A Strange Letter, Thursday And The Guys!

Okay -- it takes a lot for me to stand back and say - WTF? But this is a bit out there -- even for me. Now you have been following the Bill, Will and Ted saga - right? If not - read below this entry and get acquainted or this tid bit I'm about to say won't mean squat to you.

Tracey emailed me yesterday - all freaked out - and very perplexed. Seems she received a letter in the mail with no return address - postmarked in RI. Inside there was a single sheet of nice white stationary paper and on it, written with a fine black marker, was:

See you on Thursday.

The writing was neat - good penmanship. No signature - no nothing.

Ah yeah -- I would've freaked too.

Could it be one of the 3? There's always a chance. Who else would it be? She and I think it's the same person - Bill. I told her that if Bill shows up on her doorstep - after she regains consciousness she is to give him my address and tell him to start driving - lol:)

Neither Tracey or I think it's him 100% - we're about 95% sure. Now I really can't wait for tomorrow!

I spent a good part of the day planting raspberries, blueberries, strawberries and grapes. Tonight I'll put in my tomatoes, peppers and corn. I'm tired already:) I just hope everyone lives...Sometime - maybe tomorrow - I have to go out and trim things: trees, shrubs -- they're a bit out of control.

Very soon today - I'm going to be getting a ready from my friend Gab. I get a reading from her about once a year - she's great with talking to the deceased and for communicating with your guides. I have a whole range of questions to ask her (and yes, Will, Bill and Ted are among them) and I'm really curious to hear what the deceased has to say. I wonder if Heath will show up? I normally ask about the guys -and I asked last year she said:

Will: will meet in 2008 - mind blowing experience.
Bill: Has been to my web site dozens of times. Has no idea what to do or to make of the situation.
Ted: Gab wanted to know if I had met him. He was very strong around me. Seems that when I get a reading - people always ask if he and I have talked.

I get that always about Ted -- and he's the 1 I haven't met! I seriously will pass out when he's in front of me some day. I hope I'm already sitting down when he walks into the room.

What else did Gab say last year? Oh that I have a lot of love around me, I'm never alone and that although things will be tight - money wise - everything will work out and I will always have enough to make ends meet. Love wise - alone for 2007 - most of 2008 until fall of 2008. That's when I find someone who will treat me like a queen and I will know what it is like to experience heaven on earth. In the meantime though I will be very experimental sex wise. This has to be about the explosion of OBE sex I've had this last year....

I'll let you know what she says this time around:) She really is amazing calling out people by name (all you do is give her your name - that's it) talks about how they know you and how they died - then messages delivered. She's really very good.

Okay - must run - will be talking to her in a few.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dreams, Death, The 1920's And The Crystal Skulls!

This is the 2nd time I've tried to write this post. The first time - when I was almost done - my computer crashed and I lost it. That's how my day has been moving along. Two steps forward and three back. So being pissed at losing my last entry - I took a long break before I tried this again. Plus -- all day I have not been able to post to my blogger account. I've had to switch to the blog being hosted on blogger and then switch back to it being hosted on gypsyadvice in order for anything to show up. What I've been trying to do today is find another blog template for Allie's Two Cents. This one bores me to tears. I wasted half the day looking around and trying to find one that would work with blogger & my site (and yes, I did a search for blogger templates - but they have to be the classic style and not XML) and I gave up. I have been thinking of switching it al over to Word Press since it is a better platform all the way around. It's just going through all the steps of setting up the blog and then transferring all of the current content over (as I say a little prayer).

