Dirk, Dreams And The CIA!

I'm trying to get some readings done this late morning, do the podcast and THEN write in this blog. But the powers that be keep bugging me to write about Dirk. Okay, I hear you - who's this one? Dirk is someone I met when I was 13 and it was (until my son was born) the #1 best moment of my life. Now Dirk shares spot #2 with Will. I've tried to move Dirk to #3, but it doesn't feel right to do. So there he stays - until Will calls, then maybe he'll move to #3:)

So Dirk is handsome - wonderful blue eyes, nice smile, very charming. Nothing ever romantic here - but I have always thought he was pretty darn hot. Age wise, he's now in his 60's - but again, he's still hot. Periodically over the last 28 years I've thought about him - nothing too intensive and usually not more than maybe a day at a time. But Sat., something happened that triggered my memory of him, and he's been right there ever since. Yesterday I realized two things about Dirk: 1) he influenced the way on why I do not eat out very often, once calling restaurants (especially fast food) as drive-thru cancer centers and 2) influenced my two trips to Montana (he lives there) and although I was with my ex - two of the next vacations I have ever had. I LOVE MT - even more than NYC or Calif.

Okay - why now - why is he "right there"? I don't get it. I keep getting flash visions of he and Will sitting there chatting and me being very nervous, yet flirting with both. I don't know why he's here - but Ethan said it was important for me to mention him in the blog, Iris is here too agreeing with him and saying for me to breathe deep. Why? Is something going to come out of left field? Quite possibility. Another vision I keep seeing is Dirk and I with papers around us discussing creative ideas.

I so wish visions came with a guide book -- not just the guide:) And I don't know how Dirk fits in with the whole soul cluster, soul group thing. He fits in some way - I just do not know how. Wow - what a sizzling energy I had zap through me (the kind that makes your skull tingle). If I find out anything else, I'll let you know. And Dirk, when you stop by this blog (and someday you will), let me know what you get of our connection.

Before you ask - Dirk is his real name. I was told to use it and that it would be okay to do so.

Dreams last night. One was me standing in line at the bank, trying to make a deposit - but there was only one teller working. Another one was messing around. She finally came over and another guy with 2 small kids cut in front of me. I looked over at him and said "excuse me" - he took a step back. I handed the woman the check and the deposit slip. She looked at it and said she'd be right back. The Bank Manager (a woman) came over and told me that this was a rather large check and would I met her at her desk. Okay -- I go over. We sit down and she proceeds to tell me that this is too much money to place in one account. That it would be good to put some in a savings, IRA, etc....I assured her I'd think about it after I deposited the check and paid off things. With what's left -I will spend some on fun stuff and put the rest away. I assured her that this was not my last big check so I wasn't worried about running out of money.

In this next dream, I was in a research facility. I had to go into someone's dream to help them out of a coma. But first I had to pass the "Dream Keeper" - a very scary looking dude in orange & black armor - you had to pass him in order to get into the Dreamscape. He was like a dream gatekeeper. He knew my energy signature, so they did not want to send me in 1st, Someone else had to go in and distract the DK. I keep getting this was in CIA. Anyways -- a woman put on a special dream helmet and laid down. She went to sleep and on a flat screen TV, it showed us what she was dreaming about. We could hear what was said, what she did -- and with the DK coming towards her (with a very loud and deep voice) I had to turn off the TV, as I was concentrating too much on DK - to do so would alert him that I was around. I didn't need a helmet to enter into this dream world - I sat back in a recliner - Will came over and told me to remember not to think about DK at all, or he will be drawn to me. I tell him - okay - he tells me to be careful -- and I go into the dream.

I am in a very dark area. I don't nee a flashlight as I can see quite well in little light. There are rocks, and smoke everywhere - the land is barren. I'm using all of my brain power on concentrating on this person I have to find. I can see a white light glowing up head to my left. I can hear crying - but I ignore it - moving straight towards the light something catches my eye over to the right. I look and it's Bill. I ask him what's he doing here? He replied that he thought I might need the help. As soon as he said that - it alerted DK and it showed up behind him - I screamed at Bill to wake up NOW. I woke myself up.

As I was lying there in my bed - heart pounding a million miles an hour...I wondered if Bill was lying in his bed doing the same? And would he remember what just happened? That was really interesting -- although DK scared the crap out of me.

Off to the store -- the kid is driving me crazy.

Okay - it is now dinner time and I'm finishing this up for now. I had to get caught up on my readings. My podcast - I hope - will be later tonight. The dinosaur show up in Cleveland was a lot of fun on Saturday and his party on Sunday was a blast. Tomorrow it's his actual birthday so I'm taking him to see WALL-E. We seem to see a Pixar flick every birthday. Then on Friday the family gathering with fireworks that evening.

I did see orange kitty today - I was relieved. His paw/leg still isn't healed - but it does seem to look better. Mr. Client Guy called today too - didn't have a lot of time to talk with the kid's phone radar, but at least we chatted - so that was good.

As of today the kid and I have been on our own for a year! Yay! I always knew I could do it - but knowing and then doing are two separate things. I give great thanks that the Universe has always had my back - and will continue to do so! It hasn't been easy - but I am very grateful for the experience. Besides - I'm much better off today (mentally, emotionally and spiritually) than I was a year ago.

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Odd, Ends And Me Bitching!

I hope my brain doesn't fall out over the next two weeks. Seriously - I hope not. The kid is home with me for the next two weeks and if they go like this last week did - I'm in trouble. He's really pushing those boundaries and that mouth --- talk about having to count backwards from 100 so I wouldn't kill him. And he's grounded - from everything that he loves (that usually keeps him out of my hair as I work) - which in turn is punishing me. But - I can't give in -- and I won't.

Phase one with Nickelodeon is complete - and the project passed. Now we have to go to phase two and pass through a test in person (not me in person but my Rep's) - and this will not happen until everyone is back from their vacations. We're looking at the week of the 14th. Fingers crossed for that:) I've done my own tarot reading on it and it looks really good. Hopefully I didn't put too much of "me" into the reading and skewed the results.

I feel like I'm in a big void of nothing. I have all of this stuff that I need to do - but no excitement to do it. All of the waiting I've had to do for a variety of things has zapped my "want to do something" mood. I need something to shake loose somewhere. Whether it's my non-existent love life (yes folks, I do believe I have scared off another person and this one already knew all about me), stalled career or beyond hilarious - getting me very stressed out - money situation - something has to move forward. I know something will have to move because change is inevitable - but come on already. Frustration doesn't do well for my complexion.

Yes, I do believe another man has gone running in the opposite direction. SIGH. And no, I have no idea what happened. One second everything was fine - the next nothing. I guess that I'm just not supposed to be with anyone for now. Maybe someone WILLed Mr. Client Guy away? I have no idea. But it doesn't set well with what self-esteem I do have left. I just can't wrap my head around my good for nothing ex having a happy love life - when I can't seem to get a guy interested for more than 2 weeks. UGH!!!

Okay - enough of me whining -- moving on...

The kid and I are heading up to Cleveland soon with my mom to see a dinosaur show up at the "Q" (which is where are Cavalier's play) in a couple of hours. Should be a nice outing. Hopefully the weather won't be too disagreeable and make driving a big hassle. Tomorrow is my son's kid party - should be fun.

