. I'm doing piss poor in that class - but so is most students. That class may ruin my dean's list for this semester. I'm still part of a research team at school and I like doing this. I discovered that I won't be able to graduate till May 2011 instead of Dec 2010. I have 2 classes that I can't fit in - 7 classes in a semester is a recipe for disaster.

I don't know if I mentioned that I was going to get my certification in sex coaching. Even though I have been ding it awhile - I thought it would be nice to be certified. This is going well. I love learning about this - educational and fun:)

I had a part time job and lost that same part time job. They are trying to talk me out of quitting - which is nice. But I don't think I do well as a follower. I also though to myself -- is this the best use of my time? No. I love to help people - period. This job wasn't even close to it. So I told myself that if I dedicated x hours a day to that job. Then I could do the same back at Gypsyadvice and Keen. That's what I'm doing.

After I post this -- I'll be doing the podcast and the OBE blog. I know - shocking:) I do have some surprises coming up for the OBE site that I'm excited to implement. When it's ready I'll let you know.

It's a shame I wasn't betting in an Oscar pool last night - I got them all right but the winner for editing and short film:) Speaking of which - screenwriting has taken a back burner. I honestly don't want it on the back burner - even though I guess I can't write believable dialogue to save my life. I think I'll take a break from rejection for a bit. I'll keep rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE when I have time. This is a must-do script.

I wanted the movie AMAZING GRACE over the weekend. This is a song that I always sing and I have no clue as to the why. So I'm watching this movie and it brought up a whole range of emotions that make me think WTF? As I kept feeling these strange emotions - esp when I watched the main character William and his wife Barbara - I kept thinking that dang, William is someone who I would be attracted to - why can't I find someone like that? Then Bill's face popped up. I thought - yeah, he's a lot like Bill. But Bills face wouldn't leave. So I thought again WTF? The it was like Iris hit me on the head -- you big dummy, Bill was William in a past life -and I guess that made me Barbara. Ahhhh....then it dawned on me - lol. But Iris quickly jumped in and said that the real William and Barbara were not exactly how they were portrayed in the movie (gee - hollywood taking a creative license about a true story - I'm shocked). At some point in time I have to read more about William and Barbara.

Bill has been around a lot. He never really wants anything - just to show that he's here. He's in my dreams too. Every night without fail.

Someone else is in my dreams every night - but I can't make out who they are. The set up though is always the same. He's wealthy - lives with his wealthy parents. The house is modern, well kept with modern furnishings. There is a huge wall of windows that overlooks the ocean. I'm friends with his parents but his father wouldn't approve of our relationship (or would at least have a hard time) and he's sick - so we can't approach him with our situation. He has cancer. This guys bedroom has a really big bed with a red comforter. A couch is in from of the bed with a flat screen TV. Not a lot of clutter is on the dressers. The adjourning bathroom is huge and marble (plus very tidy). He likes to sleep on the same side of the bed I do (if you're looking down at the bed from the foot - it's the right side) but I don't mind sleeping on the left side. They have a dog - I think it's a yellow lab like Gimli. I have no idea why I keep showing up here and who these people are. But I'd like to find out.

I'm going to be at the Universal Light Expo again this October. The topic of my workshop will be Sexual Energy:)

My son is doing ok back in public school. He's had some bumps - but overall he's well.

I keep catching a spirit or maybe an astral body floating around at all hours of the day/night. I'm thinking this is either Bill or Will - maybe Vincent. All the guys are still around - I find myself being drawn into thinking about them. But I don't allow the connection to last very long.

Because I don't allow the connection to last - I don't get the full benefit of being connected to them. I'm not talking about sex here - but the benefit of their energy - their love. I miss that closeness. But I also do not want to get sucked in (so to speak)- I have too much to do.

I know there's more to talk about - there has to be. But I'm out time if I'm going to do the podcast. So I'm going to boggie out.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Stone Magic, Blue Moon And HNE!

Happy New Year (HNE) everyone!

Can you beleive that in a few short hours it's 2010? I can't. My son will be 10 this year - 10! A double-digit tween. God help me:)

Tonight's an extra special NYE. Why? Because it's "Once in a Blue Moon" New Year's Eve - that's why! For those of you who don't know - a Blue Moon happens when 1 month gets 2 full moons. This normally takes place once every 2 years. For a Blue Moon to fall on a NYE happens once every 19 years!!

So if there's a night to make a wish - this is it. But be careful with your wish as Mercury is still in Retrograde. Be very clear and concise in what you are wishing for:)

I remind you guys every year to do this - this year is no excecption:

New Year's Stone - At sunrise on the morning of the new year, go outside and find the largest stone you can carry. Take this back to your house and put it in a place of prominence. If you keep the stone in your house for a year, it will be one filled with prosperity. Replace the stone every year.

Time to go get ready for tonight's party.

May all of you have a prosperous 2010 full of love, peace and abundance!

Be safe everyone!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little Bit of This, That and the Other Thing.

Well hi there! Long time no talk. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season. Thank you for all of the holiday messages that arrived in my inbox, FaceBook and here on the blog.

Humm....where should I even start with this update? Better grab a cup of coffee and get settled in -- I have a lot to chat about.

College - ended up getting 3 A's and 1 B+. Landed on the Dean's List again (yay me)! Classes are out until Jan 10th. Another year of full time classes and I should have my BA by this time next year.

I'm also going to be enrolled in the Sex Coaching Instutite. I know - I know -- seriously, how much can I cram into a day? No worries as my son is going back to his public school on Jan 4th. He had to realize that being with me all day long was not a good thing. I'm a lot more strict than the teachers. Now that he realizes that being with mom is not the best thing in the world, he won't act up (on purpose mind you) in school so that I have to take him out and homeschool him. Fingers crossed that my plan has worked:)

Brodie has had some really rough days. I feel horrible for him - but he doesn't want to give up yet - so I'm not putting him down for the time being. Gimli on the other hand is eating my house one piece at a time. The carpet, wooden floor, couches....SIGH. He's just luckly I love animals.

My dreams have been so active and really messed up lately. This has been going on the last 6 months or so - but over the last 2 months it's really intensified. In my dreams I'm working for a secret gov't agency. We interagate people in their dreams. Now I'm good at shifting my dreams when I want or need another dream enviroment. But with this - I bounce right back to gov't work. I'm very good at what I do for the agency and I'm told (in the dreams) that I'm not going to be going anywhere any time soon. I'm too valuable. SIGH. So I've bene waking up just as tired as when I fell asleep. When I try to shift the gov 't dreams - I keep landing in Atlantis. All I want to do is stay there - but even Atlantis can't keep me in Atlantis.

The bathroom dreams are also back. Big rooms full of toliets with no walls - hundreads of people around going to the bathroom. But  this time in these dreams - I find the one private bathroom there is -- and everytime I enter I'm told that this is where I belong. Seperate - yet connect - to the world.

Now - in the waking world it's also been very interesting concerning Atlantis. I could be in the middle of something (like driving) and all of a sudden Atlantis is there. I'm not "in" it - but I can reach out and grab it (so to speak). It happens all the time now - even when I'm in the middle of a conversation. I have to stop what I'm saying (I loose my train of thought completely) and restart. The last couple of weeks it's been really intense.

The reason it's so intense - I think - is that an old friend has come back into my life. This is a friend that I'd walk through fire for in a heart beat - but everytime we've been together (in the past) he has broken my heart in a million pieces. I have a wall so thick around me where it concerns him (and really anyone else who has hurt me) that it's difficult for him to get through. BUT -- he has an abundence of spiritual gifts that are just fabo - and he can still break through this fortress without even really trying. He's come to me for help in understanding his gifts. Like me - he's a logical thinker by nature - and he's trying to logically figure this out (something Bill has been trying to do for years). There's no logic to this -- I've tried.

In order for me to really help him, I have to let my walls down completely. I know this - he knows this. Iris is being very forward about me doing this -- that I have to. I know I have to -- but I'm scared. He can get to places within me that no one else but Bill can. The difference my friend wants to be in those places where Bill has said no way.

So anyways my friend - Kevin - thinks he's Vincent. He's not - but what is so interesting about him saying Vincent out of all of the men I'm connected to is that at the ULE I got a couple of readings. All described Vincent as being in my energy - but it wasn't Vincent. It was someone LIKE Vincent. Someone with the same protective energy as Vincent - someone who can love me in ways that no one else can. So is Kevin the Vincent that the readers mentioned? I try to figure it out, but I know I can't figure it out. I have to go with the flow and see where I land.

Kevin says that I have an enormous power within me -- like he does (I said the like he does - he didn't say that) -- that has to be tapped into. I'm only skating on the surface. By allowing myself to be fully immersed in my gifts - I can help more people (which is what I love to do).