The last dream I had this morning was my ex husband #2 and I in an airplane that looked like the Enterprise from Star Trek. In the "captains" chair sat a man - I have no idea who he was as I never saw his face, only heard his voice. The windshield of the plane has a shield over it so we could not see outside. It felt like we were flipping back and forth - the man told my ex that he has to get over there and fly the plane. He said no - he can't do it. The man said that he had to - my ex was frantic - couldn't fly the plane. I could feel us spiraling down, he still wouldn't take the controls. I tried talking him into it - but he never would listen to me, so he didn't here either. Next thing I know the shield slid open and I could see the rapidly approaching runway. The inside of this plan was now a Cessna - with someone in the pilot & co pilot seat. Behind them sat my two sisters, behind them my mom and my son, and lastly - my ex and I. I hear the instrument warnings go off. I glance out the window and see the runway under us. I brace for impact -- which was rough and bounced the plane all over the place. I heard a voice yell to slam the brakes as the end of the runway was coming up. I leaned so that I could see and we were at the end of the runway. My son reached his hand back, I grabbed it, We all ducked and closed our eyes. I could feel something go through us. The pain - also went right through me. I could hear the fire trucks coming towards us. My dog Brodie barks and wakes me up - I yell at him to shut up and I fall back to sleep. I open my eyes to see what's going on and I'm outside the plane. The plane is totaled. It's smashed. I know I'm dead. I look around and no one else from the plane is with me - so I figure they are all still alive. As I I move towards the plane, time speeds up so that when I get to the plane everyone is on a stretcher and being carried out. They are trying to revive me. I sense someone next to me -- they tell me that I have to go back. I don't want to. She says that I must -- then she adds in, do you want your ex to raise your son -- good point. You still have a lot of work to do - you need to assemble the council. The council? I ask. She says - you'll figure it out. Next thing I know I'm opening my eyes in my body - I do feel the pain now -- and that pain causes me to wake up.

Now - I laid there for awhile and thought about this dream. The first part felt like I was in my ex's dream. My family was his family for so long that it doesn't surprise me that he would have had them in his dream. When the dog woke me up I glanced at the clock - it would of been time for my ex to wake up for work. So when I feel back to sleep his dream had shifted to my dream. I wish I could remember who the woman was -- I feel she was Iris, but when I ask Iris, she doesn't say anything. It wasn't a dream that worried me or scared me when I finally woke up - just the opposite really. I got the message that I have something important to do and no matter what comes my way - I have to do it. Push ahead and persevere.

I just got an email with the subject heading "Update your penis". Snicker. What would I do if I had one? Stick the tip into the USB port and download something new and amazing? LOL. Spam -- it cracks me up.

Monday night I had a past life dream of the 1920's. It took place in NYC (as all of my past life 1920 vision have) in a Speakeasy. I was in a far corner at a table with two socialites - we were discussing money - main I was giving them a reading on how to advance their fortunes. Bill and Ted were a couple of tables over. An alarm went off - the Feds were here to raid the place. Within seconds the booze was gone - I heard a bunch of bottles drop. I knew that they were swimming in the sewer system. By the time the Feds got in, it looked like a respectable diner. After they came in, Will pushed through the crowd. He might of been a Fed - but just the feeling I got was that he played both sides of the fence. He walked right over to me and grabbed my arm. Bill and Ted stood up. I had a flash vision of this place being turned into a blood bath - so I quickly told the guys to sit down, I'll go with him. As Will lead me from the place -- I woke up.

Both nights I can remember fragments of dream visit with the crystal skulls. In each dream the skulls were present, as well as a very large waterfall and a crystal & stone temple. I can see myself going into a cave, crossing an underground river. But I can't remember any more than that.

Also Sawyer showed up -- we argued about what we were going to go see. I wanted to check out some island - he said he had enough of those - lol. So I suggested going back to the past and looking around - oh no, he wanted to move to the future. I suggested another planet - he wanted another galaxy. So what did we end up doing? Sitting at a bar during the 1940's and drinking some strong shit.

I'm surprised lately how much of an effort Ted is making to telepathically communicate with me. He's been asking - are you there? Have you left? When can I see you? Ramblings on about how crazy his wife is (hell, I could have told him that). I've told him not to be such a stranger and he promises that he won't be. He said that he feels stronger when his energy is connect to mine - I tried to explain why, but he was gone.

I had a moment yesterday where I felt Will link to me and through his eyes I could see him looking at my business card. It gave my energy field a nice rush:)

What else happened? Oh - yesterday I was sitting on the potty doing my thing, when an upper tooth on my left side started to ache (again - an ongoing problem) I asked for some help here - I have no time for pain. I sensed Archangel Michael on my left - then my friend Dave showed up. He told Archangel Michael that he's take care of this. I got so emotional when Dave showed up - I have no clue why. But I could feel his hand over my left cheek with my left cheek getting very hot. It was all very cool (so to speak). He and I chatted a bit - told him thanks. And I could of sworn he tried to hug me but he went right through -- a very funky feeling. My tooth did feel much better.

