CJ, KS and Allie's Vision of Dying!

Another - I don't know where to start - blog entry. I would love to sleep -- for days if I could. It'll never happen. But I would like to get some much needed shut eye. I had two other energies move into my field and since then I might as well kiss sleep good bye. I can't get to bed before 1:00 am - no matter how hard I try - I just can't get there. When I'm in bed I go right to sleep. But sleep is just a facade as I dream travel all night long. It's exhausting. Between every dream visit I wake up - roll over - and go right into another visit. By time my alarm goes off at 6:30 am, it feels like I just laid down. I haven't increased my coffee - so my headaches are pretty strong during the day. SIGH. It makes it difficult to think. Luckily - when I do reading I don't have to think, I just let the information flow.

My son -- not only do I have to worry about his MRI/MRA on Monday - but now the kid got a one day in-school suspension. Seems him and another kid were playing "army" and my son said that they should "kill" another kid. The school took that as a threat and they have a zero tolerance policy. He's grounded until further notice with no X-Box, computer or iPod - plus I took all of his Nerf guns away. He doesn't "get" that what he did was bad - since he was just playing. I tried explaining it to him -- at least he's majorly embarrassed. Sheesh - the kids 8 - at least I waited till I was 15 before I had my 3 day in school suspension.

Darin (the cat) went to the vet on Monday. He was pretty sick, poor little dude. He was a trooper though and let the vet poke and prod him - give him fluids and shots. He's even being cool about me giving liquid meds 2x a day. Right now we're guessing that somehow he caught a virus from Little Black Kitty. Not sure how -- but that's the only explanation.

The script I wrote last week won't be done in time for the contest it was intended for. Although the foundation was solid - the execution was a train wreck. Yep - felt pretty stupid on that one. Oh well -- this weekend at the latest I'll get back to it and hopefully write something that doesn't sound idiotic. Now that mercury is direct, I'm sure I can.

Oh the readers comment about Sawyer on the last post (I think) -- oh yeah -- that man is hot:) He can be without a shirt all season if need be!

Maria Shaw just informed me that on Feb 13th, she and the guys will be back on CBS Psychiconair.com on Friday nights only from 6 - 8 pm ET. It'll be great to hear the 3 of them even if it's just for once a week.

Finger crossed - the show that was intended for Nickelodeon is making it's way to ABC Family. A meeting happens next week.

Now for these new energies. I have no idea what kind of baring they have on me - some sort of karmic tie I would suppose. The first one is CJ. He's a big guy, very loving, kind - yet extremely opinioned. His energy is romantic and sexual. In a way like Vincent's - that he wants to protect me - but not as rock solid as Vincent - if that makes any sense. CJ is also full of fun, creative and a lover of the outdoors. He's very sexual - but sex isn't something that's important to him. He feels that actions, outside of sex, shows a person how much you care for them. Sex is something that feels good - but is used for making babies.

Now for KS. He's energy is very high strung. Teasing - protective - loving - yet angry and can be violent. He loves deeply and when hurt it wounds him for life. His energy towards me is brother-like. Nothing at all sexual or romantic. It reminds me of a brother and sister who tease each other - beat each other up - but if someone attacks either one of them , the other would give their life to protect them. His energy also reminds me of a phoenix - someone who can reinvent himself and one who will also surprise people. Kind of like Madonna in the 80's & 90's.

So these two have been be-bopping around my energy field since last week. They take turns. I personally have had just about enough of both of them. I'd like to keep all energies at arms length for awhile.

I had the oddest vision the other day when Brigit stopped by on Imbolc to say Hi. She wanted me to stop working, close my eyes and pay attention. So I did just that. What I saw was CJ and I walking towards an elevator in a hotel. It was the penthouse elevator. Before I got to it I stopped, looked at him and said: You didn't. He's like - what'd I do? And I started rattling them off: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, George....they're up there, in the penthouse. He denied it - I knew he was lying. I refused to go up. We argued about it - my body was shaking and I couldn't control it. He led me into the elevator - we start to go up - when I blurt out that I didn't tell him everything. He said what -- I said - when we're all together I'm going to die. He hit the stop button on the elevator. I had to explain to him that I've had visions of me having a heart attack and dying once we were all in the same room (and I actually have had this vision plenty of times). It's vital that as soon as I have the heart attack - Will, Ted and Bill place their hands on me - while he performed CPR. Vincent and George needed to have paper and pen in hands - because as soon as I come back - I'll have information for everyone. Plus - make sure they keep yelling for me to get back into my body - because I'm not going to want to. He thought I was nuts. I asked him not to let me die -- and no matter what - he can't give up trying to bring me back nor can the guys take their hands off of me. He agreed.

As soon as we stepped out of the elevator I met everyone. 30 sec after I hugged George - I had the heart attack. I see myself going down - CJ jumps into control and tells everyone what they have to do. Everyone is doing everything on cue. I can't see my soul anywhere - but the feeling I had is that I knew I was close by and talking with someone. 2 - 3 min later I saw my body jerk like my soul fell back in and I sat up. I rattled off this place with white pillars and a large pool of water. Next thing I know - I see my grandmother - she tells me that everything has changed and not to be scared.

Grams leaves and then George's Aunt shows up (she's dead as well). We're having a convo - I'm told no one else can see her but me. We talk - I give George some info - then she hands me a red rose to give to him. As soon as I have it in my hand - it materializes in the physical sense. I'm shocked. Someone else who is deceased comes along - hands me something - as soon as I take it - it becomes real. This kept happening over and over again.

Then Brigit said I'd seen enough. I asked what does that mean? She said that my gift of manifestation will be in full force when I come back to life - somehow my NDE gives it extra power. And that was that....I sat there for awhile after this one thinking - WTF? The manifestation twist was a new one to me. And I kept thinking how could that ever be possible - if it's possible. Once something leaves a spirit's hands into mine - it becomes solid. That's just wild.

And on that note - I have to get back to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And More!

It is so drab, dark and rainy here. Yucky - Yucky - Poo. Seriously.

The meeting of Santa Friday night went well. My son was so excited - just waving and jumping up and down to the Santa. He wanted to go say hi to him again this year. Santa was approaching us and I could tell he wasn't going to say hi to my son again so as he was right in front of us, I smacked his elbow and yelled - Hi Santa! He turned and shook my son's hand. The kid was on cloud nine for the rest of the freezing evening. It was so cold out - but he was so happy he didn't even notice.

The weekend was cold - but went well. I got some work done on the horror story - but not much. Robert is here bugging me to get the OBE outline rewritten. Andrew happens to agree with him -- and Paul just sits back and smiles. Paul smiles a lot. Last night he was in a dream of mine. My son and I were on this ultra luxury private jet. It was decked out. We were being shown around - when the pilot wanted to show my son the cool games on the plane. While they were doing that, I took a turn and ended up at this mini bar. Seated there was Paul. He looked at me and asked - how do you like it? I told him it looked great - pretty comfortable and appears to have everything anyone would want. He smiled - said Good - get used to it. I woke up. The image of the inside that plane stayed with me after I awoke. It was a white interior with blue trim. Besides that dream - I tossed and turned all night. By the time I did get out of bed I was pooped.

But back to the OBE book. As I was working on the outline I thought of a killer second book dealing with orgasms and sex. The 2nd book has Oprah and The View written all over it. I already have a title and actually I saw the whole workshop tour unfold before my eyes. It was so fricken cool. But I have to get this book done first. Mums on the title for #2 or what's it all about - one thing I will say it's good:)

Over the weekend I came across my old diary from high school. In it I found my old musings about moving to Asheville, NC. I always wanted to live there - been there several times and just loved the warm feeling. No matter where I went I felt a surge of positive energy. As I was reading my diary - for some reason Will popped into my head. Once there - he stayed for most of the day. He acted like a comforter, his energy being comforting, but not invasive. Later on that evening as I laid down to go to sleep, I felt him calling me into a session. I went and sure enough - there was that willow tree right by the river. Will was leaning against it, smile on his face. You look good - he said. I am good - I replied. Are you happy, Will asked. For the most part - I said - if tinsel town could get from 1st gear to 2nd, I'd be a lot happier. Will laughed. That's the way that part of the world works, he murmured, you either live with it or you don't and walk away. There is no in between. Well I guess I'm stuck - aren't I? He chuckled - sure looks that way. Go to sleep - Will said - and we'll catch up later. And that's what I did - went to sleep.

Vincent did stop by today and tell me how tired he is. I know he's tuckered out - which is why I haven't been pushing to make any sort of connection this last week. I could tell he needed some chill time - and could still use another week or two. But I told him that if he needs me - all he has to do is call.

There have been a ton of new people who have found this blog over the last two weeks. Seems that people are confused on who is what and if anyone is actually real. So here's the skinny for the newbies - everyone is real. I don't make anything up. If there is a connection to another person that I do not physically know in this lifetime (as in Will, Vincent, George, Bill or Ted) I confirm what I sense with a couple of other people before it ever makes this blog. I'm the type of person where something has to happen to me many times over before it causes a blip on my radar. And then I still need some sort of confirmation. SO what I write here are not elaborate fantasies to entertain you. If that's what you're looking for - you need another blog. I write what I do because there are people out there who have occurrences like I do - not exactly the same - but similar. Plus I know (intuitively wise) that Bill, Ted, Will, George and Vincent have al been to this blog at least twice. I also write so that they can find the blog - and compare the experiences to their notes.

Quick rundown:

Bill, Ted, George, Will and Vincent - soul group
Andrew, Paul, Robert, Jezell, Iris, Brigit, Ethan - spirit guides
Sean - new friend who Allie is fond of
Tracey, Sky, Gab and Maria - my psychic posse

And that's that.

I added Sexual Coaching to my list of services (and no, that does not mean I sleep with you) along with 2 new tiers of coaching - One Time Coach and One Week.

My sister is in New Orleans - I hate her (not really) she's having a great time......

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Sex On The Brain, A Plan And A Killer Headache!

I finished Black Triangle over the weekend - YAY ME! It is pretty darn good if you ask me - of course I'm a bit biased:) But it is pretty good. My manager liked it -- and now her boss is reading it. Fingers crossed he likes it too. Next up - the OBE book - I so want to get this done. Or at least get it to a point where I'm comfortable enough to send it to a publisher to see if they'll take it. I like publishing my own - but it takes my focus off of things - ya know? So I'd rather just write and let someone else handle everything else.

So yes, now I'm OBE book focused. This was pretty apparent after I awoke from my dream sex with Vincent last night. It's been pretty much all sex thought - all day...from the Instant Turn-On in the podcast to the Nipple Stimulation Oil and finally the OBE Sex entry. I think someone needs to throw me in a tub of ice water - Ha Ha! I'll be okay -- at least I've been productive.

The weekend brought more visits from Indy scaring the crap out of the cats. I so know he is just loving that. I had to ask him to chill though as Trouble was spraying everything - probably hoping to hit Indy. Damn cat. Brodie hurt his leg - lord knows what he did. He favored it all day yesterday and still is today. I just hope it's just a boo boo and not something more serious.

Spirits are still very much here with my Grams T by my side today. I can smell her rose soap so clearly that if I closed my eyes I'd swear I was back in her bathroom.

My mood is certainly different from the frustration of last Monday. I'm so determined to get the hell out of Wooster - it's a top priory to do so - 2009 is my year to move. I'm setting out to be as well known as Sylvia Browne or Doreen Virtue. I figure the more people know about me - the more people I can help. Of course that means the more money I make - but that only means I can open up the non-profits I've always wanted to: no kill animal shelter, retirement zone for zoo and/or circus animals, soup kitchen/food bank and a place where single parents can go for help and support. That's all to start. I want to do more from there. The more money I make - the more I can help. It's just as simple as that.

To be that well known means stepping all the way out of my comfort zone and slamming the door shut. It's scary -- but also very exciting at the same time.

