The Guys, A New Guide and Attachments!

I'm tired today - but not as bad as I've been. Last night I slept like a semi-rock. I say semi because I don't think I've slept like a "rock" without waking up at some point since 1996 or so. Any ways - I think it's in part to the question I had asked about Bill - I got my answer.

My Question: Will Bill honor our soul agreement in this lifetime?

Monte's Answer: I feel that he's on a different path than you are and even though he loves you, I don't see that meaning that your path and his will be be forever...not in a relationship of love...but more of a Spiritual kind-ship...He's not satisfied with his life right now and wants more than you do so he's looking a lot more down the road....You're looking more in the now and you both need to be looking at what life offers for each of you along the same path, not what you get versus what he gets....What I'm saying is; Your priority should be to want the same thing or negotiate them to a conclusion so you each know what's most important.

My Response: Unfortunately for Bill and I the balls in his court and has been for the last 5 years. I have no way to contact him in the physical realm - but he stops by my blog to check in on me and he has my phone number. There's so much more we could accomplish for the world together than separate. It's frustrating. Especially since I know he's not satisfied with his life and he's looking for more. The nightly dream and daily telepathic contact is nice but....

Monte's Answer: ***This is holding you back as an attachment so 'Let Go, Let GOD', everything has a purpose so don't allow this BIG issue of yours distract you from where you need to be Spiritually....I do understand and feel your frustration at the lack of of an acceptable reason for Bill to be with you on your path, but he has work to do before he can accept a partner in his life just as you have your work to do....Release him with love and let Guidance take it from there...

He went on to tell me about his experience which was similar to mine. He told me about removing attachments and because of that one of his guides left and a new one arrived. This got me to thinking -- I haven't had a new guide in a very long time. Maybe before my divorce. Before I got divorced, I must of been doing some major growth because I had a lot of guides come and go.

Last night I decided to ask the universe to remove anyone or anything from my life that wasn't for my highest good. When I went to sleep I felt lighter. I don't remmeber Bill or Will being in any of my dreams.

In the shower this morning I remembered something that Monte said - he consciously removed the attachments. So as I was rinsing off I brought to me each of the guys - said "Go in peace, do what you have to do, and then come back." Next was my 2 exes. For them I said:  "Go in peace and never come back." Each one I sent out into a brilliant white light. All of them were rather easy to let go of but Ted. My heart chakra felt heavy, then had a vibration and a tug. He looked horrible as I let him go - but I knew I had to.

As soon as the last one was gone - some of my current guides took a bow and left: Ethan, Edward and Robert (all 3 said they would be back at some time) and Iris (who said she's not coming back). Then I heard a high pitch sound and saw a very vibrant golden light. I heard a female voice say that she was here now. I recognized the energy immedately from a past life regression I had 3 or 4 years ago. If I could figure out how to transfer the regression session from a cassette tape to here I would. Anyways -- in the regression session this soul/light came through me to talk to Cindy (the regressionist). This light was part of my star past.

I asked her name. She said it was a sound - close to what we could say is a "C". She told me to give her a name if it made it easier. So I called her Gloria. She told me I was one of the Star Children - Ted and I. This was something I already knew. Then she said that my son is also a Star Child - he was Ted and I child - and becaue he is a star like me, it's one of the major reasons he and I butt heads. His soul is almost as old as mine and like me - he's a leader not a follower.

Gloria then went on to say that I sabatage myself because I'm not like everyone - and I want to be like everyone. So I do what I have to in order to remain - normal. Well as normal as I can be :) She then showed me a diagram...went something like this:


STAR PEOPLE (1% of all souls)

                               MOST OF THE SOULS (98% of all souls)

                                                                        DARK SOULS (1 % of all souls)

She went on to explain that if I deny who I am - then the scale tips in the Dark Soul's favor. Especially since Ted and my son have no clue about their light - yet.

I asked if we're all stronger when we're connected - then did I do the wrong thing by releasing the attachments to the guys? She said no. Even though on the physical plane the attachments were cut, on the spiritual plane we're all connected. On the physical plane they were (unconsiously) draining the light from me. In order for me to "shine" then I have to refuel and allow my light to shine through. When the guys are all strong enough on their own - that means they completed their tasks - and they will all be back (with the exception of the exes, of course).

I ran a few plans past Gloria and she liked them. When I go to impliment them into GA or OBE, I'll let you guys know:) Since our convo this morning - she is off my right side - the light is constant and strong. I know there was much more said during our talk, but right now I don't remember all of it.

Off to the side of the blog I put links to my Twitter page and my new Facebook page.

It feels nice to be writing in the blog again.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will and Vincent!

I have a headache. I think it's from the lack of good quality sleep. Once my head hits the pillow I'm out. But it's not a resting sleep. Oh no. I have to keep traveling. The dream visits I had last night seem to be a continuation of the dream where I couldn't find my physical body. There were three of us in a room - I think it was me with Bill and Will -- and our astral bodies were standing over our physical bodies - that were laying on green slabs of rock? Maybe concrete? We couldn't get back into our bodies. We felt so heavy - like lead. I still can feel the panic I felt. None of us knew what to do. We knew that there was someone in another room that wanted something with us. It was important for us to get back into our bodies, so that we could wake up and get the heck out of there. Bill and Will were arguing on what to do. I kept trying to tell them that if we worked together we'd all get back in. But they wouldn't listen. They were both too wrapped up in being "right". I was so frustrated that I screamed and screamed until I woke up. I then laid there pissed off. Damn those two. I just know that this is going to come back again and again until we get back into our bodies.

Last night I also heard Iris talk about Vincent again and how he's supposed to be the one. I asked her to stop talking about him. If it was that dang important for him to be in my life - then he'll get here - but I'm not going out of my way. She'd tried telling me that I have to go out of the way. Something about me being the light and all. SIGH. I'm not sure what to think about all this. I know that whenever I get a reading from someone - they always pick up on Vincent. Always. But then they can't tell if it's actually supposed to be Vincent or someone who is like Vincent. I'm open to whomever the universe sends me.

I got my Census 2010 in the mail today. In big bold letters it says "Your Response Is Required By Law." Oh really? What's going to happen if I don't return it? Is the gov't going to spend more of our tax dollars on the Census police? I just shake my head.

There have been some strange happenings going on here while I'm wide awake. I don't know if you remember a year or two ago, I would have a black mist/energy/spirit show up in my office. Same thing again. But this time with the shadow - I also have flashes of light. Everything is right in the corner of my eye - I look - and it's gone. It happens all over my house - but in my office it's the worse. I'm not scared or anything - I just wonder who it is - and what do they want?

Gimli has been seeing a ghost in my neighbor's house. Gimli will sit outside of Bob's house and just wag his tail like crazy looking at his house. He paces - barks - looks around the side of the house -- all when Bob isn't home. I think that it kind of freaks Gimli out because I've had a hell of a time getting that dog to go outside to the bathroom. He just stands and stares at the house.

Time to get ready for bed. I'm exhausted.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little of This and A Bunch of That!

No -- you're not imagining things. This is really a post by yours truly. You guys are so sweet to have missed me. I can't tell you how many emails I have received asking me when I was going to post again. It really is nice to be missed.

I have to switch this from Blogger to Wordpress by my birthday (May 2nd). Someone don't let me forget:) Email me by April 15th and remind me. I'd greatly appreciate it.

As you all  can imagine - A LOT has happened since my last post. So go grab a cup of java, tea or a glass of wine and come back to read.

Brodie died Jan 7th. It broke my heart. His nose had started to bleed more the day before and I couldn't stop it. I knew something was coming. He needed to go outside to the bathroom. He went and then immediately had a stroke. It was horrible - just heart breaking. The tumor had pushed through to his brain. Oh the pain he must of felt. Thank God my neighbor Bob was home (who Brodie adored more than anyone). Thank God through my sobbing he knew what I needed. He helped me carry Brodie to the car - not easy seeing it was 100 lbs of dead weight. Bob had a hard time saying good bye so I could drive off. By the time I finally got him into the vet - his passing was quick and painless. Everyone at the vet loved Brodie and all stopped what they were doing to be there when he passed. I miss that dog so much. But seeing how protective he was in life (he chased away two bible thumpers 15 min before his stroke) I'm sure he's still close by. Gimli had a very difficult time with Brodie's passing. Countless hours were spent outside looking for his friend.

Gimli is doing fine now - he's turning into a good dog. He still eats things he shouldn't - but he's left my couch, carpet and table alone.

School is kicking my butt. Social Psych and Sign Lang 2 are going great. Stats hurts my brain (but I think I have a B in  there) and Ethics is killing me. I'm doing piss poor in that class - but so is most students. That class may ruin my dean's list for this semester. I'm still part of a research team at school and I like doing this. I discovered that I won't be able to graduate till May 2011 instead of Dec 2010. I have 2 classes that I can't fit in - 7 classes in a semester is a recipe for disaster.

I don't know if I mentioned that I was going to get my certification in sex coaching. Even though I have been ding it awhile - I thought it would be nice to be certified. This is going well. I love learning about this - educational and fun:)

I had a part time job and lost that same part time job. They are trying to talk me out of quitting - which is nice. But I don't think I do well as a follower. I also though to myself -- is this the best use of my time? No. I love to help people - period. This job wasn't even close to it. So I told myself that if I dedicated x hours a day to that job. Then I could do the same back at Gypsyadvice and Keen. That's what I'm doing.

