This, That and the Other!

Is anyone going to watch the Golden Globes tonight? First time in 30 years I'm not watching it and I'm having withdrawal already. No cable = no Golden Globes..or Oscars.

When Mercury Retro kicks in (which was today) that's when most people start to feel the affects. Me? A week earlier. Never fails. Between MR messing things up, my ongoing fight with iTunes & Hipcast (both bastards still say that the podcast problem is the other ones fault), and the "New Kid on the Block" as AJ said:) It's been a headache of a 2009 already.

Plus this last week I'm still catching up on the special priced readings I sold back in Dec.

Oh - and I shoveled snow yesterday (have to do more today) and did something to my lower back. What took me 5 min is now almost 15. SIGH - the wonders of being over 40. This is on top of my pulling a muscle in my upper back when I went to put my hair in a ponytail last Tuesday. Nice....

I watched BURN AFTER READING yesterday. I can't begin to convey my disappointment. How can so much talent come out with so much crap? And the Coen Brothers? WTF? What happened? I wish you could have seen me yelling at my TV - it was funny. Good thing my son wasn't home;)

I'm entering an Indy filmmaker contest. I have only a week or so to write the 1st draft of the script and then only a week to make changes. So if there's no postings this upcoming week (or next) - you know why. But I'll try not to drop off the face of the Earth.

Now for the last week. This was such a WTF - and a WTH every day. I have to thank Chris for this. Now who is Chris? He's to Vincent what Ted is to Bill - and somehow I'm stuck in the middle. Another love triangle. Hell. What in the world did I do in my past lives? When another energy comes in - my body hits the emotional overload until I'm used to that new energy. Plus - I can't sleep. So last week I spent my time either pissed off, crying, or just sitting there without a thought in my head. All of it - not the norm of Allie. When Friday rolled around - I was back to the norm Allie. However - I still can't sleep - so something else must be coming down the pike.

So what's Chris like? Energetic, supportive, creative, kind & loving. Very good friend material. As Vincent stands around and "protects" me - Chris yammers in my ear to have to try this - or try that. It's like Chris pushes me and Vincent protects me. It's nice having them both around - but they have a habit of pulling me in 2 different direction - Chris wanting me to try something and Vincent wanting me to stand still and be safe.

I had a dream visit with them both the other night. They were fighting over who would "get" me. I stepped in the middle and said that I'm not doing this again (referencing Bill and Ted). I pointed to Vincent and said him - he's the one who gets me. Chris is like - what? Wait a minute - I haven't had a chance to prove myself. I told him- not in this life. In this life we're friends and some how you help me with Vincent because you two are already friends in the physical world. Vincent comes up and puts his arm around me - gives Chris a smug look. I punched him and told him to grow up. I can still change my mind - which made Chris smile. I told them that I had things to do and left them standing there - lol.

How did I realize that Chris was part of this whole soul circle thing with me? He kept popping up. Same as Ted did. I'd be in a vision with Vincent - and there he was. Iris said something to me that made the light bulb go off. I asked Andrew if Chris was one of "his" as well. Andrew said no.

Which made me ask Andrew - where's this love life I was supposed to have? He said - it's coming - mid 2009. This news made me roll my eyes. He said that I'll be way to busy till then and everything I am doing career wise is setting me up romantic wise. I told him that I didn't want to know any more. It gives me a headache. He did say though that this upcoming week I should hear something positive abut my career. That works:)

Need to kick my tush into gear.

Have a great - what's left of the weekend !

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

My Weekend, Vincent And Dream Visits!

Last weekend turned out nothing like I had hoped it would. Instead of the fun I envisioned - I had to make an emergency run to the vet with my cat Samantha. She really wasn't doing well - and all the way there I prayed that she'd be coming home with me. She did - with 4 meds 2x a day. Thyroid out of whack, heart mummer, not eating, infection around the liver, red blood count borderline anemic and of course her white cells were through the roof. This cat may be 5.8 lbs, but trying to give her meds that get her so upset she foams at the mouth is a chore. Somehow in the course of giving her meds Sat night, I tore a muscle in my back. God it hurt. With no one to rub any Icy Hot on my back (my son was at his dad's) I spent the whole night in pain - no sleep. Same went for Sun until my son came home and helped me out. Today I bought more Icy Hot and a heating pad. I happened to tear the back muscle in the same spot where I hold all my tension. I think my poor back just had enough. So the weekend sucked big time - but Samantha is doing a touch better. Not great - but better -and I'm thankful.

By now you've seen my previous post about the Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com being gone. It sucks - I had fun chatting with those guys every week and tag teaming with Maria on callers. SIGH. Maybe Psychiconair will have a brain and bring them back. I have a feeling though that Maria and gang are moving up to bigger and better things.

BTW...did you listen to today's podcast? You should if you want some good deals on my services :)

Friday evening I had an odd dream about being at my childhood home (where my mom still lives) but it wasn't her home, but mine. In the attached 2 car garage there was an elaborate cage system that was attached to the ceiling of the garage. I have no idea who I was in the garage with - but I told them that my ex husband built it for the cats to have some outside air or if we needed them out of the main house for a bit. The person stated - it's up rather high. My reply - just in case the area floods (the house is no where near water of any kind). For some reason there was a school bus in this garage. Me, this person and I think my son climbed inside of it. While we were in there it tipped to the side and rolled over on its roof. That woke me up. I will also add here that the garage (at least) looked like I or anyone else hadn't lived there in awhile. It was shaken up like an earthquake or like a nuclear bomb that wiped out all the people/animals, but kept the dwelling intact. It was strange.

Now Sat night I had a dream visit with Vincent. We were on of all things - a bus. But it was one of those decked out charter buses, not a school bus. He looked tired, worn down, but okay - like he had just gotten himself out of a bad situation and he knew that he was on the mend. On this bus we were driving through Wooster - I was showing him around, he was amazed on how cheap everything was here. I told him that compared to NYC, just about anywhere but LA or London is cheaper:) What was weird is that he knew of our connection, but he wanted me to know that he knew without anyone else on the bus knowing he knew. He sat across from me for the longest time and just stared at me. It was a bit unnerving - because his stare can be very intense. He kept putting his hand over his mouth - like his chin would rest in his hand. Finally he got up and sat next to me (we were in the back of this bus and I was on the very back seat which was a bench seat). Next to me I had a bunch of books. He picked up the stack so that he could sit next to me - I saw him slip something inside of the top book - and he did it so that I would see. He wanted to look at that book - it was an 8 x 11 book with a black cover - I think it said something like Magic 101 as the title.

As he was about to look at the book, I slipped my hand in and pulled out the piece of note book paper he slid in. The handwriting was as bad as mine:) The front of the paper said something like "I know who you are and our connection" and the back had 2 martini recipes on it. I looked at him and said shaken or stirred (my question to him to make sure this was indeed the paper he put in) and he said - shaken. I commented - oh like James Bond. He then handed me a book with a bookmark - it was his diary that was in book form. He told me to turn to Chapter 20 - I did - and on it, circled was him meeting Bill and shaking hands - knowing full well who he was in relation to the soul group. Now he put Bill real name in quotes like: I saw "Bill" standing outside the pizzeria..... When I turned to ask him why he put Bill's real name in quotes and didn't put Bill in there - I woke up. Now somewhere in this dream I introduced him to one of my sisters and said that in the blog I called him Bob at first. She said - you mean like the Bob you said I'd marry someday? I said yes, but they weren't the same guy. I thought about it afterwards - Bill's birthday is on the 20th. Interesting that he was in Chapt 20 of Vincent's book.

I fell back to sleep and Vincent and I were in Central Park - holding hands and enjoying the snow falling. We didn't talk - didn't even look at one another - just walked in silence. I woke up again, but this time I stayed up.

Andrew and Paul showed up last night as I was getting ready for bed. I said something like - long time no see! They assured me that they had been busy. I asked - working on Vincent? They said yes. I asked how that was coming along? They told me the man has some heavy emotional baggage to get rid of - which he is in the process of - and then he'll be fine. In the meantime he's just very heavy energy wise - and will keep tapping into me in order to keep himself afloat. So if all of a sudden I feel down in the dumps - it's him. not me, and I have to refocus my energy. I asked the guys since they are in charge of my love life and nothing is really happening at the moment (I mean it is - but it isn't) with it if I missed some condition. They assured me that all is in place for me - career wise. I haven't missed anything. I said - are you sure - I didn't have to have the OBE book or outline done? They said no - that whatever relationship I'm supposed to be in will help with the completion of the book. Hummm.....okay I said. At least on my end I'm doing what I'm supposed to.

Time to go make supper!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Vincent And Someone New!

Interesting turn of events the last 48 hours. No - none of my scripts have been bought. But I did meet someone. This past Wednesday when I was on the Maria Show show - she had mention that for the next ten days was an excellent time for Taurus's to meet someone new or to progress with anyone whom they already met. Well I met a man online back in October. He knew basically what I did for a living - but not all of it. Over the last two days, he has been well versed in what I do and has spent a lot of time reading both this blog and the OBE sex one. And he hasn't run away. In fact, his curiosity is peaked. So we'll see what happens. It's just nice to finally meet someone who I'm attracted to and they "get" me. I honestly believe that this has never happened. But any ways - I was rather surprised at how easy it was to roll with the conversation once I lowered my defenses. Wouldn't you know it - he's a Scorpio - the sex sign of the zodiac. How fitting is that? He's also very creative and has a host of psychic/healing gifts that he hasn't uncovered yet. And no - he doesn't live here in Wooster (what were you thinking - seriously) but he is in Ohio.

I tried an OBE sex experiment on him and he reciprocated later on. I of course, I chatted about it in the OBE blog. It's also very nice to have found someone who can give me almost instant feedback on OBE sex techniques.