I can feel the guys closing in ranks around me - not wanting to let Kevin close to me. Between my wall and the guys - it should be damn near impossible for Kevin to get through - yet he still does. Since I saw Kevin last night - I can't stop the energy tremors. What he and I need to do (I feel) is spend some time alone without the outside pressures of life - if only for a day. This way we can get a handle on what's going on.

I'll try to keep you updated.

Starting at the start of the year, I will no longer be offering free follow up questions for the readings. I just cannot keep up with them all. I'll talk about it more in today's podcast.

Also in the last couple of weeks I started to watch (and got caught up with) Heroes. I was going to watch it when it 1st came on TV - but my guides told me no - I wasn't ready. I wasn't sure what I had to be "ready" for -- but I think it has to do with the acceptance of who I am. The ability to focus in on my gifts and use them to make a difference in people's lives. I know that so far I've only scratched the surface on what I can do -- and it'll take a big leap of faith to see what else I'm capable of.

But isn't like that for most people? That we only scratch the surface of our possibilities - scared or fearful - to go outside of our comfort zone? To push our limits. When we push - when we tap into what we're capable of -- our world changes. It can't help but change. For the most part people just do not like change. It doesn't matter if it's you that doesn't like the change or the people around you don't want you to change - if you change then you push them outside their comfort zone.

I'm going to be making some more changes in 2010 (I think). No more Gypsy Magic or Gypsy News blogs. I'll leave them there but no updates. No more monthly Numerscope. OBE blog, this blog and the podcast stays.

Major changes to the OBE site on the horizon. I can't tell you about it now - but will as soon as I can. I know you'll like the changes:)

Mercury is in retro until Jan 15th. 

I know there's more to update you on -- but I have dogs that need to go outside.

Hope all of you have a wonderful and safe New Years Eve. Here's to a loving - prosperous 2010 for all of us!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Universal Light Expo and Updates!

Hi Everyone!

I didn't forget - Bill turned 51 on October 20th! I thought about him for most of the that day. He is still such a sex - sexy man. Good thing I have an eternity to meet up with him. Until then we'll keep meeting up in the dream state. When he's in the US we dream visit nightly. If he's traveling around the globe (which is what he usually does) we still connect during the day. The connections are brief - just like a "Hey, how ya doing? Miss you. Ciao." But I'll take what I can get.

I know - it's been awhile since I posted anything. Sorry about that. But I did warn you that while classes are going on my postings would dwindle off - there just isn't enough time in the day for it all. Especially since now I've been allowed to be a part of a research team. Granted - I'm just an assistant and get to do all the low level stuff - but it looks good on my grad school application.
College is going fine -- homeschool with my son is a challenge, but we're getting there. If he would just realize that writing things is a needed skill in life. Not everything mind you - but you do have to use a pen/pencil to paper - probably daily. Until then he spends a lot of time being grounded and I'm stressed far more than I should be.

Brodie isn't doing very well. If you all could send him healing light - I would (and so would he) appreciate it. The tumor hasn't made his nose malformed yet. But he has a hell of a time trying to breathe and his nose bleeds are horrible. Hard to believe it's been a year since Indy passed away. Man I miss that dog - so does Brodie.

Brodie - more than money - is the reason I'm not doing Maria's Cosmic Convention next weekend. I refuse to be gone when Brodie dies. I still feel horrible about Indy passing away in that vet office without me there. I just can't let it happen again. So for all of you who are going to the Cosmic Convention - I'm sorry I won't see you. I hope to be able to go in May - as long as it jives with my finals schedule.

The Universal Light Expo was great. I met a lot of new people, saw many familiar faces. A few people came down from MI (and who I usually see at Maria's fairs) to see the expo - stopped by to say hi. It was fabo to see them all. I had a family from Romania (who lives in Cleveland) stop by. They drove down specifically to see me. That was really nice of them. I sold a lot of books - did many readings - a very good weekend in all.

BTW - for all of you who have emailed or called to see how I'm doing because I haven't posted in a while or did a podcast - your thoughts and concerns were/are very appreciated!

The last several months I've had my feelings really hurt by a couple of people who I thought were my friends. One person I told everything to - everything - and that is not a easy thing for me to do. I'm usually very guarded and tell people & my friends only the parts that I know they'd want to hear or that they can grasp (if that makes sense). So very few people have ever known all of me - in fact - I can count on one hand how many (with fingers left over). Everyone of these people ended up stabbing me in the back one way or the other. It sucks. But since I'm in a 9 Personal Year - those people, places and things that are not in my highest good drift away. So in a way it's good. But it still sucks. Sucks even more that I miss them. But I don't allow myself a lot of "missing" time. That heart chakra of mine just keeps getting stepped on. Sheesh. I want it opened up and accepting - not closed off and defensive. Onward and upward!

Love life is still zero. I haven't found anyone that even peeks my interest a bit. Had a neighbor that did - but he moved and we could never find time to connect.

I stopped screenwriting. My heart just isn't in it any longer. I'm tired of my ideas sucking or my writing being less than desirable. Eventually I'll work on The Black Triangle again - because I know I have to - it's a Destiny Marker for me.

Of course Will was a Destiny Marker for me (and I for him) and we saw how well that worked out. Like with Bill - Will and I have eternity. But I would like to cross some things off my list.

Even though I'm not posting here in the blog or doing podcasts often - that doesn't mean I'm not doing readings. I've allotted myself time every week just for that. So please keep me in mind for your reading needs:)

I've had many people ask my opinion on 2012. What do I think will happen? My personal opinion is don't believe all the hype. The hype - as in the world is coming to an end. Granted someday it will - but not for a very long time. What I think will happen is a shift in consciousness. Instead of being more greed, material - earth bound based -- it'll be more spiritual, love, accepting based. I also feel at this time, what crystal skulls haven't already been awoken - will wake up. The skulls will help the shift.

On a completely separate adult note: when I stopped my sex radio show & podcast - I took down the adult store that went with them. Well, I just revamped it making it better than ever with a lot of products: http://www.thepassionzone.com/ I have no idea it's you if you buy. So no worries!

I just remembered the other night - when I lost my site Gypsy Girl Press, I lost the years of data that I saved in regards to Bill and Ted - mainly Bill. All gone. I had saved it all on the GGP server thinking it would be safe. SIGH. If we were ever to sit down and talk - I don't have any notes/dates to compare to him.

I had two readings at the ULE - both psychics picked up on Vincent. Oh yes they did. If (though his free will) he's going to show up in my life at all during this lifetime - it'll be before the end of this year. It was amazing how they both described him to a "T". I'm always open to the possibilities.

Vincent did visit me the other night for a fun dream visit! I wrote about it in the OBE blog.

Better get going. Need to do a few readings, my podcast, laundry, write a paper and carve some pumpkins!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Iris, Andrew and Ethan!

Butterflies in my heart chakra. For me -- this is a new one. It's been there since yesterday -- not leaving - not even for a second. I'm not sure who had the breakthrough. Mark is here - and pretty persistent on having me open up -- everyone else just hangs out on the fringe of my energy. Cheryl suggest on FB that it's Vincent. That would be great if he did have any type of breakthrough -- he's about a year overdue.

I've noticed that "blankness" about me over the last two days. Not so bad this morning -- but Friday and Saturday it was pretty bad. That's what happens when a new energy comes to me (I should say an energy of major importance like Mark, Vincent, Will, Bill and Ted) - I have a blast of energy and then it's nothing. And when I mean nothing - I mean that my mind is just blank. I can't hold a thought for over 20 seconds. When this happens it doesn't effect my ability to do a reading - but the ability to get to a reading. When I'm blank I want to do zero -- and I mean zero. As you know - doing nothing is really not part of my daily routine (although I do set time aside to relax every day).

I don't know what in the world I did to my right shoulder -- but it's killing me.

I still cannot tap into my past lives with Mark. There's a block and it's driving me crazy. I know - I know -- maybe I'm not supposed to know yet. Or I'll know if and when we ever meet. (LOL - Iris is right beside me - when I wrote the if & when she said - what do I look like - chopped liver? I guess that means when and not if.)

Iris is now talking in my ear - over my son's voice - game and the music that being pumped through my headphones. I guess this is something I need to hear.....

Iris: You and Mark will meet under unusual circumstance - you will turn and just be "there". The first look you give one another is that of shock - he has complete disbelief on his face while you are wondering if he is just a vision or real. You turn and quickly move away from him -- he follows. You go into a store - turn and there he is. He asks if you two know one another. You answer that it's not as easy as yes or no. He offers to buy you a coffee . You agree and engage in deep conversation.

I ask Iris what is the "unusual circumstance" - she replied that I will be in a place where I never expected to be. One that I hoped for - but never really expected to be. This will happen rather quickly. The ball is already in motion. I have something that I have to do 1st. Of course I ask - what is it? She said to complete the outline of my horror script. Although writing horror is not for me and I will not make a career out of it -- this script - more importantly the outline - is what gets me to where I need to be. So how long or how short it takes is in my hands.