My plan does all begin with the OBE sex book - and 2009 in person workshops. I don't know - how many workshops do you think I should do? 3? 4? Where at? LA, NYC, Columbus, Austin, Chicago and New Orleans? Of course that's 7, isn't it? And I'm thinking a weekend Sat/Sun workshop would work. Any suggestions I'd love to hear them.

Energy wise - I've had many visitors the last several days. Vincent, Will, Bill, Ted, George -- Paul has been right here and so has Andrew. It's been pretty crowed in the Allie energy field - but it also has felt pretty darn good. With everyone "right there" - I've had a ton of flash visions: Me chasing Vincent- tacking him and trying to get something out of his hand.....Ted looking at me with this shit-ass grin that makes my knees weak.....Bill and I doing what? But pouring over a ton of books. He's talking with his hands a lot - so whatever we're doing, he's loving it...Will and my son hanging out at my house eating dinner and last - George and I watching a TV and making a bunch of comments about what we see.

There's many more visions - they come and go so fast that it's hard to grasp hold of them. I have other ones with Vincent, my son and I at Central Park - or out getting a pizza. Will and I fighting over something, me trying to sober Ted up and me telling Bill to get off his high horse. LOL. It seems like I have an express train flying full force and it's heading to my station -- I'm there with a suitcase in hand.

Now the above I wrote this afternoon. It's now almost 10:00 pm. Around 6:30 I was blindsided by a horrible headache and nothing is working on making it go away. If you look at my eyes it would look like I had been smoking some real kicking weed - which I can assure you that I haven't. It's one of those - hey change is coming - headaches. And although I would like to write more - it's really killing me. Maybe I'm supposed to be in bed dreaming....

...Away I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy Birthday Bill, Dreams And An Energy Shift!

Another day of "where to begin".

I know -- HAPPY BIRTHDAY BILL. He's 50 today and just as sensual and as hot as ever. I connected to him to wish him a good day and happy 50th. We had some small talk - how are you, what have you been up to, etc....he then tells me that we'll cross paths again soon. I'm like - we will? How - when - why? He smiled (God he has a nice smile) and said that he doesn't know that details- only the overall picture. At that moment Will's energy came through - kind of like a "you're not talking to him without me around" type thing. I asked Will if he could excuse us and he said no. Just flat out no. I could feel my energy level really starting to ramp up. I could also fell Ted's energy attached to us all - but his energy isn't as strong as the others due to his drug and drinking problems.

So not I have these two really fired up energies - and Ted - connected to me. That's when Vincent comes in -- and that whammed my nervous system. Will and then Vincent were on "this is my territory" mode so their energy was high. Bill has been working extensively on his spirituality and has made significant improvements - so his energy was high. Because I had all of this energy zinging trough me - my body shook - and it was a steady shake for at least 20 minutes. During this same time I was wired and kept pacing around the house.

As I'm typing this out - it's all starting over again - all 4 are "right there" and my body is doing this all over again. Dang it all......

So Vincent and Will have been center stage all day. I keep trying to connect better to Bill - because I want to keep talking with him - and every time I do Will and Vincent converge. So I gave up - for now. Bill looks really good. His energy colors are balanced, he looks healthy inside and out. He has gotten himself into a really good place and I hope he can keep it there. Being 50 seems rather Zen to him.

It's now Monday evening - I have been trying all dang day to do this post. I don't know what'll kill me 1st - the kid or my pets. DOUBLE SIGH.

Okay - so Vincent and Will have been playing double duty all day. It's been insane. Will connected because Bill did. Vincent connected because Will did. Bill left because he didn't need the headache. So now Vincent and Will seem to be seeing who can hang around longer.

I think that this insanity started last night -- let me explain. Vincent and I are connected always (like with the other guys) but with him I do not have to manually have a telepathic connection - I don't have to seek him out - he's always there. But last night I decide to take up a notch. I asked Andrew how can I get Vincent over his apprehension about contacting me? Lord knows I don't want another Will when it comes to this. He told me that I have to make sure my light is the brightest. It always has to be on. If I'm feeling down - get rid of it by letting the light in. He'll be attracted to the light - there's no doubt about it. So I ask - won't the other guys be attracted too? He said yes, but none of them will do anything about it - Vincent will.

Okay - so that is what I did starting last night. Made the light brighter (and in turn did not fall asleep until 2:00). Then I manually connected to Vincent. And it was such an odd experience. When I was making the initial connection stronger - it was as if the world was spinning and there was a kaleidoscope of colors flashing through my mind's eye. Very cool. Then I connected. He was surprised. He kept saying he didn't know what to do. I told him that if he needs me for anything let me know. For some reason (even though I meant it) I kept saying - I won't let you fall -- I won't let you fall. It was important, for whatever reason, that he heard that. He reached over and kissed me - kissed me again. Then I say bye and broke the connection. The headache I had in my third eye was astronomical. It hurt just to exist.

Damn it - just had another connection to Will - and the shakes start again. This is just so weird.

So let's cut to now - the light from last night attracted everyone like I knew it would. And if I am to keep this pace up with the light - I have all 4 of them dancing about, I find it interesting that there is no sign of George. Andrew says he's in the other soul cluster and that's why.

Ohhhh...the dream I had last night. Sheesh - how could I forget THIS?

I'm in a restaurant in NYC - again I think it's that Frank's (I so have to go there in person just to see this place). I walk in - ask for a table for 1. I'm told it's going to be a few minutes. I ask where is the restroom and they point me to it. As I'm walking I hear someone say - are you Allie? I turn and it's an older woman. I say yes. She tells me that she listens to my show, read my book on OBE sex - etc.. and asks if she can have my autograph. I tell her that I don't have a pen on me. I hear a voice - here's one. I turn and sitting in a booth is Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will. Bill and Will on one side (Will inside) and Ted & Vincent on the other (Vincent on the inside). Despite the fact I almost had heart failure - I took his pen, signed the book (as I'm signing she's going on about Bill, Ted, Will and Vincent with what I have written about them - not knowing that they were all right there) and sent her on her way. I stood there for a second - took a deep breath - and turned around to give Bill back the pen. Vincent told me to have a seat. I told Bill to get out so that I could sit between him and Will as I didn't trust the two of them sitting next to one another. But before I could slide in I knew I was about to wake up. I look at Bill and say - my dream visit with you are either at a party, in a library or a bookstore. No matter what there are people and books. I look at Will - with you it's a river and a willow tree. If I see a willow - no matter where - I just start looking for you. To Vincent - you it's beaches, lakes, parks, trains. To Ted - with you it's parties and castles. I have to go now - but I'm sure I'll see you all later.

Will chimes in - we know you're giving a workshop tomorrow night. I look at all 4 -- don't tell me you have tickets? Vincent said - front row - right guys? All 3 are like - yep. I'm like shit -- you're my examples. My examples aren't actually there - that's how I can use them as examples. Bill smiles - get used to it.

And I woke up. All I could think was - holy shit they're hot. LOL.

I found my ex husband's (as in #1) dog tag today. I didn't think I had it any longer. My ex #2 made me throw out everything of #1 several years ago. He was still pissed I had held onto it from high school till my mid 20's. Funny enough as soon as #2 moved out everything that dealt with him was in the trash - everything - pictures,letters, cards, wedding crap, paintings, fountains etc.... Any ways - my son wants to be an Army Commando for Halloween so I went looking for the dog tag and it was real easy to find. It was where I last put it - in my jewelry box. I also discovered I had my pre-engagement ring that he gave me when we were 18 :) I was so proud of that ring when he gave it to me:) The one ring was the only thing someone gave me that I didn't pay for (I paid for my engagements rings and wedding sets - plus any other jewelry). He and - we were such stupid kids. Had we stayed in El Paso after he was discharged from the Army, we probably would have never gotten divorced.

I was amazed on how much anger I had towards him all these years. I don't have it any longer. I don't know when I let it go - but I'm glad I did. We could never go back - and if he were to show up again after all this time we'd never be romantic again (Allie does not move backwards) but it would be nice to be friends.

I haven't had any dizzy spells lately - which is nice. Now I just have some headaches:)

Off to get my shower and then to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Past Lives, Emotions And No Where To Go!

I'm sitting here working on THE BLACK TRIANGLE -- and it's a tough go. The relationships between the characters are heartfelt - and I can feel their emotions as I type. I can feel the struggle, Jeta, the main character has trying to keep her girls alive in a concentration camp while she's falling in love with an SS officer. As a mom - I know the lengths I would go through to save my son from harm - there isn't anything I wouldn't do. Parents shouldn't outlive their kids. At the same time - Jeta is a woman who craves love and has that primal urge to survive. I get that too.

As I sit here and feel their EMOTIONS - it actually forces me to examine being psychic - and what I've discovered thus far. I'm not bitching that I have this gift - trust me - I know that I am blessed. But at the same time I want so bad to talk to someone about what I see - what I hear -- what I know and feel. I write things down - obviously - in this blog and in my journal. I try to pour things out, to empty it from my system. But it still lingers - waiting for me to have a face to face chat with any of the guys: Vincent, Will, Bill, Ted or George.

With every karmic and/or soul connection that I discover - I too then discover the feelings for the past associated with that soul. The good - the bad - it doesn't matter, what matters is that they are all there. I keep them bottled up - because, what in the hell am I going to do with them? But I get to a breaking point -- and I reached it again. The BT is an emotional story that takes all of my energy not to cry as I rewrite -- so I cannot use that energy to hold back the sea of emotions and past life memories.

I really don't have much more to say. I don't mean to sound bitchy - I guess I'm just frustrated. All this information & emotions and no where to direct it. I'll be able to patch it up - keep it bottled again -- but I'm telling you, I know I'm a leaky dam. I have to talk to one of them soon or go up to Glacier National Park and just keep screaming until my voice is gone - and I'm too pooped to give a damn.

My soul is stil rested after this last puzzle piece with Vincent. It just really needs to talk - and have someone listen.

Thanks for letting me vent -- back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Vincent, Tracey And Validation!

I can honestly say that my soul feels rested. It's not in search mode any longer. It's such a great feeling - knowing that I found the person I'm supposed to learn my life lesson with -- now everything will fall into place. Maybe not as fast as I want it - but that's okay because I still know that it will fall into place. I'm shifting my focus to the big picture and not the details - although I'm as curious as hell about the little things. I had to - of course - get my 3rd opinion on Vincent. That's what I do -- I feel my own confirmation, then I either ask Maria or Tracey - then go to who I haven't asked. If my "knowing" is validated by both - then I'm pretty comfortable in that.

