Ted, Soul Circle And Playgirl!

I get really edgy if I do not have a chance to do a session after awhile -- and that edginess is here. So I've put some things on the back burner for the next 20 min or so and I'm going to dive right in.

I immediately arrive in a vastness of white light. Everywhere I look that is all I can see. The white is wavy, almost as if it were a huge Moonstone I stepped into. I hear something off to my right and look -- it's Ted! With a twinkle in those fabo green eyes, he flashes me that drop dead smile and even here I can feel my knees go weak. I give him a big hug and tell him that it's been awhile since I've seen him. He knows, but it hasn't been from a lack of him trying, he just couldn't get to me.

I wonder why, I ask, I wonder why there was a block? Ted shrugs and answers, I'm not sure, but when you asked Tracey about me is when the door opened for me to reach you again. Ted scowls....It could be that you have been too wrapped up in Will?

I sigh -- I haven't been too wrapped up in anyone but work. Will's there - he is always there and he's not demanding like two other people I know.

Ted grumbles something under his breath that I have no idea what it is -- but my guess is that it wasn't very nice.

Do you know Will?

Ted shakes his head -- no.

Hummm....maybe I am supposed to meet him first and become friends with him on the physical plane. And then since you and Bill are friends -- me and Will will be friends -- and the 4 of us will then meet.

Ted thinks about this for a bit. He says -- do you think he is one of us...that he's in our inner group?

I've actually been thinking about this -- I think that he is. I had thought it was Larry -- but now with Will I know I was wrong. You have us 4 - me, you , Bill and Will. Each of us has what I call a protector - a intertwined person of our soul family. I have Larry, you and Peter, Bill and Clive and Will and John. So us 4 are the core of our unit, and those 4 are the 1st layer.

Ted throws his arms around me -- well the only connection I'm interested in right now is this one. You know I've been to your web site? I had a feeling, I reply. I also stopped by your blog -- Bill and Ted -- that's pretty good. I know, I smile, it just came to me.

No matter what Bill, Will or Santa Claus says.....I will not let you go. Not this time, not again.

Why don't we just worry abut meeting in real life first -- and then I WILL decide who I want to be with if anyone. Who knows, you guys might all piss me off in person.

I'll make it my goal to make sure I make your knees weak in real life. I smile -- he smiles too.

I can hear my son in the background calling me. I've got to go...I say. Ted kisses me and replies -- I'll see you tonight -- sweet dreams.

And in a flash I was done!

That rascal Ted......he is something else. I have been thinking a lot on if Will was the 4th and not Larry. It didn't make sense to me that Clive, or Peter was in the core and Larry was. So now that I have realized Will - it does make sense. It also makes sense to me that I will meet Will and form a friendship/biz relationship with him and then the 2 of us meet Bill and Ted. I had time to kill at the airport and on the plane going back and forth to NYC last week.

BTW...the Playgirl party was a blast! King Lexus..Mr. February...is as nice as he is sexy. Had a couple of very nice conversations with him. I bet airport security had a riot looking through my suitcase on the way home (I had one of those annoying pamphlets that they did) as I had my Playgirl magazine, my Whispers Media CD (Just The Two Of Us), a couple of packets of lube and a vibe that attaches to your panties-- all were in my party goodie bag.

While in NYC I took my 1st cab ride and had my 1st private car ride back to the airport. I was supposed to take a shuttle back to the airport, but they were really late. When the Bellmen realized what was going on (Holiday Inn Downtown Manhattan/Soho) they called a company car and off I went to the hotel. I was very thankful for those two and the driver was great. Got me to LGA in under an hour -- amazing!

I have a feeling that something major -- in a good way -- is going to come down the pike for me in February. Not sure what yet, except that it impacts many facades of my life.

Back to work I go!

Have a great evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

PS: Don't forget to take a look at all of the notice posting below this entry!

Will, Astral Sex, The "L" Word And Playgirl!

There are times when I feel like I'm slipping into a surrealistic abyss for which there is no escape. Many times I welcome the escape - the blur of the fine lines between physical reality and the astral planes. But most times I find myself kicking and screaming not to be sucked in by the void. But no matter what I do - every day I slip a little bit further into the unknown and closer to my destiny. And today has been no different.

I am amazed at the sheer will power of Will. For as forceful as his presence is in my mind and energy field, he exudes the same strength of kindness. I don't know how to describe it -- hummm.....have you ever sat outside under a cloudy sky and catch a chill? Just when you're ready to pack it in and go inside, the clouds open up and your caught in the warmth of a sunbeam. Will's that sunbeam. That's him - strength and radiated warmth, comfort and zest. I push to know more about this man - as much as I can. I can feel that the physical meet is close - real close.

