A Little of This and A Bunch of That!

No -- you're not imagining things. This is really a post by yours truly. You guys are so sweet to have missed me. I can't tell you how many emails I have received asking me when I was going to post again. It really is nice to be missed.

I have to switch this from Blogger to Wordpress by my birthday (May 2nd). Someone don't let me forget:) Email me by April 15th and remind me. I'd greatly appreciate it.

As you all  can imagine - A LOT has happened since my last post. So go grab a cup of java, tea or a glass of wine and come back to read.

Brodie died Jan 7th. It broke my heart. His nose had started to bleed more the day before and I couldn't stop it. I knew something was coming. He needed to go outside to the bathroom. He went and then immediately had a stroke. It was horrible - just heart breaking. The tumor had pushed through to his brain. Oh the pain he must of felt. Thank God my neighbor Bob was home (who Brodie adored more than anyone). Thank God through my sobbing he knew what I needed. He helped me carry Brodie to the car - not easy seeing it was 100 lbs of dead weight. Bob had a hard time saying good bye so I could drive off. By the time I finally got him into the vet - his passing was quick and painless. Everyone at the vet loved Brodie and all stopped what they were doing to be there when he passed. I miss that dog so much. But seeing how protective he was in life (he chased away two bible thumpers 15 min before his stroke) I'm sure he's still close by. Gimli had a very difficult time with Brodie's passing. Countless hours were spent outside looking for his friend.

Gimli is doing fine now - he's turning into a good dog. He still eats things he shouldn't - but he's left my couch, carpet and table alone.

School is kicking my butt. Social Psych and Sign Lang 2 are going great. Stats hurts my brain (but I think I have a B in  there) and Ethics is killing me. I'm doing piss poor in that class - but so is most students. That class may ruin my dean's list for this semester. I'm still part of a research team at school and I like doing this. I discovered that I won't be able to graduate till May 2011 instead of Dec 2010. I have 2 classes that I can't fit in - 7 classes in a semester is a recipe for disaster.

I don't know if I mentioned that I was going to get my certification in sex coaching. Even though I have been ding it awhile - I thought it would be nice to be certified. This is going well. I love learning about this - educational and fun:)

I had a part time job and lost that same part time job. They are trying to talk me out of quitting - which is nice. But I don't think I do well as a follower. I also though to myself -- is this the best use of my time? No. I love to help people - period. This job wasn't even close to it. So I told myself that if I dedicated x hours a day to that job. Then I could do the same back at Gypsyadvice and Keen. That's what I'm doing.

After I post this -- I'll be doing the podcast and the OBE blog. I know - shocking:) I do have some surprises coming up for the OBE site that I'm excited to implement. When it's ready I'll let you know.

It's a shame I wasn't betting in an Oscar pool last night - I got them all right but the winner for editing and short film:) Speaking of which - screenwriting has taken a back burner. I honestly don't want it on the back burner - even though I guess I can't write believable dialogue to save my life. I think I'll take a break from rejection for a bit. I'll keep rewriting THE BLACK TRIANGLE when I have time. This is a must-do script.

I wanted the movie AMAZING GRACE over the weekend. This is a song that I always sing and I have no clue as to the why. So I'm watching this movie and it brought up a whole range of emotions that make me think WTF? As I kept feeling these strange emotions - esp when I watched the main character William and his wife Barbara - I kept thinking that dang, William is someone who I would be attracted to - why can't I find someone like that? Then Bill's face popped up. I thought - yeah, he's a lot like Bill. But Bills face wouldn't leave. So I thought again WTF? The it was like Iris hit me on the head -- you big dummy, Bill was William in a past life -and I guess that made me Barbara. Ahhhh....then it dawned on me - lol. But Iris quickly jumped in and said that the real William and Barbara were not exactly how they were portrayed in the movie (gee - hollywood taking a creative license about a true story - I'm shocked). At some point in time I have to read more about William and Barbara.

Bill has been around a lot. He never really wants anything - just to show that he's here. He's in my dreams too. Every night without fail.

Someone else is in my dreams every night - but I can't make out who they are. The set up though is always the same. He's wealthy - lives with his wealthy parents. The house is modern, well kept with modern furnishings. There is a huge wall of windows that overlooks the ocean. I'm friends with his parents but his father wouldn't approve of our relationship (or would at least have a hard time) and he's sick - so we can't approach him with our situation. He has cancer. This guys bedroom has a really big bed with a red comforter. A couch is in from of the bed with a flat screen TV. Not a lot of clutter is on the dressers. The adjourning bathroom is huge and marble (plus very tidy). He likes to sleep on the same side of the bed I do (if you're looking down at the bed from the foot - it's the right side) but I don't mind sleeping on the left side. They have a dog - I think it's a yellow lab like Gimli. I have no idea why I keep showing up here and who these people are. But I'd like to find out.

I'm going to be at the Universal Light Expo again this October. The topic of my workshop will be Sexual Energy:)

My son is doing ok back in public school. He's had some bumps - but overall he's well.

I keep catching a spirit or maybe an astral body floating around at all hours of the day/night. I'm thinking this is either Bill or Will - maybe Vincent. All the guys are still around - I find myself being drawn into thinking about them. But I don't allow the connection to last very long.

Because I don't allow the connection to last - I don't get the full benefit of being connected to them. I'm not talking about sex here - but the benefit of their energy - their love. I miss that closeness. But I also do not want to get sucked in (so to speak)- I have too much to do.

I know there's more to talk about - there has to be. But I'm out time if I'm going to do the podcast. So I'm going to boggie out.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

A Blast From The Past, K3 and the Throat Chakra!

For those of you who have been here for a spell - do you remember my Easter story idea from a few years back? I didn't either - until today. For some reason that baby popped right into my head. A picture book for 4 - 6 year olds about Easter. Anyways - I mentioned it to my manager (which is what I think I was supposed to do) and now it is on the agenda for 2009.

In lieu of my son starting his biz with kids and food - he is going to be starting a business selling either organic soap and/or beeswax candles - which I of course, will sell on Gypsy Advice:) Once he gets his feet wet with this biz, then we will work on the larger one with kids and food. My kid has the entrepreneurial spirit - I love it!

I wish I was going to Utah today...SIGH...I just had to get that out again....sorry.

I had a very interesting experience last night during dream time. I had expected to find Vincent for some great dream sex - but instead found someone different. They thought I could be fooled - ha! What surprised me though was that this person is from a past life with Vincent and I (I mention it in the PLR I have online). He was the King from the past life visit where I was married to a much older man - the King and was having an affair with one of his knights - Vincent. When the King found out about the affair, he set Vincent out to a battle he knew he could not win. And lived a loveless life until I finally died. Rat bastard....he needs to stay away - and I think Vincent will make sure he does.

For some reason I was looking for a "K3" with the 3 lowered so that the top of it is at the base of the K - on labels. I was in a room - reminded me of a very very large walk-in closet/dressing area. There was a K1 & a K2 and I turned to my son and asked about the K3. He showed me a crisp label, portrait style, white with a double gold border wit the K3 top center in silver and some name across the middle. It was very elegant, very regal almost. My son was an adult in this dream - very handsome. I have no idea what they were or why I was looking for them.

My ex just stopped by to pick up our son for a few hours. Seems that he is off work for most of Dec - layoff company wide - until Jan 5th. He also informed me that he's filing for bankruptcy. I have no idea how this will impact me and the house since the mortgage is in his name (although I have been paying it) and the house is in my name. I can't get the mortgage in my name - yet - because I don't make enough to qualify for a loan. SIGH. It'll all work out somehow - it always does.

I've been working a lot on my back chakras this past week. It's amazing the pressure I feel in each chakra as I'm working on it. I spent quite a bit of attention today on the back throat chakra since I'm starting to get a sore throat (and I've been working on the front as well). Today as I was working on the back, it felt like someone took their fist and pressed it up against the back of my neck and just kept pushing. The pressure never did let up - but I did get an energy surge up and down my body.

Time to run, need to fix myself a quick dinner, run to the post office and then get back to OBE sex outline!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Allie's Past Life Regression

Below is the regression I was telling you about - I finally had a chance to convert it and upload to the blogs. If you subscribe to my podcast - it's also up on iTunes.

Enjoy!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)
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Allie's past life regression session on Oct 23, 2008 at Maria Shaw's Cosmic Connection Convention in Midland, MI.

Regression by Tanya Douglas.

Main focus of the regression (discussed after the regression was complete - not recorded) was Vincent. He is the central male figure/love interest in each lifetime.

Some clues from the PLR on why Allie does not let too many people get close to her in the present life, emotionally and mentally, especially men.

The recording starts at the point of the first regressed life.

An FYI - At the point in the regression where Allie was naked with Vincent - it was not as you think, not for sex, but for skinny dipping while the kids were off playing. It wasn't explored in the regression (although Allie knew why at the time), but discussed afterwards.



MP3 File

Vincent Rambles #3

Allie rambles about Vincent and his connection to her past life regression and the weekend at the Maria Shaw Cosmic Convention.



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Vincent, Indy And Last Weekend!

