Dirk, Dreams And The CIA!

I'm trying to get some readings done this late morning, do the podcast and THEN write in this blog. But the powers that be keep bugging me to write about Dirk. Okay, I hear you - who's this one? Dirk is someone I met when I was 13 and it was (until my son was born) the #1 best moment of my life. Now Dirk shares spot #2 with Will. I've tried to move Dirk to #3, but it doesn't feel right to do. So there he stays - until Will calls, then maybe he'll move to #3:)

So Dirk is handsome - wonderful blue eyes, nice smile, very charming. Nothing ever romantic here - but I have always thought he was pretty darn hot. Age wise, he's now in his 60's - but again, he's still hot. Periodically over the last 28 years I've thought about him - nothing too intensive and usually not more than maybe a day at a time. But Sat., something happened that triggered my memory of him, and he's been right there ever since. Yesterday I realized two things about Dirk: 1) he influenced the way on why I do not eat out very often, once calling restaurants (especially fast food) as drive-thru cancer centers and 2) influenced my two trips to Montana (he lives there) and although I was with my ex - two of the next vacations I have ever had. I LOVE MT - even more than NYC or Calif.

Okay - why now - why is he "right there"? I don't get it. I keep getting flash visions of he and Will sitting there chatting and me being very nervous, yet flirting with both. I don't know why he's here - but Ethan said it was important for me to mention him in the blog, Iris is here too agreeing with him and saying for me to breathe deep. Why? Is something going to come out of left field? Quite possibility. Another vision I keep seeing is Dirk and I with papers around us discussing creative ideas.

I so wish visions came with a guide book -- not just the guide:) And I don't know how Dirk fits in with the whole soul cluster, soul group thing. He fits in some way - I just do not know how. Wow - what a sizzling energy I had zap through me (the kind that makes your skull tingle). If I find out anything else, I'll let you know. And Dirk, when you stop by this blog (and someday you will), let me know what you get of our connection.

Before you ask - Dirk is his real name. I was told to use it and that it would be okay to do so.

Dreams last night. One was me standing in line at the bank, trying to make a deposit - but there was only one teller working. Another one was messing around. She finally came over and another guy with 2 small kids cut in front of me. I looked over at him and said "excuse me" - he took a step back. I handed the woman the check and the deposit slip. She looked at it and said she'd be right back. The Bank Manager (a woman) came over and told me that this was a rather large check and would I met her at her desk. Okay -- I go over. We sit down and she proceeds to tell me that this is too much money to place in one account. That it would be good to put some in a savings, IRA, etc....I assured her I'd think about it after I deposited the check and paid off things. With what's left -I will spend some on fun stuff and put the rest away. I assured her that this was not my last big check so I wasn't worried about running out of money.

In this next dream, I was in a research facility. I had to go into someone's dream to help them out of a coma. But first I had to pass the "Dream Keeper" - a very scary looking dude in orange & black armor - you had to pass him in order to get into the Dreamscape. He was like a dream gatekeeper. He knew my energy signature, so they did not want to send me in 1st, Someone else had to go in and distract the DK. I keep getting this was in CIA. Anyways -- a woman put on a special dream helmet and laid down. She went to sleep and on a flat screen TV, it showed us what she was dreaming about. We could hear what was said, what she did -- and with the DK coming towards her (with a very loud and deep voice) I had to turn off the TV, as I was concentrating too much on DK - to do so would alert him that I was around. I didn't need a helmet to enter into this dream world - I sat back in a recliner - Will came over and told me to remember not to think about DK at all, or he will be drawn to me. I tell him - okay - he tells me to be careful -- and I go into the dream.

I am in a very dark area. I don't nee a flashlight as I can see quite well in little light. There are rocks, and smoke everywhere - the land is barren. I'm using all of my brain power on concentrating on this person I have to find. I can see a white light glowing up head to my left. I can hear crying - but I ignore it - moving straight towards the light something catches my eye over to the right. I look and it's Bill. I ask him what's he doing here? He replied that he thought I might need the help. As soon as he said that - it alerted DK and it showed up behind him - I screamed at Bill to wake up NOW. I woke myself up.