Off to hopefully get my shower and then call it an early evening. I got my changes back for THE BLACK TRIANGLE and I have some work to get going on starting tomorrow.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

What Would You Do If You Knew You Were Going To Die?

I watched this video of a 47 year old professor who had only 3 - 6 months of good health ahead of him - when he first gave this lecture. I was not there in person, how I wish I was, but watched it online later that day.

It's inspiring, uplifting and really gives you cause to think over things - to think over life. About what is important - what is not important. His story came to my attention again today - and I realized it was because I am supposed to pass it on. What he says matters and is relevant to all of us.

Watch the video - share it with others. It's well worth the 76 minutes.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Mirror, Energy And A Death!

My heart's heavy today. One of the stray cats I've been feeding for the last 6 years was hit and killed by a car this morning. After being hit she ran to my neighbor's yard where she died. I learned about this after I took my son to school. I had just fed the cat only an hour before. Girlfriend Kitty (yes, I made up that name) had the bluest eyes I had ever seen, softest - whitest fur and was such an independent soul. She was always so anal about looking both ways before crossing the street and never doing so in rush hour traffic. But today she did both - and her nine lives were up. She never liked men - and my neighbor came out to get his paper (and mind you this man wouldn't harm a soul) and she freaked - and ran right into a car - it ran her over and she turned around and ran back into his yard (which is where she started) - and died.

Poor Raisin (the stray I bring in when it's cold and GFK boyfriend) just sat there and watched the horror unfold. I haven't seen him since all of this happened. I get so very attached to the animals I care for. I've found over the years that I have a harder time dealing with an animal's death than a human's. Although I don't do death well at all. I know what happens to the souls after death - but as I've stated in the past I'm physical person - I like to physically be around someone.

And just yesterday I asked Raisin what am I going to do with him and GFK when I move? He I would take with me - but I was worried about her. I guess the universe answered that question.

Now my day started off rather grand. I again didn't fall asleep until after midnight and my dream time was all Will and Bill from what I remember. Little fragments of things - Will and I sitting under a tree, Bill and I going over a layout to a book - things like that. When I woke up and took care of the my son and the animals, I went in the bathroom to get my shower. As the shower was running I looked in the mirror before I climbed into the shower and I saw Will. His face, his smile -- which was a first - seeing him in a mirror - but when I placed my hand on the mirror where his face was - a shot of energy flew into me, making me take a step back and gasp for breath. Now THAT was strange. My feel here is since mirrors are windows/doorways to other dimensions, he either astral traveled or dream traveled into that dimension, looking out at me. This is why I could see him and why I was zapped as it was his energy in that mirror. I wonder if he has any recollection of doing this?

I'm not getting much done today because I cannot concentrate. But I'm going to keep trying.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Visions And 10 Items Or Less!

It's amazing how one thing leads to another and before you know it hours have gone by. That's what happened to me today. I decided to throw out a couple of things, which lead me to cleaning out a file cabinet and the throwing the cabinet away - which lead to working on my lighthouse fountain to get it working - which led to the reorder of stones/crystals and books in my office. It's all much better now - better energy - but a 10 min project took 4 hours, And now I have a huge pile of more magazines in the middle of my office and they are too heavy for me to carry anywhere. So at some point in time I'll have to rearrange them in smaller piles so that I can get them outside.

I broke out my new Feng Shui book and that's what got me started on this rearranging adventure. My office need a full weekend of me working on it and nothing else. I'm thankful though that I got the stale energy moving.

What even brought me to the Feng Shui book today was the shift I felt yesterday. I could feel something else fall into place in bring Will and I together. I felt that piece shift and fall into place. As soon as that happened, Will energy was right in my face (in a very loving manner mind you) and ahs grown stronger than it once was. I didn't think it could get stronger - but what do you know. That man is always full of surprises.

