Making Amends, To-Do List and Subconsious Reality!

I swear I have no idea where my day went. Granted, today was running errand day. I still have one more stop - but it'll have to wait till Friday. It was a nice sunny day here in Ohio and I figured - why not? Besides - was sooooo tired of sitting at my computer. I also worked on my college financial aid forms and my scholarship applications.

I've used a good portion of brain power on my "to do" list which as I told you guys - I'd be accountable for here in the blog. Working on the BT I have hit a road block that I have to find a way through. The original plan in the script was to have an SS officer and a gypsy woman leave the camp in search of something by orders of Mengele. But the powers that be think it's too far fetched - so I have to have all of the action that I had on the various trips confined to the concentration camp. I've been studying Birkenau for hours -- going over maps - looking at buildings. I have to have an idea of what I'm going to write - and then I'll fill in the details as I'm writing. But I can't find that overview to start with......I have 1 month until this script is due and I have to have it done. I know I'll figure it out - but in the meantime it's unsettling.

That said -- I was able to work out a couple of scenes that I want to add. So that was cool. OBE I got no where with. I just ran out of time.

For those of you who voted in the Start-Up Nation contest - thank you. Winners will be announced in May. Fingers crossed.

My dreams are still really out there - and so *&^% busy. I mean WTF? On top of it I can't remember a dang thing. I asked Ethan why can't I remember when I'm usually pretty good at it. He told me the good stand by "You're not supposed to know". I sighed - I couldn't help myself. He told me that if I consciously knew everything my subconscious knew - then I'd be overwhelmed and I'd shut down. The nice thing about a subconscious he said is that it has no distinction between the physical realty and the other worlds/dimensions. So it operates under the assumption that what is going on in the subconscious is your reality. Hence why the thought process and habits are a huge part of our reality. Humm...if I could get my subconscious to believe that I was actually in a physical reality friendship with Bill, Ted, Vincent and Will - would my reality shift to accommodate the world that my subconscious lives in? Or would my subconscious and reality be at war with one another - thereby creating a hell of a lot of inner turmoil?

I must admit - there's a small part of me, I'm ashamed to say, is convinced that I'm not supposed to be in any kind of relationship with anyone in my soul cluster in this lifetime. If that is indeed the case - I must of really screwed up in past lives in regards to these guys to have this happen now. In order to make amends (if there are any to make) would I have to do it in person by having a physical relationship with them? Or could I make amends via our energy fields & souls? Would that heal whatever it is we're stuck in? I should be asleep - but I'm up pondering these things.

I mentioned to Ethan that I have not seen or felt Andrew in along time. He said that Ethan is off working with Vincent. He does stop in daily to see how I'm doing - but Vincent really needs him right now. I'm thinking it's time for some chick power: Iris, Jezell and Brigit. As soon as I typed that I heard Ethan say I was crazy - lol. So what's his point?

Seeing that I will be a pain in everyone's rear end if I do not get to sleep - I'd better scoot.

Samatha and AJ - how did you do on your projects today?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Guide Ambush, Energy Healing And Progress!

Man is it cold here. Last night it was 1 with the wind chill - 22 degrees F. Granted - not as cold as Minn or maybe the Dakota - but dang it was still cold. I felt so bad for Little Black Kitty (I really should just call him Salem). He wanted to come in so bad last night - and who could blame him? But I can't let a sick - un-neutered male - into my house. Thankfully, his eyes are starting to look better because of the garlic & vit C that I've been giving him.

I was certainly busy on the Winter Solstice. A lot of cooking baking, present wrapping and some more decorations up and out. By the time the day was over - I looked like a bag of powdered sugar exploded on me - lol!

When the day was over and I was looking forward to some shut eye - I was ambushed by my guides. Yep - ambushed. Before I knew it I had Andrew, Paul, Ethan. Edward, Robert, Jezell, Brigit and Iris. I'm like WTF?

I asked what's up? Before anyone could say anything - Iris stepped up. I said - don't get all over about the Cheryl situation. I can't help it. She said for me not to sass her. SIGH. I said fine - but that she didn't have to yell at me. She said she wasn't going to. Just that she'll be popping in and out because my life is about to do a 180. I asked if it is supposed to be a good 180? Because life isn't a bowl of cherries right now - I'd hate to see things go south even more.

She said no - not bad. It'll be like a dam breaks, and it'll take all of them - including her - to keep me on the straight and narrow. Sheesh - what in the hell is supposed to happen? Iris showed me a quick glimpse of airports, meetings, workshops and hotels. She said that's all I need to know. Iris said she'd be back and she left.

So I "looked" around to the rest of them - and Edward stepped up. He said that I need to keep sleeping now - and to work on my dreaming skills - to advance them even more. That's when Robert stepped up and said the OBE book needs to be done - the outline. It's overdue. That brought Jezell up to tell me to work on my manifestation skills and to be very VERY careful on where I decide to place my thoughts. Brigit was next and said that I have to start offering my healing - to which Andrew agreed. Paul told me to get ready because a new love is about to enter my life - Andrew agreed.

Andrew then said that something will happen before Jan 15th that will start the ball rolling in my direction. Ethan stepped forward and said he wanted me to write my affirmations in my journal - which I did.

All I have to say is we'll see what happens:)

The healing part I put in today's podcast. Healing and attunement information before I list it on the site at the start of the year.

It's so difficult to work with an 8 year old in my ear - lol.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Vincent And More!

It is so drab, dark and rainy here. Yucky - Yucky - Poo. Seriously.

The meeting of Santa Friday night went well. My son was so excited - just waving and jumping up and down to the Santa. He wanted to go say hi to him again this year. Santa was approaching us and I could tell he wasn't going to say hi to my son again so as he was right in front of us, I smacked his elbow and yelled - Hi Santa! He turned and shook my son's hand. The kid was on cloud nine for the rest of the freezing evening. It was so cold out - but he was so happy he didn't even notice.

The weekend was cold - but went well. I got some work done on the horror story - but not much. Robert is here bugging me to get the OBE outline rewritten. Andrew happens to agree with him -- and Paul just sits back and smiles. Paul smiles a lot. Last night he was in a dream of mine. My son and I were on this ultra luxury private jet. It was decked out. We were being shown around - when the pilot wanted to show my son the cool games on the plane. While they were doing that, I took a turn and ended up at this mini bar. Seated there was Paul. He looked at me and asked - how do you like it? I told him it looked great - pretty comfortable and appears to have everything anyone would want. He smiled - said Good - get used to it. I woke up. The image of the inside that plane stayed with me after I awoke. It was a white interior with blue trim. Besides that dream - I tossed and turned all night. By the time I did get out of bed I was pooped.