Bill, Bill, Bill -- (SIGH) when I asked you for a sign that didn't have any subtext, you were right when I meant make it simple. But a simple blurb from you is never simple. Your words, your choices of poems, excerpts, articles are just like you -- full of layers and sprinkled with subtext. So if you are giving me a sign, I'm not getting it completely as the doubt if the messages are directed at me are still full of uncertainty. When I say make it simple, instead of giving me a simple poem about anything - could you give me a simple poem on connections or making contact. That I would understand -- and appreciate.

I know -- I need to update more. I'm trying - honest. But this upcoming week is more insane than last:

- On Monday, I start my weekly online event at The L Word's virtual world - Second Life. If you're in the states you can sign up and join this community for free: http://www.sho.com/site/lword/second_life.do I'll be chatting weekly as Alison Ashby (last names you choose from a list) from Whispers Media all about sex, naughty toys and erotica events;) It starts at 8:00 pm EST and goes on until whenever!

- On Thur/Fri I will be in NYC to attend the Playgirl party. Yes - I said Playgirl:) It ought to be fun!

The back of my neck has been sensitive today. Real sensitive as if someone has been trailing their lips up and down all the right spots. I can't believe the number of times today I've had to stop what I was doing just to rub my neck in hopes that the sensation goes away. Because quite frankly - my neck is the most sensitive area on me -- if it gets kissed in just the right spot - I'm toast. I just hope it come back during the night!

Speaking of night - I haven't been sleeping worth a damn. I am up all of the time - especially since Will consciously entered my life. At first I wasn't spending much time in the hotels/resorts that I used to dream in -- but now I'm there every night. A real nice place, real swanky and all with comfort abound. But in the dreams I know that it is just temporary and I'll be moving on. Will is there - in almost every scene. I'm spending a lot of time in school too. But now I'm not looking for my class or instructor - but actually taking the classes. I only wish that my conscious mind could grasp hold of more dream memories.

I have discovered, though, Will's purpose in my life or at least part of the purpose. He and I are to show the world that there is reincarnation, life after death, that the deceased CAN hear the living and that it is possible to communicate. Bill, Ted and I are to do something on a healing level that has to do with Atlantis. I'm pretty sure that Bill and Ted's work comes after Will and I -- but I'm not sure who I will physically be in contact with first. My intuition is telling me Will - but as with everything, time will tell. I just honestly cannot wait to tell you who Will is or at least more about him on a personal level so that you can get a better picture of who I'm talking about.

Now - Bill and Ted. Bill is extremely busy -- stupid busy actually - but he is doing well. When he's this busy he always pulls back -- but I know that when things have calmed a bit -- he will be back with a vengeance. Now - as I typed that, there went my neck again --- hummm....I really do think he is making headway with he and I. As I've discovered with Will - it takes a lot to all of a sudden find someone in your energy field that you think you know -- but you're not sure why you should know - or how this person fits into your life. So I have more empathy for both Bill and Ted -- because now I GET it:)

Ted, is doing rather poorly. I can feel him reach out and when I reach back - he pulls away as if my touch wounds him. I can feel the depression and the insecurity. But I can't help him unless he lets me in. Do I still feel that he is sick? Yes - no doubt - which I think his mortality is getting the better of him. If only he would take better care of himself......

Astral sex -- yes please:) LOL! In the many times that I've awoken this week - it's been well, difficult to go right back to sleep because of the intensity of the sexual high I was on. It's Mr. Will - make no mistake or should I say -- I've not made the mistake of thinking it was Bill or Ted (man I sound like an astral hussy - don't I?) and Will is so different than the other two. With him I'm made to feel like I'm a precious gift that is meant to be unwrapped slowly and deliberately. He also isn't sexually overpowering during my waking hours either - but he's always there, watching, smiling and waiting.

Yes, I have more thoughts about Will. I keep thinking about what we are supposed to do in this life. I sense that he'll die before me (and before Bill & Ted) and because we have time before he dies (I'm thinking a long illness) we have everything set in place about what he is to do on the other side - so together we can show everyone that there is still a life without a body and people can communicate. I had a flash vision of me at his funeral - I was a flipping wreck - inconsolable and really not wanting to be alive. Hopefully I can alter things so that I either do not feel so much pain or better yet - am equipped to handle it better.

I'm tired. I think I'll call it a night soon:) Wish me good luck this week and send me some extra light please - I could use it:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Playgirl, The "L" Word And More!

So unlike me to go this long without an update. I've been seriously busy - honest I have. I'm going to do a list in order to catch ya'll up to speed.

- Jan 25th/26th I'll be in NYC at the Playgirl party. Damn that Whispers Media - I hate job perks - don't you?

- Speaking of Whispers Media, we are going to host events on The "L" Word's virtual community called - Second Life:) http://www.sho.com/site/lword/second_life.do (for US residents only). Now for those of you who have been reading this blog for awhile - you KNOW how much I love The "L" Word! So this to me is just fricken fantastic! As soon as I have dates/times for our WM events, I'll let you know.