I ask Iris - how does she expect me to get everything done? Her reply - get my head out of my ass.

Iris is the only guide I know that cusses.

Ethan's here -- he says that I have to focus. I have a window that I must go through. Everything that has happened to me - including my financial woes - has been put in place to get me to this window. I of course have to ask -- couldn't there have been an easier way? For you - Ethan replied - no. For some reason you and everyone you are karmic connected with are incredibly stubborn. Disaster has to happen before you make the shift needed.

So -- Mark -- his lose will be the death of a loved one? Ethan steps up to reply - Iris beats him to it...yes, that has to happen. I ask about his wife (who is a wonderful and kind person). Iris replies that she and Mark are the best of friends -- best - best of friends...but they are not - or have not - been man and wife for a very long time. They each lead separate lives. However - they'd take a bullet for one another.

But.....

Andrew pops up before I can say anything more.

Vincent -- that's all Andrew says.

What about him?

He needs you.

Vincent is a big boy - he can pick up a phone and call if he needs me.

Andrew shakes his head - no good. You have to strengthen the energy around him -- it has to be now.

Why the urgency?

His life has just fallen apart - so apart that he can't piece it back together again. He needs to feel a burst of your energy.

Okay guys (Iris, Ethan, Andrew)...let me get this straight. I need to write my outline for the horror script, study for my tests, write my paper, deal with my financial nightmare, take care of my son - the house - the animals, take care of my clients, strengthen my energy with Mark because he's about to go through hell, strengthen my energy with Vincent because he is going through hell and you need this all done what -- yesterday?

I hear a three "Yes".

Piece of cake -- I can do this in my sleep.

Iris : What do you think you've been doing in your sleep? She laughs.

Just so you know -- Ethan says -- your financial nightmare has taken care of itself ever since you made the decisions you did a couple of weeks ago.

SIGH - I'm tired already and it's only 9:00 am :)

Better get to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Mark, Karma and Iris!

I was going to write about Mark last night -- but by the time I got done with my work it was 2:30 am. I was pooped. I still am.

Tuesday night's dream continued into Wednesday's nights visit. Mark and I were sitting at a picnic table - one in the middle of a park. No one was around. he and I were drinking black coffee -- it was very strong as if it was brewed a week ago and it just sat there until we drank it. I remember thinking that he and I needed this leaded coffee so that we could keep going -- the difficulties are before us.

Mark asked me how to stop the train. I told him that everything was already in motion and there was no stopping things. He sighed - looked really sad - and said that he wished things would be different. That he didn't have to go through the pain he will have to endue in order for him to move forward in this life. He added that he was happy that I was the one who would help him through this -- and in return he would fix his karmic debt to me. I asked him what had happened in the past in order for him to have this karmic debt -- and this must be a major debt as he needs to clear it in order not to have to come back as a human. He smiled (he has the most amazing smile I have ever seen) and said - yeah, I fucked up a few times. With me - I asked? Unfortunately he replied. What did you do? (I just had to know). I don't have a clue - was his reply to me. I wish I could remember. The thing is Al (he called me Al) is that in order for me to fix the past, you have to open up and let me in. Can you do that? I stared at him - slammed my hands on the table -- woke up.

Last night it continued.....

Mark's at my house -- he's looking around -- you need new carpet - new furniture - and a different car. I nod and say it'll all come eventually. He replied - let me get it for you. I answered - no. Al...he said...I have more money than I need....let me help you. Why? I asked. So I can owe you? No, he said, because I owe YOU.

So this is how you'll pay me back..with material crap? No - he cups my face in his hands - but it's a start. I turned from him and say that Brodie needs to go outside potty. He yelled at me -- don't shut me out. The dog and I go outside. Once outside Brodie was not there -- and I'm in the middle of a forest.

I turned around and Mark was there -- on the ground is a tent, camping equipment and a burning fire. You still like to camp - he asked? I turned away from him and was about to walk the opposite direction when he appeared in front of me.

I'm not Bill, Ted, Vincent...and I'm sure as hell not Will. I'm not them! I found you. Who do you think put the thoughts in your head for you to find me?

Yeah -- just like Will did -- and where did that get me?

NOT like Will -- it took you months to figure out that he was calling you - it took you a couple of weeks with me.

But you've been in my energy since 1979. A lot longer than Will or any of them. So actually - it took you 30 years. I turned again to get away from him and he grabbed my arm - yanked me to him.

I'm not one of the bad guys.

Time will tell -- I yanked my arm away.

All of a sudden this blast of light and wind made us both stumble -- it was blinding.

Iris!

Stop acting like children! Mark -- you need Allie and Allie you need Mark. Allie -- do you want to go through these same lessons with relationships - AGAIN? Mark -- do you want to live through the same pain that you are about to experience -- do you want to come back AGAIN?

More important -- do you want me as your guide AGAIN?

We stay silent.

Iris glared at both of us -- and fades from view.

I look at Mark - he looks at me. Without a second of hesitation - he grabbed me -- kissed me -- very soft - seductive -- very nice. He pulled back - smiled. I could hear an alarm in the background. He said -- it was time to wake up.

So we did.

Mark and our karma is going to be harder than I thought.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

And Mark Rolls On...

I'm so tired -- it's almost midnight. But I had to write this post first.

On the way to classes tonight - I felt someone kick my chair as I was driving. Then that "person" touched my face. I FELT a hand rest on my right cheek. Like when a person cups your face before they kiss you - that's what it felt like - but only one hand, not two. I almost freaked out as I drove.

I'm like -- who in the hell was that? Mark's blue eyes popped right in front of me - then his wicked smile. Andrew & Paul show up and I asked -- where in the hell have you two been? Andrew said they are working with Vincent. I asked what about my love life?

That's when Ethan stepped up and said it's bigger than your love life. So I say - WTH does that mean?

That's when Iris stepped forward and said - I'm back! Oh no -- heavy stuff happens when she's around! So I have to ask.....was that Mark who was in the car? Iris gives me that "look" like I just said something really stupid. Yes she replied. And - I ask - what does he (or you for that matter) have to do with me now?

Iris said - I told you I'd be back when something major was going to happen -- and here we are. So what does Mark.....I'm his guide too - Iris jumped in.

Oh Lord I said.

You two have work to do - she said.

What about Will? Bill? Ted? She waved her hand - they blew it - wasted their chance. Next life we'll get caught up.

So -- what kind of work do Mark and I have to do? All you need to know is that it's karmic and necessary so that Mark does not have to come back in human form - ever - unless he wanted to of course. Then Iris chimed in...why anyone would choose to be human is beyond me.

SIGH.

So we'll see what tonight brings if I can ever get to sleep to dream visit with him.

Night Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: Iris means big change (whine - whine - sob - sob)!

PPS: Iris didn't mention anything about Vincent missing his chance - whoo hoo.

PPPS: She also didn't say that Bill, Ted and Will couldn't be friends with me - or that we'd never speak again in this life - just that they @ucked up and our work together will have to wait.

Quick Dream With Mark

Ok - so Mark was in most of my dreams last night. I know this because I kept waking up and thinking - there he was again. Of course I didn't write any of it down - I was too tired all I wanted to do is go back to sleep.

What I do remember though is him being very agitated. Change was all around him and he wasn't happy about it at all. He was stressed. He slid behind the wheel of a moving truck - I was in the passenger seat. I knew that because he was pissed that I should put my seat belt on and I did. He didn't. He drove like a crazy man - way too fast, taking corners at a dangerous speed. Then he slowed down and went at a crawl - not wanting to get to his destination. He looked at me and said - I can't stop this...what do I do?

Then I woke up.

When he spoke to me - he had this tortured look on his face - like someone who is about to lose a loved one to an illness and they are powerless to stop it. His energy has been with me since I rolled out of bed.

Off to take Brodie to the vet - then it's time for my son's schooling.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Thomas, Mark and Will!

I felt a big urge to write in here tonight - even though I am really tired. I labored on Labor Day:) I can feel that shift coming - and it's going to be a doozy. In part it has to do with my financial situation - but it's more than that - a lot more. Not all bad, just stressful because I'm not a big one for change.

There's someone new who has been showing up in my visions. His name is Mark - well, it's actually Thomas, but he goes by Mark. He's been around for years (since 1979) and like when I would see Will or Bill (both from the mid 1980's) - I would push this aside - not giving it much thought. But now - I'm not given a choice but to give him thought.

Mark is very intuitive. He also has a guru or someone he talks to on a regular basis to get a handle on his visions. Like him with me - I have been popping up with him. He's all the way in CA - so the odds of me running into him are slim. Because the odds are slim - I wonder why the connection has been activated (so to speak)?

Mark is like Vincent in the respect that he is a protector. There's no way in the universe that he (or Vincent) would allow anything to harm me. I can see him in past lives with me - either as a warrior (knight, police officer) or as a mystic.