But back to the OBE book. As I was working on the outline I thought of a killer second book dealing with orgasms and sex. The 2nd book has Oprah and The View written all over it. I already have a title and actually I saw the whole workshop tour unfold before my eyes. It was so fricken cool. But I have to get this book done first. Mums on the title for #2 or what's it all about - one thing I will say it's good:)

Over the weekend I came across my old diary from high school. In it I found my old musings about moving to Asheville, NC. I always wanted to live there - been there several times and just loved the warm feeling. No matter where I went I felt a surge of positive energy. As I was reading my diary - for some reason Will popped into my head. Once there - he stayed for most of the day. He acted like a comforter, his energy being comforting, but not invasive. Later on that evening as I laid down to go to sleep, I felt him calling me into a session. I went and sure enough - there was that willow tree right by the river. Will was leaning against it, smile on his face. You look good - he said. I am good - I replied. Are you happy, Will asked. For the most part - I said - if tinsel town could get from 1st gear to 2nd, I'd be a lot happier. Will laughed. That's the way that part of the world works, he murmured, you either live with it or you don't and walk away. There is no in between. Well I guess I'm stuck - aren't I? He chuckled - sure looks that way. Go to sleep - Will said - and we'll catch up later. And that's what I did - went to sleep.

Vincent did stop by today and tell me how tired he is. I know he's tuckered out - which is why I haven't been pushing to make any sort of connection this last week. I could tell he needed some chill time - and could still use another week or two. But I told him that if he needs me - all he has to do is call.

There have been a ton of new people who have found this blog over the last two weeks. Seems that people are confused on who is what and if anyone is actually real. So here's the skinny for the newbies - everyone is real. I don't make anything up. If there is a connection to another person that I do not physically know in this lifetime (as in Will, Vincent, George, Bill or Ted) I confirm what I sense with a couple of other people before it ever makes this blog. I'm the type of person where something has to happen to me many times over before it causes a blip on my radar. And then I still need some sort of confirmation. SO what I write here are not elaborate fantasies to entertain you. If that's what you're looking for - you need another blog. I write what I do because there are people out there who have occurrences like I do - not exactly the same - but similar. Plus I know (intuitively wise) that Bill, Ted, Will, George and Vincent have al been to this blog at least twice. I also write so that they can find the blog - and compare the experiences to their notes.

Quick rundown:

Bill, Ted, George, Will and Vincent - soul group
Andrew, Paul, Robert, Jezell, Iris, Brigit, Ethan - spirit guides
Sean - new friend who Allie is fond of
Tracey, Sky, Gab and Maria - my psychic posse

And that's that.

I added Sexual Coaching to my list of services (and no, that does not mean I sleep with you) along with 2 new tiers of coaching - One Time Coach and One Week.

My sister is in New Orleans - I hate her (not really) she's having a great time......

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Update On Gab's Reading!

I'm a firm believer that only three things are certain in life: change, our physical death and our destiny markers. Anything else is up for grabs. So what did Gab say? Grams T immediately came through and she said that she's been watching and knows what's going on. Very proud of me and what I've done thus far. Old boyfriend Mitch says hi and that he visits me in my dreams a lot. She mentioned a very quiet energy around me - someone who is just hovering and watching. When I asked her to describe more - she described Bill:)

Guides Robert and Jezell were around. Showed Gab that I had a very long and bumpy road behind me filled with rocks, pot holes and curves. In front of me was a nice straight road with the sun coming up. The worst for love, career and money are behind me.

I asked about Heath -- she sat there for a second and said -- why are they showing me Heath Ledger? I said because that's the correct Heath. Seems that he just loves to talk to me (yep I know) and will hang around with me until I tell him that I've had enough. I went and asked about all these people who I keep helping in my dreams. She said that I'm a Spiritual Mentor.

2007 - 2008 is all about reorganization, getting priorities in a row and discovering me. 2010 is my career, money and love year - although 2009 is better in all three than 2008 was and the last 1/2 of 2008 is better than now.

Asked about my project for Nickelodeon - she said if this doesn't fly exactly how I want it to try again - as it will get picked up. DREAMERS - looks like the 2nd place we send it to takes it and she suggested we send it to Steven Spielberg and his new paranormal channel.

She told me to go get a check up - didn't like the way my ovaries looked/felt. She kept sensing a lot of heat. And since Ovarian cancer has killed just about every female on my mom's side - it's time for a check up.

Will & Ted - both soul mate, kindred spirits - but neither man is long-term in this life. They are both more of a thorn in my side.
Bill - soul mate, kindred spirit - he stays by my side closer than Will or Ted. Our history has more past - more than Will and I even though Will and I are older souls - I've been with Bill in more lives. She said that he is not good for me. In fact none of the three are because we will keep battling for who is in charge (gee really). But she never said that he wasn't long-term, just that being with him will not be easy.

I'm going to have a string of lovers starting sooner rather than later -- and eventually I will settle down again - but not till 2010.

I have to finish the OBE sex book - sooner rather than later. Business will be even busier with Gypsy Advice.

My son is very restless and needs a constant outlet for his energy. If not - then he's prone to turn to drugs & alcohol when he's older.

And that's about it.

It's nice to know that what's in front of me is sunnier than what I have already been through:) It's also nice to know that the guys will be as difficult as I thought they would.

But damn it Will! SIGH. At least tomorrow is Thursday!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Maria Shaw, Dream Visits And Other Musings!

I think that my son was one of the first to school this morning - lol! He didn't complain that much about going - so I think he was excited to see his friends. I get to have a meeting with his teacher, school counselor and principal tomorrow afternoon. Oh joy. Wish me luck:)

The national radio show I mentioned last week is Psychic On Air: http://www.psychiconair.com a CBS show out of Detroit MI and staring Maria Shaw (3 other psychic/intuitives have their own shows too). Maria's show will go form 9 am - 12 noon Mon - Fri with the official start date tomorrow - April 1st. But today (Monday march 31) she is on from 2 - 6 pm. I will be on with her somewhere between 2 - 4 pm. Not sure the exact time - her producer is simply going to ring me. It'll be great national exposure not only for myself, but for the other readers who do Maria's fairs. I'm not sure how often I'll be on every month with her - maybe a couple to start and see how I do. But no matter how often I'm on - I'm excited to be on the show and grateful she asked me to do so. After the official launch tomorrow - you should be able to listen to the show right from the Psychic On Air web site. In May, the show joins forces with AOL:)

I spent the weekend working on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. It's still not where I want it to be - but it's getting close. I freed up some more time today to work on it. But I too have to really get my butt in gear with the OBE book. I've worked on it a little here and there -- but haven't really buckled down. That too is on my "to-do" list this week.