After I post this -- I'll be doing the podcast and the OBE blog. I know - shocking:) I do have some surprises coming up for the OBE site that I'm excited to implement. When it's ready I'll let you know.

It's a shame I wasn't betting in an Oscar pool last night - I got them all right but the winner for editing and short film:) Speaking of which - screenwriting has taken a back burner. I honestly don't want it on the back burner - even though I guess I can't write believable dialogue to save my life. I think I'll take a break from rejection for a bit. I'll keep rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE when I have time. This is a must-do script.

I wanted the movie AMAZING GRACE over the weekend. This is a song that I always sing and I have no clue as to the why. So I'm watching this movie and it brought up a whole range of emotions that make me think WTF? As I kept feeling these strange emotions - esp when I watched the main character William and his wife Barbara - I kept thinking that dang, William is someone who I would be attracted to - why can't I find someone like that? Then Bill's face popped up. I thought - yeah, he's a lot like Bill. But Bills face wouldn't leave. So I thought again WTF? The it was like Iris hit me on the head -- you big dummy, Bill was William in a past life -and I guess that made me Barbara. Ahhhh....then it dawned on me - lol. But Iris quickly jumped in and said that the real William and Barbara were not exactly how they were portrayed in the movie (gee - hollywood taking a creative license about a true story - I'm shocked). At some point in time I have to read more about William and Barbara.

Bill has been around a lot. He never really wants anything - just to show that he's here. He's in my dreams too. Every night without fail.

Someone else is in my dreams every night - but I can't make out who they are. The set up though is always the same. He's wealthy - lives with his wealthy parents. The house is modern, well kept with modern furnishings. There is a huge wall of windows that overlooks the ocean. I'm friends with his parents but his father wouldn't approve of our relationship (or would at least have a hard time) and he's sick - so we can't approach him with our situation. He has cancer. This guys bedroom has a really big bed with a red comforter. A couch is in from of the bed with a flat screen TV. Not a lot of clutter is on the dressers. The adjourning bathroom is huge and marble (plus very tidy). He likes to sleep on the same side of the bed I do (if you're looking down at the bed from the foot - it's the right side) but I don't mind sleeping on the left side. They have a dog - I think it's a yellow lab like Gimli. I have no idea why I keep showing up here and who these people are. But I'd like to find out.

I'm going to be at the Universal Light Expo again this October. The topic of my workshop will be Sexual Energy:)

My son is doing ok back in public school. He's had some bumps - but overall he's well.

I keep catching a spirit or maybe an astral body floating around at all hours of the day/night. I'm thinking this is either Bill or Will - maybe Vincent. All the guys are still around - I find myself being drawn into thinking about them. But I don't allow the connection to last very long.

Because I don't allow the connection to last - I don't get the full benefit of being connected to them. I'm not talking about sex here - but the benefit of their energy - their love. I miss that closeness. But I also do not want to get sucked in (so to speak)- I have too much to do.

I know there's more to talk about - there has to be. But I'm out time if I'm going to do the podcast. So I'm going to boggie out.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Little Bit of This, That and the Other Thing.

Well hi there! Long time no talk. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season. Thank you for all of the holiday messages that arrived in my inbox, FaceBook and here on the blog.

Humm....where should I even start with this update? Better grab a cup of coffee and get settled in -- I have a lot to chat about.

College - ended up getting 3 A's and 1 B+. Landed on the Dean's List again (yay me)! Classes are out until Jan 10th. Another year of full time classes and I should have my BA by this time next year.

I'm also going to be enrolled in the Sex Coaching Instutite. I know - I know -- seriously, how much can I cram into a day? No worries as my son is going back to his public school on Jan 4th. He had to realize that being with me all day long was not a good thing. I'm a lot more strict than the teachers. Now that he realizes that being with mom is not the best thing in the world, he won't act up (on purpose mind you) in school so that I have to take him out and homeschool him. Fingers crossed that my plan has worked:)

Brodie has had some really rough days. I feel horrible for him - but he doesn't want to give up yet - so I'm not putting him down for the time being. Gimli on the other hand is eating my house one piece at a time. The carpet, wooden floor, couches....SIGH. He's just luckly I love animals.

My dreams have been so active and really messed up lately. This has been going on the last 6 months or so - but over the last 2 months it's really intensified. In my dreams I'm working for a secret gov't agency. We interagate people in their dreams. Now I'm good at shifting my dreams when I want or need another dream enviroment. But with this - I bounce right back to gov't work. I'm very good at what I do for the agency and I'm told (in the dreams) that I'm not going to be going anywhere any time soon. I'm too valuable. SIGH. So I've bene waking up just as tired as when I fell asleep. When I try to shift the gov 't dreams - I keep landing in Atlantis. All I want to do is stay there - but even Atlantis can't keep me in Atlantis.

The bathroom dreams are also back. Big rooms full of toliets with no walls - hundreads of people around going to the bathroom. But  this time in these dreams - I find the one private bathroom there is -- and everytime I enter I'm told that this is where I belong. Seperate - yet connect - to the world.

Now - in the waking world it's also been very interesting concerning Atlantis. I could be in the middle of something (like driving) and all of a sudden Atlantis is there. I'm not "in" it - but I can reach out and grab it (so to speak). It happens all the time now - even when I'm in the middle of a conversation. I have to stop what I'm saying (I loose my train of thought completely) and restart. The last couple of weeks it's been really intense.

The reason it's so intense - I think - is that an old friend has come back into my life. This is a friend that I'd walk through fire for in a heart beat - but everytime we've been together (in the past) he has broken my heart in a million pieces. I have a wall so thick around me where it concerns him (and really anyone else who has hurt me) that it's difficult for him to get through. BUT -- he has an abundence of spiritual gifts that are just fabo - and he can still break through this fortress without even really trying. He's come to me for help in understanding his gifts. Like me - he's a logical thinker by nature - and he's trying to logically figure this out (something Bill has been trying to do for years). There's no logic to this -- I've tried.

In order for me to really help him, I have to let my walls down completely. I know this - he knows this. Iris is being very forward about me doing this -- that I have to. I know I have to -- but I'm scared. He can get to places within me that no one else but Bill can. The difference my friend wants to be in those places where Bill has said no way.

So anyways my friend - Kevin - thinks he's Vincent. He's not - but what is so interesting about him saying Vincent out of all of the men I'm connected to is that at the ULE I got a couple of readings. All described Vincent as being in my energy - but it wasn't Vincent. It was someone LIKE Vincent. Someone with the same protective energy as Vincent - someone who can love me in ways that no one else can. So is Kevin the Vincent that the readers mentioned? I try to figure it out, but I know I can't figure it out. I have to go with the flow and see where I land.

Kevin says that I have an enormous power within me -- like he does (I said the like he does - he didn't say that) -- that has to be tapped into. I'm only skating on the surface. By allowing myself to be fully immersed in my gifts - I can help more people (which is what I love to do).

I can feel the guys closing in ranks around me - not wanting to let Kevin close to me. Between my wall and the guys - it should be damn near impossible for Kevin to get through - yet he still does. Since I saw Kevin last night - I can't stop the energy tremors. What he and I need to do (I feel) is spend some time alone without the outside pressures of life - if only for a day. This way we can get a handle on what's going on.

I'll try to keep you updated.

Starting at the start of the year, I will no longer be offering free follow up questions for the readings. I just cannot keep up with them all. I'll talk about it more in today's podcast.

Also in the last couple of weeks I started to watch (and got caught up with) Heroes. I was going to watch it when it 1st came on TV - but my guides told me no - I wasn't ready. I wasn't sure what I had to be "ready" for -- but I think it has to do with the acceptance of who I am. The ability to focus in on my gifts and use them to make a difference in people's lives. I know that so far I've only scratched the surface on what I can do -- and it'll take a big leap of faith to see what else I'm capable of.

But isn't like that for most people? That we only scratch the surface of our possibilities - scared or fearful - to go outside of our comfort zone? To push our limits. When we push - when we tap into what we're capable of -- our world changes. It can't help but change. For the most part people just do not like change. It doesn't matter if it's you that doesn't like the change or the people around you don't want you to change - if you change then you push them outside their comfort zone.

I'm going to be making some more changes in 2010 (I think). No more Gypsy Magic or Gypsy News blogs. I'll leave them there but no updates. No more monthly Numerscope. OBE blog, this blog and the podcast stays.

Major changes to the OBE site on the horizon. I can't tell you about it now - but will as soon as I can. I know you'll like the changes:)

Mercury is in retro until Jan 15th. 

I know there's more to update you on -- but I have dogs that need to go outside.

Hope all of you have a wonderful and safe New Years Eve. Here's to a loving - prosperous 2010 for all of us!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Iris, Andrew and Ethan!

Butterflies in my heart chakra. For me -- this is a new one. It's been there since yesterday -- not leaving - not even for a second. I'm not sure who had the breakthrough. Mark is here - and pretty persistent on having me open up -- everyone else just hangs out on the fringe of my energy. Cheryl suggest on FB that it's Vincent. That would be great if he did have any type of breakthrough -- he's about a year overdue.