About this time of year is when someone new - and important - pops into my psychic life. It's like they get an inkling on me 1st - and then seek out answers to what's going on. That's when they happen upon my site and then I'm drawn into the mix.

Mark and Will happen to know each other with Will not liking Mark like Bill does not care for Will. SIGH.

What I wish is that the universe would stop introducing new players into this soul group/past life bunch and instead let me sit down for a face to face with the ones I know about. I mean hell - I know they stop by the site and keep an eye on me - and they know I know. So what the hell? Someday this would make a hell of a movie.

Last week I had a very nice dream visit with Will. He was in a theatre. I was pulled into his dream, not the other way around. He was watching someone on the big screen. I told him that one of the things I like about him - his ability to be complex, multi talented. He starts yelling at the scream calling the person up there an idiot & a waste of talent. Will turns, cups my face and kisses me - that's one of the reasons he loves me, he said, because I put up with him. He and I sit in the very comfortable seats. He decides to go get something to drink. There's now a movie on screen (no idea what). When he comes back - he doesn't sit by me, instead he goes two rows behind me and hands the drink to the woman who is right behind me. I turn and look at him - WTF? He's like - I didn't know you wanted this. I give him the "whatever jack ass" look and turn back around. He sits next to me and apologizes - I tell him to keep quite, I hate it when people talk during a movie (which I really do). Then I woke up. No idea about this dream - it happened the night after my visit with Bill and Ted.

Right before I woke up this morning - in my dream I was passing a man who was sitting at a student's desk (like the ones I see at college). He had his head in his hands - he was just beside himself. I asked him if Capital One was harassing him (like they are me in real life) he said yes - they won't leave him alone. He looked so torn. I thought to myself - this is Thomas (not to be confused with the Mark/Thomas from above). I don't know why this name popped up - but I knew that I was supposed to remember him. He was a big guy - good looking - older than me by a couple of years with hazel eyes. I grabbed a canister of film (as from a 35 mm camera) and said - nothing in life lasts forever - this too shall pass. I smiled at him and walked away. When I said it - I felt at peace -- he looked at me - smiled and nodded his head. I woke up.

Vincent has been around a lot too lately. Not sure if he's protecting me from Mark or what. But he's hovering. Feels like a big ole blanket wrapped around me.

And on that note - it's time for me to go to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Yes, I am still here.

College is great - but kicking my butt. My son's online public school is a pain in my tush to massive proportions. I'm looking forward to when he and I can get into a groove so that we don't kill one another.

I am in a major need to have you guys be my psychic pimps. Although I have jumped through all of the hoops that FirstMerit has put in my path - they threw another one at me in order for me to keep my house. I have 3 weeks to come up with $$$ so that my son and I can still live here. This is where you guys can come in -- I'm not asking for handouts, I'm asking for work. If you know of anyone who needs a reading, coaching or healing - please send them my way. My son, myself the 4 cats and the 1 dog (who I can't remember if I told you has sinus cancer) would greatly appreciate being able to stay in our home.

I know that I hear on TV and on the radio/web sites that banks are actively trying to help homeowners to stay in their home. Well, FirstMerit must not be one of those banks.

On another note - Bill and Ted have been in my dreams the last couple of nights. Both together with me - which is nice because they are usually separate when they visit. Must be to help me with my stress level before I have a heart attack or something -- cause let me tell you - my stress level hasn't been this high since I discovered my ex and his harem of girlfriends. I'm grateful that Bill and Ted are around.

I need to go get my son some lunch, then it's off to take Trouble (cat) to the vet and finally off to classes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Yep - I'm Still Kicking!

Boy oh boy -- where to start? Humm...

Obviously I'm not dead, injured or on the lam. Be my friend on Facebook and you'll know what I'm up to if I'm not posting on this blog: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1402733541
Although I may have ot be careful what I post since one of my sisters is friends with my ex and they're buds on FB. I certainly don't want him in my business. We'll see - she put some blocks into place on FB on him. Don't know if it'll work or not.

Summer classes are over - yay! I managed to get 2 "A" and 2 "A-" - not bad for a 13 year break from college. Fall classes start on Aug 24th! Taking another full time load of 4 classes. I'll be FT until I either graduate or my brain falls out - whichever comes 1st!

All of my son's homeschool stuff is here. Wow - there's a lot of stuff. His two favorite items were the art & math stuff that we opened. Classes for him start on Aug 17th. I have to figure out where to put everything!

Until classes start I will be on Keen every day - times vary. More morning/afternoon hours than evening hours. If you want to chat and I'm not there - "Arrange a Call" with me and I'll get right back with you.

I'm going to be back doing sex toy reviews for a web site. Whoo Hoo! Not sure when the start date is - but it'll be soon.

I have to update my Personal Appearances:

- Every Tuesday I'm on the Maria Shaw show on Empower Radio in the 1:00 hour.

- Next Wednesday I will be on Live Your Dreams at 7:00 pm with Betty & Holly on Empower Radio.

- Next Thursday I'm a guest of Susan Norgren's on Psychic Buzz at 10:00 pm EDT.

Gypsy Girl Press's web site is no longer. I forgot to pay the fee and the canned the site. I moved the Gypsy Magic and Gypsy News blogs to Gypsy Advice. Make sure you change your bookmarks. Over the week I'll get the information up about the Gypsy Magic book series and links to where you can buy them.

Dreams have been a plenty - but I've been so set on sleeping that I haven't written anything down. Last night Michael was pretty prominent in the last dream I had before I woke up. He and I were lying down on a bed inside of a small RV. I was kind of a sleep and he was watching me sleep. Then I sprung and tickled him - lol. He mentioned about me being bold. LOL.

My guides have just been hanging back - which I find interesting. Iris did step up once and tell me a couple of things - but she also told me not to put specifics here - lol. Overall - it was about my future and the visions I had had about a clinic - stones/crystals and flower essence. They are combined with my sex coaching/therapy. It's an interesting road she's directing be down.

I was guided though to watch the Celestine Prophecy. I had read the book back in 1997 and honestly haven't thought about since then. The DVD was a good refresher and a reminder about past lives, intution and what will supposed to be will be - regardless of what you try to do to stop it. My son really enjoyed it.

There was a cay hit and killed close to my house a couple of weeks ago. It wasn't Raisin. But I haven't seen Little Black Kitty at all since then :( Someone hit the cat and kept driving - another car stopped and picked the cat up to take him to a vet. That's when I arrived as the lead car was putting the cat in the car - never saw the color of the cat.

I've caught up on my backlog of email from all my email addresses. If you haven't heard from me by now (and obviously you sent an email) then you're not going to. If it was important - please resend.

Better go check on the kid -- he's too quiet!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I Know....I Know.....

Where in the &^%$# have I been? At the University of Akron - that's where. Finals week of Summer 1 was tough - but I pulled out 2 A's:) Now Summer 2 is really kicking my arse. I'm in classes 8 hrs a day 4x week (2 hrs on Friday) with almost 3 hrs of drive time each day. Geology is a pain - a lot of memorizing I have to do - and Western Humanities is interesting, but very long. At least there my tests are essay and we can use our notes.

My son turns 9 on July 1st. I can't believe it. He's gotten so darn big! Vincent's 50th b-day is on June 30th. Yesterday we had my son's party with his friends. They had a blast. 1st time my Mr. Hot Wheel got a chance to drive a go-cart. At first he was scared, but then he was a racin` fool!

I'm on Keen on the weekends & Friday nights. It seems to be working just fine this way. Sunday appears to be the best day for me to be on. With the way my schedule is - the Ask Allie podcast will be done on Friday's until Summer 2 is over at the end of July. In the current podcast - I have some pretty good Listener Appreciation deals going. Check them out!

Starting Tuesday I will be back as a weekly guest on the Maria Shaw show on Empower Radio. I'll be on right after the 1:00 pm break. I look forward to being back.

Remember KS? Well he has been around a lot more lately. He makes appearances in my dreams. During the day I can hear his voice - communications telepathically. Only with telepathy, his words are garbled. I'm not sure if it's me or him that's having a hard time. But during my school drive time I've been trying to hone in on him. It appears that he just wants to talk. He has a lot of questions about a multitude of things. One area that sticks out (came from a dream visit) is that he wants to know more about our past lives. Only problem there is that I don't know right now. I know there's a connection - but no clue as to the when and why of it all.

The rest of the guys are all around - have been. But they're just hanging back. Speaking of the guys, I came up with a great vampire story about me, Bill and Ted. But I have to get the horror story done 1st. Finding time to do it is challenging.

BTW - thanks to everyone who posted views/emailed me on the Robin & slaves dreams. Your $.02 helped.

Off to get my son up - then heading off to class!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sawyer, a Robin and Slavery

So what do all three of those have in common? They were all dreams. The 1st two from me, the 3rd from my son.