Will's been around more than usual the last couple of days. It's been nice to see his face in my mind's again. The two scenarios that keep flashing through my mind are he, my son and I walking into a building where there is a doorman and he knows my kid and I as we live there -- he also knows that Will is a frequent guest. The other scene I see is Will, the kid and I in a small Italian restaurant sharing a pizza -- we're laughing about something. Both scenes are uplifting and positive. I rarely ever have a bad scene with Will in it. Even the fight visions I get aren't that bad because the make up sex is well worth the fighting:)

Speaking of sex - with Tracey's healing on Will the sexual energy clog that he's had is certainly cleared up. His energy has let me know that he's feeling much better.

Either Bill or Will has been doing a lot of blog checking lately. Not sure which one as both of their energies are strong right now. Could be both - don't know.

An odd last dream last night/this morning --- I was in my house, and my cats were chasing something. It looked like a small dragon - but I thought it was a frog - it had red spots. My cat Cera really kept bothering it. I finally got all of my cats into my bedroom and shut the door so that I could find this little creature and put it outside before it was eaten. I find it -- and what is it - but a tiny cat. Like it got put into a shrinking ray or something. It's a long-haired white cat with reddish & black spots. It looks at me and just lets out the biggest meow! I picked it up and it sits in the palm of my hand, just being as vocal as can be. Now I'm thinking - what in the heck am I going to do with this cat so that my other cats don't kill it? I put it in a an open dresser drawer and think about getting a very large bird cage to put it in. I call my mom to ask what I should do and I wake up.

I just went outside to let my dogs do their business when that butterfly who tried to run into me before - tried it again. It sees me and it's like I'm a magnet. Very strange. I saw orange kitty a few days ago - his front left leg was looking really bad -- and he hasn't been back since.

Off to go get some writing done and then heading up to Cleveland!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychiconair.com, Atlantis, Crystal Skulls And The Guys!

My weekly segment on the Maria Shaw show on CBS Psychiconair.com & AOL, went great! I was on right about 10:00 am EDT and stayed there till about 10:15-10:20. Good times!

I can feel it -- change is in the air. And it's strange - because when I can sense there is a change, I get a metallic taste in my mouth. I think my son can sense it too because he's been all over the board with his emotions and we're both getting headaches. Neither one of us has has one in awhile. Of course they could (and his super surplus of energy) can also be a byproduct of Tracey's healing on Will. What affects Will effects me -- and what affects me effects my son since he is an energetic sponge. Both the kid and I are back to not sleeping too -- something else that happens when change is near.

So change already! Of course I really mean it if it's a good change and only kinda mean it if the change is bad. But either way change is bound to happen at some point in time.

Between my hyper son, the storms, animals, writing and work -- it hasn't left me a whole lot of time to write in my blogs or even work on my screenplays. Hopefully with my son going with his dad a few hours tonight I'll be able to buckle down on some writing!

Speaking of my son - again - I can't believe that he'll be 8 next Tuesday -- 8! It feels like yesterday that they yanked him out of my body:) He brought up Will the other day. We were talking about NYC and how we both really want to go back sooner, rather than later. And he mentioned something about Will and going with us to the Central Park Zoo. I can't remember what my comment was, but that sent us to talking about Will having a girlfriend. The kid went off the charts talking about that. He was so pissed that Will may or may not (you know, the on again off again stuff) still have his girlfriend. I tried to explain that Will's can have a GF, just like Bill or Ted and his wife -- even I can have a BF. He wasn't going for that either -- kept going on about how Will and I are supposed to be together and how no one else will do -- etc....it took me about 30 min to calm him down. Again - not sure how we got from Central Park Zoo to that -- but I will be mindful not to go down that path with him.

And before you ask - I am still smitten my Mr. Client Guy. Too bad we're not in the same state right now.

Remember all of my tomatoes and peppers that I planted? Most of them are gone -- killed by the hail storm last weekend. Dang it all!

Since Will has been getting the healing/attunement energy from Tracey - he has been popping in often - but he doesn't stay long. It's in - saying he's sorry - and them leaving again. Yesterday he popped in and said he's sorry and then said that I'm hard headed, stubborn and won't give up. I replied - hell no I'm not going to give up - I do not want to repeat the same lessons again. And that's what's going to happen to all of us if you don't snap out of it! He smiled and said - I'm working on it, thank you for not leaving me. And he was gone.

Leave him -- like I could ever do that? Like I would ever want to do that -- no matter how insane he makes me. Same goes for Bill and Ted. No matter when, what or why - if they ever need me - for anything I'd be there for them. Psychically, spiritually or both. They are right on the outskirts of my energy - always are - when I have a lot of work to do (and they do this too) I keep them at arms length. Once they're "in" (so to speak) they are there for awhile -- and then it's hard to work. I am still learning how to tap into their energy as a muse. Especially Will. He's my muse.

My dreams last night were really funky. As soon as I finally dozed off about 1:00 am they started and continue until I got up at 5:45 am. Ted and I were in a multi-level building that he and I had been in several times before. Cars drove up and down steep ramps. Offices were all along the sides. He and I were fighting about getting him into a treatment center. He was drunk off his ass - being a bully and expecting me to back down. I told him that I loved him and that I wasn't going anywhere. Something clicked right then and there and he started crying -- big sobs -- on how screwed up his life is and he can't find the road back. I told him that he can see the light, because he sees me. And to hold onto that light. I won't let him go and neither will Bill or Will -- but he has to trust us. Ted said that he doesn't even trust himself so how can he trust us? I replied - because we're your eternal partners and we love you unconditionally. Something happened in the background as he was gone and I was off to the next segment.

Which brought me to Bill. He was in the center of a HUGE library -- reminded me of the NYC library my son and I saw. Any ways - Bill grabs my hand and takes me to a far corner. He moves a few books around and a secret door opens. Without waiting for me to say anything - he yanked me in and the door shut behind us. I smelled an overwhelmingly scent of mold - like I was stuck inside of a 200 year old basement. The air was stale and heavy. I asked where were were and Bill flips on a flashlight - puts it under his chin to illuminate his face and raises his eyebrows up and down (what a goof). He then shines it around and I can see shelves of very-very old books and a dusty old table in the center of the room. He is looking at the title on the shelves and pulls out a leather bound book. I recognize it immediately as the book he carries in my Atlantis visions. I say - so this is where you found the book? He replied, it's tucked away in a secret location and only the ones who should find it will find it. I look more closely at it - and the ink is very faded, the pages so darn old I don't know how they've survived this long. There's mold on the book - Bill says he is taking it with him and will try to get the book restored so we can use it. I ask if I can look through it -- he said that Will needs to hurry up - I tell him that Will is not here and let me see than dang book.

I carefully flip through the pages and one with skulls on it catches my eye. There is a map, looks to be through a pyramid, and it illustrates the places where one would find a skull embedded into the walls - you are to follow the pattern until it dead ends. Then there are numbers like:

3 9
7 21
9 981

We hear a noise, Bill takes the book, shoves it down the front of his pants - I joke and ask if he's sure he has room in there for that? He gives me that smile and he's gone. On to the next segment.

I find myself among large Redwoods. I stare up in amazement of their size and sheer beauty. I can't help but go over and lightly rub my hand on the bark. A voice startles me -- they're beautiful aren't they? I turn and it's Will. I comment that they are magnificent. He replied that he envies these trees - they are strong, mighty and have survived regardless to what us humans have done to the world around them. I asked him, why did you bring us here? He sits at the base of the tree and pats the ground in front of him. I sit in front of him. between his legs - he wraps his arms around me and pulls me to his chest. For this -- he said. All I want is to do this. I smile and completely relax in his arms. I don't know if it's possible to fall asleep within a dream, but I swear we did for the next thing I know he was gone, it was dark and I see a light in the distance -- so I go towards it.