I've noticed that "blankness" about me over the last two days. Not so bad this morning -- but Friday and Saturday it was pretty bad. That's what happens when a new energy comes to me (I should say an energy of major importance like Mark, Vincent, Will, Bill and Ted) - I have a blast of energy and then it's nothing. And when I mean nothing - I mean that my mind is just blank. I can't hold a thought for over 20 seconds. When this happens it doesn't effect my ability to do a reading - but the ability to get to a reading. When I'm blank I want to do zero -- and I mean zero. As you know - doing nothing is really not part of my daily routine (although I do set time aside to relax every day).

I don't know what in the world I did to my right shoulder -- but it's killing me.

I still cannot tap into my past lives with Mark. There's a block and it's driving me crazy. I know - I know -- maybe I'm not supposed to know yet. Or I'll know if and when we ever meet. (LOL - Iris is right beside me - when I wrote the if & when she said - what do I look like - chopped liver? I guess that means when and not if.)

Iris is now talking in my ear - over my son's voice - game and the music that being pumped through my headphones. I guess this is something I need to hear.....

Iris: You and Mark will meet under unusual circumstance - you will turn and just be "there". The first look you give one another is that of shock - he has complete disbelief on his face while you are wondering if he is just a vision or real. You turn and quickly move away from him -- he follows. You go into a store - turn and there he is. He asks if you two know one another. You answer that it's not as easy as yes or no. He offers to buy you a coffee . You agree and engage in deep conversation.

I ask Iris what is the "unusual circumstance" - she replied that I will be in a place where I never expected to be. One that I hoped for - but never really expected to be. This will happen rather quickly. The ball is already in motion. I have something that I have to do 1st. Of course I ask - what is it? She said to complete the outline of my horror script. Although writing horror is not for me and I will not make a career out of it -- this script - more importantly the outline - is what gets me to where I need to be. So how long or how short it takes is in my hands.

I ask Iris - how does she expect me to get everything done? Her reply - get my head out of my ass.

Iris is the only guide I know that cusses.

Ethan's here -- he says that I have to focus. I have a window that I must go through. Everything that has happened to me - including my financial woes - has been put in place to get me to this window. I of course have to ask -- couldn't there have been an easier way? For you - Ethan replied - no. For some reason you and everyone you are karmic connected with are incredibly stubborn. Disaster has to happen before you make the shift needed.

So -- Mark -- his lose will be the death of a loved one? Ethan steps up to reply - Iris beats him to it...yes, that has to happen. I ask about his wife (who is a wonderful and kind person). Iris replies that she and Mark are the best of friends -- best - best of friends...but they are not - or have not - been man and wife for a very long time. They each lead separate lives. However - they'd take a bullet for one another.

But.....

Andrew pops up before I can say anything more.

Vincent -- that's all Andrew says.

What about him?

He needs you.

Vincent is a big boy - he can pick up a phone and call if he needs me.

Andrew shakes his head - no good. You have to strengthen the energy around him -- it has to be now.

Why the urgency?

His life has just fallen apart - so apart that he can't piece it back together again. He needs to feel a burst of your energy.

Okay guys (Iris, Ethan, Andrew)...let me get this straight. I need to write my outline for the horror script, study for my tests, write my paper, deal with my financial nightmare, take care of my son - the house - the animals, take care of my clients, strengthen my energy with Mark because he's about to go through hell, strengthen my energy with Vincent because he is going through hell and you need this all done what -- yesterday?

I hear a three "Yes".

Piece of cake -- I can do this in my sleep.

Iris : What do you think you've been doing in your sleep? She laughs.

Just so you know -- Ethan says -- your financial nightmare has taken care of itself ever since you made the decisions you did a couple of weeks ago.

SIGH - I'm tired already and it's only 9:00 am :)

Better get to work.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Mark, Karma and Iris!

I was going to write about Mark last night -- but by the time I got done with my work it was 2:30 am. I was pooped. I still am.

Tuesday night's dream continued into Wednesday's nights visit. Mark and I were sitting at a picnic table - one in the middle of a park. No one was around. he and I were drinking black coffee -- it was very strong as if it was brewed a week ago and it just sat there until we drank it. I remember thinking that he and I needed this leaded coffee so that we could keep going -- the difficulties are before us.

Mark asked me how to stop the train. I told him that everything was already in motion and there was no stopping things. He sighed - looked really sad - and said that he wished things would be different. That he didn't have to go through the pain he will have to endue in order for him to move forward in this life. He added that he was happy that I was the one who would help him through this -- and in return he would fix his karmic debt to me. I asked him what had happened in the past in order for him to have this karmic debt -- and this must be a major debt as he needs to clear it in order not to have to come back as a human. He smiled (he has the most amazing smile I have ever seen) and said - yeah, I fucked up a few times. With me - I asked? Unfortunately he replied. What did you do? (I just had to know). I don't have a clue - was his reply to me. I wish I could remember. The thing is Al (he called me Al) is that in order for me to fix the past, you have to open up and let me in. Can you do that? I stared at him - slammed my hands on the table -- woke up.

Last night it continued.....

Mark's at my house -- he's looking around -- you need new carpet - new furniture - and a different car. I nod and say it'll all come eventually. He replied - let me get it for you. I answered - no. Al...he said...I have more money than I need....let me help you. Why? I asked. So I can owe you? No, he said, because I owe YOU.

So this is how you'll pay me back..with material crap? No - he cups my face in his hands - but it's a start. I turned from him and say that Brodie needs to go outside potty. He yelled at me -- don't shut me out. The dog and I go outside. Once outside Brodie was not there -- and I'm in the middle of a forest.

I turned around and Mark was there -- on the ground is a tent, camping equipment and a burning fire. You still like to camp - he asked? I turned away from him and was about to walk the opposite direction when he appeared in front of me.

I'm not Bill, Ted, Vincent...and I'm sure as hell not Will. I'm not them! I found you. Who do you think put the thoughts in your head for you to find me?

Yeah -- just like Will did -- and where did that get me?

NOT like Will -- it took you months to figure out that he was calling you - it took you a couple of weeks with me.

But you've been in my energy since 1979. A lot longer than Will or any of them. So actually - it took you 30 years. I turned again to get away from him and he grabbed my arm - yanked me to him.

I'm not one of the bad guys.

Time will tell -- I yanked my arm away.

All of a sudden this blast of light and wind made us both stumble -- it was blinding.

Iris!

Stop acting like children! Mark -- you need Allie and Allie you need Mark. Allie -- do you want to go through these same lessons with relationships - AGAIN? Mark -- do you want to live through the same pain that you are about to experience -- do you want to come back AGAIN?

More important -- do you want me as your guide AGAIN?

We stay silent.

Iris glared at both of us -- and fades from view.

I look at Mark - he looks at me. Without a second of hesitation - he grabbed me -- kissed me -- very soft - seductive -- very nice. He pulled back - smiled. I could hear an alarm in the background. He said -- it was time to wake up.

So we did.

Mark and our karma is going to be harder than I thought.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

And Mark Rolls On...

I'm so tired -- it's almost midnight. But I had to write this post first.

On the way to classes tonight - I felt someone kick my chair as I was driving. Then that "person" touched my face. I FELT a hand rest on my right cheek. Like when a person cups your face before they kiss you - that's what it felt like - but only one hand, not two. I almost freaked out as I drove.

I'm like -- who in the hell was that? Mark's blue eyes popped right in front of me - then his wicked smile. Andrew & Paul show up and I asked -- where in the hell have you two been? Andrew said they are working with Vincent. I asked what about my love life?

That's when Ethan stepped up and said it's bigger than your love life. So I say - WTH does that mean?

That's when Iris stepped forward and said - I'm back! Oh no -- heavy stuff happens when she's around! So I have to ask.....was that Mark who was in the car? Iris gives me that "look" like I just said something really stupid. Yes she replied. And - I ask - what does he (or you for that matter) have to do with me now?

Iris said - I told you I'd be back when something major was going to happen -- and here we are. So what does Mark.....I'm his guide too - Iris jumped in.

Oh Lord I said.

You two have work to do - she said.

What about Will? Bill? Ted? She waved her hand - they blew it - wasted their chance. Next life we'll get caught up.

So -- what kind of work do Mark and I have to do? All you need to know is that it's karmic and necessary so that Mark does not have to come back in human form - ever - unless he wanted to of course. Then Iris chimed in...why anyone would choose to be human is beyond me.

SIGH.

So we'll see what tonight brings if I can ever get to sleep to dream visit with him.

Night Night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

PS: Iris means big change (whine - whine - sob - sob)!

PPS: Iris didn't mention anything about Vincent missing his chance - whoo hoo.

PPPS: She also didn't say that Bill, Ted and Will couldn't be friends with me - or that we'd never speak again in this life - just that they @ucked up and our work together will have to wait.

Yep - I'm Still Kicking!

Boy oh boy -- where to start? Humm...

Obviously I'm not dead, injured or on the lam. Be my friend on Facebook and you'll know what I'm up to if I'm not posting on this blog: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1402733541
Although I may have ot be careful what I post since one of my sisters is friends with my ex and they're buds on FB. I certainly don't want him in my business. We'll see - she put some blocks into place on FB on him. Don't know if it'll work or not.

Summer classes are over - yay! I managed to get 2 "A" and 2 "A-" - not bad for a 13 year break from college. Fall classes start on Aug 24th! Taking another full time load of 4 classes. I'll be FT until I either graduate or my brain falls out - whichever comes 1st!

