Bob, OBE Sex And Will!

Mercury Retrograde isn't due till Sept 24th - and let me tell you, it's kicking my ass already. My computer - grrr - my internet - double grrr and my wireless - &^^%$$#$%%^&**. That's all I have to say about that! Thankfully it hasn't cut the balls off of my good mood:) I'm so far behind on things that even with a telescope I can't see my large behind -- but I'm determined to get caught up. My alarm clock now says 5:00 am (it was 6:00 am) and next week if I'm not where I'm supposed to be - it'll go to 4:30 am. Any earlier than 4:30 and I may kill someone by 7:00 pm :)

Today on Psychiconair.com, before I came on at 9:17 am, Maria was talking about how the full moon brought out emotions. Well let me tell you - boy my emotions are causing havoc. But - they only jump out as I'm rewriting the BLACK TRIANGLE. I swear - I cry the whole time I'm writing - it's horrible. I'm thinking of rewriting the sex scenes just so I have something to look foreword to! But, I've recently become obsessed with the NBC show - 30 ROCK. I've already breezed through seasons 1 & 2 (thank you Netflix) and am now going through them again. If you haven't watched the show - it is so damn funny. Alex Baldwin is brilliant in this show. Tina Fey and her supporting cast are also excellent - but it's Baldwin that has me rolling. That show is making my rewrite move forward. Every time I get overly emotional - on comes 30 ROCK and I laugh myself silly. I need to write something that I could get that man to play in - he's great no matter what role he's taken on. What can I say? I've been a fan since BEETLE JUICE.

So BLESS YOU 30 ROCK!

Okay - moving on......today's chat on the Maria Shaw Show was great. We talked about my appearance at the 2nd Cosmic Convention at the end of October - the OBE Sex class I'm teaching as well as the séance that myself and Monica T are going to do! Maria brought up adding a class on Tantric Sex to the convention. I had been thinking about adding that element to my weekend OBE workshops. We'll see if we can fit it in - it'll have to be a very basic class!

Bob has been right there next to me now for a few weeks. He's this big hulking energy - very protective - VERY. I thought Will was protective (and he is bless his heart), but with Bob it's a massive amount of protective energy. A gentle giant -- that's a good way to describe Bob. Because although he is this massive energy and I can feel that this is something he's been exploring and learning more about -- he's also very tender - gentle. Andrew has been saying since Friday that I have to put Bob's real name into the blog and not use Bob. He's pretty dang crazy about it too. Seems that Bob has either already been by the blogs and thinks that he's Bob or he will soon and he has to know that what he reads is him. I wish you could see Andrew now - this usually very calm guide is jumping up and down like a crazed man. Do it now -- now -- NOW! He's being wow - vocal. I ask why now? He's says: why do the women in your family have to be so difficult (I have to smile on that one)? Don't ask "why" there's a reason.

Me - being me - had to draw a tarot card to see what I need to know about putting the name in now. I drew the Serpent - it's all about healing and knowledge. It's about understanding and taking what you know to transform your life - to shed the "skin" of the old and embrace the new with "new skin". Then I drew Burden: to release burdens to allow others to follow their path. That I carry weight that is not my own. I had to draw one more card - King: male authority - and sexual energy, The king puts one on notice to take affirmative action and to put their house in order (as something is about to change).

Okay - it's VINCENT. Not Bob. Vincent is his name. The reason I was very hesitant is because I can feel a female energy that is very attached to him through a karmic connection/past lives. This energy does not want anyone else involved in his energy. Of course - I know that the female energy knows I'm already involved. I can feel her on the outskirts. Andrew assures me that the female energy is not a problem at all - nor will she give anyone a problem. She may be very attached -but she is also kind-hearted and spiritual.

So sometime today Maria is going to send me the scoop on Vincent and when she does - I'll post it. I did feel much better using his real name - never liked using the fake name.

