Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

CJ, KS and Allie's Vision of Dying!

Another - I don't know where to start - blog entry. I would love to sleep -- for days if I could. It'll never happen. But I would like to get some much needed shut eye. I had two other energies move into my field and since then I might as well kiss sleep good bye. I can't get to bed before 1:00 am - no matter how hard I try - I just can't get there. When I'm in bed I go right to sleep. But sleep is just a facade as I dream travel all night long. It's exhausting. Between every dream visit I wake up - roll over - and go right into another visit. By time my alarm goes off at 6:30 am, it feels like I just laid down. I haven't increased my coffee - so my headaches are pretty strong during the day. SIGH. It makes it difficult to think. Luckily - when I do reading I don't have to think, I just let the information flow.

My son -- not only do I have to worry about his MRI/MRA on Monday - but now the kid got a one day in-school suspension. Seems him and another kid were playing "army" and my son said that they should "kill" another kid. The school took that as a threat and they have a zero tolerance policy. He's grounded until further notice with no X-Box, computer or iPod - plus I took all of his Nerf guns away. He doesn't "get" that what he did was bad - since he was just playing. I tried explaining it to him -- at least he's majorly embarrassed. Sheesh - the kids 8 - at least I waited till I was 15 before I had my 3 day in school suspension.

Darin (the cat) went to the vet on Monday. He was pretty sick, poor little dude. He was a trooper though and let the vet poke and prod him - give him fluids and shots. He's even being cool about me giving liquid meds 2x a day. Right now we're guessing that somehow he caught a virus from Little Black Kitty. Not sure how -- but that's the only explanation.

The script I wrote last week won't be done in time for the contest it was intended for. Although the foundation was solid - the execution was a train wreck. Yep - felt pretty stupid on that one. Oh well -- this weekend at the latest I'll get back to it and hopefully write something that doesn't sound idiotic. Now that mercury is direct, I'm sure I can.

Oh the readers comment about Sawyer on the last post (I think) -- oh yeah -- that man is hot:) He can be without a shirt all season if need be!

Maria Shaw just informed me that on Feb 13th, she and the guys will be back on CBS Psychiconair.com on Friday nights only from 6 - 8 pm ET. It'll be great to hear the 3 of them even if it's just for once a week.

Finger crossed - the show that was intended for Nickelodeon is making it's way to ABC Family. A meeting happens next week.

Now for these new energies. I have no idea what kind of baring they have on me - some sort of karmic tie I would suppose. The first one is CJ. He's a big guy, very loving, kind - yet extremely opinioned. His energy is romantic and sexual. In a way like Vincent's - that he wants to protect me - but not as rock solid as Vincent - if that makes any sense. CJ is also full of fun, creative and a lover of the outdoors. He's very sexual - but sex isn't something that's important to him. He feels that actions, outside of sex, shows a person how much you care for them. Sex is something that feels good - but is used for making babies.

Now for KS. He's energy is very high strung. Teasing - protective - loving - yet angry and can be violent. He loves deeply and when hurt it wounds him for life. His energy towards me is brother-like. Nothing at all sexual or romantic. It reminds me of a brother and sister who tease each other - beat each other up - but if someone attacks either one of them , the other would give their life to protect them. His energy also reminds me of a phoenix - someone who can reinvent himself and one who will also surprise people. Kind of like Madonna in the 80's & 90's.

So these two have been be-bopping around my energy field since last week. They take turns. I personally have had just about enough of both of them. I'd like to keep all energies at arms length for awhile.

I had the oddest vision the other day when Brigit stopped by on Imbolc to say Hi. She wanted me to stop working, close my eyes and pay attention. So I did just that. What I saw was CJ and I walking towards an elevator in a hotel. It was the penthouse elevator. Before I got to it I stopped, looked at him and said: You didn't. He's like - what'd I do? And I started rattling them off: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, George....they're up there, in the penthouse. He denied it - I knew he was lying. I refused to go up. We argued about it - my body was shaking and I couldn't control it. He led me into the elevator - we start to go up - when I blurt out that I didn't tell him everything. He said what -- I said - when we're all together I'm going to die. He hit the stop button on the elevator. I had to explain to him that I've had visions of me having a heart attack and dying once we were all in the same room (and I actually have had this vision plenty of times). It's vital that as soon as I have the heart attack - Will, Ted and Bill place their hands on me - while he performed CPR. Vincent and George needed to have paper and pen in hands - because as soon as I come back - I'll have information for everyone. Plus - make sure they keep yelling for me to get back into my body - because I'm not going to want to. He thought I was nuts. I asked him not to let me die -- and no matter what - he can't give up trying to bring me back nor can the guys take their hands off of me. He agreed.

As soon as we stepped out of the elevator I met everyone. 30 sec after I hugged George - I had the heart attack. I see myself going down - CJ jumps into control and tells everyone what they have to do. Everyone is doing everything on cue. I can't see my soul anywhere - but the feeling I had is that I knew I was close by and talking with someone. 2 - 3 min later I saw my body jerk like my soul fell back in and I sat up. I rattled off this place with white pillars and a large pool of water. Next thing I know - I see my grandmother - she tells me that everything has changed and not to be scared.

Grams leaves and then George's Aunt shows up (she's dead as well). We're having a convo - I'm told no one else can see her but me. We talk - I give George some info - then she hands me a red rose to give to him. As soon as I have it in my hand - it materializes in the physical sense. I'm shocked. Someone else who is deceased comes along - hands me something - as soon as I take it - it becomes real. This kept happening over and over again.

Then Brigit said I'd seen enough. I asked what does that mean? She said that my gift of manifestation will be in full force when I come back to life - somehow my NDE gives it extra power. And that was that....I sat there for awhile after this one thinking - WTF? The manifestation twist was a new one to me. And I kept thinking how could that ever be possible - if it's possible. Once something leaves a spirit's hands into mine - it becomes solid. That's just wild.

And on that note - I have to get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Guide Ambush, Energy Healing And Progress!

Man is it cold here. Last night it was 1 with the wind chill - 22 degrees F. Granted - not as cold as Minn or maybe the Dakota - but dang it was still cold. I felt so bad for Little Black Kitty (I really should just call him Salem). He wanted to come in so bad last night - and who could blame him? But I can't let a sick - un-neutered male - into my house. Thankfully, his eyes are starting to look better because of the garlic & vit C that I've been giving him.

I was certainly busy on the Winter Solstice. A lot of cooking baking, present wrapping and some more decorations up and out. By the time the day was over - I looked like a bag of powdered sugar exploded on me - lol!

When the day was over and I was looking forward to some shut eye - I was ambushed by my guides. Yep - ambushed. Before I knew it I had Andrew, Paul, Ethan. Edward, Robert, Jezell, Brigit and Iris. I'm like WTF?

I asked what's up? Before anyone could say anything - Iris stepped up. I said - don't get all over about the Cheryl situation. I can't help it. She said for me not to sass her. SIGH. I said fine - but that she didn't have to yell at me. She said she wasn't going to. Just that she'll be popping in and out because my life is about to do a 180. I asked if it is supposed to be a good 180? Because life isn't a bowl of cherries right now - I'd hate to see things go south even more.

She said no - not bad. It'll be like a dam breaks, and it'll take all of them - including her - to keep me on the straight and narrow. Sheesh - what in the hell is supposed to happen? Iris showed me a quick glimpse of airports, meetings, workshops and hotels. She said that's all I need to know. Iris said she'd be back and she left.