As I was lying there in my bed - heart pounding a million miles an hour...I wondered if Bill was lying in his bed doing the same? And would he remember what just happened? That was really interesting -- although DK scared the crap out of me.

Off to the store -- the kid is driving me crazy.

Okay - it is now dinner time and I'm finishing this up for now. I had to get caught up on my readings. My podcast - I hope - will be later tonight. The dinosaur show up in Cleveland was a lot of fun on Saturday and his party on Sunday was a blast. Tomorrow it's his actual birthday so I'm taking him to see WALL-E. We seem to see a Pixar flick every birthday. Then on Friday the family gathering with fireworks that evening.

I did see orange kitty today - I was relieved. His paw/leg still isn't healed - but it does seem to look better. Mr. Client Guy called today too - didn't have a lot of time to talk with the kid's phone radar, but at least we chatted - so that was good.

As of today the kid and I have been on our own for a year! Yay! I always knew I could do it - but knowing and then doing are two separate things. I give great thanks that the Universe has always had my back - and will continue to do so! It hasn't been easy - but I am very grateful for the experience. Besides - I'm much better off today (mentally, emotionally and spiritually) than I was a year ago.

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Odd, Ends And Me Bitching!

I hope my brain doesn't fall out over the next two weeks. Seriously - I hope not. The kid is home with me for the next two weeks and if they go like this last week did - I'm in trouble. He's really pushing those boundaries and that mouth --- talk about having to count backwards from 100 so I wouldn't kill him. And he's grounded - from everything that he loves (that usually keeps him out of my hair as I work) - which in turn is punishing me. But - I can't give in -- and I won't.

Phase one with Nickelodeon is complete - and the project passed. Now we have to go to phase two and pass through a test in person (not me in person but my Rep's) - and this will not happen until everyone is back from their vacations. We're looking at the week of the 14th. Fingers crossed for that:) I've done my own tarot reading on it and it looks really good. Hopefully I didn't put too much of "me" into the reading and skewed the results.

I feel like I'm in a big void of nothing. I have all of this stuff that I need to do - but no excitement to do it. All of the waiting I've had to do for a variety of things has zapped my "want to do something" mood. I need something to shake loose somewhere. Whether it's my non-existent love life (yes folks, I do believe I have scared off another person and this one already knew all about me), stalled career or beyond hilarious - getting me very stressed out - money situation - something has to move forward. I know something will have to move because change is inevitable - but come on already. Frustration doesn't do well for my complexion.

Yes, I do believe another man has gone running in the opposite direction. SIGH. And no, I have no idea what happened. One second everything was fine - the next nothing. I guess that I'm just not supposed to be with anyone for now. Maybe someone WILLed Mr. Client Guy away? I have no idea. But it doesn't set well with what self-esteem I do have left. I just can't wrap my head around my good for nothing ex having a happy love life - when I can't seem to get a guy interested for more than 2 weeks. UGH!!!

Okay - enough of me whining -- moving on...

The kid and I are heading up to Cleveland soon with my mom to see a dinosaur show up at the "Q" (which is where are Cavalier's play) in a couple of hours. Should be a nice outing. Hopefully the weather won't be too disagreeable and make driving a big hassle. Tomorrow is my son's kid party - should be fun.

Will's been around more than usual the last couple of days. It's been nice to see his face in my mind's again. The two scenarios that keep flashing through my mind are he, my son and I walking into a building where there is a doorman and he knows my kid and I as we live there -- he also knows that Will is a frequent guest. The other scene I see is Will, the kid and I in a small Italian restaurant sharing a pizza -- we're laughing about something. Both scenes are uplifting and positive. I rarely ever have a bad scene with Will in it. Even the fight visions I get aren't that bad because the make up sex is well worth the fighting:)

Speaking of sex - with Tracey's healing on Will the sexual energy clog that he's had is certainly cleared up. His energy has let me know that he's feeling much better.

Either Bill or Will has been doing a lot of blog checking lately. Not sure which one as both of their energies are strong right now. Could be both - don't know.

