Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And No Wasted Time!

I'm almost caught up on my emails and the readings from the special back in December. Whew. The screenplay - still working on it. Once I have a chance to write - it flows. I just have to be able to work on the darn thing - you know?

Little Black Kitty is back outside. He drove me batty yesterday with the clawing at the door and the crying. I put him back out last night. He seems to be doing fine with it. But I do suspect that he'll be asking to come back in before the day is out. He can - for a few - then it's back out again. Samantha is not doing too well. It was as if she aged 5 years overnight (she's already 13). She's still eating, drinking and cleaning herself. But that's it. No more playing - no more nothing but sitting there. It breaks my heart. If I pick her up - she wants to be glued to me - permanently. Trying to detach her from my clothes is tough. I just hope she's okay health wise. I just couldn't take it if something happened to her - not so close to Indy dying.

Will's back:) I could feel his energy close yesterday as I worked. Almost like he was just sitting there watching me. I love it when he's around. Not only because I like the feel of his energy (it's always very high - I would call it jazzed) but he's my muse. When he's around, I just write better. As I was writing the script yesterday, he did make a connection for telepathic sex which I wrote about it in OBE. Last night as I was falling asleep, I could feel him around me. When I was walking down my path to enter my dream portal - Ethan was there as always - he told me to expect the past to be back but with a twist. I asked Ethan what he was talking about - he said that I know he can't tell me more. But that I have to put my nose to the grindstone and keep plugging away. No wasted moments - no sitting idle. I told him okay - and moved on. Further down the path was Will. He was in a long white flowing robe. Around his body is vibrated a wonderful golden energy. I asked if he was going to step through the portal with me. His reply - I'm already there. I stepped through and he was - at the Willow Tree by the river. I don't remember anything else - except that when I saw him I ran to the tree:)

With Will usually comes Merlin at some point in time and sure enough Merlin has been on my heels since I woke up this morning. In fact - he was the last thing I remembered about my dreams from last night. He and I were working in the magical space in the cave. Will was somewhere in the background. Next to me I had an enormous faden quartz crystal. I was putting mugwort around it - Merlin was putting candles around the ring of mugwort. There were 9 candles - 5 violet and 4 blue. During the day today - I keep hearing him tell me we have to get back to work. I have no clue what we're working on - why the mugwort, crystal and candles.

I asked Andrew today - where's my love life? He laughed and said I know where it is - and it isn't in Wooster. I know;) I took down all of the dating ads and what have you that I had online. I've washed my hands of it as long as I live in Wooster. Will I change my mind if I'm still here past July? I might. But lets put the energy out there that I'm moving forward! Any ways - Andrew says there's much more going on behind the scenes of my life than I'm privy to. So keep the faith - keep working and it will all shift the way it's supposed to. He says that January and February are all about work - lots of it. The work will transform not only my career - but my love life - so I must not stop. No wasted time. I tell Andrew that this is what Ethan basically said - no wasted time. He replies- there's a reason 2 of your guides tell you the same thing - listen to our words. And I have:)

LOST is back tonight!! Whoo Hoo! Okay - so since I can't watch it till tomorrow morning - no one email or post about what happened on LOST - okay? Don't tell me! Ahhhh...Sawyer:)

Oh -- I almost forgot...Will and Vincent know one another now. Yep - they met. Don't ask me how I know - I just do:) So now Bill & Ted know one another and so does Will & Vincent. Things are aligning up for me to come on board:)

Vincent is going through a very deep thought process right now. He seems to contemplate everything. He's so deep in thought that I don't dare disturb him. What is he thinking about? His life. What he needs to do and how he's supposed to do it. He's looking at all angles to see what is best for everyone involved.

Back to work I go....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Guide Ambush, Energy Healing And Progress!

Man is it cold here. Last night it was 1 with the wind chill - 22 degrees F. Granted - not as cold as Minn or maybe the Dakota - but dang it was still cold. I felt so bad for Little Black Kitty (I really should just call him Salem). He wanted to come in so bad last night - and who could blame him? But I can't let a sick - un-neutered male - into my house. Thankfully, his eyes are starting to look better because of the garlic & vit C that I've been giving him.

I was certainly busy on the Winter Solstice. A lot of cooking baking, present wrapping and some more decorations up and out. By the time the day was over - I looked like a bag of powdered sugar exploded on me - lol!

When the day was over and I was looking forward to some shut eye - I was ambushed by my guides. Yep - ambushed. Before I knew it I had Andrew, Paul, Ethan. Edward, Robert, Jezell, Brigit and Iris. I'm like WTF?

I asked what's up? Before anyone could say anything - Iris stepped up. I said - don't get all over about the Cheryl situation. I can't help it. She said for me not to sass her. SIGH. I said fine - but that she didn't have to yell at me. She said she wasn't going to. Just that she'll be popping in and out because my life is about to do a 180. I asked if it is supposed to be a good 180? Because life isn't a bowl of cherries right now - I'd hate to see things go south even more.

She said no - not bad. It'll be like a dam breaks, and it'll take all of them - including her - to keep me on the straight and narrow. Sheesh - what in the hell is supposed to happen? Iris showed me a quick glimpse of airports, meetings, workshops and hotels. She said that's all I need to know. Iris said she'd be back and she left.

So I "looked" around to the rest of them - and Edward stepped up. He said that I need to keep sleeping now - and to work on my dreaming skills - to advance them even more. That's when Robert stepped up and said the OBE book needs to be done - the outline. It's overdue. That brought Jezell up to tell me to work on my manifestation skills and to be very VERY careful on where I decide to place my thoughts. Brigit was next and said that I have to start offering my healing - to which Andrew agreed. Paul told me to get ready because a new love is about to enter my life - Andrew agreed.

Andrew then said that something will happen before Jan 15th that will start the ball rolling in my direction. Ethan stepped forward and said he wanted me to write my affirmations in my journal - which I did.

All I have to say is we'll see what happens:)

The healing part I put in today's podcast. Healing and attunement information before I list it on the site at the start of the year.

It's so difficult to work with an 8 year old in my ear - lol.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And More!

It is so drab, dark and rainy here. Yucky - Yucky - Poo. Seriously.

The meeting of Santa Friday night went well. My son was so excited - just waving and jumping up and down to the Santa. He wanted to go say hi to him again this year. Santa was approaching us and I could tell he wasn't going to say hi to my son again so as he was right in front of us, I smacked his elbow and yelled - Hi Santa! He turned and shook my son's hand. The kid was on cloud nine for the rest of the freezing evening. It was so cold out - but he was so happy he didn't even notice.

The weekend was cold - but went well. I got some work done on the horror story - but not much. Robert is here bugging me to get the OBE outline rewritten. Andrew happens to agree with him -- and Paul just sits back and smiles. Paul smiles a lot. Last night he was in a dream of mine. My son and I were on this ultra luxury private jet. It was decked out. We were being shown around - when the pilot wanted to show my son the cool games on the plane. While they were doing that, I took a turn and ended up at this mini bar. Seated there was Paul. He looked at me and asked - how do you like it? I told him it looked great - pretty comfortable and appears to have everything anyone would want. He smiled - said Good - get used to it. I woke up. The image of the inside that plane stayed with me after I awoke. It was a white interior with blue trim. Besides that dream - I tossed and turned all night. By the time I did get out of bed I was pooped.

But back to the OBE book. As I was working on the outline I thought of a killer second book dealing with orgasms and sex. The 2nd book has Oprah and The View written all over it. I already have a title and actually I saw the whole workshop tour unfold before my eyes. It was so fricken cool. But I have to get this book done first. Mums on the title for #2 or what's it all about - one thing I will say it's good:)

Over the weekend I came across my old diary from high school. In it I found my old musings about moving to Asheville, NC. I always wanted to live there - been there several times and just loved the warm feeling. No matter where I went I felt a surge of positive energy. As I was reading my diary - for some reason Will popped into my head. Once there - he stayed for most of the day. He acted like a comforter, his energy being comforting, but not invasive. Later on that evening as I laid down to go to sleep, I felt him calling me into a session. I went and sure enough - there was that willow tree right by the river. Will was leaning against it, smile on his face. You look good - he said. I am good - I replied. Are you happy, Will asked. For the most part - I said - if tinsel town could get from 1st gear to 2nd, I'd be a lot happier. Will laughed. That's the way that part of the world works, he murmured, you either live with it or you don't and walk away. There is no in between. Well I guess I'm stuck - aren't I? He chuckled - sure looks that way. Go to sleep - Will said - and we'll catch up later. And that's what I did - went to sleep.

Vincent did stop by today and tell me how tired he is. I know he's tuckered out - which is why I haven't been pushing to make any sort of connection this last week. I could tell he needed some chill time - and could still use another week or two. But I told him that if he needs me - all he has to do is call.

There have been a ton of new people who have found this blog over the last two weeks. Seems that people are confused on who is what and if anyone is actually real. So here's the skinny for the newbies - everyone is real. I don't make anything up. If there is a connection to another person that I do not physically know in this lifetime (as in Will, Vincent, George, Bill or Ted) I confirm what I sense with a couple of other people before it ever makes this blog. I'm the type of person where something has to happen to me many times over before it causes a blip on my radar. And then I still need some sort of confirmation. SO what I write here are not elaborate fantasies to entertain you. If that's what you're looking for - you need another blog. I write what I do because there are people out there who have occurrences like I do - not exactly the same - but similar. Plus I know (intuitively wise) that Bill, Ted, Will, George and Vincent have al been to this blog at least twice. I also write so that they can find the blog - and compare the experiences to their notes.

Quick rundown:

Bill, Ted, George, Will and Vincent - soul group
Andrew, Paul, Robert, Jezell, Iris, Brigit, Ethan - spirit guides
Sean - new friend who Allie is fond of
Tracey, Sky, Gab and Maria - my psychic posse

And that's that.

I added Sexual Coaching to my list of services (and no, that does not mean I sleep with you) along with 2 new tiers of coaching - One Time Coach and One Week.

My sister is in New Orleans - I hate her (not really) she's having a great time......

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Hotel Rooms, Ted And Will!

I cannot believe how tired I am. Seriously. I'm so tired that I could sleep for 48 hours easy. My dream travels are really kicking my butt. I'm back to the hotel dreams. Remember I had those before my divorce? Well this signals another major change on the horizon. Last time the hotel rooms were crowed, small and in disarray. Now they are large suites, plush, with all the trimmings. I'm hoping this means my very long phase of being broke is over. I could use the shift - as I'm sure many of you could use as well.

The dreams too for the last couple of nights, I would wake up and it would still feel like was floating about in the dreamscape. I don't know how to describe it really - I would wake up, but it didn't feel like I woke up. Almost like waking up in dream that was still a dream. But I could see what was going on in my room in real time.

BT was received well by my manager's boss. I had some minor things to change but that was it. Now it's off to make its rounds in Tinsel Town. Fingers crossed. No new words on Dreamers or GG as of now. Again - sometimes no news is good news.

I'm going to be kicking the OBE sex book into high gear this weekend. I've cleared the whole weekend to work on that and my yard. My yard has some serious leaves on it. I'm looking foreword to jumping in to the OBE book - my guide Robert is very eager to see that it is done. He has been hanging out lately throwing "Obe" in my face (so to speak) so that I get with the program. He and Ethan are very happy that the BT is done. In fact, Ethan let out a side of relief. I asked him if he'll be around more often and he said - no. But he's always near by if I want to chat.

So I asked Andrew, since he mentioned that having BT done would help things along with Vincent - has anything changed. His reply was that things are moving behind the scenes. If Vincent would wake up to the signs that are right in front of his face and now wait for a nuclear meltdown to realize what was going on - things would move faster. But it seems that he is a stubborn soul (gee - what a surprise) but he will come around . Just like with Will - you (as in me) will be put in front of them until they do something about it - even if it's friendship or a business partnership. Something will have to be done. But - Andrew says - in Vincent case, he won't be able to rest until a romantic relationship ensues between the two of us.

My only reply was - ok, just wanted to know if things were moving. I guess they are:)

Will surprised me today - I wrote about it in the OBE blog. It was nice to feel his energy so close again.

Ted's back --I can feel him. I'm sure something will come of this over the next couple of days. I sure hope he ditched that bitch of a wife. I don't say something normally so horrible about a person I haven't physically met - but her energy is heavy and just pure yuck. I hope he actually visits soon.

Better get back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Universal Light Expo, Guides, Vincent And Will!

What a week thus far. I don't know where to begin - as this is a continuation of last week.

Humm...

Well, I will tell you that Paul Newman is part of my day to day life. Seems he is a guide in training and Vincent and I are his "pet project". So for this day forth I'm just going to call him Paul - I could care less who he was when he was alive. What I do know from him being by my side is he has a wicked sense of humor. Plus he just radiates a good, loving energy. Oh - and less I forget - he's opinioned. Sometimes it's Paul here - sometimes it's Andrew - most of the time it's both. Every once in a while Robert and Ethan stop by to check in. So Paul is both my guide and Vincent's guide. I asked Andrew how they both can be both of our guides - isn't there a confliction interest there? They said no. What's god for Vincent is god for me and vice versa. If Vincent and I keep listening to Pal and Andrew then things will move forward as they should (and I say should because that is the word Andrew used).

So I asked - what about Will? Paul waves it off. No he says - that isn't in your highest good - nor Vincent's. So why isn't Will in my highest good? I'm confused. Okay - Andrew has me stop and do Vincent Rambles #2. So listen there for more - it should be below this post.

Sheesh - that felt good to get that out of my system.