(BTW - as a side note to my friend Kally who called me from NYC to rub it in that she was there and I wasn't the below reading has a bearing on what you and I talked about. Now you know why I asked what part of Manhattan you were in)

And Tracey validated my feel on Vincent as well as Maria's:

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:09:54 PM): okay! Vincent is very sensitive - and intuitive - a very deep person - people tend to think he is standoffish but has on a higher plane most of the time

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:18 PM): he does remember your dream visits with him and he knows you - he knows that he is to be with you - he knows his marriage is to end

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:29 PM): he feels guilt and a sense of obligation to his wife

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:41 PM): he seems to feel he owes her on the conscious level

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:59 PM): but in his dreams he has seen insight that tells him these feelings are not warranted

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:02 PM): and that she wants to be free

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:14 PM): he seems to be thinking about that in relation to you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:21 PM): he knows you are coming and soon

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:45 PM): he seems to feel creatively drawn to you --the two of you have been lovers who have created together too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:54 PM): he feels that he is meant to do more than he is doing now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:59 PM): and he feels you are part of this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:04 PM): he does know who you are

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:08 PM): he found you by accident

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:18 PM): in a dream he had about you he saw you as a gypsy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:24 PM): and he typed something into the internet

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:29 PM): and found your website

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:38 PM): he has been reading your blog

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:42 PM): and he knows who you are

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:48 PM): and this seems to be kind of exciting to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:54 PM): its like validating

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:57 PM): he knows your eyes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:01 PM): he remembers them well

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:13 PM): he knows that the sex btw you two is going to be magical

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:17 PM): he seems to think about that a lot

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:28 PM): he is not sure how you will come together

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:34 PM): he thinks he will meet you soon

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:43 PM): he feels that you will be coming into his life

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:49 PM): through your creative genius

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:01 PM): he has been pursuing other things besides his current job

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:15 PM): he seems to want to do more than he is doing now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:18 PM): he has higher goals

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:26 PM): he seems to have a lot of money

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:36 PM): he is polished on some level

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:43 PM): he seems to be very intelligent

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:47 PM): if he is not well educated

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:53 PM): then it is innate wisdom

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:03 PM): he finds your blog awesome

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:11 PM): he laughs when he reads it because you think alike

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:19 PM): he understands you and the way you think

Allie (9/19/2008 2:15:26 PM): he knows that when I put Vincent in there that it is him - right?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:30 PM): he thinks that you are very brilliant

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:36 PM): yes he knows

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:55 PM): he knows and it makes him smile - he has this really slight smile sometimes - sort of like a grin

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:11 PM): he seems to feel that something is happening with you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:13 PM): something big

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:22 PM): and has got this feeling of excitement, nervousness all in one
Allie (9/19/2008 2:16:31 PM): I have the same feelings..

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:32 PM): he feels like he is picking up on your emotions

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:08 PM): he is intuitive and he seems to be spiritually advanced - meaning that he meditates and listens to his intuition - he knows things, sees things

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:18 PM): he knows that you are destined for him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:30 PM): and that the two of you are destined for some real greatness as a team

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:49 PM): he seems to feel like you can do anything

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:56 PM): and he feels this kind of confidence in himself too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:02 PM): not in a stuck up sort of way

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:07 PM): but a healthy balanced way

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:11 PM): he is positive

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:18 PM): he sees the bigger picture

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:28 PM): he also knows about your son

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:38 PM): and he feels he has a part in his life

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:39 PM): a role

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:46 PM): he feels that he is his child too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:48 PM): on another level

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:54 PM): like he has parented him before

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:59 PM): he also feels as though

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:04 PM): you are to have two children with him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:20 PM): he has a sense of responsibility to your son though

Allie (9/19/2008 2:19:27 PM): oh good lord - another child or two from me?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:30 PM): like he feels like there are things he is meant to do and be for him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:33 PM): hahahhahaha

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:34 PM): yep

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:39 PM): hope they come at once

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:41 PM): lol

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:03 PM): he wonders if you know how rich he is

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:13 PM): he does not want that to be intimidating

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:25 PM): has not a pomp driven kind of guy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:35 PM): but there is wealth all around him

Allie (9/19/2008 2:20:35 PM): I have no idea how much money he has - and it really doesn't matter to me.

Allie (9/19/2008 2:20:42 PM): No - he doesn't seem pomp

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:51 PM): he seems to just draw things to himself

Allie (9/19/2008 2:20:55 PM): like me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:59 PM): he has a way of manifesting

Allie (9/19/2008 2:21:00 PM): me being drawn to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:04 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:12 PM): he thinks you know about his eyes too

Allie (9/19/2008 2:21:13 PM): I know this is his doing - me figuring out it was him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:19 PM): this seems to be something he feels you could not miss

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:29 PM): he has tried sending you messages

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:34 PM): tried talking to you on the astral

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:41 PM): but he was not sure you were hearing him

Allie (9/19/2008 2:22:30 PM): he's a gentle giant

Allie (9/19/2008 2:22:39 PM): his energy is very protective and loving

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:22:43 PM): that's sweet

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:22:49 PM): he towers over you

Allie (9/19/2008 2:22:58 PM): he's almost 6'4"

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:00 PM): he will be the kind that will want to be with you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:02 PM): all the time

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:07 PM): two steps behind you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:08 PM): hovering

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:18 PM): he thinks and he tells you things

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:24 PM): I see him standing over you at your computer

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:29 PM): you two are writing something

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:35 PM): and coming up with ideas together

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:41 PM): this one is the one

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:46 PM): like the big bucks for you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:49 PM): the main network

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:00 PM): he will be so happy to work with you on this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:08 PM): I hear a baby crying in the he background

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:17 PM): so I think the kid is coming

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:19 PM): like it or not

Allie (9/19/2008 2:24:23 PM): lol

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:28 PM): the baby is going to be long

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:30 PM): really long

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:34 PM): and thin

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:44 PM): I see you adoring him (its a boy)

Allie (9/19/2008 2:24:49 PM): I keep feeling we'll meet by the end of the year. although like him - I have no idea how

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:50 PM): but you will have another one too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:52 PM): a girl

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:56 PM): so be careful

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:59 PM): just after baby one comes

Allie (9/19/2008 2:25:05 PM): oh lord!

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:25:10 PM): you may find you are really fertile myrtle

Allie (9/19/2008 2:25:21 PM): dang

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:25:29 PM): I sense that he won't care

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:25:37 PM): he would be so happy with more

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:05 PM): he likes kids

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:11 PM): they inspire him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:14 PM): because they are so open

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:17 PM): and free

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:23 PM): whereas grown ups are so closed

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:37 PM): he would have more

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:41 PM): and more

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:52 PM): he likes the sounds of kids

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:57 PM): running through the house

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:01 PM): he will chase after them

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:03 PM): he plays

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:08 PM): he's a sweetheart

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:12 PM): a real sweet man

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:52 PM): he is a big fella

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:31 PM): He's very talented - I see him doing all kinds of things

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:40 PM): I see a visage of him playing the piano

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:42 PM): and singing

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:47 PM): kids hanging on him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:13 PM): he also likes to draw sometimes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:16 PM): he seems to get messages

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:19 PM): random ones

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:28 PM): and he is trying to work on this more

Allie (9/19/2008 2:30:40 PM): do you think we will meet by the end of the year?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:42 PM): so that he can ask questions and get more specific answers

Allie (9/19/2008 2:30:44 PM): will he know it's me?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:45 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:47 PM): and yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:53 PM): I sense you will meet him very soon

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:01 PM): perhaps as soon as Halloween or a little later

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:06 PM): and he will know your eyes

Allie (9/19/2008 2:31:07 PM): I keep getting that too - hence my nervousness

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:08 PM): anywhere

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:16 PM): yes, I can see why you would feel nervous

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:21 PM): but I sense you need not be

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:24 PM): he's so kind

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:28 PM): so personable

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:33 PM): he will make you feel very comfortable

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:42 PM): he's got a way about him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:50 PM): sort of like someone you can immediately trust

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:04 PM): I sense he will keep touching you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:09 PM): like touch your arm

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:11 PM): your shoulder

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:13 PM): your back

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:14 PM): your hand

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:21 PM): he uses gestures a lot when he talks

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:28 PM): and every time he touches

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:29 PM): you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:33 PM): its like energy zap

Allie (9/19/2008 2:32:35 PM): I keep getting that he like the group Abba too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:40 PM): yes he does

Allie (9/19/2008 2:32:42 PM): I gesture too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:46 PM): he likes a lot of old stuff like that

Allie (9/19/2008 2:32:56 PM): I keep having to play Dancing Queen

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:01 PM): he likes 'mellow stuff'

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:05 PM): he finds them mellow

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:10 PM): he used to smoke pot a lot

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:18 PM): but he does not now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:27 PM): but it seemed to make him feel mellow

Allie (9/19/2008 2:33:29 PM): does he have someone he goes to to ask about me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:32 PM): and helped control visions

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:35 PM): he does

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:41 PM): he has someone that costs a lot of money

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:49 PM): he liked an ad or something you wrote about this

Allie (9/19/2008 2:34:01 PM): off the phone now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:05 PM): he laughed and laughed about the costs of services

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:10 PM): for readings and such

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:16 PM): you were so right

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:22 PM): he enjoyed reading this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:28 PM): I hope you know what this is about

Allie (9/19/2008 2:34:33 PM): yes I do

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:38 PM): he pays a lot

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:42 PM): but feels this person is accurate

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:44 PM): and worth it

Allie (9/19/2008 2:34:50 PM): and has this person talked about me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:52 PM): and he feels she helped him with the dream

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:58 PM): in such a way that he found you on the internet

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:02 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:04 PM): of course

Allie (9/19/2008 2:35:04 PM): and has this person told him how good I will be to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:16 PM): yes - she has spoken of this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:24 PM): and he seems to be looking forward

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:32 PM): because his current wifey is not good to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:40 PM): and she is materially driven

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:42 PM): and he is not

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:56 PM): he feels like her personal atm

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:06 PM): do you think I'll be living in NYC or in LA?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:14 PM): I sense both at times

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:18 PM): and what that means to me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:22 PM): is that you will be living in both

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:23 PM): that's what I thought

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:24 PM): back and forth

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:32 PM): so get ready

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:35 PM): for a lot of flights

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:46 PM): has he figured out where I live yet?

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:50 PM): my address

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:53 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:59 PM): he knows that you live there

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:03 PM): he wonders why

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:06 PM): he thinks you need to move

Allie (9/19/2008 2:37:10 PM): has he been to Wooster yet?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:14 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:18 PM): he's checked it out

Allie (9/19/2008 2:37:20 PM): I knew it. He should of come to the door.

Allie (9/19/2008 2:37:22 PM): recently?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:24 PM): and was like nooooooooo

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:26 PM): gotta move

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:27 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:32 PM): recently in the past month

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:44 PM): he's not feeling its good for you there

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:51 PM): he senses some negative energy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:58 PM): I think its your ex's energy though

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:02 PM): and the unknown caller who didn't say anything today when I picked up the phone? him maybe?

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:09 PM): oh yeah - I must move - I know that.

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:15 PM): yes most certainly it was him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:19 PM): he called while he was there too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:24 PM): but I am not sure you answered

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:30 PM): no I didn't

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:35 PM): I usually do not answer unknown callers

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:44 PM): well, you should start!

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:47 PM): I will

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:05 PM): I feel like this guy is your man - you are uncovering the mysteries

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:14 PM): getting to the real deal

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:28 PM): he's waiting

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:35 PM): its like he is waiting for more insight

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:37 PM): answers

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:39 PM): how

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:46 PM): he keeps wondering how he will meet you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:48 PM): but you know

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:05 PM): I keep getting in a crowded area

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:09 PM): like a party

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:12 PM): or gathering

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:14 PM): oh - cool

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:24 PM): and I can feel him looking at me from across the room

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:33 PM): you would def feel his energy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:45 PM): he is definitely focused on you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:52 PM): he's got a lot of questions

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:56 PM): so do I

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:59 PM): like should he end his marriage now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:00 PM): or wait

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:13 PM): he's not sure about how you will come together

Allie (9/19/2008 2:41:15 PM): now so he's free by the time I get there

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:27 PM): he's going to come to that conclusion

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:35 PM): he's just thinking things through

Allie (9/19/2008 2:41:49 PM): any idea when I'll be moving?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:58 PM): I get moving in January

Allie (9/19/2008 2:42:06 PM): that's what I thought too

What I haven't been able to figure out is if he's part of my soul circle or if this is simply a karmic connection. To me it doesn't matter - but what can I say? I'm always curious - always searching for answers. That's probably why I love mysteries and cop shows so much:)

No worries about Will, George, Bill and Ted. My desire to work and talk to these guys is steadfast.

I have no idea when I'll get the "Ask Allie" column caught up. I'm pushing myself to finish THE BLACK TRIANGLE and when I'm short on time - the column is the 1st to be put on hold - followed by the blogs. So we'll see.

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bob, OBE Sex And Will!

