Michael, Mike And Seriously WTF!

I wrote the below $.02 Saturday/Sunday Morning.....

I should be sleeping - I really should. But here I am after drinking a bottle of wine - and I'm awake at 1:18 am. Doesn't make sense. Wine should have made me fall sleep. But oh no....not now. I have too much outside energy running around inside of me.

What does that mean? Well I can feel Bill being very connected. So is Will and Vincent. CJ is still hanging about - taking more of an interest in me than he ever thought he would or that he thought he was comfortable with, You know it's difficult to dream about someone most of your life and then all of a sudden have them wind up on your radar. That's what happened where Bill is concerned with me - and that what happened where I'm concerned with CJ. Especially since most of the dreams he can remember me in we were just kids. It's a bit disarming. And quite frankly you just want things to go back to the way they were - before your "new knowledge".

There's a part of me that's tired of new knowledge. Why can't something happen with the old knowledge before someone else shows up? I don't get it. Any of you - do you get it? Cause I'm at a lost. Like this guy named Michael (not to be confused with Mike from before). He's showed up in my "area" for years now - years. And for the most part I've been able to compartmentalize him. Keep him tucked away as a curiosity and that's it. But now this guy has superseded my curiosity. I want to know why. What possible connection do we have? And why now? Serious. Don't I have enough going on?

I asked Andrew. You know what he said? Vincent is too stuck in his life, Will is too scared, CJ is confused and Bill doesn't have the balls -- so we open up the connection with Michael. I have to ask - is he a chicken shit too? Or would he seek out to explore something that he doesn't quite understand? Andrew says he's an explorer. Always has been - ever since he was a kid. I don't know why Andrew is showing me Michael with a toy sail boat in his hands - but he is. The said boat is has a red base. Andrew also tells me that Michael's mother is something else - and he means that in a good way. She pushes, yet protects Michael. If she find something or someone that can be a positive part of Michael's life - she'll put two and two together - despite Michael protests. So I wonder then - what will happen when she comes upon my blog? When she puts me together with the dreams he's had most of his life. Then what? Does she call me 1st to chat? Or does she just hand the information over to him and guide him? I swear I don't know. I wish I did. But I don't.

I then said "screw it" and went to bed. We'll see if anything comes of this connection. I'm rather tired of the "one-way" feel I've had with the past group.

Michael has been kind enough to keep hanging around. I keep getting the oddest flash visions with him:

Vision 1 - He and I shake hands. I can feel a zap of electric go through me - although I try not to react to it. The same happened to him - I think. We are then sitting at a table with two other women. Michael asks if the two ladies would leave us. They do. He leans across the table at me - and with a very stern look on his face he asks - why me? I open my mouth and start to say because of his past....he waves his hand to signal stop. Give me the real reason - he demands. I sit there and just look at him - trying to figure out what I'm going to say. I finally say - do you believe in soul groups? He smacked his hands together and said - I knew you felt the energy when we shook hands.

Vision 2 - He and I are on the beach. We are by some sort of rock formation. As the sun sets, the beams hit a crystal in the rock formation - which gives off another beam of light to a cave off the coast.

Vision 3 - Michael is inside a house looking outside. From his POV I can see me running to Vincent and jumping in his arms. Michael takes a sip of coffee and says - if he hurts her I'll kill him with my bare hands. I hear a voice (sounds like Will) say - he'd no sooner hurt her than you or I would.

Vision 4 - He's at my 25th High School reunion with me and we're having a blast.

There's more -- but those are the ones I can remember off the top of my head.

My son told me tonight that guys are put on the Earth to drive girls crazy (I couldn't agree more) and for guys to get big muscles so that they can be chick magnets. LOL. I tried not to laugh. I told him to remember that girls are nothing but trouble. He replied - oh mom, guys are trouble too. Snicker...oh how right he is....

Speaking of trouble - there's a guy in Wooster who's a psychologist who I find to be interesting. He and I have known each other since I moved to Wooster - he lives by me. You know how you know when someone is interested in you? Well he's given me that sideways look for the last 8 years. When I could feel him looking at me - I would just keep looking straight ahead. He was married - I was married. Not about to go there or even give the appearance of going there. He was always polite when he saw me or my ex - never anything flirty or over the top. Well, then I got divorced. Still basically ignored him as I know his wife and I think she's a great person - I didn't want any signals to go anywhere that might be misread. So he tells me two weeks ago that he's getting a divorce - been separated at that time for a month. Thought I would hear it through the neighborhood gossip line. Ha! I'm not looking the other way any more. But since our kids go to the same school - I do keep everything low key - flip him a hi when I see him and that's about it. If we happen to be walking the same way in the morning - we'll chat. We'll see what happens - if anything. Well- something will happen, it's just a matter of what and when. He does have the same kick ass divorce lawyer that I had...that guy in Orville is great! What I need to do is to find out when his birthday is -- I pray he's not a Sag or a Leo. Been there - did that.

Oh and guess what? His name is Mike. Yeah - seriously. No - that connection with what's going on with Michael has not been lost on me.

I'm finally HOT in the Start Up Nation Contest! Whoo Hoo! I'm a smoking mamma!

On that note -- it's shower time:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

CJ, KS and Allie's Vision of Dying!

