Sawyer, a Robin and Slavery

So what do all three of those have in common? They were all dreams. The 1st two from me, the 3rd from my son.


Any dream with Sawyer in it (AKA Josh - and yes, that's Sawyer from LOST) is a good one. Even if we're fighting like siblings. This time around he and I are arguing about something stupid (the norm really), I hear "How in the hell should I know" coming from him - he has his back to me - and I grab his butt. We're talking a two handed, double squeeze. LOL. He turned around and gave me the dirtiest look and asked: "What the hell was that?" I shrugged my shoulders. He made this next point very clear: "That is off limits". I said "Ok, ok...I won't do it again. It's not like I wanted to sleep with you or anything. I just grabbed your ass." He smiled a bit, "I could scream sexual harassment." My reply with a smile, "Yeah right." Then I woke up.

This next one with the robin was disturbing. I'm on a highway - no idea where. When I pull over to the side of the road. There's no one around for miles. I'm in the middle of this 2 lane road when I look down and I see a robin staring up at me. It was stuck in the road - literally. I could see it's legs from the mid-shin up. Her feet were below the asphalt. I could see it sitting on the hot tar and sinking in - then the tar hardening. Cars and trucks ran over it every day - not thinking twice about a robin stuck in the road.

So I started to chisel away around it's feet. I'm wondering how this bird has stayed alive with no food, water and the sun beating down on her. I'm also curious if a car is going to run us both over as it comes around the curve. So I stop what I'm doing, move my car so that it's parked behind us with it's flashers on - this way people will hopefully go around (as opposed to plowing right into it). As I'm chiseling away at this asphalt - a woman shows up. No idea who she is - but I show her the robin and tell her what's going on. I chisel down all the way so that I can free the bird -- and she has this stickiness (reminded me of sap) on her feet/legs. She tries to spread her wings and falls right over on her side. I go and grab a pillow - me and this woman are going to lift the bird up and place it on the pillow. I'm scared to touch the bird, so this lady said she would. As she was going to move the bird, I was calling the Dept of Wildlife to find out where we should take it. I woke myself up at this point - because the image of the robin struggling to survive was too disturbing.

I have a mama and papa robin who come to my house every year and nest in my big pine tree. I like my robins. I have no idea what that dream meant. In the gypsy world - robin's bring good luck. But this robin was hurt -- and i had to really work to free her. Maybe it means that I have to work hard for luck to shine on me. But if that's the case - haven't I been doing that? I don't know.

Now this last dream about slaves, my son told me about yesterday morning. Before I go into the dream - a touch of background - my son (almost every stinken time I ask him to do something) has yelled at me that he wasn't my slave. He said it out of the blue once - never knew why he said it. When he told me about the dream - I kinda understand.

He said that he was a black child working in a coal mine. He had a Master. His job in the mine was to shovel all of the loose coal that landed on the floor and put them in the little track carts. He said that he didn't get hardly any food or rest. But his Master liked him - so he had a treat of candy every once in awhile. He was a very hard worker. That's really all he said about it - but I found it interesting.

I was on Keen last night - and was so disgusted with the amount of money I lost that I refused to log on tonight.

I'm soooooo tired. Heading off to bed.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Being Accountable, A WTF Dream And Keen!

If you still haven't written me the letter explaining why you've used metaphysical/spiritual advice and why you need that genre of advice - you still have time. It doesn't even have to be advice - it can also be alternative healing, color therapy or Feng Shui. I need them by April 5th -- please!

Keen is going well - I've been on Mon - Fri. A minor miracle:) I find I do well being on 10 am - noon. And then depending what's going on 1 - 2:30. I'm trying to condition myself to do the sex advice at Ingenio (http://www.ingenio.com/Allie%20T) from 10 pm - midnight.

For whatever reason - my guides keep having me watch "Under The Tuscan Sun". I can't get what the message is. I'm thinking it's that my life is going to transform like the lead character Francine's did. Although I wasn't nearly as devastated with my divorce as she was hers. It could be a new start, maybe a trip to Italy (I wish), could be meeting an Italian man (boy do I really wish) - or even standing at a crossroads. I'm sure after the 10th time I watch it something should kick in:) At least I hope so.

If you sent me an email - I know it's here. No need to remind me.