I was investigating spy wear yesterday -- specifically hidden camera and audio equipment. I want to start busting psychic scam artists and showing their tricks on You Tube. I have absolutely no idea when I can do something like this -- but it's in the Allie "think" tank - as well as putting together a book.

I had yet another dream with Dave Dietry (from high school) over the weekend. We were in a bar (which seems to be the norm with his dream visits) and he was telling me that he noticed me in high school. Me on the other hand is like - right - you were Mr. Football, Baseball and dating the head cheerleader. I must of been in your rear view mirror. He got a kick out of that. But replied - no really, I did notice you. It's a shame we didn't run with the same people. I laughed. Then he asked - did you really have a crush on me in high school? I'm like - yep. Then that was it for the dream.

I moved on to a dream visit with an old high school friend - Shelly. She and I were in a one bedroom apt in NYC and I was commenting how I can't believe that we finally moved here. The front door had three locks: dead bolt to the side, a chain, and a dead bolt that went into the floor. The coat closet was on your left - around the corner and you were in the living room, with the kitchen off that to the left. To the right in the living room was a sliding glass door & balcony. I commented that it is hard to believe that only 10 years ago you could have see the twin towers from here. The opposite side of the living room was the bedroom and next to the bedroom - a bathroom. There was a TV screen by the front door so that we could see who was in the hallway. For some reason I was out in the hall with floor 11 having just a few lights on by the first 4 doors (it was like each apt door had their own porch light - with no porch of course) and the rest was dark. Floor 12 was completely black/dark and there was no way I was going on that floor. In fact, floor 12 really freaked me out -- had that icky feeling about it like death was just beyond the elevator.

I cannot remember any dream visits with Will or with anyone else in the soul cluster over the weekend. It felt like my dream visits were either for visiting forgotten friendships or for helping out strangers. In fact, Will has not been very strong at all over the weekend - and he still isn't. Usually when one of the guys is not very strong on my energy is when I get surprised by something. So we'll see.

Remember when my guides told me to start doing healing for others again? Well now their telling me to hold off on that. Since when can't guides make up their minds? Jezell tells me that there are some things going on behind the scenes that they were not even privy too until now. And no - they're not going to tell me. Iris says it's to not send me into freak out mode. I guess that I can appreciate that. Now all they keep saying to me - in unison - is write, write, write. SIGH. Okay bosses - will do:)

You guys have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Dreams And A Painful Past Life Memory!

Writer's block taken care of. It shook loose on Sat night and was gone on Sunday. I didn't get as far as I would of liked with the BLACK TRIANGLE - but getting anywhere was better than nowhere:) Progress - that's the theme of my week:)

My dreams this weekend were al over the board. Man - they were busy. Each morning I woke up more tired than when I went to bed -- and this morning -- hell, I have no idea what the purpose was for me to even go to bed. There was so much action that it was hard to grasp all of it. Saturday night, as I was going to bed - I heard Iris tell me that I needed to go to Will. That whatever would happen in this dream visit would shift his awareness another notch and get him one step closer to the "ah-ha" moment. So that's what I did -- as I fell asleep I felt myself walk down my path to my Dream Gate - thinking about Will as I walked. Next to me was Jezell - we chatted about the next step with Will and I. The next thing I know is I'm going through the Dream Gate and into a courtyard -- reminded me of a Southern Plantation courtyard. Will looked up at me and smiled. From that moment on everything moved in super speed - flashes of light, flying -- with he and I having sex in the air. After sex, I felt myself falling and I woke up with a start - stil in the midst of finshing sex. You know - the kind of start where you sit up in bed and gasp. I laid there for awhile. Jezell told me to go back to sleep and find Will again - things weren't complete yet. I can barely remember this visit with a beach and drinks inside coconut shells. Will was gone and I rounded the corner and Bill was there. But he didn't speak - just passed one another and did that "hello" nod.

Yesterday I could tell there was a shift in Will's awareness - but there's still room for more.

Then last night the dreams were again very busy. Will and I were on a train, in a plane - driving along a countryside. I have no idea where we were - but we come up on this mountain range and I tell him that I want to build there. Were at the foot of a mountain and we find land we want. The next thing I know our house is built and it is Will, myself, my son and a daughter dogs, cats, horses. But our house and the stable is built into the side of the mountain. It's really quite cool (look and feel wise) and goes very far back into the mountain with an indoor pool & spa. Back behind the home (the home has a back door inside of the cave) you can walk a about 1/4 mile and come across an indoor lake. The home is self-contained - we are off all grids.

He and I were next in rehearsals for our play. I'm petrified, he's as cool as a cucumber:) He's giving me tips on how not to die of stage fright - lol. We're also discussing that kids could be in the audience so some of the sex that is in this play will be alluded to. This play is ad lib -- although we have an outline to follow. It's just he and I with minimal props.

Cut to opening night - once I'm on stage it was if I was always there. Right before we went on I looked over at him and thought to myself - how can I be scared of anything as long as he's at my side? He'll never let me fall.

As I'm sitting here - it just felt like I stepped on something with my right foot - ouch!! I have shoes on and didn't step on a thing.

At the end of my dreams, I was at a restaurant (by myself) as I was going up to get seated - I saw Bill. He was there, behind me reading a newspaper. I made sure I said loud enough that it was just one for dinner:) The lady took me to a table that had people in it already. I'm like - I can't sit here. So I went over to the bar. This extremely good looking man shows up and sits next to me. I ordered a Guinness and I think he got a whiskey. I have no idea what we talked about - but we were both very flirty. I remember telling him that it felt good to flirt - and that I'm happy I remembered how. He told me anytime - just give him a call. The only problem is I have no idea what his name is. Ahh - still no name, but he's a baseball player. Dave Dietry -- it just came to me. It was my old classmate Dave from high school - the one I wrote about sometime ago about having a crush on him back then -- yadda, yadda. Ha! After all these years, I wonder why he is showing up now? It's not like he really knew I even existed back in school (he star athlete dating the head cheerleader - me -- in band). So I am really clueless here.