Also - Bill popped back up in dream time. I had expected Ted. In fact - I remember a glimpse of him last night - but that's it. Bill though, his dream visit is very vivid. We, of course, were in a crowded place. But this time the crowd was off to the right. Bill sat at a table with a young boy - both had tears in their eyes, but didn't cry. I could hear off in the distance that they were talking about Bill's mom and she had just passed away (in the waking world she is very much alive). His blood shot blue eyes could of burned a hole through me - he looked at me with such an intensity.

He suddenly gets up from the table, takes his shirt off, and starts to throw things into a tall moving carton. Back and forth he goes from a pile to the box - just throwing things in. I walk up to him and tell him he'll be okay. I'm behind him, grab him by the shoulders and massage his shoulders and upper back. He is so tense - he allows me to do this for only a few minutes and says he has to get back to work. So there he goes again, throwing more stuff into that box. I'm trying to talk to him, but he won't listen. He's all wound up and rambling to himself.

Finally he stops - looks at me and said: I believe you -- about our connection. I just stared at him. He grabbed me, hugged me tight and said: I'm sorry it took me so long.

That dream visit stopped and I shifted to Vincent. He was on a bus, it was the middle of the night in NYC and he was eating spagettios straight from the can. I asked him why doesn't he get something better to eat - he can afford it. He replied that he doesn't have time. He's needed and he has to go. I asked him when was the last time he has a decent nights sleep. He shrugged. It doesn't matter - he said - I can't do what I want to do. But why not - I asked. Because too many people depend on me - he replied. I watched him get off at the next stopped. He looked so tired - like I've been just bone tired.

Over the weekend I have to work on a treatment for a reality spiritual show that my manager and I have been tossing around. It was mentioned in passing to someone now they would like to see a document with the idea on it. We'll see - it's a good idea if I do say so myself. So the OBE sex book will get pushed again if I can't finish the treatment today.

Back to work!

Have a good weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Vincent, Tracey And Validation!

I can honestly say that my soul feels rested. It's not in search mode any longer. It's such a great feeling - knowing that I found the person I'm supposed to learn my life lesson with -- now everything will fall into place. Maybe not as fast as I want it - but that's okay because I still know that it will fall into place. I'm shifting my focus to the big picture and not the details - although I'm as curious as hell about the little things. I had to - of course - get my 3rd opinion on Vincent. That's what I do -- I feel my own confirmation, then I either ask Maria or Tracey - then go to who I haven't asked. If my "knowing" is validated by both - then I'm pretty comfortable in that.

(BTW - as a side note to my friend Kally who called me from NYC to rub it in that she was there and I wasn't the below reading has a bearing on what you and I talked about. Now you know why I asked what part of Manhattan you were in)

And Tracey validated my feel on Vincent as well as Maria's:

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:09:54 PM): okay! Vincent is very sensitive - and intuitive - a very deep person - people tend to think he is standoffish but has on a higher plane most of the time

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:18 PM): he does remember your dream visits with him and he knows you - he knows that he is to be with you - he knows his marriage is to end

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:29 PM): he feels guilt and a sense of obligation to his wife

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:41 PM): he seems to feel he owes her on the conscious level

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:10:59 PM): but in his dreams he has seen insight that tells him these feelings are not warranted

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:02 PM): and that she wants to be free

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:14 PM): he seems to be thinking about that in relation to you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:21 PM): he knows you are coming and soon

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:45 PM): he seems to feel creatively drawn to you --the two of you have been lovers who have created together too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:54 PM): he feels that he is meant to do more than he is doing now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:11:59 PM): and he feels you are part of this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:04 PM): he does know who you are

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:08 PM): he found you by accident

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:18 PM): in a dream he had about you he saw you as a gypsy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:24 PM): and he typed something into the internet

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:29 PM): and found your website

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:38 PM): he has been reading your blog

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:42 PM): and he knows who you are

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:48 PM): and this seems to be kind of exciting to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:54 PM): its like validating

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:12:57 PM): he knows your eyes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:01 PM): he remembers them well

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:13 PM): he knows that the sex btw you two is going to be magical

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:17 PM): he seems to think about that a lot

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:28 PM): he is not sure how you will come together

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:34 PM): he thinks he will meet you soon

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:43 PM): he feels that you will be coming into his life

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:13:49 PM): through your creative genius

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:01 PM): he has been pursuing other things besides his current job

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:15 PM): he seems to want to do more than he is doing now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:18 PM): he has higher goals

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:26 PM): he seems to have a lot of money

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:36 PM): he is polished on some level

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:43 PM): he seems to be very intelligent

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:47 PM): if he is not well educated

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:14:53 PM): then it is innate wisdom

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:03 PM): he finds your blog awesome

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:11 PM): he laughs when he reads it because you think alike

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:19 PM): he understands you and the way you think

Allie (9/19/2008 2:15:26 PM): he knows that when I put Vincent in there that it is him - right?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:30 PM): he thinks that you are very brilliant

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:36 PM): yes he knows

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:15:55 PM): he knows and it makes him smile - he has this really slight smile sometimes - sort of like a grin

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:11 PM): he seems to feel that something is happening with you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:13 PM): something big

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:22 PM): and has got this feeling of excitement, nervousness all in one
Allie (9/19/2008 2:16:31 PM): I have the same feelings..

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:16:32 PM): he feels like he is picking up on your emotions

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:08 PM): he is intuitive and he seems to be spiritually advanced - meaning that he meditates and listens to his intuition - he knows things, sees things

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:18 PM): he knows that you are destined for him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:30 PM): and that the two of you are destined for some real greatness as a team

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:49 PM): he seems to feel like you can do anything

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:17:56 PM): and he feels this kind of confidence in himself too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:02 PM): not in a stuck up sort of way

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:07 PM): but a healthy balanced way

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:11 PM): he is positive

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:18 PM): he sees the bigger picture

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:28 PM): he also knows about your son

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:38 PM): and he feels he has a part in his life

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:39 PM): a role

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:46 PM): he feels that he is his child too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:48 PM): on another level

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:54 PM): like he has parented him before

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:18:59 PM): he also feels as though

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:04 PM): you are to have two children with him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:20 PM): he has a sense of responsibility to your son though

Allie (9/19/2008 2:19:27 PM): oh good lord - another child or two from me?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:30 PM): like he feels like there are things he is meant to do and be for him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:33 PM): hahahhahaha

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:34 PM): yep

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:39 PM): hope they come at once

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:19:41 PM): lol

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:03 PM): he wonders if you know how rich he is

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:13 PM): he does not want that to be intimidating

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:25 PM): has not a pomp driven kind of guy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:35 PM): but there is wealth all around him

Allie (9/19/2008 2:20:35 PM): I have no idea how much money he has - and it really doesn't matter to me.

Allie (9/19/2008 2:20:42 PM): No - he doesn't seem pomp

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:51 PM): he seems to just draw things to himself

Allie (9/19/2008 2:20:55 PM): like me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:20:59 PM): he has a way of manifesting

Allie (9/19/2008 2:21:00 PM): me being drawn to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:04 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:12 PM): he thinks you know about his eyes too

Allie (9/19/2008 2:21:13 PM): I know this is his doing - me figuring out it was him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:19 PM): this seems to be something he feels you could not miss

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:29 PM): he has tried sending you messages

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:34 PM): tried talking to you on the astral

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:21:41 PM): but he was not sure you were hearing him

Allie (9/19/2008 2:22:30 PM): he's a gentle giant

Allie (9/19/2008 2:22:39 PM): his energy is very protective and loving

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:22:43 PM): that's sweet

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:22:49 PM): he towers over you

Allie (9/19/2008 2:22:58 PM): he's almost 6'4"

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:00 PM): he will be the kind that will want to be with you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:02 PM): all the time

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:07 PM): two steps behind you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:08 PM): hovering

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:18 PM): he thinks and he tells you things

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:24 PM): I see him standing over you at your computer

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:29 PM): you two are writing something

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:35 PM): and coming up with ideas together

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:41 PM): this one is the one

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:46 PM): like the big bucks for you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:23:49 PM): the main network

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:00 PM): he will be so happy to work with you on this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:08 PM): I hear a baby crying in the he background

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:17 PM): so I think the kid is coming

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:19 PM): like it or not

Allie (9/19/2008 2:24:23 PM): lol

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:28 PM): the baby is going to be long

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:30 PM): really long

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:34 PM): and thin

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:44 PM): I see you adoring him (its a boy)

Allie (9/19/2008 2:24:49 PM): I keep feeling we'll meet by the end of the year. although like him - I have no idea how

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:50 PM): but you will have another one too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:52 PM): a girl

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:56 PM): so be careful

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:24:59 PM): just after baby one comes

Allie (9/19/2008 2:25:05 PM): oh lord!

