Will, Tracey, Ethan And Merlin!

Okay, it doesn't fall on deaf ears that all of this is coming at me on the solstice. Ethan just popped up - he leans in and whispers: be ready, the damn about to break loose and you're going to get catapulted forward. Go with the flow, don't resist, analyze or judge - just go with it.

And he disappeared. Now he showed up the other evening as I was flowing asleep and told me to be patient. Now this...

Merlin also just arrived and said that he wants me to meet him...here go my hands again (see previous entry)..wow are they hot. I'm in Merlin's cave - in the magic room. He grabs my left hand and wants me to stand in between two large crystals. When I'm on the crystals, he chants in a language I don't know --but in English it translates to: You are free. He draws a star on my third eyes and a triangle within a circle on my crown chakra. Wow - what a jolt of energy that is -- then I'm back here again.

I'm not sure what that meant or what it did. But I find it interesting that Merlin showed up right after Ethan sneaked in and said that the damn is about to break loose. Now I am getting a headache - a pounding one.

Tracey just emailed me back about Will - I had asked her if she removed the negativity from his energy field:

Yes, a lot in fact - he had a lot of dark black smoky stuff - and sludge that was removed. His chakras were a mess to say the least. I am going to do another chakra BCC next week to be sure I got all the dark spots in his chakras and to be sure they are still functioning properly. I am going to do some more healing on him on Sunday between 9-11 PM. I am actually putting him on my schedule so that I do not forget and do it when I have time! :)

I forgot to mention in the previous post that Will actually did show up last night and apologize for being so nervous and scatterbrained.

Must get back to work....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

I'm Alive, So Much To Say And A Killer Headache!

I have a killer headache. But I wanted to at least say hi and let you know we made it back in one piece. The kid and I had a great time in NYC - simply fabo! There were a few times that I could of pulled my hair out -- but overall it was just a lot of fun. His favorite part was Central Park. I didn't have a fav part (except maybe the pizza and cheesecake - lol). We had a great time at the Empire State Building. Only the over stimuli of all the people wigged him out. At first I was like "Whoa" what the hell was that? He calmed down after a bit. Since I heard the ESB was haunted due to past suicides - I took my camera and took some shots. Side 6 that faces the GE building gave me a couple of orb shots. As soon as I have a chance I will post them. The kid didn't want to leave - and neither did I. I promised him we'd go back by September - sooner if I have a reason (cough, cough, hack). Got back late Sunday night - after wading through the 500+ emails, I fell asleep about 1:00 am. Too bad I felt so stinking tired when I woke up.

In fact - no matter what time I go to bed, I feel the same crap-o when I get up. I am exhausted. I know that Will has hijacked my energy - he's attached to me. Not sure why - maybe feeling remorse for not seeing us while we were in the city - who knows? But I can only keep this up for so long.

Good ole Sawyer has been a frequent dream guest and Heath Ledger is standing beside me (actually looking over my shoulder) as I type.

I am so tired and my headache is so out of control that I have to go lie down.

I hope to be able to do more of an update before I go to MI on Sat/Sun for the hoedown:) Thurs I am playing chaperone for my son's zoo trip. I hope I survive it:)

There's a lot to catch you up on - Sawyer, Heath and Will in particular. Behind Heath is Iris and Merlin. I can tell I'm in for something big to happen.

Oh - and Tom Cruise. I have no idea what he wants in my dream visits - but he acts like we go back a way. More later....

I know the headaches are a combo of Will being "in" my energy - and I mean IN. And me shifting - expanding - to another level. It's a drained headache (on the sides) combined with a third eye wham-o.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Atlantis And A Telepathic Connection!

Miss me? What a crazy day. So busy that I am just now - at 11:30 pm - getting a chance to write this after my L Word chat! I changed the layout on the OBE blog and soon I'm going to do it here too. I may change the layout one more time in the OBE blog as I want to be able to have tabs up top for pages. This way I can have the sex blog, sex radio show and the OBE info in one central location. All I know is that I am sooo tired of seeing the original Blogger templates that it makes me ill:)

I had an amazing telepathic connection with Will in the shower last Thursday. And no - it didn't lead to sex. I know - shocker - huh? He brought me into a very mystical place. It looked like in the backdrop the Aurora Borealis. Off in the distance I saw a crystal castle. We were in the midst of a section of cliffs. I asked Will why he brought me here. With a sheepish grin he tells me that this is where he goes to think - and that I'm the first person he's ever shared this place with. I was touched. I asked how long he'd been coming here - and he said , well - since I've been around since the start of time, I reckon since then. Have you brought me here before? I ask him. He smiles and nods yes. Does any of this jog your memory? The crystal castle - I've been there before. He nods again and said - we both have. What else about this place? Will asked. I looked around and at first I didn't see anything - but I heard the sounds of water. So I rounded the cliffs - and there was the ocean. I turned to him -- Merlin - I said. He's cave is right below us, isn't it? Will grabbed my hands - looks me in the eyes and replied - it's more our cave than his. That's right - it's our magical astral cave:)

I used to find you here all the time when we'd had a disagreement or you just wanted to think. Yes - yes he exclaimed - now you have it!

Something dawned on me and I stare at him. Atlantis I said - what are you hiding from me? His mood went sour and he turned away from me. I run in front of him and make him look at me - but he refused to look at me in the eyes. It hit me -- it was you who ordered the death of Ted and I - wasn't it? He doesn't say anything. What Will - why were you so upset that you sent a hit team after Ted and I -- and the children of all people. He clenched his jaw so tight that I knew it had to hurt. I'm not talking about it any longer - this isn't why I brought you here. Is this why you sacrificed your life for mine in the witch trail? As a karmic pay back? Tears well in his eyes - that and I loved you - love you. So I don't owe you a karmic debt in this life time. He shook his head - no. And you don't owe me one? He shook his head again. Then why is part of my life lesson in this life is to watch you die? What is that for? Because you love me and you wouldn't let anyone else take care of me - that's why. He had me on that one. Plus - he went on - once I die we can prove to people that love survives the physical death of the body. How do we do that? He shrugged - I have no idea.

And the connection was broken. More questions need to be answered. I need to go exploring.

On that note I'm going to bed!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Attitude, Intention And Progress!

When I get upset, I shut down - emotionally, spiritual and physically. It's hard for anyone to break through to me when I am that closed off. But Will -- he never gives up. All day yesterday as I was crying over Girlfriend Kitty - he kept saying -- let me in, let me in, I can help you. I could feel the warmth of his love and light pushing to get through. He really pushed too -- there was not one moment where he backed off. I finally allowed him in around 10:30 pm last night. Every time a GFK image came into my mind or I could hear her getting hit by the car - or feel her overwhelming fear - he was there to push it aside and bring himself into focus. He knows as well as I that anytime he's here - I feel loved and very calm. This kept going on until after midnight when I finally went to sleep. I did try to go to sleep earlier - but then I remembered "10 Items or Less" was on -- and I wanted to laugh (and I did). As I was falling asleep Will and I had an amazing telepathic connection all the way into the dream world and into our first dream visit. In the telepathic connection - we were in log cabin in the middle of a mountain range (feels like Smokey Mountains), and we were each finishing up on some writing. He was making changes to a script, and I was making changes in a book I was writing. He came up behind me and kissed me several times on the neck - and asked me if I was hungry:) This shifted into the dream visit we were making lasagna in a very big - and nice - country kitchen - in that cabin. He kept trying to distract me from making the sauce - a kiss here - a touch there -- you can imagine where this lead to...