I have noticed that in March Bill shows up every night in my dreams. He just pops up - sometimes we speak, most times we don't. Could be because he's about 1 1/2 hours away from me. And no -- I'm going to drive out to see him. Wouldn't change a thing.

Now the reason I'm writing all of this before I go swimming this morning or before I even do the podcast is for this next little bit that Iris told me HAD TO be written down this morning and posted for Will to see. So here we go....

In the shower this morning I was mulling over the BLACK TRIANGLE. This shifted to Will and his upcoming breakthrough and how I felt when I had my breakthroughs -- especially with Bill, Ted and Will. Nothing took me for a loop as much as Bill as he was the 1st breakthrough -- but each one took some time to get adjusted to and actually believe that I wasn't crazy. Which got me back to Will and how was he going to feel when he finally had that breakthrough? Will he freak, will he be accepting, will he be curious to find out more?? As I pondered these points I was then shifted to thinking - what will be the catalyst for him? He should get a past life regression! That shifted me to the last PLR I had last Oct. The first image that popped into my head was he and I in jail cells - he getting tortured and me having to listen to it. I heard Iris tell me to go to the next one.

So what flashed was the last life Will and I were together - when he was getting burned at the stake. Iris goes -- push backwards. Jezell grabs me by my shoulder and yanks me backwards in time a few days. Will's agitated -- really mean and off sorts. I can tell by watching me that this was not the norm. He wouldn't talk to me - kept being so mean. I come in from gathering fruit it looked like when he flies off the handle at me., He's screaming that it's over that he hates me and that I have to go - NOW. He was very matter of fact - get out, get out, get out. He had a bunch of my stuff bundled up. We had always had an agreement that if one of us was done with the relationship - that we would honor that choice and leave. So completely broken hearted - and I mean completely - I left and went to a neighboring town.

I'm just sitting at this stone slab for a table when a woman comes in and asks if I had heard about Jeremy (this was Will's name in this life) and I said no. He's in the town and they are going to burn him at the stake for witchcraft. It hit me why he wanted me gone - I grab a cloak and run as if my life depended on it. As I just finished that part - I burst out in tears (here and now) I can't stop the tears.

I see myself running and crying and running - not stopping for anything until I get to a stream - I'm thirsty. I bend down to drink and I have a vision of what happened after I left. They came to get him, and on the floor was a woman dressed to be me, but with her face gone. He said that he killed me in a violent rage. An enormous amount of pain went through me and I ran and ran.

I'm in the center of town - it's night and he's in the middle of the pile of wood - tied to a pole. I ease my way through the crowd - hood up, eyes down so that no one will notice me. I stand in front - he knows I'm there and he finds me. Telepathically he's telling me over and over again that he's sorry -- and that he loves me. Over and over he says it -- don't you ever forget - ever how much I love you. I will find you again - I promise. I too echo his love and keep telling him how much I love him and that no matter when it is that we find one another - I will do whatever it takes.

He screaming - the fire is consuming him and I know not to cry because they will find out about me and all this will before nothing. Our eyes stay on one another until there is no more life in his eyes. I can see a white light float from his body and go up to the sky. His eyes -- I never forgot the eyes. Nor did he ever forget mine -- I just know it.

As I was going through this in the shower - I couldn't stop crying -- as I'm writing this - I can't stop crying.

On a separate note - I just got an email that Sylvia Browne is retiring from the lecture circuit. I was right. Thank's T for the email.

Now I have to go swimming or I'll never get there...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Iris And Today's Plans!

Today has not been going as planned - not at all. I had the day all scheduled - swimming in the morning, a few errands afterwards, work from early afternoon to around one and then the BLACK TRIANGLE for the rest of the day. So -- last weekend my washer finally blew up with no amount of band-aids being able to fix it. I ordered a new washer (grateful for the room on my cc). It arrived today (yay), they brought it over to be installed today (yay) -- but they can't seem to get it hooked up without leaking (boo). The 1st two guys came and left 3x trying to find a solution. Now team 2 is here trying to figure out what to do. Of course with all the comings and goings - Allie can't go swim, or do her errands and everytime I start on something - I get pulled away. Not really bitching - per say - for I'm thankful that Lowes is trying to figure out what to do and they haven't left me high and dry. Just frustrated.

But I do get to go to a murder mystery party tomorrow night:) That'll be fun for my son and I! But I found out that right after I got a call from my dad saying that I have to cancel my trip to see him (due to his new boss not letting him the time off - when you're 64, the last thing you want to do is to piss off your new boss and get fired) so that was a bummer.

I have smooth legs and nothing to do with them - ha ha! I'll try again on Monday to swim:) I decided yesterday to incorporate that into my weekly schedule. Tues & Thurs I have karate - so I figure Mon-Wed-Fri swim would do me good. I used to love to swim and did it alllllll the time until I met my ex. Then it just stopped. And the weight came on. Now I want my outside to feel as good as my inside does. It won't be as easy to lose weight swimming as it did 20 years ago - but the water always makes me feel at home. I take comfort in that.

Okay - time out while the Lowes men finish up. Have to run to the store and do some more readings.....

Did the errands and what day wouldn't be complete without a call from the school. SIGH.

Trying to work on the BLACK TRIANGLE but having a serious case of writer's block. I can normally push through it and I'm trying. Of course if I got laid I think the block would be gone - lol. But since getting laid would actually involve me meeting someone - I can't see that happening in the foreseeable future. But since I really DO like my life - I'm sure sex will come when it's supposed to. I just wish I could fast forward it a bit.....

I had an interesting meeting with Jezell, Brigit and Isis today. They were all going on how important it is for me to finish BT (yeah, duh -- how about some unblocking help) for the next step to move forward. Right as they were yammering about that, a bright light appeared. I stared at it and this very robust woman stepped form it. My initial reaction was no fucking way. The woman smiled at me. I'm like again -- get out of town -- you cannot be Iris. She smiled -- so you've heard of me.

For Christ's sake -- of COURSE I heard about you -- I put you in DREAMERS as a GUIDE! She laughs again -- she knows dang well I know who she is. Iris then tells me to get used to it because it is her and I for the long haul - long after everyone else has moved back. I thought to myself - just frickin great - she's a no nonsense smart ass. Just what I need - a female Ethan. She said - I heard that -- and he's a male Iris. Get it right honey.