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:25:10 PM): you may find you are really fertile myrtle

Allie (9/19/2008 2:25:21 PM): dang

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:25:29 PM): I sense that he won't care

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:25:37 PM): he would be so happy with more

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:05 PM): he likes kids

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:11 PM): they inspire him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:14 PM): because they are so open

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:17 PM): and free

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:23 PM): whereas grown ups are so closed

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:37 PM): he would have more

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:41 PM): and more

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:52 PM): he likes the sounds of kids

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:26:57 PM): running through the house

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:01 PM): he will chase after them

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:03 PM): he plays

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:08 PM): he's a sweetheart

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:12 PM): a real sweet man

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:27:52 PM): he is a big fella

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:31 PM): He's very talented - I see him doing all kinds of things

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:40 PM): I see a visage of him playing the piano

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:42 PM): and singing

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:29:47 PM): kids hanging on him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:13 PM): he also likes to draw sometimes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:16 PM): he seems to get messages

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:19 PM): random ones

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:28 PM): and he is trying to work on this more

Allie (9/19/2008 2:30:40 PM): do you think we will meet by the end of the year?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:42 PM): so that he can ask questions and get more specific answers

Allie (9/19/2008 2:30:44 PM): will he know it's me?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:45 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:47 PM): and yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:30:53 PM): I sense you will meet him very soon

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:01 PM): perhaps as soon as Halloween or a little later

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:06 PM): and he will know your eyes

Allie (9/19/2008 2:31:07 PM): I keep getting that too - hence my nervousness

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:08 PM): anywhere

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:16 PM): yes, I can see why you would feel nervous

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:21 PM): but I sense you need not be

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:24 PM): he's so kind

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:28 PM): so personable

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:33 PM): he will make you feel very comfortable

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:42 PM): he's got a way about him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:31:50 PM): sort of like someone you can immediately trust

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:04 PM): I sense he will keep touching you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:09 PM): like touch your arm

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:11 PM): your shoulder

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:13 PM): your back

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:14 PM): your hand

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:21 PM): he uses gestures a lot when he talks

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:28 PM): and every time he touches

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:29 PM): you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:33 PM): its like energy zap

Allie (9/19/2008 2:32:35 PM): I keep getting that he like the group Abba too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:40 PM): yes he does

Allie (9/19/2008 2:32:42 PM): I gesture too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:32:46 PM): he likes a lot of old stuff like that

Allie (9/19/2008 2:32:56 PM): I keep having to play Dancing Queen

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:01 PM): he likes 'mellow stuff'

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:05 PM): he finds them mellow

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:10 PM): he used to smoke pot a lot

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:18 PM): but he does not now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:27 PM): but it seemed to make him feel mellow

Allie (9/19/2008 2:33:29 PM): does he have someone he goes to to ask about me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:32 PM): and helped control visions

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:35 PM): he does

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:41 PM): he has someone that costs a lot of money

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:33:49 PM): he liked an ad or something you wrote about this

Allie (9/19/2008 2:34:01 PM): off the phone now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:05 PM): he laughed and laughed about the costs of services

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:10 PM): for readings and such

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:16 PM): you were so right

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:22 PM): he enjoyed reading this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:28 PM): I hope you know what this is about

Allie (9/19/2008 2:34:33 PM): yes I do

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:38 PM): he pays a lot

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:42 PM): but feels this person is accurate

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:44 PM): and worth it

Allie (9/19/2008 2:34:50 PM): and has this person talked about me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:52 PM): and he feels she helped him with the dream

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:34:58 PM): in such a way that he found you on the internet

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:02 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:04 PM): of course

Allie (9/19/2008 2:35:04 PM): and has this person told him how good I will be to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:16 PM): yes - she has spoken of this

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:24 PM): and he seems to be looking forward

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:32 PM): because his current wifey is not good to him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:40 PM): and she is materially driven

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:42 PM): and he is not

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:35:56 PM): he feels like her personal atm

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:06 PM): do you think I'll be living in NYC or in LA?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:14 PM): I sense both at times

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:18 PM): and what that means to me

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:22 PM): is that you will be living in both

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:23 PM): that's what I thought

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:24 PM): back and forth

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:32 PM): so get ready

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:35 PM): for a lot of flights

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:46 PM): has he figured out where I live yet?

Allie (9/19/2008 2:36:50 PM): my address

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:53 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:36:59 PM): he knows that you live there

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:03 PM): he wonders why

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:06 PM): he thinks you need to move

Allie (9/19/2008 2:37:10 PM): has he been to Wooster yet?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:14 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:18 PM): he's checked it out

Allie (9/19/2008 2:37:20 PM): I knew it. He should of come to the door.

Allie (9/19/2008 2:37:22 PM): recently?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:24 PM): and was like nooooooooo

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:26 PM): gotta move

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:27 PM): yes

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:32 PM): recently in the past month

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:44 PM): he's not feeling its good for you there

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:51 PM): he senses some negative energy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:37:58 PM): I think its your ex's energy though

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:02 PM): and the unknown caller who didn't say anything today when I picked up the phone? him maybe?

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:09 PM): oh yeah - I must move - I know that.

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:15 PM): yes most certainly it was him

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:19 PM): he called while he was there too

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:24 PM): but I am not sure you answered

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:30 PM): no I didn't

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:35 PM): I usually do not answer unknown callers

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:38:44 PM): well, you should start!

Allie (9/19/2008 2:38:47 PM): I will

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:05 PM): I feel like this guy is your man - you are uncovering the mysteries

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:14 PM): getting to the real deal

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:28 PM): he's waiting

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:35 PM): its like he is waiting for more insight

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:37 PM): answers

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:39 PM): how

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:46 PM): he keeps wondering how he will meet you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:39:48 PM): but you know

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:05 PM): I keep getting in a crowded area

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:09 PM): like a party

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:12 PM): or gathering

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:14 PM): oh - cool

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:24 PM): and I can feel him looking at me from across the room

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:33 PM): you would def feel his energy

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:45 PM): he is definitely focused on you

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:52 PM): he's got a lot of questions

Allie (9/19/2008 2:40:56 PM): so do I

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:40:59 PM): like should he end his marriage now

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:00 PM): or wait

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:13 PM): he's not sure about how you will come together

Allie (9/19/2008 2:41:15 PM): now so he's free by the time I get there

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:27 PM): he's going to come to that conclusion

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:35 PM): he's just thinking things through

Allie (9/19/2008 2:41:49 PM): any idea when I'll be moving?

yecart68 (9/19/2008 2:41:58 PM): I get moving in January

Allie (9/19/2008 2:42:06 PM): that's what I thought too

What I haven't been able to figure out is if he's part of my soul circle or if this is simply a karmic connection. To me it doesn't matter - but what can I say? I'm always curious - always searching for answers. That's probably why I love mysteries and cop shows so much:)

No worries about Will, George, Bill and Ted. My desire to work and talk to these guys is steadfast.

I have no idea when I'll get the "Ask Allie" column caught up. I'm pushing myself to finish THE BLACK TRIANGLE and when I'm short on time - the column is the 1st to be put on hold - followed by the blogs. So we'll see.

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Vincent Update Via Maria Shaw

Hi Everyone,

I'm dog tired..but before I hit my bed I wanted to share with you Maria's astrological and intuitional feel about Vincent and myself.

With all of the guys I've thrown at her for the last two years, she's never suggested that I actually get together with a person in the physical (regardless of the karmic ties, soul mate connection, etc...). Until now.....

Hi Allie - Vinny shows up in the spiritual teacher house of your chart....higher love, getting to know thyself.....traveling to higher places than ever before! There's so much more you can learn from one another. He could be your greatest teacher. His moon conjuncts your north node...very karmic. In fact, you should attach yourself to him because he can take you higher than you have ever before. He is good for you. He can help you achieve greatness, wisdom and perfection in relationships. He is here to teach you what a relationship should really be about. He is here to make sure you feel loved and there is balance in your world between both worlds; spiritual and mundane. His moon also hits your sun sign so there was likely a strong bond or a marriage in a former lifetime.. In his chart, you show up as a friend and his north node is on your rising sign so there is a mutual identity here.....same likes and dislikes....same needs, etc. He "gets you" and last but not least, go figure, your moon falls in the house of sex. You are a very mysterious woman for and to him, one that is willing to try new things and emotionally can hit him in a deep place. I bet if this were a real physical relationship, not just on the astral plane, you two would get along famously!

A man who actually "gets" me. Amazing :)

I knew his energy felt great to be around.

Off to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Three Guides And Energy!

Today I was starting to think that either I forgot to put my clothes on or I only put half on and had pasties on my nipples. Why? Guys kept looking at me while I was out doing errands today. I checked to see if I was "too cold" - nadda. Nothing hanging from my nose. I was perplexed. Until I felt Andrew by my Mini Cooper. Ahhhhh.....I thought - that's why. So I asked him if he put the love mojo on me or something like that. His reply - something like that....you'll get used to it.

I told him if he's doing that - go sprinkle it on the RIGHT person. Not some Joe Farmer here in Wooster. He told me not to worry about it - but to tune into him when I got home.

Okay - so I get home. Right away Robert and Ethan show up. Robert is saying that I need to prepare for the OBE workshop. I need to finish the book. Plan my next step in the OBE world. Copyright or trademark my process. Ethan jumps in -- no, she needs to work on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. She needs to have it done by mid October. She needs to have the OBE by mid-October - Robert quipped back.

SIGH.

So I speak up - HEY! Guides don't fight - they guide. Do I have to call Iris back? Silence from both of them - lol. In a calm voice they both state that I have to have the respected projects done. I told them that I agree. But -- I can't do both at once. With the OBE it would be nice to have someone to guide me - like a coach. Robert took offense to that. He says that I don't need a mortal - I need to listen to him. He'll tell me the steps. So I had to bite here - I asked, what are your steps? This is what he said:

1) Work on the workshop for both Oct shows. They can be the same workshop as they are both 50 min shows. Write the workshop like you would a spell. Do the beginning, the end and then the middle.
2) Have that workshop copy written or trademarked (he said whatever you humans call it) as that process will be the basis of my in-person weekend workshops.
3) Finish the OBE book by end of Oct/Nov
4) Have it in print in Jan for Valentines Day 2009

I thought that it sounded like a workable plan. He was pleased about that. Ethan chimed in - what about BT? I told him that I have a plan for BT. I'm going to rewrite the structure part of it until the 24th or so - when mercury reto kicks in. Then for the next week I'm going to take a character a day and work on their dialogue. I'll have it to my manager by Oct 4th. Then she and I can work on any rewrites until Mercury goes direct on Oct 15th. Finished....I know I cannot get it done by the time mercury goes retro - so I have some time to get it done - and done right.

Both guides were happy.

