Guides, Three Goddesses And TMI!

TMI = Too Much Information for those of you who aren't up on the lingo. So much going on in the last 12 hours - I hope I can remember everything. Plus - every time I go to write - something else comes up.

As I was eating my bowl of ice cream (yeah, I know - good lunch), it dawned on me my dream visits last night. I forgot everything as soon as I opened my eyes - not even a fragment. But then as I was watching Las Vegas (TV series), a character reminded me of Montel Williams. Then it went from him to Sylvia Browne -- this is when a dream visit started to come back. I am in a large room with lots of tables - I know that I'm there to do readings. In walks Sylvia Browne - she had on a yellow dress - I called it a moo moo dress, which sounds really condescending - but I think that's what it's called. Anyways she says - you're Allie. I nod. She said - I need to talk to you. My 1st thought was - oh God, is something going to happen and she has to tell me about it? But no -- she sits down, I sit across from her and she puts out her hands. I hold her hands -- and just look at her. No one says anything -- then she says - well? I take it you're not here to tell me anything? She said - hell no. Come on, your psychic - why am I here? I take my hands away from hers and tell her that I don't have to hold her hands to get a vision. Then I tell her that I'm not going to tell her when she's going to die. Go look at her own records if she wants to know. She gives me that "look" - then says, quit being a smart ass. If they would show me then I wouldn't be here - would I? Now tell me because I'm not coming back again and I want to have time to tie up lose ends before I go. I tell her the date June 2011 pops into my head, but something will happen around June 2010 as well. She tells me - the June 2010 is you dear, and that is when you enter my physical life.

The next thing I know Montel Williams comes strolling in and I'm excited because I've always liked MW. Sylvia introduces us and tells Montel that this is the woman (meaning me) that will replace me. I looked at her and said - WHAT? She goes - you're not deaf are you? What about your son? I askd. He'll have his hands full running my church and the foundation. What about your daughter-in-law? She can write. A moment of uneasy silence. Okay -- and I start to walk away -- this is too much information for me right now. I see two teenage girls come in -- as I walked towards them I turn to Sylvia and said - the next time I see you, how about a little insight my way? She replied -- you and Will will be fine. I looked at her for a spilt second and smiled. I went to the girls who have sat down at an empty table for a reading. I ask them what I can help them with -- and the one teen girl with long dark hair reaches into her pocket and pulled out a handful of gold coins. I stared at them -- not really getting why she is paying me in gold. She puts her hands back in her pocket and keep bring out gold coins.

Then I woke up.

I may call these three - Jezell, Brigit, Galadriel - the trio of annoyances. Although they are not in my face as Edward and Ethan - they are still always "there" - saying stuff and giving me flash visions so that I know what's coming up. I don't know if I want to know all that is on the horizon -- it's getting pretty overwhelming. I can't even go to the bathroom without someone saying something. Do you know how irritating it is for someone to be whispering in your ear while you're trying to poo? I told them if they want me constipated, they're on the right track. They found that funny -- I wasn't being funny.

As I finished writing the above - all three arrived and said that they had to take me someplace. For some reason it felt like they were going to take me to someplace vitally important -- and I was right. We were in the meadow. My meadow - where I've only been there once (maybe twice) in the last 18 months. I asked why am I here? Jezell said that I have to be here - Brigit chimes in that this is my portal. My soul clusters portal. I reminded them that the woman who actually owned this land - and myself - do not speak to one another nor do I want to. I want another place as my portal -- not here. Again I am told that I have to be here -- that Will and I have to visit here - the physical here. I told them no @ucking way am I coming here with Will or with anyone else. The woman who owned this would not let me on the land and I'm not about to sneak on. Why - oh why do Will and I have to be here? Because this is where you lived in your last life together - said Jezell. What? I thought it was outside of Salem? This is outside of Salem, Brigit replied. But isn't it TOO far outside of Salem? No - Galadriel said, people came far and wide for your services. There wasn't a place in the New England states that didn't know about the two of you. Why do you think that the plants and flowers grown here now for flower essences work so well? Why do you think there are guardians? Why do you think that the right caretaker is here to service the light?