Now I'm with a group of people I don't know in a bar, drinking some serious beers down. A friend of mine shows up and we decide to go out for pizza. On the way out we run into a group of wealthy people - one looks like the actor Richard Hatch (Not Survivor - think Battlestar Galactica) - but it isn't him. This guy is much taller (6'5") and very thin. This guy for some reason takes a liking to me -- but his friends want to go so they all leave. My friend and I head out for pizza, but instead wind up at this huge house that has been in my dreams before. She tells me that she can't go anywhere because -- then all of this stuff falls out of her butt, onto the ground -- well, of a small problem she developed. So she leaves to clean up - I'm in this bathroom -- and I decide to go potty. So I sit down to poo, but I don't take my panties down until I'm 1/2 done and then I remember - duh! So I do and I shake out meatball shape/size, rock solid, poos from my panties and dump them into the toilet. As I'm doing that and finishing my business, someone stops into say hi - we chat and they leave. I still have poo to remove and as I'm dumping them into the toilet, it turns into a bathtub -- and launches me into this OBE sex experience.

When I was done in the tub, I'm running down this double wide staircase to the 1st floor, running behind the staircase to a bedroom when the front doorbell rings. Next to me is the same person who was talking to me as I was on the toilet. I tell her to get the door - she's like no way, it's for you anyways. So I run to the door, putting my t-shirt on as I go. When I open the door, there's the wealthy man from earlier. I smile and become all flirty. He does the same. Then oddly he hands me this big set of keys that are on a variety of key chains, all connected. I asked why? He points to this green bear (looked like a small emerald bear) keychain and said if I ever need the key, here it is. The key to what - I was baffled. He said - the morgue. If I ever need to get someone out, this is what I need to use to gain access. The rest of the keys - he said - I would have to figure out on my own, but they were all important. With that he was gone and I woke up.

What an odd series of dream visits. Why would I have to get someone out of a morgue? And the green bear pendant on that keychain was so green and vibrant.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Energy Healing, OBE Sex And Will!

Happy Solstice everyone! If you're into doing magic and casting spells - today is a doozy of a day for you! The extra emery on the solstice helps any spell manifest. But since today is Friday, the day of love, AND within the full moon range (a phase of the moon is considered 3 days before - the actual day - and 3 days after) -- it really is a kick butt day for a love spell. Over at my Gypsy Magic blog -- I have tons of love spells that can be cast today! But be very careful today what you wish for!

My son - who has been a good kid in all of his summer school activities - told me last night that he is firm, he wants to go back to public school. So I say fine - you will. So today when I pick him up yesterday, his teacher tells me that he has reverted back to his intrusive and not listening days. What gives? I just don't get it. I asked him what was going on -- and he just says but I want to have fun mom. I can understand that - but you have to have fun within the rules of the place you are at. he went back and forth for a bit - and I told him if I hear anything bad today - his x-box is in storage until further notice. He about had a cow with that - but some grumbles later he said okay. (update - he was a good boy)

So there you go - public school it is. I'm still not cool about it - but - it is his choice. We'll see how the year progresses. Hard to believe he'll be 8 on July 1st. He showed me his "whiskers" on his face they other day - lol.

Yesterday when I took him to and from school - I had a white butterfly follow me up and back both times -- then here at home there was a beautiful yellow & black butterfly fluttering around! It's been a while since I've seen any butterflies - let alone having 2 who were hanging around with me.

Today is a busy day. Stupid busy. I should fire the person who made my schedule --wait -- can I fire me? Seems like a damn good idea! I could use the time off - lol.

DREAMERS seems to be okay as is -- and now I'm working back on BLACK TRIANGLE. So don't be surprised - again - if you don't hear that much from me in the next week.

I've been obsessed by this little baby Cardinal (just got his feathers in) who is in a tall bush down the street. He's learning to fly and for the last 2 days he'd stay on the ground. Which would be okay since mom is around - but it is right in the heart of stray cat zone. So I've been going down and putting him back in the bush a couple of times a day (gloves on mind you). Mom's there and both her and the baby are rather used to me now. I have to check on him again today.

Orange Kitty (a new tom cat who showed up on my porch last month) really hurt his paw (wouldn't walk on it) and now he hasn't been on my porch for 3 days straight. Makes me very worried that something horrible happened to the guy. He is so starved for attention that when you do pet him he is soooo into it he scratches the hell of of your hands -- so I have to wear gloves petting him.

Petting - which reminds me of hands - which again reminds me of how hot my hands have been these last two weeks. I'm rather baffled to the "why now" of them being hot. I know it has to do with healing and I'm just going to put my hands on the animals. If I think about healing or my hands being hot - they flare up. I've read more books on healing - and I have my own method. I had always thought though that I would do healing after my entertainment (TV shows, etc...) career was over - so later on in life. I can see Iris here shaking her head. Well, heck -- I wonder what kind of time she expects me to do. Ahh - she is telling me that she wants me to read more before I go to bed - and on my down time (what down time) to put Law & Order on hold till Fall (oh man) and read to relax instead of watching TV. Is there any book I should be reading 1st. Yep - she wants me to re-read my Rosicrucian booklets (yes, if you didn't know I am a member of the order) and at the same time - pick up he Advanced Chakra Healing book and go through it again. But I am not to fall into one method of healing - but take from here and there to form my own method. Just as I said that - I had a flash vision of a crystal grid with someone's picture in it -- to use for distance healing - and if someone is at my place (I'm going to have a healing place - before the castle - Iris says yes?) then I am to configure a grid around them as I work.

So if I am getting what I see -- my energy methods are a combination of crystal grids (and laying on), energy and flower essences. Iris says -- yes girl -- now get busy with your practicing.

It's strange cause I can see it as plain as day -- a person on my table - but it's not an ordinary table, but one that I have had handcrafted from crystal - a cloth covers it so that the patient will not be too cold as soon as they lay down. Around them are grid make from amethyst towers and large chunks of moonstone - there is a door to another room and in this room is a HUGE crystal in the center & sage smoke all around -- and on the shelves sits just about every stone one can think of. I walk into this room to grab what stones I need and go back to the other room. I first place energy into the patient then lay down the stones. As they lay there with the stones on them (soft music is playing) I move over to the flower essences and put together a personalized remedy - I also see myself opening up a putting together a gem elixir. Way cool. This vision rather expands on past images I have had about a healing center - one that is in a castle - but this part of it seems to be in a cave, or in the side of a mountain. And I'm getting a yes from Iris - this part is actually built into a the side of a mountain where there is a fresh underground spring.

Sweet! Iris says that I have to start now with the healing as the entertainment career will help pay for that healing center. But in order to have the center, I have to be a healer. Makes sense to me. But dang it all - seriously - how do I shove it all in a day? I know -- I know -- no more Law & Order!!