My dreams have been really wild the last several nights. The dream that really stands out is the one from Sat night. I can remember being in a room with a bunch of people - we were discussing my life and lack of love life. I come across 3 guys - all of who I know , 2 I can't remember who they were - but the 3rd was Sawyer. He's pissed at me - he's holding his baby in his arms (in real life Josh and his wife either just had a baby or they are about to) I ask him what's the matter and he says, 'Visions - you have visions? You never told me that.' Before I could say WTF - the guy laying down on the beige couch said 'And she writes in the blog!' The 3rd guy shouts out 'For everyone to read!' I walked away perplexed at why it would shock them now. They all knew about everything. So then I started thinking that I should password protect the blog and only give the password out to people who ask. This way I'll know who is reading the posts. But another thought popped in and said - but Bill, Will and Vincent won't be able to read it then - they'll never ask for the password.

SIGH - I woke up.

I'm having a difficult time coaching myself. I have a huge list of things that I have to do and I can't get anything done because the list is too big. I'm trying to prioritize - but for me it's difficult to do if everything that is on my list should have been done already. Maybe I should go with what is nagging at me the most - besides the scholarship applications I have to finish. That would be Black Triangle and the OBE book. BT has to be rewritten by May 1st so that I can enter it in 2 important contests. OBE book is a huge part of the path I am to take - so it is vital that I get it done. Or at least done enough to send off to a publisher as a book proposal. Time is of the essence with both because as soon as college starts on May 18th - any extra time will be spent studying. So how in the world do I whip my own ass into shape? I know that I do well when I have deadlines and I have to be held accountable to someone. So here's a thought....why don't I just report to you guys? Every day I have to post that I did something...even if it's more research for BT or outlining chapt 1 for OBE.

That would make me accountable. Anyone else out there want to do something that they are having a hard time doing because they are not accountable? Why not post here with me. Leave a comment every day after my posts to what you have done. So what do you think? This will go from April 1st - May 1st and no - the April 1st start is not an April Fool's joke. I like this idea. How can I help people if I don't practice what I coach?

After May 1st - we'll see where I'm at and what needs tackled next.

Off to make dinner!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Inner Dialogue, Writing And A New Podcast Idea!

I'm behind on email - not just a little - but a lot. If you've put in an order - I already have it and it's scheduled. I'll email you soon to let you know when to expect it. If you've had a reading and asked some follow up questions - I'll probably get to them this weekend.

I have to hunker down tonight and this weekend to get draft 2 done of my script. I'm on a tight deadline so there's no dilly dallying:)

Found out today that my son won't see any needles for his MRI/MRA. Thankfully they will 1st give him someone to drink to relax him, then place a mask over his face. I'll be back there with him. I'm focused in on him having a clean scan and that the spot on his other MRI was due to his wiggly ways. The kid love the show NORTHERN EXPOSURE now. Remember that show? I grabbed season 3 from my labara - and he just loves it. We call it the "moose" show.

And I'm watching 24 - Season 6. I saw Season 1 as well. I've missed 2 - 5. Can someone tell me what happened to David Palmer? Did he get assassinated? And how did his brother become President? Oh - and whatever happened to David Palmer's wife? What else? Oh - who is this Chloe (I think I spelled it right) chick? She's annoying.

I've been thinking about adding another show to Gypsy Advice. My thought was to call it "The Psychic Roundtable". This would be something on BlogTalk where people can call in. I thought it could be a discussion of whatever the metaphysical topic of the week was on my "Ask Allie" podcast. People would call in and I would have as many people on the line as I could. I've also thought about grabbing a few other psychic's - readers and have them on too. Say for instance there's me and two other psychics. We'd pick a topic and all talk about it from our points of view. Lord knows I know enough psychics/readers/healers, but to find a few who would do it -- and I could alternate them. Allie (not me, another one) would be good for this. Hummmm.....any ways - giving both ideas a thought.

Mercury goes direct tomorrow at 23:11 - yay! That's 11:11 pm ET for those of you who do not know military time.

In dealing with my son, I've payed more attention to my inner dialogue than I had before. Usually I try to be postive about love or even career. But I forgot to be positive about everything else. So my guides led me to this as a reminder:

Adapted from The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire by Deepak Chopra (Harmony Books 2003).

Inner dialogue is one of our most basic characteristics. When we meet new people and situations, a little voice inside our head is constantly assessing this and evaluating that. Useful though it is, this little voice would have you believe that you and it are one and the same, that its goals are your goals.

SIMPLE SOLUTION: The two best ways to overcome being overruled by this little voice are to meditate and to consciously practice positive inner dialogue. Positive inner dialogue helps move us in the right direction, fosters synchronicity, and promotes spiritual development. With positive internal dialogue, we can create self-power.