An odd last dream last night/this morning --- I was in my house, and my cats were chasing something. It looked like a small dragon - but I thought it was a frog - it had red spots. My cat Cera really kept bothering it. I finally got all of my cats into my bedroom and shut the door so that I could find this little creature and put it outside before it was eaten. I find it -- and what is it - but a tiny cat. Like it got put into a shrinking ray or something. It's a long-haired white cat with reddish & black spots. It looks at me and just lets out the biggest meow! I picked it up and it sits in the palm of my hand, just being as vocal as can be. Now I'm thinking - what in the heck am I going to do with this cat so that my other cats don't kill it? I put it in a an open dresser drawer and think about getting a very large bird cage to put it in. I call my mom to ask what I should do and I wake up.

I just went outside to let my dogs do their business when that butterfly who tried to run into me before - tried it again. It sees me and it's like I'm a magnet. Very strange. I saw orange kitty a few days ago - his front left leg was looking really bad -- and he hasn't been back since.

Off to go get some writing done and then heading up to Cleveland!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Allie, Iris And A True Love!

You know, I've tried watching Medium so many times, but I have it all figured out within the first 5 - 10 min and it ruins everything - same happens with Ghost Whisper and the Dead Zone (when it was on). The only shows that give me food for thought at least 1/2 the time are the CSI, Law & Order and Monk. SIGH. Same thing happens when I read a mystery book - before I hit 1/2 way I have it solved. Dang it all. But that's something I'd love to write - a mystery movie with the viewer having to figure out who done it. Whoever solves the crime sends in a solution. Then the ones who have it right get put in a hopper and a winner is pulled. The whole movie is told through the eyes of the PI hired by the victims family. So what the PI sees, the audience sees. Then after it is out of the theaters & is in DVD, there will be a second mystery to solve. The secondary mystery is located within the main mystery but you don't really notice it as you're paying attention to #1. It's a concept that's been knocking about in my mind for many years.

I'm not sure if I will get the podcast done on Monday. My mom and sister are coming over for a picnic and then it's off to see Indy. I don't care if it has been 19 years since the last movie - Indy is still hot.

For those of you who have been following this blog for awhile you know how I can be a reading junkie. I love getting readings - although I don't get them near what I used to - I'm still tickled when I do get one regardless of the info getting. For my birthday a client surprised ME with a reading. Yeah - I was tickled:) I thought I'd share it with you, I hope she doesn't mind (I don't think she does or I wouldn't share).

The spread I've chosen is called The Birthday Spread, and I found it on a tarot forum I belong to. It is 9 cards and tells you about your past influences, accomplishments of the past year, issues you carry forward into this year, where you are at the moment, challenges you may face in the upcoming year, goals you can achieve this year, the overall focus of your year, and your birthday gift, which is a blessing you will receive during the year. I really love this spread, it reminds me of a solar return almost :) The tarot deck I'll be using is Tarot of a Moon Garden in case you want to google for images of the cards that appear in your reading.

First of all, I just have to say when I drew your cards, you pulled 5 major arcana cards! WOW!!! I have never done a reading like that before! And I think you know that 5 in numerology indicates major changes are ahead!! And because the major arcana usually represents themes or big issues. Psychically, I receive that this is going to be a TREMENDOUS year for you. Clairvoyantly, I see moving toward the East and I am seeing happiness not only for you, but for your son as well. I feel a lot of warmth and laughter. I also see a man walking into your life when you make this move. He's tall, with black hair, tanned, and he's a little older, but not much. He has a nice body, he's skinny but he does have some muscle to him and he's clean shaven. I'm feeling you may all ready know this man? But it's like he is going to come around even more when you move. I see your business doing tremendously well and your going to write another book for publishing based on dreams and dream interpretation.