All of my son's homeschool stuff is here. Wow - there's a lot of stuff. His two favorite items were the art & math stuff that we opened. Classes for him start on Aug 17th. I have to figure out where to put everything!

Until classes start I will be on Keen every day - times vary. More morning/afternoon hours than evening hours. If you want to chat and I'm not there - "Arrange a Call" with me and I'll get right back with you.

I'm going to be back doing sex toy reviews for a web site. Whoo Hoo! Not sure when the start date is - but it'll be soon.

I have to update my Personal Appearances:

- Every Tuesday I'm on the Maria Shaw show on Empower Radio in the 1:00 hour.

- Next Wednesday I will be on Live Your Dreams at 7:00 pm with Betty & Holly on Empower Radio.

- Next Thursday I'm a guest of Susan Norgren's on Psychic Buzz at 10:00 pm EDT.

Gypsy Girl Press's web site is no longer. I forgot to pay the fee and the canned the site. I moved the Gypsy Magic and Gypsy News blogs to Gypsy Advice. Make sure you change your bookmarks. Over the week I'll get the information up about the Gypsy Magic book series and links to where you can buy them.

Dreams have been a plenty - but I've been so set on sleeping that I haven't written anything down. Last night Michael was pretty prominent in the last dream I had before I woke up. He and I were lying down on a bed inside of a small RV. I was kind of a sleep and he was watching me sleep. Then I sprung and tickled him - lol. He mentioned about me being bold. LOL.

My guides have just been hanging back - which I find interesting. Iris did step up once and tell me a couple of things - but she also told me not to put specifics here - lol. Overall - it was about my future and the visions I had had about a clinic - stones/crystals and flower essence. They are combined with my sex coaching/therapy. It's an interesting road she's directing be down.

I was guided though to watch the Celestine Prophecy. I had read the book back in 1997 and honestly haven't thought about since then. The DVD was a good refresher and a reminder about past lives, intution and what will supposed to be will be - regardless of what you try to do to stop it. My son really enjoyed it.

There was a cay hit and killed close to my house a couple of weeks ago. It wasn't Raisin. But I haven't seen Little Black Kitty at all since then :( Someone hit the cat and kept driving - another car stopped and picked the cat up to take him to a vet. That's when I arrived as the lead car was putting the cat in the car - never saw the color of the cat.

I've caught up on my backlog of email from all my email addresses. If you haven't heard from me by now (and obviously you sent an email) then you're not going to. If it was important - please resend.

Better go check on the kid -- he's too quiet!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Holiday Catch Up Time!

(Just an FYI - I've been trying to get this to post since Sat. late morning)

Happy New Year! Sure - I'm a few days late - but I mean it just the same:) I hope that 2009 brings all of you what you need.

I honestly have no idea where to start - even at the beginning doesn't sound right. Silly huh? So here's a quick run down....

These past two weeks have been so busy - so silly busy - it's unreal. First, as you know, my son is home from school. His dad - being the "whatever" that he is, has decided to be MIA. So with the exception of Christmas Eve - he hasn't stopped by to get his son when he was supposed to - nor has he called him. The SOB is alive and well. He's just being - well...him. Needless to say, my little guy has been very disappointed, which in turn makes my life more difficult. The plans I had for myself all had to be canceled. Which of course is disappointing - but my disappointment doesn't come close to my son's - so I try to keep things in perspective. I've also been lying and making up excuses to my son - so that he won't think his dad has forgotten about him - as he did. That man is going to regret being such an ass when his son lives 2000 miles away instead of 5 min. Yeah - that's what I said - 5 min. Grrrrr.....Of course he finally did email me after I sent the latest asking if he was stopping by - seems that he's been "sick" and can't see his kid this weekend. Yeah - whatever.

So my son has made things very interesting - and stressful - here at the Allie ranch. He and Brodie (the black lab) fight like they are little girls. The kid yells at the dog - the dog barks back at the kid and it goes on and on. I had to banish Brodie to the back room and my son to his room just for some peace and quiet. Overall - the last two weeks have been fine with my son - he's 8 - he acts like an 8 year old. The longer he doesn't see his dad, the more rambunctious he gets.

Iris has been here - as busy as can be. That woman. She has promised me that she's not about to leave my side again. I don't know if I should be happy or scared. She did say though that she's in the background - Andrew is still "in charge" at this point in time. Andrew was talking to me yesterday and my grandmother came up and kissed him. I'm like - not in front of the children!

Now that's it's Jan 3rd, only 18 days till LOST! God I can't stand it -- I have major Sawyer withdraw.

But Iris gave me an idea in the shower - it's about another podcast called Waking Up Your Orgasm: http://wakeupyourorgasm.com/ the site is FAR from complete. My hope is to have the podcast up and running by next Friday (and Friday's from that point on) the 9th. It'll be in the same simple format as Ask Allie - with Q & A sex questions, toy reviews, aphrodisiacs and so forth. Well, I don't know what the "so forth" is yet. Sexual positions and sexual energy I deal with in the OBE newsletter (when I have time to write it). Any ideas? I only want to keep it 30 min or less. I'm also going to do the listener appreciation by giving discounts on the OBE web site.

Dreams - man have they been wild. Ever since I Feng Shui my office (and found about a dozen or so tiny Herkimer Diamonds that I placed on my Faden Quartz next to my bed) they have really been eventful. Bill has been in many of the ones I remember. Two of the visits I've had to entered into his dreams as I remember just standing back watching him pour over books. He's at a round table (both times)...

Okay - I have to interrupt my story for just a moment -- this still has to do with dreams, but....

Earlier last week (can't remember which night) - I had a dream where I was sitting down on a couch, that was a step lower than the room it was in - a sunken couch. An African American man (in his lower 30's I guessed) walked in and it was just as two old friends who haven't seen each other in a while. We hugged, gave each other kisses on the cheek and sat back down on the couch. I was leaning on him, his arms wrapped around me - and he started to tell me how he's been able to write - that he's releasing a new cd. I told him that it was great, I was excited for him (he seemed really pleased with himself) - kissed him a few more times on the cheek. Then I woke up.

Now I had no idea who this person was - never saw him before in my waking life (had no idea if he was alive or not) - had no idea why I would meet up with him - but there has to be some sort of past life/karmic connection. I thought about it after I woke up - couldn't figure it out, so I filed it away. So today I'm thumbing through some online sites - just looking around - and there he was. I was floored. I must of sat there for 10 min just saying nothing. I did find a page for him on MySpace - I sent him a friend request - no idea if he'll say yes. But what the hell - right? Still no clue on the "why" of the dream visit. I'm sure some day I'll figure it out.

Now back to the other dreams and Bill -- so he was at a round table. Books all over the place - most of them open - he had bookmarks in several places in each book. He had a notepad - a journal - where he was writing everything down. I walked up to him and asked how it was going. He's all excited saying he found the portal to Atlantis - but he can't figure out how to get to the portal. Seems that you have to take tunnels and what have you in order to get there - and he can't figure out where the tunnels originate. I asked - isn't it in the bottom of a Mayan temple in Mexico? He stops and stares at me for a spilt second then says - I don't know, they haven't discovered the room yet and when they do, it'll look like an ordinary room. But this (and he points to the triangle inside of a circle) will be in that room. I looked at him again and said - Mexico, it's in Mexico. He replied - but Atlantis's portal isn't in Mexico. I said I know - it's in Belize. But we get to Belize through the Yucatan Peninsula. He stared - it seemed like forever. Then it looked like a light bulb went off because he yelled - now it makes sense and grabbed a book. I woke up. We went through this same scenario twice - and I woke up each time. So I have no clue what he showed me.

Another dream visit we were at my mom's house. My sister's were there along with my brother-in-law, nieces, my son and my mother. Bill was in the basement with my son - I was upstairs watching a large category 3 tornado come towards us. I kept yelling for everyone to stay in the basement - the tornado would spilt off into three smaller tornados, and then regroup into one. The color of the tornado was brown - but when they split apart, 2 of them were gray. I knew my son was safe because Bill had him. My brother in law wasn't listening to me and would not get down stairs. When it got close - he and I ran down. In the basement - I could hear my dog Brodie upstairs. Before I could run up to get him, I woke up.

Vincent has been around during my waking hours. I can feel him move with me. He reminds me of my own astral body guard:) There have been a few instances where the connection was tight and clear - I could see him smiling - laughing. It was nice to be able to feel him feel something other than unhappiness.

Will - he's always around too - but not as close as Vincent - Vincent won't let him. I had a flash visit of me, Bill, Ted and Vincent in a hotel room - chatting. I announced that I want Will here too. Panic spread on their faces and they all said no at once. I told them tough shit - if they want me here - then they'd better go get Will. LOL.

Samantha went back to the vet - her thyroid is still a little high - but all other worries are now gone:) That was so nice to hear. Even though she is not happy to get her pill 2x - she takes it. I'm happy to have my Ninja cat back!

My lower back still kinda hurts - and I noticed a fine crack in my son's tooth. I'm using a heating pad and he goes to the dentist on Tuesday.

I managed to get some medicine in Little Black Kitty's eye last week - only problem is that he hasn't been back since :(

For some reason I'm obsessing over Sex In The City. No idea why. I never watched it on HBO or the reruns - never went to see the movie. But all of a sudden I have to watch it. Very strange.

