Dreams, Death, The 1920's And The Crystal Skulls!

This is the 2nd time I've tried to write this post. The first time - when I was almost done - my computer crashed and I lost it. That's how my day has been moving along. Two steps forward and three back. So being pissed at losing my last entry - I took a long break before I tried this again. Plus -- all day I have not been able to post to my blogger account. I've had to switch to the blog being hosted on blogger and then switch back to it being hosted on gypsyadvice in order for anything to show up. What I've been trying to do today is find another blog template for Allie's Two Cents. This one bores me to tears. I wasted half the day looking around and trying to find one that would work with blogger & my site (and yes, I did a search for blogger templates - but they have to be the classic style and not XML) and I gave up. I have been thinking of switching it al over to Word Press since it is a better platform all the way around. It's just going through all the steps of setting up the blog and then transferring all of the current content over (as I say a little prayer).

The last dream I had this morning was my ex husband #2 and I in an airplane that looked like the Enterprise from Star Trek. In the "captains" chair sat a man - I have no idea who he was as I never saw his face, only heard his voice. The windshield of the plane has a shield over it so we could not see outside. It felt like we were flipping back and forth - the man told my ex that he has to get over there and fly the plane. He said no - he can't do it. The man said that he had to - my ex was frantic - couldn't fly the plane. I could feel us spiraling down, he still wouldn't take the controls. I tried talking him into it - but he never would listen to me, so he didn't here either. Next thing I know the shield slid open and I could see the rapidly approaching runway. The inside of this plan was now a Cessna - with someone in the pilot & co pilot seat. Behind them sat my two sisters, behind them my mom and my son, and lastly - my ex and I. I hear the instrument warnings go off. I glance out the window and see the runway under us. I brace for impact -- which was rough and bounced the plane all over the place. I heard a voice yell to slam the brakes as the end of the runway was coming up. I leaned so that I could see and we were at the end of the runway. My son reached his hand back, I grabbed it, We all ducked and closed our eyes. I could feel something go through us. The pain - also went right through me. I could hear the fire trucks coming towards us. My dog Brodie barks and wakes me up - I yell at him to shut up and I fall back to sleep. I open my eyes to see what's going on and I'm outside the plane. The plane is totaled. It's smashed. I know I'm dead. I look around and no one else from the plane is with me - so I figure they are all still alive. As I I move towards the plane, time speeds up so that when I get to the plane everyone is on a stretcher and being carried out. They are trying to revive me. I sense someone next to me -- they tell me that I have to go back. I don't want to. She says that I must -- then she adds in, do you want your ex to raise your son -- good point. You still have a lot of work to do - you need to assemble the council. The council? I ask. She says - you'll figure it out. Next thing I know I'm opening my eyes in my body - I do feel the pain now -- and that pain causes me to wake up.

Now - I laid there for awhile and thought about this dream. The first part felt like I was in my ex's dream. My family was his family for so long that it doesn't surprise me that he would have had them in his dream. When the dog woke me up I glanced at the clock - it would of been time for my ex to wake up for work. So when I feel back to sleep his dream had shifted to my dream. I wish I could remember who the woman was -- I feel she was Iris, but when I ask Iris, she doesn't say anything. It wasn't a dream that worried me or scared me when I finally woke up - just the opposite really. I got the message that I have something important to do and no matter what comes my way - I have to do it. Push ahead and persevere.

I just got an email with the subject heading "Update your penis". Snicker. What would I do if I had one? Stick the tip into the USB port and download something new and amazing? LOL. Spam -- it cracks me up.

Monday night I had a past life dream of the 1920's. It took place in NYC (as all of my past life 1920 vision have) in a Speakeasy. I was in a far corner at a table with two socialites - we were discussing money - main I was giving them a reading on how to advance their fortunes. Bill and Ted were a couple of tables over. An alarm went off - the Feds were here to raid the place. Within seconds the booze was gone - I heard a bunch of bottles drop. I knew that they were swimming in the sewer system. By the time the Feds got in, it looked like a respectable diner. After they came in, Will pushed through the crowd. He might of been a Fed - but just the feeling I got was that he played both sides of the fence. He walked right over to me and grabbed my arm. Bill and Ted stood up. I had a flash vision of this place being turned into a blood bath - so I quickly told the guys to sit down, I'll go with him. As Will lead me from the place -- I woke up.

Both nights I can remember fragments of dream visit with the crystal skulls. In each dream the skulls were present, as well as a very large waterfall and a crystal & stone temple. I can see myself going into a cave, crossing an underground river. But I can't remember any more than that.

Also Sawyer showed up -- we argued about what we were going to go see. I wanted to check out some island - he said he had enough of those - lol. So I suggested going back to the past and looking around - oh no, he wanted to move to the future. I suggested another planet - he wanted another galaxy. So what did we end up doing? Sitting at a bar during the 1940's and drinking some strong shit.

I'm surprised lately how much of an effort Ted is making to telepathically communicate with me. He's been asking - are you there? Have you left? When can I see you? Ramblings on about how crazy his wife is (hell, I could have told him that). I've told him not to be such a stranger and he promises that he won't be. He said that he feels stronger when his energy is connect to mine - I tried to explain why, but he was gone.

I had a moment yesterday where I felt Will link to me and through his eyes I could see him looking at my business card. It gave my energy field a nice rush:)

What else happened? Oh - yesterday I was sitting on the potty doing my thing, when an upper tooth on my left side started to ache (again - an ongoing problem) I asked for some help here - I have no time for pain. I sensed Archangel Michael on my left - then my friend Dave showed up. He told Archangel Michael that he's take care of this. I got so emotional when Dave showed up - I have no clue why. But I could feel his hand over my left cheek with my left cheek getting very hot. It was all very cool (so to speak). He and I chatted a bit - told him thanks. And I could of sworn he tried to hug me but he went right through -- a very funky feeling. My tooth did feel much better.

Off to hopefully get my shower and then call it an early evening. I got my changes back for THE BLACK TRIANGLE and I have some work to get going on starting tomorrow.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Atlantis, The Crystal Skulls And My Son!

No need to send out Special Forces - I am alive and well. I've just been very busy. The doctor's appointment with my son went as planned- he has the problem with his eyes that we suspected - he has to work 300% harder to focus than the normal person. Explains the headaches, short attention span. We start therapy in June. If I can get to him to do exercises at night (as therapy will cause him headaches) then we'll be in it 3 months instead of 6. And - I hope - it will cost me a lot less.

Finished DREAMERS over the weekend. It got the two thumbs up from my manager - not fingers crossed that the powers that be like this version. I also wrote a rough draft of a treatment for a Nickelodeon TV show. I was surprised how easy it came together. This week I start my rewrite of THE BLACK TRIANGLE and finish up on the unnamed Nick treatment. But the Nick show I set in NYC as I did DREAMERS. I figure if I'm there - would be better to have the two shows close to one another.

But in rewriting DREAMERS I've had some funky dreams about the crystal skulls and Atlantis. In the dreams Bill has that brown leather covered book and he and Ted are arguing about which way to go. I'm off looking at a symbol (A crystal skull in the center of a triangle) on a wall (I believe we're in a pyramid) and call Will over. He and I discuss where we've seen it before - I go over, grab the book out of Bill's hands and flip through it. This symbol is carved over the entrance to the room that houses the Atlantis Time Capsule. Bill and Ted place some big stones under the entrance of our current room (yes, we have seen too many movies). I fish out of my back pack a crystal skull which was wrapped in a purple cloth. I hold face the skull to the symbol on the wall. There was a light exchange between the symbol & the skull and the wall fell back.