When we find ourselves looking at the world and saying "There's nothing out there for me," we should probably also look into our hearts and ask, "If there's nothing out there, is there anything in here?" We need to examine our inner dialogue to discover where we might be blocking the conscious energy flow, then remove the ego, step out of the way, and let the fire of the soul shine through us.

The spirit is reflected in impeccable speech and behavior, refraining from anything that could potentially be considered hurtful. The spirit is reflected in confidence, happiness, good humor, fearlessness kindness and thoughtfulness. The quality of your inner dialogue is instantly obvious to other people.

Practice for Positive Inner Dialogue
Imagine that you are centered and totally at peace.
Imagine that you are looking at the world with knowingness and peace.
Imagine that all beings are your equal.
Imagine that you are not affected by flattery or criticism.
Imagine that you are focused on the journey, not the destination.
Imagine that in your presence all hostility is overcome by a profound peace.
Imagine that you're detached from the outcome.
Imagine that a deeply profound ocean of calm exists in you that is not affected by any turbulence.
Imagine that love radiates from you like light from a bonfire.
Imagine that you are in love with everything and everybody. Imagine that you are intoxicated with love.
Imagine that the right answer comes to you spontaneously whenever you are confronted by any question.
Imagine that you know exactly what to do in every situation.


Because of the above and the fact that my guides led me there - I'm trying my best to transform every inch of my inner dialogue. When was the last time you paid close attention to your inner dialogue?

Can I just say that Sawyer is still incredibly hot on LOST? Whew! I like Desmond too:)

And on that note - it's time to make dinner!

Have a great weekend!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Death, The 1920's And The Crystal Skulls!

This is the 2nd time I've tried to write this post. The first time - when I was almost done - my computer crashed and I lost it. That's how my day has been moving along. Two steps forward and three back. So being pissed at losing my last entry - I took a long break before I tried this again. Plus -- all day I have not been able to post to my blogger account. I've had to switch to the blog being hosted on blogger and then switch back to it being hosted on gypsyadvice in order for anything to show up. What I've been trying to do today is find another blog template for Allie's Two Cents. This one bores me to tears. I wasted half the day looking around and trying to find one that would work with blogger & my site (and yes, I did a search for blogger templates - but they have to be the classic style and not XML) and I gave up. I have been thinking of switching it al over to Word Press since it is a better platform all the way around. It's just going through all the steps of setting up the blog and then transferring all of the current content over (as I say a little prayer).

The last dream I had this morning was my ex husband #2 and I in an airplane that looked like the Enterprise from Star Trek. In the "captains" chair sat a man - I have no idea who he was as I never saw his face, only heard his voice. The windshield of the plane has a shield over it so we could not see outside. It felt like we were flipping back and forth - the man told my ex that he has to get over there and fly the plane. He said no - he can't do it. The man said that he had to - my ex was frantic - couldn't fly the plane. I could feel us spiraling down, he still wouldn't take the controls. I tried talking him into it - but he never would listen to me, so he didn't here either. Next thing I know the shield slid open and I could see the rapidly approaching runway. The inside of this plan was now a Cessna - with someone in the pilot & co pilot seat. Behind them sat my two sisters, behind them my mom and my son, and lastly - my ex and I. I hear the instrument warnings go off. I glance out the window and see the runway under us. I brace for impact -- which was rough and bounced the plane all over the place. I heard a voice yell to slam the brakes as the end of the runway was coming up. I leaned so that I could see and we were at the end of the runway. My son reached his hand back, I grabbed it, We all ducked and closed our eyes. I could feel something go through us. The pain - also went right through me. I could hear the fire trucks coming towards us. My dog Brodie barks and wakes me up - I yell at him to shut up and I fall back to sleep. I open my eyes to see what's going on and I'm outside the plane. The plane is totaled. It's smashed. I know I'm dead. I look around and no one else from the plane is with me - so I figure they are all still alive. As I I move towards the plane, time speeds up so that when I get to the plane everyone is on a stretcher and being carried out. They are trying to revive me. I sense someone next to me -- they tell me that I have to go back. I don't want to. She says that I must -- then she adds in, do you want your ex to raise your son -- good point. You still have a lot of work to do - you need to assemble the council. The council? I ask. She says - you'll figure it out. Next thing I know I'm opening my eyes in my body - I do feel the pain now -- and that pain causes me to wake up.