Now Andrew (who had been standing back watching all this) steps forward. He asked me if I would work on my heart chakra - to open it up more. I said sure. He said that Will has been consciously connecting to me over the last two days. I told him - I know. He miss you. I know - I said - it's mutual. Because he's consciously connecting to you, your energy is shifting to a higher frequency and it is absorbing his feelings for you, your soul is responding by putting out the energy signals for him. I jumped in -- so that's why these men are looking at me like I'm dessert? Because my energy is projecting a certain frequency to Will? Andrew said - yes.

Oh hell - I said. Is there a way for my energy not to do that? Sure he said, you could close yourself off from Will again - then he'll close himself from you and you two will be back to where you were this summer. Well I don't want that. I want to move FORWARD. Andrew agreed. Then he chimed in - you better watch Will when George enters you life.

So me being me asked -- so they'll both be in my life at the same time. Andrew said - yep. And Will won't want George around - but George will try to smooth things out with Will.

I asked Andrew - any idea when I'll see Will next? He smiled and said -- sooner than you think.

And with that all 3 were gone.

Will has been around a lot the last two days. Not so much that I can't get anything done - but quite a bit. It's been really nice to know he's right here again. Let's hope this time he doesn't go anywhere.

Now for the dream I had last night that I can't put my finger on the why. I walked into a restaurant - where there was some sort of party going on - like a retirement party or new hire - something like that. Seated at a long table was this man I'll call Mike. I felt him staring at me as I was in another part of the restaurant picking out a dress to wear to my cousin's wedding (which is at the end of Sept). He walked over and introduced himself - I smiled, intro back and then went on with what I was doing. People kept bothering him - women mostly - he is a well-known person. He was persistent and kept walking up to me and suggesting what dress I should buy. I finally bought one (at his suggestion) and as I was leaving he asked if he could call me sometime. I asked why? He said because he would like to take me out. I was hesitant - I gave him my number.

We went out a couple of times - had fun. Next thing I know is he and I are swimming in the YMCA pool here in Wooster. I'm standing next to him in my swim suit - I tap his abs and say - now that's a body. He blushed and laughed. I asked if he was going to help me get in shape - and he said if that was what I wanted. We're in the water and he has one arm around me and is twirling me in the water. He commented that this was a nice pool. I said that yes it's nice - but although I have a membership - I haven't been here since Feb (which is true) - and that my son never picked up his membership card yet (also true). Mike said that we'll be at that pool every day. I'm like - every day? He said yes.

So later on we are walking into the same restaurant where we met - and as we're walking in I hear a couple women talk among themselves is if he's so and so. I leaned over - smiled - and said , yes he is. Then I woke up. Why I would have a dream like that about a guy I don't know, who's not my type, and the odds will never meet - is beyond me. Andrew said (just now) that he has stumbled upon my blog just recently. But I still don't get the dream.

Hummm...

For those of you who voted for me yesterday - thank you! I greatly appreciate the help. Remember you can vote once every 24 hours:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

George, Iris And Will!

What a busy day so far! It's keeping me on my toes - that's for sure! I was on the Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com this morning from 10:15 - 10:30 am ET if you want to catch when it repeats this evening. We chatted about the number 5, OBE sex, the newsletter and George. It was - as usual - a good time.

Iris is pushing me so hard to finish this draft of DREAMERS. She knows it's the last one - that it's the one who will get the show sold. I must admit, as much as I want to get on with my life, I'll miss Iris and her no-nonsense guiding. Iris is what they call the big guns. She shows up when a major life change is on hand - a life change that once it happens, there is no going back to the way life had been. For those in her charge she only shows up once -maybe twice in a lifetime. But when she does - it going to be a blow-your-socks-off change. She's moving on to one of my clients. This client already knows that Iris is on her way - she's showed up plenty of times already, just watching. The client called me yesterday, out of the blue, to chat. She's worried about Iris. I assured her there's nothing to worry about. She asked how will she know if she's hearing Iris? Before I could answer, she launched into "her" idea about going to vet clinics (she is to be an animal healer) and giving away free energy healing for practice - she went on to say a few more ideas. When she paused -- I jumped in. So, you want to know how you will hear Iris? What were you just telling me? SILENCE. Then Oh @hit. Yep -- Iris had been chatting with her all along:) She how she works?

LOL.

So I'm waiting on Andrew to then show up and take over my love life. Andrew, from all accounts, was such a loving and giving soul when he was alive. My Great Grandmother (his mom) was a moonshine runner (family had their own speakeasy, gambling and moonshine operation). When she was caught by the police, Andrew took the rap for her and went to jail. That's what kind of guy he was -- my grams loved him so dang much. When he died of pneumonia he was 29 (he was 10 years older than grams) they had been married for 2 years. Anyways - not only was he kind, but he was forthright and could also stand up and be heard. Something - as you know - I need. No passive guides for me - I need people in the trenches:) My mother still has Andrew and grams wedding rings. I think I'll hunt them out when I'm at her house this weekend.

My son - so far - likes school and is staying out of trouble. Every morning we are going over the rules of what he should not do in school - coupled with him raising his energy walls. Once a week I'm doing the laying on the stones - and he has a few amethysts in his room. I'll get his energy straightened out eventually.

Now that I've had a reading about George - guess who is slowly pushing his way back more into my energy field - yep - Will. It's kind of like - I know I'm not going to do anything but I don't want you to forget about me because of George - type of energy. Lord - how can one forget about their other half? But with Will's energy comes a mentoring energy as well. It's hard to describe - it's a love energy, but one where he is a teacher and not a lover. Like this all started out years ago when he first contacted me - he was to be a mentor or teacher of sorts and it appears that his energy has stepped back into that role. I wonder how I can be in the same room and not want to kiss the hell out of him? Well, I may want - but as long as he is in the teacher/mentor role, it's a line I will not cross. It's strange with Will - there is no karma to tie up, no lessons to learn - but we have a mutual mission that has to be accomplished together. It is rather refreshing not to have past karma with someone.

George and I have past karma - he making things up with me. If he wants to make things right in this life, I do believe that I will let him do just that. It's a strong urge from him to make things right - I would say it's a primal urge. It's something that his soul is hungry to do - something he must do. And when approached in this lifetime, I will let him do it. When I came to solid grips with that decision, more visions started flying in - and I'm not ignoring them any longer. I've had visions of George and our friendship/relationship for years now - and I have just pushed them to the side. They have been around since I discovered Bill and this whole world opened up to me. I'd love to see George and Bill have a talk - it would be very interesting. Both are deeply committed souls - wanting to make the world a better place for mankind, animals and the environment. Both are Democrats and outspoken.

The visions I get with George in them revolve around children. My son, George's friends children and more. There's always laughter and good feelings. He's always doing things for me - I can see me telling him just to stop it. But that's what he wants to do -- keep giving and giving. The whole thing just seems so surreal to me right now.

I can hear someone now saying - what if Will wakes up and comes to his senses about more than a mentor relationship? If he does so before I get involved with someone, then I'm open to it. If it happens after, then he's too late. At least in this life.

Time to get back to work:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

NOLA, OBE Sex Workshop And My Readings!

Well before anyone asks - Nickelodeon took a pass on the project for now. They need some things changed and some established talent w/credits, to come on board. We are invited to resubmit later on down the road. So we'll see. Am I bummed? Not really. I'm so used to being shot down that it really doesn't phase me any more. Now when I finally get a yes - that will register. So back to the drawing board on this - DREAMERS and the new project I just started.

I did not see Will in NOLA and I can honestly say that I didn't care. In fact, I'm at that point that if I never see him again in this life - I'm fine with it. I can still push his buttons 24/7 and no matter who he's with, they'll never be able to do that.

NOLA really was a blast. I met a lot of fabo people while I was there. I did spend Sat. night stumbling down Bourbon St. with my sister and a good friend of mine. We all know that if I start crying - my friend starts calling me a fucking whore and my sister says - it's all good....that we've had too much and it's time to stop:) The only thing that was wrong with me Sun was that I was tired. I never got sick, nor did I have a hangover:) I did go to Jackson Square (which I LOVED) and saw all of the stray cats that the town feeds. I also got a reading by a woman named Fox. I'll tell you what she said - along with Amy, an angel reader - what she had to say in a bit.

My OBE sex talk went well - a few people looked confused - some looked like they were too advanced with what I was trying to teach -- and others had no idea why they were drawn to the talk. That is until they got a reading from me and had "uh-ha" moments! I met many people who are still trying to get their lives back on track after Katrina. Others I met were dealing with discovering and/or meeting with their soul mate/soul clusters. One young woman I met was so gifted at seeing the dead - I mean WOW gifted. She is trying to get a handle on how to help them. One tall spirit guy was standing behind me as we talked and he kept touching me - very interesting. But she is a wow factor -- honestly - she has more of a gifted insight than John Edwards and Sylvia Browne combined (not to mention the original Ghost Whisperer). Anyways - I'd love to see where she is in a few years.

I did do a ghost/vampire tour which was a blast. Our feet hurt so we left it early - but we still had a good time. The French Quarter was nice - I liked the houses and just the "oldness" of that place. I rode the street car/trolley to get to The House Of Broel in the Garden District (where Maria had the show). We were stuck in Atlanta until late Monday night (weather related) - but the time I got home it was early Tuesday morning. And I'm still tired.

Now both readings - very similar in scope. Amy said that I have to trademark my OBE stuff and start doing workshops on my own. Doesn't matter if I have one couple show up - that this is where my bread and butter lies. That it will propel me to an area I didn't think possible. I do agree - I have to come up with something and I would love to give workshops on OBE sex - my problem is that I don't know how -- meaning I don't know how to come up with a curriculum. I guess I could base it on my OBE email class? And what I'm putting in my book? What else? Both ladies said that my energy is not putting out the right vibes to attract a love - that I'm prickly. Both wanted to know about the fireman and that I shouldn't keep him at arms length. Both said I scared off Will (by him reading my blog) and the person he is with doesn't scare him - he's more in control with her. Whatever. Both said that they doubt that Will and I will do what we have to in this life as he's too scared to take the next step. So oh goody - I get to come back and do this again.