Ok with that said, this is what the cards are telling me in the spread I am doing for you:

Card #1 - Past influences that are ending or passing out of your life - Three of Cups - I want to say that you aren't playing the victim anymore. It's like you've underwent through some hard times this past year. You've dealt with the hard times as best as you can, and God is rewarding you. Three is a number of creativity and communications. You probably felt a creative growth spurt this year and you have learned some lessons on how to expand your horizons with regards to your creativity. Your creativity will always be there, don't worry, but it's like the past year, you were on this major creative growth spurt. You were blossoming with ideas all over the place. Also, in my card, there is three fairies in cups. I'm feeling this was a great year for networking for your business and you have reaped the benefits of this networking. The moon in the card is a bright yellowish-orange color and that signifies happiness. It took you awhile to get there, but there is just major happiness flowing from you.

Card #2 - Accomplishments of the past year to reflect on - Temperance - Whenever I think of Temperance, it usually means patience to me. So I am thinking that you have had to learn to be patient and learn to work with your energies in order to manifest your desires. You had to make things work. You were not only patient, but you knew the meaning of "hard work" and you see the rewards that have come with this hard work. I'm also getting that you are trusting your guides more than ever. You have always listened to them, but there was some doubt. But this past year, you learned that they have been more right than wrong. You are becoming more intuitive and more aware. There is a unicorn behind the angel who is pouring a rainbow into a cup in the card, and the unicorn to me symbolizes extra protection and good luck. Your angels were certainly helping you accomplish your goals and made you go after your dreams. There is a path behind the angel, which I think is going to be the angel's next venture which leads to some mountains. You are more prepared than ever for this challenge. Way to go Allie! :)

Card #3 - Issues, tasks, or goals carried forward from last year into the coming year - The Sun - You are learning to trust. I'm feeling you have major trust issues. You don't trust just anyone. They have to understand you. You get along with everyone, but you sometimes feel that you are lacking friends who understand the real Allie. I'm also getting that you will continue to work with your guides more in an every day basis and they are going to lead you to some new people who will understand the real Allie. And these people will be in your life FOREVER. Also, The Sun can indicate partnership, so you may decide to write a book with someone, start a business with someone, or you could enter into a new relationship this year. And this relationship you will learn from. And you will be happy. I feel nothing but good from this card for you. It's just all about working with people and perhaps you may become involved with someone (maybe the man I saw at the beginning of this reading ;) ).

Card #4 - Where you are right now - Justice - You are receiving what you so rightfully deserved. You are in a happy place. The wrongs have been righted. You are ready for your next battle in the game of life. You feel you can tackle anything that comes your way (and you can!). The moon in the card to me represents that there are higher forces working with you. You are always going to have an uplifting from anything no matter what. Nothing will ever be complete doomsday for you.

Card #5 - New influences that will be coming into your life in the near future - The Emperor - When I first saw this card, I immediately thought of a teacher/father figure. He is going to be someone that you can confide in, someone you will go to for advice, and someone who is as spiritually enlightened as you are. I'm feeling that he could have Aries energy since The Emperor is sitting on a throne with Ram horns. And I really feel a masculine energy in this card too. This person could also be a female, just someone who has a lot of masculine energy. I really could be wrong, but I feel this will be a male more than likely, and this could be the man that I'm seeing you enter into a relationship with. He's going to be very loving. You will be his Goddess ;) It's like first he'll come into your life as a teacher, but then he will become a lover.

Card #6 Challenges you may face in the coming year - The Magician - You may have writer's block or not all the desire to do as many readings as you have been doing. You've expanded your energy so much on helping people that you will want a vacation. Make sure you are taking time out for yourself, even if it post pones readings. Your energy may ware thin. Be sure to get lots of sleep. Don't be on the go all the time. And I'm feeling a lot of movement within this card, so I think there may be some stress with moving, but that's natural :) Make sure you breathe and just take time out for yourself once in awhile. You may also feel that there is some blockage or deception, but remember, you can overcome anything! You are a very powerful wizard ;) (since the card has a wizard for the Magician). You are a wiz! Your metaphysical and spiritual knowledge will help you fight your writer's block and intuitive blocks and/or the people you feel that are deceiving you.

Card #7 - Goals you can achieve in the coming year - Knight of Swords - You are going to continue to fight for what you believe in. And the result will be very positive for you. I'm feeling your trust issues will be tackled and you'll have such numerous support from people. I feel you are going to complete something that is either draining your energy or you just don't have time for anymore.