During on of the strong energy connections I saw he and I in bed together. We had just finished making love for the first time and were facing one another - propped up on an elbow. He's caressing my face and I could feel such an overwhelming sense of happiness and love. I said - I love you. He smiled and said - I love you. Tears were streaming down our faces. He leaned in to kiss me and we were exploring each other once again. I make a comment that I have to get to the airport and he says we have time. Cut to Burbank Airport and he's dropping me off. I'm crying, he's crying -- he says that he'll see me real soon. We kiss - hug -- and me, my carry on and one suitcase head into the airport. I check in and go to wait by my gate. I reach into my carryon for my computer and I see a card and a small box. I open the card - it's pink - and it in is a message from Will saying how much he loves me. Okay - so now I'm crying again. Then I open the box -- init is a diamond heart pendant on a silver chain. I cried more. I kept thinking -- when did he get this? We met yesterday morning and were together since. So I called him. I told him thank you and that I love him. Before I could ask when -- he said during lunch - which was why he was late getting back to the meeting. As soon as he saw me he just knew it was "me" - and that he and I would be inseperatable.

After that I kept getting visions of him here at my house helping with dinner, feeding the animals and he and I breaking my kid out of school for the day. On this last one - Will surprises me by showing up on my doorstep. After some serious "us" time - we go to get my son out of school. Will waits outside while I go in and get him. I don't tell the kid what's going on -- but as soon as we hit the outside door and he sees Will - his face lights up and he screams "WILL" and runs to him full blast right into Will's arms. Will comments how heavy he is. And my son is just going - I missed you so much. Will replies tat he missed him too -- that he missed him and his mom so much that it was hard for him to breathe.

I cried after that one because my son was so happy - man was he happy. He just lit up like a firecracker on the 4th of July.

I received an email yesterday from a woman who is experiencing the same connection that Will and I have with a man she knows. It's almost identical -- what's different is that she physcially talks to her partner where Will and I do not. Another woman I did a reading for was having the same mind blowing telepathic sex with someone - like Will and I. But again - it is different for her because she physically chats with him. Both women gave me a validation and I to them. It's nice when you find someone who shares the same experiences as you do.

Heath did come back to see me later on Wednesday. After talking to Dave, he seemed better. He told me that he had to go talk care of his family and then go away for awhile, but that he'd be back.

Have you watched that show "10 Items or Less" on TBS? If you haven't - you should. It's fricken hilarious. The show is about a loser guy who is running his family's grocery store after his father died. The guy - Leslie - tries so hard to complete against the giant chain grocery store - Supervalu Mart. Think of your mom and pop stop going up against Wal-Mart. The show is part script - part improv. It really is funny. The whole cast is great and works well together. If there are any major egos - you wouldn't know it on camera. I had to go to iTunes and download the 1st two seasons.

Still working on DREAMERS. The rewrites are going well:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Death, Skeptical And Will!

I'm having a hard time getting anything done this morning as I'm having a horrible time dealing with the actor Heath Ledger's death. Absolutely horrible. I'll be dammed if I don't know why this is so tough for me. I've watched some of his movies - he felt like a very kind and gifted soul. Granted - age 28 is too young to die. I can't recall meeting him on any level at any time. That doesn't mean I haven't - I just don't remember if I had. I'm trying to avoid the news as I keep seeing news about his death. It only makes me cry and cry and cry. The way my emotions are acting you would have thought we were friends. I believe I can feel his presence in my office. I can feel his sadness - he cries and he's quiet. He's scared - he feels like an idiot. But I'm not one to jump on if it is actually him I feel. I keep trying to give myself reality checks. Yet - he's still here. My office is very cold - no matter how much heat I keep pumping into the room. When I allow myself to believe it is him - I get that energy rush through my body. The energy that tells me I'm not crazy. Yet --- I'm still skeptical. I can't help but ask myself - why would he come to me when there are many known and gifted mediums? Why am I having such a hard time with his death?

I can feel my friend Dave. Heath is off to my right - Dave to my left. I ask Dave if he will talk to Heath. He says yes. I can hear Heath saying - what have I done? What have I done? I introduce them - Dave this is Heath, Heath this is Dave. Dave's a friend of mine who was a firefighter and police office who died in a car accident because he did not have his seat belt on when he ran a stop sign. Dave says - accidents are not accidents. Dave helps Heath up. Heath looks back and me and I tell him that he can come back anytime - but that Dave needs to talk to him about what is going on. The two of them disappear.

My office is still chilly - but I can no longer see my breath - which is nice.

Now I KNOW that was Dave and I know we had a convo. So why is it so difficult for me to wrap my mind around Heath? Because in life he was famous? Could be. Or it could be that I'm a huge skeptic until something happens to me several times over. I can still see Heath in my mind's eye - very vivid. I don't know why he keeps showing me a mole on his back left hip. I have no idea if the man actually had one -- or why he would show this to me.

