I Don't Know Why...

...This just dawned on me. I can now put together the soul mate book I wanted to do about the Bill, Ted and me. Mainly what is in the blog - plus all of the goodies that I did not put in (and there is plenty there). I had put it on hold as I didn't want to hurt my husband's (now ex husband) feelings. But he isn't in the equation any longer. I have over 2000 pages of notes about us.

I don't think it "dawned" on me - I think that one of my guides planted that seed.

So after I finish my DREAMERS rewrite -- I'll get moving on that as well as the OBE sex book.

I wrote Edgar Cayce's A.R.E. as I am trying to get someone to help me get into my soul's memory. You'd be amazed on how many top places & people I have written to in order to help me retrieve this information. Most I don't hear back from. Eventually there will be someone or someplace interested enough to help me do the research. I mean -- just what I've hit on so far on my own about Atlantis, Joan of Arc, Cleopatra and so forth..is wild. Just think what can be unlocked if I had the help?

Oh well - time will tell- won't it?

The Gypsy Magic For The Dreamer's Soul book will be up tonight on Amazon and on Gypsy Girl Press as a PDF download:)

Watch this space!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE Sex, Bill, Ted, Will And A Goddess!

What a weekend. I got a lot of work done - thank goodness. Although not as much as I needed to get done. But one step at a time:) My sister is still pregnant. We had a false alarm over the weekend -- but that kid is still hanging in there.

I had an intense chat with my guide Ethan and the Goddess Brigit. This chat came about after a friend connected with me - telepathically - to remind me how much strength I have in my soul. How powerful my energy really is and what I can accomplish. When Ethan and Brigit showed up, he disconnected. The chat with these two was very - mind opening and intense. So mind blowing to me that I'm not really sure what to make of the information. It appears that I am a major Goddess that comes back into human form because of love and because mankind does not have the right view of "me". I guess I'm not the type of Goddess/person you would want to piss off:) Now they said which Goddess and all, but I'm not real comfortable talking about which one. As I said - this is hard even for me to swallow. But it makes sense - especially with Ted, Bill and Will and the connections there. And it makes sense with all of the warrior images I have had - and the past lives as Joan of Arc and Cleopatra. I don't know - I don't know - I don't know. I'm supposed to change the view of mankind towards this Goddess/me and finally have the love connections that have been denied. SHRUG. We'll see. I'm sure at some point I'll tell you more -- when I know more.

Now someone asked a question in another blog entry about astral sex and telepathic sex. Isn't there some sort of astral connection during telepathic sex? In short - no. I tried to explain the 3 types of OBE sex below:

Astral/dream sex: To become sexually aroused and engage in energetic sex with another person's energy. In the astral/dream state, energy can be manipulated to a point where it feels and looks like physical body parts are merging -- but they are only energy and not actual physical parts. This can lead to an orgasm in the physical body, although this is rare. In most cases a person would return from their astral travel or wake up from a dream and be so sexual turned on that they would have to take care of it upon waking and it would be a MUST to take care of, this isn't something that you can walk off. If they are involved with a flesh and blood partner - the partner benefits from this astral turn on by engaging in physical sex with their partner.

The biggest difference between astral sex and dream sex is that with astral sex you purposely have your astral body separate from your physical body and you are awake during the act. If you have shifted your consciousness to your astral body and then shift it back when your astral body merges with your physical body - then you will remember a good chunk if not all of the encounter. With dream sex, your astral self parts during your sleeping state and your conscious mind is in a state of rest - that is unless you practice lucid dreaming or as I say dream visits where you are in control of your dream -- then your conscious mind plays a bigger part in the whole experience and you remember more upon awaking.

Telepathic sex: There is no astral body merging in this one. Your brain is your #1 sexual organ. With telepathic sex, you are using your brain power only. Your brain waves connect with another's brain wave in your minds eye you can see and feel the sexual act taking place. Think of this as real-time sex without the physical merging. With telepathic sex, the odds of having an orgasm are very high as none of your energy bodies (astral, mental, emotional - etc...) are separate from your physical body. Can you tell if you make the connection with another person or if it is just a fantasy? Yes you can. How? Just as you can tell with a telepathic communication - you have that zing of energy and a warm flow over your body (other people have been known to get a headache or tremble) when you have that telepathic connection. If this factor is missing in the telepathic sex, then you are simply having a fantasy and not the telepathic sex.