Amy wants me to evoke Aphrodite. Say she wall help me lower my guard and allow someone into my life. Fox said I won't be getting laid till about forever. Both said that I have to focus and not to dawdle with what is in front of me - take the bull by the horns - etc....

Let's see money will continue to be tight but I will find a way to make ends meet. 2009 will be a great year - more money will start to come my way end of 2008. That's all I can remember.

I did feel something shift while I was in NO - I have to idea what, but it was good and had to do with my career. Time will tell.

Back to thinking about the OBE workshop. 3 days - one day per method. Ohh..I just thought of some wonderful oils & incense combos that would be a fabo part of the workshop. Plus crystal sex toys - oh yes - you heard correctly. I did have some OBE experiences while in NO. I have to find the time tonight to write them in the OBE sex blog.

Just so you know - I will be in FL from Aug 16 - 20 with my son to see my dad and step-mom. Then my son starts school the next week. Dang - where did the summer go?

My email is so scary that I don't even want to think about it. But I will eventually get back to everyone.

Oh - I did Maria's show live in NO on Monday instead of being on today -- but you probably already figured that out. I still would have loved to have my own show on Psychiconair.com - but I guess that it wasn't meant to be.

Which gets me to thinking about an OBE sex radio show - again. What in Goddesses name would I have on that show? Readings - sex & love - obviously. But what else? I wonder if I could have a co-host? Hey Matt (he knows who I'm talking about)...what do you think? Okay - I'm just thinking -- and on that note...

...I'm off to get my shower!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill. Dreams And Will!

I find myself in a dilemma. Remember the fireman? Well he's still around (out lasted Mr. Client Guy - who, BTW I talked to this morning) and we've chatted sporadically over the last several months. I've kept up every wall I have - trying not to actually like the guy - or should I say want to know more so that I could have a chance to like him. But I find the more I chat with him, the lower the walls are getting. And even though his political views are not on the same field as mine - just about everything else is - well, except for our ages - I am older by 8 years. Doesn't seem to bother him. I'm not sure I'm ready to let down the walls. But if I don't, I could be missing out on a great guy - a guy with no baggage - no ex wives, no children, no psycho exes (as far as I know). But -- what if I do and then things go through with me script wise and I move? I'm doing exactly what I tell my clients not to do "What if" myself to death. Damn I hate when I don't listen to my own good advice. So I have here a seemingly good guy who has a sense of humor, can cook, like animals & kids, likes the X-Files and Star Wars - plus realizes that George Lucas couldn't write his way out of a paper bag without a co-writer. Oh, and he's fully aware on what I do for a living.

I know I'm over thinking everything. Hummm...sounds familiar doesn't it? No wonder I don't have a love life - lol. But he lives about 30 min away - so we'll see if we actually get to that 1st date that we're trying to arrange.

I'm behind in all my email. This last week was very hectic and busy - busy. Next week I'm off to New Orleans on Friday - remember I'll be at Maria's Psychic Fair! Wednesday I'll be in Cleveland most of the day with my son at a pediatric psychiatrist. His empathy gifts aside - he has some issues that need to be taken care of that he needs someone who specializes in children - and of course there is no one in Wooster that's affiliated with the Cleveland Clinic that does that. No results of the brain EEG yet. So basically I have to fit in a weeks worth of work in two days. HA - that's funny.

I'm rewriting DREAMERS for the last time. I want to get this done - so the blog posting will again be down - unless something major happens. No word from Nickelodeon.

When was the last time you checked out my Gypsy News section for Gypsy (Roma) news, environmental - animal - gov't alerts? I have something there that's important about Horse Slaughter that you should take action on.

I emailed Tracey yesterday to watch out -- Bill visited me in my dreams and then was around all morning. She said she woke up with a full-blown headache. The guy was full of piss and vinegar and appeared to have wanted to null & void the agreement he and Will made. This is what happened:

In the dream visit, Bill was so excited that he finally "got" everything. We're in what looked like a personal library. Plenty of books, round table w/ 2 chairs and a desk. He and I have been here before. He finally understood - his logical mind clicked in place with his intuitive side. He was like a kid in a candy store - so excited to the world that finally made sense to him. We were comparing notes on what we have experienced thus far. He wanted so much to be able to remember everything that I can remember. I told him to give himself 10 min increments. Set an alarm clock and once it goes off, write down everything he remembers. As time goes on - increase the amount of time before the alarm goes off. Before he knows it, he won't need the alarm at all.

He liked that idea. People were coming in and out of the room, they were around outside - milling about. Bill kept rubbing my shoulder & my upper back as we talked. Like he had to keep touching me. I commented that if he keeps doing that - then people will think we have something going and/or they will know that we know one another and that he's "Bill". He ignored what I said and kept going over the notes. He kept leaning in closer and closer to me until....(see OBE Sex blog).

...When I woke up I could still feel his energy around me. He kept pulling me in telepathically - they were snippets of telepathic connections. He went on about Will has not done anything despite the agreement. He's not waiting any more. Will out of the equation. I'm trying to calm this flurry of "whatever" down - saying give Will a chance - you've known about the connection for over 4 years, he just got it under 2 years ago and still hasn't come to grips with it. That he finally "got" what I see, it'll take Will awhile to catch up. He's going on there is no more time - times up - Ted needs us now. He's falling into the abyss. Ted's at a point where he's heading for death row -- and Bill just kept going on. I told him - if Ted needs us that bad - pick up the &^%$# phone and call me. You and I can help Ted without Will. I asked, what about bring in George - he's already up to speed and I don't think he needs a push. Bill went on - he's not part of our core -- I'm like are sure? He's like - don't question what I say. I'm like - wait there babe - I'll question whatever the hell I want to. You don't want George here because he'll slam your ass up against the wall, he won't take your over-thinking self and put up with it. He'll stand up to you and you're afraid -- your afraid he'll win. This isn't a contest of wining -put your ego aside for just a second. For a man who loves to help people, you sure are brutal on the souls closest to you.

I'm done for now - you let me know when we should go see Ted.

And I broke the connection. Bill's right here though - has been all day. I know he wants to continue the convo - I'm sure we will tonight.

SIGH

Merlin was right when he said he'd be with me every night in the dreamscape. The dream time has been so chalked full of flying, putting things together - creating spells/potions and studying. I can't remember all of the details - Merlin tells me that my subconscious will slowly leak knowledge to my waking mind on an as needed basis. No reason - he said - to fry my circuits. That was nice of him:)

Off to grab a bowl of ice cream and then get back to DREAMERS:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Dirk, Dreams And The CIA!

I'm trying to get some readings done this late morning, do the podcast and THEN write in this blog. But the powers that be keep bugging me to write about Dirk. Okay, I hear you - who's this one? Dirk is someone I met when I was 13 and it was (until my son was born) the #1 best moment of my life. Now Dirk shares spot #2 with Will. I've tried to move Dirk to #3, but it doesn't feel right to do. So there he stays - until Will calls, then maybe he'll move to #3:)

So Dirk is handsome - wonderful blue eyes, nice smile, very charming. Nothing ever romantic here - but I have always thought he was pretty darn hot. Age wise, he's now in his 60's - but again, he's still hot. Periodically over the last 28 years I've thought about him - nothing too intensive and usually not more than maybe a day at a time. But Sat., something happened that triggered my memory of him, and he's been right there ever since. Yesterday I realized two things about Dirk: 1) he influenced the way on why I do not eat out very often, once calling restaurants (especially fast food) as drive-thru cancer centers and 2) influenced my two trips to Montana (he lives there) and although I was with my ex - two of the next vacations I have ever had. I LOVE MT - even more than NYC or Calif.

Okay - why now - why is he "right there"? I don't get it. I keep getting flash visions of he and Will sitting there chatting and me being very nervous, yet flirting with both. I don't know why he's here - but Ethan said it was important for me to mention him in the blog, Iris is here too agreeing with him and saying for me to breathe deep. Why? Is something going to come out of left field? Quite possibility. Another vision I keep seeing is Dirk and I with papers around us discussing creative ideas.

I so wish visions came with a guide book -- not just the guide:) And I don't know how Dirk fits in with the whole soul cluster, soul group thing. He fits in some way - I just do not know how. Wow - what a sizzling energy I had zap through me (the kind that makes your skull tingle). If I find out anything else, I'll let you know. And Dirk, when you stop by this blog (and someday you will), let me know what you get of our connection.

Before you ask - Dirk is his real name. I was told to use it and that it would be okay to do so.

Dreams last night. One was me standing in line at the bank, trying to make a deposit - but there was only one teller working. Another one was messing around. She finally came over and another guy with 2 small kids cut in front of me. I looked over at him and said "excuse me" - he took a step back. I handed the woman the check and the deposit slip. She looked at it and said she'd be right back. The Bank Manager (a woman) came over and told me that this was a rather large check and would I met her at her desk. Okay -- I go over. We sit down and she proceeds to tell me that this is too much money to place in one account. That it would be good to put some in a savings, IRA, etc....I assured her I'd think about it after I deposited the check and paid off things. With what's left -I will spend some on fun stuff and put the rest away. I assured her that this was not my last big check so I wasn't worried about running out of money.