We move into the next chamber and there is a thin, stone table in the center. In this table (or actually a pedestal) are three large notches. Bill and Ted took their crystal skulls from their back packs. We told Will it might be better if he stepped from the room - he said not a chance in hell. Us 3 put each of the crystal skulls into a notch with the front of the skulls facing inward. Once we did that the pedestal started to turn clockwise and lower. I remember my stomach feel very queasy and getting very lightheaded. It felt as if the floor dropped out from under us -- and that caused me to wake up.

This happened three nights in a row with each time the floor dropped (I think) it woke me up. Each time I woke up my heart was pounding something fierce and I was too energized to go back to sleep.

I am a firm believer in the crystal skulls and in Atlantis. I base my belief on my dreams, meditations and past life regression sessions. I personally do not think any of the 13 skulls have been found yet. Despite what has been written. I do think that the skulls that have been unearthed thus far hold a wealth of positive energy. The natural disasters that have been happening over the last two - three years, I feel, is to help uncover the skulls. If the skulls had been placed where they were not to be found until the time is right -- it would have had to have been some kick ass hiding places.

I find the legend of the 13 crystal skulls fascinating as I do the myth about Atlantis. It doesn't surprise me at all that the new Indiana Jones flick deals with a crystal skull.

Because I've been writing during my free time instead of writing in the blogs or returning emails -- by inbox is a natural disaster of it's own.

I still haven't uploaded the orb pictures to my computer -- I know, I know -- I'll get one it:)

And on that note - back to work I go:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

NYC, Bill And A Book!

Will. Boy - is his energy strong. I'm so tempted do go rummaging around that mind of his to discover what he's up to. But he'll know I'm there. And he'll probably be a bit upset with me - so I won't. But let me tell you the temptation is strong to do so. I'm so damn curious:) But we know what curiosity does, don't we? It either kills us or makes us stronger. I'd like to lean towards this would make me stronger, but I won't let the temptation get the better of me.

My son is soooooo happy. Why? Because my TV pilot DREAMERS was based in Mass. Well, I changed it to NYC and he is beyond excited. I told you we were going to move there!! He shouted that over and over again -- see mom I am psychic:) LOL. That kid. But I've been working on it - not much time for anything else like writing in the blog or returning emails. So if there's an email from you in that inbox of mine -- don't hold your breath. I have until Friday evening to get this draft done. And now that I switched it to NYC - things are flowing a lot easier.

Tomorrow I take my son in for his series of eye tests. Wish me luck that the sensor motor problem he has isn't as severe as they think it is.

My sister is flying to London tomorrow to go to a concert. A concert. The only reason she's going across the pond. Am I jealous? Heck yeah. She's seeing my 80's groups dog gone it! Rick Astley. Go ahead, roll your eyes, but I just love that guy. Besides, I've always wanted to go to the UK. Hopefully I'll get to go in 2009! You know me and British guys - just love them.

Since I've been back home I'm sleeping better. I still have some of my headache - but nothing like last week - nothing. So the shift did occur over the weekend like it was supposed to.

Bill has been around lately. It's good to feel more of his energy. He has such a way of pushing my buttons - both good and bad. He has been showing up in my dream visits. He keeps showing me this leather bound book that reminds me of one I had in a vision of him, me and Ted about Atlantis. He very insistent that I memorize this book. There are a lot of hand drawn maps, notes and symbols. But when I wake up - no matter how much I program myself to remember what he shows me, it skips away. All very frustrating. I guess when the time comes and I do run into that book in the physical sense, I will have one of those "moments" that click. Besides the book, I keep trying to find Bill. One second he's there in the dream - and then he's lost in a crowd and I run around trying to find him. When I do - it's back to that book which he keeps under his arm. Then he's gone again. Why does he have to jump in and out? Can't he just stay? SIGH.

But with him arriving more often - it feels to me that the stay of contact with me, him and Ted is coming to a close. All I have to say for that is thank goodness!

And on that note - time to get my son, go to little league and then work on DREAMERS!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Catch Up Time....

MI was a bust - damn it all! I did though love seeing everyone. Our bunch of psychics that get together are a good bunch - what happens in the psychic tent stays in the psychic tent - lol. I wish that they all didn't live so far away - or should I say I wish I didn't live so far away. So I drove all the way there, spent $$$ on a really nice hotel room that I stayed in alone, stayed out in the rain for a spell and came back home. I could, though, have had the chance to pick one of several happy-go-lucky college students at the hoedown. I was propositioned many times over. It was a nice esteem boast:) No new hot men on Sunday. I honestly cannot figure out why I had to be there. But even the feeling I had Sunday morning and the tarot cards I threw down as a back up all showed the same thing - I had to be there and it was because of my love life. And that day was Sunday- not Saturday. Completely baffled.

When I got home I threw down the cards again and sure enough - whatever was supposed to happen did happen and things are moving in the direction they are supposed to. I asked Iris - what direction - she told me not to get bogged down by the details. Just that everything will work out. Okay super guide guru - I will take her word for it. The energy though was so charged this past weekend. I didn't sleep at all Sat night. Every time I did doze, I woke up 20 min later with Will on my mind. I'd fall back to sleep and do it all over again. Sunday it was if my nerve endings were on the outside of my body. My mind was going full tilt - too bad my body couldn't even come close to keeping up!

I just wish it didn't have to cost me so dang much to get up there to MI and then not see the fruits of my labor. That said - I am very grateful that we don't live in China or Myanman -- or even where all the tornados hit in the states. So I am grateful for many things....

Sawyer - he's so damn funny. For the last two years (I've lost count of the actual time frame) he has been visiting me in my dreams almost every night. I know he wasn't me to call him Josh - but I won't - just for the sheer fact it bothers him. That man has figured out all the buttons to push on my radar - so if I can push just one on him - I'm going for it. Every dream visit we start off by arguing - every single one. Then we're smart asses (gee - what a surprise) and finally we end up chatting like old buddies about some subject. As much as I really, really would love to turn him into a sexual fantasy (boy would I ) it doesn't feel right. SIGH. So to me he's my Sawyer - the southern sass. Eventually some day I'll figure out why he keeps showing up and what our connection happens to be. He just smiles when I ask him - says I'm the psychic so I have to figure it out. To which I point out -- so are you!

Heath is now good on when to pop in and out of my space. We had a chat and I told him that he can't just pop in whenever he felt like it. I like talking to him and going over the mysteries of life - the why, what and how of things - but there has to be some boundaries. I attributed it to him sitting at a table with Michelle or his daughter and a fan would come up for an autograph. Whatever mood he was in with his table mate - was stopped as soon as the fan arrived. Then once the fan was gone - it was difficult to get back into that mood again. He agreed. So now if I'm doing a reading or writing -- I can sense him show up, but he hovers in the background until I am done. Then he steps forward. Works much better this way.

Will. I'll be dammed if I can't figure him out. He has been right there since last week. So right there that his energy field was my energy field. Which - is the norm anyways - but I don't know -0- the energy fields were closer? I don't know know how to put it. But all my dreams (if they don't have Sawyer in it) they have Will in it. Not a bad way to dream if you ask me. But - I can't really remember the dreams - just that he was there. Now I had a dream visit or two or three with ex husband #1 and I remember some of them -- nothing earth shattering (besides the fact that he was in my dream to start with) just us sitting around talking. He and I were always better friends than anything else - and I always did like chatting with him. I do remember checking in on him to make sure he was okay.