So here I am baffled and sad.

On the other side of my emotions - I am elated at the good news I got about Bill and about Matt. Very - very - very proud of them both. And very happy about what has taken place in their lives. Yesterday I cried for Bill - but it was a very happy cry. I'm just so damn proud of him.

Yesterday as well, images of my meadow had been entering my thoughts. I'm not sure why as I haven't even thought about the place in a long time. But something about it keeps calling me to return.

My son and I just received our yellow belts in our karate class:) He was so tickled. I signed up to take a weapons class from the same place. I'm excited about that. So Tues & Thurs are my lesson days for karate and weapons:)

I had to just chuckle. Will is off to my left. He's standing there with his hands in his pockets. I asked what he's doing and he replies - waiting for you to ask me for help. Help for what, I ask. To take away your pain - he replies. As soon as Will replies to me, my hands get very hot. The kind of hot that happens when I do energy work. His energy is behind me - his left hand over the left side of my face, his right hand on my right shoulder. I can feel the pain of my tooth and the pain of Heath being removed from my body. I feel very light as this is going on. Will moves his right hand down to my right elbow to take away the pain of the tennis elbow. I hear him whisper - I'm always here for you - always. Then I hear him think - not like those other two (Bill and Ted). He moves around front and tells me that he loves me. In a blink of an eye, he's gone.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Nightmare, Life Force And Ted!

What a weekend! Easter was fabo..and my ham was even better than that! Best one to date I believe - the ham that is...not the holiday:) I also spent some much needed down time playing my Lord of the Rings online role playing game. Man...it rocks:) I forgot how much I enjoyed playing a RP game. The other part of the weekend had me ripping apart The Black Triangle -- again. It's been rearranged, torn part and looking damn good about now. I have a few more things to change on it which I'll work on before I host the L Word's Monday night sex chat as Alison Ashby. It's nice as now they have two of our stories playing during the chat in case someone wants to listen. The two tonight I wrote both of them.....so I'm kind of partial to people listening to them. More info on how to join us for FREE along the right side bar of this blog.

I had actually started to write this entry last night as Brigit keeps tell me to relay this nightmare I had -- one that is way too vivid in my mind. I hate these type of dream visits, especially when I'm an observer only and not able to change anything. Okay -- so there are a hundred or so people in this very old and very large house. It actually reminded me more of a small castle than a house. The two that live there, a young couple in their 30's, are the life of the party. Everyone loves them and everyone is having a great time. There is an abundance of drugs and booze floating around. I'm watching all of this and I ask myself -- how did these two get so much money -- especially since I had this sense that it was old money, old money not from either one of their families?

Someone shows up next to me - all in white and asks if I really want to know why. I feel a sense of dread grow in my stomach, but my curiosity got the best of me so I say - yes. I see the house rewind in time a year earlier. There were many people around, another party. The young man was coming into a lavish bedroom with a huge 4 poster bed made of cherry, with a deep red comforter. It was a great room and a great bed. There is a woman lying in the middle of the bed, asleep. She has long dark hair, a long but elegant nose. Fine features, thin body - but healthy looking. She's on top of the bed like she passed out -- wearing white shorts and a pink short sleeve shirt. The man takes a glass next to the bed and places it in the base of a planter.

The woman is barely conscious. The younger woman I saw with him in the future comes in and they put this woman on a large rug -- the kind the mob would use to roll a dead body up in. The older woman tries to struggle, but she is powerless to do much. People are coming in and out of this room, but no one seems to be helping the woman. The two younger ones place liquid cement in this woman's nose and mouth. Then they roll her up into the carpet and walk away. I can see the carpet move as she struggles to breathe. Her legs kicks out, I can see the bottom half of her. I can feel her life force draining from her and I'm filled with this severe panic. I know (for some reason) that a certain being should not see me here observing as harm could come to me and my family if I am caught witnessing this. I guess that I am also this woman's assistant (somehow...I don't know) and I have a great affection for her in this life time. Seeing her die and not being able to help her is just killing me. I scream that I've seen enough and everything is fast forward to the present where I see the young - married - couple enjoying this dead woman's money. Seems that her death was ruled natural and he inherited everything.