When I woke up this morning, Ted was the first person on my mind. I can still remember his laugh. That's what I heard as I was coming out of my sleep - he was laughing. In this dream visit he and I were sitting on a rocky coast - I think in Wales - and we were talking. I mentioned something about pink handcuffs and leather -- and he just started cracking up. I caressed his face and told him how much I missed that laugh. He said - you're good for me and for a laugh. And he just kept on chuckling until I became fully awake. His green eyes looked so -- what do I want to say? Snappy. Yes, they looked snappy. It has been a very long time since I saw his eyes looks so alive.

I am a big into manifestation and intention. When I do reading or write spells for people, I do everything I can for them not to be so focused on the outcome, but instead let it go. This has always been a chore for myself, so I know how hard it is to do. Plus, that attitude is everything - if an attitude reflects that something will not happen, then it won't. But I came across an article which sums things up pretty well:

Adapted from How to Know God, by Deepak Chopra (Three Rivers Press, 2000).

Before you become master of your own life, you feel inadequate and powerless. Unforeseen things happen all the time. By contrast, after you assume authorship of your own life, outcomes are never in doubt. No matter what happens to you, each event has a place and a meaning. You also begin to master the art of manifestation. You just intend a thing and it happens. You co-create with the universe.

SIMPLE SOLUTION: When highly successful people are interviewed, many times they repeat the same formula: "I had a dream and I stuck with it, because I was certain that it would come true." This attitude is a symptom—one might say the symptom—of co-creation.

The following qualities can be seen in people who have mastered the art of intention:

1. They are not attached to the past of how things should turn out.
2. They adapt quickly to errors and mistakes.
3. They have good antennae and are alert to tiny signals.
4. They have a good connection between mind and body.
5. They have no trouble embracing uncertainty and ambiguity.
6. They remain patient about the outcome to their desires, trusting the universe to bring results.
7. They make karmic connections and are able to see the meaning in chance events.

I am steadfast in my attitude that:

1. Will and I will be together in a relationship
2. I will sell DREAMERS to a TV network
3. That Will will intro me to Bill who will in turn intro me to Ted
4. That I am happy, loved and successful

And I leave it go at that. I'm no longer attached to the "how" "when" or the "why". Although I am always curious how things are progressing.

Plus - this is a big one - I have finally adopted (and believe) the attitude of that I deserve it. I still worry from time to time that I'm not good enough to be with Will. But anytime that thought passes into my head - guess what? You got it - he's there with that incredible love and energy to tell me otherwise.

I haven't felt Merlin in quite sometime -- but he's right here on my left. He wants me to burn some frankincense in my office. Be right back.....

Okay - he had me add some cloves and myrrh to the frankcensense. Then open one of my windows in my office a crack. After I did what he requested, he faded from view.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Will And More Will!

Good Lord, Will's energy is so strong. Much stronger than any energy Bill or Ted have been able to expend towards me or each other thus far. My heart keep racing, my hands are on fire and I have the tickling in my belly - the kind of tickle you get when you see someone that you really like or are attracted to. Now this energy surge has been going on since a week or so ago. And it's constant - there is no fluctuation - no down one second and up the next. It's a constant state of "ON". But - I have noticed that this constant state of "ON" gets stronger every day. So while the energy isn't variable throughout the day, each day it does increase in small increments throughout that day. It's almost as if Will had a light bulb moment and has now turned his attention to making a stronger connection.

Unfortunately, when my computer crashed a few months back, I lost all of the readings I had done on Will (there weren't that many, but still) - one was really very interesting from Maria Shaw, and she doesn't save the readings after she does them. So I have no way to get it back and post it for you guys. But the gist of the reading was once an energy likes ours is connected, there is no turning back. It gets stronger and stronger and there's no way to deny it. The energy is a once in a lifetime connection. It's not an easy match up - there is a huge roller coaster of events that happen with big extremes of good and bad. But then again, being part of a soul cluster/circle is not an easy thing. I want easy -- I want good times noodle salad. But I do want someone who pushes and challenges me -- I think Will could push me to places that no one else could. Why? I don't know -- it's just a feeling I get. Bill too could push me and make me grow - but I don't think he has as much of an impact as Will.

I don't know why I feel that. Maybe because I know that Will is a mentor and that I will learn from him - where both Bill and Ted are learning at the same time as I. And Matt -- well, he's my fun buddy - he has a good job as far as I'm concerned.

Speaking of which - I didn't forget that Matt had a birthday over the weekend - Nov 4th to be exact. He's still a pup in his late 30's:) Happy Birthday Matthew!

I have been a good girl and raising my energy in the morning. I find that it is easier to do when I'm in the shower as opposed to turning off the email. I'm a mail whore - email, snail mail - I just love mail. Can't always get to it to respond, but I love it just the same:) This could be why Will is much stronger- hell, the man could be raising his energy too. And I get a "yes" from my guide Edward. In fact - Edward says that Will has taken it upon himself to learn as much as he can about how to connect. Plus learn about past lives, soul mates and etc.....as he knows he has found someone he has been looking for (which would be me) and now that I've made contact - he's a quandary on what to do now. Life changing things have a way if making someone put on the brakes and think.

If the energy is this strong when we're apart - can you just imagine what it will be like when we're physically in the same room? I have no doubt that this is in the cards (so to speak) and had I not put off contacting him via that letter - this meeting, I'm sure, would have already taken place. But it's a comfort to know that it will.

Just like it will with Bill in 2008. No doubt in my mind - none that he and I will be in the same room and have a very interesting, if not mind blowing, conversation.

And Ted - no doubt in 2008, if not sooner as he will discover that his negative girlfriend has been destroying what I had sent him and has not allowed any correspondence to go through between him and I. Every fiber of my being knows that he has written me, but she threw it away before it could be mailed. He'll come to his senses and realize that the numbers in his phone that are missing, the web sites gone from his computer, the letters not mailed to various people will all have a common denominator - her.

Saw my 1st snowflake of the 2007-2008 snow season today. Of course this 1st flake has many followers:) Not too enthused about the snow. Maybe it's because I'm the one who has to shovel my long drive this year;)

Last night Will was the last person on my mind as I fell asleep and the 1st person I thought of as I contemplated killing my alarm this morning. In between that time, we had a very interesting dream visit. Let me explain -- I walked into an auditorium, with people milling about everywhere. I had a picture in my hands, a picture of Will with short hair (like it normally is) and I was looking for him. I'd pass someone, look at the picture and look at the guy. I didn't talk to anyone, just kept looking.