Now - I laid there for awhile and thought about this dream. The first part felt like I was in my ex's dream. My family was his family for so long that it doesn't surprise me that he would have had them in his dream. When the dog woke me up I glanced at the clock - it would of been time for my ex to wake up for work. So when I feel back to sleep his dream had shifted to my dream. I wish I could remember who the woman was -- I feel she was Iris, but when I ask Iris, she doesn't say anything. It wasn't a dream that worried me or scared me when I finally woke up - just the opposite really. I got the message that I have something important to do and no matter what comes my way - I have to do it. Push ahead and persevere.

I just got an email with the subject heading "Update your penis". Snicker. What would I do if I had one? Stick the tip into the USB port and download something new and amazing? LOL. Spam -- it cracks me up.

Monday night I had a past life dream of the 1920's. It took place in NYC (as all of my past life 1920 vision have) in a Speakeasy. I was in a far corner at a table with two socialites - we were discussing money - main I was giving them a reading on how to advance their fortunes. Bill and Ted were a couple of tables over. An alarm went off - the Feds were here to raid the place. Within seconds the booze was gone - I heard a bunch of bottles drop. I knew that they were swimming in the sewer system. By the time the Feds got in, it looked like a respectable diner. After they came in, Will pushed through the crowd. He might of been a Fed - but just the feeling I got was that he played both sides of the fence. He walked right over to me and grabbed my arm. Bill and Ted stood up. I had a flash vision of this place being turned into a blood bath - so I quickly told the guys to sit down, I'll go with him. As Will lead me from the place -- I woke up.

Both nights I can remember fragments of dream visit with the crystal skulls. In each dream the skulls were present, as well as a very large waterfall and a crystal & stone temple. I can see myself going into a cave, crossing an underground river. But I can't remember any more than that.

Also Sawyer showed up -- we argued about what we were going to go see. I wanted to check out some island - he said he had enough of those - lol. So I suggested going back to the past and looking around - oh no, he wanted to move to the future. I suggested another planet - he wanted another galaxy. So what did we end up doing? Sitting at a bar during the 1940's and drinking some strong shit.

I'm surprised lately how much of an effort Ted is making to telepathically communicate with me. He's been asking - are you there? Have you left? When can I see you? Ramblings on about how crazy his wife is (hell, I could have told him that). I've told him not to be such a stranger and he promises that he won't be. He said that he feels stronger when his energy is connect to mine - I tried to explain why, but he was gone.

I had a moment yesterday where I felt Will link to me and through his eyes I could see him looking at my business card. It gave my energy field a nice rush:)

What else happened? Oh - yesterday I was sitting on the potty doing my thing, when an upper tooth on my left side started to ache (again - an ongoing problem) I asked for some help here - I have no time for pain. I sensed Archangel Michael on my left - then my friend Dave showed up. He told Archangel Michael that he's take care of this. I got so emotional when Dave showed up - I have no clue why. But I could feel his hand over my left cheek with my left cheek getting very hot. It was all very cool (so to speak). He and I chatted a bit - told him thanks. And I could of sworn he tried to hug me but he went right through -- a very funky feeling. My tooth did feel much better.

Off to hopefully get my shower and then call it an early evening. I got my changes back for THE BLACK TRIANGLE and I have some work to get going on starting tomorrow.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Off To MI, Spider Sense Is On High Alert!

My headache has been full tilt all week. It has just been nuts. I know that Will is not "in" my energy like he's my astral body -- but he is still very much here. And I mean he has zoned in big time. I have no idea what he's doing - but it's something that has me under consideration.

That said - my spider sense is on high alert. I know this weekend will bring a love into my life. I just know it with every sense that I have. I have been seeing me walking around the corner and my heart stopping in my throat. It's a vision that I've had repeatedly all week long. I have no idea who I am running into or being introduced to - but it is someone who will take my breath away. It's a major - holy shit - happening.

And no - I honestly have no idea if it is Will. I mean - what would he be doing at a hoedown in Detroit? But I asked the universe to please send me someone as I'm tired of being alone. And if Will doesn't want to step up - then please send someone. I've been alone for over 10 years and I'm tired of it. Just because I was divorced only last year doesn't make me alone for only a year -- trust me, my ex and I have been apart for a very long time. I think that's why I was so surprised that my son was conceived. I was like - how'd that happen - lol.

It's also not Bill, Ted, Matt or even Sawyer who I will run into:) And BTW -- Heath and I have come to a mutual satisfying resolve about him popping in and out to chat.