Update on DREAMERS - both CBS and FOX passed. Neither are looking for sci-fi at the moment. My manager has a new plan up her sleeve. Which is good - since Andrew said we're about 3 weeks behind schedule. I reminded him - Mercury Retro. Things always move at a snails pace during that time. So Paul chimes in today - isn't that over with? Yes Paul - it is - so things should move. I will be working on BLACK TRIANGLE this weekend. The structure/plot is good - I just need to dig deeper into the character's souls for better dialogue. To do that I'm going to have to drink some wine - and cry some (well - a lot) but I can do it -- I have to. I feel good about all of this and with the kid's show (that we haven't heard back from yet). It'll all work out the way it's supposed to.

The Universal Light Expo went well. I met many interesting people - gave many readings. I was surprised though to see a guy that I normally see at Maria's events up in MI. It was nice to see him. There's a past life connection or two between him and I. I can't quite figure it all out yet - maybe I'm not supposed to. But what I've been told is that the sex in the past lives was great:) And I was told by Andrew to tell him this while he was sitting in front of me. I thought to myself - oh God - I can be bold but I do happen to be a shy person. So I just blurted it out. He took it in stride and wrote it in his notebook:) I may ask about him during my past life regression that weekend in MI at the end of the month.

I mention in the Vincent Ramblings #2 about the lighting rod up my @ss on Sat. I was wired - big time wired. And I crashed that evening at Smoky Bones as Kal and I flirted with this young male server. Poor guy - he asked what my talk was going to be on on Sunday and I said OBE Sex. From that point on he was flustered. If he knew what Kal and I were saying when he wasn't there - he would passed out:) Man we're bad.

My booth had great neighbors. This year we had Morgen from The Animals' Voice on one side: http://www.theanimalsvoice.com/ (she's a kick ass animal communicator - and a nice person - along with her cohorts in crime) and on the other side: Sacred Journey's - The Family of Mu: http://www.sacred-journeys.org/ who I got a great trio healing session from - and the group is just wonderful as well (thanks Chrissy for all of the help). I also got a reading from Cindy Riggs: http://www.cindyriggs.com/ she's great. Cindy is the one who I went to for a PLR last year and we chatted about Will.

My workshop on OBE Sex went great. People participated and I needed more time as we ran out before I could cover everything. I lost count on the number of people who wanted to see the talk, but couldn't be there in Sunday. Thankfully there will be DVD's of the talk available here within a month. I had a full house as it was - if the people showed up who wanted to from Sat - there wouldn't of been any way to fit them all in.

I met quite a few interesting men that weekend that peaked my interest. It was fun to flirt - even if it was short-lived. No - I didn't give them my number - but they knew who I was and could find me if they really wanted to - and vice versa. You never know.

My hands are burning up - fire hot. I also have a headache and spend allot of my time being dizzy and lightheaded - like I'm high (but I haven't touched a thing). This coupled with my very active dream time means something is coming up. Something big. I hope whatever it is happens son as I'm tired already of walking like I'm drunk- plus being very tired.

My son's little 8 year old girlfriend needs a heart transplant. Seriously - she does. Melanie spends a lot of time at the Cleveland Clinic. And this makes my son worry so much. He dreams with her on the nights she isn't in school. So he knows that if he doesn't see her in a dream - then she'll be in school for a short time. He says he wants to be her boyfriend so that he can make her feel better. Last year my son's acting out had a trigger - my divorce & the firing of his teacher (happened at the same time). This year it's Melanie. He's staring to slip back into his old habit of disrupting class. The teacher and I are trying to stop it before it gets out of control. I'm stepping in again with the laying of the stones. If you can send some light Melanie's way I would appreciate it.

Had fun today on Maria Shaw's show on Psychiconair.com. Love chatting with those guys. Did some tag team on a couple of readings - chatted about a Dollar Charm and a bit about OBE Sex. I was asked how many sex partners have I had in my lifetime - with OBE sex. I honestly have no clue - it's way -way up there in numbers. Makes me sounds kind of like an OBE sleeze:) Sheesh. I was on from 1:30 - 1:55 pm ET.

Will has been very strong the last two days. He's been saying how much he has missed me. And that he checks the blog still to see how I'm doing and what is going on. We had an intense OBE sex experience today. His energy is always so dang strong. Wow. When I was having my healing session on Sunday - as the chants were being conducted, I saw Vincent in my mind's eye - but then Will showed up and pushed him aside saying something like - this is all mine. And Vincent let him jump in. I could 1st see Vincent in a multi colored robe - but after Will pushed him to the side - I could see Will in a dark violet robe. Will's been right here ever since.

I know that there's more for me to talk about - but I need to get my shower so that I can watch the debate with my son. He really loves the debates.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Three Guides And Energy!

Today I was starting to think that either I forgot to put my clothes on or I only put half on and had pasties on my nipples. Why? Guys kept looking at me while I was out doing errands today. I checked to see if I was "too cold" - nadda. Nothing hanging from my nose. I was perplexed. Until I felt Andrew by my Mini Cooper. Ahhhhh.....I thought - that's why. So I asked him if he put the love mojo on me or something like that. His reply - something like that....you'll get used to it.

I told him if he's doing that - go sprinkle it on the RIGHT person. Not some Joe Farmer here in Wooster. He told me not to worry about it - but to tune into him when I got home.

Okay - so I get home. Right away Robert and Ethan show up. Robert is saying that I need to prepare for the OBE workshop. I need to finish the book. Plan my next step in the OBE world. Copyright or trademark my process. Ethan jumps in -- no, she needs to work on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. She needs to have it done by mid October. She needs to have the OBE by mid-October - Robert quipped back.

SIGH.

So I speak up - HEY! Guides don't fight - they guide. Do I have to call Iris back? Silence from both of them - lol. In a calm voice they both state that I have to have the respected projects done. I told them that I agree. But -- I can't do both at once. With the OBE it would be nice to have someone to guide me - like a coach. Robert took offense to that. He says that I don't need a mortal - I need to listen to him. He'll tell me the steps. So I had to bite here - I asked, what are your steps? This is what he said:

1) Work on the workshop for both Oct shows. They can be the same workshop as they are both 50 min shows. Write the workshop like you would a spell. Do the beginning, the end and then the middle.
2) Have that workshop copy written or trademarked (he said whatever you humans call it) as that process will be the basis of my in-person weekend workshops.
3) Finish the OBE book by end of Oct/Nov
4) Have it in print in Jan for Valentines Day 2009

I thought that it sounded like a workable plan. He was pleased about that. Ethan chimed in - what about BT? I told him that I have a plan for BT. I'm going to rewrite the structure part of it until the 24th or so - when mercury reto kicks in. Then for the next week I'm going to take a character a day and work on their dialogue. I'll have it to my manager by Oct 4th. Then she and I can work on any rewrites until Mercury goes direct on Oct 15th. Finished....I know I cannot get it done by the time mercury goes retro - so I have some time to get it done - and done right.

Both guides were happy.

Now Andrew (who had been standing back watching all this) steps forward. He asked me if I would work on my heart chakra - to open it up more. I said sure. He said that Will has been consciously connecting to me over the last two days. I told him - I know. He miss you. I know - I said - it's mutual. Because he's consciously connecting to you, your energy is shifting to a higher frequency and it is absorbing his feelings for you, your soul is responding by putting out the energy signals for him. I jumped in -- so that's why these men are looking at me like I'm dessert? Because my energy is projecting a certain frequency to Will? Andrew said - yes.

Oh hell - I said. Is there a way for my energy not to do that? Sure he said, you could close yourself off from Will again - then he'll close himself from you and you two will be back to where you were this summer. Well I don't want that. I want to move FORWARD. Andrew agreed. Then he chimed in - you better watch Will when George enters you life.

So me being me asked -- so they'll both be in my life at the same time. Andrew said - yep. And Will won't want George around - but George will try to smooth things out with Will.

I asked Andrew - any idea when I'll see Will next? He smiled and said -- sooner than you think.

And with that all 3 were gone.

Will has been around a lot the last two days. Not so much that I can't get anything done - but quite a bit. It's been really nice to know he's right here again. Let's hope this time he doesn't go anywhere.

Now for the dream I had last night that I can't put my finger on the why. I walked into a restaurant - where there was some sort of party going on - like a retirement party or new hire - something like that. Seated at a long table was this man I'll call Mike. I felt him staring at me as I was in another part of the restaurant picking out a dress to wear to my cousin's wedding (which is at the end of Sept). He walked over and introduced himself - I smiled, intro back and then went on with what I was doing. People kept bothering him - women mostly - he is a well-known person. He was persistent and kept walking up to me and suggesting what dress I should buy. I finally bought one (at his suggestion) and as I was leaving he asked if he could call me sometime. I asked why? He said because he would like to take me out. I was hesitant - I gave him my number.

We went out a couple of times - had fun. Next thing I know is he and I are swimming in the YMCA pool here in Wooster. I'm standing next to him in my swim suit - I tap his abs and say - now that's a body. He blushed and laughed. I asked if he was going to help me get in shape - and he said if that was what I wanted. We're in the water and he has one arm around me and is twirling me in the water. He commented that this was a nice pool. I said that yes it's nice - but although I have a membership - I haven't been here since Feb (which is true) - and that my son never picked up his membership card yet (also true). Mike said that we'll be at that pool every day. I'm like - every day? He said yes.

So later on we are walking into the same restaurant where we met - and as we're walking in I hear a couple women talk among themselves is if he's so and so. I leaned over - smiled - and said , yes he is. Then I woke up. Why I would have a dream like that about a guy I don't know, who's not my type, and the odds will never meet - is beyond me. Andrew said (just now) that he has stumbled upon my blog just recently. But I still don't get the dream.

Hummm...

For those of you who voted for me yesterday - thank you! I greatly appreciate the help. Remember you can vote once every 24 hours:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Iris Is Gone!

Yep - that's right - Iris is gone. I cried like a baby. I didn't mean to, it just flowed right out of me. I finished DREAMERS last night and I must admit - it's pretty good this time. Of course, I thought it was good previous times when it actually sucked:) But this time I know it's different. How? Besides the fact that it read better - I had chills up and down my spine as I was getting ready to send it. Iris told me not to worry - that it will all flow as it should and that huge changes are ahead for me in the upcoming months. I need to remain grounded during and after the change happen (sounds like menopause, doesn't it- lol). She told me to make frequent trips back to Ohio (after I move obviously) so that I don't lose touch with where I came from. It'll be too easy to get swept up in the hoop-la of Holly-Weird, especially after the years of hard work and personal sacrifices I've made. I told her we'd have to see about that -- I'm not packing my bags yet.

Before she left I asked her if I should tell my manager that she's gone? Iris said - no. Wait until she reads your script and calls you to tell you what a good ob you did. After that, believing everything I have told you about your life changing will be easier to believe. She said her good-byes, told me to stop crying and pull it together:) They'll be a time where she and I will meet again - many years down the road. And that was that - she was gone.

In her place Andrew stepped in and Ethan plus Robert were both back. I laughed and said - it takes 3 men to fill 1 woman's shoes. Andrew laughed - Robert and Ethan did not :) Ahh - next to me right now is Edward. Sheesh -- seems like the gang is here:) Andrew said that he's going to give me some down time ater al the hard work I've done - and then we'll jump into my love life :)

Later on last night, my manager called and said exactly what Iris said she would. After she was done - I told her Iris was gone.

Now as my manager is doing her thing - I'm back on THE BLACK TRIANGLE.

My son is off school today - as it's "Fair Day" for the kids in Wooster. So he, my mother and one of my sisters will be heading down to the fair. I doubt that I will have a chance to do the podcast today - but you never know.

I didn't get a wink of sleep last night. I'm a tired pup. My brain wouldn't shut off. As you know - when this happens - change is in the air. As I was trying to sleep, Will kept popping up. Nothing annoying or intrusive. The visits were more - how are you? How's your son - etc....His energy was like it was in the beginning - when he first arrived and acknowledged himself. It was calm. soothing and patient. Maybe he has made some life decisions that has smoothed out his energy field? I hope he has - for his sake - his energy was too spiky before. I'm looking forward to seeing him again.

Ted was all over the board last night. Man is his energy just @ucked up. He needs an intervention - one to get away from his psycho wife and two to get into rehab. I try to connect to him, to give him more white light. But it's almost as if I'm trying to connect to a mosquito. His energy darts around and it's rather sharp. I'll keep trying though -- I have to.

Bill stopped by to say "Hi" - the man is all smiles. Not sure what he's so go-happy about, but I wish he would send some of it to Ted. Although, Bill is pretty dang cute when he smiles;)

And of course - George showed up. His energy was more like a kid who had too much sugar. He was quite funny and I found myself chuckling:) Good thing no one was around as I was laughing with no one there - and no obvious external cause for the laughter:)

It's a beautiful day for the county fair!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dirk, Dreams And The CIA!

I'm trying to get some readings done this late morning, do the podcast and THEN write in this blog. But the powers that be keep bugging me to write about Dirk. Okay, I hear you - who's this one? Dirk is someone I met when I was 13 and it was (until my son was born) the #1 best moment of my life. Now Dirk shares spot #2 with Will. I've tried to move Dirk to #3, but it doesn't feel right to do. So there he stays - until Will calls, then maybe he'll move to #3:)

So Dirk is handsome - wonderful blue eyes, nice smile, very charming. Nothing ever romantic here - but I have always thought he was pretty darn hot. Age wise, he's now in his 60's - but again, he's still hot. Periodically over the last 28 years I've thought about him - nothing too intensive and usually not more than maybe a day at a time. But Sat., something happened that triggered my memory of him, and he's been right there ever since. Yesterday I realized two things about Dirk: 1) he influenced the way on why I do not eat out very often, once calling restaurants (especially fast food) as drive-thru cancer centers and 2) influenced my two trips to Montana (he lives there) and although I was with my ex - two of the next vacations I have ever had. I LOVE MT - even more than NYC or Calif.