Now - Iris tells me - it's time to whip your heine into shape and get a move on with that script. You're wasted time. Well Iris, if you could do something to help out with this writer's block, it would be great. Isis steps forward (I forgot she was there) - consider it done. Pay attention to your dreams. And she shimmered from sight.

Jezell grabs my hand and takes me through a wall. We're by a river. The river is wide and there are plenty of boats going down her. Against a willow tree sits Will. Jezell tells me to go. I hurry over to Will and stare down at him. He looks up at me, smiles and says - hey beautiful. He opens up his arms and I snuggle right in. Neither of us says a word - we don't have to. Then before I'm ready for it to end, he fades from my sight and I'm back in my office. Damn it , damn it, damn it.

All day I could feel his energy around me. I'm always amazed, yet not surprised, how comforting his energy is to me.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guides, Three Goddesses And TMI!

TMI = Too Much Information for those of you who aren't up on the lingo. So much going on in the last 12 hours - I hope I can remember everything. Plus - every time I go to write - something else comes up.

As I was eating my bowl of ice cream (yeah, I know - good lunch), it dawned on me my dream visits last night. I forgot everything as soon as I opened my eyes - not even a fragment. But then as I was watching Las Vegas (TV series), a character reminded me of Montel Williams. Then it went from him to Sylvia Browne -- this is when a dream visit started to come back. I am in a large room with lots of tables - I know that I'm there to do readings. In walks Sylvia Browne - she had on a yellow dress - I called it a moo moo dress, which sounds really condescending - but I think that's what it's called. Anyways she says - you're Allie. I nod. She said - I need to talk to you. My 1st thought was - oh God, is something going to happen and she has to tell me about it? But no -- she sits down, I sit across from her and she puts out her hands. I hold her hands -- and just look at her. No one says anything -- then she says - well? I take it you're not here to tell me anything? She said - hell no. Come on, your psychic - why am I here? I take my hands away from hers and tell her that I don't have to hold her hands to get a vision. Then I tell her that I'm not going to tell her when she's going to die. Go look at her own records if she wants to know. She gives me that "look" - then says, quit being a smart ass. If they would show me then I wouldn't be here - would I? Now tell me because I'm not coming back again and I want to have time to tie up lose ends before I go. I tell her the date June 2011 pops into my head, but something will happen around June 2010 as well. She tells me - the June 2010 is you dear, and that is when you enter my physical life.

The next thing I know Montel Williams comes strolling in and I'm excited because I've always liked MW. Sylvia introduces us and tells Montel that this is the woman (meaning me) that will replace me. I looked at her and said - WHAT? She goes - you're not deaf are you? What about your son? I askd. He'll have his hands full running my church and the foundation. What about your daughter-in-law? She can write. A moment of uneasy silence. Okay -- and I start to walk away -- this is too much information for me right now. I see two teenage girls come in -- as I walked towards them I turn to Sylvia and said - the next time I see you, how about a little insight my way? She replied -- you and Will will be fine. I looked at her for a spilt second and smiled. I went to the girls who have sat down at an empty table for a reading. I ask them what I can help them with -- and the one teen girl with long dark hair reaches into her pocket and pulled out a handful of gold coins. I stared at them -- not really getting why she is paying me in gold. She puts her hands back in her pocket and keep bring out gold coins.

Then I woke up.

I may call these three - Jezell, Brigit, Galadriel - the trio of annoyances. Although they are not in my face as Edward and Ethan - they are still always "there" - saying stuff and giving me flash visions so that I know what's coming up. I don't know if I want to know all that is on the horizon -- it's getting pretty overwhelming. I can't even go to the bathroom without someone saying something. Do you know how irritating it is for someone to be whispering in your ear while you're trying to poo? I told them if they want me constipated, they're on the right track. They found that funny -- I wasn't being funny.

As I finished writing the above - all three arrived and said that they had to take me someplace. For some reason it felt like they were going to take me to someplace vitally important -- and I was right. We were in the meadow. My meadow - where I've only been there once (maybe twice) in the last 18 months. I asked why am I here? Jezell said that I have to be here - Brigit chimes in that this is my portal. My soul clusters portal. I reminded them that the woman who actually owned this land - and myself - do not speak to one another nor do I want to. I want another place as my portal -- not here. Again I am told that I have to be here -- that Will and I have to visit here - the physical here. I told them no @ucking way am I coming here with Will or with anyone else. The woman who owned this would not let me on the land and I'm not about to sneak on. Why - oh why do Will and I have to be here? Because this is where you lived in your last life together - said Jezell. What? I thought it was outside of Salem? This is outside of Salem, Brigit replied. But isn't it TOO far outside of Salem? No - Galadriel said, people came far and wide for your services. There wasn't a place in the New England states that didn't know about the two of you. Why do you think that the plants and flowers grown here now for flower essences work so well? Why do you think there are guardians? Why do you think that the right caretaker is here to service the light?

My head's spinning and I sit down against a tree. I do not make nice to anyone who tries to hurt one of my guys - it just isn't who I am. Jezell sits down next to me -- and she is not about to make nice to anyone who would harm the light she has been entrusted to watch over. But you are both wrong and eventually - you two will realize that. Do you not like her friend? The other one who does flower essence - I asked? Yes - her. Yes, I like her very much - she warm, loving and full of light. This one is condescending, full of herself and a know it all. There's a difference. Jezell smiles - you will both see the light, there is no other path to take. Great -- I murmured to myself. But she will not let us be here.

She will - in time - and you will not have to deal with her one on one - Will will be here and she will let you two roam long the meadow and respect your distance and privacy. Trust us - there is no other path to travel for this lesson. At this point there is no part of me that is happy with this realization. I start to object yet again when the earth opens up and rising from it is -- well, for lack of a better way to describe her - Mother Nature. She's tall, yet robust. She's clothed in white, long dark hair & eyes -- with a crown made of grass, twigs and flowers. A Robin sits on her shoulder (no idea where it came from). Her voice is low & soft, but commanding. She said - all of this earth which is mine and mine alone do I share with the earth dwellers who are determined to see it destroyed. There are many who have been called into service to protect the earth and all of it's inhabitants. She, the one on this meadow, is one of those light workers. But she does not own the land - I own the land and it is up to I who steps on a parcel and who does not. If someone steps on a portion of land where I do not want them, I unleash the weather and the bugs to show my wrath. No wrath will befall you or Will as you make haste to this parcel of my soul. You are welcomed here as it is part of your being - part of your light. She will allow this - the light keeper of this land - when the time is right.