In this next dream, I was in a research facility. I had to go into someone's dream to help them out of a coma. But first I had to pass the "Dream Keeper" - a very scary looking dude in orange & black armor - you had to pass him in order to get into the Dreamscape. He was like a dream gatekeeper. He knew my energy signature, so they did not want to send me in 1st, Someone else had to go in and distract the DK. I keep getting this was in CIA. Anyways -- a woman put on a special dream helmet and laid down. She went to sleep and on a flat screen TV, it showed us what she was dreaming about. We could hear what was said, what she did -- and with the DK coming towards her (with a very loud and deep voice) I had to turn off the TV, as I was concentrating too much on DK - to do so would alert him that I was around. I didn't need a helmet to enter into this dream world - I sat back in a recliner - Will came over and told me to remember not to think about DK at all, or he will be drawn to me. I tell him - okay - he tells me to be careful -- and I go into the dream.

I am in a very dark area. I don't nee a flashlight as I can see quite well in little light. There are rocks, and smoke everywhere - the land is barren. I'm using all of my brain power on concentrating on this person I have to find. I can see a white light glowing up head to my left. I can hear crying - but I ignore it - moving straight towards the light something catches my eye over to the right. I look and it's Bill. I ask him what's he doing here? He replied that he thought I might need the help. As soon as he said that - it alerted DK and it showed up behind him - I screamed at Bill to wake up NOW. I woke myself up.

As I was lying there in my bed - heart pounding a million miles an hour...I wondered if Bill was lying in his bed doing the same? And would he remember what just happened? That was really interesting -- although DK scared the crap out of me.

Off to the store -- the kid is driving me crazy.

Okay - it is now dinner time and I'm finishing this up for now. I had to get caught up on my readings. My podcast - I hope - will be later tonight. The dinosaur show up in Cleveland was a lot of fun on Saturday and his party on Sunday was a blast. Tomorrow it's his actual birthday so I'm taking him to see WALL-E. We seem to see a Pixar flick every birthday. Then on Friday the family gathering with fireworks that evening.

I did see orange kitty today - I was relieved. His paw/leg still isn't healed - but it does seem to look better. Mr. Client Guy called today too - didn't have a lot of time to talk with the kid's phone radar, but at least we chatted - so that was good.

As of today the kid and I have been on our own for a year! Yay! I always knew I could do it - but knowing and then doing are two separate things. I give great thanks that the Universe has always had my back - and will continue to do so! It hasn't been easy - but I am very grateful for the experience. Besides - I'm much better off today (mentally, emotionally and spiritually) than I was a year ago.

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Odd, Ends And Me Bitching!

I hope my brain doesn't fall out over the next two weeks. Seriously - I hope not. The kid is home with me for the next two weeks and if they go like this last week did - I'm in trouble. He's really pushing those boundaries and that mouth --- talk about having to count backwards from 100 so I wouldn't kill him. And he's grounded - from everything that he loves (that usually keeps him out of my hair as I work) - which in turn is punishing me. But - I can't give in -- and I won't.

Phase one with Nickelodeon is complete - and the project passed. Now we have to go to phase two and pass through a test in person (not me in person but my Rep's) - and this will not happen until everyone is back from their vacations. We're looking at the week of the 14th. Fingers crossed for that:) I've done my own tarot reading on it and it looks really good. Hopefully I didn't put too much of "me" into the reading and skewed the results.

I feel like I'm in a big void of nothing. I have all of this stuff that I need to do - but no excitement to do it. All of the waiting I've had to do for a variety of things has zapped my "want to do something" mood. I need something to shake loose somewhere. Whether it's my non-existent love life (yes folks, I do believe I have scared off another person and this one already knew all about me), stalled career or beyond hilarious - getting me very stressed out - money situation - something has to move forward. I know something will have to move because change is inevitable - but come on already. Frustration doesn't do well for my complexion.

Yes, I do believe another man has gone running in the opposite direction. SIGH. And no, I have no idea what happened. One second everything was fine - the next nothing. I guess that I'm just not supposed to be with anyone for now. Maybe someone WILLed Mr. Client Guy away? I have no idea. But it doesn't set well with what self-esteem I do have left. I just can't wrap my head around my good for nothing ex having a happy love life - when I can't seem to get a guy interested for more than 2 weeks. UGH!!!

Okay - enough of me whining -- moving on...

The kid and I are heading up to Cleveland soon with my mom to see a dinosaur show up at the "Q" (which is where are Cavalier's play) in a couple of hours. Should be a nice outing. Hopefully the weather won't be too disagreeable and make driving a big hassle. Tomorrow is my son's kid party - should be fun.

Will's been around more than usual the last couple of days. It's been nice to see his face in my mind's again. The two scenarios that keep flashing through my mind are he, my son and I walking into a building where there is a doorman and he knows my kid and I as we live there -- he also knows that Will is a frequent guest. The other scene I see is Will, the kid and I in a small Italian restaurant sharing a pizza -- we're laughing about something. Both scenes are uplifting and positive. I rarely ever have a bad scene with Will in it. Even the fight visions I get aren't that bad because the make up sex is well worth the fighting:)

Speaking of sex - with Tracey's healing on Will the sexual energy clog that he's had is certainly cleared up. His energy has let me know that he's feeling much better.

Either Bill or Will has been doing a lot of blog checking lately. Not sure which one as both of their energies are strong right now. Could be both - don't know.

An odd last dream last night/this morning --- I was in my house, and my cats were chasing something. It looked like a small dragon - but I thought it was a frog - it had red spots. My cat Cera really kept bothering it. I finally got all of my cats into my bedroom and shut the door so that I could find this little creature and put it outside before it was eaten. I find it -- and what is it - but a tiny cat. Like it got put into a shrinking ray or something. It's a long-haired white cat with reddish & black spots. It looks at me and just lets out the biggest meow! I picked it up and it sits in the palm of my hand, just being as vocal as can be. Now I'm thinking - what in the heck am I going to do with this cat so that my other cats don't kill it? I put it in a an open dresser drawer and think about getting a very large bird cage to put it in. I call my mom to ask what I should do and I wake up.

I just went outside to let my dogs do their business when that butterfly who tried to run into me before - tried it again. It sees me and it's like I'm a magnet. Very strange. I saw orange kitty a few days ago - his front left leg was looking really bad -- and he hasn't been back since.

Off to go get some writing done and then heading up to Cleveland!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Allie, Iris And A True Love!

You know, I've tried watching Medium so many times, but I have it all figured out within the first 5 - 10 min and it ruins everything - same happens with Ghost Whisper and the Dead Zone (when it was on). The only shows that give me food for thought at least 1/2 the time are the CSI, Law & Order and Monk. SIGH. Same thing happens when I read a mystery book - before I hit 1/2 way I have it solved. Dang it all. But that's something I'd love to write - a mystery movie with the viewer having to figure out who done it. Whoever solves the crime sends in a solution. Then the ones who have it right get put in a hopper and a winner is pulled. The whole movie is told through the eyes of the PI hired by the victims family. So what the PI sees, the audience sees. Then after it is out of the theaters & is in DVD, there will be a second mystery to solve. The secondary mystery is located within the main mystery but you don't really notice it as you're paying attention to #1. It's a concept that's been knocking about in my mind for many years.

I'm not sure if I will get the podcast done on Monday. My mom and sister are coming over for a picnic and then it's off to see Indy. I don't care if it has been 19 years since the last movie - Indy is still hot.

For those of you who have been following this blog for awhile you know how I can be a reading junkie. I love getting readings - although I don't get them near what I used to - I'm still tickled when I do get one regardless of the info getting. For my birthday a client surprised ME with a reading. Yeah - I was tickled:) I thought I'd share it with you, I hope she doesn't mind (I don't think she does or I wouldn't share).

The spread I've chosen is called The Birthday Spread, and I found it on a tarot forum I belong to. It is 9 cards and tells you about your past influences, accomplishments of the past year, issues you carry forward into this year, where you are at the moment, challenges you may face in the upcoming year, goals you can achieve this year, the overall focus of your year, and your birthday gift, which is a blessing you will receive during the year. I really love this spread, it reminds me of a solar return almost :) The tarot deck I'll be using is Tarot of a Moon Garden in case you want to google for images of the cards that appear in your reading.

First of all, I just have to say when I drew your cards, you pulled 5 major arcana cards! WOW!!! I have never done a reading like that before! And I think you know that 5 in numerology indicates major changes are ahead!! And because the major arcana usually represents themes or big issues. Psychically, I receive that this is going to be a TREMENDOUS year for you. Clairvoyantly, I see moving toward the East and I am seeing happiness not only for you, but for your son as well. I feel a lot of warmth and laughter. I also see a man walking into your life when you make this move. He's tall, with black hair, tanned, and he's a little older, but not much. He has a nice body, he's skinny but he does have some muscle to him and he's clean shaven. I'm feeling you may all ready know this man? But it's like he is going to come around even more when you move. I see your business doing tremendously well and your going to write another book for publishing based on dreams and dream interpretation.

Ok with that said, this is what the cards are telling me in the spread I am doing for you:

Card #1 - Past influences that are ending or passing out of your life - Three of Cups - I want to say that you aren't playing the victim anymore. It's like you've underwent through some hard times this past year. You've dealt with the hard times as best as you can, and God is rewarding you. Three is a number of creativity and communications. You probably felt a creative growth spurt this year and you have learned some lessons on how to expand your horizons with regards to your creativity. Your creativity will always be there, don't worry, but it's like the past year, you were on this major creative growth spurt. You were blossoming with ideas all over the place. Also, in my card, there is three fairies in cups. I'm feeling this was a great year for networking for your business and you have reaped the benefits of this networking. The moon in the card is a bright yellowish-orange color and that signifies happiness. It took you awhile to get there, but there is just major happiness flowing from you.