Tracey emailed me Wednesday evening after I told her that Bill would be back:

He did show up again Allie - and this time was too funny because this time he looked really strange. He did not look like himself at all. I do not know if he was appearing as he was in a past life or what but he looked dirty and rough I guess. He had a beard and mustache and his hair was darker and he was dressed oddly for him - kind of rugged and dirty I guess. Anyways, he said that he has been working on Will on another dimension - as he realized that Will is having a hard time taking all this in where he is at this time in the physical reality. Bill says that he is able to travel multi-dimensionally - and that he was able to meet with Will on a higher level. On this level, he had more success and he feels like this will help Will. He asked me about doing some healing for Will even though I do not have his permission on the Earthly dimension in the Higher dimensions he is okay with this. So, I tell him that I am assuming that it is okay but I will ask Allie and pray about it in meditation. He says fair enough. He showed me his hands and they were rough looking - not like I would expect his hands to be. He said heal them. I said okay and I started working on him just like I would if someone were in person and his hands started glowing this beautiful emerald green and then they went back to normal - no roughness. He said see what you can do. Thank you. That's all I remember, Allie. So, what do you think about the healing energy for Will and what kind should I do if we think its a good idea - like Reiki, Aura Clearing , Cleansing , Balancing - yadda yadda??

I gave her some suggestions on what she should try with Will and she mentioned that she was going to start with him yesterday. I haven't heard back on what happened.

Iris is saying that I should ask for some volunteers for healing. I will do just that - but not yet. I'll take people in groups of 3 -- I'll let you know when I'm ready. In the mean time - think about it :)

Hell - now she tells me is that I'll come up with some energy combo to aid sex lives - fits in with the OBE sex. Again -- how many hours in a day? Okay, one step at a time - I have to stop looking at the whole picture, even though that is what I see right now. baby steps Allie - baby steps.

And on that note - it really is time for me to get back to work/writing/readings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Bill, Will And Tracey!

Finally -- I woke up this morning with this email waiting for me...

Hi, Allie. I went to bed and set the intention for a dream visit. I had a dream visit with Bill. We were on an airplane together. He had all these papers he was working on - lots of paperwork. He said, see how busy I am and yet I have time to meet with you. I said yes. He told me he was pissed at Will because he is not answering him - not responding. He said he had a solution to that - he would just get in his face until he answers.

I asked him where we were going and he said where else? NYC. I said okay. He told me he was going to keep on bugging Will until he got mad - angry - cried or something.

So, the plane lands. A limo is waiting and Ted is leaning against it waiting on us. He comes over and helps Bill with his bags. He goes to take Bill's brief case thingie and Bill says no let me keep this.

We get in the limo and Ted says, want a drink? Bill says no! And, we need to talk about the drinking. Ted rolls his eyes while making himself a drink. He tells Ted that he cannot take watching him kill himself. Ted says he's going to be around forever and not to worry about it. Bill tells Ted he needs to look in the mirror as he looks like shit - looks like he's aged 10 years. Ted says he's not stopping and doesn't want to talk about it or else they will just fight. Bill says okay.

We get to this hotel. Its a really nice one - we check into the hotel. Bill asks me where my bags are and I said I did not bring any as I did not think I was staying. He says, no problem, here is my credit card. Get some stuff from the shops on the first floor and meet us in our room which is room number 311. I say okay. I go to the shops down there and buy some clothes, toiletries, etc.

I go into the bathroom and get in a stall and call you on your cell phone to tell you what is going on so far. You tell me not to let Bill go off on Will as Will is not going to respond well to it anyway and they will just butt heads and nothing will get accomplished. I say okay. I hang up. I go up to room 311.

I get there and Bill is on the phone arguing with someone about speaking to Will. Ted rolls his eyes at me and says are we having fun yet, wanna go to the bar? Bill is half listening and he shakes his head no - to me - so that I say no. I tell Ted no, lets just stay in and have a drink. He says okay lets go on the terrace.

Then Bill hangs up and comes out onto the terrace and takes our drinks and empties them over the side of the terrace. He says to Ted - I mean it - STOP. Bill goes into the bathroom. Ted grabs my hand and starts pulling me out of the room. I am thinking to myself how do you say no to these guys! So, we go down to the bar. We are sitting there a few minutes and Will walks in.

He sits next to us. He says call Bill and tell him to come down here. We can talk here as long as he can be civil.

We call Bill and he comes down. So, he tells Will that he's not going to yell or argue but that he is angry with him. He's angry because he's not answering his calls and angry because he did not show up for the meeting - he's angry because he's hurting Allie.

Will says that he is sorry that his actions are hurting Allie, that it is the last thing he would want to do. He tells Bill the truth is he is freaked out - not sure what to do - he's angry and upset because Allie is seeing someone. He's deeply hurt by it and he feels that perhaps Allie is happy without him.

Bill cuts him off and says - save it Will - go get the girl - get over yourself - what are you, a pus? She met someone - so what - go and get her - stop pouting like a baby! He tells him that he does not blame Allie for seeing someone since Will is afraid of his own shadow and will not come forward. He tells Will he needs to deal with his fears and insecurities and stop thinking and start acting.

Will says that he's struggling right now with all of this - and Bill say boo hoo - Will - do something or everyone loses - this is on you!

Then Will says no it was on you and you did not do anything and now you want me to and I am just trying to process my feelings and decide what is best for me!

Bill says - you are so stubborn and hard headed - and analytical - and just annoying - and Will says well look in the mirror -everything that annoys you about me is within you!

Bill laughs. Will says he has something he wants Bill to look at and Bill says funny I have something I want you to look at. So, we go back to the room. They are comparing information from your website but I can't see what it is. Then Will says - right, that makes sense. That's what I will do then and I will see you next week. He leaves. Bill smiles and Ted and I look at each other like WTF?

I wake up.

I can vaguely remember talking on my cell in the dream and that it had something to do with Will - but I don't remember who I was talking to. I can also remember Will walking across a hotel lobby and Bill with a stack of papers. Seems almost as if I was looking in on it - but I really don't remember any of it (maybe because I wasn't supposed to be in the meeting?)

I looked up 311 in my angel number book and it says: The ascended masters are helping - and urging - you to keep your mind focused on creating and manifesting at the highest level of light and love. Avoid addictive behaviors as they mask your desire to create.

Interesting message to the 3 men - don't you think?

I know that Will is upset with my new interest, but it's not like I'm marrying the guy tomorrow.

I can feel that a dam is about to break - in a good way - but I'm not sure if it deals with my personal or professional life -- or both. I'm just ready for something to move forward:)

Off to get moving on the day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Kid, My Family Tree And The Garden!

So I'm almost done enrolling my son into the homeschool program with K12. My parents - bless their hearts - say I'm making the biggest mistake. I said no -- been there and done that when I got married to ex #2:) They didn't find that very funny. I listened to them both a bit (two separate phone calls - one from each parent) on the concern of taking him away from other children, I'm not a teacher - yadda, yadda. I explained again how it all works and then politely told them both that while they are free to express their opinions - I'm free to ignore them. They both know that it really is fruitless to try to talk me out of something once I make up my mind.

And then the kid says something to me -- mom, I don't know if I want to be homeschooled.

HEAVY SIGH

Okay -- I tell him -- think about it, but you have only 24 hours to do so and get back to me.

Now mind you - this is a subject that he and I have discussed at length. Now all of a sudden he's thinking about it. What could have changed his mind? Two words: his father.

Well - it's not like I'm jumping up and down with joy at the thought of teaching the little rascal. Just like a spouse - he is well equipped and knowledgeable of knowing what buttons to push to piss me off:) But, my top goal is to make sure he can learn and adapt enough with his empathic gifts in a comfortable environment without getting stressed out to the max.