Just got an email - I have to run, get my shower, put on coffee and finish DREAMERS if not tonight - then really damn soon. Wish me luck....I haven't done a real late nighter since college and that was 20 years ago.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Being Married, Will And Dream Visits!

Will was dead center in my mind last night. No matter what else I tried to shift my brain power to, it kept bouncing back to him. So after awhile I stopped fighting it. I figure, if it's this stong - there must be a reason for it. So about 11:30 pm I let the thoughts just come in. There were so many images, words and mini movies - all spinning what seemed like out of control. It reminded me of a kaleidoscope and with every turn of the view finder, there was something different to see/hear. But I wasn't the one turning the view finder.

There were a lot of "what if" scenarios - almost as if Will was "what if'ing" the connection into the ground. Then it would shift to an exuberant happiness - then down to an overwhelming sadness. And it continued. Any time there was happiness - there were images of he, myself and my son together - even if it was eating popcorn and watching a movie on TV. The sadness was always when he was pacing in his apartment - alone.

Finally about 1:00 am I had enough and told Will that I'll meet him in dream time. I walked down my dream path (as I like to call it) towards my dream portal/workspace. My path is always through a pine forest - I love the feel of the pine beneath my bare feet and the smell. As I round a corner - there is Ethan. I went over and gave him a big ole hug. I asked if he was back to help. He shook his head no - this is just a visit. We both could feel Iris in the background - just watching. I leaned into Ethan and asked - is she always like this? You mean a control freak? - Yes Ethan replied with a chuckle. But she gets results - her charges always travel down the path they are supposed to. I guess that's comforting - I said. He replied - it should be.

So we're walking and I asked Ethan if I'm doing something wrong? Is there something I'm meant to do that I haven't done yet? He shook his head -- no -- the ball is in Will's court. It's completely up to him. I asked - why is this so difficult for him if he "knows". Ethan put his arm round me and answered - because change is difficult, no matter matter much you want it (this sounded very familiar to me - AKA my divorce last year) and you add to that shyness and an uncertainty if this is all in his head -- and there you go. Is this something that he'll get over. Ethan shrugged - he has to or this will repeat in the next life. And quite frankly - there isn't time to repeat this - you two have to be together so that the next step happens. So this is a must for him. His guides will keep putting things, reminder, in front of him so that he takes that next step.

The next step - involves Bill and Ted doesn't it? Ethan nods - also Clive, Peter, John, Larry and a woman and her partner that you have failed to explore yet. I don't have time for her right now.

(update - I have written about her before - I called her Jo:
http://gypsyadvice.com/alliestwocents/2007/03/stuff-ted-and-new-one-named-jo.html)

Well, Ethan said - just like Will will have things in front of him about you - you will keep having things in front of you about her. This isn't something that can be put off. Since she and Will know one another - do I meet her before Will calls or after? Ethan replied - that hasn't been written yet.

Something catches my eye off the path and I go get it - a cell phone. I'm giving this to Will during our visit. Ethan laughed - of course you are.

I entered my dream portal and Ethan stayed behind.

I'm on a train with many people - but it's not overcrowded. I'm at one end of a small car, Will is at the other end. To my left sits a woman who I am friends with in my waking life. Her partner is sitting next to Will. I see him lean over to Will and start to talk about me. I can hear what is said, even though I shouldn't be able to:

G = Guy W = Will

G = You know Allie?
W = From Gypsy Advice? Yes. Her and her son.
G = Word is that she's obsessed with you.

Will arises his eyebrows on that one -- and this guy is looking right at me -- I'm staring at him trying to say with my eyes - WTF and shut the hell up. But he goes on...

W = You don't say.
G = She thinks about you all the time.
W = I see.

I look over at this my friend and ask - what in the hell is he doing? She shrugs. Make him stop - I said.

Next thing I know, Will has a magazine in his hand and he sits a couple of rows behind me. I can feel him staring at me -but I refuse to look over at him. He is now sitting behind me - his left hand is on the back of my chair - he's tapping his fingers. I look and he's wearing a brand new shiny wedding ring.

I look over at my friend and say - hell no. I stand up and I'm cussing to myself. A lot of - WTF came out. I started to walk away in the opposite direction - she asked - where are you going? I yelled - this is whacked - I'm waking up. So I walk through the cars shouting at myself to wake up and I finally do.

I laid there in bed -- what in the hell was that? I talked to myself: Why was that scene there? He's not married - I know he's not married. But the ring he had on - looked just like (my ex) when we first got married, same ring. Will has been in an on again off again relationship for over 10 years - maybe she feels that they are married even if they are not? And I'm not obsessed. I have a life - and he's not center stage.

I gotta go back into that dream. So I did...

The train came to a stop and we all got off and went into a huge formal garden - the kind you would see outside of a castle. I'm on a balcony and I see Will. He sees me. I turn the opposite way and go inside this room made from shrubs. There are a bunch of people in there and someone asked me if I was okay. I try not to cry - because I'm very angry and frustrated. I said - no I'm not okay. So I go back out of that room and into where Will is still at. I have two ways to go in order to get to the other side of this balcony- I see Will walking towards me on one side - I start to walk the opposite - but then think -- nah...and I walk right past him - it takes everything I have not to look over at him. But as we pass he said - Allie - wait -please. I stop. He's alongside of me -and it's automatic - I thread my arm through his and we walk.

I need to know - he said - I need to know if I have a chance.

I look over to him - you're the only one.

We're silent for a few steps.

Do you understand what I mean? He nods. There is no one else - no one.

Will smiled and let out a sign of relief.

But I don't do the married thing - I'm not playing second fiddle. I'm not someone's afterthought. I went through two marriages where I was the afterthought and was cheated on -- I will never do that to another woman.

But you have - he replied.

Yes - in my early 20's. I learned that lesson by being on the receiving end twice of men who didn't give a crap about me. And I will never do that again - no matter what I feel for the person. I deserve better.

Will replied - understood. But you'd never be second fiddle in my life.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out the cell phone - and handed it to him. Then first work it out with your ex, she is an ex right?

He nods - but she doesn't see it that way.

Find a way to make her understand and then call me. And could you hurry up, we're not getting any younger.

Then I woke up.

As strange as it sounds - when I woke up I felt Will reading my blog to see if I wrote about this dream yet. He'll check back until he reads this - and then his uncertainty won't have such a hold on him. I feel this is why Iris was adamant about me posting this entry today and not waiting until Monday.

And I must admit - it is very strange to feel that you'd take a bullet for someone in a heartbeat when you have only met them once (in this life - obviously). It's an unconditional sacrifice - just like it would be for my son. There's no thinking about it - it's automatic.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Where Do I Begin?

This week has been well -- a learning experience to put it mildly. My son's pediatrician called me and asked me if I knew about the letter that he got from the school. I said that yes, I knew that they were sending one out. But have you read it? The Dr. asked (mind you this man has never called my house). I said no - I had not. He said - well I'll have my nurse make a copy - you really should read it. Okay - I'll stop down after I take my son to the eye doctor. Fine.

Now at the eye doctor I thought this was going to be a routine examine and he would need glasses. He had complained that he couldn't see the board. But oh no - nothing routine about it. Come to find to that they think he has: Convergence Insufficiency. Which means (doc definition): a sensorimotor anomaly that affects the binocular visual system and is characterized by an inability to adequately coverage or sustain coverage for visual tasks at near. So -- my son has to work 10x as hard to read what is in front of him than the normal child. When I told the doc that he is at a 3rd grade reading level she couldn't believe it. Usually children with this do not like to read and fall way behind. I always knew he was smart:) So -- I have to take him in for a series of tests and then start him on visual therapy.