Any ways - heading out the door now to go to my niece's 4th b-day party and then it's off to MI. I'll have the crackberry with me - so when I'm swept off my feet, I'll tell you about it -- much later:)

If all else fails and there's no love this weekend -- I still know that I'll have a good weekend as I'll be spending it with people I both like and respect -- and I know they return the feelings.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

I'm Alive, So Much To Say And A Killer Headache!

I have a killer headache. But I wanted to at least say hi and let you know we made it back in one piece. The kid and I had a great time in NYC - simply fabo! There were a few times that I could of pulled my hair out -- but overall it was just a lot of fun. His favorite part was Central Park. I didn't have a fav part (except maybe the pizza and cheesecake - lol). We had a great time at the Empire State Building. Only the over stimuli of all the people wigged him out. At first I was like "Whoa" what the hell was that? He calmed down after a bit. Since I heard the ESB was haunted due to past suicides - I took my camera and took some shots. Side 6 that faces the GE building gave me a couple of orb shots. As soon as I have a chance I will post them. The kid didn't want to leave - and neither did I. I promised him we'd go back by September - sooner if I have a reason (cough, cough, hack). Got back late Sunday night - after wading through the 500+ emails, I fell asleep about 1:00 am. Too bad I felt so stinking tired when I woke up.

In fact - no matter what time I go to bed, I feel the same crap-o when I get up. I am exhausted. I know that Will has hijacked my energy - he's attached to me. Not sure why - maybe feeling remorse for not seeing us while we were in the city - who knows? But I can only keep this up for so long.

Good ole Sawyer has been a frequent dream guest and Heath Ledger is standing beside me (actually looking over my shoulder) as I type.

I am so tired and my headache is so out of control that I have to go lie down.

I hope to be able to do more of an update before I go to MI on Sat/Sun for the hoedown:) Thurs I am playing chaperone for my son's zoo trip. I hope I survive it:)

There's a lot to catch you up on - Sawyer, Heath and Will in particular. Behind Heath is Iris and Merlin. I can tell I'm in for something big to happen.

Oh - and Tom Cruise. I have no idea what he wants in my dream visits - but he acts like we go back a way. More later....

I know the headaches are a combo of Will being "in" my energy - and I mean IN. And me shifting - expanding - to another level. It's a drained headache (on the sides) combined with a third eye wham-o.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Sawyer And Writing!

Now don't get your britches in an uproar because I haven't been posting. No - there's not a thing wrong here in Allieville. It's just been a very draining - yet exciting - week and I haven't felt like posting. Draining because my son has been home for most of the week (as noted in Tuesday's post) and he really does drain me out. Love the kid to pieces - but he is a high maintenance kid. I had the pleasure of going to his parent-teacher conference and sitting down with his teacher and the principal of the school. Seems he is high maintenance all the way around. Highly intelligent child - but also very intrusive to other children. The kid is constantly in "on" mode. So we had to sit around and figure out how he can still do well academically in school without tramping on his spirit or the well being of other kids. Once we got that tentative plan into place - I went to pick him up at the after school program where his teacher handed me --SIGH -- a write up. Seems the kid didn't feel like listening to her either. That all happened on Wed. On Thur he did great and continued to do good once we got home and then went out to eat for our Valentines' Date:) Friday hit (he's off school both Fri and Mon) and chaos once again.

In other news - DREAMERS is done and accepted:) YAY! My manager's boss likes it. A few things have to happen and then it's off to the networks - fingers crossed! Now my attention is on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. If I have actual writing time -- I hope to have this done by the end of March.

I have to remember to keep breathing for the next 10 days. Why? Because on Feb 27th - my son and I are flying to NYC to see Will. He and I will actually be face to face. Things are falling into place as they should. There are a few hiccups - but since this is a Mercury Retro right now, it's to be expected. However since I know this is supposed to be as it is to be -- I have no qualms that everything will work out. Will my son in I be in a large location like it was when I saw Bill? No. Will the energy be as toxic? No. Am I nervous? Yes -- but excited nervous - not scared nervous like it was will Bill. It's like finally seeing an old friend face to face after a long separation. In fact - that's exactly what it is. This is my son's 1st plane ride - 1st hotel -- 1st trip. He's very excited. He's ecstatic about seeing Will. I am reminding him daily not to say anything that he "knows" about Will and I to Will. No romance, no marriage, no soul thing -- unless the tone warrants it. And only then if I say something. He says he understands -- I just hope he remembers it. However - if something blurts out - I'll think of something.