Any dream with Sawyer in it (AKA Josh - and yes, that's Sawyer from LOST) is a good one. Even if we're fighting like siblings. This time around he and I are arguing about something stupid (the norm really), I hear "How in the hell should I know" coming from him - he has his back to me - and I grab his butt. We're talking a two handed, double squeeze. LOL. He turned around and gave me the dirtiest look and asked: "What the hell was that?" I shrugged my shoulders. He made this next point very clear: "That is off limits". I said "Ok, ok...I won't do it again. It's not like I wanted to sleep with you or anything. I just grabbed your ass." He smiled a bit, "I could scream sexual harassment." My reply with a smile, "Yeah right." Then I woke up.

This next one with the robin was disturbing. I'm on a highway - no idea where. When I pull over to the side of the road. There's no one around for miles. I'm in the middle of this 2 lane road when I look down and I see a robin staring up at me. It was stuck in the road - literally. I could see it's legs from the mid-shin up. Her feet were below the asphalt. I could see it sitting on the hot tar and sinking in - then the tar hardening. Cars and trucks ran over it every day - not thinking twice about a robin stuck in the road.

So I started to chisel away around it's feet. I'm wondering how this bird has stayed alive with no food, water and the sun beating down on her. I'm also curious if a car is going to run us both over as it comes around the curve. So I stop what I'm doing, move my car so that it's parked behind us with it's flashers on - this way people will hopefully go around (as opposed to plowing right into it). As I'm chiseling away at this asphalt - a woman shows up. No idea who she is - but I show her the robin and tell her what's going on. I chisel down all the way so that I can free the bird -- and she has this stickiness (reminded me of sap) on her feet/legs. She tries to spread her wings and falls right over on her side. I go and grab a pillow - me and this woman are going to lift the bird up and place it on the pillow. I'm scared to touch the bird, so this lady said she would. As she was going to move the bird, I was calling the Dept of Wildlife to find out where we should take it. I woke myself up at this point - because the image of the robin struggling to survive was too disturbing.

I have a mama and papa robin who come to my house every year and nest in my big pine tree. I like my robins. I have no idea what that dream meant. In the gypsy world - robin's bring good luck. But this robin was hurt -- and i had to really work to free her. Maybe it means that I have to work hard for luck to shine on me. But if that's the case - haven't I been doing that? I don't know.

Now this last dream about slaves, my son told me about yesterday morning. Before I go into the dream - a touch of background - my son (almost every stinken time I ask him to do something) has yelled at me that he wasn't my slave. He said it out of the blue once - never knew why he said it. When he told me about the dream - I kinda understand.

He said that he was a black child working in a coal mine. He had a Master. His job in the mine was to shovel all of the loose coal that landed on the floor and put them in the little track carts. He said that he didn't get hardly any food or rest. But his Master liked him - so he had a treat of candy every once in awhile. He was a very hard worker. That's really all he said about it - but I found it interesting.

I was on Keen last night - and was so disgusted with the amount of money I lost that I refused to log on tonight.

I'm soooooo tired. Heading off to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Readings, Free Readings And Ask Allie Podcast!

Hi Everyone!

Just wanted to touch base with ya'll:) College is going well, I'm passing my classes. Just wrote my 1st term paper in over 20 years. I have another one to write this weekend. Because these are summer classes, I have reading every night and a test just about every week. But it's all going well.

I know that this has been a big adjustment for everyone (including me) with the frequency of the blog posts and so forth. I'm starting to get a schedule down that works. Thanks for being patient with me. So look for more blog postings.

Speaking of going well, I have been able to still fit doing readings. Which is a good thing since this is how I make a living:) All of the email readings are done on the weekends, with chat & phone readings still done during the week. It's all good:) I know that I need back on Keen. I'm thinking that I can do this after my son goes to bed M-W-F during the week w/ every other weekend being on as well. I'm going to get in the habit of sending an email to my Keen clients about the hours I will be on that day. Also - if any of you want 3 free minutes for Keen - please let me know.

So my son's last day of school was yesterday. He left school crying - he'll miss his friends. He looked all night at a picture his teacher took of the class. Now he says homeschool sucks and he doesn't want to do it next year. Sorry to hear that I told him - but too bad. You're already in for 3rd grade. He's not sure how he feels about it.

If you guys follow me on Twitter I post reading/spell/healing specials there whenever the mood strikes me. It works like the podcast specials do (almost). When I post a special, you have to email me the name & price of the special (which is all on Twitter) and I'll send you a Pay Pal invoice. The special is only good to buy until I post the next special. Like the podcast, you still have 6 months to use the special.

With the podcast, I have a new section called "Ponder This". I give a quote of the week and somewhat discuss it. Then I ask the listeners to send me their thoughts on that quote. Out of the emails received for that particular week/quote, I will pick someone to get a free 15 phone or chat reading.

The Mini Cooper is going this week or at the latest next weekend. I'm downsizing - she has gotten way too expensive for my beer budget.

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I Am Alive....

...or so I think:)

Just a quick note to let you know that I haven't driven off a cliff. I've been really busy with school - real busy. Because of that I had to let go of a few things:

- no more Passion Zone
- no more Wake Up Your Orgasm
- no more Ask Allie column

More things will hit the chopping block, but I'm not sure what exactly. Probably though the OBE newsletter.

College is going well and I like it.

Off to do supper, read and get to class.

Oh- and my son is all signed up for homeschool come fall.

Hopefully I'll have time to post some other things that have been going on.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Passion Zone, My Dog And The Cosmic Convention

What a week thus far....I'm so dang busy I'm surprised I remember who I am:) Of course - I'd rather be busy than be bored to tears.

My birthday was great -- had a fabo time. Thanks for those of you who have sent me links/articles to "Today is your Birthday":) Everything that was sent to me came from different sources - which was cool - no duplicate.

Brodie has been having some major nose bleeds. He's been worrying me. I'm thinking that it has something to do with the steroids he's on for his breathing. So I took him off the meds for now - and so far no nose bleeds. But now I have to (and the pet sitter too starting tomorrow) have to keep an eye on his breathing. If you could send some white light his way I'd appreciate.

Catch me here in about an hour for The Passion Zone on Empower Radio from 11 pm - 1 am. Call in 231-348-1963 or you can IM me at the Empower Radio chat at the bottom of the home page. Also - stop by The Passion Zone online and sign up to be a part of the social network. Being a part of PZ allows you to be a part of the forum chats - we've got a few discussions going on - from first kisses, sex toys and more.

I have a poop load of email in my inbox. I'm trying to get back to everyone - but it's a long haul.

Tomorrow morning I'm out of here -- heading to Lansing MI for Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention from May 8th - 10th at the Hampton Inn on Canal Rd in Lansing MI. I'll be there all 3 days doing readings - stop by and let's chat. The conventions are the only places where I do in person readings - so don't be shy!

My talk is on Friday evening from 4: 30 - 6 pm:

Your Chakras, Your Sex Life: How to attune your chakras so that you can have a vibrant and active life, translating that also in positive sexual energy. Sexual energy is one of the strongest vibrations we have. Learn how to harness, balance and work with your sixth chakra (sacral, sex) to improve many areas of your life, including lovemaking!

Have a wonderful weekend -- I'm taking my laptop with me, so if anything fabo happens while I'm gone, I'll be able to fill you in.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

My Birthday, The Passion Zone And A Dream!

What a weekend! Had a blast. It all started off on Friday when my son and I went to his school's carnival. Each class had to put together a themed basket to be raffled off. His class did reading. It was a really nice basket full of tons of good books. Guess what? My son won that basket. He (and his teacher) were so dang tickled:) He's never won anything before - so this was double great.

Saturday I went out with my mom during the day - went to on local restaurant for lunch - did some shopping (books - I'm a bookaholic) and then to another local restaurant for dessert, This dessert was sooooooo good. It was a dark chocolate cream custard thing (yeah, no clue on the name) that hit the spot. Then later that night my friend Sheri and I went shopping (yes, more books. Seriously, can you ever have enough?) then out for Mexican and margaritas! Back to Sheri's for movies and some more margaritas. Let's see we watched: Saw (I liked this one), Yes Man, Slumdog Millionaire and Appaloosa. It was a nice relaxing weekend.

Of course just a few seconds ago I realized that my car registration had expired - as it does on every birthday. But I still forgot. I didn't get to read any "If Today Is Your Birthday" horoscopes. I couldn't find any online. Maybe I wasn't looking in the right spot. But Maria Shaw said what you are doing on your solar return will set the theme for the following year (till the next birthday). This must be a good year then since I had a good birthday.

College classes start in 2 weeks. I signed up for World Civ - Middle East and the Psychology of Women for Summer 1. Summer 2 - no idea yet, but I'm thinking Sign Language 1 and Humanities in the Western Tra. I'm almost done with my gen ed (AKA piss ant requirements) - thankfully.