I got my spring seed catalogs in the mail today - whoo hoo! My kid eats apples like you wouldn't believe - so I'm getting 2 apple trees to put in. Of course I won't see any apples for a couple of years - but I'm still doing it! It goes along with my grapes, blueberries, raspberries and strawberries:) My way of thinking is if I plan it - it better feed me or bring me some luck. There's always that chance that we won't even be living here by even summer - but I do plan on keeping the house. After I win an Oscar I'll put the house up for sale on eBay - lol!

I know there's more going on - I just can't think what else right now.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Guide Ambush, Energy Healing And Progress!

Man is it cold here. Last night it was 1 with the wind chill - 22 degrees F. Granted - not as cold as Minn or maybe the Dakota - but dang it was still cold. I felt so bad for Little Black Kitty (I really should just call him Salem). He wanted to come in so bad last night - and who could blame him? But I can't let a sick - un-neutered male - into my house. Thankfully, his eyes are starting to look better because of the garlic & vit C that I've been giving him.

I was certainly busy on the Winter Solstice. A lot of cooking baking, present wrapping and some more decorations up and out. By the time the day was over - I looked like a bag of powdered sugar exploded on me - lol!

When the day was over and I was looking forward to some shut eye - I was ambushed by my guides. Yep - ambushed. Before I knew it I had Andrew, Paul, Ethan. Edward, Robert, Jezell, Brigit and Iris. I'm like WTF?

I asked what's up? Before anyone could say anything - Iris stepped up. I said - don't get all over about the Cheryl situation. I can't help it. She said for me not to sass her. SIGH. I said fine - but that she didn't have to yell at me. She said she wasn't going to. Just that she'll be popping in and out because my life is about to do a 180. I asked if it is supposed to be a good 180? Because life isn't a bowl of cherries right now - I'd hate to see things go south even more.

She said no - not bad. It'll be like a dam breaks, and it'll take all of them - including her - to keep me on the straight and narrow. Sheesh - what in the hell is supposed to happen? Iris showed me a quick glimpse of airports, meetings, workshops and hotels. She said that's all I need to know. Iris said she'd be back and she left.

So I "looked" around to the rest of them - and Edward stepped up. He said that I need to keep sleeping now - and to work on my dreaming skills - to advance them even more. That's when Robert stepped up and said the OBE book needs to be done - the outline. It's overdue. That brought Jezell up to tell me to work on my manifestation skills and to be very VERY careful on where I decide to place my thoughts. Brigit was next and said that I have to start offering my healing - to which Andrew agreed. Paul told me to get ready because a new love is about to enter my life - Andrew agreed.

Andrew then said that something will happen before Jan 15th that will start the ball rolling in my direction. Ethan stepped forward and said he wanted me to write my affirmations in my journal - which I did.

All I have to say is we'll see what happens:)

The healing part I put in today's podcast. Healing and attunement information before I list it on the site at the start of the year.

It's so difficult to work with an 8 year old in my ear - lol.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And More!

It is so drab, dark and rainy here. Yucky - Yucky - Poo. Seriously.

The meeting of Santa Friday night went well. My son was so excited - just waving and jumping up and down to the Santa. He wanted to go say hi to him again this year. Santa was approaching us and I could tell he wasn't going to say hi to my son again so as he was right in front of us, I smacked his elbow and yelled - Hi Santa! He turned and shook my son's hand. The kid was on cloud nine for the rest of the freezing evening. It was so cold out - but he was so happy he didn't even notice.

The weekend was cold - but went well. I got some work done on the horror story - but not much. Robert is here bugging me to get the OBE outline rewritten. Andrew happens to agree with him -- and Paul just sits back and smiles. Paul smiles a lot. Last night he was in a dream of mine. My son and I were on this ultra luxury private jet. It was decked out. We were being shown around - when the pilot wanted to show my son the cool games on the plane. While they were doing that, I took a turn and ended up at this mini bar. Seated there was Paul. He looked at me and asked - how do you like it? I told him it looked great - pretty comfortable and appears to have everything anyone would want. He smiled - said Good - get used to it. I woke up. The image of the inside that plane stayed with me after I awoke. It was a white interior with blue trim. Besides that dream - I tossed and turned all night. By the time I did get out of bed I was pooped.

But back to the OBE book. As I was working on the outline I thought of a killer second book dealing with orgasms and sex. The 2nd book has Oprah and The View written all over it. I already have a title and actually I saw the whole workshop tour unfold before my eyes. It was so fricken cool. But I have to get this book done first. Mums on the title for #2 or what's it all about - one thing I will say it's good:)

Over the weekend I came across my old diary from high school. In it I found my old musings about moving to Asheville, NC. I always wanted to live there - been there several times and just loved the warm feeling. No matter where I went I felt a surge of positive energy. As I was reading my diary - for some reason Will popped into my head. Once there - he stayed for most of the day. He acted like a comforter, his energy being comforting, but not invasive. Later on that evening as I laid down to go to sleep, I felt him calling me into a session. I went and sure enough - there was that willow tree right by the river. Will was leaning against it, smile on his face. You look good - he said. I am good - I replied. Are you happy, Will asked. For the most part - I said - if tinsel town could get from 1st gear to 2nd, I'd be a lot happier. Will laughed. That's the way that part of the world works, he murmured, you either live with it or you don't and walk away. There is no in between. Well I guess I'm stuck - aren't I? He chuckled - sure looks that way. Go to sleep - Will said - and we'll catch up later. And that's what I did - went to sleep.

Vincent did stop by today and tell me how tired he is. I know he's tuckered out - which is why I haven't been pushing to make any sort of connection this last week. I could tell he needed some chill time - and could still use another week or two. But I told him that if he needs me - all he has to do is call.

There have been a ton of new people who have found this blog over the last two weeks. Seems that people are confused on who is what and if anyone is actually real. So here's the skinny for the newbies - everyone is real. I don't make anything up. If there is a connection to another person that I do not physically know in this lifetime (as in Will, Vincent, George, Bill or Ted) I confirm what I sense with a couple of other people before it ever makes this blog. I'm the type of person where something has to happen to me many times over before it causes a blip on my radar. And then I still need some sort of confirmation. SO what I write here are not elaborate fantasies to entertain you. If that's what you're looking for - you need another blog. I write what I do because there are people out there who have occurrences like I do - not exactly the same - but similar. Plus I know (intuitively wise) that Bill, Ted, Will, George and Vincent have al been to this blog at least twice. I also write so that they can find the blog - and compare the experiences to their notes.

Quick rundown:

Bill, Ted, George, Will and Vincent - soul group
Andrew, Paul, Robert, Jezell, Iris, Brigit, Ethan - spirit guides
Sean - new friend who Allie is fond of
Tracey, Sky, Gab and Maria - my psychic posse

And that's that.

I added Sexual Coaching to my list of services (and no, that does not mean I sleep with you) along with 2 new tiers of coaching - One Time Coach and One Week.

My sister is in New Orleans - I hate her (not really) she's having a great time......

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Bob And NYC!

For the last several weeks I've looked forward to watching "Burn After Reading" today. But did I? No. SIGH. My stupid movie theater doesn't have any afternoons shows when then kids are in school. Blah. Don't they think adults actually watch movies too? So now I have to wait until some evening when my ex has my son for more than an hour or two. I could do tomorrow - but I'm meeting an old high school friend for dinner. And before you ask yes - the friend is male. He happens to be a firefighter out in WY. Actually - he's a Fire Chief in WY. No - there isn't anything romantic here -- that's why we've been friends since we were 5. Besides - did I mention he lives in WY? I'm not moving there. Of course - he is trying to find a job in CA. Any ways - it will be nice to see him.

DREAMERS is a go with my manager and my manager's boss - and let me tell you, that man (as in the boss) is not an easy sell and he thought it was fantastic (give myself a pat on the back for that one). As Iris said - this will be the version that sells. Finger crossed! I brings me one step closer to Will!

I finished part one on Robert's list - I got the outline of the workshop complete:)

Now - remember Bob from a few days ago? He is making himself more known during the waking hours. His energy feels very protective - like a Knight protecting his Queen. In fact. I keep getting fast glimpse of me as a queen and he as my knight. But he was a knight who was very creative - very poetic and smart. He could read - and write marvelous poetry. My king was much older than me, a friend of my father's and I married him out of duty, to unite the two houses. He died protecting me from the enemies of my husbands. We were also lovers - as I can see him touching me very tender like. He had that twinkle in his eye when he looked at me.

So - Bob is here and no matter what I'm doing or working on - he pops up into my third eye. In this life - he is currently married for the 2nd time. He has a few children. The scene that keeps popping my my vision goes like this:

We're in Central Park. He and I are talking about life in general. About our wishes, dreams. I can tell by the way we interact that we've met like this many times. I tell him that he has to either make it work with his wife or let her go. It's not fair to either of them. And plus - I don't play second fiddle to anyone if I'm in a relationship. It doesn't matter how I feel about them. I have more respect for myself than that.

He looks at me, with a sidewise glance - so you do like me? Now don't take this out of context - I say. You just need to make it work - or leave because you want to leave. That's all I'm saying. So in order for you to get your head on straight - I don't think we should meet like this any more. I couldn't look him in the eyes - they looked -- wounded. Tears were hanging on - he struggled to keep his cool. Then - I hugged him. It was a long hug, nether one of us wanted to let go. I pulled away, and I had tears flowing down my face. He's like - you're crying -- you do care about me. I get pissed and start yelling at myself -- you had it under control - why did you hug him you idiot.