My head's spinning and I sit down against a tree. I do not make nice to anyone who tries to hurt one of my guys - it just isn't who I am. Jezell sits down next to me -- and she is not about to make nice to anyone who would harm the light she has been entrusted to watch over. But you are both wrong and eventually - you two will realize that. Do you not like her friend? The other one who does flower essence - I asked? Yes - her. Yes, I like her very much - she warm, loving and full of light. This one is condescending, full of herself and a know it all. There's a difference. Jezell smiles - you will both see the light, there is no other path to take. Great -- I murmured to myself. But she will not let us be here.

She will - in time - and you will not have to deal with her one on one - Will will be here and she will let you two roam long the meadow and respect your distance and privacy. Trust us - there is no other path to travel for this lesson. At this point there is no part of me that is happy with this realization. I start to object yet again when the earth opens up and rising from it is -- well, for lack of a better way to describe her - Mother Nature. She's tall, yet robust. She's clothed in white, long dark hair & eyes -- with a crown made of grass, twigs and flowers. A Robin sits on her shoulder (no idea where it came from). Her voice is low & soft, but commanding. She said - all of this earth which is mine and mine alone do I share with the earth dwellers who are determined to see it destroyed. There are many who have been called into service to protect the earth and all of it's inhabitants. She, the one on this meadow, is one of those light workers. But she does not own the land - I own the land and it is up to I who steps on a parcel and who does not. If someone steps on a portion of land where I do not want them, I unleash the weather and the bugs to show my wrath. No wrath will befall you or Will as you make haste to this parcel of my soul. You are welcomed here as it is part of your being - part of your light. She will allow this - the light keeper of this land - when the time is right.

From Mother Nature's right the goddess Hathor shimmers into view, on her left the goddess Isis. Brigit goes and stands among them - Mother Nature tells me that it is with these three goddesses am I to ascend to the next level. I'm to work with 3 goddesses? At once? Hathor told me not to panic. Who's panicking? I replied.

Jezell grabbed my hand -- come with me. We walk through a tree and now we're behind a stage. I could hear a lot of people. She points and I can see Will and I. Jezell said that this is the play that I envisioned for Will and I. People far and wide come to see this play based on eternal love. I watch Will and I go out of stage - Jezell whisked me through a wall and we end up behind another stage. She pointed towards the curtain and I peek through -- it's me - and the place is HUGE and packed. I glanced over at her as if to say -- no way am I doing this. She smiled and said - oh yes you will. What am I talking about - I ask? This particular one is about OBE sex - the one last night was dreams and tomorrows talk is about soul mates. It's a three-day sold out event. You talk 3 days in a row for 4 hours each time. You will combine all of this into one 6 hour show that will always sell out -- and at a high price I might add. You do have another show about telepathic connections, psychic gifts and astral travel. But it's way too much to cram it all into one weekend.

I have a headache just thinking about it all......

Jezell grabbed my hand and through a wall we go. Now we're at a set. This is DREAMERS Jezell said - this is what starts it all. You'll never stop making TV and movies - never. You always find a way to do this intertwined with your books and workshops. Rest now - because it's all about to go crazy.

Now we're back at the meadow.

Brigit approached me -- we've given you a lot to think about - and there is so much more to know - rest now and we'll talk later. They all disappear from view.

I sit down against the tree and let the sun shine down on me. Then I hear -- hello Sunshine. I open my eyes and it's Bill. I smile - hi Bear. He sits down down to me - never thought we'd be here again - did you? Part of me knew - I just hoped.....

I know, Bill said, but you want Ted to be okay, don't you? I look over at him - that's a stupid thing to say, of course I want Ted to be alright. Have you had any visits from him lately? Bill asked.