I like to think of telepathic sex as an intense day dream. Out of the 3 - I like telepathic sex the best - only because you can have a real-time orgasm:) And - you can remember the most if not all of the encounter.

I asked Tracey a couple of weeks ago if Bill, Ted and Will could feel what's going on with me. If they are conscious of the changes in my life? This was her reply:

Bill is very sensitive to your emotions and he is feeling the depth of sadness within you and it is affecting him physically and manifesting in chest pains, and troubling sleeping, some depression, and cold like symptoms, tiredness. These are not conscious thought. He is journaling his experiences on the astral, and dreams, vivid visions and meditation experiences. He is writing his experiences formulating them into something that will be of importance or interest later as in he will share these with you. He seems to be trying hard to reach out to you but he feels that you are responding to him. He seems to be able to meet you consciously on the astral plane now, is able to communicate with you and is handling this well, is intrigued by it and trying it perhaps more than you have energy to expend right now. He seems sad when he feels he cannot make a connection to you. His sorrow for you is great. He does not like that your light seems so dim right now. I see that if this continues he may be very angry, almost as if he thinks you are ignoring him or will not let him comfort you.

Ted is totally connected, aware, consciously of your sadness, and the feelings of overwhelm, struggle, anxiety, panic, worry, and feels compelled to help you though feels that he is to stand back at this time. He will only be able to hold out on contacting you until the end of the summer, but he may contact you sooner if you continue to feel this deep fear and worry. Ted does not know how to deal with you being down and out and he wants to relieve your problems, worries, he has a strong urge to fix it, to help you and he does not know how to support you so much in terms of emotionally as he feels a basket case in this area himself, but he knows he can help you on a financial level and I sense that he may try to do this, though is uncertain if you would accept his help. I sense that he knows of a way to get money to you in a way that you will accept the money, and I sense this has to do with a wire transfer or internet transaction directly to you. I hope this makes sense to you in some way.

He believes he can send it in such a way that you may not know paper trail wise that he sent it even though intuitively you may know that he sent it, but either way his desire is that you accept it and continue to work on your writing so that you are in a better position. There is a place inside him that feels you are so strong and independent but are feeling so frail right now and though you are low in spirit he is not sure you would accept his financial help direct so he wants to be sure you get it and this is something he is mapping out in his mind, if you will. Perhaps this is some of the unexpected financial help.

Will and Ted will come into your life in the physical on or around the same time, perhaps together, or within a short time, and this is for a purpose, one that is not being revealed, but perhaps you already know the answer. Part of the purpose is to help you through this situation, not just in way of friendship, emotional support, but also financial support and providing contacts that you need to help you to excel in your aspirations for the future.

There are many feelings stirring within Will and though he is not consciously connecting them to you he is feeling grief, outrage, the sting of betrayal, relating it to a past experience in his own life, and he is wondering why he is thinking about the past, as he has certainly felt over this situation. So, he is in tune with you and your emotions, soulfully, but is not aware of where the feelings are coming from, rather feeling they relate to self.

This helps to explain to me why Ted is always around and why Will and Bill seemed to have just vanished.

Everything will work because it's supposed to - right?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Happy Anniversary, Telepathic Sex and Apophyllite!

Will and I driving with the top down on a white 1957 T-Bird with a red interior. The road is curvy and takes my tummy by surprise. One side of the road hugs the tall cliffs while the other side gives us a great view of the ocean. No idea what coast we are on. The sun is shinning, traffic is light and an immerse feeling of happiness flows trough my veins. That is how I woke up last night after one of my dream visits with Will - such happiness. I went back to sleep and wound up in a Jeep Wrangler (soft top - top down) with Bill at the wheel. Two people were in the back seat - I think one was my son and the other was a younger girl. We turned a corner and I felt the Jeep's frame shift. Bill and I looked at each other like - oh no. We stopped the Jeep at the end of this road - where what was in front of us was a bridge without a floor. There was nothing to drive on. The bridge's structure though, was this massive stone and cement thing. It was so massive! I knew that somewhere, a person had to flip a switch so that the floor of the bridge would come out from the side of the mountain we were on -- and once that happened we could cross. We were up high - really high - and I could see a fast moving river below. Bill asked me if he should gun it? The floor started to come out from the mountain side. One of the kids yelled - they're coming. Bill floored it and we were airborne. I woke myself up before I found out if we landed on the bridge or continued down into the river. When I woke up it still felt like my tummy was going down the 1st hill of a roller coaster! Bill and I weren't frightened in this dream - but there was a sense of urgency.