Okay - why now - why is he "right there"? I don't get it. I keep getting flash visions of he and Will sitting there chatting and me being very nervous, yet flirting with both. I don't know why he's here - but Ethan said it was important for me to mention him in the blog, Iris is here too agreeing with him and saying for me to breathe deep. Why? Is something going to come out of left field? Quite possibility. Another vision I keep seeing is Dirk and I with papers around us discussing creative ideas.

I so wish visions came with a guide book -- not just the guide:) And I don't know how Dirk fits in with the whole soul cluster, soul group thing. He fits in some way - I just do not know how. Wow - what a sizzling energy I had zap through me (the kind that makes your skull tingle). If I find out anything else, I'll let you know. And Dirk, when you stop by this blog (and someday you will), let me know what you get of our connection.

Before you ask - Dirk is his real name. I was told to use it and that it would be okay to do so.

Dreams last night. One was me standing in line at the bank, trying to make a deposit - but there was only one teller working. Another one was messing around. She finally came over and another guy with 2 small kids cut in front of me. I looked over at him and said "excuse me" - he took a step back. I handed the woman the check and the deposit slip. She looked at it and said she'd be right back. The Bank Manager (a woman) came over and told me that this was a rather large check and would I met her at her desk. Okay -- I go over. We sit down and she proceeds to tell me that this is too much money to place in one account. That it would be good to put some in a savings, IRA, etc....I assured her I'd think about it after I deposited the check and paid off things. With what's left -I will spend some on fun stuff and put the rest away. I assured her that this was not my last big check so I wasn't worried about running out of money.

In this next dream, I was in a research facility. I had to go into someone's dream to help them out of a coma. But first I had to pass the "Dream Keeper" - a very scary looking dude in orange & black armor - you had to pass him in order to get into the Dreamscape. He was like a dream gatekeeper. He knew my energy signature, so they did not want to send me in 1st, Someone else had to go in and distract the DK. I keep getting this was in CIA. Anyways -- a woman put on a special dream helmet and laid down. She went to sleep and on a flat screen TV, it showed us what she was dreaming about. We could hear what was said, what she did -- and with the DK coming towards her (with a very loud and deep voice) I had to turn off the TV, as I was concentrating too much on DK - to do so would alert him that I was around. I didn't need a helmet to enter into this dream world - I sat back in a recliner - Will came over and told me to remember not to think about DK at all, or he will be drawn to me. I tell him - okay - he tells me to be careful -- and I go into the dream.

I am in a very dark area. I don't nee a flashlight as I can see quite well in little light. There are rocks, and smoke everywhere - the land is barren. I'm using all of my brain power on concentrating on this person I have to find. I can see a white light glowing up head to my left. I can hear crying - but I ignore it - moving straight towards the light something catches my eye over to the right. I look and it's Bill. I ask him what's he doing here? He replied that he thought I might need the help. As soon as he said that - it alerted DK and it showed up behind him - I screamed at Bill to wake up NOW. I woke myself up.

As I was lying there in my bed - heart pounding a million miles an hour...I wondered if Bill was lying in his bed doing the same? And would he remember what just happened? That was really interesting -- although DK scared the crap out of me.

Off to the store -- the kid is driving me crazy.

Okay - it is now dinner time and I'm finishing this up for now. I had to get caught up on my readings. My podcast - I hope - will be later tonight. The dinosaur show up in Cleveland was a lot of fun on Saturday and his party on Sunday was a blast. Tomorrow it's his actual birthday so I'm taking him to see WALL-E. We seem to see a Pixar flick every birthday. Then on Friday the family gathering with fireworks that evening.

I did see orange kitty today - I was relieved. His paw/leg still isn't healed - but it does seem to look better. Mr. Client Guy called today too - didn't have a lot of time to talk with the kid's phone radar, but at least we chatted - so that was good.

As of today the kid and I have been on our own for a year! Yay! I always knew I could do it - but knowing and then doing are two separate things. I give great thanks that the Universe has always had my back - and will continue to do so! It hasn't been easy - but I am very grateful for the experience. Besides - I'm much better off today (mentally, emotionally and spiritually) than I was a year ago.

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Tracey, Ethan And Merlin!

Okay, it doesn't fall on deaf ears that all of this is coming at me on the solstice. Ethan just popped up - he leans in and whispers: be ready, the damn about to break loose and you're going to get catapulted forward. Go with the flow, don't resist, analyze or judge - just go with it.

And he disappeared. Now he showed up the other evening as I was flowing asleep and told me to be patient. Now this...

Merlin also just arrived and said that he wants me to meet him...here go my hands again (see previous entry)..wow are they hot. I'm in Merlin's cave - in the magic room. He grabs my left hand and wants me to stand in between two large crystals. When I'm on the crystals, he chants in a language I don't know --but in English it translates to: You are free. He draws a star on my third eyes and a triangle within a circle on my crown chakra. Wow - what a jolt of energy that is -- then I'm back here again.

I'm not sure what that meant or what it did. But I find it interesting that Merlin showed up right after Ethan sneaked in and said that the damn is about to break loose. Now I am getting a headache - a pounding one.

Tracey just emailed me back about Will - I had asked her if she removed the negativity from his energy field:

Yes, a lot in fact - he had a lot of dark black smoky stuff - and sludge that was removed. His chakras were a mess to say the least. I am going to do another chakra BCC next week to be sure I got all the dark spots in his chakras and to be sure they are still functioning properly. I am going to do some more healing on him on Sunday between 9-11 PM. I am actually putting him on my schedule so that I do not forget and do it when I have time! :)

I forgot to mention in the previous post that Will actually did show up last night and apologize for being so nervous and scatterbrained.

Must get back to work....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Married, Will And Dream Visits!

Will was dead center in my mind last night. No matter what else I tried to shift my brain power to, it kept bouncing back to him. So after awhile I stopped fighting it. I figure, if it's this stong - there must be a reason for it. So about 11:30 pm I let the thoughts just come in. There were so many images, words and mini movies - all spinning what seemed like out of control. It reminded me of a kaleidoscope and with every turn of the view finder, there was something different to see/hear. But I wasn't the one turning the view finder.

There were a lot of "what if" scenarios - almost as if Will was "what if'ing" the connection into the ground. Then it would shift to an exuberant happiness - then down to an overwhelming sadness. And it continued. Any time there was happiness - there were images of he, myself and my son together - even if it was eating popcorn and watching a movie on TV. The sadness was always when he was pacing in his apartment - alone.

Finally about 1:00 am I had enough and told Will that I'll meet him in dream time. I walked down my dream path (as I like to call it) towards my dream portal/workspace. My path is always through a pine forest - I love the feel of the pine beneath my bare feet and the smell. As I round a corner - there is Ethan. I went over and gave him a big ole hug. I asked if he was back to help. He shook his head no - this is just a visit. We both could feel Iris in the background - just watching. I leaned into Ethan and asked - is she always like this? You mean a control freak? - Yes Ethan replied with a chuckle. But she gets results - her charges always travel down the path they are supposed to. I guess that's comforting - I said. He replied - it should be.

So we're walking and I asked Ethan if I'm doing something wrong? Is there something I'm meant to do that I haven't done yet? He shook his head -- no -- the ball is in Will's court. It's completely up to him. I asked - why is this so difficult for him if he "knows". Ethan put his arm round me and answered - because change is difficult, no matter matter much you want it (this sounded very familiar to me - AKA my divorce last year) and you add to that shyness and an uncertainty if this is all in his head -- and there you go. Is this something that he'll get over. Ethan shrugged - he has to or this will repeat in the next life. And quite frankly - there isn't time to repeat this - you two have to be together so that the next step happens. So this is a must for him. His guides will keep putting things, reminder, in front of him so that he takes that next step.

The next step - involves Bill and Ted doesn't it? Ethan nods - also Clive, Peter, John, Larry and a woman and her partner that you have failed to explore yet. I don't have time for her right now.

(update - I have written about her before - I called her Jo:
http://gypsyadvice.com/alliestwocents/2007/03/stuff-ted-and-new-one-named-jo.html)

Well, Ethan said - just like Will will have things in front of him about you - you will keep having things in front of you about her. This isn't something that can be put off. Since she and Will know one another - do I meet her before Will calls or after? Ethan replied - that hasn't been written yet.

Something catches my eye off the path and I go get it - a cell phone. I'm giving this to Will during our visit. Ethan laughed - of course you are.

I entered my dream portal and Ethan stayed behind.

I'm on a train with many people - but it's not overcrowded. I'm at one end of a small car, Will is at the other end. To my left sits a woman who I am friends with in my waking life. Her partner is sitting next to Will. I see him lean over to Will and start to talk about me. I can hear what is said, even though I shouldn't be able to:

G = Guy W = Will

G = You know Allie?
W = From Gypsy Advice? Yes. Her and her son.
G = Word is that she's obsessed with you.

Will arises his eyebrows on that one -- and this guy is looking right at me -- I'm staring at him trying to say with my eyes - WTF and shut the hell up. But he goes on...

W = You don't say.
G = She thinks about you all the time.
W = I see.

I look over at this my friend and ask - what in the hell is he doing? She shrugs. Make him stop - I said.

Next thing I know, Will has a magazine in his hand and he sits a couple of rows behind me. I can feel him staring at me -but I refuse to look over at him. He is now sitting behind me - his left hand is on the back of my chair - he's tapping his fingers. I look and he's wearing a brand new shiny wedding ring.

I look over at my friend and say - hell no. I stand up and I'm cussing to myself. A lot of - WTF came out. I started to walk away in the opposite direction - she asked - where are you going? I yelled - this is whacked - I'm waking up. So I walk through the cars shouting at myself to wake up and I finally do.

I laid there in bed -- what in the hell was that? I talked to myself: Why was that scene there? He's not married - I know he's not married. But the ring he had on - looked just like (my ex) when we first got married, same ring. Will has been in an on again off again relationship for over 10 years - maybe she feels that they are married even if they are not? And I'm not obsessed. I have a life - and he's not center stage.

I gotta go back into that dream. So I did...

The train came to a stop and we all got off and went into a huge formal garden - the kind you would see outside of a castle. I'm on a balcony and I see Will. He sees me. I turn the opposite way and go inside this room made from shrubs. There are a bunch of people in there and someone asked me if I was okay. I try not to cry - because I'm very angry and frustrated. I said - no I'm not okay. So I go back out of that room and into where Will is still at. I have two ways to go in order to get to the other side of this balcony- I see Will walking towards me on one side - I start to walk the opposite - but then think -- nah...and I walk right past him - it takes everything I have not to look over at him. But as we pass he said - Allie - wait -please. I stop. He's alongside of me -and it's automatic - I thread my arm through his and we walk.

I need to know - he said - I need to know if I have a chance.

I look over to him - you're the only one.

We're silent for a few steps.

Do you understand what I mean? He nods. There is no one else - no one.

Will smiled and let out a sign of relief.

But I don't do the married thing - I'm not playing second fiddle. I'm not someone's afterthought. I went through two marriages where I was the afterthought and was cheated on -- I will never do that to another woman.

But you have - he replied.

Yes - in my early 20's. I learned that lesson by being on the receiving end twice of men who didn't give a crap about me. And I will never do that again - no matter what I feel for the person. I deserve better.

Will replied - understood. But you'd never be second fiddle in my life.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out the cell phone - and handed it to him. Then first work it out with your ex, she is an ex right?

He nods - but she doesn't see it that way.

Find a way to make her understand and then call me. And could you hurry up, we're not getting any younger.

Then I woke up.

As strange as it sounds - when I woke up I felt Will reading my blog to see if I wrote about this dream yet. He'll check back until he reads this - and then his uncertainty won't have such a hold on him. I feel this is why Iris was adamant about me posting this entry today and not waiting until Monday.

And I must admit - it is very strange to feel that you'd take a bullet for someone in a heartbeat when you have only met them once (in this life - obviously). It's an unconditional sacrifice - just like it would be for my son. There's no thinking about it - it's automatic.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with someone who I'll call Dan. I was surprised to see him. I know "of him" but don't actually "know him" in any sense of the word. He's not part of my soul cluster, circle or family. But I did recognize him immediately. Maybe a past life connection?

I entered into a very dark room. I could tell someone else was there. I said - hello? Then I heard his voice - I thought you'd never get here. Then a light from above (?) shown down and Dan stepped from the shadows. He had on a crisp white long sleeve shirt, red tied, brown dress pants w/suspenders. No jacket. His hands were in his pant pockets. A definite frown on his face. I'm supposed to be here - I ask? You were waiting? He nods. I've been waiting for months.

I didn't know I was being called - or I would have been here sooner. He cracks a small smile -- why do you think "Elliot" (I made up the name) has been showing up all over the place? And when you didn't see him - you were drawn to seek him out (very true I might add)? I didn't realize it until now -- was my response. Well, I'm just glad you're here - Dan replied.

How did you hear about me? I wondered. We all know about you - he replied. Who's we? I asked.

He waves his hands around -- we -- us -- everyone -- souls. We know that you help people. Word gets out. You're very well liked and thought of on this side.

Oh, okay. That's good to know. So what can I help you with?

My wife. I don't know what to do with my wife. She hasn't let me touch her in years and I know about her string of affairs. Yet I can't let her go.

Have you talked to her about it?

He nods yes. But she won't let me divorce her.

What's more important -- your money or your life?

He thinks about it for a few seconds. My life - he answered.

Then give her your money and move on with your life. That's the only way you'll find the happiness you crave.

Now I have no idea what happened next...but somehow we got to this next part....

He was lying down on his side, fully clothed, and I knew he was dreaming. I slide into his arms and he wraps them around me. He mummers about how long it's been since he has touched anyone. I tell him that he's dreaming, my name is Alison (not sure why I said Alison when I usually go by Allie) and I'm not his wife.

Then I woke up. So it was like we were in a shared dream visit, then the visit ended and I astral traveled to where he was sleeping.