Another - I don't know where to start - blog entry. I would love to sleep -- for days if I could. It'll never happen. But I would like to get some much needed shut eye. I had two other energies move into my field and since then I might as well kiss sleep good bye. I can't get to bed before 1:00 am - no matter how hard I try - I just can't get there. When I'm in bed I go right to sleep. But sleep is just a facade as I dream travel all night long. It's exhausting. Between every dream visit I wake up - roll over - and go right into another visit. By time my alarm goes off at 6:30 am, it feels like I just laid down. I haven't increased my coffee - so my headaches are pretty strong during the day. SIGH. It makes it difficult to think. Luckily - when I do reading I don't have to think, I just let the information flow.

My son -- not only do I have to worry about his MRI/MRA on Monday - but now the kid got a one day in-school suspension. Seems him and another kid were playing "army" and my son said that they should "kill" another kid. The school took that as a threat and they have a zero tolerance policy. He's grounded until further notice with no X-Box, computer or iPod - plus I took all of his Nerf guns away. He doesn't "get" that what he did was bad - since he was just playing. I tried explaining it to him -- at least he's majorly embarrassed. Sheesh - the kids 8 - at least I waited till I was 15 before I had my 3 day in school suspension.

Darin (the cat) went to the vet on Monday. He was pretty sick, poor little dude. He was a trooper though and let the vet poke and prod him - give him fluids and shots. He's even being cool about me giving liquid meds 2x a day. Right now we're guessing that somehow he caught a virus from Little Black Kitty. Not sure how -- but that's the only explanation.

The script I wrote last week won't be done in time for the contest it was intended for. Although the foundation was solid - the execution was a train wreck. Yep - felt pretty stupid on that one. Oh well -- this weekend at the latest I'll get back to it and hopefully write something that doesn't sound idiotic. Now that mercury is direct, I'm sure I can.

Oh the readers comment about Sawyer on the last post (I think) -- oh yeah -- that man is hot:) He can be without a shirt all season if need be!

Maria Shaw just informed me that on Feb 13th, she and the guys will be back on CBS Psychiconair.com on Friday nights only from 6 - 8 pm ET. It'll be great to hear the 3 of them even if it's just for once a week.

Finger crossed - the show that was intended for Nickelodeon is making it's way to ABC Family. A meeting happens next week.

Now for these new energies. I have no idea what kind of baring they have on me - some sort of karmic tie I would suppose. The first one is CJ. He's a big guy, very loving, kind - yet extremely opinioned. His energy is romantic and sexual. In a way like Vincent's - that he wants to protect me - but not as rock solid as Vincent - if that makes any sense. CJ is also full of fun, creative and a lover of the outdoors. He's very sexual - but sex isn't something that's important to him. He feels that actions, outside of sex, shows a person how much you care for them. Sex is something that feels good - but is used for making babies.

Now for KS. He's energy is very high strung. Teasing - protective - loving - yet angry and can be violent. He loves deeply and when hurt it wounds him for life. His energy towards me is brother-like. Nothing at all sexual or romantic. It reminds me of a brother and sister who tease each other - beat each other up - but if someone attacks either one of them , the other would give their life to protect them. His energy also reminds me of a phoenix - someone who can reinvent himself and one who will also surprise people. Kind of like Madonna in the 80's & 90's.

So these two have been be-bopping around my energy field since last week. They take turns. I personally have had just about enough of both of them. I'd like to keep all energies at arms length for awhile.

I had the oddest vision the other day when Brigit stopped by on Imbolc to say Hi. She wanted me to stop working, close my eyes and pay attention. So I did just that. What I saw was CJ and I walking towards an elevator in a hotel. It was the penthouse elevator. Before I got to it I stopped, looked at him and said: You didn't. He's like - what'd I do? And I started rattling them off: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, George....they're up there, in the penthouse. He denied it - I knew he was lying. I refused to go up. We argued about it - my body was shaking and I couldn't control it. He led me into the elevator - we start to go up - when I blurt out that I didn't tell him everything. He said what -- I said - when we're all together I'm going to die. He hit the stop button on the elevator. I had to explain to him that I've had visions of me having a heart attack and dying once we were all in the same room (and I actually have had this vision plenty of times). It's vital that as soon as I have the heart attack - Will, Ted and Bill place their hands on me - while he performed CPR. Vincent and George needed to have paper and pen in hands - because as soon as I come back - I'll have information for everyone. Plus - make sure they keep yelling for me to get back into my body - because I'm not going to want to. He thought I was nuts. I asked him not to let me die -- and no matter what - he can't give up trying to bring me back nor can the guys take their hands off of me. He agreed.

As soon as we stepped out of the elevator I met everyone. 30 sec after I hugged George - I had the heart attack. I see myself going down - CJ jumps into control and tells everyone what they have to do. Everyone is doing everything on cue. I can't see my soul anywhere - but the feeling I had is that I knew I was close by and talking with someone. 2 - 3 min later I saw my body jerk like my soul fell back in and I sat up. I rattled off this place with white pillars and a large pool of water. Next thing I know - I see my grandmother - she tells me that everything has changed and not to be scared.

Grams leaves and then George's Aunt shows up (she's dead as well). We're having a convo - I'm told no one else can see her but me. We talk - I give George some info - then she hands me a red rose to give to him. As soon as I have it in my hand - it materializes in the physical sense. I'm shocked. Someone else who is deceased comes along - hands me something - as soon as I take it - it becomes real. This kept happening over and over again.

Then Brigit said I'd seen enough. I asked what does that mean? She said that my gift of manifestation will be in full force when I come back to life - somehow my NDE gives it extra power. And that was that....I sat there for awhile after this one thinking - WTF? The manifestation twist was a new one to me. And I kept thinking how could that ever be possible - if it's possible. Once something leaves a spirit's hands into mine - it becomes solid. That's just wild.

And on that note - I have to get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)