I've gotten that a lot as of late - an urgency to physically meet. This feel comes from all 3 men. But Will has really been pushing it today. Our telepathic connection is really strong right now - has been for the last 48 hours. When I am working or doing something that doesn't involve those three - Will pushes back into my mind. He keeps telling me not to forget. I assure him like I always do - that I haven't forgotten. With this telepathic connection - telepathic sex has been intertwined to my day today. As your mind is your largest sex organ, telepathic sex is such a unique way to have an orgasm. Granted - it's not as volcanic as astral sex or as surreal as dream sex -- but it is as equally as pleasing. It's very easy to be in the midst of telepathic sex and it merges into a day dream as it is difficult if not impossible to see the images of sexual intimacy in your mind's eye as those same images translate to an ethereal feel all over your body. So if during telepathic sex your nipples are being teased into a harden temple - it is almost a sure given that in your physical body your nipple is going to get hard. You know how with the law of attraction your thoughts & emotions (AKA your mind) creates your reality -- well it is the exact same thing with telepathic sex. This is also why that if you climax during telepathic sex, your body is going to respond in the physical sense. Unlike astral or dream sex - telepathic sex your conscious mind is still housed in your physical body -- so this sexual act can feel so much more real than astral or dream sex. And besides - all of your bodies (physical, emotional, astral, mental etc..) are all together so it is much easier to recall telepathic sex than astral or dream sex.

And man, Will keeps telepathically kissing my neck. I have to force myself not to think about sex. Because if I do - I can grab onto that telepathic connection and not get a damn thing done today except having telepathic sex:) Of course - it would be a fine way to spend the day if I didn't have a poop load of work to do:)

But -- one more thing about sex -- the astral/dream/telepathic sex idea I have for the book and web page are coming along very nice:) I have a name for the book and an outline is almost done:)

Before I go any further -- I want to say - HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ALLIE'S TWO CENTS! Whoo Hoo! It's been 2 years now and it's been such a trip in the last 24 months - hasn't it? I've learned so much and I'm learning more and more every day. I hope that by me bring my experiences to light that I am helping some of you realize that if you too experience what I do that you are not alone and certainly not crazy! If you do not experience any of what have -- maybe, just maybe what I write about can help you think outside the box. Thank you for being a part of my life -- I appreciate YOU!

Now -- back to business -- I have a piece of Apophyllite (one of the naturally shaped pyramids) taped to my third eye. I decided to give it a try since I have heard so many wonderful things about this stone spirit that I've had in my care for over a year. It is supposed to help with astral travel to consciously remember what has happened with little or no effort - it creates a bond between the physical and spiritual worlds, enhances clairvoyance, energy and dream recall. It feels very strange in the middle of my forehead. I can feel a tingling, but that sense is from deep within my skull. I can't feel anything on the surface, it's all inside. Since I have placed it there - I keep getting flash visions of my past life as Cleopatra. I can see myself in the Library at Alexandria writing that dang scroll. I still cannot tell what I am writing - but this time I can sense it has to do with some sort of art. But it's not art as in painting -- it's more of a sexual art - something like Tantra? I'm not sure this makes sense. It is an act that has only been taught to the elders or royalty of Egypt -- it is a form of sexual magic, a form of merging oneself with the higher conscious of the Divine. I can't type the symbols I see and we know how sucky my drawing is.....

I'm not sure why it is being written down and why is she/I doing this? It's all very sketchy..but it definitely has to do with sexual magic. I just don't understand why I keep seeing art. I wonder if it is written anywhere in the history books that Cleopatra would ask her male and female servants to sexual please her when no other royalty or a partner was around? She would school her servants into the art of the sexual magic by having them take part in rituals. I can see jugs of water, flowers, oils....incenses/herbs burning. Jasmine maybe? The ruby sphere is present everywhere. Wow -- it's intense.

Okay - that was enough - I took the Apophyllite off of my third eye.

So - when I was Joan of Arc - sex and clairvoyance -- major stuff....as Cleopatra - sex and clairvoyance and magic -- major stuff....as Allie - sex and clairvoyance and magic -- major stuff. Interesting....very interesting.....

Again - thank you so much for being with me over the last 2 years -- here's to the next 2 years!!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)