What I don't get is how did they get the hardened cement from her nose without leaving any evidence behind? And why am I watching all of this? What purpose is it to me? All I have to do is think about this dream and it make me ill. So there you go. I was just told that the purpose is not for me but for someone who will read this blog. It will strike a cord with them.

Lately I have been able to tastes Ted's essence -- and don't get all dirty minded there -- I mean it, his life force--I can feel it, taste it, smell it. He is very here all the time now. There's such a change with him and Will. I can feel either man touch me while I'm awake, while I'm going about my day-to-day things. The touches aren't sexual in nature, but small energy caresses to let me know that they are here. Ted consciously is seeking me out. He knows where I'm at, he knows how to find me -- and he has a hard time understanding all of this. But he willing to take a chance on something because so far his life choices (in love and in friendship) haven't really been all that good. I think that he is tired of feeling like he does and that is why he is willing to try this. Will on the other hand is also reaching out consciously -- but he does not know it's "me". So in his conscious mind he is searching for the energetic spiritual body of someone who he has this longing for. He has no idea what I look like (unlike Ted) so he does not have a face to go along with the energy. Since Will is higher up the spiritual food chain than I am -- and he did find me to begin with -- I am positive that he will figure this out. Even if he arrives at this blog "by accident".

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, A Past Life And A Murder - Mine!

I had a flash vision of Will today that was very disturbing and I need to confront him in a session so that I can remember the most of the exchange between us. I grabbed my wand and within moments I was in the south, reminded me of Georgia. I see Will leaning against a Willow Tree next to a creek. I smile at him, he smiles back and I ask him what is he doing? He says waiting for me - been waiting all day yesterday and today.....seems he can't get a plum thing done seeing that all he is thinking about is me. He asks - what were you doing. I smile and said working. He cups my face in his hands and replies - so what's new?

I grab a twig off the ground and fidget with it in my hands as I walk around.

What's on your mind Sunshine? Will asks.

That brought yet another smile to my face So you call me Sunshine too?

I've called you Sunshine for well...eternity. Who else calls you that? Bill?

I nod.

Figures...Will retorts.

I had a vision today that really bothered me. I or we I should say were in I guess a villa. It was warm, I could hear water. We had just put our clothes on after making love and you were in a hurry for me to do so - to get my clothes on. I'm standing, you walk up to me and I could tell by your eyes that something horrible was about to happen - you had so much pain, yet love in your eyes. You grab the back of my head and pull me to you, kissing me with such force. I pull back and you're crying. You say -- I'm so sorry -- I hope you can forgive me. Before I could say what?? You shot me in the stomach, right below the rib cage. And watched me as I died, you never took your eyes off of me - not for a second. The last thing I can see is you sobbing.

I have no clue when, where or what time period this was. But I can't get at is why you killed me?

Was I wearing a white suit? He asks....

I don't remember -- but you were tan.

Will sighs. Hold my hands...he says. Will sits and sticks his hands out - palms up, I sit in front of him and grab his hands. In unison we close our eyes. I can feel my hands growing very hot. And I see it -- Will after he shoots me.

He lays me down, and there is a noise behind him. A deep voice says something I can't tell and two men come and grab Will. The deep voice shouts that he did a stupid thing - killing me. But he'll have fun torturing Will.

Cut to -- I don't know where....but Will has tons of slices in his body and he refuses to speak about the location of something. They give him another chance - he doesn't say anything. They toss him into something -- I can't see what or where -- all I can hear are his screams of pain. I break the connection with Will.

You killed me to save me? Will nods, tears pouring down his cheeks. I knew what they would do to you - the rape, the torture, the horrible death. You didn't know they were coming but I did. Who were they? I ask. Will shakes his head -- I don't know, I can't see past that scene and past the pain. It's too much -the pain. But what I do know is that we knew a secret -- something wonderful and healing in the right hands, but dark and deadly in the wrong hands. We were sworn to secrecy. He manages a weak smile - I loved you to the end.

A loud sound jolts me out of the session. Dang that six year old and his role-playing of Star Wars. For a kid who doesn't like loud noises, he is the loudest kid I know.

You know, looking back at what he said when I first connected with Will last year -- no wonder he and I both think that he has done all of these horrible things to me -- especially if he's only been carrying around part of that memory.