From Mother Nature's right the goddess Hathor shimmers into view, on her left the goddess Isis. Brigit goes and stands among them - Mother Nature tells me that it is with these three goddesses am I to ascend to the next level. I'm to work with 3 goddesses? At once? Hathor told me not to panic. Who's panicking? I replied.

Jezell grabbed my hand -- come with me. We walk through a tree and now we're behind a stage. I could hear a lot of people. She points and I can see Will and I. Jezell said that this is the play that I envisioned for Will and I. People far and wide come to see this play based on eternal love. I watch Will and I go out of stage - Jezell whisked me through a wall and we end up behind another stage. She pointed towards the curtain and I peek through -- it's me - and the place is HUGE and packed. I glanced over at her as if to say -- no way am I doing this. She smiled and said - oh yes you will. What am I talking about - I ask? This particular one is about OBE sex - the one last night was dreams and tomorrows talk is about soul mates. It's a three-day sold out event. You talk 3 days in a row for 4 hours each time. You will combine all of this into one 6 hour show that will always sell out -- and at a high price I might add. You do have another show about telepathic connections, psychic gifts and astral travel. But it's way too much to cram it all into one weekend.

I have a headache just thinking about it all......

Jezell grabbed my hand and through a wall we go. Now we're at a set. This is DREAMERS Jezell said - this is what starts it all. You'll never stop making TV and movies - never. You always find a way to do this intertwined with your books and workshops. Rest now - because it's all about to go crazy.

Now we're back at the meadow.

Brigit approached me -- we've given you a lot to think about - and there is so much more to know - rest now and we'll talk later. They all disappear from view.

I sit down against the tree and let the sun shine down on me. Then I hear -- hello Sunshine. I open my eyes and it's Bill. I smile - hi Bear. He sits down down to me - never thought we'd be here again - did you? Part of me knew - I just hoped.....

I know, Bill said, but you want Ted to be okay, don't you? I look over at him - that's a stupid thing to say, of course I want Ted to be alright. Have you had any visits from him lately? Bill asked.

No - I don't think any on purpose -- but I was drawn to him late last evening. I could see him sitting on top of a castle ruin (like in a run-down tower) just staring off into space. Then he kicked the stone wall a few times and screamed at the top of his lungs - why do I keep fucking everything up? Huh? Why can't I choose correctly? And he was sobbing. Then the vision faded and I haven't heard anything. You?

Bill nodded -- this morning -- I saw him at my feet begging me for help before he goes too far and this kills him. What kills him? I asked. Bill shrugs - I don't know. But I tried to call him and he hasn't answered. Bill looks off to his right. He glances over at me and kisses me on the forehead. He gets up and said - Will's a good guy. He won't let you fall. I know - I replied. Bill gave me a nod and disappeared.

I know there's more that has happened - but nothing else is coming to mind right now. I wonder what the next 12 hours will bring?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Guide Change, New Cycle And Dream Counsel!

Last night I had a dream visit with someone who I'll call Dan. I was surprised to see him. I know "of him" but don't actually "know him" in any sense of the word. He's not part of my soul cluster, circle or family. But I did recognize him immediately. Maybe a past life connection?

I entered into a very dark room. I could tell someone else was there. I said - hello? Then I heard his voice - I thought you'd never get here. Then a light from above (?) shown down and Dan stepped from the shadows. He had on a crisp white long sleeve shirt, red tied, brown dress pants w/suspenders. No jacket. His hands were in his pant pockets. A definite frown on his face. I'm supposed to be here - I ask? You were waiting? He nods. I've been waiting for months.

I didn't know I was being called - or I would have been here sooner. He cracks a small smile -- why do you think "Elliot" (I made up the name) has been showing up all over the place? And when you didn't see him - you were drawn to seek him out (very true I might add)? I didn't realize it until now -- was my response. Well, I'm just glad you're here - Dan replied.

How did you hear about me? I wondered. We all know about you - he replied. Who's we? I asked.

He waves his hands around -- we -- us -- everyone -- souls. We know that you help people. Word gets out. You're very well liked and thought of on this side.

Oh, okay. That's good to know. So what can I help you with?

My wife. I don't know what to do with my wife. She hasn't let me touch her in years and I know about her string of affairs. Yet I can't let her go.

Have you talked to her about it?

He nods yes. But she won't let me divorce her.

What's more important -- your money or your life?

He thinks about it for a few seconds. My life - he answered.

Then give her your money and move on with your life. That's the only way you'll find the happiness you crave.

Now I have no idea what happened next...but somehow we got to this next part....

He was lying down on his side, fully clothed, and I knew he was dreaming. I slide into his arms and he wraps them around me. He mummers about how long it's been since he has touched anyone. I tell him that he's dreaming, my name is Alison (not sure why I said Alison when I usually go by Allie) and I'm not his wife.

Then I woke up. So it was like we were in a shared dream visit, then the visit ended and I astral traveled to where he was sleeping.

Ethan just showed up and now Edward. Get used to it - Ethan says. Souls from all over will be asking you for aid - Edward chimes in. Is this a good thing? I had to ask. Yes, Ethan replies, it's part of your soul path. Be prepared for things to start moving at a very rapid pace - Edward says. It'll be as if a strong wind sweeps you off your feet -- you will not be manhandled, but things will move very fast, and when this cycle is over you will be set down gently.

The hard parts behind you - Edward says - and because of this, our time with you is now over. I felt my heart sink. Ethan kisses me on the top of the head (I can feel a tingle in my crown chakra and some pressure) and says -- we're never far away. But who will be here then? I could feel them just go -- with a good bye.

Two show up -- Jezell and Brigit:) Behind them Galadriel. I hear Jezell say - welcome to some serious female power. Those three laugh. And I feel and energy surge through my body.

Jezell wants me to follow her -- not astral wise - but with my sight. I do and I can see myself and my son on a plane - sitting first class. He's playing with his iPod and I'm working on my laptop. Get used to this - Jezell says. Embrace who have you become - Brigit chimes in -- and let us glide (yes, glide and not guide) you -- Galadriel says. I keep hearing the word "healing".

Jezell says - we'll be back in a bit. When you're working on the BLACK TRIANGLE. And they were gone.

So - I headed BACK to my Runes because obviously something has changed since yesterday. Asked now what cycle am I in?