Moving on...

Stopped at the pediatricians' office and got a copy of the letter. It is two pages of what kind of monster my son is. And I mean monster. Two pages of rotten, horrible things that have been taken grossly out of context and not one kind word about the boy. Labels were stuck all over him without actually putting a label on. I'm not exaggerating at all - I showed this to a few people and they couldn't believe it. The doctor said this was the 1st of its kind in his office in over 40 years of practice. My kid's an empath with a heightened sense of awareness. But no one here gets that. So......just to rule out that his brain isn't @ucked up - now he has to go see a neurologist for a consult. If it warrants it - then testing. But I am really going to have to be convinced before any tests are run.

SIGH. Which brings me to...

School. I don't want him to go back there. If that is how they view my boy - the hell with them. I talked to my son about home school. He jumped all over it. In fact - he's been wanting me to do that since Kindergarten. I told him that he wouldn't see his friends at school. He said mom, you're my only friend. That broke my heart. Then he launched in to how the kids make fun of him and call him weird. We all know how cruel children can be -- and my son is ultra sensitive - doesn't help him being a Cancer. So I looked into home schooling and discovered that Ohio has a public school online. It's a virtual public charter school. It costs me nothing - and they send the school books, supplies and a computer if we needed it. Plus he has teachers online and I would be a teacher assistant. This follows the K12 program which is supposed to be top notch.

Last year Tracey did a reading for me which in it said that once Will was in our lives that my son would not be learning in a conventional manner. It doesn't matter where in the world we are located - we just have to log into the computer on a school day before 11:59 pm to complete the assignments. So for traveling - this is great.

But how do I take care of my home, animals, child, myself - everything that is involved there - plus work and home school? I'm going to lose my mind. I'm strong, I can do a lot -- but I'm not sure if this is over the top or not. But what I do know for my son's sake is that I have to try to make it work. My ex about had a cow when I told him about everything including the home school. I'm like - it really doesn't matter what you think because you don't do anything anyways!

Like little league starts on Saturday. My son is sooooooo excited. My ex is supposed to take him. Well, wouldn't you know him and his GF are going away for the weekend. So I'm taking him and the kid is heartbroken -- again.

If there was ever a time for Will to pick up that phone - this would be it. I could really use a pair of shoulders right now. Mine are too heavy and tense to move. Really - really could use that shoulder.

So that's that for now.

On May 11th I'm going to now be in Detroit at the hoedown:) Maria Shaw is having a booth there and several of us readers are showing up to do well -- readings. I wonder if I'll remember to eat between 11 am - 7 pm? LOL. I need to find a place to crash Sat night - any suggestions for a safe and economical place in Detroit?

I have been experimenting the last couple of weeks with vitamins and specifically with calcium. Calcium "600" (from oyster shell; Vit D3 - 600 IU, Calcium - 1200 mg & Sodium - 15 mg) made by Solgar. I have found that if I take the correct dosage (2 pills) right before I go to bed - my dreams are much more lucid AND I remember them better. Much...MUCH better.

Now yesterday (April 17) was Ted's 49th birthday. In 20 years I haven't forgotten his birthday until yesterday. It dawned on me before I went to bed. Luckily for me, I had a chance to make it up in the Dreamscape: Ted and his wife were sitting at a round table with a white table cloth enjoying a birthday dinner. He kept looking at me and vice versa. Finally he came over and introduced himself and asked if we knew one another - I said of course we do. He said how? I told him to think about it for a bit - that door has closed on him and he needs to think about it in order for it to reopen. He went back to his table and talked to his wife - she glared at me (oh please). I could tell he was really thinking about it and it dawned on him -- a "oh shit" moment. I took that moment to go introduce myself to his wife and to assure her that I was no threat to her marriage. I'm not meant for Ted - at least not now.

She bitched about something and was getting really drunk. He told me to wait at my table and he would be back. I assume that he put her in bed at a hotel - because it didn't take long and he was back. He really looked good. His hair was really light - he was tan, the hair came down to his shoulders - almost. He was scruffy and he just looked soooooo good. Anyways - so I told him happy birthday and that I was sorry I forgot. He smiled and said that was alright - he had forgotten everything about me - about us - until now. He wanted me to walk with him...so we go outside.

Walking through what reminded me of a royal garden - he looked at me and asked - who's left? I replied - Bill, we need Bill. He kind of frowns and I say - Ted -- you're the only one he'll take a call from. He nods and goes on with -- tell me more about our soul cluster. So I fill him in on me, him, Bill and Will. He asked where Will was -- I told him that I'm working on it. He smiled and said - lucky bastard. I asked - if you can help out from this side of the dimensions - I'd appreciate it. He said - I'll see what I can do.

The visit was very light hearted and friendly. We talked and we talked about past lives, soul clusters - he and I - he and Bill, me and Will and so forth. Finally I told him that I had to go to the bathroom. He said - you'd better wake up and go then. I said - but I don't want this to end. He said - no worries, we'll do this again and now I won't let anyone make me forget about this. He kissed me on the forehead and said - I love you Allie - now go pee. He chuckled at that last part and I woke up. And sure enough - I had to go - in a hurry too.

He was so tense around his wife - and so much at ease around me. It was sure nice to be with him again. I hope he's right and that we'll have another dream visit soon.

Back to work I go! I hope next week is more of a move forward week - with little stress instead of one with learning experiences! Because of the week I've had -- I am wayyyyy behind in email- just to let you know.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Will, Ted And A Disturbing Dream!

I woke up Thursday morning with the most horrible dream image in my mind -- my first thought was why? I was at my mother's house - but it wasn't my mother's house. It looked like mom's - but she didn't live there. I came out of the front door, and there hanging from a wooden pole was a 4 year old girl. She had a rope around her neck, her hands were groping at the noose. She had shoulder length dark hair and a red velvet dress on that came down to right above her knees. White stocking, no shoes. I'm shocked when I see her, I turn make a move towards her and I hear a gun engage. I turn around and it's my ex father in law (who is deceased) pointing a rifle at my head. He says if I go near her, he'll blow my head off. I push past him and go back inside the house - pass my ex husband and ask him what in the hell is going on? Where's our son? Why did he let that girl get hung? All he said was that she was bad. I grab the largest knife I can find and head back outside. As I approach the father in law, the ex yells that I have a knife, he turns and points that rifle at me again, I brush past him and head outside. I can tell that this girl is still alive - barely and that I have to get her down.

I walk down the driveway and there is my son. I grab him and tell him to walk with me in the road. In this road there are hundreds of people walking in front of this house, with a plain view of the little girl. I told my son that his grandpa has a gun pointed at us and for him to keep moving. Don't look over and don't look back- no matter what. He asked what the girl did wrong? I then had a vision (in the dream) about her grandpa (my father in law) tickling her and her laughing. He makes a move on sexually and she cries. Then he stops and starts to tickle her again. She laughs -- and that is when he puts the noose around her neck. The girl's name is Danielle. I told my son what I saw -- as we approach the end of the property - there is a huge deep ravine there that I have to master to get to the girl. I push my son to go on and no matter what - don't look back.

As I turned to go to the ravine - I woke up. That disturbing dream stayed with me all day. My ex is an idiot , but he wouldn't let someone else harm a child and my ex father in law was a bastard and a half - but no child molester. And I know no Danielle's. So I am baffled by the dream. Her hanging there in the dress just kept haunting my day. I tried to get back to the dream last night, but couldn't.