Now on the 28th we're flying back, he's going to my mom's and I'm heading to MI for the Maria Shaw Convention. I will have my Blackberry with me so I could post something to the blog the night of the 27th. But I'm not promising:)

At first I honestly wasn't going to go to NYC - in fact when I found out about this on VD, I dismissed it. I talked to the Divine that night and said that I'm not asking for a reunion date - nor am I trying to rush things because things will happen when they are supposed to and not a moment before. But I miss him God - I miss Will. I don't miss his essence - so to speak - as it's with me 24/7 and for that I am eternally grateful. But I miss his touch, the way he loves me, the way he angers me and just pisses me off - I miss the way that he sooths my nerves and holds me to let me know that everything will be okay. I miss calming his fears, physically loving him, being his friend in every sense of the word and he being mine. I miss the way we push each other to be our best - the way we challenge one another around every turn. I miss seeing him around children and how his face lights up -- and I miss working with him, using our creative energies. Just having one another in our lives so that we can pick up the phone and say hi. I'm not pushing here - really I'm not. But since you know me and you know him and what truly goes on in our hearts and in our souls - you know it's time. I know it's time and Will knows it's time. And that's all I have to say - thank you. I went to bed.

Then I went to sleep and had a dream visit with Will. We were in a crowded place - but not too crowded. I can remember a stage and he and I chatting. The convo was something about "yellow boxes" but it was just subtext (because my son was there) - we weren't actually talking about the boxes. He and I are walking and I mentioned to him about coming over and helping me rearrange the yellow boxes. He gets this grin on his face - his cheeks flush - and he says: so that's what they're calling it now? I blushed too - as we both knew we were talking about sex. I woke up and I knew immediately that I had to get to NYC. That what I had said to the Divine the night before - this was my sign. So I became proactive -- and here we are. So any good positive vibes you could send our way between now - and especially on the 27th would be greatly appreciated. Especially since the 27th is a moon void of course when people usually feel things - but are too lazy to act up on them. Do I think he will do anything about the energy between us? I honestly do not know. But I do know that I have to be there to give him that jolt. Funny enough, back to the few hiccups -- Will can actually make them go away and a guy is talking to him about my son and I to make them go away. Another reason why I know things will work the way they are supposed to.

I am going to be soooo tired driving from OH to MI on the 28th. And sheesh - how am I going to stay awake and watch LOST? Speaking of LOST - Sawyer showed up in a dream visit last night. We were walking in the rain, firing up into the air these red pellets that were supposed to burst open and protect us from the rain - which had an acid quality to it. This is what I remember from our conversation:

Sawyer = S, Allie = A

A = What are you talking about?
S = My real name - what's my real name? That's a simple question.
A = Josh -- something or other.
S = It's Holloway. Josh Holloway. I'm not Sawyer.
A = In my fantasy you are - and that's the way you are going to stay.
S = Why do I keep showing up in your dreams?
A = Who says I'm not in yours?
S = Because you keep calling me Sawyer.
A = Good point.
S = So call me Josh.
A = You're Sawyer -- you're hot baddie with a soft side. That - to me - is a fantasy and that is how you are going to say.
S = Have we had sex?
A = Sex?
S = If I'm your "fantasy" guy, why haven't we had sex? Isn't that the point of a fantasy guy?
A = Maybe I don't remember having sex with you.
S = Oh, you'd remember.
A = (damn he had a point) True.
S = Okay, so why am I here?
A = More important - why did you just show back up?
S = I've been here the whole time -- you're just too busy with Will to take notice.
A = Sounds like your jealous.
S = I'm the fantasy guy - I don't GET jealous.
A = Fine - the next time you show up, we'll have sex and get it over with. That way you can go away and we don't have to deal with one another.
S = That's comforting.
A = Besides -- if you were really a fantasy man, you'd be naked and you just wouldn't speak.
S = Now you're thinking like a man.

And I woke up. I remember this convo in such detail because it was just before I woke up. His appearance looked like Sawyer. But he kept trying to morph it to not be in character and I guess I kept morphing him back -- it was funny.

Back to Will. Remember when I posted something here about Will - left it up overnight - and took it down (if you didn't see it you weren't supposed to) because who ever was supposed to see it - saw it? Well on Wednesday I got a message from my guides saying that whoever saw the post - did something with the information about the post and things are unfolding as they should. And there you have it.

Okay - I'm going to try to get something else done today.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)