Ethan just showed up and now Edward. Get used to it - Ethan says. Souls from all over will be asking you for aid - Edward chimes in. Is this a good thing? I had to ask. Yes, Ethan replies, it's part of your soul path. Be prepared for things to start moving at a very rapid pace - Edward says. It'll be as if a strong wind sweeps you off your feet -- you will not be manhandled, but things will move very fast, and when this cycle is over you will be set down gently.

The hard parts behind you - Edward says - and because of this, our time with you is now over. I felt my heart sink. Ethan kisses me on the top of the head (I can feel a tingle in my crown chakra and some pressure) and says -- we're never far away. But who will be here then? I could feel them just go -- with a good bye.

Two show up -- Jezell and Brigit:) Behind them Galadriel. I hear Jezell say - welcome to some serious female power. Those three laugh. And I feel and energy surge through my body.

Jezell wants me to follow her -- not astral wise - but with my sight. I do and I can see myself and my son on a plane - sitting first class. He's playing with his iPod and I'm working on my laptop. Get used to this - Jezell says. Embrace who have you become - Brigit chimes in -- and let us glide (yes, glide and not guide) you -- Galadriel says. I keep hearing the word "healing".

Jezell says - we'll be back in a bit. When you're working on the BLACK TRIANGLE. And they were gone.

So - I headed BACK to my Runes because obviously something has changed since yesterday. Asked now what cycle am I in?

Perth - reversed (initiation) - Present
Gebo (partnership) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

The old way has come to an end. Time to call in scattered energies and concentrate on myself at the moment. I need to keep my sense of humor during obstacles and rerouting opportunities. Also - keep positive while keeping my faith firm. A partnership is coming to me - love and/or business - and I have to be prepared not to lose myself in it. I have to remember that with this gift, that I have to remain separate and whole - no matter how easy it is to become one with the partner. This partnership will also lead me to the solidification with my higher self and with the Divine. There is no more doubt lingering. This union is where all my other gifts will flow though. With this I will continue to move down my soul's path. I have to remember to let the right action flow through me and it is brought to me for a reason. Don't fight it - just flow with it and all will work out as its supposed to.

Boy oh boy:)

I wanted to add - before I forget again -- that I got a couple of emails from people who are worried that I have placed Will, Bill, Ted and Matt on some sort of pedestal. Ahhh -- there isn't any worry here. They're men -- enough said:) Besides, we all have faults and limitations -- Lord knows I have my share of them:) At the core I am a very simple person who enjoys simple things (although I do like complex people) and I'm sure because of this -- my soul cluster is the same way. I wonder if we all sat around a camp fire - who would have the best ghost story? LOL.

Have a good day...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted's Marriage, Dream Visits And Dreamers!

Ted's getting married to the vamp by year's end. Had I been invited to the wedding, I would have been stumped at what to wear. Either an all black dress or pants suit with a nice skull & crossbones brooch. This man sure does love the life of hard knocks. But as you all know, if we don't learn our lessons, we're doomed to keep repeating them. Tracey and I discussed what would come 1st - rehab, divorce or a body bag. We both agreed rehab and then divorce. There will be a point where he's so drugged up on something that he will not be able to do his job effectively. I wonder if Bill made the guest list? If so - I wonder if he'll actually go. Maybe he can slip back to see the groom and try to knock some sense into him before marriage #4 is a done deal.

I'll tell you what - I learned my lesson about being dependant on others for survival. I will not be doomed to repeat it! Now part of both Bill and Will's lessons are to allow other people in. So I wonder how that will work with them and me? Like everything else, time will tell.

My goal this last weekend was to work on DREAMERS again. I got my notes back from my manager and I'm heading in the right direction. But my son got the flu - so that dashed that. He's home from school - but he is doing much better. Me - I still have my cough and congestion although I don't think it's as bad as last week.

Bill's energy is around pretty strong lately - but he and Will can co-mingle in the same energy space without any drama. Every night they are both in my dreams, but their dream visits are separate from one another. Bill and I spend a lot of time chatting about things while Will shows up to help me do something - whether it be pack for a trip, go shopping, cook, etc.... Humm...if I think about that it seems that Bill is a talker and Will is a doer -- I personally prefer a doer -- I've had enough talkers in my life. Discovering bits about the guys I always find interesting.

I keep forgetting that I have my Star Ruby ball. When I do remember having it - I place it in my bra so that it sits in the middle of my chest. It helps chill out my coughing.

I feel this pull to get into a session, I'm not sure why the pull -- nothing of a major sorts is coming up -- or at least I thought so. Let's see what's up! I grab my healing wand and enter into a mist. When I emerge, Ethan is standing there - nothing else. No scenery, no people - nadda. So I ask - what did I do now? He places his right and on my left shoulder and says: 2008 is going to be a very busy year for you - from Jan 1st forward. Some would call it stupid busy. Because of this it is imperative that you get "Dreamers" done now. That is your ticket to the next step and it has to be almost complete by year's end. So you need to get that draft to her this week. I look at him -- you pulled me into a session to tell me that? He says - you weren't listening. I'm like - oh yes I was. He says - you remember what got your so interested in screenwriting again? I nod and says yes - Lord of the Rings. He says - exactly -- and it is no coincidence that all 3 Lord of the Rings came on yesterday back to back and you just happened to stumble across them when you never have the TV on - especially on weekends. It's to spur you forward - for no other reason than you to get moving on the screenwriting. It's imperative that you finish this now. Make it at the top of your list - everything else comes second, except for the care of your son & animals. Doing readings, other writing, Christmas decorating, personal life, sleeping, eating -- all go to the way side for the next 2 weeks. Do you understand? Yes I do.

And that was that. Personal life? What personal life - lol. Gee - I wonder where my focus will be for the next 14 days? The last time I was pulled aside and told to finish something was the Gypsy Magic books - and I ignored that and paid a price. I'm not about to make that mistake again...

Talk to you later...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Constant Cravings And A Stage Show!

Constant Cravings. That's what I'm going to name the book about my soul circle experiences. Because that is what it is exactly - a constant craving to be reunited. It never goes away, never fades. In fact, every day it grows stronger - yet not all consuming. You can hide the cravings, try to ignore them, but they never go away. So every day you hold on - stay strong and pray that the reunion is just around the corner.

I notice an immediate shift in my attitude, mannerisms, creativity - when I allow the soul circle to flow through me instead of fighting that flow. After last week and the pit of hopelessness I found myself in - I made a promise. A promise not only to myself but to the guys as well - no matter what happens, I won't cut off the light. I will not shut them out. It's a horrible empty feeling - one which I do not want ever again. I'm not sure how Bill and Ted go through the day when they cut themselves off. They go through much longer periods than I ever do, when they throw up that wall and no one can get through. I don't know who is worse - Bill or Ted. But I am going to make sure that they never feel like they are alone. I won't give up when they put up that wall - I will not back down. I am more determined than ever to have us connect. I like it when I feel determined. I never fail when I feel this way - never.

What helps me feel this way is Will. He empowers me. His energy pushes me to strive -- to attain a higher power of being. It's hard to describe - but I can sense the shift in my energy. And if you go back through my writing in this blog, you should be able to pick up on it as well. I write the same (I think) it just has a different energy behind it. He has never cut off the light - he has not pulled back, not once. In fact, his energy and connection grows stronger every day.

I did finish my draft of DREAMERS last night. It is now in the hands of my manager so that she can work her magic and tell me what I need to change. My guide Ethan has told me on more than one occasion that with me being more "famous" and all - that I have to strive to be more known - it is to be in the realm of my writing, not of my psychic abilities. There will be a day when I will not do readings much any more and instead will be educating mass through my writing. But he doesn't come out and say if my writing will be in the form of books. When I press for an answer, I am alluded to me making movies and stage plays.

My cat just ran off with my pop tart. Seriously - she just did. I looked over and she was dragging it out of my office. SIGH.

Anyways - not me "in" movies (God forbid) but writing them. However, I get a very vivid picture of Will and I doing a stage play based on our reunion journey. It's too vivid to be passed up. The stage has very few props on it - not much in set design. Every show is different - there is no script. Each performance is organic. He'll start with something and I'll flow into it and visa versa. We act out our emotional roller coaster. It's a goal to show people that reincarnation is a part of life, that soul mates/circles do exist but it is not an easy relationship to maintain. Eternity may bring with it a lot of love, but it also brings a lot of baggage -- and the soul forgets nothing. Plus - it's important to get across that if a person experiences what we have (and still do) that they are not crazy. Every day brings a new realm of possibilities to the table. Every day they are there -if you ignore them, they will still be there. But after time they feel more like baggage, wearing you down until you finally act on it and lighten the load.

And on that note - I'm taking my son to the Polar Express today. Things to do.....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Headaches, Change And Will!

I woke up again this morning with a killer headache. My dreams have been very active the last two nights. So much so that I spend most of my night tossing and turning. What bugs me is that I can't really grasp what I dreamt about (besides Will). There's fast moving water and fire. I can briefly remember running towards something as everyone else was running away. Other things that I can remember snippets are guns being fired, and a wave of peace. When this type of dreaming happens w/me waking up with a headache - some big change usually happens in my life. It could be good or bad -- don't know. I could use some good:)

Now if I can't sleep as well as having the above, then it's a change coming for a large group of people -- this is what happened to me before 9/11, Katrina and the 2005 Tsunami. So if the no sleep happens - I'll let you know.

Either way something is going to shift in my life. I've told myself to pay better attention to the dreams.

I noticed the clock this morning -- it didn't say 8:12, instead it was 8:05. Now 805 stands for: The changes that you're considering or experiencing are Divinely guided, and they help you to be more financially secure.

Hummm...I'm not considering any changes right now -- but if you take in account my dreams -- then the changes being made must be to give me a better financial foundation. That would be nice.

I know that I am trying to revamp things to give myself some more writing time. It's hard for me to do anything past 4:30 when I go pick up my son. I get him, do house work, supper, homework, some play time, his bath, bed and then some more house work. By this time it's 10:00 and I'm pooped. I do keep trying to get up sooner - but me and the snooze button are loving each other way to much. I think that I'll ask my guides for help on that.

Speaking of guides, as I was falling asleep last night, I was walking down my path toward my dream portal when I saw Edward and Ethan. They said that everything is going as it should and that I need not worry so much. Then Edward chimes in and says my worries take me away from my path. Ethan adds - they need to feel your light. My goal was to walk through the portal and go see Will. But as I moved closer to it, I could see him standing there waiting for me. I asked him what in the heck is he doing? He replied - you were coming to se me anyways - right? I nodded. Well, I though I'd save you the trouble of finding me and enter into our dreams side by side. I asked - how can you be here and enter into my portal and not your own. He smiled and said - I have so much to teach you. And we walked through.

I barely remember the visit since it was at the start of the night and then I had all of that activity (which Will might have been a big part of - I don't know). What I do remember is him showing me a large leather bound book that we wrote our "teachings" into centuries ago. The place we were at was our magic room on the astral plane.

Keen was a waste of time today -- as it had been all week thanks to that wonderful person who left me the negative feedback. If you can respond to my plea of help in the below posting -- that would be great. But I'm not going to leave it there very long - so if you look below this and there is no posting about Keen, then I erased it.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Harrison Ford, Maria Shaw And Another Benchmark!

Okay - so I'm sick, my son is sick and we've had two days of complete togetherness.He is now bouncing off the walls (which I would assume is a good sign) and I'm just hoping to make it to the walls. Now mind you, it's not as bad as yesterday which was - I pray I can stay off the bed for more than 15 min at a time. So I'm pleased with the improvement. But gosh- I hate being sick and my throat is killing me. I knew when I was trying to give my talk on intuition and I kept messing up on a bunch of words, that I had been talking too much -- and I did -- I talked non stop almost for 3 days straight. No wonder my throat is bugging me. But in the mean time I have a ton of yard work that awaits me -- and waits, and waits. I got a nasty note from postal dude saying I have to do something about the bees near my porch. Now mind you these bees have been there since March - and now he complains. They're almost at the end of their cycle - right? Bees are a sign of good fortune and I really don't want to kill anyone - and potentially kill my good fortune:)

I had a very distrubing dream about Harrison Ford Tues night/Wed Morning and then I woke up Wed being sick. I saw both of my sisters throughout the day and finally the middle sis asked how I was doing (with the good ole hand on my shoulder). I replied - fine, why? Her face went white and she's like oh --- you don't know. Know what-- I asked??? Harrison's dead -- she said. This information, in the real world would be enough to really hit me - same as when my mom found out that Elvis died. The same knock in my gut happened in my dream. Seems - the story was - that Harrison just finished Indy 4 and went out on his boat for some R & R. 4 days after he left, the toothpick (otherwise known as Calistia Flockheart) called in and reported him missing. They went to the boat and discovered he had a heart attack and had been dead for several days. Meaning as soon - almost - he got on the water, he died. I immediately looked at my sis and said that Calistia did it - she poisoned him somehow. That is why she waited so long to make the call. Her excuse for not reporting it sooner was that she thought Harrison wanted time to himself and that's why he wasn't answering her calls.

That made me wake up. I was so upset when I opened my peepers that it didn't surprise me that I didn't feel good. In my dream the news knocked the wind out of my sail and when I was awake, I had no energy. Hearing that HF was dead would almost be as devastating as hearing about Will and Matt being dead - but no one but my son could could come close (or in my son's case beat) the feeling I would get if Bill or Ted were dead. Which got me to thinking.....what in the world is taking so darn long. If we're supposed to meet - and we are - and I passed my benchmarks - then why now is there a hold up? Edward tells me - just now - that I have to be better known 1st. Better known as in how - in what field? He said the how, when and why will take care of it's self as long as I keep pushing myself. Just great -- another benchmark to make. But - he says - that I am on Bill and Ted's radar - so things are drawing closer, not further away. Plus with everything I am doing and writing about - I am getting better well known. One thing lead to another -- the snowball effect.

