We had a good chunk of snow fall here in Wooster over the last 24 hours. I was able to get 1/2 my drive done before my back started to kill me. It wouldn't of been so bad if the snow wasn't so heavy from the freezing rain that fell in between snow blasts. I hurt - all over. I need a guy to massage me - oh yes I do.
An update on my son:
Good news: no cancer, no fluid, no nothing. The spot on his skull is on the brain side of the skull bone and not the hair side. This means it's a "dent" and not life threatening - he will not need to get anything biopsy or reconstructed. So this made up happy - obviously.
Bad news: he may have an aneurism. The MRI showed one blood vessel way too big, while the one next to it is barely visible. This could be because of an aneurism or because he moved during the MRI (I'll put my money on squiggly butt moving). So - with the MRI they also have a MRA scheduled. This means he will be sedated and they will use dye to look at his blood vessels (MRA) and him being asleep will help get a clearer MRI. This is on Feb 9th at 9:40 am in Cleveland at the Cleveland Clinic. I have to find Building L - wherever the hell that is.
Needless to say - now that there are needles involved - he's terrified. And man is he pissed. Because of this -- his acting out is a bit more than the norm. When I dropped him off on Tuesday, I warned his teacher. Sure enough - the kid landed on blue (green being the best, yellow is a warning, blue you're in trouble and red is a trip to the principals office). And he's been a handful here at home.
Surprisingly - the ex said he's come up to Cleveland with us on the 9th. Good for the kid - it will make him happy. My 1st thought was - oh crap - all day with him? What are we going to talk about? Chatting about our son can only go so far. SIGH.
Tom Cruise - he showed up again in my dream. We're friends or something like that - or so it seemed. I can remember rolling over, waking up for a spilt second and saying to myself - well, it's on to Tom. I fell back to sleep and there he was. He greeted me in a swimming pool. We hugged - chatted a bit. We were working together on some sort of project. I can remember me telling someone that he is the nicest guy on the set. The next thing I know - we're in the pool again - he grabbed me and tossed me up into the air. I'm talking I went up in the clouds. On the way down I thought - this is going to hurt when I hit the water. But when I did - it was soft. I went to the bottom of the pool - and it was down 1/2 mile or so (deep pool). When I hit bottom I remember thinking that I forgot to take a breath in when I hit the water - and I wondered if I would make it to the top without drowning. That's when it hit me that I'm in a dream - so of course I could make it to the top. As I was swimming up - I saw that there were hundreds of people at the bottom of this pool trying to swim up. I hit top water - swam to the side and Tom was sitting there. He said - I may be nice, but I'm the boss. He then got up - went into a house and closed the door. I sat there thinking - WTF? Now what did I get myself into? LOL.
Now there's Paul. I know somewhere on this site I had talked about a Paul. But this Paul and that Paul are 2 different men. This Paul - Paul is his real name. The other Paul was a made up name and frankly - I can't remember who that was. At least not right now. This particular Paul is 28 years older than me. Like energies do before they come forward - they hang around - lingering. And I usually can't place why they're there. But Paul really showed up when I was writing that last script. From his energy - I have gathered he is kind, generous, defends people, places and animals that can't defend themselves, he's worldly but down home. He's as comfortable in a neighborhood bar as he would be in one of the finest NYC restaurants. He's helpful, friendly and devoted. He also has a hell of a temper and is stuck in his ways (but really - who isn't). Paul's creative, passionate, patient and multi-lingual. Since he turns 70 this year, I hope we have a chance to meet in person. I have no idea what the connection is - but it's certainly there. I must admit though - I'm intrigued.
I did an horoscope relationship report - just to see:
Sun in the Eighth HouseComposite Sun in the eighth house may give the two of you a feeling of "fatedness," that this relationship is going to play an important role in your lives, even if it is not a long-term relationship.
You will be exposed to the most basic and profound aspects of your own and your partner's inner nature. Both of you will experience psychological changes through this relationship.
In a sexual relationship, physical sex assumes an unusual importance. Sex is likely to be seen by both of you as an experience that transcends ordinary reality.
The eighth house is also the house of joint resources and property. This position can give the two of you a strong drive to acquire material possessions. Here again it is necessary not to overdo this emphasis. Emotional needs are actually more important than possessions.
Sun Conjunct VenusThe conjunction of Sun and Venus in the composite chart is one of the strongest indications of a love relationship between two people, even in a friendship. It does not primarily indicate a sexual relationship; instead it signifies love, pure and simple. The attraction indicated by this aspect is so powerful that it can bring together people who are incompatible by ordinary criteria.
If the relationship is laden with conflicts, even a strong feeling of love between you may turn to hatred. In most cases, however, this will be a very fine personal relationship.
Moon in the Sixth HouseThe sixth house is a rather serious placement for the composite Moon. It suggests that you have a sense of having come together for a specific and necessary task or purpose that may not be completely pleasant. One of you may feel subordinated to the other in some way. Therefore, this is a difficult placement for any relationship that requires you to give and take equally, as most relationships do.
The only way to make this position work is for the two of you to exchange services equally, thus preventing it from becoming a one-way affair.
A related danger is that if one of you is giving more to the relationship emotionally than the other, you could become quite resentful about it.
Whatever the costs, you both must strive to be more nearly equal in giving and receiving.
Moon Opposition PlutoThe opposition of composite Moon and Pluto is an aspect of extreme emotional intensity, calling forth great involvement and strong feelings.
If improperly handled, this combination can give rise to extreme jealousy, struggles for dominance, and excessive possessiveness. As a result, one of you may completely strangle the other's individuality, or at least attempt to do so. If this occurs, the one being dominated will find it very hard to deal with, because the tactics used to dominate will be subversive rather than direct.
The power of this aspect can lead to emotional violence, which could destroy the relationship and leave much bad feeling in its wake. If you are tempted to use these tactics, don't. Be as straightforward and direct as possible. The results will probably be better than you imagine, and at least they will be less destructive.
If you are the victim of such methods by your friend or partner, be direct and call your friend's bluff. Don't allow yourself to be the victim of any kind of emotional blackmail.
Venus in the Eighth HouseComposite Venus in the eighth house indicates emotional intensity concerning love.
In a love relationship, the expression of love will be quite intense, with a powerful quality that will transform both of you in some fundamental way. Your love will not be light and gay but something very serious that involves both of you at all levels of mind, body, and soul.
On quite a different level, the eighth house can also refer to joint finances and property. Venus promises material prosperity with this relationship.
Makes me wonder.....one thing I know he's not though - is a father figure. The energy is supporting, loving and giving - but not in a parent-like tone.
Gossip through the grape vine says that Maria Shaw won't be back in Psychiconair.com - due do the fact they won't bring back Joe & Matt. Poo.
And on this note - it's shower time. Before I know it I'll be up and it'll be more snow shoveling....
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)
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