Mercury Retrograde isn't due till Sept 24th - and let me tell you, it's kicking my ass already. My computer - grrr - my internet - double grrr and my wireless - &^^%$$#$%%^&**. That's all I have to say about that! Thankfully it hasn't cut the balls off of my good mood:) I'm so far behind on things that even with a telescope I can't see my large behind -- but I'm determined to get caught up. My alarm clock now says 5:00 am (it was 6:00 am) and next week if I'm not where I'm supposed to be - it'll go to 4:30 am. Any earlier than 4:30 and I may kill someone by 7:00 pm :)

Today on Psychiconair.com, before I came on at 9:17 am, Maria was talking about how the full moon brought out emotions. Well let me tell you - boy my emotions are causing havoc. But - they only jump out as I'm rewriting the BLACK TRIANGLE. I swear - I cry the whole time I'm writing - it's horrible. I'm thinking of rewriting the sex scenes just so I have something to look foreword to! But, I've recently become obsessed with the NBC show - 30 ROCK. I've already breezed through seasons 1 & 2 (thank you Netflix) and am now going through them again. If you haven't watched the show - it is so damn funny. Alex Baldwin is brilliant in this show. Tina Fey and her supporting cast are also excellent - but it's Baldwin that has me rolling. That show is making my rewrite move forward. Every time I get overly emotional - on comes 30 ROCK and I laugh myself silly. I need to write something that I could get that man to play in - he's great no matter what role he's taken on. What can I say? I've been a fan since BEETLE JUICE.

So BLESS YOU 30 ROCK!

Okay - moving on......today's chat on the Maria Shaw Show was great. We talked about my appearance at the 2nd Cosmic Convention at the end of October - the OBE Sex class I'm teaching as well as the séance that myself and Monica T are going to do! Maria brought up adding a class on Tantric Sex to the convention. I had been thinking about adding that element to my weekend OBE workshops. We'll see if we can fit it in - it'll have to be a very basic class!

Bob has been right there next to me now for a few weeks. He's this big hulking energy - very protective - VERY. I thought Will was protective (and he is bless his heart), but with Bob it's a massive amount of protective energy. A gentle giant -- that's a good way to describe Bob. Because although he is this massive energy and I can feel that this is something he's been exploring and learning more about -- he's also very tender - gentle. Andrew has been saying since Friday that I have to put Bob's real name into the blog and not use Bob. He's pretty dang crazy about it too. Seems that Bob has either already been by the blogs and thinks that he's Bob or he will soon and he has to know that what he reads is him. I wish you could see Andrew now - this usually very calm guide is jumping up and down like a crazed man. Do it now -- now -- NOW! He's being wow - vocal. I ask why now? He's says: why do the women in your family have to be so difficult (I have to smile on that one)? Don't ask "why" there's a reason.

Me - being me - had to draw a tarot card to see what I need to know about putting the name in now. I drew the Serpent - it's all about healing and knowledge. It's about understanding and taking what you know to transform your life - to shed the "skin" of the old and embrace the new with "new skin". Then I drew Burden: to release burdens to allow others to follow their path. That I carry weight that is not my own. I had to draw one more card - King: male authority - and sexual energy, The king puts one on notice to take affirmative action and to put their house in order (as something is about to change).

Okay - it's VINCENT. Not Bob. Vincent is his name. The reason I was very hesitant is because I can feel a female energy that is very attached to him through a karmic connection/past lives. This energy does not want anyone else involved in his energy. Of course - I know that the female energy knows I'm already involved. I can feel her on the outskirts. Andrew assures me that the female energy is not a problem at all - nor will she give anyone a problem. She may be very attached -but she is also kind-hearted and spiritual.

So sometime today Maria is going to send me the scoop on Vincent and when she does - I'll post it. I did feel much better using his real name - never liked using the fake name.

My son's teacher called me the other day to say what a wonderful student he is being this year! No trouble at all - a great leader and is setting a fine example for the other students. I knew my energy methods would work:)

Last weekend, my friend Pat and I went out. He's my friend from high school (the fire chief). We had a good time - it was nice to chat with him. I had forgotten how much in common he and I have. My ex, of course, dodged talking my son for the day like he said he would - and Pat was cool about me bringing my son with us. The kid was remarkably good - I was shocked. Of course - he does want me to get married again:) If Pat and I lived in the same state - I don't know - we might actually date. Of course he's about to move to one of my favorite states - Montana. I've been to MT at least 8 times over the last 10 years - simply love Big Sky Country!

George and Will have been trying to out-do one another in showing up in my visions & energy field. They're funny. One vision with Will is that he and I are in a room - some sort of meeting. I come in, shake his hand and say something like: Hi I'm Allie, I met you back in Feb in NYC at.......Will smiles and says oh I know who you are. How's your son? His gaze is very direct - like his eyes are looking through me when he says he knows who I am. We have the meeting or whatever we're at. Afterwards, I see him in the hall and tell him that my son and I are going to go grab something to eat - would he like to join us? He doesn't even think about it - he just says yes.

SIGH. I can't wait to see him again. I truly - truly - cannot wait.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Three Guides And Energy!

Today I was starting to think that either I forgot to put my clothes on or I only put half on and had pasties on my nipples. Why? Guys kept looking at me while I was out doing errands today. I checked to see if I was "too cold" - nadda. Nothing hanging from my nose. I was perplexed. Until I felt Andrew by my Mini Cooper. Ahhhhh.....I thought - that's why. So I asked him if he put the love mojo on me or something like that. His reply - something like that....you'll get used to it.

I told him if he's doing that - go sprinkle it on the RIGHT person. Not some Joe Farmer here in Wooster. He told me not to worry about it - but to tune into him when I got home.

Okay - so I get home. Right away Robert and Ethan show up. Robert is saying that I need to prepare for the OBE workshop. I need to finish the book. Plan my next step in the OBE world. Copyright or trademark my process. Ethan jumps in -- no, she needs to work on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. She needs to have it done by mid October. She needs to have the OBE by mid-October - Robert quipped back.

SIGH.

So I speak up - HEY! Guides don't fight - they guide. Do I have to call Iris back? Silence from both of them - lol. In a calm voice they both state that I have to have the respected projects done. I told them that I agree. But -- I can't do both at once. With the OBE it would be nice to have someone to guide me - like a coach. Robert took offense to that. He says that I don't need a mortal - I need to listen to him. He'll tell me the steps. So I had to bite here - I asked, what are your steps? This is what he said:

1) Work on the workshop for both Oct shows. They can be the same workshop as they are both 50 min shows. Write the workshop like you would a spell. Do the beginning, the end and then the middle.
2) Have that workshop copy written or trademarked (he said whatever you humans call it) as that process will be the basis of my in-person weekend workshops.
3) Finish the OBE book by end of Oct/Nov
4) Have it in print in Jan for Valentines Day 2009

I thought that it sounded like a workable plan. He was pleased about that. Ethan chimed in - what about BT? I told him that I have a plan for BT. I'm going to rewrite the structure part of it until the 24th or so - when mercury reto kicks in. Then for the next week I'm going to take a character a day and work on their dialogue. I'll have it to my manager by Oct 4th. Then she and I can work on any rewrites until Mercury goes direct on Oct 15th. Finished....I know I cannot get it done by the time mercury goes retro - so I have some time to get it done - and done right.

Both guides were happy.

Now Andrew (who had been standing back watching all this) steps forward. He asked me if I would work on my heart chakra - to open it up more. I said sure. He said that Will has been consciously connecting to me over the last two days. I told him - I know. He miss you. I know - I said - it's mutual. Because he's consciously connecting to you, your energy is shifting to a higher frequency and it is absorbing his feelings for you, your soul is responding by putting out the energy signals for him. I jumped in -- so that's why these men are looking at me like I'm dessert? Because my energy is projecting a certain frequency to Will? Andrew said - yes.

Oh hell - I said. Is there a way for my energy not to do that? Sure he said, you could close yourself off from Will again - then he'll close himself from you and you two will be back to where you were this summer. Well I don't want that. I want to move FORWARD. Andrew agreed. Then he chimed in - you better watch Will when George enters you life.

So me being me asked -- so they'll both be in my life at the same time. Andrew said - yep. And Will won't want George around - but George will try to smooth things out with Will.

I asked Andrew - any idea when I'll see Will next? He smiled and said -- sooner than you think.

And with that all 3 were gone.

Will has been around a lot the last two days. Not so much that I can't get anything done - but quite a bit. It's been really nice to know he's right here again. Let's hope this time he doesn't go anywhere.

Now for the dream I had last night that I can't put my finger on the why. I walked into a restaurant - where there was some sort of party going on - like a retirement party or new hire - something like that. Seated at a long table was this man I'll call Mike. I felt him staring at me as I was in another part of the restaurant picking out a dress to wear to my cousin's wedding (which is at the end of Sept). He walked over and introduced himself - I smiled, intro back and then went on with what I was doing. People kept bothering him - women mostly - he is a well-known person. He was persistent and kept walking up to me and suggesting what dress I should buy. I finally bought one (at his suggestion) and as I was leaving he asked if he could call me sometime. I asked why? He said because he would like to take me out. I was hesitant - I gave him my number.

We went out a couple of times - had fun. Next thing I know is he and I are swimming in the YMCA pool here in Wooster. I'm standing next to him in my swim suit - I tap his abs and say - now that's a body. He blushed and laughed. I asked if he was going to help me get in shape - and he said if that was what I wanted. We're in the water and he has one arm around me and is twirling me in the water. He commented that this was a nice pool. I said that yes it's nice - but although I have a membership - I haven't been here since Feb (which is true) - and that my son never picked up his membership card yet (also true). Mike said that we'll be at that pool every day. I'm like - every day? He said yes.

So later on we are walking into the same restaurant where we met - and as we're walking in I hear a couple women talk among themselves is if he's so and so. I leaned over - smiled - and said , yes he is. Then I woke up. Why I would have a dream like that about a guy I don't know, who's not my type, and the odds will never meet - is beyond me. Andrew said (just now) that he has stumbled upon my blog just recently. But I still don't get the dream.

Hummm...

For those of you who voted for me yesterday - thank you! I greatly appreciate the help. Remember you can vote once every 24 hours:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Iris Is Gone!

Yep - that's right - Iris is gone. I cried like a baby. I didn't mean to, it just flowed right out of me. I finished DREAMERS last night and I must admit - it's pretty good this time. Of course, I thought it was good previous times when it actually sucked:) But this time I know it's different. How? Besides the fact that it read better - I had chills up and down my spine as I was getting ready to send it. Iris told me not to worry - that it will all flow as it should and that huge changes are ahead for me in the upcoming months. I need to remain grounded during and after the change happen (sounds like menopause, doesn't it- lol). She told me to make frequent trips back to Ohio (after I move obviously) so that I don't lose touch with where I came from. It'll be too easy to get swept up in the hoop-la of Holly-Weird, especially after the years of hard work and personal sacrifices I've made. I told her we'd have to see about that -- I'm not packing my bags yet.

Before she left I asked her if I should tell my manager that she's gone? Iris said - no. Wait until she reads your script and calls you to tell you what a good ob you did. After that, believing everything I have told you about your life changing will be easier to believe. She said her good-byes, told me to stop crying and pull it together:) They'll be a time where she and I will meet again - many years down the road. And that was that - she was gone.

In her place Andrew stepped in and Ethan plus Robert were both back. I laughed and said - it takes 3 men to fill 1 woman's shoes. Andrew laughed - Robert and Ethan did not :) Ahh - next to me right now is Edward. Sheesh -- seems like the gang is here:) Andrew said that he's going to give me some down time ater al the hard work I've done - and then we'll jump into my love life :)

Later on last night, my manager called and said exactly what Iris said she would. After she was done - I told her Iris was gone.

Now as my manager is doing her thing - I'm back on THE BLACK TRIANGLE.