Then I found a man on the stage, sitting down, that looked like Will. I held up the picture next to his face and he asked if he was the guy in the picture? I said close enough -- you're hair's too long (it was way past his shoulders and in a ponytail), but it's you. So I jumped up on the stage and sat next to him. He asked to look at the picture and I gave it to him -- he said it was an old picture and that he'd been looking for me for a long time. I told him that his eyes would give him away, not matter what the rest of him looked like. He replied -- I was counting on that. So I asked - now what? He replied - we wait.

Then I woke up. I found that dream interesting because I knew who I had to look for, found him, he said he had been looking for me and now that we found one another we had to wait for further instructions. And that last part is something I've felt for some time now -- that I/we won't be getting instructions on what we need to do until we're all together. Plus, it is in line with what Edward said - that Will is at a crossroads and that decisions that he has to make takes some time. But of course with Merlin in my ear right now he says that I have to step up my magic practice and that Will has stepped up his.

I wonder if part of the magic Will has stepped up on is sex magic? Because let me tell you - his libido is almost as high as mine - if not an even keel. I'll comment on that soon in the OBE sex blog:)

And on that note I better go....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Past Life Regression, Atlantis And Will!

I had a dream Monday night with my Grams P in it. I was at a house (it was my house, but it wasn't by house) and it was raining outside (as it was in the physical reality). I had a porch sale going on and I remembered everything was out there and it was raining. So I ran downstairs and as I got to my front door, it burst open and my mom, and youngest sister came in - sis had her newborn with her. In the midst of them was Grams P. It must of been the look on my face as she said - I know honey, I'm dead. She was holding my niece but my niece didn't see her. I wondered if anyone else wondered why a baby was suspended in mid air - but no one else came in the room. I started to tear up and tell Grams how much I missed her. She said she knew and that she's always around (then she said some choice words about my ex - lol). The reason that she stopped by to see me is that although she has only been in the spiritual realm a short time (6 years), it is very well known how much the heavens love me and they are proud of what I am doing. I am very well thought of and the Divine knows that I will get my job done here on Earth. Then she smiled and faded away - I woke up.

I thought that was great that Grams came to me with that message. Sometimes its tough for me to see if I'm making any differences in the world and even harder to envision how it is to come to pass - the big picture that I've seen about what I am to do. So the confirmation from her was great.

Just to note - I am beyond busy. So if you sent me an email and it's been over a month with no reply - resend. My inbox is a fricken nightmare.

BTW...found my psychic manger/agent:) Yay! We're going to streamline some things on the site. No worries - I will still do what I do - but the information won't be so overwhelming:) Our first stop is to revamp and then promote my presence on Keen. Then we'll move form there.

About Paris, France in May 2008 - I'm going there for fun. BUT - I am open to doing readings while I am there. I'll remind you to set up an appointment before I go if you want one. In Greece - I am working Maria Shaw's psychic cruise. So I will be doing readings on the ship.

Now yesterday I went and had my PLR done. It was wonderful! We're going to try to meet once a month with the next appointment on Nov 13th. I asked her to take me to lifetimes that were important to me know. And since Merlin was chatting in my ear on the way down, I should of guessed where my 1st stop would be: The year 1100. I arrived in a hut (which is what I called it, but I should have said cottage). To my left there was a stone fireplace, lit, with a pot of water getting ready to boil. I could smell freshly baked bread. At the table was me, my son, a woman who I think her name is Angie, Ted and Will. We were working on a magical experiment with levitation. There was a big bowl in the center of the table and we were adding or subtracting herbs to see how high or long a rock would float. I looked about outside the hut - way up in the sky and saw that I was in Scotland - left side of the country.

Next I was in 1697. I was in a dungeon or jail awaiting execution. Next to me - as Will - he to was awaiting a trial. They were beating the crap out of him to get him to confess to being a witch - which he wouldn't. Once I couldn't hear his screams any more, they came to me. I told them to do what they will. How we got there is a woman had an infection on her thigh - a pretty bad one. Against the advice of her husband (he wanted her to go to the doctor and have her leg removed) she came to Will and I and we healed her. This pissed off the husband - so we were turned in as witches. They got Will 1st and I ran. But someone who I thought was my friend, turned me in. They were taking us to the gallows when I walked out of this life.

The year 0 was interesting. Yep - said 0. I was at a place with 9 stone chairs in a circle and a fire pit in the center. To the right of me was a cave, but in front of the cave was a star portal. The portal was invisible to al but who was supposed to use it (I've had this place in past visions). Bill and Ted were there and we all jumped into it and was at earth in a blink of an eye. We were actually in Atlantis - 3500 BC was the date. I could tell it was the ending of Atlantis. But around me was these beautiful crystal pyramids. Inside each pyramid was a centralized crystal along with a crystal trough where water flowed through. In telling about the level of royalty I was, I decided to want to speed back through the portal and go back. But it was odd cause my voice shifted - got deeper and wiser sounding. Cindy asked about Atlantis and were is it now - is it here in earth. My response was no, it's not here on earth physically, but shifted into another dimension to keep it safe. When the time is right - it will shift back into the earth's physical reality. There were messages about how toxic the earth is and that the physical body is so temporary. And that Allie shouldn't worry so much about the time capsule (it was strange referring to me in the 3rd person) as it will resurface when it needs to. Cindy asked about my name and what I look like - the planet I come from. And I remember smiling and saying - look up at your night sky to Venus and then look diagonally up to your right. There we are. When pushed about a name - it was told that we've had enough information at that time. I think here my conscious mind was interfering as I was trying to logically figure everything it (duh Allie). So I'll have her take me deeper next time.

Next up 535 and I saw me as Joan of Arc. Only Joan was born until the 1400's, so I'm not sure how I could see me as Joan in that year - unless that person was to become Joan. Or I got the year wrong - don't know. But as soon as I stepped from the door - I smelled death. All over the place. Dead warriors - it was very disturbing. Flash forward to being in bed with the Bishop (Ted) with the Cleric (Bill) coming to get me and me escaping out the back. I still don't know....how 535 and Joan. Maybe I'll figure it out in the next session. Cindy asked how it was to be Joan - and I said it felt very heavy.

And that was it. The session was an hour long and I have it all in tape (thank goodness) - so obviously there is more there than what I put above. But I wanted to give you an overview. A more detailed account I'll put in the book. Very enlightening!

Now it did feel like I was channeling someone when I was in the 0 year. On the way down to Columbus, Merlin kept chattering to me that he wants me to be his channel and I keep saying no. I'm not comfortable with channeling. I wonder if the 0 person was Merlin? Humm.....HA -- I'm getting a gruff - NO - in my right ear from Merlin. That was funny.

You know what I just thought of? When I would write about Tracey before, I always called her Cindy (made up name) just in case she didn't want me to use her real name. And who is it that is doing my PLR's? Cindy (real name). Unreal.

I'd better get going on that podcast of mine!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Merlin, Edward And More Workshops!