And Edward says -- love is not on my radar for awhile. But there is a glimmer of hope towards the end of Oct. But bedsides that - nothing pops up until mid next year at the earliest.

I had asked Maria Shaw about life in the next six months and this is what she had to say:

"Your money will be okay...don't worry. You are protected now and nothing will fail. You are actually in a good cycle now and until end of year so don't worry. Your writing is really getting noticed in 2008. You have short stories, computer interest, lots more PR due to your readings, writings and teaching. This next year could be huge for this. You could move in early 2008 or 2009 (all year are great aspects to move).

Even with Neptune on your moon (making you more psychic) and feeling confused, you are able to make wise decisions. You are a lot more stable emotionally that you one would think! Relationships? Possibly meeting someone in late October/November; like minded, party or Halloween thing or even though your work. Just average guy but kinda quirky. Then next year is even better for new romance; especially around birthday time. You will get a check or some money from another source (ex husband?) soon or within days if you already haven't. Also more possibly in late January and onward of 2008. In Feb and lasting until June 2008, you have the greatest chance of getting a book published, getting more recognition, newspaper and articles, more long distance travel and much more teaching becomes available to you as well. Your career then goes gang busters May 2008- July 2008. Don't take a vacation then because you may miss out on good things....very busy then....great job opportunities too. Your biggest disappointment will be friendships. Best year for romance 2010. Marriage? 2012."

In line really with what Edward had to say and what Ethan had said in the past. Humm...marriage in 2012? That sounds okay - not in a big hurry. For my 41st b-day I am actually planning on being in Paris (as in France) so some great romance then would be great!

Ted finally made an appearance the other night - which is about time. I'm amazed what a tender soul he can be when he wants to. Bill - he's MIA. But with both of us working, I don't have time to make the contact (as I'm sure he doesn't have the time either).

I have a couple of dogs staring at me that they have to go "outside potty". Better fly.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, Edward, Bill, Ted And More!

Can you say AMEN! The DREAM book is finally done and at the printers! Out of the 4 gypsy magic books - this one is the best. I love talking about dreams and astral travel! This is just in time for my divorce hearing next week. Remember, I kept being told in order to go to the next stage in my life, the books had to be done? And -- I had to be divorced? Well -- there you go. Robert - my guide - is such a happy little clam. Now he's pushing me to get going on my TV pilot DREAMERS. And I have to say - yes sir - on this one -- cause every fiber of my body is telling me to move it. I asked Robert -- what about The L Word or Tell Me You Love Me or even The Dead Zone -- what about writing for them? He tells me not to get a head of myself. Damn. At least it wasn't a no way:)

Bill is something else. I swear. Just sitting back, trying to get to the center of me - of my mind - on purpose. He has that need to be "right there". I don't mind it though, he's a creative soul and his muse just melds with mine. I had a really wicked idea for a story that involves Bill, me and other dimensions -- maybe add in the co-dependency of Ted. A supernatural, love, erotic story thriller with violence. It just flowed out from me to my notepad as an outline. The more I think about it -- the more I think about what a kick ass story this is. One thing at a time Allie -- get DREAMERS done 1st. Work on the OBE Sex book next. Of course -- the OBE sex book would flow well with the story. I'd call it an erotic thriller - the new story - not the OBE book.

I have to shift my focus.....

Will. He keeps popping in and out to say - hey - if you have a moment I'd like to remind you that I'm still here. I have something on the table and should be out the door next week in order to get a hold of him. Every fiber of my being knows that as soon as he gets it, he'll act on it. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off -- kind of like the oh crap - what do I do now? But now, it's not a crap - what do I do? I know what to do -- and I can do -- that is a very freeing feeling!

I've been trying to focus in on Ted the last several days -- but Bill won't let the connection last very long. So today I'm going to blast through (so to speak) and send Ted some energy. He's really low on the energy -- he gets this way if he and I haven't been connected in a while. He/we could have the on connection always like Bill and I have graduated to - but Ted still has some issues to work through before he can get to that stage. He close - so close -- but not close enough. It would help matters if he would just dump the soul-sucking vampire he's been with the last two years. But he hates to be alone. When I asked Ethan about this - I'm single now - if Ted knows this (and he does) then why doesn't he dump the negative entity and contact me? Ethan tells me that Ted knows there is no way in hell Bill would sit back and let this happen. And Ted's love for both you and Bill far outweighs the love he has for himself. That said, he prays that you both will allow him in your lives as a good friend.

I'm amazed on how much my gifts have grown over the last year. You might have noticed that I no longer have to do a session to get messages or see visions/images. I never had to do a session when it pertained to doing a reading for someone. But when it dealt with me and my life - I always had to hit a session of some sort in order to extract information. It's nice that I don't have to now. At least there's something in my life that I don't have to work so darn hard at any longer.

But that aside - I can feel the pull of a handful of guides - so it's just easier to go into a session.

As soon as I started, there was Ted, bigger than life. But he was back a bit - stuck in a haze or mist. I could hear Ethan tell me to raise my energy as high as I could get it. I just stood there and stared at Ted -- his energy aura around him was weak and what was there was a brownish black. It was heart breaking to see someone in such a stage - especially someone like him who has such a giving heart. Ted laid down on a bed (not his - he's not at home). With my feet planted firmly on the ground, I imagined a plank of energy going around me - slow at 1st and as it increased speed I increased the distance of it from my body. As the plank moved out - a white energy hugged the middle between us. As that moved out into the ethers - I placed myself in a glass tube, having it close to my body and started it to go around clockwise. Faster and faster it went - still relatively close to my body. On the outside of that tube - I took another glass tube and made it go counter clockwise. When my energy is being raised to this level - my tummy always feels really odd - like I'm heading down that 1st roller coaster hill. When I can feel my astral body wanting to go exploring - I stop the energy raising. I focused my energy to go out through my hands and into Ted. As the energy moved into him - he groaned and tossed and turned, finally resting on his back.

Not sure how I got there - but I was straddling Ted, with my hands on his chest looking down. His eyes flew open and it was as if he could look right at me. His green eyes seemed to grow wide and looked onto mine. He said "Oh God Allie" and I was whisked back out of there - back next to Ethan. I watched as my energy infused Ted -- making all of the brownish black drift away. His energy aura grew in size and strength. A blackness left his body from the middle of his back.

He got up and walked over to a pill bottle. He stared at it for a few seconds, opened a drawer and threw them in. I looked at Ethan and he said that they were tranquilizers. Ted walked out of the room.

I turned and there stood, Ethan, Robert, Jezell and Brigit. I asked what did I do to garner so much attention? Robert said that they were there to let me know how proud they are on the progress I have made. Brigit said that the 4 of them will be right next to me, helping me through the next step. It's time to progress further - Ethan commented. Jezell told me to turn around ,there there was someone new I had to meet.

I turned and was face to face with a man in violet. He had on a long - velvet-like violet robe, open in the front. Underneath he wore an outfit of white with a high, but open collar. His hair is pure white and very short/cropped - almost like a business man's hair cut. His face was chiseled - high cheek bones and dark blue eyes. He extended his hand and said that his name was Edward. I looked at him and replied - but haven't we met before? In this life? He smiled and said yes - I'm glad you remembered. He tells me to walk with him.

As we walk I can see Bill right next to us following us. I comment about Bill and Edward said that I'd better get used to it. Bill will always be on the outskirts of my energy just like I him - when we are not physically in the same room. It's our telepathic connection - it's an constant "on". I asked about the man I saw a glimpse of in all red. Edward tells me that he is Abraham and I will meet him next - when the time is ready.

We arrive in my magic room - the one where Merlin always is. And there he was - Merlin. I asked why am I being doubled teamed? Merlin laughed and said that Edward's the brains and he's the brawn of this operation. Merlin chuckled - Edward didn't.

I am told that the time is now for me to expand in to greater magical practice. Edward said that what I do - my purpose in this life - will affect everyone on the planet. Merlin jumped in and said that I must get a hold of Will - there is much to do. Will and I are to start to come here - consciously (as we have been for some time unconsciously) to our magic room and start to prepare. We are to do our magic on the astral level. I asked about the physical level - Merlin said that yes it would work - but the real power is not in the 2 dimensional physical world - but in the multi dimensional world of the planes -- which is accessed astrally. Is there anything I should do 1st? I asked? Get Will to call you - Edward replied. They didn't care how I do it -- but it must be done now. Time is of the essence. Will and I need to be in conscious, physical contact. It's not a need or a want -- it's a must.

I asked if this has anything to do with bring Atlantis back into the physical dimension. They tell me that in time all will be revealed. Don't get ahead of myself.

And with that the session was over.

Gee - nothing like adding the pressure on!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

FYI - Who Is Who...

I have had a heck of a jump in visitors to this blog. For the most part I do not use real names unless indicated. I know that there are a lot of names that I do use and for newbies to this blog - it can get mighty confusing.

So here is a cheat sheet:

MICHAEL, RAPHAEL, GABRIEL, HANIEL - Archangels

ETHAN, JEZELL, ROBERT and HANNA - Spirit Guides

BRIGIT - Goddess

GALADRIEL - Fairy

BILL and TED - Soul mates

WILL and MATT (real names) - Soul Cluster

LARRY, CLIVE, PETER, DC (new one) and just about anyone else male I've mentioned - Members of Soul Circle

CINDY - Tracey (her real name that I now use) my intutive friend

If I've forgotten anyone - post a note and I'll explain.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

An Innocent Question, The Guys And Cheat Peeps!

My kid and I are driving back home from his allergist appointment. It's only a 5 min trip - but it was one of the longest of my life today.

So my son asks -- how does a man and woman make a baby? I cringed. He's 7 for God sake -- isn't it too early to wonder? But like me -- he's always curious and loves to seek out answers. So I plunged in with a man has little fishy things and a woman has an egg - they get together and bingo -- a baby starts to form. A fish mom? Like the kind you eat (yes my mind went directly to oral sex but I didn't go there). No honey - more like tadpoles (I secretly prayed that this conversation would end. No such luck.) How do the tadpoles come out? From a man's hands? Oh crap -- how do I handle this one - SIGH - let's jump into the truth -- from a man's penis. Oh -- what happens to the pee then? I don't know honey - I'm not a man. Why don't you ask your dad?

So does the egg crack inside of the mom and then the baby grows. Yes I said (I know - a little white lie). But mom - how do the tadpoles get to the egg?

LOOK HONEY LOOK AT THAT BIG FLUFFY WHITE DOG!!

He looked...

..I zoomed into the driveway and parked the car.

Mom?

Let's go play the x-box! I shouted.

Alright mom!

Situation defused.

This last week has been very hectic. So much to do and not enough time to get it all done. So I've had to prioritize -- work that I get paid to do 1st and if there is time - free stuff 2nd. This is why the blogs, podcast and the AA column are all way behind.

As I was putting my PR together for the Cheat Peeps release -- I remembered something that Ethan said (from May 21st 2007):

"In a couple of months my career is going to take an interesting twist. What kind of twist - I ask. Ethan says a good twist and one that builds on the foundation I already have laid for myself. And -he says - it will take the ease considerably off of my money woes. I like that idea greatly! But he says he can't tell me what and he can't tell me when as I may stop doing what I have to do in order to bring it about. He stresses again -- keep writing! So I will - I will! He says that when I make it through the next several months that Ted will be waiting for me - that he will be on the other side of these tough times just like he said he would. And if things get so stressful that I find it hard to breath - just remember that simple fact -- Ted will be there when it's over."

Although I'm investigating for CP - there is a fair amount of writing involved -- I wonder?

I posted in the OBE Sex blog a reading I got from Tracey about the guys -- what can I say -- I love readings. But I didn't post all of it and I omitted Will and Matt. Here's it all - I love it when I have my knowledge conformed:)

We see that Bill has absolutely no control over his sexual thoughts, visions and urges and you are literally sexually on his mind continually. He is trying to focus his mind elsewhere but the more he tries not to think of the telepathic/dream sex encounters the more he thinks of them and it seems they can come up at the most inopportune times for him. He is finding himself having constant sexual thoughts. He cannot seem to stop the strong sexual influence that these encounters are having upon him. He is transmitting energy towards you and it is very strong and his emotions are up and down and his sexual urges are constant. His thoughts are so erotic and he keeps seeing scenes in his mind and he has to satisfy himself, relief or pleasure himself if you will in order to gain some amount of relief. The visions are very intense. When he has the encounters he feels very tired as if he has just had a sexual encounter. He feels very vulnerable right now and very connected to you in a way that he cannot really describe though he is writing about it. The feelings that are coming over him are very powerful and the sexual encounters very real.

Ted is experiencing similar issues with his sexual thoughts and urges except that he is so sensitive that he experiences orgasms at the time of the encounters almost always and sometimes when he thinks of the experiences. He is experiencing some serious urgings and longings for you though not just sexually. These are emotional, mental, physical and so much deeper and more intense than they have been in the past. He is so sensitive in a sexual way
that he has great sensitivity in his groin area - is very sensitive to touch and is finding himself having different sex partners trying to relieve some of his extra sexual energy and sensitivity. He is having a sexual peak in his life, and he is enjoying the feelings and sensations, but he longs for you. He has experienced some depression and feelings of incompleteness, loneliness, and a great deal of anxiety in the past few weeks. He seems to be coming out of it now but wishes he did not have to deal with some of the headaches of his life. There seems to have been some trouble between him and his kids as well as some issues in the career. In the career there are people that aggravate him and he often lets it go but recently spoke his mind. He seems to hate when he does that as it does not gain merit for his career but it relief's some of his hostilities towards people who aggravate him greatly. He has been speaking to you or trying to talk to you about things going on in his life and is unsure you are hearing him or that his words are being received, are reaching you.