I finished putting in the rest of my garden on Sunday. Killed 3 peppers plants in the process. I grow the little guys from seeds, so I take offense when they die. But they suffered from transplant shock. Everyone else seemed to have made the transition okay. A couple are a bit droopy today - but not dead, so there's hope. Now while you're in the garden you feel fine - dirty & muddy - but fine. Two hours afterwards it hit me -- and my body is still hurting. I need a serious body massage:)

Did I ever tell you that on my mom's side of the family - her mom - they did a family tree. Traced my ancestry back to some civil war soldiers, American Indians, over to Europe - all the way back to Charlemagne. I kid you not. So on one side of my family tree I have Vlad the Impaler and on the other side "The Father of Europe". Here's a tid bit on him: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charlemagne Very - very interesting. Add to this my DNA ancestry - my soul past lives of Cleopatra, Atlantis and Joan of Arc -- and no wonder I hate to clean!

Tracey emailed me today. No word from the guys over the weekend. But she is having one of those kick you in the butt headaches. This usually means something is about to happen. So if Bill does not contact her today - she's going after him. I'll let you know what happens.

Turned in the latest of DREAMERS. We'll see.

That's about it for now. Usually when there's not much to report is right before there's a lot to report:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Guys And I'm Smitten!

Before ya'll ask -- I haven't heard from Tracey today. Yesterday - last time I talked to her late evening - no one had stopped by for a visit. However, all day the energy around me was very heavy and depressing. I was fine as long as I was talking to someone or engaged in a reading. As soon as I was flying solo - the heaviness crept in. This is something that wasn't coming from me - yet I could feel it in my heart chakra. When I did talk to Tracey she commented about feeling the same thing - very heavy and depressing around her.

I think that I may know what has brought on this heavy, depressive feeling - Will. I have found someone who has grabbed my attention - he's a client of mine and we've had a mutual attraction for quite some time - but never acted on it. I kept hearing to email him Wed night - so I did - just to say hi. Thursday was spent with each of us telling each other how we've been attracted to one another from the get go. And in fact - Gab had him pegged years ago, described him to a "T" - and I knew it was him when I met him - but didn't say anything. So anyways as we're talking yesterday I told him about Gab's readings - twice - she talked about him - but not by name. Several years earlier I had a reading and that person called him by name. And guess where he lives? NYC:) Anyways -- that's what I think brought on the depression from Will - as what happens to me is felt by them and visa versa.

As I'm writing this -- I got this email from Tracey:

I did not get anything - so I finally went to sleep. Bill came into my dream - and he said that Will was not cooperating and did not want to meet - and he said that he was going to keep trying and that hopefully he could get Will to agree sometime before the weekend was over. He said 'Will is angry and depressed, but he will not open up and is not willing to talk right now.' I said okay - this is disappointing news, but I guess that's the way it is. Bill told me that he needed me to send Ted some healing because he's staying high a lot and he thinks that there are things Ted is not facing. He feels Ted is running away from his problems. He thinks he is unhappy in his relationship. He said that he was sending Ted healing and to ask Allie to do the same. He showed me a triangle by drawing it with his finger in the air and he said there are three sides and if all three of us send him healing there is strength in this. I said I agree and told him I would and then I said but what about Will? He said, oh yeah - I guess we can do that too. So, he tells me - I am 'on call' - basically and that's really all I remember. I am so bummed. I expected there to be something BIG you know. I think I am actually disappointed.

So let's see if they contact her over the weekend. If I get something in I will post it:)

Wait a minute -- that reading that I posted from a client to me (it was Samantha BTW) said that I would be with someone older than me - not too much older. Oh, here's a snippet: Clairvoyantly, I see moving toward the East and I am seeing happiness not only for you, but for your son as well. I feel a lot of warmth and laughter. I also see a man walking into your life when you make this move. He's tall, with black hair, tanned, and he's a little older, but not much. He has a nice body, he's skinny but he does have some muscle to him and he's clean shaven. I'm feeling you may all ready know this man?

Sounds like him. He's a Cancer - me a Taurus - so from a zodiac prospective it's a good match. We'll see - it's far too early to tell anything -- but I like what I see & feel so far.

Talk to you later -- I'm sure!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Update On Gab's Reading!

I'm a firm believer that only three things are certain in life: change, our physical death and our destiny markers. Anything else is up for grabs. So what did Gab say? Grams T immediately came through and she said that she's been watching and knows what's going on. Very proud of me and what I've done thus far. Old boyfriend Mitch says hi and that he visits me in my dreams a lot. She mentioned a very quiet energy around me - someone who is just hovering and watching. When I asked her to describe more - she described Bill:)

Guides Robert and Jezell were around. Showed Gab that I had a very long and bumpy road behind me filled with rocks, pot holes and curves. In front of me was a nice straight road with the sun coming up. The worst for love, career and money are behind me.

I asked about Heath -- she sat there for a second and said -- why are they showing me Heath Ledger? I said because that's the correct Heath. Seems that he just loves to talk to me (yep I know) and will hang around with me until I tell him that I've had enough. I went and asked about all these people who I keep helping in my dreams. She said that I'm a Spiritual Mentor.

2007 - 2008 is all about reorganization, getting priorities in a row and discovering me. 2010 is my career, money and love year - although 2009 is better in all three than 2008 was and the last 1/2 of 2008 is better than now.

Asked about my project for Nickelodeon - she said if this doesn't fly exactly how I want it to try again - as it will get picked up. DREAMERS - looks like the 2nd place we send it to takes it and she suggested we send it to Steven Spielberg and his new paranormal channel.

She told me to go get a check up - didn't like the way my ovaries looked/felt. She kept sensing a lot of heat. And since Ovarian cancer has killed just about every female on my mom's side - it's time for a check up.

Will & Ted - both soul mate, kindred spirits - but neither man is long-term in this life. They are both more of a thorn in my side.
Bill - soul mate, kindred spirit - he stays by my side closer than Will or Ted. Our history has more past - more than Will and I even though Will and I are older souls - I've been with Bill in more lives. She said that he is not good for me. In fact none of the three are because we will keep battling for who is in charge (gee really). But she never said that he wasn't long-term, just that being with him will not be easy.

I'm going to have a string of lovers starting sooner rather than later -- and eventually I will settle down again - but not till 2010.

I have to finish the OBE sex book - sooner rather than later. Business will be even busier with Gypsy Advice.

My son is very restless and needs a constant outlet for his energy. If not - then he's prone to turn to drugs & alcohol when he's older.

And that's about it.

It's nice to know that what's in front of me is sunnier than what I have already been through:) It's also nice to know that the guys will be as difficult as I thought they would.

But damn it Will! SIGH. At least tomorrow is Thursday!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Strange Letter, Thursday And The Guys!

Okay -- it takes a lot for me to stand back and say - WTF? But this is a bit out there -- even for me. Now you have been following the Bill, Will and Ted saga - right? If not - read below this entry and get acquainted or this tid bit I'm about to say won't mean squat to you.

Tracey emailed me yesterday - all freaked out - and very perplexed. Seems she received a letter in the mail with no return address - postmarked in RI. Inside there was a single sheet of nice white stationary paper and on it, written with a fine black marker, was:

See you on Thursday.

The writing was neat - good penmanship. No signature - no nothing.

Ah yeah -- I would've freaked too.

Could it be one of the 3? There's always a chance. Who else would it be? She and I think it's the same person - Bill. I told her that if Bill shows up on her doorstep - after she regains consciousness she is to give him my address and tell him to start driving - lol:)

Neither Tracey or I think it's him 100% - we're about 95% sure. Now I really can't wait for tomorrow!