He wrapped his big ole arms around me - and it felt so snug and protective - like I was safe from the world. But I pushed away and told him good - bye.

I walked away - his eyes stared right through me. My legs felt like lead - it took everything I had to move forward and away from him.

Then the vision shifts -- I'm not sure how far after this happens.....a messenger comes to the studio and drops off an envelope for me. I open it up and it's a copy of Bob's divorce papers with a note - Meet me and Franks at 10:00 pm.

At 10:00 I walked into Franks - he was waiting for me.

Then it was over.

So being the person that I am - I looked up Franks in NYC and got this: http://www.frankrestaurant.com/ And this was it -- this was the place from my vision. I know I will certainly have to scope it out.

When I do meet Bob in person (and I know I will) - it's in that crowded room - I feel him staring at me - I immediately look right at him and when I do it's as if someone hit him in the stomach. He smiles - but I can tell there's that "what in the hell just happened" look.

Before I forget - I wrote about an OBE with Bob. I also asked Maria about him - I'll post the reading when I get it.

I got a new tarot deck today - The Wisdom of the Avalon. I drew cards for Will - Merlin & the High Priestess came up - I drew cards for Bob - The Grail Knight & The Bee. Both got the Spider card. So to make a long story short - I work on creative projects with both of them - with Will what I see will come to pass and with Merlin in the midst, everything will unfold as it should. With Bob - the bee brings good luck and the knight -- protection.

I have to work with this deck more - but what I see so far I like.

Damn -- just had an "ah-ha" moment. I was upset with Will becasue he pulled away. He was upset with me because I pulled away - and in his eyes I was "moving on". But it wasn't me or him that pulled away -- it was IRIS! She put a wall between us - it was the only way I would get DREAMERS done. Big fricken DUH ALLIE! See Will - I told you there's no reason to be mad at me.

Need to get to bed - I'm one tired pup!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Iris Is Gone!

Yep - that's right - Iris is gone. I cried like a baby. I didn't mean to, it just flowed right out of me. I finished DREAMERS last night and I must admit - it's pretty good this time. Of course, I thought it was good previous times when it actually sucked:) But this time I know it's different. How? Besides the fact that it read better - I had chills up and down my spine as I was getting ready to send it. Iris told me not to worry - that it will all flow as it should and that huge changes are ahead for me in the upcoming months. I need to remain grounded during and after the change happen (sounds like menopause, doesn't it- lol). She told me to make frequent trips back to Ohio (after I move obviously) so that I don't lose touch with where I came from. It'll be too easy to get swept up in the hoop-la of Holly-Weird, especially after the years of hard work and personal sacrifices I've made. I told her we'd have to see about that -- I'm not packing my bags yet.

Before she left I asked her if I should tell my manager that she's gone? Iris said - no. Wait until she reads your script and calls you to tell you what a good ob you did. After that, believing everything I have told you about your life changing will be easier to believe. She said her good-byes, told me to stop crying and pull it together:) They'll be a time where she and I will meet again - many years down the road. And that was that - she was gone.

In her place Andrew stepped in and Ethan plus Robert were both back. I laughed and said - it takes 3 men to fill 1 woman's shoes. Andrew laughed - Robert and Ethan did not :) Ahh - next to me right now is Edward. Sheesh -- seems like the gang is here:) Andrew said that he's going to give me some down time ater al the hard work I've done - and then we'll jump into my love life :)

Later on last night, my manager called and said exactly what Iris said she would. After she was done - I told her Iris was gone.

Now as my manager is doing her thing - I'm back on THE BLACK TRIANGLE.

My son is off school today - as it's "Fair Day" for the kids in Wooster. So he, my mother and one of my sisters will be heading down to the fair. I doubt that I will have a chance to do the podcast today - but you never know.

I didn't get a wink of sleep last night. I'm a tired pup. My brain wouldn't shut off. As you know - when this happens - change is in the air. As I was trying to sleep, Will kept popping up. Nothing annoying or intrusive. The visits were more - how are you? How's your son - etc....His energy was like it was in the beginning - when he first arrived and acknowledged himself. It was calm. soothing and patient. Maybe he has made some life decisions that has smoothed out his energy field? I hope he has - for his sake - his energy was too spiky before. I'm looking forward to seeing him again.

Ted was all over the board last night. Man is his energy just @ucked up. He needs an intervention - one to get away from his psycho wife and two to get into rehab. I try to connect to him, to give him more white light. But it's almost as if I'm trying to connect to a mosquito. His energy darts around and it's rather sharp. I'll keep trying though -- I have to.

Bill stopped by to say "Hi" - the man is all smiles. Not sure what he's so go-happy about, but I wish he would send some of it to Ted. Although, Bill is pretty dang cute when he smiles;)

And of course - George showed up. His energy was more like a kid who had too much sugar. He was quite funny and I found myself chuckling:) Good thing no one was around as I was laughing with no one there - and no obvious external cause for the laughter:)

It's a beautiful day for the county fair!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Artemis, Atlantis And Andrew!

I still feel like crap. But at least the world isn't spinning. Now it's the change of seasons yuck that I get - although today it is supposed to be 90. Next week it'll be in the low 70's upper 60's. I spent the day yesterday at the doctor's for my son and the vet for Brodie. Each got medicine. For my son - he has a combo allergies & sinus infection. For the dog - I made the vet put him back on his original meds from July - they seemed to work - they just weren't prescribed long enough. So I have double the amount this time. And what do you know - Brodie didn't have to snort out the mucus this morning when he got up. So they are working already.

With my son -- the battle has begun for school. Wow - he really didn't want to go. He wants to go to a different school - but he wouldn't tell me why. I'll try to get it out of him again tonight. It is probably the back lash from last year when the kids called him the "weird one". I told him he'll switch schools soon enough as this time next year we'll be in CA or NYC. He was happy about that.

I wasn't on the Maria Shaw show today - they reran last week's show. Seems that Joe (the producer) is MIA and Maria is driving through the mountains of Tenn. in an effort to make it back to MI after they were both kicked out of NOLA due to the hurricane. Blessings that everyone gets home safe and sound.

I was asked to do a quick session this morning with my healing wand - haven't done on of those in awhile. As soon as I took the wand and was settled in - I was transported to a large room - looked like a large bedroom. My guide, Andrew, was there. After we exchanged greetings - I asked him where we were - he said watch. So I did and I see me in a long, vintage yellow dress - looks silky - and I was thin! Not skinny mind you - but thinner than I am now with muscle tone! I looked at Andrew and asked if this was me in the next life - he said no -- money can buy you an amazing physical trainer. I was like - really? Then George came in - dressed to the nines in a wonderful tux. Andrew said we were off to some awards event that I was nominated for. I was like - wow - how cool is that?

Then he had me sit down and said: Listen - things are going to move for you very fast - very soon. The time might be perfect for you to find romance, but I'm not so sure how much energy you will have for it. Between work, your son and moving. But it will be there if you want it. Where's Iris - I asked. She's near by - all of those ideas you are getting now for DREAMERS - that's her hand in it all. Her time with you is wrapping up and she's only pushing you so that you don't miss your window of opportunity to get the ball rolling in your career.

So breathe deep - and enjoy the stillness while it lasts.

And with that he was gone.

I don't think that I'll miss any window of opportunity with Iris around - she simply wouldn't let it happen.

My dreams last night were really intense. They revolved around the crystal skulls and Atlantis. The dream memory that stands out the most has me in a flowing dark blue robe - sitting to a fire pit - talking with my crystal skull Artemis. My hands are very tingly as I hold the skull and the top of my head feels as if it is on fire. She reveals to me a new healing method of crushing a crystal and mixing it with lavender oil. The mixture is then placed on wounds for healing. I am against that I would crush a crystal - knowing there is a spirit inside. Artemis tells me that the crystals gladly give up their existence - it is their destiny in their current lifetime to do so. After the mixture has helped heal the wound, it is to be returned to the soil so that a new crystal could be brought forth. When the new crystals emerge they would be rose and/or lavender in color and exhibit wondrous qualities of love and the psychic sense. The vibrational qualities of Artemis were extraordinary.

It was an amazing skull. I hope I can remember more connections with Artemis.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

George, Iris And Will!

What a busy day so far! It's keeping me on my toes - that's for sure! I was on the Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com this morning from 10:15 - 10:30 am ET if you want to catch when it repeats this evening. We chatted about the number 5, OBE sex, the newsletter and George. It was - as usual - a good time.

Iris is pushing me so hard to finish this draft of DREAMERS. She knows it's the last one - that it's the one who will get the show sold. I must admit, as much as I want to get on with my life, I'll miss Iris and her no-nonsense guiding. Iris is what they call the big guns. She shows up when a major life change is on hand - a life change that once it happens, there is no going back to the way life had been. For those in her charge she only shows up once -maybe twice in a lifetime. But when she does - it going to be a blow-your-socks-off change. She's moving on to one of my clients. This client already knows that Iris is on her way - she's showed up plenty of times already, just watching. The client called me yesterday, out of the blue, to chat. She's worried about Iris. I assured her there's nothing to worry about. She asked how will she know if she's hearing Iris? Before I could answer, she launched into "her" idea about going to vet clinics (she is to be an animal healer) and giving away free energy healing for practice - she went on to say a few more ideas. When she paused -- I jumped in. So, you want to know how you will hear Iris? What were you just telling me? SILENCE. Then Oh @hit. Yep -- Iris had been chatting with her all along:) She how she works?