Card #8 - The Overall focus or outlook for the coming year - Four of Pentacles - This is going to be ALL ABOUT YOU! YOU! YOU! YOU! ALLIE! ALLIE! ALLIE! You will focus more on yourself this year and I see you focusing on your writing more. Your business is going to get so busy with your appearances on Maria's show, you may also get a radio show of your own! You have to remember when to say no to the people who you can turn away. You will know who to say no to because they will support you no matter what. I'm seeing a move in this card as finances will be ok to move. You will be in a much happier place and you are just so thankful for the way things have turned out.

Card #9 - Your birthday gift - a blessing you will receive during the year - Queen of Staffs - You are going to become a business savvy woman. You are going to be balanced (or at least seem to be balanced LOL). I also see a new pet. This pet you are going to be so attached to. It's going to be a stray, but you are so drawn to it, like it's a past life connection or something. You are going to start feeling beautiful and will want to flaunt what you got ;) And you are a beautiful soul. The Queen of Staffs also means a good friend and mother and devoted wife. So this year could be...it. Even though you are in your money year, I still feel that romance will blossom for you and this could lead into a marriage or long term relationship. You are never going to be broke, you will always have just enough to get by when times are rough.

The guy she described in the beginning sounds a lot like Will - except that Will's hair isn't black. But heck, as long as I meet a good guy who is good to me and my son - I don't care who he is. She's not the only one who has told me that I'll be moving east and it could be as early as mid summer. Plus - again not the only one who says I will burn out and want to slow down some this summer. So if I try to work in moderation now - maybe I won't burn out this summer?

Iris and I had a little chat about romance last night. I asked her how a SOB like my ex could find someone (although he had several while we were married) and move in with them -- when me -- the nice person - still hasn't found anyone. She said -- well Allie, you're ex will take anyone and while his girlfriend has a kind heart, he'll mess that one up too. And then he'll go on to the next and so forth. You on the other hand know what you will accept and will not accept. You have asked the Divine to send you a true love - not just any love - and that is what you are waiting for. Just anyone will not due for you - you refuse to accept anyone into your life -- and the life of your son -- who doesn't have your highest good in mind. Because of this, only men who meet the conditions set out by you will be brought to you. And where you live - there isn't many - if any. You'll meet your love when you are out of town. And before you ask - I will not tell you if it's Will or not. It should be - but he has free will to turn his back. If he does that - then you will be brought another true love as you have more than one. Fear not for you will be in a positive, loving relationship by the end of 2009. In the grand scheme of things, another year or so isn't that long. Besides, your work load is heavy now and is about to get heavier. There's only so much time in a day.

And yes, there is only so much time in the day. And with school ending next Friday, my days will be busier. Although he is going to go to his favorite day camp 3x a week this summer - I still have to pay for it - so it's more work for me:)

On that note - it's time for me to go and get some more things done. For those of you in the states, have a great Memorial Day weekend and stay safe.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Off To MI, Spider Sense Is On High Alert!

My headache has been full tilt all week. It has just been nuts. I know that Will is not "in" my energy like he's my astral body -- but he is still very much here. And I mean he has zoned in big time. I have no idea what he's doing - but it's something that has me under consideration.

That said - my spider sense is on high alert. I know this weekend will bring a love into my life. I just know it with every sense that I have. I have been seeing me walking around the corner and my heart stopping in my throat. It's a vision that I've had repeatedly all week long. I have no idea who I am running into or being introduced to - but it is someone who will take my breath away. It's a major - holy shit - happening.

And no - I honestly have no idea if it is Will. I mean - what would he be doing at a hoedown in Detroit? But I asked the universe to please send me someone as I'm tired of being alone. And if Will doesn't want to step up - then please send someone. I've been alone for over 10 years and I'm tired of it. Just because I was divorced only last year doesn't make me alone for only a year -- trust me, my ex and I have been apart for a very long time. I think that's why I was so surprised that my son was conceived. I was like - how'd that happen - lol.

It's also not Bill, Ted, Matt or even Sawyer who I will run into:) And BTW -- Heath and I have come to a mutual satisfying resolve about him popping in and out to chat.