Everyone take a deeeeeep breath. Come --- breathe in -- hold - breathe out....and repeat....breathe in.......breathe out. One more for good measure -- breathe in -- hold -- breathe out. Ahhhh...doesn't that feel better? No need to be wound up tight wondering what has happened to little ole me. I'm fine. Today I'm fine - yesterday - so-so and on Monday -- horrible. My son and I didn't get home Sunday night until 11:45 pm. By the time I got to bed - 1:30 am and I was up at 6:00 am. I was beat - worn out. Plus - as you know - incredibly sad about Indy. I didn't tell my son about Indy - and he bounced out of bed Monday morning saying - Indy's coming home - my Indy's coming home today.

I was crushed. But said nothing.

School came and went - I whisked him off to art class right after school. And then the moment I was dreading - I had to tell him about Indy's death. The look of shock, sadness and fear crossed his face so fast - I wasn't sure what he was going to do. But he was quiet - and asked how did Indy die. I told him his heart gave out. He sat there again and then said - how am I going to live my whole life without my Indy? I about lost it. So I explained to him how we will out live all the animals and that Indy will probably come back again as one of his dogs. He was angry, sad and hurt. But he did much better than I thought he would. For the last 2 days he'd mention Indy - and that he's dead - but then he hurry up and changes the subject.

Poor Brodie walks around like a dead soul. He just keeps looking for Indy. He gets excited for a moment - and then is depressed. Yesterday he just went outside to a spot on the drive where Indy like to lay - and laid down. He wouldn't come to me. I just stood there and cried.

The vet office called yesterday to see how we were doing - they also sent a nice card that everyone commented and signed. There wasn't anyone who meet Indy who didn't love him right away. He certainly will be missed.

Brodie was having a hard time breathing yesterday -- all I could think is oh please -- don't do this now. Today he seems a bit better - but the mucus is still there. We'll see.

Overall the conference was good. Friday I didn't work so much - so financially I did not do as good as I needed to do. But the OBE sex talk went well on Friday. Many people showed up to say hi and/or get a reading: Holly, Kendra, Carolyn, Monica, Ben, Jeff, Michelle and her mother, Kim and many others whose faces I know - but I can't place their names right now. I met many new people (yes Fran I do remember you) who I would like to keep in touch with -- plus met Samantha (who posts on this blog) - she's a wonderful person and got to see Terra again (again she's on this blog) which was wonderful - and yes T, I finished my Cheez-Its on the way home- very yummy thank you!

As always it was great to see Maria Shaw and Joe, Betty, Carol, Monica T, Donna, DK, Joanne, Lynn, Hazel and Vaughn (I probably spelled her name wrong - as usual).

Monica Davis made me a a gemstone bracelet - with intuitive chosen Reiki charged stones based on what I need (not what I want). She chose: coral, yellow jade, garnet, green aventurine and carnelian. As soon as she put it on my wrist tingled - is was like that for hours. Now when I put it on 1st in the morning the tingles on my wrist happen every time. If you'd like one for yourself - email me and I will send you her contact info.

I have so much Vincent stuff to ramble on about because of last weekend. So much so that I will have to do an audio of Vincent Rambles #3 instead of me typing it all out. He was right there all weekend long. But I wasn't the only one to feel it - others did as well. He zoned in during my kick ass past life regression from Tonya Douglas: http://www.healingaffectshypnosis.com/ it really was great. I went under with ease - I went back to several lifetimes. I have it on CD - I'm going to see if I can get it uploaded to here. Needless to say Vincent was not only in the regression - he was part of me during the regression.

Side Note: In regards to the message to Vincent from the front page of GA. It was up a month - it was time to come down. No - he didn't contact me, but I'm not worried in the slightest about him and I chatting. It'll happen -- sooner rather than later. We'll call it just a feeling I have (and no it's not gas).

But I'll tell you more about Vincent and the regression later - as well as the reading Joanne gave me that had him in it -- and boy was she shocked - lol.

The séance went well Saturday night. Mr. Skeptic himself - Joe - saw Indy running around the conference room. My grams came though as well as my ex father in law. It was difficult to do one with al of the people in there - but we gave it our best shot and it seemed to have work. I know as Maria was asking the candle flame questions about the spirits & the messages they had - that flame sure did dance when it was told to. And yes - Vincent came up here too.

My chat on the Maria Shaw show today -on Psychiconair.com was really odd. I was supposed to give tips (I think) for Matt and Sara - if they went out on a date -- how to make it more sexually dynamic (without sleeping together). But I couldn't hear anyone. It was like they had their mikes turned up to the max - I caught every 100th word or so. Who knows if what I said made sense with what they were talking about. I was on about 2:00 or so.

My emails are so completely out of control - who knows when I'll get caught up.

Okay - I need to go get my shower and go to bed - I am still wiped out. I will do Vincent Rambles #3 soon - either tomorrow or Friday.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Indy Update And PLR!

I'm getting ready to dash out of my hotel room this morning - I have 3 radio shows to make an appearance at before I go to the convention. Today is also my talk about OBE sex - good times to be had.

Thank you for the support and the light for Indy (pictured left). I talked to the vet yesterday twice. Indy made a very slight improvement Thursday - but nothing on Friday. He said that Indy will eat (as long as you spoon feed him) and is aware of his surroundings, but from the shoulders back he's rather a rag doll. I connected to Indy and asked if he was ready to move on - he said hell no. He expects me to go get him and take him home. Which I will do if I can give him quality of life. I need to see him on Monday morning. Please keep sending him the energy and light. My son is just beside himself with worry and Brodie is very depressed. Me - I'm still upset as well.

I had my past life regression last night. It went well. Vincent astral traveled to me as I was doing it and my body could not stop quaking the whole time. I'll have to tell you more later as it's time for me to get going.

Have a good day.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Vincent, His Energy And Wow!

It's Saturday morning and I'm off to Pittsburg for the 4:00 wedding. Thankfully even though my cousin Sam was brought up Catholic - this will not be a 4 hour ceremony:) My son is so excited to stay in a hotel. I personally can't wait to watch him dance - he's a big goof.

I must admit - I'm surprised at how many people have listened to my Vincent Rambles from the other day. There will be a part 2 coming up when I have some time. If you haven't noticed yet - I have a msg to Vincent on the front page of Gypsyadvice. It's rather a bold move I think - somewhere I must keep a set of balls. I have a 95% feel that he'll be back to this site - we'll see if he realizes that I'm talking about him. If not -- the powers that be will put us in the same place when the time is right. Damn having patience as one of my lessons in this lifetime.

Yesterday as I was trying to work I kept feeling Vincent's energy right here. Well, it was making it difficult to do what I had to get done - so I made a comment that I needed a little "off" time. Out of no where I feel Bill & Will's energy surround me like a big thick wall. Ted's energy was there too - but it wasn't nearly as secure as the other two. Any ways - so I feel the guys close ranks and at the same time I could feel Vincent's blood pressure go up -- and my chest had one of those pains. Vincent then proceeded to create an enormous surge of energy (it was @ucking massive) and burst through the wall. I heard him say - I don't think so.

I thought damn- I can't even create that much energy - yet. The things I could learn off of him. He definitely got my attention. But I told him that I really needs him to chill a bit. He withdrew a portion of the energy and said: just as long as you don't cut me off. I promised him I wouldn't. He kept his word - I did mine - and I was able to get some things done.

When I'm at Maria's Cosmic Convention the weekend before Halloween - I'm getting a 2 hr past life regression - when I get there on that Thursday. I'm psyched. I have so many things I want to cover. It would be so cool if Vincent was in the room with me -- so cool.

Speaking of cool - I colored my hair again (well, I didn't do it - that would be a disaster) - this time with more red than violet in it. Still looks very good.

Sunday night at 10:00 pm (EST) I'm going to be on WLIP AM-1050, which broadcasts through Milwaukee and into Northern Illinois. This is going to be a fun show. To find out more about it, go to: http://www.mothershipradio.com

And before I forget - The Maria Shaw show on Psychiconair.com is changing their time from 9 - noon to noon - 3:00.

I'd better go hop in the shower! Talk to you guys later!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Vincent, Andrew And Past Lives!

This morning I'm working on a few things when I can feel Andrew next to me. He's not saying anything - doing anything - just standing there. Vincent pops into my head. Okay - I'm going with it - I can see him smile, extend his hand - I grab it - his eyes twinkle. Then it hit me out of left field..

...Andrew is Vincent's guide too. The shiver that went up my spine from this revelation - wow.

That's why you're my guide --- because you're Vincent's? I asked Andrew.

His face turned very somber - his energy got very heavy all of a sudden. I owed it to the two of you - he replied.

Why - owed us for what? I said. You need to remember - Andrew shot back - just relax a minute and let me show you.

I'm in a past life - must of been in the 30's by the way I'm dressed. I look down at my feet -barefoot. My feet are dirty - I had on a dress. I looked at my reflection in the river and I must of been what - 5 or 6. I had short dark hair and big brown eyes. Out of no where this boy comes and tickles me. He's dirty - just like I am - shirt and trousers all dirty. He's about 10 or so. I look at him - and I know the eyes - it's Vincent. He gives me a piece of bread that he said he found. I ate it. He's tells me that see - he takes good care of me. There's a guy downstream fishing. Me and this boy walk up to him and the boy talks to him. The man says if we hunt for worms for him - he will give us a fish for our troubles.

So that's what we did - we went hunting for worms. I saw something in the water - looked shiny and I reached over to grab it. But I fell in. I couldn't swim. The river is taking me downstream and the boy (Vincent) sees me in the water and jumps in to save me - without even thinking that he can't swim either. He reached me - but we both drowned - looking at one another.