My son is off school today - as it's "Fair Day" for the kids in Wooster. So he, my mother and one of my sisters will be heading down to the fair. I doubt that I will have a chance to do the podcast today - but you never know.

I didn't get a wink of sleep last night. I'm a tired pup. My brain wouldn't shut off. As you know - when this happens - change is in the air. As I was trying to sleep, Will kept popping up. Nothing annoying or intrusive. The visits were more - how are you? How's your son - etc....His energy was like it was in the beginning - when he first arrived and acknowledged himself. It was calm. soothing and patient. Maybe he has made some life decisions that has smoothed out his energy field? I hope he has - for his sake - his energy was too spiky before. I'm looking forward to seeing him again.

Ted was all over the board last night. Man is his energy just @ucked up. He needs an intervention - one to get away from his psycho wife and two to get into rehab. I try to connect to him, to give him more white light. But it's almost as if I'm trying to connect to a mosquito. His energy darts around and it's rather sharp. I'll keep trying though -- I have to.

Bill stopped by to say "Hi" - the man is all smiles. Not sure what he's so go-happy about, but I wish he would send some of it to Ted. Although, Bill is pretty dang cute when he smiles;)

And of course - George showed up. His energy was more like a kid who had too much sugar. He was quite funny and I found myself chuckling:) Good thing no one was around as I was laughing with no one there - and no obvious external cause for the laughter:)

It's a beautiful day for the county fair!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Artemis, Atlantis And Andrew!

I still feel like crap. But at least the world isn't spinning. Now it's the change of seasons yuck that I get - although today it is supposed to be 90. Next week it'll be in the low 70's upper 60's. I spent the day yesterday at the doctor's for my son and the vet for Brodie. Each got medicine. For my son - he has a combo allergies & sinus infection. For the dog - I made the vet put him back on his original meds from July - they seemed to work - they just weren't prescribed long enough. So I have double the amount this time. And what do you know - Brodie didn't have to snort out the mucus this morning when he got up. So they are working already.

With my son -- the battle has begun for school. Wow - he really didn't want to go. He wants to go to a different school - but he wouldn't tell me why. I'll try to get it out of him again tonight. It is probably the back lash from last year when the kids called him the "weird one". I told him he'll switch schools soon enough as this time next year we'll be in CA or NYC. He was happy about that.

I wasn't on the Maria Shaw show today - they reran last week's show. Seems that Joe (the producer) is MIA and Maria is driving through the mountains of Tenn. in an effort to make it back to MI after they were both kicked out of NOLA due to the hurricane. Blessings that everyone gets home safe and sound.

I was asked to do a quick session this morning with my healing wand - haven't done on of those in awhile. As soon as I took the wand and was settled in - I was transported to a large room - looked like a large bedroom. My guide, Andrew, was there. After we exchanged greetings - I asked him where we were - he said watch. So I did and I see me in a long, vintage yellow dress - looks silky - and I was thin! Not skinny mind you - but thinner than I am now with muscle tone! I looked at Andrew and asked if this was me in the next life - he said no -- money can buy you an amazing physical trainer. I was like - really? Then George came in - dressed to the nines in a wonderful tux. Andrew said we were off to some awards event that I was nominated for. I was like - wow - how cool is that?

Then he had me sit down and said: Listen - things are going to move for you very fast - very soon. The time might be perfect for you to find romance, but I'm not so sure how much energy you will have for it. Between work, your son and moving. But it will be there if you want it. Where's Iris - I asked. She's near by - all of those ideas you are getting now for DREAMERS - that's her hand in it all. Her time with you is wrapping up and she's only pushing you so that you don't miss your window of opportunity to get the ball rolling in your career.

So breathe deep - and enjoy the stillness while it lasts.

And with that he was gone.

I don't think that I'll miss any window of opportunity with Iris around - she simply wouldn't let it happen.

My dreams last night were really intense. They revolved around the crystal skulls and Atlantis. The dream memory that stands out the most has me in a flowing dark blue robe - sitting to a fire pit - talking with my crystal skull Artemis. My hands are very tingly as I hold the skull and the top of my head feels as if it is on fire. She reveals to me a new healing method of crushing a crystal and mixing it with lavender oil. The mixture is then placed on wounds for healing. I am against that I would crush a crystal - knowing there is a spirit inside. Artemis tells me that the crystals gladly give up their existence - it is their destiny in their current lifetime to do so. After the mixture has helped heal the wound, it is to be returned to the soil so that a new crystal could be brought forth. When the new crystals emerge they would be rose and/or lavender in color and exhibit wondrous qualities of love and the psychic sense. The vibrational qualities of Artemis were extraordinary.

It was an amazing skull. I hope I can remember more connections with Artemis.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

George, Swinging And Will's Upset!

I want to send blessing and love to all of my friends in the New Orleans area and all other areas of the gulf where Gustav may strike. In New Orleans - who is going to capture and save the cats of Jackson Square? Surely something has to be done for them - some sort of shelter - right? The new picture in my profile is of me and one of my sisters drinking far too much in NOLA. It's funny - I'm considered the "normal" sister - LOL! So you can imagine what my two sisters are like - ha! My poor parents....

Speaking of parents - me in particular - I have survived the 1st week of school. I only had to be a drill sergeant this morning. Not bad -- but I have a feeling it will become the norm until June 2009.

Brodie (the black lab) is back on a host of meds. This round though has really given him the one-two punch. He's no where near his normal self. I hope this junk get knocked out of him this time around. I put a call to the vet to find out what I can do for him.

Okay - 8 hours has past since I wrote the above. Brodie got worse - back to the vet. Taking him off the meds in the short term to see if that's it - then we'll go from there. She (the vet) says that if they can't get his congestion under control - and thus far they've ran all the tests they can - then they'll check for cancer. SIGH. If I have to put them down I'll be a fricken mess.

And my son is sick.....

In the midst of everything today - Tracey and I were chatting and I asked her thoughts on George. I mentioned to her about the visions I keep getting of George and I "swinging". This is what she said:

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:52:39 PM): I see that george does know what you know - he knew before you knew - and its like he's been waiting for you to catch up if you will. I see him smiling brightly like - welcome aboard, Allie. Glad you finally made it. He's got a psychic that he works with who is also a spiritual teacher and she has worked with him a great deal. He seems to remember visions and dreams vividly. He does watch your blog. He would be happy to swing - that's something that you can count on. He's smiling - I keep seeing this big bright smile on his face. He knows you know now and he's happy.

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:53:38 PM): I see that he's got a clear picture of the swinging activity that you see - perhaps more detailed - sometimes he seems to hold these thoughts in his mind - like he holds the visions and enjoys them like a fantasy except it feels real to him.

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:54:08 PM): He seems to be having instances where he visits you. He's been laying next to you in your bed. Have you felt his energy?

Allie (8/29/2008 2:54:18 PM): very much so

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:54:19 PM): I see like a thermal image next to you in bed.

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:54:36 PM): He's very hot - he's got healing qualities - but sexually - omg!!!!!!!!!!!!

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:54:57 PM): He's got a lot of sexual energy and stamina. He can do hours of sex!

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:26 PM): He's got this weird charisma

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:30 PM): He's sort of a playboy

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:35 PM): and yet intimate at the same time

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:39 PM): he can be your friend

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:41 PM): and your lover

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:47 PM): not like FWB

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:50 PM): but deeper

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:55:55 PM): he's charming

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:07 PM): I get that he's been wondering about you lately.

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:13 PM): He thinks you should move to LA.

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:17 PM): Not NY

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:24 PM): have you spoken about that on your blog or something

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:39 PM): he's not feeling it for you in NYC

Allie (8/29/2008 2:56:41 PM): I think that I'll be in LA 1st. Yes - talked about moving to NYC on the blog

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:47 PM): okay

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:51 PM): well, George says no

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:55 PM): its not for Allie

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:56:57 PM): not now

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:57:07 PM): he seems to trust his psychic friend

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:57:13 PM): she says you are going to be in LA

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:57:38 PM): he's thought of making a comment on your blog

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:57:44 PM): something to let you know its him

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:57:47 PM): without saying it

Allie (8/29/2008 2:57:48 PM): he can comment any time

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:57:58 PM): he was thinking of asking you about swinging

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:58:05 PM): if you are into it or something

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:58:23 PM): I sense the move to LA is going to be in late part of next year

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:58:38 PM): is your sister thinking of returning

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:58:42 PM): I get her around you

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:58:48 PM): not sure if she just goes with you to help

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:58:51 PM): or moves there too

Allie (8/29/2008 2:58:55 PM): no - not as far as I know. But she would be the one to help me move

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:01 PM): ah that's it then

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:08 PM): your son will like it there

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:12 PM): of course

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:16 PM): he is happy anywhere

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:28 PM): I get that George wants to take you to a suite

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:30 PM): in a hotel

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:33 PM): in LA

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:39 PM): he thinks you will like this place

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:54 PM): he has a lot of thoughts - his mind is always twirling

yecart68 (8/29/2008 2:59:58 PM): but not like Bill

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:00:02 PM): not really deep stuff

Allie (8/29/2008 3:00:10 PM): no - he's not like Bill or Will in that respect

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:00:15 PM): not at all

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:00:22 PM): he would say he's shallow

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:00:25 PM): but I don't think so

Allie (8/29/2008 3:00:39 PM): I don't think so either

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:00:56 PM): he's in his own world and he's pretty happy there

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:01:00 PM): he's kind of arrogant

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:01:05 PM): a little sarcastic

Allie (8/29/2008 3:01:09 PM): so will he be able to tie up the karma he has with me?

Allie (8/29/2008 3:01:22 PM): I would say yes - arrogant and sarcastic

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:01:44 PM): I get that he will - he knows he owes you - he knows about the karma

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:01:51 PM): He's got no problem with that

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:01:59 PM): Its like okay - no problem

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:00 PM): he's been waiting on you

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:02 PM): to come around

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:06 PM): and figure out he's there

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:12 PM): and in your group

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:25 PM): like he's enjoyed it

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:27 PM): waiting on you

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:31 PM): knowing he has a secret

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:44 PM): he's got this grin - smile thing going on

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:51 PM): he likes you

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:54 PM): he loves reading your blog

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:02:58 PM): you make him laugh

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:03:05 PM): he likes it when you are mad about something

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:03:27 PM): thinks he would love to F*** the mad out of you! (his thoughts - sorry)

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:03:40 PM): he's thinking that you are brilliant

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:03:44 PM): in your writing

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:03:46 PM): just your blog

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:03:49 PM): is brilliant

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:03 PM): he thinks you are so much more ahead of most ppl.

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:06 PM): like he and a friend of his

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:17 PM): apparently they talk a lot about psychic stuff if you will

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:26 PM): his friend sees the psychic too

Allie (8/29/2008 3:04:36 PM): and this friend knows about me?

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:38 PM): yes

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:44 PM): he's not read your blog

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:04:51 PM): but G has told him about so many things

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:03 PM): and he seems to resonate with it

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:07 PM): like he feels that its true

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:13 PM): that there is a connection

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:27 PM): and he is a little more serious than G

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:32 PM): like more of a thinker at times

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:35 PM): G talks he listens

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:55 PM): they are close

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:05:59 PM): good friends

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:06:04 PM): and they talk about everything

Allie (8/29/2008 3:06:09 PM): now I know that Will is watching what is going on - what does he think and will he do anything?

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:06:14 PM): so yes, you have been the topic more than once

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:06:24 PM): Will is upset with you

Allie (8/29/2008 3:06:27 PM): lol- I think that's good

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:06:28 PM): he's jealous

Allie (8/29/2008 3:06:30 PM): upset with me?

Allie (8/29/2008 3:06:36 PM): hell - what nerve is that?