The whole Cosmic Convention went well. Both of my talks on the tarot and on intuition went much better than I thought they would - especially since I left the booklets I made for each talk at home. I'm going to email each of the workshop attendees a copy - it's on my "to-do" list today. I met such nice people there and the energy was just perfect. There were times when the people I was giving a reading to had a hard time hearing me because of all of the people in the room - and their energy & voices were sky high...but overall it was good stuff.

In my talk about intuition I mentioned symbols & pictures as a way for our intuition to nudge at us to pay attention. I've had a hard time believing that Merlin was assigned to me - that he's one of my ascended masters.

I need to divert from Merlin for a moment -- as soon as I wrote the above line - I heard that Edward was too an ascended master. I looked for information on him and I couldn't find anything. I kept hearing -- follow Merlin and you shall find Edward. So I did just that -- and found him: http://www.liverpoolmuseums.org.uk/ladylever/collections/merlin.asp who was completely and totally into Merlin and all that Merlin had to offer. Talk about chills when I saw this.....and no wonder that when I saw Edward at 1st he had on a beard but it was quick and it disappeared, never to come back. Now when I see him he is very clean shaven.

Wow -- how fricken cool is that????

Now back to Merlin. I always had a hard time knowing that Merlin was assigned to me. A good chunk of me kept wanting to chalk it up to wishful thinking -- that and my magical powers. Well -- I got a reading while at the convention and when it was over she told me that he biggest question of all will be answered with the next card I draw. She shuffled a different deck of cards, fanned them out and told me to pick. I picked Merlin:) I almost fell over. She asked if I understood that this was the answer and if I realized what my biggest question was -- I said yes to both.

So Merlin and I chatted on the way back home. After all - who else am I going to talk to besides me on a 5 hour car trip? The gist of our conversation was that things are going to explode for me - career wise and financially. That there is no need for me to ever worry about money, I'll have plenty of it. He also suggested that when I am writing the OBE sex book - that I though some magic in there as well to help people achieve what they want. I'm not going to doubt him -- so I said okay. Love will come eventually - like in 2010. But that I'll never be alone if that is what I wish.

I hope that very-very soon I will be able to get the new Empowerment U up on my site. What I am doing is taking the classes/workshops I have already, and converting them into easy downloadable classes that people can work on at their own pace.

I've asked why can't I seem to land more freelance jobs to pull more $$$ in. I'm told that I'm not to work for anyone else - freelance or not. My own personal projects will bring in plenty. So I asked about the TV pilot DREAMERS that I'm working on -- and all I got was a HUGE smile. I say that's good stuff - wouldn't you?

Maria mentioned 4 conventions next year:

Jan 10 - 13: Virginia Beach
Feb 29 - Mar 2: Lansing, MI
April: Arkansas
Sept/Oct: Midland, MI

The two in MI I will definately be at. The odds of the Jan one are low. But ARK is hanging on in the middle.

I am hoping to have my own workshops in 2008. My plan is:

Mid March: New Orleans
July: NYC
Nov: Los Angeles

And maybe a Toronto date in there too.

My goal is for Tracey and I to do the workshops together on a Sat & Sun from 9 - 5.

Fingers crossed:) I guess holding a workshop on my own would really push me outside my comfort zone!

The guys haven't made much of an appearance lately - probably because I'm too busy. I hope to try to have some downtime soon to reconnect.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Gypsy Magic, Edward, Bill, Ted And More!

Can you say AMEN! The DREAM book is finally done and at the printers! Out of the 4 gypsy magic books - this one is the best. I love talking about dreams and astral travel! This is just in time for my divorce hearing next week. Remember, I kept being told in order to go to the next stage in my life, the books had to be done? And -- I had to be divorced? Well -- there you go. Robert - my guide - is such a happy little clam. Now he's pushing me to get going on my TV pilot DREAMERS. And I have to say - yes sir - on this one -- cause every fiber of my body is telling me to move it. I asked Robert -- what about The L Word or Tell Me You Love Me or even The Dead Zone -- what about writing for them? He tells me not to get a head of myself. Damn. At least it wasn't a no way:)

Bill is something else. I swear. Just sitting back, trying to get to the center of me - of my mind - on purpose. He has that need to be "right there". I don't mind it though, he's a creative soul and his muse just melds with mine. I had a really wicked idea for a story that involves Bill, me and other dimensions -- maybe add in the co-dependency of Ted. A supernatural, love, erotic story thriller with violence. It just flowed out from me to my notepad as an outline. The more I think about it -- the more I think about what a kick ass story this is. One thing at a time Allie -- get DREAMERS done 1st. Work on the OBE Sex book next. Of course -- the OBE sex book would flow well with the story. I'd call it an erotic thriller - the new story - not the OBE book.

I have to shift my focus.....

Will. He keeps popping in and out to say - hey - if you have a moment I'd like to remind you that I'm still here. I have something on the table and should be out the door next week in order to get a hold of him. Every fiber of my being knows that as soon as he gets it, he'll act on it. Maybe that's why I keep putting it off -- kind of like the oh crap - what do I do now? But now, it's not a crap - what do I do? I know what to do -- and I can do -- that is a very freeing feeling!

I've been trying to focus in on Ted the last several days -- but Bill won't let the connection last very long. So today I'm going to blast through (so to speak) and send Ted some energy. He's really low on the energy -- he gets this way if he and I haven't been connected in a while. He/we could have the on connection always like Bill and I have graduated to - but Ted still has some issues to work through before he can get to that stage. He close - so close -- but not close enough. It would help matters if he would just dump the soul-sucking vampire he's been with the last two years. But he hates to be alone. When I asked Ethan about this - I'm single now - if Ted knows this (and he does) then why doesn't he dump the negative entity and contact me? Ethan tells me that Ted knows there is no way in hell Bill would sit back and let this happen. And Ted's love for both you and Bill far outweighs the love he has for himself. That said, he prays that you both will allow him in your lives as a good friend.

I'm amazed on how much my gifts have grown over the last year. You might have noticed that I no longer have to do a session to get messages or see visions/images. I never had to do a session when it pertained to doing a reading for someone. But when it dealt with me and my life - I always had to hit a session of some sort in order to extract information. It's nice that I don't have to now. At least there's something in my life that I don't have to work so darn hard at any longer.

But that aside - I can feel the pull of a handful of guides - so it's just easier to go into a session.

As soon as I started, there was Ted, bigger than life. But he was back a bit - stuck in a haze or mist. I could hear Ethan tell me to raise my energy as high as I could get it. I just stood there and stared at Ted -- his energy aura around him was weak and what was there was a brownish black. It was heart breaking to see someone in such a stage - especially someone like him who has such a giving heart. Ted laid down on a bed (not his - he's not at home). With my feet planted firmly on the ground, I imagined a plank of energy going around me - slow at 1st and as it increased speed I increased the distance of it from my body. As the plank moved out - a white energy hugged the middle between us. As that moved out into the ethers - I placed myself in a glass tube, having it close to my body and started it to go around clockwise. Faster and faster it went - still relatively close to my body. On the outside of that tube - I took another glass tube and made it go counter clockwise. When my energy is being raised to this level - my tummy always feels really odd - like I'm heading down that 1st roller coaster hill. When I can feel my astral body wanting to go exploring - I stop the energy raising. I focused my energy to go out through my hands and into Ted. As the energy moved into him - he groaned and tossed and turned, finally resting on his back.