The man fishing was Andrew. He says had he just given us the fish I wouldn't have been searching for worms. Andrew goes on to tell me that Vincent took care of me since I was 3 - our parents were dead - we lived on the streets. And he did take care of me - until the end. I was right - this was the early 30's.

We came right back - born to different parents in different parts of Europe. But we had one thing in common - we were gypsies. Andrew was our guide then - tried to help us make smart choices - but he was green at the job and didn't get through to us. We both ended up with Dr. Mengele. I tell Andrew that I see myself as an adult there - not as a child - and my son was my child. So how could I be a kid? And Ted was a guard - and my friend. Andrew tells me not to force things to come into focus.

I ask him then to show me -- and he says no - not this time. Vincent, myself and my son (in this lifetime) ended up in the gas chamber.

So in this life it was agreed upon that we would not meet until much later in life - when we could already take care of ourselves. Although we did almost meet as kids in FL. We were moving toward one another when something happened to take our attention away from what we were doing. Andrew said we weren't supposed to meet - that would have thrown everything off. But it's the eyes that neither one of you have been able to forget - you caught each other's eye and there was something familiar about it.

When you two meet in this life - it'll be instant - Andrew said. It'll be as intense as when you met Will - or Bill -- but this time it will also release a wave of calm - over both of you. Neither of you will be able to explain it -- but there is a need to talk to one another. From that moment on - you two will be as inseparable as you can be based on your work schedules. So don't worry Allie - everything is already in motion - that's why I'm here.

I'm not worried - I tell Andrew - I just would like to know a bit more --- see more. I could feel Andrew smile - -this is a time of patience - you still have some work to do. Now as Andrew showed me about Vincent and I and talked to me - I felt a chunk break loose from my heart chakra and disappear. It was heavy there - then it was tingly and light. Very cool.

This new info about me, my son, Vincent and the holocaust makes sense on why working on the BT in tandem with the unlocking of Vincent would be too emotional for me. Now that I get it -- I can deal with it much better. Which - BTW - my emotions reigned in on Sunday - so thank you for the emails I received.

In the span of 24 hours - a praying mantis said hi to me (I mean really said hi - I saw it, said something and it turned it's head to look at me - so cool), a dragonfly held steady in front of my face and a butterfly landed on my shoulder. All to let me know it's a time of patience, transformation and change for the better.

Don't forget to keep voting for me in the Start Up Nation contest: http://www.startupnation.com/homebased100/contestant/1529/index.php I wouldn't mind being "hot" :)

I have a lot on my plate today - I'd better get going!

Crystal Sunshine!

Past Lives, Emotions And No Where To Go!

I'm sitting here working on THE BLACK TRIANGLE -- and it's a tough go. The relationships between the characters are heartfelt - and I can feel their emotions as I type. I can feel the struggle, Jeta, the main character has trying to keep her girls alive in a concentration camp while she's falling in love with an SS officer. As a mom - I know the lengths I would go through to save my son from harm - there isn't anything I wouldn't do. Parents shouldn't outlive their kids. At the same time - Jeta is a woman who craves love and has that primal urge to survive. I get that too.

As I sit here and feel their EMOTIONS - it actually forces me to examine being psychic - and what I've discovered thus far. I'm not bitching that I have this gift - trust me - I know that I am blessed. But at the same time I want so bad to talk to someone about what I see - what I hear -- what I know and feel. I write things down - obviously - in this blog and in my journal. I try to pour things out, to empty it from my system. But it still lingers - waiting for me to have a face to face chat with any of the guys: Vincent, Will, Bill, Ted or George.

With every karmic and/or soul connection that I discover - I too then discover the feelings for the past associated with that soul. The good - the bad - it doesn't matter, what matters is that they are all there. I keep them bottled up - because, what in the hell am I going to do with them? But I get to a breaking point -- and I reached it again. The BT is an emotional story that takes all of my energy not to cry as I rewrite -- so I cannot use that energy to hold back the sea of emotions and past life memories.

I really don't have much more to say. I don't mean to sound bitchy - I guess I'm just frustrated. All this information & emotions and no where to direct it. I'll be able to patch it up - keep it bottled again -- but I'm telling you, I know I'm a leaky dam. I have to talk to one of them soon or go up to Glacier National Park and just keep screaming until my voice is gone - and I'm too pooped to give a damn.

My soul is stil rested after this last puzzle piece with Vincent. It just really needs to talk - and have someone listen.

Thanks for letting me vent -- back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Will, Bob And NYC!

For the last several weeks I've looked forward to watching "Burn After Reading" today. But did I? No. SIGH. My stupid movie theater doesn't have any afternoons shows when then kids are in school. Blah. Don't they think adults actually watch movies too? So now I have to wait until some evening when my ex has my son for more than an hour or two. I could do tomorrow - but I'm meeting an old high school friend for dinner. And before you ask yes - the friend is male. He happens to be a firefighter out in WY. Actually - he's a Fire Chief in WY. No - there isn't anything romantic here -- that's why we've been friends since we were 5. Besides - did I mention he lives in WY? I'm not moving there. Of course - he is trying to find a job in CA. Any ways - it will be nice to see him.

DREAMERS is a go with my manager and my manager's boss - and let me tell you, that man (as in the boss) is not an easy sell and he thought it was fantastic (give myself a pat on the back for that one). As Iris said - this will be the version that sells. Finger crossed! I brings me one step closer to Will!

I finished part one on Robert's list - I got the outline of the workshop complete:)

Now - remember Bob from a few days ago? He is making himself more known during the waking hours. His energy feels very protective - like a Knight protecting his Queen. In fact. I keep getting fast glimpse of me as a queen and he as my knight. But he was a knight who was very creative - very poetic and smart. He could read - and write marvelous poetry. My king was much older than me, a friend of my father's and I married him out of duty, to unite the two houses. He died protecting me from the enemies of my husbands. We were also lovers - as I can see him touching me very tender like. He had that twinkle in his eye when he looked at me.

So - Bob is here and no matter what I'm doing or working on - he pops up into my third eye. In this life - he is currently married for the 2nd time. He has a few children. The scene that keeps popping my my vision goes like this:

We're in Central Park. He and I are talking about life in general. About our wishes, dreams. I can tell by the way we interact that we've met like this many times. I tell him that he has to either make it work with his wife or let her go. It's not fair to either of them. And plus - I don't play second fiddle to anyone if I'm in a relationship. It doesn't matter how I feel about them. I have more respect for myself than that.

He looks at me, with a sidewise glance - so you do like me? Now don't take this out of context - I say. You just need to make it work - or leave because you want to leave. That's all I'm saying. So in order for you to get your head on straight - I don't think we should meet like this any more. I couldn't look him in the eyes - they looked -- wounded. Tears were hanging on - he struggled to keep his cool. Then - I hugged him. It was a long hug, nether one of us wanted to let go. I pulled away, and I had tears flowing down my face. He's like - you're crying -- you do care about me. I get pissed and start yelling at myself -- you had it under control - why did you hug him you idiot.

He wrapped his big ole arms around me - and it felt so snug and protective - like I was safe from the world. But I pushed away and told him good - bye.

I walked away - his eyes stared right through me. My legs felt like lead - it took everything I had to move forward and away from him.

Then the vision shifts -- I'm not sure how far after this happens.....a messenger comes to the studio and drops off an envelope for me. I open it up and it's a copy of Bob's divorce papers with a note - Meet me and Franks at 10:00 pm.

At 10:00 I walked into Franks - he was waiting for me.

Then it was over.

So being the person that I am - I looked up Franks in NYC and got this: http://www.frankrestaurant.com/ And this was it -- this was the place from my vision. I know I will certainly have to scope it out.

When I do meet Bob in person (and I know I will) - it's in that crowded room - I feel him staring at me - I immediately look right at him and when I do it's as if someone hit him in the stomach. He smiles - but I can tell there's that "what in the hell just happened" look.

Before I forget - I wrote about an OBE with Bob. I also asked Maria about him - I'll post the reading when I get it.

I got a new tarot deck today - The Wisdom of the Avalon. I drew cards for Will - Merlin & the High Priestess came up - I drew cards for Bob - The Grail Knight & The Bee. Both got the Spider card. So to make a long story short - I work on creative projects with both of them - with Will what I see will come to pass and with Merlin in the midst, everything will unfold as it should. With Bob - the bee brings good luck and the knight -- protection.

I have to work with this deck more - but what I see so far I like.

Damn -- just had an "ah-ha" moment. I was upset with Will becasue he pulled away. He was upset with me because I pulled away - and in his eyes I was "moving on". But it wasn't me or him that pulled away -- it was IRIS! She put a wall between us - it was the only way I would get DREAMERS done. Big fricken DUH ALLIE! See Will - I told you there's no reason to be mad at me.

Need to get to bed - I'm one tired pup!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

It's been 3 years already since I wrote my 1st blurb in Allie's Two Cents - and boy does time fly. What amazes me the most is all of the changes and growth that has occurred within me and because of it - around me - during this period of time.

In March 2005 I knew very little about me and my soul. I knew about Bill, some about Ted and that I was psychic. That's it. The world that has opened up to me since then has included Will, Matt, Peter, Larry, John, Elliot, Dan, Clive and more. I have met/worked with many of my guides: Robert, Jezell, Hanna, Ethan, Edward and Iris as well as ascended masters: Jesus & Merlin, Archangels Angels: Michael, Haniel, Gabriel, Jeremiel, Goddess: Brigit, Isis, Hathor and an elemental: Galadriel.