Off to watch Armageddon!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Death, Dave, Dunshire And Change!

I know, I know....my posts are too few -- too far in-between. Sorry guys, it's not like anything metaphysical has been going on, it's just that I've been too busy to post. My daily to-do list is insane and it will stay that way until I can get caught up.

I received my piece of Heliodor yesterday. It's a fine piece of golden beryl, but unfortunately for me, too small to be put into the 3 stone pendant. So I decided to place it next to my bedside along with my other stone spirits. I tell you what - my nights have been just as busy as my days. I am astral traveling all over the place. I woke up with a start last night as my astral body slammed back into my physical body. That feeling of falling and then that "thud" I just hate. But when I opened my eyes, I could have sworn, just for a second that Bill was standing next to my bed looking down at me -- and then he was gone. What I wouldn't have done just to keep him there a bit longer.

My deceased friend Dave has been doing a lot of visiting as of late. He's always around, so much so that you would have thought we were lovers at one time. But sadly no -- always in the friends department. But I would have rather been there then no where at all. Any way - Dave has been looking over my shoulder as I work. Scaring the crap out of my cats -- and at night he always extends his hand to help me out of my body. I keep telling him he needs to go visit his wife and children. He tells me his wife has moved on and the kids are at an age where they don't see him any more. Out of the thousands of people this man knew when he was a fireman and a police officer - he says that I'm the only one who is listening.

I think that's a shame. I mean this guy knew scores of people -- his funeral was jammed packed full of people, fire engines and police officers from all over Ohio. You would think that the people who face death on a daily basis would believe more in life after death - would have more of an open mind. But he says no -- and he didn't have that open mind either when he was alive. Dave also tells me that he is around for my radical life shift. I ask if this is going to hurt -- he says yes it will - but I'll come through stronger than I am now. I feel like I'm on my way to being Xena - the Warrior Princess :)

And speaking of the above...I belong to several book clubs. Normally I'm on it about declining my main selection if I don't want it. Well for one the of the clubs I forgot and the books arrived yesterday: "Keep Going, The Art of Perseverance" and "Life After Death". A coincidence? I don't believe that things just happen - there are reasons behind everything. The books are here to help me also with this change I'm going to go through. If this change involves a death of someone - and although I KNOW that there is life after death - I still do not do death well at all. I mean - I'm really not good with it. On the outside it looks like I've got it all handled, but as soon as I'm alone, I fall apart. SIGH. Heck - I never did look at Dave's obituary until yesterday - 3 years after the fact and I cried as if it just happened. Reading it, I realized he died right where my husband and I went for our anniversary. I probably drove right past the spot.

My guide Jezell has been visiting me a lot. She is helping me with my muse. Working on book 4 of the Gypsy Magic series as well as starting a new screenwriting class this weekend and I THINK that I've finally found the story I like with my gypsy teen Kyra. Sometimes things appear to take forever to fall into place -- but they eventually do.

Ahhh..I knew that there was something else I wanted to add before I went to bed. Dunshire Castle -- I had another flash vision which told me how the fire was set. I guess the trip that Ted was to take to England was just a diversion to get him out of the castle. Once he was out of sight, the tower that my son and I were in was blocked and then set on fire. The family who set it wanted the castle and the land --- and Ted wasn't giving it to him. This family figured that with the wife and son gone, that he'd be so broken hearted that he would just leave the castle -- and then they would step in. This is what happened - Ted left and never looked back.

Well heck -- there is one more item before I sign off. Two nights ago my son went to sit on my lap in my office chair like we do all the time. But this time -- the chair broke and down we went. My chair is in a corner, the wall is right behind me and next to me is a dresser that I have a lot of stuff in and on. Well when we went down my head snapped forward and my right shoulder took the corner of the dresser. My neck is killing me, my headache won't go away and I have a huge bruise beneath my right shoulder blade. Yep, whiplash from a chair. Only me -- only me. I wonder if Bill and Ted's necks hurt - or they got this headache without knowing why? Hummm.....I'm always wondering stuff like this.

You know what I don't get? Why I get more visits to this blog when I DON'T post then when I DO? Odd...very odd!

And on that note - I'm going to bed. Yes - I am still way behind in emails and I'll never get caught up at this rate.

Sweet dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)