Any ways - heading out the door now to go to my niece's 4th b-day party and then it's off to MI. I'll have the crackberry with me - so when I'm swept off my feet, I'll tell you about it -- much later:)

If all else fails and there's no love this weekend -- I still know that I'll have a good weekend as I'll be spending it with people I both like and respect -- and I know they return the feelings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Something Shifted...

Hi -me again:) I just noticed a shift - my career is in the forefront of my mind now and not love. Not that love is not important to me - as it is...but all of a sudden it was if a fog was lifted.

I can't really explain it - but things are much clearer now. I'm definitely more focused. Wow, what a difference.

Whatever happened - I'll take it. Something about Maria's reading for me did it. Boy am I grateful

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Maria Shaw, Psychiconair.com And My Forecast!

Well- what a nice surprise I had today -- I called into Maria Shaw's show on Psychiconair.com to get a birthday reading (she was talking about Taurus) and I wound up chatting on air about OBE Sex (my favorite subject).

If you weren't listening to her show (and you really should, it's good) - they'll rebroadcast it tonight from 9 pm - midnight. I came on about 9:20 am until 9:58 am today - so it'll be the same time in the pm if you want to catch it.

My best time for love - is now - now - now:) Maria thinks I'll meet someone at the howdown on May 11th:) Works for me:) Asked about Will -- she said that I have to put myself where ever he is -- easier said than done. I figure, if we're supposed to be in the same place - we will be. But I'm not sitting around waiting for him.

Money & career - looking FABO for the next year from May 2 2008 to May 2 2009! Time to bust a serious move and not hold back:)

If you tune in - I gave some more tips about connecting for OBE Sex:)

Okay -- so much to get done...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Tonight's Radio Show, My Lackluster Love Life And My Son!

You guys are a great bunch of readers. Thanks for all of the uplifting and comforting emails about my son, all of the stuff we're dealing with and Will. I'm too swamped to reply to everyone who has emailed me - but I've read all of the emails and they meant the world to me - so thank you.

Speaking of email - the back log is frightening.

His teacher called this morning - I was doing a reading and couldn't answer. She didn't leave a message, so whatever it was it's not earth shattering. A week 1/2 till NYC -- my son is so excited - I think more than me, although I'm dreaming about pizza and cheesecake, so I doubt it:) For my b-day I want to go to FAO Swartz. That's someplace I've wanted to visit since I was a kid. We'll show up either for storytime or for the piano players - whichever they have on a Friday. Then I think the Central Park Zoo would be fun since our hotel is along side the park. Sat is a good day to catch a museum and maybe the Empire State building. I'm not over planning anything - no buying tickets a head of time so we have to be somewhere. I'm going to see how the days unfold and take it from there.

I've thought more about the home school. And if the kid is still okay with it come July - I'll sign him up. My thought is that this will force me to be more organized and to learn more patience. Plus - I think that it will make me a more effective teacher for workshops. And for travel - I don't have to worry about taking him out of school since we'll take it with us.

I met an interesting fireman last night online. I met him 1st and then found out what he did for a living. My #1 fantasy turn on -- firemen. So -- needless to say I was pretty darn happy about that. Any ways - we were chatting and he asked what I did for a living. I hesitated for a split second and then said I was a writer. In the past when I've come right out and said I was a psychic & a writer - either the guy ran -- or he was intrigued. When they were intrigued, eventually they would find my web site -- and then my blogs. Then they would run...

So I'm hesitant to say much to this guy as of now. But this got me to thinking -- if I'm to have a meaningful relationship with anyone - it either has to be someone from the blogs or a man who doesn't freak because of what I write. And when I do find someone - and if he is not Will (remember, the man has free will here) - then what happens to what I write - even if he's okay by it? I don't know. Seems to me that to keep a guy longer than a few days, I have to keep this part hidden. But to keep any part of my authentic self hidden is against what I believe. So what do I do? I know - it'll all play out the way it's supposed to. But the whole scenario got me thinking -- if someone from this blog doesn't step up, then how long will I be single? A year? 5 years? 10 years? I remember several intuitive friends (Tracey, Sky and Gabriele) all saying that once I got divorced (they all said this back in 2006 & 2007) that I would be alone for a spell and then get married (not necessarily in the traditional sense) for the final time. But no one could say how long that alone time would be.