I spent a good part of the day planting raspberries, blueberries, strawberries and grapes. Tonight I'll put in my tomatoes, peppers and corn. I'm tired already:) I just hope everyone lives...Sometime - maybe tomorrow - I have to go out and trim things: trees, shrubs -- they're a bit out of control.

Very soon today - I'm going to be getting a ready from my friend Gab. I get a reading from her about once a year - she's great with talking to the deceased and for communicating with your guides. I have a whole range of questions to ask her (and yes, Will, Bill and Ted are among them) and I'm really curious to hear what the deceased has to say. I wonder if Heath will show up? I normally ask about the guys -and I asked last year she said:

Will: will meet in 2008 - mind blowing experience.
Bill: Has been to my web site dozens of times. Has no idea what to do or to make of the situation.
Ted: Gab wanted to know if I had met him. He was very strong around me. Seems that when I get a reading - people always ask if he and I have talked.

I get that always about Ted -- and he's the 1 I haven't met! I seriously will pass out when he's in front of me some day. I hope I'm already sitting down when he walks into the room.

What else did Gab say last year? Oh that I have a lot of love around me, I'm never alone and that although things will be tight - money wise - everything will work out and I will always have enough to make ends meet. Love wise - alone for 2007 - most of 2008 until fall of 2008. That's when I find someone who will treat me like a queen and I will know what it is like to experience heaven on earth. In the meantime though I will be very experimental sex wise. This has to be about the explosion of OBE sex I've had this last year....

I'll let you know what she says this time around:) She really is amazing calling out people by name (all you do is give her your name - that's it) talks about how they know you and how they died - then messages delivered. She's really very good.

Okay - must run - will be talking to her in a few.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Bill And Will With A Sprinkle Of Ted!

I'm not mechanically inclined. Try as I might -- I just can't figure out how things go together unless the instructions are ironclad. Well, the direction for my fan were not that straight forward. What would have taken my ex maybe 10 min, took me almost 40. But -- I did get it together - so for that I have to give myself a pat on the back.

I also have a horrendous tooth ache I'm battling. Getting my 1st cavity at 38, I'm not used to mouth trouble. But this tooth is just killing me! Well, it's not just a tooth, it in loves 1/2 my jaw. Now I realize part of the problem is that I clench my teeth as I sleep and I've used one of those store bought guards for awhile (a dentist made one is way out of my price range) -- but dang. I think part of my filling came out. They couldn't get me in to see he dentist till next Thursday. So until then I'm a crying and popping Tylenol. But Goddess..this thing REALLY hurts!!

With my tooth and the "kick me in the ass" pain - I can't eat. It hurts to eat or drink - unless everything goes through a straw. Plus - it hurts to talk. That's a bummer on so many levels. Not exactly sure about the podcast tomorrow - if I do one it may be really-really short.

(The above I wrote on Friday)

Today - Tuesday - I'm going to the dentist -- they had a cancelation!

(Below - This dream visit I tried to write about on Sunday)

I had a dream visit last night with Bill, Will and Ted. I entered the dream in a long hallway with high arches. Everything looked to be made from moonstone and marble. There were quartz crystal sconces on both sides of the hall - no visible flame or light bulb, but they glowed anyways and lit the way. Bill came running out of a doorway - stopped - looked at me and flashed me his million dollar smile. What are you up to? I asked? Nothing at all - he replied.

But I knew he was full of it -- something was up.

Bill commented - You're going to love NYC! I'm sure I will - I replied - any idea when I'll be there? He laughed - sooner than you think. He grabbed my hand and started to pull me down the hall. I'm like - where are we going? He said - any place but here.

Which of course made me think - why?

Then I knew why -- Will came out of a door. Will looked down and us and shouted - Hey!

I gave Bill that "look" - like shame on you.

Then those two started yelling at one another - oh good lord the cuss words. Finally I said (and I remember this line crystal clear) -- both of you shut the fuck up!

Startled they both looked at me -- I kept yelling: what do I look like - a piece of property you two can barter over, decide who I will be with -- talk to me as if I wasn't here when I'm standing right here! That's it -- I pick Ted.

The look on their faces was simply priceless. You can't do that -- Bill said. And who in the hell made you team captain? I yelled back. I'm the oldest soul Bill replied - that's why. Wrong - oh wrong -- I said, Will is. You're wrong - said Will. Am not - I said. Yes you are - we're the oldest soul - Will said.

Roll of the eyes -- whatever. I pick Ted. And when I roll over morning, noon or night and look into those scrumptious green eyes -- I will not be thinking of either if you.

He's married - Will said. Today he is -- but it's Ted, give him a few more months, a year tops.

Where's Tracey - Bill said. Not here - I replied -- and I'm outta here. Bye boys.

A look of sheer terror came over them.

I woke up and smiled. They have no clue who they're messing with -- but they'll catch on.

And on that note - off to the dentist I go...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill And Tracey Part 2!

I told you I was waiting for an email from Tracey. With as much sleep as I did not get last night I just knew they were there with her. So I emailed Tracey and told her she was killing me keeping me wondering what's going on. Here's her reply:


How in the heck do you always know what will happen. I have not had ONE WINK of sleep tonight! Not one!

So here is the break down.....

11:30 PM - Bill pops in - are you available? and I say yes! He says good. He is going to get with Ted and make sure he can meet us at 12:00 PM - he wants me in my meditation room.........

12:00 PM - Bill again! Ted is there too! No Will! Bill says, okay - here is the deal - I need to talk to Will but I need you there for the energy support - and I need Ted there for moral support and to calm me down if I get crazy again! Ted says, me? I am crazier than you! Bill says, this is serious - Ted says, I am serious - Bill says stop drinking the rest of the night - Ted says how about pot? Bill - says nothing! Ted - says - I can't do that! Bill says grow up - Ted say no! (I feel like I am watching a ping pong match with adolescents) Bill says brb let me get Will in here.....

Ted asks me what I think of Will. I tell him I like him but I want him to come forward for Allie. Ted says he does not really like him for you (Allie) but if she (Allie) wants him then he will help. I said well thats what is important then.

12:10 PM Bill is back, Will won't be ready until 2:30 AM, Ted rolls his eyes, Bill gives him the finger and I just say okay see you then.

2:30 AM Bill is back, Ted is back, no Will - Bill and Ted have select words - Bill says Will was involved in something important (didn't say what) and that maybe he was running late - he would meet back at 2:45 am Ted says this is such b.s.

2:45 AM Bill is back, Ted is not there, Will is late by 5 minutes - Bill apologizes for his outbursts, Will accepts apologizes for his - Bill tells him someone needs to come forward - Will agrees - He says that he is not sure he is ready - tells Bill this is a lot to digest - to understand - to trust - and that he's having a hard time with it all - and has been feeling like he's crazy, second guessing himself - the whole situation - is nervous, scared, skeptical - Bill asks him to meet with he and I and possibly Ted once a week this month about this and Will says okay - Bill asks him if he thinks by the end of this month if he will know one way or the other what he will do - and Will says yes he thinks so. Bill says fair. Then Bill tells me that he is going to take Will to the places we have already been - back in time - and throughout the various meditation visions - the ones with me, the ones with Allie - and that he won't make me go again. I say thanks! :) He and Will shake hands - Bill puts his arm around Will - and they kind of step over something I cannot see and they are gone.

5:00 AM - Bill is back - Wanted me to know Ted passed out drunk and high.....I said that figures - lol - and he said - well, it was okay anyway, I say yes. He says Ted will meet with us....and he will coordinate the when each week - and that next week it may be tuesday or thursday....I say okay let me know - he says he thinks Will will step up. I say good. He says when I get your bill its going to be big! I say no its free but can I go to sleep now? He said yeah and that he thought he could sleep now. He kissed me on the cheek, gave me a hug and he was gone.