Perth - reversed (initiation) - Present
Gebo (partnership) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Sowelu (wholeness) - Consequences derived from the attitude

The old way has come to an end. Time to call in scattered energies and concentrate on myself at the moment. I need to keep my sense of humor during obstacles and rerouting opportunities. Also - keep positive while keeping my faith firm. A partnership is coming to me - love and/or business - and I have to be prepared not to lose myself in it. I have to remember that with this gift, that I have to remain separate and whole - no matter how easy it is to become one with the partner. This partnership will also lead me to the solidification with my higher self and with the Divine. There is no more doubt lingering. This union is where all my other gifts will flow though. With this I will continue to move down my soul's path. I have to remember to let the right action flow through me and it is brought to me for a reason. Don't fight it - just flow with it and all will work out as its supposed to.

Boy oh boy:)

I wanted to add - before I forget again -- that I got a couple of emails from people who are worried that I have placed Will, Bill, Ted and Matt on some sort of pedestal. Ahhh -- there isn't any worry here. They're men -- enough said:) Besides, we all have faults and limitations -- Lord knows I have my share of them:) At the core I am a very simple person who enjoys simple things (although I do like complex people) and I'm sure because of this -- my soul cluster is the same way. I wonder if we all sat around a camp fire - who would have the best ghost story? LOL.

Have a good day...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, Edward, Bill, Ted And More!

Can you say AMEN! The DREAM book is finally done and at the printers! Out of the 4 gypsy magic books - this one is the best. I love talking about dreams and astral travel! This is just in time for my divorce hearing next week. Remember, I kept being told in order to go to the next stage in my life, the books had to be done? And -- I had to be divorced? Well -- there you go. Robert - my guide - is such a happy little clam. Now he's pushing me to get going on my TV pilot DREAMERS. And I have to say - yes sir - on this one -- cause every fiber of my body is telling me to move it. I asked Robert -- what about The L Word or Tell Me You Love Me or even The Dead Zone -- what about writing for them? He tells me not to get a head of myself. Damn. At least it wasn't a no way:)

Bill is something else. I swear. Just sitting back, trying to get to the center of me - of my mind - on purpose. He has that need to be "right there". I don't mind it though, he's a creative soul and his muse just melds with mine. I had a really wicked idea for a story that involves Bill, me and other dimensions -- maybe add in the co-dependency of Ted. A supernatural, love, erotic story thriller with violence. It just flowed out from me to my notepad as an outline. The more I think about it -- the more I think about what a kick ass story this is. One thing at a time Allie -- get DREAMERS done 1st. Work on the OBE Sex book next. Of course -- the OBE sex book would flow well with the story. I'd call it an erotic thriller - the new story - not the OBE book.

I have to shift my focus.....

Will. He keeps popping in and out to say - hey - if you have a moment I'd like to remind you that I'm still here. I have something on the table and should be out the door next week in order to get a hold of him. Every fiber of my being knows that as soon as he gets it, he'll act on it. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off -- kind of like the oh crap - what do I do now? But now, it's not a crap - what do I do? I know what to do -- and I can do -- that is a very freeing feeling!

I've been trying to focus in on Ted the last several days -- but Bill won't let the connection last very long. So today I'm going to blast through (so to speak) and send Ted some energy. He's really low on the energy -- he gets this way if he and I haven't been connected in a while. He/we could have the on connection always like Bill and I have graduated to - but Ted still has some issues to work through before he can get to that stage. He close - so close -- but not close enough. It would help matters if he would just dump the soul-sucking vampire he's been with the last two years. But he hates to be alone. When I asked Ethan about this - I'm single now - if Ted knows this (and he does) then why doesn't he dump the negative entity and contact me? Ethan tells me that Ted knows there is no way in hell Bill would sit back and let this happen. And Ted's love for both you and Bill far outweighs the love he has for himself. That said, he prays that you both will allow him in your lives as a good friend.

I'm amazed on how much my gifts have grown over the last year. You might have noticed that I no longer have to do a session to get messages or see visions/images. I never had to do a session when it pertained to doing a reading for someone. But when it dealt with me and my life - I always had to hit a session of some sort in order to extract information. It's nice that I don't have to now. At least there's something in my life that I don't have to work so darn hard at any longer.

But that aside - I can feel the pull of a handful of guides - so it's just easier to go into a session.

As soon as I started, there was Ted, bigger than life. But he was back a bit - stuck in a haze or mist. I could hear Ethan tell me to raise my energy as high as I could get it. I just stood there and stared at Ted -- his energy aura around him was weak and what was there was a brownish black. It was heart breaking to see someone in such a stage - especially someone like him who has such a giving heart. Ted laid down on a bed (not his - he's not at home). With my feet planted firmly on the ground, I imagined a plank of energy going around me - slow at 1st and as it increased speed I increased the distance of it from my body. As the plank moved out - a white energy hugged the middle between us. As that moved out into the ethers - I placed myself in a glass tube, having it close to my body and started it to go around clockwise. Faster and faster it went - still relatively close to my body. On the outside of that tube - I took another glass tube and made it go counter clockwise. When my energy is being raised to this level - my tummy always feels really odd - like I'm heading down that 1st roller coaster hill. When I can feel my astral body wanting to go exploring - I stop the energy raising. I focused my energy to go out through my hands and into Ted. As the energy moved into him - he groaned and tossed and turned, finally resting on his back.

Not sure how I got there - but I was straddling Ted, with my hands on his chest looking down. His eyes flew open and it was as if he could look right at me. His green eyes seemed to grow wide and looked onto mine. He said "Oh God Allie" and I was whisked back out of there - back next to Ethan. I watched as my energy infused Ted -- making all of the brownish black drift away. His energy aura grew in size and strength. A blackness left his body from the middle of his back.

He got up and walked over to a pill bottle. He stared at it for a few seconds, opened a drawer and threw them in. I looked at Ethan and he said that they were tranquilizers. Ted walked out of the room.

I turned and there stood, Ethan, Robert, Jezell and Brigit. I asked what did I do to garner so much attention? Robert said that they were there to let me know how proud they are on the progress I have made. Brigit said that the 4 of them will be right next to me, helping me through the next step. It's time to progress further - Ethan commented. Jezell told me to turn around ,there there was someone new I had to meet.

I turned and was face to face with a man in violet. He had on a long - velvet-like violet robe, open in the front. Underneath he wore an outfit of white with a high, but open collar. His hair is pure white and very short/cropped - almost like a business man's hair cut. His face was chiseled - high cheek bones and dark blue eyes. He extended his hand and said that his name was Edward. I looked at him and replied - but haven't we met before? In this life? He smiled and said yes - I'm glad you remembered. He tells me to walk with him.