Humm... this just all got me to thinking. I'm not bothered by any of it - it was just food for thought last night as I was drifting off to sleep. I'm pretty comfortable in knowing that what is supposed to happen will happen -- so I just go about my daily routine.

Speaking of which - I will be on Blog Talk Radio tonight with Phil Harris: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/pharris from 8:00 pm - 9:00 pm EST. I pray that my son lets me get through this with as little guff as possible.

Writing is going slow - but is is moving on this next draft of DREAMERS.

Off to get the kid!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Ted, Dunshine Castle And Telepathic Sex!

Ted, Ted, Ted -- God bless this man. I have been so closed off to energies these last few weeks that I failed to notice that I really missed Ted. I mean I miss all three guys - Ted, Bill and Will - but Ted -- it's so hard to explain with him -- so I won't. But because of my energy opening experience with Tom the other night, Ted was able to finally reach me, and it felt good. Felt great actually -- like a tall cool glass of sweet tea on a hot august day. Refreshing, invigorating - satisfying.

The dream visit last night had us at Dunshire Castle. I remember candles, a fire and a bottle of red wine. Ted told me how much I needed to relax and that I have to open myself up more, that being so closed off is not only dimming my light - but his as well. He asked if I had spoken to Tracey lately and I said briefly last week. He said - I took control of the airplane and I know where I'm headed now. It's a non-stop flight. Then he smiled at me and those green eyes twinkled. I knew what was he talking about as Tracey had told me a few months earlier that she kept having a dream with Ted in it where they were on a plane - she was flying it - and Ted said there was no need for him to do anything as she and I were doing all the work. So the fact that he has taken control of the "plane" is a big step for him.

I knew he was gunning straight for me and for the first time in years I genuinely smiled a big smile.

Then I heard an alarm go off and I woke up. But I didn't have to get out of bed for another 2 hours so I laid there and tried to get back to sleep to finish seeing Ted. No such luck. That's when the telepathic connection kicked in and I heard him say that he wasn't done with me yet. I couldn't help but smile at that. Telepathic sex can be like an intense day dream or should I say an intense day dream intermingles with telepathic sex. I could feel his breath on my neck, feel his hands grab my body and hold me tight. His lips brush gently against my cheek causing the hair to stand up on my arms and my body to go weak. His touch was like heaven on earth. But it wasn't going where I thought it would - instead he said he had to show me something.

We are standing off to the side watching us. It looks to be that I'm in London, trying to figure out how to ride the Tube when I see Ted standing there. I know who he is and I try to casually ask him directions on what I'm supposed to do - what to take where in order to get to my biz partner's house. I told my partner that I didn't need his help to do this - but I find that I'm lost. Ted gives good instructions and then adds - I'm going that way, why don't I just drop you off? I told him only if he would let me buy him a pint at the pub later. He agreed. We discuss what I do for a living and he seems intrigued. He drops me off at my destination and asks me if I would like to see a football game tonight. I say sure.

We go to the game and have a wonderful time. We go and have a few pints - still having fun. No matter what I do or what I'm saying he doesn't take his eyes off of me. It's exhilarating and unsettling all at once. I ask him to take me someplace haunted. He doesn't want to. So I call him a chicken. He agrees to take me. Not sure where we're at - but it's the UK - there's bound to be a lot of haunted places. We looking around in the dark and I could feel a coldness that had my hair stand on ends. I ran and left him in the dust - he ran after me. We got a kick out of it and he took me back to my partner's house which is where I was staying. He told me he wanted to see me again and I agreed.