While I was spending the night at Sheri's house - I had a dream where I was running away from some bad guys. I'm in this house and I sneak out the back through a greenhouse to the back yard. When I get in the back - some search lights pop on and I see guns drawn on me - I stop. For some reason this didn't bother me - I think the guys with guns were there to help me. Any ways - when the lights popped on - who comes running towards me but my cat Darin. He does that -- if I'm not at home spending the night, he seeks me out in my dreams. I'm sure when I'm in Lansing this weekend he'll come see me again.

Which brings me to Maria Shaw's Cosmic Convention at the Hampton Inn off of Canal Rd in Lansing MI. I'll be there Friday - Sunday doing readings. On Friday the 8th from 4:30 - 6 I will be talking about:

"Your Chakras, Your Sex Life": How to attune your chakras so that you can have a vibrant and active life, translating that also in positive sexual energy. Sexual energy is one of the strongest vibrations we have. Learn how to harness, balance and work with your sixth chakra (sacral, sex) to improve many areas of your life, including lovemaking!

Please stop by the talk --- I'd really love it if I had a full house. I look forward to seeing everyone there -- I've met a great bunch of people in MI and I love going back to do these shows.

I want to thank all of you who stopped by The Passion Zone on Wednesday night on Empoweradio.com. Had fun. We skated over a few bumps in the 1st 15 min - but then it seems everything else flowed. My producer Jason - I have to think of a nickname for the guy. Don't forget to stop by this Wednesday - same time, same place. We'll be chatting about sex candy, dream sex and sexual positions. I'd appreciate if you told 10 of your friends about the show. Also if you know of anyone who'd be a good guest for the show, let me know - give me the link to their site. I'm looking for people who will talk about sex and/or relationships.

Watching SAW over the weekend gave me some good ideas about my horror script. I loved the ending - not something you would expect - which is what I loved - I liked to be surprised. It doesn't happen very often.

Last night Bill and Will were both dream visiting with me. I don't remember much - but with Will I had to act like I'd never met him before. Then I had to act like I didn't give a crap who he was. This was something that Will wanted. Bill asked me why - I said I didn't know. Bill mumbled a few words under his breath and walked away. He asked me to go with him - but I said I had to figure out what's wrong with Will. This ticked Bill off. I didn't mean to have him stomp off - but I couldn't just leave Will without trying to figure out why he was being so distant. I never did figure it out - I woke up. I had no problem ignoring Will, but it bothered me that I HAD to.

My son and I finally finished the last of The Dead Zone TV series. He was very upset that there is no more Johnny Smith. So he's acting out a new episode in his room -- I can hear him -- he's cute:) The way they left the Dead Zone - they could make a feature film and wrap things up.

I'd better get going -- I have some pre-planning to do for Wednesday's show.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Just A Quick Note...

..To let you know:

1) I'm alive:)

2) The Passion Zone last Wed went well. Tune in this Wed from 11 pm - 1 am on Empoweradio.com

3) I can't beleive I'm 42 today!

This past week was fricken crazy! My emails -- if you sent me one it is lost in inbox hell - sorry.

Off to go have fun!

Talk to you soon....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Listen To The Passion Zone on Empower Radio!

It's FRIDAY!! Whoo hoo! Now I can tell you my big news:)

Starting next Wednesday from 11:00 pm - 1:00 I am the host of "The Passion Zone" on Empower Radio! A honest to goodness call-in radio show! It's 2 hours full of sex & relationship advice with guests, topics and free readings!

How sweet is that???

The Passion Zone will be a part of the new station: Empower Radio (site will be up on 4/27), where there is a great line up of hosts with shows ranging from dreams to prosperity to keeping it real! There's something for everyone.

During the day noon - 3 Maria Shaw will be on. As soon as I have the final line up I will post it.

I have my own site to compliment my show, it's at http://www.thepassionzone.com/ . The site is not all the way done yet, but right now it'll work:) Stop by, look around and join the PZ social network.

I am so so excited! Please tune in on Wed - and call in! Since it is the 1st show, not sure how many people will be tuning in -- and I've got 2 hrs to fill:) If you do not have a sex or relationship question -- fine -- call in and throw out a topic in either of the two areas.

For those of you who have been following me for awhile - I think we all knew somehow, someway I was going to have my own show on sex & relationships. I must admit though -- I am kind of nervous!

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Magic Box, Writing And Twitter!

I'd like to thank everyone who emailed me about the web design help. I've got it covered now. I appreciate your willingness to help out.

In regards to the Magic Box - I'm not sure how much more there is to say over and beyond what I talked about in the podcast. But in case you didn't listen to it....

The Magic Box deals with The Law of Attraction, your desires, faith and emotions. It's endless on what the box can bring you. The only limit is put by yourself or others around you. This is why it is important to keep what you are manifesting to yourself.

You can have as many different things in the box at the same time.

To make/use your own Magic Box:

1) Get a box with a lid.

2) Write your name on the outside of the box.

3) Write on a piece of paper what it is you desire in your life. Be as specific as you can. You can also clip items from a magazine, newspaper or catalog of what it is you desire. If you're desiring a certain person in your life, be as specific as you can on this also - list as many traits as you can.

4) Next loo at your item you are desiring and start feeling as if the item, person or object is already in your life Put out as many thoughts in a row of what it feels like having this in your life. You should do this from between 30 seconds to 5 minutes without interruption. The more you can focus the more the universe will start matching up like things to your thoughts and start the creation process.

5) Place the above item into your Magic Box and say with great emotion and faith - "Whatever is contained in this box is".

6) Each day or whenever possible open your box and repeat steps 2 & 3. You can also do this when you are not near the box by simply tapping into your imagination.

PS: Be aware that the universe may not deliver the item you are looking for exactly the way you wanted it or when. It is p to you to realize when it does manifest though and be grateful for everything. This helps keep your emotional level up and helps in the creation process.

Thanks to Susan and Jack from A1 Aura Photo (http://www.a1aura.com/) for the information on the Magic Box!

I started to use my magic box this week - I'm optimistic!

Many of you have sent me emails - I am so far behind that it is not even close to being a laughing matter. It doesn't look to get any better either. So breathe deep:)

I can't believe I'll be 42 in just over a week. Where does the time go?

I'm also surprised how many people are following me via Twitter: http://twitter.com/gypsyadvice
I'm such a geek that I keep forgetting I have the darn thing!

Will and Vincent have continued to be in my energy this week. Michael is also around, but has stepped back. No idea what has happened to Bill & Ted.

Working on the horror flick is proving to be a challenge. I can't get the opening the way I want it - and if I can't see in my mind how it starts & how it ends before I write - then I'm in trouble. What is the scariest opening (like the 1st 5 min) in a horror flick that you've seen? SCREAM? NIGHTMARE ON ELM STREET? And why did you think it was scary?

Now that I'm thinking about scary stuff I'm going to head to bed. Just great!

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

My Mouth, No News Yet And Manifestation!

My mouth is killing me. Seriously. My mouth feels like it's inhabited by a canker sore convention on a wild ride. The stupid thing here is that the granddaddy of them all (it's huge) on my upper left gum, I didn't realize I had until the other day. How can you not know that this huge ouch is on your gum? I don't know how stuff like this happens. But I am determined to make them all go away. A truck load of Vit C, focused healing energy and salt. Oh yeah, I put the salt right in there. Hurts like hell - but it always works.

Besides -- it has to go away so I can tell you my big news on Friday. Yes you have to wait to Friday. And it's not: a new man, meeting a soul cluster member or selling a script.

On the way home from MI over the weekend, had a scary trip. I have a hard time seeing at night - and if it rains, forget it. Well last night it was dark (obviously), raining hard and my brakes were failing. I had enough brake left to get to MI and I thought home as well. On the turnpike I had warning lights going off all over the place. I was so thankful I didn't have my son with me. I called in every angel, spirit guide and deceased relative I had. I made it back - no accidents. Needless to say, I was very thankful. The brakes are getting fixed on Thursday.

My friends that I was with in MI are determined that I have a love life. They didn't mince any words (nor would I ever expect them too). So that's what I'm going to try to do. I told Michelle that there was a neighbor that I was interested in -- now I have a deadline of Friday to ask him out for coffee. You know the neighbor I'm talking about - Mike. What else was said? Oh - that OBE had to be put on the back burner. It's my safety net and because of it - I've put relationships on the back burner. Plus I have to lower the thick, tall walls I've put around me. I can't promise anything - but I'm going to try. I'll use my magic box from Jack & Susan to help out.

Speaking of which (the magic box) I need to manifest a web designer who can do an easy project (at least I think) for me in exchange for free advertising. I'm putting the intention out there. If you're interested, email me.

I'm in an ABBA mood today. Not exactly sure what spurred this on.