So I "looked" around to the rest of them - and Edward stepped up. He said that I need to keep sleeping now - and to work on my dreaming skills - to advance them even more. That's when Robert stepped up and said the OBE book needs to be done - the outline. It's overdue. That brought Jezell up to tell me to work on my manifestation skills and to be very VERY careful on where I decide to place my thoughts. Brigit was next and said that I have to start offering my healing - to which Andrew agreed. Paul told me to get ready because a new love is about to enter my life - Andrew agreed.

Andrew then said that something will happen before Jan 15th that will start the ball rolling in my direction. Ethan stepped forward and said he wanted me to write my affirmations in my journal - which I did.

All I have to say is we'll see what happens:)

The healing part I put in today's podcast. Healing and attunement information before I list it on the site at the start of the year.

It's so difficult to work with an 8 year old in my ear - lol.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And More!

It is so drab, dark and rainy here. Yucky - Yucky - Poo. Seriously.

The meeting of Santa Friday night went well. My son was so excited - just waving and jumping up and down to the Santa. He wanted to go say hi to him again this year. Santa was approaching us and I could tell he wasn't going to say hi to my son again so as he was right in front of us, I smacked his elbow and yelled - Hi Santa! He turned and shook my son's hand. The kid was on cloud nine for the rest of the freezing evening. It was so cold out - but he was so happy he didn't even notice.

The weekend was cold - but went well. I got some work done on the horror story - but not much. Robert is here bugging me to get the OBE outline rewritten. Andrew happens to agree with him -- and Paul just sits back and smiles. Paul smiles a lot. Last night he was in a dream of mine. My son and I were on this ultra luxury private jet. It was decked out. We were being shown around - when the pilot wanted to show my son the cool games on the plane. While they were doing that, I took a turn and ended up at this mini bar. Seated there was Paul. He looked at me and asked - how do you like it? I told him it looked great - pretty comfortable and appears to have everything anyone would want. He smiled - said Good - get used to it. I woke up. The image of the inside that plane stayed with me after I awoke. It was a white interior with blue trim. Besides that dream - I tossed and turned all night. By the time I did get out of bed I was pooped.

But back to the OBE book. As I was working on the outline I thought of a killer second book dealing with orgasms and sex. The 2nd book has Oprah and The View written all over it. I already have a title and actually I saw the whole workshop tour unfold before my eyes. It was so fricken cool. But I have to get this book done first. Mums on the title for #2 or what's it all about - one thing I will say it's good:)

Over the weekend I came across my old diary from high school. In it I found my old musings about moving to Asheville, NC. I always wanted to live there - been there several times and just loved the warm feeling. No matter where I went I felt a surge of positive energy. As I was reading my diary - for some reason Will popped into my head. Once there - he stayed for most of the day. He acted like a comforter, his energy being comforting, but not invasive. Later on that evening as I laid down to go to sleep, I felt him calling me into a session. I went and sure enough - there was that willow tree right by the river. Will was leaning against it, smile on his face. You look good - he said. I am good - I replied. Are you happy, Will asked. For the most part - I said - if tinsel town could get from 1st gear to 2nd, I'd be a lot happier. Will laughed. That's the way that part of the world works, he murmured, you either live with it or you don't and walk away. There is no in between. Well I guess I'm stuck - aren't I? He chuckled - sure looks that way. Go to sleep - Will said - and we'll catch up later. And that's what I did - went to sleep.

Vincent did stop by today and tell me how tired he is. I know he's tuckered out - which is why I haven't been pushing to make any sort of connection this last week. I could tell he needed some chill time - and could still use another week or two. But I told him that if he needs me - all he has to do is call.

There have been a ton of new people who have found this blog over the last two weeks. Seems that people are confused on who is what and if anyone is actually real. So here's the skinny for the newbies - everyone is real. I don't make anything up. If there is a connection to another person that I do not physically know in this lifetime (as in Will, Vincent, George, Bill or Ted) I confirm what I sense with a couple of other people before it ever makes this blog. I'm the type of person where something has to happen to me many times over before it causes a blip on my radar. And then I still need some sort of confirmation. SO what I write here are not elaborate fantasies to entertain you. If that's what you're looking for - you need another blog. I write what I do because there are people out there who have occurrences like I do - not exactly the same - but similar. Plus I know (intuitively wise) that Bill, Ted, Will, George and Vincent have al been to this blog at least twice. I also write so that they can find the blog - and compare the experiences to their notes.

Quick rundown:

Bill, Ted, George, Will and Vincent - soul group
Andrew, Paul, Robert, Jezell, Iris, Brigit, Ethan - spirit guides
Sean - new friend who Allie is fond of
Tracey, Sky, Gab and Maria - my psychic posse

And that's that.

I added Sexual Coaching to my list of services (and no, that does not mean I sleep with you) along with 2 new tiers of coaching - One Time Coach and One Week.

My sister is in New Orleans - I hate her (not really) she's having a great time......

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Lighthouse, My Prosperity Grid And Empowerment Classes!

Boy this week has been busy - just trying to get caught up has been a chore and a half! I'm heading outside today to give my yard some much needed TLC! It's in such a state of overgrowth. It's supposed to be sunny and 73 today - just perfect for outside work!

I'm trying something new with my son this week - laying on the stones. He doesn't sit still for very long, so I have been putting off doing it. But his aggressive behavior this morning warranted a try. I had him lie down - with a crystal point about his head pointing down: and a stone on each chakra: amethyst, azurite, emerald, citrine, honey calcite and a ruby - with another crystal point at his feet pointing down. He said immediately that he could feel like a burning from his head all the way down to his feet along the chakra line. He actually laid there for 15 min (I was impressed it was that long) and when I took the stones off, the ones at the brow, throat and heart were very warm to touch. He felt the most activity in his brow chakra, At 1st I had a purple fluorite there - but it was too strong and was giving him a headache - so I grabbed the amethyst and did a switch. I want to get a couple of big amethyst's for his room. I have tried to get him to wear one or to put it in his pocket - but he loses them all.

I'm going to do this with him once a day for while and see what happens. I also have to remember that no matter what he says or does - I have to control my anger as his energy absorbs it and then all hell breaks loose. I have discovered though, that he has been by dad in a couple of past lives. Hence why he has such a hard time listening to me and doesn't appreciate being "demanded" to do something. Demanded is his word - all I do is ask - and then ask again.

I had a nice chakra grid set up for Will during his healing with Tracey. I took it down this morning. I am very open and willing to communicate and meet/be with the guys on a spiritual level - anytime, anywhere. But as far as me trying to shift their energy so that they make physical contact - I'm done. I'm very firm with the "I'm Done" too -must be the Taurus in me :) They all know where to find me and if they ever want to talk - they know how I can be reached.

So after I took down Will's grid - I decided to do one for me (which is a first). I decided on a prosperity/abundance grid - when I laid them down I focused in on my career. In the middle I have a aventurine heart to represent me, along with a stauroliteutile (fairy cross) and rutile. Around them I have 3 malachite's, 1 emerald, 1 aventurines and 1 aquamarine. Around this I have 9 quartz crystals with the points inward. 3-6-9 are the stones.

I want to get a statue of Aphrodite and one of Brigit. Ever since Amy in NOLA suggest I call Aphrodite in to help me with my life, I have felt her very strong presence around me. Iris suggested that I find a stature in her honor - I told her that was fine, but Brigit deserves one too. She agreed.