Will hit me head on yesterday, It started about 11:30 am and lasted until 4:00 pm or so. His energy was very erratic - a lot of pacing and wringing of his hands. I could feel him rubbing the top of his head and having an overwhelming fear of rejection. He was very in my face - extremely clingy and needy. But at the same time would become very distant - then right back again. The sexual tension was off the boards and I'll write about it a bit later in the OBE blog.

But I wrote Tracey to see if Will went to see her again. Here's a copy of her reply and my original email:

Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 4:39:21 PM
Subject: Re: Will


Hi Allie, Good afternoon. I laughed when I signed in to discover that you sent me an email with the subject Will.

I just woke up from a nap with a horrible headache and its all Will's fault. LOL

In the visit - he was pacing a lot - moving back and forth and talking. He was saying that he was feeling a bit worried that he was being too presumptuous that you would be accepting of him and want him in your life. There are feelings of insecurity about the leaps of faith he is taking in his life to prepare for you entering into his life. He is fearing that you will say no, that you will reject him. He really seems to be distraught and questioning himself and what he is doing. He was talking so quickly - and he was not listening - its like I would try to get in a word and he would talk over me. I tried kind of interjecting things when he breathed but I realized that there is a part of him that needed to do this ranting and raving - like he was releasing while he was going on so I stopped trying to battle him. When I started listening rather than trying to help guide him he seemed to slow down more and to come to some positive feelings and thoughts. However, his fear would sort of overshadow those and he would start talking about being rejected again and questioning everything he was doing, the connection and so on. Then he got kind of frustrated and said oh - man - I have to go to work......and that was it - I woke up from my nap with this horrible headache.

I am drinking a venti mocha frap. from Starbucks in hopes it will help the headache and not throw my diabetes into a coma state. lol


In Divine Love and Service,
Tracey


Sent: Thursday, April 10, 2008 2:09:20 PM
Subject: Will


Hey Tracey,

Has Will come to visit you lately? It seems as if today he has broken through someone sort of wall (not sure if it was mine or his) and is very touchy - feely. But I also get that there is a worry of being rejected by me. So I was curious to see if he showed up to you for more advice/talk or if he went elsewhere.

Thanks!
Allie :)

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Now when I emailed her last night to see how she was -- she still had that horrible headache. I emailed her this morning - about 11:30 that Will was back and his energy was about the same - and for her to hold on. I got an automated reply from her email - meaning she took the day off. Her headache must be killing her.

I kept getting a lot of flash vision yesterday and today. Mostly of my son and I in NYC in May. We are in a coffee shop, or maybe a restaurant and I hear my son's name called out -- we turn and it's Will sitting there with a woman. We have some small talk, I introduce myself to the woman. I can tell that they were not having a very good chat before we arrived (it was his recent ex girlfriend) - so I dropped hints about what my son and I would be doing the next day:Central Park zoo. We excused ourselves and sat at our table. I could feel his eyes on us many times. At one point the woman stood up and threw her drink on him - marched out. My son got right up (before I could stop him) and went and got Will and brought him to our table.

I had a vision of us at the zoo. My son had to go to the bathroom and Will took him. I'm out looking at the ostriches when a man approaches me and we strike up a convo. He's handsome and interested. He sees Will and my son approach and he gave me his card and left, Will knew what the guy wanted and that I put his card in my pocket. Later on I make a point of cleaning out my pockets in front of Will, and throwing the card out.

Will reading my son a story.

The two of them playing army with Nerf guns.

And several more fast glimpses.

I can understand Will's freaking out about consciously discovering what has been going on - our connection etc....I did a total freak out when I discovered the connection with Bill and then Ted. I even freaked with Will. There's a lot of internal dialogue going on - am I imagining things? Is this wishful thinking? Does he/she know to? If not, will they? What will they do? Am I crazy? Can he/she hear me like I can her her/him? And the list goes on and on. It took me over a year after discovering Bill to mention it to another person - a whole year. Hopefully it will not take Will quite as long. I don't think it will since me - being the other part of the connection - is very open and accepting of it.

I wonder though if I will have to teach the man how to dial a phone?

Bill and Ted have both been sitting on my energy. They are both very much there without being THERE like Will.

Humm...so many thoughts to ponder!

Time to go pickup my son!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Bill, Ted And Will!

Today's appearance went great on Psychiconair.com! I was on around 9:15 am EST and stayed on until 9:40 am or so. We chatted about astral sex -- had a fun time and I do like discussing things with Maria, Matt and Joe. If you missed my radio appearance, it will be on again this evening from 9:15 pm - 9:40 pm EST.

I've spent most of my day writing - writing - writing the OBE sex book -- and my Ask Allie column. Tonight I hope to get to the next draft of DREAMERS. Every draft gets better than the last. Maybe with this one I'll almost be there...

Bill, Ted and Will have all been hovering close lately. Will closer than the other two. I find it odd. Not sure why I find it odd - but I do. Maybe because I haven't felt all 3 of them this close in a very long time. Not since that day when Bill & Ted said bye - that they were stepping back until Will and I had a chance to meet. Okay - duh moment. Will and I did meet - and these two come back. So now what? Will and I are not together - so why group together now? What's the purpose to close in rank (so to speak)? None of them really say anything or have a whole lot of interaction - they're just there.

I can feel another shift coming - but I have no clue at what it's in. Could be Will - could be my career. I can honestly say I'm in the dark about the "what" - I just know it'll happen. But I want someone to shine a big ole flashlight on the "what". Oh well -- time will tell as usual, won't it?

Will's has been connecting to me telepathically - but they are short connections. Almost as if he is trying to connect during a break and that we are in different time zones. Every time he connects though - he smiles. Which, of course, makes me smile. I love his grin.

Too bad I won't have the chance to do any retreats this year. Remember last year when I mentioned I wanted to do a couple of workshops/retreats of my own (meaning I host it and people show up) - doesn't look like it's going to happen. But then again - it's only April.

Have a good evening!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)

Maria Shaw, Dream Visits And Other Musings!

I think that my son was one of the first to school this morning - lol! He didn't complain that much about going - so I think he was excited to see his friends. I get to have a meeting with his teacher, school counselor and principal tomorrow afternoon. Oh joy. Wish me luck:)

The national radio show I mentioned last week is Psychic On Air: http://www.psychiconair.com a CBS show out of Detroit MI and staring Maria Shaw (3 other psychic/intuitives have their own shows too). Maria's show will go form 9 am - 12 noon Mon - Fri with the official start date tomorrow - April 1st. But today (Monday march 31) she is on from 2 - 6 pm. I will be on with her somewhere between 2 - 4 pm. Not sure the exact time - her producer is simply going to ring me. It'll be great national exposure not only for myself, but for the other readers who do Maria's fairs. I'm not sure how often I'll be on every month with her - maybe a couple to start and see how I do. But no matter how often I'm on - I'm excited to be on the show and grateful she asked me to do so. After the official launch tomorrow - you should be able to listen to the show right from the Psychic On Air web site. In May, the show joins forces with AOL:)

I spent the weekend working on THE BLACK TRIANGLE. It's still not where I want it to be - but it's getting close. I freed up some more time today to work on it. But I too have to really get my butt in gear with the OBE book. I've worked on it a little here and there -- but haven't really buckled down. That too is on my "to-do" list this week.

I was investigating spy wear yesterday -- specifically hidden camera and audio equipment. I want to start busting psychic scam artists and showing their tricks on You Tube. I have absolutely no idea when I can do something like this -- but it's in the Allie "think" tank - as well as putting together a book.