And there you go...the saga contiunes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill and Tracey!

My lower body is fricken killing me. And no, I didn't get lucky last night. I had karate yesterday - twice. My private lesson and then the lesson with my son. In the morning I was flipping people and learned a new kick - had a blast. In the evening my son flipped me a few times and he learned the kick I did that morning as well as both of us learning a few moves. Last night when I went to bed - no problems at all.

Getting out of bed proved to have it's own set of problems. I was like - WTF? Wow -- what a difference a day makes. My son and I are taking the summer off from karate - he thinks it's to give us a break - but actually its to pay for his eye therapy and other things he wants to do this summer. Plus his 8th birthday is July 1st (I can't believe he'll be that old!).

Of course this morning I couldn't believe how old I felt! HA!

I woke up at 2:58 last night and couldn't go back to sleep for about an hour. Will and Bill are rummaging around and keeping me awake. When I woke up I knew I had just come from seeing them - but I don't know what happened. I asked Iris to clue me in and she said that it's better if I don't consciously know what was said. To me that sounds like I'd be really pissed if I knew. But I was awake, and trying to fall back to sleep kept bring up images of those two fighting. I finally feel asleep in time to wake back up again.

I emailed Tracey Monday night and told her to watch out for the two of them - I just had this feeling....she emailed me back and said that Bill already visited her Sat night in the midst of a Reiki session and then woke her up with a start Tuesday morning at 5:00 am CDT. I write back to say that I woke up at 6:00 am EDT with a start - we both knew it was Bill. She told Bill to go away both times, as she was busy -- I told her he'd be back. She wrote me back twice yesterday:

Well, Allie, I went back to sleep and I guess I must have been in a coma because I just woke up. So, surprise no more because they both visited me in my dream.First, Bill and I are in this office with a long table. We are sitting at the end of the table. There is a large window at the end of the office.

Bill tells me that has pissed off because he stepped back to allow Will to come forward and the bastard (his words not mine) has not come through. So, he wants me to sit in on a meeting with Will. He tells me he has called him in under the pretense of talking to him about a business opportunity. I say okay - so what am I to do? He says, you are my assistant - here....and he hands me a laptop. I say okay?

He says the plan is confrontation time. Either he will come forward with Allie or I will. I am tired of waiting around on this. I tell him okay. (Its obvious he's in charge)

It was ten minutes to eleven in the dream and Will was to be there at eleven. At ten minutes after eleven we get a call on the speaker phone that he's on his way to the conference room. At eleven, eleven he arrives.

He comes in and shakes Bill's hand and Bill introduces me and Will shakes my hand and stares at me for a long time and says, okay, what's going on? He is looking at me!

Thankfully Bill says, Well, Will, (very condescendingly) here's the deal. I stepped back from Allie. to allow you to move forward and you are not coming forward so to put it bluntly ...... WTF is your problem and are you going to show up or not?

Will, looks stunned - and then he says, you know, Bill, (condescendingly) I don't owe you an F'ing explanation. Bill says I think you do! I am the captain of this team!

Will says well, then I quit! Bill says you can't quit, you idiot! Will says well, I am not sure what I am doing. Bill says, clearly! (condescendingly)

Then Will goes silent - and Bill does a lot of yelling - with lots of F words...........Bill tells me to leave the room. I feel like he's about to get physical with Will.............so, I leave.........

I hear all kinds of fighting - finally Will pipes in with some choice words!

Then Will leaves and slams the door. He kisses me on the cheek and walks down the hall to the elevator and gets in.

Bill opens the door abruptly - and looks at me laughs and smiles and says, I win - and I wake up!

Tracey was confused as to what it meant to "win" here. I told her that one or the other would be back to give her more of a clue. I also told her that indeed Bill and Ted stepped back awhile ago to let Will in. Later on I got my second email:

Well, I could not stay awake. I took another nap.

This time I just got Bill - he said that he has worked out things with Will - he says the issue with Will is that he does not understand all of this fully! (geesh)

So, Bill said that he and Will have to calm down and sit down again. He thinks that he may have let his anger take control and then things got out of control. He's going to let me know when - he's sick of everyone being busy. He feels like he cannot get through to everyone he wants to talk to. He said he wants Ted there too.

He feels like you (Allie) have pulled back and he does not like that because he's afraid that you are giving up and he's afraid you are right that if someone does not step up everyone loses. He also wants you to know his girlfriend is dispensable and he smiled.

He seemed much more calm. He said he is going to stop drinking caffeine again (while he was smoking) and he's going to take a nap. He has not slept in over 24 hours. He's also going to create a less intimidating place to meet. So, he told me to be on the look out for something different and unique!

I had told Tracey that once one of them showed up to tell them that one better step up and soon or no one will need to bother making all of us have to repeat this lesson in the next life -- and let me tell you if that happened I will make sure they have to really - really work to get to me.

Now I'm just waiting for another email from her as I'm sure they showed up last night. The poor girl - she is going to be soooo tired.

Speaking of tired - DREAMERS still isn't where it needs to be. It's the dialogue -- I can't get it. To me it sounds natural - but to everyone else it doesn't. Maybe I just talk weird:) Back to the drawing board on that. Still working on that treatment for the Nick show. Fingers crossed here for me guys -- some light to help me unlock any creativity that is stuck would greatly be appreciated.

I'm on Psychiconair.com and/or AOL today on the Maria Shaw Show in the 11:00 hour to talk about OBE sex and some love magic. Tonight I will be on Global Psychics http://globalpsychics.com from 8 - 9 pm EDT to discuss gypsy magic and do on air psychic readings!

And on that note -- I'm back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Writing, Dreams Visits And Old Friends!

Oh boy -- so much going on here at the Allie household! I did finish another version of DREAMERS over the weekend and sent it in. This one is an improvement over the last (in my opinion anyways). So we'll see if this one will work -- or at least most of it;) In the mean time while I'm waiting for a verdict, I have another project to work on ASAP - it's the TV treatment for the series on Nickelodeon. It's gotten a two thumbs up thus far and I have to flesh out my ideas sooner - rather than later. So that's what I'll be working on every day this week. Don't be surprised if my blog posts are again sporadic.

Friday night I had a dream visit from a guy I'll call Al. We were on a sailboat, it was night and we were sitting on the hull (I believe that is the front - right - or is it the stern?), drinking some red wine. The air was cool - the water calm. We were both laid back, laughing away at something - his arm was around me and it felt like we had been friends for lifetimes. I looked at him and asked if it was all worth it? I was talking about his drug & alcohol addictions. He sat there for a few minutes in silence - looked at me and said yes. But would you do it all again the same way - if you could have a do-over? He shook his head - no, he wouldn't. But he would want the outcome to be almost the same as it had been - maybe with a bit more glory and money. I reminded him that if he wouldn't have had his addictions, he would have had more of the glory & money like his friends. He laughed and said - but I wouldn't have made people laugh as hard.