I found the lighthouse that has been in my visions with Bill and Ted. I stumbled across it and knew immediately, that this was the one I saw: http://www.gallooislandlighthouse.com/ of course in my visions it is painted, fixed up - etc....but that's it. I about fell over when I came across it. My son and I were talking about lighthouses and he mentioned how he'd love to live in one - well I'd love it too - so I thought I'd look around, just for the hell of it. And wouldn't you know - it's for sale - for $295k. Actually - the whole dang island is for sale too (for something like $17.5 mil) - it would make a GREAT spiritual retreat - the whole island. With the lighthouse being the central point for healing, readings - etc..... Of course my son wants me to buy it right now (the lighthouse, not the island) -- I told him that I don't have the cash right now, but if we are to have it in this life, then we will:)

I have updated the Empowerment eClass page for Sept - new prices and a new class: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/empowermenteclasses.htm

The sale for Empowerment Coaching ends in 2 weeks. Buy now, use later -- just as long as it is by the end of 2008: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/empowermenteclasses.htm payment plans are available on all of the coaching plans.

Lastly - I have started an OBE Sex newsletter. It'll be bi-weekly and cover:

- A OBE story not found on the blog.
- New S.ex Position (do-able in both OBE & Physical)
- Sexual Energy Exercise- OBE S.ex Tip

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/obesex/join

Tonight I will be on:

The Unexplained World

From 10:00 pm EDT - 11:00 pm as to talk about OBE sex and guides/angels!

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/tuw

And on that note - outside I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guides, Three Goddesses And TMI!

TMI = Too Much Information for those of you who aren't up on the lingo. So much going on in the last 12 hours - I hope I can remember everything. Plus - every time I go to write - something else comes up.

As I was eating my bowl of ice cream (yeah, I know - good lunch), it dawned on me my dream visits last night. I forgot everything as soon as I opened my eyes - not even a fragment. But then as I was watching Las Vegas (TV series), a character reminded me of Montel Williams. Then it went from him to Sylvia Browne -- this is when a dream visit started to come back. I am in a large room with lots of tables - I know that I'm there to do readings. In walks Sylvia Browne - she had on a yellow dress - I called it a moo moo dress, which sounds really condescending - but I think that's what it's called. Anyways she says - you're Allie. I nod. She said - I need to talk to you. My 1st thought was - oh God, is something going to happen and she has to tell me about it? But no -- she sits down, I sit across from her and she puts out her hands. I hold her hands -- and just look at her. No one says anything -- then she says - well? I take it you're not here to tell me anything? She said - hell no. Come on, your psychic - why am I here? I take my hands away from hers and tell her that I don't have to hold her hands to get a vision. Then I tell her that I'm not going to tell her when she's going to die. Go look at her own records if she wants to know. She gives me that "look" - then says, quit being a smart ass. If they would show me then I wouldn't be here - would I? Now tell me because I'm not coming back again and I want to have time to tie up lose ends before I go. I tell her the date June 2011 pops into my head, but something will happen around June 2010 as well. She tells me - the June 2010 is you dear, and that is when you enter my physical life.

The next thing I know Montel Williams comes strolling in and I'm excited because I've always liked MW. Sylvia introduces us and tells Montel that this is the woman (meaning me) that will replace me. I looked at her and said - WHAT? She goes - you're not deaf are you? What about your son? I askd. He'll have his hands full running my church and the foundation. What about your daughter-in-law? She can write. A moment of uneasy silence. Okay -- and I start to walk away -- this is too much information for me right now. I see two teenage girls come in -- as I walked towards them I turn to Sylvia and said - the next time I see you, how about a little insight my way? She replied -- you and Will will be fine. I looked at her for a spilt second and smiled. I went to the girls who have sat down at an empty table for a reading. I ask them what I can help them with -- and the one teen girl with long dark hair reaches into her pocket and pulled out a handful of gold coins. I stared at them -- not really getting why she is paying me in gold. She puts her hands back in her pocket and keep bring out gold coins.

Then I woke up.

I may call these three - Jezell, Brigit, Galadriel - the trio of annoyances. Although they are not in my face as Edward and Ethan - they are still always "there" - saying stuff and giving me flash visions so that I know what's coming up. I don't know if I want to know all that is on the horizon -- it's getting pretty overwhelming. I can't even go to the bathroom without someone saying something. Do you know how irritating it is for someone to be whispering in your ear while you're trying to poo? I told them if they want me constipated, they're on the right track. They found that funny -- I wasn't being funny.

As I finished writing the above - all three arrived and said that they had to take me someplace. For some reason it felt like they were going to take me to someplace vitally important -- and I was right. We were in the meadow. My meadow - where I've only been there once (maybe twice) in the last 18 months. I asked why am I here? Jezell said that I have to be here - Brigit chimes in that this is my portal. My soul clusters portal. I reminded them that the woman who actually owned this land - and myself - do not speak to one another nor do I want to. I want another place as my portal -- not here. Again I am told that I have to be here -- that Will and I have to visit here - the physical here. I told them no @ucking way am I coming here with Will or with anyone else. The woman who owned this would not let me on the land and I'm not about to sneak on. Why - oh why do Will and I have to be here? Because this is where you lived in your last life together - said Jezell. What? I thought it was outside of Salem? This is outside of Salem, Brigit replied. But isn't it TOO far outside of Salem? No - Galadriel said, people came far and wide for your services. There wasn't a place in the New England states that didn't know about the two of you. Why do you think that the plants and flowers grown here now for flower essences work so well? Why do you think there are guardians? Why do you think that the right caretaker is here to service the light?

My head's spinning and I sit down against a tree. I do not make nice to anyone who tries to hurt one of my guys - it just isn't who I am. Jezell sits down next to me -- and she is not about to make nice to anyone who would harm the light she has been entrusted to watch over. But you are both wrong and eventually - you two will realize that. Do you not like her friend? The other one who does flower essence - I asked? Yes - her. Yes, I like her very much - she warm, loving and full of light. This one is condescending, full of herself and a know it all. There's a difference. Jezell smiles - you will both see the light, there is no other path to take. Great -- I murmured to myself. But she will not let us be here.

She will - in time - and you will not have to deal with her one on one - Will will be here and she will let you two roam long the meadow and respect your distance and privacy. Trust us - there is no other path to travel for this lesson. At this point there is no part of me that is happy with this realization. I start to object yet again when the earth opens up and rising from it is -- well, for lack of a better way to describe her - Mother Nature. She's tall, yet robust. She's clothed in white, long dark hair & eyes -- with a crown made of grass, twigs and flowers. A Robin sits on her shoulder (no idea where it came from). Her voice is low & soft, but commanding. She said - all of this earth which is mine and mine alone do I share with the earth dwellers who are determined to see it destroyed. There are many who have been called into service to protect the earth and all of it's inhabitants. She, the one on this meadow, is one of those light workers. But she does not own the land - I own the land and it is up to I who steps on a parcel and who does not. If someone steps on a portion of land where I do not want them, I unleash the weather and the bugs to show my wrath. No wrath will befall you or Will as you make haste to this parcel of my soul. You are welcomed here as it is part of your being - part of your light. She will allow this - the light keeper of this land - when the time is right.

From Mother Nature's right the goddess Hathor shimmers into view, on her left the goddess Isis. Brigit goes and stands among them - Mother Nature tells me that it is with these three goddesses am I to ascend to the next level. I'm to work with 3 goddesses? At once? Hathor told me not to panic. Who's panicking? I replied.