I had yet another dream with Dave Dietry (from high school) over the weekend. We were in a bar (which seems to be the norm with his dream visits) and he was telling me that he noticed me in high school. Me on the other hand is like - right - you were Mr. Football, Baseball and dating the head cheerleader. I must of been in your rear view mirror. He got a kick out of that. But replied - no really, I did notice you. It's a shame we didn't run with the same people. I laughed. Then he asked - did you really have a crush on me in high school? I'm like - yep. Then that was it for the dream.

I moved on to a dream visit with an old high school friend - Shelly. She and I were in a one bedroom apt in NYC and I was commenting how I can't believe that we finally moved here. The front door had three locks: dead bolt to the side, a chain, and a dead bolt that went into the floor. The coat closet was on your left - around the corner and you were in the living room, with the kitchen off that to the left. To the right in the living room was a sliding glass door & balcony. I commented that it is hard to believe that only 10 years ago you could have see the twin towers from here. The opposite side of the living room was the bedroom and next to the bedroom - a bathroom. There was a TV screen by the front door so that we could see who was in the hallway. For some reason I was out in the hall with floor 11 having just a few lights on by the first 4 doors (it was like each apt door had their own porch light - with no porch of course) and the rest was dark. Floor 12 was completely black/dark and there was no way I was going on that floor. In fact, floor 12 really freaked me out -- had that icky feeling about it like death was just beyond the elevator.

I cannot remember any dream visits with Will or with anyone else in the soul cluster over the weekend. It felt like my dream visits were either for visiting forgotten friendships or for helping out strangers. In fact, Will has not been very strong at all over the weekend - and he still isn't. Usually when one of the guys is not very strong on my energy is when I get surprised by something. So we'll see.

Remember when my guides told me to start doing healing for others again? Well now their telling me to hold off on that. Since when can't guides make up their minds? Jezell tells me that there are some things going on behind the scenes that they were not even privy too until now. And no - they're not going to tell me. Iris says it's to not send me into freak out mode. I guess that I can appreciate that. Now all they keep saying to me - in unison - is write, write, write. SIGH. Okay bosses - will do:)

You guys have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

It's been 3 years already since I wrote my 1st blurb in Allie's Two Cents - and boy does time fly. What amazes me the most is all of the changes and growth that has occurred within me and because of it - around me - during this period of time.

In March 2005 I knew very little about me and my soul. I knew about Bill, some about Ted and that I was psychic. That's it. The world that has opened up to me since then has included Will, Matt, Peter, Larry, John, Elliot, Dan, Clive and more. I have met/worked with many of my guides: Robert, Jezell, Hanna, Ethan, Edward and Iris as well as ascended masters: Jesus & Merlin, Archangels Angels: Michael, Haniel, Gabriel, Jeremiel, Goddess: Brigit, Isis, Hathor and an elemental: Galadriel.

I've discovered many past lives: Atlantis, 1920's, Titanic, Joan of Arc, Cleopatra, Wild West, Witch Trials, Medieval England - with much more to follow - I'm sure. I also found my voice and my self confidence -- plus a bunch of new friends:)

Lastly - and equally if not more important - I've grown to a point where I like me and I like my life. I'm not exactly where I'd like to be - yet. But I'm grateful for what I have -- and I like it all.

Thank you all for joining me on this journey. I hope by sharing my experiences that I've been able to help you discover you and grow as a soul.

I look forward to finding out what the next 3 years bring!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Elliot And I'm Baffled!

My son was home from school yesterday with a broken toe. The silly boy karate kicked the couch thinking he had his shoes on. Had he listened to me - his shoes would of been on. But when he did it - myself and his dad didn't think it was broken. It looked hurt - but not broken. My son tends to be dramatic (no comments from the peanut gallery please), so both of us wonderful parents thought he was just playing it up. We rushed him to get his shoes on (this was about 20 min after he hit his toe) as he was going to be late for his Boy Scout meeting where they were going to race Derby Cars (he won 1st place). The next morning it was still killing him so I took him to the doc's and yep -- broken. I felt horrible - so did my ex. We apologized to the kid last night. SIGH...my little voice kept saying "Al, his toe is broken - listen to me" and well.....

Lesson learned. And the kid hobbled to school this morning.

Today has been difficult in regards to Will. I have no idea why it is so upsetting to be apart from him today. But waves of sadness hit me out of left field - hang around for 15 min or so -- then it's gone. I'm clueless on why today is deemed important. Could it be that he had a breakthrough? Maybe a puzzle piece fell into place and that "ah-ha" moment arrived? No clue. What I do know though is that my emotions are on my sleeve and my neck is ultra sensitive. When I get hit my visions - or when my third eye is all the way open, my neck is very sensitive and I have a habit of rubbing my neck when that happens.

This morning during shower time my neck was just driving me crazy -- then a vision hit me of getting a phone call out of the blue. It was from a man named David who called to tell me that Will had collapsed and was in a coma. Before he went under, he kept calling for me - he's woken up briefly twice and both times saying the same thing. I asked David if he was sure it was me Will was referring to -- and he was positive. But I had to hurry. So the next thing I see if me getting out of a cab and running into a hospital.

I'm at Will's room and there are a few people there - one of them is David. He has Will's family allow me in -- I grab Will's hand and beg him to come back. That after having a break through - knowing who I am, remembering our past loves he can't leave now. I need you, I love you - I kept telling him and I was crying. I laid my had on his side and I felt his hand touch my hair. Those big blue eyes were smiling at me. Doctor's came rushing in - I promised him that I would be right outside. I head the doctor's mention something about cancer -- then they whisked him away for some tests.

I'm sitting next to Will on his bed, just enjoying being there - when a doctor comes in -- seems Will's cancer is no where to be found - no where. He's baffled - Will's shocked - and since I had no clue about what was going on - I was taken a back as well. And that's when the vision ended.

SIGH.

Now last night during dream time ---- I was in the midst of a dream visit with Will when my cats fought and yanked me right out of it. I was ticked. Will and I were under a Willow tree, having a picnic and laughing over a book he was reading out loud.

The other dream visit I remember was with Elliot. Remember him from last week? I had thought that he was just the messenger for getting Dan and I together. But I think that I was wrong. Last night he just showed up for a dream visit and it was all about sex. I was shocked to see him - he wasn't so shocked to see me. Now today he is around - his energy is strong - but I don't think it's a conscious effort on his part to be here this strong. What I can't figure out is the why. Every time I push his energy away - it drives back to me stronger than when I pushed it. Very odd. And I'm baffled. When he's "here" I keep hearing him say - don't I know you? Why do I know you? And I don't have any answers for him. I've meditated, did the tarot - runes and nothing is coming back that is clear. It's a bunch of mixed messages and I find when that happens I'm not supposed to know something yet. He found me like Will did -- but Will I guess was a different find. I don't know how to explain it. I'm curious to see where this connection with Elliot will end up - if anywhere. We'll see if he shows up tonight.

Can you believe I've never heard from "America's Psychic Challenge"? What -- I'm not psychic enough for ya? Sheesh.

My guides want me to offer energy healing again to people. They keep telling me it is the next gift that I have to keep utilizing and refining. I'm not sure when I'll add that back into the web site - but since they won't stop bothering me about it, it'll probably be soon. I've also decided that I'm going to incorporate my investigation service (Cheat Peeps) into the site. Having too many separate things is draining on my energy and that's the last thing I need. So I'll be adding that in there soon --as well as a store. So many things - so little time...

But my 1st priory is to finish up with the BLACK TRIANGLE:) Which - I'm going to go work on now...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Dreams And A Painful Past Life Memory!