No - I don't think any on purpose -- but I was drawn to him late last evening. I could see him sitting on top of a castle ruin (like in a run-down tower) just staring off into space. Then he kicked the stone wall a few times and screamed at the top of his lungs - why do I keep fucking everything up? Huh? Why can't I choose correctly? And he was sobbing. Then the vision faded and I haven't heard anything. You?

Bill nodded -- this morning -- I saw him at my feet begging me for help before he goes too far and this kills him. What kills him? I asked. Bill shrugs - I don't know. But I tried to call him and he hasn't answered. Bill looks off to his right. He glances over at me and kisses me on the forehead. He gets up and said - Will's a good guy. He won't let you fall. I know - I replied. Bill gave me a nod and disappeared.

I know there's more that has happened - but nothing else is coming to mind right now. I wonder what the next 12 hours will bring?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

FYI - Who Is Who...

I have had a heck of a jump in visitors to this blog. For the most part I do not use real names unless indicated. I know that there are a lot of names that I do use and for newbies to this blog - it can get mighty confusing.

So here is a cheat sheet:

MICHAEL, RAPHAEL, GABRIEL, HANIEL - Archangels

ETHAN, JEZELL, ROBERT and HANNA - Spirit Guides

BRIGIT - Goddess

GALADRIEL - Fairy

BILL and TED - Soul mates

WILL and MATT (real names) - Soul Cluster

LARRY, CLIVE, PETER, DC (new one) and just about anyone else male I've mentioned - Members of Soul Circle

CINDY - Tracey (her real name that I now use) my intutive friend

If I've forgotten anyone - post a note and I'll explain.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Information Overload, A Magic Room And Alison Ashby!

I'm running way behind today. I had an important meeting that lasted a few hours and before that I needed to make sure I was set for it before I did my session. I sat with my healing wand and was taken to a very bright light. In that light I saw Bill and Will. I asked where have they been? They both answer - working! I asked why are they here. They don't know - they were summoned to be here for support. Where's Ted - I ask. No one seems to know as he was summoned too.

A blinding light comes before us. It is swirling horizontally. From it stepped Merlin, Brigit, Ethan and Jesus. I was immediately put on guard. I asked what did I do? Ethan comes forth and said that I had done nothing wrong. That it was time for me to see something for me to believe in me. I asked about the people coming into and out of my life recently. What is the purpose of it? Ethan replied that everyone comes and goes when they are supposed to and that I should not try to intellectualize their purpose. I need to roll with the changes and accept them for they are all in my higher good. The people that I am meeting are helping me take that next step - as I am helping them take theirs. It is all that I need to know.

Ethan, Merlin, Jesus, Brigit step through the light and ask me to come with them. I turn to Bill and Will and they just wave -- see ya! Gee thanks guys.....

So I enter and I exit in a magical room that I have been in before - the one that is in a castle. It has books everywhere - a big wooden table. Candles, jars of herbs, vials of oils and flower essences -- crystal and stones are everywhere.

Merlin speaks up and asks if I remember this room? I tell him yes - I remember it from visiting him here once. He asked if I remember anything else about it - does anything feel familiar to me? I say yes most of it does feel familiar. Brigit asks if I know why that is? I replied from when I was here before and I'm assuming that some of this is familiar from reading about it in books or maybe seeing them in movies.

I am told no - this room is familiar to me because it is my room - my magic room. This where I have come for thousands of years to perform my magic. I do not need the physical objects that human's use on the physical plane. I have always done my best work from the higher planes. I had visited this place before because the powers that be wanted the seed of this place to awaken my gifts. And the gurus that are here all agreed that it has indeed happened.

Brigit grabs my hand and took me to a room off this magic room. It is very long, wooden floor and has many swords, axes and knifes on the walls. She tells me this is where I practiced fighting. Then she took me to another room off of the magic room and this one has a calm glow to it with many crystals -- feel peaceful. She tells me that this is where I go to heal people.