Jezell grabbed my hand -- come with me. We walk through a tree and now we're behind a stage. I could hear a lot of people. She points and I can see Will and I. Jezell said that this is the play that I envisioned for Will and I. People far and wide come to see this play based on eternal love. I watch Will and I go out of stage - Jezell whisked me through a wall and we end up behind another stage. She pointed towards the curtain and I peek through -- it's me - and the place is HUGE and packed. I glanced over at her as if to say -- no way am I doing this. She smiled and said - oh yes you will. What am I talking about - I ask? This particular one is about OBE sex - the one last night was dreams and tomorrows talk is about soul mates. It's a three-day sold out event. You talk 3 days in a row for 4 hours each time. You will combine all of this into one 6 hour show that will always sell out -- and at a high price I might add. You do have another show about telepathic connections, psychic gifts and astral travel. But it's way too much to cram it all into one weekend.

I have a headache just thinking about it all......

Jezell grabbed my hand and through a wall we go. Now we're at a set. This is DREAMERS Jezell said - this is what starts it all. You'll never stop making TV and movies - never. You always find a way to do this intertwined with your books and workshops. Rest now - because it's all about to go crazy.

Now we're back at the meadow.

Brigit approached me -- we've given you a lot to think about - and there is so much more to know - rest now and we'll talk later. They all disappear from view.

I sit down against the tree and let the sun shine down on me. Then I hear -- hello Sunshine. I open my eyes and it's Bill. I smile - hi Bear. He sits down down to me - never thought we'd be here again - did you? Part of me knew - I just hoped.....

I know, Bill said, but you want Ted to be okay, don't you? I look over at him - that's a stupid thing to say, of course I want Ted to be alright. Have you had any visits from him lately? Bill asked.

No - I don't think any on purpose -- but I was drawn to him late last evening. I could see him sitting on top of a castle ruin (like in a run-down tower) just staring off into space. Then he kicked the stone wall a few times and screamed at the top of his lungs - why do I keep fucking everything up? Huh? Why can't I choose correctly? And he was sobbing. Then the vision faded and I haven't heard anything. You?

Bill nodded -- this morning -- I saw him at my feet begging me for help before he goes too far and this kills him. What kills him? I asked. Bill shrugs - I don't know. But I tried to call him and he hasn't answered. Bill looks off to his right. He glances over at me and kisses me on the forehead. He gets up and said - Will's a good guy. He won't let you fall. I know - I replied. Bill gave me a nod and disappeared.

I know there's more that has happened - but nothing else is coming to mind right now. I wonder what the next 12 hours will bring?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with someone who I'll call Dan. I was surprised to see him. I know "of him" but don't actually "know him" in any sense of the word. He's not part of my soul cluster, circle or family. But I did recognize him immediately. Maybe a past life connection?

I entered into a very dark room. I could tell someone else was there. I said - hello? Then I heard his voice - I thought you'd never get here. Then a light from above (?) shown down and Dan stepped from the shadows. He had on a crisp white long sleeve shirt, red tied, brown dress pants w/suspenders. No jacket. His hands were in his pant pockets. A definite frown on his face. I'm supposed to be here - I ask? You were waiting? He nods. I've been waiting for months.

I didn't know I was being called - or I would have been here sooner. He cracks a small smile -- why do you think "Elliot" (I made up the name) has been showing up all over the place? And when you didn't see him - you were drawn to seek him out (very true I might add)? I didn't realize it until now -- was my response. Well, I'm just glad you're here - Dan replied.

How did you hear about me? I wondered. We all know about you - he replied. Who's we? I asked.

He waves his hands around -- we -- us -- everyone -- souls. We know that you help people. Word gets out. You're very well liked and thought of on this side.

Oh, okay. That's good to know. So what can I help you with?

My wife. I don't know what to do with my wife. She hasn't let me touch her in years and I know about her string of affairs. Yet I can't let her go.

Have you talked to her about it?

He nods yes. But she won't let me divorce her.

What's more important -- your money or your life?

He thinks about it for a few seconds. My life - he answered.

Then give her your money and move on with your life. That's the only way you'll find the happiness you crave.

Now I have no idea what happened next...but somehow we got to this next part....

He was lying down on his side, fully clothed, and I knew he was dreaming. I slide into his arms and he wraps them around me. He mummers about how long it's been since he has touched anyone. I tell him that he's dreaming, my name is Alison (not sure why I said Alison when I usually go by Allie) and I'm not his wife.

Then I woke up. So it was like we were in a shared dream visit, then the visit ended and I astral traveled to where he was sleeping.

Ethan just showed up and now Edward. Get used to it - Ethan says. Souls from all over will be asking you for aid - Edward chimes in. Is this a good thing? I had to ask. Yes, Ethan replies, it's part of your soul path. Be prepared for things to start moving at a very rapid pace - Edward says. It'll be as if a strong wind sweeps you off your feet -- you will not be manhandled, but things will move very fast, and when this cycle is over you will be set down gently.

The hard parts behind you - Edward says - and because of this, our time with you is now over. I felt my heart sink. Ethan kisses me on the top of the head (I can feel a tingle in my crown chakra and some pressure) and says -- we're never far away. But who will be here then? I could feel them just go -- with a good bye.

Two show up -- Jezell and Brigit:) Behind them Galadriel. I hear Jezell say - welcome to some serious female power. Those three laugh. And I feel and energy surge through my body.

Jezell wants me to follow her -- not astral wise - but with my sight. I do and I can see myself and my son on a plane - sitting first class. He's playing with his iPod and I'm working on my laptop. Get used to this - Jezell says. Embrace who have you become - Brigit chimes in -- and let us glide (yes, glide and not guide) you -- Galadriel says. I keep hearing the word "healing".

Jezell says - we'll be back in a bit. When you're working on the BLACK TRIANGLE. And they were gone.

So - I headed BACK to my Runes because obviously something has changed since yesterday. Asked now what cycle am I in?

Perth - reversed (initiation) - Present
Gebo (partnership) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

The old way has come to an end. Time to call in scattered energies and concentrate on myself at the moment. I need to keep my sense of humor during obstacles and rerouting opportunities. Also - keep positive while keeping my faith firm. A partnership is coming to me - love and/or business - and I have to be prepared not to lose myself in it. I have to remember that with this gift, that I have to remain separate and whole - no matter how easy it is to become one with the partner. This partnership will also lead me to the solidification with my higher self and with the Divine. There is no more doubt lingering. This union is where all my other gifts will flow though. With this I will continue to move down my soul's path. I have to remember to let the right action flow through me and it is brought to me for a reason. Don't fight it - just flow with it and all will work out as its supposed to.

Boy oh boy:)

I wanted to add - before I forget again -- that I got a couple of emails from people who are worried that I have placed Will, Bill, Ted and Matt on some sort of pedestal. Ahhh -- there isn't any worry here. They're men -- enough said:) Besides, we all have faults and limitations -- Lord knows I have my share of them:) At the core I am a very simple person who enjoys simple things (although I do like complex people) and I'm sure because of this -- my soul cluster is the same way. I wonder if we all sat around a camp fire - who would have the best ghost story? LOL.

Have a good day...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

812, Ted And Positive Thinking!

812. That's the number I keep seeing in the morning. Last Wed and then yesterday and today, I would walk into my bedroom after my shower - that's what time it was: 8:12. So I looked it up to see what it may mean and this is what I found: Continue your affirmations for abundance, as they're making your dreams a reality. Keep believing in miracles.

Works for me. As I mentioned yesterday I am working hard on thought control -- and I'm doing really well with it. If any negative thoughts pop in my head I am able to pop them right back out. And I feel really good now - the energy around me is very positive and productive.