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:06:51 PM): thinks he's been wronged in some way

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:04 PM): yes - what nerve is that

Allie (8/29/2008 3:07:06 PM): the man knows how to use a phone

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:06 PM): he's pouty

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:16 PM): and he's sulking

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:22 PM): and feeling like you are over him

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:32 PM): like you have just moved on

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:39 PM): left him behind

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:46 PM): he's kind of depressed

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:54 PM): he's down and out

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:07:59 PM): and feeling lonely and alone

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:09 PM): I see him sitting in this nice apt or suite

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:12 PM): and he's bored

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:14 PM): and alone

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:21 PM): he's not drinking

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:26 PM): but he's smoking cigars?

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:29 PM): stinks in there

Allie (8/29/2008 3:08:32 PM): all he has to do is call - one phone call - that's it

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:43 PM): for some reason he's not doing it

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:53 PM): its like he's feeling rejected but its all in his mind

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:08:59 PM): like all he has to do is call

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:06 PM): he's holding himself back

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:10 PM): and screwing things up

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:23 PM): he's fooling himself

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:32 PM): my sense is that on some level he's punishing himself

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:39 PM): like he's sabotaging his own happiness

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:48 PM): and is angry with you - feeling you rejected him

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:09:52 PM): but that's not true

Allie (8/29/2008 3:10:04 PM): no - it's not true - not at all

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:07 PM): he's been having a hard time

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:08 PM): he's not doing well with his work

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:12 PM): can't sleep

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:16 PM): he's got insomnia

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:20 PM): nothing works

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:29 PM): he's got everything

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:33 PM): and is depressed

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:39 PM): he thinks that to himself

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:10:44 PM): that he should not be depressed

Allie (8/29/2008 3:10:52 PM): because he doesn't have the one thing he needs - and that's me

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:11:00 PM): that sums it up!

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:11:08 PM): he's missing a vital part of his life

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:11:14 PM): so he feels incomplete

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:11:20 PM): and he needs to snap out of this

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:11:22 PM): as you know

Allie (8/29/2008 3:11:41 PM): if he wants to snap out - it has to be before I meet George or forget it

yecart68 (8/29/2008 3:11:50 PM): no kidding

George and hours of sex -- that's a pleasant mental picture:) Will - I don't know whether to throttle him or rip off all his clothes and have my way with him. Maybe a bit of both.

And on that note - I'm exhausted. Off to bed and hopefully with an eventful dream time!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

George, Iris And Will!

What a busy day so far! It's keeping me on my toes - that's for sure! I was on the Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com this morning from 10:15 - 10:30 am ET if you want to catch when it repeats this evening. We chatted about the number 5, OBE sex, the newsletter and George. It was - as usual - a good time.

Iris is pushing me so hard to finish this draft of DREAMERS. She knows it's the last one - that it's the one who will get the show sold. I must admit, as much as I want to get on with my life, I'll miss Iris and her no-nonsense guiding. Iris is what they call the big guns. She shows up when a major life change is on hand - a life change that once it happens, there is no going back to the way life had been. For those in her charge she only shows up once -maybe twice in a lifetime. But when she does - it going to be a blow-your-socks-off change. She's moving on to one of my clients. This client already knows that Iris is on her way - she's showed up plenty of times already, just watching. The client called me yesterday, out of the blue, to chat. She's worried about Iris. I assured her there's nothing to worry about. She asked how will she know if she's hearing Iris? Before I could answer, she launched into "her" idea about going to vet clinics (she is to be an animal healer) and giving away free energy healing for practice - she went on to say a few more ideas. When she paused -- I jumped in. So, you want to know how you will hear Iris? What were you just telling me? SILENCE. Then Oh @hit. Yep -- Iris had been chatting with her all along:) She how she works?

LOL.

So I'm waiting on Andrew to then show up and take over my love life. Andrew, from all accounts, was such a loving and giving soul when he was alive. My Great Grandmother (his mom) was a moonshine runner (family had their own speakeasy, gambling and moonshine operation). When she was caught by the police, Andrew took the rap for her and went to jail. That's what kind of guy he was -- my grams loved him so dang much. When he died of pneumonia he was 29 (he was 10 years older than grams) they had been married for 2 years. Anyways - not only was he kind, but he was forthright and could also stand up and be heard. Something - as you know - I need. No passive guides for me - I need people in the trenches:) My mother still has Andrew and grams wedding rings. I think I'll hunt them out when I'm at her house this weekend.

My son - so far - likes school and is staying out of trouble. Every morning we are going over the rules of what he should not do in school - coupled with him raising his energy walls. Once a week I'm doing the laying on the stones - and he has a few amethysts in his room. I'll get his energy straightened out eventually.

Now that I've had a reading about George - guess who is slowly pushing his way back more into my energy field - yep - Will. It's kind of like - I know I'm not going to do anything but I don't want you to forget about me because of George - type of energy. Lord - how can one forget about their other half? But with Will's energy comes a mentoring energy as well. It's hard to describe - it's a love energy, but one where he is a teacher and not a lover. Like this all started out years ago when he first contacted me - he was to be a mentor or teacher of sorts and it appears that his energy has stepped back into that role. I wonder how I can be in the same room and not want to kiss the hell out of him? Well, I may want - but as long as he is in the teacher/mentor role, it's a line I will not cross. It's strange with Will - there is no karma to tie up, no lessons to learn - but we have a mutual mission that has to be accomplished together. It is rather refreshing not to have past karma with someone.

George and I have past karma - he making things up with me. If he wants to make things right in this life, I do believe that I will let him do just that. It's a strong urge from him to make things right - I would say it's a primal urge. It's something that his soul is hungry to do - something he must do. And when approached in this lifetime, I will let him do it. When I came to solid grips with that decision, more visions started flying in - and I'm not ignoring them any longer. I've had visions of George and our friendship/relationship for years now - and I have just pushed them to the side. They have been around since I discovered Bill and this whole world opened up to me. I'd love to see George and Bill have a talk - it would be very interesting. Both are deeply committed souls - wanting to make the world a better place for mankind, animals and the environment. Both are Democrats and outspoken.

The visions I get with George in them revolve around children. My son, George's friends children and more. There's always laughter and good feelings. He's always doing things for me - I can see me telling him just to stop it. But that's what he wants to do -- keep giving and giving. The whole thing just seems so surreal to me right now.

I can hear someone now saying - what if Will wakes up and comes to his senses about more than a mentor relationship? If he does so before I get involved with someone, then I'm open to it. If it happens after, then he's too late. At least in this life.

Time to get back to work:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Karma, George And Will!

Oh for the love of Goddess and all that's sane -- what a day thus far. I thought things would run more smooth since my son is back at school. That podcast of mine took 7 - yes 7 tries to get it to go. My brain was actually getting fried from having to repeat the same thing so many times. It's all because of that George. Yes - George. You know who you are George...in fact, I'll also bet that Will knows which George I'm talking about too although I'm almost certain they haven't met -- yet.

Okay - so over the weekend I was thinking back on my life - especially back to my childhood (I took out my old diary's) and I discovered that most of my Ken dolls I named "George", my pet I wanted to name "George" I even wrote that my husband's name was "George". This got me thinking about George. His energy is what Will's was - very persistent and patient. But with one difference from my side - I am keeping him at a distance on purpose. But I don't know why I'm doing that. George by all outward appearances is kind, generous, creative, handsome and exactly how Samantha described my future mate to be (although I did think at 1st this was Mr. Client guy - I was hoping actually that it was Mr. Client Guy and not George who 1st popped into my head): He's tall, with black hair, tanned, and he's a little older, but not much. He has a nice body, he's skinny but he does have some muscle to him and he's clean shaven. I'm feeling you may all ready know this man? But it's like he is going to come around even more when you move.

Now right now I don't "know" George - so again when his named popped into my head, I dismissed it.

But this made me shift through my old chat logs with Tracey and came upon an old reading that she kept saying the name George in. One of the people I was asking about kept saying George and I had no idea what she was talking about. This was back in May I think. So -- this all led me to ask Maria Shaw about George and I got her answer right before I did the podcast - blew my mind away and explained a lot:

This guy shows up in the marriage part of your chart......I think the past life has to do with the fact that you were married three times in other lifetimes. He feels a strong need to be with you....like he is supposed to be with you but I am not so sure you want to remarry him again! One relationship lifetime he was abusive. The other one he was a drinker and the other one he was a good man. He was never the woman. He had to learn about his male energy (side) so always reincarnated as a male. It is he who cannot let you go. He has a strong need to possesses you. You feel a connection but also something is not right. He will revert back to old patterns from those lifetimes with control and your soul knows it doesn't want to go there but he wishes to fix the karma. He really does but do you wish to sacrifice another lifetime to allow him to do it? It is up to you! He has a Pisces rising sign (addictions) that falls in the 5th house of your chart which rules love affairs.....and taking risks in love. It also speaks on where your personal wounding is (for Allie). He wounded you in former lifetimes. His moon opposes your Jupiter EXACT. He may not support your traveling or even your spiritual growth in time to come. He may go along with it now but long term could limit your spiritual growth and advancement.

In his chart you show up as someone who could be financially supportive of him as well as someone to teach him his self worth. You also show up in the house of marriage! Go figure. Those past life aspects are pretty strong in both your charts and in the same places too. And yes, your moon shows up in the 12th house of his chart...which is one if not the biggest indicator of past life ties. I took a class in this years ago and this is amazing. Many marriage connections. I am fearful of the things I mentioned above; addiction, temper, possessiveness, control issues once he is married to you.....his past life personality may shine through eventually. But it is UP TO YOU. You have your reservations about this. You should but since you say he is patient then you have time. Take your time. The findings could be exciting, revealing and release you of karma for good with this man. OR you could choose to marry him and work them through. It is your choice.

So -- after I collected my thoughts and stopped yelling "SOB" & "you've got to be kidding me" at the computer - it all made sense. Why his energy is always there pursuing me and why I am very standoff-ish about him. It took me a few rereads but something else hit me. When I was married to George 1st he was abusive - my 1st ex husband in this life was abusive, the 2nd time I married George he was an alcoholic - ex husband #2 was yes, an alcoholic. The 3rd time George was a good guy and everyone has told me that my last partner will be a good one and it will be a past life connection. Could my soul actually have sought out the 1st 2 husbands in order to get that part of my experience with George out of the way? So that when he does come along I let him in? Could it also be that I am alone now to work on me and build me and my spirituality up so he will not have a chance to try to control?

I don't know....but it actually all makes sense to me without me trying to have it all fit. It's not something that I had to work on. Now if I am with George, then I'm not with Will. And if I'm not with Will then I'm not with Bill later on -- and then we do not complete whatever it is we are to complete this time around. We'll have to try it again.

Being with George is something that is up to me while being with Will is something that is up to Will.

Will I be as scared of George as Will is of me? No. Because I understand.

So George - what in the hell are you waiting on? Seriously. Will hasn't made a move and who knows if he will. Let's see if you have more guts than I give you credit for:)

Now on an unrelated kind of note - I had this wacked out dream the other night. I was walking along side a castle with someone - I can't remember who - but I was telling him that he was in my soul circle. I was trying to tell him without sounding like a nut job. But as I was telling him the castle was getting ready for battle and there was a spy in our castle. We (as I guess I was the queen) built a secret chamber under the castle so that my son could hide out there during the war. He had enough food, water and air to last him several years. I was to go to battle with everyone else. But I was told no - that I had to go below with my son and ensure his survival. It was too important to have him survive - since I was a warrior as well, I could battle anyone that found us.

Then I woke up.

And on that note - I gotta run. I still have a crap load of emails in my inbox. many of you have a ordered readings, classes and coaching - I'll get back to everyone as soon as I can.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Raindrops, George and New Orleans!

"Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head" - I swear to anyone who will listen I can't get this song out of my mind. Each time it pops up, I can hear/see George singing it. I have no fricken clue. But I hope that this song will have provided it's purpose soon so that I can move forward to another song:) Maybe the man likes the song -or the rain? Maybe both? If there is a message in there - I don't get it. Unless seeing George is the message. The man could show up in New Orleans - he does have friends there.

I would probably have a heart attack if I rounded the comer and ran into him - no correction, not him - but Will. Who -BTW - over the years I've had dream visits with him in it where we were in NO. The man does like the city. Last night's dream visit had me checking into Hotel M (where I'm actually staying) and seeing him in the lobby. I don't know whose heart skipped more - it was rather humorous to se the look on his face and I know I must of mirrored him. Any way - he immediately gathered himself and said hi, asked how my son was and why as I in town. I explained why. The next day he showed up to get a reading -- lol. That woke me up. I laid there for a bit thinking to myself - so what would come up in a reading for him? Besides that I'd be the best sex he'd ever have :)

I've had a feeling that this weekend will be pivotal to me in some manner. I'm not sure how - just that feeling I get. I did throw down a few tarot cards and got The Sun, One of Pentacles, 2 of Pentacles, Queen of Cups. So I know whatever it is will be good - I just don't know what exactly. The cards portray a mix between money/career and romance/love - so many I'll get a little bit of both. I really can't wait to head out of dodge though - can't happen soon enough.

Although I am still working on DREAMERS - I'm now working on a sci-fi/action pitch for a feature. So I'm not entirely sure when I'll be able to write again in this blog this week. I am however taking the crackberry so if there's any interesting updates....

No more visits from Bill since last week. But I'm in the "I can't sleep mode" and Tracey has her headaches, so something is going to happen.

With the fireman - no worries, slow is the only speed I'm on.

Ths is a short entry - but I haven't had much time for anything to go on today:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Bill. Dreams And Will!

I find myself in a dilemma. Remember the fireman? Well he's still around (out lasted Mr. Client Guy - who, BTW I talked to this morning) and we've chatted sporadically over the last several months. I've kept up every wall I have - trying not to actually like the guy - or should I say want to know more so that I could have a chance to like him. But I find the more I chat with him, the lower the walls are getting. And even though his political views are not on the same field as mine - just about everything else is - well, except for our ages - I am older by 8 years. Doesn't seem to bother him. I'm not sure I'm ready to let down the walls. But if I don't, I could be missing out on a great guy - a guy with no baggage - no ex wives, no children, no psycho exes (as far as I know). But -- what if I do and then things go through with me script wise and I move? I'm doing exactly what I tell my clients not to do "What if" myself to death. Damn I hate when I don't listen to my own good advice. So I have here a seemingly good guy who has a sense of humor, can cook, like animals & kids, likes the X-Files and Star Wars - plus realizes that George Lucas couldn't write his way out of a paper bag without a co-writer. Oh, and he's fully aware on what I do for a living.

I know I'm over thinking everything. Hummm...sounds familiar doesn't it? No wonder I don't have a love life - lol. But he lives about 30 min away - so we'll see if we actually get to that 1st date that we're trying to arrange.

I'm behind in all my email. This last week was very hectic and busy - busy. Next week I'm off to New Orleans on Friday - remember I'll be at Maria's Psychic Fair! Wednesday I'll be in Cleveland most of the day with my son at a pediatric psychiatrist. His empathy gifts aside - he has some issues that need to be taken care of that he needs someone who specializes in children - and of course there is no one in Wooster that's affiliated with the Cleveland Clinic that does that. No results of the brain EEG yet. So basically I have to fit in a weeks worth of work in two days. HA - that's funny.

I'm rewriting DREAMERS for the last time. I want to get this done - so the blog posting will again be down - unless something major happens. No word from Nickelodeon.

When was the last time you checked out my Gypsy News section for Gypsy (Roma) news, environmental - animal - gov't alerts? I have something there that's important about Horse Slaughter that you should take action on.

I emailed Tracey yesterday to watch out -- Bill visited me in my dreams and then was around all morning. She said she woke up with a full-blown headache. The guy was full of piss and vinegar and appeared to have wanted to null & void the agreement he and Will made. This is what happened:

In the dream visit, Bill was so excited that he finally "got" everything. We're in what looked like a personal library. Plenty of books, round table w/ 2 chairs and a desk. He and I have been here before. He finally understood - his logical mind clicked in place with his intuitive side. He was like a kid in a candy store - so excited to the world that finally made sense to him. We were comparing notes on what we have experienced thus far. He wanted so much to be able to remember everything that I can remember. I told him to give himself 10 min increments. Set an alarm clock and once it goes off, write down everything he remembers. As time goes on - increase the amount of time before the alarm goes off. Before he knows it, he won't need the alarm at all.

He liked that idea. People were coming in and out of the room, they were around outside - milling about. Bill kept rubbing my shoulder & my upper back as we talked. Like he had to keep touching me. I commented that if he keeps doing that - then people will think we have something going and/or they will know that we know one another and that he's "Bill". He ignored what I said and kept going over the notes. He kept leaning in closer and closer to me until....(see OBE Sex blog).

...When I woke up I could still feel his energy around me. He kept pulling me in telepathically - they were snippets of telepathic connections. He went on about Will has not done anything despite the agreement. He's not waiting any more. Will out of the equation. I'm trying to calm this flurry of "whatever" down - saying give Will a chance - you've known about the connection for over 4 years, he just got it under 2 years ago and still hasn't come to grips with it. That he finally "got" what I see, it'll take Will awhile to catch up. He's going on there is no more time - times up - Ted needs us now. He's falling into the abyss. Ted's at a point where he's heading for death row -- and Bill just kept going on. I told him - if Ted needs us that bad - pick up the &^%$# phone and call me. You and I can help Ted without Will. I asked, what about bring in George - he's already up to speed and I don't think he needs a push. Bill went on - he's not part of our core -- I'm like are sure? He's like - don't question what I say. I'm like - wait there babe - I'll question whatever the hell I want to. You don't want George here because he'll slam your ass up against the wall, he won't take your over-thinking self and put up with it. He'll stand up to you and you're afraid -- your afraid he'll win. This isn't a contest of wining -put your ego aside for just a second. For a man who loves to help people, you sure are brutal on the souls closest to you.

I'm done for now - you let me know when we should go see Ted.

And I broke the connection. Bill's right here though - has been all day. I know he wants to continue the convo - I'm sure we will tonight.

SIGH

Merlin was right when he said he'd be with me every night in the dreamscape. The dream time has been so chalked full of flying, putting things together - creating spells/potions and studying. I can't remember all of the details - Merlin tells me that my subconscious will slowly leak knowledge to my waking mind on an as needed basis. No reason - he said - to fry my circuits. That was nice of him:)

Off to grab a bowl of ice cream and then get back to DREAMERS:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

George, Will And Tid Bits!

I make some kickin` salsa. I really do. The salsa I made for the family gathering turned out great - but not as good as normal. Why? Because I used store bought tomatoes and not my own since I don't have any -- yet.

My son was jamming to ABBA this weekend -- I had to laugh -- since I was about his age when I started listening to him. He wants to go see Mamma Mia. Not sure if I'll take him or wait for the DVD -- not much of a musical type of gal. Also I'm not sure when I'll see the Dark Knight. Heath has been nice enough to say he'll watch it with me - which I appreciate - but do I really want to feel his energy while he's on the screen? I know me - I'll cry.

I'm a geek. Yes - this is something we all know -- but I out did myself this morning. After I did the podcast I messed around with the software that I record with and discovered that this place also records video podcasts. Well I have a web cam on my computer - never used. So I recorded a video of me being - well me. I laughed my ass off watching it. But no - you won't see it - I deleted it. I had toyed with the idea of doing a video podcast. Doubtful, but you never know:) I had gotten a laptop with a cam just in case I ended up dating someone who I wouldn't see all of the time because of work travel. I thought it would be a good way to communicate. But of course 1st I have to date in order to use the cam:) Which means I have to find someone.

Speaking of finding someone - last week my son and I were in the grocery store and I saw someone that I had coffee with last year (we hit it off immediately - but he was still hung up on his soon-to-be ex so it never went anywhere) and as soon as he saw me he turned and almost ran over someone trying to get away so that I wouldn't see him. WTF? We kept going down the isles and he did everything in his power to let me know that he didn't want a thing to do with me. Wow. I thought to myself - what in the hell did I ever do to you? But I ignored him and my son had no idea that there was even anyone around that I knew. As much as I deal with people - they still baffle me.

Okay - now that I have electric again -- I can continue...

I was working on my podcast this morning -- and when I went to put in what the "Deal of the Week" was - Iris said "no". I'm like - why not? She said - you need to put in spells. I growled at her -- magic? Why? Can't we go to healing if you want me to add something? She said nope - it's magic. But I thought I was done writing/casting it? Nope -- she said, and then Merlin jumped in -- you were just on a mini vacation. You have work to do.

Oh for Pete sakes -- really writing and casting spells again? Iris said - it's Will, that's your common past life connection, besides the love, and if he is to recognize that on his side, then he has to get the feel for it from your side. What affects one of you effects the other. So if you are back into practicing magic - then he will sense it and do the same. Merlin said - expect to visit me in the dreamscape every night until further notice. Iris chimed in - you and Will have to be together, it's written in your soul contracts, so if he is not coming forth with what he already knows, maybe the pull of magic (not by doing a spell on Will, but by doing magic period) will pull him to you.

So those two leave and I fix the deal of the week to reflect what they said. Wa-la. Will arrived. Energy speaking - of course. He had a rather sheepish - yet adorable - look on his face. We exchanged some small talk -- and then as he was leaving I asked - talk to you soon? He smiled and said yes.

Now during my power outage and before my crackberry started to run out of juice - Tracey and I exchanged readings. I asked about many things - one in particular was George -- I'm trying to figure out how he fits in with everything....here is that IM exchange:

Tracey Loper: George seems to be the one that has some key element of bringing you all together -----------and I sense this has to do with his energy and power of charisma - its like he seems to have a way of standing up to Bill even - I see Bill bowing up to George and George just saying give it your best shot - I am going to still be standing when you get done - so get it out

Tracey Loper: He can talk to Bill

Tracey Loper: He's got this way of relating to anyone

Tracey Loper: talking anyone into anything

Tracey Loper: he's sharp

Tracey Loper: and quick minded and thinks on his feet and he seems to be able to do anything he puts his mind to

Tracey Loper: G already knew about you

Tracey Loper: before you knew about him

Tracey Loper: he's known of you

Tracey Loper: and has waited on you

Tracey Loper: wondering when you would get tired of all the blondes

Tracey Loper: lol

Allie: Does he realize that when I write about george that it is him

Tracey Loper: he does

Tracey Loper: he knows

Tracey Loper: its like its about time

Allie: So do we have a soul connection?

Tracey Loper: yes allie

Tracey Loper: you live on the wrong side of the country I think

Tracey Loper: all your people gather in cali

Tracey Loper: lol

Tracey Loper: some on both coasts

Allie: Closer than the other 3?

Tracey Loper: I am not sure about closer -- no -- but you seem to get support from him

Tracey Loper: as a pattern

Tracey Loper: he's a leading man

Tracey Loper: but not the lead man

Tracey Loper: whatever that means

Tracey Loper: in some ways

Tracey Loper: you support the other three

Tracey Loper: more than they support you

Tracey Loper: but G is support for you

Tracey Loper: that's what I get

Allie: So he's on the same level as the other 3...or maybe 2 if will is my other half

Tracey Loper: yes

Allie: And he supports me

Tracey Loper: He seems to be consciously aware of you

Tracey Loper: like he has been

Tracey Loper: for some time

Tracey Loper: and yes

Tracey Loper: I get jealousy around G for Will

And before any of you ask -- yes, me and Will still together, etc....once I get my arse out of Ohio:)

So George seems to have some sort of close connection like the other 3. Who knows...but it is nice to know that when he reads this blog that he knows that when I say George it's him and when Will reads this -- he knows it's him. I wonder if Will and George have it figured out who Will and George are? Humm....

