Guides, Three Goddesses And TMI!

TMI = Too Much Information for those of you who aren't up on the lingo. So much going on in the last 12 hours - I hope I can remember everything. Plus - every time I go to write - something else comes up.

As I was eating my bowl of ice cream (yeah, I know - good lunch), it dawned on me my dream visits last night. I forgot everything as soon as I opened my eyes - not even a fragment. But then as I was watching Las Vegas (TV series), a character reminded me of Montel Williams. Then it went from him to Sylvia Browne -- this is when a dream visit started to come back. I am in a large room with lots of tables - I know that I'm there to do readings. In walks Sylvia Browne - she had on a yellow dress - I called it a moo moo dress, which sounds really condescending - but I think that's what it's called. Anyways she says - you're Allie. I nod. She said - I need to talk to you. My 1st thought was - oh God, is something going to happen and she has to tell me about it? But no -- she sits down, I sit across from her and she puts out her hands. I hold her hands -- and just look at her. No one says anything -- then she says - well? I take it you're not here to tell me anything? She said - hell no. Come on, your psychic - why am I here? I take my hands away from hers and tell her that I don't have to hold her hands to get a vision. Then I tell her that I'm not going to tell her when she's going to die. Go look at her own records if she wants to know. She gives me that "look" - then says, quit being a smart ass. If they would show me then I wouldn't be here - would I? Now tell me because I'm not coming back again and I want to have time to tie up lose ends before I go. I tell her the date June 2011 pops into my head, but something will happen around June 2010 as well. She tells me - the June 2010 is you dear, and that is when you enter my physical life.

The next thing I know Montel Williams comes strolling in and I'm excited because I've always liked MW. Sylvia introduces us and tells Montel that this is the woman (meaning me) that will replace me. I looked at her and said - WHAT? She goes - you're not deaf are you? What about your son? I askd. He'll have his hands full running my church and the foundation. What about your daughter-in-law? She can write. A moment of uneasy silence. Okay -- and I start to walk away -- this is too much information for me right now. I see two teenage girls come in -- as I walked towards them I turn to Sylvia and said - the next time I see you, how about a little insight my way? She replied -- you and Will will be fine. I looked at her for a spilt second and smiled. I went to the girls who have sat down at an empty table for a reading. I ask them what I can help them with -- and the one teen girl with long dark hair reaches into her pocket and pulled out a handful of gold coins. I stared at them -- not really getting why she is paying me in gold. She puts her hands back in her pocket and keep bring out gold coins.

Then I woke up.

I may call these three - Jezell, Brigit, Galadriel - the trio of annoyances. Although they are not in my face as Edward and Ethan - they are still always "there" - saying stuff and giving me flash visions so that I know what's coming up. I don't know if I want to know all that is on the horizon -- it's getting pretty overwhelming. I can't even go to the bathroom without someone saying something. Do you know how irritating it is for someone to be whispering in your ear while you're trying to poo? I told them if they want me constipated, they're on the right track. They found that funny -- I wasn't being funny.

As I finished writing the above - all three arrived and said that they had to take me someplace. For some reason it felt like they were going to take me to someplace vitally important -- and I was right. We were in the meadow. My meadow - where I've only been there once (maybe twice) in the last 18 months. I asked why am I here? Jezell said that I have to be here - Brigit chimes in that this is my portal. My soul clusters portal. I reminded them that the woman who actually owned this land - and myself - do not speak to one another nor do I want to. I want another place as my portal -- not here. Again I am told that I have to be here -- that Will and I have to visit here - the physical here. I told them no @ucking way am I coming here with Will or with anyone else. The woman who owned this would not let me on the land and I'm not about to sneak on. Why - oh why do Will and I have to be here? Because this is where you lived in your last life together - said Jezell. What? I thought it was outside of Salem? This is outside of Salem, Brigit replied. But isn't it TOO far outside of Salem? No - Galadriel said, people came far and wide for your services. There wasn't a place in the New England states that didn't know about the two of you. Why do you think that the plants and flowers grown here now for flower essences work so well? Why do you think there are guardians? Why do you think that the right caretaker is here to service the light?