Several months ago (sometime in the spring) I was reading an article about a guy who started a business. It seemed like a good business and I had a vibe that it would do well for him if he really put the time into it. More than that, I felt that this guy was a all-over good guy and I thought to myself -- I hope I can meet someone like him! Well -- I did just that. Actually - I met him, the guy from the article. He feels to be a nice person - kind and genuine. Who knows if this will develop to anything past friendship, but he's a good person. So I hope to keep him in my life regardless if he's a romantic interest or not. And before you ask - yes, he has read this blog -- and all of the other blogs too. He does have an open mind -- and I did tell him to ask any questions he wants, I'll answer. It should be an interesting chat. At least he lives here, in Wooster. I don't have to drive 30+ minutes to get to him.

I've noticed that when I do practice positive thought control, I am blessed with meeting new people. I'm always blessed with meeting new people, but the people I meet when I'm positive seem to reflect me (as like attracts like) so it's a great exchange of communications. I'm surprised though on how many people I meet on MySpace. I do not have a lot of extra time to email or keep up correspondence of any kind, yet people still find me on MySpace. Amazing.

Brigit came to see me today during a brief mediation that I did. She welcomed me and asked me to follow her. I did and she pointed to a large round window and told me to watch. I went up to it and I could see Ted throwing things out. Boxes of stuff with items just haphazardly thrown into it. The house was a mess. It looked like a hell of a fight went on recently. He had his back to me throwing stuff in a box. He stopped, rubbed his lower back, stood up straight and turned around. That's when I saw his face. It looked like someone threw something heavy at his left cheek. It was swollen and black and blue. He had a cut on his forehead - over his right eye brow. His eyes were blood shot and he just looked a bloody mess. I placed my hands on the glass and leaned. He turned right towards me. He didn't see me - but he kept staring in my direction. Brigit said - he senses your presence. Tears trickled down Ted's face. He stopped looking at my direction, wiped his tears, took a deep breath and took a box out of the room.

I looked at Brigit who said - he's finally had enough. He sweeping out the old to usher in a new life. He has felt your light and it has healed him. Don't give up on Ted -- he's never been at a lower spot and you are the only person who can get him through it. His soul feeds off of your soul - but not in a harmful way. Keep positive and not only will your life alter, but so will his. Never lose sight of the end result, It can be too easy to get lost in the what if's and the details. You're going in the right direction. You all are.

And that was that.

It is good to hear that Ted is getting things straightened out. He's long overdue for a fresh start. Fingers crossed that this new start doesn't land him in a bigger hole - I'll remain positive that it won't:)

Will is always close by my side. I can hear his voice acting like my muse. I'm grateful that we've been able to shift his powerhouse of energy into creative workings instead of only telepathic & dream sex. It makes my days much more productive.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Good Morning Beautiful And Guides!

Will must meditate in the morning or at least set time aside for spiritual growth, since the connection is growing so much stronger. I was in the kitchen this morning - about 7:30 am EST, when I felt a tingly wave come over me - then butterflies in my stomach. I could feel him, his energy felt like a big fluffy comforter wrapping me on a very chilly day. He smiles, and it causes me to smile.

A smile already and I haven't even jumped into the shower yet.

In the shower he as there, but not there. I could feel him trying to stay strongly connected, but that someone or something was pulling his attention away. He must have moved because as I have 1/2 way into washing my hair I here - Good morning beautiful - in that southern drawl that I just love. I told him about my sister being down in NO today and that he needs to be on Bourbon St. tonight. He's like - really? He said he'd make a point of being out tonight for awhile. I mentioned that if I know where she'll be I'll put it in the blog, he said with work today he won't have a chance to get online. So he wants me to telepathically give him places. Okay I told him:)

We talked about him coming up here and how he couldn't make it before the new year. He kept repeating my address:) Of course as he talking to me he's kissing on me too. I kept thinking about what Tracey said about us -- and I couldn't help but laugh. He's like - what are you laughing about? I told him to read the blog. But the telepathic sex continued and I found myself responding just as I done the day before. Only since I was prepared for it this time - it didn't throw me for a loop. That said, I still was very pleasantly devoured - lol.

Funny - I had a few people yesterday get in touch with me and mention - in nice flowery terms - that my muse is alive and well and I can tell a great story. I assured them that it wasn't a story and even though my muse is alive, it wasn't my imagination working overtime. But do I care that people don't believe me? Nope. However, I do feel a touch sorry for them as if they think it is all in the imagination (and in my opinion, imagination gets a very bad rap as people take imagination = fantasy and they are TWO separate things...but anyways), then they will never have the courage to go forth and try it for themselves. And let me tell you - even if you try a telepathic connection or sex half assed - it is still an interesting experience!

My guide Edward just came and chatted into my ear - wants me to concentrate he said. No messing around, no letting myself get distracted. He said, Will's on his way and when he gets here (2008) I have to be ready or his arrival will be delayed. Do I want it delayed? I assured him no - then no distractions. Check boss.

Brigit has also stopped by -- this was odd as she hasn't been around in while. She wants me to follow her - so I do. She shows me a window, in the window I see Ted. He's piling stuff into a box. He's using his arms to sweep stuff off of a dining room table and into a box. You saved him - she said. You're intervention has freed him from her grasp. He's moving on. Be prepared for him to have more of an impact on your life.

Will showed up -- out of the blue - told Brigit - she's not going to him. She's mine. I turned to Will and said - I'm "belong" to no one. That's not what I meant - he said. I mean that you're mine, your my girl. I said - yes I am. But as being part of Ted's cluster, we have a responsibility to both him and Bill - not to mention Matt. I know - Will said - I just lost my head. He gave me a kiss on the cheek and said - I need to get back. And he was gone.

Brigit looked at me and I shrugged. She laughed and said - he really loves you. You're home to him. I smiled - I know. But what about Ted? Bill? All in due time - for now, you continue to be their white light - their power grid. Will is where you must be right now -- it is something that you know and understand. Yes I said.

Edward showed up - let her get back to work. Brigit laughed and said - you've always been the iron fist. And for a reason - Edward bellowed. LOL -- guides.

Everyone left and here I am.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, Edward, Bill, Ted And More!

Can you say AMEN! The DREAM book is finally done and at the printers! Out of the 4 gypsy magic books - this one is the best. I love talking about dreams and astral travel! This is just in time for my divorce hearing next week. Remember, I kept being told in order to go to the next stage in my life, the books had to be done? And -- I had to be divorced? Well -- there you go. Robert - my guide - is such a happy little clam. Now he's pushing me to get going on my TV pilot DREAMERS. And I have to say - yes sir - on this one -- cause every fiber of my body is telling me to move it. I asked Robert -- what about The L Word or Tell Me You Love Me or even The Dead Zone -- what about writing for them? He tells me not to get a head of myself. Damn. At least it wasn't a no way:)

Bill is something else. I swear. Just sitting back, trying to get to the center of me - of my mind - on purpose. He has that need to be "right there". I don't mind it though, he's a creative soul and his muse just melds with mine. I had a really wicked idea for a story that involves Bill, me and other dimensions -- maybe add in the co-dependency of Ted. A supernatural, love, erotic story thriller with violence. It just flowed out from me to my notepad as an outline. The more I think about it -- the more I think about what a kick ass story this is. One thing at a time Allie -- get DREAMERS done 1st. Work on the OBE Sex book next. Of course -- the OBE sex book would flow well with the story. I'd call it an erotic thriller - the new story - not the OBE book.

I have to shift my focus.....