BT is on hold for now. I'm just not inspired right now. Even if I did get the script where it needs to be - no one will touch it until I have made a name for myself. In order to do that I have to write a flick that is commercial and cheap to make - AKA a horror film. So I'm back to Bloody Mary. The outline is going well. I'm only working on this script during the day - it freaks me out to much.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy Birthday Ted!

Today Ted is 50 - Happy Birthday to him! This week has been a crazy week - just like last week and the week before that. I'm exhausted. So much so that I forgot to say Happy Birthday to Michael on the 14th - he turned 41. I didn't forget it was his b-day - I just forgot to say it.

I'll be out of town Sat & Sun - I have so much to do that I really need to stay home - but I really don't have a choice. So......I'll suck it up and go. Eventually I'll be able to tell you guys what I'm up to. I thought I could by now -- but alas - just like most things right now it hasn't gone as I planned.

I think what I'm going to stop doing is planning. Cause if you really think about it - it's not up to me. The day to day stuff is - but the overall plan isn't. I wonder if I'll finally be on one to one talking to Bill or Ted by the time I turn 50? I was thinking the other day - it's been 7 years since I discovered Bill, 6 for Ted, I think 3 for Will and 1 for Vincent. Or maybe it's 4 for Will and 2 for Vincent?

Lately my attention jumps back and forth between Vincent and Bill. For some reason Bill's energy is always laughing - as in happy laughter and Vincent stands there with that grin on his face. He doesn't say anything - do anything - he just grins. Michael just hangs around.

I haven't gotten anywhere with BT or OBE all week. It's been very disheartening. The bug field trip with my son's class went well. I was the ONLY parent there out of the whole 2nd grade. I couldn't believe it. My son and I were doing well until we got to the bug-eating part. Couldn't do it. There were live bugs, fried bugs and chocolate covered bugs. Just no way.

I am so tired -- heading to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Quick Post!

Well, let's see - what did I get done today? My college essays, Gypsy Magic, Gypsy News and some changes on DREAMERS. No BT or OBE. In fact - after BT I have to jump in an write my horror script. I already have people who are interested in reading it:)

Tomorrow I'm getting a new head shot taken - Wed it's off to OARDC (Ohio State's Agriculture Division) here in Wooster to be a chaperon to my son's class. We get to spend the day looking at bugs:) This weekend I'll be in MI again visiting some friends.

Dreams are still ((*&^% insane. I wish they would either reveal or cease.

Easter was good. Went to PA to my uncle's house. At some great food and had wayyyyy too much chocolate!

You have to watch this video - if for nothing more than to see Simon stunned. I must admit - I did get tears in my eyes.....this woman rocks.

Susan Boyle Sings on Britain's Got Talent 2009 Episode 1 @ Yahoo! Video

Time for me to head to bed -- early!

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie :)

A Little Of This And That

Can you do less than nothing? I'm thinking you can. That was my Thursday. I tried to work. But my son sucked my brain power. It was unreal. Every step forward got me 10 steps back. For every brain cell used, I lost 20.

I'm thinking that if I drink enough wine tonight - I might get some brain power back - lol.

Needless to say, I didn't get anywhere with BT and OBE. I have gotten some work on BT done today - working on a couple of early scenes. No OBE work. This weekend I have to write my scholarship essays - and go to PA for Easter.

I have decided that relationship wise - I want a man like Agent Pierce on 24. Seriously - I do. The character is loyal, honest, trustworthy, a good friend, steadfast in his beliefs, can defend you against bad guys and would take a bullet for you. I probably have watched too many seasons of 24. I can't help myself - the dang show is like a drug. Male friend wise - someone like Walter on Fringe. Brilliant and completely whacked out. Never a boring moment with that guy.

Somehow I have managed to get canker sores (still) in my throat. I'm sure it's because of stress. I can't blame it all on the kid....I have piles of things that I have to get done and there never seems to be enough time. It does make it hard to talk at all. I've been avoiding the phone all together.

Dreams are back to being very busy and chaotic. I toss and turn all night. It's crazy. My dreams seems short (maybe 35 min), I wake up, turn over and fall back to sleep again. Even Darin has given up laying next to me (although I'm sure this is temporary. The cat's obsessed with me).

Time for me to try to get some shut eye. Talk with you all later!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Citrine Wealth Tree And I'm Tired

The Citrine Wealth Tree that I talked about in the latest podcast (and in the Numerscope) has had over 1200 downloads already. An average for the podcast is 400 downloads and that's after it's been up for a week. This one has only been posted for 2 days! The last one that took off like wildfire was the past life regression about Vincent. What else did well? Oh - Life Lemonade. Anyways - I find it interesting.

Did some work on BT. I can't do a lot of work on it at a time because of how low it brings me. Not the story itself - but the research that I do. Well - the story does bring me down to a point because bad things happen to good people.

I did do some work on OBE - but not the book. More like editing past audio with me chatting about OBE. I'll never make a career out of editing audio - that's for sure. I'm trying to make a demo MP3. I'd like to speak at conferences about OBE sex.

Will write more when I have a chance -- this week has been so busy that's it's passing by in a blur.

Happy Passover!

Happy International Day of the Romany!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gosh Darn Not A Thing!

Seriously - I got nowhere with everything today. An amazing day where I was sidetracked with everything I attempted. I finally said &^%^%$ it and played the X-Box with my son.

So BT = 0

OBE = 0

Tomorrow's a new day. Hopefully after I spend the morning and early afternoon at Akron U - I'll be able to come back and get some things accomplished. Tomorrow I officially switch my major from Bus Admin to Psychology. I've already taken enough biz classes to have a minor in Bus Management.

Maybe tomorrow there won't be any snow falling either. One should hope.

Time to head to bed. I have canker sores in my throat - that sucks. It's from the not sleeping. Maybe -- just maybe whatever is supposed to shift for me happened today so that I can sleep again. Here's to hope....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Is It Keith or Kevin?

I hope I can remember most of my dream visit last night. I was with two other people in a car - a guy, girl and myself. We parked outside of a two story office building. The guy got out and mentioned that the empty store/office in front of us had bullet proof glass. I called him either Keith or Kevin - and said that he should rent the place and be a private investigator. Even though it was never said - I knew he was an ex police officer. He saw the woman who owned the building and went after her. I turned to the other girl in the car and mention that she could turn this into a sandwich shop. She mentioned something about what a sandwich shop is called in Brazil. I wish I could remember what she called it - I know it started with a "C". The shop we were at was a place where Kevin/Keith's friend had a business that went belly up.

Next thing I know - we're in a park. I find out that Kevin/Keith is Polish. He wanted to take me to a lake that is on church property. The lake was called Fast Lake. Keith/Kevin was about 6'2" broad shoulder - strong arms. His hair was short, blondish and in tight natural curls. He had on a yellow t-shirt and blue jeans. We got a long like we've known each other forever. I told him that he was not like anyone else I had ever met. He smiled and said - neither are you. There's a connection with his family and Birkenau. I don't know what - but there was something. There was also a mention about he and I meeting once I finished with BT. Not a clue on this dream - but I did wake up in a good mood.

Right before that dream, myself and a guy (have no idea who) were having a tour through this very elaborate house. A pool room was enormous - it was stupid big with a waterfall and all - which took us to the changing room - complete with private hot tub and sauna. Through the back changing room door was entrance to a private court yard. The previous owners lost all of their money and the house was foreclosed upon. It had something like 14 bedrooms, 25 bathrooms - 3 kitchens -- it was just HUGE! I have no idea why I was being shown around a massive place like that. Far too big for me!

My mom's cat Ben died today. He was a great cat - a mancoon. Ben was a stray that my mom came upon who had just been hit by a car and left for dead. That was 7 years ago. He lived to be 12. He cheated death many times - just like my Indy.

Working on a scene for BT. It's coming along well. Structured some OBE stuff. Nothing major - but I did do something with it:)

I did remember to post the podcast to iTunes today:)

I cannot believe that we're supposed to get 3 inches of snow tonight. I thought spring had sprung?

As I said today on the podcast - my heart goes out to those in Italy who were affected by today's earthquake. Tons of energy sent their way!

Off to make supper!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Another Day.....

....more stuff done. More work on BT. Did more research - which for me is very important. I have to be able to map out the Gypsy Family Camp (BIIe) and the surrounding area. It's amazing how many sectors were part of Birkenau (Auschwitz II). As part of my research, I watched the film called "The Grey Zone" - about Dr. Miklos Nyiszli, the Sonderkomandos (worked the crematoriums) and the revolt on Oct 7 1944. Not a bad movie - I cried though like I do with all Holocaust films.

I also rearranged a few scenes and am getting it where I can just write.

Technically no OBE work - although I did do some sex coaching.

In the aftermath of last week - I realized today that I never posted last Monday's "Ask Allie" to iTunes. Duh! So I did it today.

We're supposed to get a snow storm this week - there's something really wrong about that.