I've discovered many past lives: Atlantis, 1920's, Titanic, Joan of Arc, Cleopatra, Wild West, Witch Trials, Medieval England - with much more to follow - I'm sure. I also found my voice and my self confidence -- plus a bunch of new friends:)

Lastly - and equally if not more important - I've grown to a point where I like me and I like my life. I'm not exactly where I'd like to be - yet. But I'm grateful for what I have -- and I like it all.

Thank you all for joining me on this journey. I hope by sharing my experiences that I've been able to help you discover you and grow as a soul.

I look forward to finding out what the next 3 years bring!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Dreams And A Painful Past Life Memory!

Writer's block taken care of. It shook loose on Sat night and was gone on Sunday. I didn't get as far as I would of liked with the BLACK TRIANGLE - but getting anywhere was better than nowhere:) Progress - that's the theme of my week:)

My dreams this weekend were al over the board. Man - they were busy. Each morning I woke up more tired than when I went to bed -- and this morning -- hell, I have no idea what the purpose was for me to even go to bed. There was so much action that it was hard to grasp all of it. Saturday night, as I was going to bed - I heard Iris tell me that I needed to go to Will. That whatever would happen in this dream visit would shift his awareness another notch and get him one step closer to the "ah-ha" moment. So that's what I did -- as I fell asleep I felt myself walk down my path to my Dream Gate - thinking about Will as I walked. Next to me was Jezell - we chatted about the next step with Will and I. The next thing I know is I'm going through the Dream Gate and into a courtyard -- reminded me of a Southern Plantation courtyard. Will looked up at me and smiled. From that moment on everything moved in super speed - flashes of light, flying -- with he and I having sex in the air. After sex, I felt myself falling and I woke up with a start - stil in the midst of finshing sex. You know - the kind of start where you sit up in bed and gasp. I laid there for awhile. Jezell told me to go back to sleep and find Will again - things weren't complete yet. I can barely remember this visit with a beach and drinks inside coconut shells. Will was gone and I rounded the corner and Bill was there. But he didn't speak - just passed one another and did that "hello" nod.

Yesterday I could tell there was a shift in Will's awareness - but there's still room for more.

Then last night the dreams were again very busy. Will and I were on a train, in a plane - driving along a countryside. I have no idea where we were - but we come up on this mountain range and I tell him that I want to build there. Were at the foot of a mountain and we find land we want. The next thing I know our house is built and it is Will, myself, my son and a daughter dogs, cats, horses. But our house and the stable is built into the side of the mountain. It's really quite cool (look and feel wise) and goes very far back into the mountain with an indoor pool & spa. Back behind the home (the home has a back door inside of the cave) you can walk a about 1/4 mile and come across an indoor lake. The home is self-contained - we are off all grids.

He and I were next in rehearsals for our play. I'm petrified, he's as cool as a cucumber:) He's giving me tips on how not to die of stage fright - lol. We're also discussing that kids could be in the audience so some of the sex that is in this play will be alluded to. This play is ad lib -- although we have an outline to follow. It's just he and I with minimal props.

Cut to opening night - once I'm on stage it was if I was always there. Right before we went on I looked over at him and thought to myself - how can I be scared of anything as long as he's at my side? He'll never let me fall.

As I'm sitting here - it just felt like I stepped on something with my right foot - ouch!! I have shoes on and didn't step on a thing.

At the end of my dreams, I was at a restaurant (by myself) as I was going up to get seated - I saw Bill. He was there, behind me reading a newspaper. I made sure I said loud enough that it was just one for dinner:) The lady took me to a table that had people in it already. I'm like - I can't sit here. So I went over to the bar. This extremely good looking man shows up and sits next to me. I ordered a Guinness and I think he got a whiskey. I have no idea what we talked about - but we were both very flirty. I remember telling him that it felt good to flirt - and that I'm happy I remembered how. He told me anytime - just give him a call. The only problem is I have no idea what his name is. Ahh - still no name, but he's a baseball player. Dave Dietry -- it just came to me. It was my old classmate Dave from high school - the one I wrote about sometime ago about having a crush on him back then -- yadda, yadda. Ha! After all these years, I wonder why he is showing up now? It's not like he really knew I even existed back in school (he star athlete dating the head cheerleader - me -- in band). So I am really clueless here.

I have noticed that in March Bill shows up every night in my dreams. He just pops up - sometimes we speak, most times we don't. Could be because he's about 1 1/2 hours away from me. And no -- I'm going to drive out to see him. Wouldn't change a thing.

Now the reason I'm writing all of this before I go swimming this morning or before I even do the podcast is for this next little bit that Iris told me HAD TO be written down this morning and posted for Will to see. So here we go....

In the shower this morning I was mulling over the BLACK TRIANGLE. This shifted to Will and his upcoming breakthrough and how I felt when I had my breakthroughs -- especially with Bill, Ted and Will. Nothing took me for a loop as much as Bill as he was the 1st breakthrough -- but each one took some time to get adjusted to and actually believe that I wasn't crazy. Which got me back to Will and how was he going to feel when he finally had that breakthrough? Will he freak, will he be accepting, will he be curious to find out more?? As I pondered these points I was then shifted to thinking - what will be the catalyst for him? He should get a past life regression! That shifted me to the last PLR I had last Oct. The first image that popped into my head was he and I in jail cells - he getting tortured and me having to listen to it. I heard Iris tell me to go to the next one.

So what flashed was the last life Will and I were together - when he was getting burned at the stake. Iris goes -- push backwards. Jezell grabs me by my shoulder and yanks me backwards in time a few days. Will's agitated -- really mean and off sorts. I can tell by watching me that this was not the norm. He wouldn't talk to me - kept being so mean. I come in from gathering fruit it looked like when he flies off the handle at me., He's screaming that it's over that he hates me and that I have to go - NOW. He was very matter of fact - get out, get out, get out. He had a bunch of my stuff bundled up. We had always had an agreement that if one of us was done with the relationship - that we would honor that choice and leave. So completely broken hearted - and I mean completely - I left and went to a neighboring town.

I'm just sitting at this stone slab for a table when a woman comes in and asks if I had heard about Jeremy (this was Will's name in this life) and I said no. He's in the town and they are going to burn him at the stake for witchcraft. It hit me why he wanted me gone - I grab a cloak and run as if my life depended on it. As I just finished that part - I burst out in tears (here and now) I can't stop the tears.

I see myself running and crying and running - not stopping for anything until I get to a stream - I'm thirsty. I bend down to drink and I have a vision of what happened after I left. They came to get him, and on the floor was a woman dressed to be me, but with her face gone. He said that he killed me in a violent rage. An enormous amount of pain went through me and I ran and ran.

I'm in the center of town - it's night and he's in the middle of the pile of wood - tied to a pole. I ease my way through the crowd - hood up, eyes down so that no one will notice me. I stand in front - he knows I'm there and he finds me. Telepathically he's telling me over and over again that he's sorry -- and that he loves me. Over and over he says it -- don't you ever forget - ever how much I love you. I will find you again - I promise. I too echo his love and keep telling him how much I love him and that no matter when it is that we find one another - I will do whatever it takes.

He screaming - the fire is consuming him and I know not to cry because they will find out about me and all this will before nothing. Our eyes stay on one another until there is no more life in his eyes. I can see a white light float from his body and go up to the sky. His eyes -- I never forgot the eyes. Nor did he ever forget mine -- I just know it.

As I was going through this in the shower - I couldn't stop crying -- as I'm writing this - I can't stop crying.

On a separate note - I just got an email that Sylvia Browne is retiring from the lecture circuit. I was right. Thank's T for the email.

Now I have to go swimming or I'll never get there...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Why Do I Post?

I've noticed that I've had an rush of new onlookers to Allie's Two Cents and I have a feel that most people who are new to this blog - just don't get it. Why did I start writing Allie's Two Cents? Do I enjoy hanging out my personal life to the public? Not really -- in fact, I'm a very private person by nature and don't talk about myself unless asked -- then it's like pulling teeth to get me to talk. I don't like talking about myself and sticking it all out there for people to see and talk about - or criticize about. So why do I do it? So that people who have the experiences that I do know that they are not alone. That in this crazy mixed up world there are people out there having the same experiences -- but feel that they are alone in those experiences. If people who have the experiences like I do tell others what happens - and those people do not share in similar experiences - all of a sudden the person who is telling of their experiences are labeled as delusional, odd, crazy, disturbed or simply not "all there". That is why I tell what happens in my life - it's not to help me. What would help me is to keep my thoughts and experiences to myself -- I could just journal this stuff and be just fine. I do this to help other people who have similar experiences such as: psychic episodes, soul mates, soul circle, angels, guides, OBE, OBE sex, telepathic connections, spirits, Atlantis, past lives and magic.

Have I ever seen a shrink? Twice in my life after my 2 divorces. This last divorce (2007) I was at the shrink not even a month -I filled him in on life and my metaphysical experiences - and he said I was perfectly sane (something I already knew but it's nice to hear a pro say that). I don't do drugs - recreational or prescription -- I don't drink very often.