Card #2 - Accomplishments of the past year to reflect on - Temperance - Whenever I think of Temperance, it usually means patience to me. So I am thinking that you have had to learn to be patient and learn to work with your energies in order to manifest your desires. You had to make things work. You were not only patient, but you knew the meaning of "hard work" and you see the rewards that have come with this hard work. I'm also getting that you are trusting your guides more than ever. You have always listened to them, but there was some doubt. But this past year, you learned that they have been more right than wrong. You are becoming more intuitive and more aware. There is a unicorn behind the angel who is pouring a rainbow into a cup in the card, and the unicorn to me symbolizes extra protection and good luck. Your angels were certainly helping you accomplish your goals and made you go after your dreams. There is a path behind the angel, which I think is going to be the angel's next venture which leads to some mountains. You are more prepared than ever for this challenge. Way to go Allie! :)

Card #3 - Issues, tasks, or goals carried forward from last year into the coming year - The Sun - You are learning to trust. I'm feeling you have major trust issues. You don't trust just anyone. They have to understand you. You get along with everyone, but you sometimes feel that you are lacking friends who understand the real Allie. I'm also getting that you will continue to work with your guides more in an every day basis and they are going to lead you to some new people who will understand the real Allie. And these people will be in your life FOREVER. Also, The Sun can indicate partnership, so you may decide to write a book with someone, start a business with someone, or you could enter into a new relationship this year. And this relationship you will learn from. And you will be happy. I feel nothing but good from this card for you. It's just all about working with people and perhaps you may become involved with someone (maybe the man I saw at the beginning of this reading ;) ).

Card #4 - Where you are right now - Justice - You are receiving what you so rightfully deserved. You are in a happy place. The wrongs have been righted. You are ready for your next battle in the game of life. You feel you can tackle anything that comes your way (and you can!). The moon in the card to me represents that there are higher forces working with you. You are always going to have an uplifting from anything no matter what. Nothing will ever be complete doomsday for you.

Card #5 - New influences that will be coming into your life in the near future - The Emperor - When I first saw this card, I immediately thought of a teacher/father figure. He is going to be someone that you can confide in, someone you will go to for advice, and someone who is as spiritually enlightened as you are. I'm feeling that he could have Aries energy since The Emperor is sitting on a throne with Ram horns. And I really feel a masculine energy in this card too. This person could also be a female, just someone who has a lot of masculine energy. I really could be wrong, but I feel this will be a male more than likely, and this could be the man that I'm seeing you enter into a relationship with. He's going to be very loving. You will be his Goddess ;) It's like first he'll come into your life as a teacher, but then he will become a lover.

Card #6 Challenges you may face in the coming year - The Magician - You may have writer's block or not all the desire to do as many readings as you have been doing. You've expanded your energy so much on helping people that you will want a vacation. Make sure you are taking time out for yourself, even if it post pones readings. Your energy may ware thin. Be sure to get lots of sleep. Don't be on the go all the time. And I'm feeling a lot of movement within this card, so I think there may be some stress with moving, but that's natural :) Make sure you breathe and just take time out for yourself once in awhile. You may also feel that there is some blockage or deception, but remember, you can overcome anything! You are a very powerful wizard ;) (since the card has a wizard for the Magician). You are a wiz! Your metaphysical and spiritual knowledge will help you fight your writer's block and intuitive blocks and/or the people you feel that are deceiving you.

Card #7 - Goals you can achieve in the coming year - Knight of Swords - You are going to continue to fight for what you believe in. And the result will be very positive for you. I'm feeling your trust issues will be tackled and you'll have such numerous support from people. I feel you are going to complete something that is either draining your energy or you just don't have time for anymore.

Card #8 - The Overall focus or outlook for the coming year - Four of Pentacles - This is going to be ALL ABOUT YOU! YOU! YOU! YOU! ALLIE! ALLIE! ALLIE! You will focus more on yourself this year and I see you focusing on your writing more. Your business is going to get so busy with your appearances on Maria's show, you may also get a radio show of your own! You have to remember when to say no to the people who you can turn away. You will know who to say no to because they will support you no matter what. I'm seeing a move in this card as finances will be ok to move. You will be in a much happier place and you are just so thankful for the way things have turned out.

Card #9 - Your birthday gift - a blessing you will receive during the year - Queen of Staffs - You are going to become a business savvy woman. You are going to be balanced (or at least seem to be balanced LOL). I also see a new pet. This pet you are going to be so attached to. It's going to be a stray, but you are so drawn to it, like it's a past life connection or something. You are going to start feeling beautiful and will want to flaunt what you got ;) And you are a beautiful soul. The Queen of Staffs also means a good friend and mother and devoted wife. So this year could be...it. Even though you are in your money year, I still feel that romance will blossom for you and this could lead into a marriage or long term relationship. You are never going to be broke, you will always have just enough to get by when times are rough.

The guy she described in the beginning sounds a lot like Will - except that Will's hair isn't black. But heck, as long as I meet a good guy who is good to me and my son - I don't care who he is. She's not the only one who has told me that I'll be moving east and it could be as early as mid summer. Plus - again not the only one who says I will burn out and want to slow down some this summer. So if I try to work in moderation now - maybe I won't burn out this summer?

Iris and I had a little chat about romance last night. I asked her how a SOB like my ex could find someone (although he had several while we were married) and move in with them -- when me -- the nice person - still hasn't found anyone. She said -- well Allie, you're ex will take anyone and while his girlfriend has a kind heart, he'll mess that one up too. And then he'll go on to the next and so forth. You on the other hand know what you will accept and will not accept. You have asked the Divine to send you a true love - not just any love - and that is what you are waiting for. Just anyone will not due for you - you refuse to accept anyone into your life -- and the life of your son -- who doesn't have your highest good in mind. Because of this, only men who meet the conditions set out by you will be brought to you. And where you live - there isn't many - if any. You'll meet your love when you are out of town. And before you ask - I will not tell you if it's Will or not. It should be - but he has free will to turn his back. If he does that - then you will be brought another true love as you have more than one. Fear not for you will be in a positive, loving relationship by the end of 2009. In the grand scheme of things, another year or so isn't that long. Besides, your work load is heavy now and is about to get heavier. There's only so much time in a day.

And yes, there is only so much time in the day. And with school ending next Friday, my days will be busier. Although he is going to go to his favorite day camp 3x a week this summer - I still have to pay for it - so it's more work for me:)

On that note - it's time for me to go and get some more things done. For those of you in the states, have a great Memorial Day weekend and stay safe.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Off To MI, Spider Sense Is On High Alert!

My headache has been full tilt all week. It has just been nuts. I know that Will is not "in" my energy like he's my astral body -- but he is still very much here. And I mean he has zoned in big time. I have no idea what he's doing - but it's something that has me under consideration.

That said - my spider sense is on high alert. I know this weekend will bring a love into my life. I just know it with every sense that I have. I have been seeing me walking around the corner and my heart stopping in my throat. It's a vision that I've had repeatedly all week long. I have no idea who I am running into or being introduced to - but it is someone who will take my breath away. It's a major - holy shit - happening.

And no - I honestly have no idea if it is Will. I mean - what would he be doing at a hoedown in Detroit? But I asked the universe to please send me someone as I'm tired of being alone. And if Will doesn't want to step up - then please send someone. I've been alone for over 10 years and I'm tired of it. Just because I was divorced only last year doesn't make me alone for only a year -- trust me, my ex and I have been apart for a very long time. I think that's why I was so surprised that my son was conceived. I was like - how'd that happen - lol.

It's also not Bill, Ted, Matt or even Sawyer who I will run into:) And BTW -- Heath and I have come to a mutual satisfying resolve about him popping in and out to chat.

Any ways - heading out the door now to go to my niece's 4th b-day party and then it's off to MI. I'll have the crackberry with me - so when I'm swept off my feet, I'll tell you about it -- much later:)

If all else fails and there's no love this weekend -- I still know that I'll have a good weekend as I'll be spending it with people I both like and respect -- and I know they return the feelings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Something Shifted...

Hi -me again:) I just noticed a shift - my career is in the forefront of my mind now and not love. Not that love is not important to me - as it is...but all of a sudden it was if a fog was lifted.

I can't really explain it - but things are much clearer now. I'm definitely more focused. Wow, what a difference.

Whatever happened - I'll take it. Something about Maria's reading for me did it. Boy am I grateful

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Maria Shaw, Psychiconair.com And My Forecast!

Well- what a nice surprise I had today -- I called into Maria Shaw's show on Psychiconair.com to get a birthday reading (she was talking about Taurus) and I wound up chatting on air about OBE Sex (my favorite subject).

If you weren't listening to her show (and you really should, it's good) - they'll rebroadcast it tonight from 9 pm - midnight. I came on about 9:20 am until 9:58 am today - so it'll be the same time in the pm if you want to catch it.

My best time for love - is now - now - now:) Maria thinks I'll meet someone at the howdown on May 11th:) Works for me:) Asked about Will -- she said that I have to put myself where ever he is -- easier said than done. I figure, if we're supposed to be in the same place - we will be. But I'm not sitting around waiting for him.

Money & career - looking FABO for the next year from May 2 2008 to May 2 2009! Time to bust a serious move and not hold back:)

If you tune in - I gave some more tips about connecting for OBE Sex:)

Okay -- so much to get done...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Tonight's Radio Show, My Lackluster Love Life And My Son!

You guys are a great bunch of readers. Thanks for all of the uplifting and comforting emails about my son, all of the stuff we're dealing with and Will. I'm too swamped to reply to everyone who has emailed me - but I've read all of the emails and they meant the world to me - so thank you.

Speaking of email - the back log is frightening.