Not sure how I got there - but I was straddling Ted, with my hands on his chest looking down. His eyes flew open and it was as if he could look right at me. His green eyes seemed to grow wide and looked onto mine. He said "Oh God Allie" and I was whisked back out of there - back next to Ethan. I watched as my energy infused Ted -- making all of the brownish black drift away. His energy aura grew in size and strength. A blackness left his body from the middle of his back.

He got up and walked over to a pill bottle. He stared at it for a few seconds, opened a drawer and threw them in. I looked at Ethan and he said that they were tranquilizers. Ted walked out of the room.

I turned and there stood, Ethan, Robert, Jezell and Brigit. I asked what did I do to garner so much attention? Robert said that they were there to let me know how proud they are on the progress I have made. Brigit said that the 4 of them will be right next to me, helping me through the next step. It's time to progress further - Ethan commented. Jezell told me to turn around ,there there was someone new I had to meet.

I turned and was face to face with a man in violet. He had on a long - velvet-like violet robe, open in the front. Underneath he wore an outfit of white with a high, but open collar. His hair is pure white and very short/cropped - almost like a business man's hair cut. His face was chiseled - high cheek bones and dark blue eyes. He extended his hand and said that his name was Edward. I looked at him and replied - but haven't we met before? In this life? He smiled and said yes - I'm glad you remembered. He tells me to walk with him.

As we walk I can see Bill right next to us following us. I comment about Bill and Edward said that I'd better get used to it. Bill will always be on the outskirts of my energy just like I him - when we are not physically in the same room. It's our telepathic connection - it's an constant "on". I asked about the man I saw a glimpse of in all red. Edward tells me that he is Abraham and I will meet him next - when the time is ready.

We arrive in my magic room - the one where Merlin always is. And there he was - Merlin. I asked why am I being doubled teamed? Merlin laughed and said that Edward's the brains and he's the brawn of this operation. Merlin chuckled - Edward didn't.

I am told that the time is now for me to expand in to greater magical practice. Edward said that what I do - my purpose in this life - will affect everyone on the planet. Merlin jumped in and said that I must get a hold of Will - there is much to do. Will and I are to start to come here - consciously (as we have been for some time unconsciously) to our magic room and start to prepare. We are to do our magic on the astral level. I asked about the physical level - Merlin said that yes it would work - but the real power is not in the 2 dimensional physical world - but in the multi dimensional world of the planes -- which is accessed astrally. Is there anything I should do 1st? I asked? Get Will to call you - Edward replied. They didn't care how I do it -- but it must be done now. Time is of the essence. Will and I need to be in conscious, physical contact. It's not a need or a want -- it's a must.

I asked if this has anything to do with bring Atlantis back into the physical dimension. They tell me that in time all will be revealed. Don't get ahead of myself.

And with that the session was over.

Gee - nothing like adding the pressure on!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Update On Allie's Big Life Change!

This past weekend was rather surreal. What's been going on with me is that I found out upon my return from ARK, that my husband was cheating on me and now we're getting divorced. I'm thinking it's his guilt talking, but he's not fighting me on a thing. So with this uncontested divorce I will be single by the time my son starts school! YEAH! The guy is still lying to me and is thinking he is getting away with it -- SIGH -- if I hadn't foiled his plans he was going to walk out of the house in Aug to go to "work" and instead hop a plane to Sweden, leaving my son and I high, dry and screwed. What kind of father leaves his son without any support, ins. and basically says - oh well? My son does not deserve that treatment. Leaving me is one thing -- I say don't let the door hit you in the ass - but our son? Who worships his father? It's unforgivable. Oh, and yeah, his Swedish ^%$# Katarina J (yes I know her last name, email and phone number -- boy they are tempting to post), reads this blog -- but I don't care. She has 2 kids too that she's dumping with her ex (she is in the process of a divorce too - big surprise) to run away and get married to my ex! She and my soon-to-be ex deserve one another. And I deserve to be happy -- and I will! The reason this all hit me for a loop is that I'm a Taurus through and through -- change in my routine, my life, upsets the hell out of me -- even if it is something I want. Plus, I couldn't get over the sheer fact that he was this stupid and had the nerve to think I was.

So we discussed things this past weekend, told him everything I knew and that I filed for a divorce. I'd been living with him for 1 1/2 months knowing what I know and not saying anything. Why? Because I had a series of dreams the week before I found all this out and in the dreams he is on the computer typing to the bimbo and I had enough -- I told him as much and kicked him out. But -- as soon as I did that - a feeling of dread came over me -- how was I going to support my son and I - not to manage all the animals? So when things were discovered I kept my cool as well as I could. And it is paying off. He'll be out of the house in a couple of weeks and I even told him that I'd help him pack in order to speed up the process.

Now you know what the donation button is for and why this is such a huge life change. Since I have to support my son, me and the animals from this moment on - I would appreciate it if you guys kept being my psychic pimp and referred me out to your friends and family - thanks!

I've been told many times that the hold up with Bill and Ted was with me still being married. Well - this is no longer a problem, now is it? I'm ready for the next phase in my life -- bring it on!

I don't know who has been spending more time with me energy wise - Bill or Ted. They are around a lot these last few days. It's been nice to feel their presence. In fact, I can feel Bill right now, behind me, tickling my neck. The rascal:)

I'm being very precise in my magical journal what I want in life. If you remember (and maybe you don't cause it's been a while) - Merlin wanted me to keep a manifestation journal since I have the gift of manifestation or projecting -- however you want to see it. I haven't really done one all the way because of prying eyes in the household. Well, it isn't something I have to worry about anylonger so I'm writing in it. I'm writing everything positive I want - not one negative comment. Last week I could feel another shift in my life - before the hubby and I talked about the divorce - I can feel a bigger shift coming - one that is huge and will take me further down the path I am meant to travel.

It's all very exciting -- isn't it??

I did do the podcast today - hours ago - but for some reason I can't get it post. Will work more on it later.

And on that note I have to run.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

The Magic Room, Will And Sex Magic!

Why is it when I don't post to the blog is when I get the most visitors? Can anyone tell me that? It isn't a fluke - it happens every time when I don't post for 3 days or more. Very very odd.

So after being busy, sick and having my niece be born -- now the heat is kicking my ass. The humidity is something horrible and it has been putting me to sleep every afternoon. I just can't stay awake. Today I had a couple of morning appointments, a couple of readings early afternoon and then I laid down. 3 hours later I woke up. I went and got my son, made dinner, did things around the house and here I am. Dang if it isn't still too fricken hot.