We see that Will enjoys his telepathic dream encounters with you. He smiles with the thought of these, of you, has a sunny disposition because of them. It is like you are a ray of sunlight in his life guiding him and he is consciously aware that you are with him and a part of his journey though he is not quite sure the how and when of things. He seems to think about these encounters and to do so bring him pleasure. He has been very happy lately, in the past months, and your energy and light have brought him creative inspiration and ideas, concepts, thoughts, and he is connecting some of these to you and waiting for you to enter his life at the right time. There is a knowing within that you will arrive in his life. He feels secure and happy about this knowingness.

Matt is somewhat behind the others right now as we see there is much on his mind as of late. He has some personal issues as well as career affairs that he is working on right now. He is having trouble remembering his dreams, though there are some that are so vivid that he does not forget. He remembers your face, your smile, your dark hair, the shape of your eyes – he cannot get this image out of his mind. He seems to know you – to know he knows you. He is trying to figure things out more, to understand. He feels a little crazy as some visions and or dreams are reoccurring and he is trying to understand the meaning of these. He seems to be distracted and is not as focused on things as he should be because he thinks about these much of the time. He feels a little lonely, alone, removed from others right now. He needs more work or money.

The dream state is busy. There is lots going on as you sleep. We see that you are to focus on things outside your ordinary arena of awareness though it is not important that you remember your dreams. You are overcoming barriers in your dream state. There is no conscious effort on your part that is needed. Let go of any frustration about not remembering. Your concern for the daily world is drifting away and the soul looks forward to dream time because you shut off the internal voice, dialogue of the daily concerns if you will. You are going to gain greater energy as you are letting go of negative energy, old energy, freeing space for positive energy, while receiving sleep time, rest, rather than having to consciously participate and be aware of dream details. If there is anything that requires your special attention you will be consciously made aware of it thus worry not that you are missing anything. There is nothing that you should be writing down at this time.

Matt being behind is a given - he was the last one to jump on board. I am absolutely certain that I will physically meet Will this year. Don't know how or exactly when - but it doesn't matter. Bill and Ted -- what I wouldn't do to tie them up on a bed and have my way with them - lol! My dream state is off the charts. Odd that I'm really not al that tired.

Speaking of which -- better get to bed:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Matt, Blue Waters And Next Week!

I had a very nice dream visit with Matt this morning. It started with me going on a trip some where. I'm on the phone for what feels like the millionth time, trying to call for my flight - or something pertaining to my trip. I'm talking to another woman while I'm calling. Someone answers, but then hangs upon me. I hit redial. Now a man answers and tells me that all is on schedule and that my plane is waiting for me.

The next thing I know I am high on a cliff overlooking the bluest waters I've ever seen. Below me are a large group of people (men, women, children, all races) who want to get into the water. There are 5 inlets to which you can stand in line and go out into the water. The water has some nice waves to it - but nothing major.

I watch people get into line. I study the 5 inlets to see which one is the least rocky. The one on the far left (which would be inlet 1 I think) has minimal rocks. I think to myself - why aren't more people going there? They are picking the more difficult paths. So I go down to inlet 1 where I see a Hawaiian male teen and a Caucasian woman waiting to get into the inlet next. I let the teen go in front of me -- and then I said out loud - this is an ocean! Why do we have to go in one by one? It's big enough for everyone.

So I waded into the water and dove under. It felt like a slice of heaven. The water was choppy, but manageable. In the distance I se a group of people - I swim towards them knowing that Matt is out there. Sure enough, there he is - shirtless and beautiful. He has his back to me, but senses that I am behind him and turns around. His mouth is open to say something and I say (not sure out loud or telepathically) - you should be able to read my mind by now.

He smiles and kisses me.

Matt asks if I'm going to be part of the log rafting trip next week. We keep kissing and I nod - yes. The trip was a week from yesterday - so it should be next Sat Aug 25th.

I start to tell Matt (in between more kissing) that I'll be done in a few minutes next week. Then I corrected myself and said I'll be finished with him in a few minutes (without saying we both knew I was talking about oral sex) and he says - thank you. I'll return the favor. He then says - I can't believe this is all real.

I woke up.

I could still feel his hands on my body and his lips on mine. A nice way to start my morning.

I get from my guide Ethan that Matt is catching on -- faster than I think he is -- and he'll get the message when the time is right (which is soon). When I ask Ethan what message? He smiles and says nothing.

BTW...I'm cross posting this entry to Allie's 2 Cents and OBE sex since it has elements in it that fits both blogs.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

A Lighthouse, Dream Time And Second Life!

A lighthouse. That's what I keep seeing everywhere I turn. A lighthouse. Last year or was it the year before I had several visions of Bill on the beach with Ted and I arriving on horseback. I can see the lighthouse as plain as day in my mind -- it has a white house off to the side of it - yet it's connected to the lighthouse. The lighthouse itself is white until you get to the top, then it has a red stripe around it and the top is black. From the beach standpoint, it looks like there is tall grass that separates the actual beach from the lighthouse property. There's many stairs. I keep sensing it's the East Coast - for some reason though, Oregon just popped into my head. I have no clue.

But back to the lighthouse. When I ask my guide Ethan why I am shown the lighthouse repeatedly he gives me two answers:

1) I'm the beacon of light for my soul circle (which we knew)
2) Bill and I will own the same lighthouse in this lifetime that we were light keepers of in a past life. Ethan goes on to say that the lighthouse is currently haunted pending our arrival. It appears to be haunted by "us". Since our souls know no bounds and are timeless -- our souls have reached beyond our current bodies into this lighthouse (and into the past) to keep everyone away but us. The same thing is being used by Ted and I and our Dunshire Castle. No wonder I'm tired all the time - lol!

Ethan keeps telling me to send out the light -- it has to be a constant beacon. This is why Bill is so strong with me lately - he has caught the beacon - consciously - and he is holding on. Ted catches it consciously - but then his she-devil girlfriend does God knows what and he drops the connection - when she's gone, he reconnects. Matt - no clue yet and Will is trying. Constant - constant Ethan tells me. He's pounding it home so that I get it -- and I do. I really need to set myself up on a schedule that I can live with. If everything is written down and with times next to it - I do much better.

My dream time is so busy these days. I mean stupid busy like I'm being trained for something. By the time I'm actually awake I can't remember what I dreamed about - except in some rare instances. I need to push myself to write things down. I know I NEED to -- but for some reason I can't get myself to. I don't get why. Ha - Ethan just said I'm being lazy. Okay -- I'll give him that, I probably am. He says -- that if I am really ready for the next step in my development and with the guys - I'll listen to him and write things down. I have to remember my dreams. It's critical - Ethan says.

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Okay - I have a hungry kid barking at my heels -- better go make supper!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Updates, Bill And Changes Ahead!

Boy - where to start here? I've had a lot of stuff going on in the last several days. Let's see if I can give you a quick run down of each item....

- Bill and I had a dream visit where we were at a party. He was outside on a picnic table and I was inside looking out at him. I saw his son walking around, talking to a friend. I went to go talk to Bill and a good looking woman sat down at the table. I decided that now wasn't the right time. Nothing about where I was or what was going on was familiar to me. The people I had no clue except for Bill and his son. I determined that I walked into one of Bill's dreams.

- An OBE with Bill - wrote about it in the OBE blog.

- Ethan has been chattering around my head. I am to turn the Empowerment E-class and Workshops into an Empowerment Self-Serve. Meaning that I am to talk all of my classes and condense them into small e-books for people to download and use whenever they want. Then discontinue the workshops and classes. The coaching I am to up the price and add more information to the page. The MP3 readings -- I am to add a couple of readings here as well.

- OBE book -- I am to offer the people who get picked to have their story included $50 and a copy of the book. I am also to get going on that book.

- First, before that book, I have to stop being so hard on myself about script rewrites. I'm my worst critic. Just get them done Ethan says - quit being such a wimp:)

- Oh, no more live shows for now - Ethan says I just do not have the time. Maybe in 2008 I can give it another go. That's okay though - last week's trial run was too dang funny!

- I am to make a DVD set of my magic course. Not sure how I'll do this one -- but Ethan was pretty straight forward about the fact that I have to figure out how.

- I need to lose weight. I want my outer body to reflect the inner happiness that I feel. Besides - when I do date again I don't want to be so self conscious -- and I want to be healthy:) So this SAT I am trying out for NBC's "Biggest Loser". We'll see....

- The other day my smoke alarm outside my office kept going off. I'd tell it to shut up and it would. This went on for over an hour -- I knew that it was my friend Dave stopping by and saying Hi as he was a fireman. No matter how many times I told him to stop with the alarm - he would and then 5 min later start up again. So I'm like - fine..and went looking through my house for smoke. Nothing. I came back up to my office and sat down and it went off again. I'm like - damn, has to be something in my office. I normally use my wireless keyboard when I'm at my desk - so I don't touch my laptop for the most part. But now I did and dang gone it all -- it was HOT! I mean - hot - hot. I shut it down, let it set - and the alarm hasn't come back on again. And yes - I did tell him thank you.

- I have my own office in Second Life now -- I don't know the surl off the top of my head -- but if you go in and do a search for "Ask Allie" you should find my office. I want to start to do readings there as well.

So that's a quick run down. Today I keep getting that feeling that something big is coming up. I can't put my finger on it - but I can feel it. Something good - something long overdue -- but it's on the way. I kept getting flash visions of me being in an office, with an assistant. I don't know - I really don't. But it factors in to what I keep feeling about that good thing happening. I'm not going to worry about it -- just keep moving ahead.

And speaking about moving ahead -- emotionally, mentally, spiritually and physically I feel great! I'm almost off those depression drugs altogether - 3 more 1/2 pills to take and I'm done. I no longer hold resentment or bitterness towards my ex - I, in a way, feel sorry for him. He doesn't know how to make it on his own and he really doesn't want to try. In fact, he's on a date right now. I'm just pleased that after Sept 19th that he will no longer legally be my husband. Ironically our anniversary is Sept 14th (11 years) and the pastor that married us just died of heart complications.

But I really am doing well. And my son seems to be doing well too. All of your well-wishes and white light has helped tremendously -- thank you!

And on that note it's time to pooper scoop litter boxes, collect trash and put together my brand new electric lawn mower:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

My Schedule, Sanctuary, And Opportunities!

I grabbed my healing wand and sat for a session. I was immediately taken to a beach house. The room I was in was very open and spacious. Outside the sliding doors is a huge deck and a few steps beyond the deck, the ocean. My initial feel was that this was Hawaii. From my right comes Ethan. He gives me a hug. I ask where am I at? He says Sanctuary. I say - come again? He says - sanctuary, your sanctuary. Let me show you something. He opens double cherry doors and we enter in to what looks like Sherlock Homes study. It's very inviting with a fire in the fireplace. I love it. He then has me follow him to another room. He opens the door and the windowless room is padded - all 4 walls, the back of the door and the floor, with a stripers pole in the corner. I laugh -- it's my sex room I've always wanted. Ethan smiles and says yes it is. He then shows me the kitchen of my dreams!

We go back to the spacious room and I ask if we can go out on the deck. We do and it is so beautiful and comforting. We sit down in matching deck chairs. I ask why am I here - why is this place my sanctuary? Ethan goes on to say that the next six months - well, year really is going to be incredibly busy. So very busy that I will get stressed big time now and again -- and when I do I am to come here to relax and rejuvenate. I ask what will be so busy? Your career he says. Writing, writing, writing -- you have things that will finally move forward and because of this you will have an insane writing schedule. What about my readings? Oh - he says - that is off the board as well. You think your client list is large now? Just wait Ethan says. That is why it is important for you to get yourself on a schedule now - today - something you can stick with. There is a lot you must fit in on a daily basis - 7 days a week. You won't have any time off -- even when you are out of town you will be working. When you are not busy with work, you will have your son and your house to take care of. Plus -- don't forget about yourself. You need to take care of your mental health when your schedule goes off the charts.

There will be no time for a love life during this time. What! I cry -- come on, give me something here. Being a nun will interfere with my mental health! He laughs -- sex won't be a problem if you want it -- you'll have it. But you won't have time to build any worthwhile relationships right now. So if I want to be a seedy tramp and have one night stands I can? Yes he says. Hummm.......well at least I won't have to be a nun!

Ethan says again how important it is for me to set a schedule for myself. It is of vital importance. Okay - I will - no more worries on that front. If you could help me get up in the morning the 1st time my alarm goes off - it will be appreciated. He agrees.

Should I continue to open up my gate? He says it's open - hence why so many opportunities are and will be flying my way. But yes - I have to maintain that gate. Should I try to draw the guys near to me? He shakes his head - already done. Matt is on your site - although he doesn't know why. Bill checks out your site when he can - knows why he does - but still doesn't know what to do about it. Is this why the dream I had last night had Bill in it - but we didn't speak? Ethan nods - yes. You entered one of his dreams and he knew you were there. Your sense told you not to approach him as it would freak him out seeing that it was his dream. But he knew you were there - remembers you being there after he woke up -- but still is at a loss on what to do. Ted, of course, knows all about you and want to get to you ASAP. But he has that woman around him still. Yeah, I say, the bitch from hell is still sucking the life out of him. He nods - Ted doesn't want to be alone. So he figures that she is better than no one right now. But in his heart he knows that you are single. And his situation will change within the next 3 months. You wait and see. Will too knows about you and has engaged a psychic to help him understand and to open up more. So you see - they are right there.

Is there anything else that I need to know right now? What about money? Ethan smiles -- I know you are worried about making ends meet -- but you will have enough to get by. You won't be rich - not yet - but what you use you will have a replacement. When one ave for money closes, another one opens. Trust in the process. Now go back and get to work. You have a long - yet fruitful and happy - year ahead of you!