The people I blog about -- that are included in my experiences are all very private people, just as I am. My goal has never been to piss off, upset or alienanate the people I love - ever. Hence why not EVERYTHING is posted. Bill and Ted (for example) are fake names - to protect the identify of the true people. Will and Matt are real names for real people - and I have gotten their permission (mind you not in person, this would have been spiritual permission) to use their names. Everyone else is either a guide or a friend (real names are use) and all other in my soul circle - I use fake names as well. Oh - and Sawyer -- let's not forget Josh. His name is real (the Josh part) but he's my fantasy guy and I'm not shy about that -- I don't think the man objects to being a part of a woman's fantasy life:)

I would only come out and say someone's real full name only if I had permission - verbal permission - to do so - when it pertains to my soul circle.

No one could possible come in and read a page or so of the posting or concentrate on only one label (ex: Ted, Bill, Will, Soul Mates, Writing, Matt, etc..) and get my blog. If you really want to get this blog - and why I write what I do and the people who are in the blog - then you have to do some more reading.

And that's really all I have to say on the matter....

Hope you're having a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, Will And Psychic Parties!

I went outside my comfort zone last night - and I'm glad I did. Over the last couple of years I have done parties where I go to the party and do readings for the guests. But it's always been for friends - and obviously I knew people there before I showed up. Well last night I did a party for a woman that I had never met. I had a great time. Some were skeptical of having a "psychic" there - while others were cool or intrigued by it. I did meet a couple of people who listen to my podcast, which was cool. Oddly enough - after the party was over and there were just a few people left - Ethan wanted me to show them who Will is. I have no idea why - but I did anyways. I think that I may add to my web site a page on hiring me to do parties. Although I think it would be smart to bring someone with me if I feel it warrants it.

The Art Of Divination e-class starts today. There's still time to sign up if you're interested!

The Darin/Raisin saga seems to be working itself out -- ever so slowly. No one is trying to kill anyone and Darin is no longer hiding under the bed. BTW -- Darin here is the aggressor -- Raisin is just tickled to sleep on my bed.

The writing on DREAMERS is coming along. As well as the OBE sex book. I had been thinking about spending more time on Keen (or really I should say just time period) but my guides keep telling me to write. I keep reminding them that I have to pay the bills. They remind me that there will be enough money to do what I have to do -- just write and trust in what I am doing is what I'm supposed to be doing! SIGH.

I was thinking last night - I like my life. I mean I really like it. I think that it's the 1st time I've ever said that. Sure things can get tough - but that's a part of life. I'm at peace with myself and grateful for what I have - not always wishing to have what is out of my reach. Besides - the only drama in my life now is when I turn on LOST or CSI:) Plus - my son is really the only other drama I want:)

BTW - in case you didn't hear, Heath Ledger's death was ruled an accidental overdose - just as I thought. His state when he came to me after his death was a "oh shit" type of thing -- not that I'm sad and I wanted to die thing. I hope that his family can heal now.

Have you ever drank CoffeeMate without the coffee? You would have had to watch "10 Items of Less" to get that:)

Do any of you belong to Bebo? I just joined: http://www.bebo.com/AllieT28

A little bit ago, Edward stopped by to talk to me. He wanted to expand on the Atlantis reveal that came about with Will the other day. He showed me that despite what has been written about Atlantis, it was overseen by a counsel of 13 women - with one of those women being "in charge". Men wanted a bigger say in the dealings of Atlantis - one of the biggest voices was Will. He pushed to have 14 members with more men on the board - half female and half male. It would not happen. So a civil war erupted. Before things got out of hand - two things happened: the secrets were placed into the crystal skulls and the record of Atlantis was placed in the time capsule. Then - of course - things went out of hand. Ted sided with me and the women (as did many men) but Bill went with Will. Will was in charge of the "other side" and his magical abilities enabled him to have a firm control. When Atlantis faded from view - Will realized the severity of his errors. But by then it was too late. It was either push forward with the status quo or disappear. So he disappeared. The next person in charge put the hit out on me, Ted and the children. That next person in charge was my ex husband (as in the second, not the first). When Will learned what had happened, he vowed to spend eternity making it up to me and children as a whole. Then he killed himself.

This is why in the past life where he was burned at the stake (instead of me) he was keeping with his soul's promise -- and he still is in this lifetime. Although when I am to be by his side as he dies, I am to tell his soul that the debt has been repaid -- this way his soul can be at peace. It also explains the way my ex and I interacted with one another - and why his purpose with me was to give me a child. Heck- I could have been divorced 7 years ago!

Now it makes sense - to a point. But better than it was before.

Back to work I go!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Past Life Regression, Atlantis And Will!

I had a dream Monday night with my Grams P in it. I was at a house (it was my house, but it wasn't by house) and it was raining outside (as it was in the physical reality). I had a porch sale going on and I remembered everything was out there and it was raining. So I ran downstairs and as I got to my front door, it burst open and my mom, and youngest sister came in - sis had her newborn with her. In the midst of them was Grams P. It must of been the look on my face as she said - I know honey, I'm dead. She was holding my niece but my niece didn't see her. I wondered if anyone else wondered why a baby was suspended in mid air - but no one else came in the room. I started to tear up and tell Grams how much I missed her. She said she knew and that she's always around (then she said some choice words about my ex - lol). The reason that she stopped by to see me is that although she has only been in the spiritual realm a short time (6 years), it is very well known how much the heavens love me and they are proud of what I am doing. I am very well thought of and the Divine knows that I will get my job done here on Earth. Then she smiled and faded away - I woke up.

I thought that was great that Grams came to me with that message. Sometimes its tough for me to see if I'm making any differences in the world and even harder to envision how it is to come to pass - the big picture that I've seen about what I am to do. So the confirmation from her was great.

Just to note - I am beyond busy. So if you sent me an email and it's been over a month with no reply - resend. My inbox is a fricken nightmare.

BTW...found my psychic manger/agent:) Yay! We're going to streamline some things on the site. No worries - I will still do what I do - but the information won't be so overwhelming:) Our first stop is to revamp and then promote my presence on Keen. Then we'll move form there.

About Paris, France in May 2008 - I'm going there for fun. BUT - I am open to doing readings while I am there. I'll remind you to set up an appointment before I go if you want one. In Greece - I am working Maria Shaw's psychic cruise. So I will be doing readings on the ship.

Now yesterday I went and had my PLR done. It was wonderful! We're going to try to meet once a month with the next appointment on Nov 13th. I asked her to take me to lifetimes that were important to me know. And since Merlin was chatting in my ear on the way down, I should of guessed where my 1st stop would be: The year 1100. I arrived in a hut (which is what I called it, but I should have said cottage). To my left there was a stone fireplace, lit, with a pot of water getting ready to boil. I could smell freshly baked bread. At the table was me, my son, a woman who I think her name is Angie, Ted and Will. We were working on a magical experiment with levitation. There was a big bowl in the center of the table and we were adding or subtracting herbs to see how high or long a rock would float. I looked about outside the hut - way up in the sky and saw that I was in Scotland - left side of the country.

Next I was in 1697. I was in a dungeon or jail awaiting execution. Next to me - as Will - he to was awaiting a trial. They were beating the crap out of him to get him to confess to being a witch - which he wouldn't. Once I couldn't hear his screams any more, they came to me. I told them to do what they will. How we got there is a woman had an infection on her thigh - a pretty bad one. Against the advice of her husband (he wanted her to go to the doctor and have her leg removed) she came to Will and I and we healed her. This pissed off the husband - so we were turned in as witches. They got Will 1st and I ran. But someone who I thought was my friend, turned me in. They were taking us to the gallows when I walked out of this life.

The year 0 was interesting. Yep - said 0. I was at a place with 9 stone chairs in a circle and a fire pit in the center. To the right of me was a cave, but in front of the cave was a star portal. The portal was invisible to al but who was supposed to use it (I've had this place in past visions). Bill and Ted were there and we all jumped into it and was at earth in a blink of an eye. We were actually in Atlantis - 3500 BC was the date. I could tell it was the ending of Atlantis. But around me was these beautiful crystal pyramids. Inside each pyramid was a centralized crystal along with a crystal trough where water flowed through. In telling about the level of royalty I was, I decided to want to speed back through the portal and go back. But it was odd cause my voice shifted - got deeper and wiser sounding. Cindy asked about Atlantis and were is it now - is it here in earth. My response was no, it's not here on earth physically, but shifted into another dimension to keep it safe. When the time is right - it will shift back into the earth's physical reality. There were messages about how toxic the earth is and that the physical body is so temporary. And that Allie shouldn't worry so much about the time capsule (it was strange referring to me in the 3rd person) as it will resurface when it needs to. Cindy asked about my name and what I look like - the planet I come from. And I remember smiling and saying - look up at your night sky to Venus and then look diagonally up to your right. There we are. When pushed about a name - it was told that we've had enough information at that time. I think here my conscious mind was interfering as I was trying to logically figure everything it (duh Allie). So I'll have her take me deeper next time.

Next up 535 and I saw me as Joan of Arc. Only Joan was born until the 1400's, so I'm not sure how I could see me as Joan in that year - unless that person was to become Joan. Or I got the year wrong - don't know. But as soon as I stepped from the door - I smelled death. All over the place. Dead warriors - it was very disturbing. Flash forward to being in bed with the Bishop (Ted) with the Cleric (Bill) coming to get me and me escaping out the back. I still don't know....how 535 and Joan. Maybe I'll figure it out in the next session. Cindy asked how it was to be Joan - and I said it felt very heavy.