LOL.

So I'm waiting on Andrew to then show up and take over my love life. Andrew, from all accounts, was such a loving and giving soul when he was alive. My Great Grandmother (his mom) was a moonshine runner (family had their own speakeasy, gambling and moonshine operation). When she was caught by the police, Andrew took the rap for her and went to jail. That's what kind of guy he was -- my grams loved him so dang much. When he died of pneumonia he was 29 (he was 10 years older than grams) they had been married for 2 years. Anyways - not only was he kind, but he was forthright and could also stand up and be heard. Something - as you know - I need. No passive guides for me - I need people in the trenches:) My mother still has Andrew and grams wedding rings. I think I'll hunt them out when I'm at her house this weekend.

My son - so far - likes school and is staying out of trouble. Every morning we are going over the rules of what he should not do in school - coupled with him raising his energy walls. Once a week I'm doing the laying on the stones - and he has a few amethysts in his room. I'll get his energy straightened out eventually.

Now that I've had a reading about George - guess who is slowly pushing his way back more into my energy field - yep - Will. It's kind of like - I know I'm not going to do anything but I don't want you to forget about me because of George - type of energy. Lord - how can one forget about their other half? But with Will's energy comes a mentoring energy as well. It's hard to describe - it's a love energy, but one where he is a teacher and not a lover. Like this all started out years ago when he first contacted me - he was to be a mentor or teacher of sorts and it appears that his energy has stepped back into that role. I wonder how I can be in the same room and not want to kiss the hell out of him? Well, I may want - but as long as he is in the teacher/mentor role, it's a line I will not cross. It's strange with Will - there is no karma to tie up, no lessons to learn - but we have a mutual mission that has to be accomplished together. It is rather refreshing not to have past karma with someone.

George and I have past karma - he making things up with me. If he wants to make things right in this life, I do believe that I will let him do just that. It's a strong urge from him to make things right - I would say it's a primal urge. It's something that his soul is hungry to do - something he must do. And when approached in this lifetime, I will let him do it. When I came to solid grips with that decision, more visions started flying in - and I'm not ignoring them any longer. I've had visions of George and our friendship/relationship for years now - and I have just pushed them to the side. They have been around since I discovered Bill and this whole world opened up to me. I'd love to see George and Bill have a talk - it would be very interesting. Both are deeply committed souls - wanting to make the world a better place for mankind, animals and the environment. Both are Democrats and outspoken.

The visions I get with George in them revolve around children. My son, George's friends children and more. There's always laughter and good feelings. He's always doing things for me - I can see me telling him just to stop it. But that's what he wants to do -- keep giving and giving. The whole thing just seems so surreal to me right now.

I can hear someone now saying - what if Will wakes up and comes to his senses about more than a mentor relationship? If he does so before I get involved with someone, then I'm open to it. If it happens after, then he's too late. At least in this life.

Time to get back to work:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Bill, Atlantis And Energy Work!

All I have to say is why didn't I think of this:

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=250280309940

God that would have been great!! HA! But that's long over and I'm finally - I do believe - all over it. I feel that over the last year no matter how happy I was to be rid of the negative weight my marriage brought me - I still held onto some of the anger. But oddly enough - I just woke up this week and it was gone. Don't know why - don't know how - but that doesn't matter. I also had an unexpected shift that resulted in a determination to move out of Ohio. Sure I've always said I wanted to -- but now I'm determined to -- that's a whole different ball game.

I'm getting ready to leave for FL. If you've emailed me and I haven't gotten back to you yet - the odds are slim that I will before I leave. Although I am taking my lap top with me. This only in case I'm inspired to write - I've had some interest in Dreamers so I have to redo that again. I'll be by the gulf - lounging on the beach for 5 days - and I do get my best ideas in and around water -- so you never know. The lounging part al depends on how much my father drives me crazy - or the combo of my father and my son - through my step-mom into the mix and I just don't know. It won't be a dull trip - that's for sure! My son is excited that I won't work (technically) for 5 days - he's excited we get to play all the time:) His favorites games are Trouble and Uno! I'm trying to get him interested in Clue - but so far no deal.

My son is all signed up to go back to his school upon our return from FL. I don't know if it was good or bad that the principal remembered him by name. I'm thinking bad. He's kind of of excited to go - that should last maybe a week - probably more like 3 days. I'm working on him energy wise - the laying of the stones is going well. I am also working on him after he goes to bed with what I call Energy Smoothing. It's taking the uneven parts of his energy field and making them smooth. I don't do this over him while he's asleep - but I stay in my office while he's in bed. I can zone in on his energy field and pour colors into his energy field or take the excess away. Then it's like my hands go over his energy field to smooth out the rough edges - it's a pretty cool process that I had a dream about weeks ago. I had forgotten about even having the dream until I went back through my dream journal the other day. In the dream I was in Atlantis. I was working on Ted's energy with the process I described above. As I was working on his energy, Bill was placing different crystals/stones in this water channel that ran around the outside of the crystal bed Ted was on - it was very cool. I would shift energy, Bill would then change stones and I would fine tune Ted once again. This went on until when Bill changed stones - Ted's energy wouldn't flux, but stayed smooth. I haven't quite figured out how to incorporate the crystal table/water channel with stones. Unless I worked on him while he took a shower - and I could but some crystals/stones around the tub. Humm...

When I get done with my son - I should work on Ted. That man and his energy - dang it's all screwed up. I don't see how that man functions on a day-to-day basis. His face/energy did come by yesterday - but it was a very short visit. It was almost as if he was checking in on me and then he left. I tried to get him to come back - no dice.

Bill is in my dreams a lot lately. Mostly we are doing the same thing we always do - pour over notes, books and maps. This last dream we were in a very dusty, moldy - haven't been touched in over 200 years - type of room. Whatever clue we found in the previous dream led is here (I, of course, didn't write that dream down). Both of us kept coughing because of all of the dust we stirred every time we moved. We were looking for a book that had 3 interlocking silver circles and the circles were interlocked so that it formed a triangle. We searched and searched and finally found it. Bill removed it from the shelf and we thumbed through it. There wasn't anything there. He was complaining - and I took my flashlight and shown it into the empty space where the book has been. I saw something.....told Bill to come here and we removed some books. Back into the shelf was a 3 stone lock - meaning there were places for the placement of 3 stones. We looked at one another - we need Ted. Both of us looked panicked - Ted isn't the most reliable one on the planet these days. Bill said he'd work on him -- and he left, I woke up. No wonder Ted's energy came through earlier in the day (it just dawned on me - duh), we needed him in our dream visit.

Iris told me this morning that her time with me is almost over - at least for now. I asked who was coming next, she said my guide Andrew. I asked if he was my great uncle Andrew who was actual my grandma's 1st husband (had pneumonia and died - then she married his brother - my gramps). When she answered me - I had a hard time receiving her answer as my brain got involved and wanted it to be a yes. So I took a step back, cleared my mind and asked to see a picture of my guide Andrew. It was a picture of my Uncle Andrew. I'm curious to see how this is going to play out as the stories I heard from Grams about him was that he was a very loving, kind and gentle man. Nothing like his brothers. I asked Iris what is his purpose with me? She said to find love. That's a good thing:) But Iris will be here for a spell longer - she said as soon as one thing slips into place in regards to my career - the door closes with her (for now and she stressed the FOR NOW part - lol). She of course, did not tell me what needs to slip into place - but I'm sure it has to do with my screenwriting -- or -- my OBE Sex workshops.

Last night Will actually popped in while I was taking a shower. No - nothing happened. But the exchange went something like this:

W: It's about time.
A: What?
W: It's about time that you let me back in.
A: Last time I checked you were old enough to use the phone without your mommies permission.
He didn't say a word for a few moments and then....
W: I know. But we're going to see each other soon.
A: We are? Why?
W: Does the why matter?
A: Yep.
W: I don't know the why except that it has something to do with your Dreamers.
A: Why can't you pick up the phone - seriously. Your girlfriend has plenty of male friends and you have plenty of female friends. Why can't I just be one of those friends?
W: Because -- it wouldn't work that way and you know it.
A: Do I now? I know how to say no.
He shot me a sideways look, raised an eyebrow (damn it was cute).
W: No you don't.
A: You do not have that much power of me -- now if you were British AND could speak Italian, you may stand a chance.
Will smiles.
W: We'll see. In the mean time, I can't call.
A: And in the mean time I am not waiting around - nor am I putting the energy into having you contact me.
W: I know. I know. (in a very irritated voice)
A: Now go place house or whatever it is you do and let me finish my shower.
W: You're bull headed.
A: And you're a chicken shit.

And he was gone. He did leave with that cute grin of his. I guess we'll see what happens once I finish the latest version of Dreamers.

BTW -- has anyone seen the trailer to Burn After Reading ? I have to see the movie just because Brad Pitt is such a dork in this trailer -- and George Clooney is not far behind.