My son's teacher called me the other day to say what a wonderful student he is being this year! No trouble at all - a great leader and is setting a fine example for the other students. I knew my energy methods would work:)

Last weekend, my friend Pat and I went out. He's my friend from high school (the fire chief). We had a good time - it was nice to chat with him. I had forgotten how much in common he and I have. My ex, of course, dodged talking my son for the day like he said he would - and Pat was cool about me bringing my son with us. The kid was remarkably good - I was shocked. Of course - he does want me to get married again:) If Pat and I lived in the same state - I don't know - we might actually date. Of course he's about to move to one of my favorite states - Montana. I've been to MT at least 8 times over the last 10 years - simply love Big Sky Country!

George and Will have been trying to out-do one another in showing up in my visions & energy field. They're funny. One vision with Will is that he and I are in a room - some sort of meeting. I come in, shake his hand and say something like: Hi I'm Allie, I met you back in Feb in NYC at.......Will smiles and says oh I know who you are. How's your son? His gaze is very direct - like his eyes are looking through me when he says he knows who I am. We have the meeting or whatever we're at. Afterwards, I see him in the hall and tell him that my son and I are going to go grab something to eat - would he like to join us? He doesn't even think about it - he just says yes.

SIGH. I can't wait to see him again. I truly - truly - cannot wait.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bob And NYC!

For the last several weeks I've looked forward to watching "Burn After Reading" today. But did I? No. SIGH. My stupid movie theater doesn't have any afternoons shows when then kids are in school. Blah. Don't they think adults actually watch movies too? So now I have to wait until some evening when my ex has my son for more than an hour or two. I could do tomorrow - but I'm meeting an old high school friend for dinner. And before you ask yes - the friend is male. He happens to be a firefighter out in WY. Actually - he's a Fire Chief in WY. No - there isn't anything romantic here -- that's why we've been friends since we were 5. Besides - did I mention he lives in WY? I'm not moving there. Of course - he is trying to find a job in CA. Any ways - it will be nice to see him.

DREAMERS is a go with my manager and my manager's boss - and let me tell you, that man (as in the boss) is not an easy sell and he thought it was fantastic (give myself a pat on the back for that one). As Iris said - this will be the version that sells. Finger crossed! I brings me one step closer to Will!

I finished part one on Robert's list - I got the outline of the workshop complete:)

Now - remember Bob from a few days ago? He is making himself more known during the waking hours. His energy feels very protective - like a Knight protecting his Queen. In fact. I keep getting fast glimpse of me as a queen and he as my knight. But he was a knight who was very creative - very poetic and smart. He could read - and write marvelous poetry. My king was much older than me, a friend of my father's and I married him out of duty, to unite the two houses. He died protecting me from the enemies of my husbands. We were also lovers - as I can see him touching me very tender like. He had that twinkle in his eye when he looked at me.

So - Bob is here and no matter what I'm doing or working on - he pops up into my third eye. In this life - he is currently married for the 2nd time. He has a few children. The scene that keeps popping my my vision goes like this:

We're in Central Park. He and I are talking about life in general. About our wishes, dreams. I can tell by the way we interact that we've met like this many times. I tell him that he has to either make it work with his wife or let her go. It's not fair to either of them. And plus - I don't play second fiddle to anyone if I'm in a relationship. It doesn't matter how I feel about them. I have more respect for myself than that.

He looks at me, with a sidewise glance - so you do like me? Now don't take this out of context - I say. You just need to make it work - or leave because you want to leave. That's all I'm saying. So in order for you to get your head on straight - I don't think we should meet like this any more. I couldn't look him in the eyes - they looked -- wounded. Tears were hanging on - he struggled to keep his cool. Then - I hugged him. It was a long hug, nether one of us wanted to let go. I pulled away, and I had tears flowing down my face. He's like - you're crying -- you do care about me. I get pissed and start yelling at myself -- you had it under control - why did you hug him you idiot.

He wrapped his big ole arms around me - and it felt so snug and protective - like I was safe from the world. But I pushed away and told him good - bye.

I walked away - his eyes stared right through me. My legs felt like lead - it took everything I had to move forward and away from him.