She takes me out to the magic room again - and I must look like a deer caught in the headlights. Jesus steps in and tells me that as a Goddess, I worked magic here with Will - practiced battle with Ted and healed with Bill. As I had 3 sides to me - this is why I had/have three mates. I still rather stood there like a deer in the headlights.

Ethan stepped up and told me again about the OBE sex -- and how it needs done NOW. I just nod my head in agreement.

Merlin pulled me over to the long wooden table and told me to cast a spell. Any spell. So I did do one - on things moving the way I want them to. When I cast the spell, I could feel the electricity move through my physical body -- it was so strange. Then he told me to do one more. And I did about money -- again with the same electric zing through my physical body.

I told them that I've learned too much on this trip and that I wanted to go back home. Information overload. So they bid their farewells and told me to go back through the light. I did and Bill and Will were there. They each told me good bye and I was done.

I really do think that I am getting too much information. Too much for my human mind to grasp. No wonder I'm tired:) But it is food for thought.

The last couple of days Bill has been showing up more. Not all the time - but more often. It's nice to see him. He's a source of comfort. Of course some times he's a source of aggravation -- but it's been a while for that.

If any of you follow me as Alison Ashby in The L Word in Second Life - I'm being auctioned off for a good cause tomorrow (Thursday ) night. Stop by and bid on me and help support the gay and lesbian community:) Info on how to find me is in the side bar:)

I'd better run for now -- too much to do and not much time to get it all done!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

OBE Sex, Bill, Ted, Will And A Goddess!

What a weekend. I got a lot of work done - thank goodness. Although not as much as I needed to get done. But one step at a time:) My sister is still pregnant. We had a false alarm over the weekend -- but that kid is still hanging in there.

I had an intense chat with my guide Ethan and the Goddess Brigit. This chat came about after a friend connected with me - telepathically - to remind me how much strength I have in my soul. How powerful my energy really is and what I can accomplish. When Ethan and Brigit showed up, he disconnected. The chat with these two was very - mind opening and intense. So mind blowing to me that I'm not really sure what to make of the information. It appears that I am a major Goddess that comes back into human form because of love and because mankind does not have the right view of "me". I guess I'm not the type of Goddess/person you would want to piss off:) Now they said which Goddess and all, but I'm not real comfortable talking about which one. As I said - this is hard even for me to swallow. But it makes sense - especially with Ted, Bill and Will and the connections there. And it makes sense with all of the warrior images I have had - and the past lives as Joan of Arc and Cleopatra. I don't know - I don't know - I don't know. I'm supposed to change the view of mankind towards this Goddess/me and finally have the love connections that have been denied. SHRUG. We'll see. I'm sure at some point I'll tell you more -- when I know more.

Now someone asked a question in another blog entry about astral sex and telepathic sex. Isn't there some sort of astral connection during telepathic sex? In short - no. I tried to explain the 3 types of OBE sex below:

Astral/dream sex: To become sexually aroused and engage in energetic sex with another person's energy. In the astral/dream state, energy can be manipulated to a point where it feels and looks like physical body parts are merging -- but they are only energy and not actual physical parts. This can lead to an orgasm in the physical body, although this is rare. In most cases a person would return from their astral travel or wake up from a dream and be so sexual turned on that they would have to take care of it upon waking and it would be a MUST to take care of, this isn't something that you can walk off. If they are involved with a flesh and blood partner - the partner benefits from this astral turn on by engaging in physical sex with their partner.

The biggest difference between astral sex and dream sex is that with astral sex you purposely have your astral body separate from your physical body and you are awake during the act. If you have shifted your consciousness to your astral body and then shift it back when your astral body merges with your physical body - then you will remember a good chunk if not all of the encounter. With dream sex, your astral self parts during your sleeping state and your conscious mind is in a state of rest - that is unless you practice lucid dreaming or as I say dream visits where you are in control of your dream -- then your conscious mind plays a bigger part in the whole experience and you remember more upon awaking.