As we walk I can see Bill right next to us following us. I comment about Bill and Edward said that I'd better get used to it. Bill will always be on the outskirts of my energy just like I him - when we are not physically in the same room. It's our telepathic connection - it's an constant "on". I asked about the man I saw a glimpse of in all red. Edward tells me that he is Abraham and I will meet him next - when the time is ready.

We arrive in my magic room - the one where Merlin always is. And there he was - Merlin. I asked why am I being doubled teamed? Merlin laughed and said that Edward's the brains and he's the brawn of this operation. Merlin chuckled - Edward didn't.

I am told that the time is now for me to expand in to greater magical practice. Edward said that what I do - my purpose in this life - will affect everyone on the planet. Merlin jumped in and said that I must get a hold of Will - there is much to do. Will and I are to start to come here - consciously (as we have been for some time unconsciously) to our magic room and start to prepare. We are to do our magic on the astral level. I asked about the physical level - Merlin said that yes it would work - but the real power is not in the 2 dimensional physical world - but in the multi dimensional world of the planes -- which is accessed astrally. Is there anything I should do 1st? I asked? Get Will to call you - Edward replied. They didn't care how I do it -- but it must be done now. Time is of the essence. Will and I need to be in conscious, physical contact. It's not a need or a want -- it's a must.

I asked if this has anything to do with bring Atlantis back into the physical dimension. They tell me that in time all will be revealed. Don't get ahead of myself.

And with that the session was over.

Gee - nothing like adding the pressure on!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

FYI - Who Is Who...

I have had a heck of a jump in visitors to this blog. For the most part I do not use real names unless indicated. I know that there are a lot of names that I do use and for newbies to this blog - it can get mighty confusing.

So here is a cheat sheet:

MICHAEL, RAPHAEL, GABRIEL, HANIEL - Archangels

ETHAN, JEZELL, ROBERT and HANNA - Spirit Guides

BRIGIT - Goddess

GALADRIEL - Fairy

BILL and TED - Soul mates

WILL and MATT (real names) - Soul Cluster

LARRY, CLIVE, PETER, DC (new one) and just about anyone else male I've mentioned - Members of Soul Circle

CINDY - Tracey (her real name that I now use) my intutive friend

If I've forgotten anyone - post a note and I'll explain.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, An RV And New Products!

I am immediately taken into my session and met by Jezell, my guide. We are in a RV? I ask Jezell and she says - yes. Do I Like it? I glance around and it is very comfortable, reminds me of a tour bus, but outfitted more for a family. I look in one nook and I can see my lap top! Is this mine? She nods, it will be if you stay on course and not slip back into your comfortable ways. What's comfortable, I ask? What did you do today, Jezell inquires? I -- added a workshop, class and updated the coaching for Jan.

That was the right way to move she replies. But you have to stop with the open reading time, go back to appointment only. Why's that - I like have an open day where people can stop by? But it is not part of your path. You work great one- on-one, but you have to expand more into helping groups of people, not just the one-on-one. Well what about the coaching part - that is one-on-one? True it is, but you are doing more than to give advice, you are helping one to empower their life. Soon you will package the coaching, not do it one on one, but package it so that all can use your wisdom. But first, you must make a package on your gypsy magic.

With what - my books and lists of herbs, oils, stones with their meanings? Yes. Along with my class on how to write and cast your own magic? Yes. And more on the simple way of a gypsy life? Yes.

When am I going to find time for this? Well, Jezell says - you have the books, you have the class, you have gypsy way of life -- all you are missing are the simple descriptions of the magical items used in gypsy magic. Once you do that -- you are done. Do I put lessons on a CD's? Yes.

You will also make the booklets you use for your workshops and your classes available for people who want the knowledge, but do not want or desire the personalized support.

This will all be accomplished in 2007.

What about the gypsy teen book or with the Black Triangle book adaptation? You will find the time to do what you need to do because you will not concentrate so heavily on the one-on-one, but on helping as a whole. Stay on your path and what you desire will come to fruitarian.

And then I travel in this? Jezell nods. And you will experience so much more than you can imagine.

Can I ask about two more idea? Sure.

What about my Easter book and the cook book idea?

Jezell laughs. Of course they will be complete. Did you honestly think they wouldn't? You need to surround yourself with help. You will be able to afford help soon - take the help when offered and when people enter your life -- there's usually a good reason. New friendships are to be made - especially now that you have realized that it is not magic or advice that is at your core -- it's your gypsy heritage that fuels you. Magic and advice are the byproducts of who you are.

Now you have work to do -- and I will leave you to it.

With that - this session ends.

Wow - very cool ideas!!! I must map out my plan of action for 2007!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Jezell, Last Night And The Meadow!

Jezell was bugging me last night during my night out of drinking and let loose time. She keep bugging me to go up to certain women in our group (and one man at the bar) and convey some information. Now I didn't know these women - this was my 1st time at the Femibeast Bash - they only 2 people I knew was the women who hosts it and my best buddy Linda. Now - what I was supposed to go up and tell the ladies had to do with their love lives and I knew that they didn't want to hear it. But -- I do what I'm told and I think that I really pissed them off as they believe that they are going down the right paths when they really are not. One woman, when I was looking for Linda towards the end of the night -- looks at me and says - what? have some more good news about my future? In the most sarcastic tone that I've heard in a while. When I said no - looking for Linda. She softened up. Then the poor guy - who, was pretty handsome - was there looking for love -- but I kept trying to tell him that he's looking for it in the wrong place. He wasn't pleased at all. I think that he thought I was a @ucking loon -- but when I'm told that it is important for someone to hear something - there's a damn good reason why. We'll see if they talk to me next year.

Now she is also really bothering me about returning to the meadow. If you remember, Bill, Ted and I were kicked out when my friendship with the actual land owner crashed and burned. Now , Bill - Ted and I don't actually set foot on the physical property, it's in the astral plane. But Jezell keeps saying that we have to go back. There's something there that needs our attention. I ask - why can't she just do it. But of course that is a big no. I ask for a hint - I get a no. I really do not want to go back - at all. The land owner will sense us on the astral plane as she always had in the past, and I really don't want to communicate with her on any level. So I'm at a loss. There's a reason that we have to go back and it must be a big one or we wouldn't have been asked. But on the other hand I know how not welcomed we are in the land owners space.

I'm going to sleep on it and see if I get any answers.

Sweet dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)