Okay - what's been going on here? You may remember last week when I wanted to auction off my bod on The L Word for a good cause. No really - I did - for breast cancer research. But what I wanted and what actually happened were 2 separate things. Thursday at the date auction on the L word - my avatar kept freezing. Then it started dancing and no one could get it to stop! Then Friday - even though I was in the right group and I knew how to get in that booth - Second Life (the virtual world where the L word is located) wouldn't allow me in the kissing booth :( And then I froze again. So -- like Thursday I said forget it. SIGH. Oh well, I'll try again next year!

My dream visit with Ted Sunday night/Monday morning was located at the same spot of another dream visit with him last month (or maybe a few months ago) where we were in what reminds me of a lunch room with long tables - lots of people - and Bill was there too at the opposite end of the room were Ted and I were sitting. I wanted to go and talk to Bill, but every time I tried, Ted talked me out of it. Ted was very loving, very smooth and knew exactly what to say to get me to stay. But I had this nagging feeling that I had to talk to Bill and I felt Bill's gaze on me. When I looked to see if he was looking, he of course was not.

Somehow I ended up at the same spot as Bill and asked him what was going on. He told me to get back to Ted. I asked why? And why wasn't he sitting with us? Bill replied that the two of them didn't see eye to eye. On what - I ask? On you, he said. What in the hell is there to fight about?

Bill said that Ted wants to break their deal and talk to me now instead of waiting for Bill to contact me first. And -- Ted refuses to step back and let me be with Bill.

I shook my head. I thought you two have grown up by now. You'd think since you've been around since the start of time you would have found some common sense. No one is going to "let" me do anything. I will do what I want. Neither of you control me - I control me.

With that I was back with Ted. He asked where I've been and I told him I was talking to Bill. He clenched his jaw. I gave him a kiss and told him I'd talk to him later. Before he could say anything - I woke up.

Now for some reason Tracy was MIA today for our session. As soon as the session started I was taken into my magic room in the castle. Sitting there waiting for me was Will. I looked around and asked where's Merlin? Will replied that Merlin was here but he wanted the two of us to become more familiar with the room on our own.

Will went to a very large bookcase and picked up some reading material. I wandered over to a large cylinder container that was in the floor. It was made of stone with many crystals, lapis, amethyst. emerald, ruby, sapphire and diamonds (all rough stones) embedded throughout the structure. I looked inside and it was full of water. I took my finger and swirled the water around several times to get a small whirlpool going. What I saw in the center of it was me, Bill and Ted sitting in an outdoor cafe or pub with pints of beer - laughing about something. The images took my breath away from a second and upset my stomach like I just went down the 1st hill of a rollercoaster.

Will asked me what was wrong and I told him what happened. He asked me if I cast a spell in it yet and I told him no. He told me to give it a try. I found rose petals, patchouly and orris root. I said a few words about Bill, Ted and I as I sprinkled the rose petals into the water. Next I placed the patchouly in while commenting on careers and money - lastly the orris root to draw all three of us together as well as the items I asked for. I then took my finger and swirled the water around to make a strong whirlpool. As the herbs went around and around - there was a great amount of energy that cam out of this cylinder. The water turned pure white and then back to normal. All the herbs were gone and the water was calm.

Will called to me with excitement in his voice. I hurried over and he showed me this book with two drawing of almost a perfect images of he and I. With something like the founders or something similar - I can't remember - under our pictures. But I asked what book he was reading and he said a book on sex magic. I'm like - WHAT? We're the pioneers of sex magic? He shrugged and said looked that way. Want to find out what we can remember of that time (he asked with a naughty grin on his face)? I told him I can't stay that long - too much to do.

And with that I ended it.

LOL - no wonder I like sex:) Hahaha -- too funny. Really does fit with me writing the OBE book, web page and blog (web page is almost done).

Speaking of the OBE sex blog -- it is going to be written by more people than just me. If you are interested in being a contributing writer, email me at:
allie @ gypsyadvice . com (without the spaces of course). I'm only going to picked a limited number of people to do this with me so if you want to - let me know now:)

Off to sleep I go.

Sweet dreams!
Allie ;)

Information Overload, A Magic Room And Alison Ashby!

I'm running way behind today. I had an important meeting that lasted a few hours and before that I needed to make sure I was set for it before I did my session. I sat with my healing wand and was taken to a very bright light. In that light I saw Bill and Will. I asked where have they been? They both answer - working! I asked why are they here. They don't know - they were summoned to be here for support. Where's Ted - I ask. No one seems to know as he was summoned too.

A blinding light comes before us. It is swirling horizontally. From it stepped Merlin, Brigit, Ethan and Jesus. I was immediately put on guard. I asked what did I do? Ethan comes forth and said that I had done nothing wrong. That it was time for me to see something for me to believe in me. I asked about the people coming into and out of my life recently. What is the purpose of it? Ethan replied that everyone comes and goes when they are supposed to and that I should not try to intellectualize their purpose. I need to roll with the changes and accept them for they are all in my higher good. The people that I am meeting are helping me take that next step - as I am helping them take theirs. It is all that I need to know.

Ethan, Merlin, Jesus, Brigit step through the light and ask me to come with them. I turn to Bill and Will and they just wave -- see ya! Gee thanks guys.....

So I enter and I exit in a magical room that I have been in before - the one that is in a castle. It has books everywhere - a big wooden table. Candles, jars of herbs, vials of oils and flower essences -- crystal and stones are everywhere.

Merlin speaks up and asks if I remember this room? I tell him yes - I remember it from visiting him here once. He asked if I remember anything else about it - does anything feel familiar to me? I say yes most of it does feel familiar. Brigit asks if I know why that is? I replied from when I was here before and I'm assuming that some of this is familiar from reading about it in books or maybe seeing them in movies.

I am told no - this room is familiar to me because it is my room - my magic room. This where I have come for thousands of years to perform my magic. I do not need the physical objects that human's use on the physical plane. I have always done my best work from the higher planes. I had visited this place before because the powers that be wanted the seed of this place to awaken my gifts. And the gurus that are here all agreed that it has indeed happened.

Brigit grabs my hand and took me to a room off this magic room. It is very long, wooden floor and has many swords, axes and knifes on the walls. She tells me this is where I practiced fighting. Then she took me to another room off of the magic room and this one has a calm glow to it with many crystals -- feel peaceful. She tells me that this is where I go to heal people.

She takes me out to the magic room again - and I must look like a deer caught in the headlights. Jesus steps in and tells me that as a Goddess, I worked magic here with Will - practiced battle with Ted and healed with Bill. As I had 3 sides to me - this is why I had/have three mates. I still rather stood there like a deer in the headlights.

Ethan stepped up and told me again about the OBE sex -- and how it needs done NOW. I just nod my head in agreement.

Merlin pulled me over to the long wooden table and told me to cast a spell. Any spell. So I did do one - on things moving the way I want them to. When I cast the spell, I could feel the electricity move through my physical body -- it was so strange. Then he told me to do one more. And I did about money -- again with the same electric zing through my physical body.