I don't know if you noticed or not, but I wasn't on the Maria Shaw Show on Psychiconair.com this week. Maria's producer, Joe, was in the hospital. He's out and feeling okay now - thanks goodness, he's good person -- and apparently no one has my contact information except Joe. Next week I'll be in FL so I won't be on either.

On that note I am out of here. If anything exciting happens I'll send you a message on the Crackberry. If not - see you in a week!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

The Lighthouse, My Prosperity Grid And Empowerment Classes!

Boy this week has been busy - just trying to get caught up has been a chore and a half! I'm heading outside today to give my yard some much needed TLC! It's in such a state of overgrowth. It's supposed to be sunny and 73 today - just perfect for outside work!

I'm trying something new with my son this week - laying on the stones. He doesn't sit still for very long, so I have been putting off doing it. But his aggressive behavior this morning warranted a try. I had him lie down - with a crystal point about his head pointing down: and a stone on each chakra: amethyst, azurite, emerald, citrine, honey calcite and a ruby - with another crystal point at his feet pointing down. He said immediately that he could feel like a burning from his head all the way down to his feet along the chakra line. He actually laid there for 15 min (I was impressed it was that long) and when I took the stones off, the ones at the brow, throat and heart were very warm to touch. He felt the most activity in his brow chakra, At 1st I had a purple fluorite there - but it was too strong and was giving him a headache - so I grabbed the amethyst and did a switch. I want to get a couple of big amethyst's for his room. I have tried to get him to wear one or to put it in his pocket - but he loses them all.

I'm going to do this with him once a day for while and see what happens. I also have to remember that no matter what he says or does - I have to control my anger as his energy absorbs it and then all hell breaks loose. I have discovered though, that he has been by dad in a couple of past lives. Hence why he has such a hard time listening to me and doesn't appreciate being "demanded" to do something. Demanded is his word - all I do is ask - and then ask again.

I had a nice chakra grid set up for Will during his healing with Tracey. I took it down this morning. I am very open and willing to communicate and meet/be with the guys on a spiritual level - anytime, anywhere. But as far as me trying to shift their energy so that they make physical contact - I'm done. I'm very firm with the "I'm Done" too -must be the Taurus in me :) They all know where to find me and if they ever want to talk - they know how I can be reached.

So after I took down Will's grid - I decided to do one for me (which is a first). I decided on a prosperity/abundance grid - when I laid them down I focused in on my career. In the middle I have a aventurine heart to represent me, along with a stauroliteutile (fairy cross) and rutile. Around them I have 3 malachite's, 1 emerald, 1 aventurines and 1 aquamarine. Around this I have 9 quartz crystals with the points inward. 3-6-9 are the stones.

I want to get a statue of Aphrodite and one of Brigit. Ever since Amy in NOLA suggest I call Aphrodite in to help me with my life, I have felt her very strong presence around me. Iris suggested that I find a stature in her honor - I told her that was fine, but Brigit deserves one too. She agreed.

I found the lighthouse that has been in my visions with Bill and Ted. I stumbled across it and knew immediately, that this was the one I saw: http://www.gallooislandlighthouse.com/ of course in my visions it is painted, fixed up - etc....but that's it. I about fell over when I came across it. My son and I were talking about lighthouses and he mentioned how he'd love to live in one - well I'd love it too - so I thought I'd look around, just for the hell of it. And wouldn't you know - it's for sale - for $295k. Actually - the whole dang island is for sale too (for something like $17.5 mil) - it would make a GREAT spiritual retreat - the whole island. With the lighthouse being the central point for healing, readings - etc..... Of course my son wants me to buy it right now (the lighthouse, not the island) -- I told him that I don't have the cash right now, but if we are to have it in this life, then we will:)

I have updated the Empowerment eClass page for Sept - new prices and a new class: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/empowermenteclasses.htm

The sale for Empowerment Coaching ends in 2 weeks. Buy now, use later -- just as long as it is by the end of 2008: http://www.gypsyadvice.com/empowermenteclasses.htm payment plans are available on all of the coaching plans.

Lastly - I have started an OBE Sex newsletter. It'll be bi-weekly and cover:

- A OBE story not found on the blog.
- New S.ex Position (do-able in both OBE & Physical)
- Sexual Energy Exercise- OBE S.ex Tip

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/obesex/join

Tonight I will be on:

The Unexplained World

From 10:00 pm EDT - 11:00 pm as to talk about OBE sex and guides/angels!

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/tuw

And on that note - outside I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill. Dreams And Will!

I find myself in a dilemma. Remember the fireman? Well he's still around (out lasted Mr. Client Guy - who, BTW I talked to this morning) and we've chatted sporadically over the last several months. I've kept up every wall I have - trying not to actually like the guy - or should I say want to know more so that I could have a chance to like him. But I find the more I chat with him, the lower the walls are getting. And even though his political views are not on the same field as mine - just about everything else is - well, except for our ages - I am older by 8 years. Doesn't seem to bother him. I'm not sure I'm ready to let down the walls. But if I don't, I could be missing out on a great guy - a guy with no baggage - no ex wives, no children, no psycho exes (as far as I know). But -- what if I do and then things go through with me script wise and I move? I'm doing exactly what I tell my clients not to do "What if" myself to death. Damn I hate when I don't listen to my own good advice. So I have here a seemingly good guy who has a sense of humor, can cook, like animals & kids, likes the X-Files and Star Wars - plus realizes that George Lucas couldn't write his way out of a paper bag without a co-writer. Oh, and he's fully aware on what I do for a living.

I know I'm over thinking everything. Hummm...sounds familiar doesn't it? No wonder I don't have a love life - lol. But he lives about 30 min away - so we'll see if we actually get to that 1st date that we're trying to arrange.

I'm behind in all my email. This last week was very hectic and busy - busy. Next week I'm off to New Orleans on Friday - remember I'll be at Maria's Psychic Fair! Wednesday I'll be in Cleveland most of the day with my son at a pediatric psychiatrist. His empathy gifts aside - he has some issues that need to be taken care of that he needs someone who specializes in children - and of course there is no one in Wooster that's affiliated with the Cleveland Clinic that does that. No results of the brain EEG yet. So basically I have to fit in a weeks worth of work in two days. HA - that's funny.

I'm rewriting DREAMERS for the last time. I want to get this done - so the blog posting will again be down - unless something major happens. No word from Nickelodeon.

When was the last time you checked out my Gypsy News section for Gypsy (Roma) news, environmental - animal - gov't alerts? I have something there that's important about Horse Slaughter that you should take action on.

I emailed Tracey yesterday to watch out -- Bill visited me in my dreams and then was around all morning. She said she woke up with a full-blown headache. The guy was full of piss and vinegar and appeared to have wanted to null & void the agreement he and Will made. This is what happened:

In the dream visit, Bill was so excited that he finally "got" everything. We're in what looked like a personal library. Plenty of books, round table w/ 2 chairs and a desk. He and I have been here before. He finally understood - his logical mind clicked in place with his intuitive side. He was like a kid in a candy store - so excited to the world that finally made sense to him. We were comparing notes on what we have experienced thus far. He wanted so much to be able to remember everything that I can remember. I told him to give himself 10 min increments. Set an alarm clock and once it goes off, write down everything he remembers. As time goes on - increase the amount of time before the alarm goes off. Before he knows it, he won't need the alarm at all.

He liked that idea. People were coming in and out of the room, they were around outside - milling about. Bill kept rubbing my shoulder & my upper back as we talked. Like he had to keep touching me. I commented that if he keeps doing that - then people will think we have something going and/or they will know that we know one another and that he's "Bill". He ignored what I said and kept going over the notes. He kept leaning in closer and closer to me until....(see OBE Sex blog).

...When I woke up I could still feel his energy around me. He kept pulling me in telepathically - they were snippets of telepathic connections. He went on about Will has not done anything despite the agreement. He's not waiting any more. Will out of the equation. I'm trying to calm this flurry of "whatever" down - saying give Will a chance - you've known about the connection for over 4 years, he just got it under 2 years ago and still hasn't come to grips with it. That he finally "got" what I see, it'll take Will awhile to catch up. He's going on there is no more time - times up - Ted needs us now. He's falling into the abyss. Ted's at a point where he's heading for death row -- and Bill just kept going on. I told him - if Ted needs us that bad - pick up the &^%$# phone and call me. You and I can help Ted without Will. I asked, what about bring in George - he's already up to speed and I don't think he needs a push. Bill went on - he's not part of our core -- I'm like are sure? He's like - don't question what I say. I'm like - wait there babe - I'll question whatever the hell I want to. You don't want George here because he'll slam your ass up against the wall, he won't take your over-thinking self and put up with it. He'll stand up to you and you're afraid -- your afraid he'll win. This isn't a contest of wining -put your ego aside for just a second. For a man who loves to help people, you sure are brutal on the souls closest to you.

I'm done for now - you let me know when we should go see Ted.

And I broke the connection. Bill's right here though - has been all day. I know he wants to continue the convo - I'm sure we will tonight.

SIGH

Merlin was right when he said he'd be with me every night in the dreamscape. The dream time has been so chalked full of flying, putting things together - creating spells/potions and studying. I can't remember all of the details - Merlin tells me that my subconscious will slowly leak knowledge to my waking mind on an as needed basis. No reason - he said - to fry my circuits. That was nice of him:)

Off to grab a bowl of ice cream and then get back to DREAMERS:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)