His teacher called this morning - I was doing a reading and couldn't answer. She didn't leave a message, so whatever it was it's not earth shattering. A week 1/2 till NYC -- my son is so excited - I think more than me, although I'm dreaming about pizza and cheesecake, so I doubt it:) For my b-day I want to go to FAO Swartz. That's someplace I've wanted to visit since I was a kid. We'll show up either for storytime or for the piano players - whichever they have on a Friday. Then I think the Central Park Zoo would be fun since our hotel is along side the park. Sat is a good day to catch a museum and maybe the Empire State building. I'm not over planning anything - no buying tickets a head of time so we have to be somewhere. I'm going to see how the days unfold and take it from there.

I've thought more about the home school. And if the kid is still okay with it come July - I'll sign him up. My thought is that this will force me to be more organized and to learn more patience. Plus - I think that it will make me a more effective teacher for workshops. And for travel - I don't have to worry about taking him out of school since we'll take it with us.

I met an interesting fireman last night online. I met him 1st and then found out what he did for a living. My #1 fantasy turn on -- firemen. So -- needless to say I was pretty darn happy about that. Any ways - we were chatting and he asked what I did for a living. I hesitated for a split second and then said I was a writer. In the past when I've come right out and said I was a psychic & a writer - either the guy ran -- or he was intrigued. When they were intrigued, eventually they would find my web site -- and then my blogs. Then they would run...

So I'm hesitant to say much to this guy as of now. But this got me to thinking -- if I'm to have a meaningful relationship with anyone - it either has to be someone from the blogs or a man who doesn't freak because of what I write. And when I do find someone - and if he is not Will (remember, the man has free will here) - then what happens to what I write - even if he's okay by it? I don't know. Seems to me that to keep a guy longer than a few days, I have to keep this part hidden. But to keep any part of my authentic self hidden is against what I believe. So what do I do? I know - it'll all play out the way it's supposed to. But the whole scenario got me thinking -- if someone from this blog doesn't step up, then how long will I be single? A year? 5 years? 10 years? I remember several intuitive friends (Tracey, Sky and Gabriele) all saying that once I got divorced (they all said this back in 2006 & 2007) that I would be alone for a spell and then get married (not necessarily in the traditional sense) for the final time. But no one could say how long that alone time would be.

Humm... this just all got me to thinking. I'm not bothered by any of it - it was just food for thought last night as I was drifting off to sleep. I'm pretty comfortable in knowing that what is supposed to happen will happen -- so I just go about my daily routine.

Speaking of which - I will be on Blog Talk Radio tonight with Phil Harris: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/pharris from 8:00 pm - 9:00 pm EST. I pray that my son lets me get through this with as little guff as possible.

Writing is going slow - but is is moving on this next draft of DREAMERS.

Off to get the kid!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Dunshine Castle And Telepathic Sex!

Ted, Ted, Ted -- God bless this man. I have been so closed off to energies these last few weeks that I failed to notice that I really missed Ted. I mean I miss all three guys - Ted, Bill and Will - but Ted -- it's so hard to explain with him -- so I won't. But because of my energy opening experience with Tom the other night, Ted was able to finally reach me, and it felt good. Felt great actually -- like a tall cool glass of sweet tea on a hot august day. Refreshing, invigorating - satisfying.

The dream visit last night had us at Dunshire Castle. I remember candles, a fire and a bottle of red wine. Ted told me how much I needed to relax and that I have to open myself up more, that being so closed off is not only dimming my light - but his as well. He asked if I had spoken to Tracey lately and I said briefly last week. He said - I took control of the airplane and I know where I'm headed now. It's a non-stop flight. Then he smiled at me and those green eyes twinkled. I knew what was he talking about as Tracey had told me a few months earlier that she kept having a dream with Ted in it where they were on a plane - she was flying it - and Ted said there was no need for him to do anything as she and I were doing all the work. So the fact that he has taken control of the "plane" is a big step for him.

I knew he was gunning straight for me and for the first time in years I genuinely smiled a big smile.

Then I heard an alarm go off and I woke up. But I didn't have to get out of bed for another 2 hours so I laid there and tried to get back to sleep to finish seeing Ted. No such luck. That's when the telepathic connection kicked in and I heard him say that he wasn't done with me yet. I couldn't help but smile at that. Telepathic sex can be like an intense day dream or should I say an intense day dream intermingles with telepathic sex. I could feel his breath on my neck, feel his hands grab my body and hold me tight. His lips brush gently against my cheek causing the hair to stand up on my arms and my body to go weak. His touch was like heaven on earth. But it wasn't going where I thought it would - instead he said he had to show me something.

We are standing off to the side watching us. It looks to be that I'm in London, trying to figure out how to ride the Tube when I see Ted standing there. I know who he is and I try to casually ask him directions on what I'm supposed to do - what to take where in order to get to my biz partner's house. I told my partner that I didn't need his help to do this - but I find that I'm lost. Ted gives good instructions and then adds - I'm going that way, why don't I just drop you off? I told him only if he would let me buy him a pint at the pub later. He agreed. We discuss what I do for a living and he seems intrigued. He drops me off at my destination and asks me if I would like to see a football game tonight. I say sure.

We go to the game and have a wonderful time. We go and have a few pints - still having fun. No matter what I do or what I'm saying he doesn't take his eyes off of me. It's exhilarating and unsettling all at once. I ask him to take me someplace haunted. He doesn't want to. So I call him a chicken. He agrees to take me. Not sure where we're at - but it's the UK - there's bound to be a lot of haunted places. We looking around in the dark and I could feel a coldness that had my hair stand on ends. I ran and left him in the dust - he ran after me. We got a kick out of it and he took me back to my partner's house which is where I was staying. He told me he wanted to see me again and I agreed.

The next thing I know we are out again, not sure where - but outside. He finally kisses me and I had a hard time standing with my legs wanting to buckle. He gave me a look - one that I've never seen in this lifetime -- all I can say is that it was full of love and devotion -- and he asked me if I believed in love at first sight. I told him yes. He asked how many times has it happened to me. I said - once. And him? Yes - once he said. I asked how it turned out. He replied - I don't know I'm still working on it:)

We're at Dunshine Castle again. We are both excited to be here - we're discussing past lives - etc....and we go up to the top. We are looking at the sunset and it was fabo. I turned to say something to him and he's down on one knee. He asked me if he could devote his life to loving me and if I would do the honor of being his wife? He opened up a box and inside was a marvelous diamond and emerald ring that he designed. I of course said - yes.

Then Ted looked at me (the Ted and I that were watching "us") and said - see what we have to look forward to? Then he kissed me with such passion and there was such energy from all of our chakra's merging that it was a climatic explosion - and I mean that literally. I fell back to sleep relaxed and with a grin on my face.

I love mornings like this!

BTW....I have a favor to ask of you guys. I need for you to be my psychic pimp:) With this serious life change I'm going though I'm going to need some serious cash and I'm not too proud to ask for it. So if you could pass my name and web site out to your family and friends I would appreciate it. Pimp me out -- I don't mind working for a living:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Will, A Past Life And A Murder - Mine!

I had a flash vision of Will today that was very disturbing and I need to confront him in a session so that I can remember the most of the exchange between us. I grabbed my wand and within moments I was in the south, reminded me of Georgia. I see Will leaning against a Willow Tree next to a creek. I smile at him, he smiles back and I ask him what is he doing? He says waiting for me - been waiting all day yesterday and today.....seems he can't get a plum thing done seeing that all he is thinking about is me. He asks - what were you doing. I smile and said working. He cups my face in his hands and replies - so what's new?

I grab a twig off the ground and fidget with it in my hands as I walk around.

What's on your mind Sunshine? Will asks.

That brought yet another smile to my face So you call me Sunshine too?

I've called you Sunshine for well...eternity. Who else calls you that? Bill?

I nod.

Figures...Will retorts.

I had a vision today that really bothered me. I or we I should say were in I guess a villa. It was warm, I could hear water. We had just put our clothes on after making love and you were in a hurry for me to do so - to get my clothes on. I'm standing, you walk up to me and I could tell by your eyes that something horrible was about to happen - you had so much pain, yet love in your eyes. You grab the back of my head and pull me to you, kissing me with such force. I pull back and you're crying. You say -- I'm so sorry -- I hope you can forgive me. Before I could say what?? You shot me in the stomach, right below the rib cage. And watched me as I died, you never took your eyes off of me - not for a second. The last thing I can see is you sobbing.

I have no clue when, where or what time period this was. But I can't get at is why you killed me?

Was I wearing a white suit? He asks....

I don't remember -- but you were tan.

Will sighs. Hold my hands...he says. Will sits and sticks his hands out - palms up, I sit in front of him and grab his hands. In unison we close our eyes. I can feel my hands growing very hot. And I see it -- Will after he shoots me.

He lays me down, and there is a noise behind him. A deep voice says something I can't tell and two men come and grab Will. The deep voice shouts that he did a stupid thing - killing me. But he'll have fun torturing Will.

Cut to -- I don't know where....but Will has tons of slices in his body and he refuses to speak about the location of something. They give him another chance - he doesn't say anything. They toss him into something -- I can't see what or where -- all I can hear are his screams of pain. I break the connection with Will.

You killed me to save me? Will nods, tears pouring down his cheeks. I knew what they would do to you - the rape, the torture, the horrible death. You didn't know they were coming but I did. Who were they? I ask. Will shakes his head -- I don't know, I can't see past that scene and past the pain. It's too much -the pain. But what I do know is that we knew a secret -- something wonderful and healing in the right hands, but dark and deadly in the wrong hands. We were sworn to secrecy. He manages a weak smile - I loved you to the end.

A loud sound jolts me out of the session. Dang that six year old and his role-playing of Star Wars. For a kid who doesn't like loud noises, he is the loudest kid I know.

You know, looking back at what he said when I first connected with Will last year -- no wonder he and I both think that he has done all of these horrible things to me -- especially if he's only been carrying around part of that memory.

Off to watch Armageddon!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)