Now George showed up - energy wise - after that reading - as I was just sitting outside trying to stay cool with no electric. He showed up and I asked him - any chance we'll ever be romantic? He said no. I said damn. His reply - it's not up to me. It's not - I asked? Would you ever do anything to hurt Will? An easy answer - no. He said - there you go, you with anyone, including me would hurt Will and you'd never be able to do that and just be his friend. Of course If you ever change your mind, I'd like to be the 1st to know. Yeah -- I thought -- I'd never hurt Will intentionally. So George is right. But I still said damn to him again -- and he laughed. He said - as long as you and I are alive, there's always a chance. Then he faded from view...

No news from Nickelodeon yet.

Heard from the vet today - Brodie's heart is fine (thank goodness). I just have to keep an eye on his breathing.

No news about my son's brain EEG.

Haven't had time to think about new readings.

Now sure what I'm doing about Cheat Peeps - so stay tuned.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Psychic Stuff, Readings And WTF?

Dang it's hot. I don't realize how hot my office is until I go downstairs - wow - what a difference. And where are 3 of my 4 cats -up here with me. They did throw me a look kike - are you ready to put in AC now? Nope - I'm not. So here we are -- a bit hot & muggy, but otherwise okay.

My son is so nervous to go to the Cleveland Clinic tomorrow for his EEG (I think I had called it a EKG) of his brain. I had to assure him that all they were going to do was to place electrodes on his scalp - and they'll ask to breathe certain ways - flash a light in his eyes -- all to see if his brain has mini seizures. I'm sure he'll be fine and the test will turn out perfect. But we're going cause the doc suggested it. The kid has a thing about anything feeling "pricklely" or sticky on his body. He was almost having a fit when he was thinking about when they remove the electrodes! Sticky stuff in his hair -- and there may be pain! The kid was funny. I calmed him down enough. The clinic wants him tired for the test - so I told him he could stay up as late as he wanted tonight -- that make him feel good.

Tomorrow is pitch day for Nickelodeon - fingers crossed!

I was tweaking a few things on Liveperson & Keen last night -- and I know I shouldn't have done this -- but I started looking around at the prices of other readers again. It made my blood boil. I found one on Liveperson for $20.00/minute - what the hell? AND people are actually paying it! WTF? Come on guys -- does anyone but me think that this is in excess? I could see a sex hot line charging that much (like Nite Flirt) because you're just there to get off, you're not vulnerable and seeking advice. It just rubs me the wrong way. I pray to the Goddess above that my ego never gets that big that I charge someone $1200/hr for my psychic services.

BTW -- I've had several people contact me about Cheat Peeps. I'm good -- and I'll be contacting the people I've already talked to to chat again about what I need.

New readings - I'm still thinking about adding a few more from what's been suggested to me - because they're all good. But I haven't had time to really give it thought -- so later on that one.

I really enjoy giving sexual energy readings. The ones I gave the hosts for the Unexplained World and for The Maria Shaw Show (Psychiconair.com) were very short. There's only so much time in the slots I was on air - so I had to scale back a bit on what I wanted to say -- but I just love doing this. Any ideas for sexual readings would be appreciated - and if it's picked - you get one of those readings for free. So put on your sexual thinking caps!

Will, Bill and Ted have all taken a giant step back - I have no idea why. George has taken a step forward. I'm sure there's something for me to learn here - I just do not know what it is. And if Tracey's work with the guys is over (which it is) what in the hell happened? I still haven't gotten that call from Will (Iris is here saying - be patient, you will). It's not that I'm not patient and it's not like I want to jump into something with the man any time soon - but I would like to talk to him. George seems just as baffled as I am to why he is right here now. But he's smooth about it - I guess I could say - reminds me of Frank Sinatra smooth. I know that for the last few days as my headaches have come back and my sleep patterns are screwed up - that it has to do partly with him and maybe the guys somehow. I do know that a big life change is on it's way. When I throw the tarot cards down to see what -- I keep getting the Tower card. Now the Tower I don't consider to be a bad card - I just see it as being blindsided and your world is drastically shifted into another direction.

But WHAT direction?

Iris and I had a chat the other day about marriage. I asked her if I really had to get married again in this lifetime in order to fulfill a Destiny Marker or my Soul Path? She said no - but that I would be in a committed relationship. I can do that - committed. But I honestly never want to do the marriage thing again. I don't see the purpose in it. It's not that I'm against marriage - I just do not see it's logical purpose in this day and age - especially with the divorce rates as high it is. It's not the 1950's any more - women work outside the home, you don't have to be married to have children. Plus since we all have several Life Partners to help us on our Life Path with our life's lessons - the odds of getting divorced are astronomically high. Luckily for me - the man I am supposed to be with views marriage the same way I do:)

BTW - Mr. Client Guy - dropped off the face of the earth. I haven't chatted with him in over 2 weeks. Oh well. I'm okay with that.

Thank you for those who have been my psychic pimp:) Please keep it coming - I have a feeling when I take Brodie to the vet again on Friday - it's going to be a hefty bill.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Guys, Tracey And George!

I'm trying not to cry - but I'm a big chicken worrier. My Black Lab - Brodie - has a lot of fluid in his lungs. He is going to the vet today at 2:15 EDT. Labs are famous for congestive heart failure and lung tumors. I am praying for bronchitis. Indy is also going to the vet today - 1:00 - for his annual thyroid test. He hasn't been eating very much - and for a dog who lives for food - that worries me. So fingers crossed that my snoops are okay because if they're not - then mamma here is not okay.

The kid goes in tomorrow for his neurology consult. I don't think that anything is going wrong in his head - and I feel it is the energy he absorbs is the problem - but you never know.

Now would be a good time to have someone where to lean on. I'm not good at leaning - in fact - I suck at it. Blame it on me being the oldest child or that I help people for a living - I just bite at it. One of my lessons, I'm sure.

My son asked me if I was gay over the weekend. I told him no - not as far as I know - but why did he want to know? He said because I am not dating anyone and he thought it was maybe because I loved a girl. I told him no - that's not why. Mom doesn't have the time to date and even if I did - the pool in Wooster Ohio is but a puddle for me to find a date in. He replied that he's tired of just one adult here - he wants another person with us. My reply - when I have time - and have some men to choose from (that are actually interested) I will consider dating.

So then he said - what about Will? I said - what about Will? Why hasn't he called - he said? I don't know - I replied - maybe he's scared of us? We're not monsters - the kid chimed in - we can love him. I know honey - I replied - this is something that time will have to take care of. He was not happy with that. The thing with the kid is he's just as psychic as I am - and seeing the future or knowing what is supposed to happen, doesn't help. It's very frustrating to me - so I can only assume how frustrating it is to him.

On that note - both Tracey and I had major headaches last Thursday -- this could only mean one thing, a visit from the guys. They did -- and she emailed me this the next morning:

First, I remember Will coming to me and saying that he would not like to attend the meeting because he was feeling so great from his healing that he did not want Bill to ruin it with any anger towards him. He said that he is having a hard time being in Bill's 'field of energy' because he's so angry. He said - further - Ted is just as intolerable as he is in need of 'cleaning up his act'. He told me that he had been saying prayers for Ted that he would get to rehab because he is concerned that if he does not he will have seriously ill health.

Then I remember Bill coming to me. He was all in white. He had this oversized white blouse on with puff sleeves and white pants similar to the type that men in India wear but different. He had on a necklace and it was made of ivory and there was a shark's tooth on the necklace. There was light all around him. He told me that he had been cleansed and purified in 'the lodge'. He further told me Allie did the ceremony. So, he said, tell Will I am no longer angry with him - I only have brotherly love for him.

Then I remember Ted coming in - oddly he had on Harley Davidson type clothes - all black, leather - not his typical garb. I remember in the dream feeling I had to ask him - so I did! I said, Ted what is with the clothes? He said - well since I am the villain in this situation I decided to fit the part. I am evil - don't you know? Drinking and drugs - sex and rock and roll - all that stuff! Piss on Will! He thinks he is better than me! He said that he was living his life the way he wanted to and that no one including, Will would tell him how he should live his life! He said that Will was a judgmental prick. He lite a cigarette and pulled a flask out of this bag he was carrying. I remember looking in the bag and it was full of all kinds of alcohol and drugs, etc. I told Ted that he did not have to 'play' this role and that he could fill his bag with treasures instead. I filled it with healing stones and crystals. Then he illuminated and his clothes turned to an aqua greenish blue color and he looked much different. He said that he no longer needed those old things and that he was unhappy. He told me he needed healing too and asked if I would work on him and I said yes.

Then I remember the three of them coming together. Rather than talking about you at this point - they were talking about themselves. Will apologized to Bill and to Ted for seeming difficult and judging - and for not moving forward. He talked to them about needing to deal with issues and emotions and he told them he felt that he was a different person. He was thinking so much more clearly now. He could see the good in both of them and within himself. He thanked them for not giving up on him and for being his soul brother and friend.

Bill apologized and he shared that his love for everyone was what made him so passionate about bringing everyone today. He told Ted that coming together is important and that Ted would experience a transformation once the group was together. He told Will that he had an impt. part in all of this. He told him that his actions would change many lives. He told him that he was proud of him - that he loved him and that he did not want to bicker with him anymore. He looked to Ted and he said we are brothers and we are friends. We are on the same team. We are one.

Bill and Will embraced Ted. Ted was holding their necks tightly. Then this Gold Light surrounded all of them. There were these two triangle grids that formed into one shape. I hope this makes sense. The three of them were in the center of this grid. There was this sphere of light that appeared between them - in the center. It was golden white. It brightened. Then it ignited into a bluish flame. Then it turned into a gold flame. The energy was expanding all around them and it was spinning, pulsating, and I remember that I could feel the heat and the intensity of the fire. Just above them I saw an image of your face - like you were there but far away - it was so faint but it was there. Behind you I saw a blue Angel. She was faint or faded looking as well. The two of you sort of blended together into the background outside of the pyramid(s) grid.That is all I remember......but it seemed as though there was more or that these were really long or took a long time............I woke up feeling like I had not slept.

Before she sent me that email - I had asked her to ask Bill about George. Now George is someone who has been around for awhile - and keeps trying to make himself better known to me - but I keep pushing his energy away. There's a definite soulful connection as when I even think about George, my heart chakra expands. He's 6 years older than me, from the Midwest (is KY the Midwest?). dark hair and dark eyes - and his b-day is only a few days different than mine. I don't know about this one - what role he's played and will play. I've mediated on him - asked Iris for input - and all I'm told is that if I know ahead of time it will freak me out and I'll change the course. So hell - I don't know. I can see where knowing more would freak me out - but I want to know more. I feel about George how I felt about Bill when I first discovered our connection - the "You've got to be kidding me" phase. But I don't know our connection yet. So maybe I'll hit the "Holy Shit" phase when that happens....

And yes, George is his real name.

So Tracey said she would concentrate on George and Bill as she fell asleep. This is what she wrote the next morning:

I had another dream this morning but I have no idea what happened. I saw a flash of what seemed like another planet. There were aliens. They were communicating telepathically but I could 'hear' their thoughts........ and I saw this purple, amethyst - violet - hues of purple looking dome thing and I was in a space ship and so were you and Bill - although I did not see either of you -- I just 'knew' you were there. I woke up saying - B??????????? A??????? That is all I remember. But I had set that intention of G and B when I fell asleep - so maybe this is part of the answer?

So the plot thickens - even though I don't want it to thicken, I want something to happen so that we can move forward. SIGH.

And on that note - time to start to get ready to take Indy to the vet.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)