Then the vision shifts -- I'm not sure how far after this happens.....a messenger comes to the studio and drops off an envelope for me. I open it up and it's a copy of Bob's divorce papers with a note - Meet me and Franks at 10:00 pm.

At 10:00 I walked into Franks - he was waiting for me.

Then it was over.

So being the person that I am - I looked up Franks in NYC and got this: http://www.frankrestaurant.com/ And this was it -- this was the place from my vision. I know I will certainly have to scope it out.

When I do meet Bob in person (and I know I will) - it's in that crowded room - I feel him staring at me - I immediately look right at him and when I do it's as if someone hit him in the stomach. He smiles - but I can tell there's that "what in the hell just happened" look.

Before I forget - I wrote about an OBE with Bob. I also asked Maria about him - I'll post the reading when I get it.

I got a new tarot deck today - The Wisdom of the Avalon. I drew cards for Will - Merlin & the High Priestess came up - I drew cards for Bob - The Grail Knight & The Bee. Both got the Spider card. So to make a long story short - I work on creative projects with both of them - with Will what I see will come to pass and with Merlin in the midst, everything will unfold as it should. With Bob - the bee brings good luck and the knight -- protection.

I have to work with this deck more - but what I see so far I like.

Damn -- just had an "ah-ha" moment. I was upset with Will becasue he pulled away. He was upset with me because I pulled away - and in his eyes I was "moving on". But it wasn't me or him that pulled away -- it was IRIS! She put a wall between us - it was the only way I would get DREAMERS done. Big fricken DUH ALLIE! See Will - I told you there's no reason to be mad at me.

Need to get to bed - I'm one tired pup!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dizzy Spells, Dream Visits And Bob!

What a holiday weekend -- my son's allergies and his congestion are pretty bad - but he's doing okay despite it. Me on the other hand - I don't know what's going on. Yesterday after we returned home from my mom's house, I got lightheaded and very dizzy. It was as if I had taken a drug and was feeling it's side effects. I tossed my cookies several times last night - but I found it was only after having to be up and walking. If I got up (and walked like a drunken sailor) and did anything - 30 to 45 min later I was hugging the porcelain God. This went on all Sunday early evening into Monday morning. So far this afternoon & evening I haven't had to run to the bathroom, but in place of it is a killer headache.

No one else that was at my mom's house is sick and my son is still going through what he had - nothing else new.

Which got me to thinking back to Bill & Ted. Any time something with them shifted or anything at all really in that period of discovery with gifts, soul mates, etc...I would get very lightheaded and dizzy. But it would only last a couple of hours tops - and it wouldn't be so bad that I had to run to the potty. So if something shifted in my life - what in the hell is it? Which of course had me think back during the day to see if any visions or anything happened that I should've taken note of. Which sent me back to my dreams fro Sat night/Sun morning. The last dream visit I had was with this guy I'll call Bob. He's been in my dream visit before - we're always very flirty in the visits. This time though he was sitting next to me and he was leaning in to give me a kiss. I told him that I can't do this because he's married -- that it's wrong. He said he knew that it was wrong, but he can't help himself -- the next thing I knew we were kissing - it was a great kiss. I broke off the kiss and the look he gave me - his eyes twinkled. There was someone going through the room and I thought to myself that we're partners, but now we're lovers too. And as I thought that he reached over and put his hand over mine - gave it a light squeeze. A jolt of energy went through my body and I shivered. Then I woke up.

During the day his face keep popping into my head - then the same scenario would follow in a vision: We were in a crowded room - we were all dreamed up, but not together. I'm talking with a group of people, I have a drink in my hand. I let my eyes wander the room for a moment when I see Vince staring at me - I stare back. For the rest of this event - I would catch him watching me, observing me. He was flirty with his eyes. Finally there's a point where I turn and he standing there next to me. He holds out his hand and introduces himself and then he says - we do know each other - don't we? And that's where it ends.

No idea. But we'll see if I remember any more visits with him during dream time.

I didn't get to the podcast today - I'll do it on Tuesday. I also have another long list of emails to return. Please be patient.

I need to get back to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)