Writer's block taken care of. It shook loose on Sat night and was gone on Sunday. I didn't get as far as I would of liked with the BLACK TRIANGLE - but getting anywhere was better than nowhere:) Progress - that's the theme of my week:)

My dreams this weekend were al over the board. Man - they were busy. Each morning I woke up more tired than when I went to bed -- and this morning -- hell, I have no idea what the purpose was for me to even go to bed. There was so much action that it was hard to grasp all of it. Saturday night, as I was going to bed - I heard Iris tell me that I needed to go to Will. That whatever would happen in this dream visit would shift his awareness another notch and get him one step closer to the "ah-ha" moment. So that's what I did -- as I fell asleep I felt myself walk down my path to my Dream Gate - thinking about Will as I walked. Next to me was Jezell - we chatted about the next step with Will and I. The next thing I know is I'm going through the Dream Gate and into a courtyard -- reminded me of a Southern Plantation courtyard. Will looked up at me and smiled. From that moment on everything moved in super speed - flashes of light, flying -- with he and I having sex in the air. After sex, I felt myself falling and I woke up with a start - stil in the midst of finshing sex. You know - the kind of start where you sit up in bed and gasp. I laid there for awhile. Jezell told me to go back to sleep and find Will again - things weren't complete yet. I can barely remember this visit with a beach and drinks inside coconut shells. Will was gone and I rounded the corner and Bill was there. But he didn't speak - just passed one another and did that "hello" nod.

Yesterday I could tell there was a shift in Will's awareness - but there's still room for more.

Then last night the dreams were again very busy. Will and I were on a train, in a plane - driving along a countryside. I have no idea where we were - but we come up on this mountain range and I tell him that I want to build there. Were at the foot of a mountain and we find land we want. The next thing I know our house is built and it is Will, myself, my son and a daughter dogs, cats, horses. But our house and the stable is built into the side of the mountain. It's really quite cool (look and feel wise) and goes very far back into the mountain with an indoor pool & spa. Back behind the home (the home has a back door inside of the cave) you can walk a about 1/4 mile and come across an indoor lake. The home is self-contained - we are off all grids.

He and I were next in rehearsals for our play. I'm petrified, he's as cool as a cucumber:) He's giving me tips on how not to die of stage fright - lol. We're also discussing that kids could be in the audience so some of the sex that is in this play will be alluded to. This play is ad lib -- although we have an outline to follow. It's just he and I with minimal props.

Cut to opening night - once I'm on stage it was if I was always there. Right before we went on I looked over at him and thought to myself - how can I be scared of anything as long as he's at my side? He'll never let me fall.

As I'm sitting here - it just felt like I stepped on something with my right foot - ouch!! I have shoes on and didn't step on a thing.

At the end of my dreams, I was at a restaurant (by myself) as I was going up to get seated - I saw Bill. He was there, behind me reading a newspaper. I made sure I said loud enough that it was just one for dinner:) The lady took me to a table that had people in it already. I'm like - I can't sit here. So I went over to the bar. This extremely good looking man shows up and sits next to me. I ordered a Guinness and I think he got a whiskey. I have no idea what we talked about - but we were both very flirty. I remember telling him that it felt good to flirt - and that I'm happy I remembered how. He told me anytime - just give him a call. The only problem is I have no idea what his name is. Ahh - still no name, but he's a baseball player. Dave Dietry -- it just came to me. It was my old classmate Dave from high school - the one I wrote about sometime ago about having a crush on him back then -- yadda, yadda. Ha! After all these years, I wonder why he is showing up now? It's not like he really knew I even existed back in school (he star athlete dating the head cheerleader - me -- in band). So I am really clueless here.

I have noticed that in March Bill shows up every night in my dreams. He just pops up - sometimes we speak, most times we don't. Could be because he's about 1 1/2 hours away from me. And no -- I'm going to drive out to see him. Wouldn't change a thing.

Now the reason I'm writing all of this before I go swimming this morning or before I even do the podcast is for this next little bit that Iris told me HAD TO be written down this morning and posted for Will to see. So here we go....

In the shower this morning I was mulling over the BLACK TRIANGLE. This shifted to Will and his upcoming breakthrough and how I felt when I had my breakthroughs -- especially with Bill, Ted and Will. Nothing took me for a loop as much as Bill as he was the 1st breakthrough -- but each one took some time to get adjusted to and actually believe that I wasn't crazy. Which got me back to Will and how was he going to feel when he finally had that breakthrough? Will he freak, will he be accepting, will he be curious to find out more?? As I pondered these points I was then shifted to thinking - what will be the catalyst for him? He should get a past life regression! That shifted me to the last PLR I had last Oct. The first image that popped into my head was he and I in jail cells - he getting tortured and me having to listen to it. I heard Iris tell me to go to the next one.

So what flashed was the last life Will and I were together - when he was getting burned at the stake. Iris goes -- push backwards. Jezell grabs me by my shoulder and yanks me backwards in time a few days. Will's agitated -- really mean and off sorts. I can tell by watching me that this was not the norm. He wouldn't talk to me - kept being so mean. I come in from gathering fruit it looked like when he flies off the handle at me., He's screaming that it's over that he hates me and that I have to go - NOW. He was very matter of fact - get out, get out, get out. He had a bunch of my stuff bundled up. We had always had an agreement that if one of us was done with the relationship - that we would honor that choice and leave. So completely broken hearted - and I mean completely - I left and went to a neighboring town.

I'm just sitting at this stone slab for a table when a woman comes in and asks if I had heard about Jeremy (this was Will's name in this life) and I said no. He's in the town and they are going to burn him at the stake for witchcraft. It hit me why he wanted me gone - I grab a cloak and run as if my life depended on it. As I just finished that part - I burst out in tears (here and now) I can't stop the tears.

I see myself running and crying and running - not stopping for anything until I get to a stream - I'm thirsty. I bend down to drink and I have a vision of what happened after I left. They came to get him, and on the floor was a woman dressed to be me, but with her face gone. He said that he killed me in a violent rage. An enormous amount of pain went through me and I ran and ran.

I'm in the center of town - it's night and he's in the middle of the pile of wood - tied to a pole. I ease my way through the crowd - hood up, eyes down so that no one will notice me. I stand in front - he knows I'm there and he finds me. Telepathically he's telling me over and over again that he's sorry -- and that he loves me. Over and over he says it -- don't you ever forget - ever how much I love you. I will find you again - I promise. I too echo his love and keep telling him how much I love him and that no matter when it is that we find one another - I will do whatever it takes.

He screaming - the fire is consuming him and I know not to cry because they will find out about me and all this will before nothing. Our eyes stay on one another until there is no more life in his eyes. I can see a white light float from his body and go up to the sky. His eyes -- I never forgot the eyes. Nor did he ever forget mine -- I just know it.

As I was going through this in the shower - I couldn't stop crying -- as I'm writing this - I can't stop crying.

On a separate note - I just got an email that Sylvia Browne is retiring from the lecture circuit. I was right. Thank's T for the email.

Now I have to go swimming or I'll never get there...

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Will, Iris And Today's Plans!

Today has not been going as planned - not at all. I had the day all scheduled - swimming in the morning, a few errands afterwards, work from early afternoon to around one and then the BLACK TRIANGLE for the rest of the day. So -- last weekend my washer finally blew up with no amount of band-aids being able to fix it. I ordered a new washer (grateful for the room on my cc). It arrived today (yay), they brought it over to be installed today (yay) -- but they can't seem to get it hooked up without leaking (boo). The 1st two guys came and left 3x trying to find a solution. Now team 2 is here trying to figure out what to do. Of course with all the comings and goings - Allie can't go swim, or do her errands and everytime I start on something - I get pulled away. Not really bitching - per say - for I'm thankful that Lowes is trying to figure out what to do and they haven't left me high and dry. Just frustrated.