Al looked at me - really gave me a stare - if you know what I mean -- and I asked what he was doing? He replied that everything was going to be okay for me - that it was all working out as it should. I nodded. I asked Al that if I ever saw him in the physical world if he would know who I was. He sat for a minute -- and replied probably not. But you would peak my interest and I would want to know more about you. So eventually I would put two and two together. He told me to be ready for that - to brace myself for running into people that I've known and/or helped in this lifetime and before. Many people are going to want to talk to me without knowing why - and it will bother them on why they want to talk to you - but they will anyways. And as time goes on their fear will subside and they will be happy to speak with you without fear or hesitation. This includes Will you know - and Bill and Ted. I laughed and said - of course it does - kind of hard to separate me from them and visa versa. Al kissed me on the forehead and said it was great to see me again.

Then I woke up.

Saturday night I had a dream visit about Bill (he was also in a separate dream visit that night that I don't remember though), in the mail I received an announcement card with his business name on it (I think -- or maybe from one of his "people"). It was a light blue card in a light blue envelope.

When I took the card out of the envelope, in the center was printed "Congratulations". Of to the left was two stick figures (a man & a woman) holding hands. Under the couple it said "Bill and Allie forever", under that was signed "his initials and a little doodle". I recognized it as his handwriting and his favorite black Sharpe markers that he wrote with.

I was on the phone with his assistant and she said she didn't mail it - so it couldn't of come from Bill. I told her that he's a big boy and probably mailed it on his own - after all, he tends to do things when he wants to in his own special way. I was so elated to be holding this card in my hand -- so very happy that I finally had a sign that he "gets it".

I woke up with a smile on my face.

When Bill is around me more - he is around Tracey as well. I emailed her and asked "How's Bill" without telling her about my experiences - and she had plenty to say about him - lol. He must be in between creative projects or maybe is starting on one. But I'm glad he's back more often.

I had another dream visit Thursday night with this Hispanic male and it dealt with sex and condoms:) I'll write more about it in the OBE sex blog when I have a chance. But for now it's time to make dinner:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Psychiconair.com, Bill, Ted, Will And Destiny Markers!

Think Allie -- think. That's what I've been trying to do for the last several hours since my mom dropped on me that she cannot watch my son while I attend my conferences and do my talks & readings. Work changed her schedule and she cannot have a flex schedule. So she can watch him on the weekends - but Thur & Fri is out. But without Thur & Fri - there's no weekend. His dad is a no (besides the fact that he is completely unreliable - knowing that I was out of town he would take my son to see his children - this is a complete no-no and is in the divorce agreement. But he would do so and tell my son to lie - just like he did several years ago and my kid has horrible nightmares that I was going to leave him because he saw his two evil half siblings behind my back...anyways), my sisters - a complete no as well. I have no friends here - my neighbors are cool and would help with some things if I needed it - watching my son for several days is not one of them.

So what in the hell am I going to do? The only think I can do is bring him. But heck - how am I going to do readings if he is right there? And how can I talk about OBE sex during a workshop if he's sitting right there? UGH! I talked to my son about this and he said he'd do readings too - we can be a mother - son team. I reminded him he'd only be 8 at the time and adults probably wouldn't listen to what he had to say. He assured me they would - lol.

UGH -- I hate not having a plan. I'm a planner - I like plans. I'll figure something out - I always do. I just don't know what right now. I could win a lot of money -- or sell a script and then I could hire someone to watch the tyke while I work and take the both of them.

Speaking of scripts - I'm pretty damn determined to get DREAMERS done sooner rather than later (and no -- I'm not rushing it) especially after seeing Indy. I have no comment really except that Indy's crystal skull needed one of those head shrinkers from a remote Amazon tribe. But I say this as I'll be writing a lot over the next several weeks. Breathe deep if the posts aren't on scheduled every week. I will at least post twice because I have stuff that I need to share with everyone. I get crabby if I don't blog:)

But I will be able to share every week on The Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com! I'll be there weekly every Wednesday - starting today - in the 10:00 hour. Today we'll talk about OBE sex -- not sure what we'll discuss every week. I think it'll be a surprise. I'm excited to be a regular contributor. Okay - was just on - from 10:16 or so until 10:30. Chatted about the OBE sex and also the Magical Item of the Week:)

Bill. Man he is back and persistent. But he's not a pain. He's visiting me in my dreams every night - I know he's there - but I don't remember the whole scope of the visits. We are always with a group of people to start with -- we chat for a bit -- then either we are on a countryside or on a ship. None of the visits are draining - all are positive. During the waking hours he is also there, in my energy field, more on the fringe than close in my face. He's not draining - he's contributing. It's almost as if he's contemplating a major life change and he's hanging out with me while he thinks things over. Maybe he'll get married again like Ted did? I have no idea what it is - but I do know he's doing a lot of heavy thinking. He won't allow me any further into his mind, and I'm not pushing it. On the way back this morning from dropping my son off at school, Iris joined me. I asked her why is Bill back? She said he feels you're safe and comforting - he needs to think some things through. But what does he have to do about Will (because I can feel this also has something to do with him) and she replied - who is the one soul who is major competition for your heart - the one Will could worry about? I would guess either Bill or Ted -- she says no -- Bill. When Bill and Ted said bye to you many moons again - it is because Will is to be with you and your energy. They have stepped back out of respect for your twin connection to Will. Both men know that you and Will being together is needed in order for hundreds, many thousands of people to reach their next Destiny Marker. If the stakes were not so high, they would not have pulled back. And Ted wouldn't have felt lonely and gotten married - I add. Iris says - correct.

So since we all have free will - and this includes Will - what if he decides that our connection is too powerful, that it scares him, and he prefers not to deal with it. There's no "what if" Iris says, the Divine will keep putting you two together - or should I say, putting you in his path, until he says yes. This is something that has to happen - if not, then thousands of souls have to do this life over again - and none of them want that. If Will and I are some sort of key to something bigger - why won't you tell me what. Because you'll write about it in your blog, Will will read it, and it'll push him away even further. Besides, it's best if you two are on a need to know basis.

Okay - so why does Will and I have to be together for Bill and Ted? Because you and Will unlock something within one another, that once it is unlocked in you, it will unlock in Bill and Ted - then you 3 can move forth with your destiny. So my destiny with Bill and Ted is separate from what I'm doing with Will? Correct - separate but completmenory - you need both halves. Your destiny will not work unless both halves are activated and for that to happen - Will is it. Okay - so if I get this straight I have two seperate paths which lead me to my destiny in this life time. In this lifetime and beyond - Iris adds.

Then I arrived home and she was gone.

So what in the hell am I supposed to be doing while Will contemplates? His energy has pulled way back and walls have gone up. I'm not treading over there to find out what's going on specifically- what I feel is that he had to attend to some unpleasant things and is now just paying attention to himself. So - I will let the man be. In the mean time -- time waits for no one -- and I'm a busy gal. Maybe not relationship wise, but I have enough on my plate to keep me occupied and out of trouble:) Besides, with my son out of school - who knows when I'll have a moment of peace:)

I have been contemplating - again - studying past life regression. There's no one in this area that does it - no one. You either have to travel to Cleveland or Columbus. Both are about 1 1/2 away in good weather. I found that Dick Sutphen is teaching courses this summer in NYC: http://www.fellowshipsspirit.org/spiritually_based_hypno_plr.php but I run into the problem with my son. No one to watch him so that I can go get training. I have thought about a home study program. I just don't know. I do know that this is something I want to do - I just don't know how to go about doing it. Iris just showed up - she says don't worry about it, it's not on your life's path. You'll design a course of study for people to have improved sex lives via OBE sex - that's part of your path. Move on she says...

Okay - that was one way to take care of that. I still want to do it though - dang it:)

There's only so many hours in that day - speaking of which I got to move on to the next item on my list....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)