Telepathic sex: There is no astral body merging in this one. Your brain is your #1 sexual organ. With telepathic sex, you are using your brain power only. Your brain waves connect with another's brain wave in your minds eye you can see and feel the sexual act taking place. Think of this as real-time sex without the physical merging. With telepathic sex, the odds of having an orgasm are very high as none of your energy bodies (astral, mental, emotional - etc...) are separate from your physical body. Can you tell if you make the connection with another person or if it is just a fantasy? Yes you can. How? Just as you can tell with a telepathic communication - you have that zing of energy and a warm flow over your body (other people have been known to get a headache or tremble) when you have that telepathic connection. If this factor is missing in the telepathic sex, then you are simply having a fantasy and not the telepathic sex.

I like to think of telepathic sex as an intense day dream. Out of the 3 - I like telepathic sex the best - only because you can have a real-time orgasm:) And - you can remember the most if not all of the encounter.

I asked Tracey a couple of weeks ago if Bill, Ted and Will could feel what's going on with me. If they are conscious of the changes in my life? This was her reply:

Bill is very sensitive to your emotions and he is feeling the depth of sadness within you and it is affecting him physically and manifesting in chest pains, and troubling sleeping, some depression, and cold like symptoms, tiredness. These are not conscious thought. He is journaling his experiences on the astral, and dreams, vivid visions and meditation experiences. He is writing his experiences formulating them into something that will be of importance or interest later as in he will share these with you. He seems to be trying hard to reach out to you but he feels that you are responding to him. He seems to be able to meet you consciously on the astral plane now, is able to communicate with you and is handling this well, is intrigued by it and trying it perhaps more than you have energy to expend right now. He seems sad when he feels he cannot make a connection to you. His sorrow for you is great. He does not like that your light seems so dim right now. I see that if this continues he may be very angry, almost as if he thinks you are ignoring him or will not let him comfort you.

Ted is totally connected, aware, consciously of your sadness, and the feelings of overwhelm, struggle, anxiety, panic, worry, and feels compelled to help you though feels that he is to stand back at this time. He will only be able to hold out on contacting you until the end of the summer, but he may contact you sooner if you continue to feel this deep fear and worry. Ted does not know how to deal with you being down and out and he wants to relieve your problems, worries, he has a strong urge to fix it, to help you and he does not know how to support you so much in terms of emotionally as he feels a basket case in this area himself, but he knows he can help you on a financial level and I sense that he may try to do this, though is uncertain if you would accept his help. I sense that he knows of a way to get money to you in a way that you will accept the money, and I sense this has to do with a wire transfer or internet transaction directly to you. I hope this makes sense to you in some way.

He believes he can send it in such a way that you may not know paper trail wise that he sent it even though intuitively you may know that he sent it, but either way his desire is that you accept it and continue to work on your writing so that you are in a better position. There is a place inside him that feels you are so strong and independent but are feeling so frail right now and though you are low in spirit he is not sure you would accept his financial help direct so he wants to be sure you get it and this is something he is mapping out in his mind, if you will. Perhaps this is some of the unexpected financial help.

Will and Ted will come into your life in the physical on or around the same time, perhaps together, or within a short time, and this is for a purpose, one that is not being revealed, but perhaps you already know the answer. Part of the purpose is to help you through this situation, not just in way of friendship, emotional support, but also financial support and providing contacts that you need to help you to excel in your aspirations for the future.

There are many feelings stirring within Will and though he is not consciously connecting them to you he is feeling grief, outrage, the sting of betrayal, relating it to a past experience in his own life, and he is wondering why he is thinking about the past, as he has certainly felt over this situation. So, he is in tune with you and your emotions, soulfully, but is not aware of where the feelings are coming from, rather feeling they relate to self.

This helps to explain to me why Ted is always around and why Will and Bill seemed to have just vanished.

Everything will work because it's supposed to - right?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)