My head's spinning and I sit down against a tree. I do not make nice to anyone who tries to hurt one of my guys - it just isn't who I am. Jezell sits down next to me -- and she is not about to make nice to anyone who would harm the light she has been entrusted to watch over. But you are both wrong and eventually - you two will realize that. Do you not like her friend? The other one who does flower essence - I asked? Yes - her. Yes, I like her very much - she warm, loving and full of light. This one is condescending, full of herself and a know it all. There's a difference. Jezell smiles - you will both see the light, there is no other path to take. Great -- I murmured to myself. But she will not let us be here.

She will - in time - and you will not have to deal with her one on one - Will will be here and she will let you two roam long the meadow and respect your distance and privacy. Trust us - there is no other path to travel for this lesson. At this point there is no part of me that is happy with this realization. I start to object yet again when the earth opens up and rising from it is -- well, for lack of a better way to describe her - Mother Nature. She's tall, yet robust. She's clothed in white, long dark hair & eyes -- with a crown made of grass, twigs and flowers. A Robin sits on her shoulder (no idea where it came from). Her voice is low & soft, but commanding. She said - all of this earth which is mine and mine alone do I share with the earth dwellers who are determined to see it destroyed. There are many who have been called into service to protect the earth and all of it's inhabitants. She, the one on this meadow, is one of those light workers. But she does not own the land - I own the land and it is up to I who steps on a parcel and who does not. If someone steps on a portion of land where I do not want them, I unleash the weather and the bugs to show my wrath. No wrath will befall you or Will as you make haste to this parcel of my soul. You are welcomed here as it is part of your being - part of your light. She will allow this - the light keeper of this land - when the time is right.

From Mother Nature's right the goddess Hathor shimmers into view, on her left the goddess Isis. Brigit goes and stands among them - Mother Nature tells me that it is with these three goddesses am I to ascend to the next level. I'm to work with 3 goddesses? At once? Hathor told me not to panic. Who's panicking? I replied.

Jezell grabbed my hand -- come with me. We walk through a tree and now we're behind a stage. I could hear a lot of people. She points and I can see Will and I. Jezell said that this is the play that I envisioned for Will and I. People far and wide come to see this play based on eternal love. I watch Will and I go out of stage - Jezell whisked me through a wall and we end up behind another stage. She pointed towards the curtain and I peek through -- it's me - and the place is HUGE and packed. I glanced over at her as if to say -- no way am I doing this. She smiled and said - oh yes you will. What am I talking about - I ask? This particular one is about OBE sex - the one last night was dreams and tomorrows talk is about soul mates. It's a three-day sold out event. You talk 3 days in a row for 4 hours each time. You will combine all of this into one 6 hour show that will always sell out -- and at a high price I might add. You do have another show about telepathic connections, psychic gifts and astral travel. But it's way too much to cram it all into one weekend.

I have a headache just thinking about it all......

Jezell grabbed my hand and through a wall we go. Now we're at a set. This is DREAMERS Jezell said - this is what starts it all. You'll never stop making TV and movies - never. You always find a way to do this intertwined with your books and workshops. Rest now - because it's all about to go crazy.

Now we're back at the meadow.

Brigit approached me -- we've given you a lot to think about - and there is so much more to know - rest now and we'll talk later. They all disappear from view.

I sit down against the tree and let the sun shine down on me. Then I hear -- hello Sunshine. I open my eyes and it's Bill. I smile - hi Bear. He sits down down to me - never thought we'd be here again - did you? Part of me knew - I just hoped.....

I know, Bill said, but you want Ted to be okay, don't you? I look over at him - that's a stupid thing to say, of course I want Ted to be alright. Have you had any visits from him lately? Bill asked.

No - I don't think any on purpose -- but I was drawn to him late last evening. I could see him sitting on top of a castle ruin (like in a run-down tower) just staring off into space. Then he kicked the stone wall a few times and screamed at the top of his lungs - why do I keep fucking everything up? Huh? Why can't I choose correctly? And he was sobbing. Then the vision faded and I haven't heard anything. You?

Bill nodded -- this morning -- I saw him at my feet begging me for help before he goes too far and this kills him. What kills him? I asked. Bill shrugs - I don't know. But I tried to call him and he hasn't answered. Bill looks off to his right. He glances over at me and kisses me on the forehead. He gets up and said - Will's a good guy. He won't let you fall. I know - I replied. Bill gave me a nod and disappeared.