And that was that.....

Have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Muse, A Magnet And Sex!

Since I've been on these meds, it's been hard to connect to my guides and the guys as I have over the last several years. Now doing readings - I have no problem at all. But when it's for me, there has been that block there that I've had to fight through. Since papers are signed, the x is out and he was the reason I was on them - I am on a plan to wean myself off of the meds. I can tell a difference already and it's only been since Monday that I've been cutting back. Many more spontaneous connections and visions. Plus, it's easier for me to be creative and work. It's difficult to write when you keep searching for that light switch to turn on your muse. So all is getting much - MUCH better in Allie world.

The online dating -- interesting. It's like - BOOM - they are coming out of the woodwork. Flattered - certainly. Taking it seriously - not really. I suppose that once I go out on an actual date I'll be more serious about it.

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And speaking of sex -- by OBE experiences are back with a BANG:) The OBE blog will be written in more often --in fact I already have been there today! The experiences here are really flooding back - major.

Ted and Will -- both are so right there in my thoughts - in my energy field right now. I honestly think that I can tell if either one takes a piss. Really - it's a strange, yet invigorating feeling (not the piss - LOL - but the connection). Last night, Bill's energy was so intertwined with mine that I could taste him. Now get your minds out of the gutter - it's hard to describe, but I could taste his energy. I have ants in my pants -- very ancy to sit down and actually talk with these guys. I can feel the heightened energy as my nerves reposition themselves outside my skin. One phone call - that's all I need to hop on a plane to go chat. I have so much information and experiences that I want to share with them. So much I want to hear about. It's getting close -- so close now.

Poor Bill. He knows what he knows and he has seen some visions that knock his socks off. But he is so befuddled on what to do with me - with the knowledge. With my energy heightened, so are the guys. Bill and Ted will know what it is - Will and Matt will be on the confused side. But this is nothing that Will and Matt cannot figure out. In fact, Will is working now with someone to figure it all out. Matt's a good ole republican Texan, so he'll probability be confused a bit longer -- but the guy has the drive to figure this all out. He's just asking the wrong people - a priest won't be able to give him the answer -- he needs someone like me to figure it all out.

I'm waiting very patiently for my notice from the Nicholl Fellowship. I entered The Black Triangle in it - and they should be announcing the Quarter-Finalists soon. Fingers crossed.

My son and I are going to Columbus all day on Friday. Taking the Mini Cooper S in for it's maintenance. Lucky for me that the maintenance is built into the price of the car - provided you take it to a Mini dealer (which is the same as a BMW dealer) and there is only 3 in Ohio that deal with Mini's:) So Columbus it is:)

Wow - I feel like a flirty little tramp today. I'm sure it will pass - well, maybe it will:) But because of my energy - I feel like a magnet on overdrive. Not sure if that's good or bad. But damn - I need to draw those 4 in...

....so - being the good girl I am, I have been listening to Ethan and being a magnet for the 4 guys (yes, I know that's why I feel like a magnet overall). Every day I have been opening the gateway and drawing them in. This is how my session goes:

I sit with my healing wand. Eyes closed, I see a white light ahead of me. Taking that white light, I have it spread out vertically like a board - then I move it close to my skin. Taking this board of light, I move it around my body slowly, moving further out from my body with each full turn - increasing speed as the white light extends out of my body until it is everywhere -- and it's almost as if it explodes, and there's nothing there but a huge open triangle, with a circle around it -- and coming from the midst of the triangle is a very brilliant white light.

Through this white light I can see the guys - only one at a time. If I look at me - I am one big white light - by body is encased in white light. I see Bill and I call out to him. His astral body separates and comes to me with a grin on his face. He usually (like today) leans in and gives me a kiss. When that happens I wrap my arms around him and draw him to me to become one. Next comes Ted. I call to him and he smiles wide and always gives me a very deep kiss. I bring him too into me. Next is Will - I never have to summon him, he is already there - through the gate. I always hear him say - you'll never have to call me, I know when you're around. He kisses me tenderly and I bring him into me. Then there's Matt. I call to him and he arrives in a jiff. He too smiles and tells me he doesn't know what's happening -- but it sure does interest him. He does a running jump and just walks into me 1/2 the time.

I call out their names one by one -- raising the energy with each name. At the end it is as if the white light explodes and we're done - all back where we are supposed to be. I find that I cannot do this at night as I'm so energized from it. So I'm doing it mid-day when I get sleepy. Wakes me right up.

And I'm done for now:) Back to work -- and then the kid and I have T-Ball!

Crystal Sunshine!

Allie ;)

Howard Shore, Stepping Up To The Plate And Will!

I just got back from my self-date to the Howard Shore/Cleveland Orchestra concert. In a word - magical. It was fabulous! Howard Shore is an intense conductor to watch and he's commanding without being domineering. I only wish that they would have shown more conceptual art of the characters - or matched the conceptual art (shown on 3 screens) with the part of the movie they were playing from. But gosh -- it was good. My left eye kept tearing up - it was very strange to have one eye cry and not the other. Well worth the price of admission and the long drive to get there!

But during the concert - I kept getting the message that I'm the magnet. You're the magnet Allie - pull them together. Also - stop pretending not to be who you are. Step up to the plate. Now towards the end during the "Return of the King" soundtrack - the call for me to get us 5 (me, Will, Matt, Ted and Bill) together was so strong that my body trembled and I couldn't stop it. The trembles happen when I have an energy shift. I could see my guide Ethan in front of me telling me it's time. I assured him that I know.

I have a bunch of fire trucks and ambulances flying past my house -- reminds me of last night! SIGH -- I always have excitement on my road -- not sure why, but what the hell. Last night about 2:30 am there was a high speed chase down my street. I heard the car that they were chasing zoom past at what had to be over 100 mph. Then police car after police are zipped past at incredible speed -- until -- a party was letting out a couple of doors down. One party go-er pulled out of the driveway - BAM - a sheriff's car ran right into her SUV! Damn - it was so LOUD! Response time was under 20 seconds for the cops to arrive. The sheriff's car was screwed up. The SUV had damage - but not near what the car had. The impact was so great that the SUV spun around a few times before it stopped. Overall - everyone was fine - thank God! But it could have been so much worse. So for the next 1 1/2 hours I had a light show going on outside my house. I fell back to sleep around 4 - 4:15 am only to be awoken at 8:00 am by super snoop - Indiana Jones -- he was hungry and had to pee:) So I took a nap before I went to the concert, and had a very interesting dream visit with Will. I actually wrote it down so I would remember it all to tell you:)

I was dreaming about the concert tonight - yet it was a very formal occasion in my dream. Men in tuxes, ladies in gowns and even had a master of ceremony. I went to get ready for the concert and passed the master of ceremony - it was Richard Thomas (John Boy - Waltons). He was staring at me so oddly - like willing me to stare at him. So I did and smiled - told him Hi and Good Luck with the concert. He nodded at me -- but he didn't take his eyes off of me until I was in the door of the building. It was a bit unnerving. On the way out as I was going in was Will, in a tux, with a large group of men - we didn't talk and I don't think he saw me.

I am walking in with some woman into the concert. It's a long carpeted hallway - red carpet - very plush (nothing like the actual concert which was outdoors). On the way into the theater, my cell phone rang. I answered it and the guy just starts to talk to me like we are old friends. I heard him say - so you really are stepping out on your husband. I entered a room and shut the door so I could hear him (the concert had started). I told him no - we're divorced. He laughs and says he knows, he's just kidding with me. I'm thinking that this guy is my friend Dan. But I ask him who he is - I apologize than I can't place a name with the voice. He said his name was Lawrence Taylor (I know no such man right now in real life) and that he was friends with my father.

Next thing I know, I am trying to find a bathroom - and of course none of them are clean. So I give up and leave. I see Will hiding under a table -- no idea why. I crawl under there and ask if he has a 19 yr old niece? He nods and I tell him that she is in trouble. He said he knows.

Now we are in my mother's kitchen - but it's not my mother's kitchen in real life. I'm talking to my mom about my dad and ask her if he lives in Louisiana or Alabama now (he actually lives in FL in real life). Will looks at me and smiles -- says my, my -- isn't that a coincidence. Will tells me that he has to write a letter to Charlotte (no idea who this is - but I felt it was a girlfriend or maybe an ex) - I asked him if I could borrow him first. Mom said something smart ass that had us laughing and I had Will in my old blue bedroom (I had this room from ages 6 - 12). He was filthy dirty like he had been working on a car. He was wiping his hands off. I pushed him against the wall and he called me frisky:) I told him that I've missed him and he replied - I've missed you too baby.

I kissed him - he kissed me back. Then our tongues met and he let out a groan/sigh. We were really getting into the kissing when for some reason my head jerked forward twice real fast and I had no control over the jerk motions. I stood there thinking - WTF?! I couldn't feel Will any longer, I opened my eyes (they were closed as we were kissing) and when I did that I woke up.

So very odd.

I'm off to finish my glass of wine and head to bed -- it's after 2:00 am already!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE Sex, Bill, Ted, Will And A Goddess!

What a weekend. I got a lot of work done - thank goodness. Although not as much as I needed to get done. But one step at a time:) My sister is still pregnant. We had a false alarm over the weekend -- but that kid is still hanging in there.

I had an intense chat with my guide Ethan and the Goddess Brigit. This chat came about after a friend connected with me - telepathically - to remind me how much strength I have in my soul. How powerful my energy really is and what I can accomplish. When Ethan and Brigit showed up, he disconnected. The chat with these two was very - mind opening and intense. So mind blowing to me that I'm not really sure what to make of the information. It appears that I am a major Goddess that comes back into human form because of love and because mankind does not have the right view of "me". I guess I'm not the type of Goddess/person you would want to piss off:) Now they said which Goddess and all, but I'm not real comfortable talking about which one. As I said - this is hard even for me to swallow. But it makes sense - especially with Ted, Bill and Will and the connections there. And it makes sense with all of the warrior images I have had - and the past lives as Joan of Arc and Cleopatra. I don't know - I don't know - I don't know. I'm supposed to change the view of mankind towards this Goddess/me and finally have the love connections that have been denied. SHRUG. We'll see. I'm sure at some point I'll tell you more -- when I know more.

Now someone asked a question in another blog entry about astral sex and telepathic sex. Isn't there some sort of astral connection during telepathic sex? In short - no. I tried to explain the 3 types of OBE sex below:

Astral/dream sex: To become sexually aroused and engage in energetic sex with another person's energy. In the astral/dream state, energy can be manipulated to a point where it feels and looks like physical body parts are merging -- but they are only energy and not actual physical parts. This can lead to an orgasm in the physical body, although this is rare. In most cases a person would return from their astral travel or wake up from a dream and be so sexual turned on that they would have to take care of it upon waking and it would be a MUST to take care of, this isn't something that you can walk off. If they are involved with a flesh and blood partner - the partner benefits from this astral turn on by engaging in physical sex with their partner.

The biggest difference between astral sex and dream sex is that with astral sex you purposely have your astral body separate from your physical body and you are awake during the act. If you have shifted your consciousness to your astral body and then shift it back when your astral body merges with your physical body - then you will remember a good chunk if not all of the encounter. With dream sex, your astral self parts during your sleeping state and your conscious mind is in a state of rest - that is unless you practice lucid dreaming or as I say dream visits where you are in control of your dream -- then your conscious mind plays a bigger part in the whole experience and you remember more upon awaking.

Telepathic sex: There is no astral body merging in this one. Your brain is your #1 sexual organ. With telepathic sex, you are using your brain power only. Your brain waves connect with another's brain wave in your minds eye you can see and feel the sexual act taking place. Think of this as real-time sex without the physical merging. With telepathic sex, the odds of having an orgasm are very high as none of your energy bodies (astral, mental, emotional - etc...) are separate from your physical body. Can you tell if you make the connection with another person or if it is just a fantasy? Yes you can. How? Just as you can tell with a telepathic communication - you have that zing of energy and a warm flow over your body (other people have been known to get a headache or tremble) when you have that telepathic connection. If this factor is missing in the telepathic sex, then you are simply having a fantasy and not the telepathic sex.

I like to think of telepathic sex as an intense day dream. Out of the 3 - I like telepathic sex the best - only because you can have a real-time orgasm:) And - you can remember the most if not all of the encounter.

I asked Tracey a couple of weeks ago if Bill, Ted and Will could feel what's going on with me. If they are conscious of the changes in my life? This was her reply:

Bill is very sensitive to your emotions and he is feeling the depth of sadness within you and it is affecting him physically and manifesting in chest pains, and troubling sleeping, some depression, and cold like symptoms, tiredness. These are not conscious thought. He is journaling his experiences on the astral, and dreams, vivid visions and meditation experiences. He is writing his experiences formulating them into something that will be of importance or interest later as in he will share these with you. He seems to be trying hard to reach out to you but he feels that you are responding to him. He seems to be able to meet you consciously on the astral plane now, is able to communicate with you and is handling this well, is intrigued by it and trying it perhaps more than you have energy to expend right now. He seems sad when he feels he cannot make a connection to you. His sorrow for you is great. He does not like that your light seems so dim right now. I see that if this continues he may be very angry, almost as if he thinks you are ignoring him or will not let him comfort you.

Ted is totally connected, aware, consciously of your sadness, and the feelings of overwhelm, struggle, anxiety, panic, worry, and feels compelled to help you though feels that he is to stand back at this time. He will only be able to hold out on contacting you until the end of the summer, but he may contact you sooner if you continue to feel this deep fear and worry. Ted does not know how to deal with you being down and out and he wants to relieve your problems, worries, he has a strong urge to fix it, to help you and he does not know how to support you so much in terms of emotionally as he feels a basket case in this area himself, but he knows he can help you on a financial level and I sense that he may try to do this, though is uncertain if you would accept his help. I sense that he knows of a way to get money to you in a way that you will accept the money, and I sense this has to do with a wire transfer or internet transaction directly to you. I hope this makes sense to you in some way.