And that was it. The session was an hour long and I have it all in tape (thank goodness) - so obviously there is more there than what I put above. But I wanted to give you an overview. A more detailed account I'll put in the book. Very enlightening!

Now it did feel like I was channeling someone when I was in the 0 year. On the way down to Columbus, Merlin kept chattering to me that he wants me to be his channel and I keep saying no. I'm not comfortable with channeling. I wonder if the 0 person was Merlin? Humm.....HA -- I'm getting a gruff - NO - in my right ear from Merlin. That was funny.

You know what I just thought of? When I would write about Tracey before, I always called her Cindy (made up name) just in case she didn't want me to use her real name. And who is it that is doing my PLR's? Cindy (real name). Unreal.

I'd better get going on that podcast of mine!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Robert Bruce, PLR And Happy Birthday Bill!

I can't even begin to tell you how tired I am. Plus it really was a piss poor day. I should be in a rotten mood - especially since the Indians got hammered and it's raining. But surprising, I'm in a really good mood. Oh - and did I mention I'm getting sick (and so is my son)?

No - I haven't done the podcast yet. Probably not until tomorrow afternoon or maybe Wednesday - all depending.

There's so much I want to chat about - but let me try to tell you as much as I can in a short period of time so that I can go to bed.

1) I'm getting a past life regression tomorrow! I met the woman, Cindy, at the ULE. Something told us both to go to Ted Andrews booth - and we did. Now I'm going back down to the Columbus area tomorrow about 11:00 am in my appointment. I'm really excited to go. My hope is that I can go se her once or twice a month and draw out what we can about my past lives. This way I can document them in a book. My goal for Tues is to go to Atlantis and to go back to when I was a princess of the Star Gate. Very curious about both.

2) For those of you who have been here a while know how much I love Robert Bruce. He's a good guy, honest and can laugh at himself. Plus, his energy methods are top notch. Last weekend I went to his workshop and had a fabo time. Next year when he's in the Cleveland area he's going to have a workshop for kids - which I will take my son to - as well as certifying teachers to teach his energy method - I will be there for that. The venue in Hinckley was great, the people there were very nice and it was a very uplifting weekend. If you don't have his book "Energy Ways" you really should get it - no matter whose energy method you have learned in the past.

3) Happy birthday to Bill on Oct 20th! I didn't forget - even sung the man happy b-day -- but had no time to jot it down in the blog. Happy 49th Bill -- XXOO!

4) Ted -- he has been struggling to get through to me. I can feel him right there and then getting yanked back. It's the she devil. That evil woman - -God I wish he would just wake up and dump her ass. Even if he and I never speak a word to one another -- she is toxic to his soul. Yucky ka-ka-poo!

5) Back to Bill. He's right here -and then gets yanked away. I get tired of trying to connect with him so I pull back a bit and it is almost as if his energy arms reach out frantically and pull me back. He's overworked and very stressed right now. All he wants to do is to go off on his own and be creative.

6) May 2008 I'll be in Paris France - November 2008 - Venice Italy and Greece. I'm beyond psyched for both! More as both times get closer. But if you are in the UK or France -let me know and maybe we can chat while I'm there! For Venice and Greece -- I will be in Venice for a couple of days and then I hop a cruise ship for Greece. So if you can make it to Venice - let me know. We are also stopping at all of the Greek islands -- again, let me know:)

7) I may have found an agent for my metaphysical stuff. Ask and you shall receive:) We'll see.

8) I am also going to write a book on psychic scams - what they are - how to spot one and what to do. Along with actual happenings. So now I'm working on: OBE sex book, psychic scam book, past life book and my DREAMERS script. Although the only actual writing I'm getting done is on DREAMERS. I need two of me.

9) Speaking of which -- I have the email from fricken hell. If you have sent me something and it's been over a month - resend the email as it is way way lost. Everyone else hang in there.

And that's about it for now. I know I have more -- like Bill being in my dreams every darn night -- some he is in my dreams other times I am in his. Oh - and I am going to do an OBE sex board/community.

I need to go to bed......

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Universal Light Expo, Ted Andrews And My Gypsy Magic Books!

Wow - what a weekend! The Universal Light Expo in Columbus went great. The energy this year was at positive full tilt. My talk about Gypsy Magic went well - although I didn't talk about half the things I wanted to - yet I ended my talk early. Why? Because while there were several people in the class that were at a magical stage where they could handle more creative or advanced spell work - I also felt a stronger vibe that there were a few people in there that were just at the beginning stages and if I gave them too much information, that they would jump into something that they were not ready for -- and it would backfire. So I held back - considerably.

The book sales went well - many people who bought last years 2 books, bought this year the 2 new ones to round out the set. I was asked over and over about when is my next book is coming out - and what it will be on. I was very flattered that people wanted to know more. When I mentioned it'll be about OBE sex - that seemed to peek all of their interests. So I know with that book that I am on the right track.

A woman who was at my talk came up to me afterwards and asked who were the three men that kept dodging around me - and without giving it much thought I said it was Robert, Edward and Ethan - my guides. However, it just dawned on me that I was wrong. Yes, the guides were there - but that wasn't who she saw -- she saw Bill, Ted and Will. Ethan says had I paid attention I would have known that I was telling her the wrong names.

I've been getting a lot of flack lately from the guides - saying that I'm not paying attention. I would agree - to a point. I do pay attention, just not as much as they want me to. I have too much on my mind and on my plate. I will try to do better - because I can feel with the changes coming up in my life, I am going to have to listen in order to make the right moves.

A couple of stores approached me and want to carry my book as well as two separate people running two different events, invited me to be a part of their workshops.

Something else really great happened while I was there. The 1st metaphysical book I ever picked up was by Ted Andrews - Uncovering Your Past Lives. When I heard he was going to be at the expo, I brought my book to have him sign it. I kept putting it off, and putting it off - when I heard Edward tell me to go. So I did. I met him, he signed my book and as I was asking him about past lives -- who can I turn to help me -- etc...he replied for me to find a hypnotherapist that can do past lives -- I was about to say that has been a futile search, when this woman pops up and says "I do that"! Here her and Ted know each other - and her booth was on the other aisle - someone told her to "go see Ted" - she had no idea why. Ted's like - well this is cool - you two are here for each other.

She took me over to her booth so we could chat more - and I realized that her booth was the one I kept being stopped at all weekend long. Repeatedly I passed the booth and looked at her picture - no matter where I would go in that hall - I ended up there. But I knew it wasn't for a reading. I was floored when I realized it was her. So -- she's down around Columbus and I'm going for a past life regression on Oct 23rd:) I am sooooooo looking forward to it! My plan is to write a book about my sessions. We'll see how often I can afford to go with her --or if we can work out a deal where we work on the book together. I don't know which way it'll swing right now -- but I am so psyched. What time period do I want to go to 1st? Either Atlantis or Joan of Arc days. I'll let the universe direct me to what is more important for me to know right now. And move on from there.

I did get a reading over the weekend -- cause you know me - I can be a reading junkie:) Her name was Michelle and she used a really cool tarot deck that I forget what the name is. I 1st asked about Will - basically with Will she says that there is a very controlling woman around him and although it's a very destructive relationship, he feels some type of obligation to her. He and I will have a good business relationship and adopt a very close friendship - the odds of sex are high but a long-term romance is probably out of the question. Okay - she was right in line with what I already thought. Next up - career/money -- I have to focus more and develop a plan. Where do I want to go? How big do I want the business to grow? Thinking about it is great - but I have to write it down. If I take time to write screenplays - I have to remember to keep writing books in order to keep my name out there. Money out will be replaced by money in -- so no worries. Again - yep, in line with what I thought. Last up (this was a 15 min reading), I asked about Bill. Now I know asking someone about Bill or Ted without telling them their real names and a history on both is simply not fair. The energy is too intertwined. I asked about Bill - but used his real name - however, I didn't give any other information about him. What she picked up is that he is unmoving, and although he is growing leaps and bounds spirituality, he refuses to budge into the direction he is supposed to go. She saw lots of sex here - tons matter of fact (poor woman, it embarrassed her to tell me - I'm like hell ya), but as far as a relationship that is worthwhile and romantic - nope nadda. In fact, she sees me reaching a wall and to a point I finally say enough is enough and I pull back my energy. She only looks 12 - 18 months a head tops - so what lies beyond that she couldn't tell me. But seeing that I'm not supposed to settle down again until 2010 - 2012 -- her reading only takes me to the start of 2009. She couldn't help but smile -- told me that I was a very interesting read. Very nice woman -- I'm sure I'll go back to her next year.

I also adopted some really nice crystal spirits. Some of my favorites were from Gemworld, LTD (gemworld2@yahoo.com.br) who had fabo crystal pieces at reasonable prices from Brazil, that they mine and polish themselves. It's a definite that I will adopt from them again. I was bummed that my crystal skull I was looking at last year - and this year - was adopted out at the end of the weekend. I did have many chances to bring him home - but I couldn't see myself using 2 house payments to do so -- at least not yet.

I met a lot of great people and just had a blast this time around. I'm also going to ask the Expo people if I can talk about OBE sex next year.