I know there's more that has happened - but nothing else is coming to mind right now. I wonder what the next 12 hours will bring?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Leap Of Faith, Dream Visits And The Meadow!

I wanted to get to my session today as I've had that little birdie tell me to get a move on. I am immediately taken to the meadow. Archangel Michael is waiting for me. We greet one another and he asks me to walk with him. All around us are hints of a blossoming spring. He asks me if I remember my dreams from last night. I nod. He asks what stands out the most from my travels?

First I bring up Ted. I am walking through a house and he is sitting with his back to a window, head down, hands clasped together with his arms on his knees. He looks up and one of those heart-stopping smiles cross his face. He has on a black sweater with a high neck, blue jeans and his hair is longer. But what I remember even more than his smile, was the vivid green of his eyes. It was as if all of his energy was concentrated there - his soul trying to get me to notice -- and I did. He gives me a great big hug. I tell him how happy I am to see him and that it is has been far too long. He agrees that it has been too long, but he had to settle a part of his life that was out of control. We stand there and just stare at one another for awhile, drinking in the appearance of the other, we convey how much we've missed one another. He asks me if I'll walk with him. I thread my arm through his and we start to leave this home -- and that is all I remember.

Next there is this house made of huge black tiles that had fallen into a crevice during a storm and mudslide. It was a deep crevice with trees, a stream, plenty of plants. Another man was there, one who I know I know, but I cannot remember who it was right now -- he was stepping on the house tiles and making them move. I kept telling him to stop or he was going to get caught and banished. He told me not to worry so much. That sometimes you need to just take a chance.

I'm staying with a woman who is just graduating college. And it is time for me to move on. I go out to my Mini Cooper and there is a small child in it -- when I get closer there is a man in the back, in my son's booster seat. I start to yell for him to get out, but then I see that he has an infant sleeping on his chest. For some reason I knew that these 3 and a woman were homeless and they were using my car for shelter. As soon as I realized it was them, I let them stay. But the man was smoking in the Mini and that is a no-no. Not only because it's my car but there are children there. So I make him give me the cig and I throw it out. I still remember the sting on my left palm from the hot ash. I get in the drivers side and now the mother is leaning into the passenger window. I tell them that they can stay in this cabin in a bit as the woman who owns it just graduated college and she will be drinking too much. She won't even know that they are there - just make sure that they are gone in the morning.

I remember Bill being in a visit - but cannot remember what.

Next my son and I are in the Cooper and driving in Wooster. We are approaching the north end where Wal-Mart is located ( I don't see the store, but I instinctively know that is where we're at). A swift rain kicks in, windshield wipers go on, lights on. As we near a gas station on the right, I can see up ahead a horrible storm. The electricity is out past this station. I think about my computer being on at home with no electricity and that I hope the battery was holding in. Then I remembered that my husband was at home and we need to get there. As we approached the traffic light that was out, the storm picked up, everyone pulled over to the side of the road but us. Past that light was pure blackness. I cranked up the speed on my wipers, made sure my glasses were on, put on the high-beams. I creep up to the disabled traffic light, knowing full well if another vehicle is coming the other way we will not be able to see one another. So this was faith. I asked my son if he was ready - he said yes. I floored it -- and woke up.

Archangel Michael asks me if I understand why I had those dream visits - in particular the last one. I think I understand them all. The last one is alerting me that my son and I are going to be thrown into the darkness, rather swiftly because of my husband, but if we keep our faith and move full steam ahead we will be fine. We will have to jump into the void of the unknown. Archangel smiles and says - that is correct.

Can I ask when this is going to happen? He shakes his head - no. But you are prepared for when it does. Hold to your faith, and to your son and always remember that you are never alone.

Bill and Ted are on the other side of the void, aren't they? Archangel Michael simply smiles and fades away.

It would be nice to get a straight answer form someone:) Seems like angels and guides talk in code. I know that I have to figure things out, and I will --- but it would be nice to have a straightforward hint. As I typed that I hear -- you had the dream, that IS your hint.

Back to work I go! Today is parent's lunch at school, so I get to go join my dude for food time!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Meadow, The Fellowship And A New Era!