Will. He keeps popping in and out to say - hey - if you have a moment I'd like to remind you that I'm still here. I have something on the table and should be out the door next week in order to get a hold of him. Every fiber of my being knows that as soon as he gets it, he'll act on it. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off -- kind of like the oh crap - what do I do now? But now, it's not a crap - what do I do? I know what to do -- and I can do -- that is a very freeing feeling!

I've been trying to focus in on Ted the last several days -- but Bill won't let the connection last very long. So today I'm going to blast through (so to speak) and send Ted some energy. He's really low on the energy -- he gets this way if he and I haven't been connected in a while. He/we could have the on connection always like Bill and I have graduated to - but Ted still has some issues to work through before he can get to that stage. He close - so close -- but not close enough. It would help matters if he would just dump the soul-sucking vampire he's been with the last two years. But he hates to be alone. When I asked Ethan about this - I'm single now - if Ted knows this (and he does) then why doesn't he dump the negative entity and contact me? Ethan tells me that Ted knows there is no way in hell Bill would sit back and let this happen. And Ted's love for both you and Bill far outweighs the love he has for himself. That said, he prays that you both will allow him in your lives as a good friend.

I'm amazed on how much my gifts have grown over the last year. You might have noticed that I no longer have to do a session to get messages or see visions/images. I never had to do a session when it pertained to doing a reading for someone. But when it dealt with me and my life - I always had to hit a session of some sort in order to extract information. It's nice that I don't have to now. At least there's something in my life that I don't have to work so darn hard at any longer.

But that aside - I can feel the pull of a handful of guides - so it's just easier to go into a session.

As soon as I started, there was Ted, bigger than life. But he was back a bit - stuck in a haze or mist. I could hear Ethan tell me to raise my energy as high as I could get it. I just stood there and stared at Ted -- his energy aura around him was weak and what was there was a brownish black. It was heart breaking to see someone in such a stage - especially someone like him who has such a giving heart. Ted laid down on a bed (not his - he's not at home). With my feet planted firmly on the ground, I imagined a plank of energy going around me - slow at 1st and as it increased speed I increased the distance of it from my body. As the plank moved out - a white energy hugged the middle between us. As that moved out into the ethers - I placed myself in a glass tube, having it close to my body and started it to go around clockwise. Faster and faster it went - still relatively close to my body. On the outside of that tube - I took another glass tube and made it go counter clockwise. When my energy is being raised to this level - my tummy always feels really odd - like I'm heading down that 1st roller coaster hill. When I can feel my astral body wanting to go exploring - I stop the energy raising. I focused my energy to go out through my hands and into Ted. As the energy moved into him - he groaned and tossed and turned, finally resting on his back.

Not sure how I got there - but I was straddling Ted, with my hands on his chest looking down. His eyes flew open and it was as if he could look right at me. His green eyes seemed to grow wide and looked onto mine. He said "Oh God Allie" and I was whisked back out of there - back next to Ethan. I watched as my energy infused Ted -- making all of the brownish black drift away. His energy aura grew in size and strength. A blackness left his body from the middle of his back.

He got up and walked over to a pill bottle. He stared at it for a few seconds, opened a drawer and threw them in. I looked at Ethan and he said that they were tranquilizers. Ted walked out of the room.

I turned and there stood, Ethan, Robert, Jezell and Brigit. I asked what did I do to garner so much attention? Robert said that they were there to let me know how proud they are on the progress I have made. Brigit said that the 4 of them will be right next to me, helping me through the next step. It's time to progress further - Ethan commented. Jezell told me to turn around ,there there was someone new I had to meet.

I turned and was face to face with a man in violet. He had on a long - velvet-like violet robe, open in the front. Underneath he wore an outfit of white with a high, but open collar. His hair is pure white and very short/cropped - almost like a business man's hair cut. His face was chiseled - high cheek bones and dark blue eyes. He extended his hand and said that his name was Edward. I looked at him and replied - but haven't we met before? In this life? He smiled and said yes - I'm glad you remembered. He tells me to walk with him.

As we walk I can see Bill right next to us following us. I comment about Bill and Edward said that I'd better get used to it. Bill will always be on the outskirts of my energy just like I him - when we are not physically in the same room. It's our telepathic connection - it's an constant "on". I asked about the man I saw a glimpse of in all red. Edward tells me that he is Abraham and I will meet him next - when the time is ready.

We arrive in my magic room - the one where Merlin always is. And there he was - Merlin. I asked why am I being doubled teamed? Merlin laughed and said that Edward's the brains and he's the brawn of this operation. Merlin chuckled - Edward didn't.

I am told that the time is now for me to expand in to greater magical practice. Edward said that what I do - my purpose in this life - will affect everyone on the planet. Merlin jumped in and said that I must get a hold of Will - there is much to do. Will and I are to start to come here - consciously (as we have been for some time unconsciously) to our magic room and start to prepare. We are to do our magic on the astral level. I asked about the physical level - Merlin said that yes it would work - but the real power is not in the 2 dimensional physical world - but in the multi dimensional world of the planes -- which is accessed astrally. Is there anything I should do 1st? I asked? Get Will to call you - Edward replied. They didn't care how I do it -- but it must be done now. Time is of the essence. Will and I need to be in conscious, physical contact. It's not a need or a want -- it's a must.

I asked if this has anything to do with bring Atlantis back into the physical dimension. They tell me that in time all will be revealed. Don't get ahead of myself.

And with that the session was over.

Gee - nothing like adding the pressure on!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

FYI - Who Is Who...

I have had a heck of a jump in visitors to this blog. For the most part I do not use real names unless indicated. I know that there are a lot of names that I do use and for newbies to this blog - it can get mighty confusing.

So here is a cheat sheet:

MICHAEL, RAPHAEL, GABRIEL, HANIEL - Archangels

ETHAN, JEZELL, ROBERT and HANNA - Spirit Guides

BRIGIT - Goddess

GALADRIEL - Fairy

BILL and TED - Soul mates

WILL and MATT (real names) - Soul Cluster

LARRY, CLIVE, PETER, DC (new one) and just about anyone else male I've mentioned - Members of Soul Circle

CINDY - Tracey (her real name that I now use) my intutive friend

If I've forgotten anyone - post a note and I'll explain.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Information Overload, A Magic Room And Alison Ashby!

I'm running way behind today. I had an important meeting that lasted a few hours and before that I needed to make sure I was set for it before I did my session. I sat with my healing wand and was taken to a very bright light. In that light I saw Bill and Will. I asked where have they been? They both answer - working! I asked why are they here. They don't know - they were summoned to be here for support. Where's Ted - I ask. No one seems to know as he was summoned too.

A blinding light comes before us. It is swirling horizontally. From it stepped Merlin, Brigit, Ethan and Jesus. I was immediately put on guard. I asked what did I do? Ethan comes forth and said that I had done nothing wrong. That it was time for me to see something for me to believe in me. I asked about the people coming into and out of my life recently. What is the purpose of it? Ethan replied that everyone comes and goes when they are supposed to and that I should not try to intellectualize their purpose. I need to roll with the changes and accept them for they are all in my higher good. The people that I am meeting are helping me take that next step - as I am helping them take theirs. It is all that I need to know.

Ethan, Merlin, Jesus, Brigit step through the light and ask me to come with them. I turn to Bill and Will and they just wave -- see ya! Gee thanks guys.....

So I enter and I exit in a magical room that I have been in before - the one that is in a castle. It has books everywhere - a big wooden table. Candles, jars of herbs, vials of oils and flower essences -- crystal and stones are everywhere.