I have met a great guy via MySpace (of all places), who knows all about me yet hasn't run away in fear yet:) I'll let you know if anything comes of it -- he's a nice guy so I hope at least friendship stays around. But let me tell you. the last three times I've dozed off - the OBE sex was intense.

I took a 3 hour nap today. I started this entry this morning and I had to nap -- just had to.

My son was so cute when I picked him up from my mom's last night. He drew me 2 pictures when we got home. One was a circle with the words: You are my love. And the second was another circle that he said was a postcard and it said: I had good days with you mom. I just love that little guy....

And I'd better get to work....

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Emerald, Citrine And Iolite, Plus Bill And Ted!

Over the weekend Edward kept bothering me about changing my 3 stone pendant. In fact, he's been after me about it ever since he came back on to the scene. But I haven't --- too busy. Well, he wasn't going to take that as an excuse any more and really turned up the volume on Sunday. So I said - fine-- what stones do you want me to use? His response - pick out the ones that call to you. Then sit down and see which ones fit into the existing wrap without much trouble.

I did just that, bring back a nice handful of stone spirits. The ones that fit inside the pendant without much trouble were emerald, citrine & iolite.

Emerald - my birth stone. It enhances memory and stimulates the use of a greater mental capacity. It beings for the choice of "right" action and that action being the only one available. It's helps to quiet the emotions and to bring harmony to life. It can help to spur one to activity and to facilitate intensity and focus ones actions. It will eliminate negativity from ones life and bring for the positive actions required to remain centered and focused on ones lifework. It can bring awareness of the unknown (past, present and future) to conscious recognition, helping to access the laws of order within the universe and to eliminate that which impedes progress. It can bring recognition to one. It opens up the heart chakra and attracts love.

Citrine - this wonderful stone does not hold and accumulate negative energy (like an amethyst), but dissipates and transmutes it, working out the problems on both the physical and subtle levels. It's a "merchant stone", and having one in the cash box, or one in the work environment it produces more income for the merchant - not only bringing wealth in, but maintaining the wealth. It also balances the yin-yang energy and aligns the chakras with the ethereal place. It brings forth creativity, personal power and physical energy. It stimulates both mental focus and endurance. It brings forth the intuitive self and promotes contact with the higher forces of intelligence.

Iolite - It's used in the third eye area for healing, meditation and astral travel. Helps one towards spiritual growth and enhanced visualization techniques. When in contact with the auric field it strengthens and aligns the field with the subtle bodies. It stimulates visions and can influence spirits. Helps to release discord form ones life. It enables one to enjoy each moment and to awaken inner knowledge which has been waiting to be accessed. It is also acts as a compass, helping one have knowledge of directions and directional forces. It can help with the elimination of debts and also can help one accept responsibility to the self.

Interesting combo - don't you think? Especially since I'd been trying to get rid of the negativity (ex husband residue), make more money, dig into my creativity, get focused and ferret out the mysteries of my past lives.

When I put the pendant on -- I kid you not, I walked sideways. I had the hardest time walking in a straight line for several minutes and felt very light headed. It was the stones taking care of my chakras and my energy field. After a few moments I was fine.

The last couple of night Bill and Ted (at the same time) have been in my dreams. Ted is usually being an ass while Bill is somewhat aloof - although not as bad as before - with him asking me 20 questions about my life, what I know about him and I -- etc... Although last night Ted was around for awhile and then Bill and I cut to a nice dream sex visit. I'm curious to see what happens tonight.

My email is out of control - seriously out of control. I must have 500 emails that need my attention. I need 2 of me.

I have a killer headache tonight and my son is coming down with something. I hope it's nothing serious since I'm leaving for MI on Thurs:) I'm looking forward to the conference and getting to teach 2 classes.

Thus far the places I have contacted to help me with my past life research -- nadda -- haven't heard a peep. I find it hard to believe that I cannot find anyone who wants to do this with me. I guess when the time is right, they'll arrive.

Better go get a bit more done before I do my L Word chat:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

Ted, Dunshine Castle And Telepathic Sex!

Ted, Ted, Ted -- God bless this man. I have been so closed off to energies these last few weeks that I failed to notice that I really missed Ted. I mean I miss all three guys - Ted, Bill and Will - but Ted -- it's so hard to explain with him -- so I won't. But because of my energy opening experience with Tom the other night, Ted was able to finally reach me, and it felt good. Felt great actually -- like a tall cool glass of sweet tea on a hot august day. Refreshing, invigorating - satisfying.

The dream visit last night had us at Dunshire Castle. I remember candles, a fire and a bottle of red wine. Ted told me how much I needed to relax and that I have to open myself up more, that being so closed off is not only dimming my light - but his as well. He asked if I had spoken to Tracey lately and I said briefly last week. He said - I took control of the airplane and I know where I'm headed now. It's a non-stop flight. Then he smiled at me and those green eyes twinkled. I knew what was he talking about as Tracey had told me a few months earlier that she kept having a dream with Ted in it where they were on a plane - she was flying it - and Ted said there was no need for him to do anything as she and I were doing all the work. So the fact that he has taken control of the "plane" is a big step for him.

I knew he was gunning straight for me and for the first time in years I genuinely smiled a big smile.

Then I heard an alarm go off and I woke up. But I didn't have to get out of bed for another 2 hours so I laid there and tried to get back to sleep to finish seeing Ted. No such luck. That's when the telepathic connection kicked in and I heard him say that he wasn't done with me yet. I couldn't help but smile at that. Telepathic sex can be like an intense day dream or should I say an intense day dream intermingles with telepathic sex. I could feel his breath on my neck, feel his hands grab my body and hold me tight. His lips brush gently against my cheek causing the hair to stand up on my arms and my body to go weak. His touch was like heaven on earth. But it wasn't going where I thought it would - instead he said he had to show me something.

We are standing off to the side watching us. It looks to be that I'm in London, trying to figure out how to ride the Tube when I see Ted standing there. I know who he is and I try to casually ask him directions on what I'm supposed to do - what to take where in order to get to my biz partner's house. I told my partner that I didn't need his help to do this - but I find that I'm lost. Ted gives good instructions and then adds - I'm going that way, why don't I just drop you off? I told him only if he would let me buy him a pint at the pub later. He agreed. We discuss what I do for a living and he seems intrigued. He drops me off at my destination and asks me if I would like to see a football game tonight. I say sure.

We go to the game and have a wonderful time. We go and have a few pints - still having fun. No matter what I do or what I'm saying he doesn't take his eyes off of me. It's exhilarating and unsettling all at once. I ask him to take me someplace haunted. He doesn't want to. So I call him a chicken. He agrees to take me. Not sure where we're at - but it's the UK - there's bound to be a lot of haunted places. We looking around in the dark and I could feel a coldness that had my hair stand on ends. I ran and left him in the dust - he ran after me. We got a kick out of it and he took me back to my partner's house which is where I was staying. He told me he wanted to see me again and I agreed.

The next thing I know we are out again, not sure where - but outside. He finally kisses me and I had a hard time standing with my legs wanting to buckle. He gave me a look - one that I've never seen in this lifetime -- all I can say is that it was full of love and devotion -- and he asked me if I believed in love at first sight. I told him yes. He asked how many times has it happened to me. I said - once. And him? Yes - once he said. I asked how it turned out. He replied - I don't know I'm still working on it:)

We're at Dunshine Castle again. We are both excited to be here - we're discussing past lives - etc....and we go up to the top. We are looking at the sunset and it was fabo. I turned to say something to him and he's down on one knee. He asked me if he could devote his life to loving me and if I would do the honor of being his wife? He opened up a box and inside was a marvelous diamond and emerald ring that he designed. I of course said - yes.

Then Ted looked at me (the Ted and I that were watching "us") and said - see what we have to look forward to? Then he kissed me with such passion and there was such energy from all of our chakra's merging that it was a climatic explosion - and I mean that literally. I fell back to sleep relaxed and with a grin on my face.

I love mornings like this!

BTW....I have a favor to ask of you guys. I need for you to be my psychic pimp:) With this serious life change I'm going though I'm going to need some serious cash and I'm not too proud to ask for it. So if you could pass my name and web site out to your family and friends I would appreciate it. Pimp me out -- I don't mind working for a living:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Nefertiti,Bill And Dimming The Light!

As I was falling asleep last night, I was walking along my dream path, with the goddess Brigit, towards my dream portal/work area. I asked her if she would take me to the one I would marry someday in this lifetime. I know that I will be married again - at some point in time - but it is not necessarily a marriage on paper. I wanted to visit Ted this night as it was his birthday and I asked to be taken to Will and to Bill. She agreed. She then told me was the one that I remember the visit with when I awaken will be the one I am married to, but to remember that marriage can mean a spiritual/physical union and not a legal/physical union. I told her I understood.

Right before we were to part ways, she asked me something -- Why do you dim your light? My reply was that I didn't know that I had. She said -- Do you believe in your heart that you were Joan of Arc? I nod. Do you believe in your heart that you were Cleopatra? I didn't react. Why can you believe you were one great woman and not the other? Why do you not see that you have been an influential woman during most of your time on earth? Why do you not understand how influential you are in this life time? Because it just sounds far fetched, even to me. Look to Nefertiti for her life holds answers to your life now. And with that Brigit was gone and I entered the dream portal.