- Yesterday's blog entry I mentioned the Healing Arts weekend I'll be a part of at the end of April. If you want to go - NOW is the time to sign up. I'll be doing two more events with Maria Shaw in 2007: Salem Witch Tour in Oct and a psychic cruise in either Dec or Jan 2008. I am beyond psyched and honored to be a part of these events:)

- Speaking of Maria, she did a reading for me on Will. I'll get to that in a minute -- but Will has continued to be right there. A very loving, very respectful energy that is not pushy, self-serving or angry. His spirit embodies everything I could possibly want in a good friend, a teacher and whatever else the universe has in store for us. Last night we had another wonderful dream visit. We chatted about my cat Darin and how he is my night-time angel who takes his protection job very seriously and trust me, as soon as the sun sets he is at my side until I wake up. The cat is relentless! Any ways - this morning I woke up with a smile on my face and I could smell Will - a type of cologne or maybe soap - I don't know but it was woodsy and spicy all at the same time.

- I asked Maria about Will and what is our connection as I couldn't get a handle on why he is so predominate in everything I do now. Maria's good -- and for only $40 you get a question answered: http://www.mariashaw.com/store/one_question/index.html . I told her what I know about him this is what she said:


Dear Allie - Without his birth time, it will be a more difficult to say how you fit into his chart but I do know where he fits in yours.

This Will gentlemen...and BTW, you will likely meet or at least correspond sometime this year; either before April or after August. He would make a good business partner because he would be very supportive of your efforts and offer assistance; either his energy, time, knowledge, resources, etc. to help you on your path.

You will really like him because your Venus conjuncts his sun sign in Gemini. Whenever you see an aspect such as this between two people, it is great for chemistry; sometimes for love and other times for friendship. In other words, this is a wonderful connection to have.

I spoke with a reporter from Kenya yesterday who is doing a story on me for a LA-based magazine. I did his chart before he called and saw that we had a Venus connection like yours and Will's. The conversation was wonderful; just like 2 old friends talking. We both has the same views and both understood what the other was talking about. The interview just flowed and was a pleasure to do. You have the same connection with Will.

It also shows that he could be a great teacher. You could learn a lot from this man and by knowing him, you could grow spiritually even more so. He could introduce you to a new way of looking things and expand your vision of the world in some way. Also there is a spiritual connection between you two and the main purpose is for "learning" and spiritual growth. I guess if you took it further, you two could collaborate on a book, a seminar or a teaching tool in some way. But definitely there is strong spiritual growth associated with this relationship.

On a mundane level, there could also be an attraction between you two; first because of the "mind"......you will be drawn to the intellectual side of Will or his deep, intensity and communication style.

In some ways, this could be a lucrative business partnership and if you were to take a different route, a more personal relationship.

So in answer to your question; yes, you can be together in this lifetime if you pursue the relationship, from a business stand point first. You may need to reach out since you are the "student". You know that when the student is ready, the teacher appears. But you need to grant him permission to help you. He has already appeared to you. But you will need to pursue the relationship first and then get it rolling. Venus and some other connections in your chart will help you two come together.

So I thought about what she said for a spell and then did a short incantation to let the Universe and Will know that I an open and give permission to Will for his help and guidance. That next morning I sent Maria an email and told her a few more personal items about Will that I knew. Minutes later she offered me the chance to join her on a few of her projects. Coincidence? Nope - there's no such thing.

- I have also given great thought over the last couple of weeks that Will reads this blog. He found me, not the other way around like Bill and Ted. And now, just like Bill and Ted will do at some time with me - I have to pursue Will to let him know that I am ready.

- So what about Bill and Ted? Not much really - at least lately. Ted has pulled way back and he seems to be sulking over something and Bill - I can tell - is very busy with work and when that happens all doors are closed until he is done. That's okay -- they both know where to find me.

- I wrote the prof I did a talk for at the College of Wooster and asked her if she knew of anyone who would like to do research/write a paper on past lives. This is what she wrote back:

I first wanted to let you know thatin the final journal entries for my FYS students and on the course evaluations, at least half of the students cited your visit as one ofthe most memorable, enjoyable and informative aspects of this course!

I know you won't be offended when I say that for some, it was because they found you a little wacky but entertaining (i.e. they weren'tconvinced!), but others found your visit to be informative, comforting(especially for a couple students who had experienced recent losses!),and thought-provoking. So, thank you!

In response to your latest email, one of the things I liked best about meeting you was your skepticism and need to "increase the sample size" before really believing some of the things that have happened to you. I don't know of anyone at the College interested in studying past lives, I'm quite sure there's nobody in the biology department, but I will forward your email to a friend in the psychology department in case there is anyone over there that would be interested.

I'm entertaining, wacky and comforting -- I wouldn't have it any other way!

And I think that is it for now. I'll try to keep up, but it's difficult with the amount of daily work I have to do.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)