He believes he can send it in such a way that you may not know paper trail wise that he sent it even though intuitively you may know that he sent it, but either way his desire is that you accept it and continue to work on your writing so that you are in a better position. There is a place inside him that feels you are so strong and independent but are feeling so frail right now and though you are low in spirit he is not sure you would accept his financial help direct so he wants to be sure you get it and this is something he is mapping out in his mind, if you will. Perhaps this is some of the unexpected financial help.

Will and Ted will come into your life in the physical on or around the same time, perhaps together, or within a short time, and this is for a purpose, one that is not being revealed, but perhaps you already know the answer. Part of the purpose is to help you through this situation, not just in way of friendship, emotional support, but also financial support and providing contacts that you need to help you to excel in your aspirations for the future.

There are many feelings stirring within Will and though he is not consciously connecting them to you he is feeling grief, outrage, the sting of betrayal, relating it to a past experience in his own life, and he is wondering why he is thinking about the past, as he has certainly felt over this situation. So, he is in tune with you and your emotions, soulfully, but is not aware of where the feelings are coming from, rather feeling they relate to self.

This helps to explain to me why Ted is always around and why Will and Bill seemed to have just vanished.

Everything will work because it's supposed to - right?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Ted And OBE Sex!

Today's session has left me feeling very light-headed and dizzy. I sat with my healing wand and without the 3 crystals around me. I was taken to a soft, fluffy mattress. I was lying on my side when I heard someone approach me. I looked over and it was Bill. He had a crazed look in his eyes - it was very odd. He kneeled down on the mattress and said - I don't know what to do? I replied - do about what? You - he said. Me? Why is there a problem with me? Because you are so dark - there is a black nugget deep within you and I cannot reach it. You will not let it go. Everytime I try to help you put a wall up and it is frustrating. He jumped up and paced -- I don't know how to get to you.

You're going to choose him - aren't you? He's really pacing now - back and forth - running his fingers through his hair. What are you talking about? Choose who? Ted - he has you. Ted stepped out from somewhere and said - yes, she's mine. You had your chance and you blew it. She was right there mate - right there next to you and you blew it.

I can't get to her - Bill said. I can't get rid of the darkness -- it has to go - all the darkness. Ted replied - I'm helping her with that - my love for her will help set the darkness free, it will free the ties that binds her.

But why can't I find her? Bill cried.

I can sense Tracey off to the side - just out of our realm of sight.

I'm right here! I yelled. Quit talking like I'm not here.

I can feel Will try to make his way to me. But Bill and Ted's combined energies push him back. Will doesn't give up though - he kept trying.

Let Will in - I said.

Both men - no!

I'm not choosing, no one is getting me and no one is losing me -- we've covered this ground before.

But you'd said you'd marry me - Ted said.

What! Bill yelled.

He asked me first Bill. He doesn't sit around over thinking this whole damn thing and trying to come up with a logical solution. This isn't logical - us 3 - we're eternal and spiritual -- not logical. And besides - Ted is always there. He is always wiling to comfort me. He's not scared, he's not put of by the unknown. He's there - his energy is around me all the time. And where have you been? Holding back trying to figure things out as usual. I cannot believe after all this time we're covering this again!

Bill and Ted start into one another - and that is when my guide - Ethan - grabs me and pulls me to the beach. I told him thanks for getting me out of there. He said that they will cool down and realize that they are being children. But Bill is really worried that he cannot find you - this haunts him. Well it's not like I haven't given him enough to go on.

I pulled you away from them because you and I need to talk about your plans on OBE sex. What about them? I asked. You need to get that web page up and start collecting stories to post and to put in the book. What about another blog - should I have one about OBE sex only? Yes you should. What should I call it? It doesn't matter as long as you have sex in the title somewhere. You need to be graphic in your experiences - this is not the place to hold back because you are worried about what someone will think. You have to have faith that this is what you are supposed to do and go for it full force.

Okay -- I will. And one more thing - Ethan added - put your astral class on that page too somewhere. Okay -- I'll try. This isn't a dress rehearsal and this isn't a time for trying. Just do what you need to do.

And he was gone....and I was done.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Updates, Sex, Ethan And Ted!

My little sister is due to give birth at any time now -- her and her wonderful British husband are awaiting the birth of a baby girl. My son just rolls his eyes at the thought of another girl cousin that he has to watch over. Not that he doesn't love my niece as it is -- but she's 3 and he'll be 7 so he's getting too old for her (his words) - LOL! My sister is the one who lays out my books and since I was sidetracked in March/April (very busy months) and May my head has been up my ass - I'm behind in the last gypsy magic book. I'll have my part done within a day or two -- but my sister won't be able to get it laid out until she's on maternity leave and has had some proper sleep (well - some sleep anyways, how much sleep can you get with a newborn?). So knock on wood it'll be done this summer.

But as soon as my writing part is done, I'm jumping into the astral/dream/telepathic sex web page as well as getting the outline done for the book. Lord knows I have enough stories of my own to fill this book with examples for each section - but I will also be asking for people to submit stories -- real names would not be used in the book - in order to give the book more of a variety. As soon as I get that up and going, I'll let you know.

Last Monday I tried to do my sex chat on the L word but couldn't since I blew up my DSL modem and GASP - was on dial-up! But DSL is back and working, so I'll be there tonight, 10:00 pm EST at the L word in Second Life if you'd like to join us. It's a lively bunch and nothing is taboo. The chat is for male and females alike - straight, gay or bi - doesn't matter. Info on how to join us in the sidebar of this blog.

Remember last year when Cindy and I would do our sessions and then I would tell you guys about it? Well we're gearing up again to start on Wednesday. Her guides and my guides told us both to start it up again - so here we go. Her real name is Tracey and she has given me permission to use her real name in this blog so I will from now on. Whenever we start to do these sessions, some sort of spiritual breakthrough happens for both of us! I can't wait to see what happens this time!

I hope my reading/computer glasses come in soon so that I can stop my headaches -- that's what I get for being on the computer 60 + hours a week!

I want to do a quick session. As soon as I grab my healing wand and close my eyes I am taken to the pine trees in a wooded area near my home. Ethan is there waiting for me. We say our greetings. He asks me how I'm doing. Today not so bad - I reply. He tells me that the next several months will not be easy at all - in fact they could be down right horrible. But I have to stick in there and see things through. I assure him that I will and there really is no other course of action but to proceed forward. Ethan tells me that I must keep writing -write, write, write he says. I nod my head -- then he shoots me one of those "looks". I say - I know, Robert told me that I this book should have been done last year - I know. It's almost done. Ethan says - good -- because the sex book is what is really going to make a difference. Then from that point writing the erotica book as well as Kyra will also make their marks. But I can't slow down, I have to put fingers to the keyboard and get it all out.

In a couple of months my career is going to take an interesting twist. What kind of twist - I ask. Ethan says a good twist and one that builds on the foundation I already have laid for myself. And -he says - it will take the ease considerably off of my money woes. I like that idea greatly! But he says he can't tell me what and he can't tell me when as I may stop doing what I have to do in order to bring it about. He stresses again -- keep writing! So I will - I will! He says that when I make it through the next several months that Ted will be waiting for me - that he will be on the other side of these tough times just like he said he would. And if things get so stressful that I find it hard to breath - just remember that simple fact -- Ted will be there when it's over.

We round a corner and there is the blue farmhouse from past visions. He tells me to go inside and follow my nose. Ethan smiles and disappears.

I enter the house and I can smell brownies! I move past the large front staircase down the hall and to the kitchen. There in the kitchen is Ted in an apron. It's a sight - let me tell you! The kitchen looks like WW3 hit it and the man is covered with flour and I think powdered sugar. He tells me to come in -- and then says stop laughing! I never imagined you a cook I say. He replies - I'm not really, but I'm working on it. He wants me to try a chocolate brownie. I sit at the wooden kitchen table and he gives me a cup of tea. I say - tea? No beer, no coffee? Who are you and what have you done with my Ted? He laughs and says he doesn't know why there is only tea here - but that's all he's got. Will and Bill and both busy he says, so I hope you don't mind being my guinea pig. No - I'm good with that. I take a sip of the hot tea - it's pretty good - but then if an Englishman made bad tea with would be a travesty! Anyway - the brownie is moist and pretty good. I'm not sure he cooked it all the way though cause it was rather gooey in the center - but it was good. He's wiping powdered sugar off my face as I am putting more on his -- when the session abruptly ends.

Ted in the kitchen -- what a sight! My guess is that he was jolted out of his session which ended the connection.

Off to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ethan, Ted And Being Strong!

Ask and you shall receive -- it's very true and I'm not sure why I have to remind myself of that little tid bit. I wanted more work, I put it out there and now I'm getting it. I still need this work for the long-haul -- so keep it coming!! Thank you - thank you - thank you:)

A friend of mind dropped by the blog yesterday and left a comment about what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. True - very true. I think the Divine wants me to be on strong person in this life. That means that I have some major work ahead of me that requires that I'm stronger than I was a few weeks ago. I guess you really never do know your own strength until things are put to the test. That said -- I would love just a small break in the getting stronger bit:)

I desperately need to do a session, I can't believe I've gone this long without one! I am immediately taken into the woods. Not sure where the woods are located in the real world or if they even are -- correction -- now I know where they are at. The Ohio State Agriculture has a division here and back in there they have a wonderful tree grove. That's where I was at:) Anyways - Ethan is standing there. His chiseled features stand out against his blondish/brown hair and white skin. I still cannot tell what color his eyes are -- I'm not sure why thing bugs me, but it does. He greets me - I great him. He asks how am I doing? I'm not bad is my reply. We're walking down a path of fallen pine needles when I see Ted sitting against a tree. Ethan tells me -- he's been waiting here for a long time for you. He wouldn't go very far for very long - he knew you would be here. Ted looks up at me and smiles. My knees -- went weak. I'm such a push over for him, sometimes I think it's pathetic -- but it is what it is.

Ted gets up and wraps me in a bear hug. He kisses me on the forehead and tells me to come on. I look at Ethan -- don't we have something to discuss? He nods and replies -- it can wait -- this time together is more important.

I hook my arm into Ted's and we walk off. I've missed you - he whispers to me. I smile - I've missed you too. We round a corner and we are on the beach -- the beach with the light house as I've seen in so many past visions. Next thing I know we are sitting down in the sand, our backs rest on a boulder. He grabs my hand and we just sit there, staring out at the ocean. Ted finally speaks - Your light's been so dim lately. I don't know what to do when that happens.

Send me some of yours? I replied. Ted shrugs. I'm not sure how. I give him one of those sideways looks like - oh come on. He gets the look and replies -- no really, you and Bill make it look so easy but I don't know how. I turn to him, grab his hands and show him how to bring the light out from the crown, around my body and then project it into him. He gives it a try and it works:)

By the way -- good job with the computer, he chuckles.

I chuckle back -- thanks.

You know, the time is drawing near for us to meet?

I nod -- yes.

So stay strong and remember when you get to the other side I'll be there.

I give him a quick kiss and end the session.

That was nice of Ted to show up. I know that the dimness of my light has affected the guys - just like when something happens to them it affects me.

Time to get my son up for school.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I'm Still Alive And I Have A New Guide!

I need to put myself back into the land of the living instead of drowning in the - going through the motions. At least I have my wits about me and I can think with a clear head. Last week was horrible but not as bad as the week before and I'm going to bank on this week being better than last week. Just so you know -- I'm not in trouble with the law, I'm not being sued - I'm not in any deep water at all. My self-esteem and self-confidence is just fine -- I am just incredibly pissed off. But that's all I can tell you as someone who has had a hand in my life course diversion has been checking out this blog to see what I write. So until I know that my ducks are in a row and accounted for -- I am keeping my mouth shut. I had someone ask me if I was going to place a curse on whoever or whatever has done me wrong. No need to -- karma will take care of it -- this I know.

That said - I want to thank all of you who have sent me emails full of light, love and support. They have been greatly appreciated and I know that I would not be doing as well as I am right now if it wasn't for the love and the light that you guys have sent my way. I am eternally grateful.

I'm not one to ask for help unless I really need it so you know what I am about to ask I really need. I need money. It's not a want or a desire - but a very big need. I have a donation button here and on the main site. Or - please just spread my name around - what I do and my services - my URL. Anything for me to have work and to make money. I really wish I could tell you why I need the money so bad -- someday I will be able to spill all.

BTW...I have more emails that I have to return than I know what to do with. Please be patient and do not email or call me to find out why I haven't gotten back to you. I'll get there - eventually.

I've had a new guide show up through all of this. His name is Ethan. He is a very strong energy - a very wise energy. I haven't been able to get a good look at him yet. I ask why he has come forth at this point in time - he replied - I'm here to see you the rest of the way. I am your strength, your bedrock of fortitude. I am your wisdom when common sense eludes you. I am the light in your darkest hour. We are not two, but one - of one energy, of one holiness. Draw on me when you cannot take that next step. I will never be away from your side - you will never walk alone.

He shows me a very large and old book. But I haven't been able to read what it says inside. He says that it will come when the time is right. He also has told me that he is a connection between me and Will. He is a guide for both of us and that is no accident.

I'm tired -- today has been a long day. I have meds from the doctor to help lower my stress/anxiety so that my blood pressure goes back to the norm (114/65) instead of 220/110 - and so I'm not so pissed all the time (or should I say when I'm not working I'm pissed. Having work has helped me keep my sanity). But I'm trying to calm myself down. One way for me to do that is to go to sleep -- and I think that'll I'll do that right now.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)