Merlin speaks up and asks if I remember this room? I tell him yes - I remember it from visiting him here once. He asked if I remember anything else about it - does anything feel familiar to me? I say yes most of it does feel familiar. Brigit asks if I know why that is? I replied from when I was here before and I'm assuming that some of this is familiar from reading about it in books or maybe seeing them in movies.

I am told no - this room is familiar to me because it is my room - my magic room. This where I have come for thousands of years to perform my magic. I do not need the physical objects that human's use on the physical plane. I have always done my best work from the higher planes. I had visited this place before because the powers that be wanted the seed of this place to awaken my gifts. And the gurus that are here all agreed that it has indeed happened.

Brigit grabs my hand and took me to a room off this magic room. It is very long, wooden floor and has many swords, axes and knifes on the walls. She tells me this is where I practiced fighting. Then she took me to another room off of the magic room and this one has a calm glow to it with many crystals -- feel peaceful. She tells me that this is where I go to heal people.

She takes me out to the magic room again - and I must look like a deer caught in the headlights. Jesus steps in and tells me that as a Goddess, I worked magic here with Will - practiced battle with Ted and healed with Bill. As I had 3 sides to me - this is why I had/have three mates. I still rather stood there like a deer in the headlights.

Ethan stepped up and told me again about the OBE sex -- and how it needs done NOW. I just nod my head in agreement.

Merlin pulled me over to the long wooden table and told me to cast a spell. Any spell. So I did do one - on things moving the way I want them to. When I cast the spell, I could feel the electricity move through my physical body -- it was so strange. Then he told me to do one more. And I did about money -- again with the same electric zing through my physical body.

I told them that I've learned too much on this trip and that I wanted to go back home. Information overload. So they bid their farewells and told me to go back through the light. I did and Bill and Will were there. They each told me good bye and I was done.

I really do think that I am getting too much information. Too much for my human mind to grasp. No wonder I'm tired:) But it is food for thought.

The last couple of days Bill has been showing up more. Not all the time - but more often. It's nice to see him. He's a source of comfort. Of course some times he's a source of aggravation -- but it's been a while for that.

If any of you follow me as Alison Ashby in The L Word in Second Life - I'm being auctioned off for a good cause tomorrow (Thursday ) night. Stop by and bid on me and help support the gay and lesbian community:) Info on how to find me is in the side bar:)

I'd better run for now -- too much to do and not much time to get it all done!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE Sex, Bill, Ted, Will And A Goddess!

What a weekend. I got a lot of work done - thank goodness. Although not as much as I needed to get done. But one step at a time:) My sister is still pregnant. We had a false alarm over the weekend -- but that kid is still hanging in there.

I had an intense chat with my guide Ethan and the Goddess Brigit. This chat came about after a friend connected with me - telepathically - to remind me how much strength I have in my soul. How powerful my energy really is and what I can accomplish. When Ethan and Brigit showed up, he disconnected. The chat with these two was very - mind opening and intense. So mind blowing to me that I'm not really sure what to make of the information. It appears that I am a major Goddess that comes back into human form because of love and because mankind does not have the right view of "me". I guess I'm not the type of Goddess/person you would want to piss off:) Now they said which Goddess and all, but I'm not real comfortable talking about which one. As I said - this is hard even for me to swallow. But it makes sense - especially with Ted, Bill and Will and the connections there. And it makes sense with all of the warrior images I have had - and the past lives as Joan of Arc and Cleopatra. I don't know - I don't know - I don't know. I'm supposed to change the view of mankind towards this Goddess/me and finally have the love connections that have been denied. SHRUG. We'll see. I'm sure at some point I'll tell you more -- when I know more.

Now someone asked a question in another blog entry about astral sex and telepathic sex. Isn't there some sort of astral connection during telepathic sex? In short - no. I tried to explain the 3 types of OBE sex below:

Astral/dream sex: To become sexually aroused and engage in energetic sex with another person's energy. In the astral/dream state, energy can be manipulated to a point where it feels and looks like physical body parts are merging -- but they are only energy and not actual physical parts. This can lead to an orgasm in the physical body, although this is rare. In most cases a person would return from their astral travel or wake up from a dream and be so sexual turned on that they would have to take care of it upon waking and it would be a MUST to take care of, this isn't something that you can walk off. If they are involved with a flesh and blood partner - the partner benefits from this astral turn on by engaging in physical sex with their partner.

The biggest difference between astral sex and dream sex is that with astral sex you purposely have your astral body separate from your physical body and you are awake during the act. If you have shifted your consciousness to your astral body and then shift it back when your astral body merges with your physical body - then you will remember a good chunk if not all of the encounter. With dream sex, your astral self parts during your sleeping state and your conscious mind is in a state of rest - that is unless you practice lucid dreaming or as I say dream visits where you are in control of your dream -- then your conscious mind plays a bigger part in the whole experience and you remember more upon awaking.

Telepathic sex: There is no astral body merging in this one. Your brain is your #1 sexual organ. With telepathic sex, you are using your brain power only. Your brain waves connect with another's brain wave in your minds eye you can see and feel the sexual act taking place. Think of this as real-time sex without the physical merging. With telepathic sex, the odds of having an orgasm are very high as none of your energy bodies (astral, mental, emotional - etc...) are separate from your physical body. Can you tell if you make the connection with another person or if it is just a fantasy? Yes you can. How? Just as you can tell with a telepathic communication - you have that zing of energy and a warm flow over your body (other people have been known to get a headache or tremble) when you have that telepathic connection. If this factor is missing in the telepathic sex, then you are simply having a fantasy and not the telepathic sex.

I like to think of telepathic sex as an intense day dream. Out of the 3 - I like telepathic sex the best - only because you can have a real-time orgasm:) And - you can remember the most if not all of the encounter.

I asked Tracey a couple of weeks ago if Bill, Ted and Will could feel what's going on with me. If they are conscious of the changes in my life? This was her reply:

Bill is very sensitive to your emotions and he is feeling the depth of sadness within you and it is affecting him physically and manifesting in chest pains, and troubling sleeping, some depression, and cold like symptoms, tiredness. These are not conscious thought. He is journaling his experiences on the astral, and dreams, vivid visions and meditation experiences. He is writing his experiences formulating them into something that will be of importance or interest later as in he will share these with you. He seems to be trying hard to reach out to you but he feels that you are responding to him. He seems to be able to meet you consciously on the astral plane now, is able to communicate with you and is handling this well, is intrigued by it and trying it perhaps more than you have energy to expend right now. He seems sad when he feels he cannot make a connection to you. His sorrow for you is great. He does not like that your light seems so dim right now. I see that if this continues he may be very angry, almost as if he thinks you are ignoring him or will not let him comfort you.

Ted is totally connected, aware, consciously of your sadness, and the feelings of overwhelm, struggle, anxiety, panic, worry, and feels compelled to help you though feels that he is to stand back at this time. He will only be able to hold out on contacting you until the end of the summer, but he may contact you sooner if you continue to feel this deep fear and worry. Ted does not know how to deal with you being down and out and he wants to relieve your problems, worries, he has a strong urge to fix it, to help you and he does not know how to support you so much in terms of emotionally as he feels a basket case in this area himself, but he knows he can help you on a financial level and I sense that he may try to do this, though is uncertain if you would accept his help. I sense that he knows of a way to get money to you in a way that you will accept the money, and I sense this has to do with a wire transfer or internet transaction directly to you. I hope this makes sense to you in some way.

He believes he can send it in such a way that you may not know paper trail wise that he sent it even though intuitively you may know that he sent it, but either way his desire is that you accept it and continue to work on your writing so that you are in a better position. There is a place inside him that feels you are so strong and independent but are feeling so frail right now and though you are low in spirit he is not sure you would accept his financial help direct so he wants to be sure you get it and this is something he is mapping out in his mind, if you will. Perhaps this is some of the unexpected financial help.