I told them that I've learned too much on this trip and that I wanted to go back home. Information overload. So they bid their farewells and told me to go back through the light. I did and Bill and Will were there. They each told me good bye and I was done.

I really do think that I am getting too much information. Too much for my human mind to grasp. No wonder I'm tired:) But it is food for thought.

The last couple of days Bill has been showing up more. Not all the time - but more often. It's nice to see him. He's a source of comfort. Of course some times he's a source of aggravation -- but it's been a while for that.

If any of you follow me as Alison Ashby in The L Word in Second Life - I'm being auctioned off for a good cause tomorrow (Thursday ) night. Stop by and bid on me and help support the gay and lesbian community:) Info on how to find me is in the side bar:)

I'd better run for now -- too much to do and not much time to get it all done!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Merlin, Will And Our Soul's Core!

Although the sun is shinning I feel like royal crap today - sick, sick, sick I am! It is so cold out that they canceled school. The outdoor cat is indoors in my office and I have 4 cats wanting to get in. A fun Monday morning!

I want to jump into a quick session before my son comes up to say hi!

I'm taken rather quickly into Merlin's secret abyss under the falls. He comes to me and give me a hearty hello - he is always happy to see me. Asked if I was ready to get to work, and I think I hesitated too long for he asked - what's wrong? I tell him that I can feel another energy around here and am I being watched by someone. He tells me that I'm astute and waves someone in from behind me. I turn to look and it's Will. He is wearing a cloak with the hood up, he takes the hood off and comes towards me.

I look at Merlin and ask why is he here? He says that Will is my other magical half. That separate we're more powerful than anyone, but together we're unstoppable. I look at Will and ask if he knew this. He says yes. I ask if this is why he wanted me to do the PLR the other day - he says yes. I ask them both why do we need to be unstoppable - what good is that great of a power. A power, I might add, that I'm not too crazy with having. I look at Will and ask if he's using our connection solely to have this power. My tone suggests that I'm not a very happy person at this point in time.

Will tells me to calm down and Merlin tells me to sit down. I can hear Will mumble about that fire in my belly -- or something along those lines.

Merlin drones on and on...this is what I remember him saying -- that in 2012 there will be a huge shift in the world and one where Will and I have to be ready. At this same time will come a discovery of Atlantis - from Bill, Ted and I. I ask about using my magical strength to help with Atlantis and with whatever Will and I are supposed to do. Correct I am told. Why can't Bill and Ted find Atlantis on their own? Will chimes in - they need the power of 3 to unlock it. You three put it in its place all those years ago and you three must unlock it. But what about you Will - what do you have to do with Atlantis? Merlin and Will just look at each other and stay silent. Merlin speaks up - there is a time and a place for you to know things and now is not it. Stop wasting time and let us get on to the lesson at hand.

No, no , no I cry -- not until I understand all this. So us 4 are the soul's core - correct. Merlin nods. I'm magical and a healer - Will is all magical - Bill is a healer and Ted is a healer and a warrior - correct? But isn't there someone who should be all warrior then? Merlin says yes, but you a touch off. Ted is a warrior who has picked up healing from you and Bill - but at his core he is a spiritual warrior. You my dear are also a warrior. This is why you are so fused with all three souls - you are magical, healing and a warrior. You are them and they are you.

I place my head in my hands - this is too much information. Will puts his arm around me - you wanted to know. I'm thinking - ya smart ass I know.

Merlin says - this is why you are so powerful -- it is because you hold the kernels for all three - you are no less powerful than the three of them and you can mix your strengths for outcomes they cannot do.

Will looks over at the long wooden table and holds his hand out. A candle stick flies from the table into his hands. See - Will says - you can do this too.

I'm done for now. I don't feel good anyways and you two have giving me even a bigger headache.

And I left and I'm done.

Okay - so what do I think of the information given? I'm not sure. But if it's true, then how did I get nominated for this job? SIGH. I'm tired just thinking about it.

Have a good day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Spirits, Merlin, Power And Astral Travel!

I have been trying since this morning to do my podcast. But the spirits that are in my room just will not leave. They are really screwing with the recording equipment and my head -- I have a killer of a headache. I've asked if they want something and nothing is said. I have left on the recording equipment to see what it can pick up. I do not have the fine tuning equipment needed to hone in on something. When I listen back I hear different levels of that humming sound and intermitted with static. So I'll try one more time before I pick up my son -- if it is still too much it will either have to go as is or wait until tomorrow.

BTW...between the paranormal being in my office and the cold weather -- I am freezing here! My personal heater is cranked, I'm in layers and I still shiver. Grrrrr.....

Speaking of paranormal, it reminds me of orbs. When my husband and I took our son to the "Polar Express", we took a bunch of pictures...and many of them have orbs in it! Not since last Christmas has my camera picked up orbs around me and my son. It's really very cool. I wonder if this Christmas will bring them out once again? I guess we'll see!

That darn podcast is bugging me. I'm going to go record it regardless - and I'll be right back...

Okay, I recorded the podcast with that dang buzzing noise all the way through!

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I have been working on improving my thought process. It is important to me that I have my inner thoughts reflect the life I want to lead. No more are negative thoughts allowed to enter my mind. When they do, I immediately acknowledge that thought and the emotions associated with it -- and whisk it away. In its place I bring in a positive thought. This is not an easy process - but it has been an eye open for me to realize how many negative thoughts flitter through my mind on any given day. They seem to spring out of no where and just take up space as one bad thought attracts another and so forth. But this also applies to positive thoughts -- like attracts like. I'm retraining my mind. You should give it a try!

I'm looking forward to being on, A GLIMPSE THROUGH THE VEIL WITH GABREAEL, come Wednesday. She and I will be discussing astral travel and astral sex from 9 - 10 pm EST. Listen in: http://www.easternparanormal.com/Paranormal_Radio_Show_A_Gli.html. If you remember, Gabreael is someone who I've had multiple readings with over the last couple of years. She's a great gal and very insightful!

Merlin has been wanting to talk with me again. I can hear him calling my name.....

I am underwater...I break the surface and I can see a cave a short distance away. I swim to it. The water I find is rather warm, strange as the air is very cool. I stay in the water into deep inside the cave and get out. There is a towel for me to dry off. I do and proceed up a staircase carved from stone. This staircase is circular. I wind up in Merlin's magical room (for lack of a better title), the same place I was at last time. He greets me and asks if I would like any tea. I say no, I have coffee waiting for me back at home. I ask why he summoned me??

You are making good strides. Finally, you have accepted your gifts and have proceeded towards your destiny. Have you noticed that things are more positive, more centered? Yes I reply -- but I have also noticed that more spirits are coming into my office - making it hard for me to work. It's your power Merlin says. If you do not want them in at certain times, you have to learn how to create a barrier. But I know how to do a barrier. Not one strong enough -- now that you have accept who you are and your path, your power has grown making more spirits come to you for advice. You have to build a stronger wall. Is there something that I have to do that I have not done? Yes -- your two windows are protected with the crystals - but your door is not. You must place a crystal in your doorway.