The next thing I know we are out again, not sure where - but outside. He finally kisses me and I had a hard time standing with my legs wanting to buckle. He gave me a look - one that I've never seen in this lifetime -- all I can say is that it was full of love and devotion -- and he asked me if I believed in love at first sight. I told him yes. He asked how many times has it happened to me. I said - once. And him? Yes - once he said. I asked how it turned out. He replied - I don't know I'm still working on it:)

We're at Dunshine Castle again. We are both excited to be here - we're discussing past lives - etc....and we go up to the top. We are looking at the sunset and it was fabo. I turned to say something to him and he's down on one knee. He asked me if he could devote his life to loving me and if I would do the honor of being his wife? He opened up a box and inside was a marvelous diamond and emerald ring that he designed. I of course said - yes.

Then Ted looked at me (the Ted and I that were watching "us") and said - see what we have to look forward to? Then he kissed me with such passion and there was such energy from all of our chakra's merging that it was a climatic explosion - and I mean that literally. I fell back to sleep relaxed and with a grin on my face.

I love mornings like this!

BTW....I have a favor to ask of you guys. I need for you to be my psychic pimp:) With this serious life change I'm going though I'm going to need some serious cash and I'm not too proud to ask for it. So if you could pass my name and web site out to your family and friends I would appreciate it. Pimp me out -- I don't mind working for a living:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Will, A Past Life And A Murder - Mine!

I had a flash vision of Will today that was very disturbing and I need to confront him in a session so that I can remember the most of the exchange between us. I grabbed my wand and within moments I was in the south, reminded me of Georgia. I see Will leaning against a Willow Tree next to a creek. I smile at him, he smiles back and I ask him what is he doing? He says waiting for me - been waiting all day yesterday and today.....seems he can't get a plum thing done seeing that all he is thinking about is me. He asks - what were you doing. I smile and said working. He cups my face in his hands and replies - so what's new?

I grab a twig off the ground and fidget with it in my hands as I walk around.

What's on your mind Sunshine? Will asks.

That brought yet another smile to my face So you call me Sunshine too?

I've called you Sunshine for well...eternity. Who else calls you that? Bill?

I nod.

Figures...Will retorts.

I had a vision today that really bothered me. I or we I should say were in I guess a villa. It was warm, I could hear water. We had just put our clothes on after making love and you were in a hurry for me to do so - to get my clothes on. I'm standing, you walk up to me and I could tell by your eyes that something horrible was about to happen - you had so much pain, yet love in your eyes. You grab the back of my head and pull me to you, kissing me with such force. I pull back and you're crying. You say -- I'm so sorry -- I hope you can forgive me. Before I could say what?? You shot me in the stomach, right below the rib cage. And watched me as I died, you never took your eyes off of me - not for a second. The last thing I can see is you sobbing.

I have no clue when, where or what time period this was. But I can't get at is why you killed me?

Was I wearing a white suit? He asks....

I don't remember -- but you were tan.

Will sighs. Hold my hands...he says. Will sits and sticks his hands out - palms up, I sit in front of him and grab his hands. In unison we close our eyes. I can feel my hands growing very hot. And I see it -- Will after he shoots me.

He lays me down, and there is a noise behind him. A deep voice says something I can't tell and two men come and grab Will. The deep voice shouts that he did a stupid thing - killing me. But he'll have fun torturing Will.

Cut to -- I don't know where....but Will has tons of slices in his body and he refuses to speak about the location of something. They give him another chance - he doesn't say anything. They toss him into something -- I can't see what or where -- all I can hear are his screams of pain. I break the connection with Will.

You killed me to save me? Will nods, tears pouring down his cheeks. I knew what they would do to you - the rape, the torture, the horrible death. You didn't know they were coming but I did. Who were they? I ask. Will shakes his head -- I don't know, I can't see past that scene and past the pain. It's too much -the pain. But what I do know is that we knew a secret -- something wonderful and healing in the right hands, but dark and deadly in the wrong hands. We were sworn to secrecy. He manages a weak smile - I loved you to the end.

A loud sound jolts me out of the session. Dang that six year old and his role-playing of Star Wars. For a kid who doesn't like loud noises, he is the loudest kid I know.

You know, looking back at what he said when I first connected with Will last year -- no wonder he and I both think that he has done all of these horrible things to me -- especially if he's only been carrying around part of that memory.

Off to watch Armageddon!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)