Will and Ted will come into your life in the physical on or around the same time, perhaps together, or within a short time, and this is for a purpose, one that is not being revealed, but perhaps you already know the answer. Part of the purpose is to help you through this situation, not just in way of friendship, emotional support, but also financial support and providing contacts that you need to help you to excel in your aspirations for the future.

There are many feelings stirring within Will and though he is not consciously connecting them to you he is feeling grief, outrage, the sting of betrayal, relating it to a past experience in his own life, and he is wondering why he is thinking about the past, as he has certainly felt over this situation. So, he is in tune with you and your emotions, soulfully, but is not aware of where the feelings are coming from, rather feeling they relate to self.

This helps to explain to me why Ted is always around and why Will and Bill seemed to have just vanished.

Everything will work because it's supposed to - right?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

A Nightmare, Life Force And Ted!

What a weekend! Easter was fabo..and my ham was even better than that! Best one to date I believe - the ham that is...not the holiday:) I also spent some much needed down time playing my Lord of the Rings online role playing game. Man...it rocks:) I forgot how much I enjoyed playing a RP game. The other part of the weekend had me ripping apart The Black Triangle -- again. It's been rearranged, torn part and looking damn good about now. I have a few more things to change on it which I'll work on before I host the L Word's Monday night sex chat as Alison Ashby. It's nice as now they have two of our stories playing during the chat in case someone wants to listen. The two tonight I wrote both of them.....so I'm kind of partial to people listening to them. More info on how to join us for FREE along the right side bar of this blog.

I had actually started to write this entry last night as Brigit keeps tell me to relay this nightmare I had -- one that is way too vivid in my mind. I hate these type of dream visits, especially when I'm an observer only and not able to change anything. Okay -- so there are a hundred or so people in this very old and very large house. It actually reminded me more of a small castle than a house. The two that live there, a young couple in their 30's, are the life of the party. Everyone loves them and everyone is having a great time. There is an abundance of drugs and booze floating around. I'm watching all of this and I ask myself -- how did these two get so much money -- especially since I had this sense that it was old money, old money not from either one of their families?

Someone shows up next to me - all in white and asks if I really want to know why. I feel a sense of dread grow in my stomach, but my curiosity got the best of me so I say - yes. I see the house rewind in time a year earlier. There were many people around, another party. The young man was coming into a lavish bedroom with a huge 4 poster bed made of cherry, with a deep red comforter. It was a great room and a great bed. There is a woman lying in the middle of the bed, asleep. She has long dark hair, a long but elegant nose. Fine features, thin body - but healthy looking. She's on top of the bed like she passed out -- wearing white shorts and a pink short sleeve shirt. The man takes a glass next to the bed and places it in the base of a planter.

The woman is barely conscious. The younger woman I saw with him in the future comes in and they put this woman on a large rug -- the kind the mob would use to roll a dead body up in. The older woman tries to struggle, but she is powerless to do much. People are coming in and out of this room, but no one seems to be helping the woman. The two younger ones place liquid cement in this woman's nose and mouth. Then they roll her up into the carpet and walk away. I can see the carpet move as she struggles to breathe. Her legs kicks out, I can see the bottom half of her. I can feel her life force draining from her and I'm filled with this severe panic. I know (for some reason) that a certain being should not see me here observing as harm could come to me and my family if I am caught witnessing this. I guess that I am also this woman's assistant (somehow...I don't know) and I have a great affection for her in this life time. Seeing her die and not being able to help her is just killing me. I scream that I've seen enough and everything is fast forward to the present where I see the young - married - couple enjoying this dead woman's money. Seems that her death was ruled natural and he inherited everything.

What I don't get is how did they get the hardened cement from her nose without leaving any evidence behind? And why am I watching all of this? What purpose is it to me? All I have to do is think about this dream and it make me ill. So there you go. I was just told that the purpose is not for me but for someone who will read this blog. It will strike a cord with them.

Lately I have been able to tastes Ted's essence -- and don't get all dirty minded there -- I mean it, his life force--I can feel it, taste it, smell it. He is very here all the time now. There's such a change with him and Will. I can feel either man touch me while I'm awake, while I'm going about my day-to-day things. The touches aren't sexual in nature, but small energy caresses to let me know that they are here. Ted consciously is seeking me out. He knows where I'm at, he knows how to find me -- and he has a hard time understanding all of this. But he willing to take a chance on something because so far his life choices (in love and in friendship) haven't really been all that good. I think that he is tired of feeling like he does and that is why he is willing to try this. Will on the other hand is also reaching out consciously -- but he does not know it's "me". So in his conscious mind he is searching for the energetic spiritual body of someone who he has this longing for. He has no idea what I look like (unlike Ted) so he does not have a face to go along with the energy. Since Will is higher up the spiritual food chain than I am -- and he did find me to begin with -- I am positive that he will figure this out. Even if he arrives at this blog "by accident".

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Secret, Dream Visits And Validation!

About a month or so ago I asked my Goddess Brigit, if I could have some sort of validation for what I see or what I do. On any subject I asked - just something, somewhere so that I know I'm on the right path. Well, ask and you shall receive...

I have been telling my clients for over 20 years how important thought is to their lives. You are what you think -- your reality is created by your thoughts. For those of you who have been reading this blog for awhile, you know how many times I have said this. This is one of the major reasons I stopped casting spells for people and wrote my Gypsy Magic books - their energy (because of their thought process) was the most important energy for the spell to work. So why pay someone else to do a spell when the most important part is you?

Just a couple of weeks ago I got blasted by a client of mine when I tried to explain that if she changed the way she would think, then she would change the way her life is evolving. After letting me know that I was full of more shit then she just dumped into her toilet ( I know, nice visual huh?).....I saw that Oprah show about "The Secret". What is that secret you ask??? Well if you don't know by now it is the law of attraction - you are what you think! HA! Validation -- I did the happy dance. I have been right all these years -- I have been telling people the right things.....I was so happy to know that I was on the right path. Granted - there is nothing in "The Secret" that was news to me -- nadda - zip. It was the validation that made me so happy and the fact that Oprah believed it made it that much more sweet.

Long readers of this blog will also know my tales of dream visits. I have been dream walking and visiting others and the deceased in dreams for as long as I can remember - all the way back to age 4. This little bit about me has been very hard to convince others that this is possible - that I can do this and I know so can they. Out of the hundreds of books I own and the thousands that I've sifted through - there has not been one book to validate what I experience. No way for me to show someone else that it is not all in my mind. You know me with things -- I am a skeptical person until I can some how prove a point to myself or to someone else. I never take anything at face value.

So imagine my complete and utter delight when I came across a book called - Psychic Dreamwalking! Here it is - a book that produces proof that I am not the only one. What the author, Michelle Belanger, wrote is not new to me - none of it. In fact - it is almost word for word what I go through -- what I have been going through my entire life. But it's the validation -- the knowledge that all of my dream visits have not been in my head. That there is a difference between a normal dream and a dream visit - that other people do create a dream altar (I think Michelle called it a dream haven)....it is such a blessed relief. And one of the nicest things -- she lives maybe 30 minutes from me. Can you believe that?

I'm just beside myself. I asked for some validation -- and by Goddess, Brigit gave it to me.

I'm a happy camper I am.

I'll post another entry later about the dream visit I had that turned into some astral travel. What a night I had!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)