Also in all the hustle and bustle in March - I forgot to acknowledge the anniversary of "Allie's Two Cents" - this blog has been online since March 2005:) It's nice to know that after all this time people still find it helpful as they journey on their spiritual quest. I started the blog to talk about Bill, Ted and our soul connection. Pretty cool how it grew from that.

On another note - I did some much-needed cleaning today along with a butt load of laundry. Tomorrow I take my son to see the sensory therapist here in Wooster. Still having to listen to
"What About Now". I hope I get the message soon. The message from "Under The Tuscan Sun" was Italy. I figured that out by picking something for my son and I to watch - and it was "Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade". I was 1/2 way through it - and it dawned on my, Italy. I haven't had the urge to watch either movie since. Now why Italy? That I have no clue - yet.

One nice thing about me having to check in is that I write here daily:) Now if I could only write once a week in the OBE blog!

BTW -- love hearing what people are doing or not doing on their "To-Do" list.

Off to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

In Keeping With The Program...

....I worked on BT today. Did a lot of research instead of writing - but had the breakthrough I needed. It could have been the wine, The Dead Zone or Queen Elizabeth The Golden Age - but something clicked just as I was about to jump into the shower. I'm not bitching...

Woke this morning with my energy the way it's supposed to be. I feel asleep telling myself to have that talk with Michael as we slept. Looks like it worked. He has been around - the forever "watcher" but at the same time Vincent is here guarding:) I'm glad big, sexy and Italian came back. I hope he stays. Whatever was going on - he must have had a breakthrough as well because Andrew is back.

I'm tired....off to let the dog out and then to bed I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: although technically I didn't work on OBE today - I did read more about fetishes and sex coaching while my son ran around like a loon at Little League this morning.

Is It Over Yet?

This day -- I just want it to be over. Holy crap I'm tired. Flat out exhausted. I canceled everything I had scheduled today - except for my errands. Whatever is going on with my energy - it had better hurry up and work itself out. I've been here before - with the major mood swings - acting like I'm bi-polar or even a manic depressive. <-----This is not me, not at all. So it's coming from someone else. That hole in my soul - right smack dab in my heart chakra - still there.

I woke up with it and thought -- oh crap, what's going on? Then I opened my eyes -- for a spilt second I saw Michael hovering over me - like Ted used to. I blinked and he was gone. But Michael has been with me all day - watching.

On the way home from talking my son to school - I felt really light-headed, my solar plexus was on fire and my stomach was so upset. I knew someone was connecting to me - it was my Michael. I asked him what he wanted. He said he didn't know. He doesn't know why he's here - he can't see past the line. That's what he kept saying - help him see past the line. But I don't know what that means - unless the line is a barrier that doesn't allow him to see more than what he needs to.

In the visions I had today - they were with Bill or Ted - but in the background there he was, Michael - watching. Just watching. Not in a creepy way though - but like he's trying to figure things out. Since I still have that sinking feeling as I'm about to go to bed - I told myself I will not wake up this way tomorrow. Michael's going to get a visit this evening and something will be worked out.

On top of it all - my guides (Ethan in particular) keeps throwing his song at me -- I can't tell you how many times I've listened to it today -- and the funny thing is I had no idea this song existed until I stumbled upon it.

What About Now - Daughtry

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


Now - have no idea why I have to listen to this song. I think the song is connected with Michael - but why? We have never met in this life - so of course there's no love affair to pine over. Crap like this just drives me nuts. I'd really like a straight answer. No more signs - just a straight answer please.

Plus no more downloading to my subconsious. Sheesh. A girl has to get a good night sleep. If I'm not getting laid then I want to be out cold to the world. It's just that simple.

Needless to say - I did not get anything done today on BT or OBE. Although I DID toss ideas around for BT. So I guess that's something.

I should have known better with my emotional roller coaster that I should have not watched the last eposide of ER. Bad - bad move.

I'm up early in the morning for Little Leguge. The tomorrow afternoon it's me - wine and BT.

Oh - one more thing - if you call my office phone and you don't come up on the caller id - I'm not answering. "Unknown Number" will not work.

Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Sometimes I Wonder....

...what the (*&^^&* is wrong with me. SIGH. I worked on BT a good part of the day. More research - I found a survors network that may give me some insight to the Gypsy Family Camp at Birkenau. But as you know, working on BT stirs up a whole lot of emotions within me. Siince my son will be with his dad this weekend - I already went and bought some wine to drink as I'm working on BT.

Not a lot of work on OBE - but I did manage to get myself booked on a couple of radio shows in April & May. So that's cool.

Now as I'm working today - I keep having these visions of Bill and Ted. They are in an outdoor cafe with some friends. They're all talking when I walk up and say "excuse me". Without even looking at me - Bill blows up. In my hand I have Bill's rock. I place it on the table and mumble to myself "I can't do this anymore". Tears fall down my face. I look over at Ted and say, "I'm sorry - I am so-so sorry." I turn to leave and Ted grabs my wrist.

I look at him and say "Telling you won't do any good - you have to know. Seeking out the answers can't stem from your brain as curiosty - rather it has to come from here (I touch the middle of his chest), your soul. The stiring must come from your soul."

I stare at Bill - get close to his face - "I wish you'd pull your head out of your ass. I refuse to do this life over again." I yank my arm from Ted - and walk off.

Now to top this off - once I had that vision - I had to go watch the scene in a movie that reminds me so much of Ted and a past life we had together. What did that make me do - yep cry. So I'm crying today because of BT - which led to the visions and then me crying because of Bill - and that led me to the scene, Ted, and more crying. No wonder I'm tired.

And boy am I tired. Another night without any restful sleep. Whatever my subconsious has to learn - I wish it would hurry up.

Off to get my shower - and I hope - get rid of this sinking feeling I have in my soul.

Talk to you later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Accountable, A WTF Dream And Keen!

If you still haven't written me the letter explaining why you've used metaphysical/spiritual advice and why you need that genre of advice - you still have time. It doesn't even have to be advice - it can also be alternative healing, color therapy or Feng Shui. I need them by April 5th -- please!

Keen is going well - I've been on Mon - Fri. A minor miracle:) I find I do well being on 10 am - noon. And then depending what's going on 1 - 2:30. I'm trying to condition myself to do the sex advice at Ingenio (http://www.ingenio.com/Allie%20T) from 10 pm - midnight.

For whatever reason - my guides keep having me watch "Under The Tuscan Sun". I can't get what the message is. I'm thinking it's that my life is going to transform like the lead character Francine's did. Although I wasn't nearly as devastated with my divorce as she was hers. It could be a new start, maybe a trip to Italy (I wish), could be meeting an Italian man (boy do I really wish) - or even standing at a crossroads. I'm sure after the 10th time I watch it something should kick in:) At least I hope so.

If you sent me an email - I know it's here. No need to remind me.

My dreams have been really wild the last several nights. The dream that really stands out is the one from Sat night. I can remember being in a room with a bunch of people - we were discussing my life and lack of love life. I come across 3 guys - all of who I know , 2 I can't remember who they were - but the 3rd was Sawyer. He's pissed at me - he's holding his baby in his arms (in real life Josh and his wife either just had a baby or they are about to) I ask him what's the matter and he says, 'Visions - you have visions? You never told me that.' Before I could say WTF - the guy laying down on the beige couch said 'And she writes in the blog!' The 3rd guy shouts out 'For everyone to read!' I walked away perplexed at why it would shock them now. They all knew about everything. So then I started thinking that I should password protect the blog and only give the password out to people who ask. This way I'll know who is reading the posts. But another thought popped in and said - but Bill, Will and Vincent won't be able to read it then - they'll never ask for the password.

SIGH - I woke up.

I'm having a difficult time coaching myself. I have a huge list of things that I have to do and I can't get anything done because the list is too big. I'm trying to prioritize - but for me it's difficult to do if everything that is on my list should have been done already. Maybe I should go with what is nagging at me the most - besides the scholarship applications I have to finish. That would be Black Triangle and the OBE book. BT has to be rewritten by May 1st so that I can enter it in 2 important contests. OBE book is a huge part of the path I am to take - so it is vital that I get it done. Or at least done enough to send off to a publisher as a book proposal. Time is of the essence with both because as soon as college starts on May 18th - any extra time will be spent studying. So how in the world do I whip my own ass into shape? I know that I do well when I have deadlines and I have to be held accountable to someone. So here's a thought....why don't I just report to you guys? Every day I have to post that I did something...even if it's more research for BT or outlining chapt 1 for OBE.

That would make me accountable. Anyone else out there want to do something that they are having a hard time doing because they are not accountable? Why not post here with me. Leave a comment every day after my posts to what you have done. So what do you think? This will go from April 1st - May 1st and no - the April 1st start is not an April Fool's joke. I like this idea. How can I help people if I don't practice what I coach?

After May 1st - we'll see where I'm at and what needs tackled next.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)