But I do get to go to a murder mystery party tomorrow night:) That'll be fun for my son and I! But I found out that right after I got a call from my dad saying that I have to cancel my trip to see him (due to his new boss not letting him the time off - when you're 64, the last thing you want to do is to piss off your new boss and get fired) so that was a bummer.

I have smooth legs and nothing to do with them - ha ha! I'll try again on Monday to swim:) I decided yesterday to incorporate that into my weekly schedule. Tues & Thurs I have karate - so I figure Mon-Wed-Fri swim would do me good. I used to love to swim and did it alllllll the time until I met my ex. Then it just stopped. And the weight came on. Now I want my outside to feel as good as my inside does. It won't be as easy to lose weight swimming as it did 20 years ago - but the water always makes me feel at home. I take comfort in that.

Okay - time out while the Lowes men finish up. Have to run to the store and do some more readings.....

Did the errands and what day wouldn't be complete without a call from the school. SIGH.

Trying to work on the BLACK TRIANGLE but having a serious case of writer's block. I can normally push through it and I'm trying. Of course if I got laid I think the block would be gone - lol. But since getting laid would actually involve me meeting someone - I can't see that happening in the foreseeable future. But since I really DO like my life - I'm sure sex will come when it's supposed to. I just wish I could fast forward it a bit.....

I had an interesting meeting with Jezell, Brigit and Isis today. They were all going on how important it is for me to finish BT (yeah, duh -- how about some unblocking help) for the next step to move forward. Right as they were yammering about that, a bright light appeared. I stared at it and this very robust woman stepped form it. My initial reaction was no fucking way. The woman smiled at me. I'm like again -- get out of town -- you cannot be Iris. She smiled -- so you've heard of me.

For Christ's sake -- of COURSE I heard about you -- I put you in DREAMERS as a GUIDE! She laughs again -- she knows dang well I know who she is. Iris then tells me to get used to it because it is her and I for the long haul - long after everyone else has moved back. I thought to myself - just frickin great - she's a no nonsense smart ass. Just what I need - a female Ethan. She said - I heard that -- and he's a male Iris. Get it right honey.

Now - Iris tells me - it's time to whip your heine into shape and get a move on with that script. You're wasted time. Well Iris, if you could do something to help out with this writer's block, it would be great. Isis steps forward (I forgot she was there) - consider it done. Pay attention to your dreams. And she shimmered from sight.

Jezell grabs my hand and takes me through a wall. We're by a river. The river is wide and there are plenty of boats going down her. Against a willow tree sits Will. Jezell tells me to go. I hurry over to Will and stare down at him. He looks up at me, smiles and says - hey beautiful. He opens up his arms and I snuggle right in. Neither of us says a word - we don't have to. Then before I'm ready for it to end, he fades from my sight and I'm back in my office. Damn it , damn it, damn it.

All day I could feel his energy around me. I'm always amazed, yet not surprised, how comforting his energy is to me.

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie :)

Dreams, Runes And The Stone Pendant!

Where do I begin? I seem to have a lot to tell and I hope I remember everything there is:)

Saturday night I had a dream visit with Bill. He and I were back in that library. I wanted him to sign a couple more of his books that I owned as I wanted to sell all of them on eBay and give the money to a children's charity. I felt sad at the prospect of putting his work on eBay to sell -- but I knew that it was something that I had to do. He was okay with it all. Then he said - someday you'll be living with it all anyways. I woke up. Probably some day I will be living with it all in the same house - but it's not for several decades to come. So I wonder why I had this dream visit now? Maybe this was his way of telling me it's okay. I don't know .

My guides wanted me to change my 3 stone pendant. Ethan kept nit picking until I finally agreed. I had no idea what stones they wanted me to put in there -- so I went around my office and picked up the stones that called to me. There was about 9 in all. When I have several stones - I have to mix and match until the combo goes into the pendant effortlessly and stays put. The combo that was required was: aventurine, amethyst, Herkimer diamond. This combo is to help heal and open my heart chakra, heighten my psychic abilities, and have a stronger telepathic connection. And yes - I do think that this has to do with Will. Not only because of type of stones - but each stone vibrates to a certain number. All 3 of these stones vibrate to a 3. My Life Path via Numerology = 3, & Will's - a 3. So there you have it.

Speaking of Will (and since when lately aren't I?) -- I had a hell of a time sleeping last night. It could of been my back because of the @hit load of snow I shoveled (with my neighbors help -- very thankful I am) or my constant worry that Darin was going to blind side Raisin again. But I spent more time awake than asleep. And I couldn't remember any dream visits with Will all weekend -- until 6:00 am this morning. And it wasn't Will -- but about Will and me. Let me explain.

My son was taking a bath. We were in some sort of communal house -- it was rather dark inside. My ex came in and was looking really lost. I told him Hi - how are you? And he still looked lost - like he had no clue who I was or our son. He disappeared and here comes Will's on again, off again girlfriend (in real life). I was shocked to see her. Her hair was done 1940's style - she had really red lipstick on and a flowered dress. She looked at me and says -- looks like we're in love with the same person. Then she leaned in and tried to kiss me. I leaned backwards and looked at her like - girl -- are you crazy? Then I said - maybe we do. She gave me a really odd look and walked away. Then this other woman shows up (no idea who she is) as my son and I are walking out the door into the blinding sunshine and she says to me -- he told me he loved you. I look at her and I say who - Will? And she says yes. I ask - how can that be if we only met once? She says - it took only one look - one look and he knew in his heart that you were the one. So be patient with him - he'll come around. She turned around without another word and walked away. My son and I walked out into the light -- and I woke up. I laid there for a bit going over and over that scene. I still get goose bumps when I think about it.

Snow. We had so much dang snow here that I'm sick of looking at the stuff. The refused to call it a blizzard (even though most of Ohio was shut down) because the winds didn't meet 35 mph. I am very thankful that my neighbors helped me shovel the heavy snow from my driveway. Then the washer blew up for its final time. Very grateful that I had enough room left on a credit card to buy a new one. Should be here by week's end - since it was a special order. I've noticed that Wooster doesn't carry a lot of energy star appliances.

I did a Rune cast for myself to find out what inner cycle I am currently experiencing. This is what I drew:

Laguz (flow) - Present
Sowelu (wholeness) - Attitude to take to make it through cycle
Uruz (strength) - Consequences derived from the attitude


Presently there are unseen forces at work. I am in the flow of my intuitive nature and am cleaning out areas of my life that are no longer needed. I am attuning to my own rhythms and bringing to me people, places and situations that are part of my self-transformation. The door to the past is shut completely and life is taking on a whole new dimension. I have to follow the path that my soul calls me to -- my reason to be here. I have to go with the flow and remember that what I am striving to become, I already am - I just need to realize it. I have to bring forth my essence and shape it creatively as the life force of the universe is here and available for my use. The result of this attitude will be a new beginning - a fresh start as my old life has outgrown its usefulness. There is positive growth and change - although since I have let go of people, places and situations - there will be lose. I will have a new perspective and new strength that will allow me to adapt to the demands of a very creative time. My soul and the universe supports my new growth.

Well I'll be dammed -- it's about time. If you look back on my blog entries - you're going to see that I have been letting go of many things in my life -- and I have been shifting things to embrace this creative time. Yay! I so deserve it:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie ;)