Okay - I will do that tonight. Good - Merlin says. Next what you have to do is to keep working on your thought process and add back in your energy exercises. Adapt them to better serve you. There is no need for me to tell you how -- follow your instinct. Merlin grabs my hand and traces a triangle on my palm. Now go back and continue to work, Merlin says.

And that's it.

Now my left hand is tingly and very hot. I can feel an great deal of energy in that hand -- which is traveling through my body to my right hand. Not both hands are red and burning up. Very interesting indeed. I wonder what doors this will open up?

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Merlin, Power And Allie's Core!

For those of you in the states - how did your Turkey Day go? Mine as usual was an interesting time with good food, good company and stimulating conversation. I found out yesterday that I will be an Aunty again!! My little sis is pregnant with child #2! She told everyone (well, her hubby did) at the table and I'm like - I know. They're --how did you know? I gave them a look - come on guys. The new addition should arrive come mid June! I'll keep you updated!

What a strange few days I've had - today included. I'm doing a lot of after Turkey Day stuff with a lot of running around - plus I've been doing a ton of writing as I'm desperately trying to claw my way back to a sane level. Email is still - well -- @ucked beyond my belief. I still plan on answering the 500 + that are now sitting in my inbox:) What has been strange is the sense that I'm being shadowed. I don't mean by an actual person though - a guide, a master actually. I keep getting glimpses of him out of the corner of my eye. I know it's not Bill or Ted as I get a certain energy zap when it's them. No this one is a high level master. He's right here next to me as I type. I can feel my fingers moving to type and it is weird because it is taking control, by me, to type what I want to type. Okay - I'll play - let's see if anything is typed if I just let go:

theh answers you swela are right in 4ont o youe wyw hat yo are foing is interdteing with the natureal order of thisns yo must eey wityh me to sicuss this.

Okay - that is what I typed when I just let it go. Well - I must admit, I don't like anything having control over my body functions so my interfereence is probably the cause of the mis-spells and we all know that I cannot spell at all.

Now he's speaking to me - he wants me to spell that line right:

the answers you seek are right in front of you. what you are doing is interfering with the natural order of things. you must meet with me to discuss this.

Okay - I'm game. Let's see who and what is going on -- shall we?

I am immediately taken to the drawbridge of a castle. I cross it and as I approach the massive door it swings open. There is a man waiting for me and simply says that the master is waiting for me over there -- and he points to a wall. I look at the wall and look at him. He stands there and does not say a word. I go to the wall and touch it -- cold stone is what I feel. I hear that voice in my head say -- it's not a wall and you are not a person -- think of it as energy meets energy. Close your eyes, bring up your energy level and pass through. I do what I am told, bring my energy level up from what I learned from Robert Bruce and I walk to the wall. As I go through, I feel a striking cold and then a blazing heat - then nothing. This is when I open my eyes and I see --

Merlin.

I should of known I say. Yes you should of is his reply. I look around and I'm in a massive cave where there are crystals, stones, oils, herbs that cover everywhere. It's amazing this place. He asks me if I remember this place? I tell him that I know I've been here a few times in the last year, but I don't remember what he wants me to remember. He wants me to sit down in a chair - I do and he hands me an Amethyst. He tells me to hold it and concentrate on it - I do. I can see myself as a young girl, working with him and I must be doing something extraordinary by the smile on his face. I can hear his voice as I'm watching the scene unfold - yes - you were my prize student - gifted in ways that no one else has come close to possessing - you are a unique and potent person. There are people running about and Merlin says something for us to disappear. But my favorite Amethyst, my good luck charm, is still on the table and I break the shield to go get it. As soon as I do that the door opens and I am killed.

I open my eyes and look at Merlin - and then down at my hand with the amethyst. Is this it? He nods. It is the same one that sits next to you in the real world, the one you are always holding. You have had it with you since the dawn of time, and in every life it finds you. I sit there in silence for a spell. He takes this silence to talk to me more:

You are the greatest power that has ever been created. In every life you are given a chance to use that power to help -- some times you do, as when you were Joan of Arc and Cleopatra, but many times you have filed that power away, too afraid to let it shine. Yes, you have been killed in every life when you have exhibited this power, but in every life afterwards, you are stronger, more powerful.

I can honestly say that I don't know what to say. So all I do is look at him.

Merlin goes on -- you cast a spell today, correct? I nod. You cast that spell for clarity on a story you wish to write, correct? I nod. But what you fail to realize is that your clarity spell gave you not only clarity with the story, it opened up clarity to all else. Your power does that -- it is so much more than you realize. This is why you are I a place for us to speak.

But we've spoken before Merlin, dozens of times.

Yes we have -- but I've never revealed who you are.

Do I have a name? A name that has traveled with me?

Fyre. He says.

I've never heard of a person called that.

It is your soul's name - not a human's name. What you are doing is interfering with what you need to be doing. You are throwing a rock into the natural order of things. You have found answers within you, true, you have done well with that -- but you are seeking other answers from people who cannot tell you what you want to know as they are not permitted to know in order to tell you.

Magic is who you are - you are magic and magic is you. There is no separation of the two. This is why I am here with you, this is why I am always with you as your teacher, your mentor. But you have to trust in yourself that this is your purpose- this is why you are alive today.

But I thought it was to heal? It is to heal - you can heal, you will heal - through magic. But that is not your purpose in this life - that is not the core. Healing is Bill's core, not yours.

What about the always present want to do battle, like I'm some knight or something. Am I supposed to fight? Yes Merlin says - you will fight, but with magic. You are an expert swordswoman and do well in battle. But that is not the core of who you are. That is who Ted is - he is the protector, the warrior, that is his core.

Do I feel all of this all the time because of our "oneship" our close intertwinement of souls?

Yes -- yes that is why. But you have to advance yourself on what is you and what is them. They are both in a position to weld their cores. You are not -- not yet.

But how do I then?

Merlin is so close now that I swear we will become one if he closes in......

You have to remember that magical power is your core - you are power and power is you. What you put your power behind will manifest. This is why with your core of your existence, magical power has always taken a front seat. You can manipulate energy, you can manifest anything you desire. You also have the gifts of prophecy and healing -- put your magical power into that too.

But what am I supposed to be doing? You have given me so much that again I'm at a lose at where to begin.

You have to accept your magical power. That's it. Accept who you are and your birthright. All else is in the natural order of things - you do not have to begin anywhere.

I think that I have enough to think about right now. I'm going to go.

Do not think -- accept. This path isn't for your human body or mind to decide, it is your soul's path, therefore it is your soul's choice. I will be waiting for you.

And with that I am done.

This was much more than I expected -- so much more that it is overwhelming. There is a HUGE chunk of me that wants to chalk this up to a vivid imagination and leave it at that. But I know that it's not right to do. To accept is to acknowledge. I'll try not to be a Bill and over-think this -- or think this at all.

But Merlin is correct - magic is at my core being, it has captured my awe and attention from when I was just a small child. It's the powerful part that I'm wrestling with.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)