I wasn't going to write anything tonight - yet here I am. Bill has been pulling me, in fact, he just showed up here to my right -- real close to my body. He startled me and when I looked he was gone. I know what this means -he wants me to meet him in the meadow. SIGH. Only for him (or Ted) would I set foot back in there. Let's see what he wants. But before I go, Jezell tells me to put on my soundtrack from "Fellowship of the Ring" - I'm not sure why. But I figure - why not?

I immediately arrive in the meadow. There are the briefest signs of spring here. Bill is there waiting, he smiles and says that he knew I'd come. I ask where's Ted? He says Ted is busy at the moment. I ask him- shouldn't you be working? He laughs and says that he should be sleeping! Of course - it's the middle of the night in London! LOL!

I tell him that this isn't right, the actual meadow should be barren because of the season. He chuckles and reminds me that things are different here on the astral side. I ask about her - the owner of the land - won't she come and try to remove us. Let her he says. If the Divine wants us here - no human can stop us, regardless of who they think they are.

He wants me to walk with him, so we hold hands and walk through the grass. I can hear the swish-swish as we move through it. He stops by a bunch of trees, turns and takes my face in his hands. Remember when you discovered who I am to you? How could I forget - I reply. You said that you'd never give up on me, you swore you wouldn't, please keep that promise. I've never given up on you Bill - you or Ted. What gave you that idea? Silence. You mean because you couldn't feel that constant connection? He shrugs. Bill, I have to work too you know -- I can't think about you all the time. He smiles. What about if I did this -- he leans in and gives me such a passionate and rememberable kiss. As we are kissing, I can feel heat around me. I open my eyes and we are both bathed in a white light -- now our clothes are white. The white light disappears and there are the elementals, all moving about - saying how happy they are that we're together. I heard something about the start of a new era.

I can see the tree open in the end - the one tree that he and I have traveled up in so many times. We arrive at the top, get out and waiting there is Clive, Peter and Larry. I'm ecstatic to see all of them. From behind me I hear someone clear their throat. Within 1/2 sec I am in Ted's arms hugging the guy like crazy. There are hugs and greetings going on all over!

Archangel Michael calls us over - flanking him on both sides are the rest of the Archangels. We are all asked to get on our knees. Bill, Me and Ted in front with Clive, Larry and Peter behind us. There are words said that I do not recall - another bright light and the sounds of angels singing.

Then I felt my stomach drop like I'm in a roller coaster and I'm back.

Now I understand why the cd soundtrack was put on. Us 6 have not been together in a very long time - too long.

Now off to bed to see if I can visit these guys longer.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Jezell, Last Night And The Meadow!

Jezell was bugging me last night during my night out of drinking and let loose time. She keep bugging me to go up to certain women in our group (and one man at the bar) and convey some information. Now I didn't know these women - this was my 1st time at the Femibeast Bash - they only 2 people I knew was the women who hosts it and my best buddy Linda. Now - what I was supposed to go up and tell the ladies had to do with their love lives and I knew that they didn't want to hear it. But -- I do what I'm told and I think that I really pissed them off as they believe that they are going down the right paths when they really are not. One woman, when I was looking for Linda towards the end of the night -- looks at me and says - what? have some more good news about my future? In the most sarcastic tone that I've heard in a while. When I said no - looking for Linda. She softened up. Then the poor guy - who, was pretty handsome - was there looking for love -- but I kept trying to tell him that he's looking for it in the wrong place. He wasn't pleased at all. I think that he thought I was a @ucking loon -- but when I'm told that it is important for someone to hear something - there's a damn good reason why. We'll see if they talk to me next year.

Now she is also really bothering me about returning to the meadow. If you remember, Bill, Ted and I were kicked out when my friendship with the actual land owner crashed and burned. Now , Bill - Ted and I don't actually set foot on the physical property, it's in the astral plane. But Jezell keeps saying that we have to go back. There's something there that needs our attention. I ask - why can't she just do it. But of course that is a big no. I ask for a hint - I get a no. I really do not want to go back - at all. The land owner will sense us on the astral plane as she always had in the past, and I really don't want to communicate with her on any level. So I'm at a loss. There's a reason that we have to go back and it must be a big one or we wouldn't have been asked. But on the other hand I know how not welcomed we are in the land owners space.

I'm going to sleep on it and see if I get any answers.

Sweet dreams!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)