I kept waking up last night after visits from Ted. I knew Ted was there -- but I couldn't remember what happened at all. I don't remember Will at all last night. But Bill -- him I remember and I also remember part of the visit. We were with a lot of people at a party (seems to be a recurring theme with us). He was sitting against a wall watching everyone. I sat down next to him and asked how he was doing. He shrugged -not bad. I had on a nice blouse, a jacket, slacks and panty hose (I remember this really well as I never dress up). I slid off my shoes, hoping that my feet didn't stink to bad:) I placed both of my legs on Bill's lap. He took my left foot and started to massage it. Now that felt great! I had a large white purse/shoulder bag -- init my cell phone started to ring. I had to take my legs off of Bill to rummage through the bag - -and I had clothes in it - to find the phone. I answered it and it was Ted -- wanting to know if I saw Bill. When I told Ted that Bill was right here and I told Bill that it was Ted on the phone -- I woke up.

So I guess I had the answer to my question -- Bill. But then again at the end, I remember Ted being there although it was via the phone. Seems like I can never get a straight answer when it comes to these two!

Interesting about Brigit's referral to me dimming my own light. I hadn't thought of it in that manner, but she's right. I think that it is interesting that she mentioned Nefertiti, one of the Egyptian Queens: http://www.pbs.org/empires/egypt/newkingdom/nefertiti.html who knows where this is going to take me once I start to explore!

Off to get a move on -- big load of work today!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie;)

Atlantis, Ted, A Circle And A Triangle!

I woke up this morning to feel Ted's breath on my face. It was shocking and comforting at the same time. I always wonder how that can be -- how can I bring someone from my dreams into the reality plane or are my dreams actually the reality plane and what I think is reality is actually my dreams? Or could it be that Ted exists on the dream plane and in the reality plane simultaneously? Many have a theory that there is no past-present-future...only NOW...with all three happening at once on different planes of existence. This got me to thinking -- what if I am involved with Ted, Bill and Will on three different planes and I have tapped into my eternal energy -- and now since I am aware of it, that I am consciously aware of the feeling and emotions associated wit those three lifetimes as well as this lifetime and this is why sometimes the day-to-day living can be so damn difficult? It can be hard to live with the emotions and feelings of people who are not physically in your current life. I used to think it was a burden, carrying that all around. But now I realize it is a gift -- it is a blessing to know that no matter what -- I am never really alone...none of us are. And that is a definite blessing.

To be honest, I'm not entirely sure what happened to have Ted make this shift back into my energy field. Well, I shouldn't say back....he is always there and the connection is one that is solid, strong and does not waver (just as with Bill and Will) - but it takes a lot of conscious energy to transmit enough signal to be forefront in a person's mind. It's not an easy thing to do and it does take considerable effort. Not that the connection itself is effort - but to push forth so much of one's own energy in order to get another person's energy to react. It's draining and that is why it is always important that when you are in a relationship with another person that you keep being separate people as well as working/living in unison. To put forth that kind of effort to be that connect to another being drains you so much that a person can be susceptible to a range of illnesses. So if a connection like this is something that you want to push - make sure it is done in small doses. And it is good to note that if the person who is receiving all your energy does not know how to channel it properly (this is something that I am still working on -- not easy at all) then the extra energy can clog their mind to such an extent that they feel powerless to do anything but sit there and think about you.

I want to do a quick session before I start my day. I am immediately whisked away to the bottom of what appears to be a pyramid. Bill, Ted and I are in a small room. I can see symbols of flowing water, the sun, a triangle, two men and one woman with the woman out front - servants or just people are on their knees in front of her. I can also see 3 dots and the all-seeing eye. It's fuzzy, but I make out the woman from a previous scene with something in her hand and is putting it over a fire - the object turns to steam and then I see the two men holding a vial of something. We are looking at the symbols and Bill pulls out a leather book. On the front it has a triangle with a circle inside of it and on the back it's reversed - the circle with the triangle inside of it. He opens the book and we're talking about what we think the symbols mean - they deal with Atlantis. On the next wall we can see a symbol of a chest, there are rolls and stones/crystals from what I can make out sticking out from it. The three people are there again placing a lid on it. The box floats in the center of them and in the next scene it is just the three of them alone. Ted says something and we look at the other wall - this is when we realize that the chamber we are in is shaped like a triangle with three walls and a pointed roof. Ted is commenting on the symbols around the door of dead bodies, a war scene when we heard a snap - like one of us stepped on something and the door shut. We look down at our feet and it appears that all three of us are standing on three separate pressure points. Of course the door will not go up.

We discussed briefly on what would have happened if just one or two of us stood on the pressure points without the third. But we couldn't tell if anything would come from the walls. So we sat there and I comment -- where's Indiana Jones when you need him? I got a small chuckle from that. The guys are looking around to see how we could get out...when I look at the floor. There is a triangle with 3 dots on it. I look at the room, back down at the floor and notice that the 3 dots are positioned at the same local as the corners of the room. I tell the guys to come here and each stand on a dot. We hold hands....that is when I notice that we have created a triangle within the circle on the floor and if you take the whole room into account...the circle is within a triangle. So since the triangle within the circle appeared on the back of the book that Bill has, it reasoned with me that this was the way for us to get out.

We sit on the ground, hand in hand. And I relate that the people on the walls must be us -- well "us" but the essence of us in the Atlantis life. Our souls hid the Records Of Atlantis and only our souls can get it back -- thereby getting us out of this room. We knew that we had to tap into the inner us for the answers - our souls had the key, not our human minds/body. So that's what we did, let our minds go and traveled within. I have no clue what happened next besides a bright light and the door opened. But when we went to look out the door we were no longer in the pyramid - but it was all white. Before any of us could go through the door to see what lay beyond, the session was terminated.

How interesting. I had been seeing a triangle in a circle and a circle in a triangle now for several days and last night I kept drawing the symbols, it was like a sudden obsession to write them everywhere. Now I know why.

Time to get back to work!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Ted, Dreams And Change!

Okay, to keep my sense of humor today in the midst of a God awful pile of work, I sung Barry Manilow songs all day -- and lost my voice. Yep, that's right -- the Manilow made me lose my voice. My two favorites today - Daybreak and I Can't Smile Without You. With those two songs I'd actually get up and dance like I was on stage. America's Funniest Home Videos would have had a field day with me! So if I had so much work and the odds of me being tired are high -- why aren't I in bed? Cause it's LOST night silly -- that's why. The only time I would miss my man Sawyer is if I wasn't home or dead. And I guess if I'm dead I'm not home -- right?

But all in all I have been in a great mood today -- despite losing the voice, the work and the temperature changing from 75 yesterday to 20 today. I've got that feeling -- you know the one -- that feeling that something else just fell into place and that something is going to change because of it? It's right there -- just on the outskirts of my life -- just waiting for that moment when it can step in and change my life. I can feel it's energy - it's excitement to shift my life in a new direction. I for one told it to come on -- I'm ready!

I had that feeling today that Ted had stopped by the blog. Maybe not today or yesterday -- but it was recent. He knows he's Ted and that shit-ass grin of his is plastered on his face. Although he's not entirely sure how to approach me. Could this be the change I'm sensing -- that change that is waiting in life's wings? I honestly don't know -- but I hope that he's at least part of it. But in the mean time he is still in my dream visits.

Last night he wanted me to go to London with him. We were in, I think NYC. I asked why....he said he had something to show me. We arrive at a castle -- I know from past visions and such that this is Dunshine Castle. We walk inside and it is as it's always -- dirty and hasn't been used in forever. He announces that he wants me to move to London and that he'll buy this castle for us to live in. I replied that I have animals and a son and I can't just pick them up and move them over the pond to live in an old, drafty castle. He replied - aye - I had thought of that. He proceeds to tell me that he has plans on updating the castle and getting it in livable condition. I asked how -- this has to be more money than you have....it's too much. He shakes his head and said -- I sold me club. I knew what he meant -- and it shocked the hell out of me. I opened my mouth to protest -- and he said he'd do anything in the world for me. Then -- that kiss. Damn him -- even as I woke up my knees were weak! I could still feel his lips pressed to mine. Oh how I wanted to go back.....but no such luck...it was time to get up. But that kiss set me off on the right foot - that's for sure:)

So Ted's birthday is coming up and I sent him a present. I know he'll like it....call it an intuitional feel if you will:) But more important than that is that he will "get" it -- he will know why I sent what I sent. God I love it when a plan comes together!

There was something else in my dreams last night that I think are worth writing down. I'm in a class room full of kids. A good chunk of them are from the movie "Remember The Titans" especially Gerry Bertier (not the actual Gerry, but the actor playing Gerry - but playing Gerry) -- behind me was the principal which I didn't see, but that I think it was Will. Gerry wanted his pencil sharpened -- so I sharpened it with a manual pencil sharpener (you know the kind they have at schools or had on the wall near the door or chalk board). I made a comment about the point and he yanked it from my hands. Before I could say anything, the principal (which I think was Will) started to say something to him. I next remember looking at this bag of candy this girl had -- it was unusual and two of the hard candies were a light blue and a violet. It was commented that she was handing them out to the Hollywood stars as they drove by and usually they just pitch what people give them. But when they tried the candy they were hooked. It was homemade and simply delicious. I remember rthe light blue had a tropical flavor to it -- maybe pina colda. Next I was in an elevator with three other women. As the white elevator with a triangle top climbed - it liked to swing side to side -- so we had to hold on. Very odd.